#the problem is that they are a very negative and degrading person

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Am I just being ridiculous or is my best friend starting to become overwhelmingly annoying and grating to be around? Is this normal?

Life update in tags

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💮Random Astro Notes, Answering Questions and a lil Rant💮

🪷The house that Saturn resides in can tell us what items we have been more careful and gentle with. To name a few, people with Saturn in 3rd house may have their books degrade faster, and their phones break often. Saturn in 4th need to be careful with their furniture, photos, kitchen, and even their entire home. Saturn in 7th may lose or damage their jewelry. Saturn in 11th may electronics break and malfunction.

🪷The house that Scorpio and Pluto reside in gives us some insight into how/where we are mistreated, misunderstood, taken advantage of, and perhaps even abused. However, it’s also where you’ll eventually come on top. If you thought Saturian karma doesn’t play then wait until you see Plutonian karma. Unlike Saturn, it is public and done indirectly. Because it’s the house of death (symbolically more than literally) and transformation, Pluto works slowly but on a large scale. Just like tectonic plates, they're slow and great. It may very well (especially for Scorpio) happen after your death or in a different lifetime. 

🪷The Pisces paradox of being obsessed with yourself and taking pictures 24/7 and also desiring to escape your mortal flesh

🪷Side bar but I love how the sign of most season winners and of miss congeniality on Ruapul Drag Race is Taurus followed by Libra. It makes for Venusians to dominate a beauty competition show.

🪷Leo and Libra placements are obsessed with having an aesthetic. They drown themselves in whatever they find beautiful, and they do it well.

🪷I never understood the obsession with spouse, wealth, fame, and indicators in the chart. To me personally, when it comes to these subjects is that if you aren't actively trying to have or working in whichever way that suits you and seems the most effective, you won't attain it. How are you getting anything without putting an effort into it?

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Questions Asked:

🌸@brielledoesastrology thank you for the message, but I don't want to tell people about my chart 😅. I like to be as impartial as I can when it comes to doing astrology. I do it to help people and for fun not for fame or any gratification. It may seem dramatic but I swear it's easier when people don't know 😭

🌸 @spixcyy "Can I ask if you're gay?"

It's giving (Yes, I am very colorful and zesty)

🌸 Question from @iproposedtoyomamaandshesaidyes: “Heyy wassup bro how’s everything? I have Chiron in Leo is that a good placement?” 

Heyy, I am good thank you and I hope you’re healthy and happy. Well, it depends on what we mean by “good”. In terms of the role of Chiron in Leo’s role in your trauma and healing. 

Here are some of my interpretations of Chiron in Leo:

Sensitivity to your sense of person

Having limited self expression or authenticity (The house Chiron resides in can indicate where, how, and in some cases by whom.)

Being forced into the collective and not allowed to have a sense of independence

Individuality and unbecoming is a major life themes/struggles (regardless of the house)

Problems with self esteem, courage, vitality, creativity, and originality

Having a hard time accepting your possibilities and fearing success

Fear of disappointing role model/guide 

Pressure from an early age for living a prodigy

Having to play a “role” or a character for a large portion of your early years

Trouble feeling that you do not have a central purpose or reason for existing

Difficulty understanding what it is you are ‘supposed’ to be doing with your life, yet having an overwhelming sense that you are supposed to be doing something.

Excessive rebellion or conformity 

Healing and Moving on:

Learning to be content

Finding yourself as you move along life

Accepting that you won’t find instant solutions and results

Allowing yourself to grow 

Forgiving yourself for being the person you were and needed to be

Helping others embrace their qualities (especially those that are viewed negatively by society) will help accept yourself

Leading with love and compassion, not detachment

As Chiron is the great healer that can’t heal his wound, your life purpose is:

To lead by example

Break the mold

Be the new “normal”

Perseverance

Act as a leader of the collective rather than be part of the group

Depending on the themes of the house Chiron resides in, you’ll work as a great motivator and healer in that aspect of life.

Hope this was of any help and thank you for your question.

🌸 @astro-lab asked :” So what is “the other Lilith” that comes with every chart? Which one is more relevant? How are they related?”

There are four asteroids that are part of Lilith. 

- First, we have the Black Moon Lilith or Mean Lilith (h12), which is the most commonly used and referred to when people say “Lilith”. This is the one that is usually used in birth chart tools you find online.

The others are Asteroid Lilith (1181), True/Osculating Lilith (h13), and lastly, we have Dark Moon Lilith/ Waldemath Black Moon (h58).

Mean Lilith uses the average orbit of the theoretical Black Moon. This is why she is called Mean Lilith. “Mean” refers to the average, not her temperament. For True Lilith, her orbit oscillates or interchanges constantly. This Lilith uses the actual, real orbit of the Black Moon rather than the average in comparison. As for Dark Moon Lilith, some people have claimed to have seen this Moon, although its existence is debatable. Asteroid Lilith is the only Lilith that is an actual astronomical body.

In terms of their relevancy and importance depends on what areas of life are you looking to get insight from. Like other asteroids, they can shed light on things we tend to overlook. However, when it comes to Lilith, in general, these are things that we feel but never understand period. 

The Mean Lilith is widely used because it takes the average orbit of Lilith and its mystic influence astrologically. In the birth chart, it represents the unconscious mirages that we create to protect our most vulnerable parts and deepest fears. Where we tend to be mistreated the most as Lilith had been and how can we fall victim to others but also heal, transform, and regain that power.

True Lilith in contrast is what we might now refer to as “your villain origin story”. This is where we find ourselves pushing the boundaries of ourselves and others. Our darker instincts and desires. 

Asteroid Lilith is where and how we embody Lilith through the chart and in our everyday life.

I hope I was able to explain it well but thank you so much for your question 💕

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That's it, thank you for the questions and for reading.

Adios PUTAAASSSS

[subskz]

mine - h.hj

note: this is a reupload from my old blog

content: sub hyunjin, dom reader, mommy kink, petplay, degradation, name-calling, dry humping, breeding kink, overstimulation, slight choking, multiple orgasms, jealousy/possessiveness, female reader

word count: 4.1k

“Chan-hyung was really friendly with you today, wasn’t he?”

You lifted your head to look at Hyunjin, raising an eyebrow at the odd question. He was seated on the other end of the couch, leaning against the armrest and scrolling through his phone.

Though he was clearly trying to appear nonchalant, his tone of voice was enough for you to sense that what he’d said was more than just a casual comment.

“Isn’t he always?” you answered with a question of your own, trying to catch a glimpse of his expression.

Hyunjin lowered his phone a bit, allowing his eyes to peek up at you from over the device. “I guess,” he replied, sounding unsatisfied with your answer. There was a pause, then he straightened himself up against the cushions, letting out a tiny huff in the process.

You eyed him, curious as to what the reason for his sudden shift in mood could be. You didn’t have to wonder for long, however, as his next words told you everything you needed to know.

“It’s annoying,” he announced.

Realization quickly dawned on you, and you found yourself suppressing an amused smile. “Why? Chan’s friendly with everyone.”

Hyunjin put his phone down to look at you properly, a pout forming on his face. “Especially with you,” he muttered.

“Hyunjin,” you kept your voice light. “What are you saying? You know it’s not like that.”

He looked off to the side, picking at the skin around his nails. “Still,” he grumbled. “I don’t like it. He should know better.”

You blinked, thoroughly confused by his childishness. As far as you were concerned, nothing out of the ordinary had happened that day. You’d just been chatting with Chan casually, the same way you always did when you were around him. Sure, he’d been friendly, but that was hardly anything strange given his sociable nature.

You’d learned early on in your relationship with Hyunjin that jealousy was a feeling he was no stranger to, and you might’ve considered that a problem if you hadn’t learned just as quickly that it didn’t come from a place of ill-intent. He was simply very attached to you, so ready to give you his all that it almost frightened him. Sometimes he needed reassurance that he was just as important to you as you were to him.

It was for that reason that you were always patient with the boy, soothing him gently and quelling any doubts he might have about where he stood with you. That being said, Hyunjin having an issue with one of his friends was something entirely new to you, and you couldn’t help but feel a bit put-off by it.

“I don’t like how much he laughs around you,” Hyunjin continued, a hint of bitterness seeping into his voice. “He’s always trying too hard to please you.”

“Chan’s just a nice person,” you reasoned, hoping you could get him to see how irrational he was being. “Maybe he comes off as flirty sometimes, but we both know that’s not his intention. There’s no need to get upset, baby boy.”

He visibly softened at your use of the pet name, but nevertheless, his lips stayed curved in that childish pout of his. You pushed back a sigh, sensing that you weren’t getting through to him. Once negative thoughts found their way into Hyunjin’s mind, it was a difficult task to get rid of them.

Fortunately, you were more than willing to take it on.

You scooted closer in an attempt to better comfort him, and despite his attitude, he instinctively reached out to touch you as soon as you were within reach.

“What’s gotten into you today?” you murmured.

Hyunjin ducked his head to avoid your stare, sucking his lower lip into his mouth for a moment before answering.

“Nothing, just…” he trailed off, and your interest piqued when you noticed his cheeks turning pink. “Please, don’t forget that you're mine.”

He tugged subtly at the hem of your shirt as he spoke, and something about the gesture paired with the longing in his voice made your spine tingle.

Your concern instantly fizzled back out into amusement, your lips curving into a small, knowing smile.

“Hmm. Those are some bold words,” your shift in tone caught Hyunjin’s attention right away, making his shoulders tense just slightly. “Jinnie thinks he owns me?”

Hyunjin squirmed in his spot, finally lifting his head to look at you. His eyes had grown wide, and the way they glimmered with anticipation told you that you’d hit the nail on the head.

“If you’re worried about being replaced, I’ll be glad to remind you of who you belong to.”

You reached up to grab his chin, and an almost relieved sound escaped Hyunjin, any remnants of stubbornness melting away under your touch. “Mama,” he breathed.

“So this is what you really wanted,” you hummed, sliding your hand down to his neck. His breath hitched as you wrapped your fingers delicately around it, giving the sides of his throat a feather-light squeeze. “I should’ve known. Nothing else fills your empty little head, does it?”

Hyunjin let out a shaky breath, his face reddening fully. “Just want you to p-pay attention to me, Mama. No one else.”

“Cute.” A small whimper slipped out of him as you tightened your hold on his throat. “Go wait for me in the bedroom and I’ll give my puppy all the attention he needs.”

He swallowed hard before nodding, obediently rising from the couch. Just as he took his first eager step, you called out another order.

