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cerise-on-top · 5 months

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i just stumbled across your blog by chance and ohh my god i am in love with it 😻 you write my babygirl war criminals so good <3 anyway i can't stop thinking about how the 141 + graves would be with a fem!reader who has a huge and blindingly obvious crush on them :P BUT ALSO!!! she gets really bratty and annoying because she wants their attention like all the time 😔 anyway yeah ur blog is giving me life i hope both sides of ur pillow are always cold 🙏

Hello! I'm glad to hear you enjoy my silly writings! I try my best to write them as well as I can, thank you :> I'm sorry to say this, but I only write for four characters at once, so I left Graves out this time. But you're more than welcome to send the same request in again a second time with Graves, I don't mind!

TF141 with a Reader who Has a Huge Crush on Them

Price: This guy would know fairly quickly. He’s had a crush here and there as well when he was younger, so he knows how foolish some people can act when they have one. You walking into a pole as he talked to you, your irises as wide as possible, was kind of a dead giveaway. He’d be worried about you, asking you if you’re doing alright, but won’t push you. Price believes that you have a crush on him because he’s an authority figure, although he is also aware that he’s fairly good looking as well. Though, he won’t force you out of your comfort zone and use it against you either. You having stars in your eyes as you listen to him talk to you is sort of cute, though. It does remind him of his youth. Might become a bit more touchy with you as a result, lightly punching your shoulder or putting a hand on it and squeezing it. Nothing big, since he wholeheartedly believes your crush on him will wane eventually. However, as much as he likes you, he wouldn’t really be happy with you needing his attention on you all the time. He’s a captain, he has a lot of work and needs to do organizational things as well when he can, so he can’t really spend too much time with you. When he can, he will, but you will need to tone it down a bit as well. If you keep being a little brat, however, then he will call you out on it and tell you in a gentle tone to calm down a bit. He’s not going anywhere, he’s not taken, so you really have nothing to worry about. If you’re being especially good for him, he might reward you with a hug. It’s a good reward because he’s a very good hugger, very comfortable and strong, and he doesn’t just give his hugs out to anyone. But you need to behave.

Gaz: Will also notice fairly quickly that you’re crushing on him. In his case, the fact you would always be in a good mood whenever you were alone with him was what gave it away. However, he, too, is a sweetheart about it and won’t push you. He’ll give you a few more smiles than usual, give you a few more touches and try to spend more time with you. Many people have had a crush on him, so he’s fairly used to it by now, but it’s still very flattering. You’re cute when you’re stammering around him, leaning into his touch when he puts his hand on your forehead, checking you if you have a fever since you said your face felt hot. The way your irises turn into hearts whenever you look at him doesn’t go unnoticed by him either, it’s always fun to see. However, he might sometimes hold your hand intentionally to fluster you a bit. If you’re particularly close, he might kiss your cheek as well when you give him a gift to show your gratitude. Overall, he’s having fun, but he won’t abuse the power he has over you either. Instead he’ll let it slowly form, let it take a natural shape. You always wanting his attention is also fairly cute to him. Not many people vie for his attention as much as you do, quite a few people tend to dismiss him, but it’s nice to be the center of attention anyway. Will invite you to spend some time with him if you’re being jealous, like taking a walk or cooking together. If you’re especially jealous he might offer to cuddle with you for a bit before he has to go back doing stuff a sergeant needs to do. He may not be the warmest person, but he puts all his heart into cuddling someone. He does want you to feel appreciated as well since he does like you as well. So yeah, feel free to knock on his room and ask him to spend time with you, he likely won’t say no.

Ghost: Another one many people have a crush on. He’s used to being the center of someone’s romantic attention, but he never really cared much for it, never was one to just jump into a relationship without really knowing the person well beforehand, so he never gave anyone a chance. Ghost also knows when you have a crush on him, especially since you’re always trying to spend as much time with him as possible, even if it’s just hanging out while he’s filing reports. Though, in all honesty, Ghost won’t treat you differently from before. He won’t be any more touchy than before, he won’t go out of his way to spend time with you. You’re still you, regardless of how endearing it is that you can’t hide your crush in the slightest. Although it could be argued that you bumping into this behemoth of a man and then falling back onto your butt is borderline careless. He’ll offer a hand to help you up, though. Unlike the Gaz and Price, he might bring you having a crush on him up in a conversation, asking you if it’s true. Regardless of your answer, he’ll go quiet for a bit before patting your back and going about his day again. It’s his way of saying “Thanks. Good luck.” A man of few words even when he’s not speaking. You always wanting his attention does get on his nerves a bit, though. He needs his alone time occasionally, so you sticking to him like a limpet is a bit annoying. Has no qualms about telling you off either, though. He’s a lieutenant, he knows what he wants and he can bluntly convey such. But that’s just his way of speaking, give him a few hours and you can spend some more time with him if he isn’t busy. You can do a puzzle with him, it calms his nerves and his mind gets to stay sharp too.

Soap: He’s also a very observant man, a very smart cookie, so he’ll have it figured out when you made him a pie with a handwritten note, little hearts instead of dots over the i’s. You’ve never done anything like this for anyone else, though, so he knows. Is a bit smug about it. Not too many people have had a crush on him since he’s friend material more so than anything else, but there was one person, maybe two. He’ll grin like a Cheshire cat when he knows you aren’t looking. Becomes far far more touchy than before. In fact, he’ll flirt with you as well. If you’re speechless then he’s won. Gives you side hugs, bear hugs, hugs from the back, you name it. Will also offer to let you nap on his big, broad, manly chest if you complain about being tired. He sort of wants to get you to confess to him. Yes, he has not had many sweethearts throughout his life since he was always busy with soccer and the military, but he thinks someone being this head over heels for him could do him some good. And he also wants to stroke his ego. And yeah, there is a chance he might develop feelings for you as well while he’s being this affectionate with you. He’s affectionate with many people, but he’ll turn it up a notch with you, he’s not immune. Doesn’t mind you being annoying for his attention either. He can be very annoying too when he wants attention, so there’s a chance you’ll annoy each other into spending time with each other. Even if there’s no need to. For some people, Soap can be a bit off putting with his curious nature and how social he is, but he’s glad that’s not the case with you. So yeah, you’re more than welcome to go drink some shots with him at a bar and then snuggle the stinking night away because you’re drunk and he’s almost entirely sober.

#cod #cod x reader #john price #john price x reader #price x reader #kyle gaz garrick #kyle gaz garrick x reader #gaz x reader #simon ghost riley #simon ghost riley x reader #ghost x reader #john soap mactavish #john soap mactavish x reader #soap x reader #whenever I think of scenarios like this I like to think about the vocaloid song “Melt”#It's so so very cute I once found a bit of a German cover for it and the translyrics were so so adorable #“Melting whenever I'm near you” “I really do love you and even more so” “Even if I never say it and I”#those were the only lyrics but I think about them constantly #melt is a really good song especially the anniversary edition #just thinking about having a huge crush on a character and them noticing is so sweet and fluffy #and yes I do believe Johnny would be a handful. maybe even two. even if I do adore him still #but he can be a real sweetheart as well so all is forgiven. I wanna cuddle him so so bad or hug him too #I feel like he's one of the best huggers on this entire planet and what I'd give to have beefy army boy hug me #does anyone even read these? if so hello! thank you for reading my rambles and anecdotes!#hope you're having a good day! evening or night too!#fem!reader #not really but just in case

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primojade · 2 years

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Request open, yay!!! I always wanted to request you <3

Can i ask for a hc of tighnari & cyno dating a loud, cheerful and clumsy gn reader that is seen by the others as weird?

𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐀𝐋𝐋 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐈𝐒 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐓𝐇.

𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐘 | what would he be like in a relationship with someone who was loud and too cheerful for their own good?

𝐂𝐖 / 𝐓𝐖 | gn!reader x cyno and tighnari (separate); fluff, slight possessiveness; established relationship; kinda rushed; let me know if I missed anything!

𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄𝐒 | Thank you for the request! This was kinda rushed but I hope you like it nevertheless! And yes, requests are still open, comrades~

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First of all, those people who clearly and hinting negatively about your person are either a truly brave individual or a complete fool—probably the latter in most cases. Cyno would hunt down anyone who dared to call you weird, or any other names that would surely affect your cheery self. He wouldn't sit still if anyone dared to sully your name, even if he wasn't supposed to be listening. He treasures you after all.

And his punishment isn't anywhere lenient and merciful, as all of the citizens of Sumeru had known of him as the General Mahamatra, so if they don't want to be at the receiving end of his polearm, fools better guard what they were saying about you. And Archon forbid if they make you cry and sad, the hell would certainly freeze over at how icy his glare and his scowl was.

Though that aside, Cyno adored your unique quirks and even dare say, loves hoarding them all solely for his eyes to see. He wasn't a selfish person by nature, prefering to give you everything you wanted as long as he could provide them and he was already perfectly content to be the recipient of the smile he loves so much, but when it comes to precious moments, some things that he treasures like your smiles, your laughter, and habits that others may seen as weird, he would like to keep them to himself instead of sharing them in a crowd.

Your cheerful and loud person was highly contrasting to his intimidating and cold self. But then again, fate had a silly hobby of attracting the opposites to each other. Other people would've seen your relationship as strange at first, but when they saw you two together as if there's only you and him in the world, perhaps their doubts will be hesitantly purged little by little—especially when they see their once intimidating General Mahamatra being spoon-fed by sweets or any meal that you personally cook in the public.

Jaw dropped and eyes wide as saucers, the bystanders and gossipers reluctantly slide their eyes away from the sickeningly sweet couple for it felt like they were intruding at a private moment reserve only for you two (though perhaps he personally doesn't mind the audience—this way, he could even fend off your potential suitors waiting for the opportune moment to strike a conversation with you when he was not looking).

Although Cyno wasn't smiling as happily as you, or laughing as loudly, there was a fond twinkle in his normally cold eyes that was reserved for you when you were idly talking about your day, or what would be tonight's dinner. It was faint you would missed it if you aren't attentive enough, and while he was not very good at expressing and proclaiming his love for you the way that you do in absolute confidence, Cyno never failed to show you using his actions, his protectiveness and his attention, that he loved you just the same as you do.

“...But I'm already content that you alone know what kind of man I am.”

At first, Tighnari would admit that your cheery self exhausted him to no end, and your loud voice did grate his sensitive ears. He wasn't a tactful person by default, and if it's any other person, he would simply tell them to shut up, but that doesn't mean he would tell you to scram away because of your natural personality, especially since he loved your company despite it all.

If you're an observant person, you would notice the way his ears twitched whenever your tone raised an octave in excitement; sometimes, it would turn downward and his tail pressed on his thigh if you decided to pester him in a particularly stressful day. While you knew it irked him, it was nice seeing his saint of a patience run thin once in a while, and knowing that he would never snap at you feed your ego and mischievousness a little.

He knew what you were doing though, but Tighnari convinced himself that he was a grown up and mature person and he would never stoop down to your level of being an adorably annoying gremlin. Though make sure you know when to stop and give him a lot of consolation and kisses later on! Because you never knew what his "punishment" and "comeback" would be if you pushed him over the edge too much. Heh.

In the eyes of other people, this kind of relationship must be so exhausting and tiring; the type that their General Forest Watcher wouldn't even dare to enter (even more so being on board with it for a long while!). And not to mention this supposed "romantic" relationship looked like it was between a mischievous child and its perpetually petulant caretaker.

But to those who knew you and Tighnari on a personal level would say something different. Something that other people might think otherwise. Because only when he knew that he had you all for himself at the end of the day was worth dealing with your constant bullshit. And whenever he gets to thinking that your bright smiles are reserved only to him, Tighnari thought that this is the final reward for his never ending patience—one that he would gladly endure all for the sake of loving you as you are.

“When my heart feels like it will break, love appears in the most unlikely places and the most unlikely people.”

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onthecusk · 7 days

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nine-to-five | chapter 1 (now: don't call me angel)

summary: Ikeda Fuyumi desperately needs a new job. Enter Gojo Satoru, her insufferable ex-boyfriend-slash-academic rival who happens to show up in the office at her job interview welcoming her with a pathetic Fifty Shades joke. Surely, she would have to turn the opportunity down—except she doesn't. Now Gojo isn't just her insufferable ex-boyfriend-slash-academic rival but her colleague as well, possibly even more as they spend time working together. And with an equally attractive girl like Fuyumi around, Gojo is sure that his job isn't the only thing he'll be treating like a nine-to-five. What could happen?

pairing: gojo satoru x fem!OC (office AU)

note on the pairing: the idea is that it's a fem reader. but since i dislike "y/n" and writing in second person to refer to the reader, i came up with an oc to make it easier and more enjoyable for me to write. but you can imagine yourself as the oc or whatever you please!

tags/content warnings: (+18) MDNI, heavy smut, praise (and i mean lots of praise), eventual smut, enemies with benefits, alternating timelines, office au, fluff, slow burn (kinda?), suggestive dialogues, dirty talk, pining, second chances, satoru gojo is his own warning

word count: 2k

author's note: hi thanks for reading! this was originally posted on ao3, but after much deliberation, i've decided to cross-publish it on tumblr. i started writing and planning this fanfic last year, but was put on hold because uni happened. i'm so excited to finally be continuing the story 🤍 please like and reblog (or comment, would love to hear your thoughts too!) if you enjoyed reading. i'm a new account so i would appreciate it sm <3 i'll make a masterlist soon!

FUYUMI

“Mr. Grey will see you now.”

Contrary to the “universally acknowledged truth” pertaining to a certain Mr. Darcy, a man in possession of a good fortune is definitely not in want of a wife, but of an ex-girlfriend to pester and perturb. Case in point: Gojo Satoru.

Because here I am, on a bright Tuesday afternoon, trapped in a room with my maniacal ex-boyfriend-slash-nemesis, pathetically enduring one of his lame jokes (he chose a Fifty Shades of Grey reference this time, like the brat that he is and always has been, always was) that were always either diabolical or dirty—there is no in-between. But as much as I wanted to react, as is my right to, I couldn’t help but simply freeze in place, my hand still holding onto the door handle keeping the heavy door ajar, as if the feel of the cold metal bar in my palm would keep me safe from whatever danger this situation has to offer. How on earth did I get myself into this? How is he here?

“Cat got your tongue?” Satoru teases, with a conceited smirk plastered on his face.

“Pervert,” I say through gritted teeth as I snap back to reality, “That wasn’t funny. What are you doing here?"

Most importantly, where the fuck have you been?

"This isn’t your office," I continue. "I’m supposed to be doing this interview with Mr. Nanami Kento and I checked twice to make sure this was the right room.”

