#i really like dumbass shipping but i never draw the three of them all together... even now.

[laylati]

[rainbownixie]

not 100% sure if you're a multishipper or not, but do you have any thoughts on byclair? or headcanons?

regardless i hope your day goes well <3

i am indeed a multishipper!! if i'm honest i didn't ship byclair until i saw a few edits and posts about them, but i think they're really really cute!! i'm more of a dustin x will shipper (i don't even know their shipname tho) because i love their dynamic.

tbh i just think the three dumbasses are dating will because he deserves love and affection and tbh who wouldn't fall for him??? they're all head over heels for that boy istg

i don't have a lot of byclair hcs because i'm not really into the ship, but i do have some ideas!! (btw lucas and max are still dating here! this is kind of a polyam thing but i actually only talk about byclair)

lucas had a crush on will (and vice versa tbh) when they were kids. like he would always ask him to draw him or come to his house to play together just because he wanted to spend time with him alone.

lucas was always ALWAYS trying to act tough and cool when will paid attention to him and he loved the way tiny will will giggled at him. lucas obviously stared, mesmerized by him, and dustin already knew they liked each other.

ofc dustin teases lucas all. the. time. about his crush on will. but he never actually tells lucas that he knows, he just stares at him, done with all of his attempts trying to make will laugh. lucas is so damn confused because he doesn't know yet, he just likes seeing will happy.

will loves lucas' jokes. like everything he does makes will laugh and giggle and blush and kick his feet. especially when lucas tries to flirt with him and ends up being super cringey. will finds adorable how hard he tries.

when lucas starts dating max, he finds himself rambling non-stop about will. she smiles one day and jokes about lucas being in love with him, but turns out that that's how he realizes he is, indeed, in love with will. he starts panicking and saying that he still loves max! he can't understand how he can love two people at the same time! but max tells him that it's okay, and that she doesn't care "sharing" him with will. she just wants to see lucas happy. (ofc she knows will is in love with him too he's so obvious and max is too smart to not notice).

will doesn't really care that lucas and max are dating. i mean- he does care, but he loves seeing lucas happy. he didn't even consider having a chance with him, anyway.

they definitely start dating in s3 because mike is always busy with el and will spends a lot of time with lumax!! lucas finally gains the courage to ask will to hang out together alone one day, and confesses. will is worried about max and their relationship, but lucas tells him to not worry about it. they both smile so widely that day i'm gonna cry-

this is me realizing that i actually like byclair more than i thought!!! anyway, back to the hcs:

when they start dating lucas is such a gentleman. like really polite and extremely sweet and he often overacts to make him laugh.

will loves to draw will the wise and lucas the ranger together <333 boyfriends irl boyfriends in dnd too!! (madmax is there with them too sometimes as the zoomer)

when they tell the others, dustin rolls his eyes and says "finally". that causes a fight between him and lucas "what do you mean finally?????". el is really happy for them, and mike ummm i just can't imagine a world in which mike isn't hopelessly in love with will so i'm pretty sure he would be sort of angry at first (it's called jealousy, wheeler) but idk bro deal with your internalized homophobia first and then join the polyam couple

y'all can't ask me hcs i talk so much for no reason i'm deeply sorry (jk please keep sending me asks abt hcs i love them)

will often gets excited and loud and instantly tries to calm down to not bother lucas but!!! lucas loves it!!! he begs him to keep getting excited and scream around him

chaotic boyfriends because they love to prank dustin and mike

will loves lucas' voice so so much <3 while he paints, he asks for lucas to read a book or a comic out loud or just talk about anything, really (this is me saying i love caleb's voice tbh)

lucas loves to make obvious that will is his boyfriend. it's not that he's protective or anything, he's just really really proud of himself for dating will. so he often hugs him or runs his fingers through will's hair whenever they're with people because he just wants everyone to know <3 (not strangers tho because homophobia and the 80s yadda yadda yadda)

will loves wearing lucas' jacket it's practically his now tbh and lucas LOVES seeing him wearing it (will shares it with max too <3)

movie dates are their favorite because they can hold hands in the dark, but they often go to the arcade together with max!!

it's not like they have a dating schedule or anything but lucas has separate dates with max and will!! they deserve individual love too <3

joyce and jonathan LOVE lucas. he's will's best friend too ofc they like him and accept him into the family!!! joyce begs him to have dinner with them and jonathan likes talking to him about history (bc i just know they both love that)

kisses kisses so many kisses. will loves to kiss lucas unexpectedly because it drives him crazy and lucas just grabs his face and starts kissing every part of his face

will gifts him mixtapes with his favorite songs

when the byers move to cali, lucas is always trying to call but gets frustrated because the line is always busy (mike is literally insufferable with that too but lucas doesn't know it's because he's also trying to call will)

letters so many letters so many damn letters telling him about how much he misses will and loves him <33 ofc will does the same thing, and he often sends him drawings of stuff he sees in cali that remind him of lucas!! (one day he also sent him a drawing of the beach so he could give it to max and try to fix things with her)

when they find each other again at the end of s4 will hugs lucas so so so tight because he was worried sick about him. lucas does the same thing, ofc, but he's too sad about max to have enough strength and just lets will hold him

i should stop writing this much istg BUT!!!!

they cuddle in the hospital room when nobody is around while they take care of max. will often kisses lucas' forhead because he finds it comforting

idk how this happened but now i love them- crying shaking sobbing they deserve the world <3 i hope your day goes well too!!!!

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Hang on haven't played Puyo Puyo Tetris Two yet but I'm confused as to why people want to beat up Ex didn't he become the Dimension King because there has to be one? So he didn't willingly abandon his friends and daughter? Or did I interpret stuff wrong?

Well....Let me clear up the fact that not EVERYONE wants to beat up Ex- as far as I know, It's really only me and the small handful of people that agree with me after hearing my side of why I think Ex is AWFUL. So I guess i'll just post this for....the whole fandom to see because why not. You don't have to agree with me- that's totally okay- this is just my personal opinion on Ex with the information I have- If i'm missing any then you'll have to forgive me- (Explanation under cut)

In my last post you may have noticed I called Ex three things, Lazy, Stupid, and Self-centered. While the first two aren't exactly true- more just exaggerations to make the drawing cooler, the last one is the one I really want people to focus on, as it's something I truly believe Ex has a problem with. They are living in a universe where Robots can be built with very high intelligence, and codes, enough that Ess can see Zed as a kind and caring Papa. So please tell me why on earth it had to be EX in the position of the dimensional guardian? And not an artificial robot? Someone who doesn't have a daughter with seemingly no other actual parents to take care of her? Ex does the exact opposite, building a robot to take care of his ABANDONED CHILD, because he thinks HE'S the only one who can be in the position. This is only further proved by his outraged reaction to Tee attempting to take his position. This could have been him reacting in a way meant to save Tee but regardless of this, Tee was only there in the first game because Ex had failed to manage the one job he sacrificed everything for- the one job he was so insistent that he was the only one able to handle it- WHICH CLEARLY AINT TRUE SINCE HE BUCKLED and needed Tee to come save his dumbass. Does no one else see how fucked up that is? That the possibility that it might not have needed to be him- he just DECIDED THAT, leaving behind his kid, and then failing to maintain that job he so boldly inserted himself into- was never even explored or talked about? Who knows he may not have even built Zed. He might have just had Zed on the ship and he just BECAME Ess' Papa on pure universal need and Ex didn't put ANY thought into what might happen to her.

According to the laws of the ppt universe, everything that doesn't belong in it's respective universe disappears- which is why when the universes separated the puyos couldn't stay in the tetris world (As evident by Ringo being unable to give them to Tee as a souvenir) and the tetriminos couldn't stay in the puyo puyo world- but that line of logic, if Ex belonged in neither, and Ess was his daughter- had Zed not been built would Ess have just DISSAPEARED? Because none of the other tetris crew are older enough to be her dad. Can you fucking imagine that. He put no thought into how dangerous it was.

He also continues to act like he's obligated to her remembering him as her actual Dad. Through his entire dream sequence he acts as if it's ridiculous that she would still treat Zed as a Papa when Ex is there, even though Zed seemingly raised her far more then Ex ever did. Sort of like like a Father vs Dad kind of deal. Very uncool Ex, Back off.

And that's only the first game- in the second game after seeing all the trouble and shenanigans of the first game he just casually puts everyone back together to help solve the problem of dimensions he ONCE AGAIN CAN'T FIX HIMSELF SHOCKER- DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ABOUT HOW HE GIVES THEM NO CLUES OR HELP AT ALL- He drops Tee onto Ringo, tells them the worlds are in danger and then LEAVES. Leaving everything to Ringo and Tee once again.

Some Keeper of dimensions you are fucko. I got your caller card right here.

TETRI-TWAT FOREVER. WORST FATHER IN HISTORY OF FATHERS.

[canary3d-obsessed]

Restless Rewatch: The Untamed Episode 05 (first part)

(Masterpost) (previous episode) (this episode, second part)

Warning: Spoilers for all 50 episodes of the Untamed

The Pride of Yunmeng 

Waterfall Date

Lan Wangji gets to experience the two extremes of Wei Wuxian’s interpersonal skills within the span of a few seconds. This is even better than his rooftop date with this horrible annoying terribly, terribly attractive boy.

Lan Wangji has come here on a mission to make Wei Wuxian do his homework, which is why he immediately tells him “let’s go to the library” gazes at him silently for several seconds...

...and then lets him adjust his sleeve for him and step allll the way into his personal space. 

Unfortunately Wei Wuxian is about to guess a Lan Clan secret, so Lan Wangji ends the conversation by saying “let’s go to the library” grabbing him by his sexy arm muscle and dragging him off. Did he hold his arm all the way to the library? Even if he didn’t, his “I don’t touch other people” later at the lake is clearly horseshit. I don’t touch other people unless they are named Wei Wuxian and our brothers aren’t watching. 

(more after the cut!)

Apology in the Library

Wei Wuxian splits his library time between actually doing his homework and trying to make friends with Lan Wangji. And he tries really, really hard, starting by sincerely complimenting LWJ’s calligraphy and offering a pretty okay apology for his prior rooftop antics. Lan Wangji tells him to put his leg down but doesn’t tell him to go sit at his own desk. 

Lan Wangji exhibits steely self-control as he resists this look, which would cause anyone else’s robes to spontaneously un-weave themselves into a pile of threads.

When Lan Wangji won’t look at him because he feels his apology was not sincere, Wei Wuxian becomes much more formally apologetic. First he says “sorry” two more times, and he starts prepping Lan Wangji’s ink.  This involves grinding an ink stick against an ink stone with water, to make a pool of ink for the calligrapher to dip their brush into.

This is not Wei Wuxian being annoying and messing with stuff on Lan Wangji’s desk, a la Zhou Yunlan (Guardian). This is an act of service; a genuinely helpful thing to do if you know how to do it properly --which all of these young scholars definitely do--and an action that casts Wei Wuxian in the role of a servant or junior. 

Then Wei Wuxian offers to kneel down (to offer a major formal apology), while giggling like an adorable dumbass. It's unclear if this is sexual innuendo, just being ridiculously unconcerned about dignity, being slightly into abasing himself for this beautiful person, or all of the above. 

After taking a long moment to consider all this, Lan Wangji slowly and deliberately gives Wei Wuxian three seconds of the eye contact he’s been begging for.

Then Lan Wangji spoils the moment by dropping a silence spell on him. 

Wen Can I Have Some Fun?

The Wen siblings hang out and talk about their secret villainy and then fret about how much it sucks to have a chronic health condition, which is pretty relatable TBH.

I know life seems boring now but just wait until you’re an itinerant zombie with nails in your head.

Wen Qing is a devoted older sister just like Jiang Yanli, although with less fainting and more scheming. 

Good kitty.

Porno in the Library

Now, since this next scene ends with Wei Wuxian being a boundary-crossing jerk, let's start by remembering that Lan Wangji has magically gagged Wei Wuxian against his will three times now, as well as hiding his vulnerable family member behind a ward while lying in wait in order to attack him. So, you know. Teenagers in lust. They are both learning what is and isn't okay.  

Lan Wangji steals a long glance at Wei Wuxian while Wei Wuxian is drawing. 

Wei Wuxian is putting the finishing touches on a gift for Lan Wangji. The gift is a portrait of Lan Wangji with flowers in his hair. This boy is SMITTEN. I think he knows it, too; he just doesn’t think it’s a big deal yet. 

Wei Wuxian, who is good at everything, is really fucking good at drawing. 

When Wei Wuxian presents the drawing to Lan Wangji he says “this is my gift for you.”  This is very good-mannered of Wei Wuxian; Lan Wangji had to supervise him for three days, so he is presenting him with a gift to thank him and say farewell.

Lan Wangji completely ignores him, which is really breathtaking, next-level rudeness.

Wei Wuxian isn’t bothered by this, however, and just embellishes the picture with an extra flower or something before offering it again. This time Lan Wangji takes in and is very very very pleased with it, as evidenced by his slightly widening his eyes and how carefully he places the drawing on the far side of his desk.  

