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Shot through the Heart But You’re to Blame (You Give Love A Bad Name)

Chapter Fourteen of Sweet Home Alabama

Jake ‘Hangman’ Seresin x OC (Linley Mitchell/Floyd), Bradley ‘Rooster’ Bradshaw x OC (Linley Mitchell/Floyd)

Description: Before you can believe it, it's your wedding day. If only you could bring yourself to be as happy as Natasha and Carole seem to be. Carole is in her element, bossing around everyone in the wedding party as well as the staff and the caterers. She seems wholly occupied at the thought of giving her son a picture perfect wedding. When a wrench gets thrown in the works, it's anyone's guess as to who loses their cool.

Meanwhile, Jake is prepping for a lightning storm. It seems like the world is ending. He's lost everything he's ever fought to get. Is there one last chance fated for these estranged lovers?

Themes: love, attraction, angst, sex, cheating, lying

Warnings: Carole being Carole. She’s a warning in and of herself!

Word Count: 3127

A/N: Well yall, we're at chapter fourteen. This is the beginning of the end for this story, and I'm so nostalgic to think of it ending. I've been working on this story since June or July of 2023. A little over 6 months of writing and just about 4 months of posting this story and here we are. I can't believe it. I want to take this time to thank everyone who has been reading this story. You've made me so thrilled and genuinely shocked with your love and support.

AO3: Cross-posted here!

Wattpad: Cross-posted here!

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Floyd Plantation, Greeneville, Alabama - Wedding Day

The day of your wedding dawns bright and clear, with big creamy clouds floating across the sky. It’s hot and humid, static electricity making you jumpy - you wouldn’t be surprised if it rains tonight - though you hope it doesn’t rain during the ceremony. Carole would freak out if that happened. In any case, Floyd Plantation is resplendent, the grounds festooned in bunches of white, cream, and peach flowers, the chairs covered in white satin with big bows on the back. Standing in the master bedroom of Floyd Plantation you’re being poked and prodded with pins and makeup brushes. You feel rather like a doll as you stand there and let the makeup artists doll you up to Carole’s satisfaction. You can faintly hear the band setting up in the big tent for the reception and not for the first time, you wish that Carole would just shut up. She’s been drilling you about notable guests and on your answers for an interview with the press after the ceremony all day. You’re already frazzled, your nerves strung tight, and you’d really appreciate a few moments to yourself before you walk down the aisle.

“Alright, Linley, remember that Mr. Fulsom and his third wife will be here tonight. Her name is Marta,” She’s got her glasses on as she prepares to run through the list with you again.

You sigh, and continue the tirade. “I know, Carole. Don’t call her Donna or Leanne because those are ex-wives numbers one and two. That’ll cause her to start drinking, if she drinks, she’ll cause a scene, and we need Mr.Fulsom on the Bradshaw side because he is one of the best political supporters on the East Coast and he will be instrumental to Bradley’s career.”

“Well, it looks like you’re ready.” She turns to the poor beleaguered make-up artists hovering on either side of you. “Is there anything you can do with contouring? All of this time in Alabama and she looks tireder and flabbier than ever. It must be all the fried food you get around here. Anyone would think salads aren’t an item you can eat, looking at her.”

You can’t even summon up the energy for an eye roll as she waltzes back out of the suite, her heels clacking loudly against the tiles. The titters of the makeup artists as they attack your face with vigor again doesn’t help your mood or the way your stomach cramps with nerves.

Jake’s Yellow House, Pigeon Creek, Alabama - Wedding Day

In the years since his marriage fell apart, Jake’s been able to sniff out lightning storms like none other. It’s like he can taste the electricity in the air, and feel it in the summer breeze. At least the scent of electricity on the breeze diverts his thoughts from the event happening in Greeneville tonight. He’d been invited, sure, but Jake Seresin’s not sure he’ll be able to sit in the audience in a monkey suit and hear a preacher ask if anyone objects to the nuptials - not without screaming, “I object!” at the top of his lungs. It’s why he’s pacing back and forth in front of his house as the sun sinks languidly below the horizon.

Eventually, the nervous energy singing in his veins isn’t placated by pacing, so he pulls on his heavy work gloves and starts loading up his truck for a night out on the beach. If he can’t see the love of his life, if he can’t stop her from getting married to another man, he might as well make a few more lightning-glass sculptures. Jake’s just loaded up the first set of heavy metal beams into the bed of his truck when a pickup truck rolls up the driveway. Unsurprisingly, it’s his Mama stepping out of the truck. He hasn’t seen the look on his mom’s face in years, not since he decided to give up on his dreams for Linley and the baby they were expecting. The disappointment on her face, then and now, stings more than he ever expects it to.

“Hi.” She’s wearing one of her fancy church dresses, like she’s heading up to Floyd Plantation to say goodbye to her daughter forever. Amelia’s lounging in the front seat looking positively miserable in a pink frock, and Jake would smile at her dismay if he didn’t feel just as miserable as his little sister. “There’s a wedding going on.”

“Yeah, I’ve heard mention of it a time or two.” He can’t look at his mom or his sister. He can’t bear to see the pity and righteous anger in their eyes. Though, it is a balm to his soul that the anger is on his behalf.

“I sure hope this weather cooperates.” A lick of cooler wind brushes across his face, damp as it rustles through the trees.

“It’s supposed to be a big one, tonight.” The lightning rods clank satisfyingly as he chucks them into the truck piece by piece.

“You know, Jake…” That tone of voice is something Jake’s been trained to pay attention to since he was very little. He grabs the last of the rods and his toolbox as his mama picks up his sleeping bag. “You're my only son and I love you, but sometimes, you are too much like your daddy.”

There’s naked pain in his voice as he finally responds. “She made her decision, Mama.”

“You know, for somebody who’s been holding on to something so hard, you’re pretty quick to let it go.” But has he been quick to let her go? Jake Seresin has been in love with Linley Mitchell since he was ten years old. He’s been holding out hope that she’ll come back from New York for the better part of seven years, taking the time to make something of himself so she’ll finally like the man she sees enough to stay. He’s been hoping and praying. But what can he do when the person he’s been praying for doesn’t want him at all? It feels like there is only one decision he can make. All he can do is step back and hope that she’ll be happy, even if its not with him.

“You know, I can't control her any more than I can control the weather.” So as he latches the tailgate back up and gets into the cab, he hopes that Linley is happy, incandescently unbelievably happy with Bradley Bradshaw. He leaves his Mama and sister in the dust as he pulls away, the sad look on his face mirroring the ones on theirs.