“And it is, we’re in his office—but ’Mr.’ Nanami Kento had an urgent meeting to attend to so he couldn’t make it,” he says, putting emphasis on “Mr.” as if it had been malicious of me to address a stranger who quite literally holds the fate of my employment in his hands that way.

“And you just magically appeared out of thin air to save the day? After all these years?"

“If it’s you who needs saving, why wouldn’t I?”

His signature smirk is still intact on his stupid face. I try very hard to compose myself and put on a professional front despite this situation being silly enough to make me want to throw up and cry at the same time.

“Alright, that's enough. I’ll see myself out and ask Mr. Nanami to reschedule my interview,” I confidently respond. “Thanks for your time.”

Or maybe I’ll just quit while I’m ahead and not push through with the interview at all. That way, I’ll personally eliminate my chances of having to see Satoru ever again. I bow my head and turn around to exit the room.

“Fuyumi,” Satoru calls out, now in a different tone—firmer, and there definitely was a cold ring to his voice this time. It always surprised me how quickly he could dabble with his moods to accurately accommodate whatever the current situation required of him. I could never acclimate to my surrounding as confidently as he does and seeing him in action can be scary sometimes. “Can we start over?”

I wince at how intentional that question was. With it coming from his mouth, I didn’t have to think too hard to know it was his tricky way of making me think it could mean starting our relationship or my interview over again. It’s one or the other and I hate myself for still being delusional over some of the things Satoru says when I know he does it on purpose every single damn time.

“The interview, I mean,” Satoru says. And then a beat. “I know what’s on your mind. Don’t get ahead of yourself, angel.”

“Don’t call me angel,” I retort.

“What do you mean?" he says. "It’s a compliment, darling.”

“It’s demeaning and invalidating," I reply sternly. "Especially coming from you. And don’t call me that either.”

“You mean ‘darling’?" he teases. "Sure, whatever you say, angel.”

“I said stop it, or else—“ I abruptly stop, realizing halfway through my sentence that I didn't have anything else to say.

“Hm?” he hums, then smirks.

“Or else, what?” he adds. God, just shut up.

“I’m ignoring you," I say, avoiding his gaze like my life depended on it.

“No, tell me," he tilts his head on the side. "Or else what, Fuyumi? What are you gonna do?”

I take a deep breath and say, "Can we please move on from this?"

“Don’t start something you can’t finish, angel.”

“You’re hopeless, Satoru. I’m out," I snap, turning my back on him to head towards the door once more.

I hear footsteps rushing towards me from behind. Before I have completely made my way out, Satoru is there, his body a few inches away from mine. His left hand is suddenly on the door, slamming it shut with just enough force so as not to make too much noise.

“Right, whatever, I shouldn’t have said those things, huh?” He says and I’m taken aback by his random sincerity. “But I know how talented and capable you are, so, will you tolerate me a bit more? I’ll be professional this time. Just until we finish this interview, yeah? We really need someone as… good as you, Fuyumi.”

This is weird—Satoru rarely took conversations seriously. But I badly need this job, what choice do I have?

I guess it’s about time I address the elephant in the room: Gojo Satoru is my ex-boyfriend, as I’ve already mentioned. Once upon a time, it was 2006, and he was my most insufferable academic rival. One thing led to another and next thing you know, we were in a relationship—a childish one at that; we were only sixteen. The last time I’d seen him was 11 years ago when we broke up in the summer of that same year. What he had done humiliated me so much that I had to transfer to a different school the following semester. Which is why he has no business looking as smug and self-assured as he is right now—after what he’d done to me all those years ago. At this rate, I’d rather be locked up in solitary confinement, seriously.

“Just out of curiosity, why did you leave Kawaguchi Publishing?” Satoru asks after several routine interview questions.

“Well, I would like to keep things strictly professional and I could say things just didn’t work out between me and my previous employer, but that would make it seem like I’m the problem,” I pause, contemplating. “My previous boss, he—well, I don’t know if I should be saying this but—“ I fiddle with the hem of my skirt.

“My previous boss made a pass at me,” I finally say. “I didn’t want to keep working for that kind of person. It’s against everything I stand for.”

Satoru clenches his jaw.

“I handled it fine,” I say. “I filed a lawsuit against him and had him fired. There’s no need to get all tensed up.”

“It’s just,” Satoru clears his throat. “Never mind.” I know that look on his face, I know it all too well. He’s holding back from saying something out of pocket—like he’d kill that man and do everything in his power to get back at him. I’d have protected you if I were there. But I see it, he’s holding back. And I prefer that he is. I don’t want this interaction to be anything more than a job interview.

After a couple more questions, Satoru wraps up the interview and composes himself, placing my documents back in its folder. I stand up and reach my hand out to him, “Alright, I appreciate your professionalism. Thanks for your time.” My gesture is screaming Thank you but I’d feel better if you let me go now, this is too awkward. And just like that, his smirk is back. He doesn’t acknowledge nor shake my hand. Instead, he continues to sit pretty on the swivel chair that isn’t even his to begin with, maintaining eye contact with me, devilishly prolonging my corporate imprisonment. I wish I could say that he looks horrible—a gremlin, the personification of Gollum, an ugly, sloth-looking know-it-all. But no, he’s the opposite of all that. He’s attractive, especially from this angle—with me looking down on him. Or do I like how he’s looking up at me like that? All I see is blue. Like the ocean. I want to walk and sink into his eyes and never come back.

“What are you thinking, angel?” Satoru teases as he notices me staring at him. God, this is stupid. I’m so stupid.

“Oh, not much,” I play along. “Just how badly I want to strangle you right now.”

“Bold of you to assume I wouldn’t like that.”

“Oh yeah? Not when my intention is to kill you.”

“Cupcake," he exhales. I cringe. That damned nickname, the one he occasionally used on me whenever he tried to get on my nerves in high school. "I could think of other ways you could kill me or, as the poets say, suck the life out of me," he smirks, like the devil I've always known. "Out of my—"

"Said no poet ever," I interrupt with a hint of sarcasm. "But sure. Hmm, let's see. I'd love to put little Satoru through a meat grinder."

"You mean my dick? Ouch," he winces, faking a pained expression. "If so, then you'd need the biggest meat grinder the world has ever seen."

A beat. I mentally scramble over my thoughts thinking of the perfect comeback. But I couldn't think fast enough when his ever-striking blue eyes are piercing through mine.

God. No.

We're not doing this.

"So, what else?" he smirks, again. "Is that all you got? Tell me more. You'd be surprised at how much I can handle."

“That so?” I scoff. “But I wouldn’t feel too proud about ‘how much I can handle’ if my sleep-deprived neighbors complained too often about some girl regularly screaming my name at night. Oh wait—that’s you. That’s not very neighborly, Satoru.”

Satoru slightly raises both of his arms and claps loudly, clearly a celebratory motion that was meant to piss me off. He hasn’t changed one bit.

“Thanks for acknowledging the fact that I’m so ridiculously good at pleasing my women, angel.”

I have no idea how many girls came after me and Satoru's love life definitely is none of my business. But I'm not quite sure how I feel about the thought of him making love to someone else—to another girl. My stomach sunk thinking about it just now, as if my organs were carving a hollow onto themselves—a hollow I never even knew existed.

Still, I think about Satoru making some other girl feel good and it makes me want to vomit. I feel sick. What is this feeling? I mean, after over a decade, I know I was sure about one thing. That I hate him. I hate Gojo Satoru, as I should. I was sure about it then, and I still am sure about it now.

“Are we done here? Because I actually have things to do—and sitting around in someone else’s office instead of doing their job isn’t one of them.” I start picking my things up and Satoru stands up, chuckling at my remark. If I’m offered this job and I take it, I wonder how many trips to the HR I’m going to have to make to get Satoru off my back.

“Sure.” A smirk. There it is again.

I fake a smile and head to the door—for real this time. But Satoru follows closely behind and holds the door open for me.

“I look forward to having you work under me,” he says. “If you know what I mean.”

“Definitely. You'll see me in HR filing a complaint.”

How do you quit a job before you’re even hired?

to be continued...

#gojo satoru #gojo x oc #gojo x reader #gojo x you #gojo smut #satoru gojo smut #jujutsu kaisen #gojo x female reader #office au #enemies with benefits #jjk gojo #gojo fanfic #9 2 5

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mikuni14 · 6 months

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The Sign - Ep 4

*sexy sound*: hooya! This series keeps on giving ✨

Let me start by saying that this whole police-investigative part is extremely silly, funny and not reflecting reality (apart from the moment when captain inspector team leader Akk says "that a victim is a victim no matter the gender"), but who am I kidding! I'm not here to analyze police work! So I completely ignore this part. Although I must admit that the police part provides incredible entertainment in the form of Captain Inspector Team Leader Akk (always), the introduction of a new, cool character accompanied by the dramatic sounds of classical music, or the interruption of an intense scene between MLs with important information about the discovery of severed genitalia 👌👌

Apart from that, as always, I like everything. I love how Tharn is shown as just a regular horny gay dude who just thinks about dicks lol How many other BLs, where b stands for BOY, show this? I also like that his fantasies are of him letting Phaya do things to him, being vulnerable by exposing his neck, being pinned down, covered by his lover's body. I also liked that Tharn relives these fantasies in the light of day and indulges in them 🤩 Oh, "sleep wherever you like" was an invitation and that's a fact you will have to pry from my cold, dead hands 😤

I love how this show keeps creating "their things", constantly building them into a couple that has their own behaviors and traits in common, before they even become a real couple. Now it's a shirt grabbing. I love it, I love it when something like this appears and I know 100% that I and the rest of the fans are in these moments like 👀👀 *di Caprio pointing at tv meme*. For me, it's a very important part of a romance when the couple has their "things". "Don't let me hear you talking about you being dead ever again" is such a powerful phrase. Raw. Just as Phaya likes.

I REALLY LIKED THIS WHOLE SCENE WITH THE FURIOUS PHAYA. Everything was perfect here. I really like that Phaya got the opportunity to show this side of him. That he is shown as an angry man, that he is not an ideal man who can control his - also negative - emotions in every situation. Normally, I don't like or tolerate such situations, because the reasons for such outbursts are usually stupid. In this case, I absolve Phaya of his aggressive behavior and his outburst of anger towards Tharn, pushing him away. It wasn't ignoring his calls, which Phaya immediately confronted and resolved. It wasn't an outburst out of jealousy or something like that. This is a completely different, serious situation that only partially concerns his relationship with Tharn. I'm absolutely sure that Phaya has often wondered whether he is mentally ill and that it is a source of a serious fear for him. Mental illness is a taboo in all cultures around the world, as Tharn himself says at the beginning of the series regarding his visions. A physically ill person will be perceived differently than a mentally ill person and Tharn knows this, PHAYA KNOWS THIS and Dr. Poison knows this. The second thing is that Phaya genuinely cares for and trusts Tharn. So at this point Phaya is in agony because not only has his most personal fears been brought to light, it was done by a stranger, a person he can't stand, who is his rival, who finishes him off with the final blow in a calm way when everything inside him is falling apart, but what's more, the blow came from a direction that Phaya DIDN'T expect at all. Phaya asks Tharn several times: "Why did you do that?" because he feels BETRAYED. Phaya is also a proud man who wants his beloved to see only "good and cool" qualities in him, which is completely normal in any relationship, hence his heartbreaking question "DO YOU THINK I'M NUTS?" Really, this scene is great: - Phaya angry, humiliated, hurt, betrayed, barely able to control himself (but even then he doesn't hurt Tharn, the scene is full of aggression and screaming, but Phaya never once crosses the impassable (for me) boundary, he doesn't beat Tharn, it's not even a fight, only two adult, trained men, one of whom pins the other) -Tharn, who is shocked because for the first time Phaya ignores him, does not look at him, it is clear that he is truly angry with him. You can see how Tharn is lost in this new situation, as he stands uncertainly and asks "I'm talking to you. Can you hear me?". And even then, he immediately shows concern for Phaya and his wound on his forehead

I'm grateful for showing this version of Phaya, and also for showing him as a silly, goofy guy throughout the episode in various funny scenes. 👌👌

My theory is that Tharn didn't tell the doctor about Phaya's dreams, I feel like the doctor KNOWS about everything and is a figure who simply has knowledge of what's going on as a deity. He knows when Tharn is especially close to Phaya, as seen in the temple scene, the kiss scene, in breaking of the photo frame, also when he tells Phaya that they will see each often other from now on, when he invites him to dinner with the clear intention of destroying him. I feel like the doc just KNOWS about Phaya's dreams.

Wild theory time! To expand on my original theory, this old woman/girl has helped Wansarat in the past and is helping him now. Wansarat is reborn and in each incarnation dies in childhood as punishment for what he did while saving his lover, Garuda. But this time he survived because he was placed under the care of the abbot of the temple, which is,in a way, his temple. And now, for a first time, Wansarat as Tharn is all grown up and delicious and the one for whom Wansart was originally intended - Dr. Bitch - he finally has a chance to get him. If it weren't for that Pesky Bird 😀

#the sign the series #thai bl #bl drama

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falcatamandarina · 3 months

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Tav and Vardana character worksheet

Thanks @hybernating-bear for the tag. I am gonna try this as an English practice (sorry if I misspell something or if it can’t be understood). I am gonna talk about my two ‘Tavs’ since they are siblings and the background is the same.

Tagging @necroticyuzu , @vo09 and @elven-e-girl (I dont want to annoy you, no pressure, just an invitation)

Names: Gustav (the elder one) and Vardana (the younger one) from Winterwood.

Tav is Gustav, because I like it (and I love ‘Gustavo’ name). Vardana is misspelled ‘bardana’ , a name of a plant (I believe it is ‘burdock’ in English). I like how this plant grows up in wild places.

Gender: Tav is male; Vardana is female.

Sexuality: Tav is gay, Bardana is heterosexual.

Pronouns: He/him and She/her,

O T H E R

Family: The important figure here is their grandmother, a Kelemvor cleric, a Doomguide and an exceptional duelist. Her name was Tabitha from Winterwood in Interior Faerûn and she was a human who, after a long life of adventures, became an hermit and recluded herself in Winterwood to help some little half blooded villages, since the wood has a lot of tension between orcs, dragons, lizards and woodelven. Tav and Vardana’s father was an adventure bard that fell in love with a drow and was killed by her when she was tired of a simple life. The little ones were raised by the grandma in Kelemvor ways and that’s why they are both kelemvorites clerics and don’t have any idea about drow culture. In fact their physical appearance is human-like.

