#This is a separate problem to worry about

[dearsaintavangeline]

DAMIAN WAYNE SCHOOL HEADCANONS because school opened like 2-3 weeks ago and i need to cope

•since he is 15 years old, he is in 10th grade(not letting dc pull a tim drake and make him the same age forever)

•he used to love chemistry in the 9th grade because the first subject was alchemy if i remember correctly(dc can pry the "al ghuls are alchemists" hc(canon) from my cold dead hands)

but he lost interest in chemistry quickly after the subject passed.

•his all time favourite classes are math and art. im just sure damian's type of person that doesnt separate math and art from eachother

•why art is his favourite is a given but his favourite is math because math is a class based on problem solving(and also because he can do math easily)

but yeah ik his classmates are very very annoyed whenever he says "math is easy"

•I imagine him arguing with his english teacher the most for some reason. there is no reason other than damian is a very educated kid about the english literature(literature in general) so either he doesnt care or he correct his teacher on literally everything.

•i feel like he would either do a very detail research about the book he read and write a very long essay, or make a very short one and not enough detailed. no in between(because he misunderstood his teachers when they said to "keep it short")

•he begged his father to let him take an exam that lets him skil grades based on his level but his father refused so now he takes advanced math etc.

•him and duke see eachother in the morning regularly(insomniac duke and damian who wakes up at 5.30 is real) and they sit down to talk about random shit till 7 am mostly(duke explained him the fnaf lore and damian talked about creepypastas real)

•he texts with maps both on their way to their separate schools and make plans to meetup after school to just hang out

•damian usually reads or draws in most of the classes since he already knows everything they are teaching but when asked a question, he does yap a lot(dc should bring back yapper damian ngl)

•bathroom breakdowns were very real for 9th grade damian(literally canon event for everyone with social anxiety or people who get overstimulated at school)

•still bullied just doesnt care about it and insults them/messes with them back to get back at the bullies(it stops after him also messing with them)

•he loves playing football and volleyball but not with his teammates(ik hes no3 frat boy hater i just feel it) so he only gets along with 2 of his teammates. i imagine their personality as scott and stiles from teen wolf so yeah

•has one(1) friend and two(2) teammates he doesnt hate in total(girlfailure and girlsuccess damian youre real to me🙌😼)

•he always calls his mother when he makes it to school and whenever hes leaving it because talia worries and he wants ease her worries(ultimate mother daughter duo)

•after school he has a yap session with nika and they talk about everything that happened to them(yapper4yapper gravebird my beloved)

•him and stephanie rant about school daily and talk about how much they hate it(but they both wont drop it since steph wants that med school degree and damian also wants it in the future(med student sisterisms real))

•jon may be going to a journalism school(i think??) but hes still a science nerd so their study sessions always turns into an argument about an equation or a science problem

>>> so i think thats it!! please tell me your headcanons too and help me cope with school also because i love reading about hcs(esp thosr about damian) <<<<

[ninadove]

Wait hold on, who's Cat Walker? I have not kept up with Miraculous in an incredibly long time but I have heard that 1 person can use more than one miraculous now... is that what this is?

OH RUBY. RUBY MY FRIEND. IT’S YET ANOTHER COMPLICATION OF THE LOVE SQUARE WHICH IS MORE OF A LOVE DODECAHEDRON AT THIS POINT.

As you may remember, Adrien = Chat Noir:

Well, Adrien = Cat Walker, but Chat Noir ≠ Cat Walker. Confusing? HELL YEAH. Let me explain more in depth.

See, in S4, Ladybug is under tremendous stress as the new guardian of the Miracle Box, and very much traumatised by the events of Chat Blanc (a major plot point in itself — let me know if you’d like me to tell you about him too as I’m not sure where you stopped!). As a result, she decides she needs to be less reliant on her one and only partner, and starts entrusting more people with Miraculous (I’m sure this won’t backfire… like at all…)

Now, one thing you probably do remember is that Adrien’s home life sucks (SPOILER ALERT: it does not get better). He clings to Ladybug because she embodies the life he wants: freedom, love, an identity of his own. When she starts pulling away from him, he feels abandoned, and grows more and more resentful. This all comes to a head in Kuro Neko (S4 E23), when Adrien straight up gives up his Miraculous after a particularly tough argument.

Obviously, this makes exactly nothing better: Adrien is miserable without his only escape, Marinette is miserable without her kitty, and Plagg is miserable without his favourite holder. In fact, the Kwami comes up with a brilliant idea: bring Adrien back as the Cat holder… but under a different identity.