Floyd Plantation, Greeneville, Alabama - Minutes before the wedding

Natasha’s fingers are deft and gentle as she carefully buttons up each of the miniscule buttons at the back of your dress. Your hair and makeup are perfect, you’re wearing your new blue earrings and you should be ready to go. You’ve got the old, the new, the borrowed and the blue, but you can’t recognize the woman you see in the mirror.

“It’s just nerves, Linley.” Natasha’s quick to reassure you. “You’re doing the right thing.”

“Am I?” You turn your head back and forth, gaze caught on prisms of light cast by the blue glass earring you’re wearing.

“He can give you the life we dreamed about when we were penniless and living in the dorms at FIT off of instant noodles and our dreams of success.” She’s resplendent in a periwinkle blue gown, her short bob styled into a sleek cap which makes her look effortlessly stylish and elegant.

“And he adores you, doesn’t he?” You bend obligingly as she arranges your grandmother’s veil over your head, extra careful with the aged fabric as she pins it into place.

“He does, doesn’t he?” Your heart feels like it’s ripping itself into pieces and you’re not going to think about why. You made your choices. Bradley Bradshaw chose you and he adores you. He even says he loves you. You’re not sure you believe it, but affection should get you halfway there at least, right?

As the music plays out across the assembled guests in their finery, you feel electricity in the wind as you take your father’s arm. Natasha proceeds down the aisle in front of you, her pace stately even as thunder rumbles ominously over your head. The audience stands on cue as Wagner’s Bridal Chorus is tunefully played by the orchestra Carole and Bradley hired fpr your wedding. The sky is dark and the breeze is chilly enough to have goosebumps rise along your bare arms and a shiver trailing down your spine. The photographers are clicking away, and Bradley is looking gorgeous in his fitted black tuxedo at the end of the aisle. He’s got a fond, sweet smile on his face at the sight of you. To the audience members, he looks like a man in love. But to you, he looks just a little fake, just a little tired. There isn’t love in his eyes as he looks at you, but pride and satisfaction. What’s the likelihoods that your dad will block Bradley from running after you if you turn tail and book it to his truck?

But that thought comes too late. You’re just about to take Bradley’s hand in front of the minister when the shouting of your nom de plume rings out over the hushed audience. It’s a sharply dressed African American man, and you recognize him seconds before two of the guards Carole hired deck him.

“Mr. Fitch?” You’re shocked as you tread back down the aisle as fast as your cumbersome dress and heels will allow you.

“Get your hands off me!” He’s fighting off the guards as much as he’s able to.

You can feel Bradley coming up behind you as you finally find the words and demand, “Wait! Let him go!”

“Linley?” You can hear the confusion in Bradley’s voice as Mr. Fitch straightens his creased suit as much as he can and walks towards you. “Miss Floyd, you are one hard woman to get in touch with.” His voice rings commandingly through the crowd.

“Mr. Fitch. He signed the papers. What are you doing here?” It seems like everyone is watching your every mood as you hiss the words out. You’re not sure why he’s here at all.

“He did … you didn’t.” At least Mr. Fitch finally seems to realize he has an audience too, because his voice is just as hushes as yours is.

“What?” Sure enough when he pulls the papers out and shows you the signature tabs, Jake’s signature is in bold ink scrawled across the page, but the tab where you should have signed is empty. You could have sworn you’d signed at least one of the copies before you made your frenzied trip to the post office that morning. But you can’t remember. You’d been completely drugged by the scent of Jake on your skin, by the ghostly feeling of his hands and then also still hungover to boot. “You mean I’m still married?”

You just see the joy on Penny and Amelia’s faces as Mr. Fitch says, “Well, only if you want to be.”

“Oh, for God’s sakes, Linley! I thought you took care of this.” Just when you’re starting to finally feel joy in what should be one of the most joyful days of your life, it is your fiancé’s voice which plummets your mood. Bradley sounds disappointed, even if his face doesn’t reveal it.

“It was an honest mistake, Bradley.” You’re not sure he believes you.

“Well, then, can we fix it before we all get soaked?” Carole’s domineering and nasal voice rings out over the assembled company.

“Does anybody have a pen?” Your voice is thin as you ask that question, and it gratifies you that most of the audience so obligingly searches for a pen in their belongings. Bradley even tries to ask Carole, but her scoff makes your eyes roll just a little even as you search for a pen yourself.

It’s Penny Benjamin, the only mother you’ve ever know who pulls a pen out.

“Darling,” Her voice is soft and filled with as much love as you’ve ever heard. “These things don’t just happen, you know.”

With the pen in hand, you’re filled with so much confusion. All of a sudden you’re seeing Jake and Bradley side by side in front of your eyes. Mr. Fitch is looking at you with the same sympathy you can see in Penny’s face. Every glance you take of Bradley shows him silently urging you to sign the papers. But you can’t. At the moment, you’re not sure why you agreed to marry Bradley anymore. He’s gorgeous, sweet, funny and kind, but he’s so buttoned up all the time, so sure of what he needs to do to succeed. In comparison to him, you’re something of a mess. You couldn’t be organized if you try, and forget it if an idea sparks in your brain. You’d happily give up food, sleep, and hygiene if your ideas manage to make their way onto pages first and then fabric in turn shortly after. It’s a trait of yours Bradley has always hated. But he’s never realized how much of you that is.

In contrast, you remember what Jake used to act like when you got in that mood. He never minded, carefully coaxing you to eat, to sleep, picking his moments to break your concentration. In truth, that’s probably why you and Jake are kindred spirits. He used to get the same way before big football games, practicing until his muscles gave out and he’d collapse. A part of you wonders if he is the same way with his glasswork. You have a sneaking suspicion he is, and if the bags under his eyes when you saw him at the opening for Deep South Glass, your suspicion would be correct. There was also the matter of how thin and sad he’d looked. Your hand with the pen hovers over the papers. You try to sign the papers the way Bradley and Carole so want you to. But each attempt at putting pen to paper is ultimately unsuccessful. There is something like resignation in Bradley’s face when you put the pen down for the final time and walk toward him.

“Bradley?” He looks oddly surprised that you’re talking to him right now. “You don’t want to marry me.”

“I don’t?” His voice is still light and polite.

“No.” You’re nearly besides yourself in comparison to the cool look in his eyes. “No, you don’t. Not really.” Your throat is tight and your head is spinning as you carefully try to think of words to tell Bradley the truth without breaking his heart.

“You see, the truth is, I gave my heart away a long time ago.” There’s a sob building in your throat as you say the words because you can see Bradley’s heart break the more you say. You fell in love with Bradley Bradshaw a long time ago because of his big heart. “My whole heart and I never really got it back.”

“I don’t even know what else to say, but I’m sorry.” You sniffle as you hand the ring, the beautiful Tiffany ring back to him. “I can’t marry you, and you shouldn’t want to marry me.”

