#finally posting this because im fed up lol

[hotdyke-hardstyle]

my issue with bi lesbians/mspec lesbians isn't the idea that it will lead to men being even shittier to lesbians, because shitty men will always be shitty men, they don't need that excuse. it's that these people and their supporters are saying that lesbians can be attracted to men in any capacity. if you can't understand how gross it is to push that narrative all on its own, and you can't understand what a fundamental misunderstanding that is of the lesbian sexuality, then idk what to tell you but you're stupid at best, hold malicious intent towards lesbians at worst, and it's also likely there's a lot of internalised biphobia and/or lesbophobia at work. there are also the biphobic and transmisognyistic aspects to the label that i've mentioned in past posts/reblogs, but my point rn is it is completely reasonable for us to want to avoid you and keep you from interacting, because you do not respect lesbians or bi sapphics at all. yes, even if you are also a lesbian supporting these identifies. idk why people think just because it's not the most important issue in the world that they can avoid criticism for a genuinely harmful idea and opinion. identifying this way and supporting these types of identities implies certain opinions and worldviews.

[unfunnyaceartist]

Vent post ahead that may change your view on me and that may sound dramatic (NOT DIRECTED AT ANYONE, THIS IS JUST IN GENERAL) Mostly just to get out my feelings. I only ask that if you look, to be kind and understanding and patient. Also the tags are silly and id appreciate if you read em. id appreciate if you didnt ask me anything on it

I feel toxic sometimes because i can get so jealous i borderline gatekeep things and I always feel so bad because its never intentional but then I end up hating myself because I know its unhealthy and irrational but I cant help it, and I know im so lucky and have a lot in many senses of the word, but at times it feels like they can be taking everything, because when I like someone or something, they tend to matter a fuck-ton to me. Im sorry to anyone ive lashed out at a bit for them wanting what I have, I really am. Its not coming from a place of hostility, rather a place of trauma responses and hyperfixation that stem from my adhd and autism but like when I try something and it goes great, and then someone else is like "OOH thats awesome I wanna do that too" It feels almost like when Im finally happy or excited or proud to have something, someone comes and takes it. Usually Ill play it off as a joke, but in reality, its complete honesty that im trying to soften so I dont upset anyone, especially when its over fiction or a person, because I do NOT own them and I know that, but it bothers me when someone swoops in to do the exact same things or even one-up especially when its really soon after me, and since my self worth is already abysmal, it just makes me feel worse, like I should be lucky to have what I do to begin with, but I feel the need to hold it close to me and protect it so I dont lose things that make me really happy.

Recently Ive even started reverse gatekeeping in response to others, where ill just tell myself I cant or dont deserve to have anything special because I'm not, and only others can enjoy this. But thats why people making me ship content makes me so happy. Its dumb to get jealous over others selfshipping with a character I like. Its dumb to get upset over someone I know copying or taking heavy inspiration from one of my ideas. Its dumb to get possessive over someone else trying to befriend my new awesome friends or wife/wives. I rarely selfship anymore due to my reverse gatekeeping and instead serve the others who simp or enjoy content. I provide since I feel I cant take. It makes me happy and distracts me. But the moment someone else does something similar to what is my toxic coping mechanism for my toxic coping mechanism, it only hurts worse. Thats why sometimes, for example, I get a bit snappy when someone else provides gummybunny (that and also shipping jealousy sometimes). Thats why I get snappy when I make a friend someone else super cool and then another person comes in and wants to befriend them (No darken, this wasnt directed at you, its happened more than once with more than one person but I know how you tend to assume). I LOVE giving but I hate sharing, because all my life whenever I shared, I lost something.

Introduce a friend to a friend? They leave me behind for eachother. Let someone wear my fitbit because they wanted to feel "rich"? It got stolen. Give money to someone in a "rough spot" who promised to repay me somehow? Never saw them again. I was always so trusting and understanding, and I always made excuses for others. Always so naive and gullible. So much so, in fact, that in elementary I kept letting my bullies pretend to be my friends when they claimed they changed, and let them destroy any ounce of worth I had whatsoever. Things that make me happy I CHERISH because of all the things ive lost and all my experiences. Ive never been hit, not once, but the abuse all my life came emotionally and mentally, and I only recently realized through therapy. Now its hard to trust people in certain situations. Sorry for my probably hard to follow and melodramatic rant.

sorry im dumb haha

[pierregazly]

i know places ꨄ charles leclerc smau

charles leclerc x fem!reader

or 4 times charles soft launched you, and the one time he hard launched you so hard it almost caused whiplash

charles_leclerc

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charles_leclerc happy summer break 😁

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username ummm???

username that last photo im gonna throw up i never want him to post a photo dump again

username what about OUR family charles? ME, your wife? OUR imaginary kids?

joris__trouche i hope you paid your photographer

charles_leclerc she said it was a free trial

username there's literally no way charles 'i am stupid' leclerc knows how to soft launch this has to be a joke

username i hope this brings ferrari such awful luck... no man who soft launches like this deserves happiness

charles_leclerc

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charles_leclerc new song releasing at midnight tonight on all platforms, we hope you'll like it 🎶

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username i cant wait to be depressed for the rest of the week thank u charles

username im sorry... WE? who is WE?

username omg... is this a piano duet... between charles and his girlfriend???

joris__trouche i hope you're sharing the royalties

charles_leclerc nosy man

username the fact he's giving us literal crumbs like we have NOTHING to go off of

username he's just smarter than the rest of us, not letting us creep his girl

charles_leclerc

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charles_leclerc what an incredible weekend in singapore. honoured to have had all the people i love with me this weekend for this win. i can never do this without you.

