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homeofthelonelywriter · 9 months

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K.I.A. | Oneshot

(A/N) This one could really hit hard. Please take care of yourself.

Pairing: Simon x Reader (no Y/N)

Warning: lots of angst, death of a loved one, depression, grief, alcohol, comfort in the end

Synopsis: I don't think there is a need for a synopsis. The title says it all.

It was supposed to be fine.

It was supposed to be safe.

“It’s going to be a quick and easy mission, love. I’ll be back in no time.”

That’s what he had said.

That’s what he had promised.

But he lied.

The mission wasn’t quick. It wasn’t easy. He wouldn’t be back in no time.

He was dead.

Killed in action, an honorable death.

To hell with them. To hell with their honorable death. Death isn’t honorable, death is death. And now he’s gone. And I’ll never see him again.

It’s his funeral and I can’t even look at them. The ones that survived. Price, Soap, Gaz. They all came back but he didn’t. He didn’t and he never will.

They hand me a flag, folded into a triangle. If I could, I would throw it at their heads. If I could, I would yell at them. If I could, I would I hit them. But I can’t. I can’t do anything, but stand there, hold that stupid flag and cry while they fire off their shots. I can’t do anything.

Well, I can do something. I can lie in bed. I can cry, a lot. I can ignore my hunger until I almost throw up. I can see his shadow, trick myself into thinking that he’s back. That he’s alive.

And I can think of him. Of all the good memories. How we met. The first time we kissed. How he asked me out. Our first date. The birthday he gave me the puppy.

The puppy…at the though of Riley, I sit up. At least until I realise that my mom took her after the funeral. She was safe, cared for. I was alone. So fucking alone.

I don’t know how much time passed, a week? Maybe a month. Perhaps even two.

I finally get up and take a shower. I smell after all.

The shower feels incredibly small without Simon behind me.

And that’s how I start crying again. I sit under the stream for what feels like hours before I finally find the strength to get out and dry off my body before falling back onto my bed.

But now it’s getting better.

I take showers from time to time.

Sometimes I even eat some food. I don’t cook anything, everything I’ve had, had spoiled by now, but I just order in.

It’s been four months since Price stood at my door and told me he was dead. That Simon would never come back. And I’ve finally found a way to dull the pain.

Alcohol isn’t the answer, of course. But for now it’s the only thing that is making me feel even slightly alive.

I spent most my day at the bar nearby, what else am I supposed to do?

Home makes me think about Simon.

Work makes me think about Simon.

Hanging out with my family or friends make me think of Simon.

We had never gone to this bar together, so I’m safe here. And the alcohol drowns out my thoughts of him. Well, most of them anyway. At least it leaves enough sense to find my way back home.

It’s become some sort of ritual. Get out of bed, get dressed, go to the bar, get shitfaced and go back home.

Today isn’t any different. Why should it be? But why…does it feel different.

I usually spend multiple hours there, but today I just want to get back home. After I pay for the drink I actually had, I make my way home. But I feel watched, the whole way back. At least I’ll feel better as soon as I’m in bed.

I unlock the front door and walk inside, not paying any mind to the big shadow standing in the hallway, or to how similar it looks to Simon. Instead, I lock the door behind me and shrug off the jacket I’m wearing, hanging it up.

I walk past the shadow and to the staircase leading up and to the bedroom I share…shared with Simon. But something stops me. One word.

“Love?”

I freeze not moving a single muscle. It can’t be him. But it sounds like him. But he’s dead. But it looks like him.

Stiff, almost like a robot, I turn around and look at the shadow. And I see Simon.

“You’re not real.”

I shake my head and start walking up the stairs.

“Love, it’s me. I’m sorry, I-”

I cut him off as I spin around and slap him across the face. That used to get rid of the hallucinations, but…he’s still here. His head whips to the right from the impact, but he doesn’t move.

“Simon…”

He looks at me. He is here. So I touch him.

I place my hands against his chest, against his beating heart.

And it is beating. He is alive. He is here.

I move my hands to his shoulder. They are as broad and hard as I remember.

I move them to his neck, feel his pulse. He is here. He is alive.

“Simon.”

I only realise that I’m crying when Simon lifts his hands and carefully wipes them away.

“Simon.”

A sob wracks through me and I let him wrap his arms around me.

Another sob and I let him pull me closer.

My body shakes as he holds it to his.

His body. Firm and warm. Hard, covered in muscles.

He is here. He is alive.

“You were dead.”

He tightens his hold on me.

“I know, love. I know.”

I claw at his jacket, trying to get him closer.

“I cried for you.”

Again, his hold tightens.

“I know. I wish I could’ve done something. All I could do was watch.”

I continue to cry and sob in his arms.

At some point, Simon picks me up and carries me upstairs. But not to the bed. To the bathroom.

Carefully, he sets me down on the edge of the bathtub before he turns on the shower. With hands, as gentle as I remember them, he undresses me, before he undresses himself.

He navigates me into the shower, before he carefully washes me. All the while, holding me close and consoling me whenever I have another break down.

And then, he leaves me there. He leaves the water on and it feels like he’s gone again. Maybe I just imagined him. Him being here. Him consoling me. Him taking care of me.

But I didn’t.

He joins me in the shower again after ten minutes.

“I just changed the sheets real quick. Let’s get you out of here, princess.”

Once again he picks me up and carries me to the edge of the bathtub. He had placed a towel there, so I don’t feel the cold of the metal when he sets me down.

Carefully, as if I were made out of porcelain he dried my body before he pulled one of his old t-shirts over my head. Once he is dry as well, he carries me into the bedroom and places me on the bed, before he gently tugs me in.

“I’ll be right back, my love. I’ll just get you a glass of water.”

He presses a kiss to my forehead and is about to walk away when I catch his wrist.

“Please don’t leave. Don’t leave me again.”

He turns to look at me and opens his mouth to speak, but I cut him off.

“Simon, please. I…I can’t loose you again.”

Tears are rolling down my cheeks again. And this is what he needed.

He nods and climbs into bed beside me, immediately pulling me close against his chest.

“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry my love. I’ll never leave you again. I promise. Never again.”

I nod but continue to sob into his chest. And this is how I fall asleep.

I wake up the next morning, alone in bed.

“Simon? Simon!”

Without thinking, I try to rush to the door, but my feet get tangled in the sheets. I fall to the floor, but get up immediately.

Please let him be there. Please let him be alive. Please.

Please please please please please pleasepleasepleasepleasepleaseple-

“Love? Are you alright?”

He is here. He is alive.

“You…you are here. You are alive.”

I wrap my arms around his neck and pull myself up, wrapping my legs around his waist. His arms immediately wrap around me and support my weight completely.

“Ssh, it’s okay my love. I’m here. I promise you I’m here.”

Like a baby, he started to gently bounce me up and down until I slowly started to calm down. Now I know why that works on babies.

For the rest of the morning, I stay there, wrapped securely in his arms, while he cooks pancakes and cleans the dishes. I even eat in his arms.

And even after that, I’m hesitant to leave them. But I do. I let him set me down on the couch and watch him as he flies through the house and cleaned the messes that had accumulated since his ‘death’.

His ‘death’.

“Why?”

Simon stops in his tracks and turns to look at me.

“Why what, my love?”

I sigh, already feeling bad about asking this question. But I need to know.

“Why did you fake your death? And why didn’t you tell me?”

Now Simon sighs. He puts away the broom and sits down next to me.

“There was a mole in the 141 and we had to flush them out. This was the only way we could think of. I’m so so sorry love. I promise, I tried my best to get them to change their mind. Or to at least let me tell you, but the mole…he had to buy it and…”

“They were afraid I wouldn’t fake it well enough.”

Simon nods, sadness clear in his eyes.

I nod. And I can’t say that I don’t understand. I knew what I was getting into when I started dating him. I just never thought it would go that far.

“Si…please never do that again.”

He shakes his head and picks me up, putting me down on his lap.

“Never, princess. I’ll never leave you again. I swear on my grave.”

At that statement I pull back slightly and look at him. His lips were pulled into a slight smile. And then I start laughing.

“You are such an idiot.”

Simon chuckles and nods before pulling me back onto his chest.

“I’m sorry, love. I just couldn’t help myself.”

I shake my head and cuddle into him and I know this is going to be alright. We are going to be alright.

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mizuki-herazaki · 21 days

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TWST how the characters say happy birthday to MC part 5 (Final)

Heyy so this is the last part! Yuu had a long day and its coming to an end but I do hope Yuu enjoyed it :) part 1

Jamil Viper

Yuu are carried to scarabia by the Octavinelle and at the entrance waited Jamil

“We brought the shrimpy~” Floyd says happily.

Jamil crosses his arms and gives a smile “Wonderful! You three may head inside now. Appreciated the help”

Floyd puts Yuu down hesitantly, to go inside, and you slowly open your eyes to see where you are.

“S-Scarabia!?” You shake your head a bit in shock and realizing you really are in a safe place you snap out of your daze “Hey Jamil! Soooo~ what’s with the kidnapping?” you ask.

“What kidnapping? I simply asked them to get you here at all costs” He replies with a simple smile.

You squint your eyes at him a bit “Right~ definitely not kidnapping” you say unconvinced.

Jamil brushes your statement off “whatever. Anyway Happy Birthday Yuu! Glad you can make it” He says with a genuine tone.

You smile back brightly “Thanks JamJamz!”

Jamil instantly sighs with a frown “Please. Never use that name in front of Kalim”.

“Hmm I’ll think about it!” You say jokingly but get a daggered glare in return. “Joking Joking” you say quickly which in turn makes Jamil roll his eyes.

With a sigh Jamil smiles again and speaks “Anyways, I took it upon myself to make all of your favorite dishes today! I hid some extra for after festivities, and it has wonderfully already been poison tested by many people!” he explained with a smirk.

“Festivities? People?” Yuu question

Still smiling he extends his hand to the big arch doors ahead “Walk past those doors and you’ll see”

Kalim (+ bonus)

Yuu walk through the doors and as you do confetti and glitter is immediately falling from everywhere as well as scattered balloons. There are animals roaming about and a huge buffett. Standing all together is everyone that Yuu know as well as other students of the school as they all shout in unison “HAPPY BIRTHDAY” as loud as they can. Kalim flies over on his magic carpet towards Yuu.

“Our Wonderful Guest Of Honor Has Arrived!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUU!!!” Kalim shouts as he stretches his hand for you to get on the carpet. You accept and up You two go into the starry sky and float back down to the others.

“Kalim, you planned this?!” You ask in shock.

“Mhm!! But of course it was Jamil's idea to keep it a secret, he also planned the little details and got Ignihyde, Octavinelle, and Lillia to help, others helped too, It was a collective effort!” Kalim said happily with his cheery smile, “NOW IT’S TIME TO PARTY TILL SUNRISE!!!” he shouts.

Deuce and Ace are playing the set up games

Grim is at the buffet

Cater is recording and taking pictures of EVERYTHING (Obvi with the birthday bestie)

Trey and Jamil are talking about tactics on food (Might have started a cooking contest)

Leona is relaxing at the fountain with Ruggie bringing him food

Jack is challenging Sebek

Silver is sleeping amongst all the noise

Rook and Vil are giving people free makeovers (makeup only)

Epel somehow got stuck talking to Jade about mushrooms

Floyd is dancing, having fun with the occasional harassment of riddle

Azul is -Scamming- negotiating with students

Idia is sitting in a corner shy as Ortho tries to beckon him out

Malleus and Lilia are up above watching everyone.

Obviously a big group photo before the party ends. Yuu opened tons (and I mean tons) of presents. And the party quite literally went until sunrise.

Happy Birthday (Your name)

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heartchoi · 2 years

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little wishes ㅡ k.th

synopsis: you help out a random anonymous user on a message board woo their crush. all the while, your best friend becomes closer and closer to you.

pairing: best friend!taehyun x gn!reader

wc: 2.8k

includes: fluff, friends to lovers, they're both really oblivious, one curse word, mentions of passing away (it’s a joke)

a/n: a late taehyun birthday fic! i apologize in advance if the writing isn’t good… i haven’t written fluff fics like this since 2021, please forgive me 💔 hopefully you enjoy it, happy reading!

Anonymous [2:05 PM]

does anyone know how to confess to your crush ? we’ve been friends since first grade and im afraid i’ll ruin our friendship… any tips to win your best friend’s heart ??

