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lovvecherrymotion · 5 months

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i guess i just need to talk it all out and try to make some sense of it. the GazettE are one of the most important bands in my life. they've brought me so many friends and so much happiness over the years. i was just 13 when i started listening to them and now i'm 27. they were such a huge part of my teenage years. they literally kept me going at some points of my life. their music saved my life.

i've always thought i'd get a chance to see them live one day - one of my biggest dreams was to experience flith in the beauty live at least once. and now i probably will never. and if i do, it won't be the same.

i can't believe reita is gone. just like that. he's gone. it feels like an old friend just passed away - someone i hadn't spoken to in years, but still thought of fondly. he was such a wonderful, talented human. i can't believe he's gone.

#i'm sorry i will eventually process this it's just #i'm just at a loss for words really #so many old friends have been talking about this and we're all just trying to make sense of it #i wasn't even active in the fandom anymore not really #and i mostly listen to their old albums at this point #but it's still hitting me hard #please if you have a chance go to shows and buy merch and show the artists you love them while you can #i mean i've always tried (as a foreign fan) to show my love to the band but it wasn't always easy #now i'll never get another chance to do so #oh reita 💔#thank you for sharing your music and your talent with us for so long it was an honor #reita #the GazettE #personal

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madbalalaika · 7 months

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#“but I know that this... this is nice”#a little something something from my Gale origin run :")#once I got this scene I immediately went to paint it #it hit me real hard ugh #aaaaa #bg3 fanart #baldur's gate 3 #astarion ancunin #gale dekarios #bloodweave #art #fanart #digital art #I've been staring at the references of velvet clothes this whole time #i still don't understand how velvet works

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vi-visected · 1 year

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my therapist: how are you feeling in the wake of your (autism spectrum disorder) diagnosis?

me: well it makes sense doesn’t it? i was the one who requested testing. like on some level i kind of figured.

my therapist: yes, i’m personally glad we pursued it because it helps me better understand parts of your behavior and how to accommodate you. but how do you feel about it? you said before that you were in heavy denial about the possibility when you were younger.

me: well yeah, i had a preconceived idea of what autism was that i know now wasn’t true. but at the time it was distressing and i didn’t want to think about it too hard.

my therapist: how was it different then? what was your idea of autism then?

me: it was, you know, severe developmental delay. i never thought i had developed abnormally at all, so to try and match up the severity i associated with autism and the way i viewed myself, i just couldn’t.

my therapist: but you did.

me: sorry?

my therapist: you did develop abnormally. both socially and academically.

me: socially yes, but i had no problems with academics. i always especially excelled at reading comprehension, more so than anyone else in my grade. i started lagging in high school but i think that was a lot of burnout and depression and ptsd, probably. i was incredibly smart. hell, i spoke in full sentences earlier than most of my peers.

my therapist: violette, that’s still abnormal development.

me: …huh?

my therapist: developing abnormally fast is still developing abnormally.

me:

me: oh.

#nothing in our sessions has ever hit me as hard as that #it was almost a year ago now and i still think about it #i’ve never had one of those ‘moments of clarity’ in therapy outside of this #but god damn did i have to sit with it for a bit #developing abnormally fast is still developing abnormally #jesus Christ ellen #actually autistic #actually asd #hashtag autism posting #autism #autistic adult #autistic feels

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my-autism-adhd-blog · 6 months

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@Galaxibrain444

#autism #actually autistic #this tweet hit me hard #I still don’t fully understand myself #autism struggles #personal experiences #neurodivergent #actually neurodivergent #feel free to share/reblog #@Galaxibrian444 (twitter/X)

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bisclavaret · 2 months

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📺💥💕💕

#i saw the tv glow #illustration #artists on tumblr #a24 #movie poster #my art #this movie was sooo good im so glad my local indie theater was still playing it 😭#I thought I was gonna miss seeing it in theatres!#it hit me so hard it’s going to stick with me for a while I think #this ticked so many boxes for me AND it was rly good #waaah

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tubbytarchia · 7 months

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gg buddy am I right (ethubs doodle that I don't know what to do with)

#ethubs #Ive wanted to draw ethubs angst for so many days but art block is still hitting hard and this thing has been sitting around for awhile #hey ethubers how did you. survive #last life ethubs upsets me so much make it end #The way after Bdubs dies Etho is trying to justify to himself not having given him a life to begin with rather than #telling him to prove himself #its like he expects the others who are with him to comment on it but they dont. Etho's all "I couldn't have just given it to him you know..#without them asking about it or anything. And Etho just keeps going. god damn it Etho I feel so bad for them #dont even get me started on what Bdubs said to G about Etho grrrr GRRRR I saw that for the first time not long ago GRRRRRR #I still wanna draw proper ethubs though. someday #also the damage to Bdubs' face is supposed to be from the rocket Lizzie shot #does it make sense? No probably not but its an excuse to make him look more dead #tubby art

