#content fatigue

[thisthat-ortheother]

…this is actually a bunch of friendly but important reminders standing on each others’ shoulders in a poll-shaped trench coat. btw

[nell0-0]

Success! Inbox finally cleared!

There were a bit more asks but I just deleted some because of... reasons. Look, I love getting asks even if sometimes I can't find the motivation to answer soonish, and requesting stuff is totally fine!

But I would appreciate it if it were more like suggestions and less like demands. My interests shift and there's a ton of stuff I would like to draw. I don't like being told what to do tbh ksksks. If it ain't fun, then I ain't doing it. This is a hobby after all.

Having said that, thanks to everyone who stuck around for my submas stuff, I had a lot of fun in the fandom! I'm taking a break from PLA + submas for more TLOZ + LU stuff since that's my current hyperfixation tho. Maybe I'll be back in the future, maybe not, we'll see ^^

[quanticq]

Hey Q! Sorry for bothering you, but for some reason I can no longer find any of your tik tok accounts 😭 Did they get deleted or something?

Hi this is Q! I’m coming out of the woodwork to address this, since I did went radio silent out of the blue so it’s not a bother at all

The short answer is Yes, I deleted my tiktok

Yes delete not deactivate, I’m not coming back to That app or IG or Twt, I deleted my socials except here and YouTube, I honestly felt so overwhelmed with everything, I realized I’m not even posting for myself anymore there. A lots of people crossed my boundaries time and time again I felt so helpless, bitter with myself. I guess I was just overwhelmed with the attention I got; both positive and negatives ones.

Im done and I want to start over so that’s why I’m here and on YouTube, I already posted some of these on my community tab on YT but here’s what I have in mind for the future of the content I want to create: more detail under the cut, and also;

CW: very brief mention of spiraling, harm inflict oneself or others, paranoia, etc

•Long-form content: my attention span is a bit messed up from consuming and making short-form content to the point where I can’t focus in university. I want to create something meaningful. It’s not that my previous content was not meaningful, no. I had fun and no time is wasted when I have fun, it was warm… but as I mentioned earlier, I just felt this lingering bitterness the longer I stayed making those short-form content. It really felt like I was on the verge of losing it. Especially with how the bigger following I have the less people think of me as a person than just another content creator you see on the internet,

I want to create long-form content, I’m so tired of forcing myself to generate 15 second content. On tiktok it just feels like I’m just creating and not really connecting. I want to try something new, maybe create an open space for meaningful discussion in the comments. I don’t think I can stand another copy-paste tiktok comment anymore. You know what I meant if you’re frequent on that app.

•Art Content with Commentary: and don’t worry this won’t be those petty artist drama issue, but I will still cover anything serious

it could be love letters or video essays ranging from fan fictions, fandom culture, the art scene and so much more. I may even share a bit of my personal life, this will be self indulgent after all! I want to make it fun for myself and as well to those who comes across my channel. I really REALLY want to create a genuine following.

On tiktok it’s so easy to gain following but not so easy to retain them, it’s mostly because of the algorithm and the FYP feature there.

On Tiktok most content that would get featured as an artist there would be creative work has to be either; more than exceptional which is pressuring enough already to consistent posters, straight up suggestive content shown to minors (tiktok doesn’t really have a blocked keywords feature but it’s so disheartening to see these creators intentionally not using the sensitive warning since it could limit their reach significantly) oh yes we can’t forget the negativity surrounding beginner artists or “art lore”

All of this cesspool of negativity, it’s a whole can of worms but it will be one of my prominent topics that I wish to discuss in my future art commentaries. I hope you guys are looking forward to those! I might bring in a few people or so to talk about it with me

and finally;

•Streaming: I used to do a lot of streams during the weekends on the clock app and it was super fun! I want to bring that back but that would have to wait since I’m unfamiliar with some features on YouTube, and I’m aware that YT does not have a discoverable feature for stream but that’s alright, I want to start something small first.

In short; I’ll figure it out! just need some baby steps before I start streaming again.

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I apologize for deleting everything out of the blue, if I’m gonna be honest it was partially planned because I’ve been thinking about deleting my tiktok, twitter and Instagram for a while now but how it happened? In my breakdown I realized that I don’t want anyone to see me spiral, especially now that I realized how young my audience are, I’m not sure how that happened but I guess posting fandom contents does attract the young ones somehow inevitably, even though my content is nowhere near as suggestive, but I do talk about serious topics from time to time… but I digress, its not fair for them to deal with me if they see me spiral publicly,

it is especially not fair to them to console me. When I was younger than 14, I’ve been in a position where I have to talk down someone who was older, maybe 4-5 years older than me, from harming themselves or anyone, it was traumatizing and unpleasant. I don’t wish for anyone to go through that, it’s very painful.

It’s been… hard for me to ground myself. Ive been seeing things through a kaleidoscope of emotions; I was trying to focus on everything but it’s just too overwhelming so eventually I cracked. But please don’t worry I’ve been doing better now, after some time away from my online persona, and of course spending time with my beloved girlfriend, I see things much more clearly now.

Thank you to anyone who read this and much so appreciate those who understand where I’m coming from

Also now that I think of it can my stuff be considered as lost media now? Amazing! But please don’t be sad the fun I had was genuine!

Thank you again to those who genuinely enjoyed my content on tiktok but it’s time for me to try my hand at something new, I will still be dwelling in my creative headspace just.. away from public for now,

if you’re looking forward for my future post, make sure to check out my YouTube! I still have a lot I need to cook hehe, this is one of the few!