↳ 444hugfairy [3:04 PM]

thats so cute! i have a friend just like that, i think if i were in their position i’d probably swoon if he gave me homemade goods ^_^ nothing like home cooking made with love to capture someone’s heart!

you immediately pressed send on the reply, a smile overtaking your features thinking about how cute this confession is going to be. to be honest, you wish you’d have your best friend-who-you-might-not-have-been-in-love-with-since-sophomore-year do things like these for you.

unfortunately, you don’t think taehyun feels the same, anyways. he’s too out of touch when it comes to affection, especially with you. i guess it sucks being in the friend-zone. (he’s never explicitly stated that, but you don’t need his confirmation to know.)

you’ve been pining after him for years at this point. it was during your sophomore year of high school when you suddenly realized that you were in love with him. you were in denial about it for weeks, but the pitter-patter of your heart every time he greeted you or pushed his hair back said otherwise. you were blasting some random love song on the radio when your brain finally got it; you were terribly in love with your best friend.

it was almost sickening to accept. theres no way he could ever like you back! kang taehyun? in love with someone like you? that might take a miracle for that to happen.

that’s what you tell yourself, anyways. you’re a little dramatic. but as you’re now in the middle of your third year of college and still painfully in love with him, a little exaggeration should be excused.

in fact, if asked, you could probably make a list of the reasons why you adore taehyun (sweet, handsome, hot as hell, intelligent, quick-witted, did i mention hot?) so much.

god, you love him to bits.

“…what are you doing here?” you ask, rubbing your eyes. taehyun shows bright and early at your doorstep, immediately pushing a tin of cookies into your hands. he’s taken care of his looks as well, suddenly showing up at your door with a leather jacket, black shirt thrown on as well while he wears a pair of dark jeans. he now has a chain necklace on him, god knows wherever he got that. taehyun clears his throat, looking away. a giggle escapes your lips, and you can’t help but think, he’s so cute.

“i didn’t make these for you, i, uh, made too much food yesterday. wanted to give them to you because you like cookies, right?” he gulps, attempting to make eye contact with you. “oh.” um. okay? that’s a little out of character for him, but the cookies he shoved into your arms certainly do look delicious. “you should try one.” he says, staring at you expectantly.

“okay!” you chirp, carefully picking out a cookie before taking a bite.

the cookie is delicious, for sure. it’s simple, chocolate chip. but as the chocolate spreads across your tongue and blends with the chewy dough, you can’t help but close your eyes at how good it is. “is it… is it good?” taehyun asks cautiously, arm rubbing the back of his neck. “it’s great, tyunnie! how’d you make it?” you ask, eyes shining with curiosity. you don’t remember taehyun being so good at baking. in fact, you feel honored that he decided he should give you the cookies in the first place.

taehyun mutters something under his breath, before he confidently states, “a magician doesn’t tell his secrets.”

“this is a cookie recipe though?”

Anonymous [9:34 AM]

thank you guys for helping me with my last post! i gave them some homemade baked treats, but i don’t think they got the hint… any other advice you guys could give me ? : (

↳ 444hugfairy [5:53 PM]

i see you took my advice anonymous… hmm… i think you should probably surprise them by bringing them out somewhere, like a date! you should be a little subtle about it though haha, if you outright say it’s a date you might be too obvious

↳ [re: 444hugfairy] Anonymous [6:02 PM]

i did, thank you so much ! i’ll try to do this as soon as i can, hopefully it’ll make it more clear to them ㅠㅠㅠ

ah, anonymous seems so nice, you think. this person must be so lucky to have someone like this in their life.

↳ [re: Anonymous] 444hugfairy [6:05 PM]

of course, anything to help! you go ~~

it’s a chilly thursday, snow crunching beneath your feet as you walk around the streets of seoul. you can barely feel your nose, occasionally scrunching it every once in a while to get the nerves in your nose unfrozen. the low temperatures were enough to make you want to never go outside again and just stay curled up in a ball all day in bed. even through all that, winter remains your favorite season. something about it just makes you feel so nostalgic and at peace. the snowy peaks catch your attention immediately, admiring how it looks until you’re snapped out of your daydream.

a call from taehyun rings through the air as you pick up, but you nearly lose your grip and drop your phone the second he speaks.

“let’s go out. where are you? i want to take you somewhere.”

is he insane? does he not know the effect he has on me? my god, kang taehyun. you’ll be the death of me.

“what’s the occasion? this is a little out of character, tyun.” he can’t see it, but you’re sure he can envision how you raise an eyebrow at his sudden proposal. “nothing. was just a little bored. can we meet at the park? i’ll pick you up from there.” shyly, you agree and immediately hang up the phone. he’s driving you crazy and he doesn’t even know it. this is awful for your health.

the snow has become heavier now. your once clean coat is now covered in a thin blanket of ice crystals, and you cant help but shiver as you wait.

it feels like eternity in the cold when you finally see taehyun drive up to you. "i'm sorry for being late, ___. are you cold?" he asks tenderly, hands cupping your cheeks.

suddenly, you no longer feel cold. you can't tell if its the blush radiating from your cheeks or his warm hands holding them while he inspects your face thoroughly. "your face is red." he comments. oh my god. he noticed. your face turns even redder, absolutely flushed with embarassment. "it's just a bit cold, that's all." somehow, you managed to stutter out a response. a look of concern flashes over his features, but disappears immediately when he fronts a grin. "shouldn't have kept someone waiting, hm? come on. let's go."

the car drive is very silent between the two of you. what just happened? the scenes replay in your head over and over again, and you can't help but feel sick to your stomach at just remembering it. the way his hands caressed your skin, all you want is for it to happen again. (bonus points if both of you touch lips. kdrama mentality is real. anyone can dream.) taehyun quietly turns on his radio, the sweet sounds of a mellow love song playing in the background. damn, even god wants you both to get together. there is absolutely no way this should be happening right now.

taehyun clears his throat when you both arrive at a red light. carefully, he cranes his neck to look at you, but you seem a little too invested looking out the window. he sighs, tapping his fingers on the steering wheel. "so, ___. it's been a while since we hung out like this, huh?" his attempt at starting conversation is a bit lame. (you didn't realize this at the moment, but now that you look back at it, what was he thinking?)

"um, it's been pretty good."

"that's uh, that's good." he says, awkwardly.

silence envelops the two of you, time seeming slower than ever as you both wait for the red light to pass.

"do you still like to ice skate?" taehyun asks, the first to break the heavy silence.

"i haven't skated in years, taehyun." he chuckles, a smile now gracing his features. "it doesn't hurt to start over again, right?"

taehyun leads you inside the chilly ice-skating rink, already filled to the brim with couples and friends laughing and screaming as they slid over the ice. "come, ___! let's go!" he pulls at your sleeves excitedly, already preparing to get pairs of skates for the two of you. of course, you agree, albeit reluctantly, but not because you didn't want to skate. god, no, of course you wanted to. especially with taehyun.

it’s just that you feel as if your heart is about to pulse out of your body and run away, would this be considered a date? between… friends? theres no way you could confront him about this without pulling a “what are we?” moment. what even are you two now, anyways? it feels like you’re a couple in the talking stage.

you follow taehyun wherever absentmindedly, your body seating itself on a bench while you put on your skates. the laces feel unfamiliar in your fingers, twisting and turning it every direction. the rough rope slightly burns your skin, making you hiss out in frustration. “here, let me help you.” taehyun says softly, placing his hands over yours while he ties your laces. he chuckles a bit, hands never letting go of yours. “can’t believe you forgot to tie laces, ___. thought everyone knew that.” your face turns red for what seems like the umpteenth time that day. he just seems to know exactly how to fluster you. you pray to god for him to stop testing you like this.

“it’s okay. i’ll tie them for you whenever you want, sugar.”

…

sugar?

he just called you… sugar? kang taehyun just called you a pet name. oh my god. the world is ending. this is it. you’re about to pass away.

taehyun smiles up at you when he finishes tying the other skate. he acts as if he didn’t call you sugar just now, pulling your hands towards him to enter the rink. his fingers intertwine with yours, fitting perfectly in between the spaces like a puzzle.

the two of you end up skating on the ice just like that, hands intertwined, gliding across the ice. the silence between you both now feels more comfortable. you opt to savor the moment, relishing the warmth of his hand on yours. “this is nice.” and it really is, here you are, holding hands with the boy of your dreams while you ice skate together. if you had your phone on you right now you could take a picture of this moment and go pinterest viral. you’re not quite sure if that’s a thing. but it makes sense.

the boy next to you merely nods, lost in thought. “uh, ___, i-“ he starts nervously, heart palpitating through his chest. if he didn’t know any better, he’d think it’d be pressing against his ribcage right now. you hum questioningly, “what is it, tyun?”

“i think i’m- oh my god, are you okay?”

he’s immediately cut off by you falling on your butt, wincing in pain. i guess that’s one way to present yourself in front of your crush, you muse while you brush ice off your pants.

the ice-skating dilemma, as second-best-friend choi beomgyu dubs it, remains fresh in your mind the next day. you just cant fathom that the whole thing really happened.

“can you two just kiss? no one can stand it anymore.” beomgyu practically begs when you tell him about the whole thing. “even soobin is sick of it. and it’s soobin, for god’s sake! he’s practically a fool when it comes to love! he didn’t even notice that one girl hitting on him for weeks until she actually said it straight to his face!”

“i don’t think you needed to diss soobin like that,” you say quietly, as if the man in question was going to appear from the shadows at the mention of his name. “he’s not here. i’m allowed to say whatever i want about him. no one is stopping me.” beomgyu retorts, rolling his eyes. “but-“ you try to say, but he immediately shuts you down. “no buts! and we’re getting off track ㅡ PLEASE just date taehyun. everyone is getting sick of it." you play with the hem of your clothes nervously at the thought of having to confess to him. “but how are you so sure he likes me back? the chances feel like a solid one percent.”

beomgyu facepalms with a loud ‘smack,’ he’s sick of you at this point. it has him questioning why he’s friends with you instead of vice versa, as per usual. “he literally does not shut up about you. every day. it’s always ___ this, ___ that. he does not shut up.” his sudden confession has your eyes widening. “he talks about me?” you say, in disbelief. beomgyu sighs exasperatedly. it’s almost like it was obvious. “okay. originally i was gonna stay silent about it. but after that, i cannot do it anymore. do what you want with that information. go kiss taehyun.”

“i can’t believe it.”

“i can’t either. please get out of my living room now.”

Anonymous [3:13 PM]

thank you all for your help! i think i’m going to tell them now, i just can’t handle it anymore. i just need to get this off my chest :( thank you all for your help once again !! hopefully they accept !

you can’t bring yourself to reply to their mysterious person’s last post.

you’re laying in bed. beomgyu revealing that taehyun had talked about you had you all giddy: kicking your feet, giggling with a hand over your mouth, and rolling around on your bed. you couldn’t believe it.

perhaps you and this anonymous person will get their happy ending. just maybe.

it's been a few days since you've last heard from taehyun. ever since he carried you back from ice skating, he's been radio silent.

like, he's silent. he has not said or done a thing. a tiny guilt monster has been eating away at your stomach everytime you refresh taehyun's social media, only to find nothing new. you're starting to feel like a stalker (even though the victim has been friends with you for years).

beomgyu's been very assuring, encouraging your relationship and even going above and beyond to trend "#___HYUNREAL" on twitter, despite the fact the only people using the hashtag are him and soobin. they're great wingmen. you should applaud their efforts.

you're giggling to yourself over some meme they sent you when taehyun strolls up to you, seating himself right next to you. "hey." he says, smiling. his smile is almost cat-like, it makes him look so adorable. "hi, tyun!" you greet him, and you believe you might be head-over-heels in love.

taehyun's smile falters a little as he ponders his next words.

"___... i..." he begins, cautiously saying each syllable, afraid of what will come next. you cocked your head slightly, confused as to why he was suddenly so hesitant.

"what's wrong?" you ask. his demeanor has changed entirely, in a matter of seconds. it's become concerning. "i- i just need to tell you something." he responds, eyes wavering.

"oh. okay then, what is it?" you question sweetly, and that does it for him. he can't take it anymore.

"i'm in love with you," he confesses. "i've loved you for ages. i can't imagine myself being with someone other than you. it's driving me crazy, every sunset, every sunrise, every second, every minute, my mind thinks of you. and my heart just can't take it anymore, ___. even if you don't like me back, i still want to be friends, because i just can't see my life without you in it somehow."

when he finally finishes his ramble, his chest heaves, exasperated from blurting his inner thoughts and feelings so quickly. taehyun notices your shocked expression as soon as he recovers. his head hangs low, already accepting his wordless rejection. "i'm sorry. i shouldn't have put that on you so suddenly. but i really mean it, i-" his words are cut off when you press a kiss to his cheek, softly turning his head to give him a kiss on the lips as well.

"you think too much, silly. i love you too."

the poor boy turns into a blushing, mumbling mess with your hands cupping his face like that. certainly a rare sight for the kang taehyun.

"i thought you'd never feel the same."

"taehyun, love, i've had a crush on you since forever. how could i not have fallen for you?"

"...love?"

