#SIBO

[goodboytown]

found this unhinged thing i drew last year when i was diagnosed with sibo

[gebo4482]

BLAME! by Tsutomu Nihei

[sidewalkchemistry]

Eating enough fiber per day is the best prevention against digestive & gut issues (IBS, SIBO, Crohn's, colon cancer, constipation, painful bloating, etc). Fiber is one of the major nutrients which people today are undernourished in. In fact, it's estimated that the average Westerner eats about 80% less fiber than early hunter-gatherers did. When we're spoiled for affordable & accessible choices in this day & age, it's very weird.

Reblog to remind your followers to get a delicious plant-based dish/snack in -- whether that's in the form of a curry, smoothie, soup, fruit salad, buddha bowl, even veggies & hummus

[wearingmystripes]

it’s times like these i remember that i am chronically ill

[chronic-gastro-illness-culture]

how to spiritually prepare for low FOODMAP diet phase 1: elimination phase 😭 (for 4 weeks) feel like im entering some sort of ya distopian trial phase 💀

i've already been eating such a restricted diet, only continuing to eat what didn't make The Symptoms worse, and now on the way home from the eating counseling place i nearly started to cry looking at the list of recommended and forbidden food.

being unable to eat socially for the past few months has been so alienating already, im very stressed about having to watch what i eat even more closely

(plus i have a low fear that's 'what if the SIBO (small intestinal bowel overgrowth) isn't actually gone and they just thought it was... and im down dosing some other meds too which might help, so im kind of afraid this is pulling too many levers at the same time...)

anyway do you have any experience with a low foodmap diet? or does anyone else reading this ask?

thank u for ur patience w the delay i started school n its taking more effort then i anticipated hahaha

rlly feel u on this! like u said eating is a social activity n w digestive disorders hanging out can be hard if ur going thru a episode n r worried abt being too far from a toilet n food restrictions can make socializing hard if u r in recovery or remission n even eating by urself every meal can feel like a drag or depressing or just be difficult when it becomes smth u gotta do instead of smth u enjoy

smth i wish i knew when i started the restrictive eating a yr back is that its only temporary to let ur body heal from the damage then u can slowly reintroduce foods back into ur diets some things im able to eat again n some will forever be gone or i can only have in moderation but i do eat way more now then i thought i would when i first changed my diet for gerd n ibs

[chronically-persistent]

I am once again experiencing the Horrors™️, so you know what that means! ME/CFS information time!

Though often associated with fatigue and neuro-immune dysfunction, ME is actually quite prevalent in the gut as well. Intestinal and stomach issues are not uncommon, so here are a few to mention (these are not an exhaustive list, please add if you experience others!)

IBS: possibly the most common diagnosis, IBS can cause a whole host of lower GI dysfunction, including indigestion, constipation, diarrhea, and cramping. It can range in severity and form between individuals.

Gastroparesis: a paralysis of the stomach muscles that causes delayed and sudden stomach emptying. Symptoms include bloating, fullness, pain, nausea, and in cases vomiting. Let me tell you, this one’s a doozy.

Bacterial overgrowth: Unfortunately being chronically ill has consequences on the gut microbiome too, and some studies have shown evidence that individuals with ME/CFS (and its comorbidities like fibromyalgia and IBS) have an overgrowth in the small intestine, which causes side effects similar to those mentioned above.

ME/CFS really is a systemic illness, and if you are experiencing gastrointestinal symptoms, please seek the help of a trusted physician. If there is no one you feel comfortable speaking with, there are a few things I find help me.

Stay upright, slightly reclined if possible. Being completely flat makes me more nauseous and painful.

Small meals. Big meals only serve to instigate the nausea and cramping.

Avoid heat unless your guts are cramping, for example with constipation. Otherwise I find heat makes my nausea worse.

Try liquid replacements. I’m currently trying Boost, and have experienced good things with it.

This one’s the toughest, but avoid stressors. I have GAD so I never like hearing this but unfortunately anxiety and the gut go hand in hand. If you can try to distract yourself, it may ease the symptoms a little.

GINGER GRAVOL! If all else fails, these supplements work wonders for my stomach, and start taking effect in around 30 min. They’re last on the list because they can run a little expensive, but if you need relief fast, these are a life saver in my experience.

