#will draw the adults nexts btw! so excited ^^

[mint-shakes]

@ask-deltaswap asked me to draw my own interpretation of their characters. Really had fun with the designs of them ^^

[spectral-honey]

-bruce Wayne isn't at the circus when dicks parents are killed, and the court of owls take him and he becomes a talon.

-timmy sees him one night, out in the garden of a party looking up at a sky when dick is killing some guy on the roof. Watches him quadruple somersault kick some guy so hard his neck snaps.

-dick talon, sees Tim seeing him. And stalks the kid home, because he might need to get rid of the witness. Or at least report back to the owls about him.

-talon is in Tim's kitchen and he's going to kill him and Tim sees him, gets excited that for some inexplicable reason a gnarly looking dick Grayson is in his house, and offers him a Popsicle.

-talon, for reasons unknown to him, ends up eating a Popsicle.

-somehow, even though it means nothing to him, should mean nothing to him, being called dick Grayson makes talon not kill him.

-somehow, it doesn't get told to the owls.

-somehow, talon finds a way to see Tim again. Made easier when Tim realizes they could meet in the middle and starts hanging out on dark rooftops.

-tim brings him the picture of the two of them and dicks parents two adults, and dick talon looks at the picture for hours.

-the next time, Tim brings him a handful of camcorder videos pilfered from across the internet. Of the flying Graysons. Of dick, and of his... Parents.

-tim also brings him fruit snacks.

-tim doesn't get why Dick doesn't know this, doesn't get why Dick looks different, doesnt get or think too much about the guy he saw dick kill. He doesn't get why he doesnt speak much or know much or acts weird. He's just happy to see dick again, cause he still remembers the kind boy who offered to do a special trick for him, who cried over his parents bodies, who Tim cried over when his parents read in the paper that he'd disappeared.

-somehow (Batman), the owls are taken down, or at least scattered so talon dick doesn't go back there anymore. He shows up at Tim's door and Tim is happy to have him in the house when his parents are away, and shows dick the treehouse Tim and his dad built, told him he could stay there when his parents were home because no one went there because his dad had a business trip that he had to go to before they finished the ladder and now it was too hard for anyone to get up to.

-dick gets found out by Batman, eventually.

-cause an undead kid is living in his city. A talon type of undead kid. In a little boys treehouse.

-jason found him, actually.

-Jason's Bruce's sidekick, his first one and his first kid, but he isn't a robin, because that name came from dick.

-he stopped for a quick breather in some nice neighborhood with actual yards, saw a treehouse and thought "cool, a treehouse", went in and thought "oh, uncool, a talon with a tiny civilian hostage", saw shitty pictures taped to the wall of the kid looking silly and the talon disarmed and confused, and shitty drawings with colored pencils and crayons, and the talon and kid were sitting close to each other with a kid-proof tablet shared on their laps playing a matching game and thought "weird possibly cool turn of events. A tamed talon", and called Bruce.

-batman comes, and now the talon, the civilian kid, and Jason have made a circle and Jason's reading something to them from the tablet.

-its the Wikipedia page for robins, btw. Tim is a weird kid and talon apparently likes robins.

-batman sees danger, first, because the talons body is shaped by it. The talon is tensed, scanning Bruce for an opening to kill. The talon is too close to Jason, to the civilian, Batman sees so many different ways the talon end them before Batman could take a step.

-but the talon hasn't, is waiting. Waiting for Batman to move. For Batman to attack first.

-and Jason briefed Batman, said he didn't think the talon was a threat. Batman couldn't take his word on it, but he could investigate himself.

-he saw the pictures. The drawings, the tablet and the way the civilian and the talon lean close to each other, how talon has set himself between the civilian and jason and batman.

-he also sees the bedding tucked into a corner. The stack of nonperishable foods tucked behind it. The little scraps of paper with simple words- no, yes, food, tired, game. The gray of talons skin, the hollowness settled deeper than bones. That talon became-was forced to become what he is when he was young. little. precious.

-bruce makes a decision.

-dick argues with Jason about who was really older. He was born first, and just because he couldn't grow for a long time, bruce helped fix that, didn't mean anything. Jason's genetics were freaky, letting him grow taller than dick anyway.

-eventually, when much of his growth and healing is done, he does regain his legal identity and legal age.

-dick loves calling jason his little brother in public, where Jason can only object so much.

-dick also takes extreme joy telling society folk that he just ages well, when they fawn over how youthful and pretty he is.

-tim and dick were introduced to Jason's teen titan friends, using the same costume and codename, around the time dick was the same height as Tim. All the titans are convinced the two are some kind of bat-cloned devil twins until dick finally finishes growing and is like over a foot taller than Timmy.

-it becomes an inside joke for the Titans to confuse their mentors by introducing Tim and dick as twins still anyways.

-when Damian comes he tries to stab dick once and dick is literally like wow. Your form was so bad try being a better child assassin <3 jk tho maybe try defeating me without maiming or killing. As a little challenge. Bet u can't. I could do it and look at me I was an awesome child assassin.

-and so Damian embarks on a journey of learning that he doesn't even know is learning

So the rest of this was supposed to be in the tags but apparently Tumblr only lets you have 30 tags. Boo u whore :/ so here's a bunch of shit that was meant to be in the tags & therefore is formatted weird and not at all like the stuff above:

This all came from 1) the idea of Tim figuring out dicks identity as talon rather than as Robin and 2) the image of talon dick living like in a treehouse like. Like a birdhouse.

I imagine Tim is like, little, maybe 6 or 7 or something when he meets talon dick the first time

And then maybe dick escapes the court when Tim's 9 and Jason finds them when Jason's 13 and Tim's 10

And dick was stuck in an undead talon body at the age of like 9 so he's a little shorter than both of them for a while before Bruce is able to get help to let him age normally again

And they get him a couple growth spurts before they let his body work out the rest

And he ends up like 5'10 and he's like I swear I would've been taller if I hadn't been talon

But no dick actually you were always destined to be a short king <3

For reference I usually hc Jason as 6'0 or taller, dick as 5'10, and Tim as like 5'5

Jason is a behemoth and dick and Tim are short kings. Damian is the tallest when he grows up tho

I also imagine that dick is sort of figuring out who he is and isn't totally there for a long time with Tim, and some time after the court of owls falls he remembers enough about his parents that he tracks down and kills Tony zucco

And Tim's like why did you do that killing is bad :( and dick is like he's why my parents died and Tim is like oh okay :) but dick is like internally going killing is bad? 🤔 I'll have to think on this.

Also like in general I was thinking about a little Tim trying his best to work with dick who is traumatized and not used to expressing himself in regular or healthy ways and Tim being just a little kid so it's not like he knows a lot of things or how to do that so they end up with a modge podge of strange coping skills and communication styles

Hence when I mentioned the papers with words on it .. idk if that was clear lol

Also tho Tim teaching him things that dick take as like. Facts but they're just things Tim does

Like if you whisper in someone's ear it's a secret and you can't tell anyone

And one time dick whispers something in Jason's ear and Jason immediately turns and shouts it to Alfred

And dick is so betrayed

Also Tim telling his parents about his grey friend who lives in his treehouse and can bend his bones and they're like that's nice you have an imaginary friend Tim

I also started writing a version of this post where Timmy like figures out dick is talon and like sleuths after him but it was too unclear how Tim would uncover the fuckin court of owls best agent so I scrapped that

But like fanon Tim probably could

I think its closer to canon Tim that its just something that kind of happens to him tho lol

'i found out the bats secret identities because I happened to see Robin do a trick a boy once told me specifically only he and his family could do'

'i found out Jason was alive because he showed up at me and my friends clubhouse and tried to beat me to death'

[py-dreamer]

Adding on to the Undertale I guess-

Um, Grown up AU! Don't ask why they're all similar ages, they just are. In the Au, da kids did too many resets, glitched the timeline and somehow pressed the reset button all at the same time. Somehow, all of them became corporeal and most of the characters have been age-swapped! (As in the kids are adults and the adults are now kids) They now have to adapt to the new environment but don't worry, they're adjusting well...mostly

Chara is NOT the captain of the royal guard in this AU. (I'll let you guess who it is) but they ARE Asriel's right hand and know very well how to fight.

Frisk is the diplomat between humans and monsters (I think the barrier gets broken at one point in the au idk) but don't underestimate them cause, while they prefer to use words, they still know how to kick ass.

Blow the trumpets and make way for the king of monsters...KING ASRIEL DREEMURR!!! (If you couldn't already tell, he's kinda my favourite-) Mans has his cool glowing swords and fireballs but sadly does not have his lightning, comets or giant blaster skull thingy. Mah furry boi can still smash your face in though. Btw, on his shirt in the middle pic, it says: 'King Fluffybuns Jnr.' that you bet Frisk & Chara got for him.

For Frisk, I'd figured they'd be more adventurous with their style (they can absolutely rock feminine and masculine) with some more sporty wear but main style is still comfy. I wish I could've made their work wear more detailed, but I still couldn't think of much. I headcannon that they like to buy a bunch of pins and patches to just stick on their clothes. They get the others some pins and badges to but they're not that into it. They still wear some badges though.

In the game its kinda a trend that kids wear striped sweaters and I gave the stripes to Frisk since I think they're the most childlike in this au. Nothing derugatory, just more excitable, cheerful and playful.

As you'll probably have noticed, I gave Chara an Undercut and long hair. I just wanted to give them a different look to Frisk and I really like the beanie but again, they look almost too much like Aimsey. There's nothing wrong with that but looking back, I feel like the two have similar asthetics and the beanie made them look way too similar. I gave them combat boots cause that's cool and a different pattern on their sweater? Overalls? Overshirt? Idk.

I didn't really do much with Azzy other than give make him taller, give him a silghtly yellow beard, made his horns much bigger and gave him a different pattern on his sweater. I imagine him taking care of the flowers now and gave him a less armour heavy king outfit that his dad cause I'd assume he'd be less likely to go to war on the humans.

Chara and Azzy kept the same colour palette cause I think it might take them even longer to adjust. I mean, these two were dead for centuries, one was an apathetic flower who committed mass genocide and the other was basically forced to commit mass genocide. I'm not pinning the blame on anyone but I think these two in particular still have a lot of trauma to overcome.

But they still have each other don't worry.

Umm, in terms of my style, I tried thicker lineart in some areas. It's most prominent in Azzy's design I think so let me know what you guys think.

Will I be drawing the rest of the main cast? Idk, probably not but who knows?

Idk what to name the au, maybe you guys can leave an idea?

Until next time my lovely marshiemallows!

(Click on photos for better quality)

[mirkwoodshewolf]

I believe in you; Clint Barton x reader

*Author’s note*

Well this was another request kept in the works and depending if I’m too late or not for my lovely bilingual anon you might already have started your nursing school (which congrats btw hopefully everything worked out) so this little drabble of sorts is dedicated to them and to anyone else that’s starting college (or a new grade in general).

Not really any warnings maybe a swear word or two and some fluff/maybe angst. But mainly I just did some basic research on how medical school/nursing programs work so if I’m wrong and there’s something I missed, any nursing/medical grads out there PLEASE let me know so that I can go back and fix it. I didn’t put too much detail just skimmed over the process but I hope it was the right way I did it. 

Anyways enjoy my lovely readers and until next time.

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You know the one thing they never tell you when you’re applying to college, how to maintain the stress levels of what’s to come with leaving childhood behind and fully becoming an adult.

While I am excited, don’t get me wrong, I’ve always wanted to be a nurse ever since I begged my mom for my first Baby Alive doll. Taking care of her, changing her diaper, feeding her, all that stuff.  Then came the day when Cooper Barton was born.  Yep that Cooper, along with Lila and Nathaniel.  Since our moms have been friends since they were in college, it was only a matter of time before I became friends with the Barton kids, especially since I was considered the ‘other Big sister’.

