#im never turning on anon ever again in my entire life

[fefern]

WHAT ABOUT wuwa men reaction to s/o insecure about their chubby body????

Headcanons that reassure me about my body are just so sweet and feels so right to read.

Maybe s/o became chubby bc of post pregnancy? Idk do wathever you want with that!

(Also your works are just ELITE. Love ya❤️)

✧˖° comforting their chubby lover. | wuwa men headcanons.

⋆ ˚☁️ ⁀➴ synopsis: everyone get's insecure sometimes, especially about their bodies! how do wuwa men comfort you when you're feeling insecure about your chubby figure?

⋆ ˚☁️ ⁀➴ characters involved: wuwa men (minus yuanwu bc I FORGOT IM SORRY TT), afab reader for jiyan and calcharo, gender neutral reader for the rest.

⋆ ˚☁️ ⁀➴ warnings: none!

⋆ ˚☁️ ⁀➴ notes: hi lovely anon! (ɔˆ ³(ˆ⌣ˆc) i hope i do you justice with this ask! i was struggling a bit honestly with the idea of post-pregnancy chubbiness for some of them, so that aspect is only for jiyan and calcharo! the rest of the characters just help the reader with their insecurities over their chubby body! i hope you still enjoy regardless! ♡ (edit: ALSO IM SO SORRY FOR FORGETTING YUANWU HE SLIPPED MY MIND </3)

ᡣ𐭩 •｡ꪆৎ ˚⋅ lingyang ᡣ𐭩 •｡ꪆৎ ˚⋅

will notice right away when you begin to have doubts about yourself and your body. 

he’ll become pouty fast, wondering why you seem so downcast, and finding out it’s because you’re insecure will make him quickly gasp in shock. 

you? his beloved? insecure about the beautiful body he loves so much?

he’s just as quick to recuperate and reassure you that no, he loves you for all that you’re worth. 

he fell in love with you, and that includes your lovely chubby body!

now that he’s aware of your insecurities, he’ll always compliment you about your body when you’re with him in an attempt to combat the anxieties you have about it. 

will be the type to cup your cheeks and smooch you all over! no lover of his is going to be down! he’ll immediately try to make you smile about the situation rather than have you dwell in your worries about it. 

ᡣ𐭩 •｡ꪆৎ ˚⋅ jiyan ᡣ𐭩 •｡ꪆৎ ˚⋅

the mighty general of the midnight rangers is quick to react when you confess to him your worries about being insecure about your body. 

he’s never been critical about how you look ever, in fact, he likes to admire your body quite often, so when you mention that you’re feeling a bit insecure, he’s concerned about his actions first.

once he knows that it’s not his fault for contributing or making you feel this way, he’ll relax a bit, and then calmly ask why you feel this way.

his presence is a comforting one when you explain yourself, patient as ever as he nods along.

“oh, but love, you’re even prettier than ever before after you’ve worked so hard to labor a child into the world.”

will gently hold you in his arms as he rubs your back and comforts you. 

he’ll be soft and whisper reassuring things to you, making sure that overall, you know that you feel loved above all and that’s what really matters. 

ᡣ𐭩 •｡ꪆৎ ˚⋅ calcharo ᡣ𐭩 •｡ꪆৎ ˚⋅

slowly quirks an eyebrow at you and gives you a confused look. 

“but you’re perfect, darling. how can you think that?” 

he cannot fathom you being insecure about being chubbier, he thinks honestly post pregnancy that you somehow even look more divine than before. 

however, when you keep telling him about the changes and how worried you’ve become because of it, he’ll simply shake his head.

he’ll turn away from whatever he was doing and focus entirely on you now, tilting his head slowly and huffing. 

“do not ever think about yourself in that way again. you are the most beautiful person i have been blessed with in my life, and i will be damned if you think that that will ever change simply because your body has changed.” 

he’s not the most vocal in reassuring you, but he does change some small things when he’s around you.

calcharo will always make sure you eat and drink plenty of water. he also will take the time to openly admire you more, making sure that you know he adores you.

overall, it breaks his heart that you think this way about yourself, and he truly hopes that you will be able to get over it one day. whatever he can do to help that, he will. 

ᡣ𐭩 •｡ꪆৎ ˚⋅ aalto ᡣ𐭩 •｡ꪆৎ ˚⋅

this man loves gathering intel, but this one breaks his heart a little bit as you confess to your insecurities. 

aalto will simply stand there for a moment before quickly pouting.

he’ll be there to wipe away any tears you have and just cup your face, making sure you know you feel loved as ever as he gently holds you. 

the man will also ask you if anyone has been saying stuff for you to feel this way. 

if you say yes, best know that those people will become missing within the next week in order to pay for what has been done to them. 

will be extra kind to you now, making sure you’re always filled with compliments or spending extra time together in order to ensure that your insecurities will be slowly whittled down. 

it’s a long process, but one he’s willing to commit to just for you. anything to make his lover more confident in the long run. 

ᡣ𐭩 •｡ꪆৎ ˚⋅ scar ᡣ𐭩 •｡ꪆৎ ˚⋅

is baffled. shocked. gagged, even. 

“but baby, you’re the sexiest person in the universe! what do you mean you feel insecure?!” 

he’ll begin rattling on all the things he loves about you, and will not stop unless you cut him off first.

he’ll go uncharacteristically silent for a moment, staring at you as you speak before he shakes his head.

he doesn’t get it. you’re the love of his life, the best thing that has ever happened to him! so how in the world can you feel…insecure?

would physically fight your thoughts if he could, but since he can’t, he settles for helping you strengthen your mental resilliance!

he’ll begin implementing doing daily affirmations with you, and will hold your hands while doing so like the good partner he is.

also will become even more touchy with you, making sure you know that he adores every single aspect of you, even if it’s hard to do so yourself. 

ᡣ𐭩 •｡ꪆৎ ˚⋅ mortefi ᡣ𐭩 •｡ꪆৎ ˚⋅

he’s a researcher and logical most of the time due to work, so when you mention your insecurities about your chubbiness to him he’ll look confused.

you’re healthy and happy, so he sees no reason to fret over such trivial matters.

but, seeing how saddened you are by it and how insecure it makes you feel, mortefi will make sure to reassure you in his own little ways.

he’ll mention how you shouldn’t let other people’s perspectives of you feed into how you view yourself! very encouraging, gives cute little facts that’ll help you feel more comfortable in your skin.

he’ll bring the best convincing evidence ever to make sure you see yourself the way that he sees you! 

will begin to bring you over to the department of safety more often while he’s working, that way he can murmur sweet things to you and hold your hand quietly as he does his work.

he’d want to make sure that you feel loved, and since he’s always busy with work, he’d bring you along to comfort and compliment your body every chance he gets.

a well meaning sweetheart that uses logic and empathy to care for you and your insecurities.

[gingerbreadmonsters]

if i get one (1) comment, ONE SINGLE COMMENT about making a listener character say 'biscuits' instead of 'cookies' in this next one, i swear to GOD you will never have seen anyone delete their blog as fast as i will

[tac-the-unseen]

JUST READ THE COD GANG REACTING TO READER FALING AN ORGASM SO WHAT IF READER ADMITS THEY NEVER HAD ONE BEFORE?????? LIKE- NEW RELATIONSHIP??????? SORRY FOR CAPS IM ECSTATIC RN BC UR WORK IS SO GOOD🫶🫶🫶🫶🤌🤌🤌🤌🤌🤌🤌🤌

COD characters finding out that Reader's past lover(s) have never given them an Orgasm.

Am I exactly sure what Anon is asking? No, But I will persist.

I'm choosing to write this with the interpretation of Reader never having an orgasm even though they've had sex with others. (The other way I read it was that Reader just flat out never had an orgasm before, and I think that's extremely unrealistic. So we're going with that one) ALSO because of the prompt You and the guys have yet to bump uglies!

Ghost:

•Simon is a little confused "Like...None of them?"

•He takes it very seriously

•He asks you to elaborate a little more. He just wants to know if the other guys sucked (or just didn't in this case) or if you two needed to do something specific in order to please you.

•He understands if you need some kind of accommodations and will ask you what he needs to do

•You and Simon have a long discussion over what you want your first time with him to be like. He makes sure you both have a clear understanding of what's to come (ha).

Soap:

•First thing he says is “Would you like to?”

•He thinks it's a little funny but really sad too

•”Darling, you're too pretty to let subpar men just use you.”

•He immediately wants to show you how it's done and what you've been robbed off

•He asks if he can take you for a “good ol' mustache ride”

Price:

•”Young men are dumb.” He says and takes a drag from his cigar

•”But I guess it's nice to know I have no competition.” He smiles

•He does talk to you about your needs and what he needs to do to meet them properly

•He takes you out on a nice dinner date, goes on a nice walk with you, and end up with his hands wrapped around your waist taking you home

Alejandro:

•Can not stop laughing

•As soon as you tell him he erupts into a fit of giggles. He takes him a full 3 minutes before he calms down enough to hug you and pat you back.

•”You poor thing.” he chuckles and kisses your cheek. “I'll make sure to make up for all their failures, Mi querida.”

•He’ll ask you what they were doing down there the whole time. Which leads to even more laughter when you tell him.

•”But I think I should buy you a nice dinner first.” he winks

Roach:

•Stunned

•Absolutely floored

•”Like never?” He signs. You can see the horror in his eyes

•He’s got his head in hands, contemplating life. He's so concerned for you. He has to take a moment of silence to comprehend the level of incompetence the men in your life must have had.

•When he finally sits up he looks you directly in the eyes and signs “Thank God I'm good with my hands.”