Birthplace: Winterwood. They were raised there and completed tasks helping Tabitha. For instance, they were trying to eradicate Myrkul and Bhaal cults in the region.

Job: Clerics, but Tav is the ‘blessed’ one. He is more skilled in the magic of his God. He is also a good bard and a duelist, like her grandma. Vardana developed herself more as a warrior (an Orc friend of the grandma trained her), due the drow skills and a lack of divine magic (for some reason it seems that Kelemvor only gifted her with basic cleric abilities).

Phobia: Tav fears deep water. Vardana is afraid of her God not replying to her, that’s why she decided to protect and join Tav wherever he goes as a shadow. They are very dependent on one another.

Guilty pleasure: Sometimes they have cruel pulsions, but can control them thanks to the strict training and their strong beliefs.

Hobbies: Tav likes to spend time playing the lira and composing silly songs. He is a very joyful fellow. Vardana is silent most of the time, and she likes training, training and training.

M O R A L S

Alignment: Lawful Good (both), but Tav could be chaotical in some situations.

Sins: Tav enjoys tricking enemies and being a traitor to them. He feels really fine when they realize he has betrayed them and can’t do anything, it is his dark side. About Vardana, she doesn’t show it normally, but she is really possessive.

Virtues: A very strong moral sense. They are really kind with people in need and value kindness and cordiality.

T H I S O R T H A T

Introverted / Extroverted: Vardana is introverted in general (or quiet, at least). Tav is extremely extroverted.

Organized / Disorganized: She is organized, he is disorganized.

Close minded / Open minded: Both are open minded in general, except about their religion.

Calm / Anxious / Restless: She is really calm, but he is restless.

Disagreeable / Agreeable: Agreeable in general.

Cautious / Reckless: Cautious, all the time. Tav seems a little reckless, but it is a kind of mask.

Patient / Impatient: Patient in general, but Tav could be eager in specific situations.

Outspoken / Reserved: She is reserved as Hell. Tav is a nosy tattletale.

Leader / Follower / Flexible: Tav is the Leader, but it seems like an irresponsible one (at least externally). Vardana is a Follower but just with Tav, almost as a shadow in the case of following her brother.

Empathetic / Unempathetic: They both are Empathetic, except in the case you are a cold blooded murderer.

Optimist / Pessimist / Realist: Optimist. Their beliefs guide them on the topic.

Traditional / Modern: In between. They are very traditional about their religion and respect goodness above all, but open minded about everything else (as soon as ‘everything else’ is kindness). They really respect and follow laws, but they don’t care about laws that lack morality, the laws should externalize moral ideas.

Hardworking / Lazy: Hardworking, even when Tav could be mistaken as a lazy guy sometimes.

R E L A T I O N S H I P S

OTP: Tav adores Rolan, because he likes haughty grumpy wizards. Vardana simps Zevlor a lot, because she is a possessive crazy one deep inside who likes wet sad (and old) cats (even if the others don’t notice she is a damn simp). The siblings hadn’t seen tieflings in Faerûn Interior. The moment they saw them at Emerald Grove, they agreed that they were the cutest creatures ever (Yes, they talk to each other about their love interests, they truly get along as siblings and friends).

Brotp: Tav usually is doing silly things with Astarion and Karlach. He loves Jaheira's attitude as well. He also adores his ‘siblings-in-law’ and could do anything for Cal and Lia. Vardana gets along with Gale (they are simple, quiet and obsessive) and trains a lot with La’ezel. As strange as it sounds In Baldur’s Gate it is very common to see her and Naaber go around the city. She is Blurg’s penpal.

Notp: Wulbren. On the other hand, Tav insisted on killing Minthara himself in a horrible way, the same for Nere. The Emperor's betrayal was a hard blow for him (how did the squid dare to use his same modus operandi?). Vardana silently swore to kill Orin and Raphael the moment she met them, she hates manipulative and deranged fellows.

END

#tav bg3 #my tav #i play bg3 with two tavs #vardana #tav

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aestheticpearl · 1 year

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— 𝐜𝐮𝐩𝐢𝐝

[𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫] lasko moore

“you’re doing it again” you say glancing over to where lasko is sitting and staring at you with the biggest heart eyes you’ve ever seen. he turns bright red once he realizes that’s he’s been caught and starts trying to stutter out an excuse.

“do-doing w-what?” he finally manages to get out after struggling to find the right words.

“looking at me with those eyes” you smile at him.

“w-what eyes?” lasko lets out a nervous laugh.

you stand and walk over to sit with him on the couch, making sure to sit very close.

“the ‘i’m so in love with you’ eyes” you say kissing his flushed cheek gently. lasko feels dopey with you and can’t help but act that way, you don’t mind though clearly since it makes you laugh; he loves making you laugh.

“i can’t help it” he says finally facing you. his eyes widen when he realizes how close you are to his face. “h-hi”

“i love when you do that” you grin.

“love when i do w-what?” lasko asks while glancing to the side for no particular reason .

“when i get really close to your face like this you always go ‘hi’ and it’s honestly one of my favorite things to do to you cause i love the reaction you give”

“o-oh, i didn’t realize i did that” you nod.

“i love it” you say before leaning in to kiss him.

lasko melts into your lips, he has always though that your lips taste heavenly and soft— something like cotton candy and salt water taffy. he wonders if you’re aware of how much your kiss effects him, not in a dirty way just in a ‘wow i’m so in love with them and how they kiss me’ way.

lasko pulls away to hold your face in place as he drinks in your features before deciding to smoother you in kisses which makes you giggle at the sudden action.

“ahh i’m being attacked” you laugh though you also don’t do anything to stop said attacks.

“i’m just loving you” he says before place a final cheek on your cheek with a big ‘mwah’ sound to follow it. “i can’t look at you or kiss you now? let me love you sweetie”

“i do let you love me” you laugh as you place your hands over his. lasko’s hands have always been so warm and yours always seem to be cold but he doesn’t seem to mind. he’s always happy to hold them. “you’re being silly”

“you don’t like silly me?”

“i love silly you” you remove his hands from you face as you pull him in to plant a kiss on his nose. “you love silly me?”

“of course—” lasko’s statement is quickly cut off as your freezing hands find their way under his shirt. “ah—ah hey y-you k-k-know i’m tic-ticklish there!” he says while squirming away from your touch.

you can’t hold in your laughter at the sight of him wiggling around on the couch trying to avoid the cold touch.

“you can’t escape the cold breeze boy, i’m everywhere”

after almost five minutes of squirming around on the couch and almost falling off twice, lasko finally manages to grab your hands and stop your tickle attack on him. in the end he’s panting and holding onto your hands tightly in case you decide to go for it again.

“alright i’m done i promise” you smile and he weakly smiles back and sighs in relief.

“oh thank goodness” he lets go of your hands and you lay back on the couch to wave him over. he lays against you and you pet his head to calm him. “i can hear my heartbeat in my ears.”

“i really got you going huh?” you smile.

“definitely my work out for the week” you laugh again before kissing his head.

“i love you breeze boy”

“i love you too sweetie”

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i am so in love with how the lay out for this song turned out oml, requested by @morgansplace

.love always <3 pearl

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linabirb · 9 months

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Go ahead, Lina, talk about why you like Rollo. I need a reminder on why he's the best ever :DD

SORRY FOR A LATE REPLY AURORA I GOT HOME A FEW HOURS AGO AND NEEDED TO REST and the power went out while i was typing this. why is this world so rollophobic

warning for lots of rambling under the cut!

first of all, his design.

"haha funny boy with a bowl cut and a huge hat" virgin vs "literally the most fun design to draw" chad. yes i'm the second one.

of course his design is heavily inspired by his counterpart but i just love it a lot! i really like the colors (some of them lowkey remind me of a bi flag JDKDLSLSL) of his outfit and i like how the color of his hair and his eye color look with them!

i actually disagree with people who say that he'd look better with longer hair or a more detailed/"unique" hairstyle bc i think in that case his design would feel very overwhelming? meanwhile here it looks much more balanced! when i draw him, it feels really nice bc i don't have to do much when it comes to his hair, i can just focus on the outfit! (though i had to get used to drawing his hairstyle, bc my art style is just. floofy hair.. soft hair..)

speaking of his hair..

I'M STILL NOT OVER HIM HAVING MORE MESSY-LOOKING HAIR AND EVEN HAVING AN AHOGE. I'M STILL INSANE ABOUT IT THIS IS SO CUTE. i've talked about it with my other friends and i hc that his hair is like that simply bc he wears a hat most of the time and.. yeah, your hair can become like that after you wear a hat. and like, maybe his hair has no choice but to look like that no matter how much he tries to take care of it and make it look better, so he also tries to hide it with his hat HDJKDKSLD.

also, i find it so funny how on some images it looks like he has really bad dark circles, meanwhile on other images you can clearly see that he wears makeup, so here's my rollo headcanon number 420 (i have so many of them. so many. literally about any topic. i am going insane): rollo tries to hide his dark circles with makeup, but fails miserably and he's really bad at it and nobody has a heart to tell him that he's actually not really doing a good job.

HIS CHIBI VERSION IS SO. SQUISHING AND BITING HIM. WHAT'S THAT EVIL SMILE FOR. YOU SILLY GOOFY MAN

now, his personality.

HE'S SO. SIFGHDHJFBDFBHDJNDVFDNM!!!!!! i love how rollo isn't just a "cold and emotionless anime guy". HE HAS EMOTIONS!! HE HAS SO MANY OF THEM!!! LITERALLY THE WHOLE MASQUERADE EVENT CAN BE A METAPHOR FOR EXPRESSING ALL THE FEELINGS YOU HAD REPRESSED FOR SO MANY YEARS AND ENDING UP DOING SO IN A WAY THAT'S HARMFUL FOR OTHERS (and probably you).

okay, i've said it before in my other post (the ask game one) but the fact that he's literally one of the few characters (if not the only one) who actually says that yuu must feel weird being the only magicless student and that it can be very scary and tiring. man. and like, when everyone has to split up into groups, rollo is the only one who asks what yuu will be doing. i could try my best to not go "this man is in love with them" at least for a second, but no, this man is in love with them. "oh it's only because they're magicless" shut up. so what if it IS because they're magicless. what if yuu is so pure to him, nobody can touch them. what if he wants to protect them from magic users. rolloyuu can either be the cutest and softest ship ever or they can be the most toxic ship BUT IN A GOOD WAY. IN A WAY THAT MAKES YOU GO "waittttt 👀👀👀 that's kinda. that's kinda. hold on a minute" LIKE YOU KNOW WHAT I'M SAYINGGGGGG. all variations of rolloyuu are good. all of them. his ghost room voicelines are also so. it's like, even if he's studying at nrc currently, you can clearly see that he still has favoritism for yuu. it really feels like he sees them as the only "good" student here. it feels like he's a little bit more.. um.. maybe he's more of a tsundere now, since now he knows that yuu likes magic? such as him being surprised when yuu shows him that they want to be friends with him and thinking that it's all just some kind of evil scheme and then being shocked that they're just genuinely nice and saying that it just makes everything even worse. OTOME GAME LOVE INTEREST BEHAVIOR. and him also kinda scolding them for "asking for a present" from him but then saying that birthdays really are important and that he hopes he won't disappoint them with his present. man. m a n. AND HIS OTHER VOICELINES STILL MENTION HIM FEELING SORRY FOR MC AND SAYING THAT THEY CAN ALWAYS RELY ON HIM AND ANYWAY ROLLOYUU ARE MARRIED-

but i should go back to the topic of his personality! you know what makes me insane. it's that rollo, no matter how hard he tries to look like this serious and organized person who has everything under control is canonically a dork in the most affectionate way. HIS FLYING LESSONS VOICELINES ARE SO FUNNY. the fact that he goes "WHY WON'T THIS THING LISTEN TO MEEEEE" when it's not working out, but when everything is fine, he immediately goes "oh, it's quite simple actually"?? i'm going to kiss you on the mouth, you idiot SJKDKDLSLS. he's also canonically a horse girl, which makes sense bc of his counterpart, but also HORSE GIRL ROLLO REAL. i need his lab coat sr. or at least let him take alchemy classes with his current card i want to know what he'll say.

his battle voicelines are so cool, i'm literally obsessed with them. HE LITERALLY SAYS THAT HE HAS UNFINISHED BUSINESS TO TAKE CARE OF AFTER BEATING UP SOME GUYS. HOW COOL IS THAT. some of his voicelines totally didn't make me giggle and kick my feet. totally. don't look at me. me reading "good, how obedient" and "it seems you still desire punishment" and choking on my tea

also i love how his vignette exceeded my expectations and didn't just make me go "i love him <3", it made me go "i need to take care of him, i need to give him a blanket, i need to force him to go to sleep when he needs it, i need to kiss his stupid face, i need to tell him that he's enough-". like what do you mean he eats the exact same things (and not just food, but also the exact amount of it) for lunch and i'm pretty sure he does the same with breakfast and dinner. what do you mean he wakes up BEFORE SUNLIGHT to clean the bell and the gargoyles. what do you mean he likes the bell of salvation (yes, i'm sticking to fan translations) because "it rings when it's supposed to", meaning that he likes predictable things and things that he "already knows" (i think you can say that it's also implied in one of his voicelines where he can't understand why mc is "acting so familiar with him". they're being unpredictable. it's too hard for him to understand them.) what do you mean even when he knows that it will be easier/more convenient for him to do something different, he still does it the same way that he always does. i need him to go to therapy, this man has at least one mental illness and i'm like 100% sure that he's neurodivergent. (i've said it so many times on discord but he's ocd-coded. i say that as someone who has ocd. that's it. i do so many of the things that he does, it actually was a little uncomfortable (but also validating) to read his vignette, i was like "?? DUDE?? PLEASE?? PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW UNHEALTHY IT IS?? wait i don't have a right to say that". the bit where he says that he eats the exact same foods to "avoid unnecessary desires" especially reminded me of my own behavior, because my brain often makes me stop taking care of my needs because "otherwise the Bad Stuff will happen". but i won't go into detail)

also i like how he's loved by literally all nbc students?? say whatever you want, call him manipulative and all that, but it takes hard work to make people like you and admire you and rollo is definitely hardworking.

