#low self esteem lol

[smute]

this is going to sound arrogant but i have yet to hear about a fancy office job that doesn't make me go "oh wow i could do that" and yet when i read an ad for something like junior assistance assistant that pays minimum wage and makes access to indoor plumbing sound like a perk im like "god im so underqualified"

[mq-writes-ig]

tw implied suicide

maybe if i make myself quiet

the creases will migrate

from under my mother’s eyes

maybe if i am small

my father will not shake as he makes his coffee

maybe if i am gone

the life will return to my father

and my mother’s crying will soften

[nightthinker-08]

I couldn't sleep so I drew some Pomnies shes surprisingly fun to draw lol Oh and some doomed yuri too I guess xD buttonblossom is cute n all but calling them doomed yuri or digital yuri is a lot funnier to me

[bearw-me]

Absolutely loved that last Carmilla one you did. Could you do a Carmilla x g/n! reader angst turned fluff. Basically insecure/low self esteem reader starts doubting why Carmilla is dating them, they keep hearing what others say and start to think they don't deserve her, she finds out one day.

the angst! the romance! the carmilla hugs! (also ty! I'm glad you liked my writing enough to request something lol!)

𝐂𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐚 𝐂𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐈𝐧𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐮𝐫𝐞!𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫

𐐒 includes : carmilla carmine x gender neutral! insecure! reader, zestial/ velvette/ overlords mentioned 𐐒 cw : angst, fluff, self-doubt, hurt/comfort, bullying reader?, hugs/cuddling, crying, reader and carmilla make-out whatt 𐐒 summary : You scroll for too long, obsessed with the idea that Hell is right. . . maybe you don't belong with Carmilla? But then again, she won't really let you go, no matter what anyone says. 𐐒 word count : 946 𐐒 note : just static in my head

You stared with a broken heart at your phone screen, the blue light casting an already darker shadow over your face as you stared at the headlines.

'Carmilla Carmine's New Love Affair?!'

You skimmed over the sub-headers, the bold texts shamelessly poking at you from head to toe, devouring your dignity in one fell swallow.

You groaned, letting your head thump against the cold tile of the kitchen counter.

Is that what they really thought about you? Is that what all of hell was saying? Carmilla. . . The thought summoned tears to your eyes.

Although it was extremely unhealthy to do so, and you thought better of it. You kept scrolling.

The V's, who basically ran the media within the Wraith ring were all talking about it, plastering your face next to hers in an attempt to tear you both down.

The feeling in your hands began to disappear, remembering with darkening vision how the overlords looked down at you like you were something to pity.

Something worth looking down on.

Especially when you stood next to her. . .

The deadliest arms dealer in all of hell.

Even Zestial? The doubt clouded your head like thick rain clouds. Maybe he thought you weren't good enough either. . . just gave you his blessing out of pity.

The way he looked at you, you remember, his shadowy features slumping whenever he turned his attention towards you.

You let the phone go, or maybe it shook out of your trembling hands?

A long, drawn out sigh fled your lungs, quickly replaced by a shaken breath.

At least the marble slab beneath your arms was cool, it felt good against your flushed skin.

Maybe I don't deserve her, the thought tore at your throat, pulling tightly until you couldn't help but let out a quiet sob.

How would you tell her? How would you just. . . let her go without all the questions and hurt?

"Is something wrong, mi corazón?"

You jumped, Carmilla's large hand encasing your quivering shoulders. You were so lost in your thoughts that you hadn't heard her come in.

"No! Nothing's wrong," you promised. . . unable to look her in the eyes.

"What's this?" She reached for your phone, the blue light flashing momentarily against her grey skin.

"Don't!" you insisted, grabbing the phone from her and practically smashing it onto the counter face down. "I was just- I was just reading something. . ." you tried.

"Why won't you look at me then?" Carmilla grabbed at your face, forcing you to look at her.

The way her eyes softened, a burning rage always locked behind them. . . and her beautiful hair was down. A soft cape draping around her figure and spilling over her shoulders.

