#transness

[destroyingangelneveragod]

"kill em with kindness" wrong potion of transexuality

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[nyancrimew]

Confession: I'm not nearly as confident that I'm trans as I project. I'm terrified that I just didn't know how to solve my other problems and somehow turned that into dysphoria and now that transitioning isn't magically solving everything (even if it is in fact making me much happier) someday I'm going to regret it, but I feel like if I tell anyone that they'll treat me even less like a girl.

i feel like this is just how a lot of trans people (myself included) feel, especially when there are various compounding mental health issues present as well. my opinion on it is just that doing whatever makes you happy is almost always gonna be the right choice, especially in regards to gender and sexuality. you can always still change your mind later, things change and you can do whatever you want forever.

life is scary but i think we become who we are by following our ideas of who we wanna be even if we might not wanna be that forever. living is all about changing and growing, change is not regression even if you "go back" to what you were before.

[sparkbirdmusic]

a few people have recently assumed my sex assigned at birth to be different from what was actually assigned and I feel both guilty and like I’m a nonbinary success story

but I’m genuinely not sure if I need to do something about this, it’s caught me off guard every time. I worry about misleading people, but that worry also feels like internalized transphobia (like a “what am I *really* though” situation)

edit: to be clear, the context relates to being a trans vocalist, and about their feelings about their own voices and transitioning. I actually find it affirming to be perceived the way they’re perceiving me! but I’m not an example of a singer on T. some singers who have been open about being on T are Mal Blum, Anjimile, and Sushi Soucy—among countless others, but these are a few who I particularly admire and whose work I think would resonate with my listeners

[jaybirdscoffee]

Because I’ve seen genuinely nobody talking about it, I wanted to make a post about United States vs. Skrmetti, the Supreme Court case that just had oral arguments made today. This case was brought forth by the ACLU, and asks whether discrimination against trans people can violate the Constitution, in response to Tennessee’s law banning gender affirming care for trans youth.

This is the most important trans rights case probably fucking ever, and though nothing was decided today, it doesn’t look good y’all. For anyone. In short, the Court is probably going to uphold Tennessee's ban on care for minors, but might absolutely destroy rules about sex-based discrimination. Several of the Republican justices "suggested creating a carveout from the ordinary constitutional rule restricting sex-based discrimination of all kinds." Chief Justice Roberts offered up the idea of allowing the government sweeping authority to engage in medical discrimination, and of course, Justices Kavanaugh, Alito, Barrett, and Thomas all indicated being in favor of that. The implications go beyond just trans people, here.

And not only does it look like the Supreme Court will uphold Tennessee's law, but this decision could open doors for the government to prevent adults from seeking gender affirming care, likely leaving it a states' rights situation. For many of us (trans people), this will likely end up being a matter of life or death. Red states have been trying to institute bans like this for years now, and the decision that may very well come down from the Supreme Court about Skrmetti will only embolden these efforts.

Please don't ignore this post. Please reblog it, spread it around, because I've seen dick about it on this website all day. Engage in local and state governments, form community, don't stick your head in the sand. If you're cis, you should reblog this. Trans issues effect you too, and if caring about other human beings isn't a reason enough for you to give a damn, they will eventually become your issues.

Educate yourselves, know your rights, and know what's happening in your communities. There are good things out there too. The arguments made in front of the court today were historic on multiple fronts. Chase Strangio, the lawyer for the ACLU, became the first known/openly trans person to argue in front of the Supreme Court. That's one hell of a historic first. I know the impulse right now is to turn away from news and politics, because it all seems painful, but that is the last thing we should be doing. Please stay vigilant, and stay hopeful.

[your-average-mess-on-all-fronts]

The first time I read discworld as a kid, I didn't really understand what the whole "if you are asked to find the real you in a maze of mirrors, ignore them all and look down, and that is you" thing was supposed to mean. I thought it was kinda weird and pretentious. Like, why are you avoiding the question?