“On all fours.”

Hyunjin stiffened, scanning your face for some semblance of mercy, only to find none. He let out a miserable whine, but complied nonetheless.

You felt a tinge of satisfaction watching him sink to his knees and crawl sheepishly to the other room. Once he’d disappeared down the hall, you stood up yourself to retrieve his collar, taking your time with the intent of riling him up further.

When you joined Hyunjin in the bedroom, you found him sitting anxiously on the floor, his legs crossed with his hands tucked in the space between them. He straightened his posture when he saw you, his eyes lighting up hopefully as you settled on the bed across from him and beckoned him closer. Hyunjin immediately obeyed, and you slid your index finger down his throat delicately, marveling at the way your touch made him shiver. “Jinnie can’t even stand his Mama talking to anyone else, hm?” You shook your head in mock disappointment. “Are you really that selfish?”

Hyunjin mewled softly, his pulse racing beneath your fingertips. “I’m sorry, Mama,” he whispered. “I know ‘m selfish, but please, just look at me. Only me.”

You snickered at that, finally snaking the collar around his neck and fastening it securely. “Needy little puppy.” You tugged lightly at the accessory as you spoke, ensuring that it wasn’t too tight. “What am I gonna do with you?”

Hyunjin’s breathing grew rapid as you leaned back on the mattress to stare down at him scornfully. Without warning, you used your foot to nudge his hands away from where they covered his crotch, revealing just how hard he’d become in the time he’d been waiting.

“Pathetic,” you clicked your tongue, applying pressure to his half-hard length with your foot. Hyunjin groaned in response, pushing his hips up when you pulled away before he could feel any real relief. “A mutt like you doesn’t even deserve my foot.”

The boy gazed up at you, his eyes wide and glossed over with lust. “Please, Mama,” he begged. “I’ll take anything you give me, please.”

You contemplated what he’d said for a moment, tapping your finger thoughtfully on your chin. Hyunjin stayed perfectly still, waiting for your command with a look of pure need on his face.

Finally, an idea came to mind, and you stuck out your leg, locking your gaze with his.

“Here. Rut yourself against it since you’re so desperate.”

Hyunjin inhaled sharply, not wasting a single moment before scrambling forward to latch onto your leg. “Thank you, Mama, thank you,” he rasped, snaking his arms around your thigh.

You rested your hand on his head, giving it an encouraging scratch to signal that it was okay to move. With your approval, Hyunjin adjusted his position and began to grind his clothed length against your leg. The tag of his collar jingled as he bucked his hips, and the sound of his moans quickly joined it, echoing throughout the room.

“You’re so easy to please, hm?” you purred. “Just a dirty puppy who will fuck anything.”

Hyunjin whined pitifully, cheeks quickly going red again. “Not anything. Only want you,” he protested, his voice turning up in pitch.

“Are you sure about that, baby?” You ran your fingers through his hair to brush the stray locks out of his eyes, a gentle movement that contrasted the harsh words that followed. “Seems like all you care about is getting your filthy cock off.”

Hyunjin gripped your thigh tighter, nails digging helplessly into your clothes. “Please, Mama,” Hyunjin whimpered, voice thick with shame. “That’s not—ngh—true. I’m a good boy. Your g-good boy.” His hips surged forward especially hard, eliciting a shaky, drawn-out moan.

He squeezed his eyes shut, focusing all his senses on the pleasure growing in his abdomen as he thrusted against you. His hair fell delicately back into his face, and a light sheen of sweat began to form on his forehead from all his efforts. He bit down on his plump lower lip, trying and failing to suppress the gasp that escaped him when you pressed your leg forward just barely, meeting the rocking of his hips.

You drank in the sight of him falling apart at your feet, your uninterested expression masking how aroused you truly were. Even in such a desperate, primal state, he managed to look effortlessly beautiful.

You watched him for a few more moments before tapping the crown of his head to get his attention. Hyunjin hardly noticed, too lost in the delicious tension building up in his core.

“Jinnie,” you called. The hint of warning in your voice made him grow alert, reluctantly halting his near-frantic movements.

His eyes fluttered open, and he couldn’t help a low whine as his pleasure was lost. Despite that, he looked up at you eagerly, waiting for any orders you might give.

“Get undressed for me,” you hummed, brushing your thumb along the mole beneath his eye. “I wanna see how hard it makes you to do something so humiliating.”

Hyunjin let out a mortified squeak, pushing his face into your thigh. “Hurry up,” you commanded. “Before I decide to leave you like this.”

Your threat sent a wave of panic through the boy, and he instantly unwrapped himself from your leg to comply. His unsteady fingers slipped under the hem of his shirt, pulling it over his head with haste. 

You licked your lips as his bare chest was revealed to you, and despite his embarrassment, the feeling of your hungry stare on his body urged him to keep going. He swallowed hard before moving down to the button of his pants, fumbling slightly before managing to undo it. You watched intently as he lifted his hips, pulling his pants and boxers down in one go.

Hyunjin’s length sprung free, standing up against his stomach to give you the perfect view of it. It was painfully hard, and beads of precum had already gathered on the tip of his flushed head.

He squirmed awkwardly as your eyes raked over his body, taking your time to observe every inch of it.

“My baby’s so beautiful,” you cooed. “It’s a shame you’re such a slut.”

Hyunjin ducked his head with a whine, but the way his dick twitched at your words wasn’t lost on you. “What’s the matter?” you faked a pout, hooking two fingers under his collar to pull him closer. “This is what you wanted, isn’t it?”

He nodded miserably, still refusing to meet your eyes. “Mhm,” he breathed. “Please, Mama.”

“Please, what?”

Hyunjin hesitated, lower lip trembling as he tried to brace himself before speaking up again.

“Lemme use your leg, please,” he begged. “Can’t wait any longer. Wanna c-cum against Mama’s leg.”

His quick surrender came as a surprise, and you couldn’t help but laugh a little, delighted with how easily his arousal had overcome his shame.

“You sound so pathetic,” you giggled. “Okay, puppy. Make a mess of yourself for me.”

Hyunjin wasted no time before attaching himself back to your leg, and the sensation of his bare length brushing against you sent sparks of pleasure through his body. “Thank you, Mama,” he gasped out.

His heightened sensitivity had him reduced to whimpers in no time. He bucked his hips against your leg, gripping onto your thigh with even more urgency than before. His eyebrows furrowed in concentration, and his mouth hung open as moan after moan spilled out of him.

“You like this Jinnie?” you asked sweetly. “Getting off on my leg like a mutt in heat?”

Hyunjin groaned sinfully before giving a strained nod. “Hah...yes,” he managed to answer, his length twitching wildly against you as he began to move with more urgency. “F-feels good, Mama.”

The room was filled with the sound of his mewls and the jingling of his collar, and you felt yourself grow more aroused with every noise that escaped him. Your hands found his hair again, tugging at it roughly as he slid his cock against your leg.

A particularly loud cry caught your attention, and you gave Hyunjin a curious look. Sweat had begun to trickle down his face, and he bit down on his swollen lower lip as if to stop himself from saying something.

“Everything okay?” you asked, voice softening a bit. Another desperate sound rose in his throat and you felt a tinge of worry, wondering if he’d overwhelmed himself beyond words.

Hyunjin slowed his grinding to a more gentle pace before answering. “M-more…” he panted. “Mama, more, p-please.”

Your worry was quickly replaced with amusement as understanding washed over you. “More?” you echoed. “Did I hear you right, puppy?”

Hyunjin nodded frantically, and you used your hold in his hair to pull his head back, forcing him to look at you. His wide eyes met yours, full of lust and guilt. 

“Wanna be inside you, Mama. Need it.”

The breathless plea sent a shiver down your spine, and you steeled yourself to keep your expression firm. “That’s not what we agreed to,” you pointed out, tightening your grip on his hair. “What was it you told me? I’ll take anything?”

Hyunjin’s face flushed a deep red as you mimicked his earlier promise. “I’m sorry, Mama. It’s not enough,” he whined, voice shaking. “Need you. Please, please let me inside you. I need you so bad.”

You continued to eye him sternly, trying to ignore how wet the sound of his begging was making you. When you didn’t respond, his tone grew more frantic, and he pushed his length against your leg for good measure. “I can make you feel good, too. I can be a good puppy. Please, let me.”

He trailed off feebly, unable to hold your gaze any longer when he knew just how humiliating the view of him was beneath you.

“Hmm. I guess it can’t be helped,” you finally gave in. “You’re such a greedy slut, I don’t know why I expected any different.”

You tapped Hyunjin’s hands, and he obediently released his near death-grip on your thighs before detaching himself from your leg altogether. “Alright, baby,” you drawled, pulling your leg away. “Mama’s gonna let you inside, let’s see if you can keep your promise this time.”

Hyunjin’s eyes gleamed, his cock twitching uncontrollably at the thought of sliding into your wet heat. “Th-thank you, Mama.”

You shifted back on the bed and began to undress, not missing the way he swallowed hard, completely mesmerized as you slipped off your underwear.

Once you were done, you crooked your index finger, silently commanding Hyunjin to come join you on the bed. He scrambled onto the mattress and wasted no time before settling between your spread legs. You felt his length pressing against your folds, making your breath hitch.

Hyunjin was practically trembling with arousal, and he licked his plush lips in anticipation as he eyed the spot your bodies met. “Can I put it in, Mama?” he asked softly.

You reached up to give his head an affectionate scratch. “Go ahead, baby boy.”

As soon as the words were out of your mouth, Hyunjin lined himself up with your entrance, sliding in with ease. Your toes curled at the feeling of his cock filling you up, reaching the deepest parts of your core.

A long, shaky groan spilled out of him as he bottomed out inside you. “It’s s-so wet, Mama,” He gasped out, his eyes squeezing shut. “Feels—ngh—so good. Can I move? P-please can I move?”

You silenced Hyunjin’s babbling with a kiss, pulling him down by his collar to crash his lips into yours. They were soft and slick, and he let out an adorable mewl when you grazed your teeth along them. His length twitched inside of you, and you reluctantly broke the kiss to give him proper permission. “Fuck me like a good boy, Jinnie.”

Hyunjin moaned pathetically, pulling himself out halfway before snapping his hips forward again. He repeated the action immediately, slamming into you over and over as cries of pleasure tumbled out of him.

“Is this what you were begging for baby?” you purred. “Is this what had my puppy so territorial in front of his Channie-hyung?” 

