#someone you hate by Sasha Sloan

[roses-r-rosie3]

Dancing With Your Ghost: Lost

Miguel O'Hara x M!Reader

[Part 1] [Part 3] [Part 4]

warnings: Arguing, guilt, and angst

Summary: The reader is really self absorbed and Miguel starts to lose hope that he will ever love the reader, but the reader slowly starts to fall in love with Miguel

A/n: I wasn't really planning on making a part 2 for this story but I saw a comment from @strawberrycakecake with this idea so yea, thank you to them <3

Quote: "Listen, I am sorry for whoever you lost, but I do not love you, and I never will"

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It had been a few weeks after he unknowingly invited you, or an alternate version of you, to the society. He still wasn't over you. Everytime he looked into your e/c eyes, it reminded him of how he failed to save you. So everytime you were around, he would always lock himself inside of his office.

Most of the spider people wondered why Miguel constantly favored you over anyone else. But the only people who understood why were Jess and Peter. They were both aware about Miguel's relationship with you. And only they understood the grief he went through when he lost you. They tried comforting him the best they could, but each time they tried, Miguel would shoo them away.

But one thing stood out about this alternate version of you. This version was really snarky and a bit disrespectful. That's one thing that Miguel hated. His version of you was sweet and cordial, that's one of the main reasons why Miguel fell in love with you to begin with. But this version of you didn't care about anyone's feelings but your own.

Miguel was in his office, looking at old pictures and videos of you and him, but then Peter busted inside of Miguel's office.

"Miguel! Uh- you might wanna come fix this!" Peter said before he ran right back out of Miguel's office.

Miguel quickly ran after Peter to see what he was talking about. Peter lead him to the cafeteria where you and Gwen were arguing and two different spider people holding both of you away from each other. And as soon as Miguel came into the room, everyone went silent.

"What is going on in here" Miguel growled.

"I'm sick and tired of him being a narcissistic asshole! That's what!" Gwen screamed.

"Just because I cut you in line? Are we in middle school?" You scoffed.

"You pushed me, laughed about it, and didn't even say sorry!" Gwen responded.

"Well who's fault is that?" You mocked.

"Enough!" Miguel yelled.

Without a word Miguel immediately took your arm and lead you inside of his office.

"What the fuck is wrong with you y/n! Ever since you joined this damn society you have been nothing but rude to everyone! You used to be sweet and nice! What the fuck happened to you?!" Miguel cried.

"I don't know who you think I am! But I am not who you think I am! I am me! I don't know who you are! I don't know which y/n you are talking about, but you need to stop comparing me to him because I am not him!" " you yelled back.

"Listen, I am sorry for whoever you lost, but I do not love you, and I never will" you said before leaving the room.

Miguel's heart was shattered. That's when it hit him that he lost you. He could love his version of you but this alternate version of you would never love him.

After that whole fiasco happened, you had this gut feeling that was making you feel guilty. You have never felt any type of remorse before. It bothered you for some reason.

The next day Miguel came to the spider society he finally accepted the fact that you didn't love him. He lost hope in this new you, for all he knew you were just someone who looked like his version of you. He was not going to treat you differently than the other people anymore.

You on the other hand, you were a mess. You couldn't sleep all night because you were thinking about what you had said to Miguel. The look on his face

"Hey Boss man, I just wanted to say sorry for-"

"Get out" Miguel grumbled as he cut you off.

"I just wanted to say-"

"Did you not hear me? I won't warn you again" Miguel snarled.

You left his office with out saying a word. As you walked out all the spider people were giving you death glares. You couldn't help but to feel vulnerable. You wanted to go back in there and beg for Miguel to forgive you. Why were you feeling this? You have never felt this way before. And that's when it hit you, you were in love with Miguel.

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A/n: Part 3???? 🤔

Tag List: @honeydew-i, @loivre, @strawberrycakecake

[sleepdeprivedsimp234]

What are your blorbos favorite songs/bands?

I literally just saw this I am so sorry this took so long-

New York:

He seems like the type to listen to punk rock, hyperpop, and rap

His fav bands/artists: Green Day, AC/DC,, Odetari, Eminem, NF, Kxllswxtch, and probably Jack Stauber tbh.

Fav songs from each band/artist: Basketcase (G.D.), Safe In NYC (AC/DC), GOOD LOYAL TH*TS (Odetari), Lose Yourself (Eminem), Let You Down (NF), Scatterbrain (Kxllswxtch), and Coffee (Jack Stauber)

Louisiana:

He listens to every single genre of music, but mainly rock, rap, hyperpop and probably country as well.

Fav bands/artists: Michael Jackson, Mitch Rossell, Green Day, Taylor Swift, MCR, Surf Curse, the Animals, 6arelyhuman, and Jack Stauber

Fav songs from each band/artist: Beat It (MJ), Son (Mitch Rossell. Yes he might as well listen to a song about a loving father since he never had one himself-), Welcome To Paradise (G.D.), Enchanted or LWYMMD (Taylor Swift), Mama (MCR), In My Head Til I’m Dead (Surf Curse), House of The Rising Sun (Animals), Hands Up! (6arelyhuman), and Hope (Jack Stauber).