Gaz:

•Slowly turns his head to look at you with his brows furrowed and confusion

•Is too shock to speak

•He gets up to pour himself some Scotch

•”How many times have you had to fake an orgasm?” “8” he proceeds to down the entire drink and pour himself another

•This time he hands it to you “You need this more than me.”

Rudy:

•He gets up and takes a lap around the house

•When he gets back he pulls you into a hug

•”You deserve so much better, Mi Tesoro.”

•Kisses your jaw and runs his hands down your back. “I can give you so much better.” He tells you in-between kisses

•He offers you himself until your properly satisfied, for however long that takes

König:

•”Why do you like incompetent men?”

•He means it in a genuine way, But he accidentally reads you to filth.

•”Why spend your time and affection on someone who cannot please you?” he asks. “I didn't want to seem shallow.” You replied. “Shallow? Liebste, No.”

•He practically scolds you for allowing such men into your life. It's actually the most you've ever heard him speak. Which really tells you how upset he is.

•”You're Lucky I'm here. I will not let such things happen ever again.”

•And fuuuck, he means it

Mace:

•”Other men are filthy animals.” he tells you like it was a normal thing to say

•He gets in close to you and rests his arms on your hips. “Don’t get me wrong, I'm a man whore.” He laughs lightly and kisses you “But you knew that.”

•He asks you for all the funny details and thinks it would make a decent bonding experience.

•He tells you about his less than great sex stories and failures

•”Rest assured sweetheart, I'm a pro at making people scream.”

Thanks for reading <3

(I realize now that I wrote them all in different mindsets of this prompt... Good luck with that, I guess)

[icarustypicalfall]

cara mia

ALEJANDRO VARGAS X F!READER

inspired by the glorious lovers, Gomez and Morticia.

a request that i hope will succeed to mend every heart i broke because of certain angst

summary: you can't love someone more than yourself and live everyday as if it's the last.. well, certainly not according to you and your lover

warnings: none, sfw, pure fluff <3

note: im not that good at writing romance.. im an angst person but yeah that was really entertaining, doing some research and planning 🤭 tysm for your request anon, I'd love hearing from you again, tell me what you think 🫶🏻

"I've finally found you, now my life tastes sweet like cinnamon"

"I think they truly love each other, but I'm not entirely sure," Rudy chuckled at Soap's comment as they observed Alejandro and his lover, you, dancing on the crowded dance floor.

Throughout the night, you danced, kissed, and flirted, seemingly inseparable.

Los Vaqueros had organized a party to celebrate their latest mission after the tank operation. It was an ideal opportunity for Alejandro to introduce you to his brothers and new allies: Gaz, Soap, Ghost, and Captain Price.

The evening had started as a simple get-together, but it quickly turned into a display of intense flirting and hours of dancing and drinks.

Rudy would often joke that Alejandro seemed to forget everyone else when he was with you. He was even distracted at the shooting range, nearly shooting one of his own men when he caught a glimpse of you passing by.

The men sitting at the table laughed, sipping their beers while keeping an eye on the couple swaying on the dance floor. "I can't believe this is the same man I used to work with. He is completely smitten with her," Rudy laughed heartily, clearly becoming more and more tipsy.

Shaking his head, he smiled. "No hermano, Alejandro and _ are not whipped. They simply love each other. They've had this connection ever since they met."

You had met Alejandro years ago, during a time when you both had to work together amidst the scandalous movements of the cartel. After a period of dating, he proposed, and within a year, you were married. Though Alejandro had some flaws, such as anger issues and work addiction, he never let that affect your relationship. Any disagreement or argument would swiftly be resolved with passionate apologies shared behind closed doors. Some never started believing in soulmates till they witnessed the Colonel and his wife dancing bachata at 2 am.

To Alejandro, you were a delicate flower, even with your own strong-willed nature. He took pleasure in watching you bark orders to incompetent recruits.

When some of his men playfully asked him whether he'll choose you over eternity.. well of course he chose you. Because, quoting him: "how could I choose a life where you are not by my side, cara mia? I'd consider it as hell itself. For me, amor, I'd rather hold you for a brief moment over any eternities."

You, on the other side, proudly showcased your love for him. The bond you shared was powerful and seemingly magical. Together, you lived for the moment, sucking the joy of life and spating out the sorrow. There wasn't any words that could describe how you feel about him.

Crazy? maybe. Deeply in love? Absolutely.

Taking a break from dancing, you volunteered to get drinks, and Alejandro made his way back to the table. A broad smile adorned his face as he glanced at you, seated closely to him, holding onto his arm. You smiled back, giving his hand a gentle squeeze as he kissed your forehead and kept a protective arm around your waist.

Captain Price chuckled and patted Alejandro's back, remarking, "Well son, you never told us you were married. Rudy mentioned it before he passed out."

You glanced at Alejandro, resting your elbow on the table, cheek supported by your palm, wearing a playful smirk.

"Is that so? He didn't mention me even once? Must have been pretty busy, right, amor?"

Alejandro held your hand, gently squeezing it within his calloused palm and placing soft kisses on your fingertips.

"Just because I didn't talk about you doesn't mean you weren't on my mind, Querida. You reside there constantly, occupying every thought of mine."

"That was cheesy, Alejandro. Eres increíble!" you teased, his eyes seemed to flicker like stars shining in his dark brown orbs. He drew closer to you, his smile wide.

"You really shouldn't speak Spanish to me, amor. You know it drives me mad."

"I'd absolutely love seeing you mad, Hermoso."

The men around the table followed your conversation, enraptured by this side of Alejandro.He was unafraid to show you off, proud of your relationship and unapologetic about his love for you. In fact, if he was to be called out for loving you this much, he'd proudly wear the title. He cherished you deeply, and you had no worries about the cartel using you against him. They knew not to cross that line, for you were a protected and treasured part of Alejandro's life. God help the ones who tried to cross it, let some peace fall upon their limp bodies.

After a long night, it was almost four in the morning when you and Alejandro reached your home. In the blue hour, you both would often take a moment to witness the captivating beauty of nature while wrapped in each other's arms.

Alejandro gently tilted your chin, meeting your gaze with a smile as he whispered slurred words into your ear.

"Do you remember our honeymoon, darling?"

"Which one, amor? Every day with you feels like a honeymoon, and you're definitely giving me a sweet tooth."

"..The night after we got married," he reminisced. "When everyone had left, leaving only you and me. We sat on the balcony, with the cold wind weaving through our hair. I held you close as the sun rose."

A slight smile formed on your lips as you relived the memory. Your fingertips lingered on the burning flesh of his cheek. Closing your eyes, his words sank in the depth of your mind.

"Do you ever realize you become a poet when you're drunk?"

"Just for you, amor, I'll be anything you want, if you wanted me to get you the stars, I'll collect every piece of them, even if i died trying. But if you wanted to shove me away, I'll stick with you for eternity and beyond. You're too precious for me, cara mia"

His hand found yours, in slow movements and dizzy stares, he squeezed your palm. As if the simple mouvement was a promise, a vow for you.

"I want to recreate that moment tonight," Alejandro murmured, his voice filled with warmth and love. "Let's stay up until the sun rises again, and we can relive our love story once more."

You nodded, anticipation gleaming in your eyes. Hand in hand, you made your way to the balcony, watching as the sky transformed from dark to a palette of soft hues. Wrapped in each other's arms, you whispered sweet nothings, promising to love, support, and protect one another until the end of time.

This kind of love that almost felt irreal, you shared a deep mutual connection that none could explain, and neither of you tried.

If anything, you just loved each other. You digged and bathed in the joy, forgetting the sorrow. Was this a blessing of life, an apology for the misery your souls endured during lifetimes?

Or were you simply lucky enough of to find the missing piece of your heart?

For the matter, you both knew that this love was enough to mend your hearts, over and over again.

As the first rays of sunlight kissed your skin, Alejandro leaned in and whispered against your lips.

"Te amo, mi vida. Forever and always."

"Te amo también, mi amor. Nada ni nadie nos separará."

(can i marry him please? i stg he's perfect. sorry if it's not accurate or not what you expected. ily all 🫶🏻❤️)

[kinardscoffee]

Okay galaxy brain headcanon time. So Tommy's name tag in season two said Kincaid not Kinard. Maybe that was his original last name but he changed it when he finally cut contact with his dad - or his last name was something else entirely. He turns 18, says fuck you dad, changes his name from Thomas X to "just Tommy" Kincaid, joins the army and Tommy 2.0s himself, then years later he's like "i wanna be a pilot", im gay, no dad fuck off, new life, new me, new name, new station. Tommy Kinard is Tommy 3.0.

Tommy 4.0 is of course marriage to this hot firefighter named Evan and that means new name once again, but maybe with a hyphen this time.

Heyyy Anon!

First, I just want to say, well fucking done on catching that! I had to do a bit of research on this ask cause I, for one, missed it!

So, here's S2 Tommy in all his selfie glory:

And if we zoom in... that name tag does in fact say, Kincaid:

BUT... I think it's just a costuming error because I went back to watch the "Begin" episodes and everyone calls him "Kinard" and it's the name on his turn-out.

However, I do like the idea of an evolution of Tommy Kinard, so here's my two cents inspired by your two cents!

You can change your name at 16, and I agree he changed his legal name from Thomas to just Tommy. I imagine his father called him Thomas, and I believe that was a sore spot throughout his childhood.

Thomas can't do anything right.

Tommy can sneak out at night.

Thomas was a mistake.

Tommy has friends at school.

So, I believe Tommy joined the military the day after he graduated from high school, which would potentially make him 18. And he never saw his father again after this. A quick Google search let me know that the Army is actually the only branch of the military where you only need a high school diploma to become a pilot. So after completing basic training and the other requirements to become an Army pilot, Tommy could have potential received his pilot's license in roughly 2 years.

