#gadreel angst

[supernaturalfreewill]

The first thing he saw when he opened his eyes was an unfamiliar ceiling. The second, was you bunched onto a loveseat against the wall with a blanket half over you. He was lying on a bed and could remember nothing since the moment before he obliterated himself in his cell.

He sat up, puzzled, and even the soft rustling of the comforter on the mattress was enough to wake you from your light hunter's sleep. You stirred and then caught sight of him staring at you. Your eyes went wide and your jumped up to your feet.

"Oh my God! You're awake! You're—Gadreel? You're alive!" you said frantically. "What do you remember?"

He planted his feet on the floor and stared at you. "I remember casting the spell and then nothing. How did I come here?" he asked. "How am I alive?"

You shook your head, taking a step closer to him. "We don't know. Cas found you. He brought here. You're safe," you reassured him.

He gulped, wanting to reach for you but stopping himself. Instead, he drank in the sight of you. His vessel seemed to burn with warmth.

"I can't believe I'm looking at you right now," you said with a teary laugh. "We thought... I thought—"

He took another cautious step toward you, hoping you wouldn't take a step back. "You have to know, what I did—it was as much for you as it was to redeem myself."

You gave him a teary smile and shook your head. "You sacrificed yourself. I can't—how could you—" But you seemed unable to string together a complete sentence.

He cautiously took your hand and rejoiced when you didn't pull it away. "Please. You have to know that it was for you."

Happy Supporting Character Saturday!

[marchtothefuckingsea]

Saving Grace - Gadreel

My Masterlist.

Word count: 3.8k

Warnings: canon typical violence and gore, canon typical (temporary) character death (they're resurrected because this is spn lmao) 

hurt/comfort, enemies to allies/lovers

Summary: Reader goes on a hunt alone that should've been simple, but it's an ambush by the angels. Gadreel isn't far behind. 

"Looks like a demon case." I shrugged. I sat at the library table, turning in my seat to face the younger Winchester that had just emerged from the shelves. 

"You sure you don't want one of us to come with?" Sam parked himself across the table from me. "There's a lot of angel stuff going around, you never know."

"I'll be fine, you guys focus on the important stuff. I just need to get out and stretch my legs, y'know?" 

"Yeah." Sam smiled. "Go get em tiger!" He teased me when I pushed away from the table. I gave him the middle finger until I rounded the corner to my room. I grabbed my angel blade and a few demon-hunting necessities, and I was on my way to a small town a couple hours away.

-

When I parked my car in the driveway of the diner, it seemed like things had already begun to calm down. Only the police and a single civilian remained, and it appeared they had just sent him off. I cut him off, flashing my FBl badge.

"Agent Halen, FBl. I have some questions for you." I said briskly. 

"Look, I already told the cops everything." He muttered, trying to step around me. I stepped to block him, and he scowled. 

"I know but look, I just need to know from your perspective what went down. It'll only take a moment." 

He sighed in defeat. "This guy in a suit came into the diner and waited there. He was waiting for this other guy, but he didn't look important."

"What do you mean by that?" 

"Well the guy he was meeting up with was all dirty and ragged looking. They didn't look like they had any business with each other." He glanced towards the diner, hands in his pockets. "I didn't pay much attention after that, but the dirty guy suddenly stands up and this huge knife comes out of his sleeve. Just practically appears out of nowhere."

"And then he slit the suit guy's throat and," He hesitated. 

"And?" 

"You're not going to believe me." 

"Try me." I challenged.

He frowned, but continued. "It looked like some kind of glowing mist or something came out instead of blood. And he inhaled it, and his eyes glowed a really bright blue." 

I nodded cautiously. "Thank you, that'll be all." 

The man shoved his hands back in his pockets and walked away, just as a police officer approached me. I suddenly realized everyone else had left.

"What's the FBl doing on something like this?" He asked, looking me up and down. He had a strange glint in his eyes, and his stance seemed off to me. My hand crept towards the knife tucked in my waistband. 

I narrowed my eyes at him. "We have our reasons." 

"Well, we're just about to close up shop." He told me. 

"I'll be quick."

"I don't think so." He flicked his wrist, and I went flying across the pavement. I grit my teeth, staggering back to my feet. I pulled my angel blade out, pointing it at him. 

"Why did you kill another angel?" 

"You hunters are getting awfully nosy." He complained. "It should be obvious." 

"Is it that bad now? That you're killing each other for a drop of stolen grace?" 

He shrugged. "Times are tough." He swept his arm to the side, and I flew up into the air. My back slammed into a wall, and I was pinned to the outside of the diner. My angel blade clattered to the ground at my feet, just barely out of reach. 

I still fought to wrench myself free as he came closer. He bent down and picked up the blade, lazily spinning it between his fingers. He suddenly flipped it and sliced across my lower stomach. I hissed in pain. He drew it back, and I squeezed my eyes shut.

I cried out when I felt a white hot pain right in the middle of me. I looked down and saw the blade buried to the hilt in my abdomen. The angel released me from his invisible hold, and I fell to the ground on my side, sputtering and coughing up blood. 

He dropped the blade beside me, kicking it closer to me with a smirk. I watched his boots retreat and listened faintly as he started up the cop car. Everything was dark by the time I heard the tires spin on the gravel. With a last shuddering breath, I let go. 

-

Not long after the police car had left, another car rolled into the gravel parking lot. I laid dead and pale against the wall as the man stepped out of the car. Blood had soaked into the gravel around me. He took in the scene for a moment, before his eyes came to rest on my motionless figure.

 The gravel crunched under his feet as he approached me. He kneeled beside me, eyeing the blade in the middle of my stomach. Rolling my body onto my back and placing a hand on my stomach, he pulled the blade out in a single, clean motion. The angel placed his palm firmly on my forehead. A strangled gasp tore out of my throat. 

I scrambled to my forearms, pressing myself against the wall and eyeing him warily. "Who are you?" 

"I am Gadreel." He answered. I felt my blood run cold. This was the same angel that had rode along in Sam, and lied through his teeth about who he was the entire time.

"Get away from me." I hissed.

"It's okay. I am not going to harm you." The angel held his hands up in surrender. 

I instinctively covered my stomach with my arm in defense. I hesitated when I didn't feel any immense pain, and then I remembered; I should be dead. There should be an angel blade sticking out of me. 

"You- you healed me?" I asked him, surprise evident in my voice. "No, you brought me back."

"You were dead." 

"Why?" I demanded. 

"You were stabbed-" He began.

"I know that." I snapped, pushing myself into a sitting position. My head spun at the movement. "Why did you bring me back?"

"I need your help." I narrowed my eyes at him suspiciously. 

"With what?" Using the wall for support, I managed to get to my feet. Gadreel quickly mirrored my actions, and I noticed he didn't seem to be in very good shape himself. But he was still an angel and a liar. And even in his weakened state, still much stronger than me. I couldn't trust him.

"Metatron." He answered simply. I tried to take a step forward, but ended up lurching into him instead. He caught me quickly and I hissed at the stinging on my lower stomach. He lowered me to the ground, pressing his hands to the slash wound on my abdomen. It wasn't very deep, but it was painful and bleeding badly. 

"I wasn't able to heal everything." He muttered. "Just enough to bring you back." 

"It's fine." I grit my teeth, shifting under his hands. "Thanks anyway." 

He helped me to my feet, and I leaned against him heavily. "Don't think I'm going to be able to drive back like this." I laughed humorlessly. 

"Don't worry about it." He fumbled to open the passenger door, and he helped me in. I pressed a hand to my stomach as he came around to the driver's side. My keys were already in the cup holder, and he fished them out before getting in. He leaned back and reached into the back seat. I wondered what he was doing when he came back with one of my flannels.

"Use this." He threw it in my lap, and I gladly wadded it up and pressed it even harder to the wound, wincing. 

"Thanks." I muttered. 

We drove in silence. I almost asked him how he knew where the bunker was, but with a frown, I remembered how he had possessed Sam. I was beginning to wonder if getting into the car with him had been a good idea in the first place, but I hadn't had much of a choice. 

I knew he had saved me, but he had to have his reasons. Just like he did when he had hitched a ride with Sam.

I found myself slumping against the door, and I woke up with a start. My eyes darted to the angel driving, but his eyes hadn't left the road. 

