Untitled Angst Fic - Part 1
Naomi Mcpherson (MUNA) x reader (soft!gf coded)
pls give me a title
read the preface here!
Synposis: Naomi is too busy working on the album to listen to thjeir gf and she's had enough :(
G's notes: come get y'alls juice!!! (also im sure naomi is a great partner this is RPF don't come for meeeee)
Wc: ????
Warnings: RPF, angst, fighting, mean!naomi, negligent!naomi, producer!naomi, leaving?, no fundamental physical descriptors, reader is soft!gf coded so she/her pronouns/afab?
It's been 6 hours since you left the house. LA traffic doing wonders for you, listening to angry music, twirling the engagement ring on your left hand anxiously followed by a quick vent sesh with the mom-to-be (and bless her since she's got so much more to worry about besides your relationship). Despite the time away, parking in the driveway puts a frown on your face, not sure what you'll face when you get inside.
As soon as you walk in, it's almost like you never left. Naomi sits on their laptop, albeit in a different place than when you left this morning, the doors to their office wide open. There's soft music playing from the speakers, their torso covered in a shirt and despite their comment about not needing to be dressed in their house to work, some dickies pants cover their legs.
"C'mere...hi, I missed you, hm?" you say sweetly to your dog and cat, both animals clearly starved for attention and affection.
Naomi perks up a little, watching you squat down to greet your fur-children, a small smile on their face gets wiped off when they remembered how pissy you were when you left, and how long were you gone anyway.
"Missed you too," Naomi mumbles sarcastically, as if greeting your pets meant negating them. Their fingers move quickly over the keys, eyes never leaving the screen as they begin to talk.
"...Sooo, are we gonna talk about it? Or are we just going to pretend that whatever happened this morning didn't happen?" Naomi asks, eyes fixated on the work in front of them.
There's something so deeply offensive the way that Naomi delivers the question, not even being able to see their eyes feels like they asked it because they should, not because they wanted to. All you can do is roll your eyes, sighing softly as you put your bag down on the dining room table, ignoring Naomi's question as you walk into the kitchen.
Naomi's eyes quickly flit to the edge of their laptop, seeing you walk away. They mimic you, rolling their eyes, sighing deeply as they look back to their screen. "Guess we're pretending it never happened, got it," they mumble sarcastically to themselves. "I can be petty too, I'm just gonna mind my own business then, it's immature to give me the silent treatment so I'll just let you do your thing," they mumble venomously, their words send a chill up your spine, tears welling in the corners of your eyes.
You sniffle softly, wondering if the flames moving up the walls are even present in Naomi's mind. The energy in the house has been off for weeks, your anxiety and Naomi's attitude taking turns twisting the muscles in your chest until the house feels like its on fire and you're inhaling straight smoke.
You wipe your eyes, slipping on walking shoes before grabbing the leash. Your sweet chunk of a dog sits politely in front of you, wagging his nubby tail as he sees the leash in your hands. "Let's get you outside, yeah? Hm? Wanna go on a walk with mama?" you whisper softly, rubbing his ears when he sits so good for you while you attach the leash.
Naomi hears the click of the leash to the collar and stops typing, looking up at you. "Where are you going?" they ask, emphasizing their annoyance, ignoring the redness in your eyes.
"On a walk? Since you couldn't be bothered to get off the computer," you mutter back in a snarky tone, grabbing the poop bags and your water bottle.
"He went out twice today, I'm not- whatever," Naomi scoffs, turning back to their laptop.
"Might as well take the cat too," Naomi mutters, like it was a stroke of genius.
It takes everything in you not to shut the laptop on their hands and yell "fuck off". But you bite your tongue, wiping your eyes again and open the door, getting the dog outside and slamming the door.
"Well that was dramatic," Naomi mumbles, their eyes flicking over to the front door after it slams, feeling a little bad that you slammed the door. They allow themselves to feel annoyed again when they remember that you implied that they didn't take care of your dog all day.
The time moves quickly, within half an hour, worry starts to creep up Naomi's neck. It's going to get dark soon and you don't live in a busy or unsafe neighborhood but you're taking longer than you normally would alone.
"Where are you?" Naomi texts, checking your location, finding it unable to load.
15 minutes later you walk into the house, having to sit on the curb half a mile away just to cry, wondering if this is a prolonged ending to your relationship.
Naomi can tell you've been crying, that same worry crawling back up their neck as they look at your glassy eyes, cheeks flushed.
"Sit Bruno...good boy," you say softly, taking the leash off of his collar, hanging it up in the hallway before moving to the kitchen to fill his water bowl.
Bruno's paws tap across the tile floor, Naomi smiling softly as they type on the computer. "Hey," they call out, position unchanged. "Did you get lost?" they ask, feigning ignorance.
"No, we went on a walk, I said that when we left," you huff, toeing off your shoes.
"Okay yeah but you took twice as long as you normally do," Naomi says, finally looking up at you with a slight frown, waiting for an explanation.
"Okay? Sue me Naomi, I don't know what you want me to say, we went on a longer walk," you explain exasperated, throwing your arms up.
"You know what, fine, don't tell me," they say, looking back towards the laptop, typing away again.
There's a beat of silence, your eyes widen at their quick dismissal.
"Is what you're doing really more important than me?" you ask suddenly, eyes staring wide at Naomi, flooding with hurt.
Naomi looks up, slightly annoyed at the question. "No?" they say, voice sounding resigned. They sigh loudly, "Fine, you can have my attention," they say looking up. "Now, where have you been?" they ask, eyes stern.
"God, you're... forget it Naomi," you say, tone going from livid to defeated in 5 words. You shake your head, walking up the stairs, heading to the shower.
Naomi just shakes their head, rolling their eyes at the dramatics of it all. But as they sit there, the clock ticking, Bruno's collar jingling as he scratches, the scratching the cat is doing on the cat tree, and the faint water running - Naomi sighs again, a shame creeping up their neck at their own stubbornness.
When Naomi saves their work and finally makes it upstairs, they linger near the ensuite door, heart cracking at the sounds of your sobs hidden between a stream of hot water.
"Baby," the say quietly, knocking on the door lightly.
The crying stops immediately, almost like you were trying to get your voice back to normal.
"What?" you ask, and it comes out harsh. Honestly, could've come down harsher if your voice wasn't thick with emotion.
"I'm- I'm sorry, I've been a total... dick today," Naomi says, tone slightly defeated and aware. "Can I come in?" they ask. And the question hangs, like a rancid herb, drying between the two of you. And Naomi is met with sternness.
"No."
"Can I at least talk to you?" Naomi asks, temple resting against the door. They feel ashamed for how they've acted, replaying the interactions with you over and over in their mind.
"You can't wait til I'm done?" you ask, because the absolute audacity of Naomi to interrupt a shower cry.
"I want to talk about it now, when it's still fresh," they speak through the door. "I'm not gonna wait in the hallway for you to finish showering," they say with annoyance and disdain. The rational part of Naomi that realizes you can't have a productive talk while you're in the shower and that cornering you like this was a mistake can't come to the phone right now because they don't even exist.
"Well considering I'm always waiting on you to have conversations, I think you can wait until i rinse the conditioner out of my hair," you spit out in a snarky tone.
"What? I'm not always making you wait on me," Naomi says, incredulously at such an implication.
"Oh my god, can you let me shower?" you practically exclaim, exasperated beyond belief.
"Fine, jeez," Naomi mutters, rolling their eyes and moving to the edge of the bed, taking out their phone. It's only a few minutes later that Katie, Jo, and some of the MUNA team get on a joint call, Naomi pacing back and forth in the bedroom while listening and giving updates on the production.
When you open the bathroom door wrapped in a towel, its disappointing but not at all surprising to hear Naomi on the phone, passionately giving updates about the production they've been working on. At this point you're done, what else can you do? People could say you're being difficult but what's so difficult about asking to be left alone in the shower and then expecting your partner to be ready to speak when you get out?
You move quickly towards the walk in closet, Naomi frowning when they see the lack of fire in your eyes, nervous about what it means that you're no longer angry. Their voice falters, trying to finish their thought concisely as they watch your shoulders sag, walking towards the dresser.
"So I should have it done- um..." Naomi's words trail off, watching you slide sweatpants up your legs, picking out one of your own oversized shirts and not theirs. "Look, can I... call you guys back? Or I'll send an email, it'll be easier.... yeah thanks, talk soon," Naomi speaks, hanging up the phone while their eyes bore into your back.