More post soon, Bye bye! -Q

[halogalopaghost]

[thegardenandthegrave]

It's 9:45 pm and I'm sitting on a couch in the dark, utterly exhausted from working to keep myself afloat and unable to actually fall asleep because heartburn and other chronic pain are keeping me awake, while anxiety thrums in my veins and battles against the CBD gummy I took 45 minutes ago.

This is the fifth night in a row that I won't be sleeping well despite my body begging for rest.

I have two more days of work, a dog who has medical issues all her own, and brain fog so thick you could serve it in a bowl at a Michelin five star restaurant and Gordon Ramsey himself would dip his grilled cheese in and then beg you for the recipe.

All this to say that I think I'm finally seeing the problem when it comes to my ability to successfully write and publish novels well enough to start making money.

I keep thinking the problem was me (lacking motivation), but I see now that it's me (chronically I'll and acting like I'm not).

Because hours and outs of my life are being taken up by just trying to feel better, and then working myself back down to the bone, and having even more time stolen from me by symptoms keeping me up late at night when the clouds of mental fog only break after a full night's rest.

Idk where I'm going with this except maybe to say if you're a writer who is chronically I'll, has chronic fatigue, or even just battling the daemons (anxiety, depression, ADHD, PMDD, BPD, ect, ect) maybe it's time to consider that your lack of progress may not be entirely your fault.

And a lot of productivity coaches advise that if you can't achieve your goals you might need to adjust your expectations, but I say fuck that. I don't want to expect less of myself, I want to be angry that the body I was given can't keep up with the vision I have.

I want to be angry.

But honestly, I think I might be too tired even for that.

[faeriecap]

the mcu is getting so exhausting with how disney has commodified it there are an extremely select few pieces of media i appreciate since endgame tbh and even before that it was getting bad and literally every time something is good it’s bc they let the writers focus on their actual story and not making sure they work in the next ten plotlines or character introductions for someone else or having a bunch of costume changes just to release new merchandise etc

[smoking-witch]

05.01.2024 life has been so, so much lately. I'm stepping ever more deeply into myself & the moment I'm in, and while it's painful & frightening, it's also liberating. I have so much to say, a truly unique voice, a valuable perspective, and a mind-boggling story to tell. There are chapters in my book that no one else can write. I'm kicking ass & breaking curses every single moment of every single day. Every single moment of joy that I experience, is pure unfettered rebellion, sheer defiance & refusal to yield to justified despair... And it's fkn tiring. I'm so tired. Sometimes being awake burns & laying still is exhausting. Staying alive is a conscious action.

It's all so much. 💔

[botaniqueer]

Squashlets have been born! The ones in the 6-cell are romanesco Zucchini and the other one is a fig leafed gourd (Cucurbita ficifolia)

I also got a ripe sungold tomato! Def a sign that I started things waaaay too early for the PNW but I am impulsive when it comes to sowing things and my ADHD likes the instant gratification. The tomatoes are super rootbound and have to be watered twice a day or they wilt. It’s almost time for warm weather though!! Just one more month!!

Also I think I figured out that it was overwatering that hurt my peppers. I’m very bad at estimating watering since the surfaces dry out so easily so I drowned them and my tomatillos on accident. 😔

[babyblueetbaemonster]

You have motivated me to get Morrowind! I’ve always wanted to play it but was nervous to since I’m not used to older Xbox games like it. But I love your Nerevarine and the comics about her, so I have decided to get it (on sale for $3.74!!!!)! I’m gonna do a playthrough and create my own character, and maybe a playthrough as a Teldryn Sero Nerevarine since I love the idea. Thank you for sharing your wonderful comics!!! ❤️

MORROWIND!!! MY FAVORITE GAME!!! Sincerely hope you'll have a great time playing it because I do!!!!

I'm actually talking about bug bus but we should save often nonetheless haha

You probably experienced the insane running speed haha. The first difficulty we all have to conquer. The very first thing I drew after I play Morrowind is about the running speed.

It'll get better, everything does :D Take it slow. Just relax and have fun. Experience what this world have to offer. Welcome to Morrowind ❤️

[zeawesomebirdie]

Only took a week and a half, but guess who finally actually feels sick with covid 😔✌️

[screwzara]

Long Distance Friendship au

cahaya tutoring Ali and talking battle strategies

and teaching him how to fight dirty

Yes

Cahaya will teach some... Not well known facts too, maybe to show how smart he is and to make sure Ali is prepared for everything(i swear Ali is getting some serious younger sibling privileges here)

He would also probably try and blast the people who hurt him :)

Actually all the elements have an amplified part of Boboiboy's personality and since Ali is his oldest friend and he is also younger than him by 3 years, it makes sense to me that the elements would be just a teeny bit clingy(and protective cuz someone gotta keep the child safe y'kno)

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Both bbb and ali's friends just watching them having the time of their life catching up on what they had missed:

These bois bouta die when Admiral Tarung, Kokoci and the M.A.T.A heads find out

[mossnrocksnbogwater]

HYPNOS MY BELOVED (started playing Hades and Hypnos is my favorite ever) 

[laneaconite]

So-Cal

Palm trees next to evergreens, Tesla model T's next to beat up '99 Honda Civics.

I ride my grandma's bike to campus, been hit once, almost twice. It was a white car.

“Every car here is white,” I say She says I exaggerate. I do, it's true, but I say “It's intentional.”

“Hyperbole, exaggeration for emphasis.” I write myself like dialogue: I'm the book, but I'm not open. Opaque, a liar.

Her car is white, She's been hit six times “But,” I say, “I'll try.”

-Lane Aconite,

November 15th 2022

[bookwyrminspiration]

ive worn the same outfit every time I leave the house for like 5 months out of necessity but now it’s not necessary anymore and I’ve discovered I don’t remember how to wear anything else

[dennistakesamentalhealthday]

hi i finished my degree last week