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Venting.
Whoops, I made myself sad. I miss my friends so much. I just miss being able to hang out, hug them and hear about what's been happening lately. I know I should make friends were I am, but it's not the same when I miss the person. I miss their energy, their laugh, their smile, and being able to talk to them.
I'm sure it doesn't help that I haven't heard much from my best friend, and I know she is super busy, and it's not on me. I also had a dream where all my friends were in one place, and it felt so warm and welcoming. It sucks not being able go get ahold of friends, and I wish we didn't have such distance between us.
#kalvi vents#friendship#missing#feels all over the place#I miss friends I love so badly#I don't know how to put it without it ended up sounding romantic#but it's not#I just love friends so much#how do I express that#along with longing for them#without it sounding weird#or romantic#I love you deeply#but not romantically
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would you bite the hand that feeds you?
#pearlescentmoon#smajor1995#wild life smp#namemc spoilers#i hope these two never get along in the storyline i find them fascinating#OKAY SO#originally i had this sketch back in session 2 when scott manages to throw her something actually edible JUST IN TIME#and now with the namemc spoilers of pearl ACTUALLY having a yellow eye which does! kind of match scotts esp since he died for this#i figured itd be an appropriate time#i did edit it though the original was pearl eating smth#now do i think scott and pearl has had any Major (heh) interactions to warrant this fanart in WL?#frankly no LMAO theyve been very civil you go guys . but i like the dynamics between them anyway#also i finally got a piece with scott!!! hes been very hard to draw goodness#anyway long rambly tags#eydidraws#my art#mcyt#trafficblr#galaxyduo#majormoon#** i say civil because its just been more on verbal light jabs at each other rather than anything Really significant ?#and well. its obvious all 3Gs are being very careful around each other which makes me JUST A L IL SAD#id love to see them let loose and be vicious but i also understand the angle theyre coming from#anyway can you tell i like the 3g dynamics#scott smajor
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Evening in the Lab
#I know I haven't drawn these guys in a while but i am THINKING about them. All of the time. Weird doomed scientists my beloveds.#Wanted this to be a reply to an ask kitcatia sent me (far too long ago ;w;) but at SOMEPOINT between then & now my ask box bugged out#and I cant??? see it anymore????? along with some other asks I'd been meaning to get around to.... tumblr is a website!#RoyalAuthor#Gravity Falls#Undertale#utdr#Crossover#cross ship#Dr Gaster#wd gaster#Gaster#Fan art#Stanford Pines#fanart#Ford Pines#Artists on tumblr#My art#Gaster x Ford#Also sorry for disapearing again. It'll likely happen again. I got out of the habit of posting so I keep forgetting this account exists ;^;
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more robstar art but now ft. some batfam!! This doesn't even scratch the surface of doodles i'll be posting...still mostly robstar but now I got other plans involving the batfam hehe
#robstar#batfam#dc#dc comics#dick grayson#koriand'r#dickory#jason todd#damian wayne#bruce wayne#uhhh#sorry for flooding/long post#punnifulart#if y'all got fun ideas that go along with them lmk and i might draw it bc this has been fun#also my starfire is still the tt03 version because i think her personality would be soooo funny with the batfam
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Gregory, Abby and Cassie are the new FNAF trio
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#fnaf gregory#fnaf cassie#abby schmidt#fnaf#security breach#fnaf ruin#fnaf movie#fnaf fanart#five nights at freddy's#it’s taken me wayyy too long to draw Cassie!#BUT here she is!! Cassie mentioned!! 💜#simple comic where her and Abby meet!#seeing lots have requested for exactly that#I plan on making another comic with the two hopefully some time!#to have them interact more#I really think Abby and Cassie would get along#they both have a legit love for the animatronics#I think they could relate on that#Scott put them in different canons cause they’d be besties if they were together
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Damian and the Dumpster baby.
Damian was doing patrols, with a bit of a minor rescuing and feeding the strays animals until he heard a noise from a dumpster.
Tonight was going to be a storm coming, and he rather check up on the strays, feed them, fixing any of the secure hiding places he put out for them for rain occasionally, and try to smuggle 1 or 6 into the barn again without Father knowing. Alfred can keep a secret sometimes.
Jumping on the edge of the dumpster to see a plastic bag tied up on the pile of trash with something squirming inside, alive obviously. Oh if this another group of puppies, he going to find the culprit himself and break their kneecaps and arms this time.