Also he gives Wei Wuxian some prolonged eye contact, and engages in what, for him, is playful banter, calling the gift “extremely boring” when Wei Wuxian prompts him to use more words than usual. 

Then Wei Wuxian spoils the moment by pranking him.

Now - let’s look at this erotic-book situation. This is a boundary-crossing prank, yes, but it’s also an invitation to engage in some form of intimacy. For teens who have access to erotic images, looking at them together can be simple naughty fun. Or it can be a way of discovering and bonding over shared sexual identities and interest. Or it can prompt more direct engagement, up to and including having sex with each other.

Lan Wangji’s horrified reaction means that Wei Wuxian has to characterize this as a prank after the fact, but he might very well have intended it as an invitation to get horny together. 

Either way, his response to Lan Wangji’s “shameless” comment is bound to make an impression.

Wei Wuxian is from the clan of "be free" and he just doesn't see why this is a big deal. And now he’s told Lan Wangji it doesn’t have to be a big deal. And through him, the producers are breaking the fourth wall and telling every viewer that this doesn’t have to be a big deal and that they shouldn’t feel ashamed. 

Threats and rudeness and book destruction ensue, and Lan Wangji is left alone in all kinds of emotional disarray, with a bunch of torn up erotica to tape back together throw away.

Boys on the Rocks

Wei Wuxian brags about his prank to Jiang Cheng and bestie Nie Huaisang, telling them that he got Lan Wangji to cuss at him. He’s going to put a notch on his sword handle for this achievement.  

Jiang Cheng is pissed at Wei Wuxian about this, like he’s pissed at him about everything all the time. Possibly he has already started the seedlings of his lifelong jealousy of Lan Wangji.  

Jiang Cheng doesn’t realize that he’s essentially prepared Wei Wuxian to court Lan Wangji by constantly criticizing, hitting, and threatening him. After a decade of Jiang Cheng’s rough style of brotherhood, Lan Wangji’s elegant and refined hostility rolls off of Wei Wuxian like water off a duck’s back. 

Nie Huaisang wants to make sure Wei Wuxian didn't rat him out, but isn't worried about the destroyed book because he has a whole external drive full of porn. 

Several Brain Cells Trio

These guys do make some questionable choices together, but actually they are all really bright and effective in complimentary ways.

Jiang Cheng is growing into a strong future leader - authoritarian and dickish, yes, but also decisive and unflinching. Wei Wuxian is observant of things around him, always ready for combat, and thinks deeply and strategically about events.  Nie Huaisang is a bottomless font of knowledge, sourced from books and from his own observations. 

So when the Wen spy bird shows up, they spot it, drive it away, identify what it is, and understand that it’s a threat and that its presence has political implications.  

They are all goofballs at times, but highly gifted ones.

Doo Doo Doo Lookin Out My Back Ward

Lan Xichen asks Lan Wangji if he’s found out who was sneaking around his the back ward and Lan Wangji hesitates before reluctantly saying “Wei Ying.” 

Ok seriously - nobody calls him Wei Ying. Nobody refers to him in the third person as as Wei Ying. Calling him Wei Gongzi or Wei Wuxian would be totally normal. His own brother calls him Wei Wuxian. And Lan Wangji has only called him Wei Ying to his face when he was angry. 

But now--immediately after the erotica debacle in the library--he is Wei Ying when Lan Wangji is speaking of him privately with his brother. 

By the way, Lan Wangji's shoulders seem super wide in these robes, don't they? I'm not complaining.

Forgettable Disciple #1

Now we meet apparent nobody Su She, who sucks. He wants to take care of the water ghosts himself. 

He is a no-headband disciple which is like - none of the juniors in the later timeframe go without a headband. The guys who got set on fire at the gate had headbands. One of the Lan Rules is “wear a headband.” Is there anyone else who doesn't rate a headband? This is a plot point later when it comes to the ice cave but for now it just seems that he's that one perpetual intern who never gets promoted and never learned embroidery.

Doctor Qing, Medicine Woman

[OP laughed way too hard at her own joke just now.] Wen Qing is helping Jiang Yanli, and Jiang Cheng is super happy to see her. When did he develop this crush? Because it's already in full swing. 

Did Wei Wuxian just sneer when he noticed Jiang Cheng’s crush? Like macking on Lan Wangji is more appropriate than this? 

I love you and I’m going to advocate killing everyone who matters to you

I’m a nosy jerk and I’m going to be your best friend for life, quite literally

Wei Wuxian complains about Wen Qing ignoring him and she gives him the prettiest, loveliest *sigh* death glare ever.

However when she sees that he's a little brother whose sister utterly dotes on him, she starts thinking maybe he's all right. 

For the Yanli-Qing shippers, there is a tiny breadcrumb here, where Yanli says they met by the river bank.  I don't personally ship my personal girlfriend Wen Qing with Jiang Yanli, but I support your ships wherever they may sail.

Continued in Part 2, right here

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For the shipping ask, 10 and 11 please ^-^

Thank you for the ask!

Shipping Asks

10. Do characters have to have canon interactions for you to ship them?

Hm, well, it doesn't hurt, but to be honest, no. Best example - when we read "Emilia Galotti" by Lessing in school, I really liked both Emilia & Countess Orsina a lot. I thought the "best" ending for the play would've been Emilia & Orsina becoming a couple while the Prince Hettore and Marchese Marinelli pay for their bullshit. Emilia & Orsina have zero interaction. And yet, I wrote fanfiction for the ship, one three chapters and thirty pages long. Hell, I even read excerpts of the multichapter fic for an event we did for a class in Uni. These two have never talked with each other once in the entire play, but I'd die for them and their love. Countess Orsina is a good ship.

When it comes to Hetalia, I don't think so much about canon but cultural likeness & historical connections. It actually didn't occur to me until a few weeks ago that Oh yeah, people make ships also based on personalities & not historical precedence. I know I'm a dumbass, no need to tell me. I'm again more likely to ship something if I've been introduced to it via canon, but even then canon is my introduction to the idea of a ship, like PortEng or NedPort. The actual shipping would probably occur only after I've familiarized myself with through fanon and my own historical research.

When it comes to my OCs, well, obviously the bitches would need to meet each other

11. What makes a great ship in your own opinion?

I think any ship can be made to work in some way or another if you put the work in. Even if I don't personally like the way the ship works then, I am sure that 99.9% of ships on this green earth can be made viable in a way that I'd enjoy them at least to some degree as onlooker.

I HAVE to believe it. Trust me. Because when I was younger, I decided to just like ships or mash OCs together because ... I could. Because some core idea was funny. However, I never spent much thought on how a relationship between these two people would work, so writing content with the ships was tricky & didn't occur much. Since I am the biggest pighead you'll ever meet, I didn't abandon those ships, though. (The only ones I can remember where I did it is Sarielle and Prucan, but the latter's kinda making a comeback for an AU). I instead spent time to analyze why these two people would be drawn to each other, what makes them tick and which roles they fulfill in the relationship. Why are they staying? Why this person? What's their dynamic? I participated in RoChu week in 2017 to answer these questions for myself & I asked them when a friend of mine said they never really liked AusHun in the way it is often portrayed. So I tried to write them in a way that makes them loving each other make sense. Railey had to morph into the relationship of 'Old married couple' it is these days over years of trial and error (Big yikes to my edgy, hatesex ideas with them from way back in 2014). It took me years to figure out what makes Francetto truly tick, what turns attraction & fascination into love. I feel like I only cracked the code on how to write TurGre in my AU this year thanks to sadlygrove's excellent fanfictions.

All of that jazz being said, I think my two main categories of ship are this:

1. Cast in the same mold

Those characters may be polar opposites on the surface level, but they share one aspect of their personality that binds them together. Ask-Aph-Fruk, bless that this blog ever existed, put it very well with FrUK: They share their pride. They're both proud in exactly the same way, so even if they disagree on a thousand other things, they'll recognize each other at their core. SicIre is a similiar ship - Very different in how they express themselves, what matters to them and many cultural aspects. They however also share some basics (Agricultural islands, history of foreign occupation) and they most of all share their pride. Their yearning for freedom and no tolerance for those who infringe on it. They see themselves in each other's fighting spirit.

Other examples of this (the core characteristic doesn't HAVE to be pride, SicIre & FrUK are just Like That): Railey, Francetto, Kaliz, Gabio, Hette, Johanine. Also, I haven't dabbled in the Soul Eater fandom in years, but Stein/Medusa is also definitely this.

2. The yearning for what one lacks

Those characters are compatible because they're deeply attracted and yearning for something they can't be. They may share some personality traits or common interests on the surface, but they're wired differently at their core, which is what draws them to each other. TurGre is one example - these two share a lot of history and a lot of culture, but they're very different people at the end of the day. Herakles is thoughtful and languid, more quiet than Sadık, who is more impulsive and intense. It's the difference they want, they admire, they adore. It's who they can't be. Even more of a "Who they can't be" ship is GerIta to me. Feliciano and Ludwig do share some interests on the surface, but they seem like unlikely couple most of the time and are different deep down. Ludwig sees in Feliciano a levity, a depth of thought and emotion he simply cannot reach, someone who learnt how to deal with their past and tries to live in the moment. Feliciano in turn views Ludwig as someone stable, who may waver but never fall no matter what hits him, who will always learn how to brave every situation steadfastly.

Other examples of this: Spamano, DOTS, Rutherphee, Telova, Jemar, RoChu.

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Liza that 3rd fragman 👀 "if I was born a 100 times I'd fall in love with you everytime" Eda saying this is their last obstacle and nothing can separate them, serkan's "I'll be right back, close your eyes I'm here" If this isn't all a red flag for shits about to hit the fan then I don't know what is LOL (but also how cute to Edser look and them telling each other they love each other very much 😭😭😭)

That fragman is both the SWEETEST and the MOST OMINOUS thing I’ve ever seen. ALL AT ONCE.  

Friends... we’re gonna go through some things.  That being said, everything is going to be great. These writers have been solid so far, and I have faith they have come up with something really interesting to increase the longevity of this show. And I don’t know about you, but I’m prepared to go through some things if it means keeping Eda and Serkan for longer.  (I heart them)

This show is about Eda and Serkan and their love story, at it’s core it’s a comedy, it will all lead to happy things, but... yeah, buckle up! 

I have a lot of asks both about the fragman and last ep, so I’m going to answer a bunch under the cut. 

Anonymous said: The fandom theories about episode 28 have gotten so wild that I literally think the most shocking thing would be if they actually got married and were not separated (emotionally or physically). What if the earlier painful episodes were to make us believe that things couldn't possibly go right in 28 and it's a reverse psychology trick?

You could be right!  I like your thinking. I checked on twitter and I had to back away slowly. The juvenile temper tantrums were too much for me today.  

Look, I think it’s clear something big is coming. It has to, there has to be something that shakes up the show. Some of the theories are more upsetting and catastrophic than others, but the writers won’t do anything that dings either character or their love for one another.  Whatever happens will showcase the connection between these two and the chemistry between the actors, that’s the point of everything, and anything that does those things is gonna be a-okay with me. 

@jan31​ Hi Liza. Do you think we are going to see the wedding in 28 or they will leave it on a cliffhanger for next week. Lots of theories going round mainly cos of Neslihan saying new dimensions coming in episode 29, which could just mean married life etc. I have seen suggestions of memory loss, it's all a dream since episode one. I would personally love Eda to wake up like in episode one but for it to be a total turn around and she is the boss and Serkan the employee. Eda being robot yildiz appeals to me!!! I know it will never happen but leave me here with my dreams!!

I started the day at 90% sure they’ll be married in 28/29, but now I’m down to like 30% that they’ll get married in these episodes. I really, really want them to get married before whatever happens happens, because every scenario I can think of for this reset or starting again, seems like it would be better if they were married.  

However, the shooting spoilers from today, make me question that. Namely the videos where Hande appears to still be wearing the ring on her right hand. We shall see, that could be for many reasons. 

Honestly, though, I wouldn’t hate a memory loss storyline. Seeing one of them (and Serkan’s line in the trailer makes it seem like it might be him) lose their memory and have to fall in love all over again? There are worse fates for a shipper than getting to experience that all again but in a different way.  

Anonymous said: Your response to the fandom drama anon was so good, it's exactly how I feel. While I don't know what the old posts that were like are (that's shady as fuck) I did see all the other drama go down and wow. The actresses def need to stay in their lane and some of the fans, hoooo boy, it's obvious they're young based off their reactions alone. Had to unfollow some people once I realized what they were like. Also some of the IRL shipping reminded me of col*fer stuff, reading into everything and blowing it out of proportion (which then gets picked up by paps....). But you're right in that at least the show related drama is tame compared to OUAT. But still, people being too careless even while they know the paps see everything and harass Kerem and hande (omg did you see the video of hande the other day stopped in the van and she looked so overwhelmed 😔)

You’re referencing this post here about yesterday’s drama. 

