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colorblindmess · 2 months
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liveblogging my sneve watching adventures to a friend and. im a total of 1 minute into this video and sneve has already called himself a masochist. i fucking love it here why have i not watched this guy sooner whyu did i only stick to sean, kiply, and shadow
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trainingdummyrabbit · 8 months
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If you were to make an angela playlist, what would be some of the songs you'd include, aside from the mili ones because. yeag. (i have the zoomies Once Again)
No specific number can be anything from 0 to like. idk math is killing me
ENABLING RECOGNIZED Great Question ! :)
i honestly have a lot lot less than i thought i would have but honestly its mostly just bc i listen to the same few over and over and am instantly taken out for a few hours ✌ anyway uhhh these range from I Am Going To Explode to Source Dude Just Trust Me accuracy but im just gonna slap a bunch of songs down. ok 👍
Astral Plans - Bad Suns // Rearview - Bad Suns ok these two were given to me by my friend soundsofastar of soundsofastar fame but theyve haunted me deeply for entirely separate reasons adn they have quickly risen to 'cant listen to these on command' levels of fixation motionsickness which should tell u everything 👍 btw did i mention i have like most of an animatic scripted out for the first one and hwb hdgbd e jsbdjgdbffg--
Terror - Neru you dont get it u dont GET it youdont get it. like ive brought it up before but i cannot express just how much. grabs and shakes. this song has haunted me for fucking ever and it just so happened to perfectly sync up ok. ok. btw did i mention i have like half of an animatic sc
Strobe Light - Shiina Mota ive drawn this one before!!! Im Gonna Fuckign Sob!!!!! <- years-long beloved track
Pale Machine - Bo En looks directly at the camera.
Bloody Mary - Lady Gaga '^w^ haha wouldnt it be funny if--' . 'shit.' anyway songs i wanna make a flipnote to so so badly. pale!angela song Of Ever. fake!fake! - A Crow Is White another childhood favorite song i can barely explain but im grabbing and shaking you. ok. this one is for Me. just listen man source dude trust me man ok listen
ok thankyou shilling over have fun /bows
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dadmininnit · 2 years
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ishould go see puffy cause sam wants me toactually go to therapyfor once. and ithink i might actually need it. but also last time iwent she tried to get me checked for ptsd and so isaid no.
anyways chat whats the verdictdo i listen to sam and go to therapy or doi skip and disappoint sam cause hell know anyways
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professionaljester · 2 years
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what are you suppose to do when all the coping skills a therapist would teach you arent working
#ABC shut it#trying to self therapy myself sucks but how am i suppose to get better#but none of these skills seems to be working anymore and im just sick of it#sick of feeling depressed and bad all the time#sick of feeling like only bad things happen to me (they do)#(i get my hopes up and encourage myself for once and its always the same outcome of sadness and dissapointment)#like what am i suppose to do when the world is out to get me#and i feel like i havve no one and im so alone#its so bad i justhave a meltdown over every little thing bc nothing in my life NEVER goes right nothing good EVER happens#this is not the depression talking these are facts and tract records#itry and i try and things stuill dont work out for me#i try and make more friends and i feel like they all just think im annoying and wish i wouldnt talk to them#like i know i cant except to be talked to first but what am i suppose to do when i try to engage and im just talked over and ignored#or i get thevibe the person doesnt actually like me or is talking to me anyways just to get it over with#and and the paranoia is bad on top of just the general depressionbut what am i suppose to do abt it if i feel i cant talk to anyone abt it#bc all i do is complain but what do i have to talk abt if my life is boring and nothign interseting happens to me#the only interesting thing abt me is i know ppl who have way more interesting lives then me and are more successful than me#like what am i suppose to do when i want to kill myself but cant bc all the ways to kill yourself sound fucking horrible ways to go out
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cookiiemancer · 8 months
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Hi, I’m back! I had a few unasked questions that just stuck with me for a while, and I finally broke! I hope you don’t mind answer them! It’s ok if you don’t want to! 🧡
- Who’s the youngest?
- Who’s more rebellious?
- Who’s better at talking with angry adults?
- Who hates cleaning the most?
- Do they make challenges with each other?
- Have Sun or Moon (or both) ever had a fight with Eclipse? (If so, who wins 90% of the time?)