Anonymous [1:43 PM]

i have an s/o now !!! i'm so happy, ___ if you're out there i love you to the moon and back ♡

↳ 444hugfairy [1:58 PM]

i love you too ♡

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tales-of-a-wilted-sunflower · 9 months

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Beginning of Recording

Now Playing: VHS 2: Yellow Roses

It's a freezing day in faraway town. The town is blanked in a thick coating of snow that crunches under the young man’s feet as he somewhat shivers from the bitter cold biting at his face whenever the wind blows. He’s never been the biggest fan of winter…It’s far too cold for his liking and it’s definitely annoying to have to clean off his glasses every few minutes when he is walking across town or his college campus when it snows. Oh the irony of having a birthday in the dead of winter…Though Henry couldn’t really complain that much. These grievances were minor annoyances at best. Really the only thing that sincerely worried him about the snow and winter is how the weather may adversely affect his younger brother’s health. Kel’s daily routine for the past 3 years never changed. Even when it was snowing or the winds were so biting cold that one could feel it through a winter jacket. Kel would still do the same thing he always did. That was truly the one thing that would bother Henry…He worried that such behavior would be detrimental to his brother’s health…Sooner or later.

That being said, Henry saw the value and sweetness in honoring those who are gone. Especially when they would be there for you if they still could. Which is why he found himself here…at the entryway of faraway town’s graveyard…On the afternoon of his 23rd birthday with two different bouquets in his arms. An arrangement of red roses and an arrangement of yellow roses. He stops at the foot of the stone, glancing over at one over in the back but he can’t bring himself to walk to that one…not yet. Not until he’s said what needs to be said. Henry kneels down, placing down the arrangement of yellow roses at the foot of the grave as he gently wipes off the excess snow that obscured the writing on the stone,

Our Beloved Sunflower Basil. Our thoughts will follow you into your dreams.

Henry adjusts his glasses so that they are no longer falling down his nose as he starts to speak.

“Hey Basil…I…I’m sorry I never visited much outside of your birthday…College keeps me busy and well…I just needed time to process everything that I wanted to say. I want you to know that despite everything, I forgive you for what happened that day…7 years ago. While I don’t think I’ll ever understand what was going through your mind that day…I know that at the very least you must have been terrified to lose two friends in one day and yet…everything for the most part…fell apart anyway…I can’t imagine how horrible and lonely that had to be for you. That even in the presence of others, you still felt alone…I hope that one day you can find the strength to forgive yourself. We all still care for you as a dear friend and wish nothing but the best for you in the new year. You used to always say that roses made you think of me so I brought you some yellow roses as a token of my appreciation for always being a great friend to us all. I hope that one day in the next life, we can all meet again.”

He then stands up and makes his way over to the other headstone,

Our Dearest Mari, The sun shined brighter when she was here

Henry kneels down by the stone placing the arrangement of red roses at the foot of the grave. He needs to take some deep breaths to ease the tightening in his chest. Even to this day, looking at her grave is still difficult despite it being 7 years since her death. But given a few moments, he finally finds the strength to speak again.

“Hey Mari Dearest…I am sorry for the delay. I just really had to speak to Basil for a moment, to clear the air and you know maybe help him forgive himself in a way.”

He pauses adjusting his glasses to keep his own tears from smudging the lenses.

“I…I still miss you…my lily of the valley…It’s been 7 years and yet it still feels like yesterday we were just two teenagers with big dreams for the future…Even though those dreams will just remain dreams…I hope to make you proud and become someone you would have been proud to call your husband one day. Even when I finally fully move on one day, I’ll still always love you Mari, my first love. I hope you and Basil are having a happy new year and I look forward to seeing you again…one day…”

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#echoes of past blooms( spirit basil lore );;

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azulsartdump · 2 years

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SSR Azul Attwood Bloom Birthday Personal Story: Part 1

Azul: Ah, it’s almost time for the interview! I wonder who got chosen to interview me this year.

Louie: Heeeey, kid! Happy birthday!

Azul: Oh, Louie! It’s good to see you again! If you’re here that means the interview’ll be real fun.

Louie: You flatter me. With such high expectations, how will I ever live up to the standards of a noble lady!

Azul: Relax! We’re both students here! While on the college grounds, I am your equal.

Louie: Groovy, that’s to hear, kid!

Azul: “Groovy?” Is that what people are saying these days? I’ll have to inform Malleus and Lilia of this development. They’re always asking me to keep them up to date on trends.

Louie: Hehe, let’s get started with the interview, though. First question: “What it something that made you glad you could use magic?” Take your time answering it.

Azul: Wow, a question like that right off the bat? That’s actually so hard to answer. Faeries like me have magic woven into their being innately, so it’s legitimately impossible for me to imagine life without it.

Louie: You can’t fathom the idea of not having magic? Not even a bit?

Azul: Well, magic to the fae is like blood. We have it flowing through us all the times, and it’s essential for us to continue living. If you take away our magic, we pretty much just crumple over and die.

Louie: Is that so?

Azul: But if I really had to pinpoint one moment, it would probably be when I saved my father. My father is a high ranking nobleman back at home, so unfortunately he has a lot of enemies. There was a point when I was a child that a group of assassins managed to ambush us on our way to see the queen, and they almost killed him. The rest of the knights were able to fight the assassins off, but if I hadn’t been taking any healing magic classes at the time, he might have actually died from blood loss.

Louie: A hero in our midst! It’s an honor to stand beside you as a classmate. Stay on your toes, kid. If I ever find myself bleeding out from a fatal wound you’re the first one I’ll be calling.

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SSR Azul Attwood Bloom Birthday Personal Story: Part 2

Louie: So, you always seem to have interesting stories about your life at home, but in terms of your school life, “What is your favorite class?”

Azul: Oh gosh, that’s hard too. My best subject is Ancient Incantations, but in terms of the class I enjoy the most... Honestly I’d have to say Swimming.

Louie: Ah, typical. It would make sense a dragonfly fae would like the water.

Azul: I guess I see what you mean. I have a lot of good memories attached to the water, though. My father actually made an entire lake on our estate property because I used to like swimming so much as a child.

Louie: You sure know how to enjoy that lavish life.

Azul: My mother always taught me to appreciate what I have, and thanks to my father there’s a lot to appreciate.

Louie: Would you say you’re more of a mommy’s girl or daddy’s girl?

Azul: Oh, I’m definitely much more attached to my father. They live apart on different estates since they both inherited noble titles, so I don’t get to see my mother often. My father’s always made it pretty obvious that I’m his favorite child anyway, so it’d be hard not to love someone who spoils me so much.

Louie: Ah, impressive! You’ll have quite the big shoes to fill in once you’re older.

Azul: He’s a man of many accomplishments. It’s quite hard to be the Queen’s informant, top diplomat, and Chief Warrant Officer.

Louie: And you’re not nervous about inheriting all that?

Azul: I haven’t felt anxious about it since Malleus was but a wee baby. He seems satisfied with me, so I have faith he’s taught me all I need to know about managing the March and the responsibilities our title comes with.

Louie: I see I have a lot to learn from you then, Lady Attwood.

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SSR Azul Attwood Bloom Birthday Personal Story: Part 3

Louie: It seems you have a lot to look forward to, so, "What are your plans for the coming year?”

Azul: Honestly? I just want to pass my classes. I’m barely making it by Professor Trein’s lectures because I keep falling asleep in them.

Louie: I understand the sentiment...

Azul: OH MY GOSH! I thought I was the only one! Nothing against him, he’s a wonderful man and I look up to him, but the content of his lectures are a bit of a bore to me. And his voice reminds me a bit of my father’s so it’s so easy for me to fall asleep to him.

Louie: And is it just me or does his cat keep looking at me? Every time I glance over it seems like it’s staring into my soul.

Azul: Oh, Lucius does that to everyone. I’ve asked him about it and he’s absolutely judging you for falling asleep in class. Kind of hypocritical in my opinion.

Louie: I KNEW IT! I should probably ask that second year how he gets away with it.

Azul: Second year? Which one?

Louie: You know... Short? He has ears...

Azul: That doesn’t narrow it down, Louie...

Louie: His name is escaping me right now... Uh.. Messy hair?

Azul: Okay that narrows it down a little more.

Louie: He hangs out with that weird looking tall one.

Azul: Nevermind, that expands the options infinitely more.

Louie: You know what I’m talking about. About this tall, has ears, looks like he hasn’t slept in years.

Azul: Louie, everyone at the college has ears with maybe the exception of Ortho sometimes.

Louie: Ummm, you like him. The one that goes like ‘shishishi’ and all.

Azul: OH, RUGGIE? Yeah he talks to Lucius a lot. Would definitely recommend asking for his advice if you wanna get in good with that cat.

Louie: Noted! Well, kid, it’s about that time. Inteview’s come to a close and it’s time to show off those flying skills I’ve heard so much about from Malleus. Here you are!

Azul: Oh gosh, that bouquet is beautiful! I kind of wanna dry out the flowers and keep it in my room.

Louie: Agreed, they did a wonderful job deccorating it. Looks delicious too!

Azul: Louie, I wouldn’t recommend eating any of these flowers. The roses would be fine, but the other parts of it might give you a stomachache...

Louie: Oh? See? I’m already learning from you. Ya better get going though. Make sure you get me a good shot of you on Birthday Road for the interview article.

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Azul: And three... two... one... Off we go!

#twisted wonderland oc #twst oc #my art #my writing

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clemencetaught · 1 year

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FERRE; SWEET, WONDERFUL, DEAR FERRE!!!! HAPPIEST OF BIRTHDAYS TO YOU 🎂🎉🥳🍰!!!!

May this day be full of fantastic moments, pleasant surprises, good company, delicious food and everything great that the world has to offer 💖 I hope this new year for you is covered with happiness, success, good health, memorable experiences and heartwarming situations 😊✨️!! I'm wishing you the best today and ALWAYS!!!

You are such a supportive, understanding, creative and marvelous soul;; your presence is a bright light that brings comfort, ease and joy 🥺 I thank you IMMENSELY for your friendship, for all those lovely chats where we freely go back and forth with our thoughts (I LOVE!! READING ALL YOU HAVE TO SHARE!! I'D READ ENTIRE BOOKS OF THAT!!); for all the stories we've written and developed together (ALL THOSE MARVELOUS PLOTS THAT BRING ME BOTH JOY AND PAIN ((but its okay, I signed up for the wounds 😭😂)), I KEEP THEM ALL IN MY HEART AND I AM CONTINUOUSLY THRILLED TO WRITE AND CREATE WITH YOU!!!) and for!! Giving my muses and I a chance 🥲

It's been nothing but AN HONOR, to get to know you, chat and write with you, and I hope we continue to do this fOR MANY MORE YEARS (I mean…you're stuck with me, THE RECEIPT IS LOST SO YOU CANT RETURN ME HSOWAKBAAJ 😂)!!

It also makes me very happy to celebrate your birthday once more, I HAVE MY PARTY HAT ON AND I'M THROWING HEART-SHAPED CONFETTI ALL OVER THE PLACE ��🎉🎉🥳🥳🥳❤️

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING, PLEASE HAVE A FANTABULOUS DAY!!! I CARE YOU AND ADORE YOU HEAPS, MY FRIEND!!!!

HAPPY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! ✨️✨️✨️✨️

@jeoseungsaja alex has me like:

ALEX!!!! 🥰🥰🥰😭😭😭💕

you know nowadays it’s so weird to me?? To remember when there was a time where I wasn’t writing or plotting with you- it's hard to believe that we started writing together about two years ago...which is why i am SO GRATEFUL that you gave me the chance to not only write and plot with you but also be your friend 🥺🥺🥺 you are a SUCH a kind and thoughtful person and i'm sure everyone who is lucky enough to be mutuals with you can testify in my favor here and the judge is also biased towards me, sorry folks, the right to a fair trial in this case?? no such thing fjksldjf 😌

ANYWAYS i can only say i have such wonderful and intricate characters and plots on here because of my wonderful and creative partners such as you and all of our lovely mutuals 🥺🥺🥺 any day i get the chance to interact with you always is a good day in my book!! I always feel like a dash of dophmomine when I see u around 💕💕💕 and you know i am ALWAYS an excited puppy for our plots and your characters ( and even MORE PLOTS….we could have 1923947373 and I would be down for more still DHDJDJD 😂😂😂 )- I also v sorry for the pain i gib u ( black knight verse )and for the pain coming in the future too ( thg verse WHICH ALSO THANK YOU JUMPING IN THE HOLE AND DRAGGING HYUK AND HAE GEON AND WILDER AND JAEHWAN AND ALL UR OTHER CHARACTERS IN TOO, it’s big enough for everyone 😌 )….if it helps it gives me pain too and any pain u gib me I shall take stride….I’ll also pay u ( and ur charas, hyuk especially )back with happiness I swear ( + tissues and consoling too 🥲🥲🥲 ) 💕💕💕💕

but thank YOU for your sweet, sweet message- I will admit when I woke up on my bday I wasn’t in most amazing of moods but reading ur message put a huge smile on my face ☺️☺️☺️ you are such a bright spot on this hellsite and most certainly a ☀️ on my dash and I am very thankful to have met you- I’m always in awe that I get to be able to interact with someone who is not only an excellent writer with characters that jump off the page but also a decent and genuinely all around good person 🥲🥲🥲 this is all to say just like you said, unfortunately for us both I will be stuck to u like superglue even after this hellsite dies 😂😂😂 not even returning the receipt will help u there!!

all in all though, thank you SO MUCH for the birthday wishes ( and YOUR GIFT DONT THINK YOURE GETTING AWAY WITH ME NOT NOTICING 🤩🤩🤩 )!! care you so much and I know for sure that this year will be as wonderful as the last since you’ll be there 🥰🥰🥰

#jeoseungsaja #out of mercy ( ooc. )#a pocket watch from an old love ( saved. )#ALEX THE WAY I WAS SO HAPPY TO SEE THIS 🥹🥹🥹#I had a wonderful birthday and weekend no worries one that #And I definitely have u to thank as one reason 💕💕💕#thank you as always for being my dear friend and being such a bright spot on dumblr…..#when I feel like setting this place on fire #and I see u on mi dash I regain some hope 🥲#alex does things like this and makes me smile and cry all at once 💕💕💕#seriously go follow alex she is a WONDERFUL writer and friend #YOU WILL NOT REGRET IT AND IF U DO U R WRONG 😤😤😤#( okay maybe that’s harsh but also ur still wrong in my book 😔 )#A super nice and kind mun with wonderfully complex and well written characters….what’s there to lose….nothing at all 💕#Okie I will end it here PLEASE HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY EVERYONE ( BUT ESPECIALLY ALEX 💕💕💕 )

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daphnerux · 1 year

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Dearest Captain Daphers,

This note is for your eyes only. I have set up this message that if it’s shared with anyone else it will blow up. Okay, that’s not true but I’ll never forgive you if you show this to anyone.

