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jonny-b-meowborn · 1 year

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Dude I miss the feeling of being in love. Like no one ever loved me back and I've never been in a relationship, so I can't miss that, and while I'd love to date someone, I just really miss the feeling of having a crush on someone

#ive had only two serious crushes in my life #and while neither of them liked me back. it was still noce #when we were friends #but right now i dont even have that many friends i dont have anyone to have a crush on #like im demi so other than my friends i dont love people like that #and my friend circle has been getting smaller and smaller with years #ive had the closets friendships in high school before i failed a year #they moved on without me and that hurt me but im mostly fine with that now #the new class i had to join. i cant call anyone there a friend #im not talking with a single person from that class #not that i hated them all but i havent been close enough with anyone to call them friends #and now its just. my best friend that i met in my first class in high school #a friend from dorm #and like some family that im close with but yknow. thats not where im gonna look for a date lmao #and like. literally i have two close friends now #and im not interested in any of them #and like its one frustrating thing to not have a partner but a different thing is to not even have anyone that could become my partner #like i have no choices around me #and i just. feel lonely #and you know what i wish someone was interested in me romantically. never happened before.#even if thats not someone I'd like to be with i just. want to know its possible for someone to like me that way #cause like sure the cousin's cute friend is into me in some way but. not romantically #and that is cool as fuck to know i can be desirable but i also want to know if im lovable #does that make sense?#like its great to get that kind of attention but im ace theres nothing id do about that lmao #even if more people would find me hot that doesnt change the fact that no one ever found me. yknow. interesting?#idk im just at that age when most of my peers are either in relationships or were in relationships or at least tried to be #and its a bit frustrating #in my Single and Sad era lmao #bee buzz

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garbean · 2 months

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I love dunmeshi for the like.. built in horror of consumption. Like they eat to survive, they eat to honor their prey, they eat to possibly mourn someone. Laios eats monsters because he wants to learn more about the things he loves, Senshi eats monsters to feel included in the ecosystem because he didn't fit in with the outside and with most creatures in general, Chilchuck DOESN'T eat as much as he could because eating too much could kill all the party members, Marcille eats monsters and hates it but she still does it because she'll die before she could save Falin.

#i like it when food is depicted as more than food #like its insane to want to eat things you love but also the act of knowing more about what you love is also valid #i think senshis backstory really got to me just because he eats monsters cause hes lonely #but also he eats them because he hopes one of them will taste like that one soup #because then he'll know whether he ate someone he cared about or not #i feel like you could get smn if you compared senshi and laios's opinion on food but i don't want to get into it #dungeon meshi #dunmeshi #delicious in dungeon

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paintedcrows · 20 days

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Some Fords! (and Martin K Blackwood is also there)

#Some Ford wips I'm working on! I'll probably post these all seperately later. I dunno yet. just wanted them out of brain jail #The TMA crossover drawings are inspired by a fic which I cannot find the name of right now BECAUSE AO3 is DOWN????#anyway I got more drawings for it I'll post all together later #also I haven't listened to protocals yet and I need to relisten to the og so I hope I remembered Martin's level of lonely avatarship lmao #Also I just think Ford would be a bit mean to himself. ESPECIALLY his immidiately post Fiddleford leaving self #conflicting thoughts of 'I cant risk changing the timeline' and #'I was a miserable self centered idiot and Im afraid I still am so I need to to put my younger self down to feel better'#Gravity falls #Stanford pines #ford pines #young stanford pines #gf fanart #fanart #fan art #my art #digital art #martin k blackwood #the magnus archives crossover #Edit: the fic was 'earth becomes sky in the most literal fashion'!!

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mienar · 1 year

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good morning bakery 🍞🥖

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#artists on tumblr #backgrounds #animated gif #animated illustration #2d animation #digital art #environment art #environment illustration #cozy #myillust #bakery #cottagecore #helloo! i just wanted to share an artwork i managed to finish recently! :D #this was/is actually an old wip i had and i rediscovered it and i still loved the concept so much so i went ahead and completed it!#i actually came up with the name 'good morning bakery' first and the design of the bakery and everything surrounding it was based on the-#-feelings i got at that name!#i suppose it turned out to be cottage-like a little lonely but still chirpy and welcoming :')#i really hope you'll like this! and i hope you're well safe and healthy! sending you much much love!

