#im super proud of myself for keeping it up this long

[ultimateyakazoo]

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Hello! Could you do Pure Vanilla Cookie x Fem! Ancient reader, whose kingdom is like a spiritual kingdom and The Reader Is just very stressed?? Like, very little time to eat, sleep, ect. How could PV maybe comfort her?? Have a nice day!!

`•- Time for Yourself

pure vanilla cookie x fem reader

summary: pure vanilla notices you haven't been acting like yourself lately. how does he help you feel better?

warnings: physical touch, pure vanilla is kind of a worry wart, also im not super proud of the writing on this one so im sorry if it's not as good as my other stuff :((

a/n: is it bad that when i went to the store today and saw pure vanilla extract on the shelf i thought of pure vanilla cookie

Pure Vanilla Cookie has noticed the lack of letters you've been sending him recently.

Of course, he knows that ruling a kingdom is no simple ordeal, and, of course, there's no way you would be able to send him a letter every day. However, despite that, you've always made sure to send him letters frequently and inform him of every nifty little thing going on in your life.

That is, up until roughly three and a half weeks ago.

You used to send him letters every four or five days to keep him updated on everything going on in your kingdom, and he always wrote back when he received your letters. However, when he responded to a letter you sent about three and a half weeks ago, you hadn't written anything back to him.

He found this behavior very strange, as you were always enthusiastic about being able to talk with him whenever you got the chance. Pure Vanilla Cookie was, frankly, getting rather worried about you and how you were doing. So, he decided to take a trip over to your kingdom to see for himself what was wrong.

When he finally arrived, Pure Vanilla Cookie was quick to stride towards your castle, making haste towards your office, where you spent most of your time. Gently knocking on the door, he quietly entered the room, as to not disturb you too much. He immediately notices your eyebags, the empty coffee mugs littered around your desk, and the way you don't even glance at him when he enters the room, thinking it was just some servant needing to ask a quick question or something of the like. Needless to say, when he spoke up, you immediately turned and stared at him in surprise.

"My Dear, has everything been okay lately?" He gently asks. "Ah! Pure Vanilla Cookie? What are you doing here?" You respond, shocked. You had no idea he was coming, you had no time to prepare, you didn't want him to see you like this.

"Are you alright?" He slowly walks toward you before draping his cloak over your shoulders, "You haven't responded to my letter for weeks, and you look awfully tired. How long have you been sitting here working today?" He looks at you with worry swirling in his eyes.

As you sit there failing to answer his question, he gently places a hand on your head and caresses your hair, sighing, "You need to remember to take care of yourself, you know. You can hardly handle this much work in the state that you're in. Why don't you rest for a bit?"

You look at him with tired eyes, attempting to provide a counter-argument, "I know, I know, but-" "No buts. You're going to go lay in bed and read a nice book to help you de-stress. I'll also fetch you some tea. Then, perhaps you can take a nap. You'll feel a lot better when you wake up," He suddenly picked you up, carrying you back to your bedroom before you can even say anything. Perhaps he was right though, as you were indeed doing a lot better the next morning. Perhaps self-care really is important after all.

a/n: not me writing a fic about self-care at 2 am when i haven't slept and i am in fact not taking care of myself lmao uhhhhhh i promise ill get some sleep once i finish up the rest of the requests i swear i pinky promise i swear

thanks for reading, and remember to take care of yourself! don't be like me lmao

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(Sorry I'm about to send like 4 requests /srs)

May. May I request some rottmnt Leon general dating hcs..

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A/N: HEY BESTIE,,,, dawg really sent me 8 requests,,,, oh well here is my take on Leolanadro dating hc!!!!!! Im tired,,, sorry if this is to short

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Leonardo Dating hcs♡

• he is a HUGE flirt. Even before you and him even began a relationship, he is finding the most wildest pick up lines that he can think of, and blurting them out without even thinking about it

• he would totally get hurt and when you rush to his aid he takes this chance to flirt

"Ow,,, ive hurt myself from falling,,,, for you ;)"

DAWG FELL FROM A BUILDING TO FLIRT WITH YOU WITH HIS BODY BROKEN

• does litterly EVERYTHING to get a blush or a giggle out of you it makes him look stupid (he already does)

•and when he actually manages??? His ego boosts, and he gets all proud of himself. The smugest smile ever

• NEVER uses your real name. He HAS to call you a nickname. From the moment you guys started dating, and even before he had a stupid nickname for you. And you just have to go along with it

• does litterly anything and EVERYTHING to try and impress you. Whether it just be chugging a whole can of soda without burping, he does it just to earn your praise. (He is also alittle insecure,,, make sure he knows how amazing he is ♡)

• he loves physical affection, atleast just holding your hand or tackling you into a hug to cuddle. But i also think he would use words of affirmation. Praising you on every little thing you do, even if you are just sitting there with him, he will just come up with a praise out of nowhere, and not even realize it.

• he also needs words of affirmation from you, make sure he is doing a good job and you love and appreciate him<3

• when he has to leave you or you have to leave, he wont let it happen without getting a kiss from you. Whether it just be a quick peck or a cheek kiss, he needs a kiss before he leaves. And has the biggest grin when he gets it

• speaking if which, when he is out with his brothers without you, he complains so much. Complsining about how he misses you and your kisses and your hand in his and the way you lean against him -

• his brothers had to ducktape his mouth shut because of how much he was complaining about missing you.

• Donnie is getting so tired of here about you from Leo that he had to pull you aside and ask what you see in him. But alittle releaved since Leo goes to you to bother instead of him.