- How did Sun and Moon find out about Eclipse?
- Who’s your favorite to draw, and least favorite to draw?
Sorry if that was way to many questions! I’m just a little curious, that’s all! Hope this doesn’t bother you, either.
Hi! Please don't worry about sending too many asks! I am happy to answer to any questions and sometimes i get a nice idea for a picture. I do really appreciate every single one i receive, even if i don't answer them all :)
Who’s the youngest?
Sun and Moon are both the youngest!
Who’s more rebellious?
This one I didn't think about it to be honest. I wouldn't be able to tell right now who.
Who hates cleaning the most?
Sun! He hates messes but hates cleaning even more. He stands it better when, there's other people helping him clean.
Do they make challenges with each other?
Yes! Most of them are harmless ones, like winning games, dressing as each other (the kids love this one).
Have Sun or Moon (or both) ever had a fight with Eclipse? (If so, who wins 90% of the time?)
When it comes to physical fights, uhhhhh... Once, at the begining. Emotions were very high and Eclipse was very confused. He's stronger than you think. Other fights, well, they try not to, and if it happens, they try to get to a midpoint.
How did Sun and Moon find out about Eclipse?
They were contacted by Freddy about a prototype found in a warehouse. They found soon enough that the bot was actually sentient once powered on. Old Papa bear thought that those two would be able to help Eclipse get adjusted. It took a bit of time.
Who’s your favorite to draw, and least favorite to draw?
Fave to draw? Ya boy, Eclipse. I am quite proud of the design lol. I don't really have a least favorite. Depending of my mood or how the art comes out I do get frustrated sometimes when Itry to get a specific pose or expression and fail.
These were fun! ^-^
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stars-n-spice · 4 months
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Silly Squad 2nd Gen WIPS!
started on a little something something because I can't afford therapy to fix what s3 caused so-
Silly Squad families 10 years or so into the future :)
Find out more about the 'Silly Squad' here!
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Star Wars said, "oh no sorry, the interracial poc couple can't be together" so I said fuck that!!! and made all of them poc/inter-species couples with mixed kids!! no i'm not biased at all.
Also, let's pretend that the clone aging thing isn't a,,, isn't a thing because 1) too much math and 2) too much angst potential.
Though it is funny to think about the clones with their fast aging and then their partners are all notoriously slow aging people ("black don't crack" and "asian don't raisin" sort of deal). You got this super old dude and then you look at their partner and they don't look a day over like 30.
No, I didn't cry while drawing this what the fuck are you talking about? Aha,, aha...ha...
Additional info about the families under the cut!
Starburst Family!
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ok so since I've had Khea the longest, her family is the most thought out at this point
In order, from top, left to right: Itri (14/15), Marama 'Mara', Maia 'Mai' (both 10, 23 min apart), and Elio Nultez (7)
I made a post about them earlier so for more detailed info on their kids you can find it here!
Khea found Itri when she was about 4/5 years old and decided to take her in as a Foundling (she's also trans)
When Khea brought Itri back and showed her to Wrecker he was in complete shock (he thought she was Khea's biological daughter) but immediately took to the role as being a dad
Twins were an accident (oops) and an absolute handful but Khea and Wrecker wouldn't have it any other way
I saw a lot of people say that Wrecker would have a lot of kids and I agree, he's be a great dad (and he is!)
But pair that up with a Mandalorian wife? I'm sure both of them would adopt any and all kids that come their way
Not pictured is the twenty-something pets that their kids have adopted over the years - they could have a farm at this point
Sharpshooters Family!
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I don't know where the idea came from but one day it randomly hit me how I wanted their family to be - but essentially after finishing s3 I knew Cross was just a girl dad through and through so I gave him a daughter
That's Akona and she's half Nautolan and half Pantoran! Oh and a HUGE menace!
Akon is eight and Cross found her when she was six
Since Pantorans have the yellow tattoos to mark their clans, Akona and Tay both got tattoos to represent Crosshair's, well, Crosshair tattoo since they're their own little clan
Tay also capped off his lethorns to prevent Akon from hurting herself and getting poked because she loves to climb all over him
Idk how they came across her but I'm thinking Cross decided to go out on a mission with Echo just this once and found her (and Tay was probably sick at home or something, idk)
Tay was super unsure about it (he's terrible with kids) but Crosshair assured him that things would be fine
And things are fine and better than ever :)
Scompscope Family!