That also meant I had known Clint Barton long before he was famous for being apart of the Avengers team.  But ever since bringing everyone back from the Blip and the world trying to return to normal, he’s happily retired and staying with the family that he lost for 5 years (while also raising me since I had lost my parents in the Blip).

But back to what I was saying, applying for nursing school isn’t like applying for your regular old college.  Not only do you need to go to regular college and get some credits as well as take the necessary tests, you have to volunteer as nursing homes, you have to go to an interview with the school, and the most tedious thing of all—waiting.

The waiting portion is what really had me on edge, especially since the school was trying to re-instate students and staff that had been Blipped, look at new applications, it was a mess but I’ll spare the long waiting story and just say that after awhile of not hearing anything, I finally heard back from them and found out that I had been accepted into the Nursing school of my dreams.

Like I said, while I am excited I’m also quite nervous about it as well.  Cause not only is it the most prestige nursing school in the country, it’s also out of state in Durham, North Carolina.  And moving to a whole new state is a scary thing in itself, nobody will know me there and I’ll know no one there, I’ll be alone in school as I’m working towards my nursing degree.

I was sitting on top of the treehouse that uncle Clint had built for me and Lila when we were little.  It was at the peak of sunset and everyone was inside the house still celebrating my acceptance into college.  Mom and dad spent all morning setting up for the Barton’s to come over for the party and since 2pm the two families have been barbequing, watching a football game, and just chatting away.

But right now I needed a break from the family so I just came out here to the old tree house (that I hadn’t really been in since I started high school) and a wave of nostalgia came over me.  Seeing the old polaroid pictures I took with my camera of me and Lila, our old drawings we did together, and the famous sign we’d tape to the door.

GIRLS ONLY, NO BOYS ALLOWED

I smile softly and stroked the rainbow letters we both wrote it in as the memories of what Lila and I had in here played in my head.

“Thought you might be up here.” Uncle Clint’s voice spoke up. I jumped and turned to see him holding up the door-floor (that’s what Lila and I used to call it) up.  “God I remember all the times your dad and I caught you and Lila up here. This was practically your first apartment. Minus the pluming and AC unit.” I softly chuckled.

“Been a long time since I saw this place. Wanted to check and see if anything changed with it.”

“Probably not. Once you girls grew up, you didn’t really come up here as much when you were kids. But I still kept up with any repairs that needed to be done, just in case you changed your mind.”

“And I thank you for that. I really needed to come back in here.” I said stroking through some of the old pictures.

“Everything okay?”

“Can I be honest with you uncle Clint?”

“Yeah, yeah absolutely. But first I must ask permission from Princess Mi amore Cadenza of the Crystal Empire to enter hers and Princess Francesca Banana Lobella Lollipop’s castle in the sky.” I chuckled at the silly Princess names Lila and I came up with when we were little.

“I can’t believe you still remember those names.”

“I’m losing my hearing, not my memory.” Clint teased.

“But yes you have permission from Princess Cadence.” I said shortening the nickname of my pretend Princess title.  Uncle Clint climbed up the rest of the way into the tree house and closed the door behind him before taking a seat on one of the old beanbag chairs we had.  “Alright kid, talk. What’s on your mind?”

“First I just wanna say that I’m not complaining about the party. It’s awesome it really is that you and aunt Laura and my parents did this for me. And I am happy to know that I’m gonna be living out my dream of becoming the first Doctor in the family but—it all feels to fast. I mean it feels like yesterday Lila and I were up here talking about her next heist to get the cookies from the top of the fridge, and now all of a sudden it…….”

“Feels like childhood is slipping away.” He finished for me.  “Like you’re entering a bigger world than you first thought it would entail.”

“How did you—”

“Because I was there myself. Once I joined SHIELD and before the Avengers became a thing.”

“Bull.”

“It’s true. The biggest thing before I knew Gods and aliens existed were terrorists and spies. Basic espionage stuff that you see in the movies. When Loki came along the job became—a lot more than what I was used to. So much so that there were times I thought I wasn’t really needed. I’m just a guy with a bow and arrow, that’s all I had to bring to every fight we went to.”

“But you looked pretty cool everytime you did it.” Uncle Clint ruffled my hair.

“Thanks shrimp. Now I know that these are two totally different scenarios but there is some common ground to both our fears. I was needed to be the ‘human aspect’ that the Avengers needed. Someone to help keep them grounded whenever things got too tough on the job. While you, you’ve always had a healing hand.” He took my hand between his and gave it a gentle squeeze in reassurance.  “And the world’s gonna be lucky to have someone who is doing it for the good of the patient, and not for the money. Or the medal of neurosurgeon, whatever the hell it is they call for giving Doctors rewards.”

“And again I am psyched but also a bit scared. Especially since I’ll be in a new state where I don��t know a single person there.”

“What about that friend of yours you made in college uhh—what was her name Robin? What about her?”

“She’s going to the University of Pennsylvania to be closer with her grandparents who need her.” He nodded solemnly.

“Well I still wouldn’t worry. You’ve always been pretty good at making friends. And you know we’re all just a phone call or facetime away if you ever get homesick.”

“Yeah I know.” I mumbled.

“Hey,” he scooted closer to me and wrapped an arm around me pulling me closer to him.  “You’re ready for this. I have absolutely no doubt in my mind that you’re gonna be the best Doctor that’s ever gonna live. Even better than Doctor Strange.” We both softly laughed.  “You’ve worked too hard to toss the scrubs now, my goddaughter is not a quitter. And she never says no.”

“Thanks Uncle Clint. And I don’t just mean for the talk but for everything. Even during the Blip.”

“I was hardly there for you during that time I—I was in a really dark place and you needed me but I…..”

“You still came whenever you could. It’s not like I needed you to help me get into college or to baby me, I was already in the midst of my first semester when it happened. The first thing you did was call me when the world went to shit. And when it came time for the summers or holidays, you still took the time to at least give me a proper welcome home before your Ronan business.” I leaned my head against his shoulder nuzzling into it.  “I don’t think I could’ve gone through my remaining years of college without you uncle Clint. You may have not always been there physically, but there was the emotional support whenever I needed you.”

“I’ll always be there for you kid. No matter how old you get.” He leaned his forehead against mine before he choked out. “And—I know Nat……she—she would’ve also been proud of you too.”

“I miss her.”

“Me too kid, me too.” His arms wrapped around me as I did the same for him and we embraced each other as tight as we could.

After staying up in the treehouse for a few more minutes, the two of us decided to head back inside for the rest of the evening where our two families spent the rest of the night talking until the Barton’s decided to call it a night and head home.

As they left, uncle Clint’s words rang in my head and the weight that was on my heart early was now lifted as I had a more positive outlook than the nagging negative from earlier.

“You were outside for quite a long time earlier sweetheart, you okay?” my mom asked.

“I’m fine mom. Just needed to clear my head. Uncle Clint also provided some good advice.”

“Well that’s good. But also know that your father and I are also here for you as well, you know that right?”

“I do.”

“Alright well I hate to treat you like a child but it’s time for bed. In the morning we’ve got a lot of packing and sorting to do before your big move this weekend.”

“Yes mama. Goodnight, love you.”

“Love you too sweetie.” She kissed my head and I went up to my room and fell fast asleep after a long day.

[vimerald-lycaix]

Fnaf: William afton x gender neutral reader part 1: rat man

Authors note: please forgive me TwT I'm bored and horny for this nasty rat man

The reader is 21, Henry and William are around 32-34 so there is a age gap, if you don't feel comfortable with that then sorry:)

Btw the reader is gender neutral:>(well I at least tried to make it so forgive me if I mess up)

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Authors POV:

Y/N was a employee at fredbears family diner and had a close friendship with the owners: Henry Emily and William afton.

They'd only been working at the diner for 4 months but everything was going smoothly, damn they even got a promotion and a pay raise.

Y/N had know Henry since high school, he was a close family friend before Y/N's family disowned them. Leaving them under Henry's care.

When Henry offered them a job at the new diner they were ecstatic .

And that's where our story begins(I'm cheesy I know)

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AUTHORS POV:

'YES YES YES!!!' Y/N mentally screamed.

'THIS IS MY FIRST JOB!!!! IM SO EXCITED!!!I WONDER WHAT TYPE OF PEOPLE WORK THERE!!' As Y/N quickly got dressed and exited their room they proceeded down the stairs before being stopped by Henry.

"Bit to excited aren't you?" He chuckled.

"....mabeyyyyyy..." they replied drawing out the last syllable before rushing back down the stairs.

"HEY!! I hope you washed your teeth!!!" Henry called out to Y/N

"Ughhhhh" Y/N groaned before going back up stairs to their private bathroom.

(5 minutes later)

"Morning Y/N" mrs. Emily greeted the young adult with a warm smile.

"Morning mrs. Emily" Y/N returned a smile.

"Please dear call me lily"(I dunno why I chose that name but feel free to change it if that's your name:))

Y/N hummed a response before sitting next to the young girl next to them.

"Hello Y/N!!!" Charlie greeted the (hair coloured gender).

"Hey char how ya doin' " Y/N ruffled Charlie's hair.

*giggles*" I'm doing great!!! I'm excited to see my friends at school!!"

"That's great!!.....whatcha drawing?" They asked curiously.

"I'm drawing fredbear and springbonnie!!" Charlie replied with stars in her eyes.

"Oh cool! Are they the animatronics at the diner?" Y/N asked

"Yep!! Who's your favourite?!?!"

*chuckles*"I dont know, haven't met them yet"

*gasp*"I'll have to introduce them to you then!!"

"Guess you will" Y/N answered

"Common you tow eat your breakfast before it gets cold" mrs. Emily interrupts.

"K!" "okie mommy!"

(15 minutes later)

Authors POV(still):

After Y/N and Charlie finished their breakfast they went to find Henry.

Which they found him in his work shop(garage).

"Yo Henry we have to get going" Y/N informed the older Male.

*bashes head under the table*"ow! Ok Y/N let me just grab my tool kit and we can get going" Henry let's Y/N know while rubbing his head.

"Alright see ya in the car!!" They reply before making a dash to the car.

Y/N helps Charlie with her seatbelt before making their way to the front seat.

A couple minutes later Henry joins them in the car.

"Hey Y/N I know your used to sitting in the front but I have to pick my business partner and his kids up so you'll have to join them in the back..." Henry coughs while rubbing the back of his neck.

"What??!!? Ugh fine. But how many kids does he have?" They groan

"....three...."

"What th-!??!*mumbles*he must be a fucking rabbit then. Three kids?!? Talk about a breeder..." they mumble while joining a giggling Charlie in the back.

(Time skip to when they are on the road)

Y/N didn't like the idea of sharing such a cramped space with three kids and a adult man they dont know, but tough luck, hopefully they aren't weird or annoying.

Soon they realized the car was slowing down to a halt, they looked out the window to meet a giant house on a hill.

'Much larger than Henry's house damn'

"Alright you tow, stay in the car while I go knock on the door" Henry ordered the tow in the back.

*sigh*"alright we'll stay here..."

"Great!!" And with that Henry makes his was up to the house.

'How is he so fucking optimistic all the time?!?!' Y/N mentally sighs while watching the trees.

Y/N had no idea how long it had been since they were caught up in their own thoughts.

But sadly...

They had to be interrupted.

"GRAHHHHH"

"AHHHH" both passengers in the backseat screamed at the top of their lungs.

"BAHAHAHAHA YOU SHOULD HAVE- HAVE S-SEEN THE LOOK ON YOUR FACES!!!! HAHAHAHA" shouted a a teen boy who looked around the age of 14-15.

"Why did you do that!?!?!?!" Y/N screamed at the boy while trying to calm down a crying Charlie.

"Damnnnnn take a joke bitch" the little prick- I mean kid rolled his eyes

"Dont you dare use such language around charlie you little pest!!" the older (gender) argued.