• Mikey thinks you guys are ADORABLE. Having Leo come home after a date and tell him EVERYTHING because he needs to know

• Raph is happy for him! He is just very worried that he is going to get distracted during a battle or something even worse and get himself hurt because he couldn't stop babbling about you

• when he is done with his day, he is immediately searching you our to find you, kiss you, lay ontop of you and tell you about his day and the recent battle. (Def twists the story to make him look like the only hero)

• you have to wear earplugs simetimes at night to drown out Leo from being up or making alot of noise in the middle of the night. Or, sometimes you stay up with him for as long as you can jusr to talk to him or comfort him. Though, i also think he would love to hold you while you sleep. Even if he is awake, he'd like holding you close to him

• wakes you up super early because he is bored

• Dates are normal, going out to a different restaurant each week to try the food. And if there is pizza, Leo always orders that instead

• some of your dates though might be small, like him coming over to watch a show or movie with you

•you are one of his main priorities, alongside His Brothers, Dad, April, and Casey. So you bet your ass Leo would go out of his way to protect you and keep you safe. And you're his first concern when a battle is done. Has Donnie scan you just in case so many times.

• hold this poor baby PLEASE, he so needs it

• he makes sure to drag you along with him everywhere he goes, he dosnt go anywhere without you unless its a battle. He needs to keep you safe and he intends to to so.

• brags about you all the time, mever shuts up about how amazing you are. Telling everyone how you woke up this morning

• HED BE SUCH A GENTLEMSN TOO URGGGG

• he is the type of guy to push you back in the car and close it just so he can open the door for you.

• when you enter the room he is automatically to your side and cracking up the worst pick up lines once again

• if you do actually manage to laugh at one of his jokes, he is already looking at rings to buy you

• if anyone tries to flirt with him, he will decline by going, "sorry, but im... taken." makes it so dramatic for no reason

• if you were to call him at any time and you could be halfway across the city and you need him, he is automatically up and out of the lair running to your destination to get to you he isnt slacking.

• LOVES the fact that you depend on him. Makes him so proud of himself, also gives him another bit of motivation to be a good leader!

• Casey is so happy to see you two together in a different timeline. Yet, has to constantly avoid Leo sometimes. Because he pesters Casey atleast once a day to see if you guys were married in the future.

• cant go a full day without seeing you at least once. He will show up to your home unannounced and break in. He's done it so many times that you just gave him a spare key.

• your home becomes his second hang out spot. If hes not at the lair, he is definitely hanging in your house and raiding your fridge for food

• his brothers dont question it, they know where hes at

• sends you random memes in the MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT, LIKE???? leo honey, we need sleep

• gets so pouty when he has to leave you, but when he does he makes the most dramatic exits like jumping out of the window and shouting "WE SHALL MEET AGAIN, MY LOVE"

• He's so stupid, but we love stupid♡♡♡♡

[ros3ybabe]

Daily Check-in: May 20, 2024 🎀

omg it'd almost the end of May, what the heck? I'm so excited, I leave to Colorado for my 8 weeks of work very soon and I can't wait! it's going to be such a cool experience being in a new place for a while!

Monday was a good day. My dad and my boyfriend both think I overdid it on the physical exertion a bit, and I agree. I took a long walk, outside, in 95 degree heat, with no sunscreen. Which is why they said I overdid it because my chest and shoulders are sooooo sunburnt. But Monday was amazing! Started off strong, ended not as strong but still good!

🩷 What I Accomplished:

~13k+ steps for the day

took an hour and a half long walk outside(it was amazing, I loved it, I stayed hydrated ans soaked up all the sunlight and fresh air)

completed a 30 min beginner pilates workout from Move with Nicole

did my morning journaling and gratitude

wrote down a positive quote of the day and read through my journal where I wrote down some things that I want to read daily

read and "annotated" 14 pages of Atomic Habits

took a 20 minute power nap

worked a ~6.5 hour shift

drank at least ~80oz of water (that's pretty good given I used to drink like 20oz a day and wonder why I never felt good)

took my two medications + vitamin D supplement

took a cool shower and washed my hair at the end of the day

went to sleep early!

💞 Good Things That Happened

my friend and a supervisor im close with complimented my appearance in a way that gave me a confidence/motivational boost

my other friend and I decided we're probably getting our nails done together next week

that same friend ^ and I are going to go shopping next week as well

my work is going to schedule me where I can still go to brunch with my dad on Friday!

my man starts his first day of work on Tuesday (I'm so excited for him! It's gonna suck not being able to text him all day, but I'm so proud of him for getting this job and all the progress he's made)

got complimented on how efficient I was at work by the night shift supervisor

ate goods that made me happy without feeling guilty or anxiety about it

💔 What Could've Gone Better

I over ate a bit at night after work and felt kind of bloated and sick when I went to bed. it's okay tho, things happen, and Tuesday is a new day <3

super sunburnt!!!! my chest and shoulders are bright, bright red! and I'm a naturally pretty tan person, so seeing my skin that red, yep, I'm definitely super burnt! need to wear sunscreen and protective clothes when I take a shorter walk on tuesday

I definitely overdid it on that walk. got too overzealous and pushed myself a lot. my legs were hurting so bad by the end of the day and that's not good. as much as I enjoyed the walk, I need to be so much more kinder to and thoughtful of my body. it does a lot for me, and I need to treat it right <3

💗 Stuff For Tuesday

take a shorter walk outside in the morning

read more of Atomic Habits (and annotate)

begin studying Spanish some more (fell off the habit but I have a lesson next Tuesday the 28th, so I need to be prepared!)

do some gentle morning and night skincare (my face is a little red from yesterday but not too bad since I wore a hat during my walk)

do my morning beginner pilates and gratitude journaling (I've already done these as of right now, but I struggled with the so-called "beginner" pilates video from IsaWelly. practice makes perfect, tho so I've got to keep consistent!)