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username do u think he put 'i can never do this without you' in a whole different sentence because it's directed at HER

username idk if i should call u delulu or smart bc 👀

username i am so fed up with this soft launch, stop being a coward and show her to us!!!

username comments like these are prolly why he's only soft launching... he doesn't want crazy fans to pull what they did with lando and luisa lol

pierregasly je suppose que ton porte-bonheur fait son travail 👀

charles_leclerc 🥰😁

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charles_leclerc an extra special christmas, with an extra special person. joyeux noël to you all, may santa spoil you as much as he has spoiled me 🎅🏻

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pierregasly joyeux noël from kika and i, looking forward to spending time with the both of you in the new year 🥂

joris__trouche impressive that this soft launch is still going, only ever seen you this dedicated about cars

username not joris saying exactly what we all have been thinking

username i cant believe no one has found her on anything

username charles hasn't given us anything to go off of, its like he's trying to make it difficult to find her

username omg y'all it HAS to be yourusername her story is them literally kissing!!!! im gonna scream!!!!!!

username she's followed by half the grid!!! kika has liked all her post over the last 2 YEARS omg

yourusername has posted a story

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charles_leclerc honoured to have been the one to kiss you for the last three christmases, hoping for hundreds more

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charles_leclerc apparently i forgot to introduce the world to my beautiful wife? joyeux anniversaire mon amour 💗

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username your WHAT

username his WIFE?!

username there is no way mr 'i am stupid' has hidden a whole WIFE and a whole MARRIAGE from us

pierregasly merde i am so excited to finally post the photos from your wedding

yourusername honoured to have spent the last year as mrs. charles leclerc, hoping for so many more

charles_leclerc hoping for forever

username MRS CHARLES LECLERC PLS IM KSFJHK

username i am screaming and throwing up, not even crying i cant even be heartbroken????

landonorris emotionally im not okay

yourusername you were at the wedding??? landonorris i love love, shut up.

if you've already seen this i apologize lol, i think there was some formatting issues with the prev post which resulted in it not showing up in the tags :( so total apologies for that! i hope you enjoy!! (i dont want to retag everyone and be annoying as well) if you'd like to be added to my tag list please feel free to reach out

also my requests are open if you're interested!

[jenning-fcb]

There's something that really irritates me about the Marauders fandom, I don't know if it's an unpopular opinion or not, but I don't care.

It really bothers me the way y'all talk about fanfic. Sometimes I think some people here forget that fanfics aren't written by professional authors, it's something that someone is writing for fun and that you can read for free. you shouldn't be criticizing them as if they were published books written by professional authors.

You have every right in the world to be reading something and not like it, but do you know what is the right thing to do? Just close the tab and go look for something that you like more. Don't make videos on tik tok talking bad about the story. I'm really impressed by the number of videos talking bad about fanfics, trashing them. Have some shame… I always think that when I go into the comments of this type of video I will find people criticizing this type of stance in the comments, but I never do. The comments are always full of people criticizing other fanfics not mentioned in the video.

just imagine writing a fanfic and posting it for free for others to read, something you wrote just for entertainment, and then opening tik tok and having thousands of people talking bad about you and your writing. and I'm specifically talking about Tik Tok because that's where I see it happening the most and where these videos have the more reach, but I know it also happens on others social media. I don't know if it happens here, but for example on Twitter I know it does.

and I'm speaking as someone who has never experienced this, I've never published any Harry Potter fanfic. lol and I don't see that happening in other fandoms (and also my stories have very little reach, so I don't think it would happen to me).

and another thing that bothers me, which is still within the subject of how this fandom treats fanfic, is that y'all really seem to have lost track of what that word means. the way I see some people talking disdainfully about fanfics that aren't ''very realistic''. buddy, it's FANFIC. Fanfic doesn't have to be realistic. I see a lot of people saying ''Ah, finally a fanfic that treats the 70s in a realistic way'', it's okay if you PREFER the fanfic to be realistic, that's personal taste. But it's not okay to treat fanfics that aren't realistic with disdain. One is not better than the other, being more realistic does not give more merit. Because it's just the author's choice, how they wants the story to be.

I myself prefer fanfics that aren't realistic, because as a lesbian I'm already fed up with homophobia in real life, and this is dealt with in almost every story with LGBTQIA+ people in books, films, etc… at least in fanfic I can pretend it doesn't exist.

again, personal taste is one thing, but thinking that some fanfics are better written than others just because they suit your tastes better its not okay. and treating what you don't like as inferior, with disdain… that's the problem.

Anyway, this outburst ended up getting bigger than I thought it would. lol I don't know if anyone will read this but I just wanted to get it off my chest. and if some parts were confusing, well, im sorry, but english is not my first language. and sometimes it's difficult to express myself.

ah, I'm part of several fandoms, but I only refer to the marauders because it's something I only see happening here. Maybe because it's the biggest fandom I'm part of, as the others are much more niche. but if it happens in other fandoms, have shame too. lol It's not cool for this to happen in any fandom.

[bogusbyron]

Drop the post-Seine headcanons i dare you

(because i would love to read them)

Right so i was thinking about michael ball yesterday and his javert (ive been a fan of michael ball for a little while now so im biased and i like him, sorry to the haters but i do) an it gor me thinking abt a javert more aligned with His physique and i thought well. i already hc valjean puts on weight in MsurM because he comes into money and can afford to feed himself (he's known malnourishment and starvation, im sure he'd keep himself well-fed - not with huge banquets just with decent food. he's already a broad build because of his muscles but adding onto it definitely gives him that advantage just in case javert tried to overpower him. lol.) i also hc cosette to gain some weight after they move to paris... so i thought.. hey. surely valjean would be nagging at javert to keep his energy up and eat post-seine, especially after he's recovered and out and about .

