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all the ppl saying they’re moving to instagram after the tiktok ban like fuckerberg didn’t use his bajillion dollars to lobby for the ban … oh okay.
#ur doing exactly what he wants soooooo#it kills me inside fr but i’m being so very chill about it#i need to commit homicide
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in the kind of mood that can only be mitigated by substance abuse or being put down for a nap like a cranky toddler
#i need you to picture me scrolling through the dash reblogging posts with this -> 😡 look on my face#i'm either gonna commit first degree homicide or throw a tantrum i haven't decided yet
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why is registering for courses the worst thing in the entire fucking world
#it won’t let me drop the course i don’t need anymore so i can add the courses i DO need#actually going to commit homicide#txt
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I think one of the biggest things that make me homicidal is when my mother walks away and shuts the door while I'm talking.
#vent in the tags#it's cold in the entire apartment. i turn up the heat in the livingroom at the very least#since i don't have control over the thermostat in her room that affects my room too#she calls on me to ask if i turned it up and i said yeah and she said to stop doing that and keep it at a lower temperature.#i said i feel cold in the entire apartment.#she said put some clothes on.#i have a shirt and shorts on. yknow. normal fucking clothes to have on.#she continues and said she gets it if it's cold in my room because of the thermostat in her room#but i don't need to raise the temperature for the rest of the apartment.#i say I'm cold in the room and I'm cold in the rest of the apartment. can we agree on a temperature that isn't cold everywhere?#but before i could even finish saying that she already shuts her door.#I can't stress enough it's taking everything in me to not commit a murder. because i Fucking hate when she does that shit.#it's taking everything in me to not start talking to her with a sharp edge in my voice#because heaven knows i want to cuss her out for that so fucking bad#now that her mother's back home overseas she's going to expect me to cook and keep up w more chores#and it's Actually making me homicidal to think about the snide and dismissive way she's going to talk to me#if I don't do something just as how she likes it#homicidal ideation#homicide tw
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#I'm mad I'm mad I'm mad I'm mad I'm fucking mad#i need to commit arson. or maybe one or two homicides
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⌖ Alright, here's the REAL reason I was a SERIAL KILLER in life!
⌖ ✨ I wanted to make good use of my tax dollars! ✨
⌖ Police departments do NOTHING aside from PAPERWORK and TERRORIZING MINORITIES! They act like OVER-FUNDED OCCUPYING MILITARY FORCES and they operate in the INTEREST OF CAPITAL! PROTECT & SERVE THESE NUTS
⌖ So I gave them some WORK to do! A reason to PUT THE DONUTS DOWN! Go on, brothers, rub those TWO BRAIN CELLS together and solve some HOMICIDES! That's what the police OUGHT to be doing!
⌖ They didn't figure it out until I DIED, AND they didn't even INVESTIGATE my murder, either -- USELESS! WASTE OF MY DANG TAX MONEY!
#⌖ online#// need someone who commits a homicide to be like 'I did it to get the most of my tax dollars. I pay into the police budget don't I?'
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imagine getting home at almost 1am ON A FRIDAY bc uve been out STUDYING and still fail
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it's amazing how much I thought things were alright about 10 years ago, and then I got better... before years later, and we're further down than before and we didn't think shit would get this bad
god, I actually miss the past so much because I could absolutely never imagine anything as terrible as this. I never thought my trauma symptoms and mental illness would be this bad and I can't get myself to physically do many things. I can't get that happiness, trust and those friends back
how the fuck am I doing this?? stupid shit going on in my head, unable to imagine a world before all of this bullshit and I just want to fucking die. I thought this would all be fucking over and it keeps getting ripped away from me over and over again!!!
#vent#rant#personal#mental illness#trauma#how the fuck do you resurrect those past feelings???#everything just fucking disappoints me#i need a fucking miracle#like SOMETHING#PLEASE#JUST ANYTHING#GIVE ME FUCKING HOPE FOR HUMANITY PLEASE#i wanna commit so much homicide i'm so fucking pissed off and devastated
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Trash Novel Chronicles: Gaslight, Gatekeep, Get Married || Deuce Spade
You get isekai’d into a garbage novel as the villain, so you take it as a sign that morality is optional now. So, you do what any reasonable person would: you set the world on fire (metaphorically… mostly) and somehow bag your knight, Deuce Spade in the process.
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You sat in absolute silence. Reeling. Processing. Dissociating. The book lay in your lap like the aftermath of a terrible crime, and you were its sole witness.
This was it. This was the literary phenomenon your friends had been screaming about. The novel they had sworn up and down was “life-changing,” “revolutionary,” and “the best thing since sliced bread.”
They had lied.
You had just spent the last twelve hours raw-dogging the most deranged piece of fiction known to mankind.
Your soul had been ripped from your body. Your IQ points had been forcefully extracted like an amateur lobotomy. You were but a husk of your former self.
A single thought floated through your shattered psyche:
I will never know peace again.
With shaking hands, you closed the book. The sound was deafening. A death knell for your last two remaining brain cells.
And then, like a corpse freshly risen from the grave, you stood.
This could not go unanswered. This could not go unpunished.
Your friends would explain themselves.
You stomped through the dark streets like a vengeful ghost, guided by pure, unfiltered spite. It was 1 AM. Civilization had long since gone to sleep. You didn’t care.
Your mind replayed the sheer buffoonery you had just endured.
The heroine: an overpowered dumbass with the survival instincts of a chicken nugget. She was supposed to be a Saintess, and yet she spent 80% of the book actively making things worse. Entire villages burned because of her holy powers, and she had the audacity to be shocked every time it happened.
"Oh noooo, I accidentally summoned divine lightning again!"
AGAIN. AGAIN.
Then there was the Crown Prince, the supposed male lead. A menace. A plague upon this world. He was in love with the villain but too emotionally constipated to deal with it, so instead, he had chosen the path of delusion. This man pursued the heroine not out of love, but out of sheer desperation
"If I can’t be happy, then no one can."
That was his entire character arc.
And let’s not forget the second male lead. The butler. The SPY. He was somehow working for both the villain and the heroine at the same time while also being madly in love with the heroine for reasons that science could not explain. This man switched allegiances like he was flipping through TV channels. You were convinced he woke up every morning and rolled a die to decide whose side he was on that day.
And then. The villain.
Your one hope. Your one saving grace.
A man who started the book as a calculating mastermind and ended it as a broken shell of a human being. You did not blame him. You were right there with him.
By the final chapter, he had stopped trying to kill the heroine. He had stopped plotting world domination. He had stopped everything.
He just sat there, staring into the abyss, wondering how his life had gone so, so wrong.
And honestly? Mood.
You reached your friend’s house.
You did not knock. No. That was for reasonable, rational people. You grabbed a rock from their garden and hurled it at their window with the force of a person unhinged.
A light flicked on. Your friend’s groggy, half-conscious face appeared.
“Holy shit, what the hell—”
“EXPLAIN YOURSELF.”
You pointed an accusatory finger at them, your eyes wild, your soul fractured beyond repair.
“Explain WHAT?” They blinked, rubbing their eyes.
“The book.” Your voice was hollow. “The—thing—you made me read.”
Their face lit up. “OH MY GOD, YOU FINISHED IT?? WASN’T IT AMAZING??”
You had never before in your life wanted to commit a homicide.
You took a deep breath. A slow, shuddering inhale.
Then, in the most broken, haunted voice imaginable, you whispered:
“…I need you to pay for my therapy.”
You stomped down the street, vibrating with pure, unfiltered rage. That book—that war crime bound in paper—had single-handedly destroyed your brain cells, faith in storytelling, and will to live. You couldn’t let your other friend get away with this. No, you were going to kick down their door too and demand compensation for the IQ points you lost.
Unfortunately, fate had other plans.
Just as you turned the corner, a man—no, a menace to society—came hurtling toward you at ungodly speeds.
On a unicycle.
Juggling three live pigeons and a tray of scalding hot coffees.
His face was locked in an expression of sheer, manic concentration, like a circus performer who had just realized—mid-act—that he had made a terrible career choice.
You had exactly 0.2 seconds to process this before he crashed into you at full force.
The pigeons exploded into the sky, shrieking like war victims.
The coffee—boiling, lava-hot coffee—doused you from head to toe, scalding your skin and soul simultaneously.
And the unicycle? Oh. The unicycle was the true villain here.
Because as you staggered back, reeling from the assault on your dignity, the wheel rolled perfectly under your foot.
And then—
You flipped.
Like a medieval peasant being yeeted off a catapult.
You did a full midair somersault, knocked over a trash can, ricocheted off a parked bicycle, and crashed directly through the window of a sketchy pawn shop, where you landed face-first into a display of cursed porcelain dolls.
Your last conscious thought before darkness took you?
This is less painful than reading that book.
At first, you thought it was a dream.
Someone was shaking you. Like, aggressively. Like a demonic chihuahua trying to alert its owner to impending doom.
"Five more minutes," you groaned, swatting at the offending hands.
But then your barely-functioning brain remembered something very important.
You lived alone.
Unless the dust bunnies under your bed had finally formed a rebellion and achieved sentience, nobody should be waking you up.
Your eyes snapped open.
A person.
A man, actually. A very serious-looking man in full medieval armor, staring at you like he was expecting you to start speaking in tongues.
You blinked.
He blinked back.
Your first thought: Wow, the Ren Faire is getting really immersive these days.
Your second thought: WAIT A GODDAMN MINUTE.
Your hands flew to your face—your very much not-your-face face. Your voice, when you gasped, wasn’t your voice. The tailored nobleman’s coat draped over your body? Not your clothes. The ornate bedroom you were in? Definitely not your apartment, where your furniture was 70% discount IKEA and 30% “found on the sidewalk.”
Dread settled in your stomach like a badly microwaved burrito.
Slowly, with the growing horror of a person realizing they've walked into a live horror movie, you turned toward the giant antique mirror across the room.
And fuck your life, you recognized the face staring back at you.
It was him.
The villain.
The villain from that absolute garbage fire of a novel.
You whipped around so fast you almost took yourself out on your own cape.
"You," you pointed at the knight, brain desperately catching up to reality. "What happened?!"
The knight—Deuce Spade, if you remembered correctly—winced.
"Uh," he started, rubbing the back of his neck, "the Crown Prince tried to lean on your shoulder, but, uh… tripped and accidentally drop-kicked you across the ballroom."
Silence.
Absolute, dead silence.
Your eye twitched.
"…What."
You almost died because some love-obsessed dumbass with main character syndrome missed your shoulder???
Your soul nearly left your body, and it wasn’t even because of an assassination attempt, a duel, or a curse—but because the male lead had the motor coordination of a newborn giraffe?!
Your knees buckled. Deuce lunged forward like he thought you were about to die again.
Honestly? Not off the table.
Fine.
Fine.
If the world wanted you to be the villain, then so be it. Who were you to deny fate when it had already drop-kicked you into this absurd, brain-cell-destroying mess of a novel?
Because that was the only way to describe your new reality—an unhinged disasterpiece where the male lead had the grace of a giraffe on roller skates, the heroine had the problem-solving skills of a concussed pigeon, and the villain—you—was doomed to suffer through all of it.
At first, you'd been horrified. Who wouldn't be? One moment, you're in your normal, rational world, and the next, you're waking up as the antagonistic nobleman of a bargain-bin romance novel. The kind of villain who existed solely to sneer in the background while the male lead juggled his misplaced affections and the heroine flailed through life like a lost duckling.
And now?
Now, you were done.
If this world wanted a villain, then you would give them a villain.
You had wealth. Enough to singlehandedly disrupt the economy if you felt like it. And honestly? You were tempted. Imagine the chaos. The sheer financial devastation. Maybe you’d buy every bakery in the capital just to make sure the male lead could never have a romantic “we bumped into each other while buying bread” moment with you. Not on your watch.
You had power. Both in social standing and in actual, real-life magic. The kind that could level mountains, summon storms, or—more importantly—discreetly trip the male lead every time he tried to monologue. And who were you, really, if you didn’t abuse that privilege just a little?
And, most importantly, you had a loyal knight.
Deuce Spade. Unreasonably devoted, painfully adorable, and more earnest than a golden retriever at a job interview. The kind of guy who would probably cry if you gave him a gold star for effort. It was almost enough to make you feel bad about your impending villain arc. Almost. But hey, if you were going to be the villain, at least you had one (1) extremely dedicated dumbass on your side.
So.
Why not cause some chaos?
Why not live your best, most dramatic villain life?
You could weaponize rumors so ridiculous that even the nobility wouldn’t know what to believe anymore. “Oh, the male lead? I heard he serenades his pet goldfish every night.” “The heroine? Trained in mortal combat by a secret society of warrior nuns.” “Me? Oh, I eat diamonds for breakfast and only cry during perfectly aesthetic thunderstorms.”
You could throw lavish, over-the-top parties where instead of dancing, people had to duel for your amusement. Invitation only. Dress code: Regal Menace.
You could buy every single black horse in the kingdom just to ensure that only you could have a proper dramatic villain entrance. What would the male lead ride? A mule? A cow? His own sense of self-importance? You’d pay money to see it.
If you were going to be stuck in this nonsense world, then you were going to make sure it regretted ever summoning you.
The original villain was a man of principles.
And those principles included:
• Never lowering himself to the chaotic cesspool of idiocy that was the crown prince and his tragically uncoordinated heroine.
• Never attending frivolous social gatherings, especially ones that involved said heroine falling into desserts face-first every five minutes.
• Never acknowledging the crown prince’s deeply repressed and painfully obvious feelings for him.
But you? Oh, you were going.
Why decline when you could make things so much worse? Why ignore a golden opportunity for chaos when you could embrace your inner agent of destruction and ruin someone’s day?
So, with Deuce Spade in tow, you marched into battle.
And the game began immediately.
The second you sat down, the crown prince shoved a cup of tea toward you.
You blinked at it. Then at him.
He looked too casual. Too composed. Like he hadn’t been hovering near the tea table for the last five minutes, perfecting a custom blend like a barista going for his final promotion.
Oh, this was rich.
“Oh,” you said, already locked and loaded. “I don’t like tea.”
The prince, who had definitely memorized your preferences in secret, froze.
“Give it to the heroine,” you added, voice laced with malicious delight.
There was a moment of pure, unfiltered suffering.
He recoiled. He made a noise. The tea remained exactly where it was.
And then, after one (1) full-body existential crisis, he stood up, walked away—
And returned.
With coffee.
Which was exactly how you liked it.
“Oh,” you said, even sweeter. “You really didn’t have to.”
“I didn’t,” the prince snapped, gripping the cup with white-knuckled desperation. “I was just—there was extra.”
Sure.
Deuce, the most bafflingly wholesome person present, leaned in conspiratorially.
“You know,” he whispered, “I think he likes you.”
You turned and stared at him.
It was a look that said: Deuce. Buddy. Companion. Do you have even a single brain cell dedicated to social awareness?
“You don’t say,” you muttered, astounded.
“Yeah,” Deuce nodded. “You should put him out of his misery.”
You considered it.
You truly, deeply, wholeheartedly considered it.
And then you did the exact opposite.
With all the deliberate grace of a seasoned actor, you picked up a fork, cut a tiny, delicate piece of cake, and hand-fed it to Deuce.
With the most lovesick expression you could summon.
Deuce, completely missing the emotional warfare in progress, chewed thoughtfully. “Oh, it’s good.”
The crown prince dropped his cup.
The sound was deafening.
He stood up so fast his chair screeched.
And then he stormed away like a scorned Victorian widow.
Checkmate.
The night was young, the chandeliers were gleaming, and the ballroom floor was filled with nobles pretending they liked each other. The air was thick with the scent of expensive perfume, political marriages, and deep-seated dissatisfaction.
And you? You were bored.
So, naturally, you decided to ruin some engagements.
You adjusted your cuffs, took a sip of your (hopefully not poisoned) champagne, and set your sights on your first target.
Victim #1: Some Poor Fool with a Fiancée and No Survival Instincts.
He was standing beside his beloved, smiling like a man who had never known fear. So you approached him, flashing your most dazzling smile.
“You know,” you said, leaning in just a bit too close, “I always thought you’d end up with someone a little… taller.”
His fiancée, standing right there, gasped.
The surrounding nobles gasped.
He gulped. “W-What?”
You tilted your head, studying him with faux admiration. “It’s just—you have the posture of a man who could sweep someone off their feet. It’s tragic that you’ll only ever lift one person.”
His fiancée immediately looked down at her shoes like she’d just realized she was, in fact, shorter than him.
Engagement status: Cracking.
Victim #2: A Woman Who Was Already Looking for a Way Out.
She was sipping champagne and ignoring her fiancé, which meant she was exactly the kind of person who would enjoy a little trouble.
“Lady,” you greeted smoothly, plucking the glass from her fingers and taking a sip. “You have the eyes of a woman who’s tired of monogamy.”
Her fiancé, standing beside her, choked on his drink.
She laughed.
“You’re terrible,” she purred.
Her fiancé, pale, tried to recover. “H-Haha, what a joke—”
“It’s a shame,” you interrupted, brushing a nonexistent speck off her sleeve. “If things were different, perhaps I’d be the one at your side.”
Her fiancé turned a frightening shade of red.
She sighed dreamily.
Engagement status: Shattered.
Victim #3: A Man Who Looked Too Loyal to Be Swayed.
He stood with his hand in his beloved’s, looking like he’d rather die than betray them. But that had never stopped you before.
You smiled. “It’s rare to see a man so committed.”
His fiancée beamed.
You reached out, lightly tracing your fingers over his palm. “A hand like this… was meant to hold many hearts.”
His fiancée’s smile disappeared as the man leaned into your touch.
The crowd held their breath.
And then.
His fiancée fainted.
Engagement status: Annihilated.
At this point, Deuce—your ever-loyal, increasingly horrified knight—had begun to sweat profusely in the corner.
You waved at him.
He did not wave back.
But just as you were about to go for your fourth victim, you noticed something strange.
The prince—the male lead—was staring at you.
And not in the way one should stare at their supposed rival.
No.
He was staring at you like a man who didn’t understand his own feelings and was handling it terribly.
Deuce noticed before you did.
“Oh no,” he muttered. “Oh no no no.”
The prince stalked toward you, his jaw clenched, his eyes burning with repressed emotion and possibly indigestion.
“You,” he said, pointing an accusatory finger at you.
You raised a brow. “Me?”
“You cannot go around—” He waved his hands wildly, struggling to find the words. “—charming people!”
You blinked, feigning innocence. “Oh? Why not?”
He twitched.
A noble gasped. “Is he… jealous?”
The crowd whispered.
The prince turned red.
Deuce, watching from the sidelines, looked like he wanted to fling himself off the nearest balcony.
Then, just as the tension reached its peak—
“MARRY ME!”
