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I've just been out here blocking proshippers like swatting flies in the summer heat...
#I dont actually swat at flies... I swat mosquitoes though...#I just came across an egregious proship post just now and needed to vent a bit...#Process what I saw you know...#rick and morty#proshipper account be gone!!#POOF!!
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if you're trans, you have to live.
if you accomplish something else, then good.
if you accomplish nothing else, then good.
but you have to live.
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#the election has me riddled with emotion#this was a way of coping i guess#or processing#i dont know what im going to do#but what ever it is i will be okay#you will be too. you just have to live to see it.#your future self is already so proud of you#okay now tags..#transgender#trans#pride#lgbtq#lgbtqia#trans joy#trans anger#transgender pride#trans pride#trans artwork#trans artist#queer#queer artist#art therapy#i saw the tv glow#isttvg#there is still time#self portrait#self portrature#painting#digital art#digital painting
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Not Quite his Twin
Danny Fenton is not Danyal al Ghul. Theyâd wanted him to be, but he wasnât.
He still remembers when he first woke up, his whole body feeling raw and ill-fitted. Even his mind felt wrong, his memories not quite his own.
Which, he supposes, they werenât.
Because Danyal is still dead. Executed on the orders of the Demonâs Head for failing to live up to his twin.
But the spurned heir would make a perfect figurehead to build legitimacy for a coup, so a splinter sect of the League stole away some of his remains before they could be disposed of. They may not have had permission to access the Lazarus Pits, but they could still turn to some more unorthodox methods of attempting resurrection. A combination of cloning, a few stolen and processed samples of Lazarus Water, and pieces of necromantic rituals.
And it almost worked.
Almost.
The body they constructed did indeed come to life, and clearly possessed at least some of Danyalâs memories, but it wasnât him. The memories were locked behind a barrier, present in abstract but not felt. This thing they created could never pass for the deceased heir, and thus could never be the figurehead they wanted. So they decided to dispose of him.
But the cloneâs memories had shown him this sort of betrayal before, and he did still have some of the originalâs skills. He struck first, killing several of their agents and managing to escape the lab.
He had no idea what to do next, but at least he was free. Free to form his own life, to become someone unique rather than just not-quite-Danyal.
#also a few more ideas/notes:#1. i was originally planning on having Maddie be one of the League scientists whoâd start to care for him and then help him escape#(in factďź the âprocessed lazarus waterâ thing is actually a leftover from that)#and though i ultimately didnât explicitly include her in the post itselfďź it very much could still be a thing!#or maybe she was an outsider whom the group nevertheless worked withďź which somehow leads to danny tracking her down (and getting adopted)#2. it could be interesting to have Danny meet the ghost of the original Danyal#it might be vindicating for Dannyâs self identityďź but it might also be really uncomfortable because itâs seeing what he was âmeantâ to be#(or like that âwhat if you were the evil clone and saw another version of yourself that was so much brighter?â post)#3. obviously the implication is that Damian would eventually find Danny somehow and assume that heâs Danyal and that he surivived somehow#not quite sure how the resulting conversation would go but itâd definitely be awkward/uncomfortable#(Damian wanting desperately for Danny to be Danyal and thus making him really uncomfortable)#(and if Danny does convince himďź Damian might become subconsciously resentful of him for being alive âinstead ofâ Danyal)#dp x dc#dpxdc#dc x dp#dcxdp#danny phantom x dc#danny phantom x dc crossover#dp x dc prompt#dpxdc prompt#dc x dp prompt#dcxdp prompt#demon twins au#but Danyal al Ghul is genuinely dead#danny is a clone of danyal al ghul#clone danny fenton#and like specifically *not* a perfect clone. he has the memories but theyâre noticeably distinct. he knows he isnât the original.#e.g. he knows damian is his brother and knows how danyal felt about him but Danny himself doesnât *feel* those emotions
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it's fascinating to me that every member of the party pre- and during loops treats siffrin with some flavour of alienation. like, bear with me. this post is going to sound like im here to give a hot take that the party are Bad Friends, Actually, but i promise you that's not what i mean. you're with me? okay. let's go.
isa idolises him (in the having a crush on someone type of way).
mira views them almost as a book character (the whole "the aura! the mystique!" conversation).
odile calls them a child to their face multiple times.
bonnie is... well, bonnie. kid is coping how they manage.