I dont think he'd put on substantial weight immediately . i think it'd take him a while, probably once he's finally comfortable with everything, which is likely after he & valjean decide to make things official .

I also just like the idea of his hair getting greyer over that span of time. (i dont know how long exactly as im very bad at conceptualising time in my head LMFAO.) ..............and he grows his whiskers out. i love the idea of javert getting a job as like a librarian or something and the image of librarian javert with those huge grey whiskers is just too perfect an opportunity to pass up .

i'll probably end up making tweaks to this because so far this is all just from my own noggin and havent actually discussed with anyone so feel free to leave opinions or whatever i'd love to hear other people's headcanons .

[fleshofmensis]

!! a continuation of my two previous posts on elden-soulsborne osts

TIME FOR ELDEN RING BABY OORUDHHEHDBR

as much as i love all of the soulsborne soundtracks, i truly adore the ost for elden ring. it's an absolute masterpiece in my opinion, never before has a soundtrack brought me to such emotion as elden ring. and i'm sure that sounds really silly but i'm a very musically inclined person so when i hear certain tracks i quite literally cry and stim lmao AND I'LL BE TALKING ABOUT THOSE TRACKS RN

— starting with elden beast. when i tell you this song brings tears to my eyes bro.. in the least dramatic way possible, elden beasts theme is the most delicious song i have ever eaten. the absolute despair and defeat in the vocals? the sadness as if coming to terms with actions long past and consequences ever quickly catching up. something i saw once which really sticks with me is that the vocals in elden beasts theme is marika herself. her lament, it's her desperation and sadness you're hearing. as you're fighting elden beast, you are hearing the final remnants of marika echoing through the liminal space of the erdtree and the beasts domain. something she herself has become intricately intwined in.

next up is a double whammy, messmers theme and radagons BECAUSE THEY PARALLEL EACH OTHER AND IM SCREAMING AND CRYING. — messmers theme is sort of orderly in a way, cold and brutal, in representation of his siege on the land of shadow. it's second phase opening is signifying his disconnect from marika, the descent into the base/abyssal serpent. there's an audible decline, him losing himself to the serpent, as foretold. and the strength of the instrumental is just so overwhelming and powerful, fit for the empyrean he is. the firstborn or second child of marika. (i'm a messmer simp, can you tell?) BUT with the comparison being made to radagons theme/ph1 of the final battle, they sound similar. messmers being cold and calculating, whereas radagons is just straight aggression and the feeling of finality. the implication of pure power and violence in the tones of it. AND if you listen, there's sounds within it that sound like the shattering of the elden ring. the actions that led to your encounter with this being. this man who wastes no time to dispose of your trespass. obviously radagons second phase being elden beast, that just adds to the story. and listening to both messmer and radagons themes consecutively you can really hear the relation between these two men AND RUAGHHHHRHDHTNG I LOVE THEM

onto mohg, lord of blood. the phase one of his theme is just.. it seethes with grandeur and the fantasized ideal that mohg has been fed (with information from the dlc i am fully confident in saying that it was all due to miquella so i'm saying fed) and that feeling of superiority carries on into his second phase, especially in appearance as well with mohg getting a set of whole ass wings lol. i love mohg's theme, that's all

and finally (for now 😏) THE PROMISED CONSORT OH MY DEAR GOD .. CHAT THIS SONG. honestly all of the dlc songs are bangers but for a "final boss" theme?? the bar is so high now. starting with phase one, we finally FINALLY see the strength and wholeness of radahn that we saw a fraction of in base game. the just.. dominating power of the phase one is so indicative of how truly great and formidable radahn is but in audio form. and as it transitions to phase two, we get that 'holy' eminence of miquellas influence. it quite literally sounds like godly interference. the grace of a god descending to deal with something themselves and as the instruments pick up again with the vocals, there's the sounds of that strong power being used by this holy influence. the fact that there's quite literally almost a prayer/hymn in the middle of ph2 is so INCREDIBLE to me. this is just.. such an amazingly beautiful piece OH MY GOD.

— and that's all for now!!! i totally wouldn't mind doing this more often because i love putting how songs make me feel into words even though sometimes i can never truly express or find the words for it! hope you enjoyed my three part spam on elden-soulsborne osts

[ohbo-ohno]

Reader finally saying I love you. Like a raw no rubber I love you ☹️ how would they react?

there are a ton of ways i could see the first ily going and im going to give you multiple because this is a tumblr blog and not a posted fic lol

you say it during sex: something really slow and soft, and it just comes out. it's when simon's fucking you from the back, you laying on top of johnny's chest, and because all three of your heads are right on top of each other they both hear it. it's a little thing, comes out along with your orgasm and triggers simon instantly. an easy "i love you" when you're feeling vulnerable and cracked open. you're asleep before they can confront you about it

or maybe you say it during a round of particularly rough sex - they literally fuck it out of you. johnny pounding your cunt while simon jacks off in front of your face with a hand on your cheeks, both of them merciless in their treatment of you. it comes out of nowhere, a shrieked "i love it, i love you!" when johnny makes you tell him how it feels. you're too lost in them to realize wat you've said, don't even remember you had said it when they sort of poke at you about it after

you say it when tired/sick: you're vulnerable, but in a different way, when you're sick. it's not like you're seriously ill, probably just a bad cold that's made you miserable and a little sad, but they've been doting on you anyway. trying a million home remedies at giving you anything you want. hushed voices, footrubs, hot baths where you soak in the steam, slow rolling orgasms after what must be hours of eating you out, warm soup spoon-fed to you. softness and care. and you can't help it, you say "thank you, i love you" when simon holds a handkerchief for you to blow your nose in. you both freeze, and you go red. his face is a picture of surprise but he softens when he sees your expression, pets you a little bit and holds the tissue a little closer. "it's ok, love. just blow your nose." johnny spends days trying to get you to say it to him too, is softer to you than he's ever been before, but you've got your walls back up. you finally whisper it to him in bed one night, curled up and tucked safely in his neck.