See, the hero suits are a physical representation of who the person is and what they want most in the world: by tapping into specific aspect of their personalities, holders can therefore influence their appearance. Cat Walker is the result of Adrien burying everything that makes him Chat Noir in order to become (what he thinks is) the perfect partner for Ladybug: polite, well-groomed, focused on his mission, and of course completely devoid of his usual love for puns.

Spoiler alert, it… does not work. Ladybug’s Lucky Charm refuses to incorporate Cat Walker in the plan, and ultimately, she misses her kitty. The episode ends up with Adrien accepting that both personalities are a part of himself, and fixing some of the damage his relationship with his partner has sustained throughout the season.

BUT NOT EVERYTHING GETS SOLVED. And it all comes to a head in the S4 finale. 🧡🤍🖤

[kwillow]

will theo ever be happy

Maybe in another life.

[spacedlexi]

i forgot how weird people get sometimes when you add minnie to clemvi situations :/

[polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup]

hii 📓

Okay so the thing is that I wanted a “the Zenin raised Megumi instead of Gojo” fic but the thing is that I’m absolutely convinced that if the Zenin were the ones that took Megumi they wouldn’t actually take tsumiki too. The fandom consensus I’ve personally seen has been that she would have been taken and mistreated by zenin for being a female non sorcerer but I personally think they would have just straight up left her behind.

They only bought Megumi. They keep non sorcerers and women as servants in their compound but all of them are Zenin themselves. Tsumiki isn’t related and I couldn’t really see any reason why they’d want her. Which turned this into a fic where Tsumiki loses her brother, but she’s trying to find him again, she swears. I think of it as my “siblings doomed by the narrative desperately try to write a new one where they can be together” fic.

The thing is that Tsumikis mom was one of those people who thought love and consumption were synonymous. She had a habit of getting caught up with assholes and just… having both of them chew on each other for a while until it turns into this horrible fucking bloodbath.

Tojis just another loser her mom got caught up in, but he’s Tsumiki’s favorite out of all the losers, because he gave her her brother. Her mom marries this random guy she barley knows and Tsumikis pretty sure she does it so they can both ditch their kids twice as much, secure in the knowledge that there’s supposedly another person checking in. It works out great for them, because they both stop coming entirely. It’s fine, because Tsumiki has Megumi and Megumi has Tsumiki and they don’t need anything else.

It’s one of those things where they were in really unhealthy circumstances and it made their relationship a little bit unhealthy but not necessarily bad. They both had to grow up way too fast and deal with way too much too soon and become codependent on each other because they are, in the most literal way possible, dependent on one another. Neither of them know how to love in a way that doesn’t involve sacrificing themselves for their sibling, mostly because they don’t have a way that doesn’t involve that.

They’re in a sinking ship and tsumiki knows it. Their parents aren’t coming back. The money is going to run out sooner or later. Their problems are stacking up.

Megumi has confessed to her that he sees things that no one else does. When she asks him how he knows no one else sees them, he explains that they’d say something if they did and won’t say anything else. And she doesn’t know what to believe but she refuses to call him crazy. He tells her that monsters cling to her back and he fights them off for her. She patches up his bruises and cuts and tells him he’s brave and tries to figure out if she’s just imagining that her back feels lighter after. He tells her that there are dogs that only he can see that have started following him around, and she tells him she believes him and can never remember, later, if she meant it or was just saying it.

The last time Toji came by, he left them more money than tsumikis ever seen in her life, took them to ice cream, told them that he was sorry he was so shit at this and that the money was Megumi’s share in a payment. It was for something he was going to help daddy with later. Tsumiki and him were to use it to take care of themselves and be healthy, because Megumi couldn’t help him later if he wasn’t. And tsumiki was always afraid of what he meant by that, but in the end, she let it slip her mind. After all, Toji hadn’t been by in ages. He probably wouldn’t come by at all.

And he didn’t. But others did. Two men she’s never met before are waiting outside their building one day, and when they see Megumi, they laugh. But the thing that Tsumiki can never get out of her mind later is that she swears they weren’t looking at Megumi directly. They were looking at his dogs.

Tsumiki basically tries to get Megumi and powerwalk past them, but they’re a lot bigger and a lot stronger and there’s nothing she can do, really. They have a brief conversation about whether they should take her too, before one decides that Toji only sold him his kid and to leave the other behind. This makes both of them try to run, but there’s nothing either of them can do to overpower the men, and the men say that “Naobito would go ballistic if they left the ten shadows behind” so they take Megumi and leave her.

They put Megumi in a car and shove Tsumiki to the curb outside of it, and she tried to hold onto his hand, she swears. She grabbed at the car door even when the car started moving, and she banged on the windows, and she watched as Megumi kicked and punched and screamed inside, until one of them hit him and he went still. She ends up falling and hitting her head when the car picks up speed, and when she wakes up again, the cars gone and she has no idea where it went.