"I thought you were Metatron's right hand man?" I asked, trying to keep myself awake and aware. 

He frowned, his eyes on the road. "I do not believe Metatron's strategy is right anymore." 

"So you're on your own now?" I asked.

"For now, yes. I was hoping to join forces with Castiel and the Winchesters."

"I don't know if that's going to be the best idea but," I paused. "I think I can vouch for you." 

He had, after all, saved not only me but Sam too. Along with others we cared about on several occasions, like Castiel and Charlie. Thinking about it now, there was little doubt in my mind that he wasn't a good angel; he had just been manipulated by Metatron. Sure, he had killed Kevin and others-and there was no way I could ever forgive him for that-but he had believed he was doing the right thing. We had all been there at some point or another. 

The corner of his lip quirked upward. "Thank you." We rode in silence a while longer before he noticed my struggling to stay awake. 

"It would do you good to get some rest." He told me. "The bunker is still an hour away." 

"Probably would." I sighed. I was still uncomfortable letting my guard down around the angel, but I figured if he had wanted to hurt me or show any hostility, he would have done so already. I leaned my head against the door and drifted off. My hands fell from the flannel soaking up the blood on my abdomen. I was already passed out by the time Gadreel reached over, steering with one hand, and placed his other hand on the flannel to keep the pressure on my wound. 

-

I was awoken by a hand shaking my shoulder gently. "We're here." 

I groaned, instinctively stretching my stiff limbs, but immediately regretting it when I felt the burning sensation on my abdomen. Gadreel had rounded the front of the car and opened the door for me. He hung back, giving me space and not forcing his help on me. I gave him an appreciative glance.

However, my legs almost immediately buckled when I put my full weight on them. He was quick to catch me, even though I instinctively cowered away from his touch. 

"Careful." He grunted, an arm around my waist now for support. My other arm had been slung over his shoulder, making it so he had to bend down quite a bit at the dramatic height difference. I noticed he wasn't so steady on his feet, either. 

Together, we staggered to the door of the bunker in the near darkness. I was surprised to find it unlocked. As soon as we stepped in, I heard voices coming from the library. We picked our way down the stairs, and it seemed like they still hadn't noticed our presence. It wasn't until we stumbled into view that Sam's face dropped and he called out in warning, causing Dean and Cas to look behind them.

Dean immediately got into a fighting stance. "What did you do to them?" He asked harshly. 

"He didn't do anything to me, Dean." I grit my teeth, pulling myself away from the angel. I stumbled into a wall, ignoring Gadreel's concerned gaze. "He comes offering help." 

"I did not come to fight." Gadreel raised his hands and stepped closer to me, causing Dean to tense up even more. 

"Get over here." He barked at me. "And stay away from them!" Sam and Castiel exchanged bewildered glances. 

"It was a setup, Dean." I explained as calmly as I could. I knew working him up-with the mark of Cain on his arm, no less-would only cause more trouble. "An angel ambushed me there, posing as a cop. He killed me."

"And?" 

"And Gadreel brought me back, you idiot." I huffed. Both my energy and my patience were lessening by the minute. "He's a good angel, trust me." 

"You expect us to trust him? After lying about who he was? After killing Kevin?" Dean growled. 

"Dean, if you trust me, hear him out. That's all I'm asking." His angry gaze shifted to Gadreel.

"I thought about what you said. Metatron he's-" Gadreel started, but cut himself off. "Something needs to be done." 

"And we should trust you, why?" Sam glared at him. 

"Because I can give him to you. I know where Metatron is. I know everything."

He looked to Castiel. "I know the angels that- They were his agents. Not yours." 

"You don't trust me, that's fine. I understand. I've made mistakes."

"But haven't you? Haven't we all?" He looked to the others, and they glared back at him distrustfully.

"At least give him a chance." I said.

Dean stepped forward, slowly holding his hand out to the angel. Gadreel reached to shake his hand. 

It wasn't until I saw Dean reach behind him and pull out the first blade that I jumped into action. "No!" 

Everything seemed to move in slow motion. I threw myself between them, shoving Gadreel back. The action caught him off guard, and he staggered back, running into a pillar. Dean swung the first blade in an arc. I couldn't get myself out of the way fast enough. The blade sliced across my abdomen and I stumbled backwards. Gadreel caught me by the shoulders and pulled me against him, lowering us both down to the floor.

Sam and Castiel rushed forward, struggling to hold Dean back. He growled and yelled, an animalistic hatred in his eyes. He hadn't even noticed, or cared, that he had attacked me instead of Gadreel. He just wanted to kill. This wasn't Dean, not at all. 

I crumpled against Gadreel. My breath came in shallow pants and I realized, for the second time that day, that I was about to die. Except this time, Gadreel didn't have enough grace in him left to heal me. I gripped the sleeve of his jacket weakly, watching as Sam and Castiel wrestled Dean away from the angel and I. 

Gadreel shifted his weight onto my wound and I gasped out a curse. 

"Gadreel." I panted. He cringed and lessened the pressure at my agonized and pleading tone. I could see confusion in his eyes; why did he want to keep this human alive so bad?  

"Castiel will heal you." He reassured me. 

"No." I argued. "He doesn't have much grace either." 

"He will." The angel insisted. 

I startled at the sound of footsteps. I saw the familiar tan trenchcoat come into view. I didn't miss how Gadreel shifted over me protectively. 

"I will not hurt them, brother." Castiel noticed.

"I know." Gadreel shifted uncomfortably.

Castiel kneeled beside me and raised his fingers to my forehead. I jerked away, shaking my head. "No. Your grace." 

Gadreel held me in place, keeping me from struggling away from Cas. He touched his fingers to my forehead, and a warm feeling washed over me. My body involuntarily relaxed. 

I glared at him, pushing myself onto my elbows. "It wasn't worth it." I muttered. 

"We- I accept your help." Castiel shifted his gaze to Gadreel. 

"And Dean?" I asked him.

"Dean is..Not in a sound place of mind." I nodded, frowning. We still had no idea how to rid him of the mark of Cain. He was like a brother to me, and it physically hurt to see him like this. I knew if we ever did get him back, he would feel endlessly guilty of everything he had done. 

I pushed myself into a sitting position, swaying side to side as the room spun. Without meaning to, I leaned back against Gadreel as a wave of nausea swept over me. Cas shot a warning glance at the other angel, and somehow I knew what he was saying. 

"Are you okay with Gadreel helping you to your room?" Cas asked me. "I must assist Sam with Dean." 

I nodded.

"Good. I will check in later." 

Taking a deep breath, I stubbornly attempted to get to my feet on my own. Gadreel was quicker though, and he immediately supported me by my waist. I leaned into him gratefully, and directed him down the twisting hallways to my room. 

When we finally made it, he let me down onto my bed and stood in the middle of the room awkwardly. I suddenly realized he didn't have anywhere to stay.

"Gadreel." I said to get his attention. He had been looking down at the floor, but met my gaze when I called his name. "You can take any of the other rooms. Just go uh, look, and chances are if it looks bare there's no one staying there." 

He looked more uncomfortable by the second.

"Or I mean, there's a couch," I pointed awkwardly to the other side of the room. "You can sleep there. It's not the most comfortable but when Cas comes back he can get you a room that for sure doesn't have anyone in it." 

"If I'm not intruding." 

"Of course you're not." I was much more comfortable with the idea than I would ever admit. 

He took off his jacket and folded it neatly across the back of the couch. He settled across the couch, looking way too big for it. I sighed, curling onto my side facing him. 

"Goodnight, Gadreel." I mumbled into the blankets.

"Goodnight." 

-

Castiel came to check in as he promised a couple of hours later to find me passed out in my bed, and Gadreel stretched across my couch. The angel stirred when the door opened and a sliver of light from the hallway landed in his face. 

"Gadreel?" Castiel asked, confusion lacing his voice. 

"Yes?" 

"I came to help you find a room." He said, his eyes moving between my restless form under the blankets and the angel who was now sitting up groggily. 

"I appreciate your generosity brother," Gadreel said, his voice rough with sleep. "But I would prefer to stay here." 

"That looks uncomfortable. And I'm sure they would like to have their own room to themself." A protective edge crept into Castiel's voice as he nodded towards me. I had begun to stir and whimper quietly in my sleep. 

"They invited me to stay here." Gadreel said defensively. "And…I would like to watch over them." 