Texas:

He gives the vibes of someone that is a closet-Swiftie and a closet-metal and rock fan. Like- yes country music, but also metal rock and pop.

Fav bands/artists: Taylor Swift, Mitch Rossell, FFDP, Blake Shelton, Johnny Cash, Disturbed, Daughtry, MCR, Odetari and 6arelyhuman (WHO THE HELL WAS GONNA TELL ME THAT BOTH ARE FROM TEXAS).

Fav songs from each band/artist: LWYMMD (Taylor), Son (Mitch Rossell. Same reasoning as Loui.), Wrong Side Of Heaven (FFDP), God’s Country (Blake Shelton), Ring Of Fire (Johnny Cash), Down With The Sickness (Disturbed), It’s Not Over (Daughtry), Dead! (MCR), FUNCTIONING ALCOHOLIC (Odetari), and XOXO (6arelyhuman).

Gov:

He defo listens to hyperpop, lo-fi, and probably just a lot of soul and sad music. Sad music for sad cat man.

Fav bands/artists: TV Girl, Sasha Sloan, Rebzyyx, Eminem, The Neighborhood, Current Joys, X Ambassadors, and Taylor Swift (HE’S A CLOSET SWIFTIE OKAY-)

Blue Hair (TV Girl), Too Sad To Cry (Sasha Sloan), I hate my emotions (Rebzyyx), Stan (Eminem +Dido), Daddy Issues (The Neighborhood), Kids (C.J), Unsteady (X. Am.), cardigan (Taylor Swift).

Tbh I haven’t thought about Mass or NJ too much- Uh- Anygays- Sorry this took a bit longer than it should’ve! <3

[me-uglypretty]

Can you do #20 with Kate bishop x fem reader please?

#20 I Blame The World - Sasha Alex Sloan | blurb replay 2022

Kate Bishop x Reader | Warning: (18+), kinda angst but fluff

To blame the world—that was the ultimate route for her misery, Kate concluded. If not for the world, she wouldn’t need to bid farewell to her father after his misfortunate death or watch her mother be taken into police custody for an unforgivable crime.

Kate hated her misled beliefs. She hated the lies that was spat in exchange of her young age or her privileged lifestyle. Life was deteriorating into speckles of something she knew.

And she yearned for more than why.

“Hey, can I sit here?”

Then, you appeared, a beaming smile and voice so tender as you speak to her. It was blurry at first, till the first answer of yes, the second question of a number, and the countless days after with two people spending time together.

You weren’t someone she assumed would cause a twinge in her chest. Different from losing her parents, and different from her drastically changed life.

Why would she get close to someone if she knew her heart could risk breaking and has yet to heal from years old misery?

“Why,” she questioned, another falling from her mouth as a blurring mess and her eyes glossy. “Why do you stay? I can’t even make me happy.”

But your hand slips into hers, the other wiping away the tears rolling down her face. “I think we can blame the world together, than alone.”

It was so simple—how your words speak of those that throbs in her chest, and prods through her mind with a daunting noise.

You had never asked her for something, but you request for her body close, to wrap your arms around her form, to whisper sweet words to her ear, to kiss her forehead as she mumbles in her sleep, and to cherish her as the most precious part of your life.

“But what if,” and Kate’s wondering thoughts faded by your lips softly pressed on hers.

There’s something different about the way you kiss her, when compared to her first and the ones shared with her ex. The tender touch of lips, the way your fingers will clasps with hers, and your hand guiding her face into kissing you because you knew her fear, and you knew the stroke of your hand would wake her into this world—the one shared with you.

“I wanna runaway,” Kate whispered. “I’m tired of this…I want us to be free and safe and not—”

“Okay,” you answered, and chuckling at her shock appearance. “I’m here with you, forever. You and I, me and you, just us.”

It was so easy for you to follow her, aiding to her trouble and never expecting more. You were the light that casted a wonderous glow on her life. A reason she searched and found without knowing.

Kate could blame the world and not see pass the beauty that blooms vividly around, but she would thank the world too, and see your face, smiling at her like she was the one person who made life worth living.

Hope you enjoyed this lil angst but not blur! and sorry for lateness

[kenmakaminari]

Songs from my (main) spotify playlist that remind me of anime characters (or that I think said characters would listen to)

Matches are made based on backstories, vibes, and common headcanons.

includes: mha, bsd, banana fish, haikyuu, a silent voice, and death note :)

Shouto Todoroki: My Hero Academia

Family Line - Conan Gray

Older - Sasha Alex Sloan

Teenage Dream - Stephan Dawes (post therapy todo)

Older - Sasha Alex Sloan (could also be Shōya Ishida too)

Dazai Osamu: Bungou Stray Dogs

Alien Blues - Vundabar

Everything I Wanted - Billie Eilish

Burning Pile - Mother Mother

All Too Well (10 min version) - Taylor Swift (reminds him of Chuuya)

Everything Or Nothing - Picture This (yes, because of the fic)