The man whose fiancée just fainted, caught up in the whirlwind of drama and avant-garde societal rebellion, had dropped to one knee and grabbed your hand.
Silence.
Deuce inhaled so sharply he nearly passed out.
The prince’s eye twitched.
And you?
You smiled.
But before you could say yes, no, or something that would make the situation worse, Deuce lunged forward, grabbed your wrist, and hauled you away.
“YOU CAN’T JUST GO AROUND SEDUCING ENGAGED PEOPLE!” he hissed, physically dragging you out of the ballroom.
“Why not?” you grinned. “The nobles love it.”
“I—BECAUSE IT’S WRONG?!”
You hummed, thoughtful. Then, because you were a terrible person, you tilted your head, looked him dead in the eyes, and said:
“You’re kind of cute when you’re flustered.”
Deuce short-circuited.
The prince looked ready to challenge the concept of marriage itself.
And the night was, truly, a resounding success.
Deuce was the perfect knight.
Reliable. Strong. Steadfast. He never faltered in his duties, never hesitated to follow your orders, and—most importantly—he never questioned your absolutely necessary purchases, even when they were, objectively, not necessary at all.
Which was precisely why he was the perfect person to accompany you to the market.
The morning sun hung high in the sky, warming the cobbled streets as merchants called out their wares, their voices blending into a lively symphony of haggling, bartering, and excited chatter. The scent of freshly baked bread and spiced apples drifted through the air, wrapping around you like an old, familiar comfort.
And there was Deuce, ever-dutiful, ever-loyal, ever-patient.
The bags he carried had long since doubled in number, hanging from his arms like trophies of your victorious shopping spree. He bore the burden without complaint, as expected of a knight sworn to your service, though he did glance down at the latest purchase—a third bag of sweets—and furrowed his brow.
“That’s the third bag of sweets you’ve bought.”
You shot him a look, hugging your ill-gotten gains like a dragon hoarding gold.
“And?”
He sighed. “Nothing, I guess.”
Good. That was the correct answer. This was a judgment-free zone.
Everything was going well. The two of you meandered through the market at an unhurried pace, pausing to browse through silks, admire trinkets, and—most importantly—glare at the latest portrait of the crown prince displayed in the town square. It was a routine you had come to enjoy, something almost peaceful in its predictability.
And then—
Deuce stopped.
It wasn’t a gradual pause. It was sudden, abrupt, a full-body halt that nearly sent you crashing into his back.
“Hey—?” you started, but he was already moving, already reaching for his own coin pouch, already stepping toward—
A flower stall?
You blinked, watching as he carefully selected a single bloom, one of the freshest ones in the bunch, its petals full and vibrant. You stood there, bewildered, as he handed over a few coins, nodding his thanks to the merchant.
And then—
Before you could even begin to process what was happening—
He turned and held the flower out to you.
The world tilted.
You stared.
At the flower, at Deuce, at his outstretched hand.
At the way he looked at you, open and earnest and so painfully sincere that you felt something deep in your chest twist.
“…Why?” you asked, voice caught somewhere between confused and breathless.
Deuce tilted his head slightly, a sheepish sort of smile tugging at the corners of his lips. “I dunno,” he said, rubbing the back of his neck. “I just—thought you’d like it?”
Thought you’d like it.
That was it. That was the entire reason.
Not out of duty, not because he had to, not because of some unspoken obligation—but because he wanted to.
Because he saw something and thought of you.
Your fingers curled around the stem almost too tightly, as if the delicate flower might vanish if you weren’t careful. The petals were impossibly soft beneath your touch, fragile and fleeting, and your heart did something suspicious in your chest.
Deuce had already turned away, already resumed walking, already moved on as if he hadn’t just unknowingly unraveled you.
And you—
You lingered a second longer, staring at the flower in your hand, your face growing entirely too warm under the summer sun.
Then, swallowing against the sudden tightness in your throat, you hurried after him, grateful that he wasn’t looking back to see the ridiculous, helpless smile you absolutely couldn’t fight off.
It started with a passing insult. Something entirely unoriginal, really—one of those tired, rehashed attempts at wit that nobles regurgitated when they had nothing better to do.
You weren’t even offended.
But you were bored.
So, naturally, you smirked, sighed dramatically, and placed a hand over your heart.
“Wow,” you mused, voice dripping with mock despair. “If only I had a loyal knight to defend me. Sigh.”
Deuce didn’t hesitate.
He didn’t even pause to think.
He just whipped around, locked eyes with the offender, and threw down the most aggressive glove slap in recorded history.
“DUEL ME.”
The noble flinched. The entire gathering flinched.
Even you, for a moment, wondered if you’d just summoned an unstoppable force of nature.
Deuce stood there, rigid with unwavering loyalty and violent intent, hand hovering over the hilt of his sword like an Old West gunslinger about to end someone's bloodline.
The noble stammered, looking around as if waiting for someone to intervene. No one did. The nobles had all collectively agreed to stand back and watch this disaster unfold.
You, however, recognized an issue.
“Deuce,” you started carefully. “Buddy. Pal.” You placed a hand on his shoulder, a gesture meant to calm him down.
It did not calm him down.
If anything, his conviction doubled.
“You don’t actually have to fight for my honor—”
“Yes, I do.”
He didn’t blink.
You blinked for him.
The realization sank in with all the subtlety of a grand piano dropping from a three-story window:
Deuce would throw hands for you. Without question. Without hesitation. It was pure muscle memory at this point.
You had too much power.
The nobles were whispering.
The prince was watching.
Some fool in the back had already started placing bets.
And Deuce?
Deuce was ready to kill a man.
“Okay,” you muttered under your breath, “I may have created a monster.”
The noble, sweating profusely, waved his hands. “I—I think there’s been a misunderstanding—”
“There’s no misunderstanding,” Deuce gritted out, stepping forward. “You insulted them. Now, we settle this properly.”
By all accounts, Deuce had just challenged a man to medieval combat over you.
It should have been a simple duel.
Just a normal, everyday case of your overly loyal knight throwing hands because someone vaguely insulted you.
A Tuesday, basically.
And yet, somehow, by the time you arrived at the dueling grounds, it had turned into a full-blown public event.
The stands were packed. Nobles gossiped in hushed whispers. Vendors had set up food stalls. Some particularly enterprising soul was selling commemorative handkerchiefs embroidered with Deuce’s face.
And standing right in the middle of this absolute circus were Riddle and Ace—your reinforcements, arriving at maximum velocity to make your life more interesting and significantly more stressful.
Riddle’s expression alone had the same effect as a guillotine blade. His hands were clenched into fists, his face a vibrant shade of red, and the moment his sharp, judgmental gaze landed on you, you had the distinct feeling that your days were numbered.
Ace, meanwhile, looked like he was having the time of his life.
“You. Absolute. Menace.” Riddle bit out, his words dripping with disappointment and barely-contained rage. “I leave you alone for one week and suddenly you’re challenging people to duels, seducing engaged nobles, and destabilizing the entire social order?!”
“Okay, first of all, I didn’t challenge anyone. That was Deuce.”
“Because you provoked it.”
“Debatable.”
“No, it’s not!”
Ace clapped a hand on your shoulder, beaming. “Don’t listen to him. In fact, I’ll actually pay you to keep this up.”
Riddle’s head snapped toward him, betrayal written across his features. “You’re paying them?! You’re encouraging this?!”
“Duh?” Ace grinned. “I’ve never had this much fun in my entire life. If it means watching them do more insane things, I’ll move the entire city to accommodate them.”
Riddle made a noise that was somewhere between a strangled scream and an impending aneurysm.
You, feeling very smug, turned back to the main event.
Deuce, your knight, your absurdly loyal human wrecking ball, was already standing in the ring, eyes burning with righteous fury.
The poor noble who insulted you was sweating bullets.
The duel started.
The duel lasted five minutes.
The duel ended spectacularly.
Deuce dismantled the guy so thoroughly, so efficiently, that entire bloodlines were probably questioning their place in the universe.
And then, with a smoothness you had not thought possible, Deuce turned, knelt before you, and bowed his head in silent, knightly devotion.
Which was horribly unfair.
Because, up until this moment, you had been so certain that nothing in this world could ever make you weak in the knees.
But this?
This was a problem.
Because the combination of Deuce being stupidly strong, stupidly devoted, and now stupidly attractive in the aftermath of his absolute annihilation of a noble in your name was doing something deeply unsettling to your brain chemistry.
You, a seasoned chaos gremlin, had not been prepared for the sheer level of attractiveness that came from watching Deuce absolutely demolish a man in your honor and then kneel like you were some kind of divine ruler.
And absolutely no one in this arena could be allowed to witness that.
Which is why you did the only logical thing—
You grabbed Deuce by the collar and dragged him the hell out of there.
“We’re leaving.”
Deuce, stumbling after you, genuinely confused: “Wait—? But—?”
“No questions.”
Behind you, Ace hooted.
Riddle yelled something about propriety
The crowd was whispering in scandalized awe.
And the noble who insulted you?
He was probably questioning every life choice that led him to this moment.
Congratulations.
You had once again caused a spectacle.
You had always known that your butler—the tall, brooding, vaguely tragic second male lead—was spying on you.
You just hadn’t expected him to be this bad at it.
At first, you thought he was just terrible at being subtle. The way he lurked behind obvious cover, like a potted plant that was two sizes too small for him, was almost insultingly blatant.
But then, after watching him trip over his own feet and drop his little spy notebook in front of you, you had a stunning realization:
He wasn’t just bad at this.
He was disastrous.
And you—being the responsible, morally upstanding villain that you were—decided that it was your duty to take full advantage of this situation.
So when he inevitably got caught, you gaslit the absolute hell out of him.
“You failed the test,” you sighed, shaking your head with deep, world-weary disappointment.
He froze. “Test?”
“Yes, a test,” you said, folding your arms. “Did you seriously think I wouldn’t notice one of my own subordinates spying on me?”
He blinked. “I—I don't work for the heroine.”
You smiled dangerously. “Don't you?”
The silence that followed was long, painful, and deeply existential.
“…I don't?,” he said, but there was now a distinct lack of confidence behind his words.
Deuce, who had been standing off to the side, vehemently disagreed with everything that was happening.
“You knew about this?” he asked, looking at you like you were a criminal mastermind unveiling your latest scheme.
You ignored him.
Instead, you rested a hand on the butler’s shoulder, offering him a kind, understanding smile.
“Since you are so clearly loyal to me,” you said, gently, “I’d like you to deliver a very special report to the heroine.”
Deuce let out an exhausted groan.
The butler stared at you warily. “…What kind of report?”
“Oh, you know,” you mused, smirking. “Just a few details about my daily routine. The way I conduct myself in my estate. My methods for staying eternally youthful.”
The butler squinted.
“What do you mean, eternally youthful?”
You grinned.

The heroine stood in your ballroom, pointing an accusing, trembling finger at you.
“You’re a witch.”
You grinned.
Then you turned to your butler—who looked increasingly uncomfortable—and hummed, “I see you did your job well.”
Deuce pinched the bridge of his nose. “What did you make him tell her?”
The heroine narrowed her eyes at you, vibrating with righteous fury.
“You—you bathe in your servants’ tears to stay youthful!”
You tilted your head.
“That’s an odd way to phrase ‘providing an excellent workplace with fair wages and health benefits,’ but okay.”
The heroine was not having it.
“And—and you drink phoenix blood to maintain your strength!”
“Well, now, that’s true,” you admitted. “It pairs nicely with a dry red.”
The heroine let out a horrified gasp.
Deuce stared at you like you had personally betrayed him. “You made him tell her you drink what?!”
“I was curious to see how far he’d go.”
The butler, now pale and visibly sweating, looked like he had experienced a crisis of faith during his conversation with the heroine.
And when she reached the final, most egregious offense, he seemed to finally, fully break.
“…And I was told,” the heroine whispered, voice trembling, “that you—” she took a deep breath “—have personally seduced your own knight, corrupting him with your villainous ways.”
You glanced at Deuce.
Deuce turned bright red. “What did you tell her?!”
Your butler, who had finally reached his limit, just turned on his heel and walked out of the room.
“I quit,” he muttered.
Success.

You had been accused of many things since you woke up in this absolute joke of a world as the villain.
Corruption? Sure.
Scandal? Naturally.
Inducing moral panic in the aristocracy because you decided to flirt with engaged people at a ball? Absolutely.
But today was new.
Today, you had apparently brainwashed Deuce Spade into a life of crime.
"You’ve brainwashed him!"
The heroine’s voice rang out across the royal gathering, loud and full of self-righteous fury, as if she had just caught you mid-scheme, cackling over a bubbling cauldron, weaving a spell to turn Deuce into a mindless delinquent henchman.
You, who had been mid-sip of your expensive champagne, slowly lowered the glass.
Deuce, who had been standing beside you like a human wall of pure knightly devotion, blinked in further confusion.
The heroine took a dramatic step forward, looking at him with heartfelt sadness, like she expected him to suddenly start frothing at the mouth and looting everyone in your name.
“Sir Deuce,” she said, voice trembling with emotion, “It’s not too late. I can save you.”
Deuce tilted his head, utterly lost. “Save me from what?”
“From this!” She gestured wildly at you, as if you were some demonic manifestation of lawlessness, corrupting poor, innocent knights into a life of wanton villainy and casual public indecency.
The male lead, who had been hanging around in the background like a disgruntled ex, suddenly perked up at this. “Wait, are you saying we can steal Deuce?”
“Not steal,” the heroine corrected, with the solemnity of a saint bestowing divine mercy upon a lost soul. "Rescue."
And then, in a stunning display of completely unfounded confidence, she pulled out a golden envelope and extended it toward Deuce.
“A direct invitation,” she declared, eyes shining, “to serve under His Highness.”
There was a deafening silence.
Then—
“No.”
The refusal was instant.
No hesitation.
Not even a single second of consideration.
The heroine’s jaw practically dislocated.
The male lead looked personally victimized.
Ace, who had been standing off to the side with Riddle, slowly turned to face him, nudging him with his elbow before whispering something so profoundly stupid that Riddle physically winced.
Then, as if processing a truth he had been avoiding all this time, Riddle sighed, closed his eyes, and pinched the bridge of his nose.
Ace, meanwhile, had the absolute audacity to look like he was having the time of his life.
The heroine, still struggling to process this complete failure, managed to find her voice again.
“I—I don’t understand.” She looked between you and Deuce, visibly distressed. “Why? Why would you refuse?”
Deuce gave her the most straightforward, obvious look in existence.
“I don't want to.”
The heroine gasped.
The male lead looked like he had been personally slapped.
Ace, meanwhile, had the absolute gall to let out a quiet, knowing cackle, like he had figured out the ending of a dramatic novel before the characters did.
“I fear he’s too far gone,” the heroine whispered, mourning the loss of Deuce Spade as if he had already perished.
You, meanwhile, had been too busy enjoying the absolute disaster unfolding in front of you to process what just happened.
Not until much later, when the two of you were walking back from the gathering, and you finally turned to him with a frown.
“Wait,” you said, still trying to wrap your head around it, “Why didn’t you take the offer?”
Deuce looked at you like you had just asked him why fire was hot. “Because I’m your knight.”
Oh.
That was—
That was kind of—
Warm.
An unpleasantly warm feeling spread in your chest, like you had just accidentally drunk an entire cup of molten sentimentality.
You didn't like it. You didn't like it at all.
ABORT. ABORT. ABORT.
You cleared your throat, deadpan as possible, and said, “Right. That makes sense.”
Then, with all the grace and subtlety of a spooked alley cat, you turned on your heel and walked away at high velocity, because you were absolutely not dealing with this today.

It doesn’t matter what you do.
You could ignore him. Insult him. Dramatically throw a glass of wine in his face and accuse him of high treason.
Nothing works.
The male lead only seems to fall harder.
And tonight?
Tonight, it’s worse than ever.
Now, he was finding excuses to touch you.
You had arrived at the royal ball with the intention of causing mischief—maybe ruining a few engagements, maybe flirting with people’s spouses just for the fun of it, maybe convincing a few nobles that you were an ancient demon cursed to live among them in disguise—you know, the usual.
What you hadn’t planned for was the crown prince himself swooping in like a predatory falcon, seizing your wrist, and dramatically pulling you onto the dance floor.
There was no escape.
And the worst part?
The entire room was watching.
Which meant you had to grit your teeth and endure it.
The music began.
You stepped forward. He stepped forward.
You tried to maintain a respectable distance.
He?
He did not.
Instead, he pulled you closer—his grip firm, his posture rigid, his expression unreadable as he held you just a little too tightly.
And then—oh, and then.
You felt it.
The slight intake of breath.
The subtle tilt of his head.
The near-invisible shudder that ran down his spine as he inhaled deeply, as if committing your scent to memory.
Your entire body locked up in horror.
What. The. Hell.
Was he—
Was this bastard—
Was he sniffing you?
You immediately tried to pull away, but his vice-like grip did not relent.
“I—” His voice came out a little strangled, and his eyes darted away suspiciously. “You—” He swallowed. “I was just making sure you didn’t smell like poison.”
You stared at him.
Poison.
Poison.
He said that with his whole chest.
Like it was a normal thing to do.
Like it wasn’t the most deranged, lovesick, absolutely unhinged thing you had ever seen in your entire life.
“You think someone poisoned me?” you deadpanned.
“Yes,” he said, nodding a little too quickly. “I thought—I thought maybe one of your enemies slipped something into your drink.”
“So your first instinct was to smell me?”
“YES.”
The sheer delusion in his voice was astounding.
You pushed him off you the moment the song ended, practically flinging yourself across the room in search of sanity, reason, and possibly a priest.
The moment you reached Ace, Riddle, and Deuce, you collapsed into their presence, gasping like you had just escaped the jaws of death.
Riddle took one look at your disheveled state, grimaced, and immediately handed you a handkerchief, as if he could wipe the entire experience off you.
You snatched it up and aggressively scrubbed at your neck.
Ace?
Ace was dying.
He was bent over in laughter, hands on his knees, completely losing his mind.
And Deuce?
Deuce looks like you just drop-kicked his puppy off a bridge.
He is staring at you like you personally betrayed him, his ancestors, and the entirety of knighthood as an institution.
Ace sees an opportunity and takes it.
With zero hesitation, he grabs Deuce by the shoulders and shoves him closer to you.
“You gonna let that slide, man?” Ace teases, grinning like a madman.
“I—” Deuce blinks, still looking dazed and vaguely devastated.
Ace pushes him again. “Dude, do something! Your boss just got publicly defiled.”
Deuce finally snaps out of it, reaching for his own handkerchief—the one with his knightly crest embroidered on it—and gently, carefully wipes at your neck.
It was different from Riddle’s.
Riddle had handed you his like a noble disgusted by filth.