And it becomes a foundational moment for who she is. I think she was just intensely lonely before Megumi and poured a lot of herself into this idea of a family together. Tsumikis never able to shake the moment of her being outside the car and Megumi being on the inside, and not being able to get into him. She can never again get what she felt in that moment out of her head.

She goes to the police and tells them that it’s her little brother, his dad sold him but she wants him back, and they’re like “…”. The issue is that apparently her mom can pick up the damn phone if the police call and she shows up, spins some lie about how her and the stepdad split up and he took the kid with him, they never adopted each others kids so it was within his rights, Tsumiki was taking the separation hard and acting out. She lies, basically, because toji hadn’t kept up his end of the deal and dropped in to check in (neither had she) and his kid wasn’t her responsibility, he could do what he wanted with him. She doesn’t want the police poking around the way she lives. Just let the kid go because he’s probably dead and not her real brother anyway.

Tsumiki refuses to give up on him. They were both kids who no one cared about but they cared about each other and that had to be enough. But she’s seven with no support and zero idea on how to find him. She starts skipping school to look for him in random streets, puts up flyers, can’t go outside without looking for him. She gets held back a year in school because of how much she skips and she can’t bring herself to care. She buys him gifts on every birthday and writes him letters she can’t post because she’s going to find her brother and she’s going to prove to him that she never once stopped looking for him. She just. She needs him to know that she never stopped looking for him. She needs to find him and be able to honestly tell him she never stopped trying.

One day her mom comes back in clothes she can’t afford and comes with movers they shouldn’t be able to afford and announces a move they definitely can’t afford. Tsumikis absolutely opposed to going because if her brother comes to look for her, she needs to be in their old apartment so he can find her. She doesn’t have much of a choice in the matter. They have mysterious new benefactors who are setting up a trust to take care of tsumiki with a very generous stipend for her mom but they have to move to Sendai as a stipulation of getting the money.

It’s not until the attorney who’s managing her trust hands her a set of glittery blue butterfly hairpins that tsumiki realizes her mom sold her brother a second time.

The thing is that tsumiki had this one cheap set of butterfly hairpins she’d always stopped to look at in the store when she took Megumi to go grocery shopping. Shed never buy them, because they couldn’t afford it, but it was the thing she wanted most openly in front of him. She was always secretly really insecure about her hair, because they were the kind of poor where bar soap was a luxury they could only sometimes afford and kids at school made fun of how her hair was dirty and frayed. Megumi was the only one who ever saw how badly she wanted those stupid hair clips. If they had to give her a set of butterfly hair clips, it’s because he demanded that they did.

It’s basically implied that the Zenin are the ones paying for her care and upkeep due to an unspecified deal they cut with Megumi, but when they approached her mom with it, they added the caveat that Tsumiki had to be moved to a new city entirely and there could be no forwarding address left anywhere.

The zenins stance on tsumiki is, effectively, that she’s a weakness Megumi needs to be weaned off of. They honestly assumed he’d just like, forget she ever existed and he. Did not do that. He actually pitched a total bitch fit. Tried to scale the compound walls. Bit multiple people including the clan leader. But he’s got the ten shadows, he’s heir to the clan, and he can’t be caught up on some random non sorcerer who isn’t even a Zenin. They end up agreeing to pay for her to live very comfortably if he starts cooperating more but they want to make sure that he can’t ever find her again if he does ever succeed in running away.

Tsumiki is at once full of hope and hopeless, because on one hand, the butterfly clips prove that Megumi still loves her and remembers her, at least in her mind. But at the same time, she’s being moved to Sendai and doesn’t know how they’ll ever find each other again. She doesn’t honestly know if they’d recognize each other if they saw each other again. She wears the butterfly clips every day, even when she gets too old for the style, because she’s more confident about her brother recognizing them than her.

The thing about tsumiki is that she doesn’t understand hate. She just doesn’t. Her mom and toji always got caught up in these perceived slights and revenge and never once let go of the past. They’d destroy themselves if it meant taking down the people they hated with them. She never wanted that. She wanted to live with the people she loved and she’d happily turn around and forget everything, all the pain, all the searching, if it just meant she could go back to being megumis sister.

This isn’t about hate. This is about that moment outside the car, where her brother was inside and she couldn’t get in to him. This is about how helpless and small she felt when they shoved her to the curb and ripped megumis hand out of hers. She needs to make sure that when she finds Megumi, she can take him home again. So she decides she needs to learn how to fight.