book nail appointments with my friend for next week (hopefully the nail tech/nail salon I go to has availability for her and I to go together! I also need to pick the design i want!)

budget for this upcoming paycheck and what I need to save vs what I'm going to spend (and need to buy)

work a ~5 hour shift

talk to my man over video call at the end of the day to see how work/training went for him (it's his first day of work, but it's a hands on training kind of day for him as well)

💕 Song of The Day: aespa - Supernova

what an absolutely amazing song omg. aespa literally never misses with their music. I almost put Spicy, but I've been obsessed with Supernove since it dropped. I love it so much <3

That's all for Monday, like I said, it was a beautiful start to the week for me! And here's to Tuesday being a good day as well <3 I hope everyone here has a wonderful beginning of their week!

til next time lovelies 🩷

[watchmegetobsessed]

THE SUN WILL RISE (part 5)

A/N: aaand part 5 is here! im planning to finish the story in part 6 so get ready!

PAIRING: College!Long-hair!Harry X Reader

WARNING: sexual content

WORD COUNT: 5k

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It’s hard to tell where you end and where Harry starts as he presses you up against the wall of the house, his lips devouring you just as much as you’re ravaging him at the same time, messy limbs, needy touches and shameless moans as you kiss like there’s no tomorrow. 

His confession came as a shocker and you can’t really tell who kissed who, maybe you moved first, or it might have been Harry. It doesn’t actually matter at the moment, all that matters is that you want him and he wants you too.

However Harry snaps out of the heated bubble you created and he pulls back as if you were on fire.

“Shit, I’m so sorry, I just dropped all of you and then kissed you, I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have–”

You interrupt his rambling by grabbing the back of his neck and pulling him in for another passionate kiss, which catches him by surprise, but he returns it, though you can feel him fighting with himself. Then he pulls back again.

“If we keep doing this I won’t…  Don’t you think we should talk first?”

“You want to talk now?” you chuckle in disbelief. He had so many chances to talk, but he chose to suggest it now. UNbelievable.

“I mean,” he leans closer and kisses your lips softly. “I would love to do it for as long as possible, but… it’s not how I planned to tell you.”

“Were you even planning to tell me though?” you arch an eyebrow at him, to which he clenches his jaw, obviously not too proud of how he acted.

“Can I at least explain myself?”

The heat of the moment is already gone and he is right, you have a lot to talk about.

“Let’s go home,” you nod, which Harry mirrors and to your surprise, he takes your hand, laces your fingers together as he orders a car on his phone.

The ride home is awkward at first, the weight of what happened is hanging above you in the dark car and the alcohol is slowly running out of your system, bringing your usual anxious self back that got locked away just for tonight.

When Harry reaches over and takes your hand again, your racing thoughts quiet down for a bit and you only focus on the warm touch of his hand.

“So, what did you want to tell me?” you ask when you finally made it into your home.

“First of all, I’m sorry,” he starts. “I really was a dick and you have every right to hate me for that.”

“I don’t hate you, I’m just mostly confused,” you admit, folding your arms over your chest. 

Harry sighs, as if he is not even sure where to start or how to say what’s on his mind. WIth one hand on his waist, the other one picking on his bottom lip, he mumbles something under his breath before taking your hand and pulling you over to the couch where you both sit.

“I liked you from the first moment we met, Y/N,” he then speaks up. “But… Tanner told me about your family, where you come from and I couldn’t imagine a scenario where I can fit into the picture. You come from wealth, your parents are both these super successful lawyers and you’re about to become one too. I’m just some random guy from England, I was never rich and I study graphics design. We are like polar opposites, I’m not the kind of guy who ends up with girls like you,” he confesses and you listen intently, chewing on your bottom lip. 

“I tried to convince myself that you’re like those spoiled, snob girls who study law that I met to make it easier for me to keep myself away from you.”

“But… I’m not like them, right?” you ask, your stomach dropping at the thought of him having such an opinion about you.

“No,” he shakes his head. “You are… kind and sweet and so caring towards others… nothing like I expected. But I still tried to keep my distance and it was easier if we didn’t have any contact, but that could only work if you didn’t want to be around me either. That’s why I was such an ass.”

“And what changed? Before Alice’s visit we were… friends.”

“It was impossible to pretend to hate you while I was living with you, I saw you every day and then I saw you crying that day… God, I hated seeing you like that and I imagined what if I made you cry too in the past. I hated myself for that. So I gave up, I couldn’t keep myself away from you anymore.”

“So then why have you been ignoring me again?” He exhales, running a hand over his hair before answering.

“That kiss, Y/N… it was a taste of you, of what it would be like if I had you, but… your sister kept talking about your family, the wedding and I realized again how far away I am from that. I went back to my old tactic, but jealousy got the worst out of me,” he admits with a bitter chuckle. 

A small smile tugs on the corners of your lips before you look down at your hands in your lap. It’s clearly your turn to speak up.

“I don’t belong to my family either,” you admit, referring back to what he said about where you come from. “I was an unplanned child and my parents, especially my father, always make sure I feel it. I’ve been trying to please them all my life, but… honestly, I’m starting to give up. I only study law because they expected me to, but I hate it. I hate it with everything in me.”

It’s the first time you say these words out loud and it feels liberating, but maybe because of the person on the receiving end. Harry listens to you intently and you know he won’t try to invalidate your feelings or the situation you grew up in. It’s something you haven’t experienced too often.

“I know I shouldn’t let them control my life this much but… I can’t help but want to please them, even when it’s impossible and it’s hard to go against them and see the disappointment in their eyes. Though I see it often already,” you shrug, your vision starting to get blurry from tears. “I will never be good enough for them.”

“And… what about the wedding?” he asks softly. 