Deuce, however?
Deuce was careful.
His touch was light, his eyes too focused, too serious as he dabbed at the place where the prince’s lips had nearly brushed against your skin.
He was not just cleaning.
He was removing.
It was as if the very idea of another man touching you physically revolted him.
So, in a desperate attempt to make the moment less weird, you forced out a mocking smirk and teased,
“Aw, Deuce. What’s wrong? You don’t like it when he touches me?”
Deuce, sweet, earnest, painfully loyal Deuce, did not hesitate.
“No."
Oh no.
Bwcause something in your stomach flips and your face feels suspiciously warm.

It was bound to happen.
Honestly, with the way you had been leaning on him lately, whispering too-close teases in his ear, and throwing casual flirtations like daggers at his heart, it was only a matter of time before he cracked.
But you—oh, you hadn’t expected it to be like this.
You were lounging on him again today, your head resting against his shoulder, basking in the solid warmth that only Deuce could provide. He had long since stopped complaining about it—stopped stiffening up every time you got close—and instead, he had simply accepted his fate as your personal resting post.
Which, of course, meant it was your duty to push your luck.
So, you did.
With a slow, lazy grin, you tilted your head, let your lips brush a little too close to his ear, and murmured,
“Y’know, Deuce… you’re kind of my favorite.”
It was supposed to be a joke. (kinda)
It was supposed to be just another tease, another drop of fuel onto the fire just to see him sputter and turn red like he always did.
But this time?
This time, he didn’t laugh.
Instead—
He froze.
His entire body went rigid beneath you, his hands clenching into fists, his breath coming sharper, heavier, like he was wrestling with something too big to contain.
And then—he exhaled.
“Are you playing with me, too?”
The words were low.
Rough.
Like he had been holding them back for too long, like they had been simmering inside him, growing heavier with every glance, every touch, every stupid, careless flirtation.
You blinked. “What?”
Deuce shifted, just enough to look at you head-on, and oh.
Oh.
There was something in his eyes—something raw, something vulnerable, something that made your stomach flip in a way you weren’t prepared for.
“You keep doing this,” he muttered, his voice tight, frustrated. “You flirt with me like you do with the other nobles. You—you act like it’s all just a game. But I—”
His breath hitched.
And then, with a quiet, almost desperate laugh, he whispered,
“You know I love you, right?”
Your heart stopped.
“I—”
“I do,” he interrupted, the words spilling out like he couldn’t hold them back anymore. “I do. I’ve been trying to ignore it, trying to be just your knight, just your friend—but every time you look at me like that, every time you say stuff like this—” His jaw clenched. “—I feel like an idiot. Because I know you don’t mean it. I know you’re just playing around. But I—”
He swallowed hard.
“I can’t take it anymore.”
The air between you went still.
Your heartbeat was too loud, your pulse a slow, insistent drumbeat in your ears, and oh.
Oh, this was real.
He was serious.
Deuce squeezed his eyes shut, inhaled sharply, and then met your gaze once more, firmer this time.
“The next time you flirt with me,” he said, voice low, steady, “I’m going to take it seriously.”
“I mean it,” he continued, as if warning you. “You—you don’t get to joke about this anymore. Not with me. Because I’ll—”
His fingers trembled at his sides.
“I’ll take responsibility for it.”
It took you a second to process the words.
Oh.
Oh, he was adorable.
Because even now—even after basically confessing, after baring his heart to you like this, he was still looking at you like he was waiting for permission.
Like he needed you to say it first.
Like he needed to be sure.
And, well—
Who were you to disappoint your favorite knight?
With a slow, lazy grin, you grabbed him by the collar, pulled him close, and whispered,
“Deuce.”
His breath hitched. “Yeah?”
You leaned in, close enough that your lips brushed against his cheek, and murmured,
“Do you want my last name?”
The moment the words left your mouth, his entire body locked up.
And then—
Then he kissed you.
It was clumsy, heated, desperate in the way only Deuce could be—like he had been holding this back for too long, like he was afraid you’d slip away if he didn’t take you now.
And you—
You melted into it.
Because of course he was serious.
Because of course you had always known what you were doing to him.
Because—
Because you wanted it, too.

The ballroom is packed, glittering, expectant.
The chandeliers glow like stars, the music swells in the background, and every noble in attendance is on the edge of their seat, waiting for whatever ridiculous display you’re about to put on this time.
And, oh, are you about to deliver.
You stand tall, your hand resting comfortably in Deuce’s as you make the grandest announcement of your life.
“We’re engaged.”
The room erupts—gasps, whispers, the sharp clink of dropped silverware.
Deuce, standing proudly beside you, looks both smug and overwhelmed, like he’s still processing the fact that you actually said yes and also fully prepared to duel anyone who disagrees.
Ace is counting coins, no doubt because he made a bet about this happening.
Riddle looks like he’s two seconds away from both congratulating you and strangling you for causing another scene.
And the male lead—
Oh, the male lead is not handling it well.
He’s standing there, frozen, his eye twitching ever so slightly, his mouth opening and closing like he’s trying to form a sentence but can’t because his brain just blue-screened.
The male lead—in all his tragic, oblivious, love-stricken glory—then has the nerve to act like he’s concerned.
“I just think it’s irresponsible, the difference in your status.” he says.
The words hit you like a divine insult.
Like the heavens themselves have chosen this as your actual villain origin story.
There is a moment of stillness.
It’s the kind of moment you read about in dramatic novels—the eerie, anticipatory silence before an executioner swings his blade. The nobles are motionless, caught between the sheer audacity of your engagement announcement and the dawning horror of whatever is about to come next.
Because they can feel it.
They can feel the storm brewing inside you, the kind of apocalyptic fury usually reserved for fallen kingdoms and plagues of locusts.
Deuce grips your hand a little tighter, as if sensing the catastrophic levels of rage that are about to explode from your very soul.
And then—it happens.
You let out a slow, incredulous exhale.
And then, at the top of your lungs—
“OH, MY GOD.”
The chandelier shakes.
Somewhere in the back, a noble collapses onto a couch.
A waiter drops an entire tray of champagne glasses.
The heroine, bless her soul, gasps like she’s just watched someone get impaled.
And the male lead?
The male lead flinches.
But he does not back down.
Which is his second biggest mistake tonight.
His first was being born.
You take a deep, suffering breath, and then—oh, you absolutely let loose.
“JUST SAY YOU’RE JEALOUS, YOU PATHETIC, EMOTIONALLY CONSTIPATED DISASTER.”
There is an echoing thud.
Ace has fallen to the ground.
He is actively pounding his fist against the marble floor in a fit of laughter so violent that one of the nobles attempts to call a doctor.
Riddle is gripping his temples, already mourning the loss of his peace.
And Deuce?
Deuce nods along.
Like, yeah. That makes sense.
But you are nowhere near done.
You take an intimidating step forward, pointing aggressively at the male lead’s absurdly symmetrical face.
“Do you think I don’t know?!” you demand. “Do you think I don’t notice when you materialize out of thin air whenever I so much as sigh?? Do you think I don’t see you hiding behind pillars, staring at me with the same expression as a neglected golden retriever!?”
The male lead opens his mouth—probably to deny it.
But you immediately cut him off.
“DON’T EVEN TRY ME, YOU NOBLE IMBECILE.”
The heroine physically recoils.
A duke mutters a quiet prayer.
Ace has fully ascended to the next realm.
“I have proof!” you declare, waving an accusatory finger. “Every time I enter a room, you’re already there, lurking in the shadows like a deranged, overgrown bat. Do you think that’s normal behavior?! Do you think people don’t notice?! I HAVE SEEN THE TOWN CRIER TAKING NOTES.”
Riddle’s entire body twitches.
Because, unfortunately, that is not an exaggeration.
The town crier really has been chronicling the male lead’s unhinged pining in weekly installments.
You take another step forward, voice rising.
“Just admit it! Admit that you have absolutely lost your mind over me, and you’re just mad that I don’t give a single, microscopic shred of a damn!”
The male lead is visibly sweating.
But you are still not finished.
“Listen to me,” you say, voice lowering into something cold, absolute, and devastating. You step forward until the male lead is cornered against a column, towering over him like a vengeful god.
Then, with as much venom as you can possibly summon—
“I value you less than a piece of moldy bread.”
Carnage.
The room erupts into madness.
The male lead physically staggers.
His soul leaves his body.
His knees tremble like he’s about to collapse.
Ace is choking on laughter, beating the floor like a medieval peasant begging for mercy.
Riddle has his hands over his eyes like this is the most humiliating thing he’s ever been forced to witness.
The heroine is looking at the male lead like he’s a dying animal.
And Deuce—sweet, loyal Deuce—just crosses his arms, nods approvingly, and says,
“Yeah. What he said."
You smile, victorious.
You dust off your hands like you’ve just completed a particularly satisfying chore.
Then, you turn back to Deuce, loop your arm through his, and promptly walk out of the ballroom with your beloved knight at your side.

The sun melts into the horizon, casting the ocean in gold and rose, waves curling onto the shore. A warm breeze rolls through the open balcony, carrying the scent of salt and flowers and Deuce Spade trying to subtly overthink again.
Which is unfortunate.
Because you had expressly banned thinking on this honeymoon.
Yet here he is—Deuce , your devoted, beautiful, terminally self-doubting husband—standing by the railing, arms crossed, jaw clenched, deep in Thought.
You know that look.
It’s the look of a man about to say something stupid.
And indeed—
“Do you regret it?” he asks.
You blink. “Regret what?”
Deuce doesn’t look at you. His gaze is on the horizon, all noble knightly brooding, except it’s Deuce, so it just makes him look like a golden retriever contemplating the meaning of life.
“Choosing me,” he clarifies. “I mean, you—you could’ve had anyone. A prince, a noble, someone with status. Someone who actually deserves—”
You physically grab him.
Like, you latch onto him like a barnacle and manhandle him around to face you, because this is quite possibly the dumbest thing he’s ever said, and you refuse to let him say another word.
Deuce, being Deuce, just lets you do it.
He stares at you, startled, lips slightly parted, eyes big and blue and breathtaking.
And you sigh.
“Sweetheart,” you say, voice dry, “you are the densest person I have ever met.”
He blinks.
You take his face in your hands.
“I love you, dumbass.”
A beat of silence.
Then—
Deuce grins.
It’s small at first, hesitant, like he’s still processing the words—like some part of him is still convinced he’s dreaming, that any moment now, he’s going to wake up in the barracks and realize none of this is real.
But then, you thumb over his cheek, gentle, certain, grounding him in reality.
And that’s when it happens.
That’s when his grin breaks into something helpless and bright, something that crinkles the corners of his eyes, something that is so very Deuce that your heart trips over itself.
He hides his face against your shoulder.
“Shut up,” he mumbles, muffled against your skin, voice warm, embarrassed, happy.
You laugh, wrapping your arms around him, pulling him closer.
“Make me.”
His arms tighten around you, and for a while, neither of you move—just standing there, on the balcony of some faraway villa, wrapped up in each other, with nothing and no one to interrupt.
No scheming nobles.
No pushy male leads.
No ridiculous duels or political scandals.
Just you, Deuce, and the rest of your lives ahead.

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#but really WHY is blocking a fic not an option @ ao3?#muting authors is well and good yes#love that#but like i don’t wanna block an (usually) good author just b/c they wrote one fic that makes me want to commit homicide#so if i block the custom tag we’re good#but if they tag it all generic ass then wtf am i supposed to do when i need to NEVER lay eyes on so much as the summary of that fic#purs
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the call. I (sevika + vi)
SYNOPSIS: reddit: a place for thought-dumping and being horny [college au] WORD COUNT: 9.5K WARNINGS: this was supposed to be dark but its very crack-ish, sevika and vi play rugby(kinda minor plot tbh), oc is a crazy redditor and wears skirts, STALKING, 90% SMUT MDNI(fingering + phone sex + munching + mult orgasms + dirty talk, tensionnnn) brief mentions of grief and loss bc me, recreational drug use, JUST TOXIC, abby makes an appearance later A/N: WROTE THIS WITH MY BABY!!! @trackinglessons art by lottie my love my light my everything this is a product of #OVULATIONWEEK and the #ARCANETAKEOVER


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r/AskReddit
u/artkiller 3y
no one likes me.
i [f18] don’t have any friends. at all. i don’t have anyone that’s not family that likes me and sometimes im convinced my family regrets keeping me adound. i just moved cities for uni and haven’t been able to have a valuable conversation with anyone and im starting to think i’m the reason why. to be honest i’ve always been the “weird” one or whatever ppl at school called me. but i don’t think im weird at all. I think i’m nice but ppl treat me like a germ lol they just stare and whisper to each other but i know they’re talking about me
does anyone have any advice on being more approachable? or whatever i’m not even sure what to call it tbh.
kewlio313 • 3y
Everybody’s weird in college! You’re young and finding yourself. Join some organizations and put yourself out there! It’ll work out kid
artkiller OP • 3y
i wish there was a chess club lol
Margie • 3y
how do you go about approaching people?
artkiller OP • 3y
i just walk up and start talking about myself
Margie • 3y
Okay… and what’s their reaction?
artkiller OP • 3y
it’s different every time. sometimes they just leave, sometimes they laugh then leave, other times they’re outwardly mean. one guy told me to ‘shut the hell up bitch’ and i immediately wanted to commit a federal crime(not murder)
Margie • 3y
Goddamn lol. Maybe u r weird
miKrophone • 3y
shut up hoe
artkiller OP • 2y
?? :/
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u/artkiller 2y
Advice Needed
how do you know if you’re mentally ill?
hello fellow redditors. lol. i’m finally back… very odd first term i think i got ghosted or whatever it’s called by some dude on the hockey team but yeah i plotted homicide. i’m pretty sure that situation sent me into a spiral. i think im sick.
i’m not sure what’s going on with me but my thoughts have been really dark recently. not necessarily suicidal or harm inflicting(on myself) but… yeah… prettyyyy dark. idk. it’s weird what my brain conjures up sometimes. i guess im curious why my brain thinks the way it does. i’m not a bad person and i know that, but my brain makes me believe that i am. idk what to do at this point. i’ve never been to a professional and tbh i don’t think i should because i don’t wanna be admitted somewhere lol
kewlio313 • 2y
Welcome back kid. It’s often better to seek help even though it can be fucking horrifying, especially in adulthood. Get help and you’ll be fine
artkiller OP • 2y
and if i’m not fine? what do i do then?
kewlio313 • 2y
To be frank, I'm not sure. I’ve been through alot and even I don’t have clear direction on life. I’ve been allowing my intuition to guide me for some time. Just try it and see what happens. Rooting for you
artkiller OP • 2y
thank you
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u/artkiller 2y
Advice Needed
am i a lesbian?
i [f19] think im attracted to females. i can’t stop staring at their tits. i always assumed my middle school peeping was from jealousy or whatever the hell twitter said but now that i’m grown i think i wanna fuck girls. or like. girl adjacents??? idk the terminology or whatever.
PetersJoker • 2y
go eat some pussy and find out
artkiller OP • 2y
no fuckhead
kewlio313 • 2y
… Girl adjacents? Females? Are you actually 40?
artkiller OP • 2y
is this a dig
kewlio313 • 2y
You crack me up. Have you experimented before?
artkiller OP • 2y
i never passed a science class
kewlio313 • 2y
… Alright.
I meant hooking up. Have u kissed a girl before? Slept with one? Or whatever you youngins say these days?
artkiller OP • 2y
no. i’m not a slut lol i hardly go outside
kewlio313 • 2y
Finding out what you like isn’t being a slut. You’re in college for fucks sake. Find you someone to lay with, ya loser.
artkiller OP • 2y
or i should just shoot myself. less complicated then sex
kewlio313 • 2y
Maybe so, but they’re equally as messy.
ButchesForChrist • 2y
Questioning is usually the first sign. Lol
artkiller OP • 2y
fuck me
ButchesForChrist • 2y
Well
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r/AskReddit
u/artkiller 2y
what does sex feel like? (wlw)
[f19] just watched scissor porn for the first time. what the fuck was that. (i need it)
MisandristInTraining • 2y
the work of demons aka men
artkiller OP • 2y
i drink their blood
MisandristInTraining • 2y
Lmao
OnHorseback • 2y
Feels like dying but emotionally • 2y
artkiller OP • 2y
i wanna die physically
OnHorseback • 2y
I’m sure some dirty fuck can set that up for you
artkiller OP • 2y
lit
kewlio313 • 2y
Welcome to the dark side.
artkiller OP • 2y
flirt a little harder oldhead
ButchesForChrist • 2y
Ready to come out?
artkiller OP • 2y
of where
ButchesForChrist • 2y
Bitch…..
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r/AskReddit
u/artkiller 2y
home sweet home.
hello found family. been mia bc fuck school but i’m back… and i think im a sadist.
does anyone know where rugby originated from? i like watching large women be physical w each other and i wish they would harm me in similar ways. pls push me to the floor and stomp me out(specifically directed to one pink head) i’ve been thinking dirty things all day i need her so fucking bad. is this why ppl r so obsessed with sex? bc of hot people? i get it now. i need her to bend me over and put her cleat on my neck
lezziesthatembezzle • 2y
good morning to u too bitch
artkiller OP • 2y
big muscly girls pls rail me from da bck
lezziesthatembezzle • 2y
someone muzzle this thot
Accuntress • 2y
A dyke’s pride and joy: large women.
kewlio313 • 2y
This is crazily your most normal post. Missed ya. Do well in school
artkiller OP • 2y
:3 🩷
[deleted] • 2y
The cards are in my favor
artkiller OP • 2y
would you like to sex through private message?
[deleted] • 2y
What the fuck you crackhead
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r/AskReddit
u/artkiller 2y
Advice Needed
sex addiction while a virgin?
is this possible? i shouldn’t have watched ppl with big clits trib. quite criminal. even more criminal when i’ve imagined the girl i’ve been following around for the past 2 weeks doing it to me
[deleted] • 2y
is this who we are….
artkiller OP • 2y
obviously.
kewlio313 • 2y
This is my last straw.
artkiller OP • 2y
hugs xD
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r/AskReddit
u/artkiller 6mo
i’m confessing.
idc anymore. i don’t give a FUCK. i am in love. i [f21] am in love. the deepest kind i think. love at first sight truly. it’s the kind of love that’s painful. it kills and leaves behind trails of misery if betrayed or lost. whenever i see her, i cry from happiness. her joy is my joy. her hurt is my hurt. our hearts are forever intertwined no matter the distance. i’m writing this for her. if you ever see this: i love you, darling. there’s not a second that goes by where you’re not at the forefront of my mind. i’ll treasure everything we’ve built thus far, and promise to never take it for granted. i hope to die by your side.
i love you. i love you so much.
even if we’ve never spoken.
kewlio313 • 6mo
Yup… she’s lost it, folks. Very deep sigh.