“Wow.” Of everything you’d expect the man you’re leaving at the altar to say, “Wow” is not something you’d have expected. “So this is what this feels like.”

You chuckle despite your tears, because something tells you that Bradley is going to be just fine after this botched wedding.

“That’s it?!” Carole’s screech nearly takes your eardrums out; it is that high pitched. “You’re just going to let her humiliate you with some bullshit about an old husband?” If there was a member of your collective friends and family who were unaware of what was happening, well, there isn’t a hope of that now.

“Yeah, mom. I think I am.” Bradley smiles softly at you, kisses your knuckles and walks away, murmuring ‘Excuse Me’ to the guests as he does. You think there is a pep to his step as he strides away, and he looks lighter, happier.

“Well, in my entire life, I have never met anyone so manipulative, so deceitful! And I’m in politics!” There’s something menacing in Carole Bradshaw’s voice and tone as she marches closer to you.

“I -” You’re more than a little discomfitted. “I’m just trying to be honest, Carole. Your son deserves that.”

“I will not allow the future President of the United States to be dumped at the altar by some psycho Daisy Mae! You go after him now, you little bitch!” Well, at least she’s showing her true colors now. The guests gasp the moment she starts cursing you out, and surprisingly, Penny and your dad step up in front of you like a physical shield at your ex-fiancé’s mother’s vitriol.

“Wait just a minute. There’s no need for name-calling, now.” Penny is angry, her placid demeanor melting into the mien of a mama bear out for blood as she glares at the Mayor of New York like she’s an unruly bar patron.

“My daughter spoke her piece and that’s all there is to it, Carole.” That it’s your dad who defends you just seems to have made Carole angrier. But she seems to realize that she can’t attack Maverick Mitchell on his home turf. Instead she turns back to Penny in her simple black dress and growls, “Oh, go back to your double-wide and fry something!”

That’s about when you’ve had enough of the almighty righteousness of Carole Bradshaw. You take one step forward, square up your hips like your daddy taught you how to years ago and take one almighty swing. Your fist makes contact satisfyingly with the bridge of the nose she’s always proclaimed is perfect with a thwack and a very satisfying crunch. She looks dazed as she lands on the soft grass. Her nose may be bleeding just a little, and that makes you grin vindictively.

“Nobody talks to my mama like that!” Beau Simpson is there to help prop her up, but you could care less about the crazed Mayor of New York. Nat giggles as you hand her your bouquet and you smile softly at your dad as he hands you his truck keys. At the moment, the rain lets loose, deluging the pretty flowers and satin chairs and beautifully dressed people in moments.

“Hey y’all! If you're friends of the bride, stick around!” Your proclamation is filled with whoops of glee from all the people you love in Pigeon Creek. “I’m going to go find me a groom!”

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prince-liest · 2 months

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This may be an odd question, but I believe you mentioned you got into writing because of rp(or at least into fanfiction?) And I was wondering how you transitioned into writing solo? Most of my writing is/was with a partner, but I've been trying to write on my own, and I've found it incredibly difficult. I'm told that what I write is still good regardless, but I've a hard time both finding enthusiasm for it without a partner to bounce off of or finishing whatever I'm working on.

This might just be a me thing and more to do with being self-critical, but if you have any advice, I'd really appreciate it. I just want to figure out how to enjoy writing again without jumping through weird hoops for motivation.

(You may have already been comfortable writing even before rp and if that's the case, feel free to disregard this question.)

I'd tried to write a bit of fanfic before my RP days with limited success motivating myself, so it really was very much RP that got me the skills and ability to be able to write full-form fics!

But more than mechanical skill, mostly I think the issue you face is very similar to what I struggled with for a while when swapping to writing fanfic, which is that a lot of the reason RP is so easy and rewarding is because it's such a profoundly social activity. You write a few paragraphs and then you get social feedback immediately from your RP partner in the form of chatting about it and/or the RP response you get! With fanfiction, you have to write a whole damn piece or chapter, post it, and then hope that you get comments if you want engagement - and then those comments are inevitably going to be a little bit less personal if, like me, you RP OCs that you put a lot of yourself into rather than pre-existing characters!

The problem with doing things for the sake of extrinsic motivation is that it kills your intrinsic motivation to do those things. This isn't a moral flaw, it's a documented psychological effect! Nowadays I write primarily because I want to see the things I put into the world, but that's fucking easy for me to say when I also have a large reader base and really enthusiastic commentors, isn't it? And it took me a hot minute to figure out how to transition to motivating myself that way rather than because I wanted interaction.

My suggestion is, honestly, to find folks that hype you up! I kinda crested that barrier by getting possessed by writing demons and pounding out like 60k words of insane Hawks-centric character study in one month during the 2020 quarantine, and I was lucky enough that people really liked it and immediately flooded my notifications with the kind of really lovely, long-form comments that my writing style encourages, which isn't really a typical experience. Those folks that hype you up, it is LOVELY if they are your friends, but sometimes what you really need to do is find the small social circle of freaks that are really into whatever niche thing it is that you are writing, and infiltrate their Discord. Ship-specific groups are really good for this! (Especially for rarepairs.)

But a lot of it is really going to be finding the balance of finding supportive people who will feed into your excitement, and also finding that part of yourself that finds the process of writing to be fun. Social activity is still 100% just a necessary part of the human experience, and I myself post snippets of my writing online and on Discord all the time for the little dopamine hit of "Yay! We're enjoying this together!" but it's become something I do because I want to share the joy I already get from writing, not because I'm writing to share it!

Which also means that you should write things that you enjoy writing. ;) Write things you are actually excited about - not just things you want to read, but things you think would be fun to write, and if there are boring parts that you're getting stuck on? Fucking skip them! I am not kidding! You think anybody thought it was a loss that I literally never even mentioned how radiostatic got together for the first time in 666? If they did, nobody's mentioned it, because it wasn't necessary to the story I actually wanted to tell. Literally so goddamn many of my fics start with cold opens because I don't like to bother with exposition until things have already gotten rolling. Fanfiction especially is GREAT for this because people are already familiar with the world you're writing in!

You are writing to entertain yourself! If it's not entertaining, don't fucking write it! Or figure out what about it is boring you, and then write it differently. This will have the splendid side effect of teaching you how to write transitions and also making a fic that is more fun to read. >:)

Anyway, this has gotten quite long, so: I'm sorry that I wasn't able to offer a great deal of advice, because I relate deeply to what you're experiencing but I basically got to speedrun the transition phase. I hope that it was at least a little bit helpful!

#ask #personal #Anonymous #writing advice #long post #thank you for this ask anon! <3

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chocodile · 9 months

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art fight???? how???

hey, could you explain a little about the art fight thing? i want to fight people !1!1!