Itadori Yuuji has the constitution of an ox and the strength to match it, and he is known for getting in fights with bullies and trouncing them so thoroughly that it’s never a question of who wins when the fight starts. He’s insanely physically capable and can hold his own in a fight with ease. He’s also nice and kind and Tsumiki’s comfortable enough asking him to teach her how to throw a punch or two.

She is bad at it.

So fucking bad at it.

But she never gives up, and Itadori is nice enough to keep teaching her despite how embarrassingly horrible she is at it all. He always asks her why she wants to learn so bad, she doesn’t seem to like it all, and she never answers his question honestly.

In their last year of middle school, their class has a trip to Kyoto. She, Itadori, and the rest of their group walk into some random restaurant in the city and have barely sat down when someone comes inside, starts searching every booth in the restaurant while shouting Tsumikis name.

And oh. They could recognize each other after all.

She looked for Megumi in every crowd she was ever in, but she didn’t consider that he was doing the same. Or that he would see her first.

Her brother grew up without her seeing it. Hes older, dressed in strange, expensive clothes, has a slightly bruised up face and split lip, but his eyes are the same, and he looks like the brother she remembered.

But a lot more nervous than Megumi ever was. He was a tiny, stoic child who didn’t take any shit and never showed fear, even when there were monsters that only he could see. But he’s nervous when he tells her that she probably doesn’t recognize him or remember him, but when she was a lot younger, he—

Megumi. He’s her little brother. Of course she remembers him. She’s been looking for him everywhere.

Megumi didn’t smile much as a child, but he smiles at her then. He tells her he doesn’t have a lot of time and she tells him that they can leave out the back, and he never let her hold his hand as a child but he takes her hand so easily in that second. And just for a second, she’s his sister again, and it’s everything she wanted.

They never make it out the back.

Two men come in. Megumi calls one of them uncle, and he goes stiff and flat the second he sees him. His uncle apologizes for his nephew, tells everyone that he always makes scenes when they’re out in public, tells him to apologize to the nice people and leave. Megumi was mistaken.

Tsumiki tríes to keep ahold of his hand. Really, she does. She tries to tell people to call the police. But megumis “uncle” steps towards her and Megumi slams him into a table, and then suddenly Megumi’s the one insisting that they leave immediately. They can go. It’s fine. They’re leaving. She loses ahold of his hand.

She tries to follow, but the other man restrains her. She learns that she’s better at slamming plates into peoples heads than she is at punching, and at this point itadoris Friend In Danger Override has been triggered and he fucking tackles the dude, which gives tsumiki the clearing that she needs to chase outside after her brother. She gets out just in time to see him be pushed into a car, and she’s had years to think about the last time this happened and figure out what to do differently. She throws herself in front of the car and refuses to move.

See her entire stance is that she’ll sooner get run over and killed in the street than let them do this a second time, but she also can see Megumi trying to fucking punch the drivers head in from behind because he’s about to hit his sister. His uncles trying to restrain him, and just for a second, she sees his hands make the shape of the shadow puppets he used to show her as children. Something invisible slams her out of the way just as his uncle knocks him out.

She picks up a rock and tries to smash in the fucking window with it, and itadori has to pull her out of the way to keep her from getting her feet run over when the car finally tears out of the parking lot. She goes ballistic on him for stopping her because her brother was right there and she lost him again and she didn’t even get the license plate. He was right there.

The police basically do jack all again. There’s no license plate, no names they can follow up on, and they’re still half convinced this is a settled custody issue even though tsumiki insists her brother was sold by his dad and is very plainly getting hurt wherever he is. Itadori is now a devoted advocate of finding tsumikis brother and reuniting them, and both basically kind of end up becoming really close to the other? He’s taking care of himself and his grandpa alone, she’s alone while her moms awol again, and they both become the others support system.

At one point, there’s this random girl and boy who doesn’t speak who shows up to their school for indeterminate reasons. The girl is bored and twirling her glasses in one hand while the person in a suit that they’re with asks the principal questions, and when tsumikis eyes catch at the right angle, she sees an invisible monster clinging to a classmates back through them. She realizes it’s exactly what Megumi always talked about and still remembers that the people who took him could see his dogs. She corners the two others in a room and tries to demand information about the invisible monsters or see if they know her brother or the people who took him, and immediately gets blown off. The fight escalates until the girl tells him that actually, yeah. She knows tsumikis brother. He is a very special person to some very powerful people, and the only way she can ever help him is to tell him that she’s let go of him and that he needs to do the same to her. That’s the only message that the people who have him would ever let get through, and his life would get a lot better as soon as he got it.

The people who have him would give him anything in the world, except for her. He could be a lot happier and healthier than he is right now if he just agreed to stop trying to find tsumiki. If she really wants to help her brother, then she needs to let him go.