in the very beginning of the journey we have isa and mira, who, out of all five, are the most familiar to eachother. they're from the same country, they both actively follow the change religion, they both occupy (or occupied, in isa's case) well-respected positions in society, they're very close in age and i would assume socioeconomic statuses. they share a lot personality wise, too. they're both anxious about not being enough, about not changing enough, they're both open and emotional and affectionate, they even both like romance novels! they are very in eachother's comfort zones. they are very understandable to eachother.
then there's odile. she is as different as it gets â she's ka buan (and well half vaugardian but nobody knows that), she's old, she has different religios beliefs and different history with body craft, she's confident, self-secure, reserved, sarcastic and at times cold and makes it very apparent that she's not into openly displayed affection. but also, she is actively choosing to be seen this way. she is comfortable with being perceived like this.
and then, there's siffrin. a mysterious traveler with mysterious past that doesn't like to be touched and never talks about his feelings. where are they from? what he believes? what did he do prior? why did they join them? noone knows. situation kinda similar to odile's, but kicker is, we know siffrin does not want to be seen this way.
mira, being a somewhat sheltered not very experienced young adult (she's from dormont with population less than a regular highschool class, and has been living in the house for some past years) with more familiarity with books than with real world obviously views them more as a cool character than a person. and i can't blame her! siffrin doesn't help her view them any differently either.
isa i assume catches feeling almost immideately (the whole journey takes less than a year, sif is second to last to join and we know that isa's crush has been going for months) and it's universally hard to not idolise and idealise the person you're having a crush on, so even tho isa is more experienced than mira, i imagine he fails to see siffrin as a whole person too.
odile out of all of them grinds my own personal gears the most. i love you, old wise lady, but oh god. the amount of times she refers to the party and in particular siffrin as kids or children is sure something. and the thing with kids is that you generally don't view them as equals, so, no "seeing siffrin as a person that he is" there either.
that's general dynamics. now to what interactions we actually see in game:
odile mocks siffrin for being forgetful. every time siffrin forgets a word, everyone reacts as if they don't remember that vaugardian isn't siffrin's native language. both isa and mira behave patronisingly towards them (jokingly, but still). the whole party spends some time comparing siffrin to a wild animal in the dictionary conversation, mira saying "what a perfect analogy" with stars in her eyes. one time siffrin desides to open up and tell them about stars, they mock him. when he kills that sadness more violently than usual, they all look at him as if he murdered a baby (i still don't really get why btw. they've been fighting side to side for months). the whole ghost event. ohhh ghost event my beloved.
all of these, for me, point to a very deep yet unacknowledged disconnect between siffrin and the rest of the party. the not-understanding. the unfamiliarity. the alienation. siffrin is other even in their own little ragtag bunch of misfits.
now AM I SAYING that means that the party is bad actually?? no!!! for every interaction i named there's multiple others with them being supportive and warm to sif. also, siffrin, famously, is very bad at telling when something bothers them, so noone whould even know if they were doing anything that upset him. and, on top of everything else, i think it's very natural for a party of very different people traveling in a lot of hurry and discomfort and plain mortal danger for months to develop a bond where "i would die for you, my siblings in arms, but i also will poke fun at your religion when it starts to sound too impossible for my worldview. what do you mean stars are there in the daytime too? don't be silly". i actually really appreciate their friendships being imperfect, because it's so much more interesting and thought provoking this way. like, I've been thinking about this for weeks.
and also, this specific type of imperfection plays into the core themes of siffrin's character. to be welcomed, adored, loved, even, but not understood. not recognised. not known. and to not even try to explain untill the world is literally ending.
#why am i not talking about bonnie?#because bonnie's an actual child#they can't and shouldn't fulfill this need for peer to peer recognition you feel me? does it make sense?#but also yeah they do play a role in the whole alienating siffrin bit post eye accident#because it's hard to process something like this and bonnie's little so they push sif away#i think before sif lost his eye bonnie probably was the only party member who saw him for who he was or closest to it#which is it's own layer of sad#also i think it's obviously going to change posg loops now that everyone unlocked the option of talking about feelings#and they have time and safety to know eachother on a more personal level not just mundane domestic one#by mundane domestic i mean like i know how my roommate likes her sandwiches and what's her nighttime routine is#but i don't know much about her deep worried wants and dreams and such#main point is this is not a perfect friendgroup and IT'S GOOD because no friendgroup is. it's more interesting this way too. it's fun!#in stars and time#in stars and time spoilers#isat#isat spoilers
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so i've been watching old dnp content tonight and in phil's my american accent video i realized dan says "i think the most impressive accent so far has been my english narrator voice. hire me, i'd be really good đĽş" and it just HIT ME.
