#crises plural

[uselesstaroth]

Putting on the page the wildest idea I've ever had

"What if the Metal Sonic we see after Sonic Heroes is just a decoy left behind by the real Metal Sonic?"

Because you know I love existential crises.

[legendsoffandoms]

Oh shit-

It’s been almost a week 😭

Anyways hi yall

Guess who is having multiple identity crises!

1. Name:

Called myself Knife Bat in a server as a joke for Halloween, and when people actually called me it

Euphoria

So thats going on

2. I’m questioning if I’m a system or not, and I’m honestly losing the battle

Yeah the more I research, and try out terms

The more I realize that I am probably a system

(Guess my Ex was right 😭)

Anyhow

Hope yall are doing good

Want to hear about an Undertale au?

[fefairys]

i think that having a light yagami fictive says a lot of things about me and none of them are good

[moorwood]

Hi, I'm not sure how to word this in a way that doesn't sound a little rude so I'll just say up front that I'm trying to compare my experiences and figure stuff out. What does having alters and switching front feel like? How can you tell the difference between a switch and just a dissociation-moodswing-identity meltdown triple swing from your brain being a dick to you?

Okay, so. First and foremost I want to say that I’m sorry if this isn’t the answer you’re looking for, I’ve been there. I know just how frustrating it can be. But I will try to describe this the best I can.

Our system tends to go through cycles of activity. There can be days and weeks at a time where no one is fronting, and it sucks. Our communication isn’t the best either. Most of our time is spent blurry, as it’s usually referred to, where there’s still a detachment to the self and body but no clear identity in control. Some systems can summon a headmate to front, others can’t. We can if said headmate has specific (positive) fronting triggers, but most of the time it is a seemingly random process.

Because of this, having alters/headmates for us can feel like nothing and it can feel like everything. Sometimes you feel completely alone, but you’re aware that there’s something else there. Like something is watching you from the shadows, from behind the bushes. Some headmates have stronger presences than others, but their existence is just… a gut feeling.

Other times you feel like you’re in a room full of people with no way out. We don’t get multiple alters fronting at once most of the time, but when we do, it can feel crowded and overwhelming depending on how many. We’re usually aware that these things are happening entirely inside our head but depending on who it is or how deeply dissociated you are, what’s “inner” or “outer” world can be confusing.

For example, part of our innerworld is an OTGW-esque autumnal forest and we’ve gotten pretty familiar with how it looks and feels since we first discovered it. Someone from the forest fronted for the first time today and what our body was doing and seeing was completely foreign to them. Even if we know something as a whole, it’s not guaranteed that every alter will have the same knowledge and they may need to relearn things. When this happens, it feels like they’re aware of the knowledge, but actually being able to collect and process it is impossible. It’s just out of sight, hidden behind a metaphorical (or physical) door.

But! Not everyone is like that. Some headmates front for the first time and immediately know what’s going on. I’m not sure how to describe fronting since that too varies but if someone else is still conscious for it, it can feel like a body possession. We like people describing it as someone else taking over driving a car and you ending up in the passenger seat. Sometimes you still have your own stream of thought, sometimes you hear someone elses. Sometimes it gets blended.

Fronting can be an immediate switch-over, but it can also take hours. Headaches and confusion are common. Same goes for splitting/a new headmate forming, but that can take days. For a while it can feel like the metaphorical door, where their presence is noticeable but their identity is unclear or locked away. Most of our headmates are fictives (present as/identity with a fictional character) so sometimes you can have a Vibe or be presented with certain thoughts/mannerisms and clock them.

I guess it can be hard to distinguish things from other causes, but my advice is to take note of unusual thoughts, mannerisms, memories, feelings, etc. Not every headmate is going to be completely different from one another, but if something feels Different, look into it. Taking notes did us a lot of good when we were first figuring out our situation. Some things will be more obvious than others, do whatever feels right.