now, his role in the story. sure, him and idia have very similar backstories, but rollo's past resonates with me much more, because i really wish we had more characters that express their grief and other negative emotions as anger. of course, some people cry, some people isolate themselves, some people become afraid of everything, but in those cases those characters are usually portrayed as sympathetic, meanwhile those who want to punch people, want to fight back, want to scream and yell at everyone, often get portrayed as unsympathetic, scary or even abusive and toxic or just evil. which is.. not good. not good at all. anger is a valid and understandable emotion and it's actually good to be angry about things. i actually was shocked when my therapist told me that i SHOULD "bite and scratch people more" (as i've said it myself) right after i was describing to her how easy it is for me to get angry we also found out that it's actually one of my alters' doing and i was like "i sound like some kind of monster don't i". so it's really nice and actually kinda healing to see him just steal everyone's magic, set the town on fire (with flowers, but whatever) and still hate magic and not really getting a redemption arc. it's okay, he'll get there someday. him immediately starting to sob the moment he remembered what happened to his brother also broke me.

however, there is one tinyyyy problem with his backstory, though that's just me, probably. you see, idia blaming himself for what happened to ortho was more.. i wouldn't say understandable, but it makes sense story-wise. he really was involved in it, even if it really wasn't his fault and he was only a child, i can still see why he'd blame himself. but in rollo's case, him secretly blaming himself.. doesn't really make sense to me? i mean, his brother just wanted to show him his magic, sure, rollo could blame himself for just standing and not being able to help him, but.. i don't know, it just feels a little bit weaker to me. so when the story goes "hey, look at him, he's blaming the magic users for not saving his brother, when he actually thinks it's his fault"! i'm like ". okay. what do you want me to do. do you want me to give him a hug and tell him that it really wasn't his fault." like, according to him, other mages really couldn't help and they ignored him, so what do you want me to do?? do you want me to point at him and go "HAHA SO IT REALLY IS YOUR FAULT"?? i'm not gonna do that!!

also, the thing is that rollo isn't selfish at all. i don't think he thinks that highly of himself. i actually bet that his self-esteem is horrible. when idia tells rollo that rollo wasn't trying to save other people, but he actually wanted to save himself, rollo is genuinely confused and can't believe it and idia himself says that it looks like rollo really did think that he was doing it for others. and even if he secretly wanted to do it for himself, i don't think him saying that he wants to save others and end their suffering is selfish. and he also says that he'd love to lose his magic too and he doesn't like using his magic.

his parents also being worried about him and making sure he's fine in the vignette also breaks my heart.

soooo yeah! that's all i can think of right now, but of course, there's most likely much more, my brain is just a little tired, haha.

maybe none of this makes sense and i'm just biased and i'm projecting, but who cares. at least i'm having fun.

if you've read all of this, thank you and congrats! have a pic of my croissant plushie (+ a bnuuy!!) :)

#[ 💌 𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐚 𝐚𝐧𝐬𝐰𝐞𝐫𝐬 ]#[ 💕 𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐚'𝐬 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐬 ]#[ 💫𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝: 𝐚𝐮𝐫𝐨𝐫𝐚 ]#eh you know what #twisted wonderland #rollo flamme #twst rollo #i'm probably gonna regret it later but rn. i'm too sleepy to care and i need to do my hw

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polyhexian · 7 months

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runaway au Hunter being unimpressed with Darius's lack of living-on-the-run skills.

Darius: Hunter, why are you shoving my clothes into a dufflebag?

Hunter: It's a go-bag. You don't have one so I'm making one for you.

Darius: A go-bag.

Hunter: Yeah, in case we need to go.

Darius: Alright, well, I appreciate you not stuffing my good silk shirts into the go-bag--

Hunter: They're impractical.

Darius: --but why are you putting my jewelry in there?

Hunter: Oh! Cuz we could get a lot of money for it!

Darius: Ah. I see.

Hunter is just like, man, Darius can't pickpocket or lockpick, he barely knows how to play hexes hold 'em let alone cheat at it, he IS super amazing at abominations just like Dad said tho so maybe it's different when you're really strong with magic, but still I don't know if he's even all that good at lying or if he could run even a quick con--

Darius: Hunter, I work in politics and have rebellious leanings, I am DEFINITELY good at lying and running cons.

Hunter: Okay, but what names are on your fake IDs so I know what to call you if we need to make a run for it?

Darius doesn't know if he's shocked or amused or sad or frustrated. Every time he uncovers another specifically worrying fact about Hunter's upbringing, knowledge, and skillset, all he can think is "Damn Jasper, you've been living like this??"

Ohhhh the like... Hunter keeps telling him stuff that has jasper like wow. Alright. Until he says something else that shoves the perspective so hard his stomach hurts. I mean like- like interrogating Darius to show him all his fake IDs and tell him his secret identities, haha how silly, this kid really thinks he's like a SPY lol. But then hunter says like- I gotta know so I know what names to ask for at the healers coven, so I know what names to call you when we're hiding from someone, so I can find you when (and not if) we get separated. Or hunter is very serious about building this bug out bag, he's giving a big monologue as he picks stuff up around the house to put in it and he is SOOO serious it's adorable, like watching a ten year old pretend to do taxes or act out their idea of Business Work, but then he says something like- jewelry is great cuz it's easy to sell in an emergency, or and THIS is an emergency blanket! It can help keep all your body heat in when you're cold! Or, like- and you wanna make sure you got a waterproof bivy for your sleeping bag in case it's not safe to pitch a tent! And the reality of that just hits Darius like a brick. Truly: "damn, jasper. You've been living like this?" Only profoundly sad

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mariana-oconnor · 1 year

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The Copper Beeches pt 1

Like I said last time, this was one of my favourites as a child, so I assume that I'm going to remember what's going on pretty quickly. But then again, maybe not.

"To the man who loves art for its own sake, [...] it is frequently in its least important and lowliest manifestations that the keenest pleasure is to be derived. It is pleasant to me to observe, Watson, that you have so far grasped this truth that in these little records of our cases which you have been good enough to draw up..."

Starting out with a compliment from Holmes to Watson here. Also not an arrogant one, as he follows this up by stressing that he feels Watson embellishes, although it is unclear whether he thinks Watson is embellishing the stories themselves or Holmes' abilities. So maybe not. Also, I like the fact being raised again the Holmes seems to prefer the weird little mysteries of life than the grand mysteries.

"you have erred perhaps in attempting to put colour and life into each of your statements instead of confining yourself to the task of placing upon record that severe reasoning from cause to effect which is really the only notable feature about the thing."

How dare you try to make the stories interesting with your Romantic descriptions of storms and your acerbic descriptions of people, Watson? How dare! It should only be a dry, factual account with no editorialising!

Lol.

"It seems to me that I have done you full justice in the matter," I remarked with some coldness, for I was repelled by the egotism which I had more than once observed to be a strong factor in my friend's singular character.

Oooooh... I'm not sure where Watson's coming from here, as I don't think Holmes has said anything particularly egotistical here. Maybe the bit about Watson choosing the cases that best show off his method? But even that doesn't strike me as particularly egotistical. He doesn't say 'you choose the ones that make me look best'. Perhaps I'm just not understanding the nuances of the Victorian language.

"You have degraded what should have been a course of lectures into a series of tales."

Holmes does not understand what the people want. I feel like maybe I can hear a bit of ACD in this part being irritated at the fact that his silly little detective stories are so popular. Although I believe this is quite early in the publication order, so maybe I'm just reading into it based on what I know of him later on.

Holmes clearly started out with a compliment, though, and then the conversation got away from him.

Sherlock Holmes had been silent all the morning, dipping continuously into the advertisement columns of a succession of papers until at last, having apparently given up his search, he had emerged in no very sweet temper to lecture me upon my literary shortcomings.

I guess Watson didn't see any of it as a compliment. Also - Holmes is reading the paper! Clearly for a specific purpose, but still.

"Pshaw, my dear fellow, what do the public, the great unobservant public, who could hardly tell a weaver by his tooth or a compositor by his left thumb, care about the finer shades of analysis and deduction!"

But you were just saying Watson should have written purely about the method... I guess your argument must be that he's writing for the wrong audience and he really should be writing scientific case studies about your methodology. Boredom does not make Holmes very generous towards the general public it seems.

"But, indeed, if you are trivial. I cannot blame you, for the days of the great cases are past. Man, or at least criminal man, has lost all enterprise and originality."

This is such a melodramatic Holmes. I am here for it. "Watson! The criminals are all boring, Watson. There's nothing interesting left in the world, Watson! It's all downhill from here. I will never be entertained again!"

"It may turn out to be of more interest than you think. You remember that the affair of the blue carbuncle, which appeared to be a mere whim at first, developed into a serious investigation. It may be so in this case, also."

A serious investigation...

I mean, also yes, because they freed an innocent man, but still, it amuses me to see that referred to as a serious investigation.

And I can't resist an opportunity for goose giffery.

She was plainly but neatly dressed, with a bright, quick face, freckled like a plover's egg, and with the brisk manner of a woman who has had her own way to make in the world.

Violet Hunter is awesome and I'm really glad Watson wasn't particularly rude in his description of her.

"'That will do,' said he; 'I could not ask for anything better. Capital! capital!' He seemed quite enthusiastic and rubbed his hands together in the most genial fashion. He was such a comfortable-looking man that it was quite a pleasure to look at him.

OK, no. You haven't even said anything yet. This is creepy. Not comfortable, creepy. There are so many creepy men in these stories, I swear.

"'And what salary do you ask?' "'I had 4 pounds a month in my last place with Colonel Spence Munro.' "'Oh, tut, tut! sweating—rank sweating!' he cried, throwing his fat hands out into the air like a man who is in a boiling passion. 'How could anyone offer so pitiful a sum to a lady with such attractions and accomplishments?'"

That's ~£400 a month in modern money, so roughly £4800 a year.

But again, she has barely spoken in this conversation. What does he know of her accomplishments? I mean, he might have read her CV. But the fact he starts with 'attractions'. Methinks the man is not looking for a governess. Creepiness escalates.

"'This is all quite beside the question. The point is, have you or have you not the bearing and deportment of a lady?"

I mean, I know 1800s misogyny, but surely if you're hiring a governess you want them to... teach things. Not just how to stand up straight and walk with your shoulders back? I know deportment can also relate to manners and behaviour, but I cannot stress enough that pretty much all she did was walk into the room and he said 'that one'.

Not going to quibble with Miss Hunter about taking the job. More than double the income of her last job. And it's coming to her through the agency, so has at least the appearance of respectability about it. But she does have the good sense to think it seems too good to be true.

"'It is also my custom,' said he, smiling in the most pleasant fashion until his eyes were just two little shining slits amid the white creases of his face, 'to advance to my young ladies half their salary beforehand, so that they may meet any little expenses of their journey and their wardrobe.'"

This also makes me uncomfortable. And I can't tell how much of that is intentional and how much is coming from my 21st century brain seeing the paternalistic, possessiveness of 'my young ladies' and 'any little expenses'. I've got to assume that at the time there would at least have been a little discomfort from the condescension he seems to be showing here. But the attitude might have been so common that it might not have made any sort of impression.

I had a coworker once who used to refer to me by putting 'little' before my name. It meant I never liked or trusted him at all. I might have been the youngest person in that office and I might not be the tallest person in the world, but it was patronising and awkward and I never forgot it.

"As I was already in debt to my tradesmen, the advance was a great convenience, and yet there was something unnatural about the whole transaction which made me wish to know a little more before I quite committed myself."

I knew I remembered liking her.

"'One child—one dear little romper just six years old. Oh, if you could see him killing cockroaches with a slipper! Smack! smack! smack! Three gone before you could wink!'"

Uh... uhm... I...

"I was a little startled at the nature of the child's amusement, but the father's laughter made me think that perhaps he was joking."

Yeah, you and me both. The startlement, not the joking part. I think he's probably serious about that. (I do not remember the child in this story, although I remembered she was a governess...)

I think maybe you just want to think he's joking because you need money and £50 up front is an amazing deal.

"Your duty would be, as I am sure your good sense would suggest, to obey any little commands my wife might give, provided always that they were such commands as a lady might with propriety obey."

My 21st century brain says 'oh, this is a sex thing', even though I know it absolutely won't be. But still... this sounds like a sex thing, right? Like he and his wife are into governess kink stuff. It's like one of those ads that used to be on craigs list.

"In dress now, for example. We are faddy people, you know—faddy but kind-hearted. If you were asked to wear any dress which we might give you, you would not object to our little whim."

Ah, now I remember! Not everything, but I definitely remember the dress.

Still seems like a sex thing at this point, ngl. Which, no kink shaming, but you have to actually inform the person of what they're taking part in. That's called consent. It's important. You can write that down if you want.

"'Or to cut your hair quite short before you come to us?' "I could hardly believe my ears. As you may observe, Mr Holmes, my hair is somewhat luxuriant, and of a rather peculiar tint of chestnut. It has been considered artistic. I could not dream of sacrificing it in this offhand fashion."

Ah, echoes of the Red Headed League. Clearly she has to look a very specific way for whatever purposes he has for her.

"It is a little fancy of my wife's, and ladies' fancies, you know, madam, ladies' fancies must be consulted."

Ugh, this guy. I swear. He's like paternalism personified. Icky vibes all over him.

"'Do you desire your name to be kept upon the books?' she asked. "'If you please, Miss Stoper.' "'Well, really, it seems rather useless, since you refuse the most excellent offers in this fashion,' said she sharply. 'You can hardly expect us to exert ourselves to find another such opening for you."

Fuck this lady. She clearly has no concept of 'duty of care' and is driven entirely by capitalism. She just watched this weird little meet-ugly. And she's like 'well, if you don't take that job, I guess we won't be looking for anything else for you. So maybe you should just set aside your insistence on bodily autonomy and go with the creepy guy who seems to have a governess fetish and no understanding of informed consent.' Hello financial blackmail.

"Well, Mr Holmes, when I got back to my lodgings and found little enough in the cupboard, and two or three bills upon the table. I began to ask myself whether I had not done a very foolish thing."

I am very upset for her right now. I didn't understand her situation this much as a child. I got that she needed money and there needed to be a story, but I didn't get how dire Violet Hunter's position actually was. She has next to no money left and her place of employment has pretty much said that they won't give her any more work. No wonder she talks herself into doing it. I cannot blame her at all. Capitalism sucks and she needs to survive.

"'Dear Miss Hunter:—"Miss Stoper has very kindly given me your address, and I write from here to ask you whether you have reconsidered your decision. My wife is very anxious that you should come, for she has been much attracted by my description of you."

FIRST of all - Fuck you once again Miss Stoper for giving out her personal details to people. Fuck you very much. Just 'oh, hey creepy guy you can totally have her personal address'. Goddammit woman. You are the worst.

SECOND of all... 'she has been much attracted by my description of you' the more this guy talks, the more the sex vibes are pouring off this. I know it's not that. I know it would never be because this was published in 1892 in a mainstream magazine. But you cannot look at that sentence and tell me that it doesn't just shout 'sex thing' at you. I wish I knew whether any of that would have also been inferred by contemporary readers, or if it's just the modern viewpoint colouring it. But yeah... People had fetishes in Victorian times. Sex trafficking definitely existed in Victorian times.

