#also on the english mixing up thing that's so real... i actually notice it more when people speak/write taglish bc they adapt the

[apopcornkernel]

since you're so interested in filipino language, does it follow the structure of [subject + verb + object + extension] like english or does it break that structure? in bangla, we have the [subject+ verb + object + extension] but we also break that structure so basically we can have [subject + object + verb]. for example, we can use both "ami take dekhte chaina" which roughly translated is "i her don't want to see" based on how the sentence is structured. this is why i have such a hard time trying to follow the english structure of subject-verb-object and sometimes end up mixing both structures

to use your same example, the tagalog equivalent would be "ayaw ko siyang makita" or "ayaw kong makita siya" = i don't want to see them.

ayaw ko siyang makita: don't want (modifier) - my (subject) - them (object) - see (verb)

ayaw kong makita siya: don't want (modifier) - my (subject) - see (verb) - them (object)

the -ng suffix, which basically means that it's modifying, is shifted around according to the sequence of words ^^ it's kinda hard to explain in text sorry and im already super offtrack 😭

honestly, I'm not very equipped to discuss tagalog conjugation, because 1) my first and best language is english, and 2) it's so complex 😭 once saw a white guy discussing it here actually, its all in english!! ↓

so back to your original question: does tagalog follow the structure of [subject + verb + object + extension] like in english?

my answer would be a yes, with caveat, because it's possible for a tagalog sentence to fall into this structure BUT there are many ways to structure a sentence in the first place

for your sample sentence of "i don't want to see her", i can't think of an un-nonsense way to fit it into that structure 😭 ayaw ko siyang makita/ayaw kong makita siya is the most natural way to say it imo. "ako ay (I am) ayaw (dont want) makita (see) siya (them)" sounds so weird

but hey, i could be wrong—disclaimer again, this is my 2nd language and not my 1st sgjdmfjf

i also struggle answering your question because it's kinda broad hsjdhdnd if you want a follow up maybe a more specific one would be easier 😓 unfortunately i wasnt able to pursue linguistics so i lack a lot of technical knowledge and terms which might have made this easier for us both huhu </3

[eu-nicola]

Jude Bellingham x barca femi player enemies to loversss !!! Omfg the potential ! Angry fans and a surprise pregnancy to the mix. Also was the single mom anon. Your writing was very good and your english was perfect !! Lots of love and well wishes 💜💜

Jude Bellingham x Reader

sorry english isn’t my first language

I didn't correct it so I apologize for the mistakes

I don't know if it was what you wanted but I liked it

enjoy it

They had taught you to hate Real Madrid since you knew it and it was always like that and it was always going to be like that, the rivalry you had with each person from that club was bigger than anything.

You had even fight with your friends over that, so it was a subject they didn’t talk about and even less when you started playing for Barça.

It was your dream come true to have played since you were little for the club you always loved and now the fact of being able to play in the first division was coming true, and actually after this it was two years since you came up and it really was the best two years of your life without any single injury or even serious pain, you were at the top until what happened and after what seemed like a long and heavy season for you were injured, full of setbacks, although the good side of this is that vacations were coming up where you planned to recover one hundred percent to start as best you should.

You and your family had decided to travel to England for your recovery and private training which was approved by your club so you were more than happy to travel. The first weeks they made sure that you did not do anything that could harm you and you were with practically all the doctors at your disposal as your family wanted and after a thousand things to do, you could finally start training.

Your own coach gave you the idea that it would be a good idea for you to go out one night to clear your head without having to go to a club, but you had no better idea than to go to one because you wanted to know what the clubs were like in England, especially in Birmingham, so You asked your older brother to accompany you and obviously he was not going to say no to an outing.

They had told you about a good club, in fact the best club they told you, but you certainly didn't remember the name and you didn't really care, you just wanted to go out and see what you would find. When you arrived it didn't seem like a big deal but as the night went on you changed your mind, the atmosphere had become different and the people seemed more fun and you even saw a few players from the English team but nothing special.

When you began to feel a little dizzy, you decided to go to the bathroom under the gaze of your brother from afar all the time in case something happened to you, while you were walking to the bathroom you did not notice that a boy was walking just as fast as you with whom you collided and As soon as you saw him, you realized who Jude Bellingham was, the new Real player, he tried to stop you and apologize but you ignored him and continued on your way, after a while you thought you had lost him but not really, the idiot had waited outside the bathroom.

"I was just apologizing, it wasn't a big deal." He told you as soon as you came out of the bathroom. "If you knew that it is a psychopath to wait for a woman outside the bathroom in a club."

"Are you always like this?" "As well as?".

"A bitch with people." He surprised you that he called you that and even he seemed to you the most unpleasant man at that moment and many would believe that you would be exaggerating but not for you. “Yes, when they are Madridistas rats”. You responded by trying to leave.

"And who are you to call me that?" You were angry at that point but you didn't care about someone you didn't plan to see again.

When you got back to your brother you didn't feel like staying there anymore so you told him it was time to go and he agreed after a boring night at his house with no woman to bring home. After that night you had to get up early and continue with your training, you didn't have time to check your cell phone and even less see what was being talked about, when you finally finished you could finally see that someone on twitter was talking about the discussion you had with Jude.

Your own coach gave you the idea that it would be a good idea for you to go out one night to clear your head without having to go to a club, but you couldn’t think of a better idea than to go to one because you wanted to know what the clubs were like in England, especially . in Birmingham, so you asked your older brother to come with you and he obviously wasn’t going to say no to a date.

They had told you about a good club, in fact the best club they told you, but you probably didn’t remember the name and didn’t really care, you just wanted to go out and see what you could find. When you arrived it didn’t look like much but as the night went on you changed your mind, the atmosphere had become different and the people seemed more fun and you even saw some players from the English team but nothing special.

When you started to feel a little dizzy, you decided to go to the bathroom under the eyes of your brother from afar all the time in case something happened to you, while you were walking to the bathroom you didn’t notice that a boy was walking. just as fast as you with whom you collided and as soon as you saw him you realized who Jude Bellingham was, the new Real player, he tried to stop you and apologize but you ignored him and continued on your way, after a while you thought you had lost him but no Really, the idiot had waited outside the bathroom.

“I was just apologizing, it wasn’t a big deal.” He told you as soon as you came out of the bathroom. “If you only knew it’s a psycho to wait for a woman outside a bathroom in a club.”

“You are always like that?” “As well as?”.

“A bitch with people.” You were surprised that he called you that and even he seemed to you the most unpleasant man at that moment and many would believe that you would be exaggerating but not for you. “Yes, when they are Madrid rats.” You responded by trying to leave.

“And who are you to call me that?” You were angry at the time but you didn’t care about someone you didn’t plan to see again.

When you got back to your brother you didn’t feel like staying there anymore, so you told him it was time to go and he agreed after a boring night at his house with no woman to take. After that night you had to get up early and continue your training, you didn’t have time to check your cell phone and even less see what was being talked about, when you finally finished you could finally see that someone on twitter was talking about the argument you had with Jude.

"Are you stupid?" Your father asked as he entered the kitchen where you were having breakfast.

"What's going on?". "People saw you in a club fighting with a Madridista, he is not a good image for us and you know it."

“Yeah I know but how was I supposed to know they were going to see me argue, you were far from people so the ones who saw us are definitely nosy bitches.”

"This is nothing but I don't want to be seen with someone from Madrid again, do you understand?" At this point you had already tired of hating the madridistas just because your family said so, you didn't even care about them, the only thing for you was barça and the national team.

"Yes father":

After that little incident you didn't hear from him again and it was fine with you you didn't want to know anything else. At the end of the holidays you were already recovered, although you still couldn't play for your safety, they kept you on the bench for three games until everyone was one hundred percent sure that you would not get injured again and that's how it was, you came back better than ever and wanting to scoring goals in each of the matches, you felt at your best again.

For a few weeks you noticed on social networks that the event that had happened a while ago with Jude was not completely forgotten, there were people who were on your side and others on his side, although no one knows what the true conversation you had with him was. He, about 3 months had passed until you saw him again but this time he was in Barcelona for a match against Barça that you were planning to attend, you made sure to sit in a place where everything looked perfect and what better than to be forward with the other fans.

As it had always been a match with a lot of spark between the players and more so when Jude intentionally kicked one of our players, there everyone came out in defense which ended in Jude's expulsion immediately for making such a mess, at the end of the game. game Barça had won 3-0.

And from your place you saw Madrid leave sad because of his defeat, but your attention was focused especially on Jude, who was his first loss with his new team, so he was certainly more discouraged than the others. Before everyone finished passing you left the place and forgot about him.

It was July 10 and it was your 20th birthday so you decided to go out to celebrate with your friends at a club near where you lived, during the day you had spent it with your family and friends but at night things had to get better and You wanted to go out and celebrate like you haven't done in a long time. It was already like 3 am and while you were dancing in the distance you could see that Jude was in the same place, he was sitting with a girl on his legs while they were kissing you were watching him for a while at the same time you were dancing so that no one would notice when Your friend caught your attention and you stopped looking at them.

You didn't know how much time had passed but suddenly you felt a hand on your hip as you were about to hit the person who had touched you and before you could even do it he stopped you and pulled you closer to him and maybe it was The first time you didn't know what to say so you just glared at him and jerked out of his grip, at that moment you didn't see him but he laughed at you for the silly way you were acting so he followed you again and before you could escape he took your arm again to attract you.

"Let go". "You are always like that?".

"He's fucking with me right? You already asked that question once but at least you were sober." You spit in his face. "And you're still the same...".

"Of what? Say it, let's go." You wanted to slap him in the face for being as stupid as all the men on earth, I took you out of your thoughts when he pounced like that and kissed you by the nape of the neck so that you couldn't separate and even if you could, you wouldn't have done it after seeing how good his lips felt on yours.

When he finally released you neither of them said anything but they got away from there as fast as they could and he took you to the house where he was staying, at first you hesitated to stay there with him but as soon as they arrived and he kissed you again all the doubts or coherences that you might have had had vanished in the fastest way.

That night he took you in all the possible ways he could have done and you liked every moment, the way he admired you or how he smiled when he heard you say his name also the way he touched you making you feel in the clouds . In the morning you left very early before he woke up trying to forget every detail of a night that you knew would be impossible for you, even if it was something.