“In the heat of the moment I told them I might have a plus one. This, of course, stirred their interest and I couldn’t just change what I said, I was expected to have a partner. So… I had to find one,” you add with a weak smile as you look at him. “I’m sorry for bringing you into this, I just… It’s a mess,” you mumble under your breath. 

Looking up into his eyes you find comfort and acceptance, something warm and soft is pulling you towards him, but there is still something you haven’t discussed.

“Are you gonna freak out on me again, now that we kissed?” you ask, half jokingly. Harry huffs as he smiles, shaking his head.

“No.”

“So then… what happens now?” 

Harry stares back at you before reaching out and brushing a strand of hair out of your face, cupping your cheek in the palm of his hand. His thumb runs across your lips and his gaze follows the movement, your lips parting from the soft sensation.

“I can’t seem to keep myself away from you.”

“Then don’t,” you whisper, his eyes snapping up to meet yours. “If you want me, I’m yours and–”

You don’t get to finish before his lips crash down onto yours with just as much heat and eagerness as he kissed you at the party earlier. 

He is claiming your lips, burning his name into them with his own mouth, tongue and teeth, one hand cupping your jaw to keep your head in place, the other one finding your waist as he pulls you against him until you’re basically lying on top of him. You move a leg over him so you can straddle his waist and he lets out a grunt when he gains more access to your body, his needy hands exploring what he could only dream and fantasize about until now. He maps the curve of your waist, your hips, your lower back and how it delicately leads his hands to your bottom and he can’t stop himself from squeezing you everywhere he reaches.

“Do I deserve you to be mine?” he asks, his lips brushing against your with every spoken word.

“Yes,” you answer confidently. “Are you mine too?” you ask.

“I’ve been yours since the moment we met.”

His words grip your heart and squeeze it, they hold way more significance than anything anyone has ever told you and you know this is the moment you fall for him irrevocably.

His kisses grow hungrier, he is needy and demanding and you’re willing to give him everything he wants. His hands move under your shirt and you moan into his mouth, feeling his palms on your naked backs. You can’t hold yourself from rolling your hips against his, feeling the growing bulge between your legs, the thought of being the reason why Harry is turned on brings you a whole new level of excitement. 

You wouldn’t call yourself experienced in sex, you only slept with two people, but it’s been a while since the last time you were intimate with someone. You’ve been hesitant when it came to physical intimacy, but right in this moment, with Harry, you feel nothing else but desire and lust to give him everything you have of yourself.

You grab a fistful of his shirt and start tugging it off and you pull back just for a second so you can rid him of it before your mouths connect again. Soon enough your shirt is gone too and you’re fumbling with his pants’ sipper when he stops you.

“Wait, wait. Not–” he starts and your anxiety kicks in before he could even finish his thought.

“I-I’m sorry, I just thought you want this too, and I–”

“Y/N, stop,” he cuts you off, taking your face in his hands. “I want it too. I was just about to say that we should move this into the bedroom,” he grins, one hand moving down to your neck to caress the heated skin.

“Oh,” you breathe out. “Okay.” You move to climb off of his lap, but he stops you and instead just holds onto your thighs and stands up, with you in his arms and starts walking towards the bedrooms.

“Yours or mine?” he cheekily asks.

“Doesn’t matter,” you grunt, kissing him impatiently.

He ends up walking into your bedroom, laying you to the bed and climbing over you.

“Finally get to have you in this bed like I wanted,” he smirks and presses a kiss to your collarbone.

“What?” you breathe out, your thoughts intoxicated by the feeling of his lips on you.

“When we slept here and cuddled in the morning. Loved that, but I wanted more.”

“Wait, you… you were awake?” you ask, eyes widening.

“I had been awake for hours, just enjoyed holding you in my arms,” he admits, his face hovering above yours. 

Way too many things are racing in your mind and you can’t get a word out, you just take his face in your hands and pull him down to kiss him. It’s slower, but holds way more significance. 

As the kisses grow more heated again, your clothes start to disappear. Soon, you’re lying only in your bra and panties and Harry is on top of you in his underwear too, his hard cock straining against the fabric, begging to be touched by you. 

That’s when your old mechanisms kick in.

Your mind gets flooded by dark, anxious thoughts. What if you can’t please him? What if he'll be disappointed by you? What if he’ll change his mind about you because you’re that bad in bed?

“Y/N? What’s happening?” his voice pulls you out of your spiraling thoughts and you realize how stiff you’ve gotten, your hands curled into fists. Harry rolls to his side next to you and brushes your hair out of your face, examining you with concern filling his eyes.

“S-Sorry,” you stutter and lean closer to kiss him and just move past it, but Harry is not taking this bullshit.

“Baby, talk to me. Did I do something you don’t like? Why are you so tensed? We don’t have to do anything now. We can just sleep if that’s what you want.”

“You didn’t do anything, I just… I’m not too experienced and… I don’t want to disappoint you.”

“You think I’m that more experienced?” he smiles softly, tapping his index finger on your nose. “I have only been with two people so far.”

“Two?” you ask in shock. “Me too.”

“See? Nothing to worry about. And it’s impossible for you to disappoint me, Y/N. Just you is enough. You've always been enough.”

And just like that, you’re speechless once again. It’s hard to believe you’ve been living with this man for months, that these feelings have been so close, but you’re experiencing them only now. 

You move closer and kiss him with appreciation and dedication to continue where you left it off before your freak-out. 

“We’re only doing what you feel comfortable with,” he murmurs between kisses as his fingers hook into the elastic of your underwear, but he doesn’t move it just yet. “You’re okay? Do you want more?” he asks.

“Yes.”

“Okay,” he hums, kissing your lips softly before pulling the panties down and baring you finally. “I’m gonna touch you, Y/N.”