Stay safe out there, everyone, and feel free to add to this! These are just my sleepy, nauseous ramblings, and ME/CFS is not a monolith. I’d be happy to hear your thoughts and experiences

[rainbow-fairylandsystem]

it’s a special kind of hell knowing you’re hungry but also knowing anything you eat is going to make you sick. because i’d rather be hungry than in pain, but being this hungry is also so horrible because i’ve been like this for months

​i can also tell this it’s going to be VERY difficult to go back to eating normally once i figure out what’s wrong with me (if that ever happens). having severe GI issues and a history of eating disorders is a really really bad mix

[melodymorningdew]

Trying to raise money for a mini fridge so I can eat during the day! Please donate if you can! Every penny helps.

I am often unable to walk to the kitchen and the kitchen where I'm about to move is downstairs from my bedroom, so it will be even harder for me to eat regularly.

I already have a personal microwave thanks to a lovely friend! Just need the fridge now ^^

If you cannot donate I totally get it! But if you can it will be so so helpful!

[spoonie-living]

[ID: text on bright yellow background: "find foods you can eat 😋"]

Folks, if you live in the US*, have dietary restrictions, and struggle to find safe groceries, you HAVE to know about this app.

You can put in your restrictions (and their ingredient lists are extremely exhaustive) and this app will spit out a bunch of products that are safe for you to buy! Or it can scan a product to check for you!

Features of note:

Lets you mark whether an ingredient is safe, dodgy, or unsafe

Scans barcodes and tells you if a product is safe (you know how easy it is to miss an item in an ingredients list)

Lets you search and sort by product type (meat, frozen, etc)

Tells you what stores you can buy them at (most major chains)

Lets you create lists of saved items

Their paid version of the app also gives you access to a restaurants feature, which is small but currently being built out.

This app opens doors in major, major ways. I just ate chicken nuggets for the first time in 5 years, and found some premade meatballs too!

This one is definitely worth checking out. And if you have money to burn, consider upgrading to a paid account or donating a paid account—these people are doing important work, both in making the app and in some lobbying they're doing for ingredient transparency.

Enjoy!

*Looks like they want to expand to other English speaking countries soon.

[ellieslittleblog]

[nevernmoncher]

Managing IBS After a Stressful Period and Gallbladder Removal: The Power of Supplements and nature

Living with Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS) can be challenging, especially after experiencing a long and stressful period in life, coupled with the removal of the gallbladder. It took me two years to finally start managing the flare ups that have become my daily struggle in the past two years since i had my surgery. However, there is hope in managing IBS symptoms and finding relief. In this blog post, I will explore the benefits of specific supplements, such as omega-3, zinc, B-complex, B1, vitamin D, and magnesium citrate, and how they can help alleviate IBS flare-ups over time.

Omega-3 fatty acids are essential for overall health and have been found to have anti-inflammatory properties. In the context of IBS, omega-3 can help reduce inflammation in the gut, which is often associated with flare-ups. Incorporating omega-3 supplements into your daily routine can potentially improve IBS symptoms, such as abdominal pain, bloating, and diarrhea. Adding the omega in my supplement routine made a huge difference in my overall health.My gut is happy.

Zinc is a vital mineral that plays a crucial role in various bodily functions, including digestion and immune system support. Studies have shown that individuals with IBS may have lower zinc levels, which can contribute to worsened symptoms. By supplementing with zinc, you can potentially restore the balance and alleviate IBS-related discomfort. The pharmacist suggested it to me several months ago calling it the supplement of the future. It helps with the healing and inflammation and enhances the benefits the other supplements are providing.

B vitamins, particularly B-complex, are essential for maintaining optimal gut health. These vitamins help convert food into energy, support the nervous system, and aid in the production of healthy red blood cells. When it comes to IBS, B-complex vitamins can help regulate digestion, reduce stress, and improve overall gut function. The one bellow I found to be the best.

B1, also known as thiamine, vitamin B1 is a crucial nutrient that supports the nervous system and helps convert carbohydrates into energy. In the context of IBS, B1 can help alleviate symptoms such as fatigue, brain fog, and digestive issues. By supplementing with B1, individuals may experience improved energy levels and reduced IBS-related discomfort. It is also very effective if you are diagnosed with SIBO.