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I don't have names for these kiddos yet but I know I want them to be in tribute to Fives and Hevy!
So like,, I know technically Echo probably can't have kids and originally I was going to have them just adopt some clone cadets or something but uh,, me being biased I wanted biracial kids so-
BOOM! He can have kids in this AU.
They probably took some time to decide on the decision to have kids though since Echo and Viram are both dedicated to the cause of helping clones but eventually they do decide to settle down
Like all the Sec Gen kids, these two are absolute trouble makers and never back down from a challenge
They're a little less than a year apart, but they're 8 and 7!
TechPhee Family!
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wow, I can't believe that this is actually canon guys!!! :D Isn't that amazing????
Anyways, Techphee kids don't have names yet but I am open to suggestions!!
Also,, these kids are an absolute THREAT. They're smart as hell, they're witty, they can fly a plane like it's nobody's fucking business, they're skilled with pistols and a vibroblade, there is NOTHING these kids can't do.
Except have 20/20 vision. Whomp whomp.
Hey, nobody is perfect.
Daughter is far-sighted and son is near-sighted!
Daughter is 11 and son is 8!
Guardians Family!
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not pictured is the ten to twenty other kids that Hunter and Jung have adopted over the years
the super lovely and wonderful @taraneen and I were talking about this timeskip and she mentioned that she thinks that Hunter would eventually go back and adopt some kids after Omega leaves and I couldn't agree more
Him and Jung probably run some kind of orphanage or something where they talk in kids and if they so happen to be Force-sensitive, Jung helps them out with it
Look at these three, they're like,,, having a "who can grow out their hair the longest?" competition (Jung is winning)
Of course Omega loves all her new cousins and siblings as well :)
Omega is around 24 years old here so she's also like a big sister to all of them and they all look up to her and admire her deeply
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lexicorp · 3 months
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Sesil is /very/ antisocial
He would rather stab himself Juliet style than talk to another person for more than two sentences (very dramatic boio lol)
Would prefer to be beak deep reading romantic dramas and yell at the pages as the ppl do stupid things, as well as those mideavle (can't spell djdbdjbd) fantasy novels
He is a writer himself, and the times when he does have to deal with people for publisher or art for the book or movie people: he is VERY dismissive and stiff on how he does things and acknowledges people. The blunt and doesn't understand sarcasm type, and would usually jus get offended or confused/annoyed
His sense of humor is /ironically/ very irony based though
Things that are absurd or contradictory, so it's kinda the silliness of this dude saying how stupid something is while finding it funny. Or jus deadpanned humor when he tries to attempt sarcasm, which then other ppl don't pick up usually.
But yeh, his dismissiveness and tendency to not recognize someone getting particularly attached to him and then being freaked out when he realizes: is something that Moe hates, cuz it reminds them of their fellow gods who abandoned them
Moe is the MR demigod of space, dealing with gravitational forces, matter, etc
as a young god he was manipulated by nix, the chaos god, to engage in rather damaging activities to say the least
they became out of control with solar systems out of wack, flinging planets everywhere, to there being too many black holes or strange matter. the balance of order and chaos was tipped, so Pheo, god of order, created a containment cube for Moe.
Moe's memory was selectively wiped and power restricted to their box, while Pheo took their role outside. Moe was very childish, and still holds a disconnect empathically to people having been extremely isolated and abandoned by their peers. Itri, demi god of Time, visits the most, although it is hard for them to keep track how far apart their visits are at times as they are clouded by timelines.
presently and related to the last pic, Moe had managed to learn how to move their containment field and found a planet. they watched the people below and sesil was the first in their scrolling to stick out.
Moe saw sesil constantly push others away and appear rather cold, and that annoyed them with how badly they craved companionship.
so Moe took it upon themself to push this introverted bird to be a social bird and pressures him to be more blatantly friendly to people. they often teleport sesil up to their cube to have more of a talk or just to have a little fun. Sesil just really wants to be left alone sjfbjdbfjd
buuuut yeah they got problems, and the other gods needa figure they shite out lel
As for Viv, they are gonna be a barista who is a constant presence at the small coffee shop sesil frequents
It's one of those small places with wood or loveseat style chairs with checkers/chess boards
Sesil gets the same thing each time, tho sometimes Viv can convince him to try something else other than a vanilla cold brew lol
He's usually there to write for a bit after taking a walk in the woods, and maybe play some chess against himself- to which Viv pops over on a break sometimes to bug him with a challenge.