Naomi leans against the doorway of the closet, staring at your wet hair dripping on the carpet as they push their phone into a pocket.
"Are you going to talk to me?" Naomi asks, they ask, watching you towel dry your hair.
"Do you have the time to talk?" you respond, tone almost sassy, flickered with annoyance.
Naomi frowns, rolling their eyes softly. "I just got off my phone call so we could talk," they say like it was a huge sacrifice. "...are you implying I'm always busy?" they ask offended.
"Oh yeah, how noble of you," you scoff. "I'm not implying it, I'm saying it out loud. We barely talk since your eyes are glued to your computer or phone, locked away in your office all day and night."
There's that same shame, realizing that they haven't been as present lately, trying to downplay it in their mind. "Babe, I- you know I can't do everything at once... we have a deadline... there's work I have to get done..." they trail off, realizing the poor excuse for prioritization over your feelings but trying to justify it for fear of being in the wrong.
"Then go get you work done Naomi," you mumble, pushing past them to go into the bedroom.
Your dismissal drives Naomi crazy, shaking their head at your ability to walk away when a conversation is clearly needed.
"Since you don't want to talk it out, fine, be that way," Naomi mutters angrily, walking out of the bedroom and downstairs to their office. Grabbing their laptop and beckoning the dog inside, they slam the french doors to their office shut.
The slam of the doors is followed by your head dropping, hands on the nightstand as you try and breathe through your diaphragm, willing any air to get to your lungs, the tightness in your chest unbearable.
It's like functioning on autopilot. A quick text to Kelli, the pull of your duffle from the closet, a moment of contemplation over your ring dish if the rock on you finger is worth dragging out, and the shoving of clothes and toiletries into the bag, the final zip like a punch in the mouth.
The silence is deafening, staring at the bag at your feet. Texts from Kelli pull you out of the haze, slipping on socks before quietly padding down the stairs.
It almost feels normal. Hair still wet from the shower, opening the pantry to fill the animal's bowls, refreshing their water. Except you don't start cooking, Naomi doesn't pinch your ass and wrap their arms around your shoulders, cold fingers don't rub the warm skin of your hips, chapped lips don't cover the skin behind your ear in kisses.
Instead you grab the bag, slipping on shoes, taking your keys off the hook and look to the french doors of Naomi's office. Their shoulders are tense, hunched over in their chair. To the bottom left, your cat and dog sit, almost like statues. You wonder if they know what's happening... if they can sense the end before you can.
Slamming the door feels final, but you know its a signal. Its the begging for attention you're too prideful to do yourself. Your ring weighs you down as you walk to the car, eyes unfocused.
G's notes: there will be a part 2 and 3 pls do not fear
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Chapter 11 - Shatter Me
As Katrina simply nodded and discarded the heavier garments holding her down, it took a lot of whining from Elizabeth to annoy Ciel to the point that he ripped apart her dress. "IF YOU DIE, YOU'LL NEVER BE ABLE TO WEAR ANY OF THE CLOTHES YOU LOVE AGAIN! IT'S ALL OVER WHEN YOU DIE! ALL OF IT!" the poor girl cried, trembling softly as she apologised for being so stubborn. The Young Earl put his coat over her shoulders so she won't freeze.
Katrina went ahead through the vent as the vanguard, followed by Lizzy helped up by Ciel, and the boy as the read. They walked through the cramped vents, feeling a little claustrophobic, until the lady finally found another such little door. "Hold up, I'm trying to get this thing open." she grumbled, only for the little trap door to suddenly cave in, and she unceremoniously fell through it --
Right in Sebastian's strong arms. "Ah, I see a beautiful Angel fell right into my arms, what a gift from God." the butler's comment only made Kat grin and laugh merrily.
"Thank you for saving me, my knight in shining armour." that cute kitten like smile satisfied the demon as he gently set her down, helping the other two down.
As Sebastian was telling Lizzy that her family was fine and together, battling the undead to rescue the passengers towards the lifeboats, suggesting that they also should hurry to the deck, the roaring of a revved up chainsaw and a lawn mower attracted their attention - From above. The demon pulled the three humans safely behind them, watching with disgust as not only Ronald Knox, but now his greatest nightmare also joined. Grell Sutcliff. "Found you, Hottie~! Long time no see, Sebas-chan! It must be fate for us to meet again, here!"
"Just a coincidence." Sebastian glared at him.
"Ahhh, so cooooold~💖! That side of you is lovely as always!" as Grell was fangirling like a swooning maiden, Ronald was exhausted by his antics, even ending up bickering him him. With the two Reapers being distracted, the four tried to run away. "You wait up there...!" Sebastian had to gather the two children into his arms and jump away as Grell attacked them. Katrina could take care of herself, for the most part. She had a Shinigami weapon, after all. "Setting my body on fire and then neglecting me... How mean~💖!"
"Please refrain from catching on fire by yourself." Sebastian cringed at how openly lecherous Grell was. "We need to hurry on, so could you please open the way?"
"And if I say no~?" Grell, of course, had to challenge him.
"Then I'll just have to beat you halfway to death again." Kat stepped in front of Sebastian, her sword at the ready. "We both know Grell hates me, so I'll take him on. I think I can take his chainsaw better than that lawn mower." she informed the demon. "Take care of Ciel and Lizzy!"
"You... You.... YOU WENCH! Can't you see you're stepping in between our eternal love romance?! We're supposed to have a death-match and die in each other's arms like Romeo and Juliet!" the red haired reaper threw quite the angry tantrum.
"Didn't I tell you to go drown yourself in the Thames, you stupid Ophelia wannabe?!" Kat scoffed at him, uncaring of that ugly glare given her way.
"You're so rude! Can't I just be honest about my feelings?!" Grell growled, rushing forward to slash at the woman, only to get easily parried. "I will kill any love rival standing in my way to reach Sebas-chan!"
"I'm not your love rival, Grell." Kat used every bit of strength she had in her body to keep her sword steady, one hand flat against the blade, keeping it as a shield. "Because Sebastian's only love is the one with the namesake of his most beloved animal!" she smirked, challenging the Reaper.
"What the hell are you on, anyway?!" Grell was, of course, confused - He had no idea what her name was, after all, and even if he had been previously told, she was still just that bitch who stole his man.
"Ah, forgive me, I should introduce myself officially, then!" as Grell was fighting with Kat, Ronald Knox had thrusted the blades of the lawn mower towards the demon's face. "I am Duchess Katrina Raymond!" with obvious struggle, she threw the Reaper off of her. Grell's revved chainsaw ended up cutting away at the wall of the ship, making it gush rapidly with water at such high pressure that it sent the two children away from each other, slammed onto the ground. "And I am going to kill you for good this time, you red freak."
As Katrina kept battling with the other red head, and Sebastian was struggling with all of his might to keep the mower away, Lizzy was endangered, the closest to a huge crowd of incoming undead. Their attention was caught by Ciel, who called out his fiancee's name and started using his remaining few bullets to headshot the monsters, but it wasn't enough. "I.. I..." the freaks were close to engulfing the poor girl. "I wanted you to think of me as cute... Until the very end." she smiled, bittersweet, before she took out her double sabers and massacred with extreme ease all of the undead threatening her and her friends with such beauty and grace that it looked as though she was dancing, waltzing, not killing the undead.
"It was Lizzy who taught me how to fence." Katrina grinned, proud at the beautiful young lady who protected not only herself, but those dear to her. "And it was Lizzy who taught me how to dance."
"This uncute appearance... I didn't want you of all people to see me in such a state... But... This time, I will protect you." she easily cut away the heads of the monsters threatening Ciel. "I am the daughter of the Leader of the British Knights, Marquis Alexis Leon Midford - I am Elizabeth! The wife of the Queen's Watchdog!" she declared, loud and clear, with such confidence that it incurred the other woman's morale.
It was Katrina who understood Lizzy the best, after all, for they were both women. Weak, in order to love. Strong, in order to protect. Both, in order to stay by his side. Just as Lizzy loved Ciel, Katrina, also, cherished Edgar.
What were girls made of, after all? Sugar and spice and everything nice - Right?
A lady should be super weak and cute in front of her Lord. It's the most important thing to be an innocent, naive girl. It's your job to smile and be surrounded by nice things, just like in the nursery rhymes... Or at least, that's what Angelina would tell her, as she longingly watched the love of her life being happily married and very much in love with her daughter.