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atlas-and-the-time · 1 year

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The greater grief

#my art #art #digital art #illustration #aot #snk #eruri #attack on titan #shingeki no kyoujin #levi #erwin smith #erwin x levi #the amount of time i spent on this deeply regretting my life choices #you’ll never catch me doing backgrounds again #not that this is THAT complex but i suffer severe ptsd from my set design exam the nightstand was a nightmare #anyway the title is from tsoa because why not #and perhaps it is the greater grief after all to be left on earth when another is gone #the post midnight sun depression still hits hard

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jollymalt · 4 months

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#might redo some of these bc i dont love all of them 100% but so far theyre still fun!#kicks my childhood crush <3 #hitting the right ages is SOO hard so dont get mad at me #animal crossing fanart #animal crossing art #animal crossing community #ac #animal crossing kicks #animal crossing leif #leif #kicks #acnh community #acnh #animal crossing new horizons #acnl community #acnl #animal crossing new leaf #animal crossing

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metukika · 10 months

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me and my best friends

#mob and ritsu are best friend #ive been neglecting it but the nostalgia aesthetic has hit me again hard. comfy kid cuddles and and lil kids playing in the sand #mob is still like 10 in that last one #hes not just super short for no reason #hugging and snuggling mtkk compilation #mob psycho 100 #mp100 #metukikart #shigeo kageyama #reigen arataka #tsubomi takane #ritsu kageyama #dont tag as shit obv

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ryansjane · 2 months

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jane + being โคตรหล่อ (so damn handsome)

#the trainee #the trainee the series #the trainee series #off jumpol #view benyapa #pompam nithi #thai drama #my gifs #bypiningbisexuals #off smiling always hits so hard for me but jane smiling??? hits different fr #and view is the only actor who can cry so over the top & still look adorable omg <3

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reds-skull · 1 year

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Price plays poker properly only when Ghost is involved

(I don't remember how to play poker so they're also playing wrong now)

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sevenines · 8 days

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i saw this tweet and found it interesting for two reasons. one is that some people base how good cartoon network would be to toh by how it treated su, and despite the fact that su’s treatment by the network was considered poor at the time, now its thought to be exceptionally good in comparison to modern shows.

two is how exactly su got impacted by a limited budget. a common criticism is how characters like connie, peridot, and lapis are left out of missions. but balancing a lot of characters is not only hard but also costly (extra animation, extra voices—it’s been revealed that the show is limited to a set number of characters per episode otherwise they’re over budget). animation mistakes are not uncommon since retakes cost extra. the entire reason the original show got cut short was due to loss of funding!

#i don’t know if pay rates differ per networks #but a.ivi and s.urrashu have said that they needed to work outside of su in order to make sufficient funds #it only makes me wonder what other ways su suffered from a lower budget #that we as the audience never got to see #in the vein of the too-little characters complaint #another part of that is that low-stakes episodes should’ve been abt the main cast instead of the townies #like last one out of beach city and too short to ride vs restaurant wars and kiki’s pizza delivery service #i definitely see that especially since that isn’t budget related #nor would it seem to be network related (even if cn had an ‘episodic episodes’ quota it could still be abt the gems #(another side note: /would/ cn even have a requirement that the show make episodes that can be watched standalone?#this is a question for the people who were around when su was airing #what episodes often got rerun?#was it the townie eps or the lore eps?#for example i heard that su once did a ‘peridot event’ where they just reran peridot episodes #which had eps that skip around in the show #did they even care about airing the story so that it made sense anyways?#id get it if the low stakes townie episodes were the ones getting rerun))#but i have such a boring view on that which is i think it’s simply because the creators like townie eps #like in interviews r.ebecca s.ugar has said she’s the type to be really invested in background characters #answers in interviews have been crafted in ways to hide what’s really going on though tbf #prime example of this is rebecca and ian saying the wedding being interrupted was meant to follow the common trope #when later in the art book they said that it was bc cn rejected the ep bc it ‘wasn’t interesting enough’#both could simultaneously be true! it’s a psychology thing though where people make up nice-sounding explanations behind what they create #in retrospect because they want it to be thought out in such a nice way they believe in it #the bigger problem is that not matter how many episodes there are of them #it can be hard for ppl to be invested in the townies the same way they are invested in the main cast #i’m sure that a million writers have made surefire advice on how to get an audience to care about characters #but off the top of my head i think it’s because 1. most don’t have strong motivations to get truly invested in #(exception is ronaldo but people find him too annoying to care about him)#okay i had more points and explanations but i hit the tag limit and idk if anyone is actually reading this so bye