It’s Called: Freefall - Rainbow Kitten Surprise

Chuuya Nakahara: Bungou Stray Dogs

Lonely - Palaye Royale

Happier - Olivia Rodrigo

If I Killed Someone For You - Alec Benjamin

Achilles Come Down - Gang of Youths (reminds him of Dazai)

The Broken Hearts Club - gnash

The Exit - Conan Gray

Izuku Midorya: My Hero Academia

People Watching - Conan Gray

Devil Doesn’t Bargain - Alec Benjamin

It’s Alright - Mother Mother

Matilda - Harry Styles

Ready As I’ll Ever Be - Varian, Cast - Tangled (Izuku is the first voice (varian) Bakugou is the Female, reminds me of the part in the manga where Class 1-A fights Izuku)

Broken - Isak Danielson

Lonely - Palaye Royale

Atsushi Nakajima: Bungou Stray Dogs

Dawning of Spring - Anson Seabra

Older - Alec Benjamin

Someone To You - BANNERS

Team - Lorde

Ash Lynx: Banana Fish

Ready Now - dodie

Hill I Will Die On - Alec Benjamin

All Eyes On Me - Bo Burnham

Falling - Harry Styles

Koshi Sugawara: Haikyuu

Twin Sized Mattress - The Front Bottoms

What A Time - Julia Michaels, Niall Horan (he and Daichi listen to it <3)

Slumber Party - Ashnikko, Princess Nokia (he’s definitely the sassy type that would play this on repeat to rile his s/o (Daichi) up)

Oikawa Tooru: Haikyuu

Jealousy, Jealousy - Olivia Rodrigo

Parents - YUNGBLUD

God Is A Freak - Peach PRC

Akutagawa Ryuu: Bungou Stray Dogs

Happier Than Ever - Billie Eilish

Saint Bernard - Lincoln

Bakugou Katsuki: My Hero Academia

The 30th - Billie Eilish

Interlude: I’m Not Angry Anymore - Paramore

God Must Hate Me - Catie Turner (could also be for Izuku Midoriya)

Wrecking Ball - Mother Mother

Momo Yaoyorozu: My Hero Academia

The Man - Taylor Swift

She - dodie

Mad At God - Sarah Saint James

Kenma Kozume: Haikyuu

Brutal - Olivia Rodrigo

Sorry haha i fell asleep - Egg

L: Death Note

Mind Is A Prison - Alec Benjamin

Anchor - Roland Faunte

Yosano Akiko: Bungou Stray Dogs

Boyfriend - Dove Cameron

Death Of A Hero - Alec Benjamin

I Can’t Decide - Scissor Sisters (@ Mori)

Us and Pigs - Sofia Isella

Shōya Ishida: A Silent Voice

Bad Liar - Imagine Dragons

Viva La Vida - Coldplay (his redemption arc)

You Might Not Like Her - Maddie Zahm

[andiwriteordie]

“someone you hate” by sasha alex sloan has THE most mike wheeler vibes ever i think (or at least i feel like this is how he views his and wills relationship post s4)

... why would you think this is okay

the line: "told your mom i'd take care of you. they say people change; well, i guess it's true" just WRECKED ME DUDE LIKE WHAT THE HELL

casually adding this to my mike playlist and to my byler playlist how does it feel to have hurt me at barely 7 in the morning

[cynicalfairytale4]

SOME SONG LYRICS THAT ARE TOO CLOSE TO MY HEART<3 (Pt.1)

"And loving is hard. It don't always work. You just try your best not to get hurt. I used to be mad but now I know, sometimes it's better to let someone go." -Older by Sasha Alex Sloan.

"These images they sell, Maybe none of it is real and I could love the way I feel." -Pretty's on the inside by Chloe Adams.

"Do you ever get a little bit tired of life? Like you're not really happy, but you don't wanna die. Like a numb little bug that's gotta survive. That's gotta survive." -Numb little bug by Em Beihold.

"Nothing's forever. Nothing's as good as it seems." -Hope ur ok by Olivia Rodrigo.

"All the numbers in my mind are set out to ruin my life, I don't wanna let them win but they just might. And I know this is a problem that I'm improperly solving." -Math by Sara Kays.

"I guess I could say I've learned to live this way. But it's still hard to find- reasons to stay alive. Accepting I'm pointless isn't the hardest when it's so completely obvious. My questions are countless looking for answers , so far I'm clueless. Go back to sleep. I reach for me but I'm not there. It's so lonely but who cares? It's fine it's okay. I'll die anyway." -I'll die anyway by girl in red.

" Kids are still depressed when you dress them up. " -Sippy Cup by Melanie Martinez.

" Now she's terrified of growing older losing what's left of her youth. She'd reminisce about the sound of bliss before she knew the truth." - Ms. Protagonist by J. Maya.

" If I'm pretty, will you like me? They say beauty makes boys happy. I've been starving myself , carving skin until my bones are showing. Teach me how to be okay. I don't wanna downplay my emotions. They say beauty is vain, you'll only be happy if you look a certain way. " -Prom Queen by Beach Bunny.