There’s a lot more we could say but we’ve rambled enough in this response. If you have alters, they will change and grow with you. The way things function inside your head may change too. Remember that. You’re not faking if something doesn’t line up the way it used to.

Not every part of being plural needs to be dramatic and profound. It can be as simple as hearing comments from someone who isnt you or just… not feeling alone inside your head. It can feel like your imagination, and that can cause a lot of doubt, but trust in yourself. Plurality can be determined by so many different things and there’s no right way to be multiple.

[plutoeniy]

i'll be 20 years old in two hours and no one's ever made me feel truly special what kind of life is that

there's only once i felt even somewhat special and i was knee deep in delusion at the time this is crazy

[sharky-the-idiot]

Somebody said they thought I was a boy before seeing me from the front and idk how to feel because I kinda look like a boy apparently but at the same time I still look like a girl

ykw no now isn't the time for a gender crisis....

[saintkevorkian]

does anyone disagree that 'terf' is deliberately homophonous with 'turf' which is something one treads on

why not say 'women's [contentious] opinions are beneath contempt' and have done with it

this also has a cute abbreviation: WoABC (the abc's of being marked)

[only-knives]

sincerely yall we are not well. if anyone reading this has struggled with denial based dissociative crises um. what the fuck do you do in that situation. i know everyone is different but sincerely. this is. this is not sustainable. we are so unstable.

❤️‍🩹 this blog is endo safe. that said this post is about traumagenic dissociative plurality. please don't give advice if that is not your experience. compassion/sympathy is ok regardless, though.

[steddieunderdogfics]

continuation of recs by @adventures-in-mangaland

Conversations About Love by MuseumGiftShopEraser

Another Steddie meeting and emotional hurt/comfort at Tina's party, but this one's extra whumpy because they both think Steve might be gay, but he's actually aromantic.

Blood on My Name by VTHX (V_Haley)

Steve (dying and undying) in the Upside Down instead of Barb AU. Temporary Character Death and Body Horror so I think it qualifies as Whump?

it's never enough, but I wanted it to be by starryeyedjanai

Eddie breaks up with Steve, who takes it REALLY badly. Less than 2000 hits. :(

Conversations About Love by MuseumGiftShopEraser

@museumgiftshoperaser

Rating: Mature

41,803 words, 9/9 chapters

Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply

Tags: Aromantic Steve Harrington, Steve has feelings for someone, the feeling is friendship, well... the feeling is confusion, Character Study, Dialogue Heavy, Queer platonic relationships, Sexuality Crisis, Sexuality crises (plural), Bad advice but they're all trying their best, Angst with a Happy Ending, a very queerplatonic happy ending, Platonic Soulmates, Self-Loathing, Negative Self Talk, Author is very clearly going through some shit, i'm fine!, Gay Eddie Munson, Alternate Universe - Different First Meeting, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Steve and Eddie meet at the halloween party, Weed, Alcohol, Aromantic, Character being outed, Canon-Typical Violence, season 3 type torture

Summary:

“Sounds like she was really fucking drunk,” Eddie sighs when Steve’s done recapping his disaster of a relationship. “People say shit they don’t mean when they’re wasted.” “You didn’t see her face,” he says. “It was like she could tell.” “What could she tell?” He rubs his face out of habit and is almost surprised to find the wet tear stains. Oh that’s right, he was crying. “That there’s something wrong with me.” *** Steve gets his heart absolutely shattered in a bathroom at a random Halloween party. He storms off so no one can tell he’s on the verge of tears and finds Eddie Munson smoking a joint in the master bedroom. Steve pours his heart out and tells Eddie that he just can’t get it to come naturally with Nancy. No matter how hard he tries so play at romance, he can’t love her the way he’s supposed to. Eddie, who’s known he’s queer since middle school, sees something of himself in Steve. But as their friendship progresses into something more, Steve has to confront the fact that he might not be gay after all.