Today Neslihan made it worse by addressing everything and claiming she didn’t like all those Hande-bashing posts because... wait for it... she was HACKED. Oy. Hackers got in and went back two years to like gross posts about Hande? Sure, Jan. While I don’t believe that for a second, I guess that at least gives her cover with Hande so they can all pretend it’s true and move on so it’s not awkward on set.  But, yikes, she needs to consult a publicist, she took a narrative that was circulating in certain circles in fandom and made sure all her followers were aware. Not very savvy. 

As for the paps coming after Hande, yes I did see her in the car, she did look overwhelmed. Back off vultures!!! That’s why I think Kerem sometimes throws himself to the wolves so that doesn’t happen. She always handles them like a pro, but you can tell she’d rather be anywhere else on earth than talking to them. 

The pap stuff is worse than I’ve seen before, they’re like vultures circling for any conjecture (sometimes made up out of thin air) they can turn into a question and blame fans. OUAT actors dealt with nothing like this. Also I can’t believe they never ask about the show. Like after last week? They could legit ask about the sex scene which probably would have given them some angle on the actors that they wanted, (especially since it was too hot for Turkish TV) but they let that pass them by, and instead asked the same questions about being together that they never answer. Dumbasses. They are not only awful people, they are awful at their jobs. 

In Van, the paps pay off crew members for info, they always know more than fans. Also I don’t remember stars of my shows getting this level of tabloid attention before. Except for on Riverdale, Lili and Cole generated that level of interest, and while I didn’t pay terribly close attention to them, I feel like they rarely talked to the paps, were just photographed. Also I don’t suspected the CW of calling the paps on them, but I suspect either the network or production company of sometimes calling them on Hande and Kerem. 

Anonymous said: Do you think it’s weird that they didn’t touch the kidnapping at all in either trailer? They might not have filmed it in time for the 1st one but certainly the 2nd. And I’m definitely not complaining about the ones we got because its like a fairytale but the kidnapping was the cliffhanger...? 🧐 I think they should’ve just left the princes storyline at “he went back to his country” but then they didn’t so......

If they’d left his story at just going back to his country, then the Prince really wouldn’t have served his purpose. He was brought on to cause some sort of trouble, so they probably need him to cause the trouble before he goes, lets hope it ends with this kidnapping!

And to answer your question, yes, I do think it’s weird that neither trailer touched on it. On any other show I’d think it was a huge red flag, but on this show maybe not as much because  a) there’s obviously a lot of romance in this episode, it’s not crazy that they are focusing on that to draw people in with the promos  b) this show likes to do cliffhangers that end up being no big deal, that happens a lot.  

Who knows it could turn out to be a big deal that shapes the rest of the episode in some unexpected way (Eda’s captured the whole episode and she’s dreaming about wedding prep, or... who knows) but I think it’s more likely that they resolve in the first 5-10 minutes and then move on.  Since we know from the summary (not that I trust those) that Serkan goes on the bachelor weekend, it feels like the Prince is taken care of prior to that. I don’t think he’d leave her alone for a second if there was a chance the Prince was still a threat. Perhaps Babaanne is pissed he tried to kidnap Eda and tells them she’ll handle it herself???

Anonymous said: Semiha not being in the promo is highkey suspicious. The actress is promoting the episode lol. She's about to Evil Queen this wedding ceremony but you know what, I'm fine with whatever she has planned if they end up married at the end of the day. What's funny is that since a lot of fans these days will assume that there will be shocking negative plot twists, not actually having one here would be a plot twist so I hope the writers keep them together for whatever's next haha

You’re not wrong, at this point, having this wedding take place would be a shocking twist for all of us!  As for Semiha... hmmm... it will be interesting to see what her reaction is to Eda being kidnapped by her pick of suitor. Serkan Bolat might be the son of the man indirectly responsible for her parents death, but he would never hurt her. Take note, Grandbag!  

Anonymous said: Do you mind sharing your speculative scenarios?

After the trailer today, I don’t know if I can even remember some of them. 

Memory loss

Grandma forces Serkan to choose between Eda and his company/wealth,  he chooses Eda and they start over from scratch with nothing

Time jump

AU starting over, showing a different path they might have taken together

Dream

These actors playing different characters in a new story

I don’t think the last three are likely, but they did spring to mind after some of Neslihan’s teases. 

Anonymous said: So this show doesn't get like fantastic ratings (it actually seems to be on the lower end compared to all other dizis airing) but the social media engagement is off the charts. Why is that?!? Is the show just extraordinarily popular internationally? or that this is a "shipping" show? I'm floored by the numbers - its like no other show/fandom is even trying

The ratings were terrific during the summer. But to your point, it has a huge fandom both in Turkey and internationally, but it’s worth noting that most of those charts you see where it beats every other show in every imaginable social metric is just for Turkey.  

It’s one of those lightning in a bottle situations where you get the right property and the right actors together at the right time and magic happens.  And, for sure, the number one reason is the shipping. Shipping drives fandom engagement, and a fantastic ship with a juicy, fun, tropey love story is what this show offers. It also offers up two extremely attractive, talented, likeable leads with off-the-charts chemistry (plus the added speculation about an off-camera relationship that has intrigued more than a few fans, tabloids and gossip sites and fueled interest) who have done a good job of building the fanbase through their social media engagement. Plus the timing is part of it as well. I don’t know about you, but this show hit the spot during this pandemic and the horror of 2020. We all needed this escape. 

Anonymous said:Do you think something happened in the writers room after the backlash of 25 and fan disappointment after Ayse's announcement? I feel like a switch flipped and now we're in fanficland with how much good content we've gotten in these last two episodes. Like I thought maybe they should wrap up the series soon before the characters got completely off the tracks but they may be finding their groove now and I'm interested to see what their next twist is after they can write out Balca/Seymen.

I don’t know about a switch flip, this show has been fanfic land since the first episode!  The tropes! That is how I described it to multiple people when I first started watching: an AU fanfic come to life.

As for the writing changes, no, I don’t think backlash after 25 affected 26 or 27, because 26 was already 90% shot, and 27 already written. However, I assume they themselves could tell that 25 got just too dark and had strayed pretty far from the DNA of the series. While I didn’t think it was bad, it was not fun to watch and this show ought to be fun to watch. 

Let’s hope, however, that the backlash affects future episodes in that they know what works... and what doesn’t.  The last two episodes definitely felt reminiscent of the first batch of episodes. Light, funny, romantic. If they can keep that tone... I’ll be thrilled.

Anonymous said: i didn't realize how much i missed "together" edser until watching 27.. it's been so long since they were "officially" together and we also had such few episodes of it.. ppl have been comparing it to 12 and while in some ways i agree, edser are always so different here than they were there. 12 was them navigating their new relationship.. they were more shy and finding their footing.. here they are very much established, as they should be after knowing their love for so long in comparison to 12!

Yes, it was lovely. You know I’ve preached a lot about how even though Eda and Serkan were broken up, they’ve still been together all this time. And it’s true, but there is something about them truly being together that is magical. We never got enough of that the first time around (a writing mistake in my opinion) and they’re so good together it’s lovely to watch. 

Anonymous said: Serkan not asking for help from Balca when asking his team for help with the marriage gifts preparations and refusing her offer of help when she asked made me so happy. Good job Serkan! He's learning! She's not trustworthy!

Yes, that was a good moment. And he was eyeing her very warily when she offered. The thing I don’t understand is how has no one caught on that she’s working with Babaanne? That entire office is filled with nosy people, has no one remarked on the number of times Balca has gone up to the office or they’ve disappeared for lunch at the same time? Come on Leyla! Come on Melo! Notice these things!  

Anonymous said: Fingers crossed that we finally make progress towards getting rid of Seiman & Balca now that all the girls were drugged and Eda was put in the car in the last episode. Unless Seiman has a change of heart and takes Eda back inside before anyone wakes & the guys get there then the show has to address it. Although I do not think Balca is going to back down unless Serkan straight up tells her he has zero interest in her and never will. Totally fine if that happens in the next episode.

Will Balca backdown even if she’s humiliated like that? She’s so delusional I’m not sure. What I am sure is that she’s dangerous. This came in before we saw the other two fragmans that have no mention of the kidnapping. Hard to picture how that is so easily resolved. Unless she frees herself (which seems unlikely in her groggy state) or maybe Melo’s future boyfriend is able to stop it before they get far?  Or I don’t know. I just know that I want to see Serkan lose his mind and all the other characters see Serkan lose his mind and then I want it to be over. LOL.

Anonymous said: As much as I am loving everything Edser, I cannot wait for Seiman, Balca and Grandma to be gone. And I am even more annoyed to think that the show might try to redeem all 3 characters. All 3 of them are truly awful people and no need to waste air time trying to make the audience think any different. Just my opinion...🤷🏻‍♀️. Show please finally expose those 3 for the psychos they are and get rid of them.

Bye bitches!  I don’t think there’s any redemption for Balca and Seiman. They both have poisoned/dosed people, hard to come back from that.  And there is no need to redeem them because neither is compelling enough to be a long-term character. But maybe Granny, we probably will see a redemption arc for her. 

Anonymous said: i know you were worried a few weeks ago that with ayse leaving as writer, we probably wouldn't have the same sort of comedy as previous episodes... but istg the whole kiz isteme scene, especially with chef alex, had me almost crying with laughter. especially when serkan off the cuff just goes "well if that's an option..." to everyone misunderstanding alex "wanting" ayfer for 2 nights and then eda ready to beat him with the flowers he bought her... comedic gold lmao.

SO GOOD! I was thrilled to see that sort of comedy, the sort of comedy we’d come to expect, from these writers. I think it bodes very well indeed!  

That scene was amazing. I know Neslihan said that much of it was improvised. Probably that line from Serkan (since Serkan is SO out-of-his-mind in love I’m not sure he could even joke about having Eda only two nights a week! LOL) was improv from Kerem, and Aydan asking about the other nights, and Seyfi bringing up the weekend. And Eda’s very Hande-esque “Ser-KAN.” 

I just love rewatching that scene and checking out everyone who is breaking character and just losing it. Cagri most of all. He’s blurred aback there but you can see Ferit spends the whole time laughing or trying to stifle a laugh. Reminds me of Cagri in the scene in 18 when they’re watching the security footage he was losing it in that scene as well. 

Anonymous said: i'm scared - I think they are really about to give us all of these happy EdSer scenes only to have something happen RIGHT before the wedding ceremony due to Babaanne. Based on the last episode, I don't think there's any chance of a breakup (knock on wood) but what if Serkan gets arrested, goes to jail for 2 years, and we get a time jump?

This was sent before the last two teasers, so yes I think something is gonna happen. We shall see!  I don’t really think Serkan going to jail for 2 years is in the cards, at least I hope not!  Besides if Babaanne did that she would have no hopes of ever reconciling with Eda, so that seems unlikely she’d follow through and leave him there for so long a time. 

Anonymous said: With the last week's sex scene, they did a lot of fade outs but the scene was basically still there so it wasn't much wasted effort for the actors. But for what they're teasing in episode 28 - idk how they can get away with showing them in the shower at all if Serkan lifting Eda with her clothes on had required blurring? Is Eda dropping her robe even pushing it? It's intriguing indeed.

Great questions. We’re 36 hours from finding out (well I'm longer than that because I wait for the English subs, hee hee) All I know is I want to see these scenes.. one way or another! 

[char-lotteral]

Look I'm not one of those people who believe Kishimoto decided to have Hinata and Naruto end up in the middle part of Shippuden. I believe he decided in the very last arc but he wanted to sound smart so he said he decided earlier on. Otherwise, they obviously would have more scene together. In Shippuden, they have only three scenes together ; when Naruto came back, the pain attack and the neji death scene. That's it. In the original Naruto, they probably have less than ten canon scenes not including fillers.

So I'm sorry I'm one of those who wasn't convinced by The Last. They literally had a basic villain go after Hinata who was cringe btw (the villain). They gave Hinata op powers which she doesn't have in the novel 👀. Despite having op powers, they made her the damsel in distress. Very "The hero saves the princess" cliche. Again, to justify them being together. I mean Naruto can't differentiate his love for ramen and romantic love so how??? He was just being nice to Hinata just like he does to everyone. He stood up for her just like he does for everyone.

Don't get me started on the Sakura Sasuke relationship 🤣. Cringe. They never knew each other. The whole Sakura's love for Sasuke saved him doesn't make sense. They spent barely a year in their genin year before sasuke left. Sasuke tried to kill Naruto and Sakura multiple times. Then at the end of the war, Kishimoto tried to do the "oh they have such a deep understanding between each other" which comes off as cringey. He gets her pregnant then leaves for years. She's literally a single mom who's broke.

Every relationship in Naruto is so cringey and forced except shikatemari. Kishimoto should've focused on the main story and fixed his potholes and leave the ending open.

Naruto would not have been perfect but at least it would've been remembered for staying true to its vision but instead it's remembered for cringey relationships, dumbass villain (except pain and madara) and a story that lost its core which is a shame coz I used to love Naruto. I was inspired by its messages but now....