"If you plan on doing anything to them-" Cas started.

"I don't, Castiel. I promise." 

Castiel's glare was distrustful, but he gave my sleeping figure one last glance before turning and shutting the door behind him quietly. 

Gadreel rose from the couch and kneeled beside my sleeping form. I stirred again, whimpering. He carefully pressed his palm to my head. I jerked awake, my eyes wild. 

My eyes darted to the angel in front of me. He held his hands up in a non-threatening manner. 

"Gadreel?" I mumbled in confusion before dropping back onto my side. My heart was beating out of my chest as the nightmare began to fade. 

"What happened?" I asked, wondering why he was so close. 

"I am sorry. You were having a nightmare. I was trying to fix it." He looked like a kicked puppy, I thought, then I mentally kicked myself for thinking that of an angel that had killed so many people. "My grace is very faint and I couldn't."

"I didn't even know angels could do that I-" I didn't know what to say. "Thank you, but I deal with this all the time, it's not a big deal." 

"You shouldn't have to." He said sincerely. 

"I don't know what it is about you," He frowned. "But I care. This is..strange." 

"You're feeling more human all the time, aren't you?" I asked.

"I don't know what you mean."

"I mean, you're feeling things now, right?" He nodded slowly. 

"It's okay. Castiel had to deal with that too. It's not a bad thing." I told him. 

"All I know at the moment is I don't want to see you hurt." His frown deepened even more.

"Thank you." I leaned forward and gave him an awkward hug. He stiffened at first, before relaxing into it.

"Is there any way I can help with your nightmares?" He asked into my shoulder.

"Not really just..." I trailed off, wondering if I was crossing boundaries that I wouldn't be able to backpedal over. But would I even want to? I felt something for the angel, since we had first met him. He was punished for his mistake far too harshly, I had thought when he had explained. 

"Yes?" Gadreel asked, pulling away and breaking me out of my thoughts. 

"Just you being here would help." I admitted. The only times I never experienced nightmares was when I was watching movies with Charlie or the boys and ended up falling asleep around them. 

"But I was just across the room and it didn't help." The angel looked confused. 

"Yeah uh," I coughed, awkwardly scooting over. "You can sleep here if you want. It would probably be more comfortable than the couch anyway." 

"Is this not…intruding?" I knew he knew little of human customs, but he seemed to know this was crossing a certain line.

"No it's not. You don't have to if you're uncomfortable with it-" I was cut off when he laid down on the opposite side of the bed. Our shoulders touched. 

"This is alright?" He asked.

I had to remind myself to breathe, wondering what was coming over me. "Yeah." I murmured. I curled onto my side facing away from him, and I was surprised when he, almost automatically, did the same before pulling me against him. 

"And is this okay?" His voice was barely above a whisper. 

"Yeah, this is okay." I breathed out, relaxing into his embrace. My mind jumped around, wondering how this had happened, but it settled down quickly. My breathing evened out, and soon I was asleep.

[thesockbehindthewashingmachine]

"its okay"|| Dean winchester deathfic

genre: angst???

Word count: 316 words

Plot: a short drabble for the gadreel!sam ark where gadreel kills dean bc its late and i hate my life

He spat out a mouthful of blood, the thick red liquid gleaming on his teeth as he forced a smile. It wasn't a happy smile, but one filled with forgiveness—a smile that whispered, 'I love you.'

His knees cracked as he stood up once again, staring into the eyes of the only person he ever loved unconditionally. The eyes that met his weren't familiar, no longer Sam's.

Sam—no, this stranger—smiled in return, but his smile held no love. The man drew his fist back again, and Dean looked up into his eyes. ''It's okay,'" he wanted to say, but he lacked the energy. He gazed into the eyes that once belonged to his brother, hoping Sammy was in there somewhere, understanding that his big brother loved him, understanding that its not his fault.

This time, when Dean's legs were kicked from under him again, he made no effort to stand back up.

Something in Sam's eyes flickered—something familiar. If Dean weren't bleeding out on the cold concrete, he would call out to his brother once more, one last attempt to bring him back. ''I love you,'' he wished to say, but he couldn't breathe anymore, feeling the blood pooling in his lungs.

Finally, after a moment, Sam's eyes were his again—the ones Dean would recognize anywhere. His kid's eyes. Sam dropped down next to his brother, his expression nothing short of horror. Maybe 'distraught' would work better. Dean tried to reach out, to whisper, ''It's okay, I love you,'' but his limbs remained unresponsive, and darkness overtook his vision.

He heard his name, screamed by his little brother, and wished he could ease the pain in Sam's voice. If only Dean's mind weren't so foggy, he'd hear Sam's apologies and desperate pleas. ''Breathe, please breathe, Dean. Don't leave me. Wake up, buddy.''

''It's okay, I love you,'' Dean wanted to say, but it was too late.

[hogwartsalumni08-slytherin]

Dean’s Plaid Shirts

My name is Holly Plake, and I am thirty-three years old. I am the younger half-sister of Dean (44) and Sam (40) Winchester; and the older half-sister of Adam Milligan (32; he is six months younger than me). Dean, Sam, Adam, and I were hunting a small vampire next for one last hunt several nights ago. Little did we know this was the hunt that Dean was going to die in.

Dean, Sam, Adam, and I were chopping off vampire heads left and right. Sam, Adam, and I didn't notice at first that this vampire pushed Dean into a nail sticking out of this pole that was supporting the barn. Unfortunately, the nail went straight through his middle. There was nothing we could have done to save him this time.

Sam is still walking around like a zombie and Adam won't leave his room. Adam constantly has his headphones in listening to Metallica which was Dean's favorite band. I am trying to be strong for my half-brothers like Dean would have wanted me to be.

I walk into his room. Open one of his drawers and take in the smell of Dean; and I put on the shirt. I continue smelling the shirt; and I start bawling my eyes out. Sam walks in. I say, "It should have been me not him. He pushed me out of the way for him to take out that one vampire that pushed him into that nail." Sam says, "Holly, Dean always said he wanted to go out swinging. That's what he did. He wanted the rest of us to have a normal life." Adam walks in and says, "Dean was being the protective big brother until the end, big sis." 

I sigh and say, "We have lost so many people already why did Dean have to die as well." Sam asks, "Gadreel?" I say, "Yes. I miss him every day." Adam asks, "Was Gadreel the only man you ever loved?" I laugh and say, "Technically, Gadreel is an angel not a man. But yes, the only male I have ever loved. Everything we know. He will be in the empty. No hope of seeing him ever again." Sam, Adam, and I share a hug.

70 years later

I am 101 years old now. I have watched Sam get married and have a son. Adam got married as well and had two daughters. I never got married nor had any children. I watched Sam and Adam age and die. I am still alive. I sit down on the rocker on my front porch and fall asleep.

When, I wake up I am on this long bridge overlooking what I believe is Washington. I look down the bridge. I see Dean, Sam, and Adam. Dean yells, "SUNSHINE!" I yell, "D!" We embrace. Sam says, "Nice to see you again, sis." I say, "I've missed you so much, Sammy." Adam gives me a hug; and, says, "There is some people you should see." I say, "Okay." I am not sure what Adam means.

We walk down the bridge and I see Castiel and Gadreel. 

I yell, "GADREEL!" Gad turns around and yells, "HOLLY!" We embrace each other into a hug. I notice that Dean and Castiel were making out. I roll my eyes. Dean breaks apart and laughs. I ask, "Finally got together I see?" Dean nods and says, "Yes." 

Then, I see Dad. I walk up and say, "Hi, Dad." Dad smiles and says, "There is my little princess." I smile.

I say, "Dean, still don't forgive you for pushing me out of the way in that vampire nest." Dean says, "I had a feeling that I needed to." I say, "It should have been me that died that night not you." Dean sighs and says, "Neither you nor me didn't want to know a life outside of hunting. Figured you were the one more likely to settle into a normal life." I say, "I never got married nor had kids. I was always in love with Gadreel." Dean sighs, "Like I was with Castiel." I nod. Dean hugs me and says, "Nice to see you again, Kiddo." I smirk and roll my eyes. 

Dean and I start singing our favorite Led Zepplin song, "Travelling Riverside Blues."

