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[mysticheathenn]

What Is Your Next Tower Moment?

Hi, Hexlings!

This pick-a-card reading is for my Patreon All Tiers. This pick-a-card reading is all about what chaos will the universe (God, Allah, etc) bring to shake up your world to bring in change.

This is a general reading, remember to take what resonates and leave what does not. This reading does not supplement your need to seek professional help. Tarot should be used as entertainment and not a for sure answer to your problems but as a guide, a sense of hope, and amusement.

Take your time when choosing your pile. Ask yourself the question and choose the picture that you can’t stop looking at. Listen to your intuition.

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Pile l:

What is Your Next Tower Moment? Tarot: 10 of Swords, 8 of Wands (reversed), Judgement, The Tower, The High Priestess (reversed)

Endings. There is something in your life pile l that you keep ignoring your intuition that is causing you displeasure, pain, unhappiness, etc that you are taking your very sweet slow time in trying to correct or remove this issue from your life. This could be a dead-end relationship, a job, your living situation, etc. Overall you are in a toxic environment and I feel you have been given so many chances to try and correct, end, or do something with this situation and you keep ignoring your intuition to the point the universe and spirit guides are starting to get a bit frustrated because they want better for you. They are close to taking matters into their own hands and literally rocking your world if you do not take care of this situation yourself in a timely manner. For those who are in a relationship that is either dead or toxic the quote that came to me "Never let someone tell you they don't want you twice." That "twice" is going to be the universe stepping in to cause a situation they know you can no longer overlook to end things. This doesn't have to be a relationship, this could be a job, even school. Some of you I feel are in a major that you don't want to do anymore or at a school you no longer want to be at but because it's cheaper, your friends are there, it's close to home, etc you decide to keep attending. Patreon Post Link

Pile ll:

What is Your Next Tower Moment? Tarot: 8 of Wands (reversed), 10 of Cups (reversed), The Fool, Ace of Cups, 6 of Wands

"What you want is on the other side of fear." - Will Smith. At first pile ll I was a bit confused because you have nothing but successful cards that came out for you. 8 of cups is all about rapid movement, Ace & 10 of cups is all about varied fulfillment (emotional, financial, etc), The fool new beginnings, and 6 of wands is the victory card...so why the long face in this reading you may ask and I believe there are quite a few of you that may have resonated from my previous reading "Where does your life require focus". You may have chosen pile ll or pile lll maybe even a part of pile lV but mostly pile ll and lll where I discussed acting on and believing in your goals, dreams, and etc. This is also your tower moment where the universe/your spirit team are ready to push you from the nest whether you are "ready" or not. Ready or Not by The Fugees is playing in my head. It's the chorus part:

"Ready or not, here I come, you can't hide Gonna find you and take it slowly Ready or not, here I come, you can't hide Gonna find you and make you want me"

They are tired of you wanting to do things when you are ready. The time is now to act on your visions, goals, and dreams. "If you never start you will never act." "There is never a right time." So many quotes are coming in for you pile ll and I think you know all of this but yet there is still no movement on your part. It's as if you hear and see things that encourage and remind you to take the jump and you get inspired but then never act on the things you are being called to do. It's getting to the point where some of you are getting annoyed because you can't escape these messages...well here we are again love. So sorry to be the one to do this to you as well to remind you to just jump. This is very specific for a few of you but you do not need to have an aesthetically pleasing place to live to shoot videos, nor do you need a billion dollars to start. You have everything you need just use the resources you have and start. Patreon Post Link

Pile lll:

What is Your Next Tower Moment? Tarot: 3 of Pentacles, 2 of Swords, Five of Wands (reversed), 10 of Pentacles (Reversed), 10 of Cups

Avoidance. Loss. This is my passive-aggressive pile. Some of you may hate dealing with confrontation and deal with things either passively-aggressively or just sweep things underneath the rug to keep the "peace." Unfortunately for you pile lll you will no longer be able to keep doing what you are doing. The blindfolds are coming off and you will have to deal with your circumstances one way or another. For some of you, this has to do with finances, I'm hearing you letting someone borrow money and they fail to pay you back or even you failing to keep a budget and overspending because you are constantly treating yourself and/or filling the hole in your life with things and not addressing the real issue. For others of you this is more so about the people around you that is causing you to feel this intermoil. You keep turning a blind eye to everything they are doing and not holding people accountable for their actions even when they are hurting you and others around you. The Ace of Cups card is a cup that has a hand and a cup that is overflowing with love, fulfillment, and peace but instead of that for you it's as if you are constantly always overflowing with chances, don't worry about it, I'm fine, etc. It's getting to the point where your cup is about to run dry on the behaviors of others around you and even yourself when it comes to your financial situation. This may be really specific for a few of you but stop letting other people stop your bag. For some of you, this is your management team at your job, family, friends, etc. Someone could be stopping your bag because of horrible scheduling at work, you not wanting to be around certain people so you keep the peace knowing management is trash, whatever the reasoning is you are taking a financial loss by allowing others to constantly walk all over you. Some of you are keeping the peace because you want a promotion, raise, etc when really you are taking a loss emotionally, financially, etc. Patreon Post Link

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[sanyu-thewitch05]

OOOHHH, MALLEUS, THIS IS EMBARRASSING FOR YOU!

[nellasbookplanet]

Book recs: Queer fantasy, part 1

A note: queer here does not necessarily mean “guarantee of an f/f or m/m ship with a happy ending”, but rather simply a significant presence of queerness. Some of the books feature no romance but has a same gender attracted/trans/a-spectrum lead, or features an m/f relationship with bisexual, trans or aro/ace characters, or simply features a world-building which is heavily queer inclusive in ways that don’t always compare to our own ideas of sexuality and gender. I have however disqualified works where the only queer presence is along the lines of “gay best friend” or a blink and you’ll miss it confirmation that never comes up again.

For queer sci-fi recs, click here! For a masterpost of book rec lists, click here! For more details on the books recommended here, continue under the readmore. Titles marked with * are my personal favorites!

The Spear Cuts Through Water by Simon Jimenez*

AKA the book the killed me. Two boys travel throughout their land with the body of a god as her horrible, horrible children try to hunt them down. It’s hard to explain more than that, but trust me when I say the narrative voice and literary techniques are incredibly unique in how they blend past and present, reality and story, lead and bystander. Truly an experience. Features an m/m romance.

The Unbroken (Magic of the Lost series) by C.L. Clark*

Tourraine, who was stolen as a child and trained as a soldier for the empire that conquered her home, is recruited by Luka, the future leader of the conquering country, to root out a rebellion. A game of twisted loyalties and attraction is soon to develop as the two must decide where their priorities lie: with each other, or with their respective countries and people.

Sing the Four Quarters (Quarters series) by Tanya Huff*

Though a royal by birth, princess Annice renounced her throne to become a bard, a musician who through training can Sing elemental spirits to do their bidding. Ten years later, she goes on the run for two counts of treason, first by imperiling the succession order by becoming pregnant, second by helping her ex, and the father of her child, escape the palace dungeons and a death sentence. Bisexual lead in an f/f relationship. When I first read this book I described it as, and I quote, 'a fucking delight', and I stand by that.

The Unspoken Name (The Serpent Gates duology) by C.L. Clark*

The sort of portal fantasy you get when all the worlds connected by portals are fantasy worlds, and none of them are ours. The portals themselves become simply a part of the worldbuilding that the characters use to travel between fascinating places, and it’s all really cool. It follows Csorwe (lesbian orc assassin whom I love), who grew up in a cult, indoctrinated as a child sacrifice to a god. But on the day she was meant to die, she instead chose to follow a powerful wizard and train to become his loyal servant and sword. Aside from being an excellent fantasy, it’s also a close look at the hard path of unlearning indoctrination and the search for love and validation where you’ll never find it, and learning to live for yourself. Multiple queer leads.

The Jasmine Throne (The Burning Kingdoms series) by Tasha Suri

A princess held captive by her own brother, who wants to see her dead, tries to trick a servant into helping her escape, but with undeniable attraction growing between them and the servant having her own goals of liberation things quickly get complicated, both between them and in the country at large as rebellion and dangerous magic brews. Sapphic romance.

The Priory of the Orange Tree (The Roots of Chaos duology) by Samantha Shannon

Queen Sabran's lineage has protected the country of Inys from dragons for a thousand years, but now the safety of their land is threatened as Sabran is yet to conceive and assassins are closing in. Lady-in-waiting Ead is secretly part of a society of hidden mages, and is using her position to protect her queen. Meanwhile, on the other side of the sea, dragonrider Tané is faced with an impossible choice. The fates of all three are intertwined as they attempt to stop the rise of a great dragon. 800+ page epic fantasy. Sapphic romance.

The Raven and the Reindeer by T. Kingfisher*

Young adult, fairy tale retelling of the Snow Queen. When Gerta's friend Kai is stolen away by the evil Snow Queen, Gerta must depart on a mission to save him. On the way, she encounters, among others, a talking raven and a pretty robber girl who become her allies. Sapphic romance.

The Rise of Kyoshi (Kyoshi duology) by F.C. Yee*

Young adult. Set in the Avatar universe, but aimed at an older audience than the animated series. Though she will one day be one of the most well-known avatars of the land, for now, young Kyoshi is but a humble girl who has yet to find out her true destiny as the bender of all four elements and keeper of balance of her world. When betrayal strikes and a dear friend is lost, Kyoshi goes on the run alongside fiesty firebender Rangi to find out the truth of her destiny and power. Sapphic romance.

Legends & Lattes (Legends & Lattes series) by Travis Baldree

Viv is tired of adventures and bloodshed - now she wants a peaceful life, and decides to go after it by opening a café. But going from warrior to small business owner is easier said than done, especially when Viv's old life comes knocking. Best described as a cozy fantasy, with a largely low-stakes but heartwarming plot and a sapphic romance.

Phoenix Extravagant by Yoon Ha Lee

Gyen Jebi is an artist, but making a living is difficult. When offered a job by the Ministry of Armor to paint the magical sigils that animate their automaton soldiers, they have little choice but to accept. But as Jebi sees the dark depths of the government, especially the shocking source of their magical paint, they must find a way to resist. Perhaps by freeing the Ministry's mighty automaton dragon... Nonbinary main character.

Crier's War by Nina Varela

Young adult. Who says sci-fi has monopoly on robots? In Crier’s War, artificially created automae have defeated and subjugated humans, who live as second class citizens. Young Ayla goes undercover as a servant, meaning to assassinate automae girl and Sovereign’s daughter Crier. This would be easier if the two weren’t quick to develop feelings for each other.

Black Sun (Between Earth and Sky trilogy) by Rebecca Roanhorse

In a pre-columbian inspired world, sea captain Xiala, gifted with an unusual connection to the sea, travels with a mysterious scarred and blind passenger toward a dangerous goal as prophecy heralds the return of a god. Features among others bisexual and nonbinary leads.

The Fifth Season by N.K. Jemisin*

In a world regularly torn apart by natural disasters, a big one finally strikes and society as we know it falls, leaving people floundering to survive in a post apocalyptic world, its secrets and past to be slowly revealed. We follow a mother as she races through this world to find and save her daughter, stolen away by a father who just murdered their son after having discovered a terrible secret of their family. Does feature multiple queer characters and a main polyam relationship, but DO NOT read this expecting happy queer relationships as this series handles many dark subjects (you should still read it though, it's incredibly good).

In Other Lands by Sarah Rees Brennan*

Young adult. Kids who can walk between our world and a magical one get recruited into a magical school that trains them to be either fighters or diplomats. Our lead decides that fighting is stupid and that he’s going to peacefully solve every conflict ever, all while being the most delightfully obnoxious little brat possible and getting involved in the most bisexual love triangle imaginable. Very good, funny, and heart-felt coming of age story.

Our Bloody Pearl D.N. Bryn

A siren who’s been held captive by a pirate is freed, but too injured to survive on their own as their tail has become paralyzed. Another pirate captain decides to help them out and has to work to win their trust. Fairly fluffy and light on world-building and plot (though there is a bit of a revenge story in there), with a focus on character and recovery. m/nb romance with an asexual love interest.

A Master of Djinn by P. Djélí Clark

Set in an alternate 1910’s steampunk Cairo, where djinn and other creatures live alongside humans. We get to follow an investigator as she races to catch a criminal using a powerful object to control djinn and stir unrest. Fantastically creative and fresh, and also features a buddy cop dynamic between two female leads as well as a sapphic romance.