“A-ah! Yes!” Hyunjin sobbed, his head falling against your chest. “Love being inside you...hah...you’re s-so soft and warm.”

He brought a hand up to paw at your chest, squeezing the soft flesh with increasing urgency. His pace began to quicken, making your own pleasure spike, and you slipped your legs around his waist to pull him closer.

Hyunjin’s mouth roamed your chest until he found your nipple, earning a soft moan from you as he wrapped his lips around it and began to suck almost obsessively.

His needy whimpers grew muffled as nursed, thrusting into you with more and more vigor. The slick warmth of his mouth on your sensitive bud invaded your senses until he pulled away suddenly with a sharp cry.

“C-close!” he gasped. “Close, Mama!”

You moved your hand up to cradle his head, trying to catch your breath. “Is it too much already, puppy?”

Hyunjin’s expression was utterly sinful above you as he struggled to muster a response. “Y-yes,” he breathed, a trail of drool beginning to dribble out of his wet lips. “Wanna cum inside. Wanna fuck a baby into you.”

His filthy words sent sparks of electricity straight to your core, and you clenched around him involuntarily. “Yeah? You really think you deserve to? Only good boys get to finish inside.”

He gave a helpless nod, too far gone to handle your teasing properly. “P-please, let me. ‘M your good boy. Wanna fill Mama with my pups,” his voice turned up in a whine as his thrusts grew sloppier and more frantic. “Wanna show everyone you’re mine. C-can I? Please, Mama, please...”

A wave of arousal overtook you, so strong that you felt the last of your resolve crumble. “So filthy,” you murmured. “You can let go, puppy. Don’t stop until I’m full.”

Hyunjin mewled weakly in response, chanting his thanks over and over. With just a few more jerks of his hips, the muscles in his abdomen contracted rapidly, and he was spilling into you.

He let out a choked sob, biting down on his abused lower lip in a futile attempt to suppress the sound. You moaned lowly at the feeling of his seed filling you up, hot and thick. Incoherent whimpers spilled from his mouth into your skin, his length pulsing inside you as he emptied his load with no signs of stopping. You relished in the warm feeling of his cum coating your walls, suddenly overcome with the desire for more.

Just as Hyunjin’s breathing began to slow, you pulled roughly on his hair, raising his head from your chest. “Keep going, Jinnie,” you directed.

“Hah...w-what?” he panted, his disoriented mind barely registering the command.

“You said you were going to be good for me, yeah? Now’s your chance to prove it.”

Panic flooded Hyunjin’s eyes, quickly washing away the bliss of his orgasm. His lips trembled slightly, but he nodded nonetheless, knowing he didn’t deserve to be shown any mercy. “Y-yes, Mama,” he whispered.

He pulled out of you again with a wince, a sharp, uncomfortable sensation replacing any remnants of pleasure from his orgasm. Sucking in a deep breath, he began to thrust in and out of you obediently, grabbing onto your chest for some sort of comfort as the overstimulation fully set in.

The feeling of your walls sucking in his hypersensitive length quickly became too much for him, and his tiny grunts morphed into pained whines. “M-Mama,” he cried. “It hurts.”

“Mm, you can take it, can’t you?” you encouraged, sliding a soothing hand up and down his back. “You were so eager before, fucking into me like that. Don’t hold back now.”

Your words contrasted the gentleness of your touch, and with a sob, Hyunjin nuzzled his face into your neck. “It’s t-too much,” he hiccuped. “Please, Mama...forgive me.”

His begging echoed throughout the room, along with the lewd squelching of his length pushing in and out of you. His hips stuttered in exhaustion, and he cut off his apologies with a low groan.

“Almost there,” you breathed, tightening around his cock as you felt the pressure in your lower abdomen build up. “Keep it up.”

Hyunjin let out a relieved sigh as pleasure began to gradually creep up on him once more. The blood rushed back to his length, and he increased his pace, now chasing his own high along with yours.

His cock stirred up the seed he’d already emptied inside you, and the added stickiness of it nearly sent him over the edge right then and there. “G-gonna cum again soon,” he slurred. “Wanna fill you up again, Mama.”

You slid your hand up to his neck, wrapping your fingers right around his collar. Hyunjin whimpered sinfully as you squeezed the sides of his throat. “Yeah? Gonna fill me with more of your cum, puppy? Gonna make sure you breed me right?”

“Oh, God, please.” Hyunjin groaned, barely able to get the words out due to your hold on his neck.

You drank in his fucked out state through hazy eyes. His face was dripping with sweat by now, and small droplets hung on the ends of his hair, splattering onto your skin with each thrust. He shut his eyes tight as he focused on holding himself together, and his plump lips were borderline bruised from how much he’d bitten down on them.

Your breath hitched as the head of his cock hit your sweet spot, pushing against it in just the right way. Hyunjin seemed to notice as well, and he repeated the motion, angling his sloppy thrusts as best he could.

“That’s it,” you gasped, your hands moving from his throat to grip his shoulders. “Just like that.”

With just a few more thrusts, you came undone. Your nails dug into Hyunjin’s skin as your orgasm washed over you, sending jolts of pleasure through your entire body. Your walls clenched around Hyunjin’s length, making him cry out sharply, and within seconds, his climax hit him as well.

A wave of bliss overtook you as his seed poured into you for the second time, warming up your insides in the most addictive way. He babbled incoherently into your skin, his stomach clenching and his cock twitching wildly.

It took several moments for the two of you to come down from your shared highs. Hyunjin flopped heavily against you as the last of his energy fizzled out, his sweaty body melting into yours. You instinctively wrapped your arms around his torso, holding him securely as he panted against you.

When Hyunjin’s breathing finally began to slow, he lifted his head to look up at you, relieved to find that all signs of sternness had been replaced with a fond, loving gaze.

“Th-thank you, Mama,” he murmured, looking completely and utterly spent. “And...‘m sorry for being so selfish today.”

You pushed back his wet bangs to place a kiss on his forehead. “You’re not selfish,” you reassured him gently. “But please, don’t ever doubt how much you mean to me, okay? You’re my one and only.”

Hyunjin buried his face in your chest, suddenly overcome with shyness. “I know,” he mumbled, fully relaxing to the sound of your heartbeat. “I’m yours…” There was a pause, then he let out a blissful sigh. “And you’re mine.”

[charles-leclerc-official]

First, I just want to say that your analysis on the Suzuka race weekend was absolutely beautiful - thought out, concise, to the point and really well written!

I just have one question, since you seem really knowledgeable on the more physics - concerning aspects of a race - how is negative tyre deg even possible? I know what it is, the definition isn't the problem, what I don't get is how can it even happen? How can you go faster on older tyres, how does that possibly work? Considering physics point towards the maxima you, yourself mentioned - new tyres = ability to go faster. And yet negative deg is possible, which has me incredibly confused.

Admittedly, physics isn't my strongest subject, so forgive me if the answer to my question is something very obvious, I would still appreciate you taking the time to explain it!

Took me a while to get to this one because it is a very advanced concept as far as the physics are concerned, and full disclosure I am by no means a physics expert. I understand the principals at play but the calculations for these relationships are pretty advanced.

But the main thing for why this is possible has to do with a relationship between the suspension, the track temperature, the camber of the tyres, the specific setup a driver chooses for their car, and the driver and their driving during the race.

So the idea is if you have a car base that is gentle on the tyres like the SF-24 the tyres may not warm up quickly. Tyres that are warmed will be able to have better grip and thus go faster. So if you have a car that isn't warming the tyres on the first laps enough for maximum performance then there exists a window where it is possible to go faster in later laps. This window can be widened by a driver's specific car setup choices as well as driving. The wider a driver can keep this window the longer they can maintain zero to negative deg. This is I believe what is going on with the SF-24.

So basically if you drive and achieve almost zero deg at first, you are essentially still on new tyres and thus when you want to push to go faster or increase your speed you can. This is a very oversimplified explanation and it doesn't apply to every single instance where we have seen a driver achieve this but you get the idea.

You see this in miniature with some laps for some drivers, if they have a really clean lap you often see them able to do a slightly faster lap or an identical lap on the next one because they didn't degrade as much as expected. It's the sheer consistency in not wearing the tyres or achieving minimal wear over many many laps in a row that gets into the territory we saw with Charles in Suzuka.

However doing this in practice is difficult. The driver's personal setup and the way they drive plays a massive role. So in Suzuka for Charles to pull that off he essentially had to make zero mistakes when it came to slippage on the corners (and he was almost perfect minus that one slip we all saw onto the curb) If he'd made any consistent mistakes that would have added to the wear on the tyres and he wouldn't have been able to last anywhere near as long.

I will say that because a driver doesn't do this it doesn't mean they are doing something wrong. Most drivers operate under the expectation that the tyres will degrade at a predictable rate.

This is a phenomenon that also would not be possible every race, or at every track etc. Conditions do also have to be right. This will probably be impossible in say Qatar, the heat will just be too great for this to come up there.

It's very situation and skill dependent. Both things must align to achieve it. Also obviously you have to have a car that is gentle on the tyres, without that kind of base it doesn't matter how good you are the tyres will still degrade. There is a reason we've only seen this in the top 2 - 4 drivers on the grid at any given time, and that is because the skill to pull it off with so few mistakes is not to be under-stated.

Tyre data would be able to help us understand this better but detailed tyre telemetry is unfortunately not made available by teams. This telemetry records the rate of wear lap to lap, tyre temperature etc. So teams get to use this data to further understand these things in their car and their driver.

I hope this helps at least a little. This is really asking about one of the cutting edge physics topics in F1 that not even some teams fully understand. And since we don't get the detailed data it's really hard to look at what the actual relationships at play are.

What we can do is look at the results we get, the lap times a car and driver generate and we can understand the car behavior that way.

[eldritch-spouse]

Now I'm very interested in all the icons heats 👀 What's Cero's heat like? I love when characters who act dignified and in control losing it to their own basic urges

[I can't wait for people to shit on him in my inbox.]

TW: Verbal degradation; Cero is his own warning tbh.

Cero will occasionally take heat supressants.

The problem with that is, the larger one is, and the more powerful, the harder it becomes to suppress one's heats. Sure, you can brew a heat suppressor so potent that it muffles a Lord of Hell's rut, but that's not exactly cheap to make, it takes time, it's unreliable, unpredictable, and can have negative health consequences. Cero has been careful with his use of this treatment.