"The prom queen looks real pretty but inside she hates her life. And the boy that starts on Varsity's dad doesn't treat him right. The quite girl that's in the corner has so much more to say, if only their minds weren't so damn opaque. She's the life of every party but she sits alone at lunch. Her reflection shows her ribcage but she thinks she weights too much.And they call each other best friends when it's a forbidden crush, one that their parents would never approve of. Isn't it sad the way it works that we think we're the only ones who hurt? So just breathe for a second. I know you're feeling so damn helpless. But before you do something reckless REMEMBER- magazines have editors and makeup does the devil's work. Don't cry cuz you're not her. She's staying up all night scars to cover.And everything seems fine when it's not yours but darling magazine have editors and everyone's a little hurt. " -Devil's Work by Andi.

[feelingunfulfilled]

List of My Vent Songs

cw for explicit lyrics and sensitive topics

Edgy/Angry falling apart vibes (fed up with of all this shit):

chains - Jay Sek

THE NEW YOU - Time is Dead

nightmares - easy life

Pumped up Kicks - Late Nite Reading

I’m not Pretty - JESSIA

Dear God - Confetti

3 O’Clock Things - AJR

Everybody’s Got Their Own Damn Trauma - Awkward Marina

Hit The Snooze - The Living Tombstone

Lost - Bring Me The Horizon

medicine - Bring Me The Horizon

Kill[h]er - Stand Atlantic

SELF-SABOTAGE - Waterparks

Back In School - Mother Mother

SAD (Clap Your Hands) - Young Rising Sons

Pity Party - Melanie Martinez

Alphabet Boy - Melanie Martinez

Mostly Dead - Joseph Dubay

I’m Not OK - Weathers

Lazy - The Living Tombstone

Buried Alive - Rory Webley

Wake Up Call - Maroon5

Înapoi - Carla’s Dreams

Miracle - The Score

Melancholy and hopeless:

Two - Sleeping At Last

Hello My Old Heart - The Oh Hellos

Funeral - Phoebe Bridges

Wake Up - EDEN

To Let A Good Thing Die - Bruno Major

Lonesome Town - Ricky Nelson

Fix It to Break It - Clinton Kane

The Grave - Kate Vogel

Evil Queen - Snøw, Skinny Atlas

Hurt - Johnny Cash

Older - Sasha Alex Sloan

The Last Words of a Shooting Star - Mikski

Hey Siri - salem ilese

Honey and Glass - Peyton Cardoza

at least I’m pretty - Harriette

Does It Matter - Sam Graham

Buy the Stars - MARINA

A Sadness Runs Through Him - The Hoosiers

When You Love Someone - James TW

She Used To Be Mine - Waitress

Talking to the Moon -Bruno Mars

Kokoronashi - majiko

Sayoko

Creep - Radio Head

Uplifting but still has darker undertones:

Burned Out - dodie

Ready Now - dodie

Darling I Do - Zerox, Landon Pigg, Lucy Schwartz

Hoping - 4everfreebrony

Beautiful? - Illymation

Ghosting - Mother Mother

More - Halsey

Youth - Daughter

That Funny Feeling - Bo Burnham

A Place I Don’t Know - Daniel Olsén, Jonathan Eng, Linnea Olsson

Everything’s Alright - Laura Shigihara

Dear Friend, - Dayglow

A TV Show Called Earth - Philip Labes

The Night We Met - Lord Huron

Waves - Mr. Probz

I Walked These Streets In November - Caroline Manning

Nobody Hates You - JESSIA

MISTAKE - NF

Other (upbeat mixed with depressing):

Only the Good Die Young - Billy Joel

I Think I’m Going To Kill Myself - Elton John

When You Where Young - The Killers

Hard Times - Paramore

Oh No! - MARINA

Are You Satisfied? - MARINA

The First Step - Will Wood and the Tapeworms

Drunk - Living Tombstone

Good Girl - Living Tombstone

Am I Dreaming - Metro Booming & A$AP Rocky, Roisee

skeletons - Keshi

Hundred - Khalid

DRIFTING - NF

If You Want Love - NF

Dying in LA - Panic! At The Disco

Help! Oh Well - SomeThingElseyt

Bittersweet - Big Head Todd and the Monsters

How to Save a Life - The Fray

Savior - Beth Crowley

Fourth of July - Sufjan Stevens

Your Ex-Lover Is Dead - Stars

Alone Sometimes - The Mowgli’s

Maggie May - Rod Stewart

I Don’t Want to Talk About It - Rob Stewart

The Party Goes With You - Lindsay Mendez

Home - Daughter

I Have Questions - Camila Cabello

Burn - Hamilton

I Love How - Caroline Manning

Teenage Fantasy - Jorja Smith

Sober Up - AJR, Rivers Cuomo

[litamioktavia]

I wanna tell him that i'm sorry...

[gnatlistens]

30-day song challenge! (PART 1)

 i'm lazy to commit to doing one every day, so i'll be doing them all at once! credits to @/eggtaurus on instagram i'll be typing my thoughts for most of it and including youtube embeds for a few ! not rating today but the songs here would def be >7/10

DAY 1: a song you discovered this month

dancing with your ghost -- sasha alex sloan

can't believe i haven't listened to this before this month

DAY 2: a song that always makes you smile

talk too much -- COIN

honestly any anime/movie ost i love would work, but i'll leave those for later and choose a hype song!