Black Water Sister by Zen Cho*

As a toddler, Jessamyn Teoh left Malaysia. Now a young adult, she’s broke, closeted, and moving back. There she’s faced with the ghost of her estranged grandmother, Ah Ma, who was a medium and avatar of the deity the Black Water Sister in life. Now she demands Jess' help in exacting revenge against a gang boss that offended her god. Meanwhile, all Jess wants is to get her life back on track.

Heaven Official's Blessing (Heaven Official's Blessing series) by Mo Xiang Tong Xiu

Once, Xie Lian was the beloved crown prince of a kingdom. Then he rose to godhood at a young age, and was expected to take a step back from his land and his people, but in his inability to do so ended up losing everything. Now, eight hundred years later, Xie Lian has ascended to godhood for a third time, forgotten by mortals and the laughing stock of Heaven. Trying to rebuild his reputation, Xie Lian sets off on a mission, and on it encounters an infamous demon king who inspires fear in all of heaven. M/M romance.

Jane, Unlimited by Kristin Cashore*

Young Adult. Jane is invited by an old acquaintance to an extravagant gala in an island mansion, stranding her among the rich and glamorous. But being surrounded by rich people is the least of Jane’s problems: the mansion is housing secrets, some of them tied to Jane’s own family. The mansion offers her five choices, all of them leading her down different paths and different answers. Jane, Unlimited is a choose-your-own adventure story of sorts, featuring five different endings in five different genres, each more off the wall bonkers than the next. It also features a bisexual main character!

Every Heart a Doorway (Wayward Children series) by Seanan McGuire*

A tumblr favorite, the Wayward Children novellas feature a school open to children who have returned from adventures in other realms and now have trouble adapting back to regular life. Some installments are set in our world, others follow children as they have their otherworldly adventures. The main characters vary between books, but are generally pretty diverse with among others asexual, trans, intersexual and sapphic leads. Both funny and dark, it takes a closer look at the trauma many endure growing up different.

The Starless Sea by Erin Morgenstern*

Surreal and fairy tale-esque, The Starless Sea is stories within a story, following graduate student Zachary as he finds a strange book which, in-between other tales, tells a story from his own childhood. Trying to find out how this came to be, Zachary gets involved with a pink-haired woman and a handsome man who are doing their utmost to protect a strange, otherworldly library available only through magical doors. It’s a book hard to put in words, but which I once described as “romantic without being a romance while stile having a love story at it’s core”, and which can be summed up only as “an Experience”. It’s also quite gay!

Not Even Bones by Rebecca Schaeffer*

Young adult. Nita isn’t a murderer - technically. She just dissects the bodies of supernatural beings her mother brings home and sells for parts on the black market. But when her mother brings home a still living victim, Nita has had enough and frees him. As it turns out, no good deed goes unpunished as Nita is betrayed, her own nature as a supernatural entity outed as she’s kidnapped and placed behind bars. Now she must find a way to escape before she's sold for parts. Features two aroace leads and a queerplatonic relationship, though it isn’t made textual until book 3 and briefly masquerades as a romance, which is pretty hilarious.

The Last Sun (The Tarot Sequence) by K.D. Edwards

Urban fantasy. Rune Saint John is the only survivor of the massacre against the Sun Court years prior. Now he’s been hired by Lady Judgement to find her missing son, Addam. Alongside his companion and bodyguard Brand, Rune goes on to question Addam's family and business contacts all over New Atlantis, island city and home of the Atlanteans after their original home was destroyed by ordinary humans. But the more he digs, the more Rune finds clues that Addam's absence is connected to Rune's own tragic past. M/M romance.

Gossamer Axe by Gael Baudino

Centuries ago in Ireland, Chairiste Ní Cummen was trained in the secrets of music and magic. But her pride was her downfall, trapping her and her lover in the land of the Sidh. Only Chairiste escaped, hoping to one day win her lover's freedom in musical battle with the fairy that holds her captive. Now she is Christa Cruitare, harp teacher in the modern world and all but resigned to her loss. Until she comes across a great new music: heavy metal. Taking one last chance to win her lover's freedom, Christa sets out to gather other skilled musicians and bring them with her in her final battle. Sapphic romance.

Bonus AKA I haven't read these yet but they seem really cool

Pantomime (Micah Grey trilogy) by Laura Lam

Young adult. On the surface, Gene's life is that of a noble debutante. In reality, she has secrets: she's both male and female, and has magical abilities that hasn’t been seen in an age. In the face of a betrayal from her parents, Gene runs away from home, dresses up as a boy, and joins a circus. Intersex main character.

Ghost Walk by Kay Solo

Maaya Sahni can see ghosts, and does her best to survive in her small isolated town by keeping her head down. But when an entire street full of people is spirited away by faceless specters that scares even ghosts, Maaya must find a way to stop the specters. Lesbian main character.

Swordspoint (Riverside series) by Ellen Kushner

In Riverside, duels are the way to settle disputes, and Richard St. Vier is the undisputed master of the sword - at least until a death is met not with awe but with outrage. M/M romance.

[jgoddesstarot]

Pick-A-Pile: Obstacles You'll Overcome Together: What Challenges Will You Both Face In Your Next Relationship?

Left-to-Right: Pile 1, Pile 2, Pile 3

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Pile 1

Tarot Cards: 9 of Wands, 7 of Cups, King of Pentacles, Ace of Swords, The Empress

Hi my Pile 1's! So imagine you and your future partner as a couple of warriors, a bit battle-scarred from past relationships. Those old wounds might surface from time to time, but it's all about finding a balance between guarding your hearts and allowing yourselves to heal. The challenge here is being cautious without letting fear get the best of you.

Now, picture this: a room full of choices and daydreams, like a dessert buffet with endless options. The challenge lies in sorting through all those possibilities and desires without getting lost in the fantasy. It's a bit like choosing your favorite dessert when they all look so tempting. The key here is keeping it real and talking openly with your partner. When you both stay on the same page, you'll navigate through this maze just fine.

Speaking of dessert, let's talk finances. Money matters can be tricky in relationships, right? The challenge you might face is finding a way to handle finances together while maintaining your financial security. It's like trying to bake a perfect cake – it takes some careful measuring and mixing. Just remember to be responsible and share the load, and your financial cake will turn out sweet.

Communication is the next stop on our journey. Sometimes, misunderstandings or miscommunications can cause ripples in a relationship. But don't worry, it's just about talking things out honestly and directly. Think of it as having a heart-to-heart chat instead of leaving things unsaid. When you keep the conversation flowing, you'll cut through the confusion and keep your connection strong.

Finally, picture a beautiful garden, cared for with love and attention. That's your relationship. The challenge is nurturing it while also nurturing your individual dreams. It's like tending to a plant – you want it to thrive, but you've also got your own life to live. Finding that balance is the key. When you do, your love will grow like a gorgeous garden in full bloom.

In a nutshell my Pile 1's, these cards are saying that challenges are just part of the journey. By being cautious but not overly guarded, staying clear on your desires, managing finances together, communicating openly, and balancing your relationship with your individual goals, you'll overcome anything that comes your way. Challenges are like life's little pop quizzes – they're there to help you learn and grow, and your relationship will only get stronger as a result.

Pile 2

Tarot Cards: King of Cups, 3 of Swords, 4 of Cups, The Hermit, The Moon (in reverse)

Hey Pile 2's! Ready to peek into what the future might hold for your next relationship? Expect a few hiccups along the way, but remember, they're just hiccups—not roadblocks. Let's dive in. Imagine yourselves as experts in feelings. You're both capable of deep understanding and emotions. But beware! Some old emotional scars might sneak in. Think of these like an old diary from your teens—it's a part of you, but it doesn't define you. The goal here is to create a safe zone to share and heal from these past hurts together.

Now, picture a time when you or your partner might feel emotionally stuck, like waiting for something more thrilling. It's like staring at your full closet and thinking, "I've got nothing to wear." Remember, the solution is to rediscover the treasures within your existing bond. It's like rekindling a warm, comforting bonfire.

Next, balance is key. Think about the fine line between couple time and alone time. We all need our personal space, right? It's like balancing work and play. The challenge is to nurture personal growth while also growing as a couple. Open communication will help you both shine individually and together.

Finally, consider a time when you might keep a secret or dodge a tough truth out of fear. Remember, honesty is your secret weapon here. Those hidden fears are like imaginary monsters under the bed—they're much less scary when you face them. Conquer these challenges together, and your relationship will flourish with trust and openness.

To wrap it up, Pile 2's, remember, challenges are like life's pop quizzes. They're here to help us grow. By confronting past pains, re-discovering the magic in your relationship, finding the balance between alone time and togetherness, and tackling truths head-on, you'll come out stronger. Challenges are just one part of your love story, a story that promises growth, deeper bonds, and a love that stands firm.

Pile 3

Tarot Cards: The Star, The Chariot (in reverse), 9 of Cups, 10 of Swords, Ace of Swords

Alright Pile 3's, let's take a look at what might crop up in your next relationship. Consider these obstacles as unexpected plot twists in your love story, not as barriers in your path. We're here to delve into the issues you might face. Picture a night sky filled with twinkling stars, brimming with positivity and motivation. Yet, there might be times when your relationship feels like a rudderless boat. It's akin to driving without a reliable GPS. This could spark conflicts about your common goals. The key is to have a heart-to-heart conversation and chalk out a shared roadmap.

Now, imagine a situation where you both have aspirations and dreams. That's fantastic, isn't it? But, there could be moments when it seems like you're trying to juggle these ambitions and maintain a healthy relationship simultaneously. It's as if you're trying to strum two different tunes on the same guitar. The trick is to back each other's dreams while also taking care of your journey together.

Next, think of a battlefield where you've encountered some tough confrontations. The task here is to sheathe your weapons and opt for forgiveness. It's about releasing old resentments to make space for new beginnings. Forgiveness becomes your shield here, protecting your heart from past injuries.

Lastly, contemplate the strength of transparent communication. The challenge lies in ensuring you both are on the same wavelength. It's like making sure you're both speaking the same language to avoid any miscommunication. Frequent, candid conversations will be your secret weapon to eliminate any vagueness.

To sum it up, Pile 3's, these challenges are like puzzles that you guys will solve together. Determining your course, harmonizing dreams, moving past old wounds, and keeping your communication crystal clear might seem daunting, but they're also moments for you to grow stronger as a couple. You have the strength to overcome these obstacles, with open hearts and the power of your words. Your journey is promising, and these challenges are merely episodes in your love saga, making it richer and more robust. Challenges are simply stepping stones towards a profound love.

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[qrevo]

So. Cat came out, I feel like Kazui ALSO wants to come out, and I need to talk about it.

(Spoilers for Cat) (Also TW: suicide mention)

First off, the style of the MV was great! Kazui going full crazy at the end was so cool. The song was a banger (as always). Now that we know he was a cop, some of his actions inside the prison make sense, like protecting the attacked prisoners, and trying to punch Es in the first trial.

My main guess now, going by enerything we have (MVs, VDs, Timelines) is that Kazui is a closeted gay man (or maybe aro/ace), and never had any real love or attraction towards his wife, only platonically at most. On the VD he says "I can't live unless I lie. That's how I was born...", and seeing as Japan has some big problems with homophobia, this really strikes off as him trying to hide this side of himself so that he can live a peaceful, "normal" life.

In that one timeline with Yuno and Mahiru, they asked about his preferences, and then after he answered Yuno said that was total bullshit. What other reason would he have to lie about his relationship preferences?

Also, "Cat", or "Neko", is a slang used by gay people in Japan to refer to bottoms or submissive gays.

The white dove represents his marriage, since he transformed his marriage ring into the dove (right before doing an "I Love You" reference). That scene of him eating the bird can be interpreted as him finally telling the truth to his wife, who he really is, and suggesting a break or a divorce, ruining/destroying their marriage.

By what he said in the VD, Kazui didn't cheat, or at least it didn't reach that point. He also said that we didn't find out his true crime/sin, since our base assumption was cheating. He also said that she died when he stopped lying. Of course, these could be more of his lies, but assuming they aren't. The only thing that I can think of, that would make her so desperate to jump off the balcony, is that his love never existed in the first place.

So what happened, in summary, was: He married his partner in the police, Hinako, to try having a normal life and conform to society. The marriage was a lie to him, but it was real for his wife. He tried to repress that side of him, hoping it would go away, but those feelings he repressed only got stronger, until he realized he couldn't keep lying forever, and decided to ask for a divorce, coming out to his wife, before he reched the point of cheating. His wife got upset, as seeing that their relationship was a lie, that he never truly loved her like she loved him, and jumped off the balcony.