Usually, during heats, Cero has the manor mostly evacuated. He doesn't want anyone, not even his servants, to witness his sorry state. He knows he's going to peacock helplessly to anyone he sees, and that'll be the death of his ego right there. Cero, while not exactly a traditional nesting type, will surround himself with anything he's particularly proud of having, or things that represent his status, his honor. It's like a gross, self-flattering altar really.

Your marriage contract, if you still recall it, rushed and full of fervor as it was, had a vague clause about Cero's ruts. Said clause denotes that you are to follow any instructions related to it given to you in the future. And, even if you come to hate this (most likely), fact of the matter is you'll never have someone give you a more descriptive survival guide for their heats than Cero. The fear of uncertainty is null because everything you can expect is in those pages.

Pre-heat symptoms are subtle, but there. Most noticeably, Cero will become easily shaken by what people say about him. He'll grow obsessed with his looks and behavior, checking himself constantly, looking around like a crazy man. The demonlord becomes insecure, prone to petty outbursts over the slightest hint of offense to himself, and taking heavy blows to his self-esteem from a mere half-hearted insult. He's almost afraid of being around others, especially you. In fact, Cero will make himself very scarce around his Queen during this time.

At night, he orders the servants to arrange a guest room for you, and that's where you'll sleep for the remainder of his rut. Before you go to bed however, he shows up at your bedroom door and pushes towards you a neat file folder with several pages. You're ordered to read it, and he speed-walks away before you can see how sweaty he is. That is the file with all the information you need, as well as your schedule laid out for the upcoming days. All your personal needs are accounted for, and it's structured in a way that makes it look like nothing's even changed. You better make sure you respect the hours stated in those files, because if you're even a minute late with your timing, Cero will drag you into his room even if you scream bloody murder. One of the ways he stays sane is through keeping track of time, so you must always be on your toes.

Wear what he tells you to, bring him his meal after you eat, respect the breaks for basic necessities and sleeping. Show up at his room when the file tells you and listen to every little word he says- Or you'll get really hurt.

Although clouded in hormones, Cero behaves predictably. He expects reverence and timidity, complete obedience is demanded of you. Let it be known he has several whips, and there's a good chance he could use them during this time. If you manage to keep calm and respect these rules, you're treated to some egotistical sex for the most part, but you're also privy to some of the demonlord's more honest thoughts.

There are moments where Cero's confident attitude crumbles from the highs and lows of hormones. Moments where he'll throw himself at you on the verge of tears, naked, shivering with need- Begging you to tell him he's perfect, that you love him. Is he doing things right? Is he good enough? Do you want to fuck him? Is his cock any good? Is he half as immaculate as you? Pick your answers very carefully, because if you hurt him, Cero will take it out on you tenfold when he's no longer suffering a low.

When you leave his room at the scheduled hours, you'll hear Cero calling for you throughout the night. Sometimes they're sweet nothings, other times they're insults, degrading you- Why aren't you beneath him? As if you have anything else better to do, you whore. He doesn't mean them, and he says that in the files. You are to ignore him entirely. It's a bit hard to sleep when you can hear him fucking himself the whole night, but he specifies he needs those moments to... "Unwind privately".

Respect the schedule, stay obedient, and it'll mostly be fine. Go out of your way to be irresponsible and Cero will have to take over in his muddled state- Something you decidedly don't want.

[vantaesfairie]

𝔭𝔦𝔠𝔨 𝔞 𝔠𝔞𝔯𝔡 : 𝔞𝔟𝔬𝔲𝔱 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔨𝔞𝔯𝔪𝔞 𝔬𝔫 𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔯 𝔡𝔢𝔰𝔦𝔯𝔢𝔡 𝔭𝔢𝔯𝔰𝔬𝔫

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for the easily butthurt people i’m not specifying or demonising any mental health disorder here. FUN AND ENTERTAINMENT ONLY.

choose a picture below:

pile 1: dancing girls around a bonfire

the main message i got was that ‘if they are working hard towards something, it will backfire or fail’. definitely their goals, even if they achieve them, will bring some sort of backlash to them. perhaps a hotheaded fight (could be verbal, physical...) too. and something about erect*ons possibly not working too (censorship bc of tumblr). their outspoken or blunt nature can cause them to amplify the negative effects of the karma on them. it feels very workplace, so they will get karma at work or in school if so. their passions and endeavours will not come to fruition the way that they may think it will. they will grow stubbornness and pessimism, and possibly overwork themselves in a bad way with no achievement at the end. expect something coming or going rapidly. either they will get out of a situation that they were barely in to begin with or they throw yourself into a situation head first without thinking things through. they rapidly advance making snap decisions which puts them at a disadvantage. 

pile 2: candelabra girl dancing

yalls main message is ‘justice will be served’. something in their balance (could be work life, emotional balance) will turn off and cause an imbalance which will affect them. they will be attached to material physical things like appearance, s*x, etc that makes them forget and dismiss about the real things that make up a person, which is their relationships and opportunities that appear. they will start to have some silent self-image issues but not tell that to the world. they could face weight or health problems. they could start to be financially dependent on something / someone else. if they have wronged someone, they will definitely pay the consequences. the truth will come out. their main challenges are just materialism and financial difficulties ahead. if there is a legal battle, i’m feeling that they will lose it. 

pile 3: lantern girls searching in water

your message is ‘they will lose everything’. (i’m not sure if this is everything everything, or just everything in the sense of what they find most precious in the world). their emotional maturity will decline, they won’t be able to open themselves to be friendly and to let people to get to know them. they will get triggered by the little things (in a bad way, unempathetic way). perhaps a creative block too if they are an artist in any way. they will be very deceptive, but people will realize their schemes. if they have cheated, this will come to light and bite them in the butt. if they were once this higher up who bird-fed those below them, the roles will be reversed. it feels to me like they will drop from the peak of what they thought they had to absolute nothingness, or a position that they feel is degrading. they may also start to cope with alcohol or some sort of binge. they’ll lose their cool, and get demoted. 

im in a very petty mood right now if u couldnt tell from my tone BUT DONT SHOOT THE MESSENGER. TAROT READINGS ARE FOR FUN. I DID NOT CURSE NOBODY HERE AND IF YOU HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY AB ME DEMONIZING PEOPLE shut your ass up

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[lunaapudleonem]

Mars in the signs and it's aspects with other planets (how to tell which kinks a person has?) - part I

Nota bene! First of all, I would like to emphasize that it is necessary to observe which house Mars is in and see what aspects it has with other planets! I will now briefly describe how different planets can influence the Mars sign. While you're looking at your natal chart, pay special attention to aspects that are at 0 or 1 degree.

Mars - Sun

positive aspects: self-confident person, they are into praise kink, they like fucking another person/being fucked while they're looking at themselves and their partner in the mirror, they like their partner to admire their skills and their body, they like to be a little bratty, they also like their partner to satisfy them for a long time and fulfill their sexual desires

negative aspects: they can be a bit insecure, they like to be shamed by their partner, they have a degrading kink, they enjoy pleasing their partner, they're very submissive, masochists

Mars - Moon

positive aspects: emotional, they love the missionary pose because they can look their partner in the eyes while they fuck, they like romantic sex, they like to hug a person in bed, they love to play with their partner's breasts/or for their partner to play with their breasts (depending on the gender), they like sucking titties, they like when someone is gentle and protective and they themselves like to be like that in bed

negative aspects: crying after sex, emotional turbulence during and after sex, instability, changing moods and changing libido often, they can get somewhat clingy after a one night stand

Mars - Mercury

positive aspects: they love dirty talk, they talk a lot while fucking, they love sexting, they like to give compliments, they like to moan, they like to excite their partner with only using words, they like to whisper in their partner's ear and vice versa, they like a communicative partner

negative aspects: they are too quiet during sex, they are ashamed to moan or talk during sex, they have a hard time expressing what they want from their partner in bed, they can have a kink that involves their mouth being shut

Mars - Venus

positive aspects: they're very in touch with their both feminine and masculine side, they are very charming, they're passionate and loving in bed, they like to compliment you and they like to recieve compliments, they're warm and attractive

negative aspects: they can have some sort of duality in them - they can like a specific type of person in bed but they search for a completely different partner for a romantic relationship, they prefer sexual relationships over romantic ones, they have a strong sexual desire

Mars - Jupiter

positive aspects: high libido, good in sex, skilled, they can easily satisfy their partner, they have a lot of options and they usually have a high body count, they enjoy having sex a lot

negative aspects: arousal problems, problems in bed, unfortunate events in bed, small number of options, disinterest in sex

Mars - Saturn

positive aspects: they like being dominant in bed, they like seriousness, they know exactly what they want in bed, they have a kink for people that wear suits/they like to wear suits as foreplay

negative aspects: daddy kink, age play, roleplaying any power dynamics, being too submissive

Mars - Uranus

positive aspects: they like to experiment in bed, they're not afraid to try anything, they're creative and exciting in bed, their partners will enjoy their unique ideas (they might use fruit, toothbrushes, butt plugs, ties or anything they can think of in bed just to spice things up a little), most likely to be interested in the same sex

negative aspects: they can have strange kinks that border on pathology, they can easily get bored with ordinary sex, they have to constantly try something new in bed, interested in other genders but tries to hide it

Mars - Neptune

positive aspects: seductive, passionate, dreamy, having sex with them feels like someone put a spell on you, they turn sex into something magical

negative aspects: they use various intoxicants during sex, sometimes they can lie about what turns them on so that they can please the other person, they can be very shy

Mars - Pluto

positive aspects: more aggressive in bed, dominant, they like roleplaying boss-subordinate relationships, they like to choke and spit on their partner, bdsm kink, they love rough sex

negative aspects: bratty, they like to tease their partner a lot, they love talking back, they like to be choked, bondage kink, they have a high libido, they bond with others through sex

Part II about the Mars in signs is coming up!

[allycat75]

So, you really are doubling down on this ASP thing aren't you, Boston Dumb Fuck (some final thoughts for a shameful day; for you, in case you are that oblivious now that you have capitulated to the dark side).

(Oh, and for any of his minions out there trolling, I fully entreat you to bubble this up to your stubborn, anxious overlord because he could do some real damage to the world, not just himself)

The negative, and 100 percent correct, comments for the Antisemitism in Schools discussion wasn't enough for you? Try to bury it all you want- the internet (and screenshots) are forever and people know. Not even when Secretary Cardona lamented the normalization of hating Jews, while you were awkwardly flaunting your poison band, tying you to the Nazi wifey, thus making you a perpetrator of this very normalization, did you not get the hint you are not welcomed in this space?