OKAY LOL WAIT I ACTUALLY HAVE THIS LONG ASS RANT PREPARED XD

BUT FIRST Ive read what you said and I lowkey agree :p

HOWEVER

I DRAW THE LINE AT TONERI SLANDER. BECAUSE WHY

TONERI?? CRINGE?? THIS SEXY MOTHERFUCKER??

LOOK AT HIS WHITE FLUFFY HAIR AND HIS CERULEAN BLUE ORBS STARING DEEPLY INTO YOUR SOUL

SAY SIKE RIGHT NOW?!#*@*#&@*

okay lol now for the juicy part click readmore and beware I shall be brutally honest so yea enjoy

I mean, Naruto in general is a mess, not just the ships if we're being realistic. Alot of plotholes, rushed endings, this and that, the w a r a r c, Kaguya, the way they rushed Boruto ehhh. Honestly, getting into Naruto is literally my biggest regret of 2020 :"DD

Im an NH shipper as you can tell by my hotmess of a blog but i fully respect your opinion and understand your point of view. I also know a bunch of nh stans who have their complaints with their development. I wish Kishi gave more attention to his female cast really, thats all I fucking ask. If he did that one single basic thing, then maybe the endgame relationships wouldnt have been an asspull and theyd be given propper screentime with their love interest, both Sakura and Hinata. The Last tbh i think the writers played it safe and stuck to the whole Naruto shounen vibe thingy, so im not surprised it was plotted that way. Typical cliché shounen movie.

But does that bother me? No! The Last was a mess, their development was shit, they definitely needed more screentime but hey at the end of the day theyre cute as fuck, we have that kiss scene, flirting scenes, a shit ton of official art, three kids, Seiki's gif :33 and a whole ass arc for their wedding all that for just a shounen anime so eh. Compensates for it i guess xD theyre not toxic, unhealthy or whatnot. Theyre wholesome, soft and vanilla as fuck and exactly what i need in my hectic life rn. No drama, just two kind souls who are adorable as heck and theyre dynamic means so much to me and I will love them until i shall leave this earth.

Anon, im not even gonna waste my time and defend their development because i think it sucked too xD but if you wanna know why i love them so so so soooo much, Id be more than willing to tell you :33

Sasuke and Sakura on the other hand eeeehhhh i can see why people like them. Sasuke's hot, he's your typical hot bad boy aad Sakura's hot and pretty too. Basic blue and pink trope. Aside from their canon interactions, fans have all the opportunity to play around with their dynamic but for me, its just sooo basic and so hetero and can easily appeal to any 16 yr old teenage girl, no wonder it has an active fanbase on twt and---- AM I MAKING ANY SENSE? AHDBAJJE LIKE ITS SO-- BASIC, your usual bad boy x pretty girl trope that you get to read in YA and coming of age novels. Not only that, but going back to canon, they have too many negative interactions for me to like them together :p The least Sakura can do is put down her own foot and yell at him for not contacting them for god knows how long. I also dont like how he always gets easily forgiven >=[[. I mean at least He's compensating as a dad good for him but ehhhh i still dont like him and Sakura together :v And im not falling for that "Sakura is the reason why Sasuke isnt lonely anymore" because thats NARUTO AHHH. Sasuke said that Multiple times. HE LIGHTS A FIRE INSIDE OF ME. HES MY SUN. MY ONE AND ONLY FRIEND. LIEK?? THATS NARUTOOO romantic or not, Naruto was the reason for his not so lonely existence anymore smh >=[[

Sasuke almost murdered her and Naruto and made their lives a living hell but hey its all good!! He's my best friend and Sakura loves him!! So set him freeee into the worldddd~~

Sasuke left his family without even simply contacting them but can easily contact Naruto through a hawk but hey thats fine! His and Sakura's feelings are connected afterall! Sasuke gave her a ring and said thank you! Who cares about leaving your family. She loves him and he loves her so yey!!! All is forgiven :D

DID I MENTION SASUKE ALMOST MUREDERED HIS OWN DAUGHTER AND HE WASNT CALLED OUT FOR THAT@*#&@??!?#,*@#,#

Sasuke gets too many life points this isnt fair >=[[ But tbh he's nerfed so bad in Boruto manga and anime power wise. Like in that time travel arc and the manga. The rinnegan kunai thing was still so funny to me even if it was Borushiki. I just idk its so funny to me lmaoo

OKAY WHAT ELSE. I dont even know any more. Im tired of complaining about Naruto and just when Ive finally gone a little bit away from Naruto, Hinata fucking pulls me in again 😩 she has me on chokehold pls send help. Watch castlevania!!! and one piece!!!! ten times better than this anime about a loud blonde boi who wants to be president. Trust me

overall, i dont fully agree but i lowkey agree i guess. I do respect your opinion tho :))

EXCEPT WHEN YOU CALLED TONERI CRINGE. HOW DARE YOU CALL THAT SEXY MF CRINGEY---

[miracles-totally-come-true]

Ok ok ok ok ok so.

I saw this post from @princeymust-slay a while back while scrolling through the roloceit tag, and I loved the concept and absolutely had to draw something based off of that. And since I’m an impulse dumbass, I immediately started working on a drawing that would of course end up taking over fourteen hours to finish, and yet I still feel like I could have done better lol.

I don’t know if the original post was meant to be for a fic based around the three of them falling for each other or already being in an established relationship but of course, I’ve got a couple headcanons for the established relationship end of this au becasuse Roloceit owns my soul:

Whenever Janus is out in the garden with Roman and no one else is around, he’ll challenge the prince to a duel with sticks instead of swords. Roman loses every time no matter what

Sometimes in the evenings when Roman isn’t busy, he climbs up the castle wall to a library window with the help of the vines he planted when he just started working in the gardens. Logan is always there to open the window and let him in, and then they spend the night studying different topics. Well, Logan tries to study, and Roman just finds books of fairytales and reads them in a very dramatic voice.

Sometimes if they’re lucky, Janus is able to sneak down to them.

The guard who finds them is very confused to see the prince, the gardener, and the librarian curled up and cuddling in a pile of books, but Virgil never tells on them, he simply smiles, and wakes them up so they can all go back to their own rooms without any of the other castle staff finding out

Janus and Logan pretend to not like the cuddling, because it’s “bound to ruin their clothes”, but Roman insists and they can’t help but give in to their boyfriend’s pleading smiles

Janus will walk down to the library for what he tells everyone is the sole purpose of studying, but he really just feels lonely and wants to spend time with the resident nerd

Logan loves spending time with his dramatic boyfriends but also w h y w o n t y o u t w o j u s t l e t m e w o r k i h a v e a j o b t o d o

They have little picnics in the castle gardens in secluded spots where no one else would find them

If anyone ever does catch them, Janus suggests that the person who found them simply didn’t see anything because they value their job so much

Roman constantly tries to fight any insect that comes near them when they’re in the gardens, Logan has to hold him back while Janus dies of laughter

Roman gets accused of only being after Janus for his wealth and power and immediately tries to distance himself from the rest of the world because he’s very insecure and he loves Janus so much how could anyone say that and Roman couldn’t care less about Janus’ status. It’s a full day before Janus and Logan are able to find Roman and comfort him, he was sitting under the weeping willows by the creek. They have a very impromptu picnic in which there’s so many hugs and tears that it barely qualifies as a picnic anymore and is mostly just them cuddling and comforting each other.

Roman has zero braincells and Logan constantly has to stop him from doing stupid things that’ll get him injured. Janus finds it hilarious

Roman is unsurprisingly terrible at cooking, but he tries and sometimes he even makes stuff that’s edible! Logan and Janus always eat the food he makes no matter what cause he’s trying so hard

Once they decided to all bake together and that was a disaster

Janus had never even set foot in a kitchen before, Roman had no idea what he was doing, and Logan insisted on making the measurements so precise that it started an argument that ended with the three of them covered in flour, laughing their asses off.

Logan says he doesn’t smile, but anyone who happened to be looking in Logan’s direction when he met Janus will tell you that they’ve never seen someone’s face light up so much

Logan had been lead into the throne room where Janus and his father were, it was Logan’s first day working in the library and he was supposed to be given a simple tour that included meeting the king and the prince, their first meeting lasted only thirty seconds but ten minutes later Janus tracked Logan down to kiss the back of his hand and whisper into Logan’s ear how much he was looking forward to being friends. Logan turned redder than a cherry

Once, Roman was determined to take his boyfriends across the creek so they could pick flowers. Janus refused to come in fear of his nice clothes getting soaked. Roman ended up carrying him bridal style across the water.

On the way back Roman dunked Janus into the water because “you need to lighten up, your highness!” Roman got dragged down into the water a couple seconds later.

There’s a little archway covered in roses that Logan loves to read under because it reminds him of Roman

Roman figured out that he could climb up to Janus’s window and then after that the long nights of cuddling increased tenfold

Ok I should stop now before I spend all day writing down headcanons, but oh my god I love Roloceit so much and there’s never enough content of that ship so here’s my rambling for the day.

Oh and please, call me out if you see any inconsistencies and/or errors!

Btw, this au is not mine! Just thought I should say that again, just in case!

[creepercraftguy]

Tokomaru Ship meme

I would say this is the last ship I’m doing for Trigger Happy Havoc, but this isn’t technically a shio for DR1 specifically, it’s Tokomaru, so I guess it’s for UDG. Also, sorry this is such a weird time to do this, but I had very little free time today.

Who confessed first?

I think Komaru would confess to Toko first. The way I see their relationship starting is by the two of them going through a bit of an extended process to break Toko’s addiction to Byakuya, and eventually, Komaru would tell Toko the reason she went through it all is because she has her own feelings for her.

Who initiated the first kiss?

Also Komaru, but Toko was surprisingly not very resistant.

Who asks the other out on dates?

If it’s an outdoor date, Komaru. If it’s an indoor date, Toko. Mostly Komaru.

Who is the bigger cuddler?

Yet again, Komaru. Toko isn’t very touchy-feely, so she has to take some initiative.

Who initiates holding hands more often?

Toko will sometimes slip her fingers through Komaru’s if they’re alone together or on a date. It’s cute.

Who remembers anniversaries?

Komaru is kind of forgetful and a bit scatterbrained, so she usually forgets these dates. Toko remembers them better, but doesn’t ever really have the energy to scold her about it, since she’s happy she even gets these dates to remember in the first place.

Who is more possessive?

Komaru is annoyingly possessive, as Toko would put it. It’s hard for Toko to go anywhere without her girlfriend asking where she’s going and if she can join her.

Who gets more jealous?

Toko.

Who is the most protective?

Surprisingly enough, Toko. She is so defenceful of Komaru, she’s willing to let Genocide Jill out to gut someone if it means defending her from harm

Who initiates sexy time the most?

When drunk on either atmosphere or alcohol, Komaru can be a little bit...you know...so she’s the answer to this one. Toko also has a bit of a dirty mind, but Genocide Jill doesn’t actually care for romance unless it’s between two boys.

Who dislikes PDA (Public Display of Affection)?

Toko, obviously. But Komaru can be a bit of a dumbass sometimes. She once even lifted Toko’s skirt up in public to wipe a bit of dirt off it, which resulted in her getting slapped, even though Toko has one of the longer dresses out of the Hope’s Peak girls.

Who kills the spider?

Komaru is kind of arachnophobic. Toko has no mercy for the spider, and Genocide Jack will even stab it as opposed to squashing it.

Who asks the other to marry them?

I see Komaru doing this and I also see Toko fainting when she does.

Who buys the other gifts?

I actually think Toko would like giving Komaru gifts, and Komaru would love returning the favour.

Who would first bring up the idea of having kids?

Like I said with Taka and Mondo, Komaru and Toko are both girls, so no amount of “copulation” will ever give them a child. The person who’d first bring up the idea of adoption would probably be Komaru, and Toko would scream and yell at her about it for a solid few minutes, before admitting she would love to have a child.

Who is more nervous to meet the others parents?

I said something similar when I talked about Naegiri, but Komaru and Makoto’s parents seem like pretty nice and understanding people, so I think they’d be able to take the reveal of Komaru having a girlfriend pretty easily. However, I think Toko would try and hide the fact that she’s a secret ex-serial killer from them until they trust her enough, but even then, she’s still nervous they’d feel betrayed, though Komaru is a little more light hearted on the matter. Komaru probably wouldn’t ever meet Toko’s three parents, since she cut off all ties with them (rightfully so)

Who sleeps on the sofa/couch when the other is angry?

When arguments happen, Toko sleeps on the couch, even though Komaru tries to convince her not to, so out of spite, Komaru angrily cuddles with her on the couch, which is how they usually kiss and make up.

Who tries to make up first after arguments?

Komaru is usually the reason arguments start, since she can fuck up sometimes, and Toko is obviously a little bit sensetive.

Who tells the other they love them more often?

Definitely Komaru, and Toko hates that she loves it.

Who accidentally pushes a door instead of pulling it or vice versa?

Komaru.