"Michael what have I said about bullying others and using that kind of language!" A voice boomed.

"Ughh sorry 'dad'" the young boy grumbled.

After you helped Charlie stop crying you looked up to see........

DUN DUN DUUUUUUUUUN

CLIFFHANGER!!!!

I really hope you like the first part!!!

I'm not sure when the second part will be up tho since I'm repainting my room and have a bunch of stuff going on at the hospital, but I'll have it out as fast as I can :)

Bye!!!

[hockeyshitandstuff]

Are you in town? - Matthew Tkachuk (part 3)

part one here

part two here

This is the last part of this mini-series and I hope you enjoyed it! Requests are open btw, so don’t be afraid to ask for an imagine with any NHL player :))

Word count: 1464 words

TW: mentions of sex, language

...

The thing that woke you up was the bright light shining through the windows.

Shit. What time was it? You probably should have been already working - for hours.

As you looked around yourself, you started realizing this wasn’t your apartment. Everything here looked so blank and expensive and then you remembered that-

That you kisssed Matthew while he was drunk. That you fucked Matthew while he was drunk.

You groaned silently, still too sleepy to actually cry. What had you done?

You thought you were okay with staying just friends. But here I am, you thought to yourself as you climbed out of the bed.

Your body felt sore and relaxed at the same time. It was a long time since you slept with someone and actually enjoyed it like this. And even though you should be ashamed of yourself, you let yourself enjoy that feeling.

Just then you realized that the other side of Matt’s huge bed was already empty and cold. There was no sign of him in the living room or in the kitchen - he probably left a long time ago, maybe already preparing for his upcoming game.

But the smell of him lingered on the sheets like a distant memory, bringing back the thoughts of yesterday's events. His hot skin touching yours, his warm breath caressing your breasts...

Shit.

Just... shit.

And so you put on your yesterday’s clothes, write a quick note for Matt and leave his apartment without looking back.

...

It’s been two weeks since you woke up at Matthew’s apartment. Since then, you ignored his calls and texts, pretended you weren’t home when he knocked on your door and worked overtime when he waited for you at the reception.

Yes - it’s not ideal but it worked for 14 whole days. And it gave you some time to think.

As you were leaving your office, thinking only about going to bed, you realized you didn’t check if Matt was waiting for you - but too late. A hand gripped lightly your elbow, making you halt in your tracks.

“Y/N, why the fuck are you avoiding me?”

He sounded a bit angry but mostly tired and hurt. He looked tired, too - those were dark circles under his beautiful eyes.

And you just stood there, trying to come up with a good enough excuse.

Because we fucked, Matthew, you wanted to say. Because I love you and I’m afraid you’re gonna break my heart. Because I don’t want to lose you or our friendship. But wouldn’t avoiding him for a few more weeks destroy your friendship as well?

“You can’t- you can’t just leave, Y/N. What happened happened and if you want to, we can ignore it but you can’t just keep walking around it. You can’t just leave like I did all those years ago. And I’m so so sorry I did so and it’s totally my fault if you feel like I might do that again but you have to trust me that I have no reason to do so.”

Matthew looked... scared. Was it because he was afraid you’d leave him behind? Afraid of tasting his own medicine?

You still didn’t know what to say. You wanted to believe all he was saying but the memory of you crying when he abandoned you was still playing in your head. He did so just because of some stupid promise he told nobody about. What’s stopping him from doing so again?

“I panicked when I came back home that morning - I went shopping because I had no food at the apartment and I wanted to make you a perfect breakfast. And when I came back, you were gone and all you left behind was a note with only one word on it - goodbye. So yeah, I panicked. Of course I panicked. And I know I’m the reason you did it but I have no idea how to make things right. I don’t know how to make you trust me like you once did...” Matthew tugged at his curls, his hair all messy. He let out a sigh, trying to avoid your searching gaze.

"Matt-" you stopped your arm from touching his hair even though you wanted to comfort him so badly. It'd be so easy to let yourself trust him. Too easy; and that scared you more than anything. "I need time. Just- just take me out for dinner or something. We'll take things slowly and then we'll see how that turns out."

He looked at you as you spoke, watching the shape of your lips while nodding slowly. A small smile formed on Matt's lips and he tucked a loose strand of your hair behind your ear. Your cheeks went red a bit as you realized he'd do whatever you needed and won't ever ask for more than you're prepared to give him. The night two weeks ago wasn't your fault; it was yours. Matthew was drunk and never forced you to do what you did. It was you who ruined things.

"Do you have time right now?"

"Yeah, I guess." you answered, smiling up at him.

"Then I'll take you out for dinner."

Hand in hand, you realized it'd be so easy to get used to the feeling of butterflies in your stomach.

...

A month later, Matt took you to a lunch with his family. It was a long time since you've seen any of his siblings so you were super excited - but also super nervous.

You two took things really slow. Matt took you out every day if he had the time and hasn't even kissed you once. Sometimes, you wanted him to do so. Sometimes, it was the only thing you could think of.

The nostalgia hit you as soon as you saw Chesterfield again. You closed your eyes, already knowing where would the car turn on the road. You kind of missed this city - it reminded you of your childhood and of Matthew.

He was sitting next to you, driving the car, one hand on the steering wheel and the second on your thigh, drawing cirles on your jeans.

"Do they remember me?" you asked, your eyes still closed.

"Of course they remember you," Matt murmured and sang a few lines of the song playing on the radio - your song, one from the playlist on the USB that was hidden for years in the time capsule.

After Matt got drafted, you stopped talking to his family. You were mad at all of them even though it was a stupid thing to do. But now as an adult, things would be different. Yeah, you probably could be mad at Matt's dad for all the things Matt wrote you in that letter but... He only wanted his son to be happy - you'd probably do the same.

So, when the car stopped, you got out and greeted his family as nicely as you could. It took you some time to recognise Taryn as she hugged you, because last time you saw her, she was just a kid. And now... She and Brady were both adults.

"Nice to meet you again, Y/N," said their mom, Chantal as you shoot hands. Her husband smiled at you from the table where all of them were already seated and Matthew wrapped one arm around your waist as he pushed back the chair for you.

Everyone talked, laughed and enjoyed the autumn day with bright smiles on their faces. None of them seemed to mind your presence and you felt like a part of this happy family.

Halfway through the lunch, Matt pushed his chair closer to you as he whispered into your ear:

"What are you thinking about?"

You looked at him, at his bright eyes and eased smile. At the way he touched your hand and tucked your hair behind your ear. And you realized how much he cared for you and that there was nothing that could keep you two apart this time.

No more tiptoeing. No more 'taking things slow'.

"I'm thinking about how I trust you more than I trusted anyone in my life. I'm thinking about how I love you more than I loved anyone in my life."

His smile was the most beautiful thing you have ever seen. It was full of love and care and you didn't realized you were crying until Matt wiped the tears off your cheeks.

"You want to know what I'm thinking about?"

You simply nodded.

"I'm thinking about our future and about how happy you make me, Y/N. I'm thinking about how lucky I am that I can call you mine. I love you so much, Y/N." he whispered, taking one of your hand in his and intertwining your fingers.

"I love you too, Matt. And I promise I will never say goodbye to you."

[siriuslytrash]

aghshhs same, today I got a nice surprise discovering that I have to do 13 biology exercises for next day🤠 but anyways, I'm glad you're doing ok! I'm scared of what's going to come out of the tw movie but I also want to see our kids again sooo

Ps: gurl your inktober drawing is awesome (I'm she/her too btw)

Omg that is alot of Bio 😳

Sorry it's taken so long to respond I'm hella sick 🤒 and I responded but Tumblr didnt post it right so then I procrastinated retyping it😂

But I'm very excited to see our kids as young adults/ adults getting into all sorts of new troubles and seeing what all of them are up to now, all of the OGs should be out of college (if they were just going for a 4 year degree) Liam should be in college, (if they are going for the amount of time it's been for us since we last saw them in 2017) and it'll be fun to see which of them are still in beacon hills and what's draws the rest of them home. If we don't get stiles in a fbi bulletproof vest I just might riot ngl.

[mayfriend-archive]

Totally understand if you're not up for it and fully recognize the ronald mcdonald dom/sub anon vibes which is an AMAZING post btw but like...now i'm curious, what the hell did Lord of the Flies anon DO that got him blocked for the discourse? like...i just can't wrap my head around high school lit being...uh...that inflammatory i guess?

Okay so, I'll start by saying I've had a new anon from apparently the same anon saying they are NOT the person I blocked, just a rando making the same points, but I'll answer your question anyway just to set out why this person in particular got blocked, out of the several thousand who reblogged/commented on that very successful addition to the LoTF post I made.

First off, I added the 'real life Lord of the Flies' story because I thought it was a good story. I had read about it only a couple days beforehand in Humankind and, after reading out the entire chapter to my parents who weren't very interested, I was excited that there was not only a post where it would be relevant to post, but that I wouldn't be hijacking it, as it was already rejecting the widespread interpretation taught in many schools, that humanity is inherently savage.

When making the addition, I a) did not think it would get more than a couple reblogs, because the post was already at 50k notes and I figured anyone that might be interested would already have seen it, and b) I did not know the very specific context that prompted William Golding to write the book; all I knew was that he had been a teacher at a public school (basically, the poshest schools in the country - think Eton, Harrow, very 'old money' places that pump out Conservative politicians by the bucket-load 🤢) who hated his job and the boys he taught (which, valid), and new information I'd been given in Humankind - that Golding had said to his wife one day, "Wouldn't it be a good idea to write a story about some boys on an island, showing how they would really behave?" - which had no mention of The Coral Island by R. M. Ballantyne, which I have since learned was the text that Golding loathed enough to write an entire novel in refutation of - and included what I considered a very telling letter from Golding to his publisher, in which Golding wrote of his belief that 'even if we start with a clean slate, our nature compels us to make a muck of it.' Another Golding quote that I believe portrays his belief in humanity's 'innate savagery' is that "man produces evil as a bee produces honey."

Obviously, the author of a book putting forward the case for humanity's inherent goodness was going to oppose Golding's hypothesis; Bregman not only noted Golding's literary accomplishments and beliefs, but his personal life.

When I began delving into the author's life, I learned what an unhappy individual he'd been. An alcoholic. Prone to depression. A man who, as a teacher, once divided his pupils into gangs and encouraged them to attack each other. "I have always understood the Nazis," Golding confessed, "because I am of that sort by nature." (Humankind by Rutger Bregman, p. 24-25)

I have bolded the part about him as a teacher, because it is incredibly relevant to the original post that I commented on, which begins with a comic of a teacher locking her class in to see them 'recreate' Lord of the Flies, something which the follow up comments before mine staunchly reject as both misunderstanding the point of the book, and the fact that it took the kids in Lord of the Flies a significant amount of time without adult supervision to go 'savage'. This misreading of the text is widespread enough that when Golding won the Nobel Prize for Lord of the Flies, the Swedish Nobel committee wrote that his book 'illuminate[s] the human condition in the world of today'. Whether or not they misread it is beyond my expertise - they do at least mention the factors of the outside world neglected by many when analysing the book, but still seem to believe it says something about human nature as a whole rather than just, to quote thedarkbutbeige 'British kids being rat bastards' - but Golding quite happily took his Nobel prize on this basis. Which, in fairness, I would too. It's a fucking Nobel prize.

It was with this knowledge, and this knowledge alone, that I stated in my now very, very widely read comment that Golding 'wrote the book to be a dick', in response to the tags of the person I reblogged from. As I said, I now know that Golding did not write the book (solely) because he hated the kids he taught, but as a response to The Coral Island and the general idea that clearly the British were inherently civilsed, whilst the people they colonised and enslaved were inherently savage. So. That's the background.