you say it as a revelation: this would come after a punishment, or an argument, or something like that. one of the times where johnny is nearly screaming in your face, just begging you to give in to them, to let them love you, care for you, to love them back, to let yourself be happy. you'd scream "i already do love you!" back at him, having been agonizing over the thought for days or weeks already. and all the fight would leave you both simultaneously. he'd slouch towards you, your foreheads resting together and his palm on the nape of your neck. and he'd just beg, beg, you to stop fighting. you wouldn't say anything. simon would join you two a moment later, scoop you both in his arms and you would all hold each other until you fell asleep

[writerswhy]

hi, previous anon here! i wanted to ask if my question offended you since it's been a while. if it did im sorry, i didn't mean to come off aggressive or anything lol

If you’re the anon who asked me why I believe Hinamori would try to push forward and “over” her anger and hurt towards Aizen and turn it into something along the lines of transformative justice:

Then no, I’m sorry!! Life has really picked up and I find that I don’t have much time to do most of what I enjoy. I’m not going to lie, the more times passes, the more unhappy I am with that post. I feel like I didn’t get my point across, and that’s in part because I’m really self-conscious about my place in any fandom, and if it’s something I enjoy or something I should finally let go. 

But that’s not what you’re asking. Onto Hinamori:

When thinking about her, I get the feeling that she’s someone who’s always wondering:

“am I feeling this right?” 

Because I know she’s often characterized as very, very naive - sheltered even - and I mean, sure, everyone has been naive at least once in their life, but I think it’s more about how earnest and empathetic she is coupled with this sense of justice that drives her. (Interestingly, I think the lieutenant with whom she has the most in common is Hisagi.)

I think her course of action doesn’t necessarily align with the Seireitei’s tools - and as a result her peers, and that’s such a specific brand of loneliness. I always go back to these panels:

They just scream disillusionment to me. Like she knows not all is as it seems.

(I mean, I think Hinamori wanted to join the gotei because she thought maybe it’s a way to continue her story and oh look, it just so happens that it’s now the only way to continue her story; look at how the stars aligned. Until she learned it was all by design.)

I feel like Hinamori is someone whose entire moral code, the principles that guide her, are constantly being invalidated by their very existence.

She’s seen how that very attitude is used to hurt others, and most importantly, her participation in upholding the status quo, are what weighs on her the most. What about her Rukongai ghost friends? What about the students who are going to be fed to the machine? (I know it would break Hinamori’s heart if she ever found out about the guy from the 12th who joined to get closer to her only to get blown up by his own captain.) What about her subordinates? What about her friends? I feel like Hinamori bears a sense of responsibility to all of this and so much more. As a shinigami, she participates in othering ghosts like her friends (like herself at one point), and perpetuates the inequality. As someone who illustrates for the academy (and whose own subordinate is now an instructor at the academy), does she feel like she’s legitimizing their teaching? And Hitsugaya! I think she feels like she is in one way responsible for him joining the academy and how everything that came from it takes more from him than it gives. 

Grappling with what to do with all this, I think, is an important part of her story. The after. What to do with all you know (the memories that haunt you, memories that have been used to hurt you), all you’ll never know (haunted by memories that will never be and could never have been), and proceeding in a responsible way. Maybe Hinamori could learn to distance herself a little more, to stop believing just a bit, but Hinamori also knows what that could do to others (as it has done to Aizen and Hitsugaya), and while it may not look the same for her, I think, she’ll lose more than what she’ll gain. For herself and for a better tomorrow. 

Hinamori is not just a dreamer. She dreams big and works twice as hard. If she wants to follow a captain she believes embodied all that she was looking for outside Seireitei’s framework (because remember, it was emphasized that Aizen treated everyone equally, that his students loved him, and that’s something I feel Hinamori was losing hope in ever seeing within Seireitei’s walls), she is going to train until her hands bleed and study until she passes out.

(Top 👏 of 👏 her class 👏. Ki-👏-do ma-👏-ster.)

I know the translations vary, but I remember Unohana saying something like “Hinamori is waiting for someone to call her”, and maybe Hinamori is someone who needs to believe there are parts worth fighting for…and maybe those parts start with the people. She can grow bitter and follow in the Seireitei’s footsteps, like Aizen; she can rage until she hurts parts of herself more than it’s hurts her enemies, like Hitsugaya; she can bury her head in the sand and ignore the creating of another enemy; or she can trust her ideal and learn to work in and outside the Seireitei for the sake of Soul Society. She’s not a pacifist - she has and will continue to disrupt. That could mean being the one dissenting voice. That could mean planting trees that will grow beyond her time.

(That could mean reflecting off of all you hold close.) 

[tonberry-yoda]

I have an idea! I have really bad food issues and a lot of times eating at certain restaurants makes me sick, so there's like a 60% chance I'll be throwing up in a restaurant every time. So how about headcannons or maybe a short drabble for different bnha characters who knew their boyfriend had food issues but didn't realize how bad it was until they went to check on him?