Easily untying the plastic bag and opening to reveal.. a little baby.
Not a kitten or a puppy, a living breathing human baby, cut and tied umbilical and a pale with a unique birth mark in a shape of a lichtenberg from his tiny hand fading to his chest.
This..
This was out of Damian's comfort line.
He had dealt with saving animals, people, children, hell even toddlers. He never dealt with a baby before much less a newborn.
He could panic later as he hear the sounds of a storm brewing. Carefully picking up the baby by the back of the head and and by the body, using his cape to as a blanket to cover the obvious nudity of the baby. Climbing onto his Red Robin theme Doom Buggy.
Taking care of a baby is no different then taking care of a baby animal, right?
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He got caught after 5 month and a half by Alfred during feeding Danyal time, while scolded him about hiding the baby instead of coming to him.
He had a good reason to though, last time he told Alfred about the last newest addition, Bruce sended the Jafar the Ligor to a sanctuary. He still felt betrayed by that.(even though now Jafar is happily spending his days with the other mixed big cat breed but still)
He done a good enough job taking care of Danyal, even though he had to secretly look up baby stuff, medicine, clothes, a soft bedded cot and diapers.(the smell was much less worse then the sewer) he considered himself a great care-taker.(even though in the back of his mind, he feared that he might had unlocked that genetic adopt-bat bait traits that Dick warned him about)
Damian had gotten.. a bit attached, considering the idea of putting danyal in orphanage or a foster care wasn't ideal afterall the corrupted ones that Father and him had broken through over the years left a bad gut feeling if he had actually gone through with his plan. Danyal was one of his babies, only not covered in fur, scales, or a shell.
And he didn't do everything all on his own, Cass was the only who figured it out, kept it a secret and help out.. then steph found out... and Jason, Tim and Duke unfortunately found out after Cass and steph snuck danyal in the manor for a nice bath.
Only reason Dick didn't found out because everyone know he can't keep a secret away from Bruce's ear for long after found out Jason's new girlfriend was the new therapist in Gotham, and telling Bruce would feed his adopt-holic again and he end up having baby fever. (Tim didn't tell him what that word meant but he did look it up in a baby care guide book for new parents. And EW)
They were going to wait it out til Danyal was at least toddler age before sneaking him in the manor to gatekeep gaslight girlboss Father into thinking he already adopted him. (Steph's words, not his)
New post <-
#dpxdc#dc x dp#danny phantom#dp x dc#dp x dc crossover#dc x dp prompt#dcxdp#de aged danny#damian found a dumpster baby#a human baby considered an baby animal to Damian's mind#he tried to raise him in the barn#unfortunately Cass see through him#then most of the batfam started to help#surprise them on how long it took alfred to found out#he knew all along and just wanted to see how they react to baby care#alfred been sneakily placing baby related books and ads to help#while bruce is majorly busy with crisis over at the watchtower with Constantine#danny is the ghost king#alfred pennyworth#damian wayne#damian inherited the adopt gene but he denied it until it caught him in the form of a baby#reincarnated danny fenton#does danny remembered his life or not#that up to yall#dp prompt#dp x dc prompt
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these 3 and their weird catty love triangle have bewitched me body and soul
#my art#free!#free! fanart#free! dive to the future#free! iwatobi swim club#ikuya kirishima#asahi shiina#hiyori tono#I still do not have proper internet from my desktop but i found a workaround so WE'RE POSTING BABY#and thank god bc i was so antsy sitting on my dive to the future stockpile i want to post asaikuhiyo NOW#eternal summer is untouchable to me but i do love dive to the future a lot i love !!!!!! ikuya!!!! i love ASAHI!!!!#i wld die for asahi i wld lay down my life for him i was NOT expecting to be won over by one of free's peppy redheads but there he was#whoever at kyoto animation made the decision to give asahi built-in blush i am kissing u passionately on the mouth#ITS SO CUTE WHAT BIG BRAIN DESIGN#on top of th blushies i took th creative liberty 2 give him...freckles.......critical hit lethal damage i fear for my heart etc etc#and ikuya meowmeow i love him hes so BABY hes so . ruffles his hair tucks him in smooches his forehead#i did ikuya first in this set and tht was like over a week ago atp so im no longer super happy w the starry one unfortunately#but whatever man its fine idc this new render style takes too long#hiyori ...is winning me over slowly i will admit he makes my brain tick w how much his rls with ikuya makes me think#he's annoying and infuriating but in such a complex way i wish they did more w his arc#but all tht aside asahiyo beef sillies are so special to me they make me laugh so much i love how petty they are#puts them in their get along shirt
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Jason “my family doesn’t know im alive” Todd and Danny “my family doesn’t know I’m dead” Fenton going alongside each of their plans my beloved. like Danny will absolutely go head-to-head with all of Gotham to support his new best friend on all his crime lord endeavors while he drags Jason to also attend collage with him. They are roommates and there never seems to a mention of family from either side. It’s an unspoken understanding they have. They met because Crime alley as a ghost lair thrummed with so much loneliness, it was at first the perfect place for Danny to hide his ecto signature in. But then he saw the dumbass whose lair it was lean his motorcycle just a tad too much when making a sharp turn to an alley, he sweeped the floor through a lifted chain link that passed his body but not his helmet. Yep that’s right the red thing got stuck. Danny who at the moment happened to be watching through his window snorted. Much to his horror because if not a ghost that dude could’ve gotten his head flung off.