I don’t say this to just anyone, I’ll have you know: you are one of the most incredible, intelligent, honorable people that I have ever met. And I know this because I’ve met a lot of people across the galaxy, and not a single one comes even close to you. You’re the best captain any smuggler could ever ask for in this work. There aren’t a lot out there that watch out for their crew the way you do. Even before you became the great Captain Daphne Rux, back when you were Daphne Rux the incredibly talented Quartermaster, you’ve always been someone I looked up to. It took me a long time to catch up, but you helped me realized I deserve a lot better than what I had back in the Bat Ray, and joining your ship is the best decision I’ve made perhaps ever. I have no problem speaking for the crew when I say we couldn’t be more grateful to have you us our captain.

Anyway this was supposed to be a silly birthday message and I didn’t even say happy birthday in the fucking message. Happy birthday, Daphne! I hope you the finest bottle of brandy I could find in Marloken. The bottle shape is… questionable… but I promise you’ll forget all about it once you have taste of what’s inside ;)

xoxo Beck

#//this will be cherished. except the part about being called captain daphers

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jodilin65 · 7 months

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Just when I thought it was over, things got bad again. I didn’t get sick but I had the worst acid reflux I’ve ever had in my life last night. My throat didn’t just burn but it hurt like hell! I was delayed getting to sleep because I had to sit propped up on my wedge pillow which is very hard to sleep on. Eventually, I was able to lie down flat and then settle onto my stomach so I could get into a deeper sleep. I was afraid that if I tried to sleep lying down sooner, I would choke.

Sometimes I really wish I would just get something that would kill me! I’m so sick of the never-ending fatigue and health issues!!! I almost feel like I’m being held prisoner in my own home. Yes, I’m a homebody 95% of the time but I would still like to do things at times. Every event I want to attend I happen to have to sleep through. Really wanted to give blood at the clubhouse on the 6th but I’m not going to be up before they’re done if I’m even feeling well enough. It’s okay, though. I don’t have to do this. I don’t have to play Bingo. I don’t have to take walks. I can just accept my so-called “calling” in life and spend half of it in bed. Why not? Most people dream of this, right?

Anyway, I was amazed I wasn’t nauseous on top of all the acid reflux kicking up in my throat last night but my stomach isn’t perfect either.

I’m just so damn drained not just because of the virus itself and the screwy sleep but the lack of nutrition. Even so, I already went back up a pound. I likely never lost fat but weight because my digestive tract emptied out. I tell you, I ain’t kidding when I say you could literally lock me in a room and starve me and I wouldn’t lose a damn pound. I really think some of us are simply the way we’re meant to be.

So I slept a little over 6 hours, began this entry, and then napped for a couple of hours. A little while ago, I was finally able to get up and get down a banana, some apple sauce, and saltines. Tom ran out to Publix and picked up some more chicken soup as well as fruits, veggies, and TV dinners. The only reason I got the processed sodium-laden things was because I don’t have the energy to cook. Hell, I can’t even clean the house.

We’ve gotta drop Walgreens and start getting our meds somewhere else because I am sick and fucking tired of them taking it upon themselves to make my medical decisions for me by refilling prescriptions I didn’t ask them to refill. Tom checked the site again, and we do have the auto-refill off. Yet they refused to honor our request to wait until we tell them to refill meds. I’m not ready for a levo refill for another couple of weeks and the decision as to when I have it refilled should be up to me.

Loving scented things as I do I got some eucalyptus oil going in the diffuser, but it’s not very strong-smelling. Maybe I didn’t put enough in and I’ll add some sandalwood to it. I burned some lavender incense earlier, but I only want to burn one stick a day. If I burn more I get congested.

Some activity going on at the honker’s but what else is new? Next month it’s out of here for a while. He has out-of-town visitors, but he must have picked them up at the airport because they used his truck while he went out on the motorcycle. Why have visitors if you’re not going to do things together? It’s his 60th birthday today, so maybe that’s got something to do with it. I didn’t wish him a happy birthday. He didn’t wish me one for mine in December.

I’m frustrated not only for obvious reasons when one gets sick, but I lost a little money since I haven’t been able to work online as much. Also, I would have finished the challenge and returned to Indiana had I not gotten sick. I did manage to do a few miles yesterday, and it was funny because I was toying with someone else on the road who joined the ride while I was on it. I don’t know if they realized what I was doing or if they cared, but whenever I would pause to change the radio station or skip songs, they would get ahead. But knowing I could go a little faster with my unique setup, I would eventually pass them. Then pause, let them pass, and back and forth. And I’m sure they were wondering how I was managing to pull that off because they weren’t stopping and they were pedaling steadily.

So I’ve gone from drowning to looming jail sentences to being attacked in my dreams. Two or three of the Mexican freeloader’s daughters from Phoenix walked by me eating by myself in a restaurant. Now all grown up, they magically knew who I was even if some were infants in the 90s and others may not have even existed.

They hurled threats and slaps at me and when I went to cover my face with my hands, they started slapping my stomach which was bare as I was wearing a crop top. After a minute of this, they took off and I automatically reached for my phone to call the cops, but then I hesitated. I knew they would not only be long gone, but I didn’t know their names or what the cops could do or that they would even care to do anything, knowing that minorities tend to be believed over non-minorities (the girls looked white, though).

I left the restaurant and resumed my walk home when next thing I knew, I was in Springfield. I recognized the voice of Laurie the cop talking to a couple of people. I only saw her from behind, though. Her butt and back were fat, I noticed, and then I went inside a building to get a drink. I became worried when I heard her voice as she too, entered the building a minute after I did, and I told myself I had to hurry up because if she saw me and recognized me, she certainly could and likely would hurt me.

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jaejoongs-nipple-piercing · 9 months

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I’m writing this a day early because I’ll be too much of a mess tomorrow. This is a split post: half for Kim Jonghyun and half for my grandma.

For Jonghyun: I wish I would have tried harder in 2016 to go to your fanmeet in Dallas. I know it’s too far away and I would have had to take a plane to get there but I wanted to meet you so bad. I wanted to give you a hug, I wish I could have told you how well you were doing and that you have since inspired me to attempt one of my dreams of writing again. I’m not in the best place mentally the last few years and I’ve been crying more than I’ll ever admit but your songs as 5 help me get through things. In fact, I listened to your cover of Y Si Fuera Ella again yesterday on the way back home from my walk, and as soon as the instruments started my tears just fell out. Luckily I’ve been walking these roads since I was 5-6 so I know what I’m doing. Anyway, even though I never got to meet you I do still miss you. And it’s harder than ever this year because you left on my grandmas birthday and now she’s gone too. So as strange as it sounds, if there’s any way at all that you see this Jonghyun, can you please watch over an 88 year old woman named Marjorie for me? I miss her a lot too.

Grandma: I hate that you had to go through so much pain the last few years. I hate that in the process of going through the chemo and radiation that it ruined your lungs. I hate that someone decided to take you away from me, from us when you weren’t supposed to go yet. You wanted to have a big celebration on your 90th birthday so in honor of you I will celebrate the way you wanted. And if I have to take that day off from work then I will. I know we weren’t very close like we were when I was a kid and I feel bad about it. I’m so sorry. I wanted to visit more but I had to work. And you know you weren’t supposed to be driving, that’s why I didn’t want you to take me up to work. It wasn’t because I didn’t love you anymore, it was for your safety.

I miss helping you with sewing projects. I miss making sun dried raisins with you. I miss picking blackberries over the summer in the back yard. I miss the fun sleepovers, the Christmas decorations you always had out. Your cute sleeping Santa that I would stare at for hours after we finished eating because I was so sure he would wake up at some point. I miss playing with your Barbie’s as a kid and you telling me they can’t be nude “you have to put clothes on the babies” you would say. We would stay up late and watch movies and eat popcorn way past our bedtime.

Your house isn’t the same anymore. There’s a ramp outside. Everyone is always gone. And Ethan has your phone now. They don’t want us to call your house your house anymore. But I promise you, it will always be Grandmas’ House. I hate the things that took you away and though it didn’t hit me at first it really has the last few months. And I honestly might never open the gift you got me for my birthday but if I do, then that’s it. No more presents from grandma and I don’t want that so I’m putting it off as long as I can. And I don’t have a safe place in my room to put it right now.

Thank you for teaching me how to embroider, I use some of the basic stitches to sew up my clothes so I don’t have to buy more. Thank you for letting us eat raw cookie dough even though it’s bad for us. Thank you for letting me sleep with you in your bed when I was little and scared. Thank you for the black and white striped dress you made me in 5th grade and for all the pajamas you made for me and the rest of us. Thank you for letting us hide in your house for 6 long months in 2015, I know that was hard on you but it really helped us. Thank you for the horse quilt you made me for my 13th birthday and the Quillow you and mom made me with shoes and Betty Boop. Thank you for all the sheets and pillowcases you made and embroidered for me over the years, I still have them all. Thank you for the shoe-shaped ring holder and the necklaces with the interchangeable watch kit. Thank you for letting me pick through your American Girl books and take the ones I wanted. Thank you for letting me play in your kitten heels that you always kept hidden under your bed. Thank you for making us waffles the morning after the slumber parties. Thank you for taking me to that fair where I got my cute little beaded cat necklace, I wear it almost every Halloween. And for the little fuchsia and teal striped plush fish.

I miss all of that, and I miss you.

#Jonghyun #shinee Jonghyun #grandma #my grandma

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dragonsdreamoffire · 2 years

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Okay, time for the monthly newsletter in which I check in, beg for your forgiveness, and write a convoluted introduction!! I’ve decided to change the style from letter to newspaper— in honor of your recent ventures into the newspaper with your club!! WHICH IS SO COOLLLLLLLLLL FOR THE RECORD

En specifique, I’m writing this as a Letter to The Editor! (Journalism class is coming in clutch for this, our first unit was on all the different types of news in a newspaper)

Well, if I really wanted to make this look like a letter to the editor, I guess this would have to be formatted into a tiny column on the sodes of the opinion section of the newspaper. Hm…

Anyway!

I’m looking through my inbox to catalog the things you’ve told me that I didn’t get a chance to reply to that I’m so sorry for but also very excited to reply to and this is a run on sentence stopping it here let’s go:

YOUR SUNFLOWER SNEAKERS ARE ADORABLE, AND YOUR FIT WAS ADORABLE THAT DAY. I love the floral, you looked stunning, Dream. Well, you always look stunning, so that’s not a surprise

Newspaper. Details. Now. (Please, Pretty, Pretty, Please) How’s it going? Who’s joined? Do you like it so far?

My Carrd only speaks the truth! Maybe I should make that part in a bigger font. Can never express how much I love you with words, but maybe the size of the words will help.

THANK YOU for the happy birthday <3 I appreciate it. That day was not a good one, but you did make it better. I managed to make my first quarter grades look decent in the end!