When you got back home you went back to bed until you woke up at 10 am because your phone kept ringing with instagram messages from Jude and thousands of twitter notifications tagging you and him too.

“Oh god, why always me?”.

After that you didn't answer again and you continued with your business waiting for your father to kill you, so something that almost happened appeared on the internet. Your father's way of being was well known and how demanding he was with you, do you remember the first time you talked about your family in an interview and a few minutes later the social networks were flooded with comments about your family that you were not interested in? , there were many who had supported your father because thanks to that you were always a winner and many others criticized him for his actions but despite everything you loved him and thanks to that you were who you were.

You and Jude didn't see each other again and the fans seemed to have calmed down at times but they always came out again when they uploaded photos of him with a woman tagging you or talking about you as if they had been a couple at some point. Your life continued as normal, your training for you was more and more demanding by order of your father and your body and mind demanded more each day. In the first days of August you felt worse and worse but that did not prevent you from giving your maximum in your training sessions and in the matches until your body gave no more and in one of the matches they collided with you and that was what overflowed the drop of the glass of water.

That was the last thing you remembered and when you opened your eyes again you were in the hospital with your mother next to you asleep in a chair you barely tried to get up your mother felt your movement and quickly approached you to hug you and ask how you were doing. which you still couldn't answer because you were so confused.

"What happened?". You asked. "Oh my baby."

You said your mother to hug you but trying not to hurt you.

“Is everything okay mom?” Your mother looked at you for a moment before answering but first she took your hand and at this point you were worried about what she might say.

“The doctors have told me that everything is fine but…”. “What’s up mom please.”

“You are pregnant”. You were in shock, you even almost fainted again, there were a thousand and one thoughts going through your head and you didn’t know which one to listen to, you didn’t even listen to what your mother was telling you and not even if your father already knew the news.

“Daddy know?” “Yes and he is very disappointed but he doesn’t want to talk about it.”

After that you asked your mother for some time to rest and think about what was happening to you, you were still too young to have a baby and you were also at the peak of your career to give up now you didn’t really know what you wanted . to do but first of all you had to talk to Jude because this was something that involved both of them.

Your father hadn’t spoken to you since the hospital and you knew he was going to stay that way until he got over it but in the meantime you had bigger problems like talking to Jude.

As he said he went to look for you and at all times he tried to start a conversation with you but you barely said a couple of words during the trip, when they arrived at his house he helped you to lower your bag and get comfortable in his house but the nerves were growing worse so while he was in his kitchen looking for a glass of water you just said it.

“I’m pregnant and it’s yours.” Never in your life had you said something so fast and this shocked him, he stood still for a moment without even saying anything until you decided to approach him. “Can you say something?”.

“You’re sure?”. He asked and you didn’t know if he was asking if he was the father or if you were sure you were pregnant so you just said yes.

He didn’t say anything to you and he took you in his arms to get up and start turning you around with a smile on his face. “OH GOD I’M GOING TO BE A FATHER.” He was screaming so you knew he was very happy about the news.

“Are you happy?”. “Of course I’m happy there’s going to be a mini me.”

“Unfortunately”. You told him making a joke. “Because I hope he looks like me.”

“What will happen to your career?” He asked you something you hadn’t thought about. “I still don’t know what I do know is that I want the baby and if it is necessary to postpone my career for a while, I will.”

“Are you sure? I don’t want you to throw everything away for me.” “I’m not doing it for you, I’m doing it because this is partly something I always wanted and they never let me even think about it.”

“Because?”. tea asked as he hugged you. “My father always saw a star in me and the children could not interrupt my path so I could not even think about starting a family.”

“But now you’re going to have one and with one of the people he hates the most, poor man with everything he’s going to have to process.” Jude said as he laughed at his comment.

“Do you think people are going to get mad?” Asked.

“Maybe but it doesn’t matter, they are not going to raise the child.”

“Of course not”.

That same night you stayed at his hou se and a short time later you announced on Instagram that you were going to stop playing soccer, to which everyone will be surprised and nobody knew why you had made that decision, so for several months of hiding and not showing up. In public, the speculation had been enormous everywhere and when you turned 7 months pregnant you thought it was time to tell the news.

You were expecting a man with the man least thought of by all, many were moved and many others were upset by the news after that you felt a weight less and you did not care what you thought because you were fine with your life and with your family and the most important you were okay with Jude.

[bleachbleachbleach]

Helloooo love your meta posts esp wrt to language so much!! It really has elevated my appreciation for the series by A LOT lol so thank you!

I have a question regarding ch 98 that's been bugging me incessantly: in the official translatjon renji says "all i do is bark at the moon", however in fan translations (and anime) renji is seen to be referring to a star. I am unable to find the raws anywhere to ascertain the finality of this conundrum so I was wondering if you could clarify what exactly is the 'object' renji is referring to here and lend us your thoughts?

Thank you for reading! I started this reread because I knew that the potential to really revel in this kind of stuff was already there, but I am really enjoying jumping into it full-on and wondering about and learning about a lot of extremely random things as I go. I'm really enjoying it!

[Bleach 098]

The Short Version

In the Japanese, Renji says, 星に向かって吠えるばっか ― which could be translated as "I’m just barking at the stars." 

The word he uses is 星 (hoshi), star, not moon. My guess is that the Viz chose "moon" because it’s more idiomatic in English to howl at the moon, and the phrase conveys that sense of lone wolf yearning/misdirection--particularly given that he’s talking about Rukia, and Rukia already has some moon imagery associated with her.

The catch is, the concept of "howling at the moon" also exists in Japanese; for example, there’s a famous modern poet named Hagiwara Sakutarou who wrote a collection titled 月に吠える、or, well, "Howling at the Moon." (You’ll notice the same verb, but 月 (tsuki/moon) instead of 星 (hoshi/star). But that's not what Renji says. I’d argue that it’s worth considering the idea that Renji was making a choice in not using that idiom! 

The Very Long Version

Stars and Moons and Monkeys and Tigers and Snakes and Dogs and-- oh my!

Tomes have been written about celestial symbolism, in Bleach and otherwise. I’m not a big celestial symbolism person, because they’re such BIG symbols I feel like sometimes they can feel very locked in, if that makes sense? Like X = moon and moon = Y and therefore X = Y. And while I love an extended metaphor, my preference is for very unstable, borderline sloppy referents. Which isn’t to say that celestial symbolism can’t be unstable and sloppy, too, and that’s what I really like about this whole Renji section. Renji is the KING of "imagistically, there is a lot going on here, my man."

As far as folklore is concerned, reaching for the moon might call to mind the story of the monkey reaching for the moon’s reflection:

The branch the monkey’s hanging from breaks and he falls into the water. His folly lies in failing to distinguish between what is real and what is illusion.

One one hand, this is fitting for Renji, our resident howler monkey. I don’t know how much baboon we’ve actually seen at this point, but we’ll see Zabimaru’s nue form very shortly. But of course Zabimaru isn’t just a monkey—he also has the head of a snake. And we have this dog imagery, coming from both Renji’s affiliation with Inuzuri and other body parts in some versions of the nue. And later we’ll have TIGER in the mix, too!!

There’s SO much going on. If Renji were a Project Runway creation, Tim Gunn would probably invite his creator edit—maybe choose one motif, one metaphor, one guy who will scan well on the runway.

But Renji exists in excess, he IS all those things, both in terms of his chimerical zanpakutou spirit and in terms of everything we’ve seen of him thus far: tearing through Ishida and Ichigo; herding butterflies with Rikichi; stunting with Rukia in jail; delivering Rukia to prison; getting stunted on by Aizen in a supply closet; being friends with Hinamori; tearing through Ichigo a second time; and now, finally, giving it all up and begging Ichigo: Just save her.

Bone Metaphors

The reader hasn’t seen it yet, but Renji knows what form Zabimaru’s bankai takes. In addition to all those animals and their potential allegories, we also have bone. In Renji's earlier line, there’s an idiom that I wish were preserved:

In the Viz, he says, "I’ll always be a stray dog." In the Japanese, his line is 「骨の髄まで野良犬根性が染み付いてやがるんだ.」Which could be translated as "I am, indelibly, a stray dog to the marrow of my bones /contemptuously." Or, more succinctly:

"I’m a stray dog to the bone."

I love this line because it’s reaching toward Renji’s challenge to Byakuya, insinuating still more layers to Renji’s multitudes.

Different Flavors of Disgust

Still thinking about Renji’s second act in this arc, I am also interested in his subsequent line. He says 厭になるぜ (iya ni naruze), or, in the Viz, "It makes me sick." But I was curious about the kanji 厭 (iya), because it’s more commonly written 嫌 (iya), which can be used as a negative interjection, or, pronounced differently, as the same word you’d use if you hated snails, or homework, or something―嫌い (kirai). Using the kanji 厭 is a less common spelling, though the meaning is similar. So I was like, well, what is the difference? According to this article, the kanji Renji uses is a lot more common in Chinese. If 嫌 is an expression of digust or hatred, 厭 suggests that you’ve specifically gotten tired of something (and are now disgusted with it). It’s the kanji you’d use to create the word for a pessimistic worldview, 厭世観 (enseikan). That is all to say, Renji has become sick and tired of it, and he’s about to change tack.

Failing Poetry 101

Coming back around to the original line, I really like Renji’s "I’m just barking at the stars" specifically because it doesn’t really reference any existing idiom, as might howling at the moon. "Barking at the moon" is an interesting middle ground, in that "barking" definitely feels more dog-like and howling more wolf-like; barking is less majestic, which fits with Renji’s description being derogatory of himself. Renji is not a poet in his use of loaded idioms but in his negation of them. And if Rukia can be described by moon imagery, she too contains multitudes and I think it's well within her power to be the stars, too.