Art Fight is an art gifting and trading game! It's been running in some form or another since (quickly checks about page) 2007 apparently but I've been playing it since 2016.

The way the game/event works is outlined here on the site's About page. Basically you just pick other users and draw free art for them of their characters--art you make for other people is called "attacks", and if you're lucky, they'll get "revenge" by drawing something back for you of one of your own characters, too!

There's a light framework of "teams" and "points" overlaid on top of that "draw art of others' OCs" concept to gamify it and give it a fun aesthetic (with team themes like sun vs moon, vampires vs werewolves, etc), but there are no prizes for the winning team, you can freely draw stuff for people on your own team, you can switch teams at any time, and... honestly most users don't really care about teams or points and are just in it for the OC gift art aspect of it.

I'm a huge fan of it because Art Fight feels like one of the last places on the internet that is by and for artists exclusively. On Art Fight you can openly relish in the fact that you're obsessed with one of your characters, or show off this idea for a cool story and setting you want to turn into a novel someday, or proudly display the fact that you've been worldbuilding in-depth dragon lore for a decade and be totally and completely surrounded on all sides by people who not only get it, but also are all doing the same thing. It's also a great way to give some love and support to beginner artists.

Some tips on how to have a better Art Fight experience:

Don't go in with the expectation that you'll get a ton of art, especially your first year. Your main goal should be to make gifts for other people.

If you are hoping to get "revenges" back, try to "attack" people who are definitely playing this year (as in, have drawn at least one attack this summer) but who aren't already swamped with a ton of attacks to "revenge" already. (Attacking only very popular/professional artists who get more attacks then they could ever possibly keep up with will leave you feel disappointed... that said, it's arguably worth attempting a few, just in case you get lucky, because that's how I got a drawing from Shoomlah, one of my childhood art idols!)

If you have an art blog, promote your Art Fight stuff to your followers there so they know you're playing. Playing with a group of friends is also more fun than playing solo 'cause you can always attack each other if you're not getting many revenges. Leaving nice comments on other people's characters and art can also help make you more visible/leave a good impression if you're brand new to the game.

Points and teams seriously don't matter at all, even a little. I suggest not paying them any attention at all beyond picking the team theme you think is cooler.

It's best to at least skim a character's profile and rules before drawing them. Not only does it help you get a better feel for the character, sometimes people put useful design details there instead of on their refs.

One more thing: Don't take Art Fight too seriously! You and everyone else are here to have fun. Don't get hung up on art "quality"--lots of people (including myself) are only doing headshots or sketches. Don't get upset if someone forgets a detail on your character or doesn't draw them quite "right". Don't get hung up on numbers or "ratios" or feel too stung if someone doesn't comment on or revenge something you draw for them. After all, Art Fight is for all types of artists, including young artists who don't fully understand netiquette rules yet, busy adults with full time jobs, people with disabilities that make it hard for them to communicate or hard for them to type or leave them with limited energy... etc. That doesn't mean they didn't appreciate what you drew for them!

Wow, I wrote too much. I should probably stop typing and go draw something for Art Fight before it gets too late in the evening!

TL;DR: Fun art gifting game. Great to rub elbows with other creatives for a month! Feels like an online convention of sorts! A+! Would recommend.

#art fight #art fight 2023 #my 'e' key is going and I am suffering immensely for it #typing is so difficult at the moment #my band aid fix worked for a while but I think I will have to disassemble my laptop #and replace the entire keyboard #man. I usually don't have to do that until the fan starts going out at like the 4 year mark.#but this keyboard situation is really draining my sanity every time I type anything at all #anyway #anon #replies #not an art post #also sorry for not answering messages... been very busy... then art fight started... now keyboard broken...#universe does not want me to answer messages it seems

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authorcofficial · 2 months

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Introduction

Hello, hello, hello, sweethearts!

I finally have the courage and motivation to add an introduction in this accidentally!

My name is Author C, or just call me C 🌹

I'm a young woman who loves and adores art! I love to draw, animate, read and write!

I've always been on social media but keep myself quiet and hidden and just liking stuff, since I'm not that confident yet. But after some time, I've grown to encourage myself to show what I can do from this platform. I have a lot of accounts from various platforms, but for now, this account will be the one that will be activated the most. I also write cringy stories in my Wattpad account…

I sometimes will go missing for a moment because I'm also busy in my life outside the internet. I'm an Indonesian woman, so English is not my first language. Just ignore it when I'm making any grammar mistakes, okay???

Anyway, there's a lot of fandoms that I've been in, but I've been mostly into:

Gacha. (Yes, any problems with someone like me playing gacha? If so, then leave or keep quiet)

- NU: Carnival🔞

- TOUCHSTARVED

- What in hell is bad?

- Obey me!

- Twisted Wonderland

- Stardew valley

- TGCF

- MDZS

- Honkai Star rail

- Genshin impact

- Ensemble stars

- Black Butler

and's more…

I love to write stories to put all of my imagination, just in case I forget. From fluffy romance to spicy one… I also have a pretty good imagination with angst… But if you ask me what type of genre, I love Harem and isekai genre! and romantic stuff. Oh! I love love to write and read an X reader & x Oc!

I'm a mother of these seven. They're my main 7 OCs, that I called them the U7, short for Unique seven.

U7 Characters' Introduction:

Left to right.

Xu Fulin: He/him. Mainly used on MDZS, and TGCF

Yuki: He/him. Mainly used for any highschool fandom, for example: TWST, and blue lock…

MC: They/them. Mainly used on Obey me!/Obviously…

Mi-Cha: she/her. Mainly used on Stardew Valley.

Scarlett: He/him. Mainly used on TOUCHSTARVED

Rein: He/him. Mainly used on TOUCHSTARVED and Honkai Star rail

Xavy: Mainly used on TOUCHSTARVED and NU: Carnival

Other OCs:

Ha-joon: He/him. Mainly used on WHB

Clover: He/him. Mainly used on Genshin impact

Adler: He/him. Mainly used on Black Butler.

Shinta: He/him. Mainly used on NU:Carnival

More will be added…

That's all I got to say, thank you so much for those who already support me❤️

I really appreciate it.

If you want to ask or request something, my request box will always be open for you. But just to let you know, I might not be going to do nor answer some of them…

/Psst, also could you tell me some good xreader isekai stories?

