#tw apd

[murielsbottombitch]

don't villainize mental illnesses

"oh so we should just excuse mentally ill peoples behavior then?"

no, in fact, blaming someone's behavior on their mental illness is literally placing blame away from the person and onto the mental illness. you know. excusing their actions. 🤠

the mental illness didn't harm you. the person did. blame the person.

[thatdeaffeel]

That hard of hearing feel when people try to catch you out and say your faking.

my partners mum did this for ages :c

[stargazer-andi]

One of the trauma things that my mother did was get frustrated and took it out on me when I asked her to repeat herself because of my auditory processing disorder. Like sorry I want to make sure I got it right what you said, so you don't get mad at me for doing it wrong, but now you're just getting mad at me, everything I do is wrong

I have a friend who's deaf from 50 years of work in industrial settings, and I was getting frustrated that he asked me to repeat myself so often, but he can't help that he's deaf now (he could have worn ear protection, but he didn't) (side note, wear ear protection, it makes you gay and that's how we fight AI (but srsly do)) he can't help it and so I shouldn't get mad at him about it. Mom shouldn't have gotten mad at me, *i don't deserve to* receive someone's anger for something out of my control.

[chillychive]

Within a singular hour, I got called a racist for disagreeing with a black guy (we literally were not even talking about race, and the dude was just trying to manipulate me into changing his score despite the fact that literally everyone else agreed that he had lost the point), and I got called incompetent and told I had no hope of being successful in life, because of my auditory processing issues, that meant that I was having a hard time following the lesson.

Literally what?!

So I did with any mature person would do. Said nothing, came home and cried, ranted to my family, and then burned something.

[desire-for-thinner]

INTRO

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Guy, czech, relapsed, cs student

TW: mentions of $H, g0r£, dřvg$, šéx, but none are main themes on this £D and vent acc.

Height: 175cm

CW: 59.7kg

GW: 50kg... Then I'll see

HW: 120kg

schizoaffective, ADD, NPD, BPD, APD, obviously cPTSD, and my psychiatrist is suspecting also OCD in me..

Interests: gothic rock, black metal, dsbm, some basic emo bands, rats (I keep), cephalopods, morbid stuff

[zoricus3]

APD Chapter 1(A Perfect Digimon) (old repost)

TW Blood

[conqueringnight]

Introduction:

Name:

☆ Stolas

Age:

☆ 21+

Height:

☆ 5'11/ 1.80m

Pronouns:

☆ he/ him || they/ them (ftm)

⚠️TW⬇️⚠️

Diagnosis:

☆ cPTSD

☆✨️structural dissociation✨️ (with ANP 9 parts)

☆ anørex!@

☆ d3press!on

☆ bpd & apd

☆ AuDHD

Goals:

☆ sw -> 98kg/ 216lbs

☆ cw -> 94kg/ 207lbs

☆ gw -> 65kg/ 143lbs

☆ ugw -> <60kg/ <132lbs

Baby Steps:

95kg/ 209lbs ✅️

90kg/ 198lbs

85kg/ 187lbs

80kg/ 176lbs

75kg/ 165lbs

70kg/ 154lbs

65kg/ 143lbs

60kg/ 132lbs

55kg/ 121lbs

Information:

☆ I've just restarted my journey

☆ I'll post "sfx makeup" content

☆ This blog is my diary!!!

☆ If you don't like it, then block me and don't report!!!

☆ Last cheat day -> August 23rd 2024

☆ When I reach the 85-90kg/ 187-198lbs I might start posting development pics...

Dazai from BSD is my spirit animal!

[internerlizedmelancholia]

//TW\\

Was feeling like relapsing so I drew this and it made me giggle.

Adding a cut here bc below is some rambles

(Vent?)

I am so painfully lonely.

My emotional state lately is horrible, but drawing has been a good distraction.

APD makes it so hard to talk to people; therefore, I can’t actually connect with anyone. I have no one to go to when I feel like shit. I know it’s partially my fault; I avoid being around people at all costs because, no matter what happens, I’m going to end up feeling bad about any tiny thing that went wrong during the interaction. Im also really quiet, to the point people get bored of trying to converse with me. When I’m alone, I wish I was with a person; when I’m with a person, I wish I was alone.