I'm not going into time served in the Army, so let's move on...

Thus, Tommy 2.0 is born.

He lands in LA, buys a house, and decides to join the LAFD, where he meets Captian Gerrard and Sal DeLuca. This ultimately shoves him into Tommy 3.0, which is the version of himself that I believe he hates the most.

He's wrestling with feelings he's always had but knows they're "wrong" in certain people's eyes and so I believe his first years at the 118 Tommy has never felt more like his father.

And he hates it. Despises himself even.

So, when Chim shows up, Tommy has this massive wall up, built by self-hatred and sadness. But then, Chim saves his life. And that wall begins to chip away, bit by bit.

We see the wall has almost completely crumbled when Hen arrives but with Captian Gerrard there he's prepared to put up barriers again.

Until Hen gives her speech.

I believe that speech cracked open Tommy 3.5. Maybe not someone who's ready to stand up and preach his truth in front of everyone but definitely someone who knows it's time to help be a part of the solution.

When Bobby shows up, Tommy is sailing nicely into Tommy 4.0. He's happy, he has friends that he can go out to drink with, and for the first time in his life, I think he's starting to feel as if he actually could belong somewhere.

Lou has said that Tommy likes to fly because it's his way to feel free and escape his problems. And I believe that with the happiness Tommy has found at the 118, his displeasure of not feeling true to himself is harder to ignore.

So, he transfers and stops lying to himself. New station, New him right? He gers the freedom of flying and being open about his sexuality.

Tommy 4.0 is officially here.

Then, years later, after a really bad breakup that left him ready to give up on the idea of ever finding love, he finds it in the most adorable ally that helped steal his helicopter, Evan Buckley.

And that's when Tommy Kinard finally finds the place where he belongs.

[laineystein]

i personally don’t support war and find blindly serving any military awful. I don’t mean to be rude i just wonder why you think that defending israel is the only way to garuntee jewish safety? that feels like taking responsibility off of other countries and leaving diaspora jews vunerable. im really just anti military but this conflict has been awful and i hope for the safety of all jewish people israelis muslims and palestinians but no safety to a government of right wingers

I admire your bravery in reaching out when I don’t have anon turned on. Few would, so good on you.

First off, I’m not serving blindly. None of the soldiers I’m serving with are serving blindly. We all believe in what we’re doing and we’re going to keep doing it until the mission is done and all of our people are safe again. I could get into the nuances of conscription and reserves but I’m not going to. With confidence, succinctly, none of us are serving blindly. (I’m also employed by the IDF outside of reserves so I assure you that I, in particular, love my army and believe in what we stand for.)

I don’t *think* that defending Israel is the only way to guarantee Jewish safety. I know it is. We are a country surrounded by homicidal antisemites. Hamas has stated that they will continue doing what they did on October 7th until we cease to exist. There is no peace for the Israeli or Palestinian people with Hamas still in power. So we’re destroying their tunnels and we’re rooting them out and we’re here for our hostages. Let’s play devils advocate - if Israel didn’t exist do you all honestly think that Hamas and all other Iran proxies would just allow Jews and the Western world to live in peace? Because they wouldn’t. Y’all should be grateful that we’re here because if we weren’t, they’d be killing Jews elsewhere. Don’t let them fool you into believing this is about land. They. Hate. Jews. And Israel is the only place in the world where Jews can truly defend themselves. My grandfather survived the Holocaust BH and he always says that they didn’t have a way to defend themselves in the camps. They weren’t organized. They didn’t have weapons. They didn’t have the upper hand. Well now we’re organized and we’re armed and we’re trained. Never again will we be helpless - thanks to Israel.

“That feels like taking the responsibility off of other countries” - what responsibility? To protect Jews? To persecute Hamas? Feh! None of that will ever happen. Not once has any other country *saved* the Jewish people. And, actually, often times people are turning a blind eye to our persecution - like most of the world did on and after and ever since October 7th. Like they did during the Holocaust. Like they have every time Hamas and PIJ indiscriminately fire rockets at Israel. As I said, never again will our safety be in anyone else’s hands because the world has shown us time and time again that they do not care.

“Leaving diaspora Jews vulnerable” is an insane way to blame the victim. WE WERE ATTACKED. But do you think we needed to be attacked for people to hate Jews? No, this has just empowered them to do so out loud. There has always been a correlation between anti-Israel hate and violence against Jews in the diaspora. In May of 2021 when 4000+ rockets were fired into Israel, goyim in the diaspora took this as permission to act out their antisemitic fantasies. Again when WE WERE ATTACKED. Don’t forget - People were celebrating our massacre before Israel even set foot in Gaza. Don’t let the world fool you into thinking that Israel defending ourselves has created antisemitism in the diaspora, it’s only encouraged it.

I am going to give you the benefit of the doubt here and assume you are not Jewish. I don’t know how to explain this conflict to you - a conflict I have lived my entire life (like my parents and grandparents before me). I don’t know how to share my pain and grief and the pain and grief of my tribe in a way that will make sense. But I’m done needing to justify my existence as a Jew. Israel is done justifying its existence as the homeland of the Jewish people. History has shown us that our survival is our responsibility and I/we won’t apologize for it. The same people that are too cowardly to stand up for us when our people are killed and raped can keep their mouths shut when we defend ourselves.

And it seems like maybe you didn’t read this post that I shared today which really would have answered a lot of this without me needing to go on a sleep deprived rant.

[stuffeddeer]

hello deery, back like i promised lmao

as much as i love silly goofy buddy dazai, deluded possessive and lowkey scary dazai is my fav 🙏 he's such a silly guy with reader, then turns right around and destroys their entire life. then hes like :O omg thats so horrible, so what im hearing is you have more time to spend with me? seeing as all your friends left for reasons unknown, your family wont even look at you. but dw, i'll never leave :)

BWHAHA im not good at this stuff, but your characterization of dazai is my fav in general, such versatility, we love to see it

have a great day :D

-🩵 anon

HES MY least FAVE TOO ugh 🩵anon you get me

“I’m sorry, lovely. That’s so horrible…” Dazai’s knuckles softly rub against your jaw, his skin soothing you as you try to halt your tears.

“It just— ” you hiccup, “ —just feels like everyone’s leaving me!”

The brunet pulls you closer, practically sitting in his lap as his hands move around your torso. “Shh, shh…” He gently wipes away your remaining tears, pressing a kiss to your forehead. “I’m here, aren’t I?”

You let out an embarrassed chuckle before nodding. “You’re the only one. Not even my boss wanted me around, I can tell. It’s like she was waiting for me to mess up so she could fire me.”

“That’s not true…”

“How would you know?” The words were genuine, like you were looking for him to explain that it was the work of fate or your shitty coworker you always complained about.

Well, it's because Dazai was the one to get you fired. Your boss was too fond of you, something he simply couldn't have. Plus, work hours always took up your time, time that should be spent with him. Honestly, you didn't need a job, anyway: Dazai would be happy to provide for you and make you dependent on him.

Instead of explaining any of this, he pressed another kiss to your head before pulling you in for a tight hug. “You’re a hard worker. And you’re a wonderful person. If none of your friends want to be in your life, well, I do. So I guess you’ll just have to spend time with me.”

It’s his attempt at lightening the mood, you’re sure of it. A chuckle passes your lips before you can stop it, shifting in his hold so you can hug him back just as tightly. “You’re all I have, so now you’re stuck with me.”

“That’s all I’ve ever wanted.”

oh he’s the worst i need him

he’ll cradle you so sweetly, telling you alllll the good things about yourself!!!

n when you get all confident and hey! maybe you are good enough, maybe you should look into making new friends! ones that won’t leave you so easily 🙄

well,

he’s there to remind you just how heartbroken your last ones left you. your very own flesh and blood cut you out so easily! maybe dazai is the only one who can truly love you for who you are.

he’s not saying it to be mean! he just wants you to know what you’re getting yourself into. he’s always been so smart, too…. well, you guess he’s right.

if you’re a bit more stubborn or masochistic, maybe you don’t gaf!!! put you back in the ring you wanna try again!!!!!

ugh. okay. i mean, dazai did so much for you... y’know, when you lost your job and he insisted let you move in with him, dazai was trying to be a good friend, but... whatever, if you don’t need him anymore than you can just get your own place. oh, you still haven’t found a job? well, since you’re so sure of yourself, you can just get a new one. you can be out by tomorrow, right? you know dazai would’ve liked to go out and make friends during the time he’s been working to keep a roof above the both of your heads and keeping you company after everyone left you. maybe he’s starting to see why they did, since you’re so selfish— 

...

you decided not to go out!

that’s probably when he realizes he should begin moving your relationship along a bit quicker. he’ll flirt with you in the exact way he knows you respond to best (whether that's words of affirmation, teasing, physical touch, etc); he'll bring you back pastries and cute trinkets he saw on his way home from work… his courting is a little eerie, bc he also acts like you two are already dating???? "you're staying in my home, of course i assumed we'd be having dinner tonight. i even learned to cook your favorite— " like he 100% just assumes shit but it always works out bc . well, what else were you doing?

this includes sharing a bed btw. he probably started w having you take his and he takes the couch (a true gentleman) and then maybe he gets another bed and makes a guest room for you... but, well, since you both are so close and it's so cold in his apartment, maybe you can just spend one night with him? It Was Not One Night

if you catch on and reciprocate, oh he's over the moon!!!! his love giving him affection? oughhh.. you're staying in his room in his arms and he's just breathing you in, reminding himself you're still there... it'd be actually kinda sweet if he didn't orchestrate this whole thing

if you catch on (or don't lmao) and deny him? .............

desperate times desperate measures or whatever they say

he locks you in his room for mandatory cuddles, will not give you food if you stick to one side of the room and refuse to let him hold you, he starts pulling away and spewing words he knows will hurt you so you feel so alone and unloved only to turn around and love bomb you.... it's horrific tbh

i'm so sorry . just... go along w it for now pls ❤️

also i mentioned that he'd bring up how you don't have a job and he's the one working hard to pay for your expenses but he's just being a brat. he caught you looking at help wanted ads one time and pretty much cried in your lap about how upset he is that you don't feel his care is adequate enough and only stopped when you promised not to get another job

he's gross :( get out of there

[vampirebloodie]

Adam Stanheight x reader? Reader asks Adam out on a date.