dan always wanted to be an actor, more than anything. but he forced himself to squash that dream when it was time to apply for uni, and he tried to do something practical instead. of course, he found out that law really really wasn't for him. so he dropped out. but maybe at some point when he realized he couldn't do law, it hit him that this youtube thing could be his second chance with acting. or phil helped him realize that. and he actually did it.
he's just returned home from his third world tour with his soulmate, who maybe didn't have the same acting dreams as dan but who has absolutely adored watching him shine anyway. dan belongs on the stage just as much as he belongs with phil. and i am so glad he's found his home.
#phan#dan and phil#daniel howell#dan howell#dan#theatre kid dan#phan thoughts#claire's commentary#i know this kind of falls apart when you realize this video was filmed while dan was still in uni#but as someone who also dropped out (and eventually went back but that's beside the point) - it's really not a sudden thing#it's like a divorce - you don't lose the feelings for that career path overnight#it's a long and painful process#i bet you anything dan was getting glimmers of hope that the acting thing could work out the whole time#he saw it happen (a bit) with phil because of youtube so maybe he could make it work in his favor too#and. he. did.#it's genuinely so inspiring#makes me really think about what i'm meant to be doing and who i'm meant to be with in life#and what i feel the most pulled to#you know?#loooots of thinky thoughts tonight
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CRAB IS YOUR MOON OKAY WITH HUGS?
PLEASE THIS GUYS NEED SOME AFFECTION
LET ME JUST-
GHHHHHH-/pos

#fnaf moon#Moon New Do Same You AU#fnaf dca#dca fandom#mutual shenanigans#other people's art#crab art#traditional art#Moon likes hugs#but he's very particular about them#he prefers hugs around his shoulders or his waist#he does not like being hugged from behind#he does not like being hugged by surprise#he's a bit skittish#like a cat#you have to learn his habits#and sometimes just wait for him to come to you#you know i am up to No GoodTM when i draw extreme close ups of Moon and his back#i also don't know what possessed me to do this in watercolours#but... i'm okay with the final look#i'm just very rusty#and i remembered why the last time i painted in watercolour i went into an artblock#it really do be a âtrust the processâ kinda deal#also for people who saw the wip#haHA you thought this was about moon ass but it was actually MOON ANGST#MOON ANGST FRIDAY#i always post my moon angst on friday it seems
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*Lando is pushed off track* + WHO TF DID THAT TO MY DRIVER ISTG I WILL KI- *sees it was Max* + oh lol marital spat nvm
#one thing to keep in mind is that i'm a max verstappen apologist first human second#my man shoved a 12 year old in the bushes to win a track race y'all can't comprehend the shit he's on#go maxie you're doing amazing sweetie#do i wish he would stop fucking up lando's race? yes#would i have him any other way? fuck no#and neither would lando ngl#man nigh on idolizes him#you think that happened with max being polite and letting people pass him even if it's the âsmartâ thing to do?#no#he saw that crackhead dutchman literally end up on top of another man cuz of his crash or pass policy and was like yup#this one#bro got RETIRED by max in Austria and HE reached out first thing next day to smooth things over#âIt's clear how he races. It's tough. it's on the limit. It's what we love. it's what I love.â PLEASE PEOPLE#i'm afraid y'all haven't fully processed how down cataclysmic lando is#âoh but he blamed max on national tv againâ DO Y'ALL KNOW WHAT BEING A BRAT IS???#CRASHING INTO EACHOTHER AND MAKING IT EVERYBODY ELSES PROBLEM IS NORSTAPPEN FOREPLAY ATP#they will be FINE#messy hoes together BECAUSE they messy not in spite of#ln4#mv1#formula 1#f1#norstappen#lando norris#max verstappen
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HONEY. YOU GOT A BIG STORM COMINâ. đşđ˝
#Nevermore#Nevermore Webtoon#Webtoon#Still like. Processing all of this#HEâS ALL ALONE IN THE GIANT STORM SOMEONE HELP HIM#GEEZ I DIDNâT KNOW DUST STORMS COULD LOOK THAT AWFUL#Kansas boiiii#WILL I DONâT THINK BEING CLOSED IS THE DEFENSE YOU WANT IT TO BE#He a littol guy omggggg#Johnny and Sallieâs eyes remind me of the Deansâ old designs#Oh no wonder no one saw him for who he was he had like 13 siblings#W-what do you need that truck for lady it seems sus#Why you gettinâ so physical with this guy over cola Sallie#WHATâRE YâALL WHISPERINâ ABOUT??? STEALINâ A TRUCK??#Welp Will you miiight be making a mistake there#WILL IMITATING MONTY HHHMMM idk if I like that#Monty you getting a kick out of this aintcha#GOD THE TENSION OF THE RING PANEL SO WELL DONE#I KNEWWWWW THE STAG WAS GONNA FALL ON THEM I JUST KNEW IT#AND AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#NOT HIIIIMMMMMM#God like now yâall know how I felt when Shiloh 83 came out just the pure brain scrambling of watching blorbo be stabbed#Although Shaneâs definitely had a lot more buildup and I was still surprised but uhhh yeah this is definitely scarrrrring me#Stag please leave the premises#Ok byyyeeeee
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Bunny has lived for a long, long time on earth. Do you wonder, how many children lit up at the sight of him and call after his name, alight in joy and wonder, in same way Sophie does?