Kira, as Renji’s most poetic friend, probably rolls partway into his grave whenever Renji says stuff like this, because it breaks poetic form. But I think he’s probably also kind of envious that Renji thinks this stuff up, because it’s fresh, new, off-kilter imagery, it is its own kind of poetry, and let's be real, the moon imagery market is fairly saturated. *frames moon with giant rebar hole in body*

So I’d say, "howling at the moon" conjures a certain kind of poetry, steeped in all the macro-folkloric meanings of the moon and dogs/wolves. "Barking at the moon" is kind of half-half. "Barking at the stars" is not a pre-existing idiom (or poem, or expected language), and conjures a completely different referent(s), the immediate of which is, of course, the volume’s own poem. Renji is out here Renji-ing it.

[Bleach Vol. 11 poem]

[zoeykallus]

As always, your writing is one of my favourites! Hope you're also taking care of yourself 😘

So, I was re-reading the HC of the reader giving their batchers a massage (so far, one of my favourites ❤️). Can you do it the other way around? The batchers giving their Cyare a massage? (Can be GN or fen, whichever you feel like writing!)

(Sorry for my english, its not my 1° nor 2° language!)

Aloha! Thank you, dear! Love to read that! 😀

Oh yeah, I remember that one, one of my older, Spicy HCs. It's just fair to turn the tables for once, right? Also: Sorry for the wait!

The Bad Batch x Fem!Reader HCs - Relaxing You

Warning: Partly Strongly Suggestive/Nudity/ Partly Sexual Content/ 18+/Fluff

Hunter

He loves to massage you, and he's damn good at it, too. Hunter likes to focus on your thighs and lower back area. Of course, he wants you to get undressed and comfortable.

Hunter doesn't miss the chance to pay some attention to your rear end as well, while massaging your lower back area he places a few kisses on your buns, soft and long, letting his lips glide over them.

When his hands reach your thighs, he takes his time. Hunter lets his skillful fingers, massage and slide, a delightful mix of massage and caress. He knows you're already warm and that you're moving from relaxation to arousal, he's already noticed.

As his fingers continue to work their way to the insides of your thighs, they get closer and closer to your pleasure center. But only barely at first, yet you feel it begin to pulsate in the heating triangle between your thighs in joyful anticipation.

Finally, his fingers ghostly move further up until they touch your moist folds and playfully, gently roam them.

With a smile, he hears the little sighs, the soft moans that his touches trigger.

"It's been a hard week for my good girl," he croons, "time to relax a little and give yourself some pleasure, don't you think?"

"Oh, absolutely," you moan softly, "I'm all yours."

Echo

He has only one hand, but he is very skilled with it. He likes to massage your neck and shoulders. Of course, Echo doesn't miss the chance to kiss your neck and your auricle while he massages you.

He has snuggled up to you from behind in a sitting position so that he can touch your neck and shoulder not only with his hand but also with his lips. Echo grabs neatly to loosen knots and tensions, but he is also very gentle and cuddly.

Echo doesn't give you half-hearted massages, he takes care of the muscles, but he also lovingly gives out caresses. Under his caring hand, you will quickly feel weightless and relaxed.

"Am I doing good for you, Cyare?"

"Mmm," you hum in agreement, closing your eyes and enjoying his touch.

Every time you're this close, Echo silently wishes he had a second hand, wanting to touch more of you, to do you more good. But that remains a silent wish. He will never have a real second hand again. But you don't mind at all, this one hand is very skillful, very loving and tender.

At a certain point, it's more kisses than massaging touches, and you feel his hard length pressing against your back as he nestles closer to you.

Echo is very easily aroused by you, seeing you naked is often enough and sitting so nestled against you and touching your warm skin, even more so.

"I'm sorry, Mesh'la," he apologizes quietly for his obvious arousal, "You know I can't resist you."

"Don't apologize for that, Echo, just love me, dear".

Wrecker

The first time, you might be a little nervous. You know how incredibly strong Wrecker is, but actually you also know that he can be very gentle, and he proves that to you.

His big, strong hands are very skillful and careful when he touches you. Back and shoulders are kneaded by him downright expertly. You lie stretched out in front of him on the bed, and he takes his time to take care of your tense muscles.

"We'll have you completely relaxed in no time, mesh'la," he assures you cheerfully.

There are few things he likes better than pampering you or being pampered by you. So whenever you have time, one thing or another will happen, usually Wrecker takes the initiative.

His hands are gentle, but you still feel the power behind it, and it's an exciting feeling. This strength, combined with his lively, gentle nature, will make you feel the famous butterflies in your stomach over and over again.

He is not afraid to surprise you with a tickle attack or to cover your back with kisses and leave hickeys on your neck.

It's not uncommon for his sweet little silliness, rolling around in the sheets with you laughing, to lead to more intimate moments that you both enjoy to the fullest.

Tech

Theoretically, he can massage anything, he has dexterous fingers and knows more about the human physique than most trained doctors. So whenever you are tense or need general relaxation, just tell him. Shoulders, feet, neck, calves, thighs, hands; whatever you need, you just have to tell him.

It doesn't matter which area of your body you choose to be massaged by him, Tech will gladly take care of it and of course tell you a lot of things about the properties of the respective area.

It's enough if you hum in between, he doesn't expect you to really talk to him, that would be rather counterproductive to the attempt to fully relax.

Tech is patient, he can do this for some time. However, he will eventually ask you, "Are you more relaxed by now? Your muscles certainly don't feel hardened anymore."

With a sigh, you say quietly, "Yes, but it feels so good. Do we really have to stop?"

A small smirk appears on Tech's face as you look over your shoulder to look at him.

"Seems like I might be a little too good at massaging," he teases you.

His eyes wander over your naked body, it seems like he's just now really noticing that you're naked. His brows slowly move upwards.

He clears his throat and says innocently, "We, um, could cuddle".

Slowly, a smile spreads across your lips.

"Cuddle, huh? Sounds good, come here my genius"

Tech lays down with you and wraps his arms around you, pulling you close to him.

Close to your ear, he asks softly, "Can you call me that again?"

"Genius?"

He shivers softly, letting out a shaky breath.

"Yes, that's it. Can you call me that when you and I make love?"

You hook your leg around his waist and press closer.

"I'd love to."

Crosshair

His expertise lies with hands and feet. Especially with hands, he knows the most effective pressure points and massage strokes, even one-handed. Crosshair's hands often cramp up after a long day with the sniper rifle on the lookout. At some point, he asked Tech to find him information on how to get rid of the cramps.

You don't really have to ask him for a massage, as soon as you are alone and have some quiet time, he grabs your feet or hands, usually while you are watching a holo movie, and starts massaging. It's part of his love language, once he feels comfortable with you, these moments happen more and more often.

You don't really have to ask him for a massage, as soon as you are alone and have some quiet time, he grabs your feet or hands, usually while you are watching a holo movie, and starts massaging. It's part of his love language, once he gets comfortable with you, these moments happen more and more.

In general, Crosshair is very physical, but not just in a sexual way. He may not be a big cuddler, but small signs of affection like said massages are part of it too. But he also knows all the pressure points and sensitive spots, on hands and feet, that make you wax in his hands and ready for anything.

Crosshair enjoys this power over you. Of course, he never uses it against your will. However, he enjoys very well, if he can transport you with a few simple touches to paradise.

He's doing it again, you're watching a movie, your feet are in his lap and his hands are busy as you feel him teasing that tingle out of your soles. As you look at him, there's a small, cheeky smirk on his lips.

Another squeeze and you feel the tingling from your soles travel up your legs to your center. For a small moment, you hold your breath.

"Relax, keep breathing, Kitten, sit back and enjoy," he says purring, knowing full well what he's triggering in you.

Ko-Fi (If you feel like giving me some coffee)

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[quitealotofsodapop]

Monkey King: Hero is Back Au/Sequel details:

Old post of ideas and theories - made before I experienced the game.

May name the au and/or fic "Hero Rebound" as a ref to the ship nam eof Dasheng and his LEM.

Mixing some elements found in the video game as the added lore is cool af but a bit messy. Also the old man that raised Liuer deserves recognition.

Putting characters under Read More:

Major Characters:

Dasheng/Sun Wukong/"The Great Sage Equal to Heaven":

Going by the prequel concept poster; Was born/hatched looking like a coconut macaroon.

Secretly a herbalism/medical nerd. In the games he keeps a little guide of the medicinal plants and materials he finds.

Babysat a lot on Huaguo. In the english dub he even seems to default to asking if Liuer needs a babysitter.

Instincts take over a lot. Will pull the kids towards him and groom fur thats not even there.

Is tramatized by his experience in the Trigram Furnace.

Desperately wishes to find Erlang Shen so he can kick his ass.

Tries to play it cool; but Liuer's death actually tramatized him. He fears losing him again.

Don't touch Liuer or Silly Girl. Those are his babies now. He will kill you.

Zhanshi/Six Earred Macaque/Liu er Mihou/"Great Sage Informing Wind":

An oc/JTTW character variation; Was a member of the Brotherhood of Sages during her and Dasheng's youth. The LMK OC Picrew was used to create a rough image of her.

Sweetest ray of bustling sunshine compared to her gloomier mate. Will still kill any being that dares touch one of her subjects.

Severely injured during the Burning on Mount Huaguo - permanetly damaging her right eye and ears. Dasheng had assumed she'd died during the battle after he was tossed into the Furnace.

Honorary grandma to the little monkeys of Mount Huaguo. Helped raise many of them after the Burning while their parents foraged and worked the land.

Finds a weird Stone Egg that crashed down after the solar eclipse. Now everyone seems to want the dang thing. Realised what the egg truly was when she heard the flutters of a heartbeat from within.

First time Liuer accidentally called her "Mama", Zhanshi cried for two hours.

Pls do not touch the baby monkeys. She will bite. And crush.

Jiang Liuer/"Tripitaka"/Current Incarnation of Golden Cicada:

Died during the battle with Hundun - but Dasheng basically smashed down the doors of the Celestial Realm and begged the gods/bodhisattvas to bring his biy back.

Is bedbound and near comatose for 49 days as his body and soul heals.

Dasheng sacrificed his powers, freedom, and some of his dao/life energy for Liuer's revival. Liuer may or may not be part-stone monkey now.

Liuer doesn't know what happened to his parents. He assumed he was abandoned. His time in Diyu-Limbo clears this assumption up - learning that his parents died protecting him from mountain trolls/yao that wanted him for his delicious holy soul.

Can be a feral little guy at times. He was raised by a hermit after all.