The anon - or rather, the person I thought was anon - was the sole exception out of dozens of replies, who instead of telling me about The Coral Island politely decided it was time to go ALL CAPS and regurgitate points already made by thespaceshipoftheseus, and implied that the only reason that the real life Tongan castaways didn't go all Lord of the Flies was because they weren't British. Not because they weren't surrounded by violence like the boys in Lord of the Flies, or there wasn't a World War ongoing, or that they weren't the upper, upper, upper crust of a class-obsessed society like Britain - but because they weren't British. A complete inversion of the concept that Golding was trying to get across - now, instead of all of humanity being equally prone to savagery in the right conditions, it was solely nationality that determined it. As in, the British were inherently savage, but nobody else was.

I, trying for humour, made the terrible mistake of replying to them.

I won't lie, I was absolutely blown away that this was real life. What I think they were trying to do was be that Cool Tumblr Person who, after somebody's been shitty on a post, goes to their blog and sees something Damning in their about/description. In an ideal world, I imagine I'd have gone nuts or done something Unforgiveable. In what I can only call the rant that followed, they stated several times that I needed to go back to high school to get some 'proper literary analysis' skills and that the story of the Tongan castaways was completely unrelated to the point at hand which. I mean, I disagree, considering that I made the addition, but I couldn't get my head around how commenting on a post that was already rejecting the thesis that the 'point' of Lord of the Flies was that humanity was inherently savage and was, in fact, about how kids - British or otherwise - learn how to function from the adults around them, and that traumatised, terrified children aren't going to create a mini-Utopia, and put forward a real life example of how without the key additions of an ongoing world war, a colonial Empire and the subsequent mindset of thinking you are 'inherently civilised' and therefore can't do anything wrong, actually, people just want to take care of each other.

A friend has since asked me why I even have 'england' in my description. To be honest, it's a timezone thing - I talk to a lot of people online who don't share my timezone, and it generally makes me feel like if I don't reply immediately because it's 3am, they have the tools to see that I'm not in their timezone and not just ignoring them. I did consider changing it to 'british' or 'uk' after it was... 'used against me', I guess, simply because I didn't want to deal with it, but you know what. No. Not gonna do that. I am from England, and I have never hid that fact. I have a tag called 'uk politics', during Eurovision I refer to the UK's act as 'us' (even if I really, really don't want to. Because James Newman slaughtered that song and it was downright embarrassing), I regularly post stuff in my personal tag about where I live (and mostly complain about this piece of shit government). If people really think my nationality makes every point I make null and void, then they don't have to follow me or interact with my posts; tumblr is big, and I am one medium-small blog very easily passed over.

I did reply to them, trying to explain the above, but their next response really just doubled down. Because I used the word British instead of English - foolishly because the posts above mine focused on Britishness, and also because although Golding was English and taught English kids, the pro-Imperialism author of The Coral Island, R. M. Bannatyne was actually Scottish so, ding ding ding, falls into the 'British' category - they then decided that I was somehow trying to pretend I wasn't English and made all the same points, before ending with this doozy:

At this point, I knew there was nothing to be gained from replying, because if we're whipping out conditions like they're pokemon cards then there's no actual conversation anymore, and I'm not going to start mudslinging like an identity politician. They made up their mind, and I figured there could be no harm in letting them think that they 'won' by blocking them instead of replying.

Until the ask. INNATE ENGLISH SAVAGERY did, I'll admit, make me think it was them, back again. I even thought up a really good response approximately 12 hours after I replied, I was that sure. Until the second message came in, and said they were just someone who came from the post and made the same point by chance. So the saga draws to a close... for now.

It may have been them, it may not have been - the anon feature makes it impossible to be sure, but as the second message I got said, we're in a heatwave. It's too hot to argue. And I've just written a goddamn essay about a book I dislike anyway.

My pasty English ass is going to go melt. If there's Disk Horse, do not tell me. I am Done™

[nineteenninety-six]

Baby Steps

This is connected to 'A Daughter'. I love that fic so much and I wanted to do more for it.

I still haven't got a laptop btw! So ignore any mistakes

Tommy Shelby x Black!Reader

Dad!Tommy Shelby

It took a while for Freya to adjust living in Arrow House with (Y/N) and Tommy.

During the day, she would stick to (Y/N) like glue, never leaving her side and whenever Tommy was at the house, she would hide behind (Y/N)’S legs. The poor girl was afraid of pretty much anyone other than (Y/N) and it hurt to think about what the little girl had endured growing up. (Y/N) wasn’t even sure that Freya trusted her, it was possible that she only clung to her because of their similarities.

She wanted the girl to trust her and Tommy and begin to feel like Arrow House was home but she also didn’t want to pressure her and she had no idea of how she could make the transition easier so all (Y/N) could do was wait patiently and hope for the best.

It wasn’t hard to catch on to the fact that Freya barely slept at night, her room was close to theirs but she was too afraid to go to them so she forced herself to stay awake during the night but she ended up sleeping for most of the day curled up next to (Y/N) in the library.

Once (Y/N) caught on, she put her foot down and decided to sleep in Freya’s room for the next week, on the bed that was way too big for the little girl and she had successfully been able to assure Freya that if there was an issue then she could come to their room.

After that things slowly began to get better and (Y/N) felt like Freya had begun to trust her fully, she engaged her in conversation and gave her small smiles and giggles and in general, much more relaxed.

Her relationship with Tommy was a completely different thing, unfortunately. Tommy rarely outwardly expressed emotion and had a habit of looking moody. (Y/N) couldn't blame Freya for still being distant.

(Y/N) knew she had to speak to Tommy, especially since he was the adult but also because if they had any intention to adopt her, they had to have a good relationship with her.

Freya had found a friend in Cyril and Cyril didn't mind her companionship or the large amount of attention she gave him, in fact, he had gotten into the habit of following her around the house and his new favourite place was at the bottom of Freya’s bed. Curled up and close by as she slept.

Currently, (Y/N) and Freya, along with Cyril, were in the library, entertaining themselves until Tommy returned home from London. (Y/N) used to feel terribly money whenever Tommy went on his trips but now with Freya’s presence, she felt much less lonely.

When he entered the house, (Y/N) jumped into his arms, excited to see after a week while Freya watched from a distance, still not completely comfortable with Tommy. After Tommy and (Y/N) pulled away from their hug and exchanged a few words, Tommy turned to Freya and sent her the warmest smile he was able to produce.

”Hello, Freya” Tommy greeted

”Hello…”

(Y/N) smiled at them, whilst it didn’t seem like it, their relationship had progressed leaps and bounds.

“C’mon, dinner should be ready” (Y/N) told them before she shuffled them into the dining room.

Dinner was a quiet affair until Mary interrupted them, telling them that there was an important phone call for (Y/N), that apparently could not wait and Tommy and Freya watched with worried eyes as (Y/N) left the room. They still looked worried when she returned and (Y/N) was quick to wipe away their fears.

“It’s fine, do not worry.” (Y/N) made her way back to her seat, “I just have to visit my mother tomorrow.”

“You’re leaving?” Freya asked, looking mildly alarmed.

“Only for the day, I’ll be back to tuck you in.” (Y/N) was quick to reassure her, “Tommy will be here during the day as well, so you don’t have to worry.”

Freya looked as if she was going to say something before she snapped her mouth shut and returned her focus back to her food. Tommy and (Y/N) exchanged a look before they themselves returned to their food.

The next morning, Freya clung to (Y/N) as she got ready to leave, this was the most contact that Freya herself had initiated and if the situation wasn’t so sad, (Y/N) would be over the moon at how far Freya progressed.

(Y/N) crouched in front of Freya and gently brushed her thumbs over her cheeks, “I’ll be back soon, I promise”

Freya sadly nodded and (Y/N) pressed a kiss to her cheek before standing up to her full height and gathering her things and leaving the room with Freya tightly gripping her hand.

They met Tommy who was waiting in the foyer and (Y/N) passed the driver her luggage before she gave Tommy a hug.

“Don’t lock yourself up in your office all day, try to interact with her.” (Y/N) advised.

Tommy nodded and gave her a kiss, “I will don’t worry.”

(Y/N) pressed one more kiss to his cheek before she turned to Freya, “Goodbye, sweet girl.”

Freya wrapped her arms around her neck, “Goodbye.”

After one more goodbye, (Y/N) left them.

Freya stood on the steps outside of their house, watching as the car drove and away and once it left eyesight, she still stood on the steps. Tommy watched her and then eyed the dark clouds rolling in, it was going to rain soon.

“Come on, we should head in before it starts to rain.”

Freya turned her head back to face him and nodded before she made her way back into the house. Tommy trailed after her, he didn’t know how to interact with a seven-year-old but he was the adult in the situation so he had to make the first move.

“How about we ask if the cooks could make you some hot chocolate, how do you feel about that?”

Freya looked up at him and nodded with a smile and then skipped after him as he went to the kitchen.

Tommy watched her as she drank her hot chocolate and nibbled on the biscuits the cook added,

“What do you usually do with (Y/N) during the day?”

Freya nodded, “Sometimes we draw or read. I like playing with Cyril as well.”

Freya paused for a moment before she spoke again, “Can we do some drawing?”

Tommy nodded, “If you want to”

They spent the rest of the day drawing and doing whatever Freya wanted and Tommy found that the single day they spent together had improved their relationship far more than the past few weeks put together and he cursed himself for not doing anything sooner.

That night after dinner as they waited for (Y/N) to return, they sat in the library, Tommy reading a book to Freya. The little girl was tucked into his side and listened with rapt attention as Tommy read her the story.

(Y/N) felt as if she could cry when she stepped into the library and saw them together. Freya had quickly become one of the most important people in her life so to see both of them together, meant a lot to her.

“Can I join?”

Both of them looked up in surprise, not realising that she had returned.

“(Y/N)!” Freya jumped up and ran into her arms.

(Y/N) easily swept her up into her arms and pressed a kiss to her cheek.

“Did you have fun without me today?”

Freya nodded and turned back to exchange a smile with Tommy, “We did. We even made you something!”

Freya wiggles out of (Y/N)’s hold and runs over to pick up a piece of paper before she runs back over to (Y/N) and gives it to her. It was a simple child’s drawing but (Y/N) loved it so much.

“Thank you, this is the best present I’ve ever received.”

Freya beamed at the compliment before she tried to pull her over to where Tommy was sitting on the sofa, “Tommy was reading me a story, join us!”

“What are you reading?”

“Anne of Green Gables” Tommy informed her.

“Sounds good” (Y/N) said as she settled on the other side of Tommy. Snuggling closer as he continued reading from where he left off.

[unnursvanablog]

Many things are happening today; Adele's new album just dropped, the second season of The Great is here, Hellbound dropped on netflix and I am about 5000 words away from winning Nanowrimo. And amongst all of that excitement amazon dropped the first three episodes of The Wheel of Time. And out of all of these things I decided to watch The Wheel of Time first (in between nano sprints).

The first episode does suffer a bit from info dumping and pacing issues as the show really tries to cram in the whole setup of the story, with the dragon reborn, and the introduction to the characters. Which is something I really did expect, but I also found it a bit jarring at times as we jumped from one scene to the next.

There was a lot of mentioning of this thing or this character and then we were rushed to the next scene where that character was or zooming in on object so we could see a symbol or something as a hint that it this is going to be really important later on and all of that. Lot of jumping around It defiantly could have flown a bit better. Had some smoother transitions between some of these scenes.

Some great scenes in there as well and I feel like the have all of the characters down. It's just those little character moments that I just wish I could have had a bit longer. Let them linger a bit. I just wanted longer scenes with some of them. 

I liked all of the Moiraine and Lan scenes where probably my favorite. Loved the scenes with them in the bath (I don't ship them btw) and also Moiraine and Nynaeve. Can you tell which ones are my favorite so far (at least where I am in the books).