ButchesForChrist • 5mo
That’s part of being a lesbian. She’ll live. Trust me
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“Violet! … VIOLET!”
Why’s Sev always so loud in the goddamn library? The receptionist already has tacks on her behavior chart like some kindergartener. “I heard you! Jesus Christ, I’m sitting right fucking next to you—“
“I wouldn’t haveta fucking scream if you woulda answered me when I asked 3 days ago! Are you coming on Saturday?”
How does she tell Sev fuck no bitch I don’t wanna go in a polite manner? It’s the first weekend after Christmas break and quite frankly, she's already sick of being on campus. Vi loves her friend to death but holy fuck does she wish she had an off button.
“Just come the hell on and stop—“
“Dude, I—“
“You know it’s not gonna be fun if you’re not there! Half the bitches are comin’ for you! Plus… I think you could use a fun time after… y’know.” Sevika softens — only a bit, she's still Sevika. Hard ass.
She does know. At this point, who doesn’t? Her last year of university started on a bad foot when her family home caught aflame with her little sister and father still inside, but the icing on the cake was when her long term, blue-haired girlfriend sent her the can we talk? important text. Now she’s single with corpses for relatives(she thinks her sister would’ve found that funny). Her teammates returned to campus with her; eyes mournful and hearts sunk to the bottom of their stomachs, so prepared to shield and coddle when needed. Sev was one of them: through every breakdown and anxiety attack and hungry but nauseating night.
“I’m not tryna bring up old shit. You been through a lot and deserve some fun. That’s all I’m sayin’. Get your last bit of jitters out before the season starts.”
Vi nods. She gets it. Losing her sister was just as much of a loss for Sev as it was for her, but somehow, she was able to ease back into herself. Become… normal again. Socializing takes so much energy outta Violet, now. She’d rather go lift or go sock the shit outta rich person. In some ways, she wishes she had as much willpower as her friend.
She knows why Sev wants her to go. New pussy, new me, her and Abby once told her, but she’s not in the mood to smash right now. She’ll probably start crying if they don’t kiss both her cheeks before her nose like… Ugh. She shivers in disgust… and extreme longing. She misses her ex like crazy.
“I know. I’ll, uh, think about it.”
“M’kay… now what the fuck is epitactic theory.”
“Girl…”
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r/AskReddit
u/artkiller 12mi
Advice Needed
how crazy is it to ask for a threesome from two ppl that don’t know you?
[f21] i’m currently in my campus library watching my girlfriend study with her teammate from my stiff ass beanbag and i need them both like crack. how do i bring intercourse up without making it awkward or uncomfortable? help asap pls
also i might c her this weeknd she’s going out and i wanna go
CreamTeam • 5mi
Wait … so is she your girlfriend or not?? 😭😭
artkiller OP • 2mi
we have a complicated relationship🩷
ButchesForChrist • 1mi
Aka she’s stalking her. Scroll down a little
artkiller OP • 30s
stay out my business
CreamTeam • 1s
What the fuck
kewlio313 • 2mi
I thought we were better than this, honey.
artkiller OP • 30s
you prob are. im not
kewlio313 • 4s
Deep sigh.
Your phone drops from your jittery hands and into your lap, screen glowing with every disappointed reply from fucking Kewlio who you’ve grown to love. You like to call them a friend. A faceless, emotionally intelligent, oddly attractive friend who you’ve never met.
The love of your life is right there, as always. Exactly 34 steps away, past the shelves littered with history novels and biographies, sat at the table surrounded by Liberal Arts textbooks and her star-littered laptop. Black jacket, black shirt, ripped black jeans, hair dyed black: that’s new. Still streaked with pink and somehow you’re even more hungry for her. She’s looked a mess recently: beaten and bruised, coming to class with black eyes and bandages across her pretty nose. It makes you wanna burn down the entire Arts and Sciences building with everyone inside of it.
She’s annoyed with Sevika, you can tell. They’re talking about something. Maybe her sister, rest in peace. Or piss if she sucked. Whatever. A small part wishes you listened a little closer when she talked about Jinx(weird ass nickname, but okay) so you’d know exactly what to ask. She can take out any aggression or sadness on you anytime. In here, outside. You’d drop ‘em for her wherever.
Kewlio is a dirty liar. You’re not a stalker. You’re a fan, an admirer, a lover. Your girl’s simply unassuming… How the fuck is that your fault?
She won’t be like that for long, though.
Vi lost her cleats a few days ago. Her black and blue ones that are worn the hell down and hanging at the seams, but she loves them. Wears them almost every match despite how unsteady they make her on the field. They’re her lucky charm, besides you, of course.
Her lucky charm found her lucky charms.
And by found, you mean broke into her gym locker with the code you memorized 2 years ago and snagged ‘em. She should really get those locks changed before someone takes something important.
The explanation of how you found her cleats exactly? You’re not sure and you’re not dwelling. She’ll be so relieved that you found them that it won’t even matter. Might even drop to her knees and praise you like a God. Is she religious? One of the minor details you don’t know about her.
But you’ll find out soon enough. No worries at all.
You wonder how Caitlyn is doing.
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Rabbit holes are either your best friend or worst enemy. Today, they’re straddling the fence. Your brain never shuts off when you're in a crisis. You’re ovulating, overstimulated, and searching for a cure from someone you’ve never said hello to.
The internet can solve your problems though. Especially if they’re sex-deprived millennials. Their long-term lack of human contact makes for some hilarious stories and useful what-not-to-dos.
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Reddit searches are always on your side. All answers to the world at the tip of your fingers. You love the media! Squirting is not pee evidently. PornHub comments are not a reliable source. You should ask your girlfriend if she squirts.
Caitlyn would know. Fucking BITCH!
how to make girlfriend come
Mansplainer misogynists geeking about making their wives do housework while they sit on their asses and flirt with young Discordians. ‘I clap and she appears’
…
You should craft a bomb that only targets cis-het men because what the fuck is going on right now.
how to make girlfriend cum
‘[M48] I’ve never made my wife climax and we’ve been together for 15 years and have 2 children’
Your eyes are fucking burning. Is it bad to wish death on a person? Cursed imagery. Your fingers attempt to salvage the last bits of your sanity.
how to make girlfriend orgasm wlw
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insanity quiz
You’re normal you’re okay you’re literally fine.
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“Ma’am.”
You gasp sharply. Librarian. Fuck oh shit
“Hi. We’re, uh, lockin’ up, so…”
You’re still at the library. How much time has passed? How many rabbit holes have you fallen into? Where’s your girlfriend? Her and Sev are gone…
But you know where to find your g-spot! Hooplah!
“Oh ye— Yeah! Uhh… bye.” You stand so fast you get whiplash. Your backpack beats against your back when you adjust the straps on your shoulders. Headphones on, music blasting, and just like that, the world is off and you’re on. Right into the darkness of the city.
You love a stripper’s playlist in times like these.
You love Reddit in times like these.
You walk and walk with an extra skip in your step. Time to drive Kewlio crazy.
r/AskReddit
u/artkiller 1s
guys im happy
the joy that i feel rn is unmatched. i love my life. im so excited for the future. thank you god and or universe for these blessings
And post. Nothing could wipe the smile off your face. Nothing nothing nothing you love it here! You love school. You love your girlfriend and her friends and her sport!
“Oof—“
“AH—“
Your back connects with the angles of your hardcovers and fuck you hope your laptop survived that drop. There’s not nearly enough cushion in your bag to cover that fall fuck your life you hate everyone—
“YOU FU—“
“Holy fuckin’ shit I’m so sorry are you ok—“
And your mouth zips. Oh…
Oh.
Your girl’s in running shorts. Squeezing her thighs good ‘n tight and she glistens with sweat, brows pulled down in concern as she eyes you from above. If the sun was still out, the rays would dress her head like a halo. A heavenly sight. You’d die here… but not before a drop of her sweat falls on your face. You need that at least once. Zooweeema—
“Are you oka— fuck, gimme your hands, up ya go, c’mon—“
Oh she’s talking. And grabbing you.
Your hands are warmed by skin and your spine tickles when you’re pulled to your feet like a feather. The pain in your back and shoulders don’t fucking matter anymore. Life works in mysterious ways, doesn’t it?
“Hi, Vi.”
“I’m— hey, uh… do we know each other?”
We love each other actually!
“No— I uh, sorry! I go to watch your matches and all that. Kinda a fan… Sorry if that’s weird—“
“No no no no, not weird at all. Uh, very flattering actually. ‘Preciate it.”
You’re gonna fucking pass out.
“Are you okay though? Nothing hurts, right?” And your knees wobble when a squeezing hand lands on your shoulder, gauging you for pain. No pain. Just deprived. Needy. Desperate. Touch me some more.
“M good.”
“Cool…” Her hand drops and you nearly screech like a banshee, “And your name? Sorry bout t—“
You interrupt with yours and she smiles. Nice to meet you, she says with gravel and your heart grows another heart inside of another heart. Holy fucking you’re boutta
“I like rugby.”
Kill yourself. You’re boutta kill yourself.
Vi’s eyes widened before nodding in agreement, “Yeah… me too. If it wasn’t obvious enough. It’s a great… stress reliever.”
So is sex, according to Sexcopedia.edu. Do me.
“Really? It looks painful sometimes.”
She sighs with tension, “It is. We gotta lot of aggressive people playing against us so we have to always… do more. I guess, I dunno. But whenever I’m mad it’s great. Very useful.”
“Are you mad often?”
“Are you studying psychology?” She pins with an arched, slit brow, but her eyes remain light and friendly. It’s funny, she doesn’t appear to be this approachable with her grunge-ness.
“Nah. I need to, though. Could do me some good.”
Her laugh is hearty. Genuine. “Shit, me too. Help me out.”
“Do you wanna be my friend?”
She seems stunned and you don’t know why. Doesn’t banter create friendship? Whatever. Fuck it. She can say no. You don’t care. You still got her shoe—
“Gimme your phone—”
Your heart drops to the floor, through the concrete, right into the center of the Earth’s crust waiting to burn and cease to exist. She’s got you figured out. You’ve been exposed and she’s gonna fry you in the middle of the damn street
“—I’ll put my number in.”
… Oh.
You meticulously make sure your notis are deleted and OFF before handing her your device with the keypad on display. Her fingers are pretty and nimble. Flexible with how slender they are. Pretty hands. Pretty, blue veins and you're instantly reminded of her ex. You hate the color blue.
She hands your phone back, “That’s me. Hit me up when you get… wherever you’re going. And lemme know if I need to cover your medical expenses for spinal cord surgery.”
You laugh. Really fucking loudly and she flinches, but smiles after. She’s so fucking cute! Is this flirting?
“Y-Yeah, I will.”
Her head tilts fondly, “Cool.”
“Cool.”
She gives you one last look before plugging her earbud in to continue her jog. You check her contact to make sure it’s real and fuck you have her fucking number! Fuck fuck fuck fuck
You leap like the happiest frog in the pond when she’s out of your line of view and a sharp pain whips through your shoulder blades.
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r/AskReddit
u/artkiller 3mi
lads i just got proposed to. spring wedding in sweden
number collected. so it begins.
kewlio313 • 48s
Christ help us all.
CreamTeam • 10s
Ring pics.
artkiller OP • 3s
cawk ring pics***
CreamTeam • 1s
Should’ve fuckin known. I hate you genuinely
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r/AskReddit
u/artkiller 30s
when’s a good time to text the girl you’re obsessed with?
[f21] soooo i’m laying in bed lookignat her contact and idk what to do. i’ve fantasized about this so many times and now its in my lap… im so used to shit going wrong that idk how to react to it going right. it’s kinda late but i really wanna talk to her but idk she might be sleep or whatever.
should i scale her building and check if she’s awake? :(
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Vi doesn’t know why there’s a pit in her stomach. She sits on her teammate’s fluffy rug with a smoked out Sevika who patiently waits for her green light, but it hasn’t come. She feels an oncoming breakdown and she needs a babysitter just in case.
“Finish this for me?” A roach floats in front of Vi’s face before she pushes it away.
“No.”
“Buzzkill.”
Sev and Vi sit in silence for 12 seconds before the roach is stolen and hit by the latter. Sevika snickers. Vi drops her head on the couch and exhales her worries through clouds. Stressed, anxious riddled, maybe not the best headspace to get high but fuck it.
“Whatcha thinking about?”
She shrugs, “Everything.”
“Talk ta me. What’s happening.”
Vi’s face burns when her mind plagues with you. Your giant bifocals and smudged mascara and acrylic-stained hoodies. You had a backpack on… Could be a student here. You might be a freshman. Vi hates making assumptions about strangers but you seemed a little…
Immature? Your eyes were too shiny to be a senior.
“You’re gonna laugh…”
“I’ll always laugh at your stupid ass,” She snickers. “What happened, though, seriously.”
Wafts of smoke curl around her words, “I almost bulldozed a girl earlier.”
Sevika scrabbles to her knees with a slack jaw, “WHAT THE—“
“Oh my fucking god can you be normal for—“
“BITCH BULLDOZED? WHAT THE FUCK FREAKY ASS BITCH—“
“NOT LIKE THAT!” Vi scoffs, “I went on a run and bumped into her! Fucking WEIRDO!”
Sevika slumps back on her ass, clearly disappointed, “… Oh.”
Vi tends to the roach until her fingertips burn, stubbing out the burnt paper on Sevika’s ashtray. When she looks up, she finds a very intrigued looking fox. Here she fucking goes.
“She hot?”
Vi’s sigh is littered with agitation at her friend while she laughs, “I hadta fucking ask! Tell me! She smell good?”
“I don’t fuckin’ remember! We talked for like… 2 minutes!”
“2 is enough time to check her out. Show’a hands, how fat were her tits? Like this?” Sevika mimes holding watermelons that are too goddamn heavy and Vi cringes.
“You fucking disgust me.”
Sevika relaxes back onto her elbows, legs extended in front of her. Her brow quirks when she catches Vi’s gaze drop to her waist, “Meh. You like that about me.”
“Sometimes. Not when I’m in a crisis.”
“Meeting a girl is a crisis now?”
“Yes! I don’t fucking know, she was…”
Honestly, Vi’s unsure how to describe you.
“Does she at least go here! You’re not giving me shit to work with.”
“I DON’T KNOW—“
“DON’T FUCKING YELL AT ME—“
Vi groans with her palms in her eyes, “She just asked to be friends. She told me she watches us play and that she’s—“
“Back the fuck up,” Sevika raises up again, “Do you not see what’s happening here!”
“…”
“You’re actually fucking stupid, wow,” She scoffs, “You know she set all that up, right?”
“… What in the fuck are you talking abou—“
“She ran into you on purpose! She’s a fan bitch!” Sev reaches for her phone on the coffee table, “What’s her Instagram?”
Vi whines, “I don’t know—“
Before Sevika can cuss her out for the 40th time, she bursts, “I GAVE HER MY NUMBER!”
“… Did you get hers?”
“…”
“BROTHER—“
“Shut up! I’m not… I don’t flirt! I don’t know how, not anymore! She caught me off guard honestly.”
“What's her name?”
Vi sheepishly mumbles your title; it’s slimy the way it curls on her tongue. You were so nice and now she’s setting you up to be pestered by her best friend.
It’s silent for 3 minutes, only the pittering of Sevika’s fingers on her device while she hunts for you. Another 4 pass before she tosses her phone in annoyance.
“You sure you weren’t hallucinating? Nothing’s poppin’ up.”
“You’re so annoy—“
WHO THAT IN THE BAAAAAAACK, WHO THAT IN THE BAAAAAAACK
Vi’s phone screen glows gray with an unsaved number across the top… One with their area code… Sevika watches the number scroll like a hawk. The smile that grows on her face is crooked. And knowing.
It’s 11PM. It’s not you. It couldn’t be you.
“That’s your ringtone?” Sevika snorts.
“Shut up.” Why’s she so anxious all of a sudden? Her sweaty palms aren’t enough to stop her from reaching for the device, though.
She answers and puts you on speaker.
“Hello?”
“…Hi. It’s me.”
Sevika’s brow lifts in questioning. Is that her? She mouths and Vi nods. Her eyes roll when her friend whispers, cute voice.
She’ll never say, but Sevika’s presence re-energizes her. Makes her a little more playful, so she teases, “Me who?”
A beat of silence passes before you start mumbling to yourself, “I’m gonna fuckin’ throw up is this the wrong per—“
Sevika’s hand flies over her mouth to smother her laughter while Vi coddles you; laughs that she’s joking and that she was waiting on your call. Her cheeks burn when her teammate throws her an accusatory look.
“Do you mean it?”
“Mean what?”
“That you’ve been waiting on me?”
Before Vi can answer, Sev raises up onto her knees and mimes fucking somebody from the back, face slack with faux and exaggerated pleasure. She ignores the sinful jolt in her tummy and flings a throw pillow right at her face.
“Yeah, ‘course I was…”
And then it’s silent again. Her muscles freeze with every deep breath you take over the phone. Sevika waits expectantly, talk to her, she says with flapping fingers.
“Whatcha up to?”
“… Uhh… nothing?”
Your laugh is featherlight, “Are you asking me?”
“Maybe?”
Sevika’s had enough of the tomfoolery. She wiggles over and hits the mute button with a heavy slam. Leans in close while she whispers,
“Dude, she’s tryna fuck—“
“No, she isn’t—“
“Yes she is, dodo, did you hear how she was talkin’?” Her tone heightens in pitch, mocks seduction, “You were waiting on me, baby?—“
“H-Hello?” Your mumble is drenched with insecurity. Sevika doesn’t give a fuck.
“See?” She nearly screams, “She’s DJin’ right now—“
Violet shoves her back before unmuting, “Sorry, m’here…”
“… Was it a bad time to call?” You’re quieter now. Ashamed sounding. Embarrassed.
“Not at all! Sorry, I was smoking earlier, makes me lose my train of thought.”
“It’s okay…”
“You make it home safe?”
“Mhm. I was about to fall asleep but then I remembered to call, so…”
Vi catches her smile before her friend can bully her for it, “So, you called…”
“Yes,” said excitedly. She can hear your smile. Very puppy-like. Cute. Vi jolts when Sev starts snoring obnoxiously fucking loud. She flicks her forehead.
“Is someone there with you?”
Both their eyes widen. A sharp hand raises to slap Sevika, but she flinches before it lands, “Sorry. Just my stupid ass roommate.”
“Hi, Sevika.”
You’re oddly calm…. But why wouldn’t you be? You had no other intent for this phone call other than keeping your promise. They still share a look though; a brief flash of intrigue and skepticism. How’d you know…
It’s not pondered on for long by Sevika before she sings, “Hey, sweetheart.”
