#ehdi talks

[ehditaan]

Humans as space orcs, yes. But also, humans as world killers. Humans as the terrifying creatures that burnt their own planet and set out across the stars. Humans presumed to be a threat until proven otherwise, if anyone ever could prove otherwise. Humans who are seen as useful to have in a tough spot, as a scare tactic in a negotiation with your enemies, as a last resort in a fight. Because all have heard tell of how vicious and merciless they can be. Unhampered by any societal norm of life as sacred or respect for other species, let alone their own. Unencumbered by an intrinsic connection to nature, they have killed entire forests to root out their foe. They destroyed their own planet for personal gain, and then those who could just moved on, abandoning most of their kind to slow extinction. They are terrifying. And valuable. If you can buy their loyalty somehow and are strong or desperate enough not to fear them turning on you.

Humans who get used to working to appear non-threatening. Who try to explain, over and over again, that it was only the smallest percentage of them who destroyed the earth. Who have no good answers for the atrocities of war. Humans who make friends but know their crew mates are always going to be wary of them. Humans who feel it’s for good reason, who do what they can to mitigate their reputation, and humans who get pissed, only proving the cautious right. Humans who are lonely, with so few of them left, trying to find some way to belong. Humans who buck the stereotypes, who love nature, who turn their face up into the rain with a smile and rescue small, injured creatures, and refuse to eat meat. Humans who are all the more terrifying because of those things. Because if they do value life, if they do possess empathy, the fact of their history is all the more horrifying. They felt it all and they did it anyway.

Humans who find relief, at last. Peace, at last, in societies that value every member, that respect the worlds they live in. Humans who grieve knowing such places existed on earth, and those of their species in power destroyed them. Humans who set out to get revenge on whoever is left. Humans who learn new things, discover new technology, and go back to earth to try to undo some of the damage they’ve done.

[littlelithop]

I have a coworker I have a crush on, and we were talking about tlt when she just just casually said something about palamedes but she just pronounced his name so wrong I decided that I'll never know love again (she said "palam-ehdies" kinda like "calamity")

[hispanicaud-blog]

Early Intervention in Audiology

Early intervention in Audiology is extremely important due to the sensitivity of the ear and its interactions with the brain. The law states that infants should be screened by month 1, diagnosed by month 3, and and intervention by month 6. This has been proven to be the most effective way to improve the outcome for those born deaf or hard of hearing. The study proceeds to talk about how the Hispanic population was more likely to not receive re-screening for hearing loss, out of all the 5 areas tested. 

This is important because what can audiologists do to reach out to this community in need? “Audiologists who are visible and provide technical assistance based on a hospital’s outcomes such as screening rates, referral rates, and re-screen rates improve overall re-screen rates” (Thomson & Yoshinaga-Ithano, 2018, p. 9).

The fact that being born to a Hispanic mother lowers the rates of being re-screened, if hearing screening is failed, is a reality that people live in every day. Socio-economic status and factors impact these decisions, for Audiology and healthcare, which is why a lot of people don’t, or can’t, receive the care they need.

Thomson, V., & Yoshinaga-Ithano, C. (2018). Audiologists Key to EHDI Programs. The Hearing Journal, 71(11), 8-9.

[ehditaan]

Y’all, Kleo on Netflix was so good and so satisfying. Go watch it. So worth the subtitles. It’s female spy/assassin on a revenge spree against all who betrayed her. It has heart and humanity and very fun murders as well as unlikely allies.

[ehditaan]

It’s one of those things that’s so annoying for being true. But the thing that probably helps me the most with heartbreak, after I’ve spent some time sobbing my guts out and talking it through with empathetic friends, is getting the fuck to work on some thing I care about.

Every time I have a stray thought about the relationship that’s ending, there is a horrible clenching, yawning, grasping pit of panic and despair right behind the hollow where my rib cage meets. But tonight when that has happened, I feel instantly better when the following thought is that I am doing the work I want to be doing, and I am taking steps to move forward with the life I want to have. Not all the way better by any means. There is no instant cure. But when someone else devalues you, what better thing to do than to value yourself? To show yourself that you are worth the effort of your dreams. That while this person may have left you, you will never abandon yourself again. You will answer that callous disrespect and dismissal by showing up for yourself and believing in yourself all the more.

And if you have a petty little fantasy about succeeding in that work so that they have to watch from the sidelines while all your dreams come true, well... I say spite is as good a motivator as any. It’s not the fuel I’d want to run on forever but it’s a damned good spark to get that engine going.

I love you. You’ve got this. You deserve it.

[ehditaan]

As an autistic person there is really nothing like a massive unexpected friend breakup to make you feel every single one of your social ineptitude’s and insecurities.

[ehditaan]

Does anyone else ever feel like music reaches every single part of you? Reverberates through every layer of consciousness all the way down to your lizard brain? Like your hearing and processing organs are more like an octopus’ brain and they carry it across every limb and into your very core so it seems to shape the entire world?