Perennially I concern myself with whether or not you’re overworking, so I think I’m gonna start including “please let dream be having a good, restful day inshallah” in my my daily mantras

I JUST FIGURED OUT HOW TO DO THE THE HOTSPOT THING YOU DID WITH MY NAME. Well, not exactly. I am gonna change my airpods’ name to something referring to you, though

How’s debate going? Oh, and the moves? Oh, and school?! Honestly. How are you, Dream? Answers optional to any of the points brought up in this ask, but I’d love to hear <3

I love you,

Lusy

The newspaper writing style is terrific thank you <33

I will say that tumblr does format this into tiny writing so I can certainly imagine this on the side of a newspaper

Thank you I love those sneakers and I love that you love them 🥺

The newspaper!! Well my partner Jack has been great, I’m hoping he falls in love with me because that’d be aesthetic. I’m kidding, but we’ve got a few members, less than I’d hoped but we’re still spreading the good news 😌 I’ve been glad of the progress we’ve seen though, and we’ve got great ideas going :))

Oh you should absolutely make it in into a bigger font, declare to the world your love, and I’ll spend some time making a card too so we can match~

I’m glad I’d made your birthday feel a little better <33

Awwwwwww Lusy 😭 you’re so sweet I’ll cry, I’m going to do that too you’re so terrific

I love that for us, my hotspot is named after you and I, and your AirPods are named after us, positively adorable

The debate stuff is going meh, and school is also kinda meh. I’m just paying attention to the little things in life and finding joy where I can, it’s how I’ve found easiest to keep sane.

Recently I’ve realized something about how I would want a relationship if I was interested in it. (I’m both scared of parental retribution and relatively ok with the arranged marriage thing and also dislike guys my age and I couldn’t date a girl because that’s far too risky with my parents around)

I’d probably like a reverse friends with benefits. Instead of just unholy things without romance (and commitment because it’s friends), I’d like to have purely a romantic agreement, no s*x (and still no commitment). I’m not going to exactly go out and look for it or try to have it, but I have found I dislike the idea of a relationship and I dislike s*x, but I crave hugs.

My friends are all unfortunate not super big huggers and I’m sort of looking for a 30 minute hug, so I’m unfortunately out of luck haha

I also went to my cousins wedding, and I figure an arranged marriage wouldn’t be that bad, but it brought to mind that talk we had. I saw my cousin who married last year with his wife, I love her she’s wonderful, except. How does marrying someone immediately qualify them as more important than your friends. Or that you trust them? It seems to be working just fine for all the 20-something Muslim adults I know who are marrying, the system of finding someone relatively compatible and just marrying them and I get why. Making a choice to commit to someone is more important than simply chasing feelings because relationships are about dedication, but I don’t understand how other relationships are considered less of a priority because of it, or how people view romantic relationships as tangential to platonic ones, they share some things but they ultimately diverge.

Anyways I’ll send a few pictures from the wedding later :))

#i have a lot of thoughts #i also crave being hugged #it’s not a good mixture lol

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ptergwen · 3 years

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that’s my boy

w/c: 0.8k

warnings: just the floofiest fluff

summary: you give peter the perfect start to his special day

a/n: no wayyyy it’s peter day y’all ! i can’t believe my favorite person literally ever is going another year around the sun like i’m kinda emosh about it? we’re still out here tho let’s turn it up in his honor <3 teehee i hope you enjoy my loves

you skip up the stairs to peter’s building with a goofy grin on your face, quickly finding your way inside. you’re hardly able to contain your excitement as you begin the ascent to his floor.

you’ll make sure today is everything peter could wish for and more, if it’s the last thing you do.

you’d coordinated with may to prepare the apartment for one of her annual birthday bashes while you take peter for breakfast and explore the city. it’s going to be perfect. you and peter will get some one-on-one time together, then you’ll come home and celebrate with all your friends.

after a few knocks at peter’s apartment door, may answers. she has a smile that matches yours and a box of streamers tucked under her arm.

“is he still asleep?” you question, peering down the hall to where peter’s bedroom is. may snorts and closes the door once you’re in. “hard to tell. you know him.” laughing yourself, you kick your sneakers off on the welcome mat. “he’s either been up for hours or out cold. no in between.”

“that’s our boy,” may agrees, your heart warming at that. she’s definitely responsible for shaping her nephew into the lovely soul he is. “why don’t you go in and wake him, huh? he’d rather you than me.”

you click your tongue and push up one of the backpack straps on your shoulder. “oh, that’s not true. we should do it together!” may pats your arm, her tender way of shooing you off. “no, no. i’ll let you kids have your moment. besides, i’ve got my work cut out for me.”

she gestures to a large pile of miscellaneous party gear covering the kitchen table. she’s sure as hell committed.

“well, good luck with that. i’m gonna go check on the birthday boy, then.” you beam at may, earning two thumbs up from her before you sneak over to peter’s room.

walking on tiptoes, you slowly open up his door to reveal your very own sleeping beauty. peter is buried underneath his blankets, on his stomach and hugging his pillow during his visit to dreamland.

there’s a sight to cherish.

you slide your backpack, which is carrying his gifts, off your shoulders and quietly shut the door behind you. your feet lead you straight to your boyfriend’s cozy bed.

“pete, hey,” you whisper and set a gentle hand on his back. “time to get up, babes. we’ve got stuff to do.” peter groans, shoving his face further into his pillow. “mm, sorry. peter can’t come to the phone right now,” he mumbles, you giggling when he swats your hand away. instead, your touch trails to his mop of curls.

you play along. “why not?” your fingers stroke through his messy hair, the sensation having peter practically purring. he turns his head so his cheek is smushed against the pillow and he’s looking at you. “‘cuz he’s sleeping. he says you’re welcome to join him, though.” a lazy smile paints his parted lips.

you’re not passing up a chance to snuggle him, especially not on his day. you have a bit until your reservations, anyway.

“i’ll bite. scoot over, bug boy.” you tug on his locks for emphasis. “you mean arachnid?” peter corrects, now smirking. “someone’s a bit cheeky today, aren’t they?” you rhetorically ask and nudge his side to move over. peter obliges this time.

he leaves a warm spot for you, pulling you in and under the covers by your waist. not expecting this, you squeal as you land on the mattress.

“i’m allowed to be,” peter insists and hides his face in the crook of your neck, where he peppers sloppy kisses that tickle your skin. “you know why?” he gazes up at you. you wind your arms around his own neck with a grin so wide your cheeks hurt. “because it’s your birthday.”

peter brushes the tip of his nose against yours, pecking your lips softly. “ding, ding, ding,” he sings. “happy birthday, peter benjamin parker. my hero, love of my life.” you capture his lips again in a longer kiss, peter chuckling into it. he lets out a content sigh.

“thank you, baby. love you forever,” peter rasps with his morning voice you adore so much. “and… always,” you finish for him. “times infinity,” he adds, giving you a short and final kiss. your legs wrap around his waist, both of your heads resting on his pillow.

his eyes hooded, peter runs his fingertips up and down your spine soothingly. “so, what stuff did we have to do? what’s on the agenda?” you situate your hands in the curls at the nape of his neck, humming. “just wait and see. you’re in for a real treat, peter.” he yawns and decides to lay his head on your chest. “mhm… can’t wait, y/n.”

“go back to sleep,” you lightheartedly command. “gladly. it’s too early for this,” peter grumbles. that was easy. “wake me in ten… hours.”

he secures his arms tighter around your middle, you laughing to yourself while he drifts off to you toying with his hair.

the perfect birthday has officially commenced.

#peter parker #peter parker fluff #peter parker x reader #peter parker x y/n #peter parker x you #peter parker imagine #peter parker fic #peter parker fanfiction #peter parker au #peter parker oneshot #tom holland #tom holland fluff #tom holland imagine #tom holland x reader #tom holland x y/n #tom holland x you #tom holland fic #tom holland fanfiction #tom holland oneshot

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falcor-thee-luck-dragon · 3 years

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Dark Shenanigans - Nandor x (f)reader

Summary: It’s Nadja’s something hundredth birthday, with that said, you’re on a mission to make it great.

Warning: fluff, general vampire nonsense

Masterlist

“Yeah being a half vampire half human does have its perks. I mean for one I can do all that cool vampire shit and I can go out in the sunlight...so that helps for when they’re all being really annoying.” You admit with a casual shrug to one of the documentary cameras before turning to an isle of party supplies. “So anyways we’re at this store.”

The camera shifts to the multiple arras of supplies and materials at the local supermarket in Staten Island that you and your vampire lover’s human familiar, Guillermo, currently are. Specifically on the hunt for birthday decorations for Nadja and ghost Nadja who’s possessed a strange looking doll for the time being.

Since the other four actual full vampires can’t shop for themselves at this time of day or really in general, you and Guillermo have been given such an honorable task in making Nadja’s birthday the best one yet. Considering she’s the most well balanced in the head out of the four of them and is the only other lady of the manor.

“Hey Y/N, how’s this look?” Wonders Guillermo as he holds up a bunch of Mardi Gras beads of yellows, purples, and greens. “Comments, questions, concerns?” He adds with a small smile.

Eyeing up the beads, your head shifts over to the other various colors, “Hrmm, G I’m feeling the vibe you’re going for this year and I like it, but let’s go with Nadja colors.”

Guillermo’s dark eyes light up at your positive suggestion, “Right! So the red and black ones then?”

“Yup. She’ll love that shit.” You state with a satisfied nod of approval, “Let’s get some black and gold confetti from over there and oh, those masquerade masks look cool as fuck.”

You pick up and test out various masks in the background as Guillermo adds some bits of dialogue for the documentary crew, “Um yeah she’s really cool isn’t she.” He says with a smile while glancing at you then back to the camera, “Which is kind of odd since Y/N’s been with Nandor since 1793 so you’d think she’d be a little more like them but no, she’s super chill and really nice.” Suddenly his face goes a bit serious as he leans in to whisper, “But she did kill a whole street gang once when they threw a slur at me so I wouldn’t mess with her. For your safety.”

The camera pans back over to an oblivious you who’s put on a masquerade mask and is swinging a plastic light saber around with a whole lot more accuracy and grace then would a normal person. The camera then pans back to Gullimero, “Um, I’m just gonna....make sure she doesn’t smack anyone.”

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Arms full of groceries of food for you and Gullimero, as well as random party decorations for Nadja’s birthday tomorrow night, you use the bottom of your boot to skillfully open the door as the documentary crew and Guillermo follows suit. Guillermo now on the verge of falling over with the large heart shaped pillow in his arms that’s covering most of his body.

You don’t feel tired in the slightest due to your half vampiric abilities so this is nothing to you, “Alright.” You state, turning on your heel to face the crew and Guillermo, “They’re asleep so we gotta be extra sneaky now, I don’t want Nadja catching us with all this cool spooky birthday shit. Everyone to the attic!” You whisper yell before leading the charge to the attic.

They all follow as quietly and as quickly as they can and then soon enough in no time are you and Guillermo back outside in the sunny garden trying to figure out if you should blow up the giant sea monster pool floaty.

“I mean it would look cool as hell and no doubt out-do whatever the fuck boring thing Lazlo probably has planned.” You quip with a shrug while the two of you stare thoughtfully at the small gloomy dark pond. “He’s got no chance with us. I’ve won best decorator and card maker for two hundred years in a row.”

Guillermo side eyes you in honest amazement, “Wow that’s a lot of years. And cards.”

“I know. I was an artist in the 12th century but my no good terrible good for nothing piece of garbage trash sexist human husband, who I was forced to marry when I was only sixteen, took all the credit for my artwork in that era.” You confirm with a growl, “But it stings less because once I finally grew into my powers and strength at eighteen I simply made his untimely demise look like an accident.” You add with a smirk.

“Oh, wow.” Mutters the intrigued familiar.

“Precisely. The old fool was thrown off his horse because I told Philip, the horse, to throw him off. And he did. Which killed the idiot so I got the house and all of his money.”

“That’s......neat.” Mutters Guillermo as he shoots the camera crew from behind you and him a nervous look. “Uh the suns going down so I should probably help Nandor out of his coffin.”

Raising your head to the sky you immediately see how the sun has begun to paint the clouds in beautiful colors of oranges, reds, light pinks, and darkening purples. “Oh, how bout that. Yeah alright let’s get inside.” You nod to Guillermo before turning to walk towards the manor’s giant mahogany doors.

——

Turning the handle and walking a couple feet into the large main room that holds itself as a sort of crossroads for all the other various connecting hallways and staircases. You don’t make it even three more steps towards the left ascending staircase before you hear the highly recognizable voice of your one and only.

“Y/N! My lovely wife and favorite person still ever so lovely!” Announces Nandor loudly with a grand smile showing off his pearly white fangs, “How I have missed you and your morning kisses. Where have you been off to?” He wonders softly as you smile a big dumb love-struck grin right back up at him, you’d absolutely die to hear that accent one last time.

“I can’t tell you right now it’s a secret!” You whisper yell back, causing his thick dark brows to scrunch up in confusion.

“But I am your lovely strong puff dragon Y/N.” Whines Nandor adorably as you roll your eyes at the cameras before looking back up at him.

“Fine. Come here then.”

In an instant he’s at your side, excitedly awaiting what secretive news you will tell him, “Okay, so we know it’s Nadja’s birthday tomorrow right?”

“Yes. I remember because she hasn’t shut up about it.”

“Right. So me and Gullimero got some fun surprise birthday party decorations and they’re in the attic and we can’t tell Nadja.”

Nandor gives you a knowing look of affirmation as he leans in closer to you, his demeanor suddenly shifting into a more saddened one, “You went shopping without me?” He says quietly.