But now that I've actually experienced some of the identity crises that you encounter when growing up, it makes so much more sense. It actually makes more sense now than it did back then, to people who grew up in a post-social-media world. You're constantly presented with esthetics and identities to give yourself a sense of meaning, you're supposed to place yourself on every imaginary scale someone made just because, and while that can be fun, there's this added expectation to assign your sense of self to an image someone else made, if you feel like it resonates with you. And... That's especially true with gender. Trans people online have this constant pressure on us to "find our truth" and care oh so deeply about it, but then algorithms start marketing curated pictures of our identities to us, to find pride in it. We're supposed to look at a list of tiktoks about our microlabel and think, "those are my people and I'm proud to be one of them". And don't even get me started on the concept of gender envy. Like, you're supposed to look at something that has nothing to do with you, and assign your identity to this thing, which surely doesn't help the fact that young people are now collectively paralyzed by a lack of sense of self. And I'm not saying any of those things are inherently bad or invalid- we all look at mirrors to examine ourselves, and that's FINE. But the person you ARE isn't gonna come to you in a dream, or an essay, or a post, or a reflection. It's in you. Your sense of self isn't a riddle to be solved, it's just who YOU are. This isn't to say you shouldn't do things that make you feel happy or authentic. But those things don't define you. Nothing that you do or experience would make you no longer you if changed, and that's okay. You're not your body, or your clothes, or your attitude, or your job, or your abilities, or your fandoms, or your diagnosis. You can love them, and hopefully you do, but they're not you. You're you. You're the perspective that experiences the world around you. You're the thing under your mind that feels. Please don't forget that.

[gor3sigil]

DAE who transitionned in their twenties or later struggle with the idea that they were a trans kid or don't identify as a trans kid who grew up at all ?

It's something I've been wondering about for a while. I was definitely a queer kid, as I was openly bisexual from quite a young age, but I don't feel like I was a trans kid. I see by inner child as a little girl, being one and being seen as one played a huge part of my experience as a child and teenager, and the way I was socialized was very conservative "future wife" like.

If I felt and was seen like a tomboy from time to time, I always was "corrected" by people to not be this way in very harsh ways.

But I used to like being a girl, and I had absolutely no idea that things could be different in any way. I suffered not being able to play with my boyfriends anymore when we started going through puberty, and boys and girls started not engaging with each other unless for romantic interests (or later, sexual). I dreaded being sexualized while seeing it as "something to be proud of" because my parents taught me that.

But when I try to ask myself, "Maybe it was dysphoria," or any early signs of me being trans, it just doesn't seem to fit.

To me, child me and teenage me were separate people, early adult me who was confused in their gender and started to know things about transness was someone else, and then I came to be as a result of just life.

Idk if it's the same for other people, if you'd like to share your experiences I'd love to hear about it !

[green-tea-crow]

When I was around 12 or 13, I used to wish I were a trans guy. Partially because of inner lesbophobia, but also because I felt like I could never accomplish anything. But in my head, trans people accomplished something just by figuring out they're trans and building their true body.

I just watched I Saw the TV Glow. I'm 19 now and I have a top surgery scheduled for March. I will fall asleep and then wake up with a body a bit more my own. I have done it

[holyviolence]

proposing a new tone indicator, /trans. it's for when the only important context to understand the statement is that you're trans. it works great for telling jokes and it works for explaining concepts. god forbid a woman does anything /trans. or perhaps even, come on i'm just a little guy /trans. The Matrix is my favorite movie /trans. I'm red pilled /trans. The Matrix should be the next Bible /trans.

[smilepilled]

there should totally be a survey about trans[modal], trans[not binary], trans[somegender else/null/genderless], transfem and/or transmasc experiences, all in one survey for the sake of including people who are transfem and transmasc... [c]afab tfem/[c]amab tmasc, intersex tfem/intersex tmasc & perisex female tfem/perisex male tmasc inclusive. just for any and all trans experiences, for people to talk about it.

i think it would be very enriching and results could/would most definitely help with the understanding of fellow experiences as well as strengthening the bonds of the trans community. i think the majoeity of the issues in this community are based on things like RADICALIZATION, ANTI-TRANS PROPAGANDA, BIOESSENTIALISM, A LACK OF UNDERSTANDING and generally not putting yourself in someone's shoes, either by choice or because one cant do it.

in general, i think this would be very lovely for the trans community. in fact, it should also be inclusive og GNC/cistrans people, because yhe transing ones own gender has many different ways of happening, be it innermost or outermost. all trans experiences should be cherished, i think, so this would definitely give light to a lot of things.

for the survey, there would be a blog for it (that some big blog could help with sharing around), and people would be able to submit their stories in the survey and choose if its okay to share. anonymity choices, tagging for stories that may be triggering or otherwise visceral, and much more.

i think it would be very good. very helpful. very good for the strength of trans unionship. please feel free to make any additions to this or tell me what you think!