Calls Fa Ming "granddad" in the english dub, so it's possible he just assumes Fa Ming is his granddad.

Is desperate for a mother figure.

Sha Ya Tou/"Silly Girl"/"A-nan":

A very cheerful baby despite her situation.

Is not 100% human.

Hundun specifically needed her for the ritual.

First word ends up being "Bima!" (horse) after someone mentioned "Bimawen".

Zhu Bajie/"Uncle Pigsy"/Marshal Canopy:

Lies that he's the reincarnated Pagoda King to scare demons. And because nobody outside of Heaven knows who Marshal Canopy is.

Gets real quiet when people bring up the story of Chang'e for some reason...

Amazing uncle figure. Notices that Liuer is sad during the movie's song sequence and uses his transformation ability to let the little guy experience flying.

Most of the time on the road he lets the kids use his stomach as a pillow.

Sha Wujing/"Sandy":

Another oc/JTTW character variation since no Sandy-equivalent appears in Hero is Back. Also made in the LMK OC Picrew.

She/they

Dresses very masculine but loves accessorising with flowers, shells, bones, pretty rock etcs.

Zhu Bajie shot her a wink and Sha Wujing had to politely explain that she wasn't interested in men in general. The two then bonded over their shared love for women.

Encounters the Seven Spider Sisters and... ohhh mama.

Sifu Fa Ming/"Grandpa":

Just some really cool old human dude.

Has a Diogenes-esque view of life, and does not care for monks and religious officials living in luxury. Self-exiled himself from his Vihara so that he could persue a simpler life.

Raised the baby he found (named "Little River Float/Jiang Liuer" cus thats what the baby was) with whatever he could find. Pretty much all alms he gained were used for food and clothes for his adopted grandchild. And from what the opening credits show, Fa Ming travelled with Liuer on his back through rain, snow, and shine.

Considers finding Liuer a blessing from the Buddha. Something he's somewhat correct on.

Was the first one to introduce Liuer to the legend of the Monkey King - as a cautionary tale to not be covetous. He did not anticipate Liuer thinking the monkey demon was the coolest person in all of Buddhist mythos. Fa Ming sighs, maybe that doll of his influenced that too.

His english va is James Hong, aka Mr Ping from Kung Fu Panda and he gives the best english performance imo. James Hong just be playing ancient chinese men who find and adopt a random baby they find.

Canglong/"The Dragon":

Isn't Ao Lie/Bai Longma... but is one of his dads. Canglong and Ao Run are a thing. Ganglong was once a regular rain dragon who saw that the newly-appointed King Ao Run of the "Western Sea" (in the mythos the older three called dibs on the actual seas around China) trying to build a canal from the Yellow River. Canglong called down a great rain to help make the in-land sea/lake that would become Qinghai Lake. The two dragon bonded over their effort and well... dragon pups occured.

I hc that the Western Sea kingdom is a lot more chill than it's empire-like brothers, so these guys are flying and swimming freely all around the place.

In the film the dragon and Dasheng just sorta team-up off screen. In the game they have Guanyin bring the boys straight to the Western Sea Palace (in the sky) to ask for a dragon assist. Canglong fought Hundun and the other three Perils before alongside "Shunwang" - a human with a sword. "Shunwang" is likely a reference to Emperor Shun of the "Three Soverigns and Five Emperors"-era of Chinese mythos (same era as Nuwa, Fuxi, and Shennong) and predecesor of Yu the Great; who ultimately tamed the waters with Ruyi Jingu Bang (Sun Wukong's future staff). Emperor Shun in mythos beat the stuffing out of the Four Perils - though not the same ones that include Hundun - rather Gonggong who broke the Heavenly Pillar.

Adding on to the lore from the HiB game: Canglong teamed up with humanity during the Great Flood to help curb the flood waters. Here he met Shunwang, who's goal was to kill the Four Perils and God that helped cause the Flood. Canglong thought that was cool af and got all the dragons involved to help. The Four Perils are sadly all concepts and you really can't 100% kill them, so they all ended up sealed away instead. By the time of Dasheng's release; Hundun (blind chaos) got out. Canglong was in the same area as the gang looking for Hundun to apprehend him - when Sun Wukong ran up to him with info on what Hundun had planned, Canglong agreed to help no questions asked.

As in game canon: Helps the gang return the stolen children. I hc through amazing sense of smell. Canglong doesn't hang around for long though, as Ao Run immediately flies over, worried out of his mind for his injured mate, and brings him home. Canglong and Ao Run do however have a cheeky white-scaled dragon pup that likes to pretend to be horse and is obsessed with the legendary Bimawen...

Hundun and the Great Perils:

A squad of four primordial concepts set loose when the destructive water god Gonggong destroyed the Heavenly Pillar. Their goal? Take out the newly-formed humanity.

Among them was (as taken from Chinese mythos):

‣Qiongqi/窮奇/"poor and strange": Deviousness. Said to devour the innocent/noble people, and serve evil ones. Said to either possess the body of a flying tiger or a carnivorous ox. Killed at the hands of Emperor Shun.

‣Taotie/餮/"greedy glutton": Gluttony. Said to have the head of a ding/bronze vessel that consumes all. Has the body of an ungulate, and the voice of a baby. Some believe it to be the reincarnated form of Chi You - the decapitated enemy of the Yellow Emperor.

‣ Taowu/檮杌/"stupid stump": Ignorance. Personifies the stubborness of man, and the refusal to learn. Resembles a sabre-toothed tiger.

‣ Hundun/混沌/"chaotic torrent: Chaos. Like chaos it's true form is blind and directionless. Mythology says that attempts were made to give it holes in which to see, breath, and eat, but it immediately died and reincarnated into "an evil creature".

Nuwa, alongside Shunwang and the dragons, and a bunch of other allies, kicked the Perils butts but couldn't 100% kill them. The compromise was exile/sealing them away indefinitely. Hundun in his original form was attemtped to be rehabitilated, but upon gaining sight and the ability to breathe - died and reincarnated into the human-reptilian avatar we see in the film.

"Hundun" is an extenstion of primordial chaos itself - a thing that isn't inherently evil and was born alongside Pangu when the World Egg hatched. The demon king however, has merely a chunk of the power held by his original life.

Hundun in his current form may have died... but the soul within has move on into something else. Child-like chaos cannot be contained.

[lakesparkles]

LiS True Colors fanfic (prologue)

Terrible title, I know lmao, but it doesn't have an actual title yet. I'm finally ready to start sharing my fanfics, this being the first one here.

The main idea was "what if Alex had Max's powers too?" because I wanted to write a time travel story, basically. It starts after the ending of the game, but not an official one, I guess? I kinda mixed two of them. The beggining of the fic will be more Alex/Steph but there are a lot of mentions of Alex/Ryan in this prologue too.

Last thing is that English is not my main language so sorry for any mistake! Here's something I drew for it:

You can read it on this google doc or under the cut: (1424 words)

Prologue

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Alex doesn't understand how doing exactly what she wanted can be so scary

Or

What if Alex had Max's powers?

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  The bus gave a sudden lurch, and Alex had to catch herself from falling off the seat. For that measly second, her mind returned to the real world, looking around. Beside her, Steph was going through the same thing, cursing under her breath as she returned to her previous position.

  Then it ended.

  Her attention immediately returned to the window, her cheek resting on her hand. Outside, the trees and mountains were farther apart. Different. Quite different from Haven Springs. The realization of that knocked her over again, making Alex swallow hard as she began to think about how her own decision hadn't made her as satisfied as she'd hoped.

  Maybe it was because she didn't think it would happen so soon. I mean, Alex was never an optimistic person. Far from that. Because optimism never made her life easier. However, part of her had found small hopes just a few weeks ago, when she'd been on a bus much like this one: seeing Gabe again could be weird, but could also be good. She could find connections, comfort, and everything else she'd lacked before. She could make Haven Springs her home.

  She would be lying if she said that things didn't turn out the way her more unrealistic self imagined.

  And again, even that hadn't gotten her anywhere. For there she was, heading towards the opposite side of the country, just as she had started.

  Alex sighed, burying her face in her hand.

  "Look," Steph's voice made her reluctantly focus on something that was not her thoughts, "you might be the one among us who reads minds... Buuuuut something tells me you'd have a blue stain around you right now ... It's blue, right?

  A second sigh came out of Alex's throat, but this time, she too turned her head and smiled slightly. A sad smile:

  "I am really sorry. I think I'm kind of tired."

  "But already?" Steph didn't seem convinced, "It's the first hours of our incredible journey! When we're in Pennsylvania you won't even be able to stand up then!"

  There was a certain good humor in her voice, which Alex appreciated. She was already tired of all the disguised judgments she had received in the last few days in that city.

  "You're really used to traveling, huh!?"

  "I prefer to believe that I wasn't born for only one city!" Steph closed her eyes in a dramatic pose, pointing at herself.

  It was lovely. Alex's smile rose a few inches, until she noticed the blue stain start to appear around the other one. It was small and lasted a few seconds. Alex even tried to avoid reading Steph's thoughts, but it was almost involuntary: as none so far made me feel like I should.

  "I'm with you on this one!" Alex laughed awkwardly.

  She knew her thoughts would take over again. So she didn't even turn her face to the window. Instead, she slowly laid down on Steph's shoulder, giving the other woman enough time to stop her if she wanted to. But of course Steph didn't move a muscle, just resting her head on Alex's.

  The contact was still awkward. Something she knew she would need more time to get used to. It was just one of the many consequences of growing up with little affection. She now avoided and begged for it in equal measure. It was like that when she hugged Gabe for the first time after meeting him again: awkward, out of place and strangely nice.

  She felt her brother's affection in unusual ways, being when she discovered that he had bought a guitar as a gift, days before she arrived; or when everyone in town spoke to her with a certain familiarity during her first week there. "Gabe couldn't stop talking about you!", Ryan confessed one afternoon that he spent at her apartment, "He guaranteed that everyone would love you! He said that you could form a band with Steph. That you wouldn't even complain about watching the boring documentaries I liked. Scary how right he was... And now I understand why he thought that...".