Tsumiki nails her in the back of the head with a milk carton when she tries to walk away. It sloshes out on her. Tsumiki did not intend this. She cannot admit that fact. There are some actions you just have to own when you do them. She tells the girl that he’s her brother and she’s never letting go of him. She’s going to find him. They can’t keep him from her forever. She doesn’t care how long it takes her.

For a second, tsumiki really thinks this girl is going to kick her ass, but she doesn’t. She wishes her luck and tells her she’ll need it, and it’s only later that tsumiki realizes she slipped the eyeglasses into her pocket.

And as it turns out, her brothers monsters were real all along.

There was a knife that toji left in the frame of his bed. Tsumiki confiscated it from Megumi as soon as he found it, and it was odd and strange and gave her bad feelings when she held it, and it can kill the things that gather on her back. When she follows Itadori to their local high school and joins the occult club in an attempt to find more people involved in this world of invisible monsters, she wears the eyeglasses and keeps the knife hidden in her bag.

It comes in handy when her senpais are trying to open this thing and suddenly there’s like a fucking portal opening and Actually Let’s Not Oh Too Late Let’s Run Let’s Fucking Run.

They run.

Meanwhile at the hospital Megumi found out in very quick succession that his sister has fucking sukunas finger and also that there’s a very over enthusiastic himbo who is the self appointed vice president of the Find Fushiguro Megumi And Bring Him Home Club who absolutely fucking refuses to leave his side. Sorry who are you. Why are you so enthusiastic about finding him. Megumi sort of was the one doing the finding there was a whole tracking situation and him waiting dramatically in the shadows like they just did it.

Anyway they run very very quickly to tsumikis school where she is dodging she is serpentining this is a fuckton of monsters oh holy fuck is that her brother?

The fight goes bad.

Tsumiki manages to follow itadori and her brother out at a much slower pace because she’s not a freak of nature like itadori and shows up just in time to see her brother shouting at itadori to not eat the fucking finger while itadori is absolutely trying to eat the fucking finger.

She chucks her shoe at him. The finger goes flying.

Then the monster eats it instead.

Tsumiki: :o

Yuuji: :o

Megumi: fuck

Now there’s a bigger monster and the fight goes even worse. There’s a lot of shouting. Itadori ends up with her knife. Then he ends up getting eaten and they’re down both a knife and itadori, who’s probably fucking dead. Then megumis insisting she run and she’s insisting he shut the fuck up because it’s sort of taken a decade to get this close to him again and she’s not fumbling the bag now because of a monster on the rampage. Have a sense of fucking priorities here.

Then itadori bursts out of the monsters stomach with the knife like the fucking Kool Aid Man and the fight is suddenly very over. Good job, team.

Gojo rolls up to his most stoic and eternally pissed off student having a dramatic and emotional reunion with his sister.

Yuuji, in a very bad whisper: no no so like she’s been looking for him for years but he saw her in the restaurant

Gojo: :o go on

Yuuji: and then he got caught by like, I don’t know, he said he was his uncle or something but the dude acted so weird and creepy and they put him in a car and Tsumiki tried to stop the car but they got away

Gojo: *gasp* what no

Yuuji: I know! Anyway then I start helping her look for him but we can’t find him anywhere until I’m at the hospital and he just walks up to me right?? And I’m like “dude I have been looking everywhere for you” and he’s like “I have no idea who you are, I’m here about that fucked up demon finger” and I’m like—

Megumi, really trying to have a moment here: we can both hear you

And megumis like “this is uh. My new teacher. I guess. I am his only student. And he is uh. Enthusiastic. Do not linger in conversation with him.”

Tsumiki is lingering. She needs fucking intel so he can’t disappear again. Where does he go to school and can she transfer there. It’s fucking wizard school? Will they take her even though she’s not a wizard? She cannot emphasize enough that she will study any fucking subject they want so that way she can be close with her brother again she does not care if it’s applicable to her education or life. She can throw things at people itadori tell the man tell him how enthusiastically she will throw things at monsters for their weird fucking wizard school.

Itadori: she hit me in the face with her shoe like five minutes ago

Tsumiki: see???

Megumi keeps trying to forbid her from wizard school but she’s technically the older sister so she has override rights. She will go to wizard school. How does she get wizard school to accept her.

And Gojos just really weird and off and keeps looking at Megumi and saying that he “didn’t know he had a sister.”

He really didn’t know that Megumi had a sister he wanted to stay with.