Some of the character I really want are iida, hizashi, Aizawa, Monoma, and Shoji. If you want to add more or don't want to do any of these go ahead and change up the list ^^

Iida, Present Mic, Aizawa, Monoma, and Shoji with a reader who has some food issues

notes - HI! Sorry this took some time but I was finally able to get to it! I already let you know how I changed it up a bit, so I hope you don't mind that they decide to cook for the reader instead!!! I hope you have a super day and stay super hydrated! <3

Iida

this man would make sure you are fed the way you need to be

if he were to ever take you on a date, he would ask exactly what you would want to eat at a restaurant and research until he finds the perfect one

usually though, he prefers to cook for you

at first, you were a little nervous to tell him about the situation and kind of just avoided eating when he would take you out to somewhere to eat

but being the loving bf he is, he asked exactly what was going on and you were honest, as you could trust him

from then on, he kept record of your favorite foods and made sure that what he was making you was exactly what you enjoyed!

he wants you to stay healthy and happy and will do anything to make that happen <3

Present Mic

im sorry but this man cannot cook for the life of him

i mean he definitely tried to learn once he heard about your problem

know that he's trying <3

but at the end of the day, he will have you pick the place that you go eat or will eat what you cook if that's what you like to do!

but I think he stresses that he's going to be doing the wrong thing if he takes you out, just assure him that he's doing alright <3

he just loves you so much and wants to make you happy and make sure you're healthy, so he'll do anything for you <3

Aizawa

MAMMA AIZAWA TIME

this man will take care of you TO THE EXTREME

he will learn to cook anything for you and even bake if you have a sweet tooth

i feel like he had to cook for himself at a very young age and I see him as a pretty picky eater, so he can definitely help make you something that will help you out

he doesnt often take you out to eat just because that isn't super his jam

he made a love language out of cooking for you and just loves to see the smile on your face after you eat something

Monoma

he will treat you like the most important thing in his life

so yes

that means with food too

he definitely had to learn how to cook or get some friends to help, but know that he's putting in the effort

he feels like that isn't his best way of showing you his love since he's still trying, but know he will put in the effort!!!!!

teach him if you can because he is willing to learn, even if he is embarrassed that he has to ask for help lol

Shoji

a man of many talents

i feel like this man can cook like no other

so if you tell him what you love, expect it to be there for you as a breakfast in bed, or a surprise lunch <3

he wants to make sure you are well fed especially with your problem and he will do anything to make sure that is done

he will try new things or even ask you to teach him what you like to eat

he just cares about you a lot and knows how important food is, so he will do anything <3

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[selkieioe]

read: playlists are super down below so keep scrolling!!

Our Life: Beginnings & Always.

Hello Hello! Welcome to my first ever post on tumblr that just had to be about my ultimate top tier favorite visual novel of all time..Our Life: Beginnings & Always or OL:BA for short.

This game has such a special place in my heart that im afraid I’ll forever be attached to it because at this point it’s not even a phase anymore lol. I still remember that heated summer day of scrolling down on my steam shop out of boredom and i kept getting recommended OL:BA but back then i really couldn’t care less and would not even spare a glance on it until i got so fed up of it popping up in my recommended for the next few days that i decided to finally check it out.

Reading what it was about made me curious but what really got me downloading it was because of the customization of our character/characters.

And finally into the game i was! I remember when the story started, i was very surprised already by the environment, narrative and world building of the game. It truly felt like i was part of it and i didn’t get bored at all. In fact right from the start i was hooked already!

I loved ALL of the characters that was introduced, i love the fact that it was SO multiple choice that it felt like you were really integrating yourself/oc onto the game and that you’re not just forced to say the same thing as a different choice or feel as though your options are limited. Its definitely a game that you’re supposed to replay over and over because its just that fun!!

And as someone who has never had a great childhood and adolescence, absentee parent, chaotic household, unsupportive friends, want to be understood (you know…this and that) i was so happy that this game was doing that and it genuinely gave me hope to live despite going through the darkest of times in my life :)

This game has changed me into a better person and made me want to be the best version of myself that i want to be in the future! I will infinitely recommend this to anyone who wants to have a feel good game/read (+1 it will make you cry!!)

Anyway enough yapping 💀 Time to get to the point.

Here are some playlists i made dedicated to the lovable characters of OL:BA that i personally listened to during my walkthrough and may relate to their route/lore ;)

read: playlists are super down below so keep scrolling!!

1# COVE HOLDEN

the og love interest!

summer with cove holden.

this playlist is the epitome vibes of the game (growing up with them and having fun, making memories.)

from beginnings to always with cove holden.

spoiler alert!! MARRIAGE DLC WOOOO!! really love this one cuz its all full of cute romance and wedding songs. i also put some songs that i think mc and cove would have when they get kids :3

#2 DEREK SUAREZ

MY PERSONAL FAVORITE!!

DEREK IS JUST SOOOO AAHHHH He’s my ideal man and i KIN him so bad you dont even know!!!

derek suarez crushing on you.

THIS PLAYLIST. IM TELLING YOU. one of the FAVES i made!! the pining, secret crush on mc for a loong time, the angst GOSH. so cute. every song in this plays a part on each moment with him i swear

#3 BAXTER WARD

ANGST MAN.

5 years after baxter ward.

one thing i noticed about our life is it lacks certain angst aspects when the baxter dlc didn’t exist YET back then. like i LOVED the fight between mc and cove in mcs room and i wanted it to escalate more ngl just cuz i LIVE for angst! but if you want to get real hurt you should choose baxter. this playlist focuses more on the last step of his dlc and its full of taylor swift songs.

baxter ward.

honestly this playlist is catered more to his vibes, his character (i listen to this playlist and i imagine edits of him lol) but i guess some songs are related to his story/lore? i made this waaay before 5 years after baxter ward and when the baxter dlc didn’t exist yet and we all just knew him to be as the new neighbor in sunset bird but people like it i guess so here it is xD

anyway thats all for OL:BA series! GB Patch is cooking up Our Life Now & Forever and it’s not released yet! just on demo on steam and itch! i already have a playlist for it but so far i have only made Qiu Lin (one of the leads of the game) i also have a privated filo inspired playlist for baxter if you want to listen to it let me know so i can put it up in public!

