#all of these are the lesbian experience methinks

[azulasmommyissues]

ATLA sexuality headcanons, part 1, Aang's era:

aang

-unlabelled or pansexual, also incredibly gnc. he/they methinks

-he never questioned it, he never thought about it. the air nomads were chill with everything, so he was too.

-he simply loves people, and he loves them deeply. he's the sort of person who says "i love you" very fast. and he doesn't have a specific type, either. he simply connects with people.

-he definitely had a bit of a thing for kuzon back in the day. kuzon taught him all the fire nation dances he knows, and bumi cheered them on.

-he also kinda digged teo, the mechanist's son, but by that point he already had his heart set on katara.

-as for girls, he DID like on-ji. in different circumstances, they would might have dated for a short while. but with katara it was love at first sight. the sort that makes you giddy and stupid.

-he's a lot worse at rizzing up katara because he is just THAT into her and he keeps fumbling

katara

-growing up, she never really questioned it. she knew she definitely liked boys and never had feelings for another girl.

-she's certainly fully cisgender. happily says “she/her/hers” when asked for her pronouns

-on the contrary, she was somewhat attracted to haru and jet both—and might've even considered zuko in different circumstances. like she definitely felt something akin to attraction in the crossroads of destiny.

-she fell in love with aang, because he gave her hope, he gave her joy, he gave her balance. she already felt SOMETHING in the cave of two lovers, but she was deeply confused and her feelings didn't clear until after the war.

-she always thought of herself as straight but said that, if she had the chance, she would be willing to kiss a girl—as an experiment. she just sort of always admired pretty girls, in the sense of "do i wanna BE her or DATE her,"

-and she's really passionate about feminism, obviously

-she always prefers getting compliments from other women because "they're worth mOre"

-eventually she meets jiang who's such a butch lesbian and questions EVERYTHING

-is that a girl? is that a boy? idk but why are they kinda...

-niyok and nutha both give homoerotic friendship vibes with her (all comic specific characters have the combined personality of one person hence why I'm including both)

-since she was dating aang she didn't explore her sexuality, but she discussed it with him and he supported her

-she considered identifying as bi but didn't feel like she qualified, since she'd never actually dated a girl. aang told her it's okay eifher way.

-at the end she decides to keep it all behind closed doors as per water tribe tradition. she's happy with aang, some girls are hot, it's nobody's business but her own.

-i also completely fw the reading of her as a straight cis girl, but you know

sokka

-bisexual, female lean, and maybe even poly.

-he fell for yue, he fell for suki. he definitely found like, ty lee attractive, but he didn't LIKE her. He was involved with suki, and they hadn't had any conversation about the exact status of their relationship so he wasn't about to fumble it.

-suki and him are both bi. and if yue were alive they'd BOTH be dating her. at the same time.

-zuko was sokka's bi awakening. seeing zuko and suki run around in the boiling rock absolutely changed his brain chemistry.

-he had a hard time accepting it, because of how the water tribes roll. he had a preconceived notion of manhood that he obviously had to challenge alongside his initial sexism.

-but then he realised that 1) his dad had been in a secret poly relationship with kya and bato, and then with bato and malina-- 2) his grandma had a fling with hama--3) master piandao and jeong jeongwere a thing--and 4) his girlfriend herself, suki, was bi. so bro had nothing to worry about.

-his identity became clear to him with suki's and his father's help. unlike katara, he was a bit more open and public with it. being poly, him and suki had many opportunities to explore it, always respecting each other's boundaries.

-sometimes suki does his makeup and he grows to enjoy it. he experiments with gender expression until he becomes totally chill with it.

-big part of his character is learning that he doesn't have to be a “man” in the way that patriarchy imposed on him his whole life

-so like, cisn't

toph

-toph has crushes on boys: sokka, zuko, the duke, satoru, sun, kanto. but i think non of them are really legit.

-toph would also flirt with girls, like, yaling

-had a 'not like other girls' phase

-she/they/he vibes, has a very complicated relationship with gender

-because she was made fun off by other girls as a child, it was harder for her to blend in and talk with them

-she was also raised sheltered within the walls of aristocracy which contributed to her not thinking about it

-she avoided commitment and serious relationships like the plague

-so she's unlabelled and perhaps in the aro spectrum. like, demisexual. but being both demi (aka needing to like someone as a person and getting to know them before feeling attracted to them) AND having commitment issues and a bunch of failed relationships is like, a DEADLY combo.

-i don't know. she is chaotic and not at all skilled with romance so she always fumbles it.

-but i also think she might just be 1000% aromantic whether or not she understands it fully

-i think that's very plausible

suki

-bisexual with a female lean and maybe poly

-big she/they vibes

-she's got endless autistic rizz like girl seduced sokka at light speed.

-in kyoshi island they called the bisexuals 'children of kyoshi' and the lesbians 'children of rangi'

-kyoshi island is basically lesbos if you didn't know /hj

-had her first kiss with mingxia before they decided that "ew, never again, i see you like a sister". she was super happy to meet meilin, mingxia's girlfriend

-DEFINITELY liked biyu and they might have been a thing in different circumstances. Aka if biyu hadn't betrayed her.

-would've dated both sokka and yue if yue was alive. like she would have loved yue. both of them having never left their respective homelands. both of them caring about community and having a duty to their people, a leadership position,,,

-but suki being so badass, liberated, free—and yue needing to sacrifice herself to BE free from her oppressive environment,,, like yue would also admire suki so much?? they would love exploring the world together and it'd put sokka out of a very awkward spot-

zuko

-demiromantic, bisexual. like this boy is SOMEWHERE im the ace spectrum but he's also bi. I'd say with a male lean.

-had internalised homophobia growing up, because, duh, fire nation

-he definitely thought that everyone feels like that when he was a child until his mother told him that this was very much NOT the case

-the gaang made him realise that it's totally okay and since they are all so queer he felt very safe with them

-made gay marriage legal in the fire nation

-made pride a thing in the fire nation inspired by the rainbow fire because i said so

-definitely felt attracted to both jet and sokka in the guy department.

-now, when it cames to girls, mai was his childhood crush.

-he definitely found song attractive but he was NOT in that headspace obviously

-same thing with jin although he was in a better headspace then. he introduced jin and song to each other post-war and they dated each other.

yue

-never got the chance to figure out how much girlypop liked women

-i could so easily claim she's a femme lesbian and that sokka was comphet, and I could even CONVINCE ya'll, because he is SO comphet coded, but I really love yue's storyline as it is and the lasting affect it has on sokka,,,,

-i can also imagine her on the ace spectrum

-she's so sapphic she's so queer bro is literally the moON?? what's more sapphic than the moon

-so, whatever, I'll say she's bi with a STRONG female lean. if she'd survived and joined the gaang she would have dated both sokka and suki and i truly believe that

-she would've loved suki and i just KNOW it

-love her so much let my girl be free of her arranged marriage

ty lee

-lesbian or pansexual. was ready to risk it all for mai. also completely down to be in a polycule

-she simply enjoyed male validation and attention due to her unmet childhood emotional needs. the dudes at the beach as well as sokka were giving massive comphet energy.