I do get or understand the the rush, because the Eye of the World is a big book (as are all the Wheel of Time books) and there are only eight episodes to tell it all. But it definitely could have let the story breath a little bit. I think if we had just ended the episode right when the Trollocs came into town we might have had more time to breath and flow between all of this setup of the characters.

I get we might not have had the great Moiraine monologue about the turning of the wheel and all of that or the first big battle scene (which felt a bit clunky to my eyes, but it also had it's moments) to draw people in. But I think it might have had good enough cliffhanger for get people curious.

On the surface level this show doesn't do much (yet) to differentiate itself from a lot of other high fantasy stories. This is very classic high fantasy. 

It has a dark evil force looming around, it has people with magic and swords, it had people from a small village who are destined to be something big (and maybe even bad) just like every other murder mystery has a similar premise. And although the Wheel of Time does start of that way (in the books as well) it is very purposeful and as we get further into the story it manages to bring it's own flare into that very well told tale.

I will not stand for some 'this is a ripoff of game of thrones' nonsense though. It's not a GOT ripoff just because it's a fantasy story. And I think this show does do a good job making this show not feel like GOT. I never got that feeling from it. This feels way more fantasy in the same way Lord of the Rings feels fantasy than Game of Thrones was. This also does not feel like Europe in the middle ages just with dragons and some magic... which is what Game of Thrones sort of was. Martin wanted that story to feel almost grounded in reality while Jordan leaned into more fantasy elements. The Wheel of Times is not set in  Europe in the middle ages. Or it does not feel like that to me.

Both high fantasy with magic and swords. Very different feelings and vibes. I feel like The Wheel of Time sort of feels like it's not totally YA fantasy with it's colors and some of the special effects but not totally adult, gritty, grim-dark that people sort of associate this type of high fantasy show to be after GOT became such a hit. And Witcher. But I don't think Witcher and GOT have the same vibe ether. But then again I am a huge fantasy fan. Some people just see dragons, period clothing, swords and magic and think every damn fantasy show is the same.

I really enjoyed the first episode, despite it's hiccups with pacing and just feeling a bit rushed. But there is some fun fantasy elements here and even if this feels like very well told tale that I have seen and read a lot I do find the characters interesting and fun. I like fantasy and these types of stories a lot, and I have read the book (and I have started the second one) so the excitement to see certain scenes on the screen makes me really excited to see how they tackle them.

I am excited what the show can do with this stuff out of the way (introductions are super hard) and when it sort of finds it's feet a bit more and the right pacing. It just needs to find it's groove.

[eddielala]

Okay, I won’t sleep.

Here’s my goddamn summary and explanation of the meta. Because I have to say it.

1. They cut the ‘I love you’ scene . You know why? It was a hint that this episode won’t be about them.

2. We don’t know how long Dean was in the bunker and cried. We do know he didn’t pick up the phone the first time Sam called.

3. Dean arrives with the Impala. You can see he’s broken. And I really mean fucking goddamn broken. Jensen acted it very well and in character. He looks to the ground, he tries not to cry, his eyes flutter. He doesn’t realize what Jack and Sam are saying, you literally can see him thinking. Cas told him he loves him and died, that’s not easy to handle. Not for Dean, who’s still unsure about his sexuality.

4. “He saved me”. Well, he didn’t say ‘he loves me’. But ‘he saved me’ is the exact same thing for Dean, because he’s the man who doesn’t deserve to be saved. Saving him was Cas’ love confession and with telling Sam and Jack about it, he said ‘he loves me’. And come on, Dean talking about feelings would be out of character. We see a drunk Dean sleeping between beer bottles, that’s enough.

5. The dog is Cas. Not in person, but it’s kind of an incarnation. The angel with the puppy eyes, loyal, brave. Dean sees Cas in it and that’s the reason he falls in love with ‘Miracle’. He dies because of god and the moment of joy is over. Btw in the end you can see the dog again. Sooo, maybe Cas is on his way?

6. Adam is dead. It was only Michael and Adams body. And after Michael is killed Adam is gone forever. Maybe it’s a message because the fans always made fun that the writers and the boys forgot their brother. Now he’s gone.

7. The Cas call scene. You can see the desperate in Deans eyes. I already saw some posts about it and they were on point. The moment of hope in Deans eyes when he hears Cas’ voice, he jumps off and runs upstairs. That’s love btw. He wants so bad that it’s Cas, even he knows it’s nearly impossible.

8. Lucifers comeback. Maybe fan service? Mark was a brillant Lucifer. And we have the situation of the archenemies again: Lucifer and Michael, both with daddy issues. One last fight. And, surprise, Luci dies. The “good” one wins. Luci is now in the empty again... isn’t he? But I think his death is permanently. They wanted to solve the problem with the whole ‘in SPN nobody stays dead’ thing. But dunno, I didn’t look up the cast for next week’s episode.

9. The reaper. Well, I was in shock when she showed up. I really thought it’s Cas in a female vessel but it was just a reaper. Luci kills her, here’s new death. Well, they needed someone to open up the goddamn book. Wasn’t very exciting. And she was dead as fast as she was alive. I think the writers didn’t know how to open up the book otherwise.

10. The plan. What a rush. And how could god not know it? He’s omniscient? Hm... well, I think the most important scene was the one when Dean asks god to bring Cas back. The anger in his eyes, mixed with desperation. He would kill his brother, but Cas has to live. That’s character development, you can’t tell me otherwise. And that’s also plot development.

11. Michael’s death. Kill off and gone. Well, I think they had to get rid of him. But he died through the hands of his loved father. Could be a hint that daddy issues have to be solved and shows that Chuck is a goddamn son of a bitch.

12. Jack. Oh, he’s an adult now! I think it was the best what could happen to our baby. He always felt not strong enough and now he’s god. That’s a promotion! It was a good decision: Jack was not controlled by his feelings - sure he had bad days, but his wisdom was greater than god’s actually. The reason is that he’s half an angel. And he’s half an human. God made the angels the image and likeness of himself but he wasn’t satisfied by the result. So he created humanity the same way. Jack is a combination out of god’s objective, destructive side and god’s loving, emotional side. And both sides were always in balance, and that’s the reason he could be a energy - how did they call it - sucking hole without getting destroyed by gods and Amaras power. Because these powers need balance and Jack could give it to them.

13. God. God’s an asshole. And we know he represents the writers of Supernatural. When Chuck beats the shit out of Dean and Sam it’s actually a message: The writers harmed them so many times, the whole series is a fucking drama. It represents how they dealt with them, they send them to hell and back so many times. They tortured them, broke their hearts. That’s the last time the writers harm them so much. Because they - Chuck - looses his powers. Dean and Sam take over the situation. Dean and Sam represented and influenced by Jensen and Jared. And by the fans. The writers aren’t able to change them anymore. They are what we want them to be. Because they don’t have the power anymore.

14. The book. We see the white pages of the book. God can’t see what’s written there. The pages are blank. This means the writers are finished. They don’t have something to say anymore. The story got told and there’s nothing what follows. The pages are white and ready for stories from other people. Fanfics, fanarts, and so on. Chuck, the writers, tell us there’s nothing left to say. It’s over.

15. Dean doesn’t kill god. Chuck provokes Dean to kill him and Dean says to him, that’s not who he is. You remember Cas said it this to him, right. It’s not a love confession but something like this. He finally accepts who he is and that he has feelings and not only a raised killing machine. He accepts himself. Maybe that’s a good sign for the next episode.

16. Jack disappears. I know he’s family but for real: he found his happiness being a god. He will change the world. I already said why he’s perfect for this job. And his disappearance is... well, gives me a comfortable feeling. He’s in peace and he found his mission of life. And you can’t tell me he didn’t bring back Eileen and the others. We don’t know if he can bring back Cas out of the empty. But I think he would bring Cas back if he could. Maybe he couldn’t and the story gets told in the last episode. However, Jack did a great job.

17. The ending. Yeah, what did we expect? They already told us with the season’s posters that it’s about Sam and Dean. And only them. And I can understand why Dean seems to be happy there. They literally saved the goddamn world again. But I don’t think it’s only this. They are free now. That means they can become what they want - what the fans want because the writers lost their power. And maybe that’s a hint on Destiel being confirmed by Dean in the next episode. And they’re driving with the Impala but we don’t know where they will go. Hmm... and maybe Dean smiled because he had hope again? Hope to save his... boyfriend?! Don’t know, but he’s able to do it now.

So, maybe I’m too romantic but that’s what I think. I think we see Cas again and that they will be together. I don’t know and I don’t think we will get a love confession from Dean (I know, sad. I thought we get it). But I think there’s hope. Maybe - that’s only a theory - they don’t want to make it completely canon because they argue that the end should offer enough possibilities for the fans to write and draw and so on. I would be pissed if that’s the argument, I mean queerbaiting is real but we don’t know.

I don’t find an answer in the confusing statements of the actors and the crew. Misha said he’s not in this episodes, but he was on set. It’s canon, but Dean doesn’t reciprocate? What the hell? It’s a mess and they have to clean it up for the fans. They said it won’t be a ‘Game of Thrones’ ending and hell yes, I don’t want that. It would suck. Also they said the ending would make 30% of the fans happy - maybe that’s us. We’ll see.

Edit: Btw I wrote it before, I think it’s true that Cas gets more attention in the last episode because of the fact it’s the series finale. Cas wasn’t just part of the season and we know it was the season finale, he’s part of the whole series for years. So why not bring him back for the series finale?

[h1kari]

For my dear mutual, @a-magey

summary: kuroo and The Gang (tm) suprise you for your bday 🥺

warnings: tiny bit of angst maybe? Not really, just feeling sad for a bit. Oh, and shitty writing 😭 it’s my first one

btw the messy drawing at the end was made by me :) happy bday!!!

🎂 (You) 🎂

19. Finally here. The age everyone starts treating you pretty much like an adult. Almost reaching the 20’s, a new beginning.

That was something many kept reminding you

“God, almost 20 huh?” “The last teen years!” “You’re like a whole adult now”

Look- it wasn’t exactly that the fact of turning 19 bothered you or anything, it’s just that the way they say it as if your life is over or something. Plus everyone mentions that basically every year. “You’re turning 16, almost 17!” “You’re turning 82, almost 85!” Yes that’s precisely how aging works.

You weren’t gonna let that ruin your day. You’d have a nice date with your boyfriend, Kuroo, and then you’d go hang out with your group of friends. However, the universe decided against that.

“God baby I’m so sorry, I won’t be able to make it. You know how my boss is, he doesn’t really waver much when it comes to work.”

You sigh, well- internally, you didn’t wanna make Kuroo feel guilty. It’s work after all, right?

“It’s fine, don’t worry about it. We can do it another time”

There was a silence

“I love you”

“Me too, good luck at work”

You weren’t gonna let this ruin your day but god did you feel disappointed. It wasn’t his fault of course but the lonelieness still crept slowly upon your body. Well, what about your friends?

“Super sorry!” “I’m so sorry!!” “Gaahh I won’t be able to make it! Sorry”

Now you actually sigh

Guess It’ll just be a you-day, huh?

🍰 (Kuroo) 🍰

“I want to die”

Kuroo exclaimed dramatically after his excrutiating call. His chest tightened at the sound of your voice slowly quieting down, with a hint of sadness melting on it. He couldn’t bear to wait any longer, he wanted to see you right there and then. See your pretty face lightning up when you discover that no- of course he wouldn’t work on your birthday! It was just a surprise, see? Then you’d hug him and kiss him and-

“Earth to Kuroo-san”

Yaku snapped his fingers in front of his former volleyball captain, with a slightly smug look on his face,

“C’mon we just need to fix some things up and we’re finished, you lovestruck bastard”

Kuroo stood straight, groaning. Yeah, Yaku was right, just some more stuff and he’ll get to see you, but damn the image of a sad you made him want to pull a fuck-it and run to you. He sure was an absolute dork for you.