Asked sweet mama, Let me be her kid She said, "You might get hurt if you don't keep it hid"

Well I know my baby, If I see her in the dark

I said I know my rider, If I see her in the dark

Now, I goin' to Rosedale, Take my rider by my side

Still barrelhouse, If it's on the riverside, yeah I know my baby, Lord, I said, is really sloppy drunk I know my mama, Lord, a brownskin, but she ain't no plum

See my baby, tell her, Tell her hurry home

Had no lovin', since my baby been gone See my baby, Tell hurry on home I ain't had, Lord, my right mind, Since my rider's been gone

Hey, she promises, She's my rider

I wanna tell you, She's my rider I know you're mine, She's my rider She ain't but sixteen, But she's my rider

I'm goin' to Rosedale, Take my rider by side

Anybody argue with me man, I'll keep them satisfied Well, see my baby, tell her, Tell her the shape I'm in Ain't had no lovin', Lord, since you know when

Spoken: Why don't you come into my kitchen

She's a kindhearted lady. She studies evil all the time

She's a kindhearted woman. She studies evil all the timeShe's a kindhearted woman. She studies evil all the time

Squeeze my lemon 'til the juice runs down my leg

Squeeze it so hard, I'll fall right out of bed Squeeze my lemon, 'til the juice runs down my leg

Spoken: I wonder if you know what I'm talkin' about

Oh, but the way that you squeeze it girl

I swear I'm gonna fall right out of bedI swear I'm gonna fall right out of bed

She's a good rider

She's my kindhearted lady I'm gonna take my rider by my side I said her front teeth are lined with gold She's gotta mortgage on my body, got a lien on my soul She's my brownskin sugar plum

It was so good to be reunited with the love of my life and my family. I hug Dean again and start smelling him. Dean asks, "Are you smelling me?" Sam laughs and says, "Right after you died for months she would take one of your shirts out of your drawers in the room of the bunker. Then she would put it on and smell it until it went away then she moved on to the next shirt." Adam shrugs and says, "She grieved that way with you." Dean chuckles. I roll my eyes.

[quietwings-fics]

Clean Slate

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply Fandom: Supernatural Ship: Gen (Dean & Sam, Dean & Gadreel) Additional Tags: Gadreel Possessing Sam Winchester, Memory Alteration, Season/Series 09, Angst, Lies Wordcount: 100 Summary:

Sam knows.

Notes:

For day 9’s prompt: “You’re a liar”

Sam knows.

”I can feel it, Dean! It’s inside me!” He sounds more scared than angry.

”Woah. Calm down.” Dean holds his hands up, approaching him. Sam takes a step back. “I don’t know what you think is going on, but-”

”You’re lying,” Sam says. “I know what being possessed feels like-“

He goes silent. Stiff.

”I can undo this,” Ezekiel says. Dean can’t look at him.

”Yeah. Okay. Wipe him.” There’s something like pity in the angel’s face, and Dean doesn’t want it.

”I’m sorry this keeps happening,” he says.”

”Dean?” Dean looks back. He smiles painfully.

”Hey, Sammy.”

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[queermania]

9x01: a summary

sam: is dying

gadreel: proposes possession as the only way to save sam's life

dean: absolutely not

gadreel: of course. it's your call.

dean: no it's sam's call

gadreel: right. well. rip bloodfreak.

dean: gdi

gadreel: tricks sam into saying yes

sam: wakes up

dean: i must tell him the truth posthaste

gadreel: not so fast gay boy

dean: but-

gadreel: this is a hostage situation

dean: sad face and spray tan and angst stubble

[aziraphales-library]

Oh great library wizard- Do you have any fics about the Great War between heaven and hell? I'd love to see some angst, world building, or wartime star-crossed lovers stories.

You might be interested in checking out the fics on our #pre-fall, #aziraphale and crowley met before the fall, and #the fall tags, so check those out. Here are some around the war in heaven...

Obedience by Aethelflaed (T)

Before Eden, before the Fall, there was a War in Heaven. Somewhere, amongst the eternal fighting on the endless battlefield, one angel learns the consequences of disobeying an order.

Ingnition by EdosianOrchids901 (T)

Before the beginning, Aziraphale meets a nice angel who makes a star for him. But after the War starts, everything changes, including the nice angel he once knew. When he and Crawley meet again in Eden, will they still be able to enjoy each other’s company?

A Fair Test by takemetotheworld (T)

It took a moment to realize the angel had asked him a question. All coherent thoughts had fled Aziraphale’s mind the moment the other angel uttered the word idiocy in reference to the Great Plan, a level of audacity so staggering he didn’t know how it was possible for the sounds to have even passed the stranger’s lips. He forced himself to focus on the question itself. Surely he had misunderstood the rest of the angel’s comments. Or perhaps not. He wasn’t certain he wanted to know.

Aziraphale is intrigued by the excitable red-haired angel he watched speak a nebula into existence, but he finds himself increasingly in over his head as his new acquaintance starts publicly questioning the Great Plan.

The Devil’s Love by OneDapperCat (M)

Baraqiel has returned from launching a star system with the news of Armageddon. He wants to do what he can to convince God to change her mind about ending everything before it really begins. He crosses paths with Lucifer, who offers helps to the distraught angel. God has set Lucifer the task of designing and building Hell: a place where angels that don’t align themselves with her divine plan will go for punishment. She has offered him up to 1/3 of her ranks, should he find that many that are against her, but she didn’t expect him to set his sights on one of her three favorite angels. Aziraphale finds himself drawn to the star making angel he accidentally upset, but he can never seem to make him slow down enough to catch his name.

Outside of Time by PeniG (G)

God is infinite, her creations finite, and any concept small enough for a creation’s mind to hold is necessarily too small to approximate reality. Hence ineffability is born with Lucifer and language. One must speak imperfectly, or be silent. Gadreel was not/is not/will never be good at silence. Meanwhile, a happy little principality is having a tickety-boo time. Change is afoot, but how can Heaven change? Half of Heaven goes on strike. Gadreel gets depressed. God doesn’t seem to notice anything wrong. Lucifer tries to make Her notice. Aziraphale holds a door, and accidentally makes a flaming sword. Gadreel does not fight in the long night that will be known as The War. Aziraphale becomes a soldier. Because somebody has to. Gadreel becomes Crawly, Satan’s little pet snake; but how much of that is who he is, and how much is who he pretends to be? How long until he can no longer tell the difference, himself? The final pieces are placed. The Human Project goes live. Time begins.

The Truth Remains by WanderingAlice (M)

Raphael had been the third angel ever created, and he’d raised himself first with Michael’s clumsy help. Then he’d turned around and raised three more siblings, and loved them all so fiercely it hurt. He'd loved Aziraphale too, more than either of them really knew. And then, he fell. He lost everything. The bond he held with his siblings was ripped away, leaving an aching, empty void. And while he still has Aziraphale, the angel doesn't recognize the archangel who taught him how to care about the Earth. And Crowley refuses to tell him who he was, or how Aziraphale's voice is the one thing that can soothe the ache in his soul that wants, so badly, to feel a connection again. A story through the ages as an angel and a demon come to terms with their shared past.

- Mod D

[ananke-xiii]

and talking about "making it worse"... Dean telling Cas that he has to leave the bunker without a fucking valid reason should have been worse. Come on, give me more.

Dean gives Cas some cash and a mobile because Gadreel told him Cas couldn't stay but he disn't say they couldn't keep in touch lol. I don't understand why Supernatural suddenly forgot about the existence of telephones. "Ehhhhh because they needed to emphasize Cas' pain etc". Fine.

Then give me a passive-aggressive fight. Dean gives Cas a phone, he calls him a few times to make sure he's okay but Cas just rejects his calls (being told to leave without reason after you had just died is a bitch).

So when Cas eventually gives in and calls Dean, he's just over the moon. He rushes to "Rexford, Idaho" secretly craving for some forgiveness. Things get even worse.

The situation precipitates when it's discovered that Zeke's not Zeke. Despite everything that's happened Cas stands by Dean's side. In fact, it's precisely because he wants to save the brothers that he decides to steal his own brother's grace. Cas is committed to the Winchester family.

However, things keep getting worse, Dean and Sam fight, Cas tries to mediate but he and Dean end up having a lil fight too. Cas has now changed and understands humans a bit better so he tries to be the bigger person and tries to call Dean and this time Dean fucking rejects his calls. Cas is very pissed but decides to stay with Sam and do what he can to stay by his side. In a way, he takes side. Or so Dean thinks or whatever.