Hope you like it, anon! <3

Note: Adam is so precious, he is such a baby 😭😭

You are enough | Adam Faulkner-Stanheight x Reader

Summary: Adam feels insecure, but either way he will always be enough for you

You felt so nervous after making the decision to ask him out on a date. Okay, you didn't know each other very well, it had only been 3 months since u had started working at that photography studio in the center of the city with Adam.

But since you met him, you felt on heaven, he was certainly the kindest, most gentlemanly and romantic man you had met in your entire life. Always worried about you, he always asked how your day was, if you were satisfied with the teamwork. But a big step was never made on either side.

You were almost 99% sure that he would accept your invitation, but that 1% was still pounding in your head with fear of a possible rejection from Adam. You thought for several days until you decided everything and memorized all the possible lines in your mind, even though you knew you would easily forget it right away due to your extreme nervousness.

You left the bathroom after putting some water on your face to try to calm down and went towards the main room of the studio again, walking in silence, you saw something weird, Adam was facing away, placing a paper under the door while holding other papers in the other hand.

"What are you doing?"

You asked and he got scared, turning back and dropping all the papers on the floor, he was pale like a ghost, you controlled your laughter seeing him completely clumsy trying to pick up the papers from the floor and getting even more nervous. You shook your head and crouched on the floor to help organize the papers again.

“I… it’s nothing”

He said nervously, standing up again and swallowing hard, looking around. You crouched down again and picked up the paper that was under the door, Adam became desperate again and tried to take the paper from your hand. You dodged and opened the letter, which had your name on it, starting to read.

“Did you want to ask me to go on a date ?”

You smiled and he immediately blushed, scratching his head.

“Yes...okay, i know you wouldn't accept it, it was a silly idea, wasn't it? i'm sorry, y/n."

He spoke a little sadly and started walking away quickly, you went after him and pulled his arm, sighing.

“I think you read my thoughts, Adam. I was also planning to ask you out. Why did you think i wouldn’t accept your request?”

You asked a little worried. Adam was very sensitive and you knew that very well. He was extremely surprised after your confession, he would never have imagined that a beautiful and desired woman like you would agree to go out with someone like him.

“Well... im not good-looking like the other guys here, i don’t have many money or a nice house, you can find someone better.”

You gave his face a quick caress. Trying to comfort him, he closed his eyes enjoying your touch.

“I think the best guy is right in front of me. It’s a shame he’s so shy.”

“R-really?? Y/n you are the best girl too!!”

He said happy.

“Adam, you are simply the kindest guy i have ever met, so loving and charming, you are enough for me... Of course i would accept!”

He smiled shyly.

“So… today after work? We can have a pizza, a burger, I don’t know.”

“Of course, I will eagerly wait for you, Adam. Until later."

You whispered in his ear, feeling his hair stand on end, and placed a kiss on his cheek, seeing him turn red again. He said goodbye a little awkwardly and you entered the room again, still with the paper in hand.

Final note: please, reblog if you liked! 💖

[silverbladexyz]

HIII I JUST WANTED TO SAY I LOVED UR UNREQUITED LOVE FICS I ATE THOSE UP SO GOOD

this isnt a request btw just some food for thought but how do u think chuuya and yasuko would react if reader came back but they werent exactly. themselves yk? like they got revived but almost like a sentient doll with no memories of the past? do you think they would leave the reader alone or would they try to reconnect with the reader ? again this isnt a request im just curious because sometimes my daydreams take a sudden turn !!! :D

HIII ANON AJSSHHSH AND I LOVE YOU FOR MAKING MY DAY BETTER 🥺🥺💞

And oooh... actually, I have already been thinking about making a bonus part similiar to your idea :) I just haven't had the time and creativeness to write it recently since school is keeping me very busy😭

BUT in response to your question, I think Chuuya might initially keep his distance from the reader first. Partly because he blames himself for their death because he didn't finish his mission sooner, and also partly because he doesn't want to lose them again. It hurts him a lot, but he convinces himself that it's the best decision to make to keep reader safe. However, I can see him secretly keeping a close eye on them so that if they were in danger, he could save them this time and not make the same mistake twice (Chuuya honey it wasn't your fault ajshahs 😭)

Then after bumping into him a few times, you wonder sometimes; why does this ginger-haired man seem so achingly familiar? And why did you feel this pain in your heart whenever you looked at him? Almost as if... he was a past lover you never got to be together with. But you shrug it off; there was no way you could've known such a handsome and rich man in your life, because if you did, you'd be sure to remember him for eternity ashajhhasj

Whilst Yasuko would feel immensely guilty upon seeing you. Even as you tilt your head to innocently inquire what was wrong, she can't bring herself to articulate all the shame, sorrow, and remorse that she felt ever since the day you died. I can see her accidentally forming a sort-of friendship with your revived self, but also keeping you at an arm's length because she thinks that she doesn't deserve to even call you as her friend. Half of her wants to atone for the wrongdoings she committed against you in the past, but the other half wants her to suffer with your unawareness because it's all her fault that you were gone. However, I can totally see her trying to get you and Chuuya together in this life 👀 wingwoman Yasuko for the win

Anyways, I can see both of them keeping their distance while also trying to rekindle those pleasant memories with you. But sooner or later, you'll come to question why they treated you differently from the rest of their friends. And when you confront them about it, maybe then you'll finally learn the painful truth as it all pours out of Yasuko's lips. What you do afterwards is all up to you.

WHEWW sorry for making that kinda angsty :') but hey, at least reader has a chance with Chuuya now. Just that they'll have to break down all those walls he has formed around himself, and finally win his heart that their past self never got the chance to hold. While Yasuko, Dazai, and the PM will be wingmanning the entire way.

I hope this was able to answer your question anon! :D

[the-kipsabian]

Kip Sabian.

Please go off.

anon i respect you so much for this but i hope you know what you have just done LMAO

tl;dr - hes absolutely perfect in every way possible. love of my life

hes just.. so innovative. his character work is absolutely fucking masterful, no matter which one it is. all of them are so delightfully different from one another but you can still see the same man behind all of them and thats just talking about the range of the character work and the clear work and effort he puts into everything he does, be it just the characters themselves, the promos, in-ring work, anything. he always goes all out, hes creative as hell with them (name me one other person that gets over with a box on their head i dare you) and it truly shows how loving and passionate he is about this whole wrestling thing and that he just absolutely gets it. also he just has fun with it and it shows. anything from cocky indie superbad to coward best husband superbad to boxman to whatever the cringe failure era was lmao and now the sex idol. he just does it all and he does it flawlessly and i will throw hands with tk if he doesnt capitalize on this man soon i sWEAR TO GODDAMN

his in-ring work is incredibly good. watch literally any sequence hes ever had with orange cassidy and you see what i mean. hes improved from that too (since the last one of those was a quite long while ago now), he can hang with pretty much anyone. i like it the way he says it himself, he can literally make anyone look good and no one has ever complained about having to work with him in the ring. which says a lot about how good and talented he is imo. he can do it all, be it more grounded moves or recently hes been doing a lot more jumps and top rope moves which! exciting!! cause it just adds to his arsenal and shows off that flexibility even more and its just so insanely good. like fuck man if you can get someone who can hang one-on-one with someone like vikingo like he did a few weeks back, thats a fucking keeper. dont you dare forget that

im not gonna take this moment to talk about his promo stuff cause i will literally be here forever. watch this and get back to me later about why im right that hes incredible at this shit with the tone and again character work and just overall presentation. even if its now a bit more comedic with the sex idol, its still an absolute delight. also i could listen to him talk forever, he has my favorite voice in the entire world and his accent is delicious and good fucking lord

PRESENTATION. hes just really fucking hot okay. i thought he was cute before but my god. the hair, no matter the version, on point. the eyeliner, gorgeous. nail polish, good lord (he needs to bring it back tbh its been a while). the outfits, holy shit i cant say words. i have done an extensive gear study to show how truly insane he makes me about his looks, not to mention the goddamn casual fits/suit game. jesus take the wheel. his smile is fucking out of his world and the laugh lines he gets are maybe my favorite feature on any human ever. hes fucking delicious and what of it

also arms. i dont think i need to say anything more i have also turned into a back admirer girlie (gn) because of him so like. uuuuuh

AND THEN. hes just a fucking delightful human being in general. is he stupid and cringey? yes, but arent we all. it just shows how human he is. just like us. ive so many times wondered how if we lived on slightly different timelines, we might have genuinely been friends cause he reminds me so much of guys of the same age that i know and im friends with. like we would have meshed pretty well together if circumstances were different lmao. that just shows me how genuine he is tbh. hes just fucking nice, hes very supportive, tries his best to be a good ally (i have both seen this and have first hand experience on it so dont @ me saying im wrong or its performative, i have way too many cases to prove that hes fr fr) and.. yeah. ive never heard anyone that actually knows him say anything bad about him. he has his flaws, obviously, cause nobodys perfect, but he makes up for it with what ridiculously good he has in him. this is a man with so much potential and love to give to the world both in his personal and professional lives and hes just needs his chance to shine so fucking badly, in all areas of life

im gonna stop now before i get too emotional but. yeah. he means fucking everything to me 💜💜