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wooahaes · 2 years

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lonely hearts club [masterlist]

pairing: non-idol!wonwoo x fem!chubby!reader

genre: romance, college au

release date: 06/16/2022 -- 06/30/2022. completed because writer has no impulse control and moved up the schedule a lot and then posted the ending early.

warnings: some self deprecation later on. insecure reader. reader meddles in her friend’s love life. initial one-sided pining. reader is given a nickname (sunny) throughout the series. [more specific warnings supplied in individual parts]

summary:

With graduation fast approaching, Wonwoo only meant to vent about his feelings to an anonymous Twitter account known for giving people a space to vent and an anonymous way to express themselves. What happens when the person he has feelings for is the same person behind the account... and the same person who thinks he’s in love with their best friend?

links...

preview + cast list

pt.1

pt.2

pt.3

pt.4

pt.5

pt.6

pt.7

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pt.9

pt.10

pt.11

pt.12/final

epilogue

some words from the writer... [updated jul 24]

so this was initially going to be a social media au but then i decided... i’m not smart enough to put those together lol. i feel like you can definitely tell when i planned for a smau but then backed out of it because this one + the other one i planned both have nicknames for reader.

you can probably call this one an oc if you really want. i personally don’t because while reader is a chubby woman, i don’t have anyone specific in mind for her? my original characters tend to be waaay more thought out and would have a canonical appearance (past ‘reader is chubby’ in this case--but, fuck it, man, people are allowed to write poc readers and those aren’t ocs, i’m allowed to have a chubby reader if i want it).

also admittedly this one is a little self indulgent. like... the chubby reader smut is great and all, but i just want a series dedicated to a chubby (fem) reader that doesn’t revolve around her weight or about her getting boned. no shame on those fics, i read them sometimes, but i’d just like to see a chubby reader fall in love and there be little to do with her weight aside from the general “fat girl” experience that i’m writing from.

anyway. if you wanna read this and think of reader as an oc, go for it. if you don’t wanna read this at all, fair enough. i just wanted to write something i saw myself in and maybe other people could see themselves in it, too, whether you’re plus size or not.

edit post-fic: thank you all for reading and reblogging any parts of this, by the way. i didn’t expect for this one to get much attention, but i genuinely appreciate the support a lot!! i hope any new readers enjoy it + any returning ones have a fun time revisiting lhc <3 she’ll always have a special place in my heart! one day i’ll do a rewrite of this with a different person, but for now lhc will just exist as my happy sweet ww fic that i hold a lot of love for.

thanks for supporting me, though. love you <3

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dabislittlemouse · 1 year

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*:･｡𝐌𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠 𝐫𝐮𝐥𝐞𝐬 ｡･:*

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fandomsaremykryponite · 4 months

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May I ask you some questions about your writing process for your Boondock Saints, The Walking Dead crossover? I’m curious how you approached something that you knew was going to be a long huge story that would take forever to write. Did you plot everything out from the beginning to end? And do you schedule yourself to write a goal each day?

Hi @livingdeadblondequeen

Thanks for the ask! I really like this one.

Tbh, I don’t think I have a real writing process. When I first came up with my fic series, it was really just for fun bc I thought it would be interesting to imagine how things would be affected if the Saints were in TWD. Then, I decided to write my own series and it just exploded from there. It’s kinda the same thing with all my stories (that I’m still working on before I post). Adding my OC was basically me jumping in to the story as well bc why shouldn’t I have fun in all this? Lol.

As for the plot as a whole, it’s kind’ve a mix between plotting everything out and winging it. I did download a timeline app on my iPad specifically to track major stuff through the series as a whole. Specifically figuring out exactly how long each season lasted (timeline wise, not the show’s runtime). Like how long from the virus’s initial outbreak to when Rick was left behind in the hospital, where would all my characters go, who died when and where (and maybe how if the idea comes to me). Since as many of you have probably already read, there are several characters that I’ve kept alive who (at the point of my series) should already be dead. For a few of them, they’re still going to die, but I wanted to give them, I guess, better deaths?? It’s hard to explain as it’s been a while since I’ve actually looked at my story timeline.

Though, I’m gonna go back and make a bunch of new ones later one that follow the rest of the series that I haven’t gotten to yet. Hell, I still don’t entirely know how to finish off the last season. I know what I want, but I need to watch the last season to really see how it ended before I figure out how to work my way there. Though, that probably won’t be until much later. I’m still on season 4 of TWD, which isn’t new information since that’s where I’ve been since I first finished writing season 3 (part 6 which is currently being posted) like almost 2 years ago I wanna say??

If you’re interested in what stories I’m writing, I think I actually wrote it all out in a post long time ago. However, I have made additional stories that I’d like to post one day. Though, it won’t be until I’ve written up to certain points for each story. I like having a bunch already written out so that I have breathing room before I need to write more in case I let myself get caught up writing other stuff (like I am now lol).

As for your last question… I don’t really set a schedule. I just write when I wanna write whenever I can write (which was a lot of times now that I think about it). I don’t set a goal either. I don’t like adding unnecessary pressure that I don’t need. I write because I had a fun story idea that I wanted to make. I share my story online because I thought that there might be others who would enjoy it. And there had been bc I’ve been receiving nothing but love since I first started posting and have always appreciated the support and adored the comments that readers would leave in AO3.

Thanks again for the ask! I really enjoyed this one. If you have any other questions, please feel free to reach out! I love chatting with you all!

Thank you for reading my fic series this far. I hope you continue to enjoy reading my fic series as I have been writing them.

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hebimoonlightwrites · 2 years

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PLEASE CHECK MY CARRD: ----->♥

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⋆You can call me Hebi, I'm 19 and I really love listening to music and writing.

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I will accept requests like:

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!!!Please, give me a request in each message.. Don't send me a message containing more requests because I could easily getting confused with requests counting qwq♥ (I'm dumb, sweethearts haha)!!!

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not-krys · 3 months

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[Repost] Abandoned - Clara

Part of this set of WIP Wednesdays

Had forgotten to post these separately so I can add them to my oc masterlist, whoops.

This one has been updated a lil bit as I'm thinking of using it in an upcoming writing challenge. Not completely sold on it yet, but the idea is there for the event.

Raw, incomplete, unedited writing, little more exploration of Rio and Clara's relationship. Spoilers for Rio's route.

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Clara squeezed her eyes shut, her back facing Rio. She could already feel the hot tears forming, not helped by the familiar weight on her left hand.

Still, this was a long time coming. She felt she had already hurt Rio enough with the engagement announcement, no matter how much his smile and words said otherwise, she could still see the pain in her friend of three year's eyes. Even gathering these items now felt like she was pushing the knife in further, that she was pushing him away, when she wanted to do anything but.

"I know," she started softly, "that I should have given these to you sooner."

The blue coat, soft and supple in her hands, weighed like a ton of bricks.

"And, it's cruel of me to be giving them to you now, of all the times…"

Rio stayed quiet, undoubtedly watching as her shoulders shook.

"I… I'll understand if you want to hate me. Finding love in someone else while I'm tossing you to the side…Especially now when I'm engaged."

