#I'll probably never know

[wanderingmind867]

I've got 206 followers, while I only follow 193 people. I have at least 10 more people following me. You would think this would please the part of me that finds attention validating (it's a small part of me, but it is there. I just know it's small because I know I couldn't handle actual constant attention or fame). But no, instead I treat this as an excuse to feel down again. And I'll explain why:

In a sentence: laziness and a fear of being sedentary. Seeing that I have more followers than people I follow myself makes me realize I simply don't look for blogs to follow very often nowadays. I just sit on my dashboard all day, do very little. Barely ever do I search tags out anymore. I'm inclined to blame this on me having an account, and this account making me more sluggish. I'm also tempted to blame it on being unable to use my old tablet. But I can't prove any of this. I wish I could, but I can't.

So now I just sit here, feeling upset but being too tired to actually try and fix this minor problem. I hate it. I even spaced out while making this post, because apparently I got myself to a point where I couldn't figure out how to end this post. So I'll just post it now, before I space out again and forget to post it. At least now people know about all my issues.

[te-pu-si-ti]

TBC 30 day challenge - Day 8

Fav solo scene

I struggled to answer this one. There are so many beautiful dances, there are so many impactful moments, there are impressive displays of athleticism and of emotion (and both at the same time - Neo crate dance anyone?).

But my personal favourite has to be Oracle's lullaby in the Hinterlands. It's a quiet moment while the tension is building elsewhere in Mycenae. Oracle's mission is over, and she finally gets to grieve.

I have been on a couple Oracle loops where it didn't happen, and I really felt its absence.

And the way that different performers could make their mark on it - choosing a different song, adding a special vocal flourish, or what they do at the end of the song - really highlights the strengths that the different Oracles have and what they bring to the character.

Things that will always stay with me: The way Fionn's voice turned into something cold and artificial as he drew out the last note and modulated it. The way Fania would take the antlers in her hands and go on all fours, bringing herself up on tiptoe.

And the fervent googling trying to find a lullaby in a language I don't speak? Yeah, I guess you can say this scene had a hold on me.

[1899iskillingme]

The word "lost" is used 26 times throughout 1899 even when another way of something would make more sense so I've decided that is the obsession for the next few days

[ibijau]

desperately wanting to writing/draw, but there’s just. Something stopping me. Especially with writing it’s like. No, I don’t know how to write stories, feels like I’ve never done that in my life ever. Every sentence I manage to write is awkward and stilted.

Also, I’m disappointed because the shawl I spent so much time on just... doesn’t look very good, if I’m honest. I’ll try blocking it, but since it’s acrylic it’ll probably not do much for it

oh well

[grelliam]

To this day I still think "I wish squids were real" is the funniest example of ascended canon ever. Like, the first Splatoon game comes out, someone makes a Miiverse post just saying "I wish squids were real" (already peak comedy), "I wish X was real" becomes a meme in the Splatoon community and gets reposted everywhere.

Then two years later Splatoon 2 comes out and

Literally iconic

[mariyekos]

Okay to reblog to help sample size!

[sheerakk]

Cementary visit gets disrupted by a wild witch

[hrokkall]

VIOLENT women in YOUR area

[cubicpeebles]

Their fate is in your hands!

[smoosie]

The 'We need to talk' scene

but I've made it into a wet cat short comic

(and it only gets worse for him...)

Bonus secret 5th panel :

(intrusive thoughts so strong they make his brain crash)

[swag696942069]

Barty, about to enter Evan: Here comes the airplane

Evan, mortified: Don't ever say that to me again

[cerise-on-top]

hi! how would Valeria and Kate react if their wife’s got hurt because of their work, both of them working highly jobs and it ended up catching up to their s/o. hoe you are doing well and drink plenty of water! thank you!

-🍒

Hello! Both of them would be absolutely distraught, but would go about it in different ways!