When they finally reunite they manage to "stow their baggage" for a while but the explosion is inevitable. Instead of that lukewarm fight we see by the end of S9 we get the big one that's been building up from the first episode.

And the best part is that, yet once again, after the nth fight, Cas still chooses Dean and he confirms his commitment to him and his family for the third time this season. But it's too late.

So when S10 starts, Cas is at his lowest in every aspect of his life, he's like a dying Sims, we can see the little thingy over his head and it's not good. Of course, things between the two can only go better from this point on until Dean finds out Cas' been helping Sam out. Dean's totally not happy about it and the two have a minor argument. Dean thinks Cas is taking sides again or whatever Part 2. This is the build-up for the "Cas and Dean's Big Fight/Confrontation" that must happen at the end of every season since s4, it's a tradition. But this time, just like by the end of s9 when Cas saves Dean, we doubt if Dean will spare Cas' life (this actually happened in canon so I'm happy but I need more meat for Dean's angst/jealousy over Sam and Cas working together behind his back).

Yeah. Carver made it bad for Cas and Dean but I would've made it so much worse. Actual scenes with Cas and Dean weren't even necessary because I would have "Dabbed" it away. One thing I must give Dabb credit for is that he remembered telephones are a thing and they're also very conveniently symbolic of Cas and Dean's relationship from the very start so why not use them? Was it original? No. Did it make sense? Yes.

But anyway.

[fandom-hoarder]

it is seriously hard to find a sastiel mpreg that has the vibe i want lolol

cuz i don't want them to settle down and have a family, i don't care about the raising of the kid. i want the angst and the body horror and the jealousy of a dean that can't have sam

i specifically want gadreel grace surprise mpreg 😅

the angst of sam trying to replace dean with cas, because cas respects his boundaries better, sam telling himself he loves cas more because cas treats him better, and he does love cas but he's also so twisted up in dean there's always a part of him that feels like it's lying

but he won't let dean have the satisfaction of knowing that. because DEAN LEFT. dean CHOSE to leave, instead of choosing sam and comforting sam. and sam knows cas loves him however an angel CAN love and its not fair to cas to not love him back when he took care of him when dean wouldn't

[spnangelbang]

An Act of Humanity

Author: seidenapfel (@seidenapfel ) Artist: xfancyfranart (@xfancyfranart ) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Featured characters: Castiel, Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Gadreel Featured relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchster Length: 23,527 words Tags:  Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Hurt/Comfort, Fluff and Angst, Alternate Season/Series 09, Human Castiel, Shower Sex, Mutual Pining, There Was Only One Bed

Summary:  Cast out of the bunker, Castiel is lost. Adapting to humanity feels like a punishment for his deeds. When he becomes sick, weakened by cold and hunger, the battery on his phone allows him one last call to say goodbye.

Alarmed, Dean rushes to save Cas. He’s right on time. But with Ezekiel threatening to let Sam die if Cas steps back into the bunker, they are forced to share a motel room.

Castiel slowly recovers under Dean’s care, when an accidental kiss changes everything.

Things might finally turn for the better, if it weren’t for the situation at home.

Link to Fic | Link to Art

[hoziernaturalevents]

MEET THE AUTHORS!

Here's a peek at our list of authors and some of their past works to give you a taste of what you can expect from them in the coming months!

@amypond45

Link to Work

Title: If We Live Through This Rating: Mature Words: 13,421 Relationship(s): Dean Winchester/Sam Winchester Characters: Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Bobby Singer, Castiel, Lisa Braeden Additional Tags: Post Season 6 AU, Wincest, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Sharing a Bed, Cuddling & Snuggling, Post-Lucifer's Cage Summary: Dean feels like a failure when he can’t get Sam out of the Cage. When Sam just shows up one day, with no memory of how he got out, Dean is beyond grateful but wracked with guilt too. Sam’s too traumatized to hunt, so he and Dean settle down in a cabin in the woods, near a lake. But Sam has nightmares of the Cage, and Dean’s guilt makes him desperate to atone for his failure to get Sam out by giving Sam everything and anything he needs, even if it means crossing that line Dean swore he’d never cross.

@avalonsilver

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Title: Once Upon a Blue Moon Rating: Teen and Up Words: 9,347 Relationship(s): Castiel/Sam Winchester, Jimmy Novak/Sam Winchester Characters: Sam Winchester, Castiel, Jimmy Novak Additional Tags: Canon Divergence, Mystery, Angst, Hurt/Comfort Summary: Shortly after Gadreel's exit, Cas and Sam spend time in the Bunker so Cas can heal him. With trepidation, Cas also returns a memory that Sam doesn't know he'd lost years ago. It’s an old memory of a chance meeting with Jimmy Novak when Sam was nineteen and on his way to Stanford. The memory's effect on Sam is one neither had been expecting.

@cautiouslycas

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Title: The Toy Soldier Tattoo Rating: Teen and Up Words: 17,999 Relationship(s): Castiel/Dean Winchester, John Winchester/Mary Winchester, Jo Harvelle/Anna Milton Characters: Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Casitel, Benny Lafitte, Anna Milton, Jo Harvelle Additional Tags: Missing Persons, Hospitals, Mentins of Wounds, Mentions of Kidnappings, Mention of Character Death, Nightmares, Tattoos, Tattoo Artist Castiel Summary: Two years after Sam disappears, police officials inform Mary and Dean Winchester there are no more trails for them to follow. The case is cold until new evidence makes its way over to them. It’s the day Dean gets his first tattoo. In honour of Sam. That night, he walks out of the tattoo shop with not only a brand new toy soldier tattoo on his thigh, but also with a crush on his ridiculously cute tattooist Cas. As life continues and his relationship with Cas unfolds, life proves it will keep going on even without his brother and maybe, he should move on too.

@lazarus-rose

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Title: This Tainted Love You've Given Rating: Explicit Words: 17,100 Relationship(s): Castiel/Dean Winchester Characters: Castiel, Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Jessica Moore Additional Tags: Murder Husbands, Serial Killer Dean Winchester, Witch Castiel, Top Castiel/Bottom Dean Winchester, Bottom Castiel/Top Dean Winchester, Topping from the Bottom, Choking, Barebacking, Blow Jobs, Murder Kink, Temporary Character Death, Minor Character Death, Dark, Innocent Castiel, well not that innocent but kind of, Blood and Violence, Torture, they're both unhinged but there's also the power of love, Sort Of, Mentioned Animal Murder, Naked Castiel, Immortal Castiel Summary: Everyone has their hobbies—Dean’s just happens to involve a lot more blood and screaming than most people’s. And sure, maybe murder isn’t the nicest way to blow off steam, but Dean’s always thought that being nice is overrated anyway. His latest victim, a pretty guy with startling blue eyes, should be nothing special, just another nameless body on Dean’s list. But then, after Dean kills and buries him, he turns back up at Dean’s house again the next day. What’s a guy to do when they’ve accidentally gotten an immortal witch convinced that they’ve got some kind of profound bond?

@mbqnoyolo

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Title: Rutting Moon Rating: Explicit Words: 16,961 Relationship(s): Castiel/Dean Winchester, Cesar Cuevas/Jesse Cuevas Characters: Castiel, Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Cesar Cuevas, Jesse Cuevas Additional Tags: Childhood Trauma, Generational Trauma, Child Loss, Indigenous Practices, Indigenous Language, Magick, Mpreg, Non-Omegaverse, Ojibwemowin, Shape Shifting, Bisaan, References to Residential Schools, Pregnant Castiel, Original Characters, OC Indigenous Person Summary: In Grassy Butte, North Dakota an old woman remembers her long walk home after being torn from her family as a child and a young woman mourns a loss no parent should know.