Do you think he thinks about them? That every time Sophie greets him, he hears millions of children at the same time, in the same breath, in the same chime as she speaks?
Do you think about how he'd feel? Do you think about how much affection he harbors for these children he knows so little about yet loves so much?
Does it ever struck you how much Easter means to him, knowing all of these now?
#You honest to god do not want to know how my thought process went went I wrote this its kind of insane#But Im gonna tell you anyways because I am. Infact. Insane.#So it all started when I was thinking that Bunnymund could easily pass off as a hindu god or a bodhisattva (what with his six arm gimmick)#And then it went. Huh has bunnymund ever met any gods throughout his lifetime? Has he met hindu gods actually?#And then I went and look up the cultural significance of a rabbit in Hinduism and saw that Lord Krishna was apparently fond of rabbits#And then I went crazy trying to find an actual source for it and gave up and decided that yeah bunny might have met lord krishna as a kid-#Once when he was visiting India. And then I went what if he told Tooth about this and I think she'd be baffled abt it#âWhat the fuck do you mean you've met the god Krishna? THE Krishna?The 8th avatar of Vishnu Krishna?â#âYeah. Odd little anklebiter he is. Had a whole thing with butter and all. It's a bit cuteâ#And then I went. Man Krishna would probably utter Bunny's name in the same reverence as Sophie does and then boom this happened.#So anyways.#rotg#Whimzy's rotg musings
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I discovered these paintings by James McNeill Whistler recently, Nocturne in Black and Gold: Falling Rocket (top) and Nocturne in Black and Gold: The Firewheel (bottom). Iâm sharing them because they make me think of Nevermoor, as so many things do.
With paintings, a nocturne refers to the depiction of night. This is derived from the musical term, where a nocturne refers to a musical piece that is âinspired by, or evocative of, the night.â These both just come from the fact that ânocturneâ essentially means âof the nightâ.
On a basic level, this just reminds me of Nevermoor by the aesthetics. The dreamy nighttime setting strikes me the most, but also the sparks of yellow fire that make me think of Wunder. Think of how many important scenes happen at night- Morrigan on Eventide, the Museum of Stolen Moments, and the Hollowpox in Courage Square. But the concept has me thinking, obviously, about the Wundrous Art of Nocturne. The only songs we know are Morrigan and Squallâs, who both chose nursery rhymes as their Nocture. Their choices make me think of lullabies, sung at night⌠and thereâs lots to think about with that.