You sound like the wind has knocked outta you. “H-Hi.”
Sev singles for Vi to pass the phone over to her. She obliges with a hard stare, “I was just passing through, but while I’m here, I gotta couple… questions. That good with you?”
“Yes.”
“Good. You single?”
“Mhm. For forever, sadly.”
“Great. Are we at the same school?”
“Duh. I’m at every match. We’re, uh… graduating together if everything goes as planned.”
So definitely not a freshman. Just when Vi thought it was impossible to finish college without a chip on your shoulder. You seem to have made it through just fine.
Despite Sevika’s reputation of being cold-hearted and abrasive with wicked flirtation skills, she speaks to you like you’ve been in her life for years. Gentle. Inquiring. She lays flat on her stomach with her feet kicked up behind her, “What’s your major?”
“Architectural engineering. What’s yours?”
“You’re so smart. ‘M doing mathematics. You should tutor me when you getta chance.”
“Sure. Just lemme know when. I’m always in the library, so.”
“Well, what a fucking coincidence, so are we! You coulda dropped by and said hello if that was the case.”
“I’m trying to do that now… Am I doin’ okay?”
“Just fine actually. Aren’t you sweet.”
“I taste sweeter.”
Sevika drops the phone on the plush rug beneath them. Sits upright with urgency. Gawks at Vi whose jaw is nearly in her lap. There’s hardly any air in her chest. She squabbles for her phone and ensures that the volume is all the way up. Holds the device right in between them.
“… Swear? I don’t think that’s possible.” Sevika hums at you, holding her roommate’s gaze while her tongue traces over the dryness on her lip.
“You could find out… Both of you can if you wanna.”
“‘S that easy?” Sevika rasps, and Vi flinches when her breath hits her mouth. Leans in a bit closer to feel more on her face.
“Why do you sound like that?” Vi huffs at your genuine curiosity. You’re so fucking cute, fuck.
“Because you’re turning me on, hon,” Her gaze washes over Vi and her skin burns with trails. “Both of us.”
“Oh… cool.” You exhale unsteadily. They can’t help but laugh at you. “Cool?” Vi repeats.
“Yeah. Awesome. I’ve never done that to someone before.”
“You a virgin?”
“Yup.”
“FaceTime us.”
“I have a Samsung.”
Both girls explode into laughter, “We’ll call you, then, Jesus—“ Vi sends an eager finger towards the small camera before you mumble,
“Who says I’ll answer?”
Sevika tuts, “You don’t wanna watch us kiss?”
“I’d rather watch in person.”
Sevika throws Vi a look and she’s instantly reminded of Abby. Usually, that glance — filled with an equal amount of tenderness of filth — is shared between her teammates and she’s forced to endure whatever nonsense they plan to take out on somebody together, but now she’s here. Sevika’s including her in such a sacred ritual. She’s suddenly skittish, “You’re killing me, baby. Whatcha doing this weekend?” Sev quiets, timbre amorous.
“Playing Overwatch.”
“Fuck that shit. Come to Kappa on Saturday. Everybody’s goin’.” Sevika snips down at Violet, and she whines while her fingers dig into her roomie’s tank top. A little closer, and they’re kissing. Just an inch—
“What’s Kappa?”
Vi giggles, “House,” Sevika mumbles against Vi’s mouth, “Frat house. Right off 16th. It's bright blue, can’t miss it.”
“‘K, I’ll go. See ya there.”
“Wh—“
Three dial tones break through the smoke in the air before the screen goes dark, both girls left stunned and… very tempted to track your location. Maybe pop a titty for your RA in exchange for your room number. Wouldn’t be the first time…
… Is that too much?
It could be, but you didn’t hesitate to drop bomb after proposition, and the selfish part of her heart can’t help but think you wouldn’t mind two ravenous strangers at your front door. The knowledge that they’d give you everything you needed would be enough for you to allow them entry.
And the way Sevika’s staring at her… Craving, but careful. She’s so patient.
It’s been such a long time — two years since they’ve had any physical connection. Drunken nights, quickies in the locker room showers— the distractions from grief were all put on the back shelf when Vi got into her relationship. Sevika’s a sleaze, not a homewrecker — most times, so she kept her hands to herself out of respect, no matter how many times Violet would catch her staring where she knew was off limits.
Vi can't get to you, but she can get to Sevika.
So she yanks her close, dissolves the space between them as their mouths collide with heat and a newfound ache for you in the middle. Sevika’s just as rough as she remembers — pushes her down so her back molds to the floor, entangles a cinched hand in her hair to pull and expose her neck to the attacks. She’s got blotches and teeth marks on her throat — the unrestrained and possessive and her stomach flips. She gasps at the ceiling when her nightshirt shreds under a forceful hand.
She hasn’t had the heart to have sex in months — propositions were turned down on dozens of occasions because her mind couldn’t focus on enjoying. Every second of euphoria gets overshadowed by hollow, unforgiving guilt.
You sparked something in her with your forwardness, that curiosity that left her aching to read your mind. Her best friend, too, evidently.
Every movement is fast. She crawls down her torso with intent — fangs sharp where they leave blood down her sternum. Vi’s fingers pry Sevika’s shirt off, her tongue separating from her waist for mere seconds before reattaching. An eager hand fondly moves her friend’s hair out of her face.
You want it? Sevika’s eyes read.
Yes, I want it, please. Vi says aloud. Eager with a twisting hand in her scalp.
Sevika sends waves through Vi with every wrestle her tongue devotes to her clit. She can’t think of anything but Sevika and you and both of you at the same time; on top of her — you sat on her face while Sevika’s fingers drove inside her. She wants her tongue inside you; unrelenting and feverish until you scream and soak her tongue in your sweetness.
Sevika eats like she’s hungry. She eats like she misses having her like this and that wounds Vi up tight; it sends shockwaves down her legs. Makes her twitch, but Sevika forces her still with a tight grip on her waist.
Vi curses with fluttery eyes when a finger — then two, circles around the entrance that aches for a stretching.
They’re heaven sent when they push in. She’s getting fucked like she’s hated and she loves it. She deserves to feel like nothing; her walls are selfish where they encase the digits that bring her to the sun, massage against every sensitive ridge just how she needs. Her mouth spills with whatever energy she has left within her; slurred and drooled fuck yes yeses. She can barely conjure a warning when her core locks tight, right before she explodes.
There’s wetness everywhere while she pulses through her pleasure, thighs squeezing around Sevika’s head with every satisfied moan that vibrates on her clit. Tells Violet to give her more and to take it take it take whatever she gives her like she knows she can.
It’s not until Violet starts sobbing and Sevika’s mouth is dripping wet that she pulls out and separates from her completely. She kisses her pussy gently before shifting to help unlock Violet’s knees. She shivers with every peck that’s trailed up her torso to her chest to her neck.
Sevika laughs when Vi does, choked and clogged, but elated and genuine. It’s been so long since her body’s felt this light.
“You needed that. Ya look better already,” Sevika cackles. “Can you stand?”
“Fuck off, gimme a sec.” Vi shoves playfully at her chest.
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r/AskReddit
u/artkiller 3s
guys.
i love being a liar. it makes me feel alive never let a bitch tell you lying is wrong it literally makes life so much easier!! wishing everyone a good night.
everything’s going as planned. just one more tally on the board and we’re set
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r/AskReddit
u/artkiller 20mi
Advice Needed
it’s been 24 hours and my girl who’s not my girl has been texting me nonstop.
[f21] hello. im in a crisis but a good one? if that’s possible. long story short im in love but not dating the girl im in love with yet. i took some of y’all’s flirting advice and i think it worked. im betting my life that yall do witchcraft. i barely said anything to her and now she won’t me😝😝😝 and tbh… i think her friend won’t me too!!!!! she’s always asking about my day and asking if i ate and if id wanna eat with her but i always decline bc im not ready physically mentally like i’m gonna combust the second she walks up to me i barely survived our first interaction…… but her friend invited me to a party tomorrow night…….. wtf do i wear to that i’ve never been outside before LOL
might get a train ran on me…… WE’LL SEE FRIENDS
adding her undies to the shrine🩷 yaaaay
CreamTeam • 14mi
bro is she your girlfriend or not? It’s been years at this point.
artkiller OP • 12mi
yes i mean no or yes :)
kewlio313 • 7mi
Wear something that you wouldn’t wear to your parents funeral. Good luck dear
artkiller OP • 5mi
i would whore out if my family died
kewlio313 • 2mi
Good God.
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What does genuine happiness feel like?
You’re unsure how long you’ve been on your beanbag, but Violet and Sevika have been laughing since you sat down. They’re so relaxed around each other, content with silence. Accepting of failure.
You’re not a jealous person at all. Far from, actually, but something furies from within whenever you see them — or people, in general, gleeful; the desperation to feel. You haven’t had the privilege. Maybe that’s why you cling to whatever you have with Vi. She has birthed a wanting inside you. A desire for connection after spending decades comforted by the sound of your own voice. Or comments under your posts.
Violet makes you happy. And Sevika might, too. Just as long as she doesn’t get too close to your light.
You’re standing right behind Sevika. She can’t see you, but Vi can. Her fear is swiftly overshadowed by delight. She greets you with a smile that makes your heart throb.
Sevika’s gaze wanders down to your legs, that remain exposed despite the weather,
“You’re not cold?” She asks. Not exactly the introduction you were expecting, but that makes you giddy. Vi must tell her about you!
“Yes,” You say with ease, “Y'all should come to my room. It’s warmer there.”
Vi nods after gawking, 2 books immediately tucked to her chest with her bag on her back. Sevika just laughs. She gets it. You like that.
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r/AskReddit
u/artkiller 1s
Advice Needed
how do i mentally prepare for sex? (virginity)
literally fucking freezing walking to my room rn with two burly butches that i want to throw me around and i think they’re going to bc they’re not talking to me but the y are very close i don’t want them to see my screen guys im about to have a threesome pls fucking help me
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“Cute room.” Violet says, inspecting your horror movie posters and stuffed animals.
“Thank you.” You smile.
I hid the 14 polaroids of you that I had taped to my door. Hope that makes you more comfortable!
“It’s just you in here?” Sevika chimes, eyes glued to the small bed up against the wall, right next to your PC setup. You should ask if they game afterwards.
“Yes.”
Violet takes her jacket off and hangs it on your doorknob.
“Already takin’ off your clothes?” You plop down onto your freshly made mattress. Both girls look very stiff in your space; Is that normal? Maybe they’re nervous.
Both girls laugh the same. “Not like that. It is warm in here.” Sevika follows in Vi’s lead, removing her hoodie and her undershirt is squeezing her and yup those arms are still there those muscles are popping out yup yup yup—
“Yeah. I can’t sleep in the cold.” You pat your bedspread for them to sit… and they do. On either side of you. Vi brought her notebook and pencil. Sevika brought her heavily ringed hands.
She scoffs, “Me neither. Immune system is worse than a newborn’s.”
“Do you get sick easily?”
“Yes. I just got over it last week.”
“Damn…”
“Almost got me sick,” Violet pins playfully, skimming through her pages. She erases before rewriting. So so so so smart; too bad both her answers were wrong. You’ll show her the way soon enough.
“Coach would hate me. Her star pupil’s under the weather, what ever shall we do,” Sevika mocks and you both chuckle.
“The season starts next week. Y’all nervous?”
“No—“ “Yes—“
“I’m nervous for games, not practice,” Vi corrects, “I can’t find my fuckin’ shoes.”
“What shoes?”
“My cleats. My sister got ‘em for me a while ago, wear ‘em every match for good luck. I don’t remember where I fucking put them though.”
“Aww, ‘m sorry.”
Sorry for keeping them in my closet.
“S whatever. Just gotta get new ones.”
Small talk is boring as fuck, but it continues between you and Vi. Sevika’s quiet as a mouse; every glance in her direction is met with hooded eyes. She’s very focused on your nightstand drawer. Can she see what’s inside it? You hope so; Maybe your unworn thongs will motivate them to move this along.
“Awww! Wait, you used to play soccer?”
You already know all this. It’s on her fucking Instagram for fucks sake!
“On the junior team when I was like… 10! I was—“
Trash. I kept tripping over the fuckin’ ball—
“—And forgetting to tie my shoes. It was a hot fucking mess!”
Yup. Same as the caption.
The laughter between you finally quiets. You count 12 seconds in your head. You raise a hand to place it on the Hello Kitty bandage directly under her eye.
“What happened here?”
Sevika’s breathing is very calming.
“Got in a fight,” Vi mumbles. Poor things embarrassed! “Got socked in the eye.”
“Sorry,” Your hand rests in your lap, “Did I hurt you?”
“You’re good… still stings though. They gotta good one in.”
“How’d it happen?”
“Don’t remember honestly.”
“Oh okay.”
The conversation ends. Another 12 seconds.
“So… Did you guys fuck after I hung up?”
Sevika smiles and Vi chokes in shock. They’re so different. No wonder they’re so close.
“I— sorry, thought we were studying—“
“Who said we were gonna study?” You stare at Vi quizzingly.
“No one did. We mighta fucked.” Sevika shrugs nonchalantly.
“Oh… was it fun? Whatever it was.”
“Ask her.” She nods in direction of the girl whose face is beet fucking red. How cute!
“Vi… was it fun?”
Her eyes droop to the pencil in her hand before flicking it nervously.
“… I guess.”
“You guess?”
“That’s what I said.”
“… Okay.”
Vi sets her book and pencil on your nightstand before releasing a stuttered sigh.
“Tell me what happened if ya wanna,” Softness wafts off your tongue.
Vi swallows, “I… uh…”
“Mhm?”
“We… I didn’t…”
“I gave her head til she cried.” Sevika whispers right in your ear; tickling against your lobe and you’re suddenly winded. Vi’s legs twist until one crosses over the other.
Gave… Oh…
This isn’t new information. You’re 79% sure Sevika was Vi’s first kiss… or you heard something like that in passing, so why does the sudden confirmation make you wanna hide? Curl into your blankets and shield yourself from both of them?
“Oh… fun.” Your face burns underneath the skin.
“Very.”
“Yup…”
“You’re shy now? After all that?” Sevika almost laughs when your eyes drop to the floor.
“It’s uh, easier to talk when no one’s actually there.”
“We coulda been if you’d answered the fucking phone.”
“… Sorry.”
“It’s okay, baby.”
Sevika’s captain of the team for a reason; a leader by nature and Vi allows her to despite her anticipation. She's much closer now, the respectful distance she kept up upon arrival now completely shut, her shoulder touching yours, nearly straddling your leg.
There’s a light tickle on your thigh; Sevika’s index finger barely grazes the skin exposed beneath the hem of your skirt.
“You’re so stiff,” She whiffs tender against your neck and you choke a noise.
“I’m … ‘mscaredtobreathe—“
“Don’t be scared,” Sevika’s whole hand caresses your knee, eases you into her, all while Vi mouths at your neck. “Here, wanna know a secret?”
You release the air in your lungs, “Sure…”
She’ll never tell, so I will. Your head bobs so encouragingly.
Vi told me something after she showered that night.
With every buttery brustle against your shoulder, Vi’s hands gently attack wherever they can reach; the plush of your hips, on your thighs, grabbing at your tummy over your hoodie that takes up too much fucking space for her liking. You can’t stop squirming with every taut pull at the pit of your stomach.
I was sitting on my bed and she came in, and she smelled so good. I was trying to roll up again, but she took my tray and put it on my dresser…
Roll up? Tray? What what what the fuck is she saying—
And she got on her knees in front of me… and she looked so fucking cute just staring up at me like that, like she’d do anything to make me happy… She’s sweet like that if she’s in the mood.
She said ‘may I practice on you, please?’… And I said okay… So she pulls down my underwear and treats me so well. You wanna know who she was practicing for?
Yes, yes, please—
It was you, baby. She kept telling me how good she wanted to make your first time.
A strained noise chokes from your throat, and Vi smiles against your ear before her lips close around your lobe and it’s too much they’re too much—
Uh huh, and her tongue felt so fucking good on me. Almost impressive… and she loved every second of it.
Please… please, I’m—
Listen to that, Violet, she’s so fucking cute, isn’t she?
So sweet, too. Bet she tastes so fucking good.
She’s so hungry for you, baby, Sevika coos at you, Gonna stop teasing and give us what we want?
You agree obediently — desperately, with every thrumming cell you can use at the moment.
Vi’s benign hand rests on your cheek to turn you towards her before kissing you softly. A gentle peck before she pulls away. It’s overstimulating; Vi kissing and touching you like you’re made of glass while Sevika sucks large bruises on the side of your throat. Your nails dig into the muscular thigh that hardly shakes at your grip in attempts to ground yourself, but they fail because you’re about to faint.
Your sun kisses you deeper, holds your face tighter to keep you where she needs to tongue at your lips. You’re trying to keep up with her, to use the muscle like she uses hers, but you’re falling behind. They don’t seem to mind, satisfied with the fact that they’re gonna devour you regardless.
And when Vi lays you back nice and cozy against your pillows while Sevika kisses all over your face, you know you’re fucked.
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Sevika and Vi take turns kissing you.
It’s a messy and uncoordinated mess of teeth and saliva, mainly because of you, but you like it. You love it. You hope they do, too. The warmth of their bodies beside you resonates deep in your core. Whenever one of them pulls away, the next is more than open to take her place, over and over. Your thighs are already shaking.
Your hoodies raised up thanks to Vi’s wandering hands, tucked right above your rib cage. Your stomach jolts when a feathery finger teases at the band of your skirt.
“You ticklish?” Vi mutters against your cheek.
“… Nope.”
“Yes—” She swipes the same finger against your exposed skin and you jump with a giggle, “you are. Liar.”
“Fuck you!”
“Yeah… I really, really want to.”
She doesn’t give you time to think of a response; just kisses you one last time before climbing onto her knees. Meanwhile, Sevika’s struggling to get comfortable in your bed. She’s essentially on top of you, both her legs wrapped around one of yours.
“Fucking — small ass mattress! I forgot how much I hate these!”
“S-Sorry! Couldn’t afford anything else — mmh!”
Sevika reconnects your mouths while the bed dips beside you. Then there’s lips on your tummy.
Laughter explodes outta you; Sevika can’t help but laugh into your mouth while Vi nibbles at your pudge. Her grin glows on your skin before her tongue glides on your hip. Her attention stays there; sloppy noises from above and below, your gasps swallowed with every bite Vi gives you.
You hardly register her pulling your skirt down. You’re just colder. And fuzzier in the head. Sevika breaks away to ask,
“How wet is she?”
Huh— oh she’s not talking to you yup yup—
“Come see.”
Sevika rises from position and you’re even colder. When she whistles at the spot on your underwear, your thighs squeeze shut… for 000.3 seconds before she pries them open again.