Clara then slowly turned around, the blue coat and sword clutched tightly in her hands.

"Wherever you go in life now, know that I appreciated our friendship far more than any words could convey."

"Clara?" Rio asked, taking her by her shoulders.

"If you want to leave, to find out who you really are, you have my support."

She held the coat and sword closer to him, the Benitoite crest glimmering in the sunlight.

"I can only hope you and your own find happi-"

Her words were cut off when cloth and metal clanged on the floor. Rio's warm arms pulled her closer, holding her so tight it hurt to breathe.

"How can I leave you when you look like you're ready to fall apart?"

"Rio, I…"

"I'm not leaving you."

"Rio, please, don't be like this."

"No."

"You have another life out there, Rio. These… these things prove it! You don't have to stay for me anymore! You don't have to be hurt by me anymore!"

"Is that really what you think? That you're hurting me?"

"I know you love me! Ever since that summer day… I couldn't return your love because of these… And now…."

Rio rubbed her back, trying his best to calm her.

"Does he make you happy?"

Clara swallowed, taking in a breath.

"Yes."

"Then that's all that matters to me."

"Rio, your happiness matters too!"

"You still make me happy, Clara. My hearts bursts with every thought of you, remember?"

"I'm getting married! To Nokto! And not… not to you…"

"So long as you're happy, that's enough for me."

He cupped her cheek, rubbing away her tears.

"Sure, I won't be marrying you, but I'm most definitely helping you dress up for your big day! There will be cute little rosebuds in your hair, your veil will have looking you all mysterious and magical, your makeup perfectly applied-"

"Rio…"

"Mr. Akatsuki will be the one walking you down the aisle, but I'll be standing nearby in case you need anything!"

"Rio, I-"

"And let's not forget after the wedding and beyond! Being queen certainly won't be easy! You'll need someone to help you with-"

"Rio, please!"

"Don't worry, I'll help with everything when Nokto's away doing business and what-have-you. You won't have to worry about a thing-"

"Rio!"

Clara had finally had enough. She pushed against Rio's chest, separating the both of them. Her breathing was shallow.

"I don't want to hurt you anymore than I have. You don't have to stay behind for me. You should hate me for all of this…"

"But I don't hate you. I couldn't."

"So… are you abandoning your past life for me? The girl you love who fell for someone else? Abandoning what you were for someone that can bring you nothing but pain?"

"You don't hurt me. Quite the opposite, actually. I don't have all of my memories back, but believe me, you've made me the happiest I've ever been in my life."

"How are you so sure?"

"Just a feeling. I can't explain it fully, but, the few memories I do have of my past… That hurts far more to think about. When I think about you, they soothe the hurt I feel when I think about my past, spotty as it is."

He takes her hand in his, looking at the diamond ring on her finger, rubbing it with his thumb.

"Even thinking of you with another man is less painful compared to the few memories I have remaining."

"Rio…"

"So, if you'll allow me, I'd like to continue to stay by your side. As your friend, attendant, scandalous secret lover if Nokto dares to leave you lonely-"

"He wouldn't do that!"

"IF he ever dares," Rio smiles, "else I might have to have a few choice with him if he ever does."

#krys's adventures in fanfiction #wip wednesday #ikemen prince #ikepri oc #rio ortiz #clara laurent (oc)#repost queue

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mass-angel-exodus · 3 months

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This is gonna sound straight out of those copy and paste support messages but like,

It's okay to not draw anything. You're more than your ability to draw.

Might not be the case but if you can't find a way to express yourself or your feelings or your interests through whatever way you want then maybe you should take a step back and see if there's a bigger thing going on in your life. (Like lack of sleep, lack of hydration, lack of nutritive meals, lack of daily human interaction etc etc watch out for your basic needs like a the Sims game ^^)

Big ass trauma dump warning

Idk. The only reasons any one has ever cared about anything I have to say is because I built a following on my art. It's the only reason people gaf about me. I'm not naturally funny or entertaining so the only reason people would want to be around me is cause I can create things. And I'm not trying to say this as a way to fish for compliments but even when it comes to my art I am very mediocre at it. So half the time they aren't even here for that.

For the most part I don't think it bothered me. But I've had alot of time to sit down with my thoughts recently. I haven't had anything to distract me. And I've had this painful feeling that I'm nothing without my ability to draw. It's a hobby I love more than anything in the world but if I didn't have it then I'm nothing.

You do have a point on the latter part. These feelings of worthlessness have been with me for years. But it's hit me especially hard recently. I just got out of a constant abusive and exploitative situation only very recently, I was facing constant horrible events back to back every month, I relapsed and then I isolated myself from everyone cause I couldn't take it anymore. I also didnt want them to see the state i was in. I've been trying to fill all the voids caused by that. And drawing is the only way I know how to cope. Because everything else is destructive.

I kinda lied. I did draw some things I guess. But that was for myself. Like OC shit. It wasn't much but I did draw. It's just that I didn't draw anything that people actually want to see. And I feel guilty about that. I have ideas. But I'm so fatigued. But I promise I'll draw something.

Thank you for always saying kind things in my inbox everytime I feel down. I usually don't want people to worry about me when I vent because I don't like worrying people. And you are by no means obligated to do this. But do know that it means alot hearing kind words. Especially now that I'm trying to recover. I really really appreciate it.

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partyinthemysterymachine · 1 year

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They make a kid? Ehh? (from a post u made last year)

hii!! hehe yeah :3c i assume you're talking about my -adjacent au where Harry is trans and James is Enormous and then they had a baby after getting home from Silent Shenanigans, LOL

in that case.. yes!! :3 they had a baby named Rose, and she is just super fuckin' weird, just like her daddies :3c (especially takes after james, tho - she's even got his green eyes, and good for her!!) (also the name Rose was chosen because i thought those two morons would really like an old, "vintage" name, and i only realized later that the SH-movie protag was a Rose and i was like godDAMMIT it happened again >:( Accidental Name Connection. so yeah, that's the only reason why she's a Rose LOL) (AND TITANIC OBSESSIONS ASIDE, TOO - do NOT LOOK AT ME--)

in -adjacent, Harry IS older, it's true, i haven't quite hammered out the correct ages vs timelines so that things coincide the way i'd want them to LOL (god if you thought GOOMT's timelines were wonk, jesus CHRIST then no one is ready for -adjacent's, let alone me LOL) but i imagine Harry may have been around 47 or 48 when Rose was actually born. James is a bit younger than him, but hashing that out is not only GOOMT spoilers, but also super confusing for the -adjacent timeline, LOL so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ WHO'S TO SAY

although i know you don't mean any harm or offense by your comment and you mention this all in good faith, i want you to know that i'm not mad, nor upset with you in any way!! we're all cool here, maaann.. we're all just breezin' :3

that said, while i always appreciate the interest in -adjacent, i would rather people not offer diagnostic speculation or suggestion about my OC (Rose). i haven't mentioned anything about any disorders or ailments Rose may have (other than Silent Hill Please Stop Violating The Restraining Order-isitis), and i don't plan to diagnose her with anything either, other than "Local Weirdo, Like Her Dads". (it's a Mason-Sunderland thing.)

i don't hc anyone to be autistic. i'm not diagnosed with autism myself, and because of that, and the complexities of the disorder, i prefer not to encroach, out of respect.

now keep in mind: i DO support autistic hc!! i totally support and respect them, fire away!! but from where my comfort levels are concerned, there are some things i just don't feel i could write the way i'd want to unless i've lived that unique experience myself, and autism is one of those things on that list - which is, again, out of respect.