[ehditaan]

Ok yikes someone needs to date me quick. For half a second just now I honestly considered applying for the new season of love on the spectrum US. And yes I’m wildly aware of the problems with both that show and the Australian one. If anything that should show how much I am craving companionship and how terrible and intimidating I find dating to be that I would even entertain such a notion for a moment. I just find apps to be so useless. Even Hiki hasn’t worked out for me. I’ve rarely had luck building any kind of a connection with someone without feeling each other‘s vibe in person. And I also just don’t have the administrative skills to manage online dating successfully. I’ve tried to go out and do more and meet more people. And that’s been great and I’ve made some new friends which is definitely just as important to me. But it has been years since I actually had a relationship with somebody that was anything but casual. And I am craving that connection so badly. 

[ehditaan]

I miss my best friend. I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t know how to build something new from the ashes of what was.

I’m retroactively seeing the cracks that appeared in the facade before it all came crumbling down. I’m wondering if we have any future.

I don’t want more apologies, I just want consideration and care. To not always feel like a guilty afterthought. To get to genuinely enjoy each other again, maybe if we can clear the air, if they were willing.

[ehditaan]

Ah, it’s that time of year again. When I spend more money than I wanted to at a giant evil corporation I try to never support so that for once I can get some actual affordable queer and trans inclusive clothing.

Anyway, if you haven’t heard, target is selling tomboyx for a fourth of their usual price in their pride collection. Including boxer briefs, packing underwear, and compression tops. It’s still not as cheap as a pack of Fruit of the Loom by any means, but way more affordable than normal. Get amongst it if you wish.

And just in case you needed permission, to buy things from the big bad corporation, remember that trans folk are paid 32% less than cis ppl, and clothes designed for us and our bodies is usually only available from specialty stores online, and costs in some cases 10 x as much as clothes for cis bodies. 

[ehditaan]

I think I’ve figured out why I like social media so much sometimes. Especially things like TikTok which, at least in my feed, has a bit more silliness and tomfoolery and even sometimes genuineness than other apps (though tumblr is still always my fave). It’s because as an autistic person who’s been bullied and ostracized so much of my life, social media allows me to see a side of people they would never show me in person.

Don’t get me wrong, I have my close friends that I can get weird with. But even when I was friendly with my peers, I have always been an outsider to some extent, and I get the sense people found something off about me. Either way, I rarely got close enough with people for them to show their goofy side or be vulnerable with me. And I crave that real connection deeply. All the surface stuff puts me off. So I can get lost in social media at times because on an app I am as much a part of whatever’s happening as anyone else. Especially the apps where the people I’m following aren’t in my irl circles. Cause on Instagram I just get a view into all the people I went to school with, that I even considered friends, hanging out without me. And even on tumblr there are circles of mutual that I follow but am not a part of. On tiktok I just get these little glimpses into someone’s life or personality or brain. It’s nice. I want more of that in real life. And I often wish I had the courage to share more of myself.

Does anyone else feel this way?

[ehditaan]

Oh, that delightful adhd feeling when the dehydration headache is coming on but you just can’t bring yourself to get up and get something to drink so you keep scrolling and the headache keeps getting worse and you know you just need to get up and grab your water bottle from where you left it on the nightstand all of three feet away, and then just when you finally find the will, you sit up... only to see that the nightstand is empty (ok, you have adhd, it’s obviously not empty but the point is, there’s no water bottle). And you suddenly realize that your water bottle... is right next to you. Because you brought it over here knowing you have to keep drinking or you’ll get a headache. It’s literally been sitting FOUR FUCKING INCHES FROM YOUR GOD DAMNED HAND and you could have been drinking water THIS ENTIRE FUCKING TIME THANK YOU.

[ehditaan]

That feeling when you eat some thing but your blood volume is low so you immediately get dizzy and cold. 

[ehditaan]

There is a cute small child next to me on the subway who clearly has a special interest in emergency alarm sounds. And his dad is being very sweet and patient with him, answering his questions, explaining what different things mean or how they work. Exactly as he should do. And it is so incredibly cute. But it also means this child is just repeatedly playing different smoke detector sounds, fire alarms, tornado warnings, truck backing up and drawbridge coming down alarms, and evacuation alerts on his phone. Without headphones so he can have his dad hear them too and answer his questions. And I would like to hurl the damned thing across the subway car (phone not child) cause my noise cancelling headphones were not built to withstand this. But also I love seeing a kid being supported and engaged with on his terms about his interests. So like 😍🤬🙇🏼🙉💖

[ehditaan]

Y’know, I am really not planning to watch the teen wolf movie, I never finished the show. But this man, and whatever this little vest deal is…

just has me thinking about Peter in a three piece suit I guess.

[ID: A screenshot of a picture posted by Ian Bohen on Instagram. He is a 45 yr old white man with slightly curly brown hair just past his ears, but slicked back. He has a short beard and blue eyes. He rests his arms on a table and his head against one hand, looking off to the left with a big, joyful but exhausted and relieved seeming smile. He wears a white button down with a grey collared vest over it. End ID]

[ehditaan]

If you still think that “no one could want you” because of XYZ thing you can’t control, then you need to examine what bullshit you’ve absorbed from society and find better people to hang out with.