DAY 3: a song that makes you cry

月光 -- shion miyawaki

the assassination classroom ost when aguri died 😭 tbh any sad anime ost works. like grave of the fireflies

DAY 4: a song you know all the words to

you're so cool -- tate mcrae

any wdw/recent shye songs.. ok but making it hard for myself and not choosing those

DAY 5: a song that proves you have good taste

YELLOW -- yoh kamiyama

helpp my taste is 50% mainstream pop, 30% osts, other music no one else is interested in,, i'll choose a song i'm proud of liking i guess! WATCH THE MV it's so cool

DAY 6: a song title that is all in lowercase

chaotic -- tate mcrae

the whole album LMAOO

DAY 7: a song title that is all in uppercase

CORDUROY -- shye

basc the whole album ❤❤

DAY 8: an underrated song

the internet -- GRACEY

ANY SHYE SONG but i'll choose an underrated song from a more popular artist. LISTEN RN. 

DAY 9: a song title that has three words

me myself and i -- 5SOS

love this!! EDIT FROM THE FUTURE: wth that isn't 3 words. my new answer is Mess It Up by Gracie Abrams

DAY 10: a song from your childhood

blank space -- taylor swift

yeah i don't have to explain this one it was the earliest added song in my mainstream pop playlist

DAY 11: a song that reminds you of summer 

summer -- joe hisaishi 

LOL he has 3 songs with summer in the title but this one has the most summer vibes

DAY 12: a song that feel embarrassed listening to

trust fund baby -- why don't we

wdw's old songs. almost all of them

DAY 13: the first song that plays on shuffle

million reasons -- jess glynne

shuffling my lastfm library! wow that's random

DAY 14: a song that someone showed you

nuh uh -- jades goudreault

my sister kept playing this

DAY 15: a song from a movie soundtrack

FINALLY!! sparkle -- radwimps no words required :D

DAY 16: a song with no words

spring -- joe hisaishi

most ghibli osts would work too

DAY 17: a song about being 17

14 -- clinton kane

he mentions 17 ok. i just didn't want to put another olivia rodrigo song lol actually on 3rd listen it's quite good omg i'm adding it to my june playist

DAY 18: a song that reminds you of somebody 

sunroof --  nicky youre, dazy

my sister kept playing this too lmao

DAY 19: a song to drive to

slow down -- why don't we

they are already listening to it in a car (edit from the future: i change my answer to Style by taylor swift)

DAY 20: a song with a number in the title

99% -- GRACEY

i love gracey

DAY 21: a song you listen to at 3 am

mirror -- shye

it says looking at sunsets but it fits stargazing

DAY 22: a song with a long title

i don't want to watch the world end with someone else -- clinton kane

i'm listening to this rn HAHHAS what a coincidence

DAY 23: a song with a color in the title

red -- taylor swift

ugh i already used yellow. tswift again i guess

DAY 24: a song that you've had stuck in your head

comedy -- gen hoshino 

i love spyxfamily too much

DAY 25: a song in a different language

enjoy enjaami -- Dhee, Arivu, Santhosh Narayanan

not choosing eng chi and jap because that's too easy lmao

DAY 26: a song that helps you fall asleep

HOW R U SLEEPING -- shye

first thing i thought of, and unlike the screaming title it's a v soft song! listen to the slowed + reverb or instrumentals for a stronger effect

DAY 27: a song you describes how you feel rn

modern day titanic -- jasmine sokko

i used the other 2 songs with quotable lyrics already oops

DAY 28: a song you used to hate but love now

mixed nuts -- official hige dandism

i originally didn't like the SxF OP BUT NOW I LOVE IT SM omg.

DAY 29: a song you have/want to download

potential breakup song (cover) -- why don't we (originally aly and aj)

needs to get on spotify rn!!!

DAY 30: a song you want to share

moment in the sun -- sunflower bean 

actually all the songs here!! i'll choose a final one that didn't fit any category this song is from heartstopper! one of the few eng background songs that are rly good

i planned on doing 150 songs straight but 30 already took so long lmaoo so that's it for part 1! stay tuned for parts 2-5 😈

[pampamtiger]

speaking of karaoke, my go-to songs have been altered a bit these past few months.

for now, here are my top 10:

- breathless by the corrs

- this is home by cavetown

- someone you hate by sasha sloan

- top of the world by the carpenters

- bad decisions by benny blanco feat. bts and snoop dogg

- zombie by the cranberries

- nothing new by taylor swift feat. phoebe bridgers

- bring me to life by evanescence

- paparazzi by lady gaga

- life by yui

[1ddotdhq]