You know you can't have it both ways, right? You can't be the Political Avenger and also be "married" to a racist, antisemetic, fat-shaming, arrogant, selfish xenophob. Your balls aren't nearly strong enough to stratle that fence! Is this so much of a vanity project you are willing to forgo your "egoic narrative", wasting important people's precious time, who are trying to keep the ship we call democracy from sinking, while you look for a pat on the back for rearranging the deck chairs. You know, for someone who is very conscious of odors, you reek of rich white male Privlege. I can smell it through the Bluetooth connection and God does it stink! Didn't know being tone deaf also made you nose blind 🤷‍♀️.

Are you really going to tackle the big problems that young voters care, or should care, about head on? Are young voters even going to pay attention to what you have to offer? And who are you going to get to speak to your baby website, run by dilatants and clout chasers? I am sure you could get some blowhards like Rafael "Ted" Cruz, Matt "the Frat" Gaetz, and your old friend "Uncle" Tim Scott, but anyone with anything worth speaking to is not going to want to degrade themselves for liars like you. By the way, you may want to get used to the feeling, BDF, because if you don't make some MAJOR changes to your life soon, I sense this is how your dating life will be, too, once the divorce is finalized.

I hope your mama is still proud, because most everyone else is ashamed or embarrassed for you. You don't need to use the website as your personal barometer to tell you that.

PS- Don't make some corny joke tomorrow with the high schoolers about you being old. This isn't about you, and they weren't the ones who decided to "marry" someone 16 years their junior, who looks 26 years their junior and is sucking the life and soul out of you, making you look like you have aged about 10 years since the two kinda, sorta ceremonies. People Magazine's Most Pathetic Man of the Year! Yes, teach the young people how to make good decisions for their future, jackass!

[thatscarletflycatcher]

Been thinking again about the "Mitchum was right" post I wrote, and how the Gilmore Girls fandom has such a Rory-hate problem. Because in the fandom discourse "Mitchum was right" is saddled with lots of implications about how much of a failure, undeserving of the love, praise and encouragement she receives Rory is. It's so often taken as a synonym with "it's so satisfying to see this privileged little pampered girl being taken down a peg and slapped in the face with reality". And that's not it to me at all.

If anything, Rory's reaction to Mitchum's comments highlight an underlying problem about how she was raised. While Lorelai was raised in an environment where demands to conform were very high, Rory was raised in an environment were expectations of excellence were high. Rory doesn't have the freedom to be ordinary or to choose to be ordinary, or even outstanding at an ordinary, obscure job. Where Lorelai could rebel in the name of freedom, a Rory rebellion would have always been perceived as an unforgivable waste, as a sort of degradation. Lorelai was expected to not stand out, and because she stood out, Rory is expected to stand out.

The Christiane Amanpour aspiration always felt weird to me, because that's just not the sort of person Rory is. Rory is used to a model where if she does what pleases others, she will be rewarded with affection and admiration. Rory doing well or badly at school is predominantly about her reputation as intellectually outstanding, and not about the knowledge being acquired or the satisfaction of overcoming a great obstacle with great effort. In other words she's been raised since childhood with other people's expectations that she'll achieve great things and whatever she wants, not because she can put great effort and make great sacrifices and push hard, but because she's Rory and Rory means brilliant and good by default. Rory's source of validation is not the results of her own work, but the social rewards she gets for it.

It is a big contrast with Paris, who is made a go-getter for the simple reason that her family does not care about her and therefore has not created that system of social rewards for her. (I'm not saying this is good; I'm just presenting the way things work for her). Paris does crave those social rewards, of course, because she doesn't have them, but doesn't get discouraged when she doesn't get them, because she's used to it and has found a different source of motivation for herself. The only person Paris can really disappoint is herself.

That's why Rory is so secretive about the good things she has in her relationship with Jess. Standing up for Jess that way means pushing back against the narrative the people in her life have constructed about him and her, and that means letting them down and receiving negative feedback (this is a bit different from the just blank-statement "you hate Jess for no reason" and "he isn't as bad as you think" she does at some points, because those reinforce the narrative of "Rory is such a good girl she'll see good in everyone"). But I also think she's not the least bit aware that she's doing this or why.

The Christiane Amanpour style journalism is all about pushing back against the established narratives of those in power, and getting a lot of negative feedback from people that don't want to tell the truth or have the truth out in the open. It's about knowing what you want and be ruthless in its pursuit, no matter what, because THAT is the reward you get from it. Fame and fortune may or may not come, but they are not necessary for your self fulfillment.

From that perspective it does make sense for Mitchum to test Rory the way he does, and arrive to the conclusions he does. It is also proven right in how Rory crumbles in front of this negative feedback instead of digging her heels in.

But this isn't Rory's FaultTM

Because she hasn't been raised to be resilient in the face of negative feedback, to build a strong sense of self outside of the approval of the adults around her, and derive satisfaction from the things she does well and enjoys doing. The only instance of this she has is her job as editor of the Yale Daily News, and yet she never extracts the lesson that that is a great job for her, because she never seeks out similar jobs elsewhere. Why?

Because an editor is essentially someone whose job is the best when they are the least noticed. It's an essential job that requires great skills for managing people and schedules, keeping track of several things at the same time, and a clear perception of the big picture. Rory has all of that! But there are no famous newspaper editors as editors. Editors don't stand out, and Rory has been conditioned her whole life that in order to fulfill the expectations of everyone in her life, she MUST stand out.

This opposition between Lorelai's "never give in in anything" and Rory's "always give in in everything" also heavily influences the different way they face similar relationships. Lorelai can never be at peace with her mother, Rory can never be at peace without her. Lorelai's relationship with Christopher can never work because he's her bolt/rebel escape and she cannot outgrow that (as a side note this is why the execution of the Javajunkie does not work for me. Lorelai never achieves the state of mind where she can cope with someone else's hard boundaries, because she's incapable of seeing them under any other light than a restriction set upon her autonomy). Rory's relationship with Logan can never work out because she's mesmerized and subdued by his extreme self-assurance and inclination to disruption, and he works her punishment/rewards levers like an expert (and the failure of Literati's relationship on Rory's side is her inability to put her foot down and say "this is what I need from you" and "you cannot do this to me"). Both Christopher and Logan represent unhealthy coping mechanisms, but in opposite directions.

[riordanness]

hey dear! Can I have ‘When Emma falls in love?’ For Pjo

Hello! Hello! 

Here is my information!

Name: Anna Lee

Pronouns: She/her

Preference: Male

Age range: Any

Personality: I am an INTJ Slytherclaw, Aquarius and a Type 6 when it comes to anagrams. Lawfully Neutral. I am a huge overthinker and stress a lot with anxiety. People tell me that I can be blunt which results in people thinking that I can be cold but in reality I try to be a kind person when it is needed. I am a realist and many consider me to be intelligent, often asking me to help with their work. I’m incredibly passionate about things I like to do and have a thirst to know everyone’s opinions as I feel that if someone is left out. I’m a creative person but sometimes my brain just goes blank, I hate when it does. I have a really dry sense of humour that usually is a mix of sarcasm, fandom jokes or self degrading jokes. I'm an extremely stubborn person and have to be right about everything. From a young age, my parents were extremely strict and had expected the best out of me which resulted in me being an overachiever. I have to get things perfect or be the best at what I’m doing. I'm really sensitive, even some small harsh words are enough to make me teary. I’ve been called a crybaby because of that and to be honest, that is true. I give too much to other people since I’m afraid of saying no since what if they hate me? And I'm too scared to ask for help or to have something cause I think they will think I'm selfish and worthless. Not the best self esteem 😔 I love to listen to other people since I think not a lot of people have others that they can tell what they wish to say without getting judged or outcasted. But the problem is that I judge too easily too. As much as I want to show a good image to others and help them, I tend to focus on my own needs and how everything can affect me for the better or worse. I hate repeating things, especially in front of a big crowd. I daydream too much, my head always in the cloud. When I get excited, I speak really quickly and stumble over my words which I get embarrassed by and stop talking. I have a rosy view of how the world works—or more specifically, of the people I love. Like sometimes I point out the negative things in life but when with other people, especially those I love, I always see the goodness and beauty in everything. I am very sensitive, especially when it comes to my appearance and personality. I’m always afraid that people are constantly judging me or hate me, which is why I tend to avoid public spaces or being around people in general. When I get familiar with someone or a crowd, I’m not that afraid to state my opinion. I get jealous and possessive easily, like I mentioned my parents are strict meaning I got very few things of my own and those things only came to me because I tried so hard to get it. So when I see someone else with it, it just irks me off. I always make plans but I know I’m not going to complete them, I just like to imagine the future if I actually had motivation and energy to accomplish things. I can never start new things while completing old ones. I am also the oldest child and have 4 younger ones, another reason why I stress too much. I don’t think I mentioned this, but I get angry really easily. The slightest mistakes just pisses me off. I suck at short talks and starting conversations, it’s much easier to have lengthier conversations. I can never do presentations, I always get too nervous. Plus, my friends say my voice is really soft so no one ever hears me much, especially since I’m uncomfortable. When I get angry, my judgement is clouded. I am terrible at holding grudges. I would be upset at someone but the second I see them again, I feel normal and happy in a way. Probably said this before, but I’m a huge day dreamer and stubborn. I can’t concentrate on my work because I always get distracted and daydream about things I will never have. I normally appear composed but have a fiery temper. I really want to be a lawyer. My parents never let me use the internet much as a kid so I pretty much live under a rock but I am incredibly book smart. 

Looks: Half-Korean and Half- White. I’m slightly chubby and curvy with a pear-shaped body (Double D cups). Upon seeing me, many people point out my eyes which are hazel with slight flecks of many colours such as green and amber being the prominent ones. Almond eyes that are doe-like and slightly turn up at the end but barely noticeable. I have a button nose and thin heart shaped lips. My face is round and my eye shape is almond. I am approximately 5’3. Two small moles are fixated on my right cheek and underneath my lip. Long dark brown hair that almost appears black but that solely depends on the lighting. My hair reaches my hips and is kinda wispy at the end. It’s usually on a ponytail with a few strands framing my face. My clothing style tends to be anything comfortable and classy. I prefer to wear black and colours that are darker, you will never find me wearing orange or neon colours. 

Likes: Chocolate, Anime, Music, Food, Being right about something, Reading, Drawing, Strawberries, Smell of Rain, Sleeping, Being the Best, Baking and cooking (even tho I’m not that good at it)  Daydreaming, Murder Mysteries, Romance, Long walks, Making Ocs,  Fiction, Name hunting, Suits, Me, Pinterest, Spicy food, Sweets, Lavender and Indicolite, Aesthetics, and Flower Languages.