Blood on My Name by VTHX (V_Haley)

@vthx

Rating: Mature

28,448 words, 1/1 chapters

Archive Warning: Graphic Depictions Of Violence

Tags: Canon-Typical Violence, Canon-Typical Behavior, Canon-Typical Sex References, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Period-Typical Homophobia, Period-Typical Homophobic Language, Internalized Homophobia, Hurt/Comfort, Angst with a Happy Ending, Temporary Character Death, Season/Series 01, Unreliable Narrator, Negative Self Talk, Steve Harrington Has Powers, Gay Eddie Munson, Bisexual Steve Harrington, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Scientific Self Harm, Onesided Steve Harrington / Jonathan Byers, Not Kas!Steve Harrington, Highlander / Old Guard style immorality, There's nothing worse than canon in this box and its a happier queerer ending, Body Horror, (canon typical body violation and attempted parasitism)

Summary:

Tuesday, November 8th, 1983: Steve un-dies in hell.

it's never enough, but I wanted it to be by starryeyedjanai

@starryeyedjanai

Rating: Mature

6,279 words, 2/3 chapters

Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply

Tags: 5+1 Things, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, but like a lot of hurt before the comfort :), Post-Canon, Eddie Munson Lives, Emotional Hurt, Pining, Post-Break Up, Drinking, Alcohol, no beta - we die like barb

Summary:

Steve wanted to marry Eddie and Eddie is better off without him and that thought has him gasping out shaky breaths in the bathroom the first Christmas he has to see Eddie when they aren’t together anymore. or, when Eddie breaks up with Steve, it feels like the world is ending or, 5 Christmases post-breakup where Steve is hurting +1 Christmas where he's not

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[xanubis00dat]

Donnie: You know how I get, I get existential crises all the time and–

Leo: Crises?

Donnie: yeah. And the–

Leo: Is that the plural?

Donnie: Of a crisis? Yeah

Leo: Crisises

Donnie: No

Leo, shaking his head: that’s not right

Donnie: No it’s crises

Leo: Chrysler

Donnie: … No. Leo.

Leo: I’m having fun

Donnie: I hope you are because you sound like a fucking idiot

[jayviknation]

Bringing it back by my own demand bc I miss it~

✨JayVik as Basement Yard Quotes✨

(Creds - https://youtube.com/@thebasementyard?si=5caU0Rxnm5f6_hte)

Viktor: I just wanna say this and I don't give a fuck, I will fight this until the day that I die - BLT's are STUPID

Jayce: NO- FUCK YOU, I LOVE BLT'S, HOW ARE THEY STUPID?

Viktor: It's almost a sandwich, It’s almost- almost a sandwich

Jayce: What's missing?

Viktor: THE MEAT

Jayce: and guess what it has- BACON, which comes from where? A PIG

Viktor: IT’S A SUPPLEMENTAL MEAT

Viktor: What do you do? You watch little cars go round and round. WOW. Look at them turn left, so cool, fuck you!

Jayce: YOU PLAY WITH TOYS!

Viktor: I don't play with toys; I play with my kids who play with toys

Jayce: Alright, and the worst day of your life is gonna be when they get old enough that they wont play with you anymore and now you get to play by yourself

*silence*

Jayce to himself: too much, way too much

Viktor: I want a burger BAD right now

Jayce: BRO so bad

Viktor: You like dry burgers or wet burgers?

Jayce: What kinda question is that? I want this thing to come in my mouth.

*Both laughing*

Jayce: What a wild thing to say

Jayce: Before we started recording I started singing 'I saw daddy kissing santa clause'

Viktor: That’s not the one, that’s definately not the song

Jayce: That is it?

Viktor: I saw DADDY kissing santa clause?

Jayce: OH

Viktor: You know how I get, I get exsential crises all the time and-

Jayce: Crises?

Vitkor; Yeah, th-

Jayce: Is that the plural?

Viktor: Of a crisis? Yes.

Jayce: Criseses… that’s not right

Viktor: No, no, it’s crises

Jayce: Chrysler

Viktor: No, Jayce-

Jayce: I’m having fun

Viktor: I hope you are because you sound like a fucking idiot

Jayce: Can I ask a question?