Viv is a very bubbly, will talk to anyone type, but appreciates sesils rather chill energy and doesn't view his standoffishness as rude
Also has a fear of large bodies of water, and gets a bit embarrassed by it since she loves the rain
Buuuut yeh, their story would be mainly around those two and Moe having a bit of a breakdown untill the two actually come together and itri collect his crazed tail XD
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markets · 2 years
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Guys ithink i have reached a low point...HOW DO U HAVE RIZZ???? truly sorry for the middle school terminology but ineed to know. idk how many of you know about my latest projectt to get over compsci boy but well its true thw problem is never in my life had i had any sort of romantic feelings for anyone i wasnt already super good friends with annd i literally never ever talk to this new guy EVERRRRR. my friend circle sometitmes coincides with his but he isnt even in my same fucking grade like its legitimately heinous cuz we never have solo conversations even though sometimes we're in like the same lunch table or sometthing and i dont know how to start them Especially cuz hes like a little mysterious and has never made an effort to talk to me directly except that one time when he put cheese in my bag. the other day i asked him about classes but it was like really boring and lastted ttwo sentences bc we were in a big ass group so like whatever. itried to ask one of my only female friends for tips but she was like ihave no rizz people just rizz me which is incredibly true bc shes drop dead gorgeous andhas literally pulled nearly every single guy shes ever even like looked at. shedid tell me that whatworks for her is the fact that shes a very touchy person but like Do u think i have the balls for that. Ya in comparison my stats are not looking good like No dick No balls No social skills Out of practice after a year of chasing after math nerds (singular) Mid face Mid vibe Not blonde (Thank fucking god tbh) Etc etc etc vine boom vine boom vine boom. HELP ME/
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akalikestodraw · 1 year
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Thinking about it now i think...
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My mouth was sewn shut
Ooooo more lore
Aka:For as long as i can remember whenever i'd try to warn the townsfolk the words never left my lips i could talk and eat like normal but it always happened when i referenced the seamstress...
They used a special thread that was visible at first but slowly faded to blend in with our fabric so im thinking they did this to all the others who figured out the truth...the few who were immune to their brainwashing
Im still trying to uncover more about this guy
Itried tell ppl throught writing but it only works outside town borders and on a mission to figure out how and why
Diary entry 10/8/20
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vacantgodling · 1 year
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so i think itri & the giants has some more places i'm gonna pull inspiration from specifically
arthur and the invisibles (i forgot about this book for a long time but when i was talking to my partner about the idea they reminded me and fucking Core Memory Unlocked i love that book so much i need to find somewhere to buy it again)
it does have some inspo from far cry even tho i've never played the game but from what i know of the gist that's kind of the vibe i'm going for
itri's race is dwarves... adjacent. i gotta do some species building. along with the elves that he'll meet that use their hair for everything. i can't remember if i posted about that or not but yeah. if i did it vanished lol.
EDIT I DID
that post i just saw about the forest in china discovered underground and in general karst topography
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colorblindmess · 2 months
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playing roblox pressure. WHY ARE THERE THREE FUCKING SEARCHLIGHTS HELP ME. MY TEAMMATE FUCKING DIED SEVERAL DOORS AGO. HELP ME.
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trainingdummyrabbit · 6 months
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ouuuhhhgh besties im gonna b real, the rot is hitting a Lot harder 2day
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bebx · 1 year
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Sorry to bother you with this ask. I hope it's not inappropriate (you don't have to answer this if it makes you uncomfortable.)
To put things shortly: I like whump (and, among other things, you're a great wump writer and a nice person, which is why i turned to your ask box). I love hurt/comfort fics where the blorbos i ship go through hell and back only to fall (back) in each other's arms (and, yeah, I love a happy ending).
I've always thought that the *feels* I get come from me worrying about them, from how moved by their resilience I am and, of course, by how worried/protective/feral their partner gets (+ the comfort and reassurance that comes after). I saw it as a "normal" reader (or writer) experience to have such stories move your guts.