🎂 (Back to you) 🎂

Walking down the street you felt the light buzz of your phone, excitedly checking it, only to sulk when it was just Lev asking you to get him a book from the library because he needed it for some uni stuff and you usually spent most days there anyway. Putting your phone away and heading toyour beloved library, you looked around you, you’re still there, you made it to 19 and that’s a privilige not many have. Again you repeat to yourself, you won’t let yourself have a bad day.

Looking around the library, taking in that familir scent, warm lights, concentrated looking students, wooden tables. A feeling of home. You notice a woman with the work uniform speed walking up to you, a determined look on her face.

“Hello! This may seem a bit weird but, here”

She hands you a note with a location, the farmers market you love going to with your boyfriend

“Oh?....OH”

You start catching on. Excited, you quickly thank the lady, and rush out of the library, as she whipser-yells “Happy birthday!”

Makes sense you though Kuroo was acting weird! You don’t know if you wanna kill him or kiss him, porbably the latter, yeah, most definitely.

You finally got to the farmers market, and a nice santa-looking guy taps your shoulder, handing you another note with a warm smile. The park, a usual spot for you to hang out with then “Neko gang” as you like to call it. Repeating your previous actions, you thank the man and go to your next, and final stop.

You reach your destination and decide to head to that one spot you guys claim as yours, in the middle of the park’s green field, farther away from other groups. You’d usually play cards, talk and mess around, read and even just nap there. It’s warm and cozy, it’s perfect.

🍰 (Kuroo) 🍰

“Alright guys, get ready”

Kuroo waited for your arrival like a loyal puppy (well- more like a cat 🥴) and seeing the top of your brown hair slowly coming up the little grass filled mountain, made him feel a weird sense of relief. He irrationally worried about whether you’d just gone to your apartment and stayed there sad, alone. He’s ecstatic to be able to do something like this for you, you’ve done everything for him by just being by his side. He wants to return the favor, and he wouldn’t mind doing so if that meant spoiling and being with you forever.

“HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!”

Seeing your face was definitely worth it.

Everyone launged themselves at you, making you all fall down, giggling like idiots. Kenma was able to get everyone to let you breathe (“Kuroo jesus christ you were apart for like 20 minutes, calm down”)

🎂 (You) 🎂

Standing up, you thanked everyone. After that, you spent the whole afternoon talking about your memories with each other, how you’d met, how you’d become friends, inside jokes, trip togethers, etc. You ate delicious strawberry cake done by Yaku and Lev, opened presents (which included paint brushes, cookie cutter and various murder mystery and romantic books). You had the time of your life. Everything was perfect. Just as Kuroo planned, you forgot about any sadness you felt during the date. These are your people and you love them.

After saying your goodbyes, you and Kuroo entered your apartment. Your black haired boy fixed up a nice, warm and bubbly bath for you both, proving that yes, he wanted to spoil you even more. You got in, getting comfortable against Kuroo’s chest. He started trailing sweet kisses on your shoulders, nape and chest. Innocent, even if the position didn’t seem so. You were both still quiet, not uttering a word since you came back from your little suprise. Even without saying anything you both knew well enough,

You loved each other.

[talesofafangirlwithadvr]

JULY PICKS!

You heard me correctly, I said JULY! Whoosh, this year is going by fast-but not in a good way if you know what I mean. This will be my last monthly wrap up where I am strictly staying home in quarantine as this upcoming week I’m heading back to work in person. Wish me luck!

We had quite the range this month from newly released, reality, musical and then some favorites from last month that I’ve continued watching. Without further ado here we go....

There’s going to be PLENTY of SPOILERS this go round. ESPECIALLY with my first pick of Stargirl. You’ve been warned!!!

DC’S STARGIRL

I need to talk about 1x10 or I’m going to burst!!! As stated above there will be A LOT of SPOILERS IN THIS POST!! So scroll down to the next picture if you don’t want it to be spoiled. 

You’ve been warned...again.

IT CANNOT END LIKE THAT!!! ARE YOU KIDDING ME???? Henry! Wow! 1) Epic fighting 2) The backstory and how he wasn’t going to give up on his dad AND THEN how he wouldn’t give into his dad. 3) HE DIED RATHER THAN JOIN HIS SIDE OR PRETEND (which I honestly felt was going to happen). His character arc and I can’t believe it’s over!!! 4) His speech at the end: *weeping.* I knew Brainwave was going to say he killed his mother. It just felt like the build up. Brainwave Jr. would have been a GREAT ADDITION TO THE JSA! AND OMG THE WAY THE REST OF THEM FOUGHT FOR HIM! I loved how they framed it so you could still see them in the back when Henry spoke to his father. Super heartbreaking. Man, it feels like a lot of people have been killed off this first season (or am I just still thinking about Joey?) 

Side note: Check out the Instagram Live between father and son Brainwave on Stargirl’s CW page. Jake Austin Walker did an AWESOME interview in his take over.

This was one of the strongest episodes overall and definitely one of my favorites so far. I agree with many others that while it is SOO GOOD and I want to rewatch it again, I don’t know if I can emotionally yet. I can’t remember the last time I felt that way about a show. 

Some other thoughts this episode: WAY TO GO BARBARA! Way to record them to translate later (such an awesome app btw, how do I get it?). I’m glad her and Pat came more to an understanding because I love them especially with that glimpse into how they met. Jordan’s parents give me the creeps, like the couple from The Visit vibes. I feel like Mike’s got to find out ASAP, especially because he’s spent time in the garage. Something’s got to show him the truth; because I’m really feeling he figures it out rather than being told. Very curious to see what his reaction will be. SOLOMON GRUNDY. Thank God Beth talked Rick down. She really is like Chuck in being the voice of reason. She did really well in the cafeteria too. While I still don’t believe Starman is Courtney’s dad, how cute was it when she put together her and Henry were cousins? Speaking of Court’s dad, who else didn’t feel like Starman was her dad until they saw that upcoming promo? I don’t know who that impostor is but he is not her dad. Something’s fishy.

Loving this show. So happy it’s renewed for a second season!! 

THE 100

From a show I can’t get enough of to one whose final season is a disappointment. I’m not going to spend too much time talking about The 100 because I feel I’ll just be repeating myself from previous posts. However, I did want to include it because I haven’t spoken much about the previous 2 episodes that I wound up watching back to back and I didn’t overly dislike them. 

As many have complained, when you have a final season you shouldn’t introduce SO MANY new characters and just push aside your originals (or the ones who are left). You also shouldn’t include so many confusing plots that are making it look like were the main points overall (like this many world concept was around since the first grounders) and playing with time in so many episodes is hard to keep up with too. Having so many people separated makes it difficult to remember what just happened to this specific group because I haven’t seen them in forever. ANYWAY, I did promise some positives. I didn’t except to like 7x08 because of it being a flashback episode with brand new people that was just going to feel like a potential spin-off pilot. Well...I actually really enjoyed it and the concept that the bunker was used before One Crew. The characters were easy to like and it was cool seeing Allie again (and this time not as the villain). While it felt forced including the orb (is that what it’s called? If not that’s what I’m calling it), but I liked how all the other pieces fit together (ex: the flame, the grounders’ language). Honestly, I surprise myself to say this, but I’d watch another episode. For 7x09, I liked being on Bardo and watching Octavia, Echo, Diyoza and Hope slowly get “brainwashed” I mean trained. We all knew it wouldn’t work for Hope and if I was them I would rather be on Sky Ring than Bardo (but then I guess I’d go crazy, so...) I enjoy the Octavia and Levitt relationship and would love them to work out, but if this show taught you anything it’s to be skeptical. I also want to shift to the Primes plot, just to showcase John Murphy for a second. THAT MAN! What a character development he’s had on this show. From the first season where I was like come on Murphy to now me awaiting his scenes. From cockroach to someone who won’t view himself as a hero. So good and something that is fantastic about this final season. They might have forgotten about other characters, but they’re doing it right by Murphy. 

Well, that was more than I was expecting. ;)   

THE CIRCLE

It feels like I haven’t watched a lot of reality TV this year, which makes sense because of our quarantine situation (but then again I’m watching World of Dance, but that’s a different because it’s more of a competition/dance show. I’ll stop rambling). The Circle is a reality ‘game’ show that could be easily completed during quarantine and social distancing because the contestants do not see each other in person. They each have an apartment in this complex and only communicate with each other on a social media platform called the Circle. The objective is to become the most popular and an influencer who gets power over who stays and who goes in the competition. There’s some side contests throughout, but most of the show is just people chatting through an insta messenger and trying to learn as much as they can. Alliances are formed and cat fishes try to thrive all for the grand prize of $100,000. (Wow, that’s a lot!) It is SUPER addicting and very funny. Having a voice-over narrator really makes it even funnier because she says what we’re all thinking. Just about every episode a contestant leaves and then is able to meet one other person in their apartment. It’s been cool seeing their reactions as oftentimes it’s someone they did not expect AT ALL. I can’t wait to finish it. If you’re a fan of Big Brother than this is definitely for you. Looks like there will be a second season, which I am excited about.  

THE BABYSITTERS CLUB

Jumping from one Netflix show to another. Released on Netflix on July 3rd, I tried not to binge it all in one day because then it would be over (and we still don’t know if there will be a second season yet). This is definitely my feel good watch for July. If you want something that’s a quick watch and just wholesome and fun to escape our current world than this is for you. I always felt so happy after watching and couldn’t wait to watch another. While I was familiar with the franchise--the 90s movie and of course the books (although I was more of a Babysitter Little Sister fan, so I was very excited to see Karen), you don’t have to have any knowledge of the Babysitters Club to enjoy this show. I was hooked just about right away by this new series shown by me watching the first three episodes back to back. I really like how they set up each episode with one girl as the main focus (just like in the books) where she takes over the voice-over narration. Great representation and made modern to fit in with our current times. The first example that comes to mind is when Mary Ann babysits Bailey who is transgender. I liked how Bailey says those are her old clothes while they’re playing. It’s shown in a way that explains the situation without feeling like a lecture. It fits so naturally into the episode. And then Mary Ann’s speech at the hospital is super powerful for both Bailey and herself. This is just one example of how well represented this show is. Extremely strong cast and actresses who are the proper ages. I also love the adult casting and how they threw in a Clueless reference from Alicia Sliverstone (who plays Kristy’s Mom). As someone who is writing for this age group, I really liked hearing and seeing how authentic this show is. 

FEEL THE BEAT

A Netflix original movie that has been on my list for a while that I just got around to watching. It didn’t come out too long ago. In the film, Sofia Carson’s character is a dancer who is a perfectionist. She gets on the bad side of a big NYC producer when she not only leaves her in the rain as she steals her taxi, but also knocks her, accidentally, off stage and becomes a viral video-this basically blackmails her in Broadway. This all happens within about the first 10 minutes of the film and the majority takes place back in her small home town (very Hallmark-like) in Wisconsin. While there her old dancing teacher wants her to share her Broadway wisdom with her young students. Meanwhile Carson has only been a chorus girl, so she doesn’t really have any. What draws her to helping the young girls is the chance to perform in front of a big choreographer that could get her to be the star she always dreamed of. The catch is that it’s the teacher dance in the childrens dance competition. While this might sound like a movie you’ve watched many times before, it was still worth it and a really fun watch. I think the kids really make the movie. They are adorable, funny and super talented. You feel connected with them really fast and want to see them succeed. I loved Dickie and how he joined the group. I think he was my favorite overall. I loved how inclusive the cast was here too (just like BSC) from a mixed race family, to single parents and even a student who was Deaf. It was great seeing the other actors sign to her. Carson’s character, April, can be annoying at times, but you understand it’s her character and something she needs to overcome. As I said before the plot may seem familiar, but the ending was something I didn’t see coming. Overall, wholesome, feel good and fun for the whole family. You can consider to watch while babysitting. (See what I did there??)  