You couldn't bear it.

The way she grit her teeth in worry. It felt like you didn't deserve it. Didn't deserve her.

You cried in her hands, closing your eyes so that you didn't have to see her reaction.

And she let you, bending down some to hug you close and tight, rubbing your back until all the pain had fled.

It was another couple of minutes until it felt like it was over, the silence encasing you as you sniffled, trying to hide the embarrassing sound in her skin.

"I know what troubles you these days, my love," she pulled away from the hug, able to properly hold eye contact with you.

You must've looked pathetic.

She smiled, the white fangs biting into her lower lip "How beautiful you are," she whispered, brushing the side of your face and feeling the heat beneath your skin.

"Come here, let's talk about it." Without another word, she lifted you up-for just a moment- and whisked down the quiet halls of her penthouse to the bedroom.

She took up the spot next to you, draping her leg over yours and pulling you closer "I know how you must feel," she stared, propping her head up with her hand, the other coming to rest behind your back. "I just want you to know that I love you, mi corazón, with all my heart. . . that is a promise I make to only a few."

She stroked your side, a bashful smile crawling over her her dark lips "Ay dios mio," she muttered, "You hold my heart like no other will."

The confession, no matter how little or how much you heard it from her, filled your chest with sunlight. A feeling of falling in love that you've felt a handful of times. . . but when it came from her. . . it was new again; and so overwhelming.

"Carmilla?"

Her eyebrows popped up in silent question, before you moved forward, taking her lips in yours. Warm and soft as she kissed you back. She let herself fall into your arms, grabbing at your neck for support while you cradled her head, breaking the kiss for just a moment so that you could pin her under you.

You relished in that split moment.

Carmilla laying beneath you, hair splayed out like a halo around her head, black lipstick smeared down and an evil, needy grin spreading across her face like she'd bite you.

But maybe that's what you wanted.

"I love you," you stated, the confidence in those three words- in the way she made you feel- was enough.

She laughed, a sexy little ringing in your ears that made your heart skip a beat. "Oh mi corazón, you make me feel young again." She pulled you down into her chest, smothering you in kisses, the two of you giggling like a pair of young lovebirds.

[bombtastic-monkii]

I probably ruined this with an attempt at rendering but WAKE UP WANDERING KARATE NATION

Close ups (I merged my layers sorry I fucked it up 😔)

[poorlittleyaoyao]

That last post has me thinking about how Wen Ruohan is honest-to-god the best father, at least in the CQL universe. He calls Wen Chao out on his bullshit when deserved (ex: when Wen Chao whines about Wen Qing interfering at Dafan Mountain, Wen Ruohan is like “that’s your fault for putting her people in harm’s way, dumbass”), but only harms him when he’s struggling under the influence of the Yin Iron, and he’s upset about both of his sons’ deaths! Strictly terms of how he treats his children, he is probably in the Top 3 biodads of the older generation, because that is where the bar is.

[unluckiestmember]

I have seen some headcanons where S/O is jealous of Caitlyn when it comes to Vi. But can I have a reverse? What if Vi was jealous of Caitlyn when it comes to her S/O and she needs reassurance? Thank you!

Coming right up!

Jealous! Vi X Fem! Reader

Characters: Violet "Vi" and Caitlyn Kiramman

Tags: Established Relationship, Jealous!Vi, reassurance, low self esteem, doubts, jealousy and negative thoughts.

Warning: SFW

A/N: So. How about that Arcane Season Two release date window?

Vi and Caitlyn are best friends and partners who care about one another.

But whether she liked to admit it or not, there were some things that Caitlyn excelled in that Vi was sure she could never live up to.

She was rich. She had class. She was gorgeous, possessing perfect skin.

She was almost everything Vi could never be even if she wanted to.

So of course she would find herself growing jealous of the bond you and Caitlyn had.

She knows you’d never cheat on her and that you loved her, but the way you are around Caitlyn makes Vi ponder what if.

