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[vampireink]

I didn't know what it felt like to thank the universe every single day for someone to exist until I met you.

[Kas]

[vampireink]

I am ravenous for the taste of your skin against mine. For your hands in my hair and mine on your waist. I long to drown in the sea of your love, to be filled with the warmth of your touch ... I am so deprived of contact from another that at every waking second, all I can think about is you.

[Kas]

[vampireink]

They're not my friends

They say they're happy for me

But I see it in their eyes

They're the least happy for me

They pray for my downfall

But I won't succumb to them

I am better off alone

Where I am safe

Where I am understood.

[Kas]

[vampireink]

And I will always be there, for I know what it feels like to be alone. I will always listen to you, for I know what it feels like to scream and not be heard. I will always share your burdens, for I know what it feels like to carry mine alone. I will always make you feel safe, for I know what it feels like to not find serenity in my hone. And I will always love you, for I know what it feels like to be unloved.

[Kas]

[vampireink]

It hurts, and it hurts again and I am left feeling pathetic again, again, and again, for I should have known this was coming.

[vampireink]

Once again I do not know why I allowed myself to believe that things would be different.

That we could go back to how things used to be.

Once again I do not know why I allowed myself to by so naive in seeing something worthwhile in you.

[Kas]

[vampireink]

The sweet bitterness of realising the memories you always wanted to disacard are now suddenly fading

[Kas]

[vampireink]

You look like my dreams.

[Kas]

[vampireink]

They will take everything from me and it still won't be nearly enough.

[Kas]

[vampireink]

I am constantly left wondering when I will finally meet someone like me

Someone who cares the way I do

Someone who is always there the way I am

I am yet to encounter someone person who doesn't drain me of my kindness, who doesn't push me to my limit and still ask for more

I am yet to encounter someone who understands me the way I understand the world.

[Kas]

[vampireink]

Another night and I am awake, yearning for your warmth to embrace me, for your hands to kiss me, for your soul to become one with mine.

[Kas]

[vampireink]

So many thoughts

They spill out of me like ink

Dark and rich and full of intricacy

Creating art

That no one understands

Or wants to see

[Kas]

[vampireink]

Billions of people on the planet and yet when you need the comfort of just one they're nowhere to be seen

[Kas]

[vampireink]

And once again I wish I could shatter the distance between us and make it cease to exist. The world does not understand how I pine for you, how my heartstrings ache as though they are teetering on the edge of snapping completely. I say I will wait for as long as it takes for us to be together, but my love, I am sure this longing will kill me.

[Kas]

[vampireink]

I would steal the stars for you but your eyes already shine brighter than anything in the whole universe

[Kas]

[vampireink]

I wonder what it would feel like to not have to shout in order to be heard. I wonder what it would feel like to be understood without having to explain myself. I wonder what it would feel like to not be alone even though I'm surrounded by people. I wonder what it would feel like to be loved by someone who didn't want anything else other than my heart. I wonder what it would feel like to not be suffocated by the place that I am supposed to call my home.

[Kas]

[vampireink]

And I realise that even though I convince myself time and time again that I am fine being on my own, I am not. Even though I convince myself that I am fine being misunderstood, I am not.

[Kas]