[loife1m]

Ok..I want to come clean. I have a confession and yes it's anon only because yes everyone's right I'm nothing but a coward. I was ONE of the haters, NOT the one who asked you to kys or cheater or any of those ones I just wrote the cringeeee or something like that, just that one, ik it will be hard for you to or anyone to trust in me but if you could it would mean alot. I could see the hate happening so I just wrote that one thing without paying heed i thought it was funny, im extremely stupid and definitely need to be more understanding and considerate of others feelings and situations. I know I have done the worst thing ever by validiting the hater.suddenly when i saw today,things took such a drastic unexpected turn, something I had not even thought would happen in the worst of worst situations (ik it was very stupid of me to not consider others or their feelings). I am really really really very very extremely extremely sorry. I k it means nothing, its like pouring a glass of water in an ocean.I don't know what to say honestly I can't believe it infact. I just thought it would be insignificant and not matter much but I just can't brush off the feeling that I am in fact very much in a way responsible for your decision. I can't tell how much I regret my one word and I will never forget how my stupid ask which I thought was funny would have a role in taking such a young person's life. I apologize for all the hate you have ever received. I don't know what to say honestly, I don't think I deserve to say anything too. I am deeply ashamed and realize the depth of a simple message and how much adverse effects it can have. I promise to never hate on anyone again ever just for the fun and thrill of it. You have thought me one of the most greatest lessons of my life. I will never forgive myself for my stupidity of supporting the other hater(s) instead of telling you otherwise that too without even knowing you. I am ready to hear whatever you and your friends want to call me. I deserve it. But I really am sorry and I will never forget the feeling I felt when I got to know what happened I promise my heart dropped. Please never never ever do something like this again. From my experience it was fun because you reacted to it. If you hadn't it would have made me kind of sad and impatient . Haters WANT you to react no matter how much you get spammed delete them. Your life is important. Never give it up especially not for such people(such as me). I didn't even mean it, so probably neither did they, don't take things so seriously people just want to waste their time, don't let them waste yours. Your life is precious, unlike all those opinions. I am so relieved to know your ok otherwise the guilt would be too much for me to bear my entire life. please take good care of yourself and never let yourself down. I hope all your dreams come true, I really do. I know you may really be angry reading all this, I know I have absolutely no right to say a word or act like I care, but trust me I am not a bad person, just a foolish one, a really foolish person. I am ready for all your curses. Curse out as much as you want, let all your anger out. I am not doing any of this for sympathy, I genuinely care. I am again very very sorry. I will never forget this incident or you my whole life, and I will defend anyone I find in a place like you were in. Sorry.

dear anon,

im really just, so glad you had the courage to come clean. not many have that, yknow? we all do hateful and stupid, disgusting things in life…what matters most is if you own up to your actions, which I see you did. and you know what? your apology meant so so much to me. really, so much. a lot. thank you for apologizing.

im glad you came to me for this. and yes, you did something wrong, but youre owning up to it so yes, you can say something. always. and you know what? this is extremely brave of you! and I’d appreciate if no one called this anon mean things—they deserve to be respected now.

thank you for sharing your experience, I’ll keep it in mind :) and…im not angry. actually, im kind of relieved you came clean. im thankful you realised that this wasn’t the way to go and apologised. that was awesome of you, actually.

I forgive you, anon. and we can even be friends, if you like.

[lindszeppelin]

I am the anon who sent you the long message, I am also a dude , Im of a rare breed in the fanbase , dont seem like there is alot of us here and thats ok lol I have sent you something before actually about how when men know we know. And I will say that over and over again. Seems like alot of the anons you get seem to be from people who are losing faith in that and think whatever Miss Gerber has with Austin is real. A man knows when he found his wife, not to get all preachy and sound like a religious crazy person but there is legit a whole bible verse in the book of Proverbs about it. I am 31, still young but old enough to know , especially as a married man myself when a guy has found his wife, he isnt hiding that shit. When i proposed to my wife we were on vacation and I legit facetimed my friends when she was in the shower and told them the news, up there squealing like a woman excited as hell LMAO. Austin is someone who wears his heart on his sleeve, if he saw that life with Kaia we would know it will show. So all that privacy BS is exactly that.....BS....like he dodges questions about her all the time and Kaia does the same, i personally have never seen celebs go that far to do that, even the ones who wanna be private. They still talk about each other. I think these shippers as I stated see themselves in Kaia,so when things are said about their relationship and lacking chemistry they take it as you saying about them and Austin...anyways I will stop ranting here but i wanted this to known and to give your blog a guy perspective

aaah welcome back in! nice to have you here. the fandom truly needs bit more guys in the fandom to balance out lol. and i think there are, but us women are a lot more vocal about it i'd say lol. and to each their own, it's so cool to have you here.

but i thank you once again for brining in the much needed male perspective on this situation. and coming from a man that is married and is Austin's age, that seriously should be everything that we need to heed your words.

i think a lot this discourse stems from the fact that the super young girls in this fandom closer to kaia's age clearly are showing that they haven't been in a serious relationship, or they don't have a lot of life experience. because a man should love his woman entirely and not be afraid to show it or talk about it. if a man hides his girl in any way then he's not happy with her. austin moves with kaia like a man that is not taking her serious. plus he knows she is too young for anything serious anyway. and when a guy TRULY thinks he has found his future wife, he won't waste time. i know this from personal family and friend experiences. i come from a parental background where my mom and dad got engaged after only 6 months of dating and they are still together 30+ years later. i know someone else where after only a week their man proposed and they are still together. like...it is what it is. a man can be just as emotional, clingy, and lovey-dovey to his woman than the woman is to him. ladies reading...if your guy doesn't act like the sun doesn't rise and set with you then he is not the one and he won't ever be. and that's okay. go find yourself a person that leaves no question as to their feelings for you. if you have to guess or question then, as the famous movie goes, he's just not that into you.

and you mentioned a verse in proverbs. i'm not necessarily a religious fanatic, however i am spiritual and i won't turn my nose up at acknowledging that stuff. . so if you would like to share the verse then go for it.

but once again, thank you so much for your insightful input!!

[crushedsweets]

back w more of my song analysis bs cause im studying music performance and it’s all I think about 😍 sorry this is so long. i have so many Thoughts

the chain by fleetwood mac is such a brian song. no big beat drop, just constant driving bass - shows determination, relentlessness. specifically the line “if you don’t love me now, you will never love me again” which i take to mean “after i do what im about to do i will become unlovable, so you if you don’t love me now then you will never be able to because i’ll be such an irredeemable person”

geyser by mitski is a really good song to describe nina’s relationship with Jeff. the way that the song starts off so slow, so quiet and thin, but then swells to a grand and full sound like how nina’s obsession started off so small but then grew to control her entire life. love the line “and hear the harmony only when it’s harming me”

a pearl by mitski and LJ (another mitski song cause she’s my fav artist ever) about his abandonment mmm. plus the slightly sinister sounding chords showing his evilification(?? yk what i mean. when he turned emo) ugh “you’re growing tired of me” and “i fell in love with a war and nobody told me it ended” so him

tongues and teeth by the cranes wives and EJ. this is SO his song. ALL of the lyrics r so incredibly him,, “my teeth will only cut your lips, my dear” plus the slightly manic instrumental, highlighting the panic he feels at potentially harming people he loves HLGKFJJDS.

also, for ur consideration, miss nothing by the pretty reckless x nat.

- anon 🌙

anon im kicking my feet. AGGHHGHG. ohh my god. yhou are using musical word that i do not comprehendn in the same way you may but wow do i love the way you describe it. very poetic i think. ill talk abt these.. and then mention a liil extra smth abt toby i thought when driving yesterday

the chain is yes very brian.... ugh... yeyah. yeah. 'after i do what im about to do' is so real. like being so very aware and conscious of your awful decisions and still going through with them. quite brian-like even under the whole complexities with hoody persona etc etc....

AND YEAH GEYSER TOO . the start of the song feels very like... idk if scary is right but its just very deep and could be quite unsettling.... nina longs for love. "i've turned down every hand thats beckoned for me to come" very pretty, fun, easy-going girl that could have plenty of suitors and yet she's still crawling towards this fucking beast of a man who is nothing good for her. "i will be the one you need" constantly warping herself for this man that wouldn't do shit for her, and she doesn't mind because she loves him in every single which way he is, and she loves how awful it is . and FUCKKKKK SHE NEEDS TO GET BETTER SHE NEEDS TO GET AWAY. she gets away dont worry. she gets over him. lots of crying and sobbing and screaming but she gets over it. its very hard to get over something awful when you crave awful

im not a huge lj fan (SCARED OF CLOWNS IM SORRY GUYS IK I KEEP HARPING ON ABOUT IT) but i loooove a pearl. "i fell in love with a war / nobody told me it ended" wow. ok. yeah. wow. jesus. rolling the pearl around looking for anything and everything that could soothe the ache of literal fucking abandonment while all you can do is wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and then its all too much and damn . :( damn ok.

IVE GORWN A MOUTH SO SHARP AND CRUEL IS LITERALLY SO PERFFECTLY EJ. FUCK. "I am not a vessel for your good intents" oh but he is sure a vessel for something demonic .... "abonded all your stupid dreams / about the girl i couldve been" HE HAD SOOO MANY FUCKING DREAAAMSSSS he wants to be a doctor he wanted to save lives he wanted a family he wanted a dog he wanted to see his little siblings grow up he wanted to take care of his elderly parents. and now all he can do is sit and be miserable because he is a monster and there is only so much he can do about it. damn. wow.

also yeah to the nat thing wow.

wow. yeah. goddamn.