-i do also accept the possibility of her being pan, that'd be pretty great, but yknow, we do need more lesbians.

-despite being a fire nation citizen i think she'd be pretty open and liberated when it comes to her identity, at least wherever it's safe

-because her own ideology and philosophy is like. pseudo air nomad philosophy so i think she simply doesn't give a shit

-she is really into pride events. she LOVES the parade.

-i think she did have feelings for azula, at least as a child. then it all became really unhealthy,

-still, she felt sad about how things ended with azulw. she genuinely wishes it were different

mai

-she does also give comphet lesbian vibes BUT the "i love zuko more than I fear you" line SLAPS so I'm going to say bisexual with a female lean. she's also definitely asexual—and also demiromantic.

-ADORED ty lee, she just always assumed ty lee would choose azula

-it takes mai a long time to develop feelings for anyone, but when she falls she falls hard

-she's really not a big pride person, but she grows to enjoy it eventually. she goes with zuko and ty lee.

-she's not super vocal about her sexuality, but she also doesn't hide it. she doesn't give a shit. it's her business.

azula

-azula is a lesbian. not debatable like the others, to me.

-her feelings towards ty lee and mai are very reminiscent of sozin's feelings for roku i believe. like iykyk.

-she couldn't remember which of the boys was the one she was supposed to "like," but she remembered perfectly which bikini ty lee and mai were wearing. she picked chan like lesbians pick a random boy to crush on in middle school.

-and then she instesd remembered one of thr gusy who were flirting with either mai or ty lee. bestie was jealous.

-she had comphet, so much comphet. she wanted to be loved.

-so much internalised homophobia.

-she has a type, and it's brunette non benders of similar build. by which i mean ty lee and suki

-the ill will she holds towards mai in her comic for ruining their group over a stUpid BOY-

-it's comical,,

-i love her.

jet

-all the freedom fighters are queer

-jet is probably pansexual or bisexual. and also he/they

-he had a thing for katara but he sure as hell also had a thing for zuko

-he punches homophobes in the face

-i never liked jet when i was a kid because he was a jerk and i hated him with katara, but i grew to really enjoy his character and his arc

-this boy wants to eat the rich

-he doesn't want gay marriage, he wants to abolish marriage

smellerbee

-transfem ICON, she/her, though generally gender non conforming.

-and she's also also aromantic and asexual.

-queer platonic relationship with longshot, because of how deeply they love and understand and support each other

-if you misgender her on purpose the whole group will gang up on you and by the end of it you'll have four broken limbs and they'll be arrested for aggravated assault

longshot

-he's aromantic and asexual but he's got unmatched non-verbal autistic rizz

-as i said, QPR with smellerbee

-but all the freedom fighters plan to keep living together forever,, they're found family

-him and smellerbee just have a particularly special bond

the duke

-the duke is pansexual, i think

-i think he had a crush on toph

-also he/they

-and that's about all I've got

pipsqueak

-he/they/she

-pipsqueak's literally his chosen name, nothing cisgender about that,

-gay

sneers

-transmasc, he/they, potentially genderfluid

-dating kori who is bi

haru

-bisexual, female lean

-he/they, potentially genderfluid

teo

-gay, crush on aang

jin and song

-jin is pansexual, would definitely date song who is a lesbian

-zuko introduces them!!

uncle iroh

-straight ally. women are great! big womaniser back in his day.

-loves gay people

-huge support for zuko coming out

-that being said, he wasn't ALWAYS an ally. like he wasn't homophobic either, but he didn't support queer people before lu ten came out to him. then he accepted it, because he loved his son. finally, travelling the world and studying different philosophies led him to be a great ally.

-then he became the biggest ally ever amd a huge advocate for queer rights

-on a similar note, lu ten was gay. ozai was straight. zhao was straight and azulon was probably also straight. just getting them out of the wAy.

piandao

-gay gay gay. likes men.

-him and jeong jeong as a salty judgmental old couple is so real

-also everyone knows about it but nobody dares to give him shit for it

-he just glares and you immediately get off his back

-he could get himself a husband and nobody in the fire nation would do anything to stop him because they literally cannot arrest him

-he'll just shut the door on their face

jeong jeong

-also gay. big gay.

-tons of internalised homophobia, bless him

-tons of self hatred

-like, the way he sees his firebending as a curse of destruction and hatred and hates himself for it—instead of seeing all the colours of the dragons' rainbow fire, like zuko and aang, who symbolise the new generation

-it can work so well as a queer self-acceptance metaphor

-he definitely ends up with piandao, as i said before. begrudgingly in love.

hama

-lesbian. privately, as per water tribe tradition.

-nobody in the south gives her shit for it.

-she definitely had a relationship with kanna.

-when she lived in the fire nation, things were different. living as her authentic self was impossible—even secretly, it became near-impossible.

-hama's life is one big tragedy.

pakku

-straight. initially homophobic as per water tribe conservatism. the sort of, "just don't shove it in my face" homophobia

-but upon realising that like, both his friend group and his wife are incredibly queer, he gets over it

-iroh helps with educating him

-it's also canon that zuko gives the southern water tribe custody of hama after the war which i find incredibly sweet

-but since hama and kanna were... tight, I find myself incredibly entertained imagining possible interactions between pakku and hama

kanna (gran gran)

-kanna was bisexual.

-in the time she spent traveling from the north to the south she slept with a bunch of people

-fire nation pirates, sand bender bandits, earth kingdom soldiers... hakoda's father is a mystery. a mama mia situation.

-other flings include the herbalist, probably, (all old people know each other)

-even madame wu, why not?

-like it entertains me to think that kanna was unhinged the moment she left the Northern Water Tribe

-and being a non bender she used all tools at her disposal to reach the south if you know what i mean

-that being said, she also learned to fight a bit. probably. just to spite pakku.

-when she reached the south, she had a thing with hama. i say this because of the kataang parallel when hama was taken away.

hakoda and bato

-hakoda is bi, bato is gay

-hakoda loved kya, bato loved him secretly and never told him

-after kya died, bato was his only comfort, they fell in love

-once malina enters the situation too, it eventually ends up being a polycule

-note that i strongly dislike malina and those comics

[prince-liest]

Don't mind me getting on my soapbox for a moment... a lot of this musing is admittedly for the sake of my own processing of this topic, re: aroaceness. Read at your own peril! <3

I'm generally a very "ship and let ship" kind of person, but I think I would definitely append a little caveat of, like, "As long as you're not being actively invalidating and detrimental to others" to that. Which is a delightfully vague statement that can be interpreted practically any way, I know, hahaha.

In the case of this particular post I've just been thinking about how, like... seeing an aroace character like Alastor get written into dozens upon dozens of PWPs (including ones that don't even touch on the subject of his aceness at all) is really not something that I personally find to be hurtful or offensive. It's just smut for the sake of smut, of a character people want to see awful, sexy things done to (or doing). Valid! I vibe with you! More people should just write the PWPs they want to see in the world!