You nod at his words and see it from the corner of your eyes how your panties fly to the side, it brings a small smile to your lips, but then you feel his wandering hand on the inside of your thigh, inching closer to your heated center. He kisses you right when his fingers reach your pussy, his fingers delicately exploring your body, moving gently between your wet folds and the motions make you moan.

“That’s right, I wanna hear you, baby,” he smirks, pleased with what he is hearing. His touches are controlled and soft, but you’re so riled up and sensitive that it still feels like electricity is hitting you. He circles around your hole, your clit, makes sure you’re relaxed under his touch and comfortable with his actions.

He turns his attention to your clit while he keeps nibbling on your lips and kissing your jawline, whispering sweet nothings against your heated, buzzing skin and just with that, he gets you close to coming, but he stops, leaving you on the edge. 

“Do you have a condom?” he asks while pulling his underwear off and you forget to answer for a moment when you see his cock for the first time. He is big, thick and long and for a moment you panic that you won’t be able to take him. 

“Um, yeah,” you croak out and reach over to the bedside table. 

“You want to put it on?” he offers you, when you hand him the condom. 

“I’m… yeah,” you nod at last. He rips the foil and then lets you take the condom out of the package. 

He is lying on his back, his upper body prompted up on his elbow and he patiently lets you feel him up first, take him in your hands and then put the condom on. The weight of his cock feels unlike anything and the sight of him so hard, all because of you is filling your chest with pride. 

“You want to be on top?” he asks, as he reaches up and cups your cheek in his palm while you’re eyeing his crotch.

“C-can I?” 

“Of course,” he smiles. “Take the lead, baby,” he smirks and kisses you shortly before lying down and letting you take control over him.

It’s a whole new kind of excitement and the pressure still lingers in the back of your head, but your desires take over you this time. Flinging your leg over him you sit on his thighs and take him in your hands, giving him a few strokes, earning some soft moans from him and it gives you the confidence you were seeking and what gives you the boost to move further.

You position yourself over him, lining his cock up with yourself, the head nudging your hole, but you don’t move just yet. Harry’s hands come to your hips, kneading you as if he is trying to ease your nerves. Your eyes lock with his and he gives you a small smile and a nod, telling you that he is ready whenever you are.

You slowly start to descend, his cock entering you inch by inch, filling you up to the fullest. You need to stop halfway, giving yourself time to adjust to his size and he just keeps rubbing and squeezing your hips, waist and thighs, reassuring you how good you’re doing. When you finally ease down on him fully, you let out a deep breath you’ve been holding back, allowing yourself to relax. With your hands on his abdomen you slowly start moving, exploring what feels the best for you and just when you’d start to worry if Harry is enjoying it just as much, he gets vocal about how heavenly you make him feel, he keeps praising you, his hands wandering over your chest, pulling on the cups of your bra that’s still on you, watching as your breasts spill out.

“God, Y/N, you’re perfect!” he grunts and you roll your hips one specific way.

“Harry,” you whimper, feeling your orgasm building up in the pit of your stomach again, he sits up and wraps his arms around you, burying his face in your neck, kissing the column of your throat up and down as you start to move faster and needier.

“I’m right here, baby. Wanna feel you cum on my cock.”

“I’m close,” you gasp, when he pulls you down with him so you’re lying on top of him and he starts fucking into you.

“Don’t hold back, Y/N. Let me feel you cum!” he growls, so eager to please you, his hips moving relentlessly as his cock drives in and out of you.

His next few thrusts are slower, but a lot harder, almost knocking the air out of you and that’s exactly what you need to reach your high. You cum hard, gasping for air and your moans get muffled in his neck. He keeps moving and a few thrusts later his hips stutter and he comes just as intently as you did, his arms tightening around you as he empties himself into the condom. When he stops, he still keeps himself inside you as you lie on top of him. Minutes go by, your breathing slows down and the cloud of desire clears from your mind.

You move carefully, his softened cock slipping out of you as you roll to the mattress beside him. He turns to face you and brushing your hair out of your face he places a kiss to the corner of your mouth.

“Are you alright?” he softly asks.

“Never been better,” you smile at him lazily, which makes him chuckle.

He gets out of bed and disappears for a few minutes, most likely in the bathroom, then he returns with a damp towel and gently cleans you up before handing you a shirt he grabs from your dresser and you notice he is wearing a pair of underwear as well. He makes himself comfortable on the bed beside you, pulling you into his arms and you gladly melt into his embrace, basking in the peace of the moment. 

“I guess you don’t need a fake date anymore,” he cheekily murmurs, pressing a kiss to the top of your head, you just hum in response. 

“When are you going home for the holidays?” you ask quietly.

“Um… Next Friday.”

“What?” you lift your head to look at him. “But that’s… so soon!”

“I get finished with my last exam on Thursday. My mum wants me home as soon as possible.”

“Oh… I get it,” you say, barely masking the disappointment that he needs to leave so soon and the next time you’d see him would be… at the wedding.

“Don’t act like we wouldn’t see each other for years,” he chuckles. “The wedding is on the fifth of January, that’s just a few weeks away.”

“I know, I just… It will be weird not to have you around.”

“You’ll be just happier to see me in Vermont,” he smirks at you, making you laugh.

“I will be happy either way,” you say, before pushing yourself closer to press your lips against his.

You have less than a week left before Harry is set to fly home. Suddenly, you regret not asking him to come home with you, that would have won you a few more days with him, but you want to protect him from your family for as long as possible. 

After that night things take a 180 and you go from acting like strangers to lovers living together. You take turns, sleeping in your and Harry’s bedroom, but always in the same bed. You go grocery shopping together, you cook dinner together and Harry waits for you at the library so you can go home together. 

Your friends notice the change, of course, but when they ask about it, Harry just shrugs.