Viktor: No.

Jayce: Can an-

Viktor: I said no.

Jayce: You’re gonna tell me if your last name was money you wouldn’t say ‘here come the money shot’

Viktor: ... no?

Jayce: Yes you would, dude-

Viktor: No, I wouldn’t

Jayce: Yes, you would

Viktor: I don’t say anything when I ejaculate

Jayce: Nothing at all?

Viktor: I mean noises come out but I’m no-

Jayce: Gimmie, gimmie, gimmi-

Viktor: I’M NOT GONNA DO THAT

Jayce: C'mon, jerk off for me right now let’s hear it

Viktor: I swear to god, Avocado-

Jayce: Dude, speaking of silicone- sorry

Viktor: Your turn. Go ahead. Nonono the floor is yours, Chief

Jayce: It's not even a good story

Viktor: He has something in spanish cultures it’s called like, the five wishes, which you say it in spanish by saying-

Jayce: Cinco wishes

Jayce: If you're watching a chiristmas story right now, tell your dad to fucking turn it off

Viktor: and if you don’t have a dad, it makes sense you're watching a christmas story. I’M KIDDING, I’M KIDDING-

Jayce: We're joking, we both come from broken homes

*hysterically laughing*

[thingsaboutphilosofy]

class of the day ✔️

vi hoje o texto “lugar de fala” de Djamila Ribeiro, outra filosofa e colunista brasileira. brasil é tão plural que as vezes fico em choque, amo meu país.

infelizmente hoje o neosoro fez parte da minha aulinha pq a crise de gripe e rinite aqui no sul ta forte por conta das queimadas do norte e centro-oeste. aguentemos juntos pq estamos entrando num inferno climático (e como queria que fosse inferno de dante essas horas).

apenas um belo terere pra aguentar esse calor!!

Today I saw the text "place of speech" by Djamila Ribeiro, another Brazilian philosopher and columnist. Brazil is so plural that sometimes I'm shocked, I love my country.

It’s sooo hot in region that i live because fires are taking place in my country, To endure this heat only with a “terere” (tea “mate” drink with natural lemon juice)

🧉📜📷🗞️🖋️

[tchaikovskaya]

(Don’t judge me lol) I’ve be busy in the last 2 weeks or so with personal crises (plural!) but. What on earth is the impetus for this very sudden right wing drive to conquer Canada (?!) and Greenland? The latter I get to an extent, of course it’s absurd but the below-surface reasoning esp w climate change at least makes sense of it. But attacking Canadian sovereignty….? And the fact that it very much feels like a coordinated rhetorical push (that + the gulf of America nonsense)… and it all came to head so fucking quickly, what’s going on???

[indigochromatic]

Some Musings on Plurality and Mental Health (had a conversation about this earlier today, but we've also been thinking about it generally for a while, so hey, why not, post time) Something that frequently tends to get lost in the noise of discourse but is, imo, actually pretty relevant to system community spaces of all kinds, is the realization that many (I'd venture to say most) systems of any kind, origin, dx, whatever, often have concurrent struggles with mental health issues of one kind or another. Not every system or every person who experiences multiplicity in a significant way has a Textbook Case dissociative disorder (or even a diagnosable dissociative disorder at all, depending on your framework for thinking about what does and does not fall under the scope of the label). But also, that doesn't necessarily mean they aren't dealing with significant mental health challenges: - A lot of systems are queer in one way or another, and many have had to deal with the dangers and insecurity and heartbreak of being queer in our current society. - A lot of systems are autistic/dyslexic/have ADHD/have other kinds of processing differences that have affected many years of their lives, especially if they went through any kind of education system that tried to force their brains into something different, told them they were broken, and facilitated social isolation in one way or another. - A lot of systems, even those without dissociative disorders, have other mental health diagnoses. Depression, anxiety, personality disorders, schizophrenia and related disorders, etc. - A lot of people overall have undergone traumatic experiences in their lives at some point (or multiple points), which we all know have significant aftereffects on mental and emotional health. Also, there's multiple global crises that have been going on for a while, of which the COVID pandemic is just one example, which means a lot of new and exacerbated mental (and physical!) health issues for a lot of people in the last few years. So, what's the relevance of all this?