And then suddenly it’s like a switch is flipped and he’s back to his normal self telling them to leave everything to him, because he’ll make sure tsumiki can come back with them. And uh? Itadori? Weirdly physically capable kid who will apparently eat anything? Is he going to be good getting home after all this?

Itadori: actually if it’s not too much trouble can I go to wizard school too my grandpa sort of died half an hour ago and I don’t have plans for the rest of my life. Tsumikis kind of my best friend and I’d like to make sure she’s all good at wizard school. I’m a really good fighter and I stabbed the last monster so like can I come too because you know. Dead grandpa. No family or future to speak of. Haha.

Gojo:

Megumi:

Tsumiki, softly: dude

There’s more after they make it to jujutsu high but this is already really long so we leave it here

[arohuacheng]

hua cheng body dysmorphia truther. that man does not have a realistic concept of what he looks like and he is not reasonable or healthy about the way that he looks either

[gravesung]

>makes a big blog decision >satisfied a few days later: >thinks about making anothe—

[brittlebutch]

it's actually so fascinating to me that Brennan has created a character that maintains a pretty relaxed and mild-mannered demeanor and has said multiple times that the absolute Core of her is "FEAR" and how often we see this Fear manifest specifically in Avoidance; it really nails a relationship to that mentality where your brain fully Stops recognizing the emotion properly out of like, sheer self-defense from the stress of having to carry it all the time

I think this is also perfectly showcased in the way we tend to see Tula swing so suddenly from 'level and steady' to 'snarling Panic' and then back again - Just because your brain has detached itself from the Conscious Recognition of the emotion doesn't mean it can Actually stop itself from experiencing it. So the Fear is always there and always acting as a stressor, but because of that inability to Identify it there's no way to recognize or address it before that final straw hits and your bodymind jumps Straight into Full Meltdown Mode; but then once again, once you drop even a Little bit below that Peak Terror your brain ceases to process the emotion; it's like the most exhausting form of Poor Object Permanence in the world

And even if Tula is aware of this happening to her, that doesn't really make it any easier to deal with / address. Even if you're able to spot the symptoms Around the emotion -- chest pain, irritation, nausea, whatever -- because the Emotion Itself is basically impossible to find, you can't really Successfully Pin Down what the problem is OR a way to cope with it. If you can't figure out That You Are Anxious, then figuring out What Is Making You Anxious is impossible, which makes Find A Way To Make Peace With That incomprehensible. That's where the Avoidance comes in: you can no longer identify what might be a Dangerous Situation, which means that Anything New has a big potential to be Really Bad in a variety of ways (ranging "I don't Feel Good" to "Fully Lashing Out bc you've entered Fight/Flight and can't get out of it" to "Actual Outside Danger This Time") and that means the Only Way you know how to be Safe is to just Avoid Doing Anything New and Only stick to Familiar Situations, because anything unfamiliar is a monster of a gamble you don't know how to prepare for or cope with

[non-un-topo]

Been writing some bonus/missing scenes from my tetrad mysteries series because I miss writing these four idiots so bad but have no energy ;_;

[wellnoe]

do sometimes think about what would happen if scott and jean actually had started a new school like they thought about doing.

[angelinthefire]

In the untitled s8 meanstiel fic (wherein Cas does not "get better" after s7) that it seems less and less like I'm going to write, the way the actual dean/cas/meg sex scene would happen is:

It would come towards the end of at least 60k of character development, which is something to bear in mind.

Castiel and Meg had been sleeping together since before the start of the story. Which Dean hates. And Meg is viciously jealous of Dean. But Cas doesn't see his relationships with them as mutually exclusive at all. And after Dean and Cas do the "I love you"/"I love you too" thing, Meg is still metaphorically clinging to Cas with her teeth. And Dean very begrudgingly puts up with her because Cas cares about her.

(There would be a fair amount of Dean&Meg stuff in the story where it's established that their mutual hatred does not just come from jealousy but also from recognizing something of themselves in the other. And they come to a certain level of understanding. But they're still very antagonistic).

(It's also important that when Dean tells Cas that he loves him, Cas can't really deal with it and kind of freaks out. Because he still feels so overwhelmed with guilt for the leviathan stuff, and polluted and self-loathing. The idea of Dean loving him breaks something in him. It seems unjust. It's wrong. This reaction is cut across by Plot Things happening.)

At a point when most of the plot is done and things are relatively quiet, Dean and Cas are having a moment, which turns into kissing, which starts to turn into more. But Cas becomes overwhelmed again. And Cas wants to keep going, but he's having a hard time, like to the point of shaking and hyperventilating. And this hasn't been something that Dean has been able to bring Cas down from on his own at any point.