“It was bound to happen,” he simply says and kisses your cheek.

Friday arrives faster than you wanted. Before you could even blink, Harry’s suitcase is all packed up and you’re heading to the airport to catch his flight home.

“I’ll call you every day,” Harry murmurs, brushing his nose against yours, standing by the security check.

“Okay. But I don’t want you to take time away from your family because of me, I wouldn’t want to be a burden.”

Harry sighs, rolling his eyes.

“You’re not a burden. I’ll call you,” he repeats and you just nod, before his lips melt against yours in a searing goodbye kiss.

You watch him queue at the security check, he keeps looking back at you too, smiling at you warmly every time until the crowd swallows him and he’s gone. 

It’s a shock why you haven’t started smoking yet after all these years with your family. 

This year’s Christmas is just like the past ones, but they were all terrible, so this is too. The over the top family dinner that’s just so your parents can flaunt their career and Alice’s career and… that’s it. They have no use in having you around and you feel like you’re just a background character.

It’s been two days of your father’s disappointed look at basically everything you say and you’re not sure how long you can take it. Your time with Harry has started something in you, he showed you what life could be when you’re not frowned upon all the time.

You’ve allowed yourself to take a break from the jaw clenching conversation you’ve been forced to be part of and you’re now standing on the balcony of your old room. With your phone in hand, you’re ringing Harry, he texted you just minutes ago so he is still up even despite the massive time difference. He answers the call after two rings.

“Hi baby,” his husky voice flows from the speaker as you lean against the railing and stare out to the backyard. 

“Hi,” you breathe out. “Why aren’t you asleep? Isn’t it like three am over there?”

“I’m still a bit jet lagged,” he chuckles. “Which is unfortunate, because I have to be up to help my mum in about… three hours,” he groans. “How are you though? How is… the family?” he asks carefully.

“Not too good,” you hiss. “But it’s the usual.”

“I’m sorry.”

“It’s not your fault.”

“I know, but… I wish I could make it better somehow.”

“I feel better when we talk,” you say bashfully.

“So we should stay in call all day?” he chuckles. “Not that I would mind it, but it sounds a bit extreme.”

“You’re sweet,” you chuckle. “I can’t believe I’m saying this, but I’m looking forward to the wedding.”

Harry’s laugh chimes in your ear and just the sound of it warms your chest and makes you forget about the torment you’ve been going through with your family.

You get so lost in your conversation with Harry that you don’t notice Alice coming out to the balcony, only when she taps on your shoulder and makes you jump.

“Jesus, Alice! Don’t sneak up on me!” you say, placing a hand over your hammering heart.

“Sorry, but dad told me to get you.”

“I’ll be there in a minute,” you sneer through your teeth.

“Are you talking to Harry?”

“Yes.”

“Hi Harry!” she sings, leaning closer to the phone, so you put him on speaker.

“Hi Alice, how are you?”

“I’m doing great, it’s a shame you’re not here,” she says while looking at her nails and your eyes widen. “But I understand why you rejected the invitation.”

“The invitation?” Harry asks and you’re just about to faint. A few heartbeats later he continues. “Yeah, sorry. But I will see you at the wedding.”

“Bring your best suit,” she chuckles before strolling back inside and leaving you alone with Harry on the other end of the call.

“So I was invited to spend Christmas with you?” his voice rings through the phone. 

“Well, it wasn’t an invitation,” you explain, scared that you pissed him off by not telling him that your father wanted him to join. “My dad basically ordered me to bring you.”

“And why didn’t you tell me this?”

“Because…!” you huff. “It wasn’t part of the deal, I didn’t want to mess up your plans for the holidays.”

“But the deal is over now, Y/N.”

“You already had your ticket home, I couldn’t just ask you to take time away from your family just to be with mine.”

“But you could have at least told me, maybe I could push my departure a bit so I could spend at least one day there with you, or figure out a way to be there.”

“Harry, I wanted to save you from this,” you end up confessing. “Christmas is like hell with my family if you are me or have any connections with me. It’s constant frowns and comments about everything I do and I didn’t… I didn’t want you to witness this.”

The line goes silent and you can picture Harry’s disappointed face in your head, you messed up, again, as usual, but knowing that it’s Harry who you let down is a hundred times worse.

But then he speaks up again.

“Y/N, I will tell you this a million times if you want, but your family doesn’t define who you are. If I were there and saw how your parents treat you I would have gotten mad at them, but not at you. I know you, I know what you’re capable of and I know that you’re an amazing person. I won’t see you in a different way because your parents can’t treat you right. If anything, I want to be there for you.”

Your lips wobble and you can’t stop the tears. You’ve never experienced anyone to care about you to this extent, you were always pushed behind, forgotten about or frowned at, but Harry treats you like you hung the stars and moon to the sky, just the way he looks at you makes up for every pain your family caused you before. 

You need to remember that he is not like your parents.

“I’m sorry,” you breathe out shakily.

“Baby, please don’t cry. I’m not mad, just wish you’d realize that there’s nothing you can do or say that would change the way I feel about you.”

Sniffing you wipe your tears off of your cheeks, wishing he would be here with you and not across the world.

“I’m sorry,” you repeat in a whisper.

“It’s okay.”

“I need to go back,” you whine. “Can we talk soon?”

“Sure. Call me when you go to sleep.”

“You need to sleep,” you chuckle, blinking your tears away. 

“I also need to make sure my girlfriend doesn’t jump off a cliff before the new year,” he replies, making you laugh.

“I love that.”

“What? Jumping off a cliff?” he asks alerted.

“No. That you called me your girlfriend,” you say, smiling shyly. You hear him huff on the other end of the call and you just know he is smiling. 

“Alright then, girlfriend. We’ll talk later,” he murmurs softly.