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twsthc hiatus

hiii its me again (gets booed off stage)

this might turn into me rambling so i'll add a tl;dr at the end.

so, i was kinda scared of officially going on hiatus or whatever because i got scared id lose followers, but idc anymore lmao. ill most likely be active on my twitter because it's way easier and carefree than tumblr, because i dont have to organize anything there! tumblr is a whole other story.

basically, i have an autoimmune disorder and mental health issues, and when you put those two together it means i miss a lot of school, whether it be from me getting sick or not being able to get out of bed in the morning. my grades are dropping steadily- i have 20+ missing assignments i need to get done. the cherry on top was plopped onto my shitload-of-work-milkshake after changed my username here and all of my links broke </3 along with that, a lot of people are anticipating official hc posts which ive already promised. i will still get to them (and everyones asks!). its just a lot.

some other things i wanted to mention (to CERTAIN people. this is NOT me yelling at everyone in my asks i love u all its just like 2 ppl lol)

please stop sending double asks- i see you

stop asking/telling me to respond to your asks- i will

some asks have taken me MONTHS to get to. be patient please!!!! i believe it was maybe 2 people doing this (similar typing patterns n stuff), so its not a really big deal but i wanted to bring it up anyway. also saying this to tell everyone that i do see and read ur asks when i get them! i just have to think about how to respond them, because i tend to lean on "real" and "🔥," and i know yall dont gaf about my dry responses but it still makes me feel like a dick lol so just give me time.

anyway... some things that will get done when im back!!!

i will change the graphics on some of my posts

headcanons mentioned here

finishing the series (favorite movies, skincare, etc)

finally answering everyones asks!!!!

thats about it... thanks if u read all of this.

TL;DR: im sick and mentally ill and have straight Fs so i have to go bye bye for a while but when im back yall will get fed i swear. also stop bullying me in my asks

[imaginespazzi]

☕️ anon catching up:

Nothing to really report on my end but wanted to say hi and check in :)

How are you?! Hope alls well bestie.

First and foremost, have to say that I appreciate you Mystics ranting (one of the two W teams I support) because its pretty much taking the words out of my mouth. So incredibly frustrating thus far, while I do also recognize that Slim and Kira sadly arent healthy. But Im begging for this team to generally play up to their really high capabilities consistently. The premise of tanking overall is just crazy - no team can control the draft or how your pick/player actually pans out so just compete and take the wins! God willing they will get their act together a bit in the near future, since as luck would have it Im gonna see them play next month 😬

And heres me pretending to be shocked to find you getting in on the discourse of the whole fun Carrington/Smith thing lol. Twitter has been downright hilarious re that!

Pazzi cruise content/crumbs made me happy, looks like they enjoyed a great vaca and thats well deserved for em. Glad to see A comfortable to be a little active on social too

Finally heres hoping that we get to see a bit of Nika defending the hell out of CC again. Though perhaps out of the goodness of my heart for the likely next #1 draft pick I should be hoping for some Indy success ha. I do wish good things for at least Aliyah Boston tbh

Laters!

Hi lovely <3

I'm good bestie, glad you stopped by to check in, it's been a hot sec, hope you're doing well too!

EXACTLY YOU GET ME! It's just frustrating to watch and yes there are factors there with Kira and Slim and also the players that they're trying to play without this season like EDD and not having Tash but I hate watching wasted potential like this. I really hope you get to watch a good game though babes!

LMAO you said "of course you're invested in the drama" and you'd be right, I live for the gossip truly!

We really got fed with unexpected amounts of content this week, good bless the cruise fr fr. With A seemingly more comfortable posting and P basically glowing on live, I'd gather they had a pretty good vacation.

It's such a double-edged sword with Indiana right now. Like I don't particularly want them to win any of these games but I really need them to. I hope Nika guards CC really well and then AB has a much-deserved good game that results in Indiana winning, best of both worlds lol!

[ltsmoving]

Please do talk about ur silly little guys *kicking my legs in the air*

(when you feel like it/have time of course)

its been over a week (im so sorry) but finally getting around to doing this

figured i'd talk some about the three ocs of mine that i've shown on this blog before, go into a bit more depth about who they are and what not! gonna put it under the cut for anyone interested :)

max is the lead singer of a rock band who has been cursed to constantly smile (he can close his mouth), a side effect of which being that he's permanently fucking starving. he's a born shape-shifter, but a learned skill of his is perfect vocal imitation, which helps his band getting hired for song covers, but also works as a great intimidation tactic or lure for prey. he has really good metabolic control, as well, so that's something ig lol. (also hes a sona based visually on mod pinkneck)

dave is one of his alters, a fellow singer, but in the band he's more of the songwriter half of 'singer-songwriter'. max being a shape-shifter lets him physically look like his alters which i think is neat. dave is stuck with the hunger side of the curse but not the smile. he has max's vocal imitation skill, but not metabolic control, instead his digestive mucus and enzymes contain a gaseous hallucinogen that cause his prey to trip balls while they're being digested. (hes a sona based visually on mod ringneck) (also i frequently draw him as a mad scientist because mad science rules)

in terms of voracious escapades, both of them are preds, max being an 'apex', dave being more likely to be prey. both usually fatal, both definitely engage in both soft and hard vore, and both don't shut up once they've caught you, they are monologue villains 100%.