#does anyone else see or understand my visionâŚ..#nevermoor#nevermoor in the wild#another post from my drafts cuz I feel bad I have no art to share#only art history classes I actually took was animation history and then ancient and medieval so most of my info or knowledge from#anything later relies on me looking it up and seeing what research and info is online and etc etc etc#anyways. love whenever magic (of the wundrous arts variety) in nevermoor is compared to art or the process of making art. <333#I need to make a Pinterest / some other sort of site where I can share everything visually that reminds me of nevermoor. but also filterabl#and also where I can add notes for why different stuff makes me think of nevermoor or what I associate it withâŚ..#bc Iâm often sharing architecture in the discord but I also am always bookmarking clothes and stuff that I donât share lol#I saw two clocks the other day at a history museum and also an alway thinking abt the Prague astronomical clock so my brain is always like:#âwow just like the skyfaced clock :) nevermoor :)#circling back if anyone knows some sort of site like Pinterest where you can have bunch of images with notes and also filter between#different attributes pls lmk. Iâm not a coder so I canât think how to make smthn like that myself lol#I started this post like a month ago thatâs why I donât have anything better to say besides ending with âmuch to think aboutâ lol
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oh okay
#xdinary heroes#xdinarynet#jooyeon#gaon#jungsu#i know i saw a lot from this concert on twitter but don't remember any of this#i have a traumatic history with freakin bad (long story) but i actually really like how they performed it for laf#not JUST because of this#HOWEVER#WHAT THE FUCK JOOYEON#i LOVE when it's a straight up âfuck youâ#doesn't quite hit like man in the box but i don't think anything ever will. i have always adored her#they got away with a lot in deadlock huh#anyway. i don't even know if i've processed jungsu's solo fully. wow#and junhan singing#unclear if this is what will turn me around from being a freakin bad hater#might need to watch a few more times for. research purposes#chewyvids
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open ai made a little post about how they chose their chatbot voices and two things stood out to me:
a) I am genuinely pleased and surprised that the voices come from specific real people that they hired and paid, rather than being built off of all of the data open ai has scraped. the voice for siri did one job for one company 20 years ago and now she is literally everywhere without ever being compensated by apple or even acknowledged as the voice. there's simply no way she was paid enough in that original job. whereas, open ai says "each actor receives compensation above top-of-market rates, and this will continue for as long as their voices are used in our products." this could mean literally anything (what market rate are we going above? does continue mean they get residuals or get paid for doing more sessions?) but, christ, at least the actors are doing it with full knowledge of what their voices are being used for and can decide for themselves if the compensation is enough
b) the post talks about working with "award-winning casting directors" to get the voices. first of all, yay for paying casting directors! we love to see it. but they also say the CDs received over 400 submissions in a week and they state that like a big number and it's just...not at all. and look, without knowing the intricacies of the casting process, it's hard to know what approach the CDs took - it's very possible they were selective from the jump and 400 is a lot from the pool they were tapping. 400 would be a lot if you were going to the agencies directly and asking for names, but there's just no way in hell open ai went after big stars for this. so it would've been a pool of unknowns. in which case, 400 is laughably small. even if you're not using the big casting sites like actorsaccess, I've worked on projects with CDs and their own internal systems where we've gotten over 100 submissions for a single role. I've posted roles on casting sites and received literally thousands of submissions in just a few days
look, I have a very limited perspective on this - I am not a casting director (imo, one of the most important and undervalued jobs in hollywood) and I, in fact, hate the process of casting with a passion. but 400 just seemed like such a tiny pool to pull from and, idk, it heartens me! it's heartening to think that there's very little interest from actors and agents to be doing this kind of stuff. and absolutely no shade to the actors who did--I want actors to get their bag however they want as long as it's, like, safe sane and consensual, you know? but there's something encouraging about thinking that open ai hired some big casting agency to get their foot into the voice acting door and people didn't come running
#ai#entertainment industry#lauren takes too long to say things#I am not anti-AI#mostly because I can tell when I've lost a war and need to figure out how to live with my new overlords lol#but also bc chat has genuinely been helpful for writing research!#(more in the sense that it helps me narrow down what I need to do real research on)#(bc the information it gives is often wrong)#but I am of COURSE concerned about how it's going to affect my industry#and if you've been following me for a while you probably saw my sag posting last summer during the strike#and given the contract sag got around AI#actors disinterest is THEE cudgel with which we will beat this stuff down#so the fact that the most popular AI company in the world had 400 people to choose from#is nice to my ears!!!!#(assuming of course that I'm correct about their process)#plus I'm just so RELIEVED that they actually hired people to do this#that's all that really matters - consent#if you're an actor and you give your voice to an AI company that will use it forever#as long as you KNOW that#and you have someone looking over a contract for you#more power to you!