😷 Sat 14 Nov ‘20 🎨

Well heellllooo, Louis! Is your instagram timeline blowing up? Mine sure is! After yesterday’s surprise Vogue announcements we got all sorts of Instagram action: BTS shots of Harry and Gemma, Anne (Twist) liking fan edits of the shoot, Lottie liking Gemma’s picture (not Harry’s though!) and a bunch of Louis’s band members liking Harry’s pictures. Louis, of course, acted like nothing was happening - he did not see it, nope nope, except! Oh yeah! He popped up today and posted an old picture of him onstage in Mexico City last year (taken by Charlie Lightening, who then posted the uncropped version of the same pic) and said, “it’s going to be special when we’re back to it”. And you know what? I really, really think it is: he’s given every indication (including this one!) that he plans for his tour to be a turning point, and there is some hope now that it may happen sooner rather than later. See you there, Louis! As for Vogue, they released a podcast version of Harry's interview but it's not recordings of Harry- it's the writer reading their piece out loud. And popular discussion of the piece brought us ice cold takes such as 'not everyone can risk playing with gender in public so no one should' and also 'other people have done this before Harry so therefore how dare he'. Okay!! As for acknowledging /crediting those people though-- well. This was an interview with a writer who made a real effort to make him look Very Straight even while being forced to relate that what Harry was actually doing was quoting Wilde, singing Abba songs about wanting a man, speaking with a campy affectation and, yes, participating in a groundbreaking (in its reach) gender bending photoshoot; is it really surprising that it doesn't include a section of him naming his queer influences? Harry proceeds as he has done for many many years now, since the bears and before- he says one thing with his words, then talks about queer history through visuals, such as his clothing. So saying that he needs to take certain steps before he's allowed to do certain things... well it's just not the way he communicates? That said, he has been name dropping influences more and more in recent years, and I too hope that list will grow to include some WOC, and the arc of Harry history inclines towards more gayness on main with every passing day, so while he can't and shouldn't be rushed I think it's safe to say we have more explicit acknowledgement to look forward to, though Harry will always be himself and he does not tend to explain himself with words. Anyway uh, also Liam is also making rounds on Insta today - he posted a watercolor wall with a red Vespa, which was lovely and would fit very well in any watercolor landscape exhibit. Maybe we will see his art in one at sometime in the future!

Niall is...sigh. Okay. Niall is in LA, seemingly working on music, appearing on songwriter Ryan Tedder’s instagram story in his LA studio with other writers Jkash and Blake Slatkin. NH3! Is Happening!! Right now!!! And Niall has said all year how much he wanted to be back in LA so that's just great for him I guess. BUT... in the story he and the others are laughing and twerking and definitely not isolating the way you are meant to when you have traveled internationally; even worse, the whole post is a joke ABOUT the fact that they aren't quarantining captioned ‘COVID PROTOCOL'. As someone who is LUCKY to have 'only' been knocked out and miserable with this virus for two weeks (so far) rather than being in the hospital dying or losing a loved one: fuck off. It’s not a funny joke, and it’s not acceptable to behave like children who are daring their parents to get them into trouble. If you must travel, do the right thing and quarantine, and, above all, understand that this is real, and it isn’t something you want to catch. Trust me on this.

[resiliense]

Pase de ser a alguien a quien amabas a alguien que odias.

Someone you hate - Sasha Sloan

[shirarihena]

I went from someone you love to someone you hate

[ch3ukl1]

Sasha Sloan - Someone You Hate (Lyric Video)

[izzielizzie]

maeve rojas headcanons (bc i miss her and you can never have too many maeve headcanons)

maeve is left handed

there is no reason for this other than the fact that i get the vibes

she’s obsessed with lizzy mcalpine and sasha alex sloan

she loves how they have a nice mix between romantic and existential songs

maeve is more musically inclined than bronwyn

bronwyn has mastered the piano but maeve is proficient at a bunch of different instruments

she can play the acoustic guitar, the violin, and piano

people are always just a little scared of her the first time they meet her

there’s no concrete reason but it always feels like she’s staring into people’s souls

it’s probably because of her eyes

she’s the first to extend an offer of friendship though

she’s incredibly welcoming even though she will judge someone within an inch of their lives

no one can verbally decimate someone like maeve can she just has a way with words

maeve is the queen of unlikely friendships

she and phoebe are polar opposites but they are best friends

addy’s energy exhausts maeve but she also feels energized around her – they’re total partners in crime

cooper and maeve have one (1) shared life experience and that is being mixed up in a murder mystery but they still love each other like brother and sister

maeve hates doctors

it’s not like she’s anti-modern medicine or anything but she’s spent so much time in hospitals and she associates doctors with bad news and suffering so she just doesn't like them

the two doctors she can stand are her mom and kris

maeve has the best relationship with her parents out of any of the main characters except luis

she never grew out of her childhood habit of climbing into her parents’ bed when she’s upset

maeve and her dad have father-daughter days every month and maeve always looks forward to them

maeve and her mom aren’t as close as maeve is with her dad but maeve loves to sit on her parents’ bed and watch her mom get read to go out

when maeve was a little kid she would sit on her mom’s lap at the vanity and help her mom chose her jewelry

maeve has impeccable taste and it comes from her mom

when she was healthy enough to go home but still sick enough to not be able to go to school maeve’s dad would work from home and he would teach maeve how to cook

mr. rojas does all the cooking in the house and he makes traditional colombian food so it’s the only type of food maeve knows how to cook

her fondest memory is of the day her dad let her play on the floor of his home office while he took calls and she spent the whole morning putting together a puzzle and for lunch they made waffles and added whipped cream and maple syrup and it felt like her own little secret because they didn’t tell her mom