@masoena

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Title: Guardian Angel Dean Winchester Rating: Explicit Words: 13,456 Relationship(s): Dean Winchester/Sam Winchester Characters: Sam Winchester, Dean Winchester Additional Tags: Domestic Fluff, Domestic Bliss, Post-Season/Series Finale, Angelic Grace as Lube, Top Dean Winchester, Bottom Sam Winchester, Implied Switch Sam Winchester, Safe Sane and Consensual, Gay Sex, Angel Dean Winchester, Grief/Mourning, Affection, First Time Bottoming, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Case Fic, Suicidal Thoughts, Mentioned Miracle the Dog, Mentioned Castiel, Mentioned God | Chuck Shurley, Mentioned Jack, Wing Grooming, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Communication, Fluff and Hurt/Comfort, Protective Dean Winchester, Hurt Sam Winchester, Emotionally Hurt Sam Winchester, Hurt Dean Winchester, Taking Care of Sam Winchester, Taking Care Of Dean Winchester, Anal Sex, Boys Kissing, Romantic Fluff, Romantic Soulmates, Requited Love, Wincest, Sibling Incest, Brother/Brother Incest, Smut, Sex, Past Bottom Dean Winchester, implied bottom dean winchester Summary: Sam is in over his head on a solo hunt about a year since Dean passed way, he finds himself on the forest floor bleeding out and pretty much welcomes death as it would reunite him with his brother. Moments later he is tucked in a blanket in the backseat of the Impala and someone is in the front seat bench waiting for him to wake up. Big brother instincts never die, not even in literal death."

@sammichgirl

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Title: All Too Familiar Rating: Explicit Words: 7,160 Relationship(s): Dean Winchester/Sam Winchester Characters: Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Rowena MacLeod Additional Tags: Wincest, Witch!Sam, Soul Bond, Sex Magic, Post 15x20, Canon Divergent, Mutual Pining, Requited Love, Slow Burn Summary: Sam's new hobby has consequences they never saw coming. Turns out, that's OK with Dean after all.

@samanddean76

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Title: Joyous Memories Amongst The Sorrow Rating: Mature Words: 878 Relationship(s): Dean Winchester/Sam Winchester Characters: Sam Winchester, Dean Winchester, Bobby Singer Additional Tags: Hurt Sam Winchester, Protective Bobby Singer, Dead Dean Winchester, Sam Just Needs to do This One Thing, Post-Episode: S03E16 No Rest for the Wicked Summary: The hellhounds killed Dean. Now Sam needs to bury him. And he has the perfect spot all picked out.

@sevensugars

Link to Work (Sevensugars is sharing a rec of a favorite work from another author rather than one of her own)

Title: Every Living Thing by Askance Rating: Mature Words: 36,144 Relationship(s): Castiel/Dean Winchester Characters: Dean Winchester, Castiel, Sam Winchester Additional Tags: Ambiguous/Open Ending, Medicinal Drug Use, Disturbing Themes, Animal Death Summary: When a pair of hunters on the eastern coast witness the arrival of a very disturbing omen, it isn’t long before the news hurtles across the country, piquing the interest—and fear—of people everywhere. In a matter of days, the new, safe world that Sam, Dean, and Castiel have been inhabiting is flipped upside-down. Something enormous is coming—and this time, it’s something they can’t fight. Faced with rapidly diminishing prospects, holed up in a tiny, empty Nebraska town, they are forced to confront fears, secrets, and emotions that might have otherwise never seen the light of day. It seems every story must end somehow, and the only thing that remains to be done is to make the most of what little time they have left.

@thisisapaige

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Title: Non Solum Rating: Explicit Words: 16,061 Relationship(s): Castiel/Dean Winchester Characters: Castiel, Dean Winchester Additional Tags: AU-Fantasy, Witch Castiel, Hunter Dean Winchester, Hurt/Comfort, Strangers to Lovers, Huddling for Warmth, Injury, Minor Character Death, Canon-Typical Violence, Angst with a Happy Ending, Post-War, Sexual Content, Frottage, POV Castiel (mostly), Suicidal Ideation, First Kiss, First Time, Touch-Starved Castiel, Bad Parent John Winchester (or at least the residual effects of it because he's dead) Summary: Castiel lives a quiet life, a solitary life, a lonely life. He cannot risk anyone finding out he is a witch, lest any hunters seek out his isolated cabin in the frozen Northern Wastes. Interacting only with those who require his healing services, Castiel constructs an existence that ensures he will be alone. Alone, that is, until a bloodied, dying man crawls up to his front door and threatens to tear down everything Castiel has built.

[spnfanficpond]

August 2023 Angel Fish Awards!

(Angel Fish design by @slytherkins!!)

Every month all of you fantastic writers work your asses off to post some truly incredible stories. Our Angel Fish Awards are the way for all of us, as a community of writers and readers, to lift each other up and give praise to those who have captured our attention and deserve a few kind words. (Click here to learn more about how to nominate a fic for an award!)

Nominated by Anonymous

Tangled Fates by @outofnowhere82

Nominated by @katbratsupernaturalwhore

Factory Reset by @talltalesandbedtimestories

The build up, the sass, the care she took, the pegging, the focus on description, the deliciousness... Mmmm I wanna eat him up!

Love; For the First Time by @dean-winchester-is-a-warrior

Adorable first time fic. Good build, sweet and fluffy and steamy!

Nominated by @mrswhozeewhatsis

An Imagined Life by @imagineteamfreewill

This is the fluffiest fluff to ever fluff AND IT HAS IKEA!!! I mean, I couldn't ask for anything more!! *heart eyes forever*

I'm So Sorry, Sammy by @bobwess

(AO3 link) ANGST!!! So much angst, man. Y'all know I love John Winchester, but even I can acknowledge he was not a great dad. Usually, I avoid fics with the "John's A+ parenting" tags because I have very strict ideas about his incompetence as a father. This story really shows a way that I can see in canon John would be especially crappy as a dad. No pairing, just a seriously angtsy genfic showing teenage Sam being a BAMF and Dean's heart breaking. (Sort of happy ending, though! You know me. lol)

Nominated by @dean-winchester-is-a-warrior

Why I Do It by @kazsrm67

This drabble and it's companion piece (from Dean's POV) is short and incredibly sweet. It's a lovely little slice of life for the boys and the reader. I always love when we get to see Dean happy, and he is, in this fluffy piece. Happy, loved and taken care of - us Dean girls can't ask for more. A highly enjoyable read!

Nominated by @glygriffe

Imperfections by @thewritingspot /@troize

Seeing Lucifer in another light, as an insecure middle child in a big family fired my brain cells! And of course, Gabriel being himself even as a kid. (And also: Art!!!)

Never Say Goodbye by @zepskies

It's a soulmate AU series, but it's also a reader insert that stays close to canon. Sweet and angsty and smutty... A little bit of everything all rolled into one satisfying story.

Untitled ask prompt by @sugaraddictarchangels

This ficlet is the only Jess!Lucifer representation I've ever seen and it's so refreshing to see early seasons' Lucifer under that light!

Nominated by @heavenssexiestangel

Between the Three by @lucibae-is-dancing-in-hell

This fic was written for me in all senses of the word, and I love how she characterized Arthur, Mick, and Dean and the different ways they react to being parents-to-be. Of course, the smut is great, but I also love how they clearly all love each other and want to be a family.

The Great 'Nah-Duh' of Dean Winchester by @ladyknightskye

I love this fic because it gave me Gadreel/Dean without having to write it myself, and also because it's well written and I love how soft Gadreel is... And the fact Dean has his Bisexual Awakening with him? LMAO!

Nominated by @iprobablyshipit91

Never Say Goodbye (series) by @zepskies

I’m an absolute sucker for soulmate AUs and this one was amazing. The reader and Dean's relationship was built beautifully and I loved how the ending ‘fixed’ things!

Baby Spoon (series) by @deanwanddamons

This really made me feel so many emotions. Seeing Dean so happy and having the relationship he deserves made me so happy despite everything.

The Prettiest One by @dean-winchester-is-a-warrior

This was literally so adorable and made me laugh so much. It’s such a good one to go back to and read over again.

Carry On (series) by @jawritter

This was just the perfect fix-it fic we all needed after *that* ending. It wasn’t rushed and it by no means sugar-coated what happened. There are some real struggles and a lot for both the reader and Dean to overcome but it’s damn worth it!

Pack (series) by @spnexploration

This is a story I’ve definitely gone back and reread a few times and it’s so close to the end, I can’t wait to see the final chapters. Overprotective Dean is always perfect but I really enjoy the pack dynamics in this and Maddie is a brilliant addition!

Heart of a Hunter Saga (series) by @muchamusedaboutnothing

Where to even start with this, every single stand-alone story in this saga is excellent in its own right and combined together this whole story is amazing. I love Dean and the reader's relationship and how they’ve managed to carve out a family life that works for them. Brilliant!