But on the other hand, I've several times seen this very particular type of art (usually it's a comic, but admittedly I haven't been reading very many Hazbin Hotel fics so maybe it's there, too) where Alastor is slotted into the "methinks the lady doth protest too much" trope. As in, he's expressing strong feelings about a character (usually Vox or Lucifer, sometimes Angel Dust) to someone, probably Rosie, and the person he's confiding to is some variant of, "Oh, silly Alastor, you're obviously in love!" And then he denies it, says that the very idea disgusts him, and the character titters to themselves about how he's so naive in the matters of romance or whatever.

And it's, like.

The "strong feelings" in question are almost always frustration/annoyance/disgust, and him being like, "Nnnno, I just hate his person" is treated like a silly and naive misunderstanding of his own feelings because obviously he's in love. Please imagine that Alastor was a female character who was established to be a lesbian. Now examine how that suddenly makes this scene feel.

(Also, Rosie being the go-to for this is a little frustrating when she's the one who, in canon, explicitly says that she wouldn't make that assumption of him.)

There's such a chasm of difference between how I see people wanting to ship Alastor for reasons of "I just want to!" vs folks who engage with him being aroace in ways that are infantilizing and invalidating. There are so many people out there - not just aro/ace people, but anyone who's not exclusively into the standard type of person they should be into at the time society deems they should be into them, which is most queer people and even many cishet folks - that have been told that exact kind of thing in real life. It reads like something out of a compulsory heterosexuality guidebook, and it actively makes it harder to leave the closet or even realize that you're in one at all.

So I guess it just feels frustrating to see it get made into a punchline, especially by folks who are shipping queer ships. I genuinely can't wait until fandom society advances to the point of consistently treating aro/acespec folks as queer instead of Queer Lite (TM), because let me tell you, ime the comphet experience and the amato/allonormativity experience are in fact nigh-identical except for how they're treated within online communities. There's a reason the pan -> gay -> ace pipeline is a thing.

But, hey! We're already doing way better than we were in 2012!

[a-grayscale]

In honor of pride month, here’s some modern cult of the lamb headcanons I have for the bishops+Lamb

Shamura, the majesty they are, would be super chill and nonchalant about it. Like, treating it like a typical Tuesday but with an extra bit of pizzazz or something like that. Think Pajama day; Still gotta do work but it’s still somehow more fun. I’m thinking they would be like:

Hmm? Oh, it’s Pride month? *Gets out a pride-themed mug for their coffee and puts a few pins on their clothes* Happy pride.

Kallamar would be all over it methinks. He gives off the vibe that he’s redecorate the entirety of his home every month to fit the aesthetics of the season anyway, so he’s prepared. I’m talking pride flags, rainbow fairy lights, fruit cake(get it? Cuz fruity? Hehehe), and an entire pride themed wardrobe. There is not a single atom in my being that doesn’t think this bitch would go extra AF.

Heket, whom I head-canon to be a very buff Lesbian, just does not care. Not in the sense that she doesn’t like the month of acceptance and everything but uhhh… She’d get REAL sick of the rainbows REAL FAST! Mostly from the obnoxious marketing from companies trying to make an extra buck, but sick of it nonetheless. I just think she’d get very drained very early on from all the everything. That being said, she will kiss her girlfriend in public right by that one homophobe’s house just to piss them off for HER version of pride. Which is feeding off the rage of haters.

Leshy most definitely is that one person who would reenact the “Move, I’m gay” meme. A whole month to cause mischief? And Chaos? All for being queer??? Oh he is ON BOARD!!! He is ABSOLUTELY going to make it everyone else’s problem!!! I’m talking a whole LIST of pride themed pranks! From glitter bombs that shoot rainbow sparkles, to graffiti pride flags on the side of the local Walmart, to egging someone’s (Narinder’s) house, with RAINBOW INSIDES BECAUSE YES HE MANAGED THAT!!! Leshy would be ecstatic for the opportunity to live out the saying: Be gay, do crime.

Narinder, the bisexual bitch, just doesn’t do shit… On his own, anyway. Before he met The Lamb, he basically treated it like any other day, just with cleaning up RAINBOW eggs instead of NORMAL eggs off his home. ( How Leshy managed to color the insides of eggs rainbow, he will never know) AFTER meeting the Lamb though… Well, suddenly he is all for it! Getting pins, joining the parades, connecting with other people, breaking into Leshy’s apartment and painting his floors blue knowing Leshy’s landlord will be stopping the next day as a counter prank, etc. He will never admit it aloud but Lamb single-handily put the happy in happy pride for him.

Lamb absolutely LOVES pride. They are very much extroverted and love doing fun stuff like going to parades and connecting with other people and singing Lady Gaga’s Born this way on karaoke night for all to hear! They aren’t SUPER crazy about it, but they love the experience and making new friends along the way. (Plus it helps them drag Narinder out of the house, so that’s a plus!)

[twsthc]

twst makeup styles ✶

unmentioned characters are headcanoned to have light/natural makeup, or no makeup at all ^_^ also tumblr only allows 30 images per post, part 2 is linked at the end !!

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last updated: feb 29, 2024

RIDDLE ROSEHEARTS : douyin natural / uzzlang makeup

his mom didnt want him using makeup (it would ruin his skin or smt)

imo natural makeup is the easiest to do so she was able to pick it up quickly at nrc (as someone w no previous makeup experience)

douyin aegyo sal hides the eyebags also lmao

DEUCE SPADE : beabadoobe makeup

idk its simple its easy its deuce

this style also goes really well with the style i hc him to have so

plus the eyeshadow carries over from his delinquent asshole era methinks

CATER DIAMOND : y2k makeup design

i already mentioned genderqueer super expressive cater let me bring it back

the rest of her face would be basic y2k but i imagine she goes crazy w the eye designs

LEONA KINGSCHOLAR : dark eyeshadow

NOT a full face just the eyeshadow and maybe some highlights

based off of scar from the lion king meowmeowmeow

AZUL ASHENGROTTO : drag / unconventional makeup

we musnt forget azuls ursula roots

he is literally based on a character based on a drag queen ok

how did they fuck up and make him so basic in-game???

FLOYD LEECH : banba gyaru / scene makeup

floyd mentioned once (one time) that he likes colorful things n i went crazy

also floyd is a scene kid TO ME so :3

JADE LEECH : metal / heavy punk

you already know why.

i also think it would be funny because i headcanon jade to have a yama girl/mori kei style, soft style + hard face is always nice

KALIM AL-ASIM : kogal / hime gyaru

um

i dont know myself what i was cooking here... but uh

here is a cute tiktok that inspired my lesbian gyaru kalim agenda

JAMIL VIPER : smokey eye makeup

uses kohl

no one knows how they get both wings right every time

part 2 here !!