Still, the scene was ridiculous.
On a whim he irrationally sees the police closing in on the guy and panicked at the thought of the guy using intangibility to free himself so Danny phased them both through his apartment wall and left the guy sprawled in his couch. Jason didn’t freak out but that’s normal when one’s got a concussion, one the guy immediately denied having as Danny laid out the medical supplies. The idiot proceeded to almost flatten four steps to the door with his stubbornness. He also said “I’m asexual” in the most deadpan voice as Danny dropped him back in the couch.
Danny sighed. Clearly though, he’d done so too early in the night because the guy kept trying to go, kept trying to knock Danny out, kept trying to slash him with knifes Danny didn’t know he had stashed. He’d only disarmed the guy from his guns. The visible ones apparently, cause at one point the guy did take out a gun and shoot until the ammo ran out and then teetered the thing like it was an art prop and hit his moon lamp.
Danny "yeah you aren’t officially my friend until you’ve tried to kill me" fenton my guys.
Anyways both keep having the same argument over if Danny technically kidnapped Jason or not. Danny holds the fact that the police at least didn’t see the guy make the ridicule. Jason argued that happened cause he was sporting a concussion. Danny argued he got that after.
Jason at first thinks the guy's a meta, but no. Danny introduces himself, sheepily now that he recognizes this is who the lair he invaded is from. He bandages him and tries to cook for him. If Danny didn’t have ice powers he most certainly would’ve burned the apartment. Jason then proceeds to kick him out of his own kitchen and make them both enchiladas. It’s the most normal both had in a while with another person and the air seems oddly settled. From then on, Jason constantly invited himself over, under the pretense that this was his territory and therefore he could drop in unannounced. Danny who has actual powers says he only allows this because Jason cooks very well.
Danny stays away from the crime fighting business unless his buddy is in deep shit he can’t get himself out. Also it’s Danny’s turn to cover for his vigilante friend which Sam and Tucker give him so much shit for. (but also advice)
And they were roommates. (omg) Danny effectively derails Jason’s big comeback plans by casually dropping ghost lore every two days. Like,
Jason, talking about how he doesn’t want Bats snooping on his territory:
Danny: Just don’t let them in
Jason: ??
Danny: yeah!! Hasn’t Batman died and got revived??? You can totally kick out death touched people you don’t want entering on your lair.
Jason: …I can?
Danny: Yep dude, your lair’s supposed to feel safe.
Jason: wait does that mean I can kick you out?
Danny: First this is my apartment. Second, im dead, not dead touched. Third, it’s too late to get rid of me. bitch.
Anyways Jason is super excited. You mean to tell him he can actually deny people over to his territory haunt?? (Yes it’s only to people who have died and came back but still!! The sample size is exactly the type of people he doesn’t want to see—!)
Joker my beloathed can’t step foot in Crime Alley.
(Jason’d feel a lot safer if the clown was dead but the possibility of his murderer turning into a ghost and their little loophole not applying on the clown is too scary to contemplate.)
Anyways, Jason loves experimenting with the power. It can go from simply making people shudder and not want to enter crime Alley to straight up not letting them enter like there’s an invisible wall blocking the way.