“Stop I’ll fucking cry—“
“Cry about what? That’s so fucking hot. You’re so cute, baby.”
“Bro I wanna die—“
Sevika rolls her eyes, “Bust one last time at least, damn.”
“Can we make it quick please I’m already on the verge—“
“Of cumming?” Sevika purrs.
“Of suicide—“
Vi’s in hysterics. You shouldn’t be this fucking funny. She watches you and Sevika go back and forth with tears in her eyes.
You bite, “Wonky ass foreplay—“
“I’ll strangle you—“
“I’ll like it—“
Both of you are fucking stupid. Neither of you notice Vi tugging your panties down. She almost starts drooling at the sight of your pussy. Swallows down the lump of saliva before it can drip down her chin. You’re wet and throbbing and pretty and you smell like heaven.
You gasp when two curious fingers separate your sticky lips; strings of slick cling to Vi’s digits. Sevika watches with an insatiable hunger.
“What do you like?” Vi whispers, and you shrug.
“I dunno, I’m new here.”
She rolls her eyes, “I mean what do you do when you touch yourself?
“I don’t do that.”
“Never?” Both girls exclaim.
You shake your head. “I tried once and nothing happened so I just ate spaghetti and went to bed.”
“Were you wet?”
Vi’s forbearing with her inquiries, but still, you’re on the fucking spot and you might start sneezing from anxiety. They’re too patient with you; Maybe you’ve been misreading how they were in bed this entire time. You were expecting them to be knuckles deep in every available hole by now.
You’ve never been so nervous, and for you, that’s saying a lot. “I don’t remember, it was years ago.”
“You’ve never used toys or anything?”
“I… No.”
Sevika stares at Vi, and Vi at Sevika, and you at the wall.
Your thighs twitch when velvet nuzzles at them, Vi’s voice deep as the ocean. “I’m gonna try something, tell me if you like it and I’ll keep going… okay?”
You can’t formulate a response but your head bounces in approval. A finger applies the gentlest of pressure on your clit and you expel a wheeze.
“Okay?” Sevika hums from above you, a hand easing underneath your hoodie to massage your breast.
“Ye-ah—“
“Sit up for me, honey,” She whispers and you obey so she can creep in behind you, your back resting against her chest. Both her hands rub at your chest this time, her fingers massage your nipples while Vi strokes your clit in slow, teasing circles.
“How’s this feel, babe?”
“G— good! Great… h-hooray?” How do pornstars dirty talk so eloquently? You’re literally fucking dying right now. Sevika laughs to herself in your neck and your chest burns.
“Yeah? And this?” She utters right before pressing in, flicking you from side to side and your core squeezes tight. You’re dripping and she watches so closely.
“Oh fuck—“
“There she is, good girl, just feel what she’s givin’ you.” Sevika rasps against your shoulder.
You are feeling and it’s too much for your body to comprehend. Your brain’s never been this focused on one thing. On one feeling, especially one this enjoyable. It’s so good it’s so good you love your fucking girlfriend—
“Tell me when you’re gonna cum?” Vi says against your soft skin
“Uhh…? I— oh god—“
“Getting there, baby? Feel how tight you’re getting? I can see it.”
2 ragged inhales and your eyes roll back and your jaw slacks and your nose tickles oh shit—
“Yeah, yeah, give it to me, c’mon—“
ACHOO!
Your thigh squeezes shut when euphoria overtakes your entire system; thighs clamping shut around Vi’s wrist while she giggles and rubs out your pleasure with ease because she’s stronger than you. Your initial efforts of staying as silent as possible were in vain because you’re squealing your little head off. Sevika rests back on her hands and watches like a hawk while you thrash and clench and leak all over her roommate’s hand.
“Good job. Felt nice, hm?”
You struggle to nod because you’re still cumming so hard and her fingers won’t cease on you. Your thighs stick together with your wetness.
“I’m still eating you out, you know that, right?”
Your whines of approval sound wounded.
You couldn’t see it, but when Vi finally pulled her hand from you, slurping noises swiftly followed, alongside Sevika’s hums of satisfaction.
Mentally preparing for your burial.
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Vi might be obsessed with you.
She’s back in her original position between your thighs — with Sevika this time because she’s greedy — and fuck she’s never been so antsy to give head. She loves it and she loves getting it even more… at least she thought so. The aliens could come crashing down from the clouds and her first focus would still be getting you to soak her face.
You’re fully undressed now, minus a sock; its twin slipped off some fucking where but she couldn’t give a fuck. She’s so desperate to touch you again. It plagues her mind; stuffed with everything that she’s learned about you thus far. You sneeze before you orgasm for fucks sake that’s the cutest shit ever —
Can I?
She’s asking you and you’re whispering yes, please and fuck you moan so pretty when she first glides her tongue on you. Sevika allows her to ease you into the feeling, but she stays close enough to see every drop of slick that glides on Vi’s tongue. You’re so noisy and she loves that. All she can think about is how loud you’d be with your face in her pillow and your hands behind your back while she —
Vi! Violet! I’m cumming again!
You’re a fucking dream. An insane fucking freaky ass dream.
If anyone were to walk past your room right now, they’d be appalled at the ruckus that permeates through your space; sloppy sucking noises and encouraging praises and dehumanizing name calling that makes you grind your hips faster. You’re nearly riding her fucking face.
Vi wishes she could see you in entirety; memorize every thrust and wriggle you give into her face, drowning her in your scent and juices and everything she could ever want in this moment. You’re exactly what she needed; a pliant distraction. You turn her mind off so easily.
Sevika’s greedy and selfish as she raises one of your legs up with ease. You fall back onto the mattress with your back arched to the skies, a cracked wail squeezing from your lungs when another tongue smushes against your clit. Sevika sucks hard at your clit when Vi’s tongue swirls down to meet your entrance. The eager muscle wastes no time to shove inside and catch whatever bursts from you.
She moves on autopilot; eases one finger past your pulsing heat and your legs start to shake. The digit curls deep inside, plunges into you with vigor and determination to get you there, hits a spot that almost lands her a kick in the back of her head, but she catches you; curls an arm around your thigh to keep you still.
And the night — or afternoon or morning, none of you remember, continues like that until you’re drained completely dry and your body contracts from memory.
Hours pass when Sevika and Vi finally start tonguing each other down for your viewing pleasure, and it starts all over again.
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r/AskReddit
u/artkiller 1s
2 butches are sleeping next to me rn…
never let a hoe tell you to stop following your dreams. i’ve been following mine for almost 3 years and now they’re sleep next to me….
#HAPPYPRIDE
#vi smut#vi arcane#vi fanfic#vi league of legends#sevika#sevika smut#sevika arcane#sevika x you#vi x you#lesbian#rugbyplayer!vi#works 𖧧࣪#arcane smut#arcane
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Hey gang I don't want to alarm anyone but if you see someone talking about killing like this:

They mean it. Like they've fully made the mental switch. There isn't doubt in their mind. This is how people discuss assassination, homicide, hate crimes they intend to carry out. I won't bog anyone down with a dissertation about the relevant social and internal psychological processes involved but please if you aren't aware, begin to internalize this.
It's kind of useful to recognize in general!
from elias rodriguez's twitter account:
absolute sociopath
#i dont know what else to say#this is how people talk about murder that is unjustifiable and about killing that they had to do to escape#the reason there is no difference is because the murderer has fully rationalized it to themselves#hence it sounds similar to the words of those who kill out of necessity when explaining their thought process#but different than those that did not kill but may have needed to#and different from those that did not murder innocents but experienced homicidal ideation#those last two havent fully made the switch#i hope this makes sense i dont know how else to accessibly explain it#maybe a psych professional will see the post and is able to better break it down#youll maybe also notice that how he talks in that screengrab may remind you of how many americans feel about you know who#however the specific syntax and cadence here point to a top-down and 'i am enlightened to this idea and others are not' sort of tone#and generally pissed off americans dont talk like that about orange man until they dont fear legal consequence or are so committed#that the acceptability and legality self checking goes away
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This God Damn Fucking Day: Jack Abbot x Reader
Tagged: @kmc1989 @dizzybee03 @noxytopy @flyinglama @yousigned-upforthis
Companion piece to:
The Asshole King - Jack discovers you have an unusual technique for dealing with patients.
Bob Dylan - You help Jack to relax after an incident at the hospital leaves him temporarily blind.
Because Of You - Jack realises he's starting to heal in more ways than one after you spend the day taking care of him.
Boston - You reflect on the past after your ex-husband makes an appearance on a trying day.

Up until the day your ex-husband Richard infiltrates The Pitt, Jack has a very fixed image of the man. He imagines him to be older, portly, Freudian, nothing like the GQ model that steps through the door with a con man’s smile.
There isn’t a single thread of silver in his dark hair despite the fact he’s five years older than Jack and his beard is immaculately groomed to the point of being designer. He wears a navy blue tailored suit that costs more than a nurse’s yearly salary and a cologne he allegedly picked up in Paris during his last conference with the Royal College of Psychiatrists where he was a keynote speaker on manipulation and obsessive behaviour.
The irony of that is not wasted on Jack, considering this asshole has a master’s degree in mind games, which is why he’s here in The Pitt, wrapping his arm around your waist and guiding you into the empty family room before you even know which way is up.
Every single fibre of Jack’s being tells him to intervene, to murder this smug son of a bitch and then stuff his corpse into the overpriced Mercedes that’s parked outside but he doesn’t because he made a promise to let you handle this, because this was always an inevitability.
You knew as soon as Richard heard you were getting married again that he’d try and waltz his way into your life. He doesn’t want you of course, he never did. He just doesn’t want anyone else to have you.
“That Peach’s ex-husband?” Myrna questions, scootching her wheel chair alongside his work station. “He looks like an asshole.”
Peach is what she’s been calling you ever since she cottoned onto the princess nicknames he’d been using. He’s quit with that now but Myrna keeps it up. He’s been Sweet Cheeks for over a decade now because she has a thing for the way his ass looks in scrubs. Robby got off lucky with Fruitcake.
“You know I can’t discuss Doctor Doran’s personal life.” He mutters as he busies himself with his patient charts.
“Uh Sweet Cheeks.” Myrna says, the back of her hand slapping against his forearm. “I think you need to get in there before she kills him.”
Sure enough, Jack’s head jerks up just in time to see you break Richard’s nose. He stumbles back as blood erupts from his nostrils, jetsoning all over his thousand dollar shirt. Jack’s on his feet in an instant, the wheely chair he’s sitting on crashing into the wall behind him as he hurtles towards the family room, his sneakers squeaking on the tiles.
There’s two things that happen when you get punched in the face, you fight or flight and he can tell from the look in that asshole’s eyes he’s about to fight. He already has his hands on you by the time Jack gets through the door, gripping your arms, shaking you and you respond by attempting to claw his motherfucking eyes out.
“He fucking slept with her. He fucked Abby!” You snarl as he gets in between the two of you, his palm on Richard’s chest shoving him away from you. “You were supposed to be helping her!”
“I was helping her, I helped her the same way I helped you!” Richard snaps back, cupping his nose to stem the bleeding. “Jesus fucking Christ, I didn’t realise how much of a bitch you’ve turned into since coming back here. You’re just as deranged as she was!”
You lose your shit then and Jack just about manages to get his arms around you, caging you in so you don’t commit a fucking homicide in the family room.
“Honey.” He says calmly, his forehead coming to rest upon yours, grounding you. “You need to take a walk and let me deal with this.”
“Jack-” You protest.
“Faye.” He asserts, looking into your eyes. “My E.D, my rules. Go take a breather.”
Your jaw clenches as you look away. He’s going to be paying for this tonight, he knows he is but he doesn’t care. He needs to get you out of this situation. He waits for you to leave, the door closing quietly behind you before he turns to face Richard.
“You’ve got her trained well-”
He drives his fist into Richard’s gut, hard enough to hurt like hell but not enough to do internal damage. His fingers wind through the other man’s hair, grasping it tightly as he yanks his head up to meet his gaze.
“You come near her again and I will end you.” He tells the other man, his eyes blazing. “Faye is off limits. You fuck with her, you fuck with me and trust me the shit that I could do to you wouldn’t leave marks, just pain, life altering fucked up pain that will make you wish that you were dead.”
He thrusts Richard away from, causing him to collide with the wall as he tries to catch his breath. Jack reaches for a box of tissues, tossing them onto the chair closest to him.
“You’ve got ten minutes to clean yourself up. If you’re still here when I get back, I’ll make sure to finish what she started.”
He leaves the room, closing the door behind him. His eyes coming on rest on the vacant wheelchair, an empty pair of handcuffs swinging from the armrest.
“This fucking day.” He mutters to himself before he goes in search of Myrna. “This god damn fucking day.”
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Summary: When the past creeps up, more vivid and dangerous than ever, at the same time that the attraction becomes undeniable—and so do the mistakes. Pairing: Spencer Reid x lawyer!reader Genre: mutual pinning but painful, angst. wc: 7.3k! TW: Profiler, profiled canons! so Child abuse (implied and discussed), Sexual abuse, Framing/wrongful accusation, Police misconduct, Violence, mentions of traumatic readers' past!, female rage, violent thoughts. not proofread yet A/N: SO EXCITED FOR THIS ONE, this is my take on soulmates, thank u for all the feedback/support btw, really mindblowing <3 part I - part II - part III - part IV - masterlist
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Something as routine and comforting as traveling to your hometown for your mom’s birthday can go wrong in an instant—sometimes, all it takes is a single moment of doubt. Unfortunately for Derek Morgan, it was the absence of doubt that could become his sentence.
Hotch was notified, as per FBI protocol, that one of his agents had been arrested as a homicide suspect. Maybe it was the fact that he knew Morgan wasn’t capable of something like that—he had been a prosecutor before joining the Academy, after all. As his boss, he refused to believe it. But as his friend, he knew that the smartest move, the one most people failed to make, was calling a lawyer.
The problem? Morgan didn’t have one.
The Bureau’s legal counsel wouldn’t intervene in a case where one of their own was being charged. It had to be someone who knew him, someone who would believe in him.
There was only one person who fit that description.
A.D.A. Woodvale.
So, after issuing an emergency recall for Reid, Prentiss, Jareau, Garcia, and Rossi—Hotch called you.
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One thing some victims, or their families, do after the person who ruined their lives is convicted is express gratitude. Sometimes immensely, sometimes barely—especially when the verdict isn’t what they had hoped for.
Still, they are grateful for your time and commitment to their pain. That’s why some send gifts like baskets filled with fruit, chocolates, candy, or all three combined.
You were at your desk, late at night, again, reviewing case files and drafting a legal brief, absorbed in the task at hand. The basket with its chocolates, and cookies remained sitting on a chair near the window, quietly out of place among the legal paperwork without any card or name, maybe they forgot to put it or it fell on the way.
The phone rings, and you answer immediately, announcing yourself. When the voice on the other end speaks your name, you recognize it instantly.
“I’m gonna need your help.” Agent Hotchner.
You straighten your back. “What is it? A warrant? It’s going to be hard at t—”
He cuts you off. “Morgan is in trouble.” That was enough to tell you this wasn’t just any ordinary favor.
You hesitate, cautious. “What happened?”
“He was arrested as a suspect in a homicide in Chicago.” Morgan? Homicide? For a moment, you’re ready to refuse—this isn’t your field. You put people in jail, not get them out. But then you remember—he saved your life over a year ago. And the weight of that debt settles heavily on your shoulders.
“Hotch, I... What do you want me to do? I don’t have connections there. Maybe I could talk to—”
He interrupts again. “He’s going to need a good lawyer. I know this isn’t what you do, but you know him. You know he’s not capable of something like that.” There’s a brief silence as you weigh your options, considering your next move.
"The jet takes off first thing tomorrow morning," he says, giving you an out, leaving the decision in your hands.
You exhale, and resolve settling in. "Send me the details. I’ll be there."
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As you stepped onto the jet, you spotted Hotch already seated alone. Without hesitation, you slid into the seat across from him, greeting him with a quiet nod, your back turned toward the entrance.
One by one, the rest of the BAU arrived, offering you brief acknowledgments as they settled in. When Reid stepped onto the jet, he barely glanced up—until he caught sight of the back of your head. He hesitated for just a second before moving to a seat diagonal from yours.
Hotch quickly explained that you were joining them to assist Morgan as his defense counsel. The weight of the situation settled over the jet, unspoken but palpable. You noticed it in the way the air felt heavier, in the subtle shifts of the team’s expressions, like how Prentiss shifted in her seat or the way Reid’s lips pressed into a thin line.
Since the Katie Jacobs case, he wouldn’t call it an obsession—that would be an exaggeration, and his mind rejected the idea of something so unscientific, but a fixation? Perhaps. There was something about you that tugged at the edges of his thoughts more often than he liked to admit. His memories of your first meeting were frustratingly blurred, dulled by the lingering fog of withdrawal, but he remembered enough. The way you carried yourself—composed, sharp, unreadable. The precision of your movements, deliberate in a way that suggested control rather than ease. The way your voice stayed measured even when you were angry, like someone who had learned to sharpen their words into weapons rather than waste them on emotion. And your eyes—steady, assessing, like you were always five steps ahead in a game only you could see.
Did you ever place two magnets next to each other and test how close they could be without touching? If they would repel or attract?
Magnets could only get so close before they either locked together or violently repelled each other. If their north poles faced one another—mirrors of the same force—they would push apart, unable to exist in such perfect reflection. But if one turned, aligning its south to the other’s north, the pull would be instant, inevitable.
That was a physicist's way of explaining why, the moment you caught him in the corner of your vision, you noted how his hair was longer than before, tucked behind his ears; how his fingers brushed over the pages of a book, a well-worn paperback pulled from his bag. Crime and Punishment. The same one you had almost mistaken for yours once. North. North.
But now, seeing it again, you wondered—what did he think about Raskolnikov’s theory of extraordinary men? Did he believe true morality could be measured mathematically, the way Raskolnikov tried to justify his crime with cold logic? Or did he see through it, past the numbers, past the equations, past the desperate rationalizations of a man trying to convince himself he was above consequence?
And what would he think about your take on it? That a man was either a fool for failing to control himself or a coward for refusing to own what he had done? Either way you just wanted to know his opinion. North. South.
You were just about to ask him when JJ spoke up. “I don’t understand. Can you even represent Morgan if you’re an A.D.A.? Wouldn’t that be a conflict of interest?”
It was a fair question, one you had asked yourself last night before finding a loophole.
You let out a slow breath, considering. "Technically, I’m not Morgan’s lawyer—he hasn’t called me personally to represent him. And I wouldn’t be joining you as his defense attorney… officially." You glanced at Hotch. "Prosecutors consult on defense cases all the time—off the record. I’m not filing any motions, I’m not putting my name on anything. I’m just… advising."