"we have one belonging to my dear daughter Alice (now in Philadelphia)"

Is Alice in Philadelphia? Is she? Is she secretly buried under the floorboards? Or maybe she is in Philadelphia because she ran the fuck away from you. Also... place your bets as to whether Alice had short hair that was a 'distinctive shade of chestnut', wherever she may now reside.

"I confess that it is not the situation which I should like to see a sister of mine apply for."

Holmes is concerned. And I see an edge of his words about Mary Sutherland here, because he doesn't try to argue or change Miss Hunter's mind. Possibly because of his weird misogynistic view that you can't change women's minds because... I don't even remember. Although, what are her alternative options at this point... starvation?

"Mr Rucastle seemed to be a very kind, good-natured man. Is it not possible that his wife is a lunatic, that he desires to keep the matter quiet for fear she should be taken to an asylum, and that he humours her fancies in every way in order to prevent an outbreak?"

Here I do not agree with Violet. He did not seem to be kind or good-natured. He seemed creepy and patronising. Maybe this is just because I am reading from a modern perspective. Or maybe it's because I'm a woman reading this and a Victorian man wrote it.

Was ACD trying to convey a pleasant man and just didn't understand how creepy he came off? Given that we are meant to have a feeling of foreboding, that doesn't seem likely. But Violet Hunter is so insistent that he was a nice man. She mentions it repeatedly. But all I'm getting are creepy vibes.

It's possible this is just a man who thinks he's writing a nice guy, but is actually writing a creep without realising it. Or it's a guy deliberately writing a creep, and making his female character too naive. But she doesn't seem naive. She seems pretty on the ball, just desperate for money. My brain finds Violet's insistence that Mr Rucastle came across as a pleasant person difficult to reconcile. It seems further than her just talking herself into believing it because she needs the money.

And placing all the weirdness on the wife when you have only his word for her part in this seems rather foolish to me. But she's trying to justify the weird vibes as best she can, I guess.

"There is something distinctly novel about some of the features. If you should find yourself in doubt or in danger—" "Danger! What danger do you foresee?"

Please see aforementioned comments about sex trafficking and also remember that bit about the cockroaches. That was weird and a little bit serial-killer-y.

"At least," said I as we heard her quick, firm steps descending the stairs, "she seems to be a young lady who is very well able to take care of herself." "And she would need to be," said Holmes gravely. "I am much mistaken if we do not hear from her before many days are past."

Honestly, I think the bigger concern would be never hearing from her again.

If anyone I knew came up to me with a story like this I would just be 'Nope. Nope. Nope. I will give you money. You can live with me. Do not go to the Copper Beeches. You will never be seen or heard from again.'

I definitely remember more of this one. Not the fine details, but the broad strokes of the plot. But it is interesting to come at it as an adult and see the layers that I didn't as a child. I'm really enjoying it still, though. I'm glad I still like it.

#Letters from Watson #Sherlock Holmes #The Copper Beeches #long post #Miss Violet Hunter #It did always amuse me that her name is almost violent hunter #The weird sex vibes are strong in this one

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oh man ok you asked for mikey fics? i gotchu, but idk which ones you have read yet so here's just all of them

the entire turtle instinct series by dysfunctional request. they're usually p silly but the mikey ones dip into light angst

apricity by very angry gremlin and empathy amplified by filsamek are two of a kind, where mikey uses his mystics to make problems for himself in favor of being his bros' therapist

taking care of your brothers by calliopes anon is a sweet pb&j twoshot

the sun and icarus by sibilla scribbled 08 is about mikey's powers going haywire, and the imagery used in it is fascinating, def drawing worthy

song of a sunny day (fading into dusk) by idk_im_just_here_now is p good, and updates frequently!

if you want a fic specifically about mikey going into brumation and freaking his brothers out bc a box turtle's heartbeat stops being detectable in that state, there's freezerburn, hyperactive hyperthermia, and the shoebox (which is part of the turtle instinct series)

there's also time ticks by, which is another cold mikey fic, but the stakes are higher. tho that one seems to be discontinued

i have a few more, like a hurt-no-comfort, some that are not really far enough in to the story for me to rec, and also some shellshock fics, but I have no idea if you want those so ill hold off until further notice.

i hope this helps! i'm always on the lookout for mikey fics, so if you have recs i'd love to hear them!!!

OH YOU HAVE ABSOLUTELY SPOILED ME. OHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOH THIS IS SPLENDID TYSM <33333333

i am absolutely down to hear the ones you didn't list!! even if they're not my style, the more the merrier!!!!!!

unfortunately i don't have many saved BUT here's my faves:

Mystic Malfunction by VanillaVengence, where after the movie Mikey's powers go haywire and he accidentally strands himself in the 2012 dimension. one of my favourite fics ever of all time (in case the truckloads of sketches i've been making didn't make that obvious)

Angelo by daniartonline - a oneshot about how mikey got the nickname Angelo!

A Heart Of Sunflower by Knight_Of_Breath - a crossover with DC, where Mikey teams up with the Batfam to save his brothers. very cute and almost finished

the rest aren't mikey centric BUT i adore them:

A Tale of Spirits by unorthodoxx - where the brothers accidentally find themselves spread across the ATLA world, and have to find their ways back to each other - and help stop the war. VERY very good. an all-time favourite. lots of very good mikey content.

the new york conspiracy corner by blueh - a social media fic about new york's reaction to the mysterious turtle cryptids lurking about. this one is SO good i love it sm.

juxtaposition by SpectrumWriting - a 2012 crossover that juxtaposes the two families

Little Scraps of Wisdom by clandestineClairvoyant - AU where Splinter doesn't get mutated, so he raises his turtle sons in the human world. SO much to love about this series.

bustin' heads by GODZILLA90095 - raph strikes out on his own in the 2003 battle nexus tournament, and his brothers sneak out to follow them. captures the show's vibes PERFECTLY this fic is so funny

hollow mind by paperxcrowns - leo gets captured by the government and has to find his way home. i was so tensed up this entire fic, i love it.

Very Thoughtful by theashemarie - a low empathy study of donnie

this year we lost our dear brother leonardo by catatonicatnap - explores the direct aftermath of defeating the krang and pulling leo out of the portal. this one also captures the show PERFECTLY and is extremely funny <3

anyway i'm going to binge read all the ones you sent TYSM <33333

#coffee talks #asks #desterea #rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt fic rec #rottmnt mikey

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chatxkilluaxnoir · 1 year

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Why do I read CBR Articles, they almost Always just end up kind of pissing me off:

Like this article:

https://www.cbr.com/rise-of-teenage-mutant-ninja-turtles-the-movie-leonardo-character-change-works/

Just annoyed me so much man.

Like, Leo in so many versions has major doubts about himself and his leadership and will think he is a failure, and also just in general has many character flaws, as well as strengths too.

Like, Leo is a perfectionist in most versions (including in Rise), but he is far, far from perfect. He tries to be perfect, he tries to not show his vulnerabilities, but that is because he is insecure about himself and scared of failure and scared of failing the people he cares about and losing them, and also because while Leo is/can be (very) smart (including in Rise for sure), he is not always the best at emotional expression and he tends to hide a lot of stuff.

Also, Leos and self-worth, self-doubting, and self-hating issues go hand in hand; not just Rise Leo, but basically most Leos.

Also, “stoic, perfect” leader. Yeah sure, Leo, the major dork, the huge fanboy/fan, who loves jokes, puns, space, space heroes (or Jupiter Jim in the case of Rise Leo), swords, martial arts, figures/figurines, stuffed animals, is a LARPer and/or role-player, (probably) likes DnD and/or has been the DM basically, gets excited about stuff/very excitable, will argue and/or talk about what show/comic/superhero/thing he loves is best and/or why something is worst/not as good, petty/can be petty, childish, pouty, show-off/a (utter) show-off, a showboat, is competitive/super competitive, can get very pouty about losing, can be a sore winner, can be a sore loser, will try to do anything to win at games/video games/whatever thing he is being competitive about, likes games/to play/has done games as training, trains hard, is such a child (at times), is such a teen, can hold a (major) grudge, rage/hatred/can have a very deep and/or slow-burning and/or cold and/or etc. rage/hatred/etc. basically, knows guitar, (I think) he likes rock and/or all types of different kinds of music, (this is more a head canon, and I am trying to avoid those, but I totally head canon a lot of Leos are also good at singing), some versions are quite decent/good artists, this is more of head-canon, but I “head canon” him to be a good writer and/or loves to write fanfic (I know I say I am trying to avoid head canons in this post a couple times, and for the most part, I am!, just let me have a couple) can be quite the good/a pretty good dancer, has fun partying (at times), him and Raph and/or Donnie and/or Mikey or depending on the version have silly handshakes and codes and all that, him and whoever is his “twin” that version doing twin stuff, him doing “stupid” stuff with/for his family and friends, has (silly) codes/code words/gestures/hand gestures, can get really into things.

Likes to mess around and do (sometimes messed up and/or weird and/or stupid and/or etc.) stuff just out of boredom/for fun/for shits and giggles/, because he thought it was funny, tea, bladed objects, martial arts, fighting and/or violence and/or patrolling and/or life and death battles and/or etc. because he is bored/for fun/because he is used to it, so without it he gets kind of antsy, paranoid (but just because you are paranoid doesn’t mean you are wrong and/or they aren’t out to get you), Japanese culture (and/or other cultures too), gossips/gossiper/loves gossip/loves to gossip, loves people who can go toe to toe with him in fight and/or beat his ass, does impressions of people (both out of love and to make fun of and/or mock people), is a jokester, who mocks people, will do and say really silly stuff and is just overall (very) silly, loves cute stuff, is funny, (, very unique, very interesting, and/or very different to me/imo) who gets flirty sometimes/can be flirty, who puts on makeup and goth/emo/punk outfits.

Loves gardening and plants and the night air, loves nature, can be a major city boy, has a lot of self-control/restraint, sometimes is other people’s self-control, sometimes is the only brain cell/one of the only brain cells/share of the brain cell(s) of the group, mature, immature, responsible, irresponsible, savior and/or martyr and/or hero complex, wants to be a hero (and/or a criminal), thinks powers and superheroes and/or whatnot/etc. are SUPER cool, spiritual, mystical, magic/loves magic, is sly, cunning, and clever, ethical and moral (but also sometimes, not really--it can depend), interesting morality/ethics/etc., observant, intuitive/strong intuition (him and Mikey are the intuitive and/or intuition bros!), skilled/highly skilled/talented, (but also,) very hard-working and trains extra/super, super hard, the world and/or universe(s) and/or etc. is important, but at the end of the day Family and Friends basically is always above all/comes first, honorable, though can and will trick and play dirty, emotional, unemotional, repressed, emotionally repressed (and/or constipated) calm, level-headed, patient, but not even his patience his infinite, so even he can get get/be impatient, & also so when he does actually blow up and/or lose his temper and/or snaps, God can be cold and/or scary and/or etc., scary/frightening/etc., tense (? Not sure how to describe this one), (ever-) evolving/changing/grows a lot/develops a lot/always more room to grow/can and will reach great heights but there is (probably) almost more room to grow (I know some of these are less traits or whatever, and more statements, but just bare with me with these/those, okay), and intense.

Can (very much) think he is useless, thinks he is nothing and his brothers/family/friends are everything/better than him/just thinks very lowly of himself in general, thinks he is nothing without his brothers, thinks he is nothing without Splinter, thinks he is nothing without his friends and/or family, thinks he is nothing without other people, always thinks he needs to do something, so much of the time he places others before himself; even at the cost of himself/even at the risk/danger of himself, wants to be useful, seeks love and affirmation and approval, a very external character in a lot of ways, but also a very internal character in a lot of other ways, introverted, more extroverted, something in-between or both in some way(s), secretive, sneaky, stealthy, a good/great liar, a bad/terrible liar, expressive, unexpressive, closed-off/guarded, pranks/is hard to prank/curious and/or is impressed by people’s pranking/people actually being able to prank him (he does get mad and annoyed too, but who wouldn’t), resistant, resilient, trauma/traumatized/tends to get traumatized, curious, playful and/or mischievous, earnest, eager, quotes his favorite things and people, probably write fanfics honestly, has a crush on Captain Ryan (and would probably kin that man), has legit mental issues honestly (I hope this didn’t sound harsh or anything like that; didn’t mean for it to be. It is something I find to be very interesting, relatable, and realistic about his character(s)), basically all versions of him are insane and/or crazy and/or feral (including Rise), doesn’t always have the best role models (probably needs some better ones and/or more ones), needs help; needs help in so many ways.

Cautious and careful, reckless, one-man army, solo player/can go solo, team player, rebel/rebellious, “goody-two shoes”/goody-two shoes (or is it “goodie” or is it goody two-shoes? Or something like that. Hm?), just genuinely so much angst and/or angst potential (as well as comfort and fluff potential. But the angst (potential) man, the angst (potential)), “mom” and/or “parent” friend and/or just mom and/or parent and/or dad kind of in general, leader, sensei and/or the/a boss, ninja, ninja master, ninja in training and/or still with a lot to learn (always) (even if they don’t think so), brother, good brother, never gives up--tries; just tries so much (though sometimes he just wants to give up. But God, he can be so stubborn and determined (and never give up about stuff) too ofc), headstrong, bold, confrontational, peacemaker/mediator, tired; just wants a break, doesn’t want a break/know the meaning of a break/is just so used to always (needing to) do/doing stuff, so he feels like he must always be doing something, does stuff till he collapses and/or his body gives out, self-care (but not most of the time, not really, really, the guy needs to learn better self-care and to love himself), disciplined, strict (sometimes), bossy, sarcastic, sassy, snarky, self-blaming, guilt-ridden, grief-ridden, criminal tendencies and crime (be gay and/or bi and/or etc. and do crime is the Leo way), can be very violent and murderous/murder (-y/-happy), but also very caring, loving and protective, self-sacrificing, self-destructive, sometimes even suicidal, has (had) hallucinations and stuff.

Can be a control freak/controlling for various reasons, will die and kill for the people he loves, is very relatable in a lot of ways, has had to deal with his own anger issues sometimes, smug, cocky--can be very, very cocky to the point of (seeming) arrogance, can be and/or seem self-righteous (and/or righteous), can be and/or seem hypocritical, can and does make mistakes, tries to make up for mistakes, thinks they might never be able to make up for a/their mistake, beats up themselves up over any mistake (no matter how small or big, or even if wasn’t their fault)/beats themselves up a lot in general, very hard on themselves, can have high standards for others at times (for various reasons; both good, some not as good, some in-between and/or both), but even higher for themselves, can sometimes be quite naïve, optimistic, innocent, and starry-eyed, can also be also be quite jaded, cynical, hardened, and disillusioned (depends where they are development wise and/or the version ofc).