At the moment, my social circle is extremely limited (my roommate, one of my professors) and I can feel that starting to have a huge effect on me.

I want someone to be there for me, or at the very least someone to talk to. I’m starting to think that asking for a friend, digital or in person, is too much to ask.

I don’t know if I can keep going like this and NOT relapse in order to feel better.

On top of all that is my overwhelming gender dysphoria, but I’ll probably post about that later. I’m tired.

[growing-as-a-group]

Stares into my An hc list

Anyways! -🌐🎧

An is genderflux! And he goes by any and all prns!

My dude has insomnia (due to the experiences she had within VOT like ghost and paranormal stuff)

Is Colorblind (Red weak colorblindness/Protanomaly)

They may or may not have heavy eye bags under her eyes from the lack of sleep

An does wear light make up and nail polish from time to time even if he isn't much of a cosmetics person

Yes you hear me right An is a Filipino

The small stars clips are a gift from Nagi, purple star clip and normal yellow hair clip given by Haruka

Speaking off which:

(An bought ALOT of those small hair clips Nagi gave her she likes putting them on people's hair (mostly vbs, Haruka and Mizuki) at random)

He has a matching bracelet with all of vbs!

Age regressor with no lean (also on the bigger side of regressing going from maybe 6-8 and 10 could be her highest at times main caregiver's are vbs and ken)

An owns 3 plushies! A husky named Koda, A blue lizard called Liz/Lizzy and the scented hamster Haruka got her named Ham/Hammy (And she has slipped one or two times when said plushies are within her reach)

She does have random bruises and scars from accidentally hurting herself when she was a child (She was very accident prone)

They actually has a chewelry necklace sometimes cause she needs the stimulation and just b i t e

He would fall asleep at any given time due to the fucked up sleep schedule of her insomnia (or just can't sleep at all)

An has the following:

AuDHD, APD, BPD, BD II, DPD

Tw for negative and a bit more darker hcs under the cut! 😅

Will push away any sort of negative feeling or absolutely will cry none stop for hours on end it's possibly a never ending cycle

She will always always try and help others in need and not think about herself for the most part if she does she will actually feel bad cause right now it shouldn't be about him and they should focus on others

Very indecisive with things due to her dpd and usually has to ask anyone she knows on what she needs to do at times

One time when he was young someone tried to take her away from vivid street (luckily the kidnapper is a stupidhead and did it in the middle of the day in vivid street and half the people there caught what was going on and took action to stop it)

Now An does get slightly uncomfortable when someone touches her hair or head without permission

[cardhamine]

*Sighs and unpacks my entire write-up for William Afton in this AU*

WE ARE NOT DISCUSSING THE WAFERS

See Read More for Will's entire history prior to the fic, essentially. <3

TWs - FNAF-relevant child abuse/murder, Antisocial Personality Disorder discussed, cursing (but really that's it except uhhh trans Henry ig but I'd say that's not a trigger as much as just something that some people hate the idea of)

- William was born in 1947 as the only child of two products of Old Money from England. They were not in love and viewed their marriage as a business transaction, but they were amicable otherwise. Their marriage was open as long as no one found out. Business troubles required that they move to America when William was a teenager.

- William is a 3rd. His father William II (did go by Bill) was a difficult man who also treated his son as a branch of his business.

- William's mother's name was Juliet. She was a stay-at-home mother, but she was not affectionate. She kept up with most of the family's finances.

-The family business was originally from his mother's side. They were semi-famous toy makers. Father's side were investors. Both families worth a million or more. (Not as impressive in 2023 money but a big deal then).

- William's family emphasized the importance of LEGACY. If you don't leave something memorable behind, you may as well have not existed. You will rot in the dirt and be forgotten. Your life will have meant nothing. (Plus you were supposed to continue the legacy of your forefathers, so now you've fucked that up, loser)

- That gets in Will's head but manifests into a drive for work and fear of death that develops into a phobia before he's even reached college age.

- The Aftons were angry at William for wanting to go into things like puppetry/robotics/engineering instead of just taking the business, but he spun the idea as a continuation/evolution of the family toy making business and they chilled somewhat.

- (He didn't actually care much about the family business but he did genuinely enjoy circuitry and engineering.)