[thecoolerliauditore]

Look I know you said it’s funnier without explanation but if you’re up for it, can you please share your thoughts on the freudian vibes post? I’m guessing that it’s Scott treating Cleo like a mom and Jimmy treating Martyn like a dad?

anon IDK why I felt the need to like. write an essay regarding this. You've basically got it down pact that's literally the whole joke everything else is stupid. but I made you wait so like. whatever man.

under the cut is the horrors but tl;dr:

martyn/jimmy: martyn needs to be someone's husband/dad to feel like he deserves to be loved and jimmy feels comfort in being cared for but is ultimately frustrated with being infantilized.

cleo/scott: much much muddier but cleo gives scott the privilege of being The Mature One who gets her (when scott is not this) while scott gets an illusion of unconditional stability (which cleo can only sometimes provide)

Martyn/Jimmy is the more cut and dry one, mostly sourcing from their Evo relationship and their interactions in traffic smp.

Martyn is someone who feels the need to be a provider/protector and feels frustrated when he is denied that role (e.g. look at his bridge conversation with Cleo in DL or his reaction to jimmy half-rejecting his offer to run away with him in 3L and acting spitefully towards jimmy at least verbally for the rest of the season).

In my head he is someone who feels as if he is undeserving of a certain level of emotional intimacy (often associated with romantic relationships) if he doesn't perform well enough in said role(s) since the people he strives to "protect"/"rescue" are often the same he acts romantically towards (Ren, Cleo, Jimmy).

This isn't a fully sound point since the southlanders and especially mumbo kind of contradict this but I think the southlanders were kind of a messy specific instance of the worst traits of every member all combining together to form an alliance from hell but that's for another post methinks. Grian is also an outlier but I'd argue that could be seen as him misdirecting his need to rescue jimmy onto the next guy he saw.

Jimmy, on the other hand, is often put into roles where he is assumed incapable of taking responsibility and thus denied of his agencies and thus he ends up in this weird position where, depending on who he is with, he is either someone's tradwife or everyone's youngest brother. What responsibilities he does get are often whatever is deemed most unimportant by the other party he's with, regardless of whether those things are actually important (e.g. him taking care of Martyn emotionally when he spirals in Evo during the election arc).

I'm not actually a massive jimmy guy so I can't say for sure what his feelings towards Martyn are, but whatever they are they seem to be heavily conflicting. Jimmy is more abrasive towards Martyn and seems to be more comfortable teasing him and making jokes at his expense, but at the same time becomes cold to him very easily, such as in 3L when he began shooting specifically at Martyn right before his final death or in SL when he tries to kill Martyn and then runs away stating that he "can't go home now". To me, it is as if Jimmy is frustrated with the "incapable" role he gets put into which his relationship with Martyn epitomizes both the romantic and caretaker aspects of, but at the same time Martyn brings him a level of nostalgic comfort.

TL;DR jimmy reminds me of this:

(from: "my lesbian experience with loneliness")

one final note regarding jimmy/martyn: this could go the other way around as well, with the aforementioned emotional care jimmy gives martyn in evo as well as one throwaway line near the end of the series where martyn says something to the effect of "thank god you're back, I don't know how to cook or anything". However I don't think this point is too important since the big point of this is jimmy and martyn wanting to feel loved and cared for by eachother with the conflicting feelings attached.

I'm having a lot of trouble putting the Scott/Cleo section into words rn but I'll reblog this with that added later when I'm processing information in a more digestible manner 👍

[meirimerens]

Tell us about the rat catcher and aysa!! Been thinkin about them and wanted to listen what other people think

RATLYONINA

okay here's the lore i made up in my head.

first of all Who (do i think) Are They:

Aysa Klyonina: Aysa has like A Presence within the in-game narrative and we have some info about her: friend of Yulia, lives in the the Trammel with her, and is an engineer who helps her with calculations (in P2, Yulia has the title of Mathematician, and Aysa being an engineer means she puts the math to practical designs/execution). she's a woman in STEM ♥. as i've drawn [here], methinks aysa as an (unreciprocated) crush on yulia. i think their cohabitation started as Women Hanging Out Together (platonically/professionally)/like if the Trammel was a lesbian commune but it's one house & then Aysa developed her little crush. while i've depicted Yulias as [CLUELESS] i think it evolves into YOU HAVE THE POWER TO GET YOURSELF OTHER BITCHES for she is a staunch monogamist (something her girlfriend doesn't have to be) in a committed relationship.

Rat Catcher: the Rat Catcher only appears in Burakh's 3rd death cutscene and has no apparition outside of it, in the narrative that is meant to represent a "real world"/lived experience. while her name implies she catches rat, she's apparently only worried about one, a big one, that burakh let loose coming in. she's a metanarrative device. However comma she has to me Pied Piper vibes; while P2 doesn't have rats and instead has gerbils, i think this is so sick and twisted, and i think they should have normal rats, and she should handle rats, and she can play the flute to rally the rats. she has pet rats (normal rats) that she trains for the theatre and to act as messenger. while her Starling model makes her look a little bit #afraid i think she is mischievous in the same ways Mark is: indeed i think she is his sister. i looove making up family bonds between characters i did it for dandy & catnip already. she's a silly. she handles rats. she's a metanarrative device that dwells in the layer that's "under" the main game, within the mechanisms of the game such as death. but unlike Mark she deals less with the ambiguous/meta[phorical/physical], the sneakiness, etc. she's way more normal about it, i think mostly she vibes. she is aware of her place as a chthonic type of figure, but unlike her brother who heavily plays on it, she just Lives Here. this is the rat catcher. she strikes me as an Olga because it's passe-partout, it's common, it's unsuspecting. she's like a little mouse in that.

HOW DID THEY MEET?

by doing her calculations for the making of the very town, Yulia deals with the underliements. the subterranean Narrative-Wise of the town. it is by accompanying her in these endeavors that Aysa met First Name Rat Last Name Catcher (FNRLNC). the very first time, i think they just spotted each other as aysa & yulia were taking measurements around the Theatre and FNRLNC was on her smoke break (i also think all three are smokers, yulia the heaviest of them three). just smiled & nodded & carried on. Aysa & FNRLNC kept running into each other as Aysa was on the field taking More measurements and trying out some prototypes/designs out there. by digging into how the un-roads are intertwined you run into this woman it just is how it is. they struck up conversation. possibly asked for a cigarette or offered one. i think aysa is kinda shy/reserved, one of the reasons her and yulia work well together is because they kinda behave like nervous animals, but FNRLNC is more extraverted, a little bit quirky outwardly. i think she started finding aysa cute first, maybe flirted openly, but aysa was like 🧍‍♀️ (<- clueless because since she can't flirt she doesn't know how others would do it). FNRLNC was like It is what it is and didn't push further. i think yulia & aysa came across multiple rat nests when doing the roadlayings, and who you gonna call.... ratcatcher!! i think when aysa saw her breaking out the flute and pied-piper them outta the way she became like Damn........... (she loves a woman with a strange and unusual talent) and that's how it started.

she would get out of the house pretending she needed to check on a water pump, or a sewer grid, or a bridge, whatever, and go hang out with FNRLNC. smoking. FNRLNC showing her her pet rats & aysa being like "(deathly afraid) aw so cutes". you know..............