  Every time she talked about Gabe with Ryan, she felt a warm feeling in her chest, in a way she knew she wouldn't feel with anyone else. The two understood each other and expressed their love for Gabe through each other as well. It made that anything but real, as if they were just two old friends reminiscing about stories and would soon see Gabe again.

  Affection for Alex often took that form: being able to pretend everything was fine with someone else.

  At that very moment, Alex had her legs on top of Ryan's. He gently placed his hand on her knee, lightly caressing the area. Something so small and ordinary and…weird. She didn't know if she liked it, and it made her uneasy.

  She wanted something real and different from the feelings she'd stolen from someone else. And she knew reality was always a little scary, so she seemed to be on the right path.

  It intensified when she handed him the rose at the festival, her heart beating a mile a second. Even worse when she kissed him for the first time, the gold and purple mingled in him as well as her. She was close enough to feel everything that went through his mind. It was always a mixed bag, just like it was with Alex. Confused. Scary. New. Comfortable.

  Maybe all that fear wasn't so bad after all.

  Purple certainly followed her through the rest of that short relationship.

  She saw how Ryan was paralyzed as she confronted his father. Or when he himself yelled at her, telling her to stop it.

  Ryan didn't believe her.

  It wasn't the anger she was so used to that washed over him as he refused her touch, almost as if he was disgusted with her. Or when he started avoiding her for the next few days, his guilt prevented him from even getting close.

  No. It wasn't anger. Or sadness.

  It was fear.

  Now Alex couldn't help but think of everything from the start. At all the other times that emotion was present.

  Maybe it wasn't as normal as she wanted to believe it was.

  "It's like this in the beginning!" Steph's voice again brought her back to the real world.

  Alex needed a few seconds to even understand what was said:

  "Huh?"

  "This weird bus adrenaline! It's always kind of sad, at least it was like that for me too" She said while practically rubbing her face against Alex's, "But let me tell you a secret: Salem will never be the best part! We have many places to visit even before there!"

  "Is that talk about 'the true treasure are the friends you made along the way?"

  Steph lightly punched her arm, even though she was laughing:

  "I'm serious, okay? The good part is that we'll never know if Salem will really be our final stop. Maybe we'll walk into a hotel in the middle of nowhere in Ohio and decide that's where we belong."

  "Is that what happened when you stopped in Haven Springs?"

  "No..." She admitted, "But that hope always wanted to get me out of there."

  Alex still appreciated how much the other tried to cheer her up, so she decided to shrug her shoulders, giving up:

  "Who knows, right? We might not even stop anywhere! Let's just keep traveling. We just need to get temporary jobs to buy a van."

  "Then we can make a short list: ‘places to visit before death'! We will travel the country!"

  "And then we'll go down to Latin America. Somewhere has to be our place."

  "Or no place will ever be our place!"

  "You make it look like a good thing." She chuckled.

  "You understand me, Alex."

  That simple sentence cut the conversation short. Alex lifted her head from her shoulder, then made eye contact with Steph. She had said the last sentence simply, as if she was joking. However, the way she was looking at Alex now, it was as if she had confessed to something much bigger, which she had been keeping inside for a long time.

  The color purple washed over Steph.

  Alex smiled.

  Maybe she wasn't so wrong about affection and love.

[freeuselandonorris]

15 questions 15 friends

i was tagged by i thinkkk @bright-and-burning and @481boxboxbaby absolutely ages ago, sorry it's taken me so long to get to this!

Are you named after anyone? no! my mum liked the name sophie because it means ‘wisdom’ in greek and she’d lived in greece for a while.

When was the last you cried? i had a little sob watching the ‘life and death of lily savage’ documentary on itv the other week because i am still so, so sad about paul o’grady dying, i adored him. as a kid, my favourite comedians (who i saw on tv) were julian clary and lily savage. half their jokes flew over my head but that dog was always in me!! anyway, as for real sobbing crying… i’m actually not sure? it was a while ago for sure. may it stay that way 🙏

Do you have kids? nope, and i won’t be having them. people used to tell me i’d change my mind once i got older and now i’m 35 and still have not experienced a single maternal twinge.

What sports do you play/have you played? i don’t play any kind of competitive sports and have avoided them for most of my life (i have extremely poor hand-eye coordination, hypermobile limbs and rubbish lungs. i’m not built for speed) but i do pole fitness and have done for about three years now, i’m not great at it (see above) but i loooove it and it’s gotten me way more hench than i was.

Do you use sarcasm? i used to use it constantly as a defence thing but less so these days. i do still use it though yeah.

What is the first thing you notice about people? sometimes i have this thing where the first second i meet someone i have this weird shine effect where i know they’re going to be a very important part of my life (good or bad). it’s only happened about three or four times but it’s always been right. on a more prosaic level: eyes, smile, body language.

What is your eye color? blue. it’s quite bright.

Scary movies or happy endings? scary movies!! love a good horror. i don’t like jumpscares or found footage/haunted doll whatever ones, but i love the nasty shit: video nasties, torture porn, french extreme, pinky horror, faux snuff, that kinda thing. i don’t want them so much these days but i was pretty obsessed for a while.

Any talents? i’m good at writing and drawing/painting, and i’m quite practical in the sense that i can fix things and build things, like i LOVE building flatpack furniture. i think my main ‘talent’ though is just that i can pick things up quickly. if i’m shown how to do something, generally i can do it pretty well quite quickly and i don’t need to be shown lots of times, and i’m good at being given a starting point and figuring things out from there. i think that’s the ‘talent’ i use most in life, certainly in work anyway.

Where were you born? north-west england.

What are your hobbies? writing! painting, drawing, reading, gaming, pole, strength training. i also have the classic ADHD thing of picking a new thing to be obsessed with for a month and spending a fortune on it three times a year.

Do you have any pets? no :( my mum has a lovely big useless fat cat called bandit though who i have shared custody of, she just can’t live at my flat.

How tall are you? 5’8’’ or 172cm

Favorite subject at school? art and english. i also quite liked what we called ‘tech’ which was like woodwork, metalwork, product design type stuff.

Dream job? i do not dream of labour. fr though i don’t really have one and never have, apart from maybe writer or artist but realistically i think i’d end up hating them if i had to rely on them to pay my bills. i thought about trying to get into motorsport jobs for a while but the hours look long, the pay is terrible, the atmosphere for femme people is…mixed, and i’d have to move halfway across the country. so yeah idk. universal basic income now!

not tagging anyone bc i'm so late to the party on this lol, but if you haven't been tagged and want to be, lmk and i'll tag you!

[goldenstarprincesses]

Henlo! You rebloged my post about France in fanfiction and I wanted to reply to it because I found what you said interesting, but because you used just tags would be goofy to reblog it again so I am sending an ask!

I agree about the cannon not helping, the thing is France got better in the cannon, he is more interesting now. I am not very into Prussia so I don't remember if he got better in later parts. But this thing about him being the worst in PruCan fanfic isn't something I noticed in Brazilian Fanfics or maybe I just don't remember lol

I wrote my post at 1 AM and now I stopped to think about what annoys me about how simple and awful Francis' characterization is and I noticed that it simply doesn't have a reason. When I was writing my fic, I wanted to make him bad in a European kind of way, he is France, France really did a lot of shit, he is kind of goofy and useless now? Yes, but that wasn't the case in the Early Modern era.

I also never saw no one exploring his sexuality. Why is Francis overly sexual? Why is he so dramatic? Why is he always trying to get in someone's pants? Real people have reasons to act overly sexual, they aren't just born this way, but WHY I NEVER SEE NO ONE ASKING THOSE QUESTIONS??

Thank you for rebloguing my post and confirming I wasn't just seeing things lol

Hiii! First, I adore your blog. Thank you for introducing me to the world of TurkFra. My eyes have been opened and my mind widened.

I almost think the fandom needed to go through the "dark times" or "dark age" of character interpretation to get where we are now. I know there was for sure a shift happing when I dipped out of the fandom in 2016ish. And when I started occasionally reading fanfics again during lockdown I was blown away with the shifts regarding the characterization of nearly all the characters.

Totally agree with you 100% about interpreting a character like France in a way where he is bad shit person, because of the actual actions of France. Imo its really important to include things like that into every nations characterizing when engaging in more "real life inspired" characterization. Almost have to wonder if the rise in popularity of historical hetalia has had anything to do with this change. While it was sorta a thing in the early years of the fandom, it didn't really seem to have much of a collective following and community. And now it seems that characters of empires/colonists like France/England/America/Russia etc. have shifted away from being written to have very goofy and comically negative traits more in-line with the 2008-2012ish canon to having their negative traits rooted more in the real-life negative habits or traits of the real world nations. I'd also wonder if the average age in the fandom has gone up which has helped characters simply be better developed.

The "bad touch trio" was super common back in the day. It was France/Prussia/Spain. Pretty much the entire characterization for them all ended up being sex addicts who went around well, SA or SH other nations. That mixed with the very silly "everything is based on basic national stereotypes" vibe of early canon I think just made i so a character like France ("nation of love"/the idea that the French are much more sexually liberated then the English or Americans) was very one-sided even when other charters were getting a little bit better of treatment. I also always felt like France was never as popular in the American/English fandom as American and England. So he (and often Canada) would sorta just thrown into things without much development character-wise.

You bring up so many good points!!! legit I have always thought about things like this.

[blue-jisungs]

hi i saw you wanted some moots games the other day :))

so how about your moots as romantic tropes? unless you've already done something like that then maybe au tropes?

love ya and take care! 🩵

WAAAH THABK U!!! i didn’t do neither of them so i’ll mix them both bc why not (and bc it will make my suffering less miserable bc THE CHOICES) LOVE U TOO!!!! also sorry it took so long 💔

@l3visbby ola you’d be the older student that everyone looks up to and has a crush on 🤭 like uni au, bumping into u on the hallway and just love at first sight ☝️

@slytherinshua classmates to lovers. like again, school au lol but imagine zanna helping you out with math or english, tutoring and you can’t help but stare in awe <\\3

@enluv summer holiday love but with a happy ending. just meeting coco on a beach n instantly clicking!! spending your summer together and exchanging numbers bc you’d be an idiot to lose contact with coco!!!! (it may or may not be inspired by the previous game i did but shhh)

@mirxzii roxie… the cute cashier at a bakery. not only the baked goods r sweet but so is roxie, and you can’t help but always come back to the bakery even if it’s totally not on your way home… and in the end roxie notices, slipping her phone numer into one of the bags with your order teehee

@fairyhaos hmmm… maybe flower shop au? steeping by the shop bc you heard it just opened and you find yourself more interested in yena, the florist, than the actual flowers 🫣

@planetkiimchi childhood friends to lovers!!! growing up w kimchi you don’t realise you’re head over heels for her but then when you realise there’s a potential threat (a guy flirting?!)… you come to a conclusion that the funnt feeling in your stomach each time u hung out with kimchi was BUTTERFLIES!!!