Poetry over philosophy; Embroidery rather than cooking and dance instead of chess. Be an unknowing angel, she said. Every girl born in the country of Roses is raised by these words, and they simply had to obey happily.
But just like Lizzy, Katrina was also different from the other girls.
Lizzy had a strong mother, a fencing genius, and her mastery passed over to her daughter - It was time for Lizzy to hone that genius into a most precious diamond. Katrina, on the other hand, was strictly forbidden from even approaching a sword - She could only watch Joseph, her brother, fencing with Edgar, her fiance, or with Edward. Her impulses often made her want to get there and pick up a sword, to fight with them, but she was always ostracised and strictly disciplined for such unruly behaviours.
Whilst Lizzy had to learn how to protect her fiance, living in constant fear that, should her secret be one day revealed, he wouldn't want to marry her anymore... She had a friend, a little older than her, in whom she could confide. The few times when Katrina was allowed to sleep over at Lizzy's house, the two girls could have genuine conversations, with her mother also. Frances was, after all, Katrina's greatest supporter in learning the art of swordsmanship, and it showed, as both Lizzy and Kat had almost identical elegance in both fencing and dancing.
It was during these fencing spars that she first met the two Charles boys, and defeated Grey with relative ease, which only earned a few salty insults. Kat asked him if his ego was so frail that he needed a woman to go easy on him, in order to win. The boy laughed at her comment, and declared they would be eternal frenemies.
At that time, Edgar was the person she was looking up to, and she was always happy in his proximity, for he allowed her to engage in anything her heart desired - Which, most of the time, was to join in on anything he was studying at the time. Whether it be fencing together, or learning new embroidery techniques, they would do it together. Edgar never put a gender label on activities, as he considered every skill being useful, no matter the person. He wasn't upset that she bested him in fencing, nor was she upset that he was far superior in embroidery. While she could never even hold a candle to his poem-writing and reciting, he also couldn't beat her in science or calculus.
And the best part of all this - Was that it was their little secret. Her parents didn't have to know what they were doing. She was going to marry Edgar Redmond, and after that, she was going to be his 'property' as the noble society would call it - And from there, she could be truly free, without being shackled by the eternal strictness of her parents.
She wanted to be cute and pretty, to be a wife that he could protect - Whilst also having the means of protecting him, if needed. She wanted to become a wife capable of protecting the boy she cherished so much, and that feeling only enforced with the death of her brother - If she couldn't protect him, at least she could protect Edgar.
He was tall and lean, very gracious just like his uncle, but with none of that overexaggerating drama... At least around her. And though she was a little taller than Lizzy, when she was her age, she never felt the need to resort to flat shoes around him. She was happy with cute heels when going to a ball with him, and just as happy wearing flats through the awful cobbled stone streets of London. Comfort above all - Wouldn't want the heel to break and fall, right?
"I'm fine with not being cute, as long as it means that I can protect you!" Lizzy declared boldly as she turned the tip of her sword towards Grell, who was looking at her with more confusion than anything. However, the butler pinched the blade between his fingers, and Kat quickly hugged her from behind, stopping her from advancing further. Her blades would never be able to kill him, unfortunately.
"My Lady, no further." he went on his knee, bowing deeply. "To have forced a lady to go through so much trouble... I have failed as a butler. I am deeply sorry." he said, before getting up and glaring at the two Reapers. "I'll take it from here."
"When are you going to do that for me also?" Katrina's comment earned a nasty look from the demon, who only sighed, watching her playful grin.
"Keep the curtains safe from your cute claws for now, little Kitten. I will have you cared for when we're done with work." the butler reassured her, fixing his gloves.
"Well, whatever, let's continue!" Grell declared, only for the fight to be stopped by the Earl.
"Wait, Sebastian!" the demon froze. "We have no time to worry about those guys! Ryan holds the key to everything in this case - Follow him!"
"Wait a sec, you - You mean that if we put the screws on that guy, we can learn about these walking corpses?" Ronald came over with his book, and at once, the two departed. "I'll wrap you in the red of roses next time for sure~💖! Bye~💖!"
"We should hurry as... Urgh.." Ciel's ankle seems to have been twisted in the commotion, poor boy.
"It's quite swollen." Sebastian noted.
"Oh no! I'll carry you on my back!" Lizzy declared boldly, urging the boy to hop on.
"WHAT?!" Ciel gasped in blind shock.
"Lazy Elizabeth, I'll take care of that." Sebastian reassured her quickly.
"A-Ah! Th-That's right, yes, Oh... Oh no, I... I..." she started sobbing loudly, poor soul. "I'M THE KIND OF SCARY GIRL CIEL HATES!" she cried so pitifully that Kat immediately fell next to her, holding her in her arms.
"Hey now, don't say that. Edgar always said a Lady is more beautiful, the more skills she possessed." the red head tried to comfort her friend.
"B-But before, Ciel said he didn't want a strong and scary wife!" she looked completely inconsolable.
"Th-That was in the past... A-And, anyways, I should be the one apologising right now." Ciel sweat-dropped, confused as hell at the whole situation.
"Then, you will take me as your wife? You won't hate me?" she asked, her eyes sparkling with hope.
"I could never...." Ciel's face became so red and flustered, and although the demon barely had the strength to slap a hand over his mouth and stop his laughter, Katrina was unable to resist, and her chuckles mirthfully resounded through the large chamber. "We don't have time for this! Let's go upstairs already!"
"Even the Young Master can't help himself in front of a Lady, huh? Ahhh, so amusing..." Sebastian grinned, satisfied with the situation, as he carried Ciel in his arms. "Well then, let's go."
"You both - Stop laughing already!" the poor boy was redder than Kat's hair.
Out of nowhere, Snake managed to find them, and together, they rushed to the First Class Deck, where Edward was yelling at the shameless men who were trying to take the seats in the lifeboats from the women and children. His anger dissipated immediately as soon as Lizzy hugged him tightly. "Oh, Lizzy, I'm glad you're okay! It must have been so hard on you..." the girl left his embrace, and instead of Ciel, Edward saw the disheveled and soaked image of Katrina. He blushed awkwardly, and though he wanted to look away, he found himself bringing her into an embrace. "I am glad you are safe, Kat."
The girl smiled softly, wrapping her arms around the blond gentleman, who worried over her, in spite of not being engaged as it was first proposed. He still cared so much for her, and their time spent at Weston together only brought them closer - At least for Lizzy's sake - Though he continued being highly awkward around her. "I am happy to see you and your family alright."
"I'm sorry, I've been completely useless." it was hilarious hearing the young Earl say such a thing about himself.
"I'll say... Well, whatever. We'll save the lecture for later. Kat, take Lizzy to the boat. You two, hurry up also." Edward sternly ordered them to hurry up.
"Edward, I have a favour to ask. Instead of me, let this guy on." Ciel pointed towards snake. "
"The three of us still have some stuff to do around the boat. We can't leave yet." Kat offered a small smile.
"I see. I'll take him." though Edward wanted to protest, afraid for Kat's safety, he knew, by that serene look she gave him, that he couldn't change her mind.
Before Lizzy could protest, saying she was going to stay behind also, Sebastian gently hit her, making her faint. It was going to be impossible to do anything without Lizzy butting in due to her excessive worry and stubbornness. "The ship has already tilted heavily. It's just a matter of time before it sinks. Please escape quickly and get as far away from the ship as possible. I'll leave Snake and Lizzy in your hands!"
"YOU DON'T HAVE TO COME BACK! BUT YOU DEFINITELY MUST MAKE SURE KAT RETURNS!" Ed yelled at the Phantomhive Lord. "I'll be fine not having to give you my cute little sister as a bride, but I can't have her best friends dying on her."
"I'll be sure to make it back, then." Ciel smiled at his brother-in-law before the three departed.
Running through the halls, they found Viscount Druitt, who was casually drinking some wine. "Aleister? What are you doing here? I thought you'd have escaped by now?" Kat stepped forward to speak.
"Well, my dear niece-in-law, you see this thing? I absolutely must protect this thing, even if it means risking my life on this sinking ship." he smirked conspicuously.
"Aleister, we are all part of the Aurora society. We know that device is suppose to bring an end to the walking corpses." the Viscount eyed her carefully, before putting his arm around her shoulder and bringing her closer. "You should have left the ship by now. My nephew would be very upset if something were to happen to his pretty Lady wife."
