#lack of motivation

[flashy-mf]

Bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored

[chiperti]

[twopercentboy]

are you ever shocked when the symptoms of ur disorders start disordering your life bc I am 😰 right now

[exclusivelyhomosexual]

Having late-diagnosed adhd is weird.

(CW internalized ableism)

Realizing that what I always thought was a “normal” source for motivation was really just shame, guilt, fear, self-judgment and a whole lot of “shoulding” (apart from the rare hyperfocus where the motivation was actually my own)

What I thought was “self-discipline” was just constant self-berating and guilt for being so “bad” at it when other people seemed to pick it up so easily

I always felt so ashamed whenever someone credited their success to their parents raising them to have a great work ethic. How come *I* didn’t turn out the same way, when my dad spent most of his waking moments working to provide for us? How did that not teach me a great work ethic?

Even if no one said it to my face, I internalized deeply the notion preached in every corner of society that people who aren’t self-disciplined are lazy and don’t actually care

I never thought I had adhd because I didn’t fit the stereotypical symptom profile. And I believed so deeply that I just had to “work harder” even though I was mentally deteriorating from how hard I actually was working. But that’s normal for everyone, right?

And now that I’ve deconstructed a lot of this shame and guilt (after years and years of therapy that I’ve been lucky to have), I see it as it is and have stopped using these toxic things to motivate me. And I’m realizing just how little “natural” motivation I actually have. Any motivation I do get is sporadic, for super random things, never consistent and not usually for “productive” tasks.

I’ve finally come to the place where I don’t feel even slightly opposed to trying out adhd medication either. But it has come at the *very* opportune time when I’m unemployed, searching for a job (with the aforementioned lack of motivation in a shit job market), and uninsured.

BuT aT LEaSt it’S a gReAt pRaCtiCE iN seLf cOmpAsSiOn!!! 🥴

[artsybug0]

What have I been working on lately? I’ve started a lot of sketches and currently don’t have a lot of energy to finish them as quicker as I would prefer. I’ll probably end up taking a little break or just add more to these drawings slowly day by day. But for now here are sketches/WIPs of what I have made the past couple of days.

A new wallpaper for my iPad. I can see this as a poster the Welcome Home Puppet Show would of made to advertise Millie as a new character.

Working on certain Au’s people have requested (Mama Millie, Dead by Daylight, and Greyscale Millie). A few specific Au’s I can’t really insert Millie into for different reasons. For example in the Dead by Daylight Au Millie would be with the rest of the neighbors while Wally would be missing to her. So for these specific Au’s I can’t insert Millie into I’m drawing her as if she was in Wally’s place. (Including, Watcher au, Killer au, Dead by Daylight au, and probably others I can’t think of right now.)

I also have plans to draw Millie on clownsuu’s Mob Au! I love their au and artwork a lot. And thanks to Mob Howdy’s character.ai there are scenarios I wanna draw between them! (Like how they first meet! It’s super sweet and precious!) sadly This Millie would have a lot of truama thanks to Wally haha!

I have a couple of drawings of Actress Millie I wanna finish before I post her official design! I love her so much and have her pretty much all done! I just want to have a few drawings that shows how she is as a person and her relationship with her fellow cast members before I post her official design. Sadly my lack of motivation is making this a lot harder. 🥲

Im still struggling a lot with Angel Millie’s color palette and now I think I already want to redesign her 🥲🥲 I’m way too picky about her design.

This is also my sketch for the banner on this app haha! It’s gonna take so long to do but it’ll be worth it lol.

I keep making sketches but never actually finishing the drawing 🥲 screw art block and lack of motivation.