“Bye, Harry.”

When the call ends you stay there on the balcony for a few more minutes, Harry’s voice still echoes in your ears and you can almost feel his touch on your shoulders and arms. You look down at the screen of your phone and examine the lockscreen that’s a photo of Harry from a while ago, when you were just friends. The two of you went out to grab a late lunch and the girls asked where you were, so you just snapped a picture of Harry and sent them. It was an oddly warm and sunny day, he had his hair pushed back by his sunglasses and you remember that you were trying not to stare at him the whole time, but he just looked way too handsome. Back then, you would have never thought you’d be a couple by december. A real one.

But you wouldn’t have it any other way.

Sighing, you lock the phone and head back inside. As you take your seat at the table you ignore the disapproving look on your father’s face at how long you were away, and sit through the rest of the dinner holding onto the thought of seeing Harry soon. 

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[prosciuttulipa]

hope im not too late to the match making party—if so please do not mind me 🫣

1. jjk match up please <3

preferably men but cool w women as well

im very confident, quite stubborn at times, a bit bratty (hence the username hehe), very dry humor/super sarcastic/witty, I can be quite hyper/easily-excitable at times and definitely pretty unhinged…I basically let every single thought out of my head and hope it’s entertaining for others

My likes are music, being out n about, exploring and trying new things, but also enjoying my space n alone time…I do a lot of different things to keep myself engaged.

I honestly don’t dislike many things…my interests are ever-changing and it just depends on how im feeling.

My hobbies are writing, bartending (it’s my job but I really enjoy it lol), I do nails, crocheting/knitting…really anything where I can be creative and have a tangible outcome with it

My love language is definitely words of affirmation, quality time, and physical touch. I show love through acts of service + words of affirmation, mostly. But I adapt depending on the partner I have :)

Green flags are communication (not only to be able to communicate but to understand each side) for sure. Love someone I can riff off of, I flirt by being mean and I expect nothing less in return. Mental and emotional strength/maturity is big for me, too.

Red flags are liars, manipulators, etc. I hate being deceived (I mean who doesn’t…but I feel like it pulls such a visceral reaction from me) ugh I cannot deal w it

I’m 5’3, long black hair with side fringe and lots of layers in it (literally like suguru lol). I have curves but I’m more on the thinner side of it. Brown eyes, tan skin, lots of tattoos and piercings.

In addition to the head cannons, I would love a text convo :))))

Thank you so much, and congratulations on 500! I’m so proud of you xxx

Congratulations! You have been matched with...

Shoko Ieri

Being loved by a woman is an entirely different experience to being loved by a man, but Shoko makes sure you won't regret it. You two ride the line between best friends and lovers with ease, and it always leaves people wondering what you are to each other. Not that it's any of their business, and Shoko likes it like that. You're hers, and hers alone.

What first draws you to her is how you seem to be an amalgamation of her two best friends. Your looks remind her of Suguru, while your brattiness and penchant for chaos could have you mistaken for Satoru's little sister. You seem familiar to her as a result, and she slips into being by your side with ease. But the more you two hang out, the more she gets to experience the parts that are distinctly you—and it's those aspects which truly seal the deal for her. There's always interest in your bartending, as she's a heavy drinker and can sample as many cocktails as you can whip up. But the other parts of you that don't immediately form a connection? Well, she's not much of a reader, but she'll always read your work; she's not one for stereotypically girly things, but she'll let you do her nails; she's not crafty, but she sits next to you to watch you crochet away. To love is to clear space for your yarn, and buy notebooks for you to write on. She may not necessarily love the same things you do, but she loves you. And that's enough for her.

Shoko isn't one for sappy words, but her actions and presence speak volumes. If she doesn't like someone, she won't be by their side—yet she's always following you around, not necessarily close but always within vicinity. Furthermore, she always does things on your behalf, trying to make life easier for you without your noticing. She gets flustered when you point out her efforts, and you'll have to cuddle with her to make up for the embarrassment.

Dates with Shoko are a mixup between staying at home to chill (for Shoko), and going out on adventures (for you). It's reflective of how your relationship is built: with understanding and communication, valuing the sum of you two as much as you value yourselves.

The Matchmaker's Gift:

[kinniie00]

HEY BUDDY :D !!! lion, maine coon, american shorthair, tiger, cougar, and fishing cat !!

HIIII!!! 👾

This is so many omg

Lion - I'm probably most proud of how far I've come over the last few years, I went through a lot and am still learning to live with some of it. It's definitely shaped a bit of who I am now, but I'd like to think I have grown from it and carried it with me rather than living in that dump forever :) AND MY FRIENDS IM SO SO SO PROUD OF THEM AND HOW MUCH THEY'VE DONE AND I WISH THE BEST FOR ALL OF YOU :((

Maine Coon - Honestly I'm not too sure how others would describe me, or even how to encapsulate my personality into one word--I'd like to say I'm energetic but I also have my moments of not being as much, I'm nice but I know I can be a bitch, I'm a lot of things but I'm really unsure of what word could describe me, plus I don't remember any good descriptive words rn :') (I'm so tired)

American Shorthair - I have many things that comfort me, id say my friends are my biggest comfort, as cheesy as it is. My friends remind me I'm not alone and have reasons to keep going, even when it feels impossible. I also often tend to latch onto games and streamers/YouTubers for comfort (a big one is hermitcraft!! :D), many of the people I watch now are people who practically raised me and I love them dearly. Another few smaller things that I find help comfort me are things like music, tea, or small things like animals (my cat!!!) or stuffed animals :3

Tiger - Another one that I'm not entirely sure how to answer :( "Being cute and being mine" -☀️ I think I went through the 5 stages of grief trying to come up with something that's all you're getting, oh yeah and my worst is probably the fact that I'm indecisive or like impulsive idk