maeve often falls asleep curled up on couches and her parents used to carry her up to her room during that magical in between moment when she was just about to fall asleep

they stopped after a while because she was just getting too big and the first time luis carries her up to her room she almost cries because she feels safe and comfortable like she did when she was a kid

maeve will never tell anyone but the real reason she hates being outside is because her immune system sucked when she was sick and she wasn’t allowed outside so it feels so daunting 

kris puts the pieces together after a class on immunology and all of a sudden maeve makes so much sense to him

maeve is a little scared of kris because he has the most medical knowledge and she knows that he can see through her at any moment and then all her compartmentalization will fall apart

she freezes every time kris mentions anything he’s learned from class

luis tries so hard to get maeve to open up to him but at some point nate pulls him aside and is like “dude she’s only going to resist the more you pry just let her be and prove she can trust you”

and not soon after maeve starts to tell him things about when she was little

maeve isn’t big on pda but she always has to be pressed against luis

she acts confident but she’s super anxious about everything

she plays with the hem of his shirts a lot or with his fingers

luis teaches her how to ride a bike and she honestly becomes a faster rider than him

it’s a great way to dispel all her nervous energy

maeve sometimes goes whole weekends without getting out of bed because she just can’t muster the energy to get up

those are the days where luis stays on the floor of her room and brings her food 

maeve just has a lot of unaddressed trauma that sometimes hits her like a truck

but she also has really good days where she lights up every room she walks into

maeve is perceived to be calm because she’s surrounded by chaotic people but she’s also insanely chaotic

maeve used to be a little scared of her sister before she was diagnosed with cancer because bronwyn was a little stubborn and bossy as a kid but she softened as maeve aged and now maeve adores her sister more than anyone

she refuses to see the flaws in the people she loves sometimes which is actually her biggest flaw because she doesn’t understand how exhausting it is to be perceived as perfect

maeve loves her friends with her entire soul and she’s the least likely to get into an argument

but she will get into arguments on their behalves, something she will happily remind them

maeve is just a very messy character with a lot of development in her future and i really hope we get that in oouib

[atlaese]

Healing wounds - b.b.

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x reader TW: fatws spoilers? cussing, injuries etc A/N: i was listening to Hypochondriac by Sasha Sloan and man it hit me HARD!! Anyway, enjoy :)

MARVEL MASTERLIST | BUCKY BARNES MASTERLIST

The ritual had started when he had injured his right arm, making it difficult to clean the muck that stuck between the vibranium plates of his left arm. He had struggled to reach further than his elbow, not being able to reach that far. A deep sigh had left his mouth, frustrated with the fact that his arm would probably short-circuit, cause a shit ton of pain and he’d have to contact Shuri again so she could fix it. He hated having to depend on other people as is, but this high tech arm made it all the more difficult.

When you first came into the picture, he never mentioned the hassle of cleaning the arm after a mission. He figured it was best to not bother you with situations that alluded to his rather complicated past. This relationship had to stand free of his history, free of all the stuff he did. He didn’t want to pollute you with the dark thoughts that shot through his head every time the lights shut off in his bedroom or when loud sounds on the tv gave him anxiety. You had to be this separate entity in his life, that when he looked at you, he was a new person without a past filled with too much baggage one person could barely handle.

After Steve had left, he had dropped into this deep pit of despair. He didn’t know who he was anymore, his identity altered every time his mind had been wiped. It resulted in him completely losing every sense of who he was. You were this ray of sunshine the first time he met you. His dark presence was the polar opposite of your personality that was filled with a million different colours. Every time after that, a little bit of your colours started seeping into his monotone personality. You made him a person again, someone who was worthy to live life again. He started to take care of himself again, cut his hair and trimmed his beard.

The first time he dared to take off his gloves was after you’d kissed him for the first time. You had looked at it for a second, but your eyes then shifted to his again, slowly intertwining your digits with his metal ones. The gesture felt more intimate than the kiss you’d given him minutes before and he felt himself being put together piece by piece.

He slowly let you into his life, giving you bits and pieces of himself and he fell in love with you, the way you never judged anything that came out of his mouth or when he was in an emotionless state after a memory had made it’s way back. You were always patient and loving even when he was not.

He started telling you about the missions he sometimes went on, he opened up about his history with Steve and he’d tell you about Sam and the shield. You grew closer and depended on each other. You had never cared this much about someone before, but you still felt that he was hiding something from you.

So when the knocking on his door grew more and more impatient, he knew he’d have to tell you about what happened. He opened the door and the look on your face shifted from angry to worry in an instant when you scanned his face. Cuts and bruises littered his face and even more disappeared under the white tank he wore. His right arm had a few deep cuts, the knife yielding psycho that attacked him knew this arm was more vulnerable thus deciding to focus all his force on it.

“Oh Buck,” you croaked, all anger that had pent up immediately leaving your body. You had made him promise you to call you after every mission, whether he’d return at 5 in the morning or 10 at night. You needed to know he was okay and safe at home. When he hadn’t called after this mission and wasn’t picking up his phone and it was already 10 in the morning and he promised it wouldn’t be later than 6 am, you decided to go over to his apartment.