Dislike: Loud noises, Jerks, Prejudice People, Slow Walkers, People who chew loudly, Getting look down on, Insects, Studying, Fake People, Self-pity, Getting below 90% in a test, Snow, Overlysweet things, Going outside, and the feeling where your brain is blank and can’t tell what you feel like, Doing nothing all day and Tomatoes

Love Language: Physical Touch and Quality Time

Ideal Type: Pretty Eyes. Will always be there for me and not afraid to speak their mind. Honest and loyal. Someone I can call her best friend, I can be weird around them and they won’t mind at all,Yet they would still help me see the light at the end of the tunnel and tell me it’s okay, that everything is gonna be okay. I wouldn’t like ‘innocent’ people nor ‘kind’ people cause I feel like I won’t be able to connect with them based on my morality level. Will be attentive to my needs. Not necessarily loud but not quite, somewhere in between. I want someone who I can feel okay around, as if everything was fine. Someone who would help carry a burden with me, we are together in everything. A type of person who would wait for me when I’m tying my shoelaces. 

Congratulations on the 400!

hii anna lee! tysm for this,, i instantly got my answer who’s i was reading and it’s clear as day to me that your ship is…

you + jason grace !!

you guys totally understand each other, both of you are a little bit too strict with yourselves and are overachieving, but when you’re together you can both take down those walls and just be yourselves. you both have the same kind of dry humour, but can easily switch between jokes and deep discussions. he’s your best friend, but he’s also your confidante. you just get each other. you both have the same love languages and you’re an a soy sucker for his pretty sky blue eyes.

here’s y’all’s playlist,, hope you like it <3

reading and daydreaming with jason grace

[stellae-de-baphometis]

Can We Stop Fetishising Daemons Please?

⚠️ TRIGGER WARNING: Mentions of s3xual ass4ult, r4pe and s3xual content in general. ⚠️

Alrighty so this is gonna be a bit of a ranty post.

So I've been talking with a friend about this weird-ass trend going around lately where people are claiming to have sexual experiences with daemons. Now, having a sexual and/or romantic relationship with a daemon can actually be a really lovely experience, and it's not a problem in and of itself.

Triggering content incoming, will be under the cut. ⬇

The problem begins when people start treating daemons like sex objects and claim to either r4pe or be r4ped by daemons, s3xually ass4ult them, and reduce them to some sort of toy for them to fuck around with and exploit for their own benefit.

I'm just gonna say this right now... I don't personally believe these people are actually engaging in these experiences with daemons and infernal deities. You're most likely being leeched off of by an imposter spirit, and that shit is SERIOUSLY GONNA BACKFIRE one day.

It's people like this that really ruin sexual and/or romantic relationships with deities for everybody, and it gives the concept in general a really bad name. Whatever personal relationship you have with a daemon or deity is valid, as long as it's consensual and there is mutual respect between both parties. If you're going out of your way to disrespect a daemon or deity, they're really not gonna be happy about that shit. Especially if it's a daemon. You will seriously piss them off and they won't hesitate to kick you up the ass and teach you a lesson.

I've personally had a few sexual encounters with King Pazuzu that have been mutually consensual, and they've actually been very nice, albeit intense, experiences. I didn't exploit him and he didn't exploit me. In fact, him being a healer and protector spirit, he actually helped remove a lot of negative energies from me and boosted my self-esteem and self-confidence through the use of sex magic. He even cut toxic people out of my life and gave me the strength to stand up to them when they started giving me shit. I felt very rejuvenated and happy after my sexual experiences with him.

You can have sexual experiences and/or relationships with daemons that don't involve degrading them or reducing them to a sex object. There is absolutely no need to disrespect them like that and it is seriously not okay. Please for the love of the gods in the infernal heavens, be respectful to daemons and deities in general! You are not above them and if you try to act like you are, you're gonna piss them off and you're gonna get your ass kicked.

Oh and don't even get me started on the fact that Helluva Boss and Hazbin Hotel are partially to blame for all this shit. It really irks me the amount of immature horn-dogs that are now invading Daemonolatry as a practise because they saw Viv's interpretation of them and try to convince themselves the daemons are actually like that, just so they can fulfil their sick twisted perverted fantasies. But that's for another whole ass post.

Sigh, anyways sorry for the angry rant. This shit has been bothering me for a while now and I wanted to get it off my chest. As always, please have respect for the daemons and deities you work with...

Don't treat them like sex toys.

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[dumbdomb]

NO: lurkers, likes only, inactive, empty, or blank blogs. DO NOT "LIKE" MY CONTENT. DNI. ♥️

🫸 if you have any questions, ask or dm. 🫷

Men: Hard BLOCK ME right now if you're "mostly straight" or "attracted to women" or like "whatever you're into" and your blog is mostly about M/F relationships, thin white and nude women, or just imagery of women, only going to like or reblog visuals of my body, don't know much of anything about gender and sexuality...

Women: Hard BLOCK ME right now if you're "mostly straight" or don't like nonbinary people, bisexuality, queerness, if you have a problem with men, masculinity, butches, or only view me as a man or woman...

trans masc ≠ trans man. if you're younger than me, i am not your older person fantasy. actually read my entire pinned post and be respectful of my boundaries or block me and close the page.

Blogs I block on sight: underage, no age, likes only, lurkers, spam likes without reblogging anything, no content on blog, not currently active, new blogs, people from other platforms, people with r/196, tirffs with iv> and ∆ and ∆⊝ and |⃤⃝ and other signifiers in their description, ALL conservatives and discourse blogs. i'm not here to change your mind. dni if your heart and mind are filled with hatred and negativity. ⛔️

Do NOT Interact means Do NOT like, reblog, reply, comment, direct message (for anything other than polite and respectful clarification).

DNI: no/maps, loli, icky kink, "icky" blogs, "pro-para" (maps, incest, unspecified paraphilias like all the other generalized names i've listed here, rqc ☔️🍰 and other anti-trans people in the "para safe" community), unspecified "hard" kinks, unspecified "gross" kinks, unspecified "taboo" kinks, unspecified "dark" kinks, ddlg (specifically, doesn't apply to all cgl), older men / younger women, incest, forced fem, detrans kink, misgendering, misogyny, matriarchy, patriarchy, race fetish, fat fetish, feeder, gainer kink, dyke breaking, corrective rape, tradwifery, cucking, infidelity, cheating, hot wife, trophy wife or husband, cucking, pregnancy, alphas, sigmas, femcels, beastiality, zoophilia, allocishet "straight people" kinks and any conservative ideals romanticized or fetishized in kink play or in vanilla romantic and sexual relationships.

if you use afab/amab and tme/tma terms seriously and definitively, if you have an issue with "transandrophobia" or the experiences of transmasculine people, if you're prejudiced against butch, intersex, nonbinary, genderqueer, agender, or gender nonconforming (cisgender people included) then steer clear of my blog.

ℹ This is a personal blog. I do not conduct professional business here. All posts are lifestyle kink and thusly for Myself. The boundaries I have in place reflect these intentions and were written based on how people have treated me. I don't send anons, but love receiving them. I am very much against anyone sending hate for any reason whatsoever. Body and Kink Positive. 💝

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Sir, Mister, Miss, Daddy, Goddess

bro, babe, dude, pal, a friend 💕

✅ Turn ONS:

humiliating, degrading, and dehumanizing My partner(s). seeing them in zentai or a gimp suit. i like my chest, being spoiled and cared for, being treated gently, depravity, perversion, Cnc, omo, piss, sweat, drool, dacryphilia, medfet, gfd, fdom, blasphemy, denial, scent, primal, terato, sanguine, impact play, whump, fear play, leather, masks/hoods, snuff, necro, horror fantasies, weaponry, stockholm/lima, cute clowns (not scary), kawaii kink, tickling, feet, pegging from the bottom, hypnotism, forced masc (but only for the affirming celebration of masculinity, i don't like the forceful part), being overstimulated to cum multiple times until i'm catatonic and involuntarily convulsive or nearly passed out and totally limp (physically weak)...

❌ Turn OFFS:

being submissive, switching, topping, straight people, being praised, being called a good girl or good boy, being called mommy, breeding, ovi, impreg, cum, facials, lactation, hucow, Master/slave terms, diapers, scat, rape play, rough or forceful play, pussy slapping, tit torture, age gap, fauxcest, furries (ally, but personal squick), abo, sissies (tfem and not forcefem is ok), anal, the mainstream version of many popular kinks are often done in an unappealing way for me...

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what is a swerf and why is it hated?

touchy subject for an ask on this fine Monday afternoon.

Here is a super high-level summary:

SWERF stands for "sex work-exclusionary radical feminist" - a very broad brushstroke definition is that SWERFs oppose sex work of all forms, viewing it as inherently degrading and violent to women, and seek to have all forms of it abolished. (There are gradations of this and not all radical feminists agree on all things etc. As with all movements, ymmv.)

There are sort of two "camps" around sex work in feminism (again, super broad brushstroke): one arguing that all sex work is inherently demeaning and no matter what, it will always be a form of subjugation and/or violence against women and therefore will never be seen as a form of work for women. Another way to put it is that sex work isn't work, it's abuse/subjugation. Sex workers therefore cannot be workers, since they are not undertaking labour, they are instead victims.

This approach can lead to a condescending and patronizing view of sex-workers who tend to be silenced by SWERFs who argue that they are representing the best interests of the sex workers on their behalf.

Indeed, some sex workers have expressed frustration, anger, and disappointment at the condescension and patronization they have experienced from those who align with sex worker-exclusionary radical feminism. They argue that the position held by SWERFs of sex workers "selling themselves/their bodies" is a) stupid because all workers use their bodies to sell labour, b) reductionist by making sex workers little more than their body parts, and c) feeds into the patriarchal trope of the victimized sex worker who has limited personal agency.

There also tends to be a lot of reducing all sex workers down to (white) cis women ignoring trans, two-spirit, non-binary etc. sex workers.

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On the other side of the conversation are feminists who view sex work as work. There are a tonne of variations on the details around this position.

Two easy examples of some diverging views: there are those who argue that sex work is no different to other occupations and it's only treated as such because of moral strictures around, and fear of, sex (and women, queers, trans folk etc).