Jason because he’s hurt that Bruce never even patrols Crime Alley and also because he’s petty put B under the category of “invisible wall” blacklist. His reasoning is that the man doesn’t even attempt to enter Crime Alley. To him it’s surely just a place shadowed in tragedy. (anyways that’s it’s the place he met Jason)
Ironically, Jason totally forgets that Batman does venture into Crime Alley one day in the whole year. The day he met Jason.
Okay. He didn’t forget at first. The first year Jason remembers cause it was only a few months till then but then the next— Jason forgets that today’s the anniversary of the day’s Bruce’s parents died. He forgets to allow B in when he feels a slight tug and dismiss the feeling that prompts Bruce to investigate because he literally can’t enter Crime Alley. He starts the trialsTM, he scouts on the very edge and sees people the whole day enter and get out and cross with no problem but Bruce can’t.
It’s literally just Bruce.
Time to call Constantine, i guess.
#bat shenanigans ensue#JSJSJS okay so i dont have a well versed timeline of events but two years after utrh who HASNT died of the batfam#cause those are the ones who are gonna go undercover to find what shady shit is this: )#im going with timmy cass and duke#sorry steph i KNOW you have died#the others have plausible deniability from my part#the trio is gonna come down hard on this unsuspecting pair#let's just say constantine just had one spare magical rune for each of them so they'll be able to identify who was powerful enough to do it#and duke found civvie jason. cass found civvie danny and tim also found jason a la squared. in his red hood get up later that night#the only useful photos are from tim's side but anyways since they got three suspects (one suspected to be the other. so really-- two)#they decide to split each other up and tag one each (whoever doesn't get the correct guy loses)#tim calls dibs on the twink. cass rolls her eyes and narrows her eyes at the red hood and duke smirks when he gets to keep his guy#he's not cheating if he didn't protest to getting to have the guy he already saw the aura of. he's sure he is IT#coincidentally duke happens to be the only bat jason doesn't recognize (and vice versa)#meanwhile cass is gonna be the one shadowing red hood which at this point he doesn't kill that much since he has his rules verymuch enforce#he does kill tho#so at some point they're gonna clash but at the start of the investigation no#let them be siblings your honor#big sis cass and her little brother 6'4 jay#and tim finally is gonna be the one to smoothly get himself in the conversation with cryptid roommate civilian danny fenton#genius dumbasses protection club#their first meeting is of course arranged but no less meet cute coffee shop au#anyways jason wants to know why the fuck hes got a bat tagging along with him so out of the blue and also why can't he fucking chase her of#cass is curious about how the red hood's mood constantly changes within her range yet he never attacks her despite his hurt-longing-anger#the boy who doesn't make noise fucking screeches when she sneaks up to him#and duke fucking brings his hands to block the chernobyl reject glow stick sun that's stands next to tim#while tim looks like his whole system is rebooting cause that's jason todd#dp x dc#danny phantom#jason todd
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AGATHA ALL ALONG 1.08
#agatha all along#agathaallalongedit#agatha x jen#*#agatha all along spoilers#sorry i know this is long but every gif is worth it#this was really hot of both of them<3
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something something soulmates
#sukuita#my post#grapedraws#I can see them both thinking 'he's stuck with ME FOREVER now'#yuuji was thinking something more along the lines of 'I wish I could trap your soul within mine again' but it's the same idea#I had to do this one quickly because i have another wip that's been sitting there for a long time and i didn't want to make the list longer#anyways. back to my social media break after that#coming back hours later to put a new version oops
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DPxDC #34 prompt
I had a thought based on this post, most fics are written where Danny has to deal with looking like insert character, and dealing with all the misunderstandings.
Like this post about Danny being mistaken for Tim and dragged around WE. - Also, very long, amazing post.
But what about the DC character that looks like Danny, and the Ghost attacks them. Or the observants - since they hate Danny - don't realize they took insert character and not Danny to the realms. The Observants don't care to check the ecto signal - if there even is one. They're just happy they got the brat to the meeting.
Whichever DC character got kidnapped by an eyeball and dumped into a chair at the head of some mythical council. A blue woman with four arms, a yeti with a bone and ice arm, a man ferociously typing away on a keyboard, a green tornado, a green man playing with some tech, and an old man with a clock on his chest, with an amused smile. All their eyes, looking right at them, in a seat they really should not be sitting in.
The ancients realize right away that whoever is sitting in the head chair is not Danny, but since they hate the observants, they go along with it, to blackmail the observants later. They make sure the meeting doesn't involve actual decisions to help out the random human brought by the observants.