[unlimitedgolden]

I have toontown headcanons to share so I'm going to just go for it + canon honorifics

PRONOUNS!!!!!!11!11 ROMANCE!!11 AHHHHH1!!!11

Deep Diver is a bigender baddie, she/he (Mr/Ms). Update: I think it'd be really funny if Deep Diver was bigender and bisexual. baby bi bi bi,,,

Gatekeeper she/her (Ms) and also the swaggiest butch lesbian you'll ever see

Firestarter he/they (Mr/Mx) otd. My brain says demiboy and I KNOW he is gay as hell

Featherbedder they/he/she (Mx/Mr/Ms), non-binary in some way, most likely genderfluid. I don't know enough about them right now so that's all I got

Major Player he/hymn (Mr) (this is straight up from the official server), and I honestly think he's pan with a preference to men (Buck Ruffler and their freaky fusion)

Chainsaw Consultant looking like a he/they (Mr) transman, I also think he's bi

Mouthpiece my grandma. She/her (Mrs) and I am a trans grandma truther. She is the elder transhet to me.

Rainmaker she/they (Ms/Mx) and CALL ME INSANE BUT I think they're transmasc and I love her ok. Also bi

Witch Hunter he/him (Mr) and I don't know enough about him yet except he seems like a miserable bloke and a hater

Duck Shuffler he/they/it (Mr) transmasc (projecting lowkey) and he is gay as hell as well idc

Treekiller he/him (Mr) and I don't know enough about him yet either SORRY

Plutocrat he/him (Don/Mr) he seems cishet but I also don't know enough about him either

Bellringer he/him (Mr). I think he's cis but experimenting with he/they. Bi, British, Bell.

Prethinker he/him (Mr) transman? Transmasc? Not sure but he's transgender. Also pan

Multislacker He/They but maybe she too (Mr/Mx) methinks genderfluid. Its the colourscheme I promise. Somewhere on the asexual spectrum to me. Romance? Maybe, maybe not. Not sure.

Pacesetter he/him (Mr) + transman swagger with the gay gay boyfriend on top

RELATIONSHIPS + FAMILY WOOOAHHHH

Prefacing this with the warning of multishipping for funsies and I am a believer of polycules argue with the wall

Deep Diver according to cogs.ink hates Gatekeeper and Treekiller which is so funny to me because I think Deep Diver and Gatekeeper would be cute together

Deep Diver/Gatekeeper with Rainmaker is also so fire. Polycule them NOW

Firestarter and Pacesetter canon boyfriends

Also that one headcanon of Firestarter and Rainmaker being siblings is so cute I'm adopting it

Major Player fused with Duck Shuffler that one time and even though its not a canon event they're really good together. Love wins in every universe

Chainsaw Consultant with Duck Shuffler (thanks Sludge) kissy mwah mwah

Chainsaw Consultant and Rainmaker t4t swagger btw

Rainmaker already mentioned all above but yeah she should get soooo much love. Love wins. Multishipping wins. Polycules win.

Duck Shuffler has two hands to hold one for Major Player and one for Chainsaw Consultant. Polycules babeeey!!! And then I'm on his leg like a diseased animal.

Treekiller and Chainsaw Consultant brothers for realsies

Sometimes I think about that animatic with Plutocrat being interested in Mouthpiece with the spongebob audio. Yknow the one by cogmics. Lives in my head

Bellringer and Prethinker kissing. Idk where it came from but I think they're cute too

Also whoever came up with Pacesetter and Multislacker having a sibling like bond os brilliant. Adopted that hc now too.

Other STUPID HCS before I forget

RUNNING IN TO EDIT THIS BEFORE I FORGET. DUCK SHUFFLER AUTISM ADHD COMBO

CHAINSAW CONSULTANT AUTISM HC REAL TOO

I was talking to my sister about this one but I think it'd be funny if cogs reproduced by just building their offspring like in the Robots movie.

Building my son from scrap parts I found

And again in convo with my sister it'd be funny if toons reproduced by just drawing their children since they're literally cartoons

She said if you look ugly as a toon sorry your parents were just bad at art LMFAO

Furthermore this was to build our own lore on why our toons are siblings but different species and since we agree our dad would be a cog (which I did design) that he must've drawn our toons

Mfw we are our fathers oc

OK I think that's everything for now. I'm immediately sending this to everyone I know for approval

[angyo]

Been seeing videos in my recs a lot lately about women in anime and misogyny in anime and it is a worthwhile topic. However, as an anime woman enthusiast methinks it's a bad sign when none of your thumbnail women are from yuri/yuri adjacent shows. Lmao are you even trying?

Not just because yuri is good, but like. If you actually wanna see plot important women in anime it is INEVITABLE for you to watch a girl's band show, or a kirara show, or fucking utena lmao

Got makima chainsaw man and not bocchi the rock? Lmao, i think you just don't care enough to seek out shows about women. Don't call it an anime problem if you're only familiar with battle shounen. Be like if i complained about anime's consistent struggle to balance lesbian subtext with a coherent plot and themes. As if it was an all of anime issue and not specific to my experience as a yuri fan

[regretevator-kindness]

the term lesboys can be used by many people

-cis butch lesbians (most common. support them)

-multigender lesbians (support them)

-male lesbians (support bc who cares + experiments)

think of it this way. all of these identies are like pokemon cards. they just used to tell ppl smth about yourself, in the end people are dying and these words don't matter.

we all at risk of being hate crimed. and this drama has just been evolving.

rn its lesboys, but it used to be nonbinary people, and before that trans ppl.

infighting solves nothing we must unite against the people who want to kill us -punkie anon

thank you punkie anon, i really appreciate your kindness and the easy to understand explanation. i will be removing the "lesboys dni" from my pinned very soon !! also the pinned in general needs to be updated methinks

i'll do my best to care less about something like this, and i'll do my best to be better!

[lesboylycan]

okay, let's do this...

