#dereali

[7nvk]

the world stopped being real to me two years ago

[sollilua]

okay uni exam update!! (first week of two) rambling incoming:

i did the first exam sunday. it was pretty tiring. we needed to write a text on a surprise subject (in 5 hours) i believe i'll get a good grade even though i couldn't finish writing my text 😭😭

SPEAKING OF THE TEXT. so.... 😳 yall remember that i was saying that i felt calm and wasn't anxious? so. even though i felt like i was calm, i my hands started SHAKING when i was writing the text (i swear. i dont think they ever shaked like that before,,) and my heart decided to act funky and started beating way too fast. so yeah, that made me lose quiet some time but i'll take the L and accept that i should've managed my time better

i finished filling the answer card thingy literal minutes before the exam was over

my hands didn't stop shaking, i was seeing everything a bit blurry AND for some cursed reason the ground felt like it was made of gelatin? (and i almost forgot my stuff in the exam room 😭) but i managed to get to the elevator with another student who finished at the same time!!

we talked about what universities we're trying to get into (she wants to be a doctor!!) i feel that talking with her literally helped me not pass out inside the elevator because wtf my blood pressure dropped.

after i got to the building's entrance i sat on the ground near other students who weren't feeling so well (for various reasons) as i waited for my dad to arrive 😭😭

so yeah it was pretty wild when i arrived at home looking like that sad cat from the meme and checked the unofficial posts of teachers solving the exam (if that makes sense. i have no idea how to explain it in english lmao) and i realized that i didn't get that many questions wrong

(oh also pls dont worry about me ksmdjdm i'm fine now)

TLDR: 1 - if you feel too calm and feels like something is wrong, you're in denial and need to take a break; 2 - funky blood pressure go brrr; 3 - i need to be more optimistic i think

i'll post a second update next week after the 90 questions of math, physics, chem and bio >:3

[spriteflavor]

💚 2024 year of crippling anxiety 💚

[dreamcore004]

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[amitychaos]

[tabzanite]

c!Fundys nightmares seem to be tied to the future, and he kept saying words like blast, and we say some sort of explosion mark. We also saw c!Wilbur there for a split second. Just wanted to point that out, could be a stretch.

[gay4magneto]

Vent

[being-robin-is-magical]

Nonlinear

Rated: G (Disassociation and Derealiation TW)

No Pairing/Joyfire if you squint

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It’s a well-known fact that time isn’t always linear. In some places, it is distorted and perceived differently. Some spots are known for their strange relationship with god’s ever-present timer.

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Time is distorted in some places; sometimes it’s unnerving and anxiety-inducing and other times it’s exciting. Time is distorted in some places; sometimes people are there to experience it.

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Reboot of you enjoyed please! It helps other people discover my fics (and I’ll love u forever)!

[meditacionalinstantekatherinercs]

MEDITACIÓN DE LA MAÑANA / MEDITACIÓN PARA LA CONCENTRACIÓN ANTES DEREALI...

[ask-kairos-blog]

Ask box is open :”D Ask away!!!  Drawn by Derealies

[thedarkrose17]

I wanna try hcs so feel free to send requests I won't bite

[simon-keyes-irl]

sometimes i wanna kill everyone who impersonates my boyfriend like lmao u arent real fucking fool

[mirr0rf0rthesun]

at times where all my lovers and friends have abandoned me in my mind, i tend to abandon that shell which surrounds the soul too. sometimes i just lay or sit there for hours, sometimes pace around aimlessly while concocting a new plot to my life with an alter ego, gaze into nothing first, then an absent squint - zoning out of touch with reality because it’s surprisingly depressing and increasingly cold by the days. unable to really interact with this world i’ve disconnected from. as depersonalization is slowly setting in, i melt into a mere concept of be.

[ask-kairos-blog]

uwu drawn by derealies

[ask-kairos-blog]

uwu  drawn by derealies