- Will meets Henry in university when he was pre-transition (still being referred to as Henrietta or, preferably, Henri). Henri is brilliant with design and Will with the technological aspects (building, engineering, etc).

- They date (not SUPER seriously bc William is aware his family wouldn't approve) for a couple years. Henri meets a nice woman named Marysol (Mary) in classes, and they end up getting married after a 3 year courtship.

- William stays close friends with Henry (post-transition after wedding, at least socially if not surgically/chemically). Mary is perfectly fine with this, although she can tell there's something off about William.

- (There is something similarly off about Mary. Henry really knows how to pick 'em. Or maybe he has a type. Either way, both William and Mary lie on the antisocial personality disorder spectrum.)

- In regards to their APD symptoms, the two share a lot of the same traits: impaired capacity for empathy (both had better cognitive empathy than affective empathy), lack of respect for social norms/expectations, deceptive behaviors. On the other hand, Mary had some features William lacked, such as violent urges/tendencies and a complete lack of guilt/remorse. (She may have been involved in some violent crime, but she was never found out.) However, she very badly wanted a family and had a larger capacity for affective empathy than William which displayed in her care for Henry and, eventually, Charlie. However, her capacity for AE was VERY person-specific.

- William had a far diminished capacity for affective empathy comparatively (if the average person has 70% capacity to empathize with others, Mary had 35% and Will had 20%). However, that didn't mean he wanted other people to suffer. He preferred for others to be successful, so long as their success didn't inhibit his own. Partially because when people were successful, they were happy, and when they were happy, they didn't trouble him with their problems; partially because he did have that smidgen of empathy. He also experienced guilt, though that often made him more irritable than apologetic.

- William goes through a semi-arranged marriage to a very sweet woman named Violet who is also the child of an old money family but who wanted to be married to someone she loved. She did end up loving William, and he was fond of her.

- William and Mary are aware of their similarities immediately. They eventually have a meeting about it. Mary insists that they agree to never bring one another's families into any of their activities. At the time, Will has literally never done or even considered doing anything she's implying. But he agrees. She emphasizes that she will ruin his family if he ruins hers. He says, "Ditto."

- Fredbear’s Family Diner is opened by William and Henry around 1971.

- Michael William Afton was born a couple years after the two married. He looked a lot like William and like Bill, and that was something that made it difficult for Will to be overly fond of him. He also represented the family legacy that Will felt was thrust upon him his entire life. On top of that, he was a rebellious child who caused Will a lot of irritation, and Will was not very forgiving of that. Overall, they had a miserable relationship.

- They had two more children after Michael because Violet wanted them, even though the Afton side of the family viewed it a waste of resources, given they already had a male heir. William felt real affection for the first time at the birth of Elizabeth "Lizzie" Viola Afton. She looked like Violet but was precocious and intelligent like William.

- Shortly thereafter, the Emilys adopted Charlie, and the two girls eventually became inseparable.

- Evan was born 2 years later. He was a quiet, nervous child. Michael's irritation at being unloved by his father was mostly taken out on Evan, because 1. Lizzie was very protected by her father but also 2. Michael also loved his little sister too much to hurt her.

- Evan Cecil "Cece" Afton was Violet's "favorite" (though she loved all of her children too much to make that obvious.) She doted on him a lot, since he was the baby.

- William develops the Talking Fredbear plush with an internal radio so that the children can communicate with him without barging into his workshop and bothering him. (Cece uses it the most.)

- William and Henry open the first of the Freddy's establishments around this time.

- Things go smoothly until Cece's accident in 1983 (as in, "The Bite of"). He was 8. Though Michael was only teasing his brother, an electrical short caused Fredbear's jaws to clamp down, leading Cece to sustain a critical injury to his frontal lobe. The family is devastated. He is kept in a medically-induced coma for several months. William did adapt the Talking Fredbear plush so the family and he could record messages which would play every once in a while for Cece when they were not at the hospital.

- Unfortunately, he does not recover and eventually passes away from hospital-acquired pneumonia.

- Violet does not take the incident well and must be hospitalized for stress-induced psychopathy shortly thereafter. She passes away for unclear reasons while hospitalized.