To us, it's yet another reminder that the idea of an easy division between "disordered system" and "non-disordered system" is frankly illusory. For anyone whose experiences of multiplicity/systemhood/plurality/etc are a significant part of their lives and functioning, that relevance will extend to their struggles with mental health, regardless of whether the mental health issues they're having fall under DID/OSDD or not. Control over switching, new or worsened in-system conflicts, system members being differently impacted by traumatic experiences, degree of dissociative disconnect vs ease of internal communication and memory sharing, system members experiencing and presenting symptoms of mental health issue differently, dysphoria over external-body-vs-internal-self mismatches, increased dissociation overall as a collective coping mechanism.... all of this is stuff that lies at the intersection of any mental health issues and systemhood, potentially, not just "DID/OSDD + its associated classical presentations and etiology". If a parogenic system fell into heavy depression over the quarantine, they might start experiencing more negative dissociative symptoms, and they'd also have to figure out how to navigate the mental health support system (such as it is) while plural. If someone with PTSD from trauma in adulthood decides to look into daemonism for comfort, and finds themselves more and more feeling like a system, they may or may not qualify for DID but they will still be contending with healing-from-trauma-while-a-system. If a system without memory barriers or other apparent issues gets long COVID and has their whole lives upended from new disability, their presentation may start looking more like a dissociative disorder. None of these examples are necessarily exactly the same as having DID or OSDD (...depending on how you define the scope of those diagnostic labels, which is a complicated question all of its own), but they're within a spectrum of related experiences that involve both mental health disorder and plurality in an intertwined way. Which, I guess, is a long way of saying: There is no specific diagnostic category or label that someone has to fit in order to be suffering and need support--and that includes systems as well as singlets.

[practicedvmm13fullofpotatoes]

MORE Johnny and Janae headcanons because the first set was me going "Oh, these characters are nice :)" but now it's me going "Ouhhh, these characters are going to be rotating in my brain for the next few months and I fully accept that"

Johnny

That headcanon of him dreaming about the Somerset fire is actually just me being way too obsessed with these guys. This couldn't have happened no matter how I explained it. The Somerset fire happened some time around 1950. The timeline was changed when BD was in his mid 40s (I think?) so that'd be like. 1980 at least. Johnny dreaming about the Somerset fire is literally impossible unless I did some more time fuckery than these guys already do on a regular basis

Tries to like his family's interests so that they'll love him more. He doesn't like soccer but he does it for his dad. He doesn't like the theater but he'd watch it for his mom. He doesn't really understand seismology but tries to for Janae. He knows Janae already loves him a lot, but he just does it out of habit

Social chameleon. Will literally change things about himself so that people will like him. These efforts fail a lot of the time, but in the rare case that he actually gets someone to notice and see him in a positive light, he will cling on to that person and never let them go

Because of the things mentioned above, Johnny tends to have identity crises. Yeah, you heard me. Plural. He's been doing all of this since he was 7. He knew from the get-go that he didn't fit in. And in his head, the best course of action was to try to blend in

Definitely likes art-- or, more specifically, painting. It's the one thing about himself that he's sure of. His father, though, doesn't approve of this and hid his art supplies in the basement, a place he knows Johnny is too scared to check

I don't know about other countries' classes but like. If they have TLE (Technology and Livelihood Education), methinks Johnny would like the subject a lot (home ec, entrepreneurship, agriculture, yadda yadda)

Sensitive to extreme temperatures. Trying to cook an egg? It feels like his skin is actually burning (it's not). The weather is chilly? He'll need to wear a lot of layers (physically refuses to function if it's cold)

Developed a lot of crushes when he was in middle school but only now realizes that they were just happy crushes