Nice, mean, and everything in-between, tough, brutal, kind, gentle, compassionate, cringe (-y) and embarrassing /affectionate, cool, badass, determined, stubborn/stubborn as all hell!, the “Leonardo Hamato Instinct” since the 80′s; a term coined by @misteria247 that I just love and it is very true, prideful, internalizes and bottles emotions up like there is no tomorrow!, coping mechanism galore!, some bad, or better, and everything in-between (like Rise Leo’s humor and pretending he is okay and fine and that there is nothing wrong and all that; Leos in general go hand in hand with coping mechanisms), pretending he is okay and fine and that there is nothing wrong (I know that I said this with Rise Leo already, but it bears repeating; this is such a Leo thing, humor, dark humor & dry humor, dad jokes, corny, corny jokes, cheesy, cheesy jokes, ironic/ironic humor, can be stoic and/or serious, but there is just so much more to him than that, blunt, light-hearted, lively, tired, confident; sure of himself, not confident (insecure, like I already said), doubtful/doubting of himself and/or others, self-deprecating, self-deprecating “humor”, “therapy, what is (a) therapy? You think I need therapy. Nah, I am fine, I don’t need therapy; nope, not at all” Leo.

Wants to believe in the good people and give people chances, but sometimes is disappointed (and sometimes awarded for it) and/or even grows disillusioned with people, things, humanity, etc., has issues TM, total mother hen, can seem selfish/can be selfish, but really he is just/can just be selfless to the point of not giving a shit about himself at all, his loyal to a fault (for better and worse), can be under a lot stress/can get very stressed, has anxiety, probably some versions have PTSD and OCD and/or etc. as well, fearless (ofc he is, that is literally a nickname of his), but can also be quite very fearful/afraid, catchphrases/has catchphrases, rehearses lines, catchphrases, quotes, and stuff, is dramatic and/or a drama queen, likes fashion and fun outfits and stuff, manipulative, has eldest daughter syndrome, is both very rational, smart/intelligent, and logical at times; a great strategist; a planner--the/a plan guy, but can also be a big ol’ dummy, a true dumbass, stupid, a moron, etc. /affectionate, not always a team player (I know mention this somewhere else already, but I got a bit more into detail here kinda); can go solo for various different reasons (and this is something he needs to learn), and I mean various.

Has a huge burden on him and sometimes has just wanted to give up/quite/wanted a break, actually wants and craves freedom/to be free/to have less responsibilities, probably both loves being the leader and hates it, has identify issues/problems, has/had to be a/the parent a lot, resolute, can be cruel, cold, calculating, bloody, bloodlust (-y), will do what his enemies do, will go against what he believes to be good to protect the people he cares about, (I have more to say, but I don’t know how to word some of it, so I am not), etc., etc.; I could go on and talk about Leo forever, he is that deep and layered and just has so much depth.

(I also know some of these traits are kind of repeated and/or similar to other ones, but they are still, mostly different in some ways, and some things are explained differently and/or more in-depth/detailed, and/or etc. Most of these are very different from each other though).

Seriously, one of the most characterized, multi-sided/faceted, complex, human, interesting (just has so much range to him) characters in the TMNT franchise (including Rise, but previous versions too), is just the “perfect, stoic” leader; how laughable.

(The stuff I listed above about Leo; most of them applies to most and/or all(-ish) Leos, including Rise; some are more version specific. Also, some traits can be core traits, some traits are there or not there pre or post development and/or etc. Basically some traits and stuff depends on the timeline and where they are in their arc(s) development).

Might add some more stuff to this later, but I am not sure. This is already a lot/has gotten to be VERY long (though, like I said, I can talk FOREVER about Leo/Leos, hahaha), and some of the stuff I want to add I think gets more into/too head-canon-y territory (though, some are (more) canon and/or canon/real to me), or I might not really feel exactly comfortable posting; at least not in this post, because I don’t know if this is the right context for that/some of that, and I am not really sure how I to word it/ if I can word it right/correctly right now/for now. Anyways, might add more to this later, might not.

This is getting long, so more/the rest will be under the “read more” cut.

Also, saying Raph and Mikey are usually the ones to get the more interesting character arcs; which, I am not saying they don’t get good, and interesting characters arcs themselves, they do, but like, Leo gets some fricken great and interesting arcs too (heck, sometimes even tragic and/or dark(er) arcs/ones). Like, he is not one of the most complex characters in the franchise (imo) for nothing. He has had/has plenty of room to grow and has grown lots in so many versions.

Plus, Donnie is a very interesting and complex character too himself; with quite interesting arcs too.

Also, acting like the other Leos didn’t have their own doubts as leader and people and didn’t have to grow into their own as people and leaders is just ridiculous; did they even see/watch/read any of the other versions, like really?

Also, just severely boiling down Leo and Raph’s dynamic in other versions and why they butt head a lot sometimes.

Like, for example, Leo and Raph arguments about leadership isn’t even over who can be the better leader, or at least, it is not JUST that.

And a lot of their arguments stem from them wanting the same thing. Them both wanting to protect and/or do the right thing, but just having different approaches.

And etc.

And then there is the stuff about Rise Raph, and how they act like previous versions of Raph (or Leo, who like Rise Raph was also the oldest and the leader himself)

Like, they are trying to boil down and water down other versions and act like they don’t get mad out of protective reasons or because they need help and for someone to share the burden (Leo and Raph defin. get mad for protective reasons) with them; even if they won’t admit that or not and/or it takes awhile/a bit for them realize it is okay to share the burden and/or for it takes a bit for them to realize the other person has a huge burden placed on them, and/or etc.).

The also hella water and boil down Rise Leo’s character so much; both in that article and others. Like, some of the stuff they said about Rise Leo is as insulting and/or untrue as the stuff they said about previous and/or other versions and it’s characters (mainly Leo and Raph for this article I am mainly talking about here).

Uggghhh, it just makes my brain hurt. Like, so much.

I fricken love Rise Leo a lot (he is my favorite), but I also love Leo in general (Leo is just a favorite of mine in general), and not just Rise Leo. And while he is certainly a unique take in a lot of aspects, he is still very much a Leo; it is just certain traits of Leo’s are either shown or less shown with Leo and he starts off a with a different role and age position in the family, and finally has more of that freedom that Leo had always wanted. Rise Leo, still is a Leo at his core though, and God do I love Rise Leo (and Leo in general).

Rise Leo is still a Leo and I love him.

(Seriously, people sometimes seem to really misremember and/or misunderstand Leo’s character and/or don’t look under the surface enough. This includes both Rise Leo and other Leos).

Rise is able to be great and new and interesting, because previous versions were as well, and helped pave the way.

So many TMNT versions and versions of characters are great.

And love it/them.

Seriously though, CBR (and sometimes Screenrant and/or other sites like those two) annoy me so much sometimes, but I should have expected this, it is CBR after all; they don’t always really have the best takes.

Okay, rant over, lol.

Man, this got into more full-blown character analysis in some way and TMNT and/or TMNT retrospective in some ways, huh?

I guess I am just very passionate about all of this.

(Once again, like I have already said earlier in this post - though in this case I am talking about the whole post genially, instead of just the part(s) before the “Read More” cut - I might add more to this later, but for now, I think this is good/fine enough/enough.).

#chatxkilluaxnoir #chat's posts #chat's rants #chat's discourse stuff #kind of on that last tag #tmnt #rise of the tmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #teenage mutant ninja turtles #basically all the versions here #kind of #(not tagging all of them)#tmnt leonardo #tmnt leonardo hamato #rottmnt leo #rottmnt leonardo #if you don't want to see a more ranty post #just block the chat's rants or chat's discourse stuff or tmnt discourse tag or something #man #it was a great to get this off my chest #honestly while this post started more from a place of annoyance (I am not just annoyed at cbr; this is a trend I see all too often in #general) i also had fun talking and making this post and analyzing characters and stuff #this post comes from anger and annoyance sure but also out of love and fun and maybe some spite yeah #tmnt discourse #tmnt meta #tmnt analysis #tmnt character analysis #long text post #tmnt leo character analysis #tmnt leo analysis

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Hi thefudge! I love reading your thoughts on fiction and I was wondering if you've heard of Obsession, a Netflix series starring Richard Armitage. He plays the role of a surgeon who has an affair with his son's fiancée.

thx! and yes, i have lol, but i have kept quiet about it because i am not a fan, even though i don't hate it, per se.

i will say, the trailer made the show look kind of cheap and bland, but upon watching the first episode i was sort of pleasantly surprised.

that being said, i have two big main issues:

a) i don't like the source material. so this is based on a novel called "damage" by josephine hart which is a very apt title, because it's all about the massive damage these people inflict on themselves and others. i read it back in the day and found it... interesting. it's not erotica, it's literary fiction through and through. and it's a mostly unpleasant, philosophical book. there is a famous 1992 adaptation with jeremy irons and juliette binoche which is faithful, in that it is not very pleasant and hardly erotic. because the thing about this novel is that the passion between these two characters is bizarre and unappealing, and i don't think it's just me. i think the novel wants you to feel that even these two people are not enjoying themselves, but they have to go through with it. it's compulsive and tortuous, like anna karenina and vronsky in the last throes of their doomed affair. and that's what's sort of fascinating about it. it's obsessive and deranged and not fun. hell, you don't really get any progression, you don't get tension and yearning and all the good forbidden stuff, because from page one, the guy is absolutely besotted with her and doesn't care about the consequences because he can't, it's that bad. the moment they meet is fatal, because they both realize what's happening. it's not love at first sight, it's like finding out how you'll die. it's sort of romantic but incredibly unsexy. there is no tension there. you just see two characters trembling with morbid anticipation. and that's fascinating and cool...but it is also deeply unpleasant and sort of pathetic (imo).

that's why i see this novel as more of a philosophical introspection into the limits of love, morality, responsibility. it's an intellectual exercise. and i appreciate it for that and for the daring questions it poses. but it makes me feel nothing. i am left cold by these two characters. so i only kind of enjoy the intellectual experiment.

which is why any filmic adaptations will have roughly the same effect on me. the netflix adaptation is both better and worse than the 1992 version, because it is less silly (god, jeremy irons loves to be The Most), but it is not as weird and daring. it's better than i thought it would be, and some scenes are compelling (though i didn't finish the series) but i just don't know what to do with it. it also doesn't work for me because i need progression. i don't like it when characters have an instant and inexplicable connection without even knowing each other. i can appreciate it in literary fiction and as an intellectual exercise with a moral/philosophical point, but....emotionally, i am bored by it. so it's a case where my subjective preferences interfere.

my other issue which is also subjective is that:

b) richard armitage doesn't work for me in this part. i love richard armitage, he's a beautiful man, but he doesn't have that subtle ick factor necessary to pull this off. he's the earnest gruff guy who doesn't understand all this kinky shit, he just wants to fuck you and hold your hand. he does not sell the obsession and the pathology to me. he does his very best, i will give him that, but something about it feels inauthentic. his facial reactions are, at times, so forced they become hilarious. he's constantly and very earnestly glowering like he's still on the set of north and south. it just doesn't work for me, even though i can tell he's putting his whole armitussy in it lol.

but even if! even if richard armitage was right for the part, i'd still find this deeply unappealing and unpleasant. interesting intellectually! but just unpleasant. which i think is the point of the novel, but it's a depressing point.

my favorite character in the book was always the wife, and indira varma is my fave here too, she is amazing and too good for this show lol. but other than that...i don't see the point of telling this story again, ultimately. i know the ending is shocking and incisive and yet, it just feels pointless, all of it. but do check out the 1992 film to see true fucked-upedness!

#obsession #netflix obsession #damage 1992 #replies #my thoughts #books #films

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paladin-of-nerd-fandom65 · 7 months

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That was quick lol & pretty good answers too :)

1: I forgot if you answer this already but for a animated series or movie, what type of style would you like for the duo? An anime style, modern cartoon, into the spider-verse style, a 3D type of animation similar to the battle of the supersons movie?

2: for the duo, which parent is the favorite? I can see both being mommas boys & liking Lois & starfire more

3: what’s the saddest movie they ever saw?

4: you probably answer this in a previous post but what type of angst did the boys experience? I can see Chris seeing a normal family & experience angst that why couldn’t Zod & his bio mom show the same type of love to him.

5: since they love to wrestle, is there a custom made wrestling ring at their base? It would be pretty cool & fun if they use like tables to slam each other through since they are super durable lol

6: speaking of wrestling, do you know the wrestler rikishi? If yes what’s their reaction to his signature move the stinkface where he rubs his butt all over your face while the opponent is laying on the bottom turnbuckle?

Thanks so much @gothicghost2000 I really appreciate your support and ideas for this silly little superhero fantasy writing experiment that’s been going on for about a year by now. You bring up valid and helpful points to what exactly these two are like together in a version of the DCU that as of now sadly, we can only dream off. It’s small scale admittedly

Now into the questions themselves ;-)

1. Easily a 2D animated show utilizing either traditional cel techniques or even the digital Toon Boom, done with an anime-esque design and aesthetic akin to Teen Titans Animated (2003 to 2006) and the classic Ben 10 (2005 to 2008). Will it be time consuming and relatively costly in the long run, I say maybe but I say it fits well with a TV show format as akin to its 3D cousin, 2D animation can look real pretty to look at and allow for a variety of tones, coloring for backgrounds along with other such techniques to set the mood for the characters, actions and other vibrant motions on screen. Plus I just like 2D over 3D in general anyways lol

2. For Chris, while it’s a very close call, Mom Lois still remains his favorite of the two if only by the thinnest of margins. Ironic, considering that like in canon, when he first appeared after landing in Earth, her uncertain behavior and her comments about what to do with him left him am impression that she didn’t like him. Thankfully, those feelings on Chris’ end were put to rest once she did take him in at first as a foster child and later fully adopted, showing she does love him.

Now for Jake, it’s really all too obvious and yes in the end of the day, you’d be correct my friend lol While Mar’i is a Daddy’s Girl, Jake is even by his own admission a Momma’s Boy. There’s irony here toon canonically as we seen in New Order, because of Kory making the reluctant choice to leave the Grayson household to reform the Titans as a resistance movement against Dick’s Crusaders, Jake by the time of the storyline had gotten rather cold to her, to the point of addressing her by her first name. Thankfully they all reconciled once superpowers were restored to the world thanks to Jake’s powers and Luthor’s scheme.

