#Impulsivity

[icyimp]

I be wanting to tell people mid convo that I don’t care so bad.

[cornishpadfoot]

Remus: Sirius, something is wrong with your amygdala. Sirius: As in, I don't have one?

[gxilgramore]

I'm gonna vent here because I don't wanna vent to my friends anymore.

It's just the same topics over and pver for years and it seems like never changes, in fact, it just gets worse, first was executive dysfunction, after rsd, now impulsivity, the more i notice adhd symptoms i hate myself more, asking why can't i just do shit, why can't i read, why cant i watch what i like, learn new instruments, languages, and the same things ive been complaining for years and years. And now there is this RSD bitch up my ass constantly making me think my friends hate me because i said the wrong thing due to impulsivity, i feel ashamed of every step and i feel wrong every single time, it's tiring, and i already don't have much friends to begin with, so losing these ones would break my heart, I would straight up just k1ll myself. And impulsivity its the worse, my money is down because i spend way to much on food, i eat a lot, more than necessary, even whrn there is other people to eat, this fucking condition is a torture, I can't do whatever i want always guided by instincts i can't control, emotionally broken, mentally broken, just broken, man, i hate adhd so much.

And also i don't have friends, im isolated, i don't identify even with my closest friends, i feel constantly at odds with everyone, even myself, it was hard already making these friends i have now, it would be way worse these days becauze I can't talk to anyone, my tastes are too specific and I don't know anybody who likes what i like the way that i like, i feel like a broken piece every time.

Im also in groundhog day, every day is the same, now that im unemployed i stay home and clean, don't have money to go out, don't know what to do out, its constant torture

I hate myself

[3scapethevoid]

I have no time nor energy for an ID right now, I will get to it..

iMPULSiVE SARCASTiC

[PT: Impulsive sarcastic. End PT]

“ DEF ;; A flag for people who are impulsive sarcastics; sarcastic due to impulse; impulsively sarcastic. Essentially, their impulse reaction to things is sarcasm. ”

Just a fun little flag <3

[rttingd0ll]

I really want to have baby bangs as soon as I get back my jet black hair!!!

[tommysmeemaw]

guys i think i might take sexy photos tonight. who knows😣

[fiction-quotes]

The young can be wildly generous, giving away their years and their youth for love, without thought of any gain.

  —  An Excellent Mystery (Ellis Peters)

[neuropsychiatristdrzainiahmed]

Understanding ADHD Symptoms: More Than Just Hyperactivity

Many people assume that Attention-Deficit/Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD) is simply about being hyperactive, easily distracted, or struggling to sit still in a classroom. However, ADHD is a complex neurodevelopmental condition that affects various aspects of daily life.

What ADHD Actually Is:

ADHD goes far beyond just being restless or inattentive. It impacts emotional regulation, cognitive functioning, and social interactions. Some key symptoms include:

Emotional Dysregulation: Individuals with ADHD often experience intense emotions and may struggle to manage frustration, anxiety, or excitement.

Executive Functioning Struggles: Difficulties in organizing tasks, prioritizing responsibilities, and managing time effectively.

Impulsivity: Acting without thinking, interrupting conversations, or making hasty decisions without considering the consequences.

Sensory Overload: Overreacting to stimuli like bright lights, loud noises, or textures, leading to discomfort or distress.

Difficulty with Transitions: Struggling to shift focus from one activity to another, making changes in routine challenging.

Challenges with Focus (Including Hyperfocus): While distraction is common, some individuals hyperfocus on specific tasks to the extent that they lose track of time.

Sleep Problems: Trouble falling asleep, staying asleep, or maintaining a consistent sleep schedule.

Relationship Challenges: Difficulties in maintaining friendships or professional relationships due to impulsive behavior or emotional dysregulation.

Seeking Help for ADHD

Understanding ADHD can help individuals and families find effective strategies for managing symptoms. If you or a loved one is experiencing challenges related to ADHD, professional consultation can provide guidance and support.

Dr. Zaini Ahmed, MBBS, MD (Psychiatry), specializes in neuropsychiatric conditions, including ADHD. She is available for consultations at Sukoon Heart and Mind Care, Sainik Market, Main Road, Ranchi, Jharkhand: 834001 from Monday to Saturday, 12 PM to 3 PM. To schedule an appointment, contact 6200784486.