VIOLETTA SEASON 2

She’s back! I know last month when I included Violetta it was mainly me being excited to see the second season FINALLY streaming on Disney Plus. I had watched a few episodes (remember there’s 80 altogether, so even if I watched 20 that’s still very early on and just a dent in the season) and was still getting used to this season. Well, now I’m happy to report I am in the 40s and more than half way. For a bit I was watching many of these episodes a day, which told me that I was loving it again. Recently, I feel I need a little more of a push to watch, but it’s mainly because of certain story-lines that feel like they’re dragging. (For example: Violetta’s voice. One minute it’s fine and the next she’s like dying). For this section I have two words: LOVE TRIANGLES. And I’m not just talking about Violetta, Diego and Leon. For a bit it felt like each character had their own love triangle, which honestly I was loving. These characters have definitely developed a lot from last season, which allows this to happen. Olga was in a love triangle, which just recently got resolved. I think German is still in one because of his alter ego Jeremias. Jackie was “kind of” in one. For her it was more of a misunderstanding, which is very classic on this show. Lots more secrets have been uncovered in these episodes as well as songs! You know how excited I am for those. Overall, I think I’m still enjoying season 1 songs more (which get referenced enough in this season), but some of the season 2 ones are really growing on me. Specifically Leon’s Entre dos mundos and when he sings with Diego Euphoria in English. Also, Yo Soy Asi has been real catchy. I know Frederico will be coming back soon and I can’t wait to see him again!  

HAMILTON

Like many I watched Hamilton this month-actually on the day it came out. It’s been a musical that I’ve been intrigued by, but never thought I’d get a chance to watch because of how popular and expensive it is to see on Broadway. So, I was very excited to hear I’d get the chance when it was to be released in theaters for a special event. Then because of Corona it was released to Disney Plus, which was EVEN more convenient and exciting. I really enjoyed it and watched it twice within the same week. I immediately downloaded the playlist and started singing it around the house. I do this a lot with many of the plays I see, but depending how good they are is shown by how long I listen to the soundtrack. (Some of my top ones are Bandstand, Once, Newsies and Anastasia.) Because there are so many songs in Hamilton it is taking me a little longer to know all the words, but I feel pretty confident with the first act. It was the perfect timing for this to be released on Disney Plus. Not only because it was July 3rd, but also because of the world we are living in. Lin’s diverse cast brings to life the world of 1776 and the revolutionary war (as well as the time after it), but it’s such a strong commentary on our world today. This is something I am continually noticing with historical dramas/pieces being released within the last 5-10 years. It feels like there’s more we can say in this genre than in a commentary piece. I also like all the analysis videos I’ve seen popping up, which just make it even more powerful. (Like it being Eliza’s story and her putting herself back in the narrative. That the play Hamilton is named for both her and Alexander.) I don’t know if all of what I see were intentional, but  either way well done. I hope it doesn’t leave Disney Plus soon. 

1917

And lastly, 1917. I promised quite the range this month and you can see that’s definitely the case. I always enjoy watching war films and with 1917 there was so much hype (both before it came out and after) that I was interested to give it a watch. Giving the movie to my dad for father’s day felt like the perfect excuse to be able to watch it. Even though our DVD stuck in a few places (still don’t know if it was the player or the DVD itself), the film was very entertaining and I would suggest it to anyone who is a history/film buff. Taking place in WWI, we follow two British soldiers as they attempt to deliver a message about an upcoming ambush that could take countless lives. I feel that I often watch more films revolving around WWII, so it was very interesting to be immersed in the first great war. After watching I am not surprised that the film was up for so many Oscars. While cinematography is the first thing everyone discusses when it comes to this movie (and it should be because the one shot/long shot is sooo impressive and beautiful to watch. It really brings you into the scene and has a way of making you feel like you’re there too. There’s a realness to it that’s raw and new compared to other war films I’ve watched in the past), there’s so much more to this film too. First, I like how it connects back to Sam Mendes’ grandfather, so while it’s not a true story it has real facts in it. I LOVE the score and music to this film. In the scene where George Mackay runs at night through those ruined buildings I could really hear how well the music worked with the action. Because of this I made sure to listen to some of the soundtrack and now I’ve added some of the songs into my writing playlist. I have chills just thinking about it. The other point I want to bring up is the cast! While there are SO MANY big names in this film from Colin Firth to Benedict Cumberbatch, the two main characters are played by George Mackay and Dean Charles Chapman and they are the ones with the most screen time. If their chemistry and acting wasn’t so great then the movie wouldn’t be as successful as it is. Because of this I have been watching non-stop YouTube interviews of the two of them for this film. 

They are so well-spoken, stand-up guys and I can’t get enough of their dialogues with each other and others. (You should watch these interviews too). While familiar with Chapman’s time on Game of Thrones, I haven’t seen him in much else, so I’m excited to see what he’ll have in the future (as well as checking out his IMDB page). For Mckay, I’ve seen him before when I just watched Ophelia earlier this summer so that was my first time watching him act. After that film I was curious what else he was in, but it was only after 1917 that I started doing more research. So far, I’ve only been able to watch the short film he was in called Infinite. While only 17 minutes it was very strong and deep. I highly recommend. As I’ve shared on this page already, in another post, the more I hear him talk the more of a crush I am developing. It’s been a long time since I’ve experienced a celebrity crush this strong so soon. This quarantine has to end so I can make it to England to just casually bump into him like one does. :) 

[najatheangel]

Idol Life Ship🎶

hi ! can i have a private idol life ship ? im an aries and an enfp :D im 5’8 and i speak english and norwegian (im learning japanese and spanish rn) my family has been forcing me to be in chorus since the 3rd grade, so im pretty good at singing. i also like dancing even tho i suck at it. i have a small friend group and i like spending time by myself. i can be pretty sarcastic n childish sometimes :/ i like to draw and listen to music (mostly garage rock and shoegaze) i also really like horror films :D my aesthetic is 90s skater grunge mixed [...]

@jisungindastarrs Heyy lovlie, thanks so much for requesting. Love your username btw it’s adorable. Of course I can do that for you. I hope you enjoy it.

Your Company: P Nation. Singing was a good hobby for you and you posted Blackpink’s Whistle cover on Instagram. The staff of P Nation saw it and reached out for you to try and audition for the company. The things that stood out to them was your creativity, ability to speak different languages and talent in the singing department. You’ve trained for 4 years under P Nation.

Number of Members: Total of 4 members. 1 Chinese, 1 Thai, 1 Korean and then there’s you.

Group Concept: Grunge/Indie

Your Position: Main Vocalist/ Face of Group. Your the first co-ed group to debut in P Nation. Your music style and concept is so different from most kpop groups out their. It’s a mix of live band alternative music with a sprinkle of rock. Your group is also the youngest in the company which everyone treats you like the babies and spoil you when you deserve it of course. The best part of being apart of P Nation is there is no rules when it comes to making music or creatively expressing yourself. In the group, your more like the middle child that’s always getting teased, but also receive it out of love. You tend to be the savage one in the group that no one dares to tease too much or they’ll regret it. In interviews, your the spokes person being able to handle answering questions in any language. Lastly, your known to have the most crazy hair colors of the group experimenting all kinds of styles every comeback!

Your Scandal: You were shipped amongst one of your male members in the group which sparked dating rumors. Of course you both joked about it in weekly idol by flirting, but immediately shut it down once it got too far. People never dared to try to start fake relationship rumors again and admired you two as brother and sister.

Girl BFF: Sana from Twice. Your personalities are every opposite, but in a sense it works so well. She mentioned in an interview one time that she admires your music and hopefully one day she can work with you. Your both also a child a heart which makes hang outs so exciting. You two can be excited over the smallest things such as eating pepperoni pizza or buying matching friendship bracelets together. Even though she’s the more cheerful one in the relationship, her energy easily transfer your way.

Boy BFF: Mark from Nct. This man is another huge fan of your teen love and grunge concepts not to mention the splash of rock in your music it reaches out to a lot of young audiences around his age. He was awkward first impression not knowing how to greet you at many music events, but you congratulated him during his resonance promotions and the rest was history. He was the one that helped you improve on Korean and you helped him improve on Spanish so that he can interact with his Hispanic fans. You also learned how to play guitar from him so you can play while singing the acoustic version of your songs. Overall this beautiful friendship blossomed at the perfect time.

Ideal Type: Ryujin from Itzy. You both tend to go shopping every weekend and practice choreography ever since you’ve debuted in Korea. She has been also one of your first friends supporting your music throughout your career. She talks about you almost all the time amongst her members sounding like she is so starstrcuked over you. They was also kind of teasing her saying you might’ve almost had a crush on you, but she just respects you so much and wishes the best for you. She also protects you from creepy guys that try to ask for your number in bars and clubs. 

Your BF: Changbin from Stray Kids. This man admired your style of music, fashion sense and your ability of not caring what people thinks. He sees that strength in you that can help inspire other woman which he loves even more. When he met you, he wanted to ask you out on the spot and become the ultimate power couple, but he wanted to take his time by getting to know you as a person instead of moving too fast. Your both still young and have busy schedules so you guys haven’t officially started dating until you start getting older and feel more comfortable sharing your relationship with your friends and family. 

Since you didn’t specify for bf or gf I just shipped you with the first person that came to mind.

How long have you debuted for: 7 years. Your songs still age very well and reach out to the next generation of teens and young adults. 

Other Activities: Model/Makeup Ambassador

That’s all I got for you love. Feel free to come back anytime and request again mkay? Hope you have a nice day/night. 

[peaky-shelby]

full house

Pairing: Steve Rogers x oc

For the 5k challenge of @wxntersoldiers

Summary: is dealing with aliens easier than dealing with kids? Steve is about to find out.

Prompt: My kid has locked him/herself in your apartment and I can’t get them to come out.

Words: 2.227

Warnings: fluff, domestic!Steve,

Author’s note: alright so maybe I will write more parts. But for now this is enough. As started this is for @wxntersoldiers challenge! Happy 5k btw! And I hope you will like this! I wanna write more but I’m not sure yet! Sending all my love 😘 I also made a moodboard to her you all more in the mood yay!!

Steve Rogers was a simple man. As simple as a man his age can be anyway. After work and missions and saving the world he’d go to his apartment, stay there and watch TV. Simple. And that’s what he wanted for the day something simple, to go and lay on his bed and relax but another kind of battle waited for him at home.

When he reached his floor, he found a woman with her head on her knees in front of his door. He was confused and worried but walking closer he recognized her red curly hair as they fell on her knees. It was Sophie, the girl that tony sent every month to help clean his house. Steve hated the idea of having a maid, he thought it was wrong but tony kept sending her anyway. After some time they even became friends of some kind. She always seemed to have to right advice and she was always cheerful, something Steve admired about her. She was one of the little simple parts of his life. “Sophie?„

The redhead raised her head and quickly got on her feet, stumbling a little as she tried to keep herself steady, Steve reached for her arm to hold her. “Is everything ok?„ he asked worried. Sophie nodded, letting go of him and searching in her mind for the right way to explain the situation.

“It’s lily!„ she started explaining, her cheeks already turning red. Steve knew that lily was her 6 year old daughter, she had met her a couple of times, she was a lovely girl that had been through a lot for her age, Having lost her father very early on. She was always happy when she met Steve, they were like buddies. Sometimes Sophie would worry that lily was being a pain in his back but Steve would always reassure her that it was ok. He never had a bond like that with a kid before.