Rose is Just Weird™️. James is Just Weird™️. Harry is, well.. gestures. Just Like That, I Guess™️. LOL

thank you SOOO much for your asks, i LOVE talking about -adjacent (and about Rose, my sweet lil [REDACTED], that silly lil moss ball of her daddies' eyes :3cc)

hope to hear from u again soon anon!! KISS KISS MMWAAHH

#ches writes #adjacent #oc: rose #does a lil wiggle dance :3cc

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aiyaxs · 4 months

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˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ WELCOME TO AIYA'S BLOG !!

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ quick note: just in case you might be confused on what this is, this is basically an introduction to me, and my blog!

01. "THE PERFECT GIRL." lovestruck! satoru x gn! reader.

02. "ETERNITY." - my sanemi headcanon's.

03. "SKYLIGHT." bestfriend! satoru x gn! reader.

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ continues later on soon.. (will edit once future work's are created and published.)

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ oc's for the following fandom's.

JUJUTSU KAISEN:

01. Marohai Ulami - Grade 2 Sorcerer - Has romantic relation's with Suguru.

02. Lambodia Saki - Grade 1 Sorcerer - Has romantic relation's with Kento.

03. Hagi - Special Grade Curse - No romantic relation's with anybody.

KIMETSU NO YAIBA:

01. Molukai Isumu - Fear Hashira - Has romantic relation's with Sanemi.

02. Mai - Upper 4 (replacement for Hantengu) - Has romantic relation's with Akaza.

03. Ura Lakimo - Soul Hashira - Has romantic relation's with Tomioka.

BOKU NO HERO ACADEMIA:

01. Aimu Hiroshima - L.O.V. member - Has romantic relation's with Dabi / Touya.

02. Saimou Komo - 1-A student - Has romantic relation's with Sero.

03. Dakimu Jomi - #4 Hero - No romantic relation's with anybody.

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ none are avalible at this moment, please move to the next section!

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ headcanons for my favourite anime characters !!

01. Satoru - Satoru / Gojo has a HUGE sweet tooth, but not any ordinary sweet tooth...

02. Kento - Kento / Nanami is known to be a mature, humongous man, right? I feel like deep inside of him, he would turn all soft for SOMETHING.

03. Sanemi - Sanemi / Shinazugawa deep in the heart is a kind, loving man.

04. Akaza - Akaza / Hakuji sometimes cries to the view, or even sound of fireworks because he always gets the memory of Koyuki.

05. Dabi - Dabi / Touya can't cry because of his burns, right? Well, I feel like the last time he really ever cried was his flashbacks at the hospital he was staying at after the fire.

06. Hawks - Hawks / Keigo's weakness as we all know, is fire. So, I feel like he would have an obsession towards the scenery of fire, but not the feeling of getting burned, burned TO death, or the thought of people getting injured or dying in fires.

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ none are avalible at this moment, please move to the next section!

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ all of my future series (one per fandom) !!

JUJUTSU KAISEN:

01. "UNKNOWN DIMENSION." toji x sorcerer! fem! reader (5 parts at most.)

KIMETSU NO YAIBA:

01. "FURTURISTICAL." kyojuro x martial arts master! gn! reader (4 parts at most.)

BOKU NO HERO ACADEMIA:

01. "SUN SHINE'S SO BRIGHT." pro hero! shoto x ice skater! fem! reader (6 parts at most.)

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ rule's to my blogs if you are commenting, rebloging, following. interacting w/ me, or my blog in general.

01. No Bullying - i don't support bullying in anyway shape or form, and because of that, i'd like to try and keep this blog as kind as possible.

02. No Harassment - kind of related to the first one, please don't try to harass me, or anybody else on this blog.

03. MDNI Posts - guaranteed in the future, i plan on making 18+ / NSFW fanfiction's in the future, so whenever there's a MDNI warning, if you are younger than 18, please do not interact.

04. Just Have Fun - please, follow these rules and have as much fun as you want!! :)

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ all about me !!

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ name: aiya h.

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ age: 20 y/o

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ job: barista.

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ likes: reptiles, fanfiction, anime, writing, water, cats, thunderstorms, gojo.

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ dislikes: spiders, mahito.

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ anime crush!?!?: gojo..!

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ thank you for reading this blog introduction. reblogs, likes, comments, and follows are appreciated greatly!!

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ sincerely, aiya.

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ruki--mukami · 2 years

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THANK YOU FOR 400 FOLLOWERS!!

🧩 Honestly, it’s astonishing for me to think Ruki’s blog would ever make it this far. This blog has existed for nearly ten months now which is wild to me. Although I do kind of laugh at how quickly he’s catching up to my main one which has been around for like ten years. Thank you all for sticking around despite all the daily chaos and shenanigans here, AHAHAHA. Writing with you all such a blast and every notification, ask, rp reply, and message I receive brings me great joy.

With each new post, I wish to continue delivering quality writing for everyone to read and even drag more people down to Rukihell with me. It truly warms my heart that people would even take the time to read what I have to say, even if 99% of it is in-character sadistic violence and other cancelable nonsense. Roleplaying as Ruki and interacting with everyone will always be the highlight of my day and I cannot thank you all enough for submitting the creative scenario asks, partaking in my crazy events, and sending me entertaining rp starters. I apologize for not always answering everything promptly, but conversely I hope to at least make the quality of each response worth it in the end.

As for my future plans, I intend on staying true to the once-per-month open interactions, each with a different theme/genre (more fluff/wholesome ones, more sadistic/horrific ones, etc.) every time to spice things up on this blog for everyone’s entertainment. They will most likely also be relating to real life seasons and events as well, simply because I am a sucker for Halloween interactions during October, and Christmas interactions during December, things like that.

Another thing I really want to implement more of on this blog are starters sent from Ruki himself. I’d love to hear it if you guys want him to visit your inbox for random shenanigans unrelated to our main threads. I think it could be very fun.