- William's phobia of death engulfs his life. He throws himself into his work and spends every waking moment either keeping his business afloat or trying to "solve the death problem". His ideas become more and more psychotic. He learns about the theory of Remnant and begins making plans. He reminds himself to eat and sleep just so he can keep appearances up for Elizabeth. This goes on for a year or so until he develops his theory to use remnant to transmute the soul to a sturdier body that won't die. He just needs test subjects.

- Mary can tell that Will is becoming worse. She reminds him of their agreement: they’re to keep both their families out of any of their bad behavior. William agrees and intends to keep the promise.

- (1985) The Missing Children Incident occurs. Charlie sees William tossing his bloodied uniform in the dumpster next door and returning to the building that night after police have already done primary investigation (questioned him/searched the place and found nothing). He cares at least a small bit for Charlie and is somewhat aggrieved about what he "has to do." He makes it quick and painless.

- The Emilys are devastated, and Mary knows immediately what happened. She doesn't say anything, just plans.

- William DID develop the sister location (Circus Baby's Pizza World) to collect subjects to continue his experiments. His children are NOT allowed to set foot on the premises, and he impresses upon Michael that he should do what he can to make sure Elizabeth never does. He emphasizes that Michael has the responsibility to make up for what “Michael did” to Cece and his mother.

- Not a month later, Mary got her revenge on William by "bringing Lizzie to see Daddy at work as a surprise". William did not know Elizabeth was there, and Mary directed her to Circus Baby when no one else was in the room.

- William goes absolutely bonkers after this.

- (Henry never has any clue William or Mary were involved in their children's deaths - until a decade or more later when he accepts William's involvement in the other children's disappearances/murders. He never realizes Mary killed Lizzie and forever blames her death on William.)

- (Michael essentially goes to live with Uncle Henry and Aunt Mary until he leaves for college, and it helps the three heal a lot. Henry likely lives through these events due to having Michael to watch after/set an example for.)

- (1987) The details Will described to Vanny when defending his murderous behavior were accurate. The DCI did occur at a birthday party for children from the hospice wing of the local children's hospital. William intended to transmute their souls to the animatronics. They were 100% a science experiment, and that was a very disgusting thing to do. He had convinced himself that the ends justified the means. He said the "curing death for everyone" bit as an excuse/manipulation for Vanny's sake, though, as he at no point ever cared how his research might improve the lives of others. He was only obsessed with escaping death personally and would do almost anything to make that happen

- The deaths are thoroughly investigated but inevitably it was impossible to prove William was to blame, despite him being brought to trial. He did step down as co-CEO of the company at this time.

- Sometime after this, while attempting to harvest remnant from the suits he stuffed the DCI victims in, he's Springlocked.

- By the end of his life, William had directly killed 12 children (including Charlie) and indirectly (via the Funtime Animatronics) killed an unclear number more.  

- His methods of murder were generally quick and painless. These methods are also easiest to clean up and hide. He had no reason to be overly cruel, as he was not studying Agony and had not discovered it before his death.

- Springtrap is a whole other ballgame. William's soul and remnant did inhabit the Spring Bonnie suit for decades, but his consciousness was not as clear due to the Agony created during his violent, torturous death also impacting that form's feelings and behaviors. This is one reason Springtrap is so often recklessly violent/homocidal.

- Glitchtrap is a much purer form of his consciousness not as manipulated by Agony, so he's more like his original personality.

- Overall, William (in Breached) is a deeply troubled man suffering from APD but who also allowed himself to excuse some of the worst possible human behaviors. He tried to excuse himself by blaming his evil actions on his personal fears. Then, he tried justifying them through half-baked promises of breakthroughs in science/healthcare which were entirely fabricated (i.e. they were not preconceived on his part, just an afterthought). He would have committed all his atrocities even if the outcome would have only benefited him, regardless of what he said to gaslight Vanny into feeling guilty for questioning his actions.

