#fat ugly and worthless

[mistabonbon]

I’m fucking 25

[fvckinsociety]

I want to kill myself.

That's it. That's the post.

[walrustrain]

Do you ever feel like you’re just convenient?

You’re the convenient friend, convenient time pass, convenient relationship, convenient option for everyone.

You’re the person people hang out with because you’re easy, and always eager because you’re always just so desperate to feel wanted and not alone, but really you’re just convenient.

You know you’re not special, and that your spot in their life will be easily replaced and that they’d much rather someone else in their company- but again you’re just convenient. You’re the convenient option. The always available option.

I’m the friend who has best friends but isn’t the best friend. I’m the convenient friend. I’m the lover who falls in love but never the one being loved. I’m just the convenient route.

Im the ‘never says no’ friend. The ‘easy to take advantage of’ friend. The ‘can you do me a favour?’ friend. I’m the ‘useful until no longer of use’ friend. I’m the ‘I want to do something but everyone else is busy’ friend.

I’m the butt of the joke friend. I’m the punching bag friend. The forgotten friend. The one who’s feelings aren’t considered because I’m the ‘she’ll get over it’ friend.

I’m just the easy and convenient friend.

And that’s my own fault, thinking always being available, always being easy and giving more of myself will finally one day deem me worthy in someone’s eyes. Spoiler alert - it doesn’t. I’m still never enough.

I’m the ‘smile through the pain’ friend because being this friend hurts.

[silently-screaming-insidee]

I try so hard and its never enough.

[idontfuckingcareanymoreeee]

I am worthless

[heilqwerty]

[silvermoonshitshow]

i always see posts about wanting to just be pretty and rot and that should be enough, and like, yeah it should be. but idk, as someone who is just ugly as sin, like buttass ugly, it feels... saddening. or like, discouraging, ig. like the one possible value that i could ever have with my personality being This is completely out of my reach. idk what I'm trying to say, i just hate being ugly and having to be a person lol.

[musicaddictt]

I think what hurts the most is all of these negative thoughts I have believed and thought for so long but tried to fight are actually true. I'm useless, I'm worthless. I'm fat and ugly. It's always been true, not just things I believe but facts.

[lifelinesx]

It’s crazy how I’ve gone 26 years without any love, I’ve always watched everyone else from afar have it, but never myself.

I was interested and had crushes, but I’ve never acted on them. You want to know why? All my life I’ve been rejected, in any way possible. I always got told in a nice paraphrased way that it’s not me, I’ve always watched everyone I know get hit on, sitting next to them smiling and happy for them. No hard thoughts and feelings, because everyone deserves love and positive attention.

It’s just, all these years I’ve felt out and never had anyone interested enough to make a move. And those who I’ve liked liked my friends more. How can you not, they’re so beautiful and have angelic souls.

Whenever I’m around a friend I feel so ugly, I don’t want to take pictures. I don’t want to have any memories. I really don’t want to look at these photos in 20 years and call myself ugly again, I don’t want others to see the pictures and see the disaster that I am.

And I know you shouldn’t compare yourself to others. But that’s what my life has become.

As a kid getting told on why I can’t be as pretty as the other child to now doing it to myself when I’m next to anyone.

I’ve gained too much weight when all I wanted is to loose it before I meet anyone. Because well, with the way I am right now, or ever anyway, I’ll never get someone interested in me.

and when men find out I’m 26, single and still a virgin? lol.

I’m ugly. And fat. And worthless.

[depresseddepot]

the way i try so SO hard to gain even a crumb of body neutrality only to then see some shit on twitter that remind me that oh yeah. a distinct portion of the population genuinely believes they are being discriminated against when they have to look at or be within 50 feet of a fat person

[walrustrain]

I just want to be enough

[silently-screaming-insidee]

I should just do everyone a favour and kill myself. What's the point anymore. I can't do anything right. I hope I die in my sleep tonight that will be what's best for everyone.

[laurel-michaela-connor]

Attractive people really have no idea how much easier their lives are because of how they look. They think people are that nice and helpful to *everyone* but actually they’ve been getting special treatment the entire time.

[thin-2-winn]

I have been binging and purging for like 2 weeks straight I have gained so much weight I feel disgusting tomorrow im staring back on the diet I need to lose all this disgusting fat before the end of August

[stephanies-relapse]

healthy skinny girl diet day 2

Goal: 800 calories

Breakfast: fried egg and toast - 240

Lunch: popcorn, half a bagel with cream cheese - 282

Snack: pickle - 20

Dinner: apple - 95

Total: 634

passed day two. i'm trying to stay in control but it's already so hard. i already want to start overeating again. i need to learn to have control over food because this is so embarrassing and disgusting. i'm gonna try to start fasting again, i used to constantly when i was younger but that was before i had hormonal issues and a boyfriend. i'm still gonna try, i'm starting with 16 hours and i'll slowly do more. anything to help me be in control.

[mrfoox]

Once I lose the idea that my loved ones "are dealing" with me somehow against their will and not out of devotion and care...? Bro it's so over for yall