But there are still a lot of questions that weren't answered.

If he didn't cheat, WHO IS BAR GIRL?? Is she important? If she is, why didn't she appear in the new MV? Is she even REAL, or is she a fabricated memory, or an idea, or a metaphor??

Is that guy in the wedding really the bartender from half? If he is, that means he is important, somehow. Was he his childhood friend? Does Kazui have a crush on him? If so, in bar girl scene, was Kazui actually flirting with the bartender before she arrived? Is he the same man he was arguing with in that scene from half?

For now I'm planning to forgive him, but is that really the best choice? It appears that, when we forgave him in T1, nothing really happened, because we actually forgave his persona, the lies about himself, instead of his actual true self. If he wants us to expose his lies, maybe an unforgiving veredict would be what he wants?

But also, if he is unforgiven, he won't be able to help defend other prisoners from attacks. We need to be careful when voting, as Milgram is starting to look like a strategy game where the goal is keeping all of them alive.

Anyways, going to listen to Cat for like. 3 days straight. Or 3 days gay, if that fits the theme better.

[alterousuggestion]

I'm very new to alterous attraction. It's very hard for me to really... Get a grasp on, honestly? If you could try to explain it would be very appreciated. I hear it spoken about like a truly wonderful thing, but I don't even know what it means besides "the secret third thing" and beyond the platonic/romantic/sexual/aesthetic model I used

hi screaming-cricket !! if i’m being honest, i don’t really know how to explain it either, ahaha. i know that’s not very helpful, but it truly is something that is in a gray zone for myself and a lot of other people (although not all). to me, alterous attraction is something that is very distinctly it’s own thing: it doesn’t feel like something i would typically associate with platonic friendships, but they do not feel inherently romantic either. in fact, calling them romantic or forcing them into the romantic category makes me so uncomfortable. there is overlap though, for example, whenever i experience alterous or platonic attraction, i feel these things in both cases:

wanting to talk/call/video call with them 

looking forward to hang outs

thinking about how we both consider each other a friend is something that makes me happy 

happy after seeing them, sad when they are upset, wanting to see them grow and achieve their dreams and be the best version of themselves 

but there are also noticeable differences:

the level of emotional intimacy i want to achieve with an alterous ‘crush’ is different compared to platonic friendships. i want to know them inside out, and i want them to know me inside out too. i want to be the first person they turn to for support, and i want them to be that for me too. 

calling them my ‘best friend’ is amazing, but it doesn’t seem to fully encompass all i feel for them. calling them my boyfriend/girlfriend/etc., also doesn’t feel accurate, and in a lot of ways, it feels limiting and really uncomfortable. like i do care for them platonically, but that doesn’t feel right, but romantic doesn’t feel right either. 

the level of physical intimacy is also different. i want to be close to them, i imagine taking naps with them. i want to hold their hand. maybe, if i knew they thought about me in the same way, i’d be open to kissing them too. warning for sexual themes in the indented bulletpoints:

when it comes to someone i am alterously attracted to, i am more comfortable with experimentation sexually. that does not mean i am sexually attracted to them (i am also ace), but it’s more like... they make me feel comfortable to try to do those things purely for enjoyment or to feel closer to someone, as long as it’s taken the same way by both parties. 

there is also a desire for a more involved future: i wish they would stay with me in a committed partnership, i want to share a living space with them in the way traditional romantic partners do. i want to share my life in general with them more intimately. 

think of it like... i walk alongside my friends and even though we take different paths, we still converge. for those i am alterously attracted to, i want to do life with them, but hand in hand. i want to go where they go (metaphorically). i want to take those steps with them. now that doesnt mean i want to abandon my own goals, or expect (or want) them to do that for me, but i want the path we take to be closer than others. 

i know that a lot of people might take a look at these things and go ‘i’m okay with doing that with people i am platonically attracted to’ or ‘this is what i want when i am romantically attracted to someone’ and that’s okay !!! relationships are not ‘one size fits all’. all relationships look different. for me, this is as close as i can explain what it feels/means to me. to me, it is something completely outside the platonic/sexual/aesthetic/etc models. alterous is it’s own thing. and it’s confusing to explain but it all boils down to those different feelings. and if you’re wondering whether or not you feel this, i think i would suggest taking a deep breath and maybe even a step back. make a list, if that helps, about what you’d do with a friend vs a romantic partner, and try to make the boundaries as clear as possible. and then think ‘ have i done things that are a mix of both with someone? did our relationship feel different in a way i couldn’t quite pin down? something that is there but also seems not there at the same time?’. if so, you might be dealing with alterous attraction. 

this reply is getting really long, but i guess what i mean to say that it if people are vague about what it feels like, it’s because it is a vague feeling. it’s unique. by listen to your mind and body: does it feel right calling something alterous? does it make you feel happy, and relieved? that’s how i started when i was questioning and then the boundaries and stuff like that became more clear to me after that :3

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Okay, so for some reason when I started reading your post about octavia and Fizz being opposite but similar 'n' all, I instantly thought about Blitzø and Fizz adopting her, and quickly scrolling down it appeared that it was ALSO the point you were getting at!

And, like, gay dads adopts late-teenage girls from unknowing, bad, families, is a Trope that sound awesome.

And then you got one of those girls becoming hitman while the other becomes librarian/writer or something, and they're besties and spend lots of time together excepted when one got a contract or the other has a tense moment with her publisher or something, but sometime having a hitman bestie is quite useful, and sometime having a decent writer that looks like an ordinary person too.

And you got big sister hitman always here to help, with little sister writer/librarian always here to listen.

And two sad dads that could not believe their girls will end up their lives with another girl. (I don't know enough of octavia to ship her, so I make her aro, but not ace.)

I’ve created this semi dysfunctional half goth half clown family in my head and now I’m so attached to them I can’t undo what is done.

Gay clown dads with unresolved “something” between them adopt sardonic goth girls who have a friendship? Sign me up.

Octavia is sooo writer-coded, she has so many opinions, and I also love the idea that she does digital art on her tablet. If you ever annoy her she draws you really ugly and posts it on her blog, then if you try take it down she threatens to sue and serve you with a subpoena, cites her right to artistic expression (guess where she learned that from)

Via having tension with her publisher could be such an interesting avenue, it reminds me of the scenes in Little Women between Jo and the book publisher Mr Dashwood. Her book is only released on the condition that it end in the main character having a romance, because it was seen as improper for her to be a “spinster” —- it’s misogyny but also, something else called amatonormativity

This way of thinking values romantic, monogamous pairings above all else, and elevates sexual relationships as higher in value than platonic ones when this is rarely the case. It makes people feel they have to endure even toxic relationships just for the ‘normalcy’ of having a monogamous nuclear family. It also encourages attitudes of running off with some romantic interest and leaving platonic relationships behind. Since to some, romance and sexual relationships can save you from your troubles and is the ultimate goal.

Sound familiar?

It’s because this is the crutch of what happened to Stolas, the attitude of what made him maintain the lie, force the toxic relationship to stay together, and seek out sexuality as a way to escape it all. Because he thinks it’s the answer to his unhappiness.

Funny enough actually, Frozen is one of the most famous animated films to criticise this idea and stomp it out. Anna realises her love for her own flesh and blood Elsa is worth much more to her than any romance either with Hans or Kristoff. And this is incidentally where they based much of the Goetia themes (allegedly) especially with Andre being a walking Frozen reference…

Soooo yeah Octavia is now a massive Greta Gerwig stan because I said so, her favourite actresses are Winona Ryder and Fiona Shaw, she is scathingly critical of amatonormativity. Fizz had told her about the Barbie movie and how it “changed” his entire worldview and is deeply personal to him for some reason that he won’t say. Something to do with the dolls theme. She didn’t believe it at first, and was repulsed by saturated feminine colours, but then it awakened something in her as well. Feminism, and more critique of romance obsession.

She is someone who is now valuing friendship honesty, consent, and trust above all else. She and Loona are finally exploring social events together. Making friends. At a party she’s the one she goes to when she’d like to get home, and Loona always does even if she’s having fun.

I don’t want to imply that she became aromantic because of the trauma, so maybe she has always been on the aroace spectrum, which was why she could see through the rose coloured glasses from the start. She doesnt centre her life goals and self esteem on any type of love or male approval anymore, and it would take a significant amount of trust and mutual independence between her and a partner before she’d enter that type of relationship. She might not ever want to marry, and I don’t blame her.

Also she’s a lesbian because. I say so. This show has no lesbians yet and if she’s basically Janis from Mean Girls, that makes her gay. Don’t tell anyone but she has a massive celebrity crush on Glitz from the Twin Glam sisters and can you blame her. Fizz isn’t very happy about that poster in her room but he doesn’t comment.

To be fair I don’t think it was a surprise to anyone that she likes women it was a kindve “that’s great sweetie do you want pancakes or sliders for breakfast?”

So so so cute 🥺 and who knows, maybe there are times where Loona and Via break stereotypes and it’s Via who keeps Loona protected as the “muscle” while Loona becomes more interested in education

Text exchange:

Loona: it’s kinda funny how nobody expects you to be the muscle of the two of us.

Via: well, you know the most powerful muscle is the brain. And I make sure to exercise mine daily.

Loona: “The most powerful muscle is the brain” 🤓

Via: HEY! Well it’s true!!

[teecupangel]

What if Desmond is reborned in Unity as Elise's or Arno's baby brother?

Oh, oh. I can think of 3 main ideas we can play with.

Now, before anything, we’ll set up some rules that all ideas must adhere to (all of which came from the premise of every Yew Branch I’ve written):

Desmond remembers his life as Desmond Miles

Desmond will have his ancestors’ memories and skills but those memories will be vague

With that out of the way, let’s get to how Desmond could screw up AC Unity’s plotline:

1 Desmond is reborn as Arno’s baby brother and he grows up with Arno.

I think that Arno would be a responsible older brother, maybe kinda like how Ezio was with Petruccio.

Considering it’s only them, Charles would have definitely emphasized to Arno that Desmond’s safety is his responsibility.

Arno’s protectiveness would definitely go through the roof once it became clear that Desmond is a bit of a ‘strange child’ while Desmond is half-exasperated and half-delighted because his new family is definitely leagues better than William Miles and his wife.

There’s no way in hell Arno would leave Desmond alone to play with Élise while they’re waiting for Charles.

Not to mention, Desmond would definitely try to act like the big brother and say ‘go, I’ll wait for father’ and that would only make Arno want to stay with Desmond because that’s what a good big brother would do.

In this scenario, I can see Élise joining them instead, playing where the Dorian brothers are waiting and, when Charles comes to pick them up, he would recognize Élise and maybe they’d even escort her back to her father.

Now, this is where things can go either way. Even before Versailles, Desmond would have realized that Charles is an Assassin which meant that he would definitely be paranoid, using his Eagle Vision every so often. In this scenario, either Desmond sees Shay approaching and warns Charles OR he’s too late and he and Arno see Shay kill Charles.

And that’s where we will have two different routes we can take:

1.a Charles Lives and Arno and Desmond become Assassins under his tutelage

In this scenario, Arno and Desmond would have a brotherly relationship similar to Federico and Ezio with Desmond being the ‘Federico’ and Arno being the ‘Ezio’.

Charles’ main task in the Brotherhood is to travel around the world and, now, it’s to protect the precursor box that the Assassins gave to him.

This means that Arno and Desmond would be raised on the road and seas, maybe even on the run and hiding from Shay Cormac who will definitely be looking for them.

And then everything comes to a head when they returned to Paris to help the Brotherhood as the sociopolitical unrest in France starts to boil over.

In this scenario, Arno and Desmond would probably remember Élise but there would be no messy love story between Arno and Élise. They would be one-time playmates turned wary allies as Élise would be trying to find who killed her father and the brothers would have the same goal because Élise’s father had been close to finalizing a truce between the Assassins and his more moderate Templars.

Bellec may or may not betray the Brotherhood. If he does, it would be Charles that would stand against him (with the help of his sons).

Shay would probably make an appearance in Paris later on because he learns Charles is there.

Desmond would be with Arno and Élise when they fight Germain and Élise won’t die. Whether Arno and Élise would actually end up together though… hhhmmm… I’ll leave it to you, nonny.

1.b Charles dies and the de la Serre takes the Dorian brothers in

Desmond would definitely find out that the de la Serres are Templars. It might take a few years, he’d probably spend a year or two grieving Charles’ death and being there for Arno, but he’ll definitely find out.

During that time, Arno would develop a crush on Élise.