@etherealyoungk guard x royalty (?). skye the only heir and princess is perfect inside and out: smart, caring, kind and beautiful. so as her guard you can’t help but fall for her little by little until you find yourself completely in love (who wouldn’t tho)

@wheeboo academic rivals to lovers. LMAO but like imagine rania as your rival id cry. but you’re so competitive, bickering all the time and when you fail one time you realise that rania’s smile is waaaay better than all those prizes you’ve won so far 🫣

@wqnwoos cold, distant boss x newbie intern!! hana is the boss (hehe), a little bit scary… but as an intern you have to do your best!! little do you know that the reason of why you have so so much job lately is because your boss wants you to be around for longer hehe 🤭

@malarign a bit angsty but amnesia. you wake up one day, not knowing a thing and just seeing joo in front of you. who the heck is that?! oh, you lost your memory…? but worry not, joo - your partner helps you recover the memories patiently. with love and kindness, step by step, your memories come flooding back and you realise that no matter what you’ll fall for joo again and again

@icyminghao fake dating 😳 imagine dating the coolest n prettiest person ever, noelle… but sadly it’s not a real relationship. you both do this to bring your real crushes’ attention to you… but well, in the end… why do you feel so happy and giggly all the time when you’re with noelle? your ‘real’ crush doesn’t make you feel like this…

@ylliris-hanniehae hero x nurse trope?! ylli is the best friend you have and you can’t help but always come back to her if you get injured in a fight. ylli scolding you but in the same time treating your wounds gently makes u realise you’re in love !!

@txt-yaomi gasp. forbidden love. royalty au maybe? you’re both from diff, enemy families and you can’t be together… but how could you resist the feeling?! sof is the prettiest princess you’ve ever seen and you’re expected not to fall for her?! well for now it’s a secret, meeting and hanging out at midnight from all the curious gazes

[p5x-theories]

Palace & Boss BGMs semi-analysis (1/2)

Broken Arrow: The name, to my knowledge, is a US military code phrase meaning “Immediate danger, air support needed.” idk exactly how that ties into Kiuchi but hey, good to know. As some have noticed, it sounds like Price mixed with King Queen Slaves, which is fitting because Kiuchi is basically Kamoshida + Kaneshiro. Additionally, the pianos in the song are tuned to sound like the ones in a baseball game. 

Broken Arrow -Another-: It’s slow tempo, lower pitch, and focus more on the guitars of its other version, could possibly be a nod to stock “dirty” music, fitting for his palace’s second half being a strip club. 

Last Strike: It’s instrumentation and lyrics tell me it’s supposed to just be Kiuchi’s boss theme, as opposed to the X version of Blooming Villain. It’s title is a possible nod to the boss fight being Kiuchi’s “third strike” against people, once for forgoing practices for times at the club and once for attempting to grievously injure Motoha and seriously hurting Tomoko.  

I was going to wait for (2/2), but it’s been two days and I don’t seem to have gotten it? If you sent it, you might have to resend it :(

That aside, apparently “broken arrow” as a military code phrase can also “refer to an accidental event that involves nuclear weapons [...] that does not create a risk of nuclear war”, according to Wikipedia. But that’s the English usage of the phrase, so it’s possible neither meaning is really intended? Considering Lord Cupid uses a bow and arrow to attack, I have to wonder if it’s actually intended as a reference to the “real” Cupid’s bow and arrow, and maybe it’s “broken” in the sense that Kiuchi’s misusing it. Definitely agree with the P5 song comparisons, though! When I was going through Kiuchi’s Palace, I’d get Broken Arrow stuck in my head, but I’d notice it quickly morph into Price instead (a song I know much better), haha.

I agree with your take on the second version of Broken Arrow, though!

Now that you mention it, I know it came up before, but I think you’re right about Last Strike actually being made specifically as Kiuchi’s boss theme, heh. Considering his whole thing was running into women, I could also see “Last Strike” being maybe a reference to this fight being the last time he’ll hit someone? Which is similar to what you’re saying too, hah, but yours is also closer to the baseball definition’s “three strikes and you’re out”, so!

[icebluecyanide]

thanks @too-many-rooks for tagging me! This was fun :D

When was the last time you cried? Hmm probably this weekend after reading a few feel-good trans stories, like this one. I've been pretty tired so it doesn't take much to make me tear up when I'm alone. 😅

Do you have kids? Nope, maybe one day!

Do you use sarcasm a lot? I guess??? My family is very good at the type of sarcasm where you basically just lie with a straight face/without intonation and assume people will know from context that you don't really mean it. Sadly this does not always work which makes things awkward ahsdlfhs

What sports do you play? I guess running and working out at the gym? I used to play football and do judo as a kid tho.

What's the first thing you notice about people? Not sure! Probably clothes/general appearance, but nothing special I pay attention to.

What's your eye colour? Blue.

Scary movies or happy endings? 🤔🤔🤔 I don't think I've actually watched that many horror movies tbh? I like the genre but idk probably happy endings.

Any special talents? Nothing very special, but I guess I've got a pretty good memory for random details/stories. Which means that even twelve years later I could tell you some very specific episode details from s3 of TVD. 😅 Not very useful but on the plus side I can sometimes manage to make this work for stuff like remembering conversations or real life history lessons.

Where were you born? Not going to dox myself here, sorry haha

What are your hobbies? Writing, running, working out, reading/listening to audiobooks. I also enjoyed making gifs lately, tho sadly there isn't time enough after work for all of them.

Do you have pets? No. 😔

How tall are you? 174cm.

Favourite subject in school? I was really interested in a lot of subjects so probably a mix between maths and history and English (but also looooved the particle physics module we did towards the end).

Dream job? Honestly thinking the dream would be to have the whole day to write. Like one of those sweet gigs where you get to travel a bit and do research and then write your novel (or fanfic lbr). Tho I would probably hate writing if it became more of a job haha.

tagging @polarnacht1 and @rirren and @limnall and @protoindoeuropean and whoever else wants to do it!

[johannestevans]

New Works Update - 17/02/2023

Good morning!

Time for a round-up - I've had a bunch of new works published the several weeks, and I also have a bunch of new media recs.

Media Recommendations

The Quiet Girl (2022, dir. Colm Bairéad) - This is a new Irish release and was Oscar-nominated, and it's honestly a beautiful little film - it's primarily as Gaeilge with a little English mixed in, and it's so full of love and care and compassion. It's big childhood autism feels and delves so much into being seen and cared for by adults outside of your actual parents, and how assuring that is whilst also not being the same? Another Irish release was obviously The Banshees of Inisherin (2022, dir. Martin McDonagh), which is set on an Irish island in the early 20th century, and it's also very real on top of being bitingly funny, and I loved it.

Nanny (2022, dir. Nikyatu Jusu) - This movie fucking slaughtered me, it's so incredibly crafted and the end reveals hit me like a ton of bricks. It's about a Senegalese woman who takes up nannying work in Manhattan wanting to save money to also bring her son over from Senegal - it's haunting and there's layers of creepy, supernatural happenings on top of the casual racist cruelty and self-centredness of the people around her, especially the parents of the child she's looking after.

M3GAN (2022, dir. Gerard Johnstone) - I fucking loved this movie, I've seen it a bunch of times in a few weeks. I was really excited when I saw it was being released, and it was honestly even more fun than my expectations. It makes some great critique of AI and commercial AI projects, and while there's some comedy and wry jokes in this, it doesn't take away from the emotional punch of the commentary on children's lack of autonomy, childhood loneliness and isolation, and the avoidance of caregiving responsibilities. I have a non-fiction piece written on this one below!

New Non-Fiction Published

M3GAN and a lonely child: M3GAN (2022) on child neglect and avoiding one’s caregiving responsibilities

“She’ll take care of the little things, so you can spend more time doing the things that matter.”

A 10k essay delving into themes of caregiving and neglect in M3GAN (2022) across Gemma and Cady, Celia and Dewey, and Holly and Brandon.

On Medium / / On Patreon

Fast "Who am I?": A Fun Game to Play with Friends

A silly fun game to play rapidly with your friends and loved ones in 2023.

On Medium / / On Patreon

New Fiction Published

Erotic Short: Used

A captain makes use of his cabin boy early in a morning.

1.7k, rated E, cis M/trans M. More of Captain Ian Chisholm and Lluw! Featuring somnophilia, D/s, anal sex, size difference and size kink, mild objectification, quiet sex, and then threats of fisting.

On Medium / / On Patreon

Erotic Short: Coaxed

An adventurer helps a drider through his rut by taking his clutch of many, many eggs.

4.6k, rated E, giant M spider/trans M half-elf. Amaethon is a half-elf who combines sex work with adventuring to create wonderful monsterfuckery - I think I might do more with him because this was great fun.

This erotica is deeply weird, and I'm delighted to introduce it: featuring oviposition and inflation, cervical penetration, huge size difference, huge belly bulging, body horror (including threats of bursting/popping), banter between a predator and prey, overstimulation, venom/drugs, suspension bondage.

On Medium / / On Patreon

Slice-of-Life/Romance Short: Hit Me

A blackjack dealer notices a lonely young man.

1.7k, rated T. Just some quiet companionship and bonding over loneliness in the early 1800s.

On Medium / / On Patreon

Erotic Short: Backfire

Two witches work off steam after a spell backfires.

Rated E. 650w. Featuring vaginal sex, huge size difference, belly bulges, rough sex, D/s.

On Medium / / On Patreon

Romance Short: Hungry

A journalist observes a hunter skinning a deer.

1.5k. Just a bit of romance and slice-of-life between a hunter and a journalist observing his work.