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[chemistry] it's not a word that actors [use]. but you must endeavor a little bit to try and fall in love, in whatever that capacity is. and andrew is a very easy person to fall in love with. he's kind, generous, talented. we shot the film at the perfect junction in our friendship where there was a lot we didn't know about each other, but there was mutual admiration and respect. and a similar sense of humor. (...) yeah, it felt fizzy when we were acting. especially with that first scene at the door -- it's so well-written. you feel like you're dancing through the scene, you can go in loads of different ways, and if i went one way, andrew would go another. if that's what chemistry is, i was aware it was happening.
-- paul on chemistry and whether âthey (andrew & paul) knew instantly that their onscreen relationship was workingâ in all of us strangers, screendaily.com (1/31/24)
#i just find this whole acting thing & the process actors have to go through very fascinating. how so many of them have said that your --#mind knows that it's not real; it's make-believe but your body doesn't & it gets blurred & your body gets tricked into thinking it's --#actually experiencing all of that. no wonder sometimes actors need to take some time to recover from/get over a specific role they played.#i just recently saw claire foy talk about this & how 'you're falling in love with a person you're not in love with.' and there's a --#psychological thing happening where you can either suspend belief or you can make real what's happening. and that it can get very confusing#& how when she was watching this movie her body would react -- tears & heart palpitations -- but not because of what she saw on screen --#but because she (her body) was remembering it. it's wild & i don't think i'd ever be able to do it.#reminds me of what jessica chastain said about 'scenes from a marriage' & how her & oscar's years long friendship was changed after that#idk how these people do it; honestly; especially those actors who play really dark characters & put themselves in their minds (evan peters)#paul mescal#andrew scott#all of us strangers
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me: waiting for shoe(s) to drop
Personified Alan Becker YouTube Icon: oh... buddy...
#me reassuring myself like#it's okay. look see? they can speedrun the genuine apology process too. see? yeah i know#i know#--/ art#L1_CAT#subpixels#alan becker#green influencer arc#ava influencer arc#(OHMYGO D BRIAN MADE IT??????? NO WONDER IT'S GLORIOUS?!?!?!?)#i don't think there will be- well no. that's a lie there will totally be more great works with these specific themes in the future . . .#because there will probably be these specific problems in the future. but W0w does it hit now.#not that long ago i know i was dealing with angst online. and that just. permeates everything. for *months*#what a shot to the heart !!! new weakness unlocked ! ! ! !#/pos ... yeah no it's. you know what i mean#ghhhhghh the imperfect files feeling defensive about not being included hhhhhhhhhhhhhh kindness to snarling creatures hhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!#gonna need to rewatch this a few more times. at Least. hooh#ps: i have a vivid memory of reading a fic on ao3 that emotionally compromised me and i saw in the notes that the author said...#''[please trust me. i know what im doing c: ]'' or something that that's what they meant. it was either a doctor who or a good omens one.#and i did trust them. and the story continued being amazing. and they didn't let me drown in that space i found myself in.#i feel responsible for not letting myself get too far underwater like that- and i have succeeded.#and i also trusted Them (scriptors directors animators etc etc etc). and i am. safe#it feels like there was a wound here i forgot about that is only now beginning to heal. . . ... . . . . . .#i think ill be 100% ready to laugh about it in like. a year. for now we roll catharsis gang#a year is maybe too long. you know what i mean. arbitrary time unit. laundry minutes.