What if Caitlyn is the perfect girlfriend you deserve?

What if you two were meant to be?

Caitlyn makes you happy, right? And you two don’t argue or come to disagreements.

She’s understanding, unlike Vi, who knows how stubborn she can be.

No matter how Vi looks at it, Caitlyn was perfect for you.

This jealousy grew with time, causing her to let her anger out during practice.

And if it wasn’t in practice, she would become distant and “off” around you, which was concerning.

It had gotten to a boiling point when you found her after a mission with Caitlyn working out to the point where her knuckles were bleeding.

You asked why she had been so weird around you and pushing you away until she admitted quietly;

“I’m not good enough… I-... I’m not good enough for you. I’m a mess. And not in a sexy or hot way- I’m a literal mess… You don’t deserve a mess. You deserve someone perfect. Like Cupcake or those other fancy enforcers…”

It broke your heart hearing Vi, the one person you adored more than anything, feel like she was lesser than anyone else.

That’s why you immediately told her she was enough.

She was all you ever wanted.

Because you didn’t care about money or looks. You loved her for who she was deep down. She was the one who stole your heart and you’d let her do it all over again.

And if you have to tell her from that day forward every waking second how amazing Vi was, you would in a heartbeat.

Because Vi is everything you could ever want and more.

You love her so much. And she loved you. Flaws and all.

Arcane requests are open!

Likes and retweets are always appreciated! I love you all, stay hydrated and have a good day! <3

[hemaris]

hoohoo

[mobblespsycho100]

kabru as a pwnpd headcanon is genuinely so iconic that man rlly is odysseus' hubristic tendencies made manifest tbh . . .

[wormchaser]

you are complaining about complaining too much while complaining about the fact that maybe people dont like you because you complain too much while complaining about being alone. just stop complaining and do something about it. talk to people. reach out. dont just wait for someone to come to you first.

i have tried reaching out to different people in the past year or so but it never works. i understand its my own fault for letting relationships decay because of my own insecurities and issues but that doesn't mean i can just will myself to think or believe different things about myself. it's a self fulfilling prophecy ; i think people don't like me so i don't reach out so people don't like me etc . i am sure you do not want to hear me list all the things i want to say in response so i will put them in the tags.

[lostandbackagain]

this is one of my favorite theses in the inkworld each way it plays out is so!!

elinor's dad valued his books over her and her sisters to the point she internalizes it and becomes the same kind of hermit he was, before and after the folcharts come back into her life. basta was groomed into believing he was inherently unlovable except by capricorn so he'd do anything to keep that small remaining amount of love. brianna realizes if dustfinger wasn't dead then he had to have abandoned her, so the next person to give her their full attention? she'll throw away every other relationship she has for them, the same way she was thrown away. the verbal abuse violante endured as a kid (and currently, because 19 is still a kid) influenced the kind of mother she is and she doesn't even realize until it's almost too late that she's done to jacopo what the adder did to her! and I've already talked about the physical abuse from farid's birth family influencing how he forms severely anxious relationships.

and none of these are just character padding! all of these characters influence the plot so heavily by becoming traumatized and by working through it and I don't have any idea how she pulled it off

[campingwiththecharmings]

ever get the feeling some people are just...tolerating you?

[dandelionprints]

I’m so worried I’m not welcome here any more lol, I wanna write and post again but I’m scared that no one will care and it’ll be for nothing, or that I’m annoying people. Time will tell I guess!

[liesmultixxx]

i think i’m gonna play a game this year called

don’t develop feelings for someone just because they showed me basic human decency once

wish me luck guys 😔

[blee-bleep]

so what if i go insane and draw diakko as these panels

[darcyolsson]

its kind of crazy how tumblr culture did a complete 180 somewhere between 2018 and 2020 and most of this website has stopped being proud of how miserable they are and instead the general mindset is now all about finding beauty in the smallest things and loving yourself despite it all i hope we all never stop thinking this way