Then there are others who say that sex work is legitimate as any other form of work, but there's still an inherent problem around society being structured in a way where work (as a broad concept) is required in order to survive. Therefore, there should be means to ensure people can survive without being forced into labour (e.g., universal basic income). This would then reduce situations wherein anyone is pressured or forced into any occupation/form of labour, including sex work.

Then there are those who say it's a combination of the two above points or something else entirely.

There is also variety of opinions on whether sex work can be empowering or if it's almost always going to be a more negative experience. The nuances of why/to what degree/which circumstances etc. are many.

Differences aside, 'sex-work is work' feminists tend to agree that sex work is shaped by the class, gender, race, legal position etc. of those undertaking it in relation to where they live and the social/political realities there. In addition, most in this camp agree that it's a complex topic and that sex work can be both exploitative/violent and a site of agency, depending on the person and the situation.

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My personal issues with SWERFs, among other things, is the policing of the voices of sex-workers which goes part and parcel with the condescension and patronization. Also the tendency of some to reduce women to little more than their body parts tends to lead to a strong overlap in these circles between SWERFs and TERFs (though not all SWERFs are TERFs and vice versa).

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That said, feminist thinkers across the board (including SWERFs) broadly agree that legal policies which criminalize the sex workers themselves are harmful and they also broadly agree/recognize that those in the sex work industry tend to be disproportionally vulnerable to violence, which is an issue largely neglected in policy-making.

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The International Committee on the Rights of Sex Workers in Europe has a decent briefing paper on the ongoing the matter which is a decent place to start, if you're interested in reading more. It focuses the voices and opinions of sex workers themselves and is trans inclusive, which is great.

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quick end note: as noted above but I want to re-emphasize, not all sex workers are exclusively women. There is a wide range of people who identify all across the gender and sexuality spectrum who undertake sex work.

second end note: everything in the above is super high level and very simplified. There's a lot I left out or glossed at a real high, high level. YMMV in most of what I have written, depending on the feminist you're talking to.

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There is a criminal lack of Affogato Cookie content out there 🙄 Could I get some general smut headcanons for Affogato? Gender neutral reader if possible please ^^

『oh honey I agree, and I am (more than) happy to deliver 🥰🥴 we love coffee twink』

General Smut Headcanons »» g/n! reader

tw// nsfw themes, dumbification, corruption, DDLG related themes, dacryphilia, degradation, manhandling, use of aphrodisiacs and other related drugs, light sadism/masochism dynamic

NSFW UNDER THE CUT

Affogato is a switch at heart. He cant have one or the other. He’s heavily experimenting and he constantly wants something new.

He’s no stranger when it comes to this— I mean look at him, have you heard him? His voice can wrap the most innocent of women and men around his finger.

Listen he loves corruption, okay? The sound, the thought, the look of innocence is like a dream to him. And he treats it like paper to tear.

The little whines and cries they make when he embarrasses you get him off. It makes him laugh, cmon entertain him!

He’ll make himself look 100% normal at first. AT FIRST. But then they just HAD to have sex with him once and BOOM. Completely different person.

Will dumb them down so much. They’ll look like an idiot.

Such as if mr. powerbottom over here fucks them silly and they’re just mewling away at their own climax he may say something like,

“Has daddy fucked you stupid?~ Aww, you’re so dumb baby girl, look at you!~”

He loved appearing like the bigger person. The smarter person. The one that knows better. The one that knows what’s right for you, like no one else knows them like he does.

What does this come from? Oh, he also has a daddy kink too what fun!

Another attempt to make you look small and cute, he’ll make them wear clothes that are younger than their age to make them appear more innocent.

Lace, frills, and more lace, Affogato likes to toy with them in lacy frills so soft like silk. Too bad he’s gonna tear that off.

Being someone who leans on the verge of sadism, he enjoys it when you cry. He takes pleasure in your blissful state of pleasure and discomfort as he manhandles you, whether that be on the bed, the floor, a fucking closet, somewhere.

That being said, he also loves to mark them up, whether in or out of sex. He trusts no one, even if it’s a friend of yours, and if he has to mark you to show dominance, he will.

Please don’t cry/j, he’ll get off to that.

He sees those tears roll down your cheeks and he just laughs and smiles and licks your tears away and goes,

“Oh, your tears are delicious!~ If you keep that up however it will only make me want to bully you, hmhmhm~”

May spice things up with aphrodisiacs. He’s the type of asshole to poison your food with them when he’s feeling frisky. But don’t worry, if you all have talked this one trough, there should be no problem.

He communicates with you when he wants to get down simply by using facial expressions and a motion of his finger, luring them over quick. Soft creme eyes and that reptilian stare just so intoxicating.

With degradation, it’s a pleasurable mix of negative and positive. He uses a pleasure/pain reward system, so if you do something he likes, he’ll praise you for it, quite sexually. If you do something he doesn’t like, he’ll let you know, again, quite sexually.

Definitely a lot more down bad than Espresso. If he sees something he likes, he’s assertive about it. Very touchy, very flirty. Things like that. This may also lead off into romps in the future depending on how your relationship grows.

Def playful. Def fun. Def hard. He’s unpredictable. Good for the bedroom, hm? Just don’t get too wrapped up in his coils now~

[night-wyld-system]

Understanding Trauma

Many people seem to not understand trauma. This can be helpful to any and all people, regardless of whether or not you have experienced any trauma. Trauma can occur at any time or age. Being aware of how something is considered trauma is important so you can heal. Weather you were traumatized in childhood or adulthood, you deserve to be able to heal and understand that your struggles were indeed enough and valid.

What Is Trauma?

According to TIC "Trauma is a pervasive problem. It results from exposure to an incident or series of events that are emotionally disturbing or life-threatening with lasting adverse effects on the individual’s functioning and mental, physical, social, emotional, and/or spiritual well-being."

Trauma is a very vast and nebulous concept. It is an incredibly broad umbrella term that covers any and all distressing experiences that leave an impact on the individual who experienced them. They can be real or imagined experiences as well.

The way we (as a system) personally process trauma from our experiences with side effects of a medication giving us auditory and visual hallucinations is the same as we process the rest of our trauma due to the nature of what we suffer from. The "smaller" traumas we have endured are no less or more distressing than the "larger" traumas, merely they are easier for us to accept the fact that they occurred.

No one person will have the same criteria for what constitutes trauma for their brain. Everyone has a different tolerance for what may or may not be traumatizing. For example, children are more likely to be traumatized by things that would not traumatize an adult. Children are less aware and less capable of thinking about the future, because of this they often do not seem to understand that events are not life-threatening. This is not something that is to be seen as a fault or personal failing, this is merely a part of human nature.

Types Of Trauma

So many people are not aware that instances in their childhood or adult life may be traumatic or can cause trauma. They may believe that either they themselves or others are being weak for being affected so much by the things they have experiences. We understand this issue very well as we have often degraded and beaten ourselves up over the idea that some of our "lesser" traumas were not as bad as our "greater" ones and should have been inconsequential. This is not fair to us or anyone else.

Bullying People often overlook this as a form of trauma due to the idea that being bullied is a "normal part" of childhood. However this is a very unhealthy and unrealistic standard that has been set which plays a large role in socio-cultural issues we see today. That however is a topic for a different discussion entirely.

Some things that are seen as normal childhood "bullying" but can be traumatic are, but not exclusive to:

Child on child violence

Physical (hitting, tripping, kicking, etc.)

Verbal (name calling, teasing, taunting, threatening, and sexual comments)

Social (spreading rumors, embarrassing someone in public, being purposefully exclusive)

Cyberbullying (sending negative, harmful, and/or false content electronically via text messages or email; posting mean things or hurtful pictures online through social media, blogs, etc)

Bystander (seeing someone be harmed and not stepping in, being unable to help, etc.)

Things that can come from it that can also be traumatic:

School avoidance, including missing or dropping out of school

Poor academic performance

Self-injury

Eating disorders

Suicidal or homicidal ideas or actions

Stress, anxiety, and depression

Loneliness and isolation

Feelings of rejection, or poor self-esteem

Changes in sleep and eating patterns

Poor relational skills/never learning how to socialize

Community Violence Yet another form of trauma that is often overlooked is living in a volatile and aggressive environment. Whether or not you yourself get involved in any of the conflicts that have taken place in your neighborhood, city, town, region, or country, does not matter. The environment itself and the general feelings of tension can be incredibly stressful.

Things that can fall under this, but are not exclusive are:

Exposure to acts of violence committed in public areas by those who are not known to the victim

Gang conflicts/fights

Individual conflicts

Shoot outs

Public stabbings/shooting/violent assaults

Group conflicts

Ongoing Wars

Terrorist attacks

“War-like” conditions (often associated with high rates of crime and large amounts of organized crime)

Exposure to homicides, sexual assaults, robberies, assaults, and weapon attacks of either those you know or those who are detached

Consistent or constant reasonable fear of ones safety

Further traumas that can come as a result:

Bodily injury

Always being on edge

Trouble with trusting people in your community

Flashbacks

Exposure to and heightened risk for substance abuse

Being in survival mode

Worry about family & friends

Natural Disasters The world itself can be a scary place at times. There are a whole list of ways that nature itself can be a cruel and traumatic force. Survivors of natural disasters, no matter how big or small can be left with lasting mental scars.

Some examples may include:

Hurricanes

Earthquakes

Tornados

Wildfires

Floods

Tsunamis

Landslides

Blizzards

Droughts

Extreme Heat

Extreme Cold

Wind Storms

Further things that may be traumatizing which come as a result of some natural disasters:

Displacement

Loss of housing

Less resources

Loss of personal property

Changes in school

Changes in work

Loss of income

Physical injury

Loss of a loved one

Loss of community

Separation Anxiety

Medical Trauma Dealing with injuries, medical conditions, illnesses, and chronic illness can also be traumatic. Not only from just merely being sick or in pain, but also from the experiences one may have in a medical facility. These are typically based more on subjective experience than the fact of the injury/illness/treatment itself.

Some forms of trauma may include:

Injuries

Invasive procedures

Non-invasive procedures

Hospitalizations

Shock and loss of control at a diagnosis

Life-altering complications 

Conditions of the medical ward

Conditions of the doctors office

Unexpected medical intervention

Delirium experienced by some patients

Children not understanding what's going on

Chronic illness and health complications

Excessive doctor visits as a child as compared to ones peers

Additional forms of child that may be experienced as a result:

Impair day to day function

Flashbacks

Lack of adherence to medical treatment

Impediment to recovery

Physical Abuse This is a much more tricky topic as everyone tends to already have an idea of what this is. However most people's understanding of these issues are lacking to say the least. Society would have you believe it must always be done with harmful intention and result in physical injury, but that is not always the case.