Frequent nightmares about death. They're not future dreams but he believes that they are. Very anxious to continue with his day because he might end up dropping dead later

His love language is quality time. Definitely some tonal whiplash but I thought I'd throw this out there

Janae

Very verbal. Will not hesitate to blurt out the first thing that comes to mind. Like, they could just be talking about seismology to Johnny but then yell out "SEISMOGRAM" in the middle of it before going back to building the finalized version of it. This happens very often

Oh, you interupted their ramble? They completely forgot what they were talking about and is pissed because you disturbed them.. Though, you do have to find a way to make Janae stop eventually. Most effective method is to raise your hand. After a few seconds, they'll stop talking to let you talk

If you disturbed Janae, they will immediately not like you. I'm sorry but they don't make the rules. You're not a good person in their eyes anymore

Poor memory on things that should be important. They struggle with remembering dates, dues, assignments, paperwork and other stuff that is very important. They have too much going on in that mind of theirs to remember much. It will always end up pushed to the back of their brain

Struggles with prioritizing and time management. If the task seems easy enough, they'll procrastinate and do something that's more important to them. They'll eventually forget about it until it suddenly becomes important again. And they end up cramming to pass it on time so it's a bit sloppy but no one notices because it's still really good in comparison to the others passed. The only other person to be able to tell whether or not Janae actually spent time doing something is Johnny

Frequently forgets words. Like mentioned earlier, they have too much going on in their head to remember much. ("Johnny, what was that thing called? The thing that happens when a woman goes into labour?" "Huh?" "When she's like?? Pushing the baby out??" "I don't know??" "I swear we had a conversation about this before--")

You know how people say to look at the big picture and to stop focusing on the smaller details? Janae is the exact opposite of that but in a more literal sense. Let's say that they're looking for [brand] toothpaste but they can't find it despite checking the isle several times. They'll ask an employee about it and get directed to a part of the aisle that they passed by a couple dozen times

Talks to themself a lot. Like said in bullet one, they're very verbal. Literally has to chew on gum/the inside of their cheek to shut themself up

That headcanon of Janae tutoring students their age and higher definitely makes zero sense if I actually think about it. Same with my excuse of Martha and Jack just sending them back to 2nd grade. But erm, they still tutor because I said so. They tutor their students :))

Gets distracted easily. Like. Very easily. Surprisingly easy. Especially by shiny objects. (One student of theirs tried distracting them with a laser pointer. It worked. Three times)

[spanishskulduggery]

Sometimes I forget how like Latin the Spanish language can be

It kind of messes me up going from English to Spanish with certain words

As an example el dato is "a piece of data" in English; it's like "a fact", but if you say "data" it's usually los datos because it's actually plural

The one that really trips me up is "media"... in Spanish medio is "a medium" usually in art now to describe someone's type of art (like oil paint vs watercolors or some other "medium" they use to create)... but "the media" [English treats "media" as if it were singular] is actually plural from Latin so it's los medios "the media"

That can be really confusing if you're working from English like "the data suggests" is los datos sugieren plural... or "the media reported" is again plural los medios informaron/reportaron

You come across this -um to -a periodically; also occasionally the -a to -ae plural for feminine - la minucia "small thing" to las minucias "minutiae / small things", or la larva "larva" to las larvas "larvae"... in feminine plural it's actually a bit easier in Spanish in my opinion

....

These next ones are technically from Greek rather than Latin but they also confuse me a lot so I figured I'd put them here just in case

English will say "crisis" una crisis but then "crises" plural; it's las crisis the word remains unchanged in Spanish

I think this applies to all nouns ending in -sis like that... el/los análisis, la/las hipótesis

The one to really know especially in mind is la/las dosis for "dosis" singular and plural

I think this is just a quirk of words from classical (Latin/Greek) origin... sometimes you just have to get used to it and adapt. I'm not sure if this is specifically Spanish or if other Romance Languages do this too but just something to keep in mind!