Once Desmond is sure that they’re Templars, Desmond would be faced with two choices: stay with the de la Serre who have been nothing but kind to them (although they do tend to be treated like servants at times too but that’s fine) or he gets Arno to run away with him and try to live on their own

If Desmond tells Arno they should run away, Arno would say no because he likes the de la Serre and he doesn’t understand why Desmond would want to leave. At this point, it’s either Arno would tell the de la Serre Desmond’s plan and Desmond would run away alone (leaving Arno) or Desmond finds a way to get Arno to agree to leave with him.

Staying with the de la Serre will also complicate things

1.b.1 Desmond stays with the de la Serre

If he stays with the de la Serre, it would be more of “I wanna see what the Templars are planning” than any gratitude he might feel for the de la Serres.

He won’t stop Arno from getting close to Élise.

The de la Serres would probably not realize Desmond is spying on them and Desmond would know when Élise has started her Templar training. That’s when Desmond would advise Arno to be careful.

Arno would think that Desmond doesn’t approve of Élise and they would start their whole secret relationship.

Either Desmond doesn’t find out because he’s busy trying to spy and not getting caught or he knows about it but doesn’t say he knows because he wants to honor his brother’s choice.

Monsieur de la Serre still dies and the plot of Unity kicks off with Desmond and Arno becoming Assassins.

Arno wants to find out who killed Monsieur de la Serre, Desmond is just there to make sure Arno doesn’t do anything really dumb.

Bellec still betrays the Brotherhood and Desmond is the one to kill him.

Germain still happens but Élise lives in the end.

1.b.2.a Desmond and Arno run away together

If they successfully run away, Desmond would use his Eagle Vision to find the Assassins. Either they find the Parisian HQ first and get taken in by the council (maybe even Mirabeau?) OR Bellec finds them first and he takes them in.

If they grew up with Bellec as their foster father, there’s a high chance that Desmond would be able to stop Bellec from betraying the Brotherhood later (through the power looovvee logic and reasoning).

They get trained as Assassins and when AC Unity kicks off, they’d be part of a 4 member squad and perhaps even in charge of de la Serre’s death (which was given to them because of their history).

Élise and Arno would have a bitter ex kind of vibe in their relationship and Desmond gets caught in it, along the lines of ‘he chose you instead of me’ or ‘I left her for you’ and their squad will tease that it’s like a fucked up loved triangle between Arno, his biological brother, and his foster sister (all said in jest, of course).

1.b.2.b Desmond runs away alone

If Desmond runs away alone, he would be the only one that gets taken in and raised as an Assassin.

He’d always check on Arno but never show his face.

Arno, on the other hand, would feel absolutely guilty for what he’s done. He’ll try to run away too to try and find Desmond but he’d get caught every time.

At this point, either de la Serre gets into contact with Mirabeau to talk about Arno or, and this is the more dramatic route that would definitely make everything messier, Élise gets Arno to be trained as a Templar, maybe even whisper to Arno that they can look for Desmond as Templars.

Élise’s party in AC Unity will now be a party for both Arno and Élise as they are inducted into the Templar Order.

AC Unity plot happens with Arno and Élise working together as Templars while Desmond takes over Arno’s parts in the game.

This would definitely have a kind of ‘Abel-Cain’ setup between Arno and Desmond with Desmond being the ‘Cain’ as he doesn’t trust the Templars and Arno is torn between his loyalty to the de la Serre and his brotherly love for Desmond.

Might even come to blows with “You left me.” “Well… you made it clear who was your real family is back then.”

2. Desmond is Arno’s half-brother, born after their mother left Charles and Arno

In this scenario, I think it would be interesting if Desmond meets Arno when he joins the Parisian Brotherhood (maybe after their mother’s death and she tells Desmond the truth on her deathbed?).

Depending on their age gap, Desmond could join the Brotherhood during AC Unity’s main game plot OR during Dead Kings DLC.

2.a Desmond meets his half-brother during Unity’s main game

Desmond would act more like Arno’s partner during missions. They won’t have any familial bonds so there are a lot of awkward talks and sometimes they just ignore their familial ties and act more like two colleagues trying to get to know one another.

There will be bonding moments of course but things will come to head after Desmond tells Arno that he’s too focused on Élise. The two of them will have their 3rd act break up at this point.

Desmond would be the one to find Arno drunk after Élise ‘dumps’ him. There might be a one-sided fistfight as well because they’re both idiots.

This is the scenario where Élise living has the lowest percentage, not because Desmond would let her die (of course not) but because there’s a possibility that Desmond wouldn’t even know what Arno and Élise were planning until it’s too late.

2.b Desmond meets his half-brother in Dead Kings

In this scenario, Desmond would be a ‘novice’ tasked to retrieve the missing Arno Dorian

Dead Kings still happens although with additional bonding moments between Arno and Desmond

Their relationship will be more: Desmond is the exasperated assistant of a grieving/brooding Arno

They will also bond over the death of loved ones (in this case, Desmond would probably relate because he still feels the pain of Maria’s death)

Léon gets adopted by Desmond. He likes to call Desmond and Arno his brothers.

And finally:

3. Desmond gets reborn as Élise’s younger brother

This is honestly going to messy, might even be messier than Desmond running away without Arno plot (probably).

First of all: Desmond won’t run away from the de la Serre because they love him and he loves them. He also won’t realize that he’s been born into a Templar family until it’s too late and he already loves them too much to betray them.

Depending on the age gap between him and Élise, he could either be there when Charles Dorian dies and plays with Arno too or he meets Arno after Arno becomes a ward of the de la Serre.

Regardless, here is the plot point that I kinda don’t want to do but, at the same time, I kinda want to just for the sheer unnecessary soap opera level drama it would add to the mix: a Love Triangle between Arno, Élise and Desmond.

To be more exact: Arno having a bi-crisis of epic proportions because he develops a crush on both Élise and Desmond growing up.

Desmond is oblivious to it, Élise is not.

At this point, either we go down the love triangle route OR Élise would do an ‘I want my beloved to be happy’ and be Arno’s wing woman.

Either way, Desmond would develop feelings for Arno as well which he would mistake for just ‘fondness’ because Arno reminds Desmond a lot of Ezio.

Desmond learns that their father is hoping to finalize a truce with the Assassins and he supports it because he loves his father and he still remembers how much Connor had wished he and Haytham could have found some common ground (until Haytham fucked that up and Connor was too angry to even try again).

Desmond and Élise get inducted at the same time and their father dies.

This is where AC Unity’s plot starts to get messy because, to Desmond, this isn’t about Assassins and Templars right now.

This is revenge. He’s the calm one to Élise’s hot-headedness and Arno is taken in for the ride because… well… Arno’s a dumbass who fell in love with a Templar(s).

And now Bellec thinks Arno is being corrupted by the two de la Serres

Élise won’t die in this one. There’s no way in hell Desmond would let that happen.

Pairing-wise, it could honestly go with Arno x Élise, Arno x Desmond or Desmond x Arno x Élise XD

Plot points that will happen regardless of which idea we go for:

Desmond’s skills will compare him a lot to his older sibling (Arno or Élise). There’s gonna be feelings of inferiority going on, that’s for sure.

If Bellec raises Desmond and Arno, he would be kind of a hardass but he would be ‘loyal’ to them. Even if he goes through with his plan to betray the Brotherhood, he would probably let either Dorians kill him because he can’t kill them even if he tries.

Desmond is the best recruiter of the Assassins. He will refuse to do any recruiting as a Templar.

Desmond would be super sus of Germain. He might not know what a Sage is but he knows something is giving him the heebie-jeebies whenever he’s near Germain.

Germain would have a hard time hitting Desmond with the Sword of Eden for some reason. (probably related to the device Desmond activated)

Desmond will definitely try to contact Connor one way or another. Whether he is successful in finding Connor though is up in the air.

[criminalskies]

Hi Rome! I wanted to reach out to you because I feel this is a safe space and I know it’s stupid because we don’t even really know each other but I feel like I can trust you and that I have your support. Anyway, I wanted to kind of ask for advice on my sexuality if that’s ok. I’ve been kind of questioning it the last few years but am not really sure what I identify with. I always used to think I was straight but now it feels like I don’t belong in that “category”

I don’t like s3x. I don’t find it to feel good or be fun or anything like that. I don’t mind reading smutty stuff sometimes but when it gets too descriptive, I’m out.

I mostly find men attractive, but I sometimes find women attractive as well. But I don’t really feel sexually drawn to either of them. Like the most I feel is fantasizing about holding their hand or cuddling or maybe making out but certainly nothing past that. I mean I’ve had dreams (not like fantasizing but literal night time dreams) about being with both a man or a woman, but idk if that means anything. And I’ve found that some of the people I find attractive aren’t your typical “hot” people and it thinks it’s because I might care more about who they are than what they look like? Idk

I sometimes fantasize about having a relationship, but in reality I don’t want one. I think I more just like the idea of it and how they are in books and movies, but not the real life situation. Especially when I think about being with someone all the time. I prefer to be on my own. Which I guess is why I wonder if this even really matters, but I feel like I need to know even if it’s not applied?

Anyway, sorry, I’m rambling!! I just wanted someone to discuss this with I guess and I don’t really want to go to my family yet, which is why I wanted to reach out to you (and I guess the tumblr community if you decide to answer this and it’s on your feed lol) and if you do choose to share any advice, thank you, I love you, I love your writing, and the nasty anon people who share their evil words can kindly piss off! <3

Hi baby! Let me start this off by saying there’s no reason for you to feel silly at all, I say that this account is a safe space and I really mean it. I’m glad you feel comfortable and supported by me because that’s a goal of mine to have people always feel that way on my page.

Now, I’m assuming you’re here bc you’ve seen me talk about times in my life when I’ve thought I was asexual or even aromantic? and that stays true. admittedly when you sent me this ask I went full dad mode googling the aro/ace spectrum lingo and terms to make sure I’m giving you the best information. I also researched this stuff a bunch myself because as you say it’s all a bit confusing when you feel you fall between the ‘categories’.

But that’s an important point for me to make here: asexuality and aromanticism are fluid and exist on a spectrum. All our life experiences and ups and downs and mindsets and the people in our lives can change or skew these things, and that’s okay! I don’t expect to identify the exact same way forever. Honestly, when I first learned what aro and ace were, I was a bit lost because doesn’t everybody feel like this sometimes?

So with my newfound research let me try to talk you through what you’re saying?

You don’t like sex, not fun, not desirable, that’s completely valid. I’m finding more and more myself that I maybe fall somewhere under that umbrella, but an interesting term I found online helped me here:

All the different niches of asexuality get a little confusing, but I resonate a lot with this one. I find myself with very little desire to actually partake in sex, but enjoying the fantasies or hypotheticals to be really interesting. I enjoy reading smut and even writing it once in a blue moon, but yeah, in terms of the real thing, I’m becoming increasingly unsure it’s my cup of tea.

I notice you said sometimes smut can be your cup of tea, if it’s nondescript or just implied etc, but usually isn’t. I completely understand what you mean. I think that’s a completely valid stance. You aren’t completely repulsed by sex but you’re also not aroused by it, I totally hear you!

Now you say you find yourself attracted to men and to women, but not sexually. I feel that. I fantasise about having someone to hold hands with and play with their hair, cuddle up under blankets to watch movies, all that fun jazz all the time! so it sounds to me like you’re existing somewhere on the ace spectrum, but you’re not aromantic. That is, you do feel romantic attraction, you do want a partner in some things outside of platonic life. Again! Man!!! I hear you! I want the quiet days and the running errands and having someone who knows me like the back of their hand, but I’m not sure I want that person sexually or at least not all the time.

And the people you’re attracted to, it’s less because of that primary attraction (this term comes up a lot in ace literature, it’s that feeling non-ace people get when they see someone and immediately a fire is lit in their belly, they want that person) and more because you get to know and love them as a person. You are preaching to the damn choir here.

Secondary Attraction is a term for that feeling that slowly grows over time, particularly romantic feelings for someone. It’s mostly coined by Demisexual people, which I feel like maybe you’re fitting into, only not in the sexual way, but in the romantic way. Like you might be asexual but demiromantic where all of your attraction comes from getting to know the person underneath. Sorry if it sounds like I’m making up words at this point but i think it helps to have some language to help describe how you’re feeling. But again! There’s no necessity to define these things. Just saying you’re asexual but you feel romantic attraction can cut it, or saying nothing at all is fine, too. You don’t have to fit into any little boxes sweetheart. Although it can be comforting to know that others fit into the same one, that you’re not alone. But let me tell you, you aren’t 💕💗 I’m right here and I feel you!