Vitamin D is not only essential for bone health but also plays a role in immune function and inflammation regulation. Studies have suggested a potential link between vitamin D deficiency and IBS symptoms. By ensuring adequate vitamin D levels through supplementation, individuals may experience reduced inflammation and improved IBS symptoms. My doctor measured my vitaamin D levels which were a bit on the low side and supplemented me with 5000u of vitamin D.

Magnesium is a mineral that plays a vital role in muscle relaxation and nerve function. In the context of IBS, magnesium citrate can help alleviate constipation, a common symptom experienced by individuals with IBS. By promoting regular bowel movements, magnesium citrate can provide relief and improve overall gut function. The Magnesium Citrate is gentle on the stomach lining and thats why this is the one that is recommended.

Digestive enzymes play a crucial role in our overall digestive health. These enzymes are responsible for breaking down the food we eat into smaller, more easily absorbable molecules that our body can utilize for energy and nourishment. Without sufficient digestive enzymes, our body may struggle to properly digest and absorb nutrients, leading to various digestive issues.

Digestive enzymes can help alleviate the symptoms of IBS by aiding in the breakdown of food and improving digestion. They can help break down complex carbohydrates, proteins, and fats, reducing the strain on the digestive system and minimizing discomfort. Additionally, digestive enzymes can enhance nutrient absorption, ensuring that the body receives the necessary vitamins, minerals, and other essential nutrients.

There are different types of digestive enzymes, each targeting specific types of food molecules. For example, amylase helps break down carbohydrates, protease aids in protein digestion, and lipase assists in the breakdown of fats. By supplementing with these enzymes, individuals with IBS can support their digestive system and control the flare ups.

In addition to incorporating digestive enzymes there are also benefit from making dietary and lifestyle changes. This may include following a low-FODMAP diet, which eliminates certain types of carbohydrates that can trigger IBS symptoms. Regular exercise, stress management techniques, and adequate hydration are also important for maintaining a healthy digestive system.

In conclusion, digestive enzymes play a vital role in supporting digestive health, and they can be particularly beneficial for individuals with IBS. By aiding in the breakdown of food and improving nutrient absorption, digestive enzymes can help alleviate symptoms and improve overall well-being. However, it’s essential to work with a healthcare professional to determine the appropriate use and dosage of digestive enzymes, as part of a comprehensive treatment plan for IBS.

Psyllium is a soluble fiber derived from the seeds of the Plantago ovata plant. It is commonly used as a dietary supplement and is known for its ability to promote regular bowel movements and relieve constipation. In the context of IBS, psyllium can help regulate bowel movements, reduce diarrhea, and alleviate abdominal discomfort. The fiber in psyllium absorbs water in the intestines, adding bulk to the stool and promoting healthy digestion. Additionally, psyllium can help regulate gut motility and improve overall gut health, which can be beneficial for individuals with IBS.

Managing IBS after a long stressful period and gallbladder removal can be challenging, but incorporating specific supplements into your daily routine can make a significant difference. Omega-3, zinc, B-complex, B1, vitamin D, and magnesium citrate all offer potential benefits in alleviating IBS symptoms over time. However, it is important to consult with a healthcare professional before starting any new supplement regimen to ensure it is safe and suitable for your individual needs. Remember, finding relief from IBS is a journey, and with the right approach, you can regain control of your digestive health and improve your overall well-being.

Remember, managing IBS requires a comprehensive approach that may include dietary modifications, stress management, and other lifestyle changes in addition to potential supplements or treatments.

Good luck.🪷

[tozluveolagan]

Histamin intoleransına bağlı çoklu gıda alerjisi ve alerjik ürtikerle uğraşmaya başladığımdan beri fermente ürünleri (peynir, süt, yoğurt, kefir gibi) ve şekerli tüm ürünleri hayatımdan mümkün olduğunca uzaklaştırdım. Arada tek tük kaçamaklarım tabii ki oluyordu. Bu süreçte bağırsaklarımda bulunan zararlı mikroorganizmalar şeker ile yeterli oranda beslenemediği için canım inanılmaz derecede şekerli işlenmiş gıdalar çekiyordu ve bu da vücudun vermesi gerektiği doğal bir tepki.