[transbutchblues]

having to reassure my mother about the fact that i want to medically transition is both funny and sad. i thought making her read stone butch blues would help but it didn’t (i think she still liked it tho). i still have to explain to her that i’m transitioning toward queer masculinities and not toward cishet manhood. it’s exhausting.

she has this weird idea that masculinity is inherently toxic and that i’m betraying women if i want to look like a guy. she keeps telling me about the changes and how male puberty is basically disgusting, just because she is “worried” for me/my body. at this point i find myself laughing about it sometimes.

like, come on. my scars due to past self harm will probably never fade away. i used to starve myself. i’m physically disabled. my body is bad enough already, testosterone doesn’t have anything left to “ruin” !

anyway, i try my best to explain to her how subverting masculinity is important, and how i can want to medically transition without wanting to be a cis man and while still identifying as a lesbian. and when the conversation is over i go sit by my altars and i pray to deities that are very transsexual themselves and very supportive of my queerness

[your-worst-boy]

"It's All About ME, Not YOU" by Greer Lankton

Few pieces have moved me as instantly as this installation by Greer Lankton...transness, to me, has always felt like a version of religion. And looking into the windows of this piece, I saw all the feelings I could never quite put into words, put into art.

Transness is holy suffering. It is being forced to reconcile the relationship between the flesh and the soul. It is, through this examination, finding what connects your spirit to the rest of humanity. It is cultivating a deep, transcendent empathy - in learning why we are so different, we simultaneously learn why we are all so connected.

What is it to be a man? What is it to be a woman? What is it to be a person?

What is it to be a human being?

What is it to exist as a pure essence placed into a vessel of flesh?

What is it to feel at conflict with one's vessel?

To be trans is to deconstruct one's physical and spiritual components, and figure out day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute, what YOUR truth is.

As played out as the butterfly metaphor is...I cannot think of a better analogy. It is deconstructing one's form, becoming a pool of the prior components, and over time rebuilding onesself to become what was always meant to be.

Many focus on either the caterpillar or the butterfly, but the mind boggling inner processes of the chrysalis are what makes it divine.

I cried looking at the crosses above Greer's head, in this depiction of her lying in bed sick, surrounded by substances and holy imagery. It reminded me of myself and my own issues with addiction, illness, and my strange relationship with spirituality.

It looked to me like she was being called home. What looked like mutilation and viscera to others, looked to me like the light and hope above Greer's head that kept her going. That was her TRUTH. Her holiness. Her Heaven.

[ashroomancer]

My partner is taking a class I recommend them and apparently the prof AND assigned readings have changed since I've taken it. It's a trans studies class and when I took it the class was about history and the meaning of being trans and how we define queerness. Now the class is about likening transness to a disability and how being trans is only suffering and pain and a disease on the person who is trans. Both times the class was taught by a trans person, but the one teaching it now has such a hatred for themself that they're claiming that the trans community is that of hating one's self which is just not reality. I've had to apologize profusely for recommending this class to folks and rescinded my recommendation to those who haven't taken it yet. I can't understand not only being trans but teaching a class about transness while thinking of transness as vile. It's beautiful and something to be done to love yourself and to be happy as yourself, not as a last resort that brings you anguish at the idea of being you.

[loooongfurby4444]

So I saw this blog (it had some terfy vibes but I couldn’t confirm it) that said, ‘ You destroyed gender roles! Why is it that when men are weaker and women are stronger in media they are labeled as trans?’ While this is kinda common, I don’t think that is a widespread problem like the poster made it out to be. I think it is just a tactic to demonize people who hc characters as trans. They then listed some characters but her main one was Dipper Pines, from Gravity Falls.

I’m sorry, you think Dipper Pines is being hc as trans solely because of him being less physically strong than other characters? There was an entire episode dedicated to feeling as though you aren’t man enough due to societal expectations. No one can decide if he is a man or not. The lesson he takes away from the episode resonates with a lot of transpeople (especially transmasc ones). Queer people are also a large part of Gravity Fall’s fanbase. When a show draws attention to gender roles in a setting, many people want to make room for trans readings. If that episode of Gravity Fall’s was not made, I think the hc’s about Trans Dipper would be almost halved.

Another character she mentioned was Viktor, from League of Legends and Arcane. Viktor’s trans hc’s, in my experience (as I hc him as trans too) is due to a few factors. One, he is a transhumanist…The prefix making for associations with the one of the most common usages of said prefix, transgender. He is also a robot man, robots I think, though on a lesser scale than monsters, resonate with queer people. He has taken initiative to modify his body how he sees fit, against what society would expect of him. He is also an outsider, feeling like he doesn’t fit in (and to be honest he doesn’t) with Piltover. Characters who have a struggle to fit in due to unchangeable qualities often resonate with trans people. I believe one of Viktor’s main creators said they support the headcanons, although that may just be gossip. His homoerotic friendship with Jayce also plays a role in this. Many people with gay relationships in media are also headcanoned as trans (the so gay they’re trans pipeline), which may be the issue she was trying to point to about trad gender roles. Again, while I think this does happen to a degree. I must also point to that in situations that have room for LGBTQ characters, people who consume said media, might hc characters as LGBTQ.