Leaning up to give him a quick peck on the cheek your hands instantly find his, “Just for a little while, but I still need to find more stuff so....you wanna come?”

Nandor’s big dark eyes light up with joy as you hand him a kind smile, “Yes! Let us go in search of unknown treasures for our lady friend Nadja so she will not be mad at us for terrible dull gifts of friendship.”

Laughing you give his hands a playful squeeze, “Come on I’ll race you to Party City!” You say before leading him past the camera crew and Guillermo who simply watches the two of you leave, glad to have an hour of peace.

“There’s a whole city for partying? Y/N why have we never been to this place?”

——

“Y/N there are no people partying here.” Whines your vampire lover in puzzlement as he follows you from the entrance to a side isle. “You said this was a city for partying.”

“That’s just the name of the store Nans.” You retort with a small chuckle as he looks from right to left at all the color coded party plates and napkins galore.

“Well the title is very misleading.”

“Agreed.”

Turning to the right you guide him towards the decretory pirate themed isle in search of something that will peak his interest. Also you wanted so badly to make it to this spot but Gullimero was a man on a mission so your intention was thwarted for when you had Nandor with you.

Speed walking down the pirate themed isle you quickly halt all movement as Nandor’s large body stops within less than an inch from your back. Smiling brightly you snatch the desired object in front of you and as swift as a cat turn to face him.

“Have you come for a dual my old enemy?” You speak slyly, eyes narrowed as you hold the foam sword right in front of his face. “I sense a nervousness about you. Tell me, are you ready to face your inevitable bloody end?”

Staring at the pointy foam, his dark puppy eyes shift over to you as an adorable fangy grin breaks out across his pale face, “Seems you have come prepared, oh radiant and alluring seductress. Well, so have I!” Shouts Nandor before grabbing two foam swords from off the rack and swinging them in both hands like a mad man.

Taking a cautious step back you hold your pathetic five dollar sword in both hands like a true warrior ready for battle, “Only one shall leave this place alive.” You affirm with a smirk, “And it’s not going to be you.”

“Arrrrrggg.” Bellows your lover as he charges you like the true conqueror that he once was. But all to soon do you swiftly duck under his arms and swat him over his stomach with a confident thwack sound.

He makes a puny little “oww” as you turn around to face him once again, “Y/N you hit me kind of hard.” He complains, looking rather defeated and genuinely hurt that you could have intentionally injured him on purpose.

Bringing the plastic weapon down to your side once again, your face suddenly softens as you walk over to him, “Come here you big baby.” You quip sincerely as he leans down so you can give his cheek a quick kiss.

Rising back to his full height, Nandor almost blushes as the corners of his eyes crinkle into a happy smile, “Actually it didn’t hurt at all I just wanted you to kiss me.” Reveals the vampire with a proud grin as you simply roll your eyes.

“Should have known.” You add before turning and snatching up four more plastic foam pirate swords for the others. “Alright let’s get outta here, follow me my love, to the checkout line we shall purchase our weapons of war and partying on the high seas.” You announce with gusto as Nandor stands proudly at your side, ready to follow you anywhere.

“Yes. To check out.”

——

Kicking open the unlocked door, Nandor bursts into the vampire residence with bags full of goodies for Nadja’s birthday party. You right behind him but less dramatically, “We’re back!” You shout to no one in particular as Colin Robinson suddenly appears from out of nowhere, looking ready to leave with his funny little hat and usual beige jacket.

“Oh hey guys,” He starts with a friendly nod, “I’m just heading out on the town tonight. I guess there’s a fair or something in the park and I wanted to test my skill at the ball toss. I’ve been reading up on the body mechanics and how the game is set up which seems pretty basic all in all. Also I really want to win a stuffed bear this time, it might add a little pizazz to my room. Welp see ya’round.” Adds Colin before walking past the two of you without another word and out into the night he goes with some of the camera crew following close behind.

Nandor turns to you with a look of annoyance, “Jeesh I thought he would never leave. Let’s go to your room I want to kiss you some more now.”

“Why my room?”

“Because since you are half vampire you get to sleep in a bed and because I am a full vampire I sleep in a coffin.” Inquires Nandor while looking at you with those big beautiful dark eyes of his, “And my coffin is too small for cuddles so your room will suffice.”

“Yeah that’s a fair point.” You shrug before following him to your room.

After many cuddles leading to other more rated R type activities that lasted until just about sunrise, you finally got some well needed rest while the sun shone high in the sky until she began her dramatic descend back into oblivion. Opening your eyes you slowly rise from out of your comfy bed, already missing the presence of your obsidian eyed lover.

He gets too nervous about your closed windows for fear that the sun might burn him which would be impossible because you black out the glass. But alas, he’s very cautious about these types of things and won’t risk it for anything, though he feels bad about leaving you in the morning, you understand.

Suddenly it dawns on you that today or perhaps tonight, is Nadja’s birthday and you completely forgot to set up any decorations. Shit, how stupid. Throwing the blankets off of you, your feet move quick as you speedily change yesterday’s outfit for something a bit nicer and more clean.

Racing out of your room and into the dimly lit manor hallway, you make a bee line for the attic but before you’re able to reach the steps, Guillermo runs into you, just about knocking you into a wall of various stolen ancient weapons. Sharp ones at that.

That was close.

“Y/N are you okay!” Worries the familiar as you quickly gather your bearings.

“Guillermo! The decorations! Nadja’s birthday!” You whisper yell as the human man simply smiles. “Why are you smiling, this situation does not call for smiles.”

“Don’t worry. While you were sleeping I set up all the decorations.” He replies with a shrug, “No problem.”

“What? But that must have taken you all day, you could have asked me for help. I would have come.” Your brows furrow as he shakes his head, though you still feel bad for not helping with anything.

“Well I did try, but um,” Gullimero awkwardly clears his throat, giving the camera a quick glance, “Nandor was with you and last time I asked for you while you and him where having alone time he threatened to carve out my eyeballs and force feed them to me.”

Pinching the bridge of your nose in annoyance you take a deep breath, “Sounds like him. Very creative when he wants to be, alright, well....where’s everyone?”

“Oh, they’re not up yet. I was actually on my way to get you. I made blood popsicles and the pool floaty is all done and in the pond.” He says with a sense of pride for his decorating skills. “I think she’ll like what we’ve come up with this year.”

Standing in the living room with your three fellow immortals you search a dresser for her card, “Oh shit where’s my card? I could have sworn I had it yesterday on my dresser but I don’t remember seeing it there in the morning. Maybe it’s in this one?”

“Witches!” Hisses Nadja as you huff in frustration, where the hell did you put that damn card?

“Oh, Y/N my love,” Intervenes Nandor with a gentle tug of your sleeve, “I took it with me when I left your room before sunrise because I wanted to put my name on it too so she would know it’s from us.”

“What?” Replies Lazlo dramatically, “Now hold on just a damn minute, this card competition is individually scored so I won’t be having any of this nonsense. I worked really hard on mine this year.”

“Oh lick a donkey’s arse, look here,” You retort with, quickly holding up the card for Nadja, “there are two separate drawings on ours so either way if one of us wins she gets both our pictures. So you better hope your drawing doesn’t resemble a night clubs bathroom wall.”

“Yeah.” Mutters Nandor, who’s hiding behind you while resting both hands on either one of your shoulders as you glare at Lazlo.

“Fine.” Agrees Lazlo begrudgingly, “And mine will be amazing, this bitch of paper took me a whole six months to plan and produce. Can’t get quality this good anywhere else I guarantee it.” Adds Lazlo with a firm nod of self approval as you glance at the nearby camera.

“Right, okay everyone sit it’s time for presents. I want to know what you all got me.” Beams Nadja excitedly as she smiles a fangy grin in delight, plopping herself down in one of the arm chairs. Lazlo quickly finding the other one while you and Nandor seat yourself on the large couch. Colin and Guillermo finding somewhere to sit close by respectfully.

“Well, all I can say is hold onto your socks my dear cause this is going to blow you away.” Smirks Lazlo as he pulls a small box from out of his jacket pocket.

“If it’s a self made business card that says invitation to sexy town I will puke.” You deadpan while Nandor laughs from beside you, causing Lazlo to lose his smirk as Nadja hides her amusement the best she can manage.

“He he, sexy town, nice one Y/N.” Mutters Nandor with a proud grin as you raise a brow at Lazlo who’s giving you a hard glare.

“Oh, my dear pumpkin pie love, don’t listen to Y/N I will love anything you gift me.” Encourages Nadja with a bright welcoming smile, no doubt immediately boosting Lazlo’s once irked mood.

Rolling your eyes you shift a bit to find yourself leaning into Nandor’s body as Nadja opens up the rest of the vampire residents various gifts. A joyous fangy smile gracing her pale features every single time, revealing this birthday party was a thrilling success.

After much more fun that just about lasts throughout the whole night, and some rare but hilarious attempts at dancing between the five of you vampiric individuals. You’re feeling rather sleepy and you can tell Nandor is ready for a trip to dreamland as well.

Swaying to the lowly playing record instrumental, you hold Nandor tight while simultaneously enjoying the feeling of him so close, him doing just the same as he keeps you firmly pressed against his chest. His long dark hair tickles your face as he presses his head to your cheek, doing his absolute best to keep the flow without tripping up.

Sensing his growing fatigue, you gently squeeze his hand, “My love the sun will be up soon, let’s get you to bed, yes?”

A small lazy smile tugs at the corners of his lips while he looks down to meet your gaze, “But my dark angel I’m not tired. I want to dance with you a little longer.” He whines adorably before failing to conceal a big yawn.

Giggling, you lean back to slowly lead him towards the door, “That yawn says otherwise.”

“That wasn’t a yawn Y/N, I was just smiling really big.” He protests, though he still follows your lead to the door.

“I’ve never seen anyone smile like that.” You add with a raised brow.

“Well maybe that’s just how I smile.”

Letting out a breathy snort, you pull away from him to at last take his one hand, “Come. I can’t have a single ray of that dreaded sun to get a taste of your precious skin. Not on my watch.”

Glancing at the closed front door, Nandor squeezes your hand, “Well um, now since you’ve mentioned the sun...I think I’d like to go to my crypt now.” He says, the flash of worry crossing over his face for only a brief moment.

“You sure? I mean a sunrise is pretty beautiful if I’m being honest and I know you never get to see them...”

“Not funny Y/N. And not fair, you know I can’t because I am full vampire.”

“And you’re missing out.”

“And I’d like to stay alive Y/N.”

“Aren’t you dead?”

“Yes and I am your only husband so I need to stay not burnt to a crisp.”

Chuckling, you follow him down the hallway, “Oh really? Don’t want me finding myself with another vampiric lover? Some new beast to sweep me off my feet and take me away into the night.” You tease.

Side eyeing you, he frowns, “No. Don’t I sweep you off your feet?”

Stepping into his crypt you stop him with your hand against his bicep, “Always.” You whisper sincerely with a quick wink, causing him to break out into a big fangy grin.

“Good. And if anyone would try and whoo you I would make sure there would be no more whooing again!” Exclaims Nandor, making the candles rise in flame for only a short second at his rise in emotion for how much he loves you.

“I don’t doubt they would fall by your blade. Not for a second.”

#nandor the relentless #Nandor x reader #nandor x you #nandor x y/n #what we do in the shadows #what we do in the shadows x reader #vampire fun yeah #love my big huggable vampire #:)

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mysteryshoptls · 3 years

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2021-2022 Character Birthday Login Message Lines

These are all the messages that you get from the boys when you log in on each of their birthdays! For those that want to hear them again, you can find them in the Album, under バースデーストーリー②.

You can see the 2020-2021 Character Birthday Login Message Lines here!

HEARTSLABYUL

Riddle

Wait a moment, you. You weren’t thinking of entering Heartslabyul grounds with that suspicious package just now, were you? I’ll have to inspect its contents… Eh, it’s my birthday gift? Were you trying to sneakily leave it for me? Well… If that’s what you were trying to do, I’ll take it off your hands. You know, I wouldn’t get upset at you if you wanted to give it to me directly. Thank you.

Ace

Hey, Prefect. Don’t you have something to say to me? …The quiz? Aah, the magical history one. I already said I studied for it. …The cafeteria’s new menu? Yeah, that looked so good, didn’t it? I mean, hey! …Oh, what, you did remember. C'mon, aren’t you supposed to say Happy Birthday first thing? Well anyway, thanks!

Deuce

I can't believe you're here to wish me a happy birthday... Today's such an amazing day. ...Oh, shoot. I definitely have some kind of weird look on my face right now, don't I? Sorry, I just got so happy I couldn't help this wide grin. Anyway, thanks so much, Prefect! I'll make sure to keep doing my best to be someone deserving of your celebrations!

Cater

Thanks for coming to celebrate my birthday! I'm super stoked! You're gonna give me whatever I want for my birthday? Well, if you say that... it might make me want to ask for something huge. I'm kidding, don't worry! How about we go skateboarding together? We can do some sweet tricks and post some pictures online!