Only, recently, I've seen people talk about what they call their "whump awakening" aka the first time they felt "whumpflies", usually between the age 4 and 10. And I realised it happened to me as well.
I can't help to see in those "whumpflies" some kind of s3xual thing (or is it not? and is it something everyone experience to different levels?) and came to see myself as some kind of p3rv' who's been revelling in the suffering of other since a young age. Like what I thought came from my crying at how much they love each other/at how brave they are was just me craving for crude pain. What I thought was some normal reader experience (feel for the characters) was just me mind m4sturbating? I thought I cared and liked my ships and characters which made me feel the feels but was it all a smokescreen?
I do know I have a kink for loss of consciousness (as a fantasy only!!) but, although it may seem hypocritical since when i indulge in it, the scenarii leading to it are mostly whump, I always saw it as something different, definitely separated from my love for whump/hurt comfort (more like something to do with holding/releasing pressure, witnessing and allowing vulnerability).
I also realise that being on the ace spectrum this could be it: my entire s3xuality could only be watching people hurt???
I feel like i must precise that I do not wish to hurt anyone irl. (by the way, I don't especially feel like I want to hurt characters either, more like...put them in situations and be with them if it makes sense...but maybe it's all the same). And yes, I know it's perfectly ok to be into sm but I never really felt it was it?
Now I feel like my entire reality has been shattered. I have projects, fics in the makings, fics i'd like to read, but I'm afraid i'll never manage to do it again. I'm afraid all my assumptions are right and self disgust is all i'll ever be able to feel. I do not know if what I'm having is an panic attack for it's been more than a week now that i've been feeling like that and panic attacks are not supposed to be that long. I wanna scream, cry, stop thinking but i can't. All I manage to do is hold on to a pillow and keep breathing though not in a calm way. I can't sleep at night and i hardly manage to do it during the day.
I tried watching tv but keep thinkings of AU's ideas for fics I'm afraid i'll never be able to write again. Itried drawing but there's always a time i want to throw away the pen. I'm not working this week but i wouldn't manage to anyway. All I do is worry, scream internally, sob pathetically or eat - occasionally but probably too much at a time. I don't read my mails, only repeatedly reload me tumblr wall to see people post about ships and fandoms i crave to come back to but feel like i've lost (even a funny or innocently fluffy fanart doesn't seem to make my heart jump at this point) and it's tearing me down inside as it's such an important part of my life - of me!!
I am already taking pills to help with unrelated anxiety disorder so i can't just keep taking more! I live with my parents so I am not alone but how could i speak to them about it? I'd have to explain I write/read fic and make them understand how much it means to me. Then the part about s3x and my fears ...it's really difficult. I also have an appointment with my therapist next week so i probably should have waited instead of annoying you (which i am once again very sorry about) but this week has already been hell so the thought of waiting for another week was just too much. I am just so tired of being stressed and of hating me and of seeing no future
I just want things to go back to how they where but i can't seem to reconcile all those thoughts spiralling in my brain. I am lost and afraid. Imagining fics/plots has always been not only a joy and a passion but also a way to calm myself down and right now i can't do it and the thought of never being able to do it again is just killing me I...I'm sorry, i just wrote this all mess to you and wondering if with your knowledge and a calmer mind you could have any answer? advice? Experiences to share? i just had to write it down and reach out to someone for i felt like i might have exploded and I'm desperate enough to be annoying...
So thank you if you read it to this point and double thank you if you choose to answer, even if it's just to say you don't really know what to say!
Still wishing you a good day!!
hi, anon! so sorry you experience these feelings. firstly, I just wanted to let you know that you are not annoying me at all and that I deeply appreciate you thinking I’m a great writer who you trust enough to turn to with what’s been bothering you. secondly, your feelings — how you feel — are completely valid. I myself had my first “whump awakening” when I was at a very young age. I think it was when I was about 7 years old? I’m not entirely sure, but I was very young, and back then I didn’t know what it was called, only that I got these sense of euphoria whenever I imagined a scenario in which a character I liked, at that time, went through extreme physical pain, sustained severe injuries. I never told anyone about this, because I didn’t think they would understand. it wasn’t like I thought there was something “wrong” with me, but I did know that I was different than most of the kids my age, because most of them would react differently to the concept of, you know, pain and injuries (I didn’t know about the concept of whump back then.)