On Medium / / On Patreon

Slice-of-Life Snippet: Doze

Just a little Christmassy snippet!

On Patreon

Erotic Short: Sheathed

A young man uses his coach’s mouth.

1.2k, cis M/M, rated E. Featuring blowjobs with throat-fucking, size difference, gagging, mild objectification, rough sex, coming in pants, and age difference.

On Medium / / On Patreon

Romance & Comedy Short: Hitting the Books

A young man returns to his old school to teach, and attempts to pursue his old history teacher.

Rated M, 12.6k, cis M/M. A man returns to his old school to teach, and also returns to his old school crushes.

Obviously there's a big age difference here and a teacher fucking his ex-student, some implied BDSM, some daddy issues, some sex at work, et cetera. Adapted from a TweetFic.

On Medium / / On Patreon

Erotic Short: Running the Table

A trans man is the favourite pocket on the pool table.

Rated E. Cis M/trans M/cis M. 4k. Featuring consent play with a prenegotiated rape roleplay, object insertion (not sanitary, not safe, just sexy), double penetration, begging, tears, size difference, age difference, lots of anal play, belly bulging.

Jock and Phineas first appeared in Centre Pocket, where Jock initially makes the threat of the pool balls.

On Medium / / On Patreon

Horror Short: Green Thumb

A farmer tries to impress his new neighbour.

2.6k, rated M. A chicken farmer tries to impress his new neighbour by growing him some flowers, but everything that he grows dies. Adapted from a TweetFic.

On Medium / / On Patreon

Slice-of-Life Short: Tomorrow

A shop worker takes sandwiches to some engineers.

Just a little bit of slice-of-life, 800w!

On Medium / / On Patreon

Serial Update: Rescue Dogs

Chapter Fourteen. Cecil goes to therapy. It's been a hard week.

On Medium / / On WorldAnvil

Erotic Short: Fresh Bounty

A bounty hunter takes a young wizard to the king's court.

1.7k, rated E, cis M/trans M! Power play with a lack of negotiation, but fully consensual enthusiasm for it, cockwarming, threatened overstimulation, D/s, implications of public use, and sex on horseback!

On Medium / / On Patreon

Slice-of-Life Short: Little Crush

A muscle man has a crush on the boss’ new secretary.

1k. Just a tiny bit of slice-of-life, a member of the Pike family crushing on Gellert Osgodby!

On Medium / / On Patreon

Fantasy Romance Short: The Mermaid and the Dockworker

A merman saves a fisherman from drowning, once.

4k, rated T. Just a cute one here with a merman who saves a fisherman from drowning, and the fisherman saving him back! There are descriptions of fear and drowning in this, but no other particular content warnings.

On Medium / / On Patreon

Romance Short: Something Sweet

A woman sometimes takes a moment to watch a baker at work on her morning commute.

870w, F/F. Just a little slice-of-life and crushing on a stranger!

On Medium / / On Patreon

Horror Short: Wild Country

A young woman walks home on a foggy night.

3k, Gen, rated T. First person POV, originally posted on /r/NoSleep.

On Medium / / On Patreon

Serial Update: An Uncommon Betrothal

Chapter Fifteen! Alexos and Harry have Larry between them. Literally.

It's just porn in this chapter - Alexos and Harry spitroasting Larry Kidd and showing him a VERY good time.

On Medium / / On WorldAnvil

[justmeinadaze]

15 (+1) Questions Game

Thank you for tagging me @fireeyes-on-teller-dixon-grimes <3

1. Are you named after anyone? My real first name and my middle name (the one I use here) both are yes :)

2. When was the last time you cried? Saturday. I'm sick and on my period so Finding Nemo was even more emotional this time around lmao.

3. Do you have kids? Nope. Just a fur baby.

4. What sports do you play/ Have you played? I used to play volleyball. I was more of a theater kid lol

5. Do you use sarcasm? I live and breath it.

6. What is the first thing you notice about people? Vibe.

7. What's your eye color? Brown

8. Scary movies or happy endings? Depends on my mood. Usually scary movies though.

9. Any talents? Writing according to some of you fine folks lol other then that... I'm not sure lol

10. Where were you born? Texas (come save me!)

11. What are your hobbies? Writing, catching up on shows and movies I'm behind with, um..., spending time with friends.

12. Do you have any pets? Indeed! I have 2 technically since my roommate also has a cat.

13. How tall? Pretty damn.

14. Favorite subject in school? In high school in was English in College it was Media. I loved going over media techniques and how they're used.

15. Dream job? Honestly? Writing. I'd love to make a living off it especially mental health stories. Writing on here has actually helped me learn to mix fiction with non fiction I just really need to get over my fear of rejection to write a book!

16. In place of #10:What reminds you of home (doesn't have to mean house... just things that remind you of the feeling of home)? Certain songs; when I hear them in pinpoints a memory I had here at different places in my state.

No Pressure Tags: @big-ope-vibes @bimbobaggins69 @corrodedcorpses @micheledawn1975 @nailbatanddungeon (trying to grab people who weren't already tagged lol), anyone else!

[patdroid]

Okay. So…it’s really been a while. And I’ve been wanting to share some things about a few of my other characters; however, these aren’t for TADC.

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They’re for Hazbin Hotel. (Yes, I’m a fan of the show. And any of my posts in regards to Hazbin Hotel have to do with my specific AU.)

And I’ve actually got three OCs to share for this one so-

Ryeley

Ryeley’s the first OC. She used to be an angel up in Heaven, but when she caught her angelic boyfriend with an exterminator (who was NOT Vaggie or Lute, for obvious reasons), she basically pulled a Mrs Mayberry on them both. However, the seraphim heard about what happened and banished Ryeley down to Hell. Now, Ryeley basically lives on as a fallen angel, but to make herself fit in, her look resembles a mix of a stink bug demon and a spider demon…with a regular demon tail on top of it. (What? Just because she’s as old as the universe, it doesn’t mean that she would know what every type of demon looks like.)

Age: As old as the universe

Birthday: 6/02 (June 2nd, not official), The day that the universe started (official, but the date’s unknown)

Gender: Genderfluid (But female presenting)

Pronouns: Ask, since they can change by the day

Orientation: Panromantic (and possibly demi-sexual as well, I’m still thinking about that one)

Crush: Chul Choon-Hee (You’ll find out about her soon)

A fallen angel from Heaven (who really wants to return back there…at least until she falls in love)

The yellow marks on her body is the blood from the angels that she ended; the fall just made it permanently stick onto her. (Trust me, Ryeley tried to wash it off when they first got to Hell, but found out shortly after that it was stuck to her body…forever)

Ryeley has a tendency to ask about certain things, but that’s because they never had a life on Earth

They have insect-like legs under her pants and shoes, but keeps them hidden from everyone for reasons

Okay. With Ryeley out of the way, let me introduce you to Ryeley’s crush; Chu-

Chul Choon-Hee 철춘희 (AKA: The Sleeping Boots Demon) {But you can call her The S.B. Demon for short}

Yep. You read that right. Chul Choon-Hee is based on a CARTOON CHARACTER, not only that, but a form of a cartoon character that only appears twice in the series, with the second time being a cameo! And the irony comes in when Chul would have no idea who that cartoon character is when she first arrived in Hell BECAUSE when she was a human, she lived in North Korea. I’m not kidding about that. Not only would she not know who the character’s real self is because she’d never seen the show, but she would also have no idea about the show because her country never received the dub!

But when I say that Chul’s based on a cartoon character, I mean that her design is based on it, since she’s a monkey demon. The way that she acts, on the other hand, is more like a soldier in an army; a given since she used to work for the North Korean army and her outfit almost matches perfectly with the outfits of that country.

Age: In her 20s or 30s

Birthday: 3/8/19XX (March 8th, during the 20th century; International Women’s Day)

Gender: Female

Pronouns: She/Her

Orientation: Pansexual

Crush: Ryeley

Languages she can speak: English and Korean

Death Date: 9/24/2004 or 9/25/2004 (Depending on time zones, either one of those two dates are correct. For Chul’s home country, the latter date is when she died, but for me, the one who created her, the former date is the right one)

Cause of Death: Cyanide poisoning via a banana

When she first arrived in Hell, she quickly noticed that most of her injuries were not visible…along with seeing the chaos around her forming around her (In my Hazbin Hotel AU, there’s a few times in Hell’s history when false demons arrived. 9/24-25/2004 happens to be one/two of those times)

Thinking quickly about the situation, she used her skills to help protect the false demons and use her new powers to stop the real demons from hurting the false demons, going so far as hurting the real demons. That one point in time got a few Hellborns (who somehow had access to some of Earth’s programming) to refer to Chul as “The Sleeping Boots Demon” or “The S.B. Demon”; something that Chul was definitely confused about until she managed to find out what the Hellborns meant

The particular method of attack is her specialty; “The 1-2-3-Knockout Method”. With that particular method, she uses her hair to float herself up into the air and pretend that she’s asleep; ala the character that gave her the demon nickname. Then, when another demon gets too close to her, that’s when she breaks out of her act and either ends the demon’s life (for some time) or knocks them out cold with her tail…or both of she’s really having a bad day

As she became more known in Hell, she earned the title of being an Overlord, with that nickname becoming her Overlord name, but everyone calls her “The S.B. Demon”, not only to save time with saying it, but also so people don’t have to tell certain demons about who Sleeping Boots is…multiple times over…and over

Yeah… Chul having multiple demon names makes a lot of sense when you take into account that not all demons would know of the one who inspired her name. And not all demons would be willing to find out about the inspiration, either because they genuinely don’t want to or because they don’t see television/computer games/picture books as a platform to make yourself known on. (I’m looking at you, Alastor.)

Now, for the last one, we actually do HAVE a Hellborn on the table and she’s-

Nina Tails

Okay… When am I ever going to be able to say the name myself? So, Nina Tails is definitely more of a rough gal than most. Having spent most of her life living within nature, she isn’t that trusting of other demons, but with the help of Charlie, she finds someone who can be a temporary mother figure until she can get adopted.