"Don't worry, I plan on returning and having my wedding." this comment from her seemed to earn a chuckle from someone. Someone so familiar, in fact.
"Undertaker?!" Kat gasped, rushing in front of him. "You're alive! I've been looking all over for you! I was so worried, you silly old man!" though he was carrying the device, she couldn't help but hug him tightly in her arms.
"Aww, my cute little girl, worrying so much over nothing." he grinned at her enigmatically.
"What are you doing here?" Ciel gasped.
"While I was escaping, I was asked to help carry this." he was lying so shamelessly.
"By the way, do you happen to know how to activate this?" the Earl asked.
"Who knoooows~? How will this thing be on any help, I wonder." he hummed mysteriously.
"It won't. It's useless." Kat eyed him carefully. His grin only widened, though he said nothing.
As the men placed the device where the Viscount instructed, he mentioned having the cast incomplete. What was missing, then? "BASTARD! WHY DID YOU TAKE THE DEVICE?!" from the balcony, Ryan shouted angrily at the blond man.
"Welcome, Ryan. I was waiting for you. Tonight, the Empire you built will collapse like Pompeii, and its place, my new realm, will be born!" he declared, like a Caesar at the Colosseum. "With the power of this device, I will create a new Empire!" he posed like the Phoenix. "The one who conquered eternity shall rule over everyone else with corruption and decadence! It will be called - The Aurora Empire!"
"How are you and Edgar related...?" Kat stared in horror and her uncle-in-law, cringing to death.
From each side, the glass walls got shattered by the countless undead that were coming over to their side. "There's too many!" Ronald gasped.
"Please activate it, Viscount!" Ciel yelled at the man.
"I'm not a Viscount anymore! Caesar... ! I will activate it if you call me that way - With that lovely little mouth of yours, cock robin."
"I'm not related to him. I don't know him." Katrina declared blandly, clinging onto Undertaker's large sleeve.
"Yeah, let's kill him right now." Ciel's glare was murderous.
"Please wait, although I understand your feelings." Sebastian agreed.
"Ohh! Ohhhhhh! How many paladins putting their fleeting lives at stake... This place is like a Colosseum of corruption, and I'm watching them from above, slowly enjoying my wine, just like the Emperor Nero!" everyone was fed up with him - Except the Undertaker, who was constantly giggling.
"ARGHHHHHHHH OKKKK DO WE KILL HIM?!" Ronald was losing his mind.
"YOU JUST STOPPED ME EARLIER!" Grell yelled back at him. "HEY, YOU, MAKE THAT THING WORK ALREADY!"
"Heh... Fine. It's time to found my New Empire. Come on, everybody, show me the dance of the Phoenix to pledge your loyalty to the Emperor!"
"Let's kill him." the four agreed on one thing.
"Oh, no, are you sure you don't want to know how the device works?" of course, with how he was behaving, he knew. He knew it was a hoax.
As those fools all did the Phoenix pose, in hopes of having the Viscount activate the machinery, Katrina stomped in front of that thing. "ARE YOU ALL SO STUPID AS TO BELIEVE THIS STUPID THING IS ACTUALLY GOING TO INACTIVATE THE UNDEAD?! ARE YOU ALL SCREWED IN THE HEAD?! ARE YOU? HUH?!" Kat was at her limit. She looked over at the machinery, and pressed the single button of the thing. "Look around you! Do you see them falling over? Do you see them stopping? No, of course not! Because this was a hoax from the very beginning - And you fell for it!" she dragged her hand down her tired face.
"Huh? No, it can't be --" Aleister rushed to her side, continuously pushing the same button. "Ryan! The device you built isn't working!"
"OF COURSE IT'S NOT WORKING - IT NEVER DID!" Kat pushed him out of the way, looking over at the machine. "How is this thing supposed to work without even being connected to a powersource?! Supersonic waves - What a joke! As if such a small, mobile little thing could do such a feat! Let alone stop the electric impulses - Stop the synapses of the brain! It can't! And do you know why?!" Katrina started angrily kicking at the machine. "BECAUSE THERE IS NO FORCE IN THIS ENTIRE WORLD THAT CAN KEEP A DEAD BRAIN ACTIVE! NOT EVEN ELECTRICITY CAN DO THAT - NOT LIKE THIS!" she yelled from frustration, as though she was blaming God for all this. "Because... The only thing that can..." she turned to look at the people watching her, different reactions for all. Some were in despair, others were shocked at the truth revealed, and some couldn't believe what was happening. "You guys said it yourselves, didn't you? A body cannot move without a soul? I never believed in souls, until I was shown that Shinigami exist. That Shinigami are the ones who take souls. I saw William do that, right in front of me, with my brother."
"What the hell are you trying to say? These things don't have a soul, are you dumb?" Grell growled, revving up his chainsaw.
"No... They don't have a soul... But they do have something that only a Reaper can give them." Kat looked at the Undertaker, looking at him with an undetectable expression on her face. "A Shinigami is responsible for all of this."
"And how was this accomplished then, dearie? By the face you made, surely, you found out the mystery, hmm~?" the Undertaker giggled, completely unhinged.Kat's bottom lip trembled, her eyebrows furrowing. Undertaker did all this. Why? Why did he want to accomplish? Was this truly his plan, should she die on him, as was foretold? "No. I'm done. I'm not... I'm done! I'm not saying anything! This is-- To hell with all this! To hell with all of you!" she freaked out, looking with hatred at the undead. "I'M NEVER GOING TO BECOME SOMETHING LIKE THIS, DO YOU HEAR ME?! I'M GOING TO LIVE! I'M GOING TO SURVIVE AND WALK ALL OVER THAT STUPID BOOK THAT SAID I'M GOING TO DIE SOON!" she yelled loudly. "SCREW THE REAPERS! SCREW GOD! SCREW DESTINY! SCREW EVERYTHING THAT ISN'T MY OWN CHOICE!"
"Stupid little bitch, you speak too much, as always!" when she wasn't paying attention, Grell jumped over the balcony and sprung to slash Katrina into pieces. "I'm the only one who's allowed to look good in red!"
"WAIT, SENPAI, WE MUSN'T KILL PEOPLE!" Ronald's warning was in vain, for Katrina reacted too late, and she didn't have enough time to reach for her trusted sword and defend herself against his powerful attack.
"KATRINA!" she heard Ciel's and Sebastian's voices calling out her name, but the attack never came.
"Adrian...?" Kat's eyes widened, green eyes looking straight into his own green eyes. She could see, he was wearing the contact lenses she made for him. With one arm, he kept her safe, at his chest, shielding her with his body, while the other hand off-handedly used a wooden grave marker to stop the chainsaw with ease.
"Hehe... It's been a while since I've laughed so much... How could I possibly lose my cute little apprentice, when I promised I would keep her safe from the claws of death - Right... Shinigami?" with a twirl, Undertaker easily pushed Grell away, as he revealed all the other grave markers he kept in his coat, which he threw at the red head - They all hit the glass ceiling which shattered into multiple dangerous shards. Sebastian had to shield the boy, as Katrina was sheltered by the Undertaker. "How sad... How sad would it be..."
"...Should laughter disappear." Katrina found herself unconsciously continuing the quote he always told her. "Adrian... You didn't have to do all this. They know about you now. I'm sorry."
"Shinigami?!" the others gasped.
"You've been hiding yourself well. Since you kept your eyes hidden, I never noticed it either." Sebastian eyed the man suspiciously.
"Me too, I've been had. There's no mistaking that yellowish-green glimmer. He is a Shinigami!" Grell spoke definitely.
"Hehe... How nostalgic. It's been half a century since someone last called me that." he smiled softly.
"WHAT'S THE MEANING OF THIS, UNDERTAKER?!" Ryan ran up to them. "Didn't you tell me that we could control the corpses as long as we have this device?! Did you fool me?! Was it all a lie?! All that about going to America to spread Complete Salvation?!"
"And you were dumb enough to believe that?!" Kat looked at him with shock, before looking at her master. "He actually believed you? Really?"
The silver haired man grinned emptily, shrugging his shoulders. "But you see, I thought it was funny, since you were trying to bring the dead back to life in all seriousness. You were the perfect person for my purpose." and here is where Katrina's knowledge of his plans completely ends.
"So our goal of making the entire world healthy was...?!" Ryan gasped, betrayed by his associate.
