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isn't it better to be hurt than to hurt

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fingers through your hair tips chasing strands hues of brown glimmering in my sun-bathed hands

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fitting myself within the hollows of your soul to render you whole traversing journeys your mind has ever trailed to beware me of the horrors only to be met with utter solace, worship, and religion for every tree i passed, every leaf i grazed, your scent filled my lungs whole who was i if not a mere existence dancing in the light of your brilliance what is my purpose if not to lose myself under your enchantment

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we're reborn to complete achilles & patroclus' story

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on the mornings that my mind weighs more than my body, nights when my body yearns for sleep but sanity insistently elopes with it, days when music fails to satiate the thirst of my soul for wholeness- would you melt into the crevices of my cracks and faults, build upon me layer by layer, and complete me? would you choose not to be the light i need, but the partner to wrestle in the mud and dark with me, until my tired soul has had enough? would you?

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i may not be the fabric you willingly let adorn you outdoors, or your favorite song, or the person you'd want to flaunt on your shoulder but when your heart aches, let me be the baggy t-shirt that hugs you through it

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only in your absence can i dance with your ghost

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a smile still flashes on my face thinking of when every once in a while you were happy to be yourself. it's odd, time reduced us to nothing, but my heart vividly remembers the happiness i felt in those moments because you'd see yourself with my eyes for a change. just a beautiful mind with a tender soul really deserving of all the love in the world, and i'm fortunate to have been able to offer you a miniscule portion while our time lasted. i hope you don't stay cross with yourself anymore, and live as proud of yourself as i am of you.

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I know heaven doesn't exist but for love like this, heaven HAS TO exist. I NEED them to be together after life if they couldn't in this one. if life isn't fair to them, afterlife SHOULD be. My heart aches and that's the only way i can cope, i cannot live knowing they won't have each other at the end of the road???? I'm beyond distraught.

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doomed yuri this, doomed yaoi that, Alien Stage offers u doomed straight also they look so happy in the au i will sob

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i'm afraid alien stage outdid arcane's ✨doomed straight✨ game

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i'm an atheist but i believe in suguru geto happy suguru day, monkeys :>

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i understand how ship names work but i'll hold your hand when i say that that doesn't apply to satosugu (bottom gojo ftw)

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he was so relieved and happy to see viktor alive that he acted on impulse with no second thought, only to back off when he suddenly came back to his senses n realized that this was apparently not normal for them, that he probably overstepped with a "wait what am i doing" look but he also realized that he'd comfortably do it if the barrier of 'normalcy' was not in the picture, and i think this is where jayce starts actively unraveling the depths to which his feelings, so far only passively thriving, ran for viktor

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if this isn't the reaction of a man who was just nuzzling his face into another man's neck and realized he did something gay, followed by a sudden wave of gay panic which turned him into a mind-blank stuttering mess - then what is it

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Oh, and my love Did I mistake you for a sign from God? Or are you really here to cut me off? Or maybe just to turn me on

You've got my body, flesh and bone The sky above, the Earth below Nothing to say and nowhere to go A taste of the divine

- The Summoning by Sleep Token

somewhere, somewhen.

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come kiss me my pretty ballerina i'll keep you warm through this chilly season walk through these mistletoes n christmas creepers i look at you, your eyes caused me a fever come kiss me my pretty ballerina