AND ALSOOOOO OK LAST NIGHT I WAS DRIVING AND THIS SONG CAME ON

shit show by peter mcpoland i just keep thinking about toby. tbh ill find a way to twist any song into toby cuz i like him but yea. this is leaning more into the found family thing after losing his own and just seeing the way different people reflect his past and its gut wrenching but you know how he is. just a guy of sorts. he spends a lot of his time angry and wanting to isolate and self destruct and ruin everything around him . but he also spends a lot of his time desperate for normalcy, for respect, to be seen as a human fucking being and ah fugugh. im just imagining brian pulling him out to meet the owner of the farm near slenders forest and making him stand straight and telling the farmer 'he's a good kid, hard worker, strong. keep him around" (the hardworking strong part is true, at least) and toby's about to die cuz he's so stressed (this is shortly after all the fucking murder) but brian lightly slaps him on the back and he stands up straight and the farmer just shakes his hand and says smth nice abt 'got a good grip there' and and and guyyyyssss..... and holidays..are so hard for hhim.. and "i swear i'd see your faces staring up at me" ohh my goddd.... "I don't wanna drink alone today" man................... guys...... man......

[glassartpeasants]

Lovely pt.03

Shigaraki Tomura xFReader x Overhaul

Warnings: Angst, death, spoilers,

A/N: Im go nap now. I kept my promise to that anon yee

~~~

Two months later (I don’t really know how much time had passed before Overhaul was introduced in the manga)

“So now that we know what’s going on with the Lov recently, we would perhaps make an ally with them. As you can see from the tv screen here, they're all over the news, and if they have our help and we have theirs, we would be able to be stronger and take over Japan and then everyone else that has those disgusting quirks.” 

You looked at Overhaul from across the room as he showed you and everyone else the plan to be put into motion. He heard that from some sources that were on the roam. You were never one to disobey your boss, so you listen with open ears as you're glad that your mask hid the hearts in your eyes as you looked at him. 

He was so brave! He treated you with at least some sort of respect. More than Shigaraki ever did. And that's why you respected him so much more.

“Okay, here is the plan, (Y/N) and Chrono, you will follow the person that picks me up and brings me to the LOV’s current hideout. Then once I reach there, call the others. If anything goes bad, pop out and protect me. Understood?”

“Yes, Boss!” You both said at the same time. You nodded at each other before getting ready for tonight's mission.

~~~

At the safe house

(Overhaul just killed Magne)

“MAGNE!” Everyone screamed. Compress ran towards Overhaul, ready to fight back, only to have his arm blown off by the masked man. 

“Now!” 

“That’s the signal!” You yell before bursting out of the wall. You and many others are coming to aid your young boss. 

“Shield!” He yelled, and another subordinate was placed in front of him before Shigaraki killed him with one touch.

“Now, now, Shigaraki. I think we may be able to talk.” You knew what was coming as soon as Overhaul opened his mouth. He was gonna expose you like you guys talked about.

“You killed one of my team! How can I be able to listen to you-”

“Do you know, miss (Y/N)?” The room went silent. The League's eyes went wide as they looked at each other. You weren’t dead? How?! They looked for you for so long! Where were you?!

“What have you done to her?!” Toga yelled at him getting ready to slice him.

“Oh, nothing. Isn’t that right, Miss (Y/N)?” He looked at you, signaling you to take off your mask. Not one to disobey, you slowly unclasp your mask from your face before showing your face to the League. Gasps and wide eyes met you. You said nothing as you looked at all of them.

“(Y/N)? Is that you?” Toga asked. No matter how much you hated Shigaraki, Toga was like your little sister. You loved her and all her craziness. You looked at everyone. Everyone held a mixture of happiness to see you alive and sadness that you had started to work for the Yakuza.

“(Y/N)...” Your eyes turned to  Shigaraki, whose eyes were wide behind Father. 

He couldn’t believe his eyes. You were really here. You were really alive. He dragged that heavy burden of your death all those days just to see that you were alive but on the enemy’s team. 

“Why are you on their team?! You should be on ours-”

“I’m gonna have to stop you right there, Shigaraki. See, let's get one thing straight.” You never called him his full name. You always said baby or Tomu. A stinging sensation erupted throughout his entire body.

“I can’t stand to look at your face. I can’t even stand your voice. What makes you think I’d ever want to work for you again? The only reason I would is for everyone else.” Everyone just stayed silent as they listened to you.

“But as you can see, I’m much more respected by them. I’m no longer seen as a burden. They helped me at my lowest while I was freezing to death in the cold rain, and for that, I owe them my life.” You said nothing afterward before turning around to look at Overhaul.

“Sorry if I talked out of turn or too much Overhaul.” You walk beside him and next to Chronostasis.

“(Y-Y/n), you can’t be serious right now!” Shigaraki looked at you with wide eyes from behind, Father. Watching you listen to that stupid fucker with the mask made him furious. 

“I suppose we best be off. Think about what I said, Shigaraki.” Turning his back, Overhaul walked away, mentioning everyone to follow him as he flicked his business card towards Shigaraki. You heard everyone walking back as you stared at your old friends.

Reaching into your coat pocket, you grab what seems to be a bundle of letters. You place it on the ground before running after the man who had just killed Magne. Surely you wouldn’t have known what that fucker would do to her. Right?

~~~

“What’s upsetting you?” Your boss's voice cut through the fog that distracted you. 

“Oh, just nothing. I just zoned out for a second. My apologies, Overhaul.” 

“If this is about me hurting your old team, then I’m sorry for upsetting you.”

“It’s just a shame we lost people on both sides. Maybe I’m just being emotional. Regardless, thank you for seeing if I was okay.”

“Yes, now come along. I need you for a mission assignment.”

“Of course, Overhaul.” 

Hopefully, he couldn’t see the tears from behind your mask. When you jumped in to protect him, your eyes immediately went to a bloody puddle and a familiar pair of pants. 

You could feel your heart in your throat as you stared at your hurt and killed friends. Words couldn’t leave your mouth as you tried to make sense of it when you heard a pained grunt from your left.

Turning your head, you saw one of the recruits jump in front of Shigaraki. His skin slowly turned to an ashy yet bloody mess. Tears rimmed your eyes even more as you thought about the man who had just died before you. 

You had gotten to know him from the time you were working under Overhaul. He had a family that he was taking care of. This was the only place that would hire a felon. He wanted to change for his unborn son, which was due any day. Give him what he didn’t have. 

Now, he’ll never see him, and you’ll have to tell his wife what happened to the father of her child.

~~~

Returning to the new base was silent. No one spoke a word as they all tried to process the event that had happened. 

You were alive after all these months. They’ve been so worried about you, fearing the worst. Knowing you were alive was a relief off their shoulders, yet stabbed their hearts as they looked at an empty seat that was once occupied by someone who should have come home with them.

No one wanted to touch your bundle of letters. They feared the contents inside them. Would it be loving? Hate-filled? They didn’t know. 

They didn’t open the letters for about two days after what happened. It probably would have been longer if it wasn’t for Toga finally losing it and cutting off the binding that held them in place. She spread the letters across the table in search of hers. Soon everyone did too. A pang hit their hearts when they saw a letter with ‘Big Sis Magne’ written in your handwriting. 

Knowing that it wasn’t a plan to kill her gave them a sense of clarity. 

Everyone had a letter. Each was at least two pages long. All of them filled with loving words and sorry’s about you leaving them. Tell them you're proud of how far they have come since you’ve left. All of them except Shigaraki’s.

Looking at the words you’ve written on the page made his hands shake as a fury of emotions rushed through him: anger, sadness, love, heartache, everything in between as he read your handwriting.

Shigaraki

Read this carefully and to the end. 

The day I met you, the sky was dark, and the air carried a slight nip. I remember running into you after stealing some jewelry for someone. You had your hood down so no one could see your face. You were carrying a new keyboard in one hand and kept the other hand in your pocket. 

We bumped shoulders, causing each of us to drop our things. Well, I caught your keyboard while all the jewelry fell out of my pocket and onto the sidewalk's concrete.

I remember making eye contact with you. Your ruby eyes were so enchanting that I couldn’t help but try to get lost in them. I felt so safe looking into them. I didn’t even process who you were until you asked why I was staring instead of running and hiding. 

I remember the look on your face when I told you that I thought you were beautiful. Your cheeks turned red as you tried to avoid staring at me.  I could only giggle as I picked up my stolen goods before grabbing a pen I had stolen from the same place. Maybe it was fate that led me to you. You were so shocked when I gently held your hand to write my number on it. I didn’t have any paper, and despite being deadly, your hand was what I had used as a substitute.

It only took me three months to fall so madly in love with you. Everything about you was perfect to me. I loved how you smiled, how you got excited when you finished a game, and when a mission went as planned. Even the tiny things about you made me smile. 

I remember telling you, 'I love you' for the first time. We sat in your bed, and I played with your hair. You slept so peacefully as you cuddled into me. How could I not want to express my feeling when you were in such a state of calm? I didn't think you'd hear me,

but you did.

I remember how happy I felt when you said it back to me. How tears fell from my eyes as I kissed you. Placing my hands on your face just to feel you even closer.

That night, was the night I gave my first to you. It was so special to me, and I thought it would be to you too. But the following day told me otherwise.

I remember waking up cold and trying to find your embrace, only to see you were in the bar, chugging down a drink at eight in the morning.

When I walked up to you, you gave me a look of annoyance. I didn't know what was wrong, so I tried to ask, only for you to tell me to mind my own business.

I was so confused. Why were you acting so terribly? Had I done something wrong? Why were you so upset? Was there anything I could do to make you feel better?