mike is the fella featured in this post and he is one of my best boys. he is also a singer (i dont have a type i swear). not gonna get too deep into his story lol but basically he's the son of a goddess and a demon, just trying to live his life with his husband teddy (seen above, unused on this blog (for now)). i just like writing these guys into shenanigans since they're some of my longest standing ocs, along with some others that i'll be sure to give a light intro to if i do end up posting about them in the future :O

for the voracious escapades, both are kinda vore switches- teddy as pred is fatal, mike is safe, and they're purely soft preds. but it's not really their main thing for me! teddy's a feedee who loves being fed while lying on mike's howling hungry tummy. mike's into stuffing but mostly just likes seeing his husband so happy and full :)

anyway these are my fucking boring ass ocs thanks for coming to my ted talk get it one of them is called teddy see thats funny do you ge

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rambles about my new au

Insipired by a post I found on this hell site that I cannot find so I cannot give credit to the og creator, i'm so sorry (it should be different enough from it tho I added my own stuff)

It's narrated by Tallulah (because I can, my story woo!)

Apartment AU (the apartments are rented out by The Federation™, a weird company that most people know nothing about (hehe yes the feds exist))

Humanized eggs!!

So tallulah moves in with her abuelo and uncle chay while her Papi Wilbur goes on tour. (im going off old terms because I navigate the change in terms in it later lol)

Her abuelito Phil is rather connected in the community, he's close friends with almost everyone it seems!

There is something weird about a lot of her new "tios" and "tias" though.

Abuelito Phil always leaves a trail of inky black feathers wherever he goes.

Tia Jaiden also leaves feathers wherever she goes, hers are just a soft blue, almost teal-like color with purple tips.

Tio Quackity also seems to leave feathers but his are much smaller yellow ones, they almost seem damaged in some places.

Tio Roier can jump crazy high and he's really nimble. He also seems to have like two extra sets of eyes, but you can't really notice them unless you see them out of the corner of your eye. It's probably her mind playing tricks on her though. right?

Tio Slime is a little off, apparently, he's been like that since his daughter Juana died though. Tallulah feels bad for him sometimes, He says that she's still around though and Tallulah seems to be the only one who believes him, but she swears she's seen the girl running through the hallways of the apartment building, giggling with another strange kid who wears a bow on their head.

Tio BBH, or as everyone calls him Tio Bad, is the nicest person around. He constantly bakes muffins for the kids and sometimes even the parents. His kid Dapper is a little weird though. That's ok Tallulah likes weird. Chayanne and Phil tell her that Dapper likes summoning things, apparently demons-- But surely that's just a rumor, there's no such thing as demons

Tio Missa seems to come and go reguarly, she only catches him lingering around the apartment once or twice the first few months she's living with them despite the fact he lives with them. He always seems cold and he only appears late at night when everyone else is asleep. If Tallulah wasn't left gifts by him she would swear that he's a ghost or just a figment of her imagination.

At times, new groups of residents move in; a group of Brazilians and their son on the second floor, a group of French on the third with their daughter; and finally another group of people with three different kids on the fourth floor!

But there's something weird about them too.

Tio Cellbit is almost like a cat. His hair even does this thing when he's startled where it almost seems to start to stick straight up. Just like the cats she sees following Tio Fit! (tio cellbit's nails are also really sharp, richas has called them claws before.)

Tio Mike has some interesting habits, sometimes Tallulah sees one of his eyes glow pink and hears him talk in a slightly higher voice. Apparently, when this happens Richas starts to refer to the voice as mamae mine

Tia Baghera has that feather thing that the others have! Like Papa Phil, Tia Jaiden, and Tio Quackity! Her feathers are most similar to tio Quackitys though. Just a little longer than his short damaged ones.

Tio Antoine is... well... Interesting. He's always disappearing but when he randomly appears he's always just... weird. Tallulah feels like she can't fully comprehend what he looks like, whenever she tries to draw him or even describe him it always sounds or looks wrong.

Tio Etoiles is very strong! Tallulah likes him, his arm sometimes glows though... like Tio Slime's does!! they've probably been hanging out together.

Tia Mouse is really nice and her voice is as sweet as candy! She has really sharp teeth though... but that's ok because she gets along well with Tio Bad, and if Tio Bad trusts her even with her sharp teeth than so does Tallulah!

Tia Tina's teeth are also very sharp sometimes, but she says to ignore them when they're sharp, apparently they grow too quickly sometimes for her to keep filing down, whatever that means...

Tio Tubbo is obssesed with creating robots and automating things. Tallulah has never seen him sleep, just sunny, his daughter.

Tia Bagi is also like Tio Cellbit, which makes sense since they're twins. They're both catlike.

Basically this au is like an apartment where everything is really eerie as Tallulah is discovering secrets about this place

Im not good at writing unsettling things though but IM TRYING

[not-poignant]

im finally sick of my brain being shitty enough to make an appointment with a psychiatrist, but in the meantime i thought i might ask you this: in your wonderful answer to my ask re writer's block you mentioned burnout, which im pretty sure is whats happening to me. i dont want to ask you to give me a long answer if you dont have the energy for it, but i would like to know your thoughts on the matter. its been head empty hours over here 24/7 for months, lol, i miss creating

Helloooo,

I actually have written about burnout quite a bit because I've gone through burnout er, quite a bit... In fact I'm going through it again right now.

I have written a fairly long post about it in the past, so that's there if you want to read it.

I've had different kinds of burnout. I've had 'I couldn't write for years' burnout (literally, after university I just couldn't write anything for years and just assumed it was dead and gone because I didn't want to do it either), I've had burnout that's lasted months (even while like...writing as I am now), and so on.