Bu nedenle zararlı mikroorganizmaları zayıflatıp yararlı bakterileri arttırmak amacıyla tüketebileceğimiz bir probiyotikten bahsetmek için karşınızdayım. Benim gibi egzama, ürtiker, sedef, sibo, ibs, ibh gibi durumlarla uğraşıyorsanız ve bağışıklık sisteminiz zaten çok da iyi değilse tüketebileceğiniz probiyotikler ne yazık ki sınırlıdır. Kefir, yoğurt, sirke, turşu, peynir ve peynir altı suyu gibi ürünler alerjilerimizden ve hassasiyetimizden dolayı tüketemeyiz. Bu nedenle bizim gibi hastalarda Bacillus Coagulans tüketimi ve faydaları ön plana çıkıyor.

Ben bu bakteriyi yeşilçayımla birlikte 3 günde 1 kez içiyorum, çünkü alerjik bünyeye sahip insanların da dikkatli tüketmesi gerekiyor. Önceleri nedeni bilinemeyen ishallerim ve tembel bağırsak sendromuna bağlı kabızlık sorunlarım olurdu. Asla bağırsak sistemim normal ve düzenli çalışmazdı, sürekli iki uçta gezerdim. Ancak beslenmemi düzeltmeye çabaladığımdan beri çok daha iyi durumdayım.

Yazıda da bahsettiğim gibi bu bakteri türü zorlu koşullara dayanabildiği için raf ömrü oldukça uzun. Bu yüzden besinlerde ve içeceklerde, hatta aşılarda ve antibiyotiklerde karşımıza çıkabiliyor.

Şimdiden okuduğunuz için teşekkürler, sizler de eğer varsa kendi deneyimlerinizi bu gönderi altında paylaşabilirsiniz. Ayrıca unutmadan, probiyotik kullanımı için mutlaka doktorunuza danışın, ben kendi deneyimlerimi sizlere ışık tutması amacıyla paylaşıyorum 💕

[polarisbibliotheque]

Update - My Health Saga

Hey guys! I hope you are all doing fine, my beautiful amazing beings that lighten up my day with your presence ^^

I decided to make a post about my health saga (yeah, not a journey; it's almost a walk to Mordor already) so maybe it can help other people going through it as well - and also explaining a bit to you all.

As a big summing up of what I'll be saying here: don't give up on your health and keep going. Someday you'll get a diagnosis and a proper treatment. It can seem like a neverending quest, but trust me, it WILL get to a resolution - sometimes, taking much more time than we actually thought it would. But it is NOT forever.

(Yes. Long post ahead)

So, flashback to 4 years ago.

I was the most hopeless workaholic you could ever think of. I usually stayed at work for 10h, didn't have breaks for the bathroom/drinking water and stopped eating lunch. I was fresh out of college and bullied by my co-workers (having previously been bullied at school and still recovering from it) and my boss knew it and did nothing. My health started going on a downward spiral, but there was nothing I could do.

I tried to find another job, but unemployment was already becoming a huge issue in my country. Why did I stay there? My parents couldn't get retired and couldn't find a job, so it was up to me and my sister to provide everything in the house and hold it all together. She couldn't do it alone, so I couldn't just throw my hands in the air one day and leave. I had to stay there or find a new job.

After 2 years without vacations, I got fired by my new boss only 1 week before taking my 30 days of vacation I had stored up and I desperately needed - and her reason to do so is that I was unmotivated.

Needless to say, I broke down (and got trauma from work). It was a 2h ride back home and I walked all the way back, thinking what the hell I'd tell my parents and my sister. I literally lost everything I had build up to that point in my life.

I tried so hard to find a new job, I sent thousands of CVs, I went to interviews, but I was never able to find something. I started a post-graduation, for everyone was telling me that was what was missing from my CV, but I couldn't focus and had to drop out.

I wasn't doing anything right. I was just trying so so so hard to get my life back, to have my sense of self back - all the while my body was slowly crumbling and I was eating less and less, feeling sick every time I had any kind of food, healthy or not.

Then the pandemics came, we got in a lockdown and I lost my sanity as well as the rest of health I had.

My mom got increasingly worried and I lost lots and lots of weight - I'm currently underweight and people think I'm doing fine. Still, I always tried to go back to my old self, to what I knew I was - desperately trying to hold on to anything that gave me a sense of who I was.

After around a year and a half of lockdown, we started seeing doctors - I needed help. I really needed help, even though I ignored it to keep going, to keep trying.