3. If they stick to their wheelhouse of films meant for their age range or at least something that doesn’t make Dick flip out, it’ll be Kubo and the Two Strings

As for films outside said wheelhouse and most likely the ones they sneak in….. it’ll be both Schindler’s List and The Green Mile. Either case, they’d remain relatively stunned into utter silence with haunted eyes before switching everything off. After a minute passes though….well remember that scene from Rick and Morty in the car after a harrowing time of their own? Picture that, just with Chris screaming “Fudge” instead but more or less generally the idea.

4. Chris mainly suffers from anxiety and C-PTSD as brought about due to Zod’s harsh treatment of him which while only for the first years of his life are nonetheless memorable for all the wrong reasons. He fears rejection from the Family he stays but more so being at fault for pain and misery he brings to others with his actions, that can result in said abandonment and rejection. He strives on being the best to protect others from suffering like how his Father Clark protect him from such, his heart crushed every time he fails to save someone close to him or otherwise.

Meanwhile, Jake aches in his heart for the losses his parents had to endure and the fear of his family and friends in turn suffering either an untimely end or a fate worse than that, and all Jake can do is watch helplessly to stop it. This drive to protect those he cares about and making sure they’re safe also extends to the citizens of the city he protects, the planet half of his heritage hails from and as of his time through middle school….Meredith, the crush of his life, though he’d just say the two of them are just good friends, Meredith similarly saying that. On top of that, he’s haunted by the sight of some street urchins and orphans, with grisly marks and slashes across their bodies, victims of Zsasz, victims he feels guilt y of failing to save no matter how much he knew about it beforehand or not.

Finally though, all these factors are wrapped up by the neat bow that is living up to the legacy of the Boy Wonder and what it stands for many. While his Uncle Tim(my) rightfully has the colors, Jake shares his vision to make sure whoever his partner, his friend, his ‘Batman’ ether it be his Father, his Best Friends or even Bruce himself on some occasions, don’t slip down into a dark bleak spiral that is their mindscapes, not if either Robin or in Jake’s case Skybird can help it.

After all, any crime fighter needs a partner, every ‘Batman’ needs a ‘Robin’, no matter what they think.

5. Oh Yes they will be a customized wrestling ring in the StarCave/Fortress of Fortitude as part of their training room. It has alternating black and blue ring ropes with solid dark purple turnbuckles, made of classic 15 x 15 ft long wood planks on top of a steel frame with a solid yet not too thick layer of foam covered by a cloth mat canvas, at the center of it being their logo. Jokingly, Chris once even suggested the idea of making Wrestling Championship belts for themselves and their friends though Jake notes that YJ already has some for their little wrestling ring back at their Mt Justice HQ. He might need to ask permission first if it’s okay with them to basically copy what they’re doing

6. Both Chris and Jake cringe and shield each other’s eyes almost every time Rikishi does a stink face. They get its charm and ability to whip up a crowd with excitement, it’s just nasty for them though.

#chris kent #jake grayson #starburst duo #dick grayson #koriand'r #clark kent #lois lane #tim drake #mention #ben 10 classic #pro wrestling #wwe #wcw #sfw

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Even Flowers Can Bloom In The Winter- Bleach- Byakuya, Aizen, Grimmjow and Ulquiorra x reader

Click for Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Renji's Reasoning

Whatever the case, he walked down the stairs to meet you, and walked you to your own room. Although every time he did so, you reminded him you could take care of yourself without him by your side, which he wanted to believe, but the will to keep you safe and well, burned too bright for him to stop himself.

He kept close to your side, taking the position closest to the walkway in case he needed to scare someone off and protect you. You never told him to stop necessarily, but tried to let him know you didn't feel threatened or scared when walking alone. You just liked the company of your stubborn friend.

"Am I really a good lieutenant, Renji? If I'm so skilled and good at my job, why did our captain not consider me capable?"

He felt his throat tighten at the question, not expecting such a somber topic.

"Of course you're a good lieutenant! What kind of question is that!? Honestly I think he's being such a fool, you're clearly stronger than I am, but his concerns are understandable. He just doesn't have good people skills, especially when he's worried."

You were absolutely perplexed at his answer, not believing for a second that Byakuya Kuchiki was worried about you.

"Did he say anything specific about his concerns? Because I'm sure he was more worried about his priceless reputation."

You hadn't meant to sound so callous, but it was your real opinion on your observations towards Byakuya. He was always so cold and indifferent, untouchable in the eyes of subordinates, even to you.

"While I wasn't in that meeting, I know from that conversation you walked in on. He really was concerned for your well-being despite his abrasiveness. He wants you to be as strong as you can without taking too many risks, especially with your zanpakuto."

Eventually you two had arrived at your doorway, preparing to say goodnight and hopefully end on a good note.

"I just got my hopes up, that's all, and I was disappointed when my own expectations weren't met. So it's really my fault in the first place, Renji."

Once again he flicked your forehead, stopping your words from taking their toll on either one of you.

"Quit being stupid, stupid. You aren't at fault here, not this time. Just focus on taking care of yourself, okay? If you don't, I might just have to bother you even more, and I don't think you want that."

He ruffled your hair, chuckling slightly as you fought off his barrage of attacks with your arms, smiles breaking through your lips at his silly actions.

"Yeah, you annoy me enough already, strawberry. Just try not to overthink my reactions, okay? I'm just surprised, that's all, I swear."

He pulled his hand away and stepped to give you space.

"I know, but I get worried about you sometimes and I want you to know I'm here for you, no matter what squad you're in."

Without any other reason except the fact you were appreciative of his consideration, you wrapped your arms around his waist, hoping that your message would get across.

His body tensed at first but relaxed into your hold as he reciprocated the action, giving a gentle squeeze with his arms.

"Thank you, Renji."

He rested his chin on your head, wanting nothing more than to ease you.

"Of course, don't mention it."

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Two Captains, One Girl

Byakuya Kuchiki was doing everything in his power to stay calm, even as anger flowed through his very being.

Not only had the Head Captain completely ignored his valid points of warning, but now Sosuke Aizen was ridiculing him in his own quarters.

"So not only do you want to make a fool of my opinions, but you deliberately come here, and continue to antagonize me? I've already selected your name, you know this, so why do you hold this over my head?"

While Aizen did hate pretending to be someone he wasn't, he loved it when his plans worked.

Luckily for him, Byakuya Kuchiki wasn't showing any forgiveness or regret, about his decision. How would you react if you found out these little details, he wondered.

"I'm trying to make you understand that you've already lost this battle. As far as you should be concerned, (Y/N) (L/N) is not your third seat, and you should realize that it's likely she will switch squads after the training is complete."

Byakuya could feel his temper shortening as the conversation continued, every sentence making his blood boil.

"You forget that after the training is complete, I still have to validate and observe the results, so does Yamamoto. And just because you think you can train her, doesn't mean you're her captain just yet."

This clash was destined to happen at one point or another, only becoming more tense with their rivaling personalities. While they both shared confidence, and frustration, it all came down to who was more persistent to meeting their own goals. If anyone had a goal to meet, it was Aizen, who was still plotting his way to the throne of Las Noches in Hueco Mundo.

"I never said I was her captain, but that may change in the next few weeks. Also, your validation of her results means nothing if Yamamoto, Soi Fon, and I share the same opinion."

That egotistical bastard had hit a nerve, well aware of Byakuya's concerns that went far past the concerns of a captain. Not only was that a weak point, but if he played his cards right, the sixth division captain would be both heartbroken and defeated when his true plans came alive.

"There are still weeks of training to go, so don't underestimate my abilities as her captain, quite yet. In fact you're just assuming she will click with your own zanpakuto, but you don't have any idea what it can do, or how she fights. If you don't get your desired results, I wouldn't be surprised, Captain Sosuke Aizen."

Oh how wrong Byakuya would be in a year's time, when Ichigo Kurosaki arrived in the Soul Society, but not yet.

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Soi Fon's Training and Information

"Damn, Renji for being right about Captain Soi Fon. I swear she's going to kill me at this rate!"

Currently you were running for your life from the stealth squad captain, who somehow convinced you that this would be a piece of cake. Unfortunately that was a total lie, and you were trying to use the forest's trees to hide your location.

"Found you again, (Y/N)! Don't get lazy on me!"

You dodged her hand as she reached for your wrist, evading to the best of your abilities.

This was arguably one of the toughest training lessons you had gone through, especially since it was against the rules to use your zanpakuto in any way for defense purposes. Instead of fighting directly, you needed to evade her while looking for a chance to catch her off guard. That was a core part of stealth, being hidden while attacking your opponent at their most vulnerable.

"It's not my fault you're faster than I am, I was never trained in stealth! You can't expect a rookie to beat a captain!"

Another dodge, this time you were forced to Flash-Step to another tree, running out of ground to cover. In seconds you felt a hand around your throat, pressing you against the tree trunk.

"If this were a real battle, you would be dead Lieutenant (L/N)."

You focused on the space behind her, imagining ice taking shape, crafting an identical clone from thin air. Soi Fon felt a copy of your zanpakuto pressed to the back of her neck, prompting her to release you.

"Sorry captain, but you didn't say anything about my clones attacking you. So I guess in this case, you'd be the loser, right?"

The clone melted into a puddle as you commanded your zanpakuto, Soi Fon watching intently.

"We'll call that lesson a tie, but don't forget about what I said. On the battlefield, your life is always at risk whether you think so or not. Those ice clones can only do so much, and your stamina isn't indefinite."

For all of the differences that made the captains their own people, they all shared the same unbridled wit and lessons.

"(Y/N), can I ask you something about your zanpakuto?"

You had both sat down on the forest ground, enjoying the end of training and getting the chance to relax. A hum of approval emanated from your lips, waiting.

"You once said that if your life was in danger, you could switch consciousness with one of your clones. How does it work exactly?"

You looked at your sheathed blade that lay in the grass, wondering what your zanpakuto spirit would think if she heard you talk about this.

"The spirit of my zanpakuto and my own spirit are connected, just like everyone in the soul society. She can use her power to switch my soul into a clone, or switch her soul into me. The consequences are all because of how connected we are, her power is always with me, even if we get separated."

Soi Fon glanced towards you, amazed at how you could understand your zanpakuto so well, realizing that it would take more than just will power to limit the consequences of (Zanpakuto's Name)'s power.

"I wouldn't worry about the training, lieutenant, just try to stay in touch with how much energy you deplete over this course of time. Byakuya doesn't have a great sense when it comes to emotions, and his reasoning may seem flawed, but he didn't mean to hurt you."

She sent you a soft smile, an unusual facial expression on the captain, so you sent one back.

"Guys are overrated, but we still give them chances, yeah?"

She laughed at your remark, unable to remain stoic at that point in time.

"Oh you have no idea how stupid they really are, especially when it comes to Shunsui, who probably wants you on his squad just so he can have another beautiful woman near him, but that might apply to two other captains as well- uh nevermind."

Your interest peaked at her comment, shocked at the implications attached to the mystery captains she had mentioned.

"Wait, which captain said that? Besides Kyoraku of course, you mentioned two others?"

As great a captain as she was, Soi Fon could not keep her mouth shut when it came to shedding light on the foolish superiors of the Gotei Thirteen.

"Okay they didn't say anything necessarily, but there are two captains and several lieutenants who have an eye on you. I don't think you'll be surprised by the Lieutenants, as they are your peers, and close friends."

She let out a sigh before continuing on with the information.

"Captain Kuchiki and Captain Aizen have been rather…tense when it comes to your training schedules. Byakuya wants you to train with Toshiro, and Aizen wants to improve your overall abilities, but guys are notorious for saying bullshit when they have their eyes on a woman like you. If you want more information you might have to play around and find it right from the source. Luckily for you, both of these fools are in your vicinity every day."

Your heart practically went into cardiac arrest as she revealed the identities of your admirers. She noticed the look of awe in your eyes, trying to create a mental picture so she could rub it in your face later.

Aizen's Training and Confession

Okay, that was it, hell had finally descended upon you in the form of Rangiku, Yumichika, and Renji getting a perfect view of your training sessions with the fifth division captain.

They had claimed to be training, but that was such an obvious lie when Rangiku sent you a wink after you were knocked on your ass, not even hiding her enjoyment.

"You keep getting distracted, (Y/N), stay focused on me."

You wished you could, but any time your eyes met you would remember Soi Fon's information and turn into a puddle, which wouldn't be terrible except for the awkward tension.

"Woo! You can do it, girlfriend! Ruin that man!"

Yumichika was on your revenge list.

"Don't let his good looks distract you! He may be pretty, but that won't save your life!"

And Rangiku, because this was all her fault to begin with.

Luckily Renji was the only sane person who looked at the other two with mild confusion.

"I'm going to ask them to leave before you have to hear the rest of this craziness."

He chuckled at that but motioned for your release, watching as you stomped off towards the trio in a fit of pure embarrassment.

"I wonder…." He thought as he discarded the pair of glasses for the millionth time, waiting to see just how much of an impact he did have on your state of mind.

"You two need to get the hell out of here before you completely ruin my reputation as a lieutenant! And Renji, please help me here! Because I can't make a fool of myself right now!"

Rangiku was about to fire back at you but her jaw fell open at the scene a few feet away.

"Don't look now, but I think you're going to lose this fight, (Y/N)."

"Do you really have to be so irritating? You guys are the only thing distracting -"

You stopped talking once you saw the same image as a couple weeks ago, unable to form a polite response as you locked eyes once again, no longer bothering to hide your surprise.

"We don't have all day, (Y/N)! Hurry back here!"

His voice carried so easily across the field, making it seem as though he was right next to you. Right before you ran back, you looked over at the three shinigami.

"Do. Not. Say. A. Word. Do you understand?"

They nodded all at once, waiting with baited breath for you to leave so they could talk. Once you were out of earshot they began.

"If she doesn't make a move, I'll kill her myself." Rangiku stated as she watched your movements.

Once you were absolutely sure that the captain was out of earshot and you were safe from ridicule, you drew your zanpakuto.

"They finally shut up so we can begin again, Captain Aizen."

But he didn't give you room to think, appearing behind you in the blink of an eye. You raised your zanpakuto at the correct time as you twisted, blocking his Shikai barely.

"Your timing is excellent but you still need to fix your footing and don't get too comfortable with a sword position."

Another Flash-Step, another dodge by the skin of your teeth. For someone with such a powerful spiritual pressure, he was almost invisible to you, hiding from your senses.

Although it wasn't until you felt his hand on the back of your shoulder that you even registered his presence, let alone his movements.