[werebeastlybutchboy -> lesboylycan]

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uh. hi, hello. we are a multi-origins spontaneous-adaptive mediple polyfrag plural collective of 550+ who is collectively an it/its ze/hir transsexual auto/mspec pansybutch lesbian (to keep it concise, that is); this blog is mainly run by Wolf, a subsystem of sorts of six. you can find their names below in the tagging system, and more detail about them on our plurality-specific blog, @leptonyx-constellate. our selfship blog is @local-lovey-wolfboy, although not everything we post there is exclusively about selfshipping. note: we are bodily an adult, although we prefer not to state our actual age.

we are explicitly proship/profic; if you don't like that, leave. i don't want any trouble with anyone, and if you're an anti, i don't want to be around you. we are also pro-selfshipping, but you'd see that if you looked at our other blog for just about two seconds anyway.

when wei use we/us/our/ours/oursel[f/ves], wei're talking about the collective as a whole. when wei use wei/meus/myur/miurs/myursel[f/ves], wei're talking just about myurselves, Wolf. note that we are disordered via a CDD (but don't consider ourselves to be a system largely due to semantics that really only bug us when it comes to ourselves), but wei consider myurselves to be disordered (and a system) due to our/myur AVPD, which influenced both how wei split and how wei currently function.

we are considered a "clinical lycanthrope", although our insight comes and goes; we refer to ourselves as a wolf or wolfbeast, and we block reality checkers indiscriminately. we occasionally experience the delusion that we are an alien*. our nonhuman sideblog is @rotting-bones-will-sing.

do not reality check us. we are a wolf through and through (although we occasionally turn into other things), and not only would calling us human be wrong, it'll also make us hate your guts forever and will make our paranoia around getting "caught" worse. referring to us as a human or trying to tell us we aren't a wolf is the fastest way to make us block you. we are healthiest mentally when we are a wolfbeast.

* never refer to us being an alien as a delusion while we are in it. continue referring to us as a wolf or wolfbeast as you would normally; this only happens in times of severe mental, emotional, or physical distress and/or exertion. continuing to refer to us as a wolf will help us get back to baseline.

we're physically disabled and use both forearm crutches and a wheelchair. we also have ASPD, NPD, AVPD, and are schizophrenic + autistic, among other things. we have DID, but our plurality came before it and we are metaphysical in nature; we believe we were predisposed to developing (polyfrag) DID due to our schizophrenia and autism, among other things.

aspd/npd/bpd/hpd abuse isn't a real or distinct form of abuse, don't come within a 10 foot pole if you think it is, or else i am spraying you with a pressure washer.

asks are cool and good, we don't care who you are or anything so long as you're polite. this blog is mostly about reblogs along with stuff about queerness, our nonhumanity, and whatever else. we don't have an explicit DNI other than "if you dislike anything we say on this post or believe we're lying/in denial/can't be any of the things we say we are, leave" and the block button. if you want something a bit clearer for any reason, go to our selfship or plurality blogs.

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uh. yeah. that's about it methinks--oh wait tags (below cut)

minors, block #horny posting. that is the tag for sexually explicit posts. come back when you're eighteen. the #nsft tag contains all #horny posting tag content, but it also contains stuff like mild sex jokes for the folks who are entirely sex repulsed.

#it's me - stuff by Wolf (could be from Oakley, Matty, Dave, Twitch, Inti, or Junie)

#[name].txt - stuff by headmates who aren't part of Wolf; eg., Snail.exe, Mimic.exe, Carmen.exe, Owl.exe, etc

#nonhuman things - formerly #werecreature things; anything about being nonhuman. includes posts/reblogs about or related to therianthropy, 'kinnity, CL, and being an alien.

#plurality - anything about plurality

#queering shit up - stuff about us being queer (trans, butch, bi male lesbian, etc) or about queerness/queer identity in general

#the neuro diverges - anything about or related to [our] neurodivergency (aside from plurality as that has its own tag), including (but not limited to): autism, schizophrenia, ASPD, NPD, AvPD, etc; not exclusive of physical disability (see: VSS and migraine being neurological disorders while also physically disabling; see: neurodivergence - the possession of a brain that deviates from standard)

#leopard seals - leopard seals #other seals - other seals (including sea lions, fur seals, eared seals, etc)

#avpd posting - posts about our AVPD

#the body bad - anything about our physical disabilities; not exclusive of neurodivergency (see: VSS and migraine being neurological disorders while also physically disabling; see: neurodivergence - the possession of a brain that deviates from standard)

#asks - asks

#hate mail - anon hate #ambiguous mail - we are exceedingly bad at tone, so this is for the asks that we can't tell if they're anon hate or not #ask games - ask games #anonymous - anon asks #[insert blog url] - non-anon asks

#fandom stuff - fandom stuff, mostly Wobbledogs, Dimension20, + a smattering of Hermitcraft/MCYT and a little bit of meus talking about our old fandom (which wei will not name). sometimes other things will be mentioned on occasion (SFTH, The Amazing Devil, etc)

#tw [thing] - trigger warn tag. note: wei won't be tagging myur posts about being an alien or a wolf as unreality. don't ask. (however, wei will tag [other] unreality things as unreality if wei ever post/reblog them, but wei most likely won't--wei myurselves have the tag blocked)

#rebloop - reblogged posts

#self rebloop - reblogs of myur own posts

#moots - original posts and asks from our mutuals!

#nsft - nsfw posts, ranging from mild to ghost pepper spicy (although it's very VERY rarely that one lol. usually mild/implied). sometimes nsfw comes down to "funny sex joke" for the folks who are entirely sex repulsed.

#horny posting - nsfw posts that are explicitly horny and sexual. minors, block this tag, or at the very least by the GODS do not interact with any of these posts. wait until you're 18, they'll still be there. all horny posts are nsfw, not all nsfw posts are horny.

#house work - blog maintenance (announcements, updates, etc)

[cookies-over-yonder]

cookies you've given me too much power by giving me any kind of opening to talk about Glenns gender . let me just say you've brought this upon yourself .

gonna word salad in your ask box about Glenn close <3 also just realized you haven't seen the post I made a bit ago about Glenn being transmasc and amab so I can go over that shit again >:] OK ! so !! in my silly little headcannon , Glenn is amab , but also spends every second of his gay little life fucking with gender . I think in like . his late teens-20s he went by she/her and she was super feminine and she absolutely loved every second of it . I don't think she got any surgeries , but she definitely went on estrogen and I think she probably stays on it even after "detransitioning" . but I think then probably in her later 20s/early 30s she realized she was more of a gnc guy than a girl at that point . so in my oh so humble opinion , bringing my beloved wife Morgan into this , Morgan is a lesbian , please and thank you , no I am not taking further questions (I absolutely am please send me Morgan questions I'm begging you) anyways , so personally I think Glenn was probably fem the entire time her and Morgan were together , i also have many thoughts about Morgan's gender , but were not talking abt her rn <3 anyways ! Glenn ! so methinks that around the time when Nick was born glenn was starting to lean more into the nonbinary side , probably using she/they while Nick was like . 1-4 ish ? and then after that it was they/them for a few years and then after Morgan's death they kinda just ... gave up and decided they didn't need to be bothering so much with gender , he needed to be a good father to his kid . one thing about me is I love thinking about Glenn close , the og repressive guy <3 I think after Morgan's death Glenn didn't really notice all the small joys he dropped because of that . he tried to swipe it all under the rug of just things that happen and obviously it has nothing to do with his spouse's death no-siree :D anyways , after Morgan's death Glenn didnt really let themself find joy in many things . he decided he needed to start becoming at least a little bit more of a "normal parent" . he stopped being comfortable expressing the more feminine parts of themself and it absolutely did not help her through morgans death . methinks Morgan was a lot of the reason Glenn was comfortable experimenting with their gender , and now that she's gone , their feminity just reminds him of her , and as Glenn does , she immediately tries to distance himself as far as possible instead of actually dealing with things <3 I do still think glenn stayed on estrogen bcs they were afraid of change (or at least that's what she tells herself) , and also keeps his hair long . bcs of the rocker vibes (no it's bcs of the transgender spotlight aimed at her constantly) but doesn't really allow themself to dress super feminine , cause they're a dude . honestly . for real . 100% a guy . no girl here . but also . sometimes someone will just see them from the back and ask "ma'am?" and Glenn feels her heart skip a beat bcs *yeah that's me I'm maam* but then instinctively stamps it down with a "nah, but dont worry about it , its chill" i think it probably takes glenn a really long time to be comfortable honestly expressing themself again , but I think eventually she does . it's probably when he gets back with Morgan tho , seeing her again and even before they actually get together honestly . I think they were probably just friends for a while when Morgan was still with Jodie , but even being around her made Glenn more comfortable being herself again <3 Glenn is a very genderqueer to me , I think once they're comfortable wirh themselves again they use all pronouns , but traditionally feminine terms still give them that little jolt of euphoria , even if she's still fine and comfortable with other pronouns as well . there's just nothing to him like wearing a dress and being called pretty , that's all <3