Now the part where you say you don’t want a forever relationship, I can understand too. Now it sounds a little like you might exist somewhere within aromantic because you don’t have that desire to have a romantic relationship. That is so okay too.

there are some ace-aro people who are referred to as greysexual or greyromantic (I know this sounds so made up but it helped me feel seen) who can feel some degree of sexual attraction or some degree of romantic attraction sometimes, but for the most part they fit under the general umbrella. Remember, time changes all. We aren’t going to be the same people we are today forever, so we can’t expect one identity to withstand the force of time alone, things change and that’s okay.

Please please remember that being ace or aro does not mean your life will be any less fulfilling than people who have partners. I know that in media, romantic love can be shown as being something a level above platonic love, but really truly your life can be just as marvellous without it my dear.

Please do not apologise for rambling, Rome loves to ramble. My inbox is always open for rambling sweetheart! I have definitely doubled the length of your ramble at this point anyways so I’ll cut to the chase. I threw a lot of labels o it there for you to try them on and see what feels right, but truly, labels aren’t a necessary part of being a human being. You are no less interesting or less important or less understood if you can’t make yourself fit into any one of these categories my love. You’re human, humans are complex and every single one is an anomaly of something. That’s what makes us so damn interesting, okay?

I see you and I understand you. Thank you for coming to me to talk about this, I hope any single thing I’ve said helps. There is no need at all to run to people with a definition of it, it’s perfectly okay to just tell them what you’ve told me, which is how you feel.

Now I love you too my sweet summer child and I’m so glad you enjoy my writing and my blog! And I agree, that anon was a whole mess but for the most part it seems to be over now. I’m so glad I didn’t disable all anon asks now though because then I never would have gotten this from you. I hope I have been of any help at all! The bottom line is you are loved and you are you. There’s no need to change that. ❤️🧡💛💚🩵💜🩷

also I have about eleven more screenshots from this site if you want them but it’s just all the terms I tried to describe.

[theliteraryluggage]

Writeblr (Re)-Introduction

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Hi and hello!

My name is Ace, some on here also call me Nihi. I’m an artist and a writer, a cosplayer and podficcer, a general fandom person.

My favourite writers are Oscar Wilde, Margaret Atwood, Max Frisch and Terry Pratchett, among others. I love tea and music and dancing and retro gaming. I also love tag games and ask games so don't be shy! My ask box is always open.

I have written original Steampunk and Fantasy, short fiction and poetry in the past, and in the last few years I’ve been mostly focusing on writing fanfiction. I’ve written quite a lot in the Yuri on Ice fandom, and am currently exploring Fullmetal Alchemist. Be aware that I do not currently use cw tags, though I don’t tend to post or share anything particularly explicit or violent. Be also aware that this is not a space for TERFs and antis. I also use the word queer liberally and unapologetically. Right, now that’s all out of the way, let me tell you a bit about my main projects!

My works, both original and fanfiction, tend to centre on angst and serious topics. I’m not much of a shipper these days so I mostly write Gen fic. What interests me in my fics is exploring characters’ personalitites and relationships when they are put in taxing situations. I like to explore inner turmoil, questions of morality, complex conflicts that have no easy resolution and trying to live with trauma. I like peeling away the layers of my blorbos to find out what really makes them tick. I like depicting relationships (romantic, platonic or familial) in all their messiness and complexity, because that’s how people are: messy and complicated.

I am often told by my readers that I am good at evoking emotion viscerally, portraying complex situations with nuance and pinning down the facets of my characters’ personalities.

My original WIP: Impartial

“I will not pretend that I don’t have a hard time playing by the rules. You all know that about me. I have never kept it a secret. So I will not conceal now that I have disregarded the rules, looking for answers to questions we are not allowed to ask. Questions that every single one of us has asked himself before and yet never dared to speak aloud. I have dared to speak them, and I have dared to demand answers. The only answer I received was a prison cell.”

Victor is Pravafield's champion--finally. Pravafield’s fencing matches are fast and hard and preferably bloody, because that’s what the audience likes to see. But after years of hard work and obsessive training, Victor made his way to the top.

But where does he go from there?

With nothing more to strive for, no more goals to achieve, Victor struggles to find a new direction. To find meaning in a system that never allowed him to ask questions.

Questions that he can no longer suppress with endless distractions, liaisons and drugs--even though it forces him to face someone he would much rather forget.

WIP Page | General Tag | Vibe Tag | Victor Tag | Alistair Tag | Ship Tag

Impartial combines the personality of The Picture of Dorian Gray with the gravity of Nineteen Eighty-Four.

My transformative WIPs:

everything is twisted (but we don’t feel a thing)

Canon nudged to the left with horror vibes, also referred to as Eldritch Elrics or EE [fic tag]

A fic following the Elrics through their canon adventures as told from various points of view—except neither of them is quite the same since they have returned from the gate. Some subtle quality about them is off, and it’s unnerving being unable to tell what it is. My first forray into the vicinity of horror, a slow write as I take great care in building an unsettling atmosphere. Currently working on the first draft at 9K.

I will go down punching (but I will go down)

First instalment in a four part canon divergent series named Vox Populi, also referred to as VP [fic tag]

A deep dive of Ed’s and Al’s characters, following the question to the end, what would happen if Ed actually was court-martialed for committing human transmutation? A canon divergence attempting to give some agency to the people of Amestris and confronting the Elrics with harsh realities they’d rather not face (part I). Exploring the pitfalls of both rigid and flexible morality (part II), how to persevere when faced with impossible choices (part III) and the concept of sin as a physical reality in the world (part IV). First part is currently posting at ~75K while I am drafting Part II.

Alphonse Middle Name Elric

Working Title; vignette or 5+1 style fic looking at several instances of the Elric brothers inventing fake middle names for each other

A more light-hearted story, following the brothers growing up and bickering as only siblings can. I say more light-hearted, but at currently 1K it's already much more angsty than intended. Oops!

A Haven for None

post-canon dark fic, also refered to as Xerxes fic

Ed's research trip to Xerxes goes south as he encounters a cult obsessed with the Xerxesian legacy in the ruins. Unfortunately, Ed carries his Xerxesian heritage clear as day in his features. Currently posting and drafting at ~25K.

I want more body (I want more soul)

late canon and post-canon dark fic, also refered to as Truth fic

Truth rejects Ed's offer to trade his gate for Al's body, because there's something it would much rather take from Ed. And Ed ... well, there's nothing Ed wouldn't give for Al. Currently posting and drafting at ~25K.

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I have a tag list for my original work and my fanworks, though you can of course be added to both if you'd like. I will tag you when I share snippets, meta, thoughts about my projects and in the case of fanfic of course when new chapters are posted!

In the meantime, welcome to my blog! I hope you enjoy your stay! My ask box is always open, feel free to stop by for a chat anytime!

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💔- because I need to catch up on everyone

Thanks for the ask! For this ask game.

💔: give a brief character bio of your 3-5 MCs

*mumbles* but you didn’t specify a wip. That’s dangerous.

It’s hard when the stories span several years. I’ll mostly take the ages from when they first appear. Also, uh, kalani awaken adult. I usually just add 20, because I am lazy, though year 1-2 aren’t linear.

Thorns and Jasmine:

Caldyn

7yo - he/him - demi bi

A kind healer, who was cruelly betrayed by his lover. His physical wounds have mostly healed, but the emotional ones remain. Now blind, he tries to get his life and his magic back.

Breannan

48yo - he/him - aro ace

He is one of the oldest of his kind, and has devoted his life to learning and teaching. His earliest years are a part of kalani history, which makes it hard to forget what happened to him.

Lily

42yo - she/her - aro lesbian

The best baker in the Wilds. Also one of the first, collecting recipes and ingredients since the earliest contact with the other races. Teaches Caldyn how to find his way, and how to trust again.

Marian

41yo - she/her - lesbian

She’s a skilled earth mage (though she prefers sand), leading an excavation in a tiny village in the Wilds. Despite living here for years already, she hasn’t met many kalani. This is about to change.

Nuisance/Undeserved/Glass Shards:

(ages for Glass Shards, except Cedric and Laurent, which are for Nuisance)

Merridy

24yo - she/her - aro ace

A skilled thief with a good heart and a whole lot of issues. Is quickly getting attached to the wanted criminal she’s stuck with after rescuing him from the dungeon, more dead than alive.

Damien

34yo - he/him - demiromantic ace

With nothing else left for him, he made the mistake of joining a group of rebels. Now, 10 years later, he’s infamous for his cruel use of illusion magic. There’s no way out for him - he’ll die at their hand, or at the hand of the law.

Riordan

23yo - he/him - aro bi

A mercenary in the service of the queen. Despite being good at his job, he slowly realizes that this isn’t the right place for him. His mom would scold him for his lack of manners, and tell him to listen to his heart.

Cedric

43yo - he/him - gay

All he wants is to enjoy the many amenities his definitely-not-legal lifestyle offers him; fine clothes, rare gems, and a good glass of alcohol. Injured prisoners crashing at his place are nowhere on that list.

Laurent

41yo - he/him - straight

Accountant by day and fence by night, Laurent has been in the business as long as Cedric. His charm has saved him more often than his magic has. Like his friend, he knows how to make the most of life - and how to avoid the law.

Heal my Wounds:

Valadan

25yo - he/him - straight

Since fucking up the relationship with his brother, he’s been earning his living as a mercenary, caring only about himself, because no one else will. His arrogance can hide his bitter loneliness only for so long before something snaps.

Josephine

28yo - she/her - straight

Trying to balance her parents’ expectations and her own goals in life doesn’t work very well for her. When a mission goes terribly wrong, leaving her gravely injured, she realizes something has to change.

[writesology]

Do you write TWST fics? I would love to see Riddle x Ace! They crush me so hard with their relationship assfghkljfghsh- you should write something like chapter 6 but heartslabyul teaching Riddle how to game❤️

ohoho anon you have wonderful timing i have so much heartslabyul brainrot

Let's Play A Game

Characters: Riddle Rosehearts, Ace Trappola, Deuce Spade, Cater Diamond, Trey Clover

Relationships: Riddle Rosehearts/Ace Trappola

Word count: 3.0k+

or read on AO3 here

At first, Riddle had only come out of his room for an evening tea break after completing the weekend’s homework, but the laughter coming from the lounge had piqued his interest.

He turned the corner and saw his friends (the word still felt strange in his mind, but he found it pleasant) sitting on the couch with controllers in their hands. “What game are you four playing?” Riddle asked, observing the TV screen as he approached. 

“Eh, you don’t know what this is, Riddle-kun? It’s only Fauna Crossroads, the hottest new game around,” Cater said, laughing. “I got it right on release day, and then roped Trey and the freshies into it as well!”

The redhead sighed, shaking his head. “Cater, you already know I don’t keep up with such trivial things.”

“Still, it’s surprising you don’t know what Fauna Crossroads is, dorm head,” Ace chirped from beside Trey, ignoring Deuce’s suddenly horrified look. “It’s the only thing everyone in the dorm has been able to talk about for a week now.”

“It must be a riveting game then. How do you win?”

“Um… there is no goal, dorm head! You just have to build your island to the best of your ability,” Deuce exclaimed, gesturing to where their four avatars stood. 

Riddle gazed at the screen strangely, tilting his head a little. “So am I correct in assuming, then, that there are no rules to this game either?”

“Well, there’s rules of etiquette since we’re all sharing the same island, but beyond that, no,” Trey answered with a smile. “It might be a good game for you, Riddle. Didn’t you tell me once that you wanted to try living without so many rules? Maybe playing this can help you loosen up a little. Care to try?”

“I… alright, I suppose so.” The redhead took the controller that Ace handed him. “However, there’s still the problem of my not knowing how to play. I’ve never done this kind of thing before.”

“Don’t worry, Riddle-kun!” Cater grinned at him, waving his controller as he started setting up a new account. “We’ll be sure to teach you everything you need to know!”

~-~-~-~-~

“Alright, dorm head! First things first, you need to make a character that looks just like you,” Ace announced, pulling out his phone and showing Riddle pictures of their four avatars. “It’s part of the game’s charm!”

“Incredible… they actually look like you four! You even got the card suits right,” Riddle laughed, surprised but delighted all the same. “Though I doubt I can do the same, considering my hair isn’t as easy to replicate as card suits are.”

“As long as you get something close, you should be alright,” Trey said. “Want us to help?”

“No, I think I’ll be able to manage. It shouldn’t be that difficult.” The redhead grasped the controller in his hands and focused on the screen as he clicked through the various options. “There. Does that look close?”