"Fix your footing (Y/N), you want to be able to sidestep any attack that comes your way. While Byakuya taught you well with the Flash-Step and Kido, your overall moves are hesitant."

You were trying your best to focus on the lesson but the feeling of his palm brushing against your shoulder blade made you tense. Could he feel your muscles twitch at the very idea of physical contact? Did he know your breath was no longer even? Or how hard you were resisting the urge to turn around and face him?

If he could tell, he didn't say anything, instead placing his hands over your own, wrapping them around the hilt of the blade. His arms were now around you, guiding your motions until they became much more fluid.

He released his hold on your hands, stepping away to observe your stance from a distance.

"Keep practicing until you understand every movement and it becomes natural. Then tomorrow I expect a decent fight, (Y/N)."

He leaned forward to catch your gaze, hoping you got the message as he whispered,"Is my appearance so distracting to you? If so, then count me flattered, because I thought you were the pretty one."

Okay maybe Soi Fon wasn't joking about lingering eyes following you around the Soul Society, but still, this was like a dream, a really good dream that happened to be real.

"What the hell is happening over there!?" Renji asked as he could barely make out the two figures in the distance.

"Easy, he's totally hitting on her. Do you see that stance? Plus he just happened to change his appearance at the drop of a hat? No, he's definitely making moves!" Rangiku declared.

"No (Y/N) is totally playing hard to get, like a badass, and she's reeling him into her trap!" Yumichika countered.

Renji had no idea how he got invested in this group drama, but was unable to pull himself up and away from the chaos. Yet seeing you laugh, or smile like that made him wonder if you got the opportunity, would you change squads? Would you change squads just to vy for attention? Or would it be payback for Byakuya's lack thereof?

Whatever the case, he didn't want to see one of his closest friends get moved, all based on some training that lasted less than a month.

Was he being selfish for wanting you to stay with him? Or was he just being protective? Would you genuinely be happy somewhere else, with other people?

That certainly wouldn't be his decision, nor Byakuya's, or anyone else's. If you were happy, he'd be there for you, but if not, he, Rangiku and Yumichika would do anything to keep you content.

"Hey, they're looking over here, y'know? I can't even imagine what they're talking about…."

You would have glared at the trio once more, but the sensation of your chin being tilted upward, fogged your peripheral vision, making you focus on only him. That and possibly his use of Kyoka Suigetsu's power, but it was unclear.

"Are you always this speechless when you get compliments, or is it just when it's from me?"

You had forgotten about your group of friends entirely, transfixed on the firm grip of his hand and those brown eyes following your every move. Maybe your ice clone from that night wasn't so far off, or maybe it was dumb luck. Either way your hand eclipsed his own, smaller but still able to give him chills if he thought about it too much.

"You're asking me to stay focused, but it's quite a challenge when you look…like a dream. Sometimes I think you do this to spite me, Sosuke Aizen."

Even he could no longer tell if you were under a trance, or speaking from your mind, but wherever it came from, it hit his ego in all the right places.

"I wouldn't say I do it out of spite, more like I want to see your reactions, because they're so beautiful."

Unfortunately for you the moment was interrupted by your three friends yelling at the top of their lungs.

"Kiss him or ditch him, sweetheart!"

"Would you quit that Rangiku!?" Renji shouted towards the redhead, but it was no use as Yumichika joined in.

You couldn't help the reaction of rolling your eyes, clearly used to these ridiculous people.

"I'm afraid this moment didn't go as swiftly as it should have, sorry to disappoint you -"

Yet your sentence meant little in the grand scheme of things, air being lost as you were pulled into a greedy kiss, causing you to grip his shoulders. You closed your eyes, doing everything to be ensnared in the moment.

Maybe the moment wasn't ruined as you leaned in, hoping that this escapade would not cause any further problems within the Soul Society quarters.

The rules were always going out the window no matter what you did or didn't do, so indulging in this one forbidden thing, couldn't end up so badly, right? Rules are made to be broken, just as a punishment should fit a crime, or every action having an equal and opposite reaction.

"Now I really am speechless this time, but I think you knew that."

He began to walk with you towards the barracks, occasionally looking over his shoulder at your snickering friends, slight pride forming at the results. In no time at all, this would have to reach Byakuya Kuchiki, and he couldn't wait to see the look on his face when he found out his lieutenant, his sweet and charismatic lieutenant, had fallen for the neighboring captain.

"So I assume there was some gesturing in your recommendation now that I know I'm not the only one with an interest in my coworker."

Okay maybe his planning to ruin the soul society would be put on a slight hold, but just so he could be ready to leave in a year's time, trying to gain a more prominent position within the public's eye.

"Depends how you look at it, (Y/N). I don't want you to think I was just trying to get your attention, because I genuinely did want you to gain more experience than you have now. Plus being paired with you, would be a much nicer perk, don't you agree?"

You hummed along with his words, noticing that you felt unsure of how to walk next to him after everything that transpired moments ago.

"I know word spreads fast in our workplace, but let's keep this quiet for now, until the tension between Captain Kuchiki settles down. I don't need another reason to be on his bad side and I don't want Renji to be caught up in any drama. Causing trouble isn't my motivation if you're wondering, Aizen."

So it would still take work to get you to budge from your mind set's positioning? That wasn't a problem, in fact he had been expecting it, waiting for it, all so he could watch your resolve crumble and begin anew.

"Your secret's safe with me, don't worry."

A wave of silence crashed into your conversation, making an uneasy ball twist in your stomach.

"Can I ask you something that's been bothering me for a while? It's silly but I'd rather have an answer."

He directed his attention towards your figure, once again waiting in silence.

"The glasses you wear, you don't need them do you? And if you don't need them, why wear them?"

He was also expecting this question, but could never find that believable of an answer that wouldn't sound suspicious.

"I guess you could say I thought they looked alright on me? But judging from your reaction, they probably look ridiculous anyway."

"No, that's not what I meant at all! They do look good on you but I think it would be easier to fight had you not kept them. Plus they must give you headaches."

Perceptive as always, he had to give you that, astounded at your concern for such a miniscule detail.

"I guess I possess quite a lot of vanity, and the headaches don't bother me too much anymore. In fact it's a little odd to not be wearing them right now. Strange, isn't it? Bad habits with no benefit and yet we still have them."

You quirked a brow, not thinking of him as a vain person. Gently you reached a hand and grabbed the glasses, surprising him when he wasn't looking.

With as much precision as you could muster, you pushed the lenses out of the rims, and carefully created thin plates of ice to mimic glass, hoping they wouldn't fog too much.

"Here you go, no more headaches for you and you can be as vain as you want, granted it isn't too negative. Oh, yeah they might be a bit cold but I hope they work out better."

He examined your handy work, rotating the glasses every which way to check the angles. Slowly he slipped them on and turned towards you.

"Do they look real enough for you? And they are clear enough."

You gave him a thumbs up, reaching a hand hesitantly to undo his hairstyle and return it to the wavy curls it was usually in.

"Well then I guess being paired with me has its perks too? If anything changes with the glasses or they melt, which shouldn't happen anyway, let me know-"

You stopped walking by his side, instead reaching outward for his arm, and thankfully landing against him before the ground could come close. Of course he didn't waste time grabbing onto you, feeling your weight against his chest.

Your heart was beating and your breathing had been even, but it was easy to see you had strained yourself with that parlor trick.

"(Y/N)? Hey, I've got you, let's get you back to the Seireitei, okay?"

If this had been anyone else his reaction timing might have been slower, or he wouldn't be using the Flash-Step to reach the building structures as quickly as possible. Damning Byakuya Kuchiki for being right about this.

"Shit- I didn't think I pushed that hard. I felt fine, but it was like I couldn't think in that instance."

Even through his several layers of robes and garments, he could feel the aching cold, but he kept his arms around you, trying to keep you warm.

"I should have seen this coming, so don't apologize, not for this."

He dodged several buildings and passerbys, but chose to focus on getting you to the infirmary.

He'd heard about past instances where you developed a similar condition, but had been too trusting of your words, and his disgust towards Byakuya.

Upon his abrupt arrival he noticed Captain Unohana, who sensed his spiritual pressure immediately, her eyes glancing down in worry at your weakened state.

She placed a palm on your forehead, but pulled back quickly as she was met with the biting cold that nipped at her fingers.

"Get her inside now, you need to keep her body temperature warm, use blankets, Kido, anything really but keep her body warm. I'll be back soon."

And with that message the captain known for her healing techniques and restoratives had gone to let Captain Kuchiki, Yamamoto, Kurotsuchi, Komamura, and Hitsugaya know of your ailments. Even though he knew a good amount of Kido, all the techniques had slipped from his mind, his concern was watching you for any other symptoms.

It seemed Unohana's message had spread quickly, each requested captain appearing instantaneously, a somber look upon their features.

"Hitsugaya see if you can remove and ease the ice, Kurotsuchi the medication, Komamura, Aizen, the bedding and Yamamoto use a Kido spell. I'll work on calming down her spirit energy."

Byakuya stood silent in the room, waiting desperately for a command to be spoken, but soon realized his main purpose was to watch your condition, to remember your symptoms, your weaknesses, remember the vulnerability you suffered at the extensive use of your zanpakuto.

"Captain Aizen, when you were training today, did she exhibit any symptoms? Chills? Numbness? Weakness in limbs? Emotional fluctuation? Reduced Speed? Visible breath? We need to know what to look for, sir."

As he looked downward at your frail body, your eyes followed his own. Blinking quickly and raised eyebrows, your hand reaching outward for a moment, barely able to lift it a couple inches from the mattress.

Even with the risk he was putting towards himself, towards sickness and severe frostbite, he clasped your hand below his own, fingers intertwining as best as possible on the back of your hand. His touch was warm, easing the anxiety flowing through your veins.

"She had no symptoms, no telltale signs of her zanpakuto acting up. In fact, her only problem seemed to be hesitation, as though she were afraid to draw her blade against me, even in training. Besides that, she surprised me with her speed and talent. If I didn't know any better I'd think she was a captain in training."

Everyone within the room stiffened after he spoke, unsure if they could help in time, but desperate to tend to your ailment.

At last, some symptoms began to disappear, the ice crystals started to melt away, your lips were no longer blue, and the tremor in your hand had stopped. Now all that was left was to check on your condition for the next few days, no work, no training, and definitely no zanpakuto in your vicinity until you had a full recovery and check up.

The thing that really surprised you though was the amount of visits from different captains and peers.

Unohana, Byakuya, Aizen, Renji, Rukia, Rangiku, and Yumichika were the regular visitors. At any given moment they could show up talking about their days, the gossip, the hollows, the paperwork, and everything in between.

Currently you were fighting off a cuddle attack from Yachiru, who would make Kenpachi take her to see you, and would occasionally be under your watch.

She was bouncing around on your stomach, energetic as always, talking about how "Kenny is going on a big mission today and can't watch me!"

So like he usually did, he left her in your care, not trusting the other shinigami to amuse her like you did.

"Yeah but aren't you a little young to be fighting?"

You raised your palms up in self-defense as she sent tiny punches your way, but was stopped by Renji, who picked her up and placed her in the hallway.

Renji's Confrontation

"You need to take it easy, (Y/N), I'm serious. I know you hate to do it, but you have to rest up if you want to get back to work."

You merely glared at him, having heard a variety of this conversation at least a dozen times.

"Well I can't exactly sit still all day, so she visits and I indulge her. Renji, if she actually had the capabilities to hurt me, I wouldn't put up with it. I feel fine."

"You always feel fine, then something happens, and we all freak out and make you agree to a bunch of bullshit that you don't follow anyway. So yes I want you to rest, and that means no play fighting the rat child."

You chuckled at that nickname for the pink haired girl, seeing a resemblance already. Even though you were better, coughs soon erupted from your chest, deep and painful.

Renji guided you to lay back down, to which you surrendered, too weak to protest.

"Does Captain Kuchiki -"

"No, he still doesn't know about it, so quit bringing it up. If you don't want it out in the open, quit talking with Rangiku. She's practically bursting at the seams while keeping it a secret. Now would you stop using energy? And stop smiling, this isn't a good thing!"

You only groan in response, wishing your body would let you sleep instead of this constant state of weakness, this unrelenting pause of your life.

"Any time I annoy you is a good thing, especially if it means you show up here. Unohana is nice but I can't take any more lectures and I can't look at Captain Kuchiki. The least you could do is stop nagging me."

He stayed quiet, trying to come up with a way to explain his reasoning for finding Captain Kuchiki at Unohana's request. How could he not tell his Captain you had pushed your limits, that you needed medical support immediately? Was he supposed to act like nothing happened? Like you weren't unable to stand or talk or do anything a few days ago?

"If you're taking vengeance on Captain Kuchiki, you should reconsider. He's still your captain, and he was trying to put your health first. Can't you forgive him for not writing your name down on one measly piece of paper?"

Renji was frustrated with your reasoning, unable to go along with your train of thought.

"It's not just about the paper, Renji, it's the fact that I didn't even pass his mind when he was writing the damn thing. I wasn't good enough for his recommendation and I'm his third seat! Doesn't that give me the right to be angry?"

"No, not when his argument was right all along, you cannot control your zanpakuto! (Y/N), it nearly killed you! And all you can do is think of ways to get back at someone who cares about you! Are you so self involved that you can't see it!"

You had pushed him back, using both your arms and upper body strength to get him away from your bedside.

"You wouldn't understand, would you? You're his second seat, his favorite next to Rukia, and I'm just a liability to the whole Seireitei! Then you all expect me to be fine with the choices I can't make for myself! "

He took a step forward, planning to continue, but his eyes widened at the sight of your hand wrapped around the hilt of your zanpakuto, good as new, not a scratch on the blade.

He'd never been on the receiving end of your sword, never considering its ability a threat to anyone but you. Yet he couldn't help but feel dread coil in his chest, your eyes full of rage and desperation, deep breaths passing between the seconds.

"Just get out of here, Renji, please. I don't want to continue this conversation."

This look of desperation was new to him, reminding him of a cornered animal, ready to snap at any moment. Yet you were as focused as he'd ever seen you, not even uttering a summoning phrase to call upon your zanpakuto.

In fact your body didn't seem so fragile anymore, the desire to protect your pride forming enough spiritual pressure to make him stand still in awe. If anyone else even passed by the hall, they could catch the sight of a gray mist scattered throughout the air.

He could feel something cold falling on his nose, looking upwards to see tiny snowflakes floating in the space.

"(Y/N), you need to calm down before you freeze up again."

He reached a hand towards your zanpakuto, trying to predict your movements.

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