ok i could probably keep going but also my thumbs are tired so that's all for rn , anyways <3 hope you enjoy my silly Glenn rant <3 I love her so much <333

i love this so much!! also i will gladly give you all the power you so desire because i adore reading your rambles!! i'm sorry my response isn't as juicy as this entire ask because i've got a bit of a headache coming on but i want you to know that i really do love your interpretation of glenn's gender ♡

[genderplugin]

tw// me being annoying

ok so like for gender and sexuality are completely divorced people shut up i haven’t reconciled that and ever since i came out and it has broken my brain >:(

i guess i am probably bisexual but i def like boys more but i seriously hate talking about dating stuff/attraction with my friends because i swear i can literally feel their perception of my gender change whenever i talk about it. it really scares me because like i will feel lots of guilt around my gender and how i’m “performing” and idk i’ve had so many experiences now where i’ll talk about boys i’m obsessed with and people will just talk to me like i’m a faggot or twink 😭 idk i usually feel pretty ok with how i’m perceived with friends but like as soon as i talk about attraction like i literally wanna put my hands on my head and rip my skin off. i’m def not lesbian but there’s like such a stigma around all trans girls being lesbians and i’m terrified to be seen that way too… i feel like people poke fun at it in both ways where if i like boys i’m gay and if i like girls i’m actually just a straight man and i can’t fucking win… i don’t know the amount of times i have been called a twink when i go out dancing has had such a bad effect on my sense of self 😵‍💫😵‍💫 (also fuck djboywife lol). it’s gotten to the point where i like literally get sad when gay men are attracted to me and it happens literally all the time. even last summer i was seeing this guy for like a month and he would say so much shit to me that wasn’t mean spirited but would get in my head so badly :-( like he would always ask my to top him and one time said my facial hair was tickling his face (immediately started laser after this) and i was like oh this person definitely sees me as a man :)))) and like i was dumb enough to ask him about it and he said he was attracted to how “androgynous” i am 😭

like i don’t know i don’t actually hate the idea that sometimes during sex i should feel more fem and sometimes i should feel more masc like that’s kind of a pretty idea but i swear i’ve had some of my most dysphoric moments during it and like i will literally go nonverbal.

and ALSOOO like big thing i hate the way other trans women talk to me so much. like haha funny trans women are all horny but literally they just say deranged shit to me that i doubt they would say to a cis woman so quickly and it makes me feel so gross like how about u be nice to me for like 10 texts instead of talking about what u want to do to me!!!! and then i feel like i can’t even be mad at them because i’m like a prude or something and should just be comfortable with people saying deranged shit to me when i barely know them just because we are both trans???????????? like i get being down bad sexting is fun but it’s seriously like the lack of even seeing me as a person before they start that that makes me wanna cry

really i’m just exhausted and angry because whenever i yearn i feel like i have to do it correctly or else it will affect people’s perception of me and it’s so fucking annoying. i could be literally crazy and projecting my insecurities ig but also like, i don’t know i see that pattern with how people treat me 😭😭 like i just wanna like pretty boys who actually see me as a woman but it always feels so impossible!!!!!!!!

anyways this was entirely incoherent i’m sure i started points and didn’t finish them but i’m not reading any of this again before i post i am just sad methinks

[hareefaree]

Journal - 2022 Fall Reflections - Pre-Production and The Dressmaker Project - P1

EDIT: Part 2 | Part 3 | Final Photos

So perhaps my biggest project of the semester was this several-month long set/stop-motion preproduction project. My working title is The Dressmaker Project since thats the main character's vibe. Basically I just spent 4 months building, texturing, and crafting these two sets and a single puppet to just kinda live in it, based off of old photos and memories (round the 70s/80s) of my mother's childhood home in Bombay.

Process under the cut! Animation reflections here and game design here!

So I knew I wanted to work in 70s-80s india (for some reason this period just sings to me, my first 3D-puppet stop motion project was like 70s bollywood) so I spent most of the early semester watching vintage Bollywood films and asking my parents for photos and stories about growing up in Mumbai. I've also not been back to India in a while - since my grandfather died, actually - and usually when we go I call my grandparents' house/my mother's childhood flat home. I was feeling home(ish?)sick and was also super excited about coming out as a lesbian.

(photos from my mom's childhood)

So my goal was to capture like... young womanhood/girlhood in Bombay, the feeling you get of desiring something just out of reach, about wanting closeness with your girl peers that you can't cross over. I also learned a lot about the 1990 Mumbai riots, Bal Thackeray, and how that sorta framed modern Indian politics, sectarianism, etc.

Some films I watched for vibe reasons! Arth (1982), Sancharram/The Journey (2004), Parinda (1989), Fire (1996), Bombay (1995). At some point through this I became like, a massive Shabana Azmi fan lol. None of these are from the 70s. I am realizing that now.

I also listened to a lot of 70s bollywood and just general disco-pop music. You can find my work playlist here!

So yeah! Concept wise I was REALLY strong about my set but less so about my character. You'll see how that worked out for me :P

Some concept work:

(I really want to solidify my puppet making style. I love paper heads and felted bodies and I wanted a very shapey design. I don't think the character design on the left was super attainable or that it reflects the direction I was going with the character... but its a good design that would be fun to animate in a 2D style methinks.) Also the armature drawing looks disgusting bc there was epoxy putty and sculpey all over that thing.)

Some cardboard set experiments (my stop mo professor has been drilling it into our heads to map out the set on paper and test dimensions with cardboard cutouts. She's right):

So yeah! Two sets, one in which you can look to the other one via window. Pretty ambitious of me on its own, on top of that both sets would have to feel lived in...

Part 2 for texturing process!