[intoanotherworld23]

Sorry everyone that I haven’t been that active on here lately, I just wanted to let my followers now its cause my older brother passed away last month unexpectedly, and my family and I have been having an incredibly difficult time with it. He was only 32, and was in a different state which makes it even harder cause none of us could get to him. It wasn’t suicide, foul play, or drug overdose. It was a complete accident, and he didn’t suffer or in any pain. So having the motivation to write has been a little difficult, but I promise I will get back to writing, and you guys haven’t got rid of me yet. I hope you guys understand, and I look forward to writing more for you guys. Also, hug your family and loved ones tightly cause you really don’t know when it’ll be your last. Appreciate the people in your life and don’t ever take them for granted💜🤍

[sleeplessphantom-0]

“This is something I think about a lot, I didnt really have any self motivation to succeed or aspirations for most of my life, even now it’s kind of fickle and I sort of chalk that up to the fact my parents were too supportive in the other way they always made it very clear they don’t mind if I don’t succeed or achieve anything with my life which I think led to me not really developing any sort of anxiety about failure or ambition to impress, I wonder how much pressure is too much and how much is too little, when do you know to stop”

I have never felt a stronger connection to someone else

[rippingoffthehalos]

me when i havent touched procreate in months and all i wanna do is draw cod men. like i wanna draw it just seems so hard even tho ive literally done it before :|

[temis-de-leon]

Writing tip:

If you have an idea but not the inspiration to describe the characters or the plot, make a map.

Close your eyes, draw a blob, then open your eyes and draw lines. Blob for the country/realm; lines for rivers. Do you want lakes? Great, more blobs. (Using different colors is great for this).

Unless you already decided the name, don't try to make one up. That'll just make things more difficult.

Where's the capital? Why? If it's in the coast, is it because there are threats across the sea? If situated on top of a mountain, does it have caves or mines? Are they profitable? Deep forests usually bring mountains and cold weather. Living in the coast means living with humidity.

Still don't think of names.

Are there any more cities? Same as the capital, where and why? Civilization starts where people thrive: water, fertile soil, precious metals, etc. The better the land, the richer the people (unless there's a third party involved, which would help with the plot, even indirectly).

Now to the characters: what are the vibes? Are they farmers or hunters? Do they belong in nobility? When you think of them do you picture them wearing furs or open chested silk shirts? Are they able to survive extreme heat or cold?

Do they feel incomplete? Did something recently happen in their life? Would a journey help? Which would they prefer, a similar land to their homeland or something different?

Of course, here's where the plot takes place. If the land where your story takes place is invaded, you have to take the enemies in consideration because they're probably stealing from the poor and collecting innecesary tolls or persecuting the original rulers. If, however, your land is at peace, there's probably something about to happen.

So:

Context (where).

Background (why).

Plot (what).

In the end, if you're lost, give your characters and your story a reason to exist.

[jacksonthereaper]

TW// Suicidal thoughts, mental exhaustion, lack of self worth

Doubt anyone's gonna see this but fuck it i might as well drop this in here

I'm so tired

I'm 15 years old male in 10th grade and i'm just so tired of everything. Tired of doing so much and putting in all the effort i can only to be criticized at the slightest mistake, tired of always trying so hard to be nice to others yet only being noticed when i'm rude or doing something bad or embarrassing, tired of this garbage world filled with wars, pollution, genocide, hunger, poverty, discrimination, disease, etc.

I feel like i'm losing more and more motivation with each and every single day that passes, beit for doing things i like, things i don't like, things i have to do, etc. I'm not particularly angry or sad or scared or frustrated, i guess i'm a little melancholic but overall i'm just exhausted, numb, and, most of all, bitter.

I still feel some amount of joy, but it feels so vain and empty. I eat something delicious, i listen to some music, i watch something funny on YouTube, on TV, etc., then i go right back to my misery. I just want someone to hear me calling for help. I just want to feel like someone actually gives a flying fuck about what i have to say, or wants me to feel better, or even just cares about my existence at all.

I don't even know anymore man. I'm just running out of options. I'm probably just experiencing burnout, which coupled with the fact i live in what is essentially a small village in the middle of nowhere, really just makes me feel hopeless.

Fuck this shit, man.

[ask-hatty-hatspace]

Once again, reminder that this blog is still active! I'm really really sorry for taking so long. Behemoth Games hasn't been in the forefront of my mind, and motivation has been pretty low for this. But I'm not planning on cancelling this comic, I have so many ideas and story building elements I can't wait to share with all of you! Thank you all so much for being so patient, I appreciate it.