After that night, you looked at me and treated me differently. You were acting as if I'm such a bother. Telling me that You had better things to do. 

You didn’t trust me anymore. Did you ever trust me in the first place? I don’t know.

Looking back on it now, I feel you just wanted a quick fuck. But you lacked the balls to end it. You fooled me into believing you loved me back. Such a heartless thing, even for a villain. 

It didn’t help that you never bothered to hide your lust for others. I could see the way your eyes looked at them. I could hear the words you used to say to me leave your lips as you spoke them. 

Was I really just a simple little toy that you could love and then throw me away? To me, the answer is yes. And I am a fool for thinking that we could have been the king and queen of villains, just like you always wanted. 

I have no good words to leave you with. Thinking about you leaves a bad taste in my mouth, and writing this letter only continues to burn my already broken heart. 

Karma always comes back. It may take a while, but I’ll wait for the day when you get what you deserve for breaking my heart.

-(L/N) (Y/N)

~~~

You sat in the bath, looking at the ceiling. A sickening feeling filled your body. 

As you were walking around the compound on security duty, you heard the running footsteps of what sounded like a child. You turned your head only to see a little girl running towards you. Her eyes filled with fear and tears. Instantly, you go and try to comfort her and see what's wrong.

“Woah there, where did you come from?” You grab her, and she tries to escape, but you continue to assure her that you mean no harm. You could see her body wrapped up in what looked like bandages. A little horn adorned her head.

“Hey, hey. I’m not gonna hurt you. Now can you tell me where you came from and if you're okay?” The little girl struggled to hold back tears.

“I need to run! They’re gonna find me and take me back! They’re going to hurt me again! Don’t take me back!” Your heartbeat drummed in your ears as you tried to comprehend what she was saying. Who’s they? And what are they doing to this poor girl that's got her so petrified?

“Okay, what do they look like? Can you give me a description?”

“He has brown hair…and wears black button-ups when he sees me…a man in a white trench coat is always by his side too.” You felt like your whole world shattered again. 

‘No…he couldn’t be that cruel…right?’ Your thoughts ran rapidly as you pulled the little girl in for a hug. You could feel her body shake as she hugged you back. Whispering sorry in her ear and how it’s going to be okay. 

“Eri?!-Thank god you found her (Y/N). I thought she would have run off.” The sound of Chrono’s voice made both you and her freeze. 

“What is this little girl doing in the compound? She’s covered in bandages and terrified!” You look at him with disdain through your mask. 

“She’s Pop’s granddaughter. She was put in our care. She’s just a little clumsy and shy.” You saw him walking towards her, but you picked her up and held her close to you.

“Well. She’s a little shaken up. Maybe it’s best if she gets something to eat and takes a nap. She is a little girl, after all.” You could tell Chrono was slightly annoyed just by his body language, but you suppose he didn’t want to give up the charade of whatever he and Overhaul had going on.

“Fine. Let’s go to the kitchen and grab her a snack. Then she’s going back to her room.” It's probably the best you would get, so you decided not to push it.

“Where is her room? I can grab her snack and bring her back. I know you're probably busy.” You saw him clench his fists. He knew you were right, but he also knew that Overhaul would throw a fit.

“Its fine. I can take care of her. You don’t need to worry.” Please, please, just leave!

“Okay. It's on corridor C, the middle room of the hall.” With that, he left. He was walking back into the depths of the compound, leaving you and the little girl alone.

“There’s not much I can do right now. But I can get you something to eat. And maybe we can stop by my room to grab some candy before bringing you back to your room.” She looked at you sad but understood that you stood no chance against Overhaul in his compound.

You still couldn’t get her face out of your mind. Her fearful expression and how she tried to hold back her tears broke your heart. How could anyone make a child fear them so horribly? 

It felt like your skin was dirty as the thought of working for someone that has hurt a little child. How long had it been going on? Was it really happening all underneath your nose? You barely visited C corridor, but you would’ve thought you’d hear a child. 

Despite being a villain, you still had morals. 

The thought of that child staying at the compound was bad enough, now with them hurting her? All for what? Bullets? God, you should have questioned what they made the bullets with more. 

You couldn’t sit by knowing a child was getting hurt and you weren’t doing anything about it. There was a way to save her, but it’d likely cost you your life or might not even work. 

But you had to try, right?

~~~

You managed to leave the compound under the guise of getting groceries. Your face covered in a mask as you look around, trying to find the nearest hero. Making it look like you happened to get arrested was the best idea you could muster. That way, it wouldn’t look like you had betrayed them originally until the very end.

“LeMillion, huh? Why did you choose that name?”

“Because I'm going to save a million!” Glimpsing past you, you see a green-haired boy, no older than 15 perhaps, and an older boy with blonde hair. You could have sworn they looked familiar.

Wait a minute. 

That kid was the kid that beat Muscular! He was also at the sports festival! Him being tied to UA is perfect!

“Hey, you two.” The sound of your voice made them swivel their heads around to look at you.

“Oh! Can we help you, citizen?” They both held bright smiles, which gave you a feeling of hope.

“I need you guys to arrest me.”

“What?”

“It’s the only way. They won’t suspect anything if I'm arrested. I can’t say anything now. They have eyes everywhere.”

“Um…I don’t think we can arrest you without reasonable cause? Is that right LeMill-”

“Let’s just do it. I have a feeling it’s essential to hear what she has to say.”

~~~

Prison was a lot colder than TV led on. At least you had the cell to yourself and how heroes would stop by and give you updates. Today was like every other day since you’ve been in. About three months, you’d say. It felt like forever in reality. 

The last thing you heard about the plans they were going to do was how they were going to raid the Shie Hassakai base. You felt terrible, not for anyone in there, but for leaving Eri alone for two months. Who knows what those monsters did to her while you were gone? It pained you, knowing this was the only way. Cause if you tried to run away with her, you’d be killed, and she’d be taken back. Who would save her then?

“Hey (L/N), you have a visitor.” 

“Okay.” The sound of the door opening made you turn your eyes. They usually just talk to you through the bars. Why would they open the door? 

“Do you know anything about the League of Villians like you did the Shie Hassakai?” Looking in the direction of the door, you see a detective of some sort standing in the frame.

“No. I haven’t met them. It's all the villains ever talk about, though.” You lied straight through your teeth. You’d rather burn than sell out the ones that actually mattered to you, even if you were in prison.

“Hmm, I see. Well, the heroes are doing the raid now. I know that part of your agreement to speak was for updates. I don’t know how it’s going, but I just wanted to ask you a few questions, if you don’t mind?”

“Do I have to?”

“If you do, I might be able to reduce your sentence. It’ll be like a plea deal.”

“Okay, fine. Throw them at me.”

~~~

The charges the detective said you had were much less than you thought. Then again, you suppose he didn’t know ALL the crimes you’ve committed during your years as a villain. Obviously, you weren’t going to tell him all of them, so you just agreed to whatever would get you out of the freezing pit of metal bars.

You only ended up getting about five years in prison. Not bad compared to what you’ve heard from others. A whole lifetime. Then again, some crimes were worse than yours.

Thinking about your sentencing, you heard footsteps coming down the hall and closer to your door. Figuring it was a guard to take you to dinner, you get ready to leave the cell. 

“(L/N). You have a visitor. Make it snappy. Visiting hours end in 10 minutes.” You raised your eyebrow. Why would you have any visitors now? You weren’t expecting the detective back, and you had no friends or family that’d visit you.

Your eyes widen in shock as you see a familiar little girl pop out from behind the door.

“Eri?!” Walking slowly over to her, she ran towards you and wrapped her arms around you. You did the same as you felt a big relief lift off your shoulders. 

“Oh, thank god! Your okay!” You feel tears fill your eyes. The plan worked. You might be stuck behind bars for a while, but now she’s okay.

“She insisted on coming to see you. She just got out of the hospital.” Raising your head, you see Pro-Hero EraserHead. 

“Well, thank you. Where is she going to stay?”

“She’s going to stay with me for the time.”

“Your gonna be so safe, huh, Eri?” You feel her hug you harder. 

“When are you gonna get out of here?” 

“Oh. Haha, it won’t be for a while but don’t worry, if you ever wanna visit me, you can just ask Mr. EraserHead, alright?” She nodded her head before looking at the Pro Hero.

“Alright, Eri, we came late, so we don’t have much time to talk.” Her little face turned into a frown as she hugged you tight once more as she whispered in your ear.

“Thank you. Your my hero.”

[stateswscarlet]

but what if I genuinely don't want to do ANYTHING to get my desire, I just want to wake up and BAM it's there. Do you think that's possible? and please don't say "it depends on you and what you believe in your reality." I want to know what YOU think.

Why are you asking me? Do my beliefs and my state manifest in YOUR reality? Didn’t think so. You don’t need my validation at all, im some random chick on the internet who loves studying and teaching the law.

So yes anon it depends on you and what you believe in your reality, lmao.

But I assume you’re wanting MY personal opinion in MY reality correct? So I also assume you’re not going to cry and throw up and spiral to everyone else that “Omg scarlet said this!!” because you asked for MY OPINION.

(and this goes to everyone else reading this - I better not catch anyone spiraling in someone elses ask box about “scarlet said this, is it true?? is it real?? what do i do?” because I know DAMN WELL yall LOVE taking stuff out of context and blurt it to other creators without giving them the full story. So if you’re going to go throw up your spiral in someone else box, let them read my ENTIRE answer before you make me look bad.)

So since anon asked for MY PERSONAL OPINION IN MY REALITY I will share MY OWN PERSONAL BELIEFS THAT HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH ANYONE ELSES REALITY BUT MY OWN.