So my idea is. Dean goes to find Meg. And he does not say what's going on, he just tells Meg to come with him. And he leads her back to the bedroom hoping that she understands on her own and he doesn't have to say anything. Upon seeing Cas on the bed, half undressed, Meg gives Dean a very questioning look. And all says to Meg, pointedly, and kind of pissy, is something like, "I'm not kissing you."

And anyways, Meg is Cas' emotional support girlfriend when he's having sex with Dean.

[discoreptile]

Wee ha

[violetclarity]

my life rn is really like, tomorrow would I rather drive 2 hours round trip without a speedometer or make it a 4 hour round trip journey by taking various trains?

[arielluva]

does anyone have advice for getting into stardew valley because i have tried. multiple times. to get into this game and actually play it because i DO like it!!! i have gotten sucked in a few times, but i never make it too far :( i feel like i just get overwhelmed by everything that you could do and seeing other people be so far ahead in their own saves that i just. idk. feel discouraged? i know the answer to this is probably to just play the game and do whatever because if its my first save it doesn't really matter what happens but still

also i think another part of it is just not knowing everything i should do right off the bat like i would with any other game i enjoy playing like fantasy life but i guess thats a given since i haven't played much of it

most rational thought: "i don't know everything about this game and what to do how am i supposed to play this good... :( at least in fantasy life i know what to do :((" (i have had fantasy life for like 8 years so of course i know what to do)

[isaacathom]

had a dnd session and a subplot is set to resolve and im gonna go a little feral so :) hellow

Naielle Odelia is a warlock under the forgotten star Alcor. She formed this pact 20 years ago in pursuit of a specific knowledge, and was not entirely aware of what was being asked of her in return when she did this. Due to her pact, she was forced into exile from her home country (The Sylvian Empire), and has ultimately ended up here, on the quest of the campaign, opposing a mindflayer incursion in the Jade Sea. This was always Alcor's plan.

A few months ago in-game, Naielle took leave to return "home" to Yerovera to visit her fiancee, who had managed to make inter-planar contact. When she arrived, they learned that Naielle's younger sister, Mariela, was using the remains of her patron-granted research to potentially cause havoc. To prevent disaster, Naielle and the ship captured Mariela, and decided the best way to remove her from the equation was for Naielle to take her back with her to the Jade Sea.

When they arrived, Alcor looked at Mariela and assumed she had been brought there to serve as an acolyte of Naielle's. Another member of a long dead and now maybe resurgent cult of a star. He forced a warlock pact on her, and bound her to Naielle's will, such that attempting to harm Naielle would cause psychic backlash, and that she was bound to follow Naielle's orders and aid her in her crusade against mindflayers.

Naielle, having had 0 intention of this, opposes it categorically. Mariela didn't believe her.

They've been at loggerheads for a while. Naielle and her have never gotten on exceptionally, but realising what she's accidentally done to her sister caused Naielle to flip, to make it damn near her primary objective to free her sister of the pact. There's little the two could do for a long time.

Then, during a brief sojourn in the Plane of Fire, Mariela found a book about the Cult of Alcor, and the history therein.

Alcor once had a cult in the feywild, and when that plane began to tear itself apart structurally, disappearing into pockets of nothingness, he channeled his power through his chief priest, Aerenis, to guide the elves to safety - to Yerovera. In so doing, Aerenis ceased to be mortal, and ascended to serve as an aspect of Alcor.

This was Alcor's goal for Naielle. That she would embody his power against the mindflayer threat.

Naielle fears it. She managed to speak to Aerenis directly for his advice, to be assured his regret that it was coming to this. She was given options;

To forsake her pact entirely, practically erasing 20 years of acquired knowledge. Extremely bad idea

To transfer her 'priesthood' to her sister, sentencing her to that ascendant fate. Undesirable

To, with Mariela's help, declare their pact resolved in the moment of slaying a significant enemy - an Aboleth, more than likely - removing both of them from the pact. Dangerous

To Ascend. Deeply Undesirable.

Naielle relayed these to Mariela, who used the fact she was a political prisoner to have coded messages sent home. Naielle, and then-Commodore Vandervest did not know what the messages contained, but Naielle insisted they be untampered with (and Mariela, apparently, convinced Vandervest to honour this).

Vandervest recieved word on the matter, but due to his failing health, decided to leave much of the matter to be dealt with by his successor, only informing Naielle of a political decision - that, due to the lengths the Sylvian Empire had gone to secure Mariela's correspondance, it had been ordered by his superiors that Mariela either be completely locked down for future use as a bargaining chip, or be killed.

He had recieved an answer from the Empire on the matter.