[coqui-studios]

Wondering if I should make some Steam Powered Giraffe fan art.. I unironically love them but robots are hard to draw

I also want to try making fan art for Captain Yajima or Sonic but I dunno eeuuuggghh

[v-tired-queer]

So much to do, so little motivation to do any of it

[howifeltabouthim]

I didn't care about anything that was left. I thought it was all over with me, and there was nothing to try for—only things to endure.

George Eliot, from Middlemarch

[hail-ey-m]

ѕαιкι кυѕυσ—ανσℓιтιση

Relationship: platonic

!!TW: None!!

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

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Y/n,

Hello. I've heard you are lacking some motivation? Well I may not be the most enthusiastic person alive (pun intended), but I'm sure I can help with that.

I, myself, lack motivation at times. Everyone does. You are completely valid and you aren't lazy.

Maybe there is something deeper that's the problem? Regardless, if your experiencing a hard time getting simple things done, such as hygiene, laundry, or just schoolwork, you aren't lazy, you may have depression. I'm no doctor but I do suggest getting it checked out.

In any case, you are loved and appreciated. You do not need to burn yourself out. You should talk to someone you trust, I'm sure they'll understand. If not, you can always come to me.

I am aware I'm not the most comforting person, but I promise to do my best because you are worth it. I hate to see you go through this, and I will do my best to help you.

You aren't alone, and I will always be here for you. I hope this letter finds you well, and helps at least a little.

-Saiki ♡

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[elliotsghost]

Tw:

"i love my mental illness" except for the fact that I irreversibly fucked up my whole life, my future, destroyed myself trying to 'fit in' and now having no control over my life.

I cannot hold a conversation without feelings anxious, thus I have to prepare in my head all the possible response the other person might give me and think in less than a second to what answer I should give them. Over and over for every single conversation I have, no matter with who.

I have no friends; I can count on one hand how many times I've left my house during the whole summer.

I tricked my brain into thinking that I deserve all the pain and suffering I go through and it's not even enough, because people have it worse so I'm not allowed to complain about how I feel. Also, no one cares.

I even make myself worse on purpose, falling again into the addiction of sh, sleepless nights and the need to check how much I eat in a day.

I've been made insecure and now I'm trapped in my own thoughts, I can't wear anything without pointing out things about my body that people might judge. Because there are people who look better than me, who don't have the defects that I have and cannot hide.

This is also why I had to come to the conclusion that I am unlovable, I don't feel any kind of love and can't picture anyone ever experiencing such feelings for me.

To not talk about intrusive thoughts, how I would end up in jail or an asylum where no one would even care to give me the medical assistance that I need, if I ever do as my thoughts say.

Losing hair because of anxiety, I won't pass a hand through my hair because of the fear of seeing more and more hair on my palm each time.

The hate and disgust I feel whenever I remember that I'm being perceived, that I simply exist and the loss I feel inside of me, the hatred I experienced when I'm not acknowledged.

When I just got accepted into university and I could do my dream course but I decided to drop out because the fear of failure was stronger than my will to study. The self-sabotaging all my life, because I don't deserve anything nice to happen to me.

Blaming myself for anything.

The desire to smash my head against any surface so that my brain could just shut up.

Looking at my hands and feeling like a stranger in my own body, trapped underneath the skin. I end up scratching myself or worse to feel like I'm releasing myself into the world.

Costant shit talking about myself any time I do anything, cus I'm not doing it good enough.

Forgetting everything.

Being so unreasonably angry out of nowhere to everything and anyone for no reason at all.

Not recognizing your own body when you look into the mirror.

Feeling like a stranger every day, all the time.

Dissociating anytime I don't fill my brain with hatred thoughts.

Not being able to even get out of the bed some mornings.

The lack of self-care and hygiene, I sometimes go months without brushing my teeth, even showering is so fucking hard that the max I can do is just wash my hair.

Not being able to talk and needing to go non verbal because I'm afraid of anything that could come out of my mouth.

Being jealous of anything that receives more attention than me.

Hiding in plain sight.

Judging each one of my moves.