Who doodles little hearts over the desk with their initials inside?

Also Komaru.

Who starts the tickle fights?

Also Komaru, and Toko gets really exasperated after their done.

Who starts the pillow fights?

Once again, Komaru would do this.

Who is the last to fall asleep while watching the other with a warm smile?

Toko.

Who kisses the other awake in the morning?

Komaru, which gives Toko a bit of a rude awakening.

Who mistakes salt for sugar?

Komaru.

Who let’s the microwave play the loud beeping sound at 1am in the morning?

Komaru does. Toko hates it.

Who comes up with the cheesy pickup lines?

Neither of them can flirt well, but Toko’s experience with writing romance novels means she’s slightly more smooth. Komaru is a bit silly and most of her lines don’t make sense, so she tries to break the awkward atmosphere by either grinning or literally just making out with her gf.

Who rearranges the books in Alphabetical Order?

Neither of them usually care that much, but it’s a different matter when it comes to Toko’s books. She always keeps them in chronological order, and Komaru does her best to keep it that way.

Who licks the spoon when baking?

Komaru, and then she tries to feed it to Toko for an indirect kiss. Toko always takes it, but pretends she’s annoyed.

Who buys candles for dinner, even when there’s no special occasion?

I see Toko lighting a candle for every dinner honestly for a bit of mood lighting. I think Komaru would actually buy her the candles though.

Who draws little tattoos on one another with a pen?

Komaru, usually while Toko’s writing.

Who comes home with a souvenir/fridge magnet whenever they go on holiday?

Komaru.

Who convinces the other to fill out those couple surveys that you usually find on the back of magazines?

Komaru, and even though Toko doesn’t really care that much about them, she usually agrees to fill them out.

Who has the other as their phone background?

Komaru, quite cleverly, has Genocide Jill as her lock screen, and Toko as her home screen.

Who leaves notes written in fog on the bathroom mirror?

Toko.

Who asks if they can join the other in the shower?

It’s not really a matter of joining each other; Toko and Komaru never usually take a bath or shower without each other. Mainly because Komaru has to coerce or force Toko into the shower so she can be clean.

Who loudly proclaims their love while drunk?

Komaru, since Toko has pretty high alcohol tolerance.

[omgsomeonesomewhereonearth]

I thought I'd return the favor. Roman? ♥️🤍🥰

Thank you ^^

My NOTP for them:

Obviously r//mr//m goes without saying - I didn't even think of it until I saw you mention them in your post, but that's very much a No from me.

Otherwise it's roceit. I wish I shipped them, I think they're the two prettiest sides (which is why you will still see me reblogging art of them and sometimes even drawing them lol), but I just don't see any sort of *romantic* chemistry, specifically.

I can see them as gossipy best friends and/or rivals, I can see them as petty vindictive exes who become really close supportive friends, and honestly a lot of other cool relationship dynamics that still don't involve shipping them in the traditional way, in afraid.

My BROTP for them

That's a tie between creativitwins and royality? Can I say the three of them together? You know, the himbo patrol.

Remus and Roman are obvious - they're actual brothers and they're just like, I feel like they don't realise how freaking similar they are??? They're just these chaotic dumbasses and I really wanna see them have some good sibling bonding time, please.

Honestly, Roman and Patton, my feelings are very much the same? They're both capable of rational thought, on occasion, but whenever they're together I feel like they cancel out eachother's braincell and it's beautiful. (They're also, in my opinion, the friends that everyone think is dating? We already know these two said a Big No to toxic masculinity and they have no problem professing their platonic adoration for eachother and cuddling and stuff in public, so I feel like it makes sense that a lot of people jump to that conclusion).

My OTP for them

Logince!!! I love ships that have a bit of tension in them (who would have guessed lol), and I feel like that's really what this pairing brings to the table? They're both so intense, and ambitious and let's face it - stubborn, that it's often hard for them to always see where the other person in coming from. But when they do manage to work together, they are such a powerhouse and I just - ugh, I love them so much.

Like, if any ship in this fandom is engaging in a spirited argument about the best approach to sword fight - whilst having a swordfight - it's these two. And the best part is, that would happen both in the "rivals to" part of their arc, and the "lovers" part!! Even as an established couple, I think that verbal sparring of theirs, the constant back and forth, it never goes away.

(I guess what I'm saying is, Logince Pride and Prejudice AU when???)

My second choice pairing for them

Well, I used to be a huge royality shipper at one point, and although I do prefer them as friends, I still think their relationship is really fluffy and adorable? And when I'm sort of looking for a very fluffy time, I do still sometimes reach for that ship.

Prinxiety also, it's pretty good, they've definitely got tension, which, as I said, I enjoy, albeit in my opinion it's quite a different "type" from Logince.

My fluffy pairing for them

I think I've made it clear - royality! Romantic or otherwise, these two are just so sunshiney and happy and tooth-rottingly sweet together <3

My angsty pairing for them

Logince and Prinxiety both make for excellent angst, for the reasons I've stated above? Can I also say Roceit? Like, I know I said they're my notp - and they are, in that I don't think they'd make a great pairing romantically, but I do definitely think there's still a story to be told in terms of why the relationship didn't work?

My favourite poly ship for them

I spent a while trying to figure out what the ship name was - I've forgetten. But its Logan x Roman x Virgil. Analogical, Logince, and Prinxiety are all great ships, that's the entire basis of my answer here.

(Also do I just like the idea of deintruality opposing whatever these three are called? Maybe, yeah. Mind your own business)

My weirdest pairing for them

Creativisleep? No real explanation for why, I just thuik it's a fun idea.

[strrawberrymoon]

name  /  alias : leigh  gender  /  pronouns : female + she/her where  ya  from  ? : europe 👀 the  current  time :  18:53 height :  164 cm, i think that’s 5′4 job  or  major :  double major in sociology and media communications, still grinding pet  (  s  ) :  two dogs! one is a 7 year old maltese and the other a 3 year old cane corso favorite  thing  (  s  )  about  yourself :  im a great listener and i give great advice, i’m straighforward which some people don’t like but oh well, i’m pretty adaptable. i got some nice titties any  special  talents  ? :  i can roll my tounge in any direction + crack a lot of knuckles ajkdshaj

why  you  joined  hqclouds :  i’ve been itchng to write more lately, so when love told me about their group i thought i’d give it a shot !!

meaning  behind  url :  strawberry moon was just a recent occurance irl which was really cool + i associate marinette with strawberries for some reason, and i’m a big fan of the lady moon

last  thing  you  googled :  i’m having some issues with my michrophone and zoom so i googled how to fix it, but no dice

birthday  /  zodiac :  leo ! my birthday is august 11th in  your  opinion  ,  does  your  sign  suit  you  ? : yes and no. leo’s are very misunderstood imo, but each sign has the “more popular” or well known traits and then there’s the flipside of the coin—which i think suits me more myers  -  briggs :  ISFP / INFP moral  alignment :  chaotic idiot hogwarts  house : gryffindor

three  fictional  character  (  s  )  you  see  yourself  in  +  why :  i honestly see myself in katara from atla, the whole smothering mothering routine. it’s becoming a regular thing for my friends to say “thanks, mom” or “ok, mom” so i guess i’m the mom friend. also fred weasly... he’s a twin.. i’m a twin... that’s all i need. and lastly, and very leastly, neil josten from all for the game series. most of you probably don’t know it, but he’s a demisexual chaotic idiot who says “i’m fine” way too much for someone who is most definitely not fine.

i  started  roleplaying : probably when i was around 16-17 was my first official roleplay experience. it was on facebook and kind of a nightmare types  of  rps  i  enjoy :  i like college stuff and small town rps, but i also love plot heavy rps that push you into developing your muse. really anything that isn’t too restricting favorite  fcs  to  use :  i don’t have go-to faceclaims. i tend to make a character around a FC and then use them until i lose muse or just feel like they need to rest. switch it up a lot, but some faces that i’ve really enjoyed playing for a longer amount of time are steven kelly, cindy mello and ellen v. lora fandom  (  s  )  you’d  like  to  write  in : i want to write in all of the fandoms i know nothing about and look like a dumbass. also harry potter, the hunger games, avatar the last airbender, gossip girl, etc etc fandom  (  s  )  you  aren’t  in  but  are  curious  about :  marvel somewhat, any video games are very fascinating to me even though i’m not a gamer + know nothing about them, any distopian kind of fandom re: hunger games

share  a  funny  roleplay  horror  story :  recently an admin of a twitter rp tried to use my male muse for their weird ship narrative. they tried to make him look like an asshole (& i do play assholes but this one wasn’t one) + used another male muse to make it seem as if these two boys were fighting over the person’s girl, even though she actually had a ship all lined up. they were also running the gossip twitter, so they made up a bunch of stuff about our muses without our consent and consequently i told them to fuck off, and both of us left the group. then she had no more “groupies” so she cuffed and the group closed two days later. it was petty hilarious.

fondest  roleplay  memory :  once in an OC group, i wasn’t “technically” doing a ship with a friend, even though the characters had feelings for each other. but for some reason the status of their relationship was a hot topic group wide, meaning everybody had their nose in it and wanting to know what’s up, so they publically kept doing things to make people think they’re together while denying it in the same breath. it was really fun to let it play out like that.

favorite  canon  muse  (  s  )  to  play : roy mustang from fullmetal alchemist, katara from atla, and my baby marinette favorite  original  muse  (  s  )  to  play : the last original character i played and fell in love with was named alex. im obsessed with him. still doing 1 x 1 with his girlfriend. they’re having a baby, it’s all very emo and domestic. maybe i make him relapse for funsies. canon  ships  you  can’t  help  but  love :  lupin x tonks from harry potter, korra x asami from legend of korra, danerys x daario naharis from game of thrones, katniss x peeta from the hunger games, etc... trope  (  s  )  you  tend  to  be  guilty  of : i use the rich kid douchebag stereotype a lot. i also make a lot of my characters addicted to something to make them struggle with that.

i  prefer  .  .  . angst  ,  smut  ,  or  fluff :  bro... i am a sucker for ansgt and smut. i do fluff on special ocassions >:) long  or  short  replies :  i prefer when they start out shorter, but medium is my fave pre  plotting  or  chemistry : chemistry all the way. plotting can be really fun but it’s a miss more often than a hit for me. plotting can be good for pre-established relationships but that’s about it sentence  starters  or  headcanon  memes : sentence starters single  muse  or  multimuse  blogs :  i’ve never done a multimuse blog, and i’ve actually been super against them in the past, but i’m starting to change my mind hehe gif  icons  ,  medium  gifs  ,  or  static  icons : static (or none honestly)

grab  the  book  nearest  to  you  and  pull  a  quote  from  it :  ❝ You were children. was there no one to protect you? ❞ — ❝ Was there no one to protect you? ❞

what’s  a  quote  or  song  lyric  that  speaks  to  your  soul  ? :  ❝ I loved her, and sometimes, she loved me too ❞ 

top  current  celebrity  crushes :  zendaya, margot robbie always last  movie  you  watched :  365 days (2020) did  you  like  it  ? :  i hated it, what a waste of a perfectly good 2 hours  favorite  movie  (  s  )    of  all  time : harry potter franchise makes me nostalgic, perks of being a wallflower, my sister’s keeper favorite  tv  show  (  s  )  of  all  time : for some reason i’m obsessed with grey’s anatomy but i hate it favorite  tv  show  that  hasn’t  ended : well fricking grey’s anatomy favorite  series  of  books  /  novels  /  comics : the hunger games, harry potter sports  team  (  s  )  you  rep : my friend is into sports i rep her ksdsdj favorite  video  game  (  s  ) : the sims. i like playing animal crossing vicariously through switch owners favorite  youtube  channels : don’t usually keep up with yt channels but i just binged some stuff from psychology in seattle hobbies :  procrastinating

what  are  the  three  non  essential  things  you’d  bring  to  a  deserted  island  ? : sunglasses, hairtie, hand cream

put  your  music  on  shuffle.  what  six  songs  pop  up  ? : 

say goodbye by skillet, 

off the grid by alina baraz & khalid, 

bury a friend by billie eilish, 

break up with your girlfriend by ariana grande

get back by nine lashes

marry you by bruno mars (man)

personal  aesthetic : growing out my hair only to always wear it in a bun dream  vacation  ? : i just wanna go to the seaside with my friends dream  job  ? :  i literally can’t stand capitalism. wanna move to italy and collect berries and draw titties all day dream  car  ? :  something that drives itself if  i  could  live  anywhere  ,  it’d  be : somewhere in canada near the woods favorite  musical : mama mia? counts favorite  food  (  s  ) :  bananaaaaas, ice cream, cereal. these are all foods ok coffee  order : i don’t drink coffee unwatched  stuff  in  your  netflix  /  hulu  /  etc :  13 reasons why (i’m too bored), the flash, outer banks, elite, the half of it, intersteller, locke & key aaand some stuff that’s not mine but someone else using my account

what’s  a  subject  you  know  too  much  about  +  never  get  tired  of  talking  about  ? : idk anything about anything askldhl

[thelastspeecher]

Hi! I love ALL YOUR AUs and the massive musically-named Guck fam. Not sure if there's any particular AUs you want to write so maybe dealer's choice for any of the following? 9 - Chocolate, 11 - Heartbeat (Babies! or Vampires?), 16 - Daybreak, 20 - Wishing, 32 - Underneath.