"That's YOUR goal, isn't it?" Kat never heard him speak so harshly. "You couldn't perform the resurrection of human beings with the kind of medicina that you possess. In my book, from the moment you relief on OUR skills, that can't be called medicine anymore. The kind of guy who would use a treatment he doesn't even understand on his patients is no longer a doctor, you see." Undertaker pat the head of Ryan, who fell on his knees. "To think that a knowledgeable man with a formal education like you couldn't even hold a candle to a mortician's apprentice who never went to school... Haha... My little songbird's thrill was most exciting, wasn't it? You were just a good boy who honestly believed in my story. How precious."
"So, in other words, you're the mastermind behind the Aurora Society's human resurrection experiments?" Ciel asked from the top of the stairs.
"That's a secret~💖... Is what I'd like to say, but by doing that Phoenix Pose you've paid me for an awful amount of information - So, I'll tell you, hehe." the man chuckled, his long fingernails gently trailing through Kat's damp carmine locks. "I allowed my curiosity get the best of me. My intelligent little fox, with curiosity to match my own, was happy enough to play with all these dead bodies. You see, although I am the one who taught her everything, she does some incisions differently - And all these corpses have her signature style. Should have seen how happy she was!" he hummed without a care in the world. "And I was the one who made them move. "That was my curiosity of human life and death." the man explained. "Tell them, dearie. Enlighten them."
"You tempered with the Cinematic Records, didn't you?" unlike before, Katrina's voice was whispery, as if ashamed to speak.
"Exactly so! I had lived the Shinigami life for a long time, when one day I thought - What would happen if the end had a continuation? What would happen to the flesh body if you were to connect a continuation to the memories that had come to an end, without the soul? Shinigami only hunt souls, after all. The body AND the brain that holds the memories are left in this world." he explained his idea.
"No way... You edited the records...?" Grell asked in a serious voice, no longer theatrical as before.
Undertaker grinned, pointing towards some corpses. "Well then, how about you take a look at their records with your own abilities?"
Just as he said, the memories after death were continued - Ridiculous images of the Undertaker playing around, scene with him and Katrina working on corpses or cooking, drinking tea or waltzing around the parlor... With the end of the memories never coming, the body mistakenly thinks that life is still continuing, and it starts moving again without a soul. That's what living beings do best - Try to fill up whatever they lack - So, the corpses were seeking their Souls.
"I can temper with the records, but I can't create a soul. I experimented a lot, but most of them never became anything more than flesh dolls without a self. That's why I call them, not living, and not dead. The Bizarre Dolls." he grinned, reaching out for a corpse and pulling it in his embrace.
"How perverse can you be..." Ciel glared at the man.
"That you can't understand this beauty just means you're still too young, Earl. This beautifully stitched skin, as white as wax, just like when they were alive. Their mouth that cannot clamour noisily or tell lies any longer. Aren't they all far more beautiful than when they were alive?"
Watching the adoration in his eyes as he stroked the hair of one of the Dolls, before throwing her away, made Katrina shed a single tear, smiling in shock at what she was seeing. "Adrian." she breathed out. "Is this what you wanted to make out of me? When I would have inevitably died, would you have done this very same thing to me also?"
"But of course. Aren't you my precious little thing, little Kat?" Katrina felt like a child being scolded, her mind not working anymore, and her heart deceiving her. She wanted to slump to the ground and cry just like Lizzy would when she was sad. She never was allowed to cry as a child, as she'd get it beaten out of her - But now, she truly, truly wished to weep like a little girl. "Didn't I tell you? I am an old man, I lost a lot - And I cannot afford to lose more. I was going to preserve you forever, like the beautiful flower that you are. This way, you can speak as much as you want without being scolded by society, and you won't need to worry about hair, clothes or make up. I would take care of you."
There was nothing that she could say. She was lost, and drowning, in her own thoughts. So distraught, so confused, that she had to lean back on the railing of the stairs and try to keep herself above the water, and not succumb to the depths of the ocean that her dark thoughts were.
Not only was Undertaker creeping her the hell out with the idea of having her body in such a state after death, but the fact that this whole trip was premeditated to be destroying - The same amount of humans and bizarre dolls. Let them kill each other and see how many survive on each end.
"Quite deranged." if even a demon could say such a thing...
The ship was never headed to America. It was supposed to sink anyway - And Katrina would have been there, with him. The only two survivors of this experiment - Were it not for Ciel and Sebastian to hinder this mess.
"The more he says, the more I know I can't let this pass." Grell sigh, looking in disdain at the silver haired man. He knew it was going to be tough.
"I know, right. Shinigami distorting the way of Death is totally impossible... Though he doesn't have glasses. Is he one of those deserters you see sometimes?" Ronald asked, fixing his own glasses.
"Shinigami are weak." Katrina's voice boomed suddenly. "You rely on glasses, but if they're taken away, your sight is shit." her head leaned to the side. "I have wonderful services, you see. I make a business out of creating the perfect contact lenses for unfortunate Reapers like yourself." she smiled, comically. "If Undertaker used me all this time, well - I might as well make good money out of the things I experimented of him, huh? Look at him - He's doing perfectly well for himself without glasses - You wouldn't think he even needs them."
"You're... You're a little sick yourself." the blond Shinigami made her glare at him.
"Maybe I am sick in the head, who knows?! That's what death does to people!" she declared, taking out her sword and pointing it at him. "But I'm really angry, you see? I really want to cry right now, but I never cried in my life, so the only way I know how to release my anger is... By destroying things." she offered a poisonous grin, filled with faux innocence. "Won't you drop dead already?"
But the two Reapers wanted to quickly take down Undertaker, and so did Sebastian. Three supernatural beings, trying their hardest to get rid of a single rabbit - Only for that rabbit to maul them apart with ease. Silly them, they should have known better. Kat truly doubted there was anyone who could defeat Undertaker, even if they added their forces together. With Undertaker revealing his gorgeously modified Death-Scythe, Kat could only stare in awe at the design of the half skeleton with the thorny crown, just like Jesus on the cross.
"It can cut anything - That catchphrase is false, when multiple death scythes are involved. So you were the one who gave Katrina the death-scythe after all, weren't you." Sebastian recalled the outstanding sword that saved her life on multiple occasions.
"They should've collected it when you retired..." Knox gasped in shock at the wonderous scythe.
"I couldn't just part with it, you know? I went through quite the trouble to take it with me, you know. Both of them." he smiled, raising his blade up above his head. "Now then... How about I hunt you guys now, like the pitiful rabbit in a hunting game."
Katrina and Ciel could only stare at the murderous game they played, until Undertaker, amused by Sebastian's shrewdness, leapt behind them, dragging Ciel away. Of course, the demon, bound by his contract, was forced to act accordingly. "Ciel!" as the young boy was thrown away, Katrina quickly ran to catch him in her arms.
The butler turned in an instant, instinctively reaching out to his young master, only to get the full blow of the scythe impaling him through his torso. "They may be weak and fragile, but a human life is quite hard to drag out, butler." without realising, the red head let the boy to the ground and rushed to the raven haired demon, helpless - What could she, as a human, do in such a situation? Not only was she powerless, but she knew of no way to heal a supernatural being, especially from such a wound. "I always wondered - Why a vicious beast like you would dress up and play the butler? Show me your record."
Everyone had to watch how the contract between Ciel and Sebastian was formed - Ciel's ritual, how he almost died, how he summoned the demon to massacre everyone who hurt him. How they ended up getting along, in the weird sense - How Sebastian got his name after Ciel's dog, how the boy was taken to Tanaka at the hospital, then at Angelina, how they ended up at the burnt Manor, the graveyard of his parents, how Sebastian, with the flick of his fingers, made the Manor brand new.
They were shown how Sebastian and Ciel learnt together everything there was to be learnt - The demon would learn about the appropriate temperature for a human's bath, the amount of pressure and strength to apply when touching the frail human body - And Ciel had to learn to stop being fussy and stubborn.
Sebastian had to be taught that he had to act like a human, as to not arouse suspicion of his supernatural being, and especially, he had to go through trial and error multiple times to understand, at least relatively, the taste of human food... Which tastes like ash to him.
That little brat.
Without a Governess, Sebastian became his teacher - A very strict teacher that would slap his hands with a ruler with every mistake he made during his foreign language lessons, especially latin. Likewise, Ciel would pour the scalding hot tea that had no taste all over Sebastian's gloves. Ciel was thought how to shoot a gun, and the butler learnt how to polish silver-wear and care for pristine etiquettes.