Age: 10 (as of the time of writing this)

Birthday: 2/16/2014

Gender: Female (but might question it later in life)

Pronouns: She/Her, but she mainly wants to be referred by her official name

Orientation: …she’s 10. She doesn’t even have a crush yet. We don’t know what it will be, so until she comes to that discovery, it’s TBD

Type of Hellborn Demon: Nine-tailed Fox

She lost her parents in the 2015 extermination, and to save herself from being exterminated, she ran into the woods to hide (This was BEFORE Lucifer talked to Heaven about sparring Hellborn demons from the extermination, because Nina’s parents were both Hellborn demons as well)

While living in the woods, she had lost her left eye from a hunter…who had an angelic steel-tipped arrow, meaning that her eye was GONE gone once it got her, but her quick reflexes is what saved her life

Because of the hunter incident with her eye, she is not afraid to bite other demons that come her way…along with any bears. She hates bears with a burning passion

Besides bears, Nina’s a friend to the animals in the woods

After getting adopted by Charlie, Nina has started to embrace her tomboy look and has decided to wear an eyepatch to hide the scars that she has from that incident

And…that’s all of them. Honestly, it seems nice to expand my range of content with the fandoms that I get into.

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…and I see Chul being an age regressor to combat the years of trauma, pain, bullying, and general mental distress that she had endured when she was a human.

[unwelcome-ozian]

Hi, this could end up being a really long ask so I apologise in advance, but I feel it's important you know about this!

I noticed you recommended Rauni-Leena Luukanen-Kilde as a source when answering some asks about Finland before! I would like to let you know that while she was indeed the provincial medical officer for Lapland region (never chief medical officer, as she liked to claim to any english readers of hers) at one time, her writings should be taken with a HUGE grain of salt. I'm sure there's useful information mixed in there, but she's unfortunately most well known for claiming things like: aliens live among us on earth, trips to moon are done twice every week, humans already have colonies in mars and do manned flights to saturn, that she has been in both psychic and physical contact with aliens and alternate universes, that the swine flu vaccines were/are dangerous because they contain microchips that monitor and control people, that streetlights in Helsinki are used to mind-control people, called the 2011 Norway Attacks a conspiracy, and a lot more. Most of what she said is simply not very likely whatsoever. One quote from a tv-interview she did is that the entire swine influenza vaccine program is/was just a global scheme to kill people to control overpopulation, and that pregnant women and children were selected especially, because the plan was to "eliminate the next generation".

Originally she only talked about believing in ghosts and that aliens exist and claimed that death isn't a real thing (because ghosts), but was otherwise a reliable medical professional, but after she was in a serious car crash in 1985 and retired from being the Provincial Medical Officer in 1987 (she was on sick leave for the entire time between 85-87 after the crash, and retired because she was not able to continue in her position anymore. It's implied she received brain damage in said crash, from what I understand, and never quite recovered) she started becoming more and more out of touch with her claims.

It shows in her writings- her first book from 1982, Kuolemaa Ei Ole ("Death Does Not Exist"), is simply about her belief in ghosts and that she feels she has proof of death not being "permanent" or "final", because she "received messages from the dead using psychography". Something that, while I don't believe in, was fairly harmless and just something she believed in and wrote about. At that time, she was also the chairwoman of the Lapland Parapsycholgy Association (Lapin Parapsykologinen Seura), from 1981 to 1986.

Her next book, from 1991, Tähtien Lähettiläs ("Envoy of/from the Stars"), is, on the other hand, full of her UFO-claims and how actually, aliens are all around us and talks about how mankind will experience "moral degeneration" and become "contaminated" in regards to that. Not a lot of sense in any of it. As it turns out she was also kicked out from the parapsychological association because even they started thinking her claims were WAY out there, and that she wasn't fit for the chairman position because of it.

From what I've managed to gather from online discussions from the early 00's, most people do not take her seriously, even people who actually do believe in aliens or ghosts. (My other sources for all this include reading summaries of her books, official records, interviews and articles from Finnish sources online)

According to the very few victims of/people with knowledge of ramcoa here in Finland that I know of, she has zero credibility and her claims are not only inaccurate but dangerous because while she does have some accurate things to say (i.e. US government is involved in mind control across the world) most of it is heavily misdirected and used to justify her UFO beliefs instead of actually taking any kind of a critical look at potentially malicious foreign actors in Finland, suspicious activity within Finland, etc. It's very much a case of "we have colonies in Mars and Aliens live among us but nobody knows or believes this because everyone is being mind controlled by low-frequency radiowaves, microwaves or microchips that monitor them 24/7 implanted when giving vaccines to people".

Personally, I wouldn't recommend her works to anyone- mostly because it's impossible to separate the grains of truth from her personal conspiracy beliefs. Sadly, there aren't really any Finnish sources with published work out there that are at least somewhat reliable, so I don't really have any alternatives to recommend to you, but I wanted to at least let you know what her actual reputation here is since whenever she is mentioned in English she usually gets given a LOT more credit than she should be, probably because as far as I know, her Finnish works were never translated to English and she didn't talk as much about these things in English (my personal belief is that she didn't go full-on UFO & antivaxx internationally because she wanted to maintain at least some credibility with international audiences in regards to mind control, behaviour manipulation and so on, and possibly to sell more of the english book she worked on right before her death in 2015).

Also, the back of her english book claims she was "the former acting director of environmental health and health education of national institute of health of Finland in Helsinki" - an institute by that name does not exist, and there are no records of her ever being even associated with any official institutes she COULD be referring to.

She also claimed (on the back of that same book) to have been "government of Finland representative in World Health Organization in Geneva", which is another blatant lie. She has never had anything to do with either the government of Finland, OR WHO. The ONLY international work she ever did was practicing medicine as a physician in Pakistan and Indonesia before she was the provincial medical officer, and this was charity/aid work. I believe she may have lived in Geneva for a while, but that's all there is to it. Basically, she lied about her credentials to international readers and the things she has said in her Finnish sources are so out there her claims make Svali look like the most truthful and trustworthy individual to ever live. I wouldn't trust someone who can't even stay consistent between what she says to her native readers vs to her international ones, especially when she lied about her credentials so egregiously to the latter. She knows Finns could actually check these things easily so she never did this with her Finnish books, most likely she just hoped no Finn would ever read her English work and vice versa.

Sorry this is such a long ask! I felt it was important to let you know though. Thank you for all the work you do on this blog!

Thanks for the information and sharing it.

Here’s a link to the post the ask is talking about. LINK

Oz

[one-abuse-survivor]

hey there, milky way anon back after almost a year 🌌

a lot of stuff has happened since last december, i had a therapist for a while although i kind of lost touch after i was away over the summer holidays, a very toxic relationship happened for something over a month (i ended up there because i struggled with saying no), my other important relationship is still committed and holding up, i've reconnected a lot with a person who i got to know a few years ago and then promptly lost touch with because it left school and i didn't have its number back then, and who apparently had some very serious medical issues in between then and now so i'm glad it's still alive and around, and especially that i've motivated it to join the team with whom i play my most favorite absurd sport with.

i've also worked a lot on myself, and come to terms with some stuff concerning sexuality and relationships.

i've found (at least) two people who i really look up to, one of them i know personally and he'd probably be overwhelmed if he knew how much of a positive kind of father figure he's become for me ever since i first met him last march despite us only meeting every few months (he does the same sport but in a different team but we've played a bunch of tournaments in the same mixed team recently) and i've learnt a lot of stuff from him, on one hand things related to the sport (i learnt how to play an entirely new position just from him at the few tournaments we've met at and he's been a real pleasure to play that position with and he's probably one of the people who i play the best and easiest with), and the other is a celebrity who just shares a lot of my mindsets and opinions on things and has had to work through a lot of things similar to what i'm going through/went through and how he's handled that is definitely helping get a lot of new insights

honestly just thinking about it those two people have probably done more good things for my psyche in that year than my parents have in my life as far back as i can remember, especially when it comes to general kind of wisdoms, which are offered without heaps of judgement and non-constructive criticism first and are a lot more understandable, applicable and down-to-earth than what my parents would give me

i've also noticed in that time that i stutter, and that i do it a lot and that it's mostly because my mouth can't keep up with my thoughts, because they are too fast and mostly a strange linguistic mashup of english, german and whatever else. i've also noticed that it's a thing my parents like to make fun of.

and yes, seasonal depression is a bitch and i would not wish this fall i had on anybody but i am fighting back hard this time, surrounding myself with people who i share a mutual respect with and whose company i enjoy. i think i've learnt a lot about myself and my emotional needs and how i can fulfill them better to give this fall's depressive phases a lot less ground to stand on

and lastly, i am now in my last year of school, i think overall i have probably around 15 weeks of school left until finals and graduation which i am really excited but also very stressed and anxious about. especially because i'm terrified of the future because i never expected myself to get that far and actually have one and going on to the end of school i need to start planning what i'll do afterwards

thank you a lot for existing, thank you for taking the time and spoons to read through all those asks you're receiving and carefully replying to them, thank you for being someone i can appreciate and respect as much as i do

Hi again!!! Thank you so much for your kind words. I'm glad to be here and to be able to help 🥰

I really hope your graduation went well! And I hope the future feels a little bit less scary now. It's really common to feel that way when you've gone through trauma as a kid and teen. I personally also used to think I'd never make it past 18. It can be incredibly hard to build a life that you never planned to live, and to find your footing and feel like you're in control instead of spiralling wildly and always tripping over your own feet. But it really does get better with time. I'm rooting for you, nonnie ❤️

I'm glad to hear you've found some role models that help you navigate life and learn new things. I think the fact that abused and neglected teens still need safe adults and role models and tend to look for them outside of the house isn't talked about enough. It can go well if they find adults who are actually safe and want what's best for them, or if they find celebrities or even fictional characters to rely on. But with real people it can sometimes go badly, because they can take advantage or they can put space between you, which can feel like parental abandonment all over again. I hope these role models have continued to have a positive impact in your life!

Also, I'm so glad you managed to reconnect with an old friend, and that it was okay! What it went through sounds pretty scary :(

You don't deserve for your parents to make fun of you for stuttering. That's not okay. And I'm so glad you've been able to listen to your emotional needs and meet them. That's not always an easy thing to accomplish, and you really deserve to be proud of yourself for that.

Sending a big hug your way. Hope things are going well! ❤️