If it's one of Danny's rogues, then the misunderstanding has to last a while. Like an actual embarrassing amount of time for the rogue. Running and hiding from some unknown entity that's calling you a "Halfa" while in your civilian identity isn't easy. The rogue just thinks Danny's not changing because they are in public, but nope, just the wrong person.
#dpxdc#dcxdp#dp x dc#dc x dp#If its Jason and its Pits=Bad Ecto then Frostbites double kidnapping him#That can also work for Damian too#And Tim too#....Okay and Cass#From being near the Pits for so long they got some residue in them that Frostbite will cure#Tim would get a new spleen#Heck maybe its adult Danny and Bruce gets taken#now I'm just thinking about all the possibilities for this reversal#many directions this could go#Or field trip and Lancer mistakes someone for Danny dragging them along to continue the trip#while actual Danny is just off on an adventure with Tucker and Sam#Lancer doesn't know Sam and Tucker are gone because Dannys actually there so why wouldn't the other two be there#to many thoughts#my writing#my rambling
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the thing about Lucanis and Spite is like. neither of them actually wanted to be there. and that is both how they were able to survive the melding and why they resent each other so much. Lucanis' banter about the Ossuary where he says to survive it he "Shut down completely. Think nothing. Feel nothing. Except what you need to escape." And when asked what's left he says "If you're lucky? Revenge. And bad dreams." like. he always had this core of his own personal spite down in him (not doing crow jobs the easy way, ignoring Caterina's summons, not embracing his future as a potential first talon, to "live truly is to live fully" but he HASN'T been allowed to and resents it, etc etc etc) but in the Ossuary he really hollows himself out into the perfect vessel, empties himself of everything but wanting to survive anyway. and "no one was in the Ossuary by choice, not even the demons" so of course he and Spite can agree on this One Thing. they make their deal that they're gonna make it through just because everyone else there is waiting for them to die, and of course they're not gonna just give them what they want. even if they're fighting each other the whole time (hence Lucanis being used to Spite 'hitting' him etc when he doesn't get what he wants), they still have this united purpose Every Day about getting through it. like it's utterly crucial that for both to survive at all the demon had to be something that wanted to defy what the venatori wanted from it.
and this is also why their relationship falls apart once they do escape, because without something else present to rail against every day, they have to turn on each other. and of course it is actually an absolutely miserable situation for both of them to be in--Lucanis is living the nightmare of his body being puppetted around without his consent, just like the blood magic he already had to endure under Zara, and can't ever be alone again even in his own mind. Spite is trapped in a world that no longer responds to his shaping, lacks the autonomy of a truly possessed host body, and can barely comprehend the new laws that govern the place he's in.
for both of them it's such an intense violation of being, and one I wish got more emphasis/recognition. it's really easy to make jokes about how Lucanis could be better at sharing/compromise with Spite more (like I make them too myself, it's easy) but really just... man. this isn't like with Anders & Justice, who agreed to their situation, or Wynne where Faith is content to be mostly a silent passenger and did it to save her life. Lucanis and Spite are suffering the most complete form of intimacy under the worst circumstances, and neither actually wanted it. which makes it honestly impressive at all that (unhardened) Lucanis & Spite are able to reach an accord at all by the end. like i'm glad that they did--and have SO many thoughts (& fanfic WIPs lol) exploring just how they managed to get there--but boy was it hard won, if you actually look deeper into it than the game has room to explore.
#like i myself have made the Get Along Shirt jokes and i do think theyre funny but if you are talking about them Seriously as characters#its actually such a sad situation for both to be in#but as a fandom i think Lucanis gets the short end of the stick about it more than he should yknow#god anyway i wish we got more of This in the game but alas and not gonna think/complain about that here rn#anyway like. the parallels between Spite taking control and Zara (+Illario) using blood magic to control his body. do you see them.#poor sad man. of course i had to imprint on him.#lucanis#lucanis dellamorte#spite dellamorte#spite#dragon age#dragon age: veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard#datv spoilers#da4 spoilers#lucanisposting#this isnt even my Big spite thoughts/post. thats still my drafts bc its WAY TOO LONG#this was what i thought was gonna be a 3 sentence light comment yet Here We Are#ramblings#jade plays dav
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So people have been really loving the idea of Alice and Jen together. Their ship name is Blood Potions, which I think is the cutest.