Katrina watched the poor boy waking up from the nightmares, each and every time - Though he didn't want to be touched, he required his simple presence in the room with him, the comfort of another. She was the same, and she did the same with him also.
With him having learnt properly how to become an Earl, he was requested to present himself in front of the Queen. Katrina remembers that moment, she was there also, as the Queen's Fox, of course. Her father was also there, the High Court Judge.
He turns his back towards the light without hesitation. That figure that charges into the abyss at a dignified pace. Beautiful and foolish. Ciel's soul surely will be delicious...
If Sebastian survives that blow.
"Ciel is fine, don't worry." Kat cupped his bloodied face, looking worriedly at him. "Sebastian?" Kat gently slapped his face - His eyes were closed. "H-Hey, wake up, Sebastian!"
"Your meowing is too loud, kitten. I can hear you just fine." Kat could only sigh in relief, seeing him struggle to sit.
"Meow." trembling softly, Katrina's arms engulfed the demon into a protective embrace. "I was so worried. So, so worried." her heaving chest made the demon realise that her words were true. Silly human, worrying for a demon.
"Your record was pretty interesting, but... It seems like you only make the Earl miserable, after all... So maybe I'll just make you disappear." the serenity in his voice only served as fuel for his apprentice, who leapt up and parried the large of his scythe with the sword she was gifted by the man himself.
"Like hell will I let you kill him." but the struggle of power was interrupted by the ship beginning to sink, leaning more vertically than the tower of Pisa. Though Ryan Stoker fell to his death, Katrina herself was being held by the Undertaker. It was a nasty deal, trying to keep your balance on a wet ship with heels on.
With Grell going after the Undertaker, Ronald affirmed he would be going after Sebastian, who was seemingly weakened - What a way to insult one's pride. "It's like I'm picking on the weak here..." Ronald sighed loudly, only to get roughly punched in the face, sending him flying and rolling around, by the majestic butler who outclassed him in any way
"You - I thought I'd seen you somewhere. You were the Shinigami who acted as Madame Red's butler. You also tamper with people's lives, don't you?" with the ship continuing to rock in the vertical position and the way Undertaker kept dragging her around to escape Grell's chainsaw, the sword was knocked away from her.
"Damn it all." without that damn sword, she was screwed. She hurried around the abrupt stair-ladder, reaching to the edge of the balcony to grasp at the blade of the sword;
"Watch out!" whatever it was that Undertaker did when pushing away the stupid red Reaper, it was bad, for Grell was slammed to Katrina's level, and with the chainsaw still revved up, in the commotion, he ended up slashing away at her body, scarlet blood splurting like a fountain of wine, in sync with her cry of agony.
"CAN'T YOU JUST FUCKING DIE ALREADY?!" Kat yelled at her red head counterpart, one hand cradling her aching wounds, while the other was holding the sword pitifully. "Screw you! Screw all of you, stupid Reapers! I hope you all fucking rot in hell!" she hissed, carefully packing her sword in her possession and grabbing at the railing - The Ship was going down, and fast. She needed to find a way to escape this mess.
With the two Reapers being her enemies, and the demon already holding onto his master, Undertaker looked at the pitiful and shattered body of his little apprentice and held onto her, jumping to a safer place. "You pitiful child." he muttered, only for her to hear. "Well then, it's finally time to say goodbye. It was pretty interesting." the three supernatural beings went into one last attack - And though it was parried, Undertaker's locket chain was cut, and it fell. In the commotion, Katrina reached out for the locket, only to slip and fall as the ship was cut in two.
"ADRIAN!"
They watched as her form disappeared into the dark waters without a single sound.
But this wasn't how she was supposed to die - That's not what was written in that damn Shinigami book. It can't be. She has to remain confident and fight for her life. She has to survive.
Her body was in deep agony and the water was freezing her numb - But she held to locket string. She managed to get it.
Somehow, Katrina managed to swim up to the surface, and keep her head above to gasp for some air - The wooden grave marker with her name on it was there, floating, and she used it as her life-line. "Katrina, over here!" she heard Ciel's voice calling out to her - Goodness, she truly was exhausted. Where did they even manage to find a boat, anyway? No matter. She might be walking a lonely path - Yet now, at least, she had where to go. Who to go to. A boat to embark towards the land.
"Ah!" with a gasp of pain, the two on the boat watched in shock was Katrina was pulled back in the water, and in her stead, a large spot of crimson - Blood was disseminating through the place.
"Sebastian, do something!"
The woman's anger was infinite, watching those stupid corpse swim around her, and even sinking their teeth in her flesh - Who knew what the hell kind of diseases they carry? The human bite already was hella dangerous, because all that nasty bacteria - An undead-human bite could only be a hundredfold worse. "I'm never going on a cruise again." she finally managed to kill the Dolls and cling onto the grave marker, swimming to the boat, where the demon helped her up. "There's still a ton of those freaks in the water. Don't get too cosy." Kat said, grabbing the butler by the back of his shirt and urging him in the boat as those freaks revealed their heads above the water sheen. They were surrounding the whole boat, and more. They looked at the boats, farther away - If they don't kill the freaks now, they will endanger the others, Lizzy included.
"We'll stop them here. You can take them, can't you, Sebastian?" Ciel asked, getting towards the middle of the boat.
"There is no need to ask a servant anything. Please, give me an order." but Katrina shushed them both, pushing the demon down to sit.
"Just sit down and protect Ciel. I'm sad, I'm hurt, I'm in pain and I need to vent out my anger somehow... And these freaks are just what I need." Katrina shushed the demonic butler in a low voice, void of any emotion as she looked at the grave marker with her name on it, and growled. "I'm not dying today, Undertaker. I won't let you turn me into a freak." she steadied her feet, smashing the wooden marker into the head of the nearest Doll so hard that it broke, sinking into the depths of the ocean. "I don't sing eulogies." the only thing heard throughout the vast nothingness of the ocean was the roaring wrath of the woman unleashing her feelings with her swords, the only way she knew - Destroying.
Rage. Betrayal. Sorrow. Loneliness. Hopelessness.
Each of them crying a different tune, until there were no more bizarre dolls left to smash into the depths of the water.
Soft droplet of ice cold rain were falling mercilessly on the clammy skin of the three survivors sharing the same boat. One, shaken to the core by the events of the night, Ciel was the single member completely unharmed - Physically, at least. On the opposite spectrum, however, the demon was in rather the pitiful state, bleeding like that and starving, unable to properly heal from the atrocious wounds inflicted by the divine weapon of the Shinigami; If only his aesthetics hadn't been his priority, his long life having taught him well that quality over quantity is far more satisfying a meal, for waiting so long only makes the soul even more delicious.
In spite of his perilous state and the blood drenching his otherwise pristine outfit, shredded and torn so mercilessly - He looked at the woman in front of him and he felt... Pity. Not in the negative sense, but in a way that it made him wish to engulf her into his embrace and shield her away from all the dangers that keep coming her way, as though she was a powerful magnet for trouble. Just like with an orphan kitten, the demon wish to wipe away her tears and desperately force that distressed expression, that empty look in her face, that broken heart - Force it into that sweet, tender smile that only she was capable of doing. He has lived long, and experienced plenty of beautiful women of all kinds, innocent, pure and tragic - So, so very tragic - Yet whatever it was that made him so affected by her emotional and mental state... It affected him strongly.
"My Lady --" he tried calling out to her, but it was no use.
"Please... Give me a few moments to think." her voice was so soft, so broken, that it was barely audible through the gentle waves rocking the boat.
Sebastian said nothing, only watching the girl's tears blended with rain droplets, silently fall down her precious face, tinted blue from the freezing cold, as she kept looking up at the starless sky. The oar from her grasp, bloody from all the bizarre dolls she smashed, falling onto the boat. Her trembling hand reached up to hide her face, wiping away the tears, only to for her frown to turn into a smile, growing wider, and soft giggles became louder and louder laughs of madness, her fingers raking through the fringe of hair hair. "Nothing truly matters, does it, Adrian?" truly, her mad cackles did resemble that of the Undertaker. "How upset you were, seeing me leave the cage, only to return more broken each time, having to mend me. How adamant you were that you would keep me alive, that you wish a long and happy life for me - Is the life you wanted from me, that of the freaks you created?" she asked, out loud, into the skies.
