#Ocd?

[lifenconcepts]

I FUCKING CRIED WHEN I SAW THE PROTAGONIST OF THIS MOVIE LOCK EYES WITH THE WOMAN. WHY? WHY OH FUCKING WHY. I KNOW YOULL END IP TOGETHER I FUCKING KNOW IT. ITS SICKENING. RUINS MY EXPERIENCE. HIT MY CORE. OFCOURSE I CAN SEE THE FUCKING TENSION RADIATING FROM THEM, It’S SUFFOCATING!!!! AAGGHHHH

NOOOO THEY FUCKING KISSED NO NO NO NO NNOOOOOOO

I WAS EXPECTING THIS BUT AT THE SAME TIME I WASNT READY

[sad-can-of-soup]

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[grey-loves-dragons]

on todays episode of is it my autism or undiagnosed ocd (either way i hate it)

have to have at least one hair tie on my brush handle at all times or else my mom will die (how does that make any fucking sense you ask? good question. let me know if you figure it out)

can’t say any type of bedtime greeting to my cat (goodnight, sleep well, see you tomorrow, etc. or else, you guessed it!, she’ll die)

any time i see my chickens i have to say “see you in a bit” (or tomorrow) because if i don’t specify that i will see them again, i won’t (either i will die or they will)

[acupwithdirtinside]

i don’t know if this is just an anxiety/autism thing but i struggle to play multiple choice games and prefer to watch the full play through on YouTube so I know for sure that i haven’t missed anything, does anyone else do this?

[thatweirdomarissa]

We are all cursed with emotions unable to withstand

A evolutionary feature gone out of hand

The moment we ate the forbidden fruit was the moment we all sunk deep into guilt and fear of repeating the first of our many sins.

self flagellation was our saving throw, but it made us sink deeper and deeper into the abyss of hell.

every action made us sink deeper and deeper until there was no air to breathe.

we thought we were demons, but in reality we were just their puppets.

There's nothing left here in this fevered mind.

I can't go to heaven when these demons are whispering to me all the things they think I am.

please understand

[labratofthemonth]

why am i so bad with food? i had a panic attack eating a pb&j because after looking at the sell by date (the sell by date was just yesterday) i immediately took that as it was bad so i did 15-30 minutes of research on bread expiration dates while breathing quickly and trying not to cry and so i told someone about how this could be ocd based on this and other experiences and symptoms and was told “you’ve never eaten bad food, just calm down”

[zukishaylupo]

I'm bored and can't sleep [it's a little after 4 am where I am lol], so here's a thing about me that I'm kinda surprised I haven't talked about yet, lol.

When I was Zuki, I had a service dog [in this life, I also need an SD, I'm gonna probably post a separate thing about that at some point], he was a german shepherd named Remo (meaning strong one or something like that lol). I miss him as much as I miss anyone else from my canon, maybe a bit more than certain people, but I feel like that should be understandable, he helped me actually live life, yeah I still had problems but they would've been way worse without Remo. He helped me actually be able to do more than I would've without him, as service dogs do lol, but still.

I'm really bad with words and shit and it's late/early, so that's likely not helping. But just yeah, thought I'd share this, not sure if anyone even really cares, but whatever, lol.

- Zuki Shay Lup! :3c

[sadistic-softie]

I don't think the people in my life understand how serious I am when I say, "I don't fuck around when it comes to my food" if I see one little hair or imperfection in my food it ruins my entire appetite for at least the next few hours. And i don't know if it's an OCD thing, but I just CAN'T eat at ALL in a lot of circumstances.

I can't eat if I can smell certain smells like wet dog, runny egg sandwich, or new baby. I can't eat if people are too close to me. I can't eat with long sleeves or gloves. I can't eat if I'm wearing something fluffy above my waistline. I can't eat if I have pet hair on my shirt unless my food is placed above my chest. I can't eat if my food is placed on a surface at a lower level than any nearby item containing certain amounts of animal hair. I can't eat at a table I can't see all of. I can't eat If I can't identify everything on the table near my food.

If someone has put their face too close to my food to smell it or talk to me I legit will refuse to eat it and if I try I'll lose my appetite because "what if they got some spit in it or a hair fell in?" I can't eat anything I've left out of my sight for longer than a few minutes. I can't eat anything I let my hair get too close to. I WILL puke if I get a hair in my mouth. I NEED to have something covering my food if I'm walking a long distance or in a crowded area with it.

I will get extremely agitated and irritable if people get close to my food. Genuinely the quickest and most reliable way to piss me off and make me verbally aggressive (which is really rare for me because I NEVER outwardly express my anger) is to just repeatedly get really close to my food. It's my anger weak point. Basically, don't touch my fucking food or I'll become unreasonably enraged.

[starvir]

I don't understand. I am very very specific about certain things, like what order I should do something in, or that I need to do thing x before I can do thing y and it makes me feel awful immediately when I don't do it that way.

Except when I am not?

Sometimes I just get LAZY and don't do what I usually do, and I am so so sure I will be fine EVERY TIME but NO!

A few minutes, sometimes hours later it hits. And it is even more awful.

My laziness is killing me 😭

[lifenconcepts]

Oh man! A child touched my arm :( you know what that means! :D

*peels it off in an agonisingly brief amount of time as every slow second that the contamination seeps through my skin I feel I’m becoming more and more ill because the amount of discontentment with their bodies I experience is comparable to a phobia at this point yet it stems from an oh so real acknowledgment of their lack of proper hygiene and very lacklustre behaviour practice, given that their grubby hands could have been both in their butt, nose, mouth, and whatever they also touched prior, and they wouldn’t have so much of a second thought about rubbing those germs all over me* :))

[juulpodrey]

it’s so frustrating to realize i’m gonna have significant scarring for a long time because of my dermatillomania. my goals was to be much more healed by summer/shorts weather. i still think i’m gonna be at a better point than today but the scars are gonna take a while to heal, maybe never healing fully :/

[your-local-closet-monster]

Not sure if it's trauma related or if I have mysophobia:

But does anyone else disinfect their toilet seats, when they know someone else used it before?

And has the urge to throw up, when there are hairs in the bathroom sink?

[saturdayssvillain]

M-A-M-A B-O-Y mama's boy, mama's boy...

[autistic-bibliophile]

I have some WEIRD issues with spelling. Like my teacher wrote “complimentary” instead of “complementary” on the board a few days ago and I had to excuse myself from class because I was so upset. I wanted to put my hand up and correct her but I know that’s viewed as impolite, so I just went to the bathroom. Like why? It doesn’t mean anything. Why does one letter even matter. But I legitimately started crying in the bathroom. So yeah. Just me?

[littleyellwbumblebee]

Now I don’t wanna self diagnose, but I wouldn’t be surprised if I had OCD and that is why I get jealouss all the time when my friend hangs out with other people.

But idk for sure tho, its just a guess.

I also only have it with one friend and not my other friends, which is really weird.

[beeapartments]

I talked to my therapist last night about this physical issue (muscle twitches) and she kind of breezed over it in favor of talking about my work issues. I feel utterly alone in my sensory issues with body malfunctions (my mom keeps telling me that activities will distract me but they never really do).

Medication hasn’t been able to help either because it keeps either triggering my health anxiety itself with the side effects, or I get anxiety from my past Zoloft experience. The only really effective medication I’ve had so far isn’t long term useable (benzos) Feels like I’m never going to find something that helps me conquer this issue.