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celerydays · 8 months

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☁️ Five months art progression (HL edition) ☁️

Ominis | Aug 2023 – Jan 2024

Sebastian | Aug 2023 – Jan 2024

#hi-hi im still on my mini break from drawing/posting art!#a small ~reprieve~ if you will (😉)#hitting the hard reset button on myself by sleeping an ungodly amount tbh #so here's an art progression post instead 🫴#kinda love seeing how much drawing fanart for HL has helped me improve overall 🥰#hogwarts legacy #hogwarts legacy fanart #ominis gaunt #sebastian sallow #celdraws #celerydays #hl #hl art

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vodid · 2 months

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zero's pressure

#running out of gas. running out of money. out of time. out of energy. i'm running out of everything #and ofc my solution is to. avoid it. ignore it. do nothing productive.#zero's pressure turns into zero pressure #i'm trying to be kind to myself. i really have been trying. but it's hard when youre still headed to 0 on everything with no solution #because of yourself #i cant get a job. my art doesnt bring enough. i cant keep producing new products on the regular. i cant finish major comms on time #what CAN i do?#vent #just some adhd things #and maybe anxiety. and bad stress management #sorry for being so raw on main. its therapeutic even if it doesnt really lead to anything. it does force me to confront my feelings ig #i tend to get a burst of motivation after hitting a low like this but its a constant cycle that in the longterm really doesnt improve.#ill probably get some products done and do some quick comms. just one of those alone can cover gas for me #anyway some positivity to toot my own horn: i love the palette of this piece. went harder than i thought

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meaningless-mayhem · 10 months

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Being asexual and possibly aromantic but also being a huge shipper and hopeless romantic is such a wild experience ngl. I'm always freaking out about my favorite ships and giggling internally reading ship fics, getting invested in characters finally kissing or reading about their pining and their love and I think "I want what they have!!"

But then sometimes you have a slamming realization that your sweet shipping scenarios you imagine in your head look totally different irl and that you are extremely aspec.

One time I went down a YouTube rabbit hole and stumbled across Vsauce's "Why Do We Kiss?" video and let me tell you. When I saw that stock video footage of two people kissing each other I was a little flabbergasted lmaooo

#i mean this doesn't apply to all aspecs obviously but like #that stock video footage #they were kissing but it was more sucking each others faces and i was like wait #do people actually do this #lmaoo #it lowkey repulsed me oops #it hit me so hard but it also kind of validated my asexuality a bit too lol #ace #asexual #asexuality #aro #aromantic #aromanticism #aroace #this also may be because i dont watch live action shows or movies that much but still #does anyone else feel like this #ill be hardcore shipping something but i see one minute of irl relationship stuff and feel extremely disconnected #idk if im making sense #id like to hear some thoughts #might delete later but just wanted to get my thoughts out there #someone's probably said something like this before #edit: adding tags #yeah for me imagination of my ships kissing 👍👍👍💖💖#vs #footage of irl people kissing/live action kissing scenes 🫠#fandom #fanfic #fanfiction #my rambles

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lokimobius · 3 months

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"Listen. That wasn’t tactical. I lost it." LOKI S02E02 “Breaking Brad”

#mobius #mobius m mobius #owen wilson #lokitvsource #lokitvedit #marveledit #mine #not feeling normal about this at all actually #the subtlety of owen's acting here is everything to me #the way that mobius is so obviously torn up about hitting brad #his body language is closed off and uncomfortable #he's really beating himself up for his behaviour #but he powers through it because he wants to explain himself #but to do so he has to be vulnerable and that's hard for him #he's so used to making others talk but he doesn't do it himself #he's a yapper at heart but emotionally he's closed off to his own emotions #i love how in the 6th gif he listens to loki relate to his struggle (with an extreme example) with a soft smile #it's still sad yet it holds understanding that his friend is trying to make him feel better #he allows himself to be consoled by loki #and because of that support from someone he trusts he's able to open up #mobius my beloved #i love him with all my heart #i loved Owen's performance so much i think he's so underrated

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