She was holding tightly onto the golden chain with numerous lockets - Her name was also there, as one of the cherished people his heart treasures, and inside, a lock of her scarlet hair was gently laying. Unconsciously, she reached into her hair, seeking the cut lock - Even when brushing her hair, she hadn't noticed. "You fool. You damn fool. Why did you have to leave me all alone? How many times must I be orphaned? Why must I walk a lonely world, even with so little time left?" her fist clenched around her locket. "We truly are the most incorrigible hypocrites, you and I... Aren't we... Undertaker?"
Drained of her strength, her wounds still bleeding, her body trembled softly from agony and cold, her sheer underdress, white and sticking to her body, ripped and bloodied. The crinoline was long since discarded, the drawers' leg were bitten off, and the frilly corset's laces were loose, exposing more of the cleavage than comfortable, her chainsaw wound visible through the large blots of blood; and the under-petticoat was more ribbons than a skirt. Katrina slumped unceremoniously to the boat seat, her scarred shoulders covered by the wet velvet of her carmine hair - She looked like a hilarious wet cat.
In spite of her weakness, Katrina rose her head and looked at the butler kneeling in from of her. She smiled. It was such a sad, bittersweet smile, drenched in tears, rain and sea water, but still so, so beautiful, that Sebastian's maroon eyes widened in surprise, his heart clenching a little due to foreign impulses. "Even when suffering, you're so beautiful." her tender comment surprised him even further. "Why is it that the most ethereal beauty is only reveal through the darkest times of suffering and tragedy?" the man was slumped to the ground, gripping at his bloodied injuries, unable to heal. The blow from the death scythe had been devastating to his body, and he continued spitting blood even now. His whole outfit was shredded and bloodied even - Not that she was any better.
The demon smiled softly, gazing tenderly at the lady before him. "You tell me, My Lady. You are no different." he could feel the loneliness of her soul, the trembling of sadness, the perfume of death. She truly was a piece of art.
"Lau told me once that the more beautiful a lady, the more she suffers and dies young. What is your stance on that claim?" she asked him, reminiscing of such philosophical discussion,
Though Sebastian wasn't happy hearing other men mentioned, he could see - he could feel how connected she felt to him only, so much more than anyone else. "It is not unheard of." he replied. "In fact, I would have to agree."
Katrina hummed lightly, leaning closer to him. "It must really hurt, doesn't it? Being wounded like that... Even someone like you must be in agony. You don't like the pain either, do you?"
"Some say pain and pleasure are two sides of the same coin." he scoffed lightly. "Demons are no different - Though I would rather not end up as the practice target of some filthy reapers. I, like most others of my kind, have our own demon standards to live up to."
Katrina giggled at his offended comment. "You truly are beautiful." she breathed out. "Can you not heal? Is it because of the weapon, or the starving?" the man admitted to being both. "You told me once that there are ways of tasting a soul, without entirely devouring it - Is that right?" he nodded his head. "I see." her smile widened. She looked exhausted. "Ciel, can you close your eyes for a minute?"
The young Earl, hugging his butler's coat tightly around his petit body, eyed the shattered red head and sighed. He hardly had any idea of her intentions, but with nothing left to fear, there was no reason why he shouldn't allow his friend and butler a little intimacy, no matter how awkward it may be. "Sure." he grumbled in a low tone, closing his eyes.
"Forgive me, Sebastian." Kat muttered, her hand reaching out to his own ungloved one, intertwining their fingers together and squeezing gently as comfort. "I did not wish to appear so unsightly and unlady-like for you, nor did want to stink of death and decay, and taste of salty water. It must be disgusting for a demon with heightened senses and the taste of ash on his tongue."
Sebastian's lips parted in shock, unable to speak as he felt his face so gently caressed his wounded cheek with such care. "Take as much as you need, and heal properly. Don't mind me. Just get better." before he could protest, the demon felt two soft flower petals capturing his lips into a deep kiss. He could tell it was her first kiss, she was clumsy and inexperienced, yet in spite of all that, it felt so good kissing her. Even her damaged soul made him feel euphoric - He was greedy, lusting over her delicious soul. "I thought my first kiss would be like in those romance stories. All pretty and romantic. Not half-dead, in the middle of the ocean, surrounded by the undead." she grinned weakly as the demon chuckled against her lips from her comment.
"You have got me addicted, Kitten. I pray I might be able to stop before I take your soul all to myself." his sultry whisper send a shiver down her spine. Though her power was lessening, she kept smiling through the passionate kiss, her body feeling warm and at ease as the demon's other hand touched the back of her head, his finger tangled within the wet ribbon-like locks of her beautiful hair, deepening the kiss, their chest pressed flushed against one another. The deeper the kiss, the more Katrina's mind went blank with comfort and love, squeezing his hand so tenderly.
Once the butler leaned away, he looked into her sparkling eyes, so tired yet so full of vitality. With a single kiss, she seemed to have regained some lightness of the soul. "I hope that was good enough." she smiled, leaning her head on his shoulder. "I'll just... Rest a little now."
The butler was on his alert, bringing the lady into his arms, making her nap comfortable, yet constantly checking her pulse through her neck artery. The faint bruises in the form of a hand print weren't lost on him - How many times was she going to get in mortal danger while he is away and unable of rescuing her? Though, granted, now she is the worst he's ever seen her - Excluding almost getting sacrificed in that ritual - And he could only watch her shatter in front of his very eyes. Not exactly a fulfilled promise from an English gentleman. "Rest well, My Lady. You have done well." soon, a rescue ship would come to save them all.
When next she woke up, Katrina thought she was dead. Her whole body was in perfect agony, and everything surrounding her was white. She could hear nothing of interest, though the familiar smell of hospital, disinfectant and drugs made her realise that she was alive and close to well as humanly possible. Damn. That's bad news.
"Finally, you are awake." that wretched voice made her body tense up, causing a wave of pain wash over her. "Don't bother. Just shut up and rest. I don't want to hear your voice." her mother's crone voice made her shudder. For a woman who's not even in 40 years old, her voice sure sounds stereotypically evil. "You should be thankful that someone actually bothered coming all the way to this place and pay for the medical bills. You owe me." she continued, though Kat closed her eyes, pretending she can't speak yet due to drowsiness. "They found your father's body. He's dead." she kept speaking, before getting up once the door opened. "... I see you continue mingling with troublesome folk." she hissed at the newcomers. "No matter. They'll discharge you in three days. The butler will come get you." she snapped her fan open. "The Queen is going to perform an official investigation into your father's death. The criminal is going to be severely punished. Until then, Her Majesty gracefully agreed to let go of your duties to her, and allowed you a mourning period. She also agreed to attend your marriage to Redmond, once he finishes college in a few months."
"This is the most you have spoken to me in eighteen whole years, yet none was close to showing any kind of motherly concern." Katrina could help but snap her her, though her voice was groggy and pained.
"A haughty and unfilial failure of a child like yourself does not deserve the attention of the parents." her mother's heels clicked towards the door. "It should have been you, not Joseph."
In an access of intense rage, Katrina got in a sitting position and threw the flower vase towards her mother - Due to her lack of strength and unfortunate electrifying agony, it broke to the ground.
"THEN WHY DID YOU KILL HIM?!"
"I will call the nurses. My daughter has an intense case of hysteria. Enjoy being strapped to the bed, you little menace."
Cringing from the intense pain, Katrina hat to lean down against the bed side. She looked at the two new-comers, evidently pissed. "You gave my real name to the hospital, didn't you?" she hissed at the boy.
"They don't allow just anyone the medical care that you got." Ciel defended his actions.
"What's the point in living through the surgery, if that bitch is going to drag me back home and sacrifice me to Satan. No offense, Sebastian." she waved her hand dismissively.
"None taken." he bowed his head.
"I ran away from home, Ciel. For a good reason. I don't want to return there just to end up as a sacrifice. AGAIN." she protested strongly. "Now even the Queen is on my back. Relieving me of my duties? Looking into father's death? If I knew this was going to happen, I would have just let Sebastian take my soul and have my body as fish food."
"Are you done?" Ciel sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose.
"No, I am not done. I have to find a way to leave this cursed place and find a new home. I doubt Undertaker's parlor will ever be open again, after what he did." she sighed loudly, clutching her side.
Ciel pointed his thumb towards his demon butler, who smiled passively. "As long as you continue helping me with work, you have a bedroom in my manor."