Trey

Oh are you going to celebrate my birthday as well? Thanks. What do I want as a present...? I'm okay with anything. Hey, it's not like I'm just saying that in order to answer your question. I'm just happy that you're thinking of me.

SAVANACLAW

Leona

What'd you want? ...Ah, you came to celebrate my birthday. Then, I guess I'll have you grill some meat for me, or something. You'll have to make it exactly the way I want it. You said you wanted to celebrate me, right? I'll let you keep trying until you get it down pat. I look forward to see how much I get to eat.

Jack

Thanks for the birthday wishes. ...Something I hope for in the coming year? I want to grow some more. Eh? I'm already big enough? ...I'm not talking about my height! I mean I want to mature more. Whenever you're around I end up feeling so dazed. It must mean I'm relaxed around you. Thanks.

Ruggie

Thanks for celebratin' my birthday with me! Since it's my big day, we should go grab some grub and... Ah! Oh noooooo, this is sooooo terrible, I forgot my wallet... I guess I can't buy... Eh, you'll treat me? Really? Maan, it's really great having such a generous junior like you! C'mon, let's go, let's go. Shishishi～

OCTAVINELLE

Azul

Thank you for your heartfelt birthday greetings. How kind of you to go out of your way to come to our humble dormitory. As my thanks, why don’t I invite you to my party? I’m afraid it’s reservation only, so please, I will need you to sign this document. ……You absolutely have no sense of mistrust, do you? Next time, I shall have to prepare a proper contract.

Jade

Thank you for your well wishes. And to think that you would also listen to what I wish as a present... Let me see... How about next time, could you accompany me on a hike? ...Fufu, I'm honored that you've agreed to come. This has become such a wonderful birthday.

Floyd

Koebi-chan, thanks for celebrating with meー Look, I got a bunch of other presents too. Ah? It's not like I forcibly took it from them or anything. There's a trick to receiving presents. I guess I can teach you how to do it as a special treat. If you say, "Today's my birthday～ ...Don't you have something to give me?" then eeeverybody'll give you something, so try it out sometime.

SCARABIA

Kalim

Oh, perfect timing! Right now, our lounge is overflowing with fruit. Take some, please. I received a bunch from home as a birthday gift. It feels like no matter how many my dormmates eat, we'll never finish. Oh hey, did you get me a present too? Thanks! Here, I'll trade you!

Jamil

Today is my birthday. That means I’m the star. Now then, what should I have you do? …You don’t need to be so defensive, I’m not actually going to ask anything absurd of you. I’m wasn’t expecting anything anyway from the outset. I’m plenty happy enough that you’re wishing me well. Thank you.

POMEFIORE

Vil

I can't imagine why you'd call out to me like this... If it isn't for anything important, I won't forgive you. Don't worry, I'm only kidding. Come, I'll join you for a moment, so hurry and tell me what it is you need. Well, I'm pretty sure I already have an inkling, anyway. Yes, of course I figured it out! It's written all over your face. So? Should I expect a grand celebration?

Epel

Eh, congrats…? Oh, you remembered my birthday. Thanks! Oh yeah, are you free today? I thought maybe it might be cool to rent a magical wheel, 'cause it’s been a while. If you’re up for it, maybe we could go for a drive… or something. We can’t go too far, but I’ll take you somewhere that’s got a great view!

Rook

It seems there is something you wish to talk about with me, yes? ...Of course I guessed! Shall I tell you how many times I counted your eyes glancing over at me during the last five minutes? Now, I shan't run nor hide from you. Please, tell me what business you have with me. ...Fufu, I definitely thought that's what you'd say to me! Thank you. From the bottom of my heart, I am grateful to hear your feelings.

IGNIHYDE

Idia

I'm busy right now. If there's something you want to say, can you just get it over with? ...Oho～, so you're here to give me my "Birthday Greetings"? Well, since you're already here, I might as well let you celebrate me. I can't wait to see if you can really make me happy～! I'll try and patiently wait without any expectations.

Ortho

Wow, you came to wish me a happy birthday? Thanks! Ehehe, I'm super happy. Oh yeah, so there's going to be a birthday party thrown for me today. I'd really like it if you could come too. You can think of making that wish come true as your present to me. Isn't that perfect?

DIASOMNIA

Malleus

Ah, it's you. What is it you need of me? ...You wish to eat lunch together? You wouldn't happen to be asking me because it is my birthday today, are you? ...I surmised as much. What a splendid idea. You certainly know how to fill me with joy. I appreciate your thoughtfulness.

Silver

Oh, Prefect. So you came all this way just to wish me a happy birthday, I see. ...Hm? What do I want as a gift? I cannot really think of anything in particular, but... such an answer would waste your generous offer. For now, let us go have a meal together. There, you can regale me with some of your stories. I may be able to learn something from them.

Sebek

Human! What are you doing, running around like that…? …Eh, you were searching for me so you could celebrate my birthday? Humph, how unsightly. Fix your disheveled hair. Seriously, this is why humans are so troublesome… I WILL NOT RUN NOR HIDE. COME! CELEBRATE ME WITH ALL YOUR HEART!!!!

Lilia

There will be a birthday party held for me today. Why don't you join us? Of course, I won't force you to, but... If you don't come, I may become so lonely that I'll start crying. [fake sobs] Oohh! Alright, so you'll come! Kufufu, lets enjoy ourselves today to our hearts content.

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PAC: Chakra reading, strengths, blocks, personality, advice

10/10! It’s Naruto’s birthday. Naruto is like a son to me, but better! I mean, up to chapter 698 anyway. So, in honor of Naruto’s birthday, I’ll do a chakra-type reading with a message related to what chakras seem to be open or blocked, and if I’m feeling incredibly dorky, I’ll guess your chakra affinity potential xD

[Future me: I didn’t hold back on what I saw, so some piles might not be as light as you’d expect, so if you aren’t up to any heavy truths today, maybe wait until you feel comfortable because some days we don’t want to hear truths, we just want to have fluff and this topic may seem fluff, but I thought one was heavy]

CHOOSE A PILE!

Pile 1

Pile 2

Pile 3

Pile 1

Well, goodness. Shine is partially about healing from old trauma and about not hiding the light within and sharing it with the world. The Riddle is interesting and I want to share two lines from the guidebook I feel are relevant: “When the riddle is present, one must stop searching for ‘the right answer.’ It cannot be found, and ultimately it is not important.” And: “Time, surrender, and humor are your only allies... For now, get comfortable with the limitations of your intellect and the reality of not knowing. It may, in fact, be the only reality there is.”

That looks like it connects strongly with the tarot. So, Ruby/Shine talks about limiting yourself - perhaps do to past traumas or dramas that made you feel small and Riddle is about not trying to intellect your way out of life. Some things happen and we may never know the reason, and those things may make us feel small or like we don’t matter or that we don’t make a difference. But, I think Riddle asks you to stop focusing on the intellectual aspect of figuring out why this or that happens or even worrying about planning out the future to a T, needing to have all of the answers (like 7 of cups indicates) and, instead, you have to imagine all of those things that hold you back (all those questions and concerns) as chains and then break them because they’re preventing you from growing to your full potential.

So, I see this as related to your tarot in the sense that... so 7 of cups is about daydreaming, illusion, wanting answers and I see 10 of cups as someone who has this idea of what would make them happy, but in reality - they could ask for and be so much more. I don’t want to say your dream is “small” it’s just that you deserve and are entitled to so much more than you’re even imagining and, imo, the cards want you to “dream bigger” and go for that really amazing dream you think is impossible. So, 10 of swords is about ending that “small” way of thinking or if you’re like I can be happy with just this pile of sticks, those entertain me. Why do you feel you only deserve a pile of sticks when you deserve, like, a whole rain forest? I mean, not to cut down, but just... metaphorically.

Chakra talk: So, I see here a lot of reds and golds... so we’ll blend that together as the lower three chakra, but I feel mostly focused on Root chakra. Root chakra is about grounding, stability, security, overcoming challenges. I would guess this aspect of yours is blocked and then is affecting your sacral and solar plexus. Like, if we don’t have a sense of security, it’s going to affect our confidence and ability to create or how we feel about our identity, looks, creative abilities, sexual energy, etc...

If I related it to a Naruto moment, it reminds me of how - well, two ways here - but be like Naruto. He was an outcast, his chakra all mangled, he’s got a demon inside him, he’s not a genius - and he still wants to be Hokage. Granted, he wanted to be Hokage to gain everyone’s approval at the start, but as he got stronger, he legit was able to overcome his own darkness, protect the people he cared about, and develop a spiritual understanding of events that occurred.

So, if you were going to take the leaf test in this Ninja world, I’d feel pretty strongly that you’d end up with the wood element, though it may take you some time to adjust to being able to use it. However, the first hokage was earth element and one of the strongest, smartest, fairest hokages to exist :)

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Pile 2

Gosh, I wonder which affinity you’re going to end up with >.> lol

Okay, I have a pretty good sense for this energy. This - to me - feels like someone in a rush to achieve something great or grow up or in a hurry to get from x to y phase in life, almost to the point of panic/fear. It could also be someone with extremely high expectations being placed on them or by their own selves. This might even be someone who’s obsessed with having all of the answers as to what’s going to happen in the future, with the Trust card coming up to indicate that more trust (in the universe) is needed. Like, pile 1, there’s a sense of needing all of the answers and not surrendering, which is a message I loathe to hear in readings, so - you’re welcome.

Because the King of Wands reversed, this is rashness, impulsiveness, egotism, grand expectations or even delusion. Wheel of Fortune is about change, destiny, cycles. Knight of Wands is more of that impulsive, impatience, passion-creativity energy. So, it’s an urgency to figure out or journey toward a “destiny” but the Thanatos card makes me feel this urgency comes from fear. Like, realizing or THINKING our time on this planet is short (it is), so there’s an urgency to achieve something. Like being at a certain age/phase in your life and going - oh by 25, I should have a job, by 30 I should be married with 2 kids, by xyz I should be blah, and by the time your dead it’s like - wow did I even enjoy life? I just worried about what I felt like I needed to have based on society’s expectations or even if you don’t think so, it floated around in your subconscious, a pressure to achieve a certain something by a certain time.

The Thanatos card is a bit more heavy than the Death card, but because Wheel of Fortune is around it, I do think this is a message about life cycles and phases. Thanatos is directly about death and how it’s an omnipresent aspect of life, always on our mind and how the weight of the end of any cycle can really affect our psyche, so that’s how I see this pile as - the weight of the idea of an “end” or “limit” is affecting your actions or need to improve at a quick pace, compete, achieve, meet high expectations. Look at how focused all figures on the tarot are on the future, enough that it turned the King of Wands reversed. There are high expectations surrounding the future, which has you in a rush to get through everything. Why do we need to sit and enjoy the present? Good question. Why does the Hanged Man and being told to surrender all the time annoy the crap out of us/me? Well... we do miss out on a lot of things when we’re tunnel-visioned. We miss out on relationships in life, we miss out on having fun, we can miss out on opportunities because we’re too busy to notice. I suppose philosophically if we’re all here during this life on this planet to gain experiences and knowledge, then I think we miss out on those things if we’re moving too swiftly or hung up on timelines. I guess an analogy would be, say you and some friends or family go to a beach resort for a vacation, but instead of going out with them to the beach or whatever silly tourist thing they want to do, you stay in the room and fiddle on your phone or do work or play video games - you miss out on all of the experiences you could have had in that type of more easy-going environment, you’re not experiencing those things with family/friends and learning about those types of personal/loving bonds to take back into the universal goo when you DIE. I mean how relevant is it going to be to the universal dead collective energy that you played final fantasy VII for the 6th time with a bunch of online strangers calling each other the f word for 4 hours.

Not to hate on gamers, but everything in moderation. Everything. I spent a lot of time in my life on fandom stuff instead of personal relationships or living life. And I have nada to show for it except a legacy of stories that mean something to some people, but didn’t actually provide me anything except that time I met real-life Naruto and Sasuke and they voiced my drama cd project >.>

So, wait... haha just kidding, you get the idea.

Chakra reading: I feel strongly this is about the heart. There’s fire and red here which can indicate root, but I feel like there’s an unconscious “fear” and, for me, that comes around the heart, plus we have the “green” for the stone. I feel like there’s block around that heart chakra, but maybe an overactive sacral, root, maybe solar plexus a bit... I won’t say I feel you’re overconfident, but there could be some ego at work here, yeah. This is someone driven by an ego, to succeed or achieve a certain material accomplishment. Greed is also a matter of the heart chakra.