Recognizing ADHD as a multidimensional condition is essential for offering the right support and treatment. Awareness and early intervention can significantly improve the quality of life for individuals with ADHD and their families.

[icyimp]

Unfortunately I want to make some purchases to fill the void in my life again.

[zo-gu]

NEW HOBBY? HELL YEAH

quick reminder that it’s okay to buy the items that you need for that new hobby secondhand! or just consider buying cheaper versions of the items.

for example you can get 2 wool thingies instead of 10 when you just started crocheting. and if you wanna get into playing an instrument you dont have to get the most expensive one! maybe you think that you’ll stick to the hobby more likely if you invest more in it but that’s unfortunately not how it works.

get the cheaper things just in case! and have tons of fun at your new hobby!

[liskantope]

Throughout most of my adulthood (and probably even teenagerhood honestly), I've considered myself to occupy some spot fairly near the extreme end of un-impulsivity. It's one of the reasons I don't think the H part of ADHD describes me, even if the other letters of the acronym do. And I've often actively wished I were a more spontaneous person.

The problem is, in my more impulsive moods, it feels like I rarely fail to make really embarrassingly dumb mistakes that reveal themselves as obvious after a substantial bit of thought afterwards. In other words, I keep returning to the idea that I'm extremely un-impulsive precisely because I've made myself that way as a checking mechanism to my being unusually slow on the uptake, or something like that.

[idliketochill]

Instead of studying for my organic chem test or sleeping at a reasonable time, I made an Oberon instead

Other angles

His cape broke off during the baking process and crumbled so the only parts left are the blue stains but here’s how he looked like before that

[ithinkiforgottotakexanax]

Why the fuck did I do this shit

[system-of-a-feather]

Sharing this in case there are similar parts out there, but I live for the thrill and game of being fucked over and winning and coming out on top REGARDLESS. It factually and directly stems from trauma as I've grown an unhealthy threshold of "excitement" based on the sheer adrenaline of life and death situations and having grown up literally fighting our dad despite being a short AFAB kid.

These days everything that isn't dangerous, drastically having the odds against me, and isn't stupid hard or perceived as stupid impossible - all of that shit tends to be boring and apathetic for me. Including happiness, peace, content, etc. Once I make a goal easy and am about to "win" I tend to get bored and switch to a thing I am "loosing" at cause its more entertaining that way

That being said, I'm sure all yall reading are going "Thats self destructive" because yes, it is. Unchecked, I tend to find bad positions to get myself into for the high of overcoming them, I tend to drop or sabotage victories and good things cause success means the game is over. I seek stress because I am addicted to the adrenaline it gives and comfortable navigating Hell better than I am at navigating the peaceful floral fields

The thing that I've noticed overtime though, in the moments I can catch myself before running with the high, is that the problem there stems partially in the fact I am needlessly trying to *find issues*

And I dont say that in "you should just be comfortable and finding issues is needless self destruction" cause even if thats true, fuck that.

I say that in the sense that I am finding MORE issues or MAKING them when I am already a not-rich chronically ill disabled multiply-mentally ill queer short POC.

Yes I could go out at 2 am into shady areas half hoping someone might try to rob me like an idiot. That WOULD give me a situation where I could get my fix for being an underdog and winning

However, I currently have an ableist work environment trying to get in my way of career progression. I currently have legislature trying to get rid of my existence to exist as a trans person. I currently live in placr where psychiatric system that has large portions thinking DID doesnt exist. I currently live in a capitalist hellhole that only wants the already rich white men who predate on everyone else to have any joy in life.

The list goes on. My existence is already having an assault to keep me down on MULTIPLE directions and in much more real, much more universal, and much more practical and productivr ways. If I *need* to pick a fight I'm meant to loose, there are 5000 options around me, all of which are productive to pick - at least relative to me going out at 2 am trying to get jumped.

Having a drive to pick a fight you aren't meant to win doesn't always have to be a drive, skill, or habit you have to drop nor is it inherently unhealthy.

What matters is where and how you direct it.

[here-be-misfit]

Gotta love (hate) this bpd impulsivity. 🫠