Baby, We’ve got a Problem (series) by @deanwritings

I love the unique concept of this, Baby getting turned human, and the implications this has particularly for Deans's relationship. I’ve read it a few times as it’s so easy to go back to and enjoyable to read.

Always You and Me by @deanwinchesterswitch

I just loved this story and how it built up. The dialogue is hilarious and while I did guess what was happening, it in no way detracted from how awesome this story is.

Hold On I’m Coming (series) by @ravengirl94

This was one of the first firefighter Dean fics I read and I loved it. The relationship the two of them have and the twists and turns are just perfect.

Captives of the Court by @impala-dreamer

This story instantly got my attention. I loved the way the story moved between what was happening now and what had happened to lead up to that point and how everything came together at the end. Amazing story.

The One That Got Away (series) by @pink-sparkly-witch

This story just hits you in the feels. It’s not finished but I’m so in love with Dean and the reader already and can’t wait to see how their relationship progresses!

Midnight Espresso / Devour Me (series)by @zepskies

There was something so sweet about these two stories that I instantly fell in love with the reader and dean in this. I connected with the plus-sized reader but Dean is so sweet and adorable. I just loved it.

Collared (series) by @spnexploration

I’ve been reading this story from pretty much when it started being posted and I’ve loved every second, I’m so excited and sad that it’s ending. It’s an amazing story full of protective Dean which I live for and it’s just perfect.

The Last Call by @kasimagines

I could have nominated so many of Kasimagines' stories but there’s something about this one that just really hits me and I’ve read it so many times. The loyalty Dean shows despite the years is beautiful and the effect John has on them all is heartbreaking.

Dream On (series) by @talesmaniac89

There’s something about this fic that I just absolutely love. It’s a comfort fic I’ve gone back and read so many times. Dean's overprotectiveness and worry and concern for the reader is just adorable.

Miscommunication (series) by @winchest09

This is another story I’ve read so many times. I love the story and the British reader really resonates with me being from the UK! I love the confusion between the same words meaning different things to British vs American, it makes for some interesting conversations!

If You Want It To Be (series) by @zepskies

This got me feeling so Christmassy in July! It was just such a lovely heart warming story, I adored it.

Nominated by @mariekoukie6661

House of the Rising Sun by @kittenofdoomage

MAFIA AU!!!! This has been a joy to read for the first time and it's always a joy to reread!!!

Nominated by @thoughtslikeaminefield

The Hero Always Gets A Kiss by @fandomoniumflurry

I’m a sucker for ChesterVelle, heroes, and kissing. This is one of my old faves I like to re-read every once in a while.

No Title by @stusbunker

This is sooooo Sam, and it's sooooo swoony and real. It's fucking electric.

Factory Reset by @talltalesandbedtimestories

This is so. well. written. So sexy. So good for Dean. He deserves this so much. This writer did their research but this doesn't read like a manual. It's thorough and intimate and exactly what Dean should have every day — someone taking care of him.

No Title by @dean-winchester-is-a-warrior

For the love of god, he’s just Like This, isn’t he? Like always. In canon, in headcanon, in fic — ALWAYS. And I love the way this writer objectifies him.

Nominated by @inenochian

Restless Wanderer by intothesilentland (AO3 only)

This story is such a beautiful soft romance set in 19th C Cornwall. Beautiful portrayal of Dean and Cas!

Nominated by @salt-n-burn-em-all

The Talismen series by Lochinvar (AO3 only)

Gives us insight into people who helped the boys grow up into the men they became. Not always Hunters, more like strangers who sometimes didn’t know exactly how much they helped until years later, if ever.

Nominated by @spn-fanfic-reblog-writes

Hunter’s Throne (series) by @ladyknightskye

It’s such a beautiful story and I love the angel-human lore. It’s so complimentary to each other and that bond is just so Cas and Dean. They have got to talk. It’s part of what’s we readers love about them because once they do, it only gets better and fluffy! I loved it so much I posted about it on my blog to advertise it because it is worth the read and keeps to the essence of the show.

THANK YOU ALL, KEEP UP THE AMAZING WORK, AND AS ALWAYS, HAPPY WRITING!

- From your Admins and Manta Rays, @manawhaat, @mrswhozeewhatsis, @mariekoukie6661, @princessmisery666, @thoughtslikeaminefield, @katbratsupernaturalwhore, and @heavenssexiestangel!

[jacenotjason]

I'm going to expand on Morthy's insecurities

I'm going to give that old man the biggest depression in history.

Well, he has trust issues and that makes him distrust others.

But...

What if it also made him distrust himself?

Gadreel has possessed him before and knows how difficult it is to realize if you have him inside your head.

So he is always afraid that he may not act of his own will, but Gadreel's.

Sometimes he will spend too much time looking in the mirror, checking that his eyes are his and not the demon's.

Every time he goes to pick up any slightly dangerous object, his hands shake because he doesn't know if he will lose control.

And above all

He hates falling asleep because he is more vulnerable that way.

Holy shit, I didn't think I'd give Morthy such a hard angst, that grandpa needs a hug.

YESSSSSSSSSSSS YOURE SO REAL !!!!!!!!!!!!

hes so paranoid ALL THE TIME HES LITERALLY FIGHTING WITH HIMSELF

Gadreel literally has so much control, he says and does shit to make Morthy just... so scared. UGHHH YOURE SO GOOD!!!!!! YOURE SO RIGHT

THE EYES THING. YES. someone walks in on him and theyre like

"..? Are you okay?"

".....do I look human to you..?"

ok Gravity Falls connection DONT SUE ME, while the fighting-with-his-own-mind era with Ford drove him to lash out at people (see "HAVE YOU COME TO STEAL MY EYES!?!?!?!") Morthy is just so quiet and scared that every little interaction is someway apart of gadreels plan.

bonus hc i throw back at you, Morthy is afraid of snakes. like DUH but like to an extreme level, whatever that is. hes to gentle to be a "kills any snake near him" type idk

[queermania]

perhaps my most controversial take as a deangirl is that dean is so wrong for what he says to sam at the end of 9x10. (what sam says isn't necessarily okay either but it is understandable in terms of how much time he's had to process the gadreel situation [read: like none] and the problem with what he says is more that it's part of a larger pattern of behavior but that's a discussion for a different time.) what dean does is... one of the grossest things he does in the entire series. he tries to guilt sam into forgiving him for something he's not even sorry for. and i think that's the real crux of the issue: dean's not sorry; and i don't think he should be but because he's not sorry, he doesn't know what to say, or how to move forward.

dean is very good at apologies. he's very good at saying, "here's what i did wrong. here's an acknowledgement of how it hurt you. here's the reason i did it. i know that doesn't make it okay. here's what i'm going to do going forward." but that's not an option in this situation. he's not sorry for what he did and he'd do it again in a heartbeat. so instead he says, "i'm so bad and evil and it makes me so sad" with an edge of "i'm saying this so you'll disagree with me and tell me how good i actually am and that you forgive me." but of course sam doesn't do that (and it's silly to think he would). so dean just leaves. and it leads directly to him taking the mark of cain.

and it's not that he's doing any of it on purpose. i don't think he even realizes he's doing it. part of what makes this situation so unique for him is the kevin of it all. dean's not sorry for saving sam's life but he is sorry that it got kevin killed and the weight of that is unbearable. there's nothing he can do to make it okay. but like, that doesn't make what he's doing here okay either.

all that being said, he's still my babygirl, and i support the angst scruff he's about to grow. <3

[dailymichifer]

[Archive] fuckyeahlucifersupernatural's fics

fuckyeahlucifer (or carvedwhalebones) is a writer who disappeared from ao3 with their much beloved +89 SPN fics (a lot of Samifer fics and other Lucifer-ships fics) Many have been lost forever, but not all of them, thanks to the Internet Archive.

Here are all the SPN fics I could find:

[Michifer] The Way We Are 'Michael imagines that if he were to sink his teeth into the forbidden fruit, it’d taste just like his little brother.'

[Michifer] Spitting Blood "Sometimes the calm before the storm is all you can hold onto."

[Michifer] Little Brother Michael discovers his punishment within the Cage and he's ready to make it end.