Wait, what? [Yeah, it's the best] I need to look at the internet more. This is amazing. Okay.
Obviously, Alice met an untimely demise, but if she hadn't, could you see a future between the two of them?
#Ali Ahn#paleyfest#aaaedit#agathaallalongedit#aliahnedit#BloodPotions#Blood Potions#Alice x Jen#Agatha All Along#Alice Wu-Gulliver#Jennifer Kale#myedit#Ali's last comment had me like: 😳😂😏😏#i definitely have shipped them for so long but had no idea their ship name is Blood Potions! that's awesome#i love Alice so much 🥹🥹
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started playing oot but couldn't stop thinking about la so here's ww :) it makes sense 👍
#finally starting to experience this infamous loz brainrot... I wanna play all of them I'm having so much fun....#tloz#wind waker#link#aryll#do I tag grandma ??#link's grandma#as Im slooowly getting back into drawing I'm having the issue that the Way I have fun doesn't align with the end results I like...#I haven't drawn in so long I Gotta prioritise having fun over results or I'll never get properly back into it though...#and I'll probably learn smth new along the way !! like how fun new brushes are !!!#my art
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Here's my controversial opinion; if you're trying to write Bruce as a non-abusive, good parent, you should also write him respecting his kids' privacy, boundaries, and not stalking&surveying them.
#my dc posting#dc#batfamily#batman#bruce wayne#dick grayson#jason todd#tim drake#damian wayne#looking thru ur kids phone tracking them giving them no privacy etc etc is deeply damaging#but yall aint ready for the ''stalking is their love language' is super toxic' conversation </3#also can we retire the JL being completely chill about it. 'batman just knows things' not being bothered their secret identities were found#out etc can we. stop coddling the batfam#i just need someone anytime to please just call them out like 'hey dont fucking surveil me' like that is actually extremely unethical#and its frankly not hard to write a batman who doesnt invade his kids privacy n boundaries etc#controversially when reading fic where theyre supposed to be healthy n getting along i want to actually feel like its deserved n good for t#hem#instead of sitting there going 'woo thats toxic' 'oh that even worse' 'why are we passing over all that'. like i dont wanna be thinkin they#should go no-contact when its supposed to be fuffy n good :(#like if you can write away the hitting n other abuse why is this the one thing that just must always stay#like genuinely it aint hard to write a parent not stalking their children. actually maybe i should remind you all that stalking is not good#or funny#like i feel like w all the joking some of us are actually forgetting its not good. ever. like absolutely never dont stalk ppl#eh idk. this is why i cant stay in any one fandom too long bc i start developing Opinions which inevitably make me hostile to like#90% of the fandom's content 😔
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So I’m watching Ros’ pov and I’m taking notes because tr!Ros’ mindset interests me and I just want to point out a few things.
(Bad and Ros are my main realm povs btw, I have watched almost every single one of both of their streams, but Bad moreso than Ros. The following is about tr!characters obviously)
(THIS IS KIND OF LONG)
So Ros tells Pangi and Aimsey what happened with Sneeg and Lukey. She clearly doesn’t want to, she tries to avoid saying it. When she finally admits it, she severely downplays it - she describes it as Sneeg “tapping” Lukey on the head. She tries to make it seem like it’s not a big deal. She says that Foolish resolved the situation and that everything is fine. Neither of these things is correct, but that doesn’t necessarily mean she’s trying to deceive. She’s downplaying it for Pangi’s sake, and Bad used an advanced wartime technique known as lying to convince Foolish he had prevented war when he’d actually made everything worse - Foolish passed that mistaken belief onto Ros.
Pangi, and then later Ros, and then later twitter, immediately draw a parallel between this incident and Pangi killing Pili which happened the day before. Pangi is the first one to make the connection and it’s because he’s trying to be understanding. He’s trying not to get angry, he’s reminding himself that he hurt Ros in much the same way.