His successor, Acting-Commodore Marius Aubert, once he became aware of the matter, summoned Naielle to his office and said that the code contained suggested an affirmative answer, and that he wished to talk to Mariela about what question she had asked. Naielle, not being entirely confident, agreed to this.

When they got to her, she says she would rather not explain it with Naielle present. Naielle asks, just one question - does it involve me, or her? both. Naielle goes back above deck.

Mariela explains to Marius privately. In the Empire, warlock pacts are forbidden. She had requested special dispensation to seek that power. When pressed further, she explains that Naielle had 'often expressed that she finds her pact burdensome', and that she would relieve it.

Marius hands her the response from her government, and states that while her people may give her permission, he can't allow harm to come to Naielle.

She requests to talk to her, and Marius goes above deck to fetch her, though takes the short opportunity to pre-warn her of what Mariela appears to be asking for. Naielle descends below deck already on the verge of tears.

They talk. Mariela calls her Kiir, her childhood name. They gave her permission to take the pact. Naielle can only ask her if she's sure, over and over again. Are you sure? Do you understand what you ask for? Mariela is thrown by the question, but says yes - she can do better than Naielle did. Naielle believes her! It wouldn't be hard! But does she know what she asks? Does she understand how easy it would be fuck up the same as she did?

Which is when Mariela reveals part of what has driven the strife between them.

She can't stay in Naielle's shadow.

Their mother is a strict woman, at all times aware that her position is fragile and her family is in danger, that the imperial regime could at any moment deem them obstacles and wipe them out. She lived through the empire's bloody rise, and watched her father's execution.

She criticises. She measures her children, against the world and each other, and finds them wanting.

Naielle didn't notice it, so much. She had the wholehearted support of her father, shared in his field of expertise and his passion for history. If mother found her wanting, her father didn't.

Mariela noticed. Mariela noticed as she was compared unfavourably to her academic sister, a more talented student with a natural gift. Her mother still compares to two, as Naielle's exile looms over the family like a ghost.

Naielle didn't know. These aren't the sort of things she heard. She knew her twin brother had found their separation difficult, that Mariela had remained 'cruel' on the topic of Naielle, had sometimes caused arguments with their brother on the topic. Naielle didn't know that she wasn't just a cudgel by a sister proud and patriotic, but a mother critical of all the efforts her children make.

If Mariela could take Naielle's failings - the research she'd been exiled over - and turn it into an asset for the empire, she would escape that legacy. She'd finally succeed over her sister. She could turn failure into success.

They hug. They laugh. How the fuck did they get here, crying below the decks of a pirate ship?

Mariela had wanted to kill her. To get revenge for the pact Naielle had foisted upon her (regardless of her lack of intent), to remove her shadow from the Odelia's halls. She had wanted to seize their patrons power and use it to imperial ends, and succeed where Naielle failed.

Did she understand what that power meant? And this time she listens when Naielle explains that. That to ascend is not just to be handed power, freely wielded and beyond recourse. It is to leave the material plane and exist as part of the divine, alone and separate.

Mariela absorbs it for a moment. How did Naielle bear the weight of that over her? Ha! Ha... That is all Naielle can say.

Mariela doesn't want Naielle to go.

There remains an option that lets them both have a chance to go home! They kill an Aboleth together, they declare it done. Option 3. And then Naielle will take her home, and she can spin any story she likes that would satisfy the Empire, say she overpowered Naielle and stole her research, that she was bound and coerced and bided her time until Naielle dropped her guard. Naielle will take her home, and she'll return to the sea, and then, in the future -

Naielle will come home, in a disguise? Naielle laughs at that. Perhaps not. But they can surely find a way to stay in contact, perhaps through Naielle's wife, or some other means, until Naielle is safe to come home.

Mariela agrees with the plan. She'll pack her things, and return with Naielle and Marius to the front they rapidly approach, and help Naielle fight the Aboleth. And she'll go home.

And Naielle's chances of coming back from the final fight change. Her death is no longer a guarantee, whether at the hands of dark forces or wrapped in the light of the celestial. Maybe she has doomed the fleet by forsaking the divine, made it more likely none of them come home. But Naielle considers herself a consummate coward, and selfish, and she can't pick anything else.

Doesn't she have orders to hold or kill Mariela? Well, didn't Mariela have orders to take celestial power and kill Naielle? Neither sister will follow what the highers say. Maybe they'll make a show of it on both ends, and live content in their treasons, and dodge the consequences and live to know they spared the other, in a manner of speaking.

[blueish-bird]

Logic’s album College Park why are there skits built in to the last half of the majority of these songs? why are they not separate tracks? im enjoying the saxophone on Clone Wars III only to be forced to listen to a drawn-out staged Carl’s Jr. drive thru order. in what context is this relistenable?