“Even without the signature heart, I can already tell that’s you, Riddle-kun! Looking adorable as always!”

“And now that you have a character, you can find a place on our island to put your tent, Riddle.”

“Tent? But you all have houses, no?”

“You have to start off with a tent first, dorm head, and then they put your house where your tent is later. I just so happen to have an empty space near my house,” Deuce said, glancing at Ace with a smirk.

“Oi, oi. If dorm head’s going to be anyone’s neighbor, it’ll be me,” Ace retaliated, standing up and glaring at Deuce.

Deuce stood with a frigid glare, hands balling into fists as he moved to meet Ace behind the couch. “Yeah? You wanna test me, Ace?!”

“And so what if I do?” As the two of them glared at each other, Trey and Cater pulled their magical pens out almost in sync, casting spells to separate the two freshmen.

While Ace and Deuce were still shouting at each other, spells holding them in place, Riddle's avatar ran around the island until he found a spot beside a waterfall and a small red house surrounded by heart-themed items.

“This looks like a nice place. I assume this is Ace’s house, then?” Ace and Deuce suddenly stopped fighting, Riddle waiting for their response as the spells were released and Trey and Cater watched in something akin to terror. 

Ace grinned, plopping down on the couch beside the redhead. “Sure is, dorm head!” Riddle smiled and nodded as his character set the tent up in that spot. “I knew you’d choose to be neighbors with me!” 

“And what’s that supposed to mean, huh?!”

“Alright, let’s calm down, you two.” Trey guided Deuce back to the couch and sat him down near the edge. “Now that Riddle’s got his tent set up, we can all play together.”

“Yes~ I can finally get some beautiful island screenshots with Riddle-kun!”

“I’m certainly looking forward to it. Let’s get this game started, then.”

~-~-~-~-~

“...and that’s how you pay your loans off and upgrade your house,” Cater finished, pushing a button and paying the last few thousand gold coins towards his loan. He grinned as everyone’s characters started clapping. “Just you wait, tomorrow I’ll have a second floor!”

“I see. Thank you, Cater, that was extremely helpful,” Riddle said, nodding. “And I’m supposed to earn money by selling things, correct?”

“Yep! Fish, bugs, seashells, fruit- whatever natural stuff you find on the island, you can sell! I say natural because there’s stuff on the island you probably shouldn’t sell, like all those decorations in front of our houses. Those are there for the island aesthetic, not for money, ok~?”

“Understood. I think I’m prepared enough to keep up with you four now.”

“Great! Now we can give you welcome gifts!”

“E-eh?!” Riddle’s eyes went wide in a look of surprise. “Welcome gifts? You really don’t have to-”

Ace chuckled, patting Riddle’s back with his free hand. “Ah, don’t be shy, dorm head! Cater-senpai’s been wanting to get you to play since he got the game, you know?”

“Besides, it’s kind of a tradition as of now. Everyone on the island gives a little something to the new neighbor,” Trey said with a smile. “And while I’m at it, my present to you- a few crafting and baking recipes. But if you ever want to try baking for real, you know where to find me.” Trey’s avatar dropped some papers on the ground, which Riddle quickly picked up with a silent nod of thanks.

“Ehe~ I knew you would give something like that, Trey! You’ve been making treats for everyone as long as I can remember. Anyway, if you won’t go clothes shopping with me IRL, you have to go with me in-game, ok Riddle-kun~? Here’s some clothes to start off your wardrobe, all Diamond-approved!” 

“And I have furniture to put in your house when you get one, dorm head!” Both Deuce and Cater’s avatars started putting things down, only stopping after they were all surrounded with things, and Riddle started to pick it all up.

“This is quite a lot, isn’t it… thank you, everyone. I’ll be sure to put it all to good use.”

Ace laughed nervously, turning away from Riddle. “Well, with all this good stuff, surely you don’t need anything else! Right, dorm head?”

“I still have space in my inventory, and even if I’m not so sure what to do with everything, I’ll figure it out eventually.” Riddle came to a realization, and his eyes narrowed. “Are you asking because you didn’t prepare accordingly?”

“N-no, I did, promise! It’s just… really stupid. And I don’t think it’s enough after all the stuff everyone else gave you.”

Riddle smiled warmly at him, making Ace’s heart skip a beat. “To be completely honest, the fact that you all cared enough to have gifts for me… it’s an amazing feeling. So whatever it is, Ace, I’m sure it’ll be wonderful.”

“F-fine! Here.” Ace’s character dropped two bags to the ground. “They’re rose seeds. Both red and white, since I'm sure there's a rule somewhere that talks about rose color, or something like that.”

“So you can remember the rules if you put your mind to it.” Ace squawked indignantly, and Riddle laughed alongside Trey and Cater. “But in all seriousness, this is very thoughtful of you. Hopefully, you can see them around my house as soon as I figure out how to plant them.”

“Riddle, you know you don’t actually have a house yet, right? All you’re getting is a tent until you can pay off the first loan.”

“Ah, that’s right… I haven’t really seen anything I can sell so far, so it doesn’t seem like I can start just yet.”

“There’s a fish in the river right over there, Riddle-kun! Here, take my rod and fish it up! Can’t wait to see what you get~” Cater tossed his rod to the ground, and the redhead picked it up before casting it into the water.

It wasn’t long before the fish noticed and started nibbling on it, and they patiently waited until the bait sunk. The redhead immediately started pushing the button, and the other four cheered as the fish was slowly reeled in. 

“Ah! I got it!” Riddle beamed as the fish was pulled out of the river, and his character caught it before proudly showing it off. “It’s… a goldfish.”

“Hey, you caught yourself, dorm head! Nice going,” Ace exclaimed, clearly amused. At the confused looks of the other three, he explained, unable to stop smiling. “You know how Floyd-senpai has a nickname for everyone based on marine life, right? Well, he likes to call dorm head ‘goldfishie’!”

“A nickname I really wish he’d stop using.” Cater began to laugh, Trey and Deuce joining in, and Riddle’s face turned red out of embarrassment. “S-stop laughing! I am not a goldfish!”

Ace smiled lazily as he stood, gazed at Riddle, and started speaking in an imitation of Floyd. “But you’re small and red, so you’re a goldfish!”

“Gh… Cater. Take your rod back.” Riddle’s avatar tucked the goldfish away and put the rod back on the ground, which Cater dutifully picked up with a giggle.

“Alright guys, let’s pack it up. As much as I’d like to keep playing, it’s almost time for lights out,” Trey said, ignoring Ace and Deuce’s protests. “We don’t have school tomorrow since it’s a weekend, so we can always play again then.”

“Trey is right. As intriguing as this game is, I hardly think it should cut into other things, especially not something as important as sleep.” Riddle handed his controller to Cater as he stood. “Right, I’ll be off to bed now. Goodnight.” He smiled as everyone bid him goodnight, and headed off to his room for bed.

~-~-~-~-~

…was what he thought would happen. Riddle groaned as he turned and buried his face into the pillows, desperately trying to fall asleep. He squeezed his eyes shut, tossing the blankets over himself, and waited as he tried his best to relax. When nothing happened, the redhead opened his eyes again and sighed.

He could ignore it all he wanted, but Riddle knew what was keeping him up- he really wanted to play that game again.

Sitting up and rubbing his eyes, he slid off his bed and silently slipped out the door. He made his way through the hallways, hoping that no one was awake, but when he got to the lounge, he saw a faint light coming from the couch.

Sneaking closer revealed Ace, quietly humming as he played Fauna Crossroads on Cater’s console, and Riddle smirked once he realized that the other boy didn’t yet know he was there. “Ace. What are you doing awake at this hour?” He asked.

“Gyah! D-dorm head?!” Ace screamed, whirling around in surprise. Then his voice dropped to a whisper, and he put his hands together in a beg for forgiveness. “Damn, I didn’t know you’d be up too… please, please don’t collar me! I’m sorry for staying up past lights out!”

“I’m kidding, Ace. I could hardly collar you for playing the game this late, when… I also came here for that exact purpose.”

“Heh, really? What happened to this game not cutting into more important things, dorm head?” Ace chuckled at Riddle’s pout and patted the spot next to him, prompting the redhead to sit and accept the controller he was given. 

“The voice in my head telling me to stop thinking about something so foolish… it sounded a lot like my mother,” Riddle explained as he leaned against Ace. “I wanted to follow my own whims for a change, instead of always obeying her command.”

“Your life, your rules! I’m definitely not gonna complain, especially after you promised not to collar me. What’s the plan, dorm head?”

“I, for one, want a house like the rest of you. I believe Cater told me it was 5000 gold for that.”

“Hey, I’m close to an upgrade too! We should look for things to sell together if you’re up for it.”

“I’d be delighted to, as long as I don’t catch another goldfish.”

~-~-~-~-~

“Alright, score another fish for me! My pockets will be full of fish at this rate,” Ace quietly exclaimed, grinning as his character tucked the fish away. “How’s it goin’ on your end, dorm head?”

“Well enough, though I highly doubt that this’ll add up to 5000,” Riddle sighed, shaking his head. “At least there are still mo- Ace. Ace, what is that?”

“What’s what?”

“That… black thing! Scuttling near me!”

Ace squinted, then flinched as he realized what it was. “Oh great Seven- ok, dorm head, don’t move an inch.” Ace’s avatar pulled out a net and crouched as he approached. “We’ll be fine as long as we don’t startle it.”

Riddle froze in fear as his voice dropped to a low hiss. “But what is that?!”

“It’s a scorpion, dorm head! If it runs into you, you’ll black out!”

“Eh?! Isn’t that dangerous?!”

“Relax, I know how to catch ‘em! Cater-senpai taught us how when Deuce ran into one. Besides, these things sell for a lot, y’know? I bet one of these can pay off your loan fully!”

“Ace, I swear to the Seven, if you mess this up, it is off with your head!”

“I won’t screw up, promise! I’m your ace, remember? You can count on me for anything- including this, if you don’t move!” 

Ace’s avatar slowly approached the scorpion, and when it finally disappeared under the net, Riddle let out a breath he didn’t even know he’d been holding. “You… actually caught it.” The redhead sighed again, letting his head fall onto Ace’s shoulder. “That was much too close for my liking.”

“I think this is the real reason why Trey-senpai and Cater-senpai don’t want us playing at night, eh? Let’s just sell these and hope we don’t see another one.” Riddle stifled a yawn and merely hummed in reply, and once they reached the shop, they sold everything and paid their loans. Ace laughed as their characters started applauding, already thinking of all the ways he could use his new room. 

“We did it! Congrats on your new house, dorm head!” There was no reply, and he glanced at the other boy. “Dorm head? Riddle?” The redhead shifted, murmuring something unintelligible, and Ace quickly realized that Riddle had fallen asleep on him.

Ace couldn’t help but smile as he slipped the controller out of Riddle’s grasp and used his magic to turn the game off before levitating the console back to its rightful place. Then Ace turned his gaze to Riddle, who had claimed his shoulder as a pillow and was peacefully sleeping without any of his usual stress.

Man, dorm head’s cute when he isn’t angry, he thought to himself. And he isn’t angry right now, so surely it’s alright if I… He leaned forward to gently kiss the top of Riddle’s head and playfully ruffle his hair, and the redhead smiled in his sleep, snuggling even closer. Ace chuckled as he carefully laid his head on top of Riddle’s, and as he slowly drifted off to sleep, he could only say a few words. 

“I love you, dorm head. Goodnight…”

~-~-~-~-~

“What do you mean Riddle-kun isn’t in his room?!” Cater exclaimed. “We all saw him go to his room last night!”

“I know, which is precisely why I’m so worried,” Trey replied, running his hand through his hair. “I  don’t know where else he would go.”

“Ace is missing too. Our roommates told me he was there last night, but gone by this morning,” Deuce groaned. “Honestly, if dorm head’s collared him, I’m not giving him any pity this time.”

“We should go look for them. Let’s start in the lounge, since that’s the last place we all saw each other.” Cater and Deuce nodded, and they all ran to the lounge before spreading out and beginning their search. The trio quietly searched for a while, and then Cater made a quiet noise, grinning as he leaned over the couch. 

“Trey-kun, Deuce-chan, I found ‘em,” Cater softly called, snapping pictures with his phone. “Be quiet though. I wouldn’t want them to wake up.”

“Wake up? So does that mean..?” Deuce said curiously, peering over the top of the couch. Both of them were peacefully asleep; Ace’s arms were wrapped around Riddle and the redhead was snuggled on top of Ace’s chest, content to simply stay in their embrace. 