“Is she ok? Did something happen?—„

“Oh she’s fine trust me!„ Answered Sophie, a bit sarcasm in her voice. Steve was even more confused now, he narrowed his eyes and crossed his arms. Sophie knew she would have to explain but she was emberassed and worried of what his reaction would be. Nonetheless, she took a deep breath and in one long sentence started explaining what happened “so I was cleaning and then I was done. Everything was fine but she found your old notebooks with all the drawings and started looking at them and then wanted to take it with her and then said that she wanted to see you before we go and I tried explaining that we have to go but she wouldn’t listen and she started whining but then I walked out of the apartment and told her to bring me the keys but instead she locked herself in your apartment and I can’t get them out and I tried I promise, I tried, I’m so sorry— mr. Stark will be so mad I don’t know what to—„

“Hey hey hey Sophie! Soph! Take a breath, ok? Breath. It’s ok, it’s all good. I have keys remember? We can get her out.„

Sophie tried to catch her breath, her heart racing, her cheeks blushing more and more by the second. This was the worst possible thing that could happen to her, she wished earth could swollow her. Where were the aliens when you needed them?

“I’m so sorry Steve... it’s your house and she—„

“And she’s a kid.„ Steve added in a very comforting way, giving her a smile of understanding. He reached in the pockets of his blue leather jacket and pulled his keys out. Sophie smiled and mouthed ‘thank you’ to him. Steve, opened the door, with Soph following behind him but the young girl was nowhere to be found. “Great shes gone hiding now. God I’m so sorry—„

“Stop apologizing.„ he said, looking back at her. “We’ll find her.„ Sophie nodded and started looking around the leaving room. While Steve went in the bedroom, first place he looked at was under his bed and then his bathroom. “Lily?„ he called in a low voice and then heard a little giggle, he followed the pretty noise until he reached his closet. He stood on the other side of it smiling and knocked on it a couple of times “anyone there?„ he asked. The giggle got a little louder. Steve sat down, with his back against the wall, looking at the closet and waiting for Lily to come out “manager told me we had a problem with mice this season, I didn’t believe him—„

“Hey! I’m not a mouse!„ echoed her little voice from inside the closet, causing Steve to laugh. There weren’t many things that could make him laugh but a kid’s innocence was always entertaining.

“Now am I a crazy old man or did my closet start to speak?„

The giggle got even louder. “You’re old but you’re not crazy!„

The soldier pretended to be offended letting out a deep breath and placed his hand on his chest as if his heart had broken. Right then Sophie walked in looking more desperate than before.

“I can’t find her anywhere!„ she exclaimed, Steve quickly raised his finger on his lips signaling her to be quiet and then pointed at the closet. He thought that if she was here, there was little chance that lily would come out so he waved for her to go outiside and mouthed ‘I got it’ letting her know that he’d handle it. Sophie was an anxious mess but trusted the soldier and walked out as he instructed, waiting for them on the living room.

“Is she gone?„ asked lily in a whisper As soon as she heard the door to Steve’s room closing.

“Yes you can come out.„

“You promise?„ she questioned with her cute little voice. Steve looked at the closet again, smiling.

“I promise. Uh how do you kids call it these days... pinky promise?„

The door to the closet opened wide, lily looked at the Captain with her big green eyes, like she was interrogating him and he had been interrogated many times before but this was definitely the scariest one. “Pinky promise is a sacred bond Captain! You have to be honest!„

“I am!„ he assured her and then streched his hand out to help her get out of the closet. She sat next to him, as close to him as she could and leaned her head on his shoulder— actually his elbow, she wasn’t tall enough to reach his shoulder even if they were sat down. He didn’t say anything for a while, he just let her sit there, breath and calm down, he kinda liked it. There had been times he dreamt of kids and a family, this was nice even if it was for a short time.

“You wanna tell me why you were hiding in the closet?„

Lily shook her head negatively, her little curls moving left and right, making her look even more adorable. Steve tried again. “Your mama told me you were waiting for me.„ lily nodded, this times her curls moving up and down with her. “Well then Ms. Pond, tell me what can I help you with?„ he raised his eyebrows, looking down at her with adoration. Lily huffed like she was an adult coming back from work and looked down in guilt. Her reaction got the soldier a little confused, he could sense there was something wrong in her mind. He nudged her gently with his elbow, making her look up at him and narrowed his eyes “what’s wrong monkey?„

“Kids at school don’t believe me when I tell them you’re my friend and they call me a liar and make fun of me.„ she explained in her tiny voice that was occasionally breaking, Steve’s eyes softened, he found it adorable but also a little sad. “So I came with my mum today and I wanted to take your notebook with me so I could show it to the kids but my mum wasn’t letting me take it and said that I should ask for it so I stayed here to..ask for it.„

Rogers nodded in understanding. Of course he wasn’t mad or anything like that but he was a little worried for the girl. Lily looked down again and with her two tiny arms hugged his arm, snuggling closer to him and closing her eyes “I’m sorry.„

God she was just like her mother. Apologizing for everything and always worrying. Always cute. With his free hand he stroked her little curls away from her face, uncovering her rosy cheeks. “It’s alright monkey.„ he whispered, kissing the top of her head. “You can have the sketchbook.„ he added. Lily raised her head quickly, smiling so big at him her lips reached her ears. She was beaming with happiness, melting his old heart.

“Really??.„ she said, getting up on her feet and started jumping up and down, clapping her hands in excitement. Rogers watched her dance around his room, laughing at her sudden outburst and then she fell on top of him, wrapping her hands around his neck and leaning her head on the crook of his neck “thank you Stevie!„ He hesitated at first but slowly his placed his hands on her back, holding her close. There was nothing more beautiful than the hug of a child, nothing more awarding than their love. He held her tighter, imagining what it would be like, to have a kid of his own and caring for it.

“No problem kiddo. Maybe one day I can come talk to these kids that make fun of you.„

“Will you beat them like you did with the Germans?„ she mumbled on his neck. He chuckled, stroking her backs.

“I don’t like bullies.„ he answered “I don’t care where they’re from.„

After a while lily stopped answering, and althoughth Steve fully enjoyed the silence, he remembered that the kid’s mother was outside waiting for them and he had to let go eventually. “Monkey?„ he called in whisper. That’s when he realized her breathing had calmed down, her strength around his neck was weaker and when he looked at her, he realized her eyes were closed. “Lily?„ he tried again but got no reply. He scoffed, a part of him wishing he could fall asleep like that too at nights but instead he was always hunted by nightmares of the past.

He pushed himself up on his feet, taking her with him and holding her tight so she wouldn’t fall. Sophie wanted to start crying when she saw them coming out like that, she was worried her daughter made a mess again. Steve was quick to explain the situation.

“Steve im so sorry!„ she whispered, looking at him as he held her daughter.

“It’s ok, we’ll just put her in your car, it’s like it never happened.„

Sophie chuckled, pushing her hair behind her ear “but it did happen and it will keep happening. I should stop being her here, I would if I had somewhere to leave her on the weekends.. you shouldn’t have to deal with this.„

“I kinda like dealing with this. Believe it or not it’s easier to deal with than Aliens.„ he smiled.

“If I didn’t know any better I’d say it’s the grandpa side in you taking over.„ she joked, making Steve laugh as well.

“But you do know better?„

Sophie paused, trying to find the right answer and looking in his blue eyes, she smiled nodding “yeah I do and I know that it’s just you being you. Kind, like always. A good man.„ she paused again, looking deeper in his eyes, her cheeks getting a little more red “I know a little more than that but maybe we shouldn’t talk about that now.„

Steve nodded. He knew exactly what she meant. Sophie was always able to see right through him, she had a talent of understanding people and she knew that Steve wasn’t only doing this because he was kind, he was doing it because he loved Lily, because he hated the fact that he had missed his chance in getting a family with the one he loved. “Yeah that’s probably for the best.„ he agreed. “I’ll help you get her down in the car, ok?„

Like he said Steve, put Lily on the back of the car, making sure he wouldn’t wake her and he had left his sketchbook on her bag. Soph got in the front and started the engine. He lowered himself to her window, balancing himself with his hands.

“Again I’m sorry and thank you Steve.„

“No worries.„ he smiled “when are you coming again?„

“Next month.„ the redhead looked down, her hair hiding her face as she said “maybe earlier if you need me.„

He smirked. There were many woman than flirted with captain America, that liked him, but there were only a couple that had met him, Steve Rogers and he was always filtered when woman liked him, or flirted. Even after 90 years he wasn’t used to it and he had no idea how to act. “Maybe I will.„ he cleared his throat “hopefully I will.„ Sophie looked at him in surprise. Then her eyes softened,

“Hopefully you will.„

[ff-chizuruleech]

I’m going to answer some of the question i got on the anon survey i linked in >this post<

But before that i wanted to thanks everyone for the support on the project, i’m really happy to see so many people are willing to partecipate and are interested in it!

Also, I’m thinking on opening officially the blog on 1st december, and before that i’m already accepting reservations for the scenes in Dms to help me start organizing the spreadsheet, I’ll just need

◆ A little description of the scene (1 sentence max)

◆ Screenshot of the specific scene to help me state it’s really from the lore and to avoid others to draw the exact same scene (a bit before/after is allowed)

◆ From where is it taken (X chara backstory/x Event)

◆ Which name would you like to be credited with

Regarding the questions:

No, I don’t plan to set a limit number of scenes for person, **however you can do only one per time, **when you finish the scene you have currently reserved you can then reserve a new one and so on!

-You have all the time you want, however after one month from reservation if i didn’t hear anything from you (wips, “i’m still working at it”, “sorry i’m late i had issues”) i will free you reservation, on the contrary if i hear from you I will extend the reservaton time, but all in all no time restriction at all! -Above question answers this -Digital and traditional, both are good!

wah, thank you??

No list of scenes avaiable will ever be realeased, the reason is: the list of scenes is **ALL THE CANON LORE!! **You can literally draw any existing scene that there is in the game! however the 1st of december along the blog I will release the spreadshit with the reservation I’ll collect during these next days so you will see which scenes are already reserved, main reason is..i’m still rusty with excel and have to get re-used to it so right now the draft is a big mess.

Thank you so much, I’m really looking forward to see this little dream of mine start and grow, I’m thankful to everyone who’s excited to partecipate!♥ By the way, both are good! You can do a still drawing or a short comic (let’s not make it 25 pages of backstory tho or else other people won’t get the chance to draw a scene from it) I wanted to quote the specif part of the story the scene is taken from under the drawing to help people connect it better!

Questions done, I’ll reply to suggestions now!

I didn’t really deem important making one as people basically only has to interact with me to partecipate, so I don’t really see the need for a group chat or a discord of sort, at least for now, I’ll see in the future if I’ll get many group chat requests or if the situation gets really busy.

Never actually heard of it? Btw what i’m making is not a zine at all! It’s just an online place where to collect everyone’s fanart from the lore, I don’t consider myself good enough to organize or even draw in a zine </3.

Mhhh this seems a bit too forced tho, I’d like to keep the chosing pretty much free to everyone’s liking, main reason is people work better and more chill if they are the one to choose something that they like, if I’d start assigning things to people it wouldn’t be so fun anymore imho, also i believe even the less popular FS will get at least a fanart anyway, in the end this is a project I would like to last long in order to give to everyone a chance to join whenever they want, as time passes the collection will grow bigger and bigger and even less popular fs will get theire moment, i’m sure of it :) for now i’ll just let everyone choose what they want avoiding doubles!

If I see the situation gets too chaotic for me (unfortunately I am an adult with adult tasks irl so I have my busy periods) I’ll definitely search for trustable admins to give me a hand, for now should be allright tho since december/the holidays seasons is the most chill for me!

Thanks everyone for your feedback! I really treasure it! I’ll keep the anonymous survey open and I’ll probably do another Q&A before the 1st december, so if you have questions don’t hesitate! Also I’ll be waiting to start getting your reservations, waah i’m honestly so excited I can’t stop thanking you all to support me in this little dream of mine♥♥