We went to 6 different doctors and I went through all the medical exams you can imagine. Invasive ones, non invasive, blood tests... The whole thing. I got skinnier, exhausted and barely able to do the things I always did. To the point of looking at myself in the mirror and not knowing who the hell that was - externally and internally.

All doctors told me the same thing: I had to do yoga, I had to meditate and relax, I had to take a few pills for pain because of IBS (Irritable Bowel Syndrome) and just... Try to eat. That simple.

Can you imagine it? I never thought of just trying to eat!

(read it with sarcasm)

Now, I've always been the "I never give up and I do what I set out to do even if the whole world is against me" person in my house. But I got to a point I sometimes can't even get up from bed - I have no energy.

Just imagine how mad, confused, sad and exhasperated I got the first time I realized I couldn't get up from kneelling on the floor without help. I barely have the strength to walk up a hill - and that comes from someone who spent more than 12 years doing sports, dancing, swimming, tennis, running, strength training, HIIT, cardio, fighting and such on a weekly/daily basis.

Every time I have to call my mother to help me get up from kneeling/leaning down I feel like... Well, I feel like if I was Vergil from DMC, I wouldn't even think about using the Yamato to save my crumbling ass. I'd do it, no matter the consequences.

My mom found a 7th doctor earlier this year and I was so tired. I told her I didn't want doctors anymore - I was ok with being sick for the rest of my life, even if I didn't know how long that would be in that condition. I gave up on hope, on doctors, on medicine, everything.

So she dragged my ass to the doctor's office.

More thousands of exams. MRIs, blood tests, feeling miserable, invasive exams... Nothing new. And the more time passed, the weaker I got.

And then, after 4 years struggling with this mysterious health issue, my doctor got 2 diagnosis: SIBO and Primary Sclerosing Colangitis.

For SIBO, it was more of a try really rather than a certainty - but I got the reactions from the tests, even if they were negative (there are 2 types of SIBO, but in my country we only have 1 type of test). I took an antibiotic and lo and behold, my quality of life improved drastically.

I wasn't fully cured, but hey, I could eat soup! That was a huge improvement for someone living literally of just bread and tea for more than a year.

For Primary Sclerosing Colangitis, my doctor started asking some pretty expensive and obscure exams regarding the liver (you guessed it, my sister has to pay for everything and I never felt so useless in my life) because one of my blood tests always came back with a huge alteration and everyone dismissed as "something normal to me".

Again. I had been to 6 doctors. And all of them thought it was because I drank or used drugs, even though I could barely eat food.

So, after two MRIs, Primary Sclerosing Colangitis. That means the bile ducts to my liver, internal and external, are slowly closing, slowly fading away, until one day they won't be there anymore and I'll have a cirrhosis, needing a liver transplant to stay alive.

There is no cure and no treatment. It's a super rare disease and guess I was chosen by the gods to carry it. Now, the catch is, there are people who don't develop it quickly and live their whole lives without getting to a bad stage and there are people who live three years and have to go over two or more transplants. There's no way to tell how mine is going to develop.

Needless to say, it's a lot to deal with. Really a lot. Suddenly I'm 28 years old and I have to start thinking about life insurance, health plans that cover transplants, retirement, disability retirement, how to deal with friendships, how to get into relationships with something like this, if I'll be able to have kids, how long I'm going to live and what do I want to do before I die.

I started taking a medication that isn't protocol but has good results in holding back the disease, and thankfully my most recent blood tests have already drastically changed. From April to now, August, my liver enzymes are doing a lot better.

And then I went to a clinical nutritionist who has asked me another exam and finally my final diagnosis is Dysbiosis! Basically, my gut bacteria is all wrong and making me sick with everything, even if I don't have any kind of food allergies (trust me, I tested it too).

I just started a new diet with lots of suplements and medications from both doctors and it's the first time in 3 years I'm able to eat 3 meals a day, consisting of proper food: soup, chicken, fruits, vegetables, yogurts, cookies, teas, mug cakes... A whole bunch of things I didn't even remember how they tasted like.

Of course, for a month I'll have to eat it all in very small quantities and cannot eat gluten, lactose or sugar (or at least keep a very low amount of sugar in my diet). My parents managed to recently get their retirement and, even if it is kinda low and not at all what we were expecting, it's already helping - as I'm not being able to help anymore.