“Looks like Ace-chan and Riddle-kun had a little sleepover together, hehe! Don’t they look so cute like this~?” Cater continued taking pictures from different angles, trying to get as many as he could.

“What are you even going to do with all those pictures,” Trey sighed, using his magic to cover Ace and Riddle with a blanket. “Either way, we shouldn’t wake them up. Let’s go.”

“I don’t want to think of what dorm head will do if we wake him…”

“Fine~ play a bit of Fauna Crossing with me, though?”

“Maybe after breakfast, Cater.”

~-~-~-~-~

The three’s footsteps faded and Riddle slowly opened his eyes, carefully listening to make sure that the others weren’t there anymore. He lifted his head to look at Ace’s sleeping form, and the redhead smiled before gently resting his head back down, comforted by Ace’s soft heartbeat.

Reveling in the warmth of the hug, Riddle found himself being lulled back to sleep, but he had to at least get something out. “Thank you for loving me… and I love you too, Ace,” he whispered. It was more to himself than anything, but from the way Ace smiled, Riddle knew that it hadn’t gone unheard.

[bigshot]

for the card suit ask meme- all aces!

Send in a card and a suit for the corresponding headcanon related to each one’s meaning. || NOT ACCEPTING

Ace of Hearts - How easy is it for any sort of relationship to develop with your muse?

It’s much easier to develop a closer relationship with him if you’re not actively trying. 

He’s used to hanging around yuppies and businessmen, people who aren’t exactly known for their genuine relationships, and he’s fully aware of how he comes off to people about 70% of the time.

Being kind to Spamton outright just gives him the idea that you’re being disingenuous, so it can be an uphill battle to make him take any kind of relationships at face value. Hostility is harder to fake and harder to shake, so it’s easier to believe.

Ace of Clubs - How frugal is your muse with their money? How often do they run out?

Spamton’s good with his money- now.

In his younger years, he blew everything he had. A large part of him ending up homeless for so long was his lack of foresight and the funding of a lifestyle he couldn’t afford anymore. He thought he had it bad when he was a nobody, but he didn’t know how good he really had it.

These days, Spams likes to sit on his funds like the little nest egg they are. He’s frugal to a fault. He eats only the cheapest food he can get by on, doesn’t buy much of anything for himself unless there's an absolute need, and he’ll only go out to restaurants or the like if there’s other people involved. Maybe some takeout as a [[specil treat]] if it's been a good sales day.

The only time he might splurge is if there's a good reason: a fancy dress event where he might impress people, buying a round of drinks to show off a little, etc.

Ace of Spades - How does your muse think their life will end?

Oh. He thinks his life ended a long time ago.

Ace of Diamonds - Does your muse actively try to improve themself, or do they knowingly allow themself to remain in their same habits?

Somewhere in-between.

He’s always working towards bettering his name in the public eye (well, from a business standpoint) and practically breathes the saying “another day, another dollar,” but there’s a lot of stagnation there. 

Spam doesn’t actually know what to do with himself past a few basic goals: Start a new business (check), start networking (check), start making that cash (check), and get out of that shared apartment (working on it).

After that?

He… guesses he’ll just keep up that grind. Keep living, for what that’s worth.

What else is there for him?

[kurimiaki]

T, R, N and P with Diluc please?

the uncrowned king of mondstadt, diluc ragnvindr.

yandere alphabet via dear-yandere! revisions i made are flaky so. my bad wwwww

cw: dark content, physical abuse, kidnapping, confinement, claustrophobia, extremely unhealthy relationship.

Tears: How do they feel about seeing their darling scream, cry, and/or isolate themselves?

Just because Diluc may be attending to business elsewhere, does not mean you are free from his heady grasp. Distant yet coddling; his attentiveness is a curse just as much as it can be a blessing. You’re never without security, that much is true. Dawn Winery is his eyes and ears, every single servant wrapped around his finger, wrapping around and constricting you. Self isolation could never be a possibility, not when Adelinde ushers you out of bed without a minute left to spare, always in such a hurry, as if wallowing in utter boredom for days on end is anything of importance. From the very beginning, Diluc had made it a point to ensure your physical health was a top priority to those surrounding you; strict itineraries have maids silently mourning over their packed workload. A plethora of duties— take you on brief walks outside the winery, never longer than 15 minutes, feed and serve meals delicately planned and catered to your health, eyes and ears constantly watching, watching, watching. They keep you like a dog on a leash, no matter how pampered. They do so dutifully. They must. Who could possibly decline such a hefty pay at the expense of silence?

It would be a blatant lie to say your physical health had declined any whilst under his... care, however, the same cannot be said for your mental well being. He can’t, despite how much he hates his inability to do so, prevent your tears. And by the archons, do you cry. Diluc is unable to approach you some days, those days when the illusion of normalcy and domestic living he works so hard to put up simply melts away, when you can do little more than curl in on yourself and wretch into your silk sheets with a litany of tears flush in your eyes. He wills himself to allow you the mercy of a few hours alone, albeit with check ups and that blatant discomfort of his when you wail at the slightest touch to your shoulder. Of course, it’s a different case entirely when such cries are symptom of punishment— whereas Diluc will weakly attempt to comfort you with softened eyes when you work yourself up, flaky and visibly uncomfortable, his resolution is unflinching and unwavering should you choose to act out of turn. Wail, sob, beg and beg for mercy, for forgiveness, his mask of nonchalance will stay firm.

Regret: Would they ever feel guilty about abducting their darling? Would they ever let their darling go?

No. Diluc is understanding that the situation he has thrust you into may not be ideal, he anticipates a lack of reciprocation and overall resistance, but he feels absolutely no guilt. In his eyes, this is for the best, the world is much too cruel— who better than him to make that judgement for you? Even if you do prove yourself to be capable of taking care of yourself, (with Diluc himself to measure up to) this Darknight Hero will find every minute, minuscule little thing to prove you otherwise. Just about every one of your shortcomings Diluc will try and use to his advantage, to put himself in a better light. Who else is as capable as he is, who else can prove themselves worthy of your companionship, your devotion, in the ways that he has? The longer you stay in his grasp, not that the possibility of leaving will come otherwise, the more difficult it becomes to prove him wrong. He feeds you with the utmost care, keeps you healthy, entertains you should you need conversation or otherwise, and provides, provides, provides. There may be a lack of freedom on your end, but really, do you have much room to complain? Without him, you may very well be dead. He ensures that point is driven straight to your heart, however many times is necessary until you grow compliant.

His will and rationality is fully reasonable, in his mind, hence why his wishes to keep you by his side shall forever remain solid. Perhaps it is the idea of you keeping close to him that entraptures Diluc so entirely, for he is a distant admirer. He would be contented growing old and without your touch, merely sharing your company for as long as life allows. All the same, he wishes to swallow you whole, skin, blood, guts and tears, if only to keep you with him. It is selfish, but he tells himself that is something of which he is deserving. He must.

Naughty: How would they punish their darling?

Diluc is nothing if not dedicated to his goals, a driven man in everything he sets his mind to. In order to maintain the position he thrives in, he is forever alert, forever adapting, prepared for any strenuous situation thrown his way. Should you push past a line you are never meant to cross, jab at him a tad too harshly, well... it’s not as if he gives no thought as to how to keep you in line. Rarely are you knowing enough of his inner workings to be able to push him past the point of no return, a point where even you, his dearest, are not spared from his wrath. Emphasis on rare, for he is wholly tolerant and gentle with you, to an extent. Any person has a breaking point, and Diluc, despite his detached disposition and stoic attitude, can only withstand so much. He bottles up so much to remain composed, after all. When he snaps, he is unable to hold himself back any longer.

He is not one to take pleasure from the suffering of others. Lest they truly deserve it, is what he’ll tell himself, to at the very least maintain the illusion of normalcy. Sway not from the path of righteousness, forget not the splendor of dawn. His mind is able to concoct the most horrific scenarios he could possibly put you through, for he does the same with his enemies. In a way, when you act out of turn, an instinctual part of him, cultivated after years spent at the whims of the dangerous and unknown, sees you as just that— an enemy. He doesn’t often choose the more unsavory methods to keeping you in line, ie: beating or threatening you with his vision, further keeping true to said threats should you continue. Diluc is wholly capable of restraining the urge to simply slap the snark off of your face (he had done so regardless, once or twice), and much prefers isolating you on his own terms, away from everyone and everything, even himself. It’s a small room, not even on par with that of your shared bedroom, much more similar to a closet or crawlspace.

A room, but a cage all the same. Splintered wood floors, dank cobblestone surrounds you and few cracks in the stone leaves room for bugs of all nature to crawl through, allows the elements to rain hell upon you should you end up locked up during the harsher months. A lone maid, not even Adelinde, the head, attends to you, sparing meek glances should you call out when she gently places a meal of one roll, a piece of meat, and a few shoddily cut slabs of potato. No begging and weeping and screaming you may do will soften Diluc into coming back for you- again, his resolve is akin to that of steel, his will forever unyielding. He decides when you are thoroughly broken in, and when it is time to hold you in kind, he shines through like that of The Darknight Hero the people proclaim him to be. In the end, what is necessary is that he shows you how much better off you are when with him. He’s much too possessive and to a point, coddling, to ever consider discarding you into the wild and at the whims of hilichurl camps and abyss mages alike.

His hold is firm and grounding. Had he always been able to hold you with such ease? Had he ever truly held you in kind, as he does now? He’s warm. A familiar, comforting scent of smoke and acidic wine fills your senses and him, oh, him. He had left you, left you alone, all alone, in that room, not even a room, all alone, and yet you can do little more than gag and writhe and latch onto him with pleas of his name whispered hoarsely— ‘Diluc, Diluc, Diluc’. A cry of your savior.

He can’t look at you, won’t look at you. Won’t give you the mercy, but he couldn’t be angry. Not anymore. He holds you tighter and so flush to himself, with a ferocity narly shown to anyone but you, not in kind, not with this passion. You smell of dust, a husk of yourself. Faintly of his sheets, faintly of iron, of vomit, of filth.

Fresh memories of your betrayal burn hot in his mind. He’s contradicting himself. He cannot relent. It comes out as a whisper, barely even heard to himself, and he curses his very soul the moment it passes his lips.

“Strive to do better. Lest you want your time there to increase tenfold.”

Patience: How patient are they with their darling?

He can bear with defiance and unwillingness on your part, to an extent. He can anticipate as much, for he is not delusional enough to fool himself into thinking your relationship is even somewhat typical to that of a normal couple, no matter how much he wishes that to be the case. No, for the initial few weeks of your captivity (he’s always gotten so mad when you refer to him as such, a captor) Diluc allows you to lash and sob and attempt to reason with him, attempt to soften him, attempt to hurt him. He’ll allow you to do so, but he himself remains impenetrable, unblinking, almost uncaring. He is prepared for about anything and everything, always expecting the worse possibilities as to save himself from further harm. For you, as well, he is constantly anticipating and observing. In hidden, minute little ways. It may even come as a shame to him if the fact that he enforces the maids to note down your every little move ever reaches your ears.

All in all, Diluc’s complete preparation for anything and everything you may throw his way makes him extremely patient, for better or for worse. Difficult to crack, impenetrable, almost— on one hand, the distance he keeps from you to accommodate for your lack of reciprocation may come as a blessing, but it makes it all too difficult to try and pester him into letting you go, to try and understand his goals and motivations in keeping you locked right away. Your complacency is inevitable, sooner or later, Diluc will begin approaching and weaseling his way into your routine in the smallest of ways, gradually and unconsciously causing you to grow fonder of his presence. It’s a slow process, one he had planned from the very moment his wishes of a domestic life with you grew much too much to handle. He loves you completely, yearns for your love, and for it, he will wait as long as necessary.

Blazing red eyes leer down upon you, your shame increasing tenfold for each second that passes subjected to that gaze of his. A fit of expaseration, you will admit, had sent the cutlery dear Hillie had so delicately prepared flying off of the white tablecloth and onto the hardwood floors, further staining the expensive rugs with wines and crumbs and oils from his favorite meal, a concoction of pasta and steak and cheese. He had prepared yours alongside with it, striking tonight as a tad more special than the rest. You didn’t blame yourself for what you did, not when he had proposed something as outlandish as marriage.

He keeps silent, leaning back in his seat, his throne, as if he were a king observing a mere peasant begging for mercy— quite frankly, you should be. But perhaps tonight he will be more lenient, you ponder, averting your gaze to the flickering embers sparking from the fireplace beside you.