that being said, knowing what I know now, I don’t believe there’s anything wrong with liking whump. I’m actually glad to know that there’s a whole community (precisely on tumblr) here where people who are into whump can talk about their experiences, their enjoyment, their whump awakening or even their own creations whether it be in terms of writing and/or drawing, etc. and I’m happy to know there are actually so many people who are also into whump.
now you mentioned you were recently convinced that whump is a sexual thing. I mean, to be honest, whump can be a sexual thing for some people (keywords; for some people, not everyone who enjoys whump sees whump as anything sexual-related at all) within the community. I mean, since there are so many people in this community, of course, some may be enjoying whump for sexual purpose, and that is not a bad thing either (as long as no one in real life is hurt or harmed in any way, of course).
from how I see it, it’s mostly people who aren’t in the whump community — aka people who don’t understand the concept of whump and think we are “red flags” for liking pain and suffering that are strictly fantasy / fictional — who tend to say “people who are enjoying whump are enjoying it because they’re perverts” which is not. true. at. all.
(sure, whump can be a sexual thing — a kink — for some people within the community. because whump is a fantasy, and there is no “wrong” way for one to enjoy the fantasy they creat in their minds and sometimes bring to life in the forms of writing and/or drawing. again, as long as no one in real life is hurt or harmed. so even if you — general you — enjoy whump because it’s your kink, it still doesn’t make you a pervert.)
I mean people can enjoy whump for entirely different reasons. some enjoy whump because for them whump is their kink. some use whump as a way to cope and recover from their trauma (whether or not it’s sexual). some just enjoy whump because they just like whump in a way that’s not sexual-related at all. for what it’s worth, I’ve actually seen a lot of people in the whump community who are asexual.
so what I’m saying is, different people enjoy whump for different reasons, and they all are valid.
if you’re asexual and you enjoy whump = you are completely valid.
if you (general you) enjoy whump because it’s a kink to you = you are completely valid.
if you enjoy whump because it’s your way of coping with your trauma = you are completely valid.
if you enjoy whump because you like it when your blorbos find their way back in earth other’s arms or when they’re taken care of after the pain they were put through (aka the comfort that comes after) = you are completely valid.
or if you enjoy whump where it’s “hurt no comfort” because you just like it when your blorbo goes through hell = you are completely valid.
as long as you’re not hurting anyone in real life, your reasoning in regards of your enjoyment of whump is valid. you are valid.
being in a fandom should always be about the joy and the fun of being in a fandom, because fandom is supposed to be your getaway from reality where you can just enjoy whatever you enjoy. it should always be your safe place. though I do understand that, while in a fandom, you’ll most likely come across things you’re not comfortable with or things that upset you. my best advice is to ignore these things (block and mute as freely as you like) and only focus your time and energy on things that bring you joy.
don’t let other people’s opinions take that joy away from you.
if there’re fics you want to read, read them and enjoy them unapologetically. and if at any point you feel like they’re not for you, you can simply close the tabs and move on to other fics you feel like checking out.
if you have ideas for fics about your blorbos you want to write, write them unapologetically. if you want to draw some whump art about your blorbo, draw them unapologetically. there will always be people who enjoy the same thing you do (maybe even for the same reason) who will appreciate your talent. or even if you don’t feel like posting/publishing them on the internet — for any reason at all — and just want to keep them only to yourself, that is entirely okay too.
because the most important thing is, when you write a fic or draw a fanart (or even when you read something), it should be for you. not anyone else.
how you enjoy a fandom, how you enjoy whump, should be about you and only you.
you don’t have to speak to anyone about it if you’re not ready or if you don’t feel comfortable talking to them about it. at the end of the day, you don’t owe them anything. because whump is not something you have to explain to your friends or family, it’s your personal getaway and you don’t have to explain anything to anyone if you don’t want to.
though I recall you mentioned that you were seeing your therapist next week. if you feel comfortable talking to them about it, I think it might help make you feel better. because your therapist would most likely have a better answer for you.
last but not least, I wanted to remind you that there is absolutely nothing wrong with you. your mind is lying to you about all these unpleasant thoughts you have about yourself. I know how hard that can be, how real and convincing these thoughts can sound. because I’d been there. but the bottom line is that no matter how terrible these feelings get, they are lying to you. and there is absolutely nothing wrong or abnormal about your enjoyment of whump, of your blorbos. you are definitely not a “pervert” for being in a fandom or for enjoying whump, no matter what other people might say. because how can one be a pervert for finding their safe place in fictional things that don’t hurt anybody in real life at all?