[aviiarie]

FURINA'S WIFE RETURN;!!!!!!!!!!

i really really appreciate your response to the novel length ask thingie i sent HHEEHHE thank you ARGH it is comforting to know i wasn't alone. I FELT LIKE I WAS GOING CRAZY BECAUSE THERE ARE A TOTAL OF Zero GAYS IN MY AREA AND I FELT. so confused. very lost.

I'M SO SORRY ABOUT YOUR CHILDHOOD FRIEND OMG THAT MUST SUCK REAL BAD TOO. mayhaps i am projecting once again but theory. despite having evolved for it, humans find it difficult to adapt to change. wrote that like i myself am not one but there's such a common phenomenon of yearning for the past and even the fact that nostalgia is a thing supports that. Methinks. If that's a dumb thing to say then nvm I didn't say anything but if it's smart then I am indeed taking all the credit ever OH YES SORRY SIDE TRACKED SIDE TRACKED. with what you said yeah i can't imagine how rough that'd be to keep seeing someone from your past, especially who you used to be close with, and have to act like you don't have years of experiences behind you both arhrhgh awful I'M SO SORRY.

it is indeed two days later and i know it's really soon to be saying anything but i do feel better all around so far! like. this is a commonly used turn of phrase but i just feel lighter. everything feels lighter. and my posture is still god awful but some of my back pain disappeared????? i may just be connecting the wrong things but . it's noteworthy????

READING WHAT YOU SAID. AND THEN SCROLLING UP TO SEE WHAT I SAID. I COULD NOOOT STOP LAUGHING. like the conversation we had HHAHAHAHAHA OH MY GOD IN HINDSIGHT THAT WAS . REALLY BAD. it's just so fascinating to me how something that is such a massive life-altering event to one person is barely hanging on by a thread to the mind of another. at the same time, i think having that conversation, no matter how awkward and stupid it ended up being, was really cathartic. She may not have thought about it a fraction as much as I have, sure, but at least she never hated me. I think I knew that somewhere in the back of my head. It's nice to be affirmed!!!

I FELL ASLEEP WHILE WRITING THIS. IT IS THE NEXT MORNING. I SWEAR THERE WAS OTHER STUFF BUT I CANNOT REMEMBER ARGRGGRHHHH!!!!!!! I HOPE THIS SUFFICES. HAVE A GOOD DAY!!!! THANK YOU FOR READING AND GIVING ME YOUR TIME!!!!!!!!!

SIGNED!!!!! FURINA'S WIFE!!!!!!!!!!!! WITH LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HELLO!!!!!!! and don't worry i feel youuuu... at my old school there was like one lesbian, plus a bunch of homophobia so....... not a good place for a young sapphic 😭😭😭

and don't worry, it doesn't bother me much anymore :') it was pretty hard for me to handle it when i was a kid, but it's just a lot of nostalgia now... it is a bit awkward i guess, she lives closer to me now and i don't really know what to say when i see her, but i know she's doing well and i'm happy for her. in the end the whole separating thing wasn't either of our faults, we just kinda drifted apart. it happens. it's sad, but it happens.

but that's good that you're feeling a bit better! it gets much better from here, i promise. it is a bit interesting thinking about it though? it makes me wonder, are there people i've met in my life who still think about me, even after their face has turned blurry in my memories....?

HAHAHA I HOPE YOUR DAY IS GOOD TOO!!! SEE YOUUUU

[hopeshoodie]

What is it like being a lesbian??

Jsjsjsjjsjsjsjjsjsjsjsjs this question is SENDING MEEEEEEE

Consider: women hot.

[actualbird]

First of all! Hello, Hello!!! Hope you're doing well!

Regarding your - Artem has the oldest daughter vibes - post. HE'S TRANS YOUR HONOUR!!! IT ALL MAKES SENSE NOW! 😂❤️

But in all seriousness, I gave it some thought and out of all of them, Artem being trans would make the most sense? Just the way he is as a person? You know? *Vaguely gestures with my hands*. One thing that stood out to me was how touched starved and touch averse he seemed? I know it's contradictory but as much as I remember, he was always hesitant to touch Rosa and would be an absolute mess when touched by her?

So what if, it's because he doesn't want to make others uncomfortable with his touch, especially if it's a woman? (And especially if he likes that woman). Because he was made uncomfortable by others, in this case mostly men, when he was younger? I've noticed that most men are far more likely to just casually touch women? Even if the touch isn't sexual/romantic in nature? Like a brush of a hand here, holding a woman's waist while you're passing her in a tight space? Like, you wouldn't do that to a man, so... Artem is just very aware? Like, aware too much, to a point where he can never relax among others?

I might be projecting too much! So please ignore this if you don't agree! It's just something I noticed! Me and my trans friend, we talked about something similar recently - noticed that he would be a bit hesitant to be more physically affectionate with me and we had a long conversation about it!

And... I haven't touched the game in about half a year! 😅 I still love the game! I just "play" it vicariously through you! 😂 So there might have been more things revealed about Artem I'm not aware of!

Please take care! ❤️

- The Hibiscus anon! 🌺 I'M NOT DEAD! 😂

irt despite being a man, artem is eldest daughter all girls catholic school student vibes

oh my gosh, HIBISCUS!! HI HI :DDD!! it's awesome to hear from u again and i hope ur doing well!!!

while i am in no way an artem expert (thats sam) and am pretty behind on his cards, i still shake ur hand so much cuz UR SO RIGHT.

like, listen. at this point ive got a schrondinger's headcanon where certain members of the nxx team or the ENTIRE team is simultaneously not trans or definitely trans/experiencing gender in a non-cis way. yes they are. all the time. but only when it sparks joy in me. also all the time. do u understand, i understand. still, i deffo understand and adore why artem also gives of trans vibes.

like, so much of artem's extreme carefulness with matters of the heart or even just matters of relating to other people personally, the fact that he goes about this in a meticulous and often overthinking manner because he hasnt done it/gotten the chance to experience it much before is something that resonates a lot with a bunch of queer identities. the fact that he holds a lot of himself and his personality/interests close and not many people know him on a personal level, that also resonates with queer experiences. the fact that certain things that are "obvious" to other people are things that are not as obvious to him, also queer (and also also something i like to interpret as a neurodivergent trait, but thats a whole other ask response). hell, even the notion that artem is doing things "later" than is usually expected (like romance).

all of these things (which i guess can be mushed into the over-arching statement of "over-thinking because we didnt experience the world on the usual timeline many other people experience and thus we have to be extra careful to avoid failure") fit well with a BUNCH of queer experiences, methinks

(source: me. cuz im queer and i like artem)

additionally, i got reminded of this awesome response mariuscomehome wrote about artem viewed from a lesbian lens. i DEFINITELY recommend u read it!!!

//smacks artem like a car im selling. THIS GUY CAN FIT SO MUCH QUEERNESS INTO HIM!!!!!

i think i went off on a tangent here but yeah. ur so right. artem trans vibes too, whether it be for fitting theme/characterization reasons or just cuz headcanons are fun as hell anyway :'D