Examples of some forms of this trauma:

Punching

Kicking

Grabbing 

Slapping

Dragging someone around

Unwanted non-sexual touch

Hair pulling

Spitting

Object throwing

Physical restraints

Having your medication controlled/restricted

Use of weapons

Coercion into using substances

Scratching

Biting

Pushing

Pulling

Pinching

Burning

Withholding physical needs (physical neglect)

Injuring or threats to injure others

Seeing an abuser destroy objects

IPV, Intimate partner violence

Seeing IPV/intimate partner violence

Further traumas that may be experienced as a result:

Struggle to develop and maintain friendships

Flashbacks

Walking on eggshells

Survival Mode

Physical injury

Welts

Bruises

Scars

Red marks that may fade away

Sexual Abuse Sexual abuse is yet another touchy subject, and one that needs to be discussed more. There are so many different forms of sexual abuse.

Examples of SA:

Sex Trafficking

Forced/Coerced Prostitution

Forced/Coerced Sex-work (virtual)

Contact

Non-contact

Assault

Groping

Harassment

Rape

Leaking/spreading of nudes

Using force, coercion, guilt, or manipulation.

Exploiting a victim who is unable to make an informed decision

Laughing or making fun of another’s sexuality or body

Making contact with the victim in any non-consensual way

Exhibiting excessive jealousy resulting in false accusations of infidelity and controlling behaviors to limit the victim’s contact with the outside world.

Having affairs with other people and using that information to taunt the victim.

Withholding sex from the victim as a control mechanism.

CSA/Child Sexual abuse This is a subset of SA, consisting of any forms of it that occur to a child. This is about whether or not it can be traumatic and less about if there is purposeful harm (there is unintentional forms of CSA also known as covert csa)

Examples include:

Child on child CSA (when a child assaults another child)

Non-contact CSA (typically any form of CSA where a child is not directly touched)

asking, pressuring, inciting, or otherwise coercing a child to engage in sexual activities (whether or not it leads to physical contact)

sexual touch/fondling (even if fully clothed)

sexual activity in the presence of a child

causing a child to watch a sexual act

exposure of genitals to a child

viewing a child’s genitalia or breasts without contact

inappropriate sexual conversation

meeting a child following sexual grooming

using a child to produce child pornography

sexual grooming

emotional incest

spousification

Religious/Spiritual Abuse Preface: Religion and spirituality is okay and can be healthy! Religious abuse happens when religions are run in bad ways or by bad people. This is any form of distress that occurs within a religious group or institution and has a lot of overlap with different types of abuse and traumas. This is even more apparent in cults.

Enforcement of the idea “you were born sick”

Fear of being damned to eternal suffering (things like fear of hell)

Being kicked out of the church

Removing oneself from a religious group and losing connections due to it

Trauma from separating oneself from a long believed in religious figure

Belief in being constantly watched

Being told you are sinful

Puritanical abuse (shaming sexuality, shaming sexual thoughts, shaming abuse survivors)

Experiencing shame or being told you’re not worthy of love due to your thoughts or beliefs

Fear of expressing yourself or sharing your thoughts

Forced to follow your communities rules and expectations

Marginalization due to your gender or sexuality

The use of scripture to justify abuse or injustice

Not feeling free to leave your faith

Individuals in positions of power who force members to participate in religious ceremonies or use fear of hell or punishment to earn their abnegation

Suppression of normal child development through limited access to information and the teaching of dysfunctional beliefs

Stifling independent thinking and creating self-doubt, to diminish the agency of members

Financial abuse

Financial manipulation

Ways leaving religions or the effects of harmful religious groups may be traumatic:

difficulty with decision-making and critical thinking

identity confusion

lack of meaning

Sleep and eating disorders

Nightmares

sexual dysfunction

Rupture of family and social network

financial stress

interpersonal dysfunction

emotional, intellectual, social, and sexual immaturity resulting from the control of information and discouragement of critical thinking within the religious environment

Traumatic Grief Grief is something that almost everyone will experience, but sometimes this can infact be traumatic. Especially for young children. It is okay if your grief turned traumatic.

Examples of traumatic grief:

Sudden loss of a loved one

Learning a loved one was murdered

Learning of a horrific crime that resulted in a loss of a loved one

Unexpected losses

Loss of a child

Accidental death of a loved one

Stalking This is something that a lot less people have experienced but it is very important to be talked about nonetheless.

Types of stalking/examples:

Cyberstalking

Domestic Stalking

Lust Stalking

Love-Scorned Stalking

Celebrity Stalking

Political Stalking

Hitmen Stalking

Revenge Stalking

Intimate

Non-intimate

Being followed around

Having someone taking photos of you without your knowledge and posting them online

Seeing the same person numerous times around you

Constantly feeling or being watched

Finding your things out of place when you know for fact you did not displace things and do not have any memory issues

TLDR;

There is a large amount of things that constitute trauma. We skipped a few things being trauma that is experienced due to discrimination and trauma experienced due to survivors guilt.

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Ethics

My personal ethics related to nature interpretation are driven by the concept of preservation for future generations, and hugely driven by my sense of responsibility for our planet's well-being. The driver of responsibility is multi-faceted: taking accountability for one’s previous actions, as well as taking an authoritative position to spark future action and educate others. As a nature interpreter and environmentally conscious person in general, I am the most influenced by an unconventional driver: fear. When I think of 15 years in the future, I am overwhelmed by a sense of uncertainty and sadness because I do not know what the state of the world will be, based on the trajectory we are currently on. I have been obsessed with climate change biology, biodiversity, wildlife management, and forest ecology, since starting my undergrad 3 years ago, which has subsequently transformed my hobbies and interests outside of school into hiking, camping, and exploring nature. I have developed an intensive love for nature that I want everyone to experience as well; I love bringing friends, family, and my boyfriend on adventures and showing them my favorite beaches, trails, and little secret spots in the forest. However, I fear I will not be able to do these things with my children one day because of habitat degradation and loss. This is not an irrational fear, even the textbook describes climate change as a looming threat that requires action and the need for policy-makers worldwide to better understand the importance of climate change (Beck et al., 2018).

I have always been interested in eco-friendly lifestyle choices such as zero waste, carbon-neutral practices, and ethically sourced food for the preservation of our planet. When I was much younger I thought that everyone had to be 100% plastic-free and make sacrifices for our planet, but my beliefs have shifted… I still believe that it is everyone’s responsibility to help save our planet but I can recognize that unfortunately, even my most intense efforts on an individual scale were lackluster compared to the negative contributions of large corporations and governments. 

My values are a very strong driver in my life, as my beliefs on the importance of climate change action and the preservation of the planet have had me in debate lately on what I want to do for my graduate studies. I am not sure if I want to do my Bachelor of Education (as originally planned) or a master's degree to contribute to climate change research. My dream research would be to develop improved carbon sequestration modeling, specifically for agriculture. This is a field of research very dear to my heart because it is the intersection of my major and minors (Biological Science, Mathematics, Geographic Information Systems (GIS) & Environmental Analysis), as well as being in demand research for policy-makers to set accurate goals. As the textbook states, a key role of nature interpretation is helping people accurately perceive the world (Beck et al., 2018). We are currently in a situation where we have inaccurate carbon storage and sequestration models in agriculture (and other areas such as the Arctic). This research could severely influence our carbon capture goals and efforts needed for Canada to achieve net-zero emissions by 2050, as promised in The Canadian Net-Zero Emissions Accountability Act (Government of Canada, 2024).

Kinsky, G. (2023). Tractor moving forwards with histograms and data in the background. Unearthing the Potential of Agriculture in Carbon Sequestration. Agritask. Retrieved from https://start.agritask.com/blog/carbon-sequestration-in-agriculture/. 

I feel horrible guilt about climate change, habitat degradation, and the loss of biodiversity, which has made me feel obligated to help “save the planet” as it is partially my responsibility. For so many problems in the world, we think things are not our responsibility and that someone else more qualified or higher up-the-food-chain will come along and fix them, but this research seems perfect for me to tackle because I am very passionate about the issue and my entire undergrad lends itself to this research. 

Now you might be thinking “So what’s the problem? What is stopping you from pursuing this research?” 

I am in a constant debate between becoming a teacher and prioritizing raising children and starting a family young or if I should throw myself into academia by prioritizing research for the next several years. On the one hand, I would love to pour my entire heart and soul into raising children and being a nature interpreter for them and my students, on the other hand, I could devote all of my energy to the longevity of the planet which could benefit the entire world. Ethier way, I am very motivated as a nature interpreter to spread awareness about climate change and reverse the degradation we have done to the planet, intending to preserve a healthy planet for generations to come, because what type of world would we be bringing children into if we do not crack down and make changes now? 

This blog has been incredibly intimidating for me because of how deep the prompt is this week. I have completely rewritten his blog 2.5 times since Monday; it has sent me into crazy spirals doubting my entire life plan and rearranging my planned courses, I even set up a meeting with an academic advisor. So after a week of wrestling with my personal ethics and goals/responsibilities as a nature interpreter, I have realized that I cannot drive into a master's degree out of guilt and that I can feel satisfied with my contributions to helping the planet without compromising my life plan and other personal beliefs. Our textbook mentions the importance of teaching people that the individual behavior of everyone contributes to both the problems and solutions of climate change (Beck et al., 2018). The best approach for me to accomplish my goals and feel I have done my part is to use the skills I've developed as a nature interpreter in this class! I will encourage others to see the beauty in the planet and help them take action against climate change as a nature interpreter. I will help spread awareness about climate change through word-of-mouth and social media, be active in politics and talk to my municipal representatives/elected officials, lead the eco-club at the school I will be teaching at someday, and make eco-friendly household changes like investing in energy-efficient appliances, reducing water waste, having a garden, composting and shopping locally. I will do my part to tackle climate change by taking the powerful role of a nature interpreter and leading by example!

I would like to end by sharing my favourite family photo: three generations of my family (me, my sister, my mom, and my grandma). I love this photo because it represents the biggest motivator of my personal ethics: the prosperity of future generations. 

References

Beck, L., Cable, T. T., & Knudson, D. M. (2018). Interpreting cultural and natural heritage : for a better world. Sagamore Venture.

Government of Canada. (2024, February 2). Net-zero emissions by 2050. Canada.ca. https://www.canada.ca/en/services/environment/weather/climatechange/climate-plan/net-zero-emissions-2050.html