Valeria’s and Laswell’s Wife Gets Hurt Because of their Job

Valeria: Whoever hurt you will wind up tortured and eventually, once she thinks they’ve had enough of their miserable life, will wind up dead. Naturally, the first thing she does is check up on you, see if you’re alright and well, that’s her priority. You’re the love of her life, there’s no one else in this world she wants to see do well. You’ll be admitted to the best hospital nearby and will only get the finest treatment. Once you’re stabilized, that’s when the hunt begins. Whoever hurt you won’t get too far since that bastard’s life will be on the line. Regardless of where they might be hiding, Valeria will find them and show them that death is actually a kind of mercy. She has pretty much everything at her disposal, everything money can buy, this sucker won’t know what hit them. If it’s revenge they want, then revenge they’ll get. Valeria promises you that their head will be on a silver plate. She’s not very good with words when it comes to comforting someone, but she will have that person killed in the most cruel ways she can imagine. In fact, she’ll take the pleasure of torturing them upon herself. Once she’s done, she’ll take some days off, which is surprising since she usually can’t afford that at all. You’ll be under her direct care for those days. Anything you want you’ll get. Afterwards there will be a slight shift in her demeanor, Valeria becomes more protective over you. Sometimes she might even assign some trusted people of hers to watch over you since she can’t afford something like that happening again. While she can’t always take some days off, she’ll try to be closer to you anyway. Always texting you, finding excuses to come home for a day maybe. She just really needs to make sure you’re okay, she wouldn’t know what to do with herself if you died.

Laswell: Laswell will try to be a bit more diplomatic about it at first, trying to coax whoever hurt you out of hiding. This person will be held accountable for their crimes against her world. Naturally, she rescues you first, gets you to the nearest hospital and won’t leave your side until you’re stable again. If it takes you a while to wake up again, she’ll leave to find the fucker and make sure they swim with the fishes. She has a pretty large, efficient network and will find out who it was fairly easily. Once she knows who they are, she won’t hesitate to find out all their past crimes as well, if they hurt you then they must have done some other awful things as well. Once that phase is over, she’ll go to their home herself and have them arrested, put in the worst prison imaginable where the inmates are treated especially badly. She won’t kill them, but she wouldn’t be surprised if they wind up dead anyway. Laswell usually isn’t an evil person, but she does hope that person dies during their time. Their sentence will be as long as possible so there’s no chance of them ever seeing the sunlight again either. Once all of this is over, she, too, would take some days off to spend with you. You’re a priority above all else, so Laswell will want to be there for you, no matter the cost. While she usually isn’t, depending on how severely you got hurt she might become a bit overbearing, a bit overprotective. That overprotectiveness will last for a few months, afterwards she’ll try to give you some space again. However, she’ll always be keeping a closer eye on you, always texting or calling you every once in a while to make sure you’re okay. If she needs to, she’ll put you under her protection officially, but the situation needs to be dire for that to happen. Either way, she’ll be keeping you safe.

[oceanwithouthermoon]

kaido and nendo casually watching saiki freak out over his crush and barely reacting or caring about why is so funny to me

[sowheresmyroom]

Thinking about how both Vox and Alastor use a smile as a mask and tool of control. With Alastor is obvious but with Vox we see this when he's speaking with Velvette about Valentino, most noticably when the door opens up on the way to the Voxtech Angelic Security interview bit, and in Stayed Gone before he devolves into a fit of rage.

Thinking about how Vox pretty easily lets that mask slip though, and especially behind closed doors he doesn't even feel the need to wear it in the first place. Times when he's comfortable and at least not challenged in a way that he needs to assert his control. Why would he if he's just hanging out in his own space with his partners?

But.

Thinking about how Alastor wears it 100% of the time, even when he's alone in his radio tower. Thinking about the conversation he had with Charlie to the beginning of episode 7.

Thinking about how Alastor is so affected by the hold over him that his deal has, that he NEEDS to wear the smile at all times to grasp at any straws of control he feels he has in his own life.

Thinking about how Vox wears his smile for other people but Alastor wears his smile for himself.

[youremyonlyhope]

I love when I see posts like "Share how many crochet WIPs you currently have! I have 5, it's so many!"

Like, girl, I have unfinished projects from over a decade ago that I refuse to frog on the off chance I decide to finish them. I've found years-old projects I forgot I even started and will impulsively just finish it on the spot. I've started three different projects in the last 2 months, including one I started yesterday, that I already know I may or may not finish within the year depending on motivation.

The number of WIPs I have is infinite.

[snarkspawn]

I was tagged by @lydiaalin for the WIP Wednesday Whenever thing, thank you!! <3

Soo here's a small assortment of some of the things I am currently (more or less) working on 😔

tagging @hoiist @sotc @plushchimera @kruk-art @astrallar @punkeduppirate @kinnbig @brambeag @gellyh @bramblebea if you want