Prentiss raised an eyebrow. "Advising?"
You exhaled, running a hand through your hair. "I can’t officially defend him, but that doesn’t mean I can’t help. And the police don't need to know every detail about that."
Hotch gave a small nod. "That keeps you in the clear. No official involvement, no risk to your career."
Reid, who had been silent, finally spoke. "But what happens if they’ve already decided Morgan is guilty?"
Your jaw tightened, but Rossi answers first "Then that’s where we come in. We find out who’s setting Morgan up—and we make sure they don’t get away with it."
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As you arrived at the police station, you hung back from the group, not wanting to interfere with the BAU’s process. But when Detective Dennison refused to take Hotch to see Morgan, you decided you wouldn’t stand by quietly anymore.
You stepped forward, standing next to Hotch. “Are you going to take us to see Derek Morgan, or not, Detective?”
He glanced at you as though he didn’t understand the urgency. “Detective Gordinski's in with the suspect now”
“Now is when we need to see him.” you shot back.
“Excuse me?” he started to respond, but Hotch cut him off.
“I have your superintendent's personal cell number,” Hotch said calmly. “And, in the interest of not running roughshod over another police agency, I’ve resisted calling him so far. We need to see Agent Morgan now.”
You couldn’t help but think how Hotch was finally getting some work done.
The detective nodded and, after disappearing into a room, came back with another man. Detective Gordinski, you assumed. It was something you were used to, this unspoken assumption that you were a junior, a minor player in the room, because of your age. It happened often when older men met you—defense attorneys, paralegals, specialists, and even police officers. They assumed you were less than you were. Gordinski was no different. When he approached you, he only offered his hand to Hotch.
“Detective Gordinski, CPD,” he said, as if you weren’t standing right there.
Hotch didn’t seem to notice the slight. “You think an FBI agent, a BAU profiler, committed a homicide?”
Gordinski answered with a level of pride that made your stomach turn. “Actually, three homicides at least, over 15 years.”
You heard JJ and Reid protest, both equally shocked by his ridiculous statement. And the way Gordinski spoke, as though the case was already closed, irritated you. “Has he been charged with anything?”
“I’ve got 72 hours for that,” he replied, clearly still lacking sufficient evidence.
“We’d like to see him,” you said, your tone final. He hesitated for a moment, then reluctantly agreed as Denninson took you and Hotch to see Morgan.
As you entered the interrogation room, you found him in a sort of trance, staring at a photograph in his hands. When he finally looked up, there was a flicker of surprise in his eyes.
“You okay?” you asked, aware of the detective’s overbearing presence in the room.
Morgan exhaled sharply, turning the photo toward you. “This kid—I was with him yesterday.”
“So?” Hotch prompted.
Morgan shook his head, his voice tight. “So, he’s dead. I drove him home, Hotch, and Gordinski’s saying I was the last person seen with him.” His gaze flickered between the two of you, frustration and disbelief written all over his face.
You didn’t need to analyze the detective’s stance to know he had already made up his mind—his persistence was nothing more than a show, an act to reinforce a conclusion he had already reached. But the look in Morgan’s eyes told you everything you needed to know. He cared about that kid.
Turning to the detective, you asked smoothly, “Is there a more private place where I can speak with my client?”
The man hesitated, taken aback. Up until this moment, you hadn’t explicitly stated that you weren’t an agent. His expression tightened. “I’m afraid we don’t have another space for you and the suspect,” he replied with a forced smile.
You returned his look with a cool, unwavering stare. “You do know that any conversation between me and him falls under lawyer-client privilege, right?”
His mouth opened in protest, but you didn’t give him the chance.
“And denying us the proper privacy means that any so-called evidence you think you can get from this interrogation would be inadmissible in court. Not to mention, it’s a direct violation of SSA Morgan’s constitutional rights.” Your tone remained calm, professional—not threatening. Not yet.
The detective narrowed his eyes but gave a short, forced nod, his polite smile not reaching them. “I’ll see what we can do.”
That was code for We’re not doing a damn thing, but we’ll make this as difficult as possible.
Fine. You’d play their game. But first, you needed to find out exactly what they had on Morgan—and fast.
As you step outside, a harsh voice—too raspy and loud for your liking—carries through the room, discussing evidence. You stay quiet, listening. Being on the other side of the law feels strange, but it’s not difficult. If you know how to prosecute, you know the tricks and games cops play. And if you know your opponent's strategy, it’s easier to disarm them and lead them where you want.
The detective asks Rossi if he’s Agent Gideon, and when the detective explains he was the one who sent the profile that led them to Morgan, you curse Gideon internally. First Reid, now Morgan.
"It also said the way the body was placed gently on a mattress, not just tossed on the ground, indicated someone who was probably consumed with guilt, especially for the first victim. The exact words are—'with a guilt-ridden offender,' the BAU postulates the first victim is the most important and the unsub may still visit the place of the crime or even the victim himself.'"
Gordinski’s voice drips with conviction. "Care to guess who visits my first victim every time he's in town?"
You notice Reid glance at you, but you keep your focus on the detective, listening carefully as he continues.
"Then yesterday, another kid ends up dead, and the last person he was with was Derek Morgan. In the boy's pocket, we found one of his FBI business cards, his cell number written on the back. In fact, every time Morgan's in town, he hangs out with kids."
JJ calls it a coincidence.
"A hell of a lot of coincidences," Gordinski retorts.
“I prefer the term 'circumstantial'” you say from the back of the room.
Gordinski turns, sizing you up with an incredulous look—too young, maybe too idealistic. "And you are?"
"Derek Morgan’s attorney." There was no reason to hide anymore, you didn't bother offering your hand.
Gordinski barely reacts before flipping open a file. "Did I mention that your client found the body in 1991? Hidden way back in a vacant lot. Now, don’t they teach you that when a body is hard to find, the person who finds it is always a suspect?"
You do the math quickly, Morgan would have been too young.
And you feel like Reid reads your thoughts when he answers. "There are key pieces of the profile that don't fit, Detective. The age—25 to 35—Morgan was 15 at the time."
"Profile Also says that age is the hardest to predict, and I should never exclude someone simply because of a discrepancy with the age." Gordinski is grasping now, trying to force the facts to fit.
Prentiss speaks up. "What about the speculation that since he didn't leave any evidence at the crime scene, he's likely to have a criminal record or law enforcement knowledge?"
"He may not have had knowledge of law enforcement, but Derek Morgan definitely had a criminal record." He tosses a file onto the table. You open it, scanning the contents. Resisting arrest. Vandalism. Aggravated battery. You inhale deeply.
"So he was a troubled kid, not a murderer. What kind of 15-year-old kills another boy, then deliberately stages the body just to make sure he’s the one to 'find' it?" Your voice is sharp, challenging him to walk into your tramp.
Gordinski smirks. "I’m sure you know psychopaths are very smart people, Miss."
Bingo.
You tilt your head. "So, is Morgan a psychopath? A guilt-ridden killer? Or an FBI agent dumb enough to leave his own business card at the crime scene? Because he can’t be all three, and right now you're contradicting yourself, Detective."
The room is silent for a beat. Gordinski clenches his jaw, his grip tightening on the file in his hands. He glares at you like you are his personal enemy.
You don’t give him time to recover. "You're reaching. And I think you know it." you say as you leave the room to look for your client.
And if Reid hadn’t been so mesmerized with the way you had subtly guided Gordinski, he might have given in to the impulse he had to correct him when he addressed you as Miss and not Counselor.
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Rossi had sent Prentiss and Reid to Morgan’s house to investigate, while you stayed to ensure none of the Detectives would do something sketchy with the proofs.
Maybe it was the PTSD Dr. Fitzgerald diagnosed you with when you were 11, but the moment Carl Buford entered the room, something felt off. It wasn’t obvious, more like a second nature—a survival instinct that had been honed over the years. You weren’t always right, of course. You’d had a few false alarms before, but this time, something in the air shifted. It wasn’t in his appearance or his words; it was in the way he presented himself—as someone kind, someone willing to help, harmless. But it triggered something in you. The sirens in your brain went on, even if they were faint, too faint to be taken seriously but still enough to be annoying.
Reid had just returned from Morgan’s house when he saw you standing by the board, JJ on the phone and Rossi talking to you. He noticed how you discreetly stifled a yawn, and it hit him—it was nearly evening. The Cheetos packet that probably belonged to JJ and the half-eaten cheese sandwich from Rossi were the only signs of food nearby. It dawned on him that you likely hadn’t eaten all day.
He didn’t want to be the kind of person who overcompensated in an obvious way, but seeing you like this stirred something in him. It reminded him of the last time he saw you at the mall, how you’d instinctively avoided him, as if you couldn’t stand being around him for more than a few seconds. The longest you’d managed to stay in the same spot was 8.12 seconds.
That had been the last time, though. Now, things felt different. You were talking to Rossi when Reid approached and offered coffee to everyone. You could tell he was overcompensating—or at least, that’s what you assumed.
Then again, maybe you were reading too much into the moment when he’d slightly quickened his pace as you all entered the police station, holding the door open for everyone. Or maybe he was just anxious about his friend and eager to get inside quickly.
Or when you were rummaging through your bag for a pen, and he handed you one without hesitation. It could have been just a simple gesture, a convenient moment. But you couldn’t help but wonder if there was more to it—if he was trying to do something, anything, to bridge the gap between you.
You felt stupid for liking his gestures, for craving his attention. That’s why you said yes when he offered the coffee—because you couldn’t help it.
And he was happy to do it. He put special care into preparing your cup, even though he hadn’t asked how you took your coffee. Statistically speaking, most people put about two teaspoons of sugar in their coffee, but he didn’t know what you preferred. Maybe you liked it with even more sugar than that, just like he did. Maybe you didn’t use sugar at all, maybe you used honey.
He caught himself before he poured too much, measuring out what he assumed was the “average” amount, then handed it to you with a small, careful smile. There was a brief moment when your fingers brushed, and maybe his lingered for a second longer than necessary.
But when you took a sip, it hit you. The sweetness of the sugar was overwhelming, and the unexplainable presence of Carl Buford seemed to crawl into your mind, making it worse. It was your fault for not telling him no sugar. Your hand froze for a moment as you fought to swallow, your fingers tightening slightly around the cup.
Reid noticed. He saw how you stiffened, how your grip on the cup tightened, and he assumed he’d gotten it wrong. Maybe you didn’t like sugar in your coffee, or maybe you just didn’t like it at all. He felt a pang of regret, thinking he’d misread the situation. He wasn’t sure why, but for a moment, he wondered if he was always this wrong about you. North. North.
You didn’t want to overreact or be rude, so you quickly excused yourself to the bathroom, needing a moment to splash some water on your face and steady yourself. You stared at your reflection in the mirror, silently telling yourself to calm down.
Maybe you were overreacting to Buford. But that thought was short-lived. The moment Hotch and JJ entered the room and she began speaking, confirming what you had already sensed, everything inside you seemed to crack. Carl Buford—the man who was fervently helping the police catch Morgan, was the same one who had written a letter to clear his record. The contradiction hit you like a punch to the gut, and you couldn’t shake the sound of the sirens growing.
You followed Hotch as he approached the interrogation room, your mind racing with the unsettling sense you couldn’t shake. You didn’t even notice Reid following behind you, keeping a respectful distance. Hotch entered the room, and the questioning began.
"Carl Buford." Morgan’s voice was tight, his shoulders tensing at the name. He stood up from the table where his arms had been resting. "What?"
"Carl Buford. He runs the youth center." Hotch's voice was calm, measured, but you could feel the pressure building behind it. From the other side of the glass, you stood in front of the glass, only for a moment, before Reid joined you at a respectful distance.
"What's that got to do with anything?" Morgan's tone was dismissive, brushing off the mention of Buford like the idea of talking about him was unbearable.
"He's responsible for getting your records expunged." The words hung in the air, sharp and deliberate. Maybe it was the steady presence of Reid beside you that kept you grounded, or maybe it was that something about Buford just didn’t sit right with you. The sirens in your head grew louder.
"I told you to stay the hell out of my business." Morgan’s voice rose, defensive, but not with rage—more like a wounded animal cornered by a predator.
"You said you visit the youth center every time you come here," Hotch pressed, not backing down.
"So what?" Morgan spat out the words like they were poison.
"Buford says he hasn't spoken to you in years. Why don’t you visit the man who made your career possible?"
"Damn you, Hotch." Morgan’s fist slammed onto the table as he stood up, knocking the box over in frustration. That was when you knew. The sirens in your brain were deafening now—loud enough to drown everything else out, and you couldn’t ignore it.
The sickness in your stomach was undeniable. You swallowed it down, fighting the urge to leave, but your instincts were already pushing you forward. You grabbed the door handle, taking one last breath before entering.
"Agent Hotchner, I would like to speak to my client." When Hotch didn’t move, still focused on Morgan, you added, "Now."
With a quiet but firm nod, Hotch left the room, his stoic expression unchanged. You sat down in the chair, your mind racing even faster. If you wanted Morgan to trust you—if you wanted to get through to him—you had to give him something first.
“Aren’t you supposed to be defending me? Looking for a way to get me out of here?” he snapped.
“I can’t help you if you’re not honest with me, Derek.”
“I am being honest. I didn’t kill those kids! He has nothing to do with this!”
“Then why is he so eager to help the police?” you shot back.
For a moment, he didn’t say anything—just glared at you, jaw clenched, shoulders tense. You recognized that look. It was the look of someone who had learned, maybe too many times, that the world didn’t always care about the truth.
"Derek I can't do much if you don't trust me." You say as calmly as you can.
Morgan let out a humorless chuckle. “Trust you?” he said, shaking his head. “I barely know you.”
You leaned back slightly in your chair, eyes flickering over him. That’s fair. Trust wasn’t something that could be commanded, especially not in a place like this.
But you also knew what it was like to sit on the wrong side of an interrogation table. To have someone who was supposed to protect you look at you like you were already guilty. To feel like the walls were closing in, no matter how much truth you were screaming.
You swallowed, forcing the memories down before they could surface. If you wanted Morgan to trust you, you had to give him something first.
“Derek… I’m on your side, whether you believe it or not. Not because I owe you one, but because I can recognize someone whose trust was betrayed by the person who was supposed to protect them.” That made him look at you—really look at you. And you hated it. Hated the way he was seeing straight through you.
Being read, being seen—that wasn’t something you allowed often. But Morgan had spent his life reading people, understanding them, profiling them to find the truth. And you had spent your life sharpening your edges, and weaponizing strategically everything you didn’t like. But right now, you were offering him a piece of yours.
You took a slow, measured breath, and even though the room felt too warm, you forced yourself to keep going.
“My parents… my birth parents ran a meth lab in the kitchen,” you said, voice steady, though your hands curled into fists beneath the table. “When I was four, it exploded. I was sent to the hospital with burns, malnutrition, and withdrawal symptoms I didn’t understand. That was the first time CPS got involved. They put me in the system.”
Morgan’s expression didn’t shift, but you saw something flicker behind his eyes. Recognition.
“And if you know anything about the system, you know it’s broken. It fails. It doesn’t protect the people who need it the most,” you continued, your voice steady, but your chest felt tight. “There are cracks in it, and some people…take advantage of that. They play the part, they act like saviors, they pretend to care.” Your voice caught, just for a second. But you forced yourself to push through it. “I know men like Carl Buford. I grew up with one of them.”
Morgan’s jaw tightened. That name—Buford—hit the air like a hammer. You weren’t just asking for trust. You were offering something real. Something raw.
His fingers curled into fists on the table, and for a second, he looked away, shaking his head like he was trying to push a memory aside. But he didn’t deny it. Didn’t challenge you. Because he knew.
“And what happened?” he asked, voice lower now, controlled but heavy.
You exhaled sharply. “I clawed my way out, just like you did, got adopted when I was 8. And when I had the chance, I became the system—to change it the only way it’s possible, from the inside out.”
Morgan let the silence stretch, studying you, his fingers tapping once against the cold metal table. Finally, he let out a breath, something almost like defeat but not quite. “So what now?”
“Now,” you said, straightening, “We stop playing defense.”
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You stepped out of the room, and though the tremor in your hands had subsided, the warmth lingering on your back remained. Scanning the precinct, your gaze locked onto the person you were looking for—Gordinski.
You strode toward him, your pace sharp, your voice sharper. “Are you going to charge my client with something, or are you just going to keep stalling?”
He smirked, relishing the frustration in your tone. “Miss Woodvale.” The mockery in his voice was deliberate, savoring the way your desperation bled through. “I still have over 40 hours to hold your client as a suspect.”
“Have you found any new evidence? Because all you have is a questionable profile and circumstantial evidence.” You leaned in slightly, wanting to get under his skin.
“We have motive.” He said it like it was a trophy, something definitive, something final.
You let out a short, dry laugh. “No, you have a grudge. There’s a difference, and if you don’t know it, the jury won’t buy it.” You’d seen stronger cases collapse under weaker arguments.
His jaw tensed as he looked down at you, exhaling through his nose like you were an inconvenience. “Look, we have three dead kids and a family that wants closure. We’re just doing our job.”
You knew it was a low blow. You knew it was too much.
“Oh yeah? I wonder where I’ve heard that before?”
That was exactly why you said it.
Gordinski’s expression twisted as realization struck. One of the other detectives snapped at you, voices rising, the BAU stiffened, and you could already see Hotch preparing to apologize—everything was escalating.
Then— “Hey! What, did we turn him loose?”
The tension shifted. The detectives forgot your words in an instant, all eyes snapping to the officer outside the holding room—where Morgan had been.
Chaos erupted. Gordinski bolted toward the room, Dennison scrambled to dispatch patrols, Prentiss and JJ exchanged alarmed glances.
And that’s when you slipped away. Nobody noticed… Well nobody except Reid. He always had an eye on you, even from a distance.
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The air was cold, and in the rush of the moment, you’d forgotten to grab your coat. But in some strange way, you were grateful for it—the chill seemed to cool the simmering anger that was creeping through your veins as you headed toward the community center.
Morgan walked beside you, leading the way. You kept your head low, ducking behind columns to avoid the patrols that were probably looking for you. The familiar sensation of hiding felt strangely nostalgic—if you closed your eyes, you could almost imagine the cup of coffee in your hand as you walked through the campus at Harvard.
After ten minutes, you spotted a small field with the lights still on. A kid was out there, playing football by himself. Morgan moved closer to him.
“Lookin' good there, kid.”
You stayed a few feet behind, not wanting to interfere.
“I was tryin' to call you.” The kid stopped running and looked at Morgan.
“I’m here now.” Morgan spread his arms, inviting and friendly.
“Who’s that?” The kid glanced at you quickly, signaling toward you with a tilt of his chin. Unable to stay hidden any longer, you stepped onto the field and leaned back against the fencing, crossing your arms.
