#i want to recover

[furiousgoldfish]

Do you ever experience stress so long term, that when it gets released, you struggle to function without it?

Your body is washed with relief but it's so intense it actually hurts; you can't breathe, your limbs go limp, you can't force yourself to do anything anymore, you need to lie down, you can't get up, and you can't focus. It's almost like you go from stress right to grief, there is no time for joy, the waves that hit make you feel that you were suffering for so long, that it was so awful it forced your body on edge for weeks or months, you can finally acknowledge how bad it was, now that you survived it. The release of suffering is so painful it makes an actual negative impact.

[pink-soft-monster]

Sincere post

I want to recover. But also I wanna be thin. But I can't lose weight without restricting myself since it's hard for me to exercise, I'm barely losing any weight and I'm on 900cal a day

But I just can't do it anymore, my tummy is fucked up, my whole journey revolve around food, I binge SO MUCH because I restricted for months, I I compare myself to other everyday here and I feel so bad...

I don't know what to do

[ix-misguided-ghost-xi]

Stuck between wanting to recover, be healthy and strong, and then wanting to be as sick as I possibly can.

I want to be normal ;^;

[notdelusionalatall]

TW SH

Instead of cutting, I fought the urge and drew some cute stuff on my body. It feels good. :)

Good things WILL happen.

STOP BEATING YOURSELF UP OVER EVERY BULLSHIT THING, BITCH!

- from me to me xD

[statementofjoespookie]

"i roll with a group of problematic bachelors and we call ourselves The Squad"

im really sick that's why im drawing sm

[mloking]

I haven't been able to consistently create anything in a while. Since art school wore me the hell out... Yeah I've got a few finished things, but they've been commissions and owed stuff... I've barely been able to make something for myself. I miss creating. I really do.

Is this burnout? Is burnout supposed to last 2+ years? Is this normal? Will I ever be able to make again?

[fairyjamm]

Reminder!

If you haven’t eaten anything yet this is your sign to go and get something to eat! Even if it’s something small progress is still progress ♡

Also don’t forget to drink water!

[lxv3s1ck]

Tw: sh and ed mention

I want to recover from self harm but it feels really hopeless. I’ve tried to recover but I relapsed. I just wish I never started. Maybe if I had found healthier coping mechanisms first I would have actually recovered. If I had good coping mechanisms then perhaps I wouldn’t have to suffer from a eating disorder. I can think about the what-ifs all I want but it won’t change anything. I just wish I knew where to go from here.

[oxygencals]

I wanna make this account into a recovery one. I’m fucking sick of this ed and what it’s doing to me and my family! I’ve woken up earlier to make sure I will have my breakfast and a morning snack

[ma333ve]

welcome to the hellscape that is my blog

22 🥀 australian 🥀 genderfluid 🥀 autistic 🥀 bi

x who the fuck is maeve? x

that would be me, your neighborhood emo bpd bitch

x a time traveller from 2008 x

dont ask me how i got here, all i know is i would like to go back

bandom reblogs includes : waterparks, my chemical romance, pierce the veil, sleeping with sirens, deftones, bring me the horizon, neck deep, fall out boy, motionless in white and a whole lot more

current hyperfixations : invader zim, my chemical romance

as this is also my diary, I post any and all thoughts my brain comes up with.

//tw: bpd, sh mentions, suicidal thoughts, depression, anxiety, eating disorders, drugs//

minors DNI

[hansoeii]

crowley

[lylahammar]

Senshi doesn't often cook for other people 🧐

I was heavily inspired by @fruit00's Senshi drawing for the way I drew him! c:

[pink-soft-monster]

I'm eating so much and I feel SO bad, like I'm all or nothing, eating nothing or way too much I feel like shit eating so much sugar...but it's so good I missed it so much I can't stop eating it now...

[mintybagels]

I’d give anything to hear

You say it one more time

That the universe was made

Just to be seen by my eyes

[meruz]

just some school pics.. i drew this to print on pencil bags?? hoping they look cute in the end

[girlyteengirl16]

healing is taking too long what if i just kill myself