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hinamie · 1 month

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god, i wish i knew you back when i was a kid / but when you stare into me now, it feels like i did

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #yuji itadori #megumi fushiguro #itafushi #fanart #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #jjk 266 #jjk leaks #fr anon thank u fr the request i am once again emo thinking abt them #n denial fv....god end me put me out of my misery #itfs context makes the lyrics more . healing n hopeful as opposed to wistful and lonely :'<#'everything around me looks so different now / yet everything about me wants to show you around'#PLS PLS PSLPSSLPS ILL CRY ILL DO ITTTTT #anyway emo hours aside original plan was striped shirt yuuji but i gave up smile #put him in white t shirt jail yet again sighs i feel like i do tht with him so often.....#like kid megu that's just his canon outfit but yuuji i wanted 2 get a bit more creative. task failed :(#hes got mismatched socks n scuffed knees but thats abt it #i often think abt how in official art they always put gojo in a gd white t shirt and i go smh but then here i go #pot kettle etc etc #megumi voice whatever!!!!! white tshirt in sunlight Looks Good sue me #pls enjoy them :'> anon i hope i delivered

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tahopo · 2 months

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we truly regressed when people started buying into the genderbending is inherently transphobic thing. yeah that twelve year old being inquisitive and having fun on deviantart was your enemy all along.

#how did that even have a leg to stand on. when so many emerging trans folk literally began exploring gender because of it #ill never forget seeing a lone korean comment on fc2 under genderbend art talking about how they visit that picture every day after work #because it makes them feel understood #to even think of being beyond what you were born. in korea. my god i feel it in my spine just how lonely that ought to be #every time i see that rhetoric make rounds im reminded and equal amounts astounded #by how determined people are at making trans folk a monolith #and how there must be a Correct way to explore gender #if the discussion had stuck to the concept’s Capacity to be transphobic and not about inherently being so we’d have been better off.#& at the end of the day art shouldn’t always have to need such a disclaimer on selfhood to be worthy #in the same vein actors should not need to relinquish themselves to the public to act as a gay or trans character #I don’t know !#saw hatsune mikuo art in the year 2024 and the soul near jumped it’s been so long king 🙀#putting this in here because it’s sooort of art related no?#and people know where I stand on this so perhaps if anybody finds it uncomfortable they can gracefully disengage with me

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tea-cat-arts · 4 months

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Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will

#svsss #scum villian self saving system #shen qingqiu #shen yuan #the fact that people think scum villain #-a series that examines and criticizes common tropes in fiction-#is somehow against criticism or being a little hater is wild to me #especially since shen qingqiu never gets punished for being a hater #heck- he's still a little hater by the end of the series #he mostly gets punished for treating life like a play and like he and the people around him are characters #(or in other words- he suffers for denying his own wants and emotions and his own sense of empathy)#I think some of y'all underestimate how much writing/art is inspired by creaters being little haters #like example off the top of my head-#the author of Iron Widow has been pretty vocal about the book being inspired by their hatred of Darling in the Franxx #I think my interpretation of Shen Yuan's transmigration is also supported by the fact that this series is an examines writing processes #side note- though i understand why people say Shen Yuan is lazy and think its a valid take it still doesnt sit right with me #i am probably biased because my own experiences with chronic pain and depression and isolation #but ya- i dont think Shen Yuan is lazy so much as he is deeply lonely and feels purposeless after denying parts of himself for 20ish years #like yall remember the online fandom boom from covid right?#being stuck completely alone in bed while feeling like shit for 20 days straight does shit to your brain #the fact that no one came to check on him + he wasn't exactly upset about leaving anyone behind supports the isolation interpretation too #+in the skinner demon arc he describes his life of being a faker/inability to stop being a faker now that he's Shen Qingqiu #as “so bland he's tempted to throw salt on himself” and “all he could do is lay around and wait for death” (<-paraphrasing)#bro wants to be doing stuff but is stuck in paralysis from repeatedly following scrips made by other people #another point on “Shen Yuan isn’t lazy” is just the sheer amount of studying that man does #also he did graduate college- how lazy can he really be #he doesnt know what hes doing but he at least tries to actively train his students #and he actually works on improving his own cultivation + spends quite a bit of time preping the mushroom body thing #+he's experiencing bouts of debilitating chronic pain throughout all this #but ya tldr: Shen Yuan's transmigration is an encouragement to write and not a punishment and also i dont think its fair to call him lazy