“Someone I trust. One of mine.” Morgan’s bold words were enough to drop the kid’s defenses.
You stayed silent, as invisible as you could be, observing how the kid tensed and relaxed automatically when Morgan mentioned needing to talk about Buford. You never thought you were good with kids—didn’t know how to act around them without overthinking, constantly looking for signs and flaws.
The more they talked, the more Derek described Buford’s manipulative ways, using his influence to make kids trust him only to exploit that trust, the more the freezing air of Chicago couldn’t keep the heat from rising inside you. Your hands curled into fists, squeezing your sides, wrinkling your shirt.
There were so many sick ways people used to reward or control others. Buford used alcohol and false bonds to make kids feel like adults, while others used toys or candy.
“My oldest brother’s in jail. My sister was paralyzed in a drive-by... She’s eight years old, and I’m all my mom’s got left. I gotta get us outta here.”
No kid should ever carry that kind of weight. No child should feel like enduring abuse is the only way out.
“Carl’s gonna make sure I get into college. Then I can make something of myself.” The gratitude in his voice was painful—the twisted sense of owing someone everything for their attention, their gifts.
You closed your eyes and looked up at the sky, trying to keep yourself from walking into the building alone and finishing whatever it was you had come here to do.
“James, you are something, man. You’re something right here, right now, without Carl Buford.” Morgan’s words hit you hard. He was right. James was someone. He was someone. You were someone, too. Despite everything, you were still breathing, still standing.
A tiny part of yourself felt grateful when you heard James had told Damien about what he was going through, that he had been brave enough to speak up and look for someone who would believe him and would do something about it. Damien knew. Morgan connected the same dots and realized who was staging the whole thing up.
Carl. Motherfucker. Buford.
Derek eventually finished talking to the kid and motioned for you to follow him. You didn’t know what his next move was, but you were backing him up. “Derek?”
He turned to look at you. “Yeah?”
“Whatever you want to do, I have your back.” You knew he saw it in your eyes—an intense, boiling rage that had driven you to places both good and bad. He knew that whatever he was going to do next, you wouldn’t stop him or doubt him.
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He gave you instructions on how to get through the back door of the office. But when you got there, Morgan was already calling him out.
“All these years, I kept my mouth shut. I let you go on being a hero. Carl Buford, my mentor.”
Buford’s back was toward you, and the more he talked, the more the air seemed to thicken with the heat of your rage. Your vision narrowed, blurred at the edges with red. A man. No—a monster. A predator who walked free for far too long, spinning his web of lies, manipulating, violating, ruining.
And he had the audacity to deny it. The smugness in his voice. The complete absence of remorse.
“Whatever lies James told you…” he said so easily, as if that erased the truth. As if that rewrote history.
Your hands clenched so hard they ached. How many lives had he destroyed? How many boys had suffered under his hands? You had seen men like him before—hell, you had been a child under the power of a man like him once. The weight of their hands. The control they wielded. The false kindness that masked something vile.
Your stomach twisted violently as you took in the sight of his office. The trophies. Row after row of gleaming gold, polished plaques. A shrine to his own ego. A testament to the world that this man was trusted, respected, celebrated.
And then you saw it. Dr. Or you think you did
The word burned itself into your mind like a scar. Dr. Calloway. It wasn’t his name, but your hands trembled anyway, your breath coming fast and ragged, and the sirens grew louder and louder. Was it the name? Was it the way the gold glinted under the dim light? Or was it just the overwhelming wrongness of all of this?
Buford was still talking. Still spewing poison.
“How many lives have I provided? Look at you. You’d probably be dead by now.”
Lives.
Lives he had ruined.
Lives you could still save.
Your fingers curled around the base of a trophy—a heavy one, sharp at the edges. You barely registered the name engraved on it as your grip tightened, your knuckles going white.
For a split second, your mind whispered, Do it. The same one that had accompanied you in moments where you couldn’t move. Moments when your body wouldn’t answer to your orders. The voice of that version of yourself that would unleash violence. Do. It.
But then—Morgan. This wasn’t your moment. This wasn’t your fight.
But if he wanted to tear this office apart, you would hand him every single thing worth breaking. You would burn it to the ground and stand there, just to watch Buford scream as the flames took him.
Morgan’s voice cut through the storm inside your head.
“Actually, I’m saying you have everything to do with making me who I am.”
And so did you. Because this rage—this blistering, all-consuming, blood-boiling rage—was just another scar left by men like him. Men who stole, who twisted, who took and took and took until all that was left was ruin.
The sirens in your mind screamed. The voices clawed at your skull, howling for justice, for vengeance, for something more than just words, more than just silence.
Just like the ghosts of the past. Just like the hands of the past. Just like Calloway in the past. In the present.
Calloway. Buford.
"I never hurt you. You could have said no.”
Your grip on the trophy tightened, the sharp edges digging into your palm, but you barely felt the sting. All you saw was red. All you felt was fire.
"You're under arrest, Carl." The words cut through the haze, sharp and final.
Buford barely had time to react before the officers stepped in, twisting his arms behind his back, snapping cold metal around his wrists. He said something—denial, excuses, more of the same filth that men like him always spewed—but it didn’t matter.
It was over.
The red began to fade. The fire inside you simmered, but the embers still burned low, smoldering beneath your ribs. Your breath came in sharp, uneven pulls as you clenched your fist.
Morgan was still staring at Buford, his jaw tight, his hands balled into fists at his sides.
For a moment, you wondered if he felt it too—that same bone-deep ache, the need to destroy, to make it right in ways the law never could. But then he inhaled, long and slow, and you forced yourself to do the same.
He saw the trophy in your hand, and you expected to find judgmental eyes—eyes that would look at you like you were dangerous, like you had lost control, like you were no better than the man they were dragging away in cuffs.
But there was no judgment in Morgan’s gaze. Just understanding. Maybe even something closer to recognition.
Your fingers trembled around the trophy, your pulse still hammering in your ears, but you couldn’t let go. Not yet. The weight of it felt good in your grip, solid and real. It would’ve been so easy—so easy—to swing, to carve your fury into something tangible.
He must’ve seen it in you. The way your shoulders still heaved, the way your jaw clenched so tight it hurt.
Morgan reached out, slow, steady. Not to stop you. Not to take it away. Just there.
A lifeline, if you wanted it.
You exhaled shakily, then forced your fingers to unclench. The trophy slipped from your grasp, landing with a dull thud against the floor.
Your hands were empty now. But the fire still burned.
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Resting against the wall, breathing heavily, you watched as they took Buford away under your intense gaze. Gordinski approached you.
“Your actions could be taken as obstruction of justice, Counselor,” he said, the sarcasm in your title not going unnoticed.
An old man threatening you, just to scare you and gloat himself, a pathetic move, especially now when there were still remains of the fire, not ashes yet. You sighed, as if too tired to deal with him, not even bothering to look his way. “And what are you going to do? Arrest me?” You finally glanced at him. “I have the General Attorney one phone call away, and I could charge you with misconduct and Sixth Amendment violation, which could dismiss the case you have been working for so long.”
You let the words sink in for a second while he remained serious. “You got your guy Detective. Walk away while you can.”
Like in chess, any smart player knows when to retreat. He glared at you but ultimately backed off.
From the corner of your eye, you noticed Reid watching. For a moment, you couldn’t help but return his stare. But then, lifting your chin, you towards the SUV, ignoring the strange sting of shame, the kind of shame you feel when you want to show the best version of yourself to someone, only to show the worst. It wasn’t the first time you had talked your way out of a charge, but it was the first time you felt ashamed of doing it.
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You and Morgan were the last to board the jet. After last night, you'd talked—just not about the… incident. He'd invited you to the grave of the unidentified child with him and his family, and, for some strange reason, it had brought you a sense of peace. Afterward, you joined the rest of the team on the way home.
You spotted Reid sitting by the window, absorbed in his book. North. South. You weren’t one to judge anyone’s demons, especially when you couldn’t even control your own. Maybe that’s why you sat in front of him. Maybe you were tired of pretending you didn’t want to know what was going on in his head.
When he noticed you, his eyes widened slightly, and his fingers nervously traced the edge of the page. Was this it? Would you confront him? Would he finally have the chance to explain himself?
"Do you think Raskolnikov ever believed he deserved the punishment?" you asked, your voice quiet but firm, meeting his gaze. "Or did he just convince himself he was too special to face it?"
Reid blinked, clearly caught off guard, but after a beat, he answered. "I think Raskolnikov believed he was above it all. That his intelligence and theories made him different. But that’s the tragedy—he never understood that punishment isn’t just about what you deserve. It’s about confronting what you’ve done. The guilt you carry. Sometimes, it’s about having someone who believes in you, even when you can’t believe in yourself." His voice softened with the words, as if careful not to scare you off.
You didn’t break eye contact, letting the weight of his words settle. After a pause, you glanced back down at the book. "Someone like Sonia?"
Reid’s gaze flickered, sensing the shift in the conversation. You weren’t just talking about Raskolnikov anymore. Maybe it was about him. Maybe about you. "Someone like Sonia," he said quietly. "She believed in him, not because he was special, but because she saw his humanity. Sometimes, it’s not about whether someone deserves forgiveness—it’s whether someone else is willing to help them find it."
A quiet tension lifted from your shoulders, and your expression softened, the unspoken understanding between you both almost palpable in the air. North. South.
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By lunchtime the next day, the events of the prior day still gnawed at you. The feeling only worsened when your eyes landed on the basket sitting in the corner of your office, filled with chocolates and candy.
Taking a deep breath, you picked it up and turned to your temporary assistant, a guy covering for Molly while she was on maternity leave. “I’m stepping out for twenty minutes,” you told him.
Basket in hand, your thoughts blurred together as you walked toward the park. It was a familiar refuge, a place where kids and elderly chess players gathered, lost in their games. A little distraction wouldn’t hurt. It would be good for you to clear your mind, and they always appreciated it when you brought baskets like these or treats from your mom’s bakery.
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part IV
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No gifs tonight 😔 I am too tired and I still have about 30 hours left in this 48 hour shift.
Tonight might just be a gif making night….
#I need to stop working 48s#I also really need my department to change our 24/48 schedule to a 24/72#I crave having 72 hours off between shifts#I may or may not have told the chief of the whole entire department that I would quote ‘commit homicide for 24/72s’#he laughed and told me to leave him off his murder list
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! Aiden Hale Info-Post !
(Reposting from old terminated account since I just saw that I had everything saved on my Samsung Notes)
⛔️Warning for those who might need it: this post contains talk of homicidal ideations, suicidal ideations and school shootings.⛔️

-Aiden Hale, better known as Audrey Elizabeth Hale, stormed into the Nashville Covenant School on 27.3.2023 and took the lives of 3 little kids and 3 adults, before getting gunned down by the fast-responding officers: Michael Collazo and Rex Engelbert.
Before entering the Covenant, Aiden sent these messages to a girl he used to be basketball teammates with while he was in middle school:
-Aiden Hale was a 28-year-old transgender male.
-He was born on 24.3.1995 to parents Norma Hale and Ronald Hale.
As a child,Aiden Hale displayed many developmental delays and his mother started suspecting that her child might have autism.
She took him to see a specialist, and while the specialist did note that Aiden wasn't the best at socializing and was quite anxious, there weren't found any signs of Autism Spectrum Disorder.
-In the early 2000s, Aiden attended the Nashville Covenant School, where he felt safe and accepted.
-Starting middle school meant having to switch schools.
Aiden got bullied in middle school and, at first, felt ostracized by others and had a drop in his self-esteem and self-confidence.
-In seventh grade, his outlook on middle school changed, when he made the school's basketball team .His new basketball teammates welcomed him with open arms.
Aiden considered some of those teammates to be his best friends , even had his self-confidence and self-esteem return for a while, until most of his "best friends" went off for high school.
When he transferred to high school, he managed to rekindle some of the friendships with his former basketball teammates, but he wasn't as close with them as he used to be before.
-High school was also the period when Aiden started contemplating commiting suicide.
-In 2011, Hale’s mother again took him to a therapist. A psychological assessment found that Hale “suffered from major depressive disorder, dysthymic disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, social phobias, anger-management issues and was underdeveloped both emotionally and socially.” He began therapy and managed his conditions with medication, for a while.
-After high school, Hale attended the Nossi College of Art & Design at the insistence of his mother. He remained isolated from his former teammates and others.He attended an eating disorder clinic amid concerns over his weight loss.Hale “remained lonely” and grew more resentful of ex-teammates he felt had “abandoned him".
While he was still in college, he had gotten rewarded a few times for showing remarkable progress in certain areas, in a very short period of time.
-Hale had a certain fondness for stuffed animals.He had a large amount of those and went as far as to give them names and their own personalities.
A car full of plushies that belonged to Aiden Hale was found in the school's parking lot, after the massacre.
-The police had recently revealed that the motive behind the Nashville Covenant shooting was "notoriety": in other words, Aiden wanted to be famous
-It has also been reported that Aiden didn't hold any grudges towards anybody in the school/connected to the school, which makes it more likely than not that he was randomly shooting at anybody he came across, not that he had specific targets.
The shooting has been made out to be some kind of "terrorist attack aimed at christians", but this has been proven false. Aiden didn't choose to shoot up that school because it was a christian school, nor did he care much about christians.
He chose to commit the shooting at the Nashville Covenant School because "he wanted to die somewhere he felt happy", but also because he knew that little children wouldn't be able to put up much of a fight
-Hale considered other targets. Detectives found research on four additional schools: another private Christian school, a private school with no religious commitments, and two public high schools. Hale also looked at the possibility of committing a mass shooting at Green Hills Mall, Opry Mills Mall, Belmont Boulevard just south of Belmont University, and several busy interchanges in Nashville and the suburb of Mount Juliet.
-Not long before the shooting, Aiden Hale payed a visit to the Nashville Covenant School.He made his visit look like a "tour through the school fueled by nostalgia", but he was actually carefully inspecting the areas of that school, probably so he could prepare better for his "death day".
-The shooter left behind 15+ notebooks ,which detailed his plan to shoot up a school (with diagrams and timelines) and dozens of videos, too, some spanning up to even 40 minutes in length.
-There was very little mention of Covenant in these journal entries.
What was found instead had more to do with what Hale’s parents said was a fixation with death after the loss of a friend that, "he worshipped his whole life.”
“I know Sydney is waiting for me. My time is coming soon to leave this realm behind. All my pain and all that I have…except you,” Hale wrote.
-In the diary entries, Hale appeared to be filled with self-loathing and repeatedly would state how he wanted to "kill my own race" and “destroy all the white people who are teachers,", “Being white sucks, but being black is so cool. Black people should rule. White people should fall, every white person who lived and died. I hate you all,” Hale, who was white, wrote.
“I hate the American people,” he continued. “America is not the land of the free, it’s a land full of idiots. It will only get worse in this country, not near enough gods like me. America and its people all destined to soon be destroyed.”
-The entries also detailed the gender frustrations Hale, who was born and raised as a female, experienced. “I only wore some nice girl clothes as a cover-up from the truth, which I denied myself all these years. And I hated all of it,” he wrote.
“It was miserable being raised a girl because I had no choice. There was lack of education, research, and medicine to help society or parents better understand transgender," he continued. Hale was angry that he had not been given puberty blockers earlier and feared it was too late to use them.
“I’m mad that no one told me until I was 22. I feel I’m too old and too late to become a man. Now, the process takes months to years. By the time that happens, I’m 30, and then 10 years later I got a bald spot on my head and looked like an old man. Hell no,” he wrote.
-Hale expressed admiration for the Columbine shooters Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold, the DC snipers, serial killer Jeffrey Dahmer and Oklahoma City bomber Timothy McVeigh, calling them "gods".
“I feel I am the reincarnation of Dylan Klebold. My thoughts of depression are forever linked to his and my experience as well,” Hale wrote.
Aiden purchased a copy of the Columbine Diaries in 2021.(his mom found it)
In his manifesto, Aiden wrote that he hoped to make the Columbine Shooters proud of him.
-Aiden wanted his shooting to be the deadliest in state history.
He stated that he'd be embarrassed if he got less than 10 kills.
-He originally planned for the massacre to take place on 17.1.2023, accoarding to one of his diary entries.
"I didn't mean to plan my massacre on the 17th, going to be a terrible sh** for leaving you. How bad my heart hurts. Tomorrow is my last day on Earth." He then followed the entry with a P.S., adding "not leaving yet. I couldn't do it....I'll wait as planned."
On the same day (Jan. 16, 2023), Hale also provides some context of his emotional state, writing "I can't stop feeling sad, angry, so sad how much, too long," "No one gets me -everyone misunderstands Autism typical" and "I want to die." Another entry in large letters states "I hurt bad enough + low enough that I need to die."
-Aiden Hale was apparently really skilled at making others believe he was "innocent" and "meek".
-He used a great deal of manipulation to convince people around him that he wasn't a danger to neither himself nor others
-Despite his best attempts at concealing his rage,loneliness and low self-esteem, they would all still occassionaly resurface, which led his parents and therapist to seek more intensive treatment for him.
This just made Aiden isolate himself more from others and become more manipulative towards his parents and therapist.
-In 2019, Hale admitted to his therapist that he was having suicidal and homicidal fantasies.
In 2020, he started visiting gun shops and made several gun/ammunition purchases then.
When Norma Hale(his mother) found the wrapper for a gun sock in the trash, that was when Aiden confessed to having bought a gun.
Norma was quick to reject the idea of Aiden having gun ownership, because of his history of suicidal ideation and depression.
Ronald Hale(his father) didn't have any problems with Aiden keeping a gun, as long as he knew how to use it safely.
Norma Hale later reluctantly agreed to let Aiden keep the gun.
-During an interview between detectives and Aiden's parents,Aiden's father told them that "none of the therapists ever felt that they had the duty to warn anybody about Aiden having homicidal ideations". They only felt the duty to warn his parents when Aiden was having suicidal ideations.
A police report summarizing this interview shows doctors told Hale’s parents sometime between five and eight years prior to the shooting that Hale, “needs to go to Vanderbilt Psychiatric Hospital because he is talking about suicidal ideations specifically about school shootings.”
Hale wasn’t admitted to the psychiatric hospital, but parents said Hale did receive some treatment
-Police has concluded that nobody is to blame for the Nashville Covenant School shooting that took 6 lives,because Aiden was constantly manipulating everybody around him.
-The parents of the Nashville Covenant School shooting victims have copyright over Hale's writtings, which is why they cannot be released.
One of the parents said that releasing those writtings would be giving the shooter exactly what he wanted: Immortality (which means that Aiden Hale would basically be able to "speak from the grave")
-Despite this, Tennessee Star managed to get ahold of a "90-page-exclusive" , referring to the shooter's manifesto, and released it in it's entirety.
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