(That scene from Sandman where Morpheus just got back from the waking world and is trying to muster all his strength to put everything back into place but then he falls on the ground, tired, broken, beaten down by 100 years of abuse in the hands of his captors? The way his eyes were glistening with tears of anger and despair? Not knowing who he is without his tools? Yeah. I felt that.)

Weirdly enough, it's the first time in 4 years I'm feeling a slight sliver of hope - I'm showing some improvement, I have a proper diagnosis I can shove in the face of everyone who had ever told me I was just a brat who didn't want to eat, I finally have a light regarding my health. I have a prospect that at least I can get better and fight my chronic illness until the Fates decide it's my time to go.

If it wasn't for my mother, though, I'd have given up. Honestly. She kept trying, she kept dragging me around. She's still doing it, helping me with all the implications of having a chronic illness that I know not how it will develop in the future.

So, Polaris, what's the moral of the story?

As bitter and gloomy as I am, the moral is: don't give up. Don't EVER give up. I know how it is like to have people look at you, doctors even, as if you're crazy, as if you're just a little brat who's throwing a tantrum, as if you're not making enough effort to heal yourself. I know how it is to feel hopeless, to feel like there's no perspective of ever getting back to be a healthy person or at least find the proper medication to help you with your struggles.

But don't give up. Even if you're feeling like you're dragging your crumbling body around, don't give up. It may seem stupid, but seeing V and Vergil in DMC5 always gave me some kind of "C'mon, I can't let go now, I have to keep trying. At least one more time." and maybe you can find something that gives you motivation too - but keep going.

It might take a lot of time, but you will find a doctor who will know what kind of problem you have and help you. In the end, with the Colangitis, my doctor accidentally found it and I'm being able to take the meds to hold it back a lot earlier than many people - and that might be something that will help me in the long run. Weirdly, it was good that we stumbled on it so soon, not when my liver is already failing. Again, it took me 7 doctors, but he did what no one could do before. Maybe you're in the brink of finding your doctor as well. So don't give up know.

That's why sometimes I'm absent for weeks or even a month - my health isn't always at its best and I'm always having to do lots and lots of medical checks to keep track of it. That's why sometimes it takes me a long while to reply my messages - but I can assure you all, this blog and the Shall Never Surrender Project is something so dear to me. I'm feeling useful again and I have only to thank you for being here with me and reading what I have to say.

Is this a huge TEDtalk? Oh yes. Apologies for making it so long, but we are long and complex stories anyway. I just thought this might help someone who's going through some existential crisis while battling their health issues. Or other issues too.

My new meds have literally just arrived and honestly people, I promised my gods I'd start some competitive sport if I get better this time. If all goes well, hopefully you'll be able to see me competing on archery or something of that kind next year ;)

That's a nice perspective to have. Don't forget yours. And keep going, no matter what.

[starfuckerz-incorporated]

hate having recently discovered syndrome. all this gut biome shit is pseudoscience, right? wrong. your gut biome is bad and now you shall suffer. oh, it was discovered and its a painful and sometimes disabling illness, surely that means people are working on a cure? wrong. okay, so it's pretty rare then? WRONG. many people with the syndrome are incorrectly diagnosed with ibs, which is extremely common. I wish I had normal bitch disease like IBS or fucking diverticulitis

[funnelcloudd]

So tired of feeling sick for hours every time I eat lmao

[wachi-delectrico]

List of easy recipes? Thoughts?

So, since I've been sick with SIBO (small intestine bacteria overgrowth, look it up) and as so have had to radically change my diet and eating habits, I've been cooking a lot of different things. Of course, being disabled has forced me to get creative when cooking so I wouldn't spend too much energy and physical effort on things. I've had to make a lot of new things, or alter a lot of pre-existing recipes, or just make shit up as I went. There's a lot of stuff that's also simple depression food for the times I've been really sad over my eating limitations.

I know trying to cook more and get away from pre-prepared foods isn't easy (I miss chicken nuggets so fucking much), so I've been thinking of whether it'd be a good idea to write down my recipes and to make a masterpost of "easy" - in quotes, because cooking is a different challenge for everyone - recipes? Is that something people would find useful? Keep in mind that I'm just Some Guy who's had to get creative, I'm not a dietitian, a nutritionist, or any kind of expert on any related field.

Please please please reply or send me an ask saying if this is something you want cos it's been really eating away at my brain