If I were to relate it to a Naruto moment... I kept switching pile 2′s image, and I really wanted to do Itachi/Sasuke but I was like, well this is Naruto’s day so I had Naruto eating ramen, but when the cards came out, I kept thinking - doesn’t this remind you of Sasuke or Itachi and Sasuke’s relationship? Well, really just Sasuke because he was so ambitious to gain power and get stronger, to get revenge and take down Itachi that he left everything he cared about behind - his friends, his village, his home, Naruto, his dignity, heh. So, he was spurred on by what he felt was limited time, by literal death and the pressure that put on his psyche, he knew about what it felt like to lose bonds, so he realized time was short and that life was about more than what other’s saw. He was willing to give all that up for this one single-minded goal and he said f*ck the consequences and who I have to hurt along the way to get there. And a lot of that was his ego driven by a fear of loss, abandonment issues, not being good enough - but mostly I feel it was a fear of death/loss. He’d lost everything, and when people like Naruto or Sakura tried to get close to him, he cut ties and ran for the hills because, in the end, he was just scared of losing people again so he decided on several occasions to retake that control by even hurting the people he claimed to care about so he could be the one to control their “death”.

Reminds me of that Donnie Darko conversation about the fear/love scale.

So, anywho - gonna give you the same affinity as the Uchiha: fire w/ a hint of lightning

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Pile 3

I love how the sasunaru pile got fire agate which is about stimulating sexual energy, lol. Oh, boy. It’s also interesting that the sribnite came out reversed and I almost never do the oracles reversed. My point is those two crystals fit the dynamic of Sasuke and Naruto’s relationship, but I’ll have a Naruto message at the bottom. I’m not even - Vow, too. WTF. Love when the cards react to even fictional characters.

Just sliding that gif in there before I read the meaning of vow.

I’ll share the keywords for vow. When light: bearing witness to the shift toward destiny; when dark: unconscious vows, unkept promises, messy karma. the balls also remind me of Naruto’s sage power when he has the omg it is them... they’re “truth seeking balls”

This pile has serious ties to the actual manga, it’s weird.

So, vow is a card about the power of words, it’s also about the promises we make to ourselves or others, it’s about the “truth”, it reminds me of having a nindo basically and how that nindo is tied to your... what’s the word... I don’t know but it’s our spiritual creed, oath, and we live and die by it. In this sense, I can also see this as our designated spiritual path and whether we choose to follow it or align with it.

But, let’s talk the cards. We have the fire agate, which is related to the sacral card and speaks about creative or sexual energies, I also see this as a driving life force that can motivate us to go after certain things - like wands energy. The stibnite, which is about conflict, is reversed. This is a card about something that can stimulate that same type of energy... so how I can describe it is, imagine Valley of the End, if you watch Naruto and.... they have this bond, right, that’s fueled by competitiveness and machismo, I guess you’d say, and while they had a lot of conflict in their friendship, they also inspired each other to get stronger and I think it’s also - well what they saw in each other - created their specific type of close/soulmate bond because externally they were different people, but internally they had a lot in common and sensed that in each other and then they reacted to each other with this very fiery push-pull weird relationship throughout the story. I don’t believe in twin flames but the way people describe twin flames fits Naruto and Sasuke pretty well - for reference. But, I’m sure we could also argue that it was also an abusive sort of relationship, too, but they were ninja and it’s a fictional show so, ofc, there was violence.

My point is that’s the type of energy we’re talking about here, energy to move forward that could be fueled by conflict or challenges in life. That the one crystal is reversed could indicate we’re definitely dealing more with some type of internal conflict or block around the sacral chakra, so you may be feeling creatively blocked or sexually repressed or unable to get in touch with or express your true identity, self, truth, or you’ve strayed from your truth/path/authenticity in some way through some type of compromise or conflict, etc... I know we’re talking about relationships bc I used Naruto and Sasuke, but I look at vow and I see this as a spiritual vow that we made, about who we are or who we want to show the world. This could also speak to people being two-faced, like presenting yourself as one way online or to people, when in reality it’s not who you are at all.

I want to go through the stibnite crystal meanings too so we can understand why it’s reversed, so everything I list, there’s probably some conflict there:

- supports personal empowerment and transformation (makes me think of strength and death reversed)

- grounds your energy in the earth so you feel supported

- assists you in dealing with fear, conflict, confrontation (conflict avoidance bc of fear)

- supports you to create healthy boundaries

- supports those who suffer from chronic anxiety

- enhances and supports astral travel journey

- assists in dissolving apprehension and uncertainty

So this would be a pile that really struggles with the root, solar plexus and crown chakras while the previous card indicated something with sacral. It kind of reminds me of pile 2 with all of this creative or fire energy to proceed forward but it’s coming from a place of fear and ungroundedness.

Let’s talk about the tarot: two of swords, six of pentacles, knight of swords reversed

The knight of swords would be the source of conflict, it’s... what I described about Sasuke in pile 2, but basically Sasuke became ruthless and even cruel in his pursuit of his goals. Two of swords indicates a block or a need to make a decision, a need for the use of intuition. Six of pentacles is about balance, investment, sharing. I wonder if that card was meant to come out reversed tbh.

If this were a relationship reading, this would feel like toxic energy tbh. I don’t see this as a relationship reading but if you are in a relationship with someone who reads like a knight of swords reversed, this is a message to take head of the red flags. If they are pushy, bossy, use cruel words, unwilling to share or offer equal respect or consideration in the relationship - that’s bad.

But, with that crystal reversed, I think for most of you it’s an internal issue. I’ll give a couple of interpretations. Like with pile 2, there was a lot of energy to create or succeed and it was based around fear, as in feeling like they needed to accomplish something or show huge success by a certain time and they were fueled not by something spiritually aligned but by a pressure to show a certain amount of “productivity” or “progress” as deamed by society by a certain set age/limit/phase in life.

I feel something similar here. That fire agate represents also this desire for something, but it doesn’t seem to be directed correctly and it seems to be creating a lack of balance internally. Like anything with the body, when something is blocked, it creates other issues at other parts of the body. If blood can’t get through to your brain, you have a stroke; if you bottle up all of your emotions or built up energy, you end up like Naruto in the first part of the manga where he had a seal on his kyuubi energy and he could only poof out one or two clones until it was unblocked and then he had thousands. And he could use his chakra.

VS.

This is the only pile I clarified for because it was feeling pretty heavy. It reminds me of the audio reading I did last night. So, let me give you a few messages and you can take what resonates.

With this pile, I sense a few things:

The worst of it would be someone who’s fallen from their spiritual path and alignment by choosing to be... someone who’s selfish, cruel with their words, a liar, materialistic, completely judgmental, childish - and it’s all coming from their own misery and insecurities. And they aren’t being true to their higher selves or their path and have chosen to fall into some ugly feelings. Whatever wounds or blocks they have they are projecting onto others and need to knock it off.

I got a lot of reversals in clarification that signify that kind of thing, so I have to call those people out. They’ll know if it applies to them and things they’ve been doing lately.

To take it down a notch, this is a pile who... is quite complicated internally or emotionally. I feel like they’re going through something heavy regarding identity or thinking a lot about the person they are or who they want to be or how others perceive them vs. how they perceive themselves and it’s all kind of a tangled mess. I feel like perhaps this is for people who promised something to themselves (it can be others, too, but I see this as a personal vow) to achieve something or be a certain type of person and they’re wondering if they can be, if they failed, if they’re worthy - the usual things that good people reflect on when they’re going through a dark time or feeling insecure or uncertain.

Because two of swords here, clarified by king of pentacles and then judgment reversed... this makes me think of someone seeking answers or reassurance for themselves through others or possibly material validation. Judgment reversed can indicate a lot of self-criticizing or being too critical of others in a very materialistic way or... I read this as someone who’s being self critical and feels stuck and is in need of answers from someone who’s reliable like a King of Pentacles, like the pentacles are here because that’s how badly you need some type of reassurance or grounding for this internal conflict. Maybe it’s like a - why did this happen? Why do I feel this way? Why is life so shitty sometimes? What do I do next? What is the “right” thing to do? Am I doing the right thing? Am I a good person, etc...

Six of p is upright but I don’t know why I feel it should’ve come out reverse or it did and I slid it upright, doesn’t matter, but 3 of cups reversed makes me feel like someone who... keeps to themselves and does not share (their truth), or may not speak up for themselves. Three of cups reversed has that loner or isolated vibe, it could also indicate someone who... doesn’t allow themselves to have as much fun and takes life pretty seriously. The water is spilling out of these three cups, so on the simplest level we have... a balance issue regarding emotions, and emotions around community, friendships, relationships, the collective.

I just feel a huge emotional block with this pile - and it can be for so many reasons but I also have the sense it’s a form of self-preservation and protection. Someone who just doesn’t want to or is tired of putting their energy out there because it’s exhausting or they’ve been hurt or there’s too much negativity. What’s coming to mind is something like an octopus retracting its limbs and decreasing its size and scooting into its tiny water cave to avoid predators (if that’s resonating, see pile 1).

Knight of Swords is clarified by sun reversed, so this can be someone who’s being critical of others or themselves and they’re doing so because they feel unhappy with life or themselves. It does make me feel a “childish” or petty energy, as well, for some folks because sun reversed can be about inner child and the knight of swords reversed can be someone who lashes out with cruel words or thoughts... and I see that relating to the judgment card... so these are people who are either very critical of themselves or others but it’s all coming from their own dark feelings or insecurities and they’re projecting them on others or themselves, etc... it could be that they made a promise to do xyz and then they failed, and now they feel guilty or lesser for not having accomplished it or lived up to whatever, but perhaps your expectations are too high and you’re not seeing the “smaller” accomplishments you’ve made, which aren’t necessarily small at all. Like, if someone is severely depressed and all they do all day is brush their teeth, to a person not in that situation they may think it’s not a big deal but to a person who can barely get out of bed or function, that’s a huge accomplishment. So, this could be a perspective issue, as well. But there’s a lot of being really down on one’s self here and then those feelings are not being redistributed in a way that is healthy or aligned with your purpose.

For some it may be a severe issue to the point of a personality or social disorder and other’s, it’s a funk. An identity crisis of some sort or crisis in general. And those things are normal. Like we have spiritual highs and spiritual lows, the only things that we can really be sure about is that life is always going to be about growing and changing and this can’t happen without low moments - and if you’re spiritually inclined, this is going to happen often: doubt, anger, impulsiveness, frustration, but it’s all about how we handle it or react.

Okay so relate it to Naruto - it reads a lot like it should be Sasuke as Sasuke is someone who had a lot of (valid) issues and then he projected them on to people he cared about. That’s here, but I also see Naruto’s issues here. His abilities were purposely limited, but not only that, he was treated like an unwanted child, outcast by his own village with no answers, and grew up with no family and no role models. And obviously that sort of situation would give anyone mental health issues. I always thought he overcompensated in a lot of ways and often hid his negative emotions and true personality. The only one he really showed everything to was Sasuke, but I think only Sasuke ever really brought down Naruto’s walls (and vice versa), but a lot of Naruto’s emotions because he didn’t share them or show them to people, went inward, even to the point that before he could learn sage mode and tap into his super spiritual powers, he had to literally face his shadow self and embrace it and then incorporate it into himself, I wonder if that gif exists.

All those doubts and insecurities - and he was a GOOD person - and he had a certain nindo/creed and that was to go through life and take risks that he needed to but it was also to... be a good and righteous person who took care of the people he cared about and protect them, and there were times he didn’t think he was up to the task or said that he’s just “a dumb kid” and there’s no way he could save the world, he wasn’t smart enough to figure out the situation (I’m crying remembering his convo with minato and especially kushina, too).

So I think what I picked up here when I was saying some of you be... needing some holy water bc you ain’t good folk, and some of you are good people but going through a tough time... like a time of temptation where you could fall off the path into something dark... but the thing is, life is also about the choices we make and choices are what define us despite our circumstances. Naruto was someone who could have ended up like Gaara in the beginning, or Sasuke, but he made a choice to be “good.” Sasuke made his own choices, too, and while Sasuke’s feelings were valid, his actions were... not. There are a lot of Sasuke apologists, and don’t get me wrong, I LOVE Sasuke, but I’m a realist - he tried to kill his friends, multiple times, for power. And not just power, but because of - well, trauma - but trauma doesn’t excuse abuse and violence. He had a lot of heavy loss in his life and to take control of that, he became the one who inflicted that abuse/anger onto others because he didn’t feel control when he was young and his family was massacred, and that’s how the abuse cycle works.

This is a very heavy pile, so... don’t take it to heart in a way that’s heavy unless you need to let out some feels and cry or project and then... carry on. Or I can validate that you’re going through a rough time or that you’re hard on yourself or you feel unworthy or uncertain - we all feel like that, especially good, worthy people. If you weren’t good, you wouldn’t question these things at all. You’d just do whatever you want and say whatever you want and lie about it or not care and yes there are people like that in this pile, and they chose to use their wounds as an excuse to hurt others, while some are fighting their demons and trying to fight their own way out or be a better person or fight their dark side, etc... so if that resonates for you, this is validating that, and I hope this helps.

Affinity, hmm...I feel like it’s a pile of wind mostly, water, and maybe some of those who’d be especially good at illusions or psychic-style ninjutus.

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Next pick a card will be 10/13 for Jimin’s birthday!

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