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so has anyone figured out WHY there is the Need To Share our Artworks⢠or is it just the vibes and our Soul apparently
#ive been running on âtwo cakes. u aren't BOTHERING people by putting art on their feed they can scroll past it/if they dont they get âcakeââ#and we love âcakeâ#âcakeâ is picture on the internet in this case#like okay the contracts and transaction format is a me problem!! i need to get rid of the âutilitarian brain wormsâ bc they're boring#this is supposed to be a hobby and the âget a good grade in hobbyâ wolf in the brain is just crying bc that's how they understand the world#the âget a good grade in xâ wolf has valid pain but needs to stop controlling my life because they don't need to earn âenough value to liveâ#ect ect ect#and the life of minmaxxed utility is a life of trying to appeal to a âcorrectâ that doesn't exist yaddi yadda = boring#i love you wolf. also shut up. affectionate. concerned. you get it#ok so we remove tangible purpose from act of experience art because THAT'S not âthe pointâ#because âthe pointâ is the joy killer eccetera ecc#but then what? âhere check out this labor of love. i drew this fucker 15 times. no there's no story* there it's just a guyâ#*story in this case being an emotional engagement/a situation/a context in which to ponder/other#so it's just a Draw. no further analysis. what do others Get from that?#i know i deeply enjoy art because im a fan of the process of People Making Stuff. i love when there was nothing but now there's something!!!#THAT'S what's it all about!!!!!!!!!!!!!! to me!!!! right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#so it stands to reason that creation is purpose enough?? to be experienced???? to be known????????#idk!!#this is a nothing burger of a thought people have always liked picture on the internet stfu maiora there doesn't need to be a reason#this is just the brainworms talking!!! because god forbid âsomething not have a purposeâ??? blegh!!!!!!!!#sounds like unhealthy rationalizing instead of letting things be out of The Fearâ˘!!sounds like depraving urself from joy bc of BRAINWORMS!!!#so like!!!!! picture on the internet doesn't NEED inherent value. creation is enough!! (plus there's the Attachment to Character. also.)#but then why are YOU *points at you* here? gen q!!#i made an image you like and now you are reading my word babble in some tags!!! what's THAT all about???????????#it's INTERESTING!! do you see what im trying to get at??#is it empathy??? person made something other saw something other made- other2other connection???? intrigue????????#.......all this is probably explained in some book or yt essay somewhere. oh well.#in the meantime thank you for your time! we can pretend we were stuck in an elevator together and then i started rambling#i hope you have a great rest of your day thanks for stopping by!! <3#maiora garrulates
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#photo diary#image 1 & 2 - of course these are just cloud images. But a cool pattern of them :0#3 - another word count of game writing... aargh... Still debating about like allowing other people into the game discord or how early#in the process one should do that.. but social things are just so difficult for me lol.. I shall always suffer for my lack of networking an#self promotion skills. 4 - I was forced to get a new phone a few months ago because my beloved phone of like 10 years finally#broke too much. and I always like to go through the emojis and make a little memo with all my favorites. yaay little pictures of things.#5 - I FINALLY finished all the dictionary entries for the game (which has a little dictionary feature in the player's journal to note#any specific terms and keep track of them (like what 'jhevona' or 'avirre'thel' means. or to remember that the world is called Nanyevimi#and the country they're in is Asen. etc. etc.)). There are 75 defined terms so far and it took me a while to do so out of curiosity I put#all the text into a wordcounter thing and lol.. 8000 words isnt that much I guess but the 30 minute reading time is funny to me. 30 minutes#for my little tiny dictionary panel in my quaint little casual visual novel which is not even lore heavy at all. hee hee (though that's mor#like a minute here and there since obv people are not unlocking every term all at once. you complete the dictionary as you talk to people#and hear them mention new concepts over time.).. ANYWAY..#6 - a very soft and beautiful stuffed animal that I did not buy but wanted to at least document their charm.#7 - stimky boye waiting in front of his favorite straw meowring screaming for someone to play with him (he likes to chase the#straw around). 8 - matcha bubble tea my beloved. 9 & 10 & 11 - some cool flowers I saw. also featuring one of my favorites (columbines!)#Anyhow.. as mentioned in the other photo diary post.. I have just been packing and writing mostly.. The evil summer is coming of course#which me and my health issues always dread. Good news though is I finally got my passport in the mail! >:3 huzzah. Now I just need to find#some fellow aromantic asexual living outside the US willing to take one for the team and fake a marriage with me so I can get the#hell out of the country UwU (<joking) (...mostly... as in - definitely NOT my main goal. but if a viable opportunity presented itself I#would of course give it consideration lol). I know that's already highly regulated but I wonder if it's something that will become even mor#locked down as people hunt for any opportunity to flee. People are out here searching for any loophole. Frantically researching their#entire family tree seeing if there's any chance for a citizenship by descent in whatever place will take them. etc. etc. lol#So I wonder if such marriages are a thing that will come up more often. hmm.. ANYWAY..#I have almost all of my stuff packed even though I don't move until another 1-2 months. But that's the point is to have it all sorted early#in the last remaining scraps of ''cooler'' weather so that then I can just relax up until then. I'm going to try doing another scrapbook#/sketchbook this summer as a Mood Boosting effort. Just to find little things to help with the situational political existential dread and#climate woes. So on days it's too hot to function I can just glue little things to pages and doodle lol.. hopefully.. slowly getting things#off my to do list.. I reaaaaaally want to get back to playing games as it's so fun and realxing to me but..rghgh.. 500 other things..
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