But there’s a difference in how Ros handled it versus how Pangi handled it. Pangi did not try to downplay his actions nearly as much as Ros does - he admits to killing Pili, he says he isn’t trying to justify his actions (he brings up Pili’s behavior towards him as his motivation but he doesn’t try and make the argument that yellow faction shouldn’t be upset by it) and he says he is sincerely sorry for putting Ros in a difficult position. Ros also apologizes, and I think this is where Ros (and twitter) is having a misunderstanding:
Pangi is obviously upset that Ros and Sneeg tried to kill Lukey, but him bringing up Pili proves that he understands he did the same and is trying to take that into account because he cares about Ros. Ros thinks it’s unfair - why can he can attack Pili but she can’t attack Lukey? But listening to the conversation, Pangi seems to be more upset because he thinks Ros is purposefully misleading him about the situation. She says Sneeg only delivered a warning which purposefully didn’t do lethal damage, and then Lukey (more accurately) tells him that no, it definitely could’ve killed him, Sneeg just missed - and Bad later confirms this (Lukey calls Sneeg incompetent for missing by the way, which is funny). I don’t think Ros is purposefully misleading him, though, I think it’s a combination of her not remembering the event perfectly and her clinging to any explanation that will put her faction in the best light possible, even if that explanation is shaky at best.
She also complains to Aimsey, after Aimsey (correctly) points out that Ros killing people will, in fact, lead to them disliking her. She responds by saying she only does it “once in a while” and that “there are people more evil and more full of hatred than her”
This is interesting because it’s… not actually a response to Aimsey’s statement. The argument here is… what? That Ros personally believes she is not evil and therefore Lukey and Pangi don’t have the right to hold her actions against her? That if someone kills for a reason that is ‘righteous’ (I’m coming back to this later), and if they do it less frequently than someone who kills for unrighteous reasons, that it’s different? Are they not both murderers? Ros evidently believes she deserves leeway in this category, from Pangi and Lukey anyway.
And the way she brings up this concept of people “more evil than her” in response to being told to accept that murdering people will stir up resentment. She is right, there are people more “evil” by most people’s definition of the word. People like Bad, who Ros seemingly implies Lukey is wrong not to hate more than her. But… Ros doesn’t hate Bad either. She is actually pretty unique in that respect, with the way she has always treated Bad with respect and kindness even as his kill count rose. She hates Owen, of course, but Owen has not caused nearly the same amount of damage that Bad has - to yellow faction or to the realm in general. Owen’s largest crime so far, that Ros is aware of, is that he’s been absolutely horrid to her. That’s not good, obviously, but if this was really about morality, if this was really about who’s evil and who’s good - then Ros should by all accounts be ranking Bad lower than Owen, and definitely lower than Lukey. Except Bad is her friend. Her friend that she calls evil and thinks deserves to die. But still, somehow, her friend?
So I think that’s where this interesting dissonance is coming in. Ros thinks of herself as good, of her actions as righteous. She wants the freedom to be “a little silly” and “hateful and evil, for once” like other murderers on the server are, but she doesn’t want to align with the ideology that allows them to behave that way so freely. She thinks of herself as separate from that nebulous, undefined Evil, which she and her faction are strictly Not. Except when they want to be, then it’s okay and everyone should accept it. Because at least they’re not Evil all the time. In Ros’ opinion, anyway.
Ros’ moral compass is tearing her apart, spinning in all different directions, pulled by a million different motivations - some of which crumble to stress and overwhelm under scrutiny. She has named the compass ‘Righteous’ and wherever it points must be the right direction. If Bad kills people (even yellow faction!) he is still a friend, but if Owen is cruel to her specifically he is not a friend, and he is worse than Bad the serial killer. Slowly, her compass breaks away from this ‘objective’ morality that she tried so hard to follow in the past, but she cannot bear the mental strain of this realization and so she ignores it. But even if she ignores it, others do not, so what is Ros to do? The yellow faction might reinforce her beliefs, but Owen is the one who claimed befriending people from outside factions is wrong and harmful, and he is Evil. So she reaches out to others, but they look at her compass’ name and they ask “are you sure?” and they don’t realize it will break her to realize she isn’t.
#the realm smp#trsmp#SORRY THIS IS LONG#ITS ALSO LATE AND I DONT KNOW IF IT MAKES ANY SENSE#I JUST LOVE TR!ROS A LOT#anyway I was gonna add another whole paragraph about her convos with tr!bad#and how the reason they’ve been able to get along is because tr!bad didn’t exhibit a lot of loyalty to his faction#and so was able to act as an almost-factionless figure that tr!Ros could vent to and confide in#as long as foolish wasn’t the subject#but now that tr!Bad’s faction has grown he’s taken on more responsibility and more pride in them#and he’s less willing to play pretend that he’s not truly green#and he’s less willing to allow tr!Ros’ venting and beliefs to go unchallenged#might put it all in a post later instead of here in the tags#but for now they stay
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