I’m not sure if this is the answer you were looking for, but I hope it helped at least a little. and I hope you can get back to fully enjoying what you enjoyed soon. but most importantly, I hope you feel better soon. a little reminder that your mental health is the priority here. I’m sending my love your way, always. ♡
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calciumcryptid · 1 year
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Been playing Honkai Star Rail, so here is my oc version of the female protagonist.
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In this version/au, there were three Stellarons but Kafka didn't have time to get the third one done so she took the third Stellaron to complete. She left behind Sitara and her brother Itri. The two were discovered by March 7th & Dan Heng, and joined the Astral Express (called it the Star Express by accident in the bio). They took on the last name Stellaron for official paperwork.
They are both mute, and communicate solely through gestures and bits and pieces of sign language they learn. Though they have a sort of sibling telepathy that allows them to speak to one another. The sibling telepathy is how they are aware they have a third sibling, but it's really hard to communicate with the third sibling.
Yes, March 7th has a huge crush on Sitara and Sitara is oblivious. On the flip side, Itri has a huge crush on Dan Heng and Dan Heng is oblivious.
Their dynamic with their third sibling is the meme of 'Sometimes I can still hear their voice' 'Gay, Gay, Homosexual, Gay'. Itri and Sitara share a room on the Astral Express, it is just as chaotic as you might think.
More on Sitara and Itri's dynamic with the rest of the Astral Express, Itri somehow became the diplomatic one because Sitara is too rash, March is too forthcoming, and Dan Heng is too reserved, so he fell backwards into being the 'talker'.
I would have drawn Itri but it is late where I am at the time of posting this and I have morning classes. Also, can we take a moment to talk about how the HoYoverse art style clashes so hard with my personal minimalistic drawing style, lol.
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adapokib · 6 months
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posting instead of doing work.
this is a genshin oc rahh
Her name is Itri, meaning 'star' in Tamazight (one of the indigenous languages of north Africa)
I play genshin, and one thing I love most is over detailed characters. That's one thing genshin has. (Maybe not on the surface, but I am a huge fan of Ashikai's in-depth analysis videos on genshin characters and lore on YouTube and she explains every innerworkings of little bits and pieces and it just FUELS my brain)
Since the Fontaine archon quests have ended and we are coming close to the release of Natlan, the city of fire and war. I had a few theories on what the characters would be like, so I turned them into original characters!
This character here, Itri, is actually the 3rd oc I've made during this brain rot however she's the only one I have a digital drawing of. I will be drawing my other characters in the future!!
This sketch will also be colored and rendered hopefully. (I just don't know what type of shoes to give her I'm sobbing. I hate designing shoes)
I want to start by explaining the species of these ocs.
At the end of the Fontaine archon quest when talking to Neuvelette, the hydro dragon sovereign, he tells us that Natlan is also known for being the nation of dragons. these dragons are not like himself, but they have been intergraded into society for generations and live amongst the humans.
I feel like I can say with some certainty that they will look similar to Bailu or Dan-Hung in his dragon form (I've never played it), with the horns and tails/ draconic features slapped onto human bodies.
at this point I already had a million ideas on what to do for ocs. So I did some digging. The genshin fandom wiki page for 'Natlan' says it "seems to be inspired by the Pre-Columbian civilizations of Latin America as well as West African cultures." also the name 'Natlan' is possibly takes from the word 'Aztlan' the "legendary homeland of the Aztecz", or translated to "place near where there is abundance [of] Na" in Nahuatl.
I wont go into Itri's character too much now, because I feel like the other 2 give so much needed context.
so in my next post about these characters it will feature probably either Akicita or Itzel!
thank you for readingg
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spoonbenders · 9 months
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itry to be ,. sparing withwhat i tell ppl abt myself but ilove talking abt myself. fortunately everything i wld want 2 keep secret tht i say anyway makes no sense whne isay it. plus my very secret secrets are very secret and idont say those
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