vampireink

[vampireink]

But oh how my skin burns with the need to be wrapped up safe in your arms, how my heart strains against the ribs of its prison, aching to merge with your own.

[Kas]

[vampireink]

I love you so much, and it is simultaneously the easiest, yet hardest thing I will ever do.

[Kas]

[vampireink]

I make art, and yet none of my pieces will ever be as beautiful as you.

[Kas]

[vampireink]

Captive in a prison created by the ones who were supposed to love me, I have never truly felt like myself. And I know I never will be me until I am set free.

[Kas]

[vampireink]

And if I must go one more second without the sweet warmth of your presence, I may disintegrate. Oh how I wish I was able to crawl into your skin and be one with you forever and always.

[Kas]

[vampireink]

I crave to be consumed entirely by your touch

[Kas]

[vampireink]

Your skin beneath my lips,

Would it be salty, sweet?

Would it burn the skin of my mouth with the heat that kisses your muscles,

Would it fill me with the warmth that I've been craving since looking into your eyes,

As I trace the planes of your body,

Your chest,

Your back,

Would I find comfort?

Or a powerful urge for more

One that fills my touch with fire

One that fills yours with desire.

[Kas]

[vampireink]

Perhaps the world is so void of love because his eyes holds it all

[Kas]

[vampireink]

How can I explain that at the end of a long day, I don't want sleep ... I just want to come home to the warmth and safety of your embrace.

[Kas]

[vampireink]

And there are lipstick stains on my phone screen instead of on your cheek

[Kas]

[vampireink]

Please lie ontop of me with your full bodyweight to make up for my endless years of loneliness.

[Kas]

[vampireink]

I thought it was normal,

As a child,

To want different parents,

To want a different home,

To never quite feel at home in my own home,

I thought it was normal, as a child, to want to be anywhere but with my family,

To be anywhere but the place I was raised in,

As a five year old, I deserved so much better than constant unease and desensitising fear.

[Kas]

[vampireink]

And I can not decide if your face appearing in my dreams is a blessing, or a curse. I am momentarily satiated by the loving moments we shared in my mind, yet I am distraught. Distraught because I miss you fiercely with every fibre of my being, and I despise the distance that stretches between us. I feel as though my body is on fire, and I am burning for my longing to be finally held in your arms as you took me in my dreams.

[Kas]

[vampireink]

Break me

Break me again

Teach me what it is to love

By what I never had

[Kas]

[vampireink]

It seems as though the longer my heart stays in your warm hands, the larger it grows, and the more it appears to burst at the seams with overflowing love.

[Kas]

[vampireink]

The bitterness of birthdays. The reminder that the people you care about don't care about you. The irony of the people around you pretending they're doing things for you, but they're secretly doing it for themselves. The knowledge that no one truly knows you or understands you. The emptiness that sinks in when you once again remember that your existence is completely insignificant, and you have no one but yourself.

[Kas]

[vampireink]

The more I convinced myself that I would never love another, the harder it hit me when I fell in love with you.

[Kas]