And before I conclude this post, I also want to take this time to appreciate all the wonderfully crafted OC’s that I have been graced with the opportunity to interact with. Thank you so, so much. From every romantic relationship to every friendship Ruki has formed on this blog, I truly adore how each one has flourished into its own unique dynamic. There has never been a dull interaction and I have all the amazing writers behind the characters to thank for that. You have my gratitude and I hope to become better writers alongside you all.

For all the fun times I’ve had on this blog, I thank you from the bottom of my heart. 🧩

“At this rate, a mere pasture won’t be enough to confine the amount of filthy livestock roaming around these parts. I look forward to discipling all of you into shape so that you will no longer know what defiance is in the presence of your master. Continue to submit to me and you shall be rewarded. And, on the contrary, failing to do so will result in a punishment beyond what your crippled mind can comprehend. Not to fret, however; I can be merciful should you behave yourself. Whether you experience the most insurmountable of hardships or surprisingly joyous moments at my side depends entirely on you. In any case… Thank you for your continued support.”

#ruki mukami #mukami ruki #the admin speaks #thank you for 400 followers

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magnoliabutters · 2 years

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who art thou?

• who the hell are you •

my name is katrina (she/her), nice to meet yah! i am a pansexual queen, welcoming to all my fellow lgbtqia+ babies. i hope to create fanfics for a variety of readers! currently, i am obsessed with my mans, eddie munson. i like to write smut&fluff balanced series, but may send out the occasional smut post to keep things interesting! i also am a big fan of action so i tend to include that in there with my fluff&smut if the universe permits.

i write 18+ content. please do not interact if you are a minor. seriously. not for you. also please don’t plagiarize, it wasn’t cool in school and it isn’t now. i am open to your feedback and would love to hear your thoughts on my writing! promise you won’t get sass if feedback comes with pure intentions 😈 i'm hoping to improve my writing when it comes to describing the scene and making you feel as though you are truly within the story! i want to provide you with an opportunity to escape real life, if you happen to need a quick break. i may include some resources in posts to better support this concept (e.g., playlists). my writing usually has a word count between ~1-10k, but there may be some outliers.

also also, i am always looking for mutuals and more writers to interact with! please feel free to hit me up in the chats <3 i’d love to get to know you! also also, i try my hardest to read other posts out there and give feedback reblogs. i’ll be honest after a day of work, reading past 2k is rough but give me a follow if you want some recs 💖

• when and why do you write •

i am still working to consistently post weekly. lately, I’ve been getting hit hard with a writing bug and then my brain is dormant for like 2 weeks. anything i write during that time is literal poo-poo on fire. hopefully it doesn’t last haha updates and recent posts can be found on my nav page. i will update when i’m writing a post and when i plan to post ✨

if any of my posts suit your fancy, please reblog, comment, message, or anon request that you want a part two. if y’all want it, i’ll write it. like literally i will have like next to no likes on a post and if someone asks for a part two, hoe you getting it. 🫂 also, a “small” bit of why i write is to get some hoes horny. that is a huge compliment for me and like lmk. anyways, i like to lean more into the “smut or porn?” type of writing too…

i am best supported by reblogs! + comments really keep me encouraged to write 🥹 follows and likes are also much appreciated. i’m not uber comfy with tips but like if the thought pops in your head, and then you take like a day to think about it, and it’s still there, and then you take one more day after that and it’s still there, then like here’s my cashapp 🫠 i

will continue writing as long as someone out there is reading 🥰 reading your comments and feedback gives me so much joy! but like not too rough of feedback cause i'll cry ☺️ also, taglists are awesome, but please feel free to let me know if you want to be taken off. no judgment here, i promise you. i understand not wanting to be notified constantly!

oh! and here is my view on #tags. warning may not be a popular opinion 😬 in the first few days of a post, i will use whatever tags are needed to get your eyes to see it. i work really hard on my writing and i want to make sure it’s seen. however, my posts always include the appropriate pairing right at the top so you are more than welcomed to say “fuck this” if it doesn’t match the tag you were looking for. with that being said, once the hype goes down on a post, i will make sure to appropriately tag my pieces. also in the cases of my oc’s, i still consider the oc as the reader. we are all becoming the oc in my posts ♥️ time to escape to another universe!

• what do you even write about •

i am looking into exploring characters and experiences within: (1) the tv universes of stranger things, the walking dead, the boys, buffy the vampire slayer, the l word, z nation, supernatural, true blood, game of thrones, house of dragons, shameless, etc. (2) the video game universes of left 4 dead 2, resident evil 6, the last of us: parts 1 & 2, dead by daylight, etc. & (3) the movie universe of the hunger games, top gun (rooster is very special to me), twilight, avatar (ma’jake 🤤), mcu, harry potter, etc.

i pretty much am hoping to write about whatever i am currently obsessed with haha as we all should. each series is written within their own universes, so some things might not match up. apologies in advance! also as some of these universes can be quite violent, i write a little violence but always disclose in the warning so check those out! i am starting to dip my toe into the ideas of requests. please feel free to send me your thoughts on what you'd like to read ✨

my reader povs will always be 18+ and consenting adults. we also support and promote safe sex here, despite the shenanigans that may be happening in my smut series 🤤 i explore different areas of mental health, but anxiety is a common theme amongst my series. i'm an anxiety queen so i am making us all queens. my warnings will also include any triggers associated with smuts, as well as mental health (i.e., trauma). i write my series to bring you nothing but happiness, so please check out the warnings before reading! also sometimes my smut my just be down right porn, so please do enjoy. that is my intent 😚

• inspirations •

tags to the authors who have left a lasting impact on me and my writing. these are my favorite posts from them so far! most of which either make me feel something (which is rare lol) or give me a writing bug. these are also the most wonderful humans who are willing to help my noobie ass. i encourage you to check them out as much as possible because if i’m over here tagging and reblogging, they must be fucking legit. send them my love.

✨ @theoreticslut • celebrate good times • eddie munson •

✨ @seidenbros • there’s no one like you • eddie munson •

✨ @indouloureux • bloom later • steve harrington •

✨ @ghosttownwherenoonegoes • a look to open the skies • eddie munson •

✨ @fandomxpreferences • macho man • bradley “rooster” bradshaw •

✨ @hellfirebabes • scream for me • eddie munson •

✨ @mcplestreet • bartering • eddie munson •

✨ @darkworkcourier • ghost request • simon “ghost” riley •

✨ @nackrosor • slutty feline jester • eddie munson •

✨ @sunflowersteves • another day, another dollar • bradley “rooster” bradshaw •

✨ @fairysluna • little wolf • aemond targaryen •

• nav • requests open •

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