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teddybeartoji · 11 days

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been thinking a lot abt fwb!gojo today.... this is his first time ever doing this kind of a thing btw. i do not think he sleeps around AT ALL. but with you, he just... you start off as very good friends but then it keeps escalating – you start sitting closer and closer, your thighs always touching as you lounge on the couch. his hands seem to always find your waist in public, your seem to be in his hair more and more. and the thing is... satoru isn't all that good at deciphering his own feelings. he isn't entirely sure what this is; the butterflies in his stomach whenever you laugh at his jokes, the warmth that spreads under his skin whenever he sees you bend over. it's weird. he doesn't know what to do.

so, when one night you inch closer with your hand on his thigh, he lets you. he welcomes you with open arms. you ask whether it's okay or not and he lets out a shaky yes, his cheeks burning with something new, his eyes low and heavy as he stares at your lips. you feel so good on top of him, your body flushes to his and he thinks about how perfect this is. how much he likes it. the night is like a wet dream for him, something he's always dreamed off but when you leave the bed and hop into the shower without giving him a kiss, he doesn't even know what the weight on his heart means. where it comes from. he doesn't ponder over it for too long though as you step outside the bathroom in a shirt way too big, his shirt. he watches you get dressed and hums when you joke about his bed hair. he thinks you look gorgeous. he doesn't ask for you to stay – if this is what you want, to leave without the desire to continue your adventures from the last night, then so be it. satoru wants you to be happy. you tell him it was good and that you'd like to, perhaps, do it again and he can taste you on his tongue when he says that he feels the same. satoru will take every crumb you'll give him with a smile on his face. he won't complain and he won't ask for more, not yet at least. for now, he'll be completely and utterly at your mercy, a lapdog for you to play with whenever you so desire to do. a selfless kind of love.

#this might not be everybody's satoru i realize #but idk i think he's a lonely boy who doesn't know how to deal with his feelings #he really does like you and he wants your attention #he wants your love #he just . doesn't know how to ask for it #idk ok this is also wordvomit #but yeah sad little meow meow satoru who just wants to do everything and anything for you #he's kind of a knight in this #selfless type of love yk #even got the dog motif in lmao #okok i'm sleepy so idk if any of this even makes sense just bear with me yeah #(the bear is very calm and friendly please relax)#mickey is daydreaming #angel boy #gojo x reader

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d3athanddecay1 · 5 months

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I should just stop existing

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napping-sapphic · 1 year

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I just want to fall in love with someone who makes me feel safe like even when we’re angry or sad or upset i just want to know that both of us are still going to be okay

#wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #today was….not good #and at one point i had a moment #where i was just unbearably SAD and LONELY because i didn’t have anyone to call or talk to about it #but im still really hopeful it will happen some day #because all i want in this world is to feel secure #and for others to feel secure around me #and for everyone to feel secure around people they love #because it’s so painful and scary when you don’t #but one day im going to be warm and happy in someone’s arms and will barely remember this at all #im manifesting it #im completely okay btw things just got a little rough #and in the incredibly stressful and dramatic times i was experiencing my brain STILL had to be gay #im gay and i like sleeping #also yeah i said i wouldnt post after midnight again like two days ago but whatever #im sad and want to yearn on the internet we can make an exception tonight

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tasneko · 1 month

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"Nicely done Chibi!!"

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Which version do you prefer more? 1 or 2?

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Honestly, this is the first time I drew 15 Soukoku with their original outfits, this gave me such nostalgia of season 3 🤧

#bsd #bsd fanart #bsd fandom #bungo stray dogs #anime art #bsd chuuya #anime fanart #bsd dazai #soukoku #dazai x chuuya #double versions for double black #15 Soukoku #made myself feel lonely again help #these babies will always be my roman empire #i want what they have #if not that just forget about it 😭#why they gotta be so cute all the time I hope they explode I swear

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neonbuck · 9 months

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you have to love people for real. and that means loving them as people who have flaws, and will annoy you or get on your nerves some times. treating them like a toy or product you can throw away when you get bored or upset is not acceptable. it's what we've been conditioned to do, but it makes the world worse.

#.txt #i didnt always know this and i dont pretend i did.#i'm just glad i've learned it now at least #i went straight from a cult-like group into tumblrs 'its ok to kick any one out of your life for any reason' environment in my early 20s #it made my life turbulent lonely and miserable #thinking on the older adults who should have known better leading sheltered young queer people astray back then makes me feel so bitter.

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ryllen · 8 months

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