- Harming anyone, especially children, in any way is horrible, and taking away another person’s agency via emotional abuse/torture is also horrible. My William is definitely an abusive, miserable, evil person. However, I’m leaving out much of the additions from the books, including this Wafer Debacle. This is because I think he is a much more interesting and compelling villain if we are able to see the steps he took to get where he got. Being someone with personal struggles who gives in to desperate, selfish desires to protect themselves from their greatest fears is something more relatable and therefore more insidious, perhaps even more disconcerting to read than someone who makes fear gas for kids because they’re wicked (IMO). Being cartoonishly rotten isn’t my vision for him in this AU. On the other hand, there are real life villains who have perpetrated similar (perhaps not with the sci-fi, fear gas aspects) violence against their own children (See “A Child Called It” book if you want to be nauseated forever until you die but also TW TW TW TW!!!), so it wouldn’t be completely unreasonable to claim a horror game/novel villain would go to such lengths. Just. I’m not going that direction with my William in particular.  

- (Malhare was being honest about "not carving up the kids", i.e torturing them like she does her adult victims. Her theory on getting good remnant samples involves torture (leads to her independent ‘breakthrough’ about Agony, before she looks into previous research on the subject by P. Taggart). William’s theory involves the victims being young (remnant is newer/easier to manipulate). From a scientific research perspective, including 2 or more uncontrolled variables in the research would mess with results and make it difficult and possibly impossible to decipher which variable was actually effective. So.)

- Just a fun fact, he did really feel real fondness for Vanny initially. He saw a lot of Lizzie's precocious nature in her, and he loved the ego boost from her gushing over how wonderful his company/designs were. He thought she was capable and had promise in robotics/engineering. He's just a very selfish person who uses people as pawns, whether he likes them or not. And if they start getting in his way, he isn't afraid to let them burn.

[spinnysocks]

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[lorioverg]

tw^8-NTX #APD #IGBT #TCAD #Consultant #Semiconductors #MOSFET #Design www.xing.com/profile/Evgeny_Chernyavskiy #APD #IGBT #TCAD #Consultant #Semiconductors #MOSFET #Design www.xing.com/profile/Evgeny_Chernyavskiy

[chillychive]

TW rant

Every time I ask my math teacher a question she tells me how to solve verbally and then leaves and I’m over here like “that’s great, but jimmy was talking behind me and I missed like ten of the words you just said and the 4 I did process I don’t understand and forgot in the process of thinking this. Can you PLEASE come back and walk me through it on the paper??! Please?!”

I can’t get diagnosed with APD so I’m kinda just screwed because no one believes you can possibly have a problem unless you have a diagnosis that you don’t mind flaunting in front of everyone and bad enough grades to need help. Because people with straight As are perfect people who are perfectly happy and problem free all of their lives.

[semitrack]

Ó}³tw¥W~ #APD #EDA #IP #IGBT #TCAD #Semiconductors #MOSFET www.linkedin.com /in/evgeny-chernyavskiy-742642109 #APD #EDA #IP #IGBT #TCAD #Semiconductors #MOSFET www.linkedin.com/in/evgeny-chernyavskiy-742642109

Ó}³tw¥W~ #APD #EDA #IP #IGBT #TCAD #Semiconductors #MOSFET www.linkedin.com /in/evgeny-chernyavskiy-742642109 #APD #EDA #IP #IGBT #TCAD #Semiconductors #MOSFET www.linkedin.com/in/evgeny-chernyavskiy-742642109

[the-sappho-of-lesbos]

Talks of BPD / Quiet BPD / avoidant personality disorder

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So in my differential diagnosis list is APD and BPD - so I’m still working through it with my one of my psychologists but she is like 99% sure I have both. But she is also always telling me I’m very “atypical” in my BPD. In the sense that’s it’s very internal (in the way quiet BPD is described) and that I don’t have a lot of that anger or like “I’m going to test you” personality. I wouldn’t say I dissociate but I just majorly emotionally check out. I’ll do what I think I have to or what is the right thing to do (to be fair I think that has to do with my OCD lololololol) but it’s like I just bllehhhhhhh.

And I’m thinking maybe that’s got to do with the APD. like that shutting down and not dealing with it or confronting it. Like my APD intercepts and that’s how I self sabotage relationships. I think I’m getting at that maybe my BPD is atypical or doesn’t reach that point because my APD feeds off it and acts as a buffer

(This also isn’t me trying to shame or demonise other people with BPD - I’m just writing this all out to try and understand myself and experiences and so I don’t forget to bring it up with her when I see her next. Because it might be awhile and I don’t want to really bring it up with my male psychologist lol.