A lot of dealing with burnout is just...resting more. Taking the pressure off yourself more. Grieving that you can't create right now without guilt-tripping yourself for it, a sort of 'I mourn that I can't do it, but there's nothing wrong with me and I am not failing because I can't do it. I need rest and care.' You can try little writer's block tricks here and there when you want to prod again. You can try other kinds of creativity. I can't write like I used to write, so I tried fanfiction. I can't write like I used to write fanfiction, which is why I've never written another Game Theory, because I just...don't want to write another story like that right now (I mean specifically all the sex every chapter, not the politics lmao). I've been feeling an urge to write poetry lately.

For you, through burnout, low-stakes creativity may help. Stuff that can be automatic (cross-stitch kits, where you're just doing someone else's pattern and don't need to really think about it beyond the stitching), colouring books. Or stuff that's low-stakes for you. For me that's often poetry. For you it might be something else.

I also think of getting through burnout where I can't create anything as needing to 'refill the well.' I catch up on shows I've been missing (writing as much as I do actually gives me no time for reading / watching media), I read books, I watch movies, I listen to new music and comfort music, etc. If my well is empty, rest will partially fill it, but so will inspiration. Watching Studio Ghibli for example almost always makes me think 'I want to write the way this makes me feel' - even if I don't write it, that little urge is like, a pulse or spark of alive-ness that gives the well a drop more inspiration for when I'm ready to write again.

It's very different for everyone though. It's important to address the basics - sleep, medications, quality of life, hydration, being well-fed, health (as much as health is possible) etc. If you're anxious and have insomnia and skip meals and forget to drink water etc. then it's back to square one with just...doing your best there. If that's mostly covered, then burnout is often just about meaningfully resting your mind.

I'd also add that there's different kinds of rest. Physical rest (sleeping / stretching), sensory rest (unplugging from screens and social media and overstimulation), emotional rest (time and space to express your feelings), spiritual rest (connecting with something greater than yourself - going into nature, community, giving, meditation etc.), mental rest (breaks, journalling), creative rest (like the cross-stitch and stuff I mentioned above) and social rest (spending relaxing time with people who love you as you are now).

So it's also worth looking at maybe... you're only focusing on one or two kinds of rest right now. Sometimes burnout requires that you address more of them. <333

There's no easy way through, because rest is the easiest way through, and rest is very hard (and not always possible to the degree we need it) for all of us in this day and age. Be gentle with yourself. I wasn't going to write a post as long as this but actually as someone who needs to hear these things myself right now, maybe you might need to hear some of them as well.

The main thing is burnout doesn't last forever, it's cyclical, it's not like chronic fatigue, or other chronic illnesses. Even people with chronic fatigue (like me!) can experience burnout cycles. So this will pass! You may not feel like writing again in the same way, and that's okay, whatever new version of you evolves out of your current exhaustion, I hope you enjoy that version of yourself, and learn to care for and show compassion to the current version of your tired self as well <3

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he did so!! it was so cute!! I love horror too so it was fun!! But the funniest part was when we were walking out he got a text from Isagi and co. to come to this sports bar to watch Noel Noa's game that night. Rin rolled his eyes and huffed while I lightly bullied him to agree bc damn does he need friends. What finally got him to agree was me getting down on one knee and 'proposing' to him to take me with him to the sports bar to romantically watch a football game together~ and it caused .2/3

OMG NONNIE DEAR IM SO SORRY I ACCIDENTALLY POSTED THE FIRST PART OF UR ASK WITHOUT ELABORATING ON ANYTHING ASJSHSBDKD IM A DUMBASS BUT I HAVE A PICTURE OF IT THANKFULLY PLS FORGIVE MY SILLY SAUSAGE FINGERS !! 😔🙏

1/3:

2/3:

the ask up top!! ^^^^

3/3:

Rin so much secondhand embarrassment, he grabbed me by my arm, flustered and annoyed as all hell, and dragged me away but not before I screamed, "HE SAID YES!! :DDD" Boy was gonna throttle me. But we went to the sports bar!! He met up with friends and got to bully people lightly and talked football strategies with Isagi while I fed him nachos!! Told Bachira about our date and getting Rin to the bar, and he said 'wowwww Rin might actually kill you' 'I know man it's gonna be so hot' .3/3

i hope this isn’t too confusing i tried my best to remedy the situation again i’m really sorry :(( but !!!

omg that is saaauurrr cute. rinnie baby dating someone who’s just as into horror as he is waaahhh that’s some it couple energy right there <3 i’d bet y’all would try to find the most obscure horror films once you both get bored of the mainstream stuff lol. the biggest question before movie night starts is do you actually wanna feel the adrenaline (because ppsshhh you don’t get scared nuh uh🙄) or make fun of the shitty jump scares iconic.

(i can’t do horror for the life of me but i’m rooting for y’all!! i can just be his true crime girlie<3 which rin would find so strange and weird he’d be like “so you get scared from fictional murderers but real life murderers are okay?” “well i guess if you put it like that yeah” “…. what’s wrong with you” LMAO)

OMG NOT THE PROPOSAL PLS HE’D HATE IT SO MUCH (lie he hates that he’s blushing because he secretly loves your weird ass antics). pls he needs someone to gently coax him out of his comfort zone 🥺 like yeah his quote on quote friends are loud and stupid and blablabla but he can suffer through it spend time with them<3 my fave part was definitely the ‘i know man it’s gonna be so hot’ IM CRYING nonnie you get it yeah absolutely. rin being mad just does something to me ya know 🥴 i think it’s the eyes and how dead and uninteresting they look 😍 yummmm amiright?? ;))) (no he loves you so much okay he just has the emotional intelligence of a lamppost cut him some slack)