He looked down at his shoes, refusing to meet your eyes. You weren’t supposed to see him like this, like an inhuman machine made for killing, like who he used to be, like the winter soldier. He had tried so hard to erase this image, to make sure he had cleaned himself up before calling you, but here you were.

The bloody rag in his right hand and the deep cuts captured your attention, a small sob leaving your lips.

“You’re not okay,” you whimpered as you stepped closer and he immediately took a step back, avoiding the hand you were stretching out.

“Please, don’t, I’m- I don’t want you to see me like this.” He was still avoiding your eyes, hiding the rag behind his back.

“Bucky, I-I don’t understand? You’re hurt,” you grabbed his right wrist and carefully turned his arm so you could see better.

He wanted to pull away, but when he finally looked up at your face, he saw how much it hurt you as well, that he hid this part of his life.

“I’m sorry,” the strained noise left his mouth as he tried his best to keep in the tears that were threatening to spill.

“No, no, no,” you shook your head repeatedly, “please-, please let me help you.”

He finally nodded after a few seconds. You closed the door behind you and softly grabbed his right hand to pull him towards the bathroom.

He stood in front of the mirror and tried to clean his left shoulder again when a hiss left his mouth again.

“Bucky, please,” you begged and motioned towards the bathtub and he sat down. You pulled the dirty rag out of his hands and tossed it in the trash, opening his cupboard to grab a clean towel.

You sat next to him on the tub and looked at his face, softly whispering, “tell me if it hurts, okay?”

He nodded and looked down at his feet again.

You started at the plates on his shoulder, carefully removing any blood or muck and slowly moved down towards his elbow. You’d stop every few minutes to watch his face, checking if he was still okay.

You were brushing off the plates on his elbow when he turned his head to watch you. The concentration on your face made him smile a bit and he relaxed under your soft touch.

When you finally reached his wrist, he cleared his throat and you looked up at him. His blue eyes shone brightly when he was looking at you, they were cleared of any self-loathing and you gave him a small smile.

“Almost done with this arm,” you whispered before continuing.

“I can do the rest,” he immediately said. You had already helped him so much and he didn’t want to burden you any more.

“Bucky, please let me- let me take care of you,” you replied as you stood up after cleaning his digits. You stood between his legs now and held his face between your hands.

“Please,” you whispered against his lips and he let out a shaky breath before he nodded. You kissed him softly and pulled away to open his cabinet and pull out a first aid kit.

You disinfected the wounds on his arm and put plasters and bandages over them. You gave each bruise on his face a small kiss and when every injury was tended to, he grabbed your hand before you pulled away.

“Thank you,” he kissed your knuckles and looked back up at you, tears present in his eyes.

“Let’s make this a thing, alright?” You said as you sat crossed legged in front of him, love radiating out of you.

He licked his lips and nodded, a small smile forming on his face. You leaned your side against his leg and he caressed your hair, smoothing it down and you hummed, enjoying the feeling.

You stood up again after a minute to clean up everything.

You put his first aid kit back in his cabinet as he came to stand behind you, circling your waist with his left arm and he pressed a kiss against your neck.

You closed the cabinet and the mirror then showed the happy look on both of your faces.

“I love you,” he whispered against the side of your face as your eyes connected through the mirror.

You turned in his embrace and cradled his face in your hands, tears threatening to spill because of all the love you felt for this person, “I love you too, Buck.”

* * *

So that’s how the ritual started. The first few months he’d call you immediately after a mission and you would come over to help him clean his vibranium arm. When you moved in together, he’d flick on the nightlight in the corner next to your bed if he returned at night. The small glimmer of light would wake you softly and that way he wouldn’t have to touch you with bloody hands.

Once you were up, you would go to your bathroom to find him sitting on the side of the tub, a fresh towel waiting for you on the hamper. Standing in front of him between his legs, you’d tip his head back softly with your hands to give him a forehead kiss that lingered for a few seconds. After that you’d help him out of his dirty clothes, careful to avoid any injuries that he sustained, soft hands brushing against his collarbones to the scars on his left shoulder. You’d clean the vibranium plates carefully and he would watch you in silence. After the arm was clean, you pull him with you in the tub to relax. You’d lather his hair with a few pumps of your soap, so that his senses would fill with everything that was you.

Relaxing together in the tub, you’d tell him about the day you had, or what you were planning to do tomorrow and he’d listen. You'd kiss him senseless until he didn’t know what was up or down anymore and his smile would reappear on his face.

The longer this ritual went on, the more open he became and the more he accepted he wasn’t him. He started taking care of himself more and even opened up about you in his therapy sessions. He found himself again because you helped looking for him. He found himself again because you were always by his side to pick him up.

And so when you all gathered at the docks and you saw playing him with Sam’s nephews or talking to Sarah, you knew he’d be okay. You knew he had found himself because the smile on his face would be genuine. And when he picked you up around your waist to twirl you around and dance with him on the dance floor, you knew you had found your person, because he didn’t realize yet how much he had helped you find yourself as well.