"I cannot." she spoke sternly. "I helped you with information gathering and death-related things thanks to being affiliated to the Undertaker. I helped you with legwork missions whenever I had the time, but I have my own work to do also, and without the Undertaker sending me letters informing me of your missions and with the Queen making me step back from my duties, I'll have no way of knowing when you want me to return." she shrugged vaguely.
The two looked at each other, but spoke nothing. What were her secrets, Ciel wondered. Completely unaffected and unphazed by her father's death. Refusing a helping hand due to forced inconveniences. What was she hiding? What was that business she was attending to? Was Katrina actually a threat to him? Should he have Sebastian investigate her? With how close they are, she wouldn't suspect a thing.
Katrina, also, despite how much she wanted to complain to someone, she could - After all, how could she admit to anyone that she killed her father? It might also incriminate Lau and screw his business. The Queen would also stop trusting her, and she would be deemed a traitor and get an awful punishment? She's lose everything and everyone. She already lost Angelina and Undertaker... She didn't want to lose Edgar, Lau and Lizzy... She didn't want to lose her privilege of studying at Weston - Though, without the mortician, she wasn't sure where her position stood at the moment. Moreover, if Ciel begins to suspect her, he will keep his distance, and consequently, Sebastian also - And that... That would be just cruel. Might as well keel over and die.
"My Lady, in the state that you are in, I would suggest you accept the Young Master's proposal. As stated, you are not bound to the manor - You may leave whenever you wish." the butler tried to convince her. He noticed the woman looking towards the window, and he chuckled lightly. "You are on the third floor."
"... I suppose I don't have sheets to knot together and climb down safely, huh?" the corner of her mouth turned upwards a little awkwardly.
"Let's meet at the carriage, then." without another word, Ciel left the room, leaving the two all alone.
"You have been overexerting yourself, Kitten." Sebastian removed one of his gloved, picking up her chin gently. "My secretive little lady has been getting into a lot of trouble recently."
"I wouldn't call this - Recent. She has been my mother for eighteen years. Unfortunately, you can't exactly choose the family are born in." she sighed, and though she tried to look away, she was stopped, as Sebastian leaned in to plant a soft kiss on her forehead.
"She couldn't reach you for months now, and she won't be finding you any further either." the low tone of his velvety voice was enough to comfort her mind a little, before she found herself being picked up in his arms. "No need to worry about the rest of your treatment either - There is little I cannot do for my pretty little kitten after she so selflessly offered me a precious part of her delicious soul."
"You are overexaggerating what I did, really." she sighed, getting comfortable in his arms.
With a graceful leap, Sebastian jumped off from the third floor window, without as much as arousing any bit of suspicion from anyone.
The ride home was perfectly silent, and once they returned to the Phantomhive manor, the servants made a fuss over them, but mostly, over the state of the lady being held like that.
Mey Rin made sure that her bedroom had every comfort needed, along with a sleeping gown for the night, and a dress for the next day, until she can go shopping properly.
Though Katrina insisted to be treating her own wound, she didn't mind it when the butler came into her room; In fact, she requested to be cuddled to sleep, and he had no right to refuse, of course. She thought she would be comfortable in his presence, she thought she would feel safe in his arms - But he had to ruin everything. Was it a demon thing? Was he getting off on her terror? On the vagueness of his actions and the way they were affecting her?
Look at how fate plays and toys with humanity,
As even the truest of sentiments end up broken and cast away like the scattered crimson leaves.
We prayed for the Moon, the Sun, and warm breezes of the Spring
But the wind never softened, and instead grew harsher with rain and snow,
Which snapped the branches and destroyed the plum blossoms that grew on them.
Those moments we spend as lovers and soulmates have now fluttered far away without a trace
Now all there's left to listen to are the memories shaken from the leaves of the parasol trees.
How did he know this song? Why was he singing it? Though he recited the poem in such a beautiful voice, the implication wasn't lost on her. It was the Chinese song that she sang that night in the pleasure house, when she killed her father. It was translated in English by the demon, yes - But Katrina's heart felt like stopping, and her mind was racing like crazy. She felt unsafe. She felt exposed. She felt as though her mother was going to come out of nowhere and drag her back home. She felt as though the Queen was going to cast her away into a dirty and cold jail room - Or worse, the Asylum.
"A most romantic poem, I would say. I have always been attracted to the romantic literature of cultures over the ages." the man hummed devilishly in her ear. "I was always under the impression that you liked pink flowers, but after you so ruthlessly broke the vase full of magnolia that I brought the day prior, I should research more."
"Why are you doing this?" she asked, snatching herself away from his arms. Though she could barely see him in the darkness, those magenta-glowing eyes sent a shiver down her spine. "You could have easily let mother take me back. Why did you convince me to come here? To have Ciel hand me over to the Queen?"
"The Young Master does not know yet." he hummed impishly. "After all, he did not ask; And my investigation had nothing to do with you or your father."
"Then, what is it? You want to blackmail me? Or do you just want to get a raise out of me?" she snapped at him angrily, only to have her wrists held, his face so close to her own.
"Now, what would I get out of that? Those are just silly things that humans do." his sultry voice made her feel a myriad of weird emotions. "I was wondering what your next conquest will be. For an injured little kitty, your claws and fangs are still as sharp, if not, much sharper than anticipated."
"My next conquest...?" she let out a huff. "As if I'd actually tell anyone!" she laughed in his face arrogantly. "One day, I will leave, and you won't find me, unless I wish to be found. And for good reason."
"Independent little kitten, hm~? How adorable." she could see those elongated fangs sticking out through that charming grin of his. "I wish to see you unleashing all those emotions holding you captive. Keeping you shackled. I want to see you being yourself, not the product of the discipline inflicted upon you. I want to see you being human." he rose his hand to her face, gently brushing her cheek with the back of his fingers. "I want to see you let go of your inhibitions and fears, and fall into my arms. I want to see everything you have to offer - And more."
"How greedy of you." she huffed softly. "You say that, though I have never cried before. I wished to cry that night though. I really did, more than anything, to have the chance to cry my heart out and curse everything around me. Well, that didn't happen, did it? How sad."
"I would say that I would provide you with the much needed comfort that would help you discharge your overwhelming surplus of emotions - However, I can sense your unrest. You wish to leave soon, don't you?" she nodded her head. "Might as well wait until the morrow and -"
"Sebastian, what day is it?" Katrina suddenly had an epiphany.
"Sunday, around 10 o'clock in the night." her body laxed, and she slapped a hand over her forehead.
"Have I been in the hospital that long?!" she gasped, stumbling out of the bed. "I have to go." she struggled putting on the dress over her chemise, only to see some luggage on the ground. "What's with these?"
"They were sent here, in your name, though they had no expeditor. I imagined they belong to you, so I brought them here." Sebastian watched as the woman fumbled through all the boxes. He daren't look through the bags of a woman, it was improper, and without the young master asking, he didn't need to bother.
"Undertaker..." she sighed, hanging her head for a few seconds, before rummaging around the luggage and revealing a nice light blue manly suit. "Is there any way I can hire a carriage at this late hour of the night?"
"You seem to be in quite the rush, My Dear Lady." he watched with confusion at the lady dressed in the suit, her wound tightly dressed so it wouldn't bleed again.
"I need to be somewhere Monday morning." her cruise was supposed to be three weeks longs, though it was barely reduced to a single one. Without the mortician to back her up, she was afraid that if she were to continue losing school days, she might actually get expelled. "Urgent business to take care of."
"To think that a man's clothing could suit you so well." the man hummed, prowling over her way. "It must be Nina's work, isn't it?" he asked, feeling the fine wool of her blazer.
"Only someone like Nina would make women's clothes for men, and men's clothes for women." she chuckled lightly, before struggling with back up her two luggage bags. "I gave you a part of my soul. Surely, you can find a carriage for me, can't you?"
"I would have indulged your little whim even without that favour." he smirked down at her.
"How magnanimous of you." she huffed in amusement. "Fulfilling the wish of a dying woman." she continued. "Next time... I might have a favour to ask... Though I imagine it would be much more fun than finding a carriage for me." she smiled mischievously at her.
"Then, my dear kitten, I wish you a safe business trip. Let us meet again soon, under better circumstances."
As the butler helped Katrina get up on the carriage, he stole a quick kiss from her sweet lips, yet this time, without taking a part of her soul again - It was addicting, and he was a slave to that drug. He wanted to feel more, to taste more, to see more. He watched the soft blush on her face and that satisfied kitty smile of hers, before she shut the door close and the carriage took off to a place only she knew of.
To Weston College.
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