16. Daybreak

Aw, thank you!  I asked my roommate if they had any thoughts about what AU to choose, and they listed a couple.  When they mentioned the variation of the MerGucket AU called French Fish Girl, I immediately had an idea for the daybreak prompt.  So that’s what I went with.  Hopefully you like it!

For context, this takes place after the first scene in this ficlet and immediately before this ficlet.  Also, the song Angie sings is “Au clair de la lune”, which was the first result when I googled “traditional French songs”.  I liked the lyrics, so I went with it.

Prompt List

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              Stan sat on the edge of his bed,staring numbly into the dark of the shelter he and Ford had cobbled together, tryingdesperately to ignore Ford’s snoring. After a few minutes, he got up with a sigh.

              Might as well take a walk onthe beach or something.  That might tireme out enough to fall back asleep. Not bothering to put on his shirt, Stan exited the shelter and headedfor the beach.  He’d been dealing withsleep problems for the last couple days; waking up in the middle of the nightand struggling to fall back asleep.  Probably‘cause I feel guilty over giving Angie the boot.  Sadness swelled inside him as he rememberedAngie’s expression when he told her not to come back.  Stan kicked at a rock, frustrated.

              “Au clair de la lune.”  Stan froze. He looked up.  Sitting on the beach,her legs pulled against her chest, waves lapping at her feet, was Angie.  “On n'y voit qu'un peu.”  She was singing something Stan had neverheard before.  Every syllable hit Stan’sears with the clarity and beauty of water from a mountain stream.  “On chercha la plume-”

              “Angie,” Stan croaked.  Angie looked over.  Her blue eyes shone faintly in the darkness,one of the many animalistic traits she kept even in her legged form.

              “Stan!”  Angie jumped to her feet and rushed tohim.  Stan embraced her in a tight hug.  “I was wondering if I’d ever get through toyou,” she whispered into his chest.

              “Get through to me?” Stanasked.  Angie broke off the hug.

              “Yes.  This is my third night of trying to summonyou.”

              “Summon me?”  Stan frowned at her.  “Are you the reason I keep waking up atnight?”  Angie nodded.  “Uh, two questions.  How and why?”

              “Sirens can summon humans withsong,” Angie said.  “I’m not as good at itas my older sister, but I didn’t expect I’d have as much trouble as I did withyou.”  She grinned crookedly.  “I mean, I’ve been sitting on the beachsinging at you for three nights now.  Itwould take a will of steel to resist a siren’s call for that long.”

              “Or just a dumbass with a thickhead,” Stan mumbled, thinking back to each time he’d awoken in the night andbeen struck with the urge to go to the beach, only to ignore it.  Angie stroked his cheek.  “That’s the how.  Why were you trying to summon me?  I told you, I can’t leave Ford.”

              “I know.  Come.” Angie took Stan’s hand and led him to where she had been sitting when hefirst arrived.  She settled herself ontothe sand.  Stan sat down as well.

              “Angie, no matter how much youtry to sweet talk me into becoming a merman, it’s not gonna work.  All you’re doing is making this harder onboth of us,” Stan said quietly.  Angielooked straight ahead at the horizon, where the sun was beginning to rise.  Everything was cast in the warm, blue lightof dawn.

              “I don’t get to see sunriseoften,” she said softly.

              “Neither do most humans.  Usually, people sleep through it.”

              “Well, merfolk aren’t strictly diurnalor nocturnal; we wake up when we feel like it and sleep when we’re tired.  But fishermen set off at dawn, so it’s notwise to go on land then.”  Angiecontinued to stare ahead.  Stan watchedher silently.  Feeble morning rays hit herface, illuminating the pink and yellow freckles scattered across her cheeks.  Her caramel-colored hair was completely dry.  Stan’s stomach churned.

              How long has she been on land,waiting for me?  He looked at therising sun.  I hate this.  I hate being stuck between her and Ford.  Why didn’t Ford listen to me about Bill?  If he had, none of this would havehappened.  We wouldn’t be stuck on adeserted island, I wouldn’t be turning down a gorgeous mermaid, and Angiewouldn’t hate Ford’s guts.  Angiepulled her legs to her chest and rested her chin on her knees.

              “I didn’t know any songs inEnglish, so I’ve been singing French songs to try to get to you come to me,” Angiesaid softly.  “You came during the lastverse of the last one I knew.”

              “Yeah, uh, why do you knowFrench?” Stan asked.  Angiegrimaced.  “I’m not gonna like the answer,am I?”

              “I studied abroad a while ago, inthe Mediterranean.  Specifically, thepart that lies within French territory.”

              “What- what were you studying?”Stan asked.  Angie closed her eyes.

              “I’ve told you before thatmerfolk and humans don’t have a very good history.”

              “If by that you mean that merfolksometimes eat humans, yeah, you have told me that,” Stan said.  Angie was silent.  Stan scooted away from her.  “You- you’ve eaten humans?” hewhispered.

              “No!  No. But I have…”  Angie played withher hair.  “I have killed them.”

              “Sweet Moses.”

              “That’s what I studied abroadfor.  I wanted to learn other methodsthat merfolk have for sinking ships.  Butthe merfolk off the French coast speak…” Angie muttered something under her breath.  “I don’t know how to say it in French, letalone English.  But it’s a language that’ssort of a mixture of French and Mermish. They’d use that language, they’d use Mermish, they’d use French, and theywouldn’t bother translating things for me.” Angie rolled her eyes.  “Frenchmerfolk are notoriously snooty.”

              “French humans have thatreputation, too.”  Stan paused.  “So you’re a murderer, huh?”

              “To be fair, I’ve never sunkships as recreation,” Angie said.  “Onlyas part of my job to protect the colony. Merfolk don’t really go out of their way to sink ship after ship aftership.  It draws unwanted attention to whereour colonies are.  That’s why the Bermudacolony had to be abandoned.”

              “Hang on, you mean the BermudaTriangle is real?” Stan asked.  Angieshook her head.

              “Not anymore.”  Angie sighed. She looked at Stan.  “I’m tellingyou this because, if you become mer, you’ll have to come to grips with it.  You’d be abandoning your species for someone whohas killed humans before.”

              “I mean, some humans kindadeserve it,” Stan mumbled.  Angie manageda small smile.  “But I keep telling you,I can’t become mer.  It would mean leavingFord behind.  I can’t do that.”

              “It doesn’t need to mean leavingyour brother,” Angie said quietly.

              “I thought your colony didn’twant him, since he tried to kill you.”

              “My colony doesn’t want him,no.  But you do.  I spoke to some people, looked through theancient laws.  There’s a loophole thatFord could use to join the colony.”

              “Really?  What is it?”

              “It- it involves him beingsponsored.  But it won’t work if you holdoff on becoming mer.”

              “What do you mean?” Stan asked.  The sky was growing brighter now, the sun’srays stronger and less timid.

              “In order to start the series ofevents necessary for Ford to use the loophole and become mer, you’d need tobecome mer first.”  Angie met Stan’seyes.  “You’d have to leave Ford.  Right now.”

              “Wh- I can’t say goodbye?”

              “He can’t know about this planyet.  Not until we set everything up.”

              “This sounds pretty sketchy,”Stan said.  Angie nodded.

              “I know it does.  And I know that you don’t have any reason totrust me, but-”

              “Hey.”  Stan put his hand on her shoulder.  “That’s not true.  I trust you, Angie.”

              “After everything I’ve told you?”she asked.  “The ship sinking and-”

              “I trust you,” Stan repeated.  Angie smiled. “I’ll do it.  I’ll eat the flowerand become mer.  But only because youpromised that you can help Ford become mer, too.”  Angie nodded. “I’ll be right back.”

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              Stan ducked into the shelter and grabbedthe magical flower that had been resting on the stump next to his bed.  It looked as pristine as the day Angie hadgiven it to him.  He glanced at Ford,still fast asleep.

              “I’m sorry, Stanford,” Stan saidquietly.  He rested his hand on Ford’sshoulder.  “You’re gonna figure out thatI left with Angie, but it’s not what it looks like.  I’m not abandoning you.  I’ll be back.”  Ford let out a loud snore.  Stan squeezed his shoulder.  “I promise, I’ll sneak back to keep an eye onyou.  I won’t let your terrible survivalskills keep you from living long enough to become mer.”  Stan took a breath.  “Goodbye.”

              Stan trudged through the sand towhere Angie stood, still watching the sun. Daybreak was almost over.  Once hewas by her side, Angie looked at him with a smile.

              “Are you ready?” she asked.  Stan nodded.

              “Left my pants behind andeverything.”

              “Good.  You won’t need them.”

              “So, uh, what- what do I do?”Stan asked.

              “Eat the flower.”  Angie watched Stan pop the flower into hismouth, chew, and swallow.  It had analmost fruity taste, fizzing as it touched his tongue.

              “What now?”

              “We wait,” Angie said softly.  She leaned against him, resting her head onhis shoulder.  They watched the sun climbhigher and higher.  Stan’s eyelids grewheavy.  Exhaustion washed over him.  “Any minute now.”  The moment the sun had pulled free from thehorizon, Stan closed his eyes.

              Everything faded to black.

[turtle-steverogers]

Hero Complex

lmao hi IM BACK i wrote a fic pfffff it’s kind Shit cuz i started writing at midnight and now its 2:40 am so excuse the BAD WRITING dajfdslkfjalsdkfs

warnings: fire, mentions of death (kinda graphic ish, sad), crying

ship: ralbert

word count: 2762

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Earlier

“Just- don’t try to be a hero, dumbass.”

Albert’s fingers freeze on the top button of his uniform, eyes darting up to study Race’s face.  He bites back a sigh, something weighing down on his chest as the fear in his boyfriend’s eyes grows.  

“That’s the whole point of my job,” He says softly, “But I’ll be careful.”

Race nods, wordlessly handing him his helmet.  Albert takes it, drawing in a deep breath to steady his hands.  Queso lifts his head from his paws, looking at the two of them questioningly before padding across the room and nudging Albert’s knee.  He lets out the breath he’d been holding and bends over the slightest bit to scratch behind Queso’s ears.  No matter how many calls his squadron responded to, his nerves still managed to run high.

“That’s all I ask,” Race responds, gently tilting Albert’s jaw and kissing him intently.  Albert presses back, heart kicking double time as adrenaline starts to overcome him.  He pulls back, the need to move overtaking him.  

“I gotta go,” He says, shifting the helmet onto his head, “I’ll be home later…”

The unspoken, ‘hopefully’, rings loudly in the air.  Albert really hates this part of the job.

Race nods, dropping his hand from Albert’s face and squeezing his bicep briefly, “Go.  Be safe.  I love you.”

Albert smiles, but it feels strained, “I love you, too.”

Now

“Dasilva, get that room on the right!  Some kid’s in there!”

Albert swears under his breath, shooting a quick nod to Finch as he hurries past him, carrying an infant in one arm and shielding a young looking mother with the other.  He grimaces, adjusting the mask on his face as the building gives the second unsettling creak in as many minutes.  

In the three years that he’s worked for the FDNY, he’d never seen a building fire this destructive.  Details were still being investigated, but from what had been gathered, an apparent fireball had formed on the 14th floor, engulfing the top four floors of the building and spreading quickly to the lower levels.  The casualty count was already tragically high, but between the first responders and following squadrons showing up to the scene, the fatality rate was going down.  

That didn’t make it any less gut-wrenching.  

Albert crosses to the apartment Finch had pointed him to and easily knocked the handle off the door.  He knocked once, calling a loud warning into the room before shouldering the door, which gave way easily thanks to the heat. 

In the corner of the room, a young boy sat cowering against the wall, arms wrapped protectively around an even younger girl.  Panicked breaths were coming vehemently from the pair and as Albert gets nearer to them, he can see the tear tracks that cut through the soot.  He crouches down, trying to seem nonthreatening.

“Are your parents here?” He asks, raising his voice over the roaring flames.

The little boy lets out a sob, pointing a trembling hand to the room adjacent to them.  Albert glances to the side, nausea rolling in his stomach as he takes in the flames licking under the closed door.  Whoever is in there, sure isn’t getting out.  

“Okay,” Albert takes a deep breath, turning back to the siblings, “I need you both to take your shirts and pull them over your mouths and noses, okay?”

He waits for them to do so, then scoops them both up easily, ensuring that they have secure grips on his shoulders, before moving swiftly out of the room.  The building lets out another threatening creak and Albert falters, trying to map out the safest route in his head.  He settles on running to the stairs on the southside of the building, opposite of where the fireball had started.

Five excruciating minutes later, Albert is able to exit the building, immediately seeking out some paramedics and dumping the kids in their care.  He turns back around, taking a deep breath before running back towards the building.