Luz Noceda is a character she brought up as well. Luz Noceda is in the Gay Witch Show…I’m sorry if you didn’t want trans headcanons on the Gay Witch Show, you brought it upon yourself! She is headcanoned as trans for multiple reasons here is a compiled list-The so gay they are trans pipeline, want to escape society being queer friendly (and attracting trans viewers), fanbase and show itself being pretty trans friendly (ie having many trans people), demonized by society for something she can’t control, themes of found family, evil puritan guy is the villain of said show.

That post just couldn’t leave my mind and what was I supposed to do? Not type up a response at 2:00 am???

I may add more characters in a reblog but I had to get this off my chest.

[vampirepuppyboyfag]

tired of talking about passing so much in trans spaces

im fat, goth, i have a round face and hips and a large chest

im probably never going to pass to cis people

and that's okay

i shouldn't have to shift myself to the cis gaze to be a guy

[willowbilly]

Iñupiatun Uvlum Uqaluŋi! | Iñupiaq Language Words of the Day!

Aġnaq: Woman, grown female human.

Aġnaġuqsaunnat: Estrogens. Literally: “Ones inherently connected by their attributes to the means of the process of making one become a grown human female.”

Aġnaġuqtuaq: “The one who becomes a woman; She became a woman.”

Aniġniq: Breath (of life).

Aŋun: Man, grown male human.

Aŋutiġuqsaunnat: Androgens. Literally: “Ones inherently connected by their attributes to the means of the process of making one become a grown human male.”

Aŋutiġuqtuaq: “The one who becomes a man; He became a man.”

Atiq: name, namesake, one who shares the same name as another. The “name-soul” part of the tripartite atiq/iḷitqutchiq/iñuusiq “name-soul/soul-soul/life-soul” system that in traditional Iñuich cosmology comprises the sentient animate being of a living human and that imbues a child with something of their namesake's characteristics through its inheritance.

Igruugniiñ aŋutiġuqsaun: Testosterone. Literally: “The means from the testes of the process of making one become a grown human male.”

Iḷitqusiq, iḷitqutchiq: spirit, soul, ghost, person's being, one's character.

Iḷḷiami ivsa: Progesterone. Literally: “Fluid in the uterus.”

Iñuk: human person. When capitalized, it is identical to the singular noun form of the general “Iñuich” ethnonym, i.e. a capitonym!

Iñuusiq: way of life, habit, disposition, soul.

Kapiruŋa: “I give myself an injection.” (E.g., Kapiruŋa aġnaġuqsaunmik: “I inject estrogen.” Kapiruŋa igruugniiñ aŋutiġuqsaunmik: “I inject testosterone.” etc.)

Sipiniq: Two spirit, intersex, nonbinary, trans [person]. Literally: “One who changes sex in utero/at birth.” Indigenous Iñuich third gender/sex. Typified in traditional cosmology as a person whose physical sex undergoes a prenatal male-to-female transition and is thus assigned a childhood male gender socialization before transitioning into an adulthood female gender socialization; other children whose namesakes are either sipinġich or assigned the “opposite” sex from them are likewise traditional candidates for such “reverse” gender socialization until typically resocialized in adolescence.

Timi: Human or animal body, the hull of a boat, the part of a boot above the sole.

References

D’Anglure, Bernard Saladin. “The ‘Third Gender’ of the Inuit.” Diogenes, vol. 52, no. 4, Nov. 2005, pp. 134–144, doi:10.1177/0392192105059478.

Ekho, Naqi, and Uqsuralik Ottokie. Childrearing Practices. Edited by Jean Briggs. Trans. by Ooleepika Ikkidluak and Maaki Kakkik, vol. 3, Nunavut Arctic College, 2000.

“Iñupiaq Online.” Iñupiaq Online, https://inupiaqonline.com/.

MacLean, Edna Ahgeak. Iñupiatun Uqaluit Taniktun Sivunniuġutiŋit | North Slope Iñupiaq to English Dictionary. University of Alaska Press, 2014. 

The North Slope Borough Commission on Iñupiat History, Language & Culture. North Slope Iñupiaq Medical Terminology. North Slope Borough, 1991.