I don’t believe in MY REALITY that its possible to magically wake up in another life. I don’t believe in “magical” manifestations. I don’t believe in anything that isn’t already natural or COULD NOT BE experienced (even as a teeeeeeeeeeeny chance) by someone living on planet earth and all its laws. I don’t believe in manipulating physics, growing wings, changing your age and physically becoming a 10 year old from a 45 yeat old, changing your race (thats weird as fuck so idk why you’d do that anyways), transforming into a magic fairy, turning into a sorcerer who can teleport and mind read, or waking up tomorrow as taylor swift.

The way I learned and understood and firsthand experienced the law is:

1. The law is natural. It has ALWAYS been at play. It is ALWAYS working FOR EVERYONE. Even unconsciously we are all manifesting based off the law and our state. It works THE SAME WAY for everyone regardless of who you are.

2. Our consciousness, YES it is LIMITLESS has chosen FOR THIS LIFETIME a HUMAN experience that is bound to the 3D. Our consciousness has chosen an earth experience as its home, as its experience for our life that we are aware of. It CHOSE this (limited) 3D world as its experience and WANTS to experience what a human is capable of experiencing. The law exists amongst other laws like physics. Yes we are god, but we are GOD EXPERIENCING ITSELF THROUGH A HUMAN. WE CAN GOD IN HUMAN FORM. Not literally an all knowing powerful entity who can turn off gravity and create an ice castle in a blink of an eye.

So if you’ve lived your whole life never hearing of anyone that has magically woken up in a mansion in LA when they were just asleep in their studio apartment in Antartica, it would be pretty difficult to believe that to be true today. Now if you HAVE heard of that or firsthand experienced it, know someone who has, now thats a different story because again, IF YOU BELIEVE ITS POSSIBLE IN YOUR REALITY THEN THAT IS WHAT YOU WILL EXPERIENCE.

I personally have never heard of anything magical happening nor have I ever seen it with my own eyes so in MY REALITY its not possible in the slightest. I don’t see myself manifesting waking up in a completely different life with a new name, age, set of parents because first of all, I would freak THE FUCK out, that sounds SO scary and disorienting?! Maybe i’ll believe it when I see someone in real life flapping their wings, teleporting, and waking up in a brand new place with a new name/age. And I don’t mean people on here with success stories online, I mean people physically and/or people who don’t know the words “law of assumption” experiencing it (as I said up in number 1, the law is the same for everyone).

When I see “manifesting is illogical” I take it as we cannot conceptualize HOW something would happen. That is what ILLOGICAL means. It doesn’t mean that when you blink, a fat stack of a billon dollars is going to appear in front of you. It means YOU CANNOT PREDICT OR KNOW HOW IT WILL HAPPEN AND NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU TRY, IT WILL STILL HAPPEN IN A WAY YOU DIDNT EVEN THINK OF. Same thing applies for the “there are infinite realities, theres one where im living that!” YES you are correct! There is a reality where you have a huge mansion next to Kylie Jenner, and so there would be NATURAL STEPS TAKEN to make that a reality that would be the BEST way for YOU.

I believe in a natural bridge of incidents (it would have happened anyways or it makes sense how it happened after it did kind of thing) that is perfectly and best suited TO ME. Trying to “wake up” in a new life is messing with the how, because if you knew by the end of next week GUARANTEED you’d be living your dream life, would you give half a fuck about what steps needed to be taken for that? NO because you would just NATURALLY take them WITHOUT EVEN THINKING as part of the bridge! So yes, becoming a millionaire quickly is 100% possible, dating a celebrity is also 100% possible, moving into a huge mansion when you’re currently homeless is also possible, healing an illness is also possible, and so is manifesting an sp you don’t know/do know, and manifesting a career you’re not qualified for/rejected for because all of these things and everything else in between are things which humans can already experience (even as a very slim, nearly impossible chance) with or without knowing the law. I firmly believe the law isn’t magic.

I already know someone is gona be like “what about so and so success story? what about xyz stories? are they fake??”

When I say that I GENUINELY DO NOT GIVE A SINGLE THOUGHT thinking if someone’s success is true or not, I 10000% mean it. Who am I to tell someone else they’re lying or ask for proof? In THEIR reality they experience different beliefs than me and thats 100% okay. I dont care what someone is or isn’t doing in their reality. I don’t care if they’re lying or scripting because how does that affect me? I still believe in the law and love my natural and “limited” perspective and still get things reflected in the 3D in a natural and effortless way. I don’t need nor want proof of it because no one owes anyone any successes or proof that they manifested something and this goes for me too. I will say however that no one should be relying on other peoples successes on the internet and instead use the law yourself to be your own success story. We (myself included) are at the end of the day, random strangers on the internet who you don’t know. Why would you place your life in our hands? Study the law yourself from source and be comfortable with your own beliefs instead of asking me or anyone else “is this possible” instead ask YOURSELF if ifs possible for you.

Not to mention i’ve literally known people from other communities (reddit and subliminals community) who posted “impossible” successes yet were in my DMs saying how “gullible” others are and how none of that happened. It makes me sad knowing people would post anything fake, but I know that others lying has nothing to do with me and everything to do with them. This is why I said that YOU NEED TO BE YOUR SUCCESS instead of relying on others because we aren’t special or unique, we are all regular people too.

Also I will NOT BE ANSWERING ANY ASKS RELATED TO CALLING ME LIMITED, BEING RUDE, TELLING ME OFF, ETC it will be INSTANTLY DELETED. This is MY PAGE WHERE I SHARE MY BELIEFS. DO NOT go around to 10 other creators venting that “omg scarlet said i cant magically wake up a kpop idol!” because if you’re spiraling over ONE random persons beliefs, im sorry you need to do better and go apply the law. If you are going to be throwing up elsewhere, make sure you link the entire post.

Call me limited all you want, im not stopping YOU from getting what YOU believe to be true.

[kisses4suna]

Do you do emergency request??? If not just ignore me.

Hii sorry to bother I just need an emergency request. If you’re okay with it. I’ve been feeling so incredibly unlovable and lonely lately. Bc I’m realizing my parents suck and never showed me that. And lately I’ve been feeling my friends pull away from me. I’m not sure why it could be my fault /: but can you give me a suna and maybe an Oikawa where they notice my shift in energy and remind me this doubt i have isn’t true. :(

NEVER STOP LOVING YOU !!

☆ featuring. suna rintarou, + gn!reader

☆ a/n. anon im so so sorry you are feeling like this, sometimes parents cant be the best people, and thats okay. you have people around you who truly love you and i bet the person reading this screen right now is someone extremely beautiful with the most lovely soul ever!! my dms are open for talking, and just know i am always here if you want to talk ! feel better bby :( btw, im so so sorry if you waited long, i was visiting family today so i didnt have much time to go on here, im sorry i couldnt squeeze in oikawa but heres suna for you ! btw sorry if its short and corny i didnt have a lot of time 😭

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“yeah so anyways atsumu absolutely just fell! entire face planted into that dog shit! it was so fucking funny i swear, i should’ve recorded it!”, suna’s laugh echoed throughout the entire top of the school rooftop. your eyes however, were focused on the horizon in front of you. you couldn’t hear anything, suna’s laughing was faint and sounded like nothing but a mere background noise- and his words were going in one ear and going out the other.

you wanted to say something back, but you couldn’t. you were distracted at high up you were- the distance from the rooftop building to the ground- about 44 feet. was 44 feet enough to jump off and end your life? “hey? y/n?” suna’s voice caught you off-guard- your thoughts interrupted by him calling out your name and tapping your shoulder. “hey, you alright baby?” he asks, his tone more gentle. 

“yeah- just thinking..” you say, you turn to look at him- his eyes filled with confusion and concern. “are you okay?” he asks again.

no, i’m not, but i couldn’t let you know anything about that, i feel guilty and selfish if i were to just pour all my feelings right now.

“i’m fine rintarou, what were you saying about atsumu?” you ask, looking away from his eyes.

“no. you’re not okay, what’s wrong?” he tells me, it didn’t sound like a question, it was as if he was demanding to know what was wrong. “i said it’s nothing..” i say again, mumbling this time, eyes looking away again.

“y/n, i’m serious. what’s up with you lately? you don’t laugh at the funniest shit ever, you hardly eat anything when we go out, you’re never seen hanging out with your friends and you barely text me anymore. you wanna breakup with me or something?” he asks, voice cracking at the last sentence. suna rintarou is strong. he’s understanding and doesn’t care about anything, but he’s never felt this away about someone before, he cares about you more than the biggest and funniest miya twins fight. he cares about you more than chuppetts- hell even more than his mom probably. “i just- i don’t know rintarou. i feel like shit, and i don’t want to breakup with you but, i mean- do you even love me?! i don’t think i could ever be loved at all! everyone who tells me they love me leave! and i’m scared, i’m scared that you’ll leave too. my parents are assholes- and my friends don’t even notice anything! and i just feel like i have no one. i know i have you- but it feels like everyday someone leaves, and i’m not ready for you to leave either..”, everything felt like it was collapsing at that moment. like the earth was shaking repeatedly and after a while everything went down crumbling to the last bits. tears fell out, dropping down your face like a waterfall.

suna doesn’t say anything, he brings his hands to cover your tears, and quickly embraces you in a hug. “listen- i’m not good at shit like this.. but i love you. i won’t ever stop loving you. when im 70 years old and wrinkly, i won’t stop loving you. when i have little mini y/ns and rintarous running around my house, i won’t stop loving you. i’ll always love you. and i won’t ever leave you. there doesn’t go a millisecond where i think about leaving you, i’ve never even thought about it. because i love you too much to ever think about something like that. you’re my everything y/n, and if you can’t see that then obviously you’re blind.”