[Michifer] Yuanfen E. They were the founding fathers of physical intimacy and so much more. (bondage, collars)

[Samifer, Nick/Sam] The Devil Wears White "Have you ever confused a dream with a life?" Sam Winchester's been sent to a mental institute, claiming there are demons and angels. In there he makes an unhealthy alliance with a patient, Nick, who wants to keep Sam all to himself.

[Samifer] Snow Sam would do anything to see Dean again. (Season 7, self mutilation)

[Samifer] One True Vessel The patients near the ward mumble and murmur in fear of the one who prowls through the ward. They whisper of a ‘Lucifer’ looking for his ‘one true vessel'... (Sam, Lucifer, Nick)

[Samifer] A Little Piece of Heaven The incident with Gadreel and Dean leaves him more than just broken. Sam moves out of the bunker in search of his little piece of heaven. (Post Gadree, Hurt/Comfort)

[Samifer] Thicker Than Blood M. Who is he to deny his king? (Sam 'boy king of Hell' Winchester)

[Samifer] The Last Truth M. 'He’s broken and Lucifer is still staring at him as if he’s a gift — something to be mounted on a pedestal.' (Sam, Lucifer, Hallucifer, Gadreel, Angst/Comfort, Major character death)

[Samifer] Blood & Creation E. "Lucifer is the only one treated as Sam’s equal, his release from The Cage signifying the reign of Hell and the Era of The Boy King."

[Samifer & Ducifer] Common Ground Despite the favorable odds, Lucifer doesn’t share his first kiss on Earth with Sam Winchester.

[Anna/Lucifer] Lady Lazarus M. The common ground between them is stained heavily in blood. (Serial Killers au)

[Gabriel/Lucifer] Ugly Kind of Love E. "I'll show you an 'ugly kind of love.'" And he did. (Tags; Hammer of the Gods, Major character death, noncon)

Enjoy!

Edit (2023-03-04) 6 more fics!

[Samifer] Speaking in Tongues Sam tries to speak Enochian to Lucifer.

[Samifer] Guardian Angel Guardian Angel (n): An angel believed to have special affection for a particular individual.

[Samifer] Dog Days (chapter 1) God comes to Lucifer with a deal: If Sam accepts Lucifer for who he is (warts and all), he will win his freedom and be with his one true vessel. The catch is that he won't be able to converse with Sam due to being changed into a runt of a puppy.

[Samifer] Home Lucifer helps Sam find a sense of home in his room.

[Samifer] Little Birds Ch1 Ch3 Ch4 Ch5 Ch6 Sam finds out that when angels are at their weakest, they become little birds.

[Anna Milton/Lucifer] What Devils Do Lucifer has been keeping an eye on Anna Milton for a while now, and it's only a matter of time until the tables turn and he's on top. Literally.

edit (2023-08-12) GREAT NEWS

As you may know, some madmad archived the entirety of AO3 a few years ago.

I downloaded their metadata file (index) and typing the pseudo "fuckyeahsupernatural" gave me 181 results. All 181 of their fics (SPN, Legion, Dishonored) have been saved and the epubs are in zip files that can be found here:

I converted the index into a pdf: you can use it to find the location of each fic in the zip files. LINK -> EDIT better link HERE (spn fics only)

EDIT2: use this file to access the fics directly & download them

[sadbigemini]

I'm coming to you with another au! I just watched this anime and I'm reading the manga rn! I loved it but I did not appreciate the sexualization of teenage girls whatsoever :/ cool concept tho

High-rise Invasion AU

A crossover with this would be great and so interesting! But either way this au would be cool!

Imagine a whole lot of different characters caught up in that world?!

Some antagonists could be ‘Those Closer To God’ while some could be Angels and a few of your faves could be redeemed!

Remember relationships, friendships, enemies, and other things can be changed in fanfics! It doesn't have to be close to the original source material!

**Oh! Also, young (usually) = teen.

I feel like mori or fyodor (BSD), Klaus (TVD Originals), tom riddle (HP), vox, Alastor, Seraphim, Adam (Hazbin Hotel), muzan (Demon Slayer), AFO (MHA), metatron or azazel (SPN) and/or Whispers/Milton (Sense8) would be perfect for being the evil of ‘Those Closer To God’.

For Kusakabe role (in order to the evil those closer to god role): (for mori's pick Kouyou, Elise, or Yosano), Nikolai (BSD), Rebekah or Marcel or Elijah (TVD Originals), Lucius or bellatrix or umbridge (HP), (vox's pick valentino or Velvette), Niffty, Adam, Lute (Hazbin Hotel), and Doma (Demon Slayer), shigaraki/Tenko (MHA), gadreel or Meg (SPN), and Jonas (Sense8).

Ideas for enemy Angels: Meg and any other antagonists on (SPN), Daki/Ume and Gyutaro or any of the demons really (Demon Slayer), Zatara and have Zatanna as one of the MCs- that is some angst potential right there (YJ), Toga, Mr. Compress (MHA), Raoul (Sense8), tyler and matt (TVD), the death eaters (HP), and idk for Hazbin Hotel?

I think Cas or Adam (SPN), Giyu or Kanao (Demon Slayer), Conner or Zatara (YJ), Sun, Wolfgang (Sense8), Enzo or Alaric (TVD), Husk or Arackniss/Salvatore (Hazbin Hotel), Young Aizawa, Hawks, Dabi, Shirakumo, Young Mic (MHA), or Dazai, Ranpo, Chuuya, Atsushi, Akutagawa (BSD) would be great for the Sniper Mask role. Whichever you choose, the others are good for the good masks.

For the MC’s brother or Rika role I would recommend a lot of BSD characters starting with Jun'ichiro, Young? Dazai, Akutagawa, or Atsushi. Now the other recs are Young Dean (SPN), Young Aizawa, Young Dabi, Young? Hawks or Young Present Mic (MHA), Young Chuuya (BSD), Tanjiro (Demon Slayer), Angel Dust/Anthony (Hazbin Hotel), Young Dick Grayson (DC), Young Sirius Black, any of the older Weasley brothers (HP), Wolfgang or Will (Sense8), Young Damon (TVD).

For the MC or Yuri role (I will go in order to match with the Rika role) Naomi, Atsushi, Gin, and Kyouka (BSD). Now the other recs are Young Sam (SPN), Midoriya, Young Fuyumi, Kaminari, Uraraka, (MHA), Nezuko (Demon Slayer), Charlie or Molly (Hazbin Hotel), Young Jason Todd (DC), Harry Potter, Ron Weasley, Young Felix or Young Nomi (Sense8), and Young Stefan (TVD).

For the Mayu Role (again I will try and go in order): idk who to do for Naomi, Akutagawa or Lucy, Higuchi, Kenji? (BSD), Young Eileen (SPN), (for Mido's pick Shinsou, Todoroki, Uraraka), Mirko, (for Kami’s pick Shinsou, Jirou, or Todoroki), Toga (MHA), idk for Nezuko, Vaggie, idk for Molly? (Hazbin Hotel), Roy Harper (DC), Ginny, Hermione (HP), idk who for Felix? But Young Amanita for Nomi (Sense8), and Young Lexi, Young Katherine, Young Valerie? or Caroline? (TVD).

The Kuon and/or Rikuya roles (no order and these characters are similar): Zenitsu (Demon Slayer), Neville (HP), Megan, Zatanna, or Starfire? (YJ/DC), Young Sir Pentious or Young Emily (Hazbin Hotel), Kaminari, Komori, Uraraka, Hado, Aoyama (MHA), Atsushi, Young Poe, Louisa (BSD), Young Charlie or Kevin (SPN), Kala or Lito (Sense8), and/or Elena, Jeremy Davina, Bonnie? (TVD)

For the Doctor role (no order again): Crowley (SPN), Kunikida? Or Yosano (BSD), vox or Alastor? (Hazbin Hotel), Monoma or endeawhore (MHA), Quirrell or pettigrew (HP), Tamayo with Yushiro as one of her Angels, Inosuke, or Genya (Demon Slayer), sportsmaster (he doesn't get redeemed but his Angels do) with Artemis and Jade as his Angels (YJ), metatron with gadreel and Tessa as his Angels (SPN), and Kol, Katherine, or Pearl (TVD).

Also do what you want ofc but I think having quirks, supernatural enhancements, etc would make the world a little too easy but I'm sure it could be done right!

I might even do individual posts with certain fandoms since I love this au! Maybe even crossovers but that's less likely to happen <3