#sorry lil vent

[mushtoons]

drawing transfem leo a little more femme than she would be is so refreshing to us 🙏 like girl has spent her whole life in shit water, she can indulge in feminine stuff as a treat being a woman isnt a bad thing and liking 'girly' stuff isnt bad, letting herself do cliché woman stuff just to feel the gender euphoria of it being labeled 'woman stuff' to boost self esteem is everything to us

yes she can still be mega loser supreme, but also take pride in her gender, its not mutually exclusive

[jensterthewenster]

"oMg YoUr ArT iS sO gOoD cAn I gEt A fReE cOmMiSsIoN!?"

My honest reaction:

[i-changed-my-hair]

My dad is dead.

I talk about it pretty often but not as someone who's greveing, as a fact.

And I think that might hurt more. Haven't been able to process it, I still think he faked his death to get away from us. But my dad, an alcoholic and liar that I loved very much died.

Also I'm 90% sure he killed himself, he was told that he would die if he kept drinking and he lied about it to everyone so he could keep drinking.

[cloned-eyes]

Content warning: suic!de attempt

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so i have this hc that Cros and Wrecker are the "close brothers". And especially after Kamino and Cody (considering if his chip got burned out in s1) he deals with heavy depressive moods, guilt and regret.

something that heavily haunts him is the fact how easy it was to shoot his brother during their first escape. After Cody goes AWOL he feels himself sink into a deeper hole. the noose around his neck getting tighter and he just drowns in loneliness, regret and the pain of rejection.

in the end he doesn#t get through with it but he struggles staying afloat

also big thanks to @therisingdarkness for helping me out with the monologue <3

[cladestruction]

cool ass drawing i made for a dtiys on ig. thought maaaybe you guys might like looking at it and stuff. yeah

here without the club lights. and yeah i'm a sucker for adding grain to the drawing hehe

the dtiys is from @/vvronsky on instagram, followers dtiys! check him out! his art is very very cool!

tmi: it's been a couple of days and op still hasn't seen my entry apparently? and i'm getting a bit anxious bc of it :( i've noticed they don't take long when posting other people's entries so,,, and i've tagged them properly and all! i would insist just in case they haven't been notified or something but uuuh i don't want to bother him by being too intense either :((( makes me think if he saw something wrong with my drawing or something? don't know. anyway have a good day y'all xo

[0xeyedaisy]

Was gonna make a vent post talking abt how everything sucks but then something good happened so I'm okay now, I'm cured

[semisolidmind]

it continues to stun me just how uncreative these toxic lil’ anons can be when trying to insult me over my interpretation of two fictional characters. like…y’all seriously have nothing better to do than talk shit on people minding their own business, huh?

[neverendingford]

skyglow:

(alternative title: photo dump of a midnight desert run)

[allowed-to-take-up-space]

Something I've been thinking about a lot is the way my father would critique and stereotype every single person he saw, yet still insist he wasn't judgmental.

We are in the car, my dad driving, me in the passenger seat. I am a child, maybe 11 years old. My father points at the girl standing on the corner, waiting for the light to change. "Yikes. Good thing she's out walking. Looks like she needs it. Bet she's hoping she'll fit into the outfit she's wearing someday."

"Dad, that's not a nice thing to say about someone."

"It's fine. She can't hear me. I would never say something like that to someone's face. You know, MY dad was homophobic and racist, so at least I'm better than that."

Maybe that girl on the corner didn't hear my father. But I did. And I've never forgotten it. Or the time I finally admitted to him - after YEARS of being a suicidal teen - that I was extremely depressed, and he told me I was one of those kids making shit up for attention, because HE had been in a car crash at one point and experienced REAL depression.

And yet I always ponder, now, how I could possibly be so insecure. Why I cannot just accept myself and move forward. Why I look at myself in the mirror with disgust.

It's HIS voice that echoes in my head. It's HIS nasty remarks that I remember. It's HIS judgmental opinions that I have to rid from my brain, every single time they pop up, because I KNOW better.

Even though I haven't spoken to my dad in several years now, the way he treated myself and others invades my mind constantly. His negativity has shaped so much of me - of my LIFE - and last time we DID speak, he still refused to take any accountability for the multitude of ways in which he hurt me (this specific topic not even covering 1/10 of the ways in which he did).

Furthermore, this makes me think about all the people who utter "harmless comments" about others when they don't think someone who might be hurt by that is listening. I've been privy to many conversations that have left me feeling hollow, without the folks making those judgmental comments realizing that what they've said applies to me. And I don't often feel safe enough to stand up for myself.

I wish folks could realize that openly passing heinous judgment on strangers is a gateway to passing judgment on people you care about.

"I would never say something like that to someone's face."

You said it to mine.

[honeypleasejustkillme]

tw: slight ed thoughts

just turned to my best friend while high and said “promise me if i ever get into a coma you would remove my feeding tube so i become skinny” he looked at me with so much terror and said no.. guys,, i think i need a new best friend :((

[speakofthedebbie]

uh oh looks like the existential dread won last post. well call me an animatronic cuz i do be getting quirky at night !!! ;)) (im insane)

[susartwork]

To all my mutuals who ask me for drawings. Why do I often say no?

Because when I don't work on something strictly connected to my personal projects I feel overwhelmed by the feeling of "not being productive". So it's easier for me to say no than yes. This is also why I don't draw as many fanarts or make drawn asks as often as I used to.

Sorry not sorry. It's not my fault lol.

Still, I am very happy that you like my art, and your support means the whole world to me (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ) thank you so much.

[kaiserkisser]

today is such a stark contrast to yesterday in how much i fucking hate today (vent/rant in tags bc i forgor to do it on my vent one)

[yxkanna]

hey so uhh any international moots wanna house me when we inevitably start civil war 2 electric boogaloo

[wildwood-faun]

got soooo many things happening in the coming few weeks and it's p much all things I've been looking forward to but because it's so much in such a short time it's making me feel kind of unsettled and sad

[toaster-fire-art]

been busy and side tracked with school and work stress and so uuuuuh have a formal/informal introduction to some ocs that I've posted a few things with and other i havent, same story, drawn impulsively after drawing a small pilot comic for one of my classes.

Mini lore dump/general details below the cut if you're interested.

These OCs are part of a different story than the character sheets I created and posted before, who have more or less realtively stayed the same since they were created. Might go a lil insane and create chatater sheets for them, I love to make them to be honest.

Me and @belovedknightdraws created all these characters we were wee lads, like 8 years old and their designs haven't chnaged much aside from some logistics, some name changes, story beats, etc.

The first chunk are the main characters of the story, Viper and Calisto and the three brothers that go by the aliases Red, Fang and Killer. The secnd two are Izzy and Sy, different embodyments/parts of one soul of the same being if you will. Essentially functioning as an ally to the gang and an enemy depending on the context.

In it's simplest explaination I can give without just rambling, the main group are all vampires with different attachments or relationships to their existence as vampires. The girls however are also able to use magic, taught to them by charcters like Izzy and Sy who took them in almost as wards. Izzy is an enigmatic being establishing themselves as a god within their universe and others. Left abandoned after certain tramatic events, the brothers live in isolation before the girls more of less invade their house and decided they would be living there against the brothers' will.