He sighs, suddenly, worn and thoroughly put out by your antics, further embarrassing you by his facade of nonchalance. No, you could tell from the way his leather gloves creaked from gripping himself too hard, he was barely concealing his own anger.

“You hardly let me finish my scentence. Come, we’ll continue this conversation upstairs.”

[tojismaiden]

SNK Male Characters as Yandere's (Modern AU)

WARNING: will contain dark themes.

Eren the Violent

It's a known fact that Eren doesn't have the best temper in the world.

But for you, he'd try his best to be patient. Key word: Try.

When Eren saw you, you were like the light at the end of the tunnel. The rainbow after the rain. The finish line. The trophy. The angel that every devil sought after.

You were kind to almost everybody but you were also fearless when you need to be. You helped everyone that you could and that included Eren. He got into another fight? You'd patch him up. He's lashing out on someone again? You'd calm him down. Everytime he needed someone, you were there.

So who could possibly blame him for falling for you? For wanting you?

At first, it was just an innocent crush he had on you. But days passed and he found himself growing more agitated. You were just too good, too pure. Eren knew that deep down, he had to have you. He's lost so much in his life, he can't lose you too.

So when the time came that he confessed, imagine his surprised and embarrassment when you told him you were with someone else. Of course, Eren being Eren, he'd pretend it's nothing and carry on with his day.

You thought none of it of course and kept treating Eren as how you saw him as; a friend.

Eren isn't the most patient man in the world, and neither is he the most calm one.

So please don't be surprised if you find your s/o brutally murdered.

"Oh, Y/N. I'm so sorry about your partner. I heard what happened. Such a shame, really."

"It's okay, Eren... I just— I just don't understand. Who would do something like this?"

"I don't know. But whoever it was, the person may not have liked your partner at all. In fact, that person might have hated them."

Your partner's death saddened you immensely but you were thankful that Eren was with you as you grieved. However, the more you spent time with Eren, the more concerned your friends got. They had bad vibes with him.

And Eren felt they don't particularly like him.

So the next time you see a news about an unknown killer going around?

Ignore it.

Your friends falling as victims of the said killer? Ignore it.

After all, Eren did it for you. So you could be together.

Forever.

Armin the Manipulative

There's no denying that Armin is smart. Way too fucking smart.

He would top in his classes and everyone came to him whenever they needed help with their homework.

But what exactly did Armin like about you? Simple. It's your sincerity.

Sure, he has friends and sure, his classmates would thank him whenever he helped them but with you, Armin could really feel like you learned something from him. It wasn't like the usual where the other would get the answers to their questions but obtained nothing from his explanation.

With you, you really applied what he taught you.

And Armin felt... appreciated. Like he wasn't being used to people's advantages.

So ever since then, Armin would willingly help you. Even offering to tutor you privately, free of charge! And each time you two spent time together, Armin's feelings for you grew stronger. The stronger they got, the more he got slightly too infatuated with you.

Weekly tutors turned into everyday tutors to the point where Armin would even tutor you during the weekend!

But who were you to say no? You were so thankful. If it weren't for Armin, you might have backloaded a subject or worse, repeated a grade!

You barely had time for your friends anymore but Armin assured you that it's better this way. That it's better if you prioritized your study sessions with him because your friends would just distract you.

And hey, come to think of it. Weren't they the reason you slept so late the last few weeks and almost made you miss an exam?

However, as busy as you are, you somehow found yourself in a situation where you got into a date with someone. An upperclassmen one of your friends introduced you to back then.

And when Armin found out, he was livid. But he loves you so much that he couldn't possibly bear to hurt you, no. Instead, he saved you from the inevitable torment.

"Y/N, you did this portion wrong, do it again." "Y/N! Didn't I tell you to replace this number with this? Do it again." "We're not stopping until you get it right."

Sure, Armin can be strict, but it's for your own good.

"Y/N, I apologize if I was harsh today. I just want to see you do good. And I'm so proud of you. I really believe you'll ace this test this week."

"I-It's okay, Armin. And thank you for helping me again. I promise I'll—"

"Say, Y/N, you should really stop seeing that person. I heard you were going out on a date with (Your crush's name). I suggest you don't. I heard they're going out with a friend of yours. (You friend's name) is their name, I think?"

"W-What? Where did you heard that?"

"Everyone's been talking about it. Plus, I think the reason you're doing pretty bad today is because of them. So please, Y/N, we worked really hard for you to get such good scores. Wouldn't you wanna make your senpai proud?"

You're so thankful for Armin. And you really don't want to disappoint him after all of what he's done for you.

So what better way to repay him than be obedient?

Jean the Stalker

It's not rocket science that Jean is a handsome young man.

But when he saw you? Oh, boy. He felt as if everything in the world felt right. You were just so fucking beautiful. The first time he saw you, he just couldn't look away. It felt as if his breath got knocked out of him.

He was sure you were a God/Goddess walking on Earth. Never had he seen someone so ethereal.

But the thing is, you were just so out of his league. While everyone kept talking to you, made friends with you, flirted with you, Jean stood from afar and watched you from the distance.

Sure, he follows your social media accounts. But he couldn't help but make dummy accounts and followed your accounts as well. He didn't want to take the risk of accidentally liking a picture of yours from years back with his personal account.

He didn't want you to think of him as a weird stalker or something because Jean is definitely not a stalker, no. Just no chance of him being that.

What Jean didn't know, is that you never noticed him at all. It's not your fault though, he was usually quiet and blended in the background. If you ever did see him around, you'd forget about him soon after. A shame, really.

But don't let Jean know that.

What started as him following your social media accounts turned into him just simply following you around.

He took note of you always stopping by at this convenient store right after class to buy your favorite drink and favorite sandwich almost everyday before you go home.

It happened so frequently, him walking with his hoodie on, head hung low as he walked a few steps behind you and somehow watching you buy the exact same thing everyday.

But everytime, Jean would only stop by at the convenient store. Once you were done, he would walk home. He didn't want to follow you home. Well, it's not that he didn't want to, it's just that he doesn't have the courage yet.

However, curiosity got the best of him and at night, when you were going home late, he followed you on your way home and you swore you could feel as if someone was follow you.

"Who's there?" Nothing.

When Jean successfully followed you home, it was like something inside him flicked open. And every night, he would stop by outside your home for an hour or so and every night he would see your silhouette as you took off your clothes and changed into comfier ones, and Jean had thoughts where he'd imagine just how you looked underneath them.

With each passing day, you felt as if you were continuously being watched. Being followed.

Maybe next time, you should really learn how to close your window.

Say, do you remember where your favorite underwear went?

Erwin the Blackmailer

You could never really ask for a better boyfriend. Erwin has it all.

At least, that's what you thought in the first few years of your relationship.

Erwin was everything you wanted and more. And he loved you so much... way too much.

And truthfully, you loved Erwin too. But there's no denying he's gotten so unbearable.

Back then, you would have done everything for Erwin. But every bit of love that you had for this man was now replaced with fear.

When Erwin began to openly express his obsession with you and his primary goal of making you all to himself, you had run away from him, far too scared of the lengths he'd go through just to satisfy this... obsession of his.

You noticed it little by little. But never had you thought it would come to this.

It started small at first. He would stop you from spending time with your friends little by little until you could no longer see them.

He would say something about them being bad influences. Going as far as to make up convincing lies that you, stupidly fell for.

After that, he stopped you from seeing your own family. Cut ties with those who are important to you. Deprived you your freedom. For he thought that you, going outside meant that you would meet someone else other than him.

And the thought of someone even merely looking at you made his blood boil.

But everytime you ran away from him, he would find you. Doesn't matter if you hid from him for weeks, months. He would end up finding you each and everytime.

At first, Erwin liked the cat and mouse game that you played. He thought it was thrilling. But then he slowly realized you were gaining this new profound strength. As if you thought that he wouldn't do anything except to find you and drag you back with him.

"I'm not going with you anymore, Erwin! I'm sick of this shit. You're all bark but no bite. Well, guess what? I'm done. And I'm not coming back!"

"Bark but no bite, eh? I wish you hadn't said that, Y/N. Say, your best friend doesn't live too far from here. You wouldn't mind if I pay them a visit, right? I'm sure they're worried about you, doll."

Ever since then, Erwin would blackmail you by threatening to hurt your loved ones if you didn't do as you were told.

This made your fear for him to go back and one time where you did disobey him despite his threats, you received a news where your bestfriend was found badly beaten in a dark alley and the perpetrator was nowhere to be found. Your bestfriend almost died if the suspect hadn't stopped.

And deep down, you knew this was Erwin's doing. It served as a warning that he wasn't afraid to kill for you so long as you stayed with him.

"I'm doing this for us, doll. Why can't you see how much I love you?"

"They don't deserve you, Y/N. They aren't willing to go for miles for you. But me, I would do anything to keep you by my side. Isn't that what you wanted? You said you didn't want to lose me, right?"

Erwin loved you so much. He wouldn't want to risk losing you ever again.

Maybe he should try going after your family this time the next time you try and run away from him.

Levi the Possessive

Levi had lost more people than he could count. So the moment he saw you?

He didn't want to let go.

What's scary about Levi is that you don't know what he's thinking of. He would never let you know what it is that runs through his mind.

He knows, however, that you're just like him. You lost your family and you barely had any friends. And you worked as a waiter/waitresss at this local diner to earn money for your tuition fee.

Levi understands. He's been through that struggle and he could see it on your face. He took note of everything you did. And he made a habit of coming in for tea even though the tea in the diner tasted like shit. But if you made it, he would make sure to leave an extra tip.

Levi made sure that it was you who would serve him everytime. If it were someone else, he would request for you immediately.

You never really noticed Levi, in all honesty. It wasn't his fault. It's not that he's not attractive. It's just that you were too far in your head to even look or strike a conversation with him.

You were quiet and obedient and somehow Levi liked that about you. It just means you would put up a less of a fight. Means it would be easier to convince you. Means that you would always say yes.

Though Levi hoped that underneath that submissive nature to you, you would somehow have a backbone there. Being too compliant would bore him to death.

And he witnessed that when you suddenly snapped at a customer for being perverted. You were almost fired on the spot if it weren't for the fact that Levi testified for you.

That was the first time you truly noticed him.

Ever since then, you made sure that you would be the one to serve Levi everytime he came by. And you made his tea extra special, which he appreciated. It was the least you could do after he helped you out the other day.

Days passed and Levi had successfully scored a date with you. The first time he saw your apartment, he was really glad to see it clean and organized despite its dinginess and small size. It was all you could afford.

Levi suggested a stay-in date at your place, just so he could see if you were fit to live with him. Once he saw how great of a cook you are, how tidy you are and everything, he knew it was time to eventually convince you.

Sex with Levi meant that he would top you. All of the fucking time. And everytime it happened, he would always mutter the same thing to you:

"You're mine. All fucking mine."

Of course, you treated it as simple dirty talk. Men say that all the time, right?

Eventually, Levi brought up the idea of you living with him. At first, you declined. You couldn't possibly do that. But Levi having a silver-tongue meant he eventually convinced you.

Living with Levi was a walk in a park. You'd help him clean and would tell him that you would help out with the bills but you were surprised when he told you that you didn't have to worry about that.

"Just sit down and look pretty for me, brat. That's all you need to do. You don't have to worry about the money."

You didn't like that Levi didn't want you to help with the bills but you couldn't possibly retort something back. He let you live in a nice home with a nice bathroom. Who were you to have a say in things?

Days passed, and Levi somehow brought up the topic of you quitting your job.

"What? But I like—"

"Like being a waiter/waitress? Come on, Y/N. Your colleagues are absolute assholes and don't get me started on your manager. I see how he looks at you."

"I'm sure that's not true, Levi..."

"Are you doubting me?"

"W-What? N-No, I—"

"That's a good girl. You know I'd hate it if those dingy dickwads were to look at what's mine, right?"

You quit your job.

Levi knew you'd be bored inside the house so in return, he let you sign up in one of those online courses to keep you busy.

It was all coming into plan. Finally, he got the partner for life he always dreamed of. The one that would cook him dinner everytime he came home from work. Would pleasure him in bed when he's stressed. Would clean without him having to ask you.

You were so perfect.

People hadn't heard from you for months. But Levi convinced you that there's no need if people heard from you or not. Eventually, they would forget about you. You had no family, you had no friends, all you had was Levi.

And if you found out that Levi would lock you inside the house everytime he left for work, you would choose to stay silent.

And if he were to ask you to wear a chain around your ankle, who were you to say No?

After all, Levi gave you everything.

Levi was your everything.

And you were everything to Levi.

How could he ever share something so precious to the world?