“People still up there?” Spot, another commissioner, calls.

“I don’t know!” Albert calls back, “But we can’t risk leaving anyone!”

“This building’s ‘boutta go down, man!” Spot shouts, jogging up to him.

“I don’t care,” Albert says, firmly, tightening the strap on his helmet, “If I can even get one more person out, that’s one more life saved.”

“Alright,” Spot concedes, “But I’m coming with you.”

Albert nods, steeling himself.

“Don’t try to be a hero…”

Race’s words echo in his head and he bites his lip, casting a hurried glance in the direction of their apartment complex, across the Brooklyn Bridge.

“Sorry, Racer,” He murmurs, hesitating for a short moment before running back into the building.

-

A recently opened beer bottle sits forgotten on the table as Race paces anxiously in front of the TV, a cigarette dangling loosely from his lips.  He’s not entirely sure why he’s smoking.  The thing that usually eases his worries only worsening the sick feeling in his stomach as smoke rolls over his tongue, parallel to the cloud of smoke he’s watching climb higher and higher from the building until it billows off-screen.

This routine is familiar, but it never gets easier.  Letting Albert go will never fucking get easier.  It feels like he’s dumping him into the jaws of death, fire biting at his ankles every time he leaves through their apartment door.  

But he does let him go, allowing himself to grow sick with worry as he immediately searches for whatever information he can find, usually settling on the local news and popping open a beer or lighting a cigarette.  Maybe both.  More often than not, they remain unfinished.

He lets out a frustrated hum, stubbing his half-smoked cigarette out in the ashtray they keep on the coffee table.  He forces himself to sit down and drags a sweaty hand down his face.  Albert had been gone for a good two hours by now, but the fire doesn’t look like it’s getting any closer to being put out.  If any, it looks worse.

Every time a firefighter passes by the camera, Race’s stomach does a violent flip.  He can’t really tell who’s who underneath their face shields and helmets, but it doesn’t stop him from trying to differentiate them.  

Once, the news caught a clip of a firefighter being wheeled into the back of an ambulance looking very much not alive and Race had been violently sick for an hour before Albert came home and assured him that it was not him and he was okay.

That had been a bad fucking night.

Suddenly, the face of the reporter on screen morphs into one of sheer terror and the camera shifts sideways to show the building, crumbling in on itself.  There’s a moment where no one seems to react and Race scrambles to unmute the channel.  Screams ring through the speaker as the reporter and the cameraman run for shelter.  

Race feels his eyes go wide, but he can’t look away.  Somewhere to his left, Queso lets out a whimper, but he can’t find it in himself to look.  A second later, he feels Queso hop up next to him on the couch cushions and settle his weight against his side.

A million frantic thoughts crowd Race’s mind, eventually settling on the horrible debate of whether Albert is in the building or not.  Part of him wants to believe that he got away in time, but logic tells him that the idiot was probably in the building until the last second, searching for straggling survivors.  Fucking dumb shit.  Always has to be a fucking hero.

Sometimes he really hates Albert’s lack of self-preservation over others.

Scratch that.

He always hates it.

He runs his hand through his hair, pulling it almost painfully as his chest tightens.  Taking a deep breath, he presses his knuckles to his eyes, trying to stave off the oncoming panic attack.  He has to stay calm.  If Albert is alive and got out of there unharmed, he’s going to need Race to be a rock for him tonight.

Race takes another deep breath, letting it out slower this time as the vice that previously gripped his lungs loosens a bit.  He can do this.  He just needs to be patient.

He watches the news for another few minutes, picking at his cuticles distractedly as shots of firefighters and paramedics work to reign in the newly charged chaos.  Then, he clicks off the TV, heaves himself off the couch and begins to prepare for Albert’s (hopeful) return back home.

He puts some more food and water in Queso’s bowls, then crosses to the bathroom to take a quick shower.  The water is too hot and he drops the bar of soap three times before he can steady his hands enough to use it.  

He dresses himself mechanically, then digs through their dresser for Albert’s favorite pair of briefs, sweatpants, and a hoodie, setting them neatly on the end of the bed.  As an afterthought, he grabs a fresh towel and washcloth from the closet and sets them on the toilet in the bathroom.  

It’s doubtful that Albert will want to eat much of anything if- no, when he gets home, but Race busies himself in throwing together a quick pasta primavera nonetheless.  If anything, the cooking helps to settle his own nerves a bit.

Another hour passes and Race has managed to finish cooking, eat a little, and clean up the kitchen, all the while forcing down the ever-growing wave of dread.

He’s starting to run out of distracting things to do, so he picks up the book he’s been reading and settles on the couch, eyes scanning the pages, but not comprehending a thing.  

45 minutes later, the front door unlocks and opens.

Race is off the couch before it can swing back closed.

Albert doesn’t look at Race as he hangs his helmet on it’s hook, but Race can already tell that it’s going to be a rough night.  Despite the gear protecting every inch of Albert’s body, his face and hair are covered in a thick layer of ash.  He’s still dressed in his turnout pants, but his uniform top has seemingly been abandoned at some point on his return home.  The sharp tense of his shoulder has rendered his movements stiff and Race watches in carefully masked concern as he tugs off his boots.  

Once they’re dutifully lined by the door, Albert straightens up, looking at Race for the first time, a dull, haunted look in his eyes.

For a moment, Race is scared that he’s going to breakdown then and there, but Albert only clears his throat and croaks, “I need to shower.”

Queso is lingering by the kitchen entrance, but he seems to sense that his company would not be very well received right now.  Race nods at Albert, bending down to pluck one of Queso’s toys from the ground and tossing it in the direction of the kitchen.  He hears the slow patter of Queso’s paws on the tile and sees him pad out of the room in his peripheral.

“Let’s get you out of those pants before you do anything else,” Race says in a measured voice, working to sound easy, but firm.

It’s a testament to how fucked up Albert must be feeling that he doesn’t make a dirty joke at that.

Albert barely moves as Race unbuttons his turnout pants and eases them down his hips.  His gaze is unwavering as he stares blankly across the room.  Race can hear his slightly erratic breathing and it seems as if the adrenaline has yet to wear off.

“Lift up for a sec, love,” Race says, tapping at Albert’s socked feet and waiting for him to lift his legs one by one, allowing for Race to fully remove his pants.

“You can go shower now,” Race says, standing back up, “do you need me to come with you?”

Albert shakes his head, “No, I’m-I’m good.”

“You sure?” 

Albert nods, “Yeah, just- yeah, I’m good.

“Okay,” Race smiles a little, trying to look encouraging, “Shout if you need me, though.”

Albert nods again and makes a stiff beeline for the bathroom.  A few minutes later, Race hears the shower turn on.  He crosses to their bedroom to find that Albert took the clothes he’d set out in with him.

He smiles a little more genuinely as he crawls into bed.  Rolling onto his side, he busies himself with his phone while he waits for Albert to finish up, turning up the brightness to keep himself awake.  Albert was bound to take a while in the shower tonight.  He always does after missions.

A half hour later, he hears the bathroom door open and close and a moment later, the bed behind him dips as Albert joins him under the covers.  Race clicks off his phone and sets it on his bedside table, shifting onto his back as Albert settles into his arms.

“Want me to keep the lights on or off?” He asks quietly, pressing a little kiss into Albert’s now clean hair.  It’s still a little wet and smells strongly like the coconut shampoo he likes to use.

Albert nestles closer, pressing his nose to Race’s neck, “Off, please.”

Race extracts his arm momentarily to flip off the lamp switch, then draws Albert in protectively.  The silence between them stretches on for what could be hours, but Race knows Albert is still awake.

This is also part of the routine.  If Albert wants to talk, he will, but if he’d rather just lie quietly and process, Race wasn’t going to push him.

But he’d stay up with him either way.  There’s no way in hell he’d leave him to handle this alone in any capacity.

Eventually, the silence is broken by a soft whimper, then a short sniffle and Race feels Albert tuck his face further into his collarbone.  He feels his heart break in his chest, but he wills himself to remain steady as he tightens his hold on Albert.

A moment later, Albert begins to cry in earnest and Race presses a firm kiss to the crown of his head, shushing him.  

“I’ve got you,” He murmurs as Albert fists his hand in his nightshirt, holding on like a lifeline, “I’m here and I’ve got you.”

“There-there was a little girl on a fire escape,” Albert hiccups, “and she was screaming for her mom and I was about to go back in to get her, Race, I was about to go get her!  But the building…” he trails off, an awful keening noise sounding from his throat.

Race blinks back his own tears, rubbing a hand up and down Albert’s back, “You did what you could, baby.”

Albert shakes his head, “But it-it wasn’t enough.” His words are stilted- broken- and his breathing is harsh and heaving.

Race maneuvers them so they’re lying side to side, facing each other.  He cradles Albert’s head with one hand and rests the palm of his other hand on his cheek, brushing away his tears with the pad of his thumb.

“It wasn’t your fault,” He whispers firmly, “There’s nothing else you could have done.  You can’t save everyone.”

Albert closes his eyes, biting his lower lip hard enough to draw blood as he tries to take slower breaths.

“I wish I could,” Albert says after a lingering pause, “It’s fucked up.”

“It is,” Race says, “But you helped a lot of people get out of there today, you did a lot, Albert.”

Albert doesn’t answer, just tucks himself closer to Race, breathing in his warmth.  

“Rest, baby,” Race mutters, knowing that neither of them are really going to sleep that night, “I’ve got you, you can relax now.”

Albert lets out a shaky sigh and Race feels his heart grow heavier still.  The concern, grief, and anger at the world for plaguing Albert with the fucked up trauma that accompanies his job are indiscernible from one another.  He wishes more than anything that he could take away his pain, but he also knows that’s as naive as wishing he’d quit.

The most he can do is be there for him, even if there’s nothing he could say to truly make it better.

But he can be there and maybe that’ll be enough.

“I love you,” He breathes, lacing their hands together, “I’m here.”

Albert squeezes his hand, “I know,” he pauses, “I love you, too.”

And for a second, things are a little okay.

-

yeah, so im still alive!

anyway

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[toomany-selfships]

F/O February Day Nine: Platonic F/Os F/O: Most of my Platonic Babies This is a long one folks. It’s kinda an unnecessary info dump but I saw an opportunity and I took it. This is probably the prompt that I’ve been the most excited about. As always I apologize if any of the characters are OOC, I’m just having fun.

Drop Dead Fred:

Jesus I love this man

He makes fun of me constantly though “You’re practically grown up! Why do you need an imaginary friend?”

But he can be really sweet at times 

Calls me Braceface even though I don’t have braces anymore

Hates my real friends because “There can only be one redhead in your life and that kid Freddy is a disgrace to the name Fred.” “...He’s a Freddy though.” “A variation of Fred.”

I will own a pair of bright red boots like his one day (even though my mom has threatened to burn them if I actually do lmao)

My mother regrets ever showing me this movie

Vyvyan Basterd: Involves some indulgent stuff with my Pye baby I’m not sorry.

I actually had a crush on Vyv before I fell for Neil

Vyv and I are both loud and angry individuals so I feel like one minute we’ll agree with one another and the next we’ll be in a shouting match

I steal Vyv’s chain, he steals my necklaces in return

Tries to teach Ophelia swear words, causing Neil much distress.

The first time she swears, Vyvyan is there to witness and he’s absolutely BEAMING

Plays doctor all the damn time and has performed stuffed animal repairs surgeries 

When she gets older he teaches her “self defense” “If you’re going to stab someone it’s always best to twist the knife as you’re pulling it out.”

Rick Pratt:

Technically, if it weren’t for his party Neil and I never would have met but GOD does he get on my nerves at times

Everyone in the house bullies Neil but Rick’s comments bother me the most???

I feel like he’d also make fun of my poetry and/or paintings and I’d chase him around the house as much as Vyvyan does

Rick would try to teach Ophelia words and try SO HARD to not speak with his lisp omg

Also cries when Ophelia learns how to walk

Is the reason why she’s lowkey pro-anarchism “Now Ophelia, remember that the government is full of twats and you should always protest when you can, but you should always respect your parents. Always. Who’s going to be there for you when you overthrow the queen? Your mother, most likely. Can’t really see your father being too keen on that--.”

Eddie Cabot:

He’s the one who got Vic and I together in the first place

Eddie went to college for one (1) semester and that’s how we met

Eddie was flirty at first but calmed down after I explained to him I need to focus on school before worrying about relationships

He likes having me around too much to risk anything else tbh

Doesn’t mean he still won’t spoil the fUCK out of me 

He’s there to help out (financially AND emotionally) while Vic was locked up

Will be the wedding planner and will be the first one to demand Vega babies “I want godchildren, damn it!”

Chop Top Sawyer:

Depending on which Sawyer Brother I’m shipping myself with, we’re either too chaotic together or Chop annoys me to a degree

When I’m with Bubba: Chop, Nubbins, and I are the three chaotic musketeers 

It’s goblincore and vulture culture to the MAX bro

When I’m with Nubbins: It’s fun to have Chop around but sometimes constantly dealing with both of the twins can be a bit much

We still get along great but I’m more of a mother hen towards both of them

Either way, when Chop comes back from ’Nam and our trio becomes a duo?? Pray for Drayton. Please.

Vincent and Lester Sinclair:

I paired them together because I can

Anyways, Vincent would lowkey sculpt whatever weird things I paint and leave the mini creatures around the house for me to find

Sometimes, when it’s real quiet in Ambrose and he has no new projects he needs to work on, Vincent and I just sit at the dinner table and paint/draw for hours

Sometimes it’s just nice to have another quiet person around y’know?

Lester likes to bring home the occasional animal skull for me to fawn over. I have a growing collection and Bo complains about it constantly

Sometimes Lester and I make each other laugh so hard neither of us can breathe and we both S N O R T

If Jonesy howls, it’s not uncommon for Les and I to howl along with her just to piss Bo off

Class of ’76:

I really only know anyone because they know Slater

Normally I’m the odd one out because I don’t like to smoke too often

People tease, Slater says it's how he knows I really love him “She’s not using me for drugs, man.”

I don’t tend to get along with people (intoxicated or sober), so parties tend to be a bit of a challenge. Slater says he doesn’t mind me clinging to him but a bitch has anxiety about it.

(One time I drunkenly threatened to beat the shit out of O’donnell, nobody lets me forget THAT one)

Once it’s just Floyd’s usual group everything mellows out and we all actually have fun together

If it’s just Simone, Shavonne, myself, and whoever Wooderson’s banging at the time, we all just sit and watch our boys be complete dumbasses and make fun of them.

[hollow-pretense]

 Scuse me while I vent for a bit:

Context, a woman I go to college with, who mind you- also an artist. We had class together and for a time, we were friends. They paint murals and have made money off their work, so this is particularly agitating. 

Months ago, I’m talking way back before the virus struck the U.S and we were all inside, around the start of March, she commissioned me for a self-portrait. My prices for  traditional work at that time were dirt cheap.  I was charging 25 dollars for a fully shaded, realistic drawing with gold watercolor thrown in. On my page, there are plenty of examples of the work I do- it’s realistic, I try to be as close to the photo as I can but add some other things in there to make it unique. For example, the art trade I did with a real life friend. I did a sort of halo gold background and some cat ears, a demon drawing I did- that sort of thing. 

Those are roughly 8.5 by 11 and take me quite a while, even in charcoal. I didn’t want to charge myself too high, but I greatly undersold myself because her request was 11 by 14 and with more detail than my previous examples. I would post the drawing here, but I don’t want her to get found out or attacked, even if this made me rather upset. So, I tell her the price after I have the whole drawing sketched out. It’s her and some pretty insects and flowers, all of that jazz... She likes the sketch, but asks for some extra touches here and there and I do and for whatever reason, I never added more  to the original price of twenty-five bucks. She said I was underselling myself and would pay me more, I said it was fine- please don’t, it’s okay. She insists, I was grateful. 

I start to work on the drawing and because I was working on another commission and school, I didn’t finish it right away. I told her upfront that there will be a delay because of it. Then Covid hits and school is shut down. Still, I persisted on the drawing and eventually I finish it around the end of March. She likes it however, she wants me to do a final revision. The drawing is done in charcoal and graphite and the flowers she wanted to add were on her hair. Her hair is incredibly dark, thus I used charcoal for it so adding flowers on a dark spot of her hair- which she said she wanted, would be impossible. As a commissioner, please do not ask for final revisions when the artist shows you the completed drawing. I showed this lady each stage and I mean each time I completed a piece, I wanted to be sure she knew I was working on it and she was happy with it. She never complained till then. Still, me being a bit of a pushover, I tried to add white charcoal and erasing parts and it just looked terrible. The flowers were ugly because they looked unnatural and you can’t erase charcoal all the way. I fix it back to the original state and tell her that ‘I’m really sorry, but I can’t add in any more flowers. They would look unnatural and would throw the piece off.’ She seemed disappointed, but never mentioned this to me previously. Eventually she said it was fine and she needed my address to send me cash. I did not have her pay me up front. I know, I know, dumbass mistake. Look, she was my friend at the time and I trusted her. I trusted her to know the feeling of being ripped off and cheated when someone didn’t pay her or took the art and ran. Don’t trust anyone, ever. I also should have gotten her paypal, but I guess she didn’t have one? Regardless, I give her my address and ask her for hers so I can ship the piece to her. Nothing.

Silence for another month. I shoot her a polite message and asked if she was still interested in the drawing. She apologies, tells me she forgot about it and was out on vacation. ...Okay. I suppose one could say this is a red flag of sorts. I tell her it’s all good, things happen and she says she’ll send the money right away. I say cool, and ask for her address to ship it when the payment comes in.

Nothing. Yet again, but I wait it out in hopes she’d reach out... More time, till today. Finally, I get a bit annoyed and politely send her another message asking if she was interested. She replies almost immediately. Now, I follow her on instagram or did, and she would post pictures, stories, look at my stories etc all the time. So, she tells me that she’s been having health issues (not going to delve into it) and that it’s taken priority and she just found out about a specific issue in her throat. ...

I understand if you have health issues, but you just now, in recent time, found out about this. I have been holding onto this drawing, trying to be polite for the last two-three months. I wish you would have contacted me about it. I’m having money issues right now and I can’t sell the drawing because  I don’t know if you still want it and why the hell did you not contact me? I just wanted 25 dollars. 

I tell her that ‘I’m so sorry, I don’t mean to be rude or mean, I had no idea. Health should be a priority but I can’t afford to hold onto the drawing anymore because I’m having some issues with finances. If she would prefer to save the money for her health concerns, I completely understand and will void the entire thing. But I did contact her months ago and was unaware of any issues. 

Still haven’t gotten a response. Don’t do this. Please. If you are commissioning an artist and something pops up where you need to get a refund or tell them that you can’t pay them right away, do so. Don’t try and stiff them or drag them along for months. Same goes to artists! If you pay an artist and they don’t do the work and never talk to you for months, never give you updates and then come out of the blue and say something happened, that’s bad on the artist. 

This really upset me, I trusted this person. I have a lot of health issues myself and I get it, but you forgot earlier and were on vacation, you had time to communicate with me. If they respond, I’ll update. It’s just frustrating for me. Barely anyone pays me for my time and I lowball my own art a lot so I can get more clients and it’s not even worth it anymore. This happens so much that I don’t even want to do work for people anymore.

[thedeadwritinggod]

Heartbreak hotel

Part 3 bitches. Let’s get it

Warning: Hints toward Cursing/Cussing, Suicide, Self harm, abusive relationships, Polyamory(idk if there’s a need for this one tbh-) but ye a h- Hope you enjoy!

Special warning: This chapter has an almost non-con kiss! (The kiss almost happens but does not.)

Just maybe, Skylar was worried for nothing. I mean, getting third wheeled with someone else is never as bad right?

It had started as a group but Kara isn’t the greatest with loud environments so they stayed seated with Ben there in case anything set them off. Annie was off dancing on her own while Vi and Star decide to be dumb together on the dance floor, they still manage to make it look cute though.

And somehow, someway Kasper and Skylar ended up dancing together.

Their hand felt cold on her belt as her hips shift and sway-she really is a great dancer.

She places a hand on their neck and swings her hips, pulling them closer together in the same moment.

Their eyes lock, hers are half closed and she smiles lazily-humming along to the music and there’s are wide and unblinking hypnotized almost.

She giggles lazily, drunk on the music and colors surrounding her. Their look softens, eyes falling to her lips where her lazy, soft smile rests.

‘Pretty lips...’ they bring their other hand to her side, rubbing her skin gently. Warm. Small streams of light escapes between their fingers.

“Say my name~ Say my name~” And she pulls them closer again, as she sings along.

“If you love me, let me hear you~” Pressing their foreheads together, eyes peacefully closing.

They lean in, still staring at her lips as they sway and dance together. Their eyes fall closed and-

They shoot back open and they pull away from her quickly, leaving her confused- “S-Skylar I....” their voice trembles, along with their body. They grip onto their arms-cold. Cold leather where they used to have her body, ‘breathe. Just breathe.’ But that hurts,like there’s this miasma, this blackness crawling up their throat and killing any breath they can try to draw in.

Their grip tightens as they back into something-someone? They can’t really tell- it’s hard to focus when it feels like there’s a pressure- a weight, on your chest...it makes it hard to breath-

‘D-did I just almost kiss her-‘

Meanwhile still on the dance floor Skylar blinks to herself, brought out of her previous state. She spots them. The flowers blue and white flowers that litter the ground, she starts to pick them up, following the trail.

Nearby, Annie blinks having seen everything

“Bitch. Did anyone else see that besides me?”

“Hell no- Annie. My dear bitch. I believe we have a new ship.” Star calls, having also seen that.

“Believe? You believe?!-“Annie says storming up to them “They almost kissed!”

“Kasper doesn’t seem to happy about it though.” Vi mentions, glancing at them.

“Yeah they really don’t...”

“Should we try an help?”

“Well sky’s already over there so-“

“K-kasper?” Skylar had kept follow the trail, ending up with arms full of flowers white and blue flowers though with all the lights they didn’t exactly look white and blue.

They look up, tears lining their eyes and eyelashes. “Di-did I-“ they get up and speed walk away....

A thick trail of Carnations and Acacia flowers lead back to the hotel after Skylar’s trudge home.

Rejection is never fun and well since they left...why should she stay and get third wheeled? It’s not like they’d actually notice anyway...

Well in reality of course they knew. They saw them.

The next day she almost doesn’t come to the window-she does though, guilt having struck all at once.

“Kara!”

“Hey sky!”

“Did your sound sensitivity go off at all while we were out?”

They shake their head “Benny was there in case, but it really wasn’t bad.”

“Okay! Sorry I wasn’t there, won’t happen again.”

“It’s fine! Also-We won’t be around too much for the next couple weeks..We’re going on a bunch a dates since Annie’s been bursting with ideas!”

“Oh, hope you guys have fun! See ya-“

‘Guess I better prepare...least they told me.’ She shrugs

And the next day. Nobody came.

One day turned into two, two to three, three days to a week and...

She closes the calendar.

Weather she tried to prepare or not it was never enough.

It’d never be enough would it? She sits up in bed and pulls her headphones off, even in death you can’t escape sore ears I guess…

‘Pool being used..game room wouldn’t work...I could try ...No-‘

So she wanders the halls of the hotel. Empty as her mind.

Maybe they’d stopped now?

‘And maybe they’ve finally forgotten?’

Of course not….

‘Finally they forgot me...it was a long time coming I guess..’

‘They haven’t forgotten you dumbass. You’re just blowing this out proportion. Just like your “abuse”’ how the mind itself scoffs? She’s not sure...

‘Home was a hellscape though.’

‘You forget what Kara and Robin went through.’

“no..” Skylar mumbles aloud

‘I’m right then. Your mother put a hand on you sparsely, your father and siblings never. You’re fine.’

‘That doesn’t fix the fact you’re getting left..’

“Wow...thought the brain died when you did.” She rolls her eyes.

Yeah this was fine. She could deal with these two bickering incessantly. Yeah she could deal with that.

What she knew she couldn’t handle was the little voices- the tiny hands that grab and pulls at your psyche- begging, screaming for the pain to stop. That pain that your active mind is numb too at this point.

‘What did I ever do?’

‘Why won’t it stop?’

‘What’s wrong with me-‘

After dealing with those for four hallways already she sighs “I thought this would stop with my damn heart.”

“What would?”

She threw a glance behind her to see a familiar black haired person.. “Nothing ghosty.”

Kasper jogs up in front of her “That’s a bad lie.”

“Really it’s nothing.” She starts trying to walk away

“Still a bad lie.” Kasper walks backward in front of her

“Look can we just not..?”

“Not what?”

“Talk about this.”

“Talk about what?”

“Look Kasper I’d rather not lash out at you-“

“And why would you be lashing out at me?”

“That can happen when people feel lonely-“ she switches directions and Kasper follows her.

“Why ya feelin lonely?”

“Don’t know. Have been since way before I died and at this point I couldn’t care less why.”

“But you have friends here..?”

Skylar stops and sighs, sounding exasperated “over half of them aren’t my friends and that’s not how loneliness works.”

“Then how does it work?”

“Google it ya fuckin genius.”

Kasper stops, letting her walk away now. She’s talking to people. Good.

He knows enough about loneliness, just not enough about Skylar to see the effects. He pulls out his phone, staring at the small amount of contacts he has-then he puts it away. She probably won’t want him to tell anyone.

His attention is derailed by a soft sound and he strains to listen-Small, quiet, mutterings of words. Singing. Something about snow..?

He follows the voice-but can never seem to catch it, the he glances down at his feet..he doesn’t need to catch it anymore.

Tiny white flowers and larger yellow ones. Skylar.

// @the-lavender-creator