Cougar - Hehehe fandoms 😇 Definitely undertale, fnaf, and sanders sides in the later years. I was (unfortunately) an aphmau kid back in 2015 but that was more watching her content and less fandom stuff. The undertale and fnaf ones definitely didn't ever stop, I got really into sans aus back during covid and relied on all three of those fandoms for comfort during the quarantine too. Sanders sides definitely helped me over the years before and during covid, it was definitely a rough time in my life as I was learning new things about myself and others around me, and it helped me so much with learning how to be me and accept myself as I am. As for a fandom I'm really active in now, id say the one I'm most active in is Hermitcraft (so surprising!!! 🙀) I got super into it back in season 6 when grian joined because I watched his content before he joined, and now I watch most of the hermits, I do tend to focus on a few each season while watching the occasional stream/video from the others though! I also listen to the imp & skizz podcast, and I find it rather comforting when I'm stressed, I love the hermits so much and they've definitely helped me so much without even knowing :) (and the fandom is so silly I love everyone)

Fishing Cat - I have so many I'm definitely going to forget some, I love learning new things and it's led to many hobbies that I do and will probably get back into in the future! :) I do crochet, it's something I have been learning since I was really young but couldn't get the hang of it for the longest time because my mom had a hard time teaching me it since she's left handed, I love reading, I read all kinds of things from old novels & poetry, romance and mystery, to nonfiction and sci-fi, I enjoy reading anything as long as it can keep my interest, and I loveee getting reccomended books (even though my to-be-read list is SO long), I like small crafts like jewelry making but it hurts my hands (especially the more intricate ones like fancy necklaces, bracelets, earrings), i love gaming, its a big part of who I am seeing as I grew up doing it, and even though i dont it as much anymore I still enjoy it and love playing games with my friends!! I enjoy drawing, but it's stressful because I'm not great at it and am way too perfectionistic over it. I used to paint but I never got too good at it and never had proper supplies, it was very fun though and I'd definitely get back into it sometime down the line. I listen to a lot of music, and watch youtubers/streamers. I like to go on walks, but with some of my health issues I don't go on them as often (I definitely will do more this summer though!!) and hanging out with my friends and animals. I plan on getting into sewing and possibly cosplay sometime so that will be fun to learn! I love creative hobbies, despite how stressful they can be when they don't go how I wanted it to :) I love seeing things I'm able to make evolve and get better and I get better at doing it, and I love consuming information and seeing people be people!!

I'm so sorry this is a lot of yapping even for me 😭

[switchysyphus]

Hunger kink fantasy - it’s super long oops

If you want to read it I’d appreciate it but if you don’t TLDR - my partner keeps me from having food all day, keeping me starving

I am allergic to some foods and generally am a really picky eater. In this situation I do have a partner and am working as a teacher.

Before falling asleep I make sure that my alarm is set for 7am since it’s a Monday morning but my partner has other plans. They secretly wake up before me and turn my alarm off. At 7:35am they wake me saying things like “babe! I thought you were awake! You have to leave for work in 10 mins.. come on wake up!” I drag myself out of bed and change quickly. I think maybe my partner has made me breakfast and I can eat in the car but he didn’t make me anything and it’s too late for me to make myself breakfast.

I teach my morning two classes while being a little hungry but used to not eating for 10-12 hours. During snack time while the kids are eating I try to go to the canteen to grab a snack but another teacher comes to me in a frantic rush saying that there is a problem with the printer and she desperately needs worksheets printed for her class in 10 minutes so I go with her to help her print her copies.

Oh well I think lunch is in an hour I can wait. The hour passes and finally it’s lunch time! I go to the staff room fridge and realise that I forgot to bring my packed lunch cuz I was rushing in the morning! I remember that I still have some money on my card that I can pay for lunch at the canteen! When I go down tho the card reader says it’s at zero so I have to put back the food I took! At this point I am starving… I try to order food but as I am about to press order my teacher friend reminds me that we aren’t allowed to order food cuz we need to set good example for the kids. I’m all out of options by now and soo hungry.

I just remind myself it’s only another 3 hours before I can go home and eat. I text my partner and tell him how hungry I am cuz I had to skip breakfast AND lunch! They say “oh you poor thing! Why don’t we go to that nice restaurant for dinner? You can fill your tummy with all the good food there!”

The hours pass slowly while I teach, soon enough the final bell rings so I can go home yay! By the time I come home it’s almost 4pm, starving I go to look in the fridge and there is nothing!

Partner chimes in and says “oh I cleared the fridge, I ate up the leftovers and threw away the expired stuff! Aren’t you so proud of me?”

I nod and say “I’m starving! Would you mind if we just order some pizza?”

They respond with “I’m not hungry babe, we will go to that lovely restaurant at 7 I already made the booking. I hope you don’t mind I invited some friends!”

I groan and say “ I havnt eaten since last night dinner! Is there really NOTHING I can eat now? Not even a small snack?”

They say “no baby, that homeless shelter needs snacks and you have a whole cupboard full of snacks so I donated them all… yes even the Cheetos and popcorn. Come let’s watch a movie to distract your hungry tummy!”

So we watch a Disney movie and they rubs my tummy which has started to growl, I curl up into them and hope that the times goes quickly. By 6:30pn partner tells me to go get ready and to dress pretty so I go shower and change starving at this point cuz it’s been almost 24 hours without any food. I get ready and they say “you look so thin in that dress baby, it looks so big on you!” I smile and nod. We leave for my favourite restaurant and as we are in the car they say oh shoot I forgot to tell you that “Daniel wanted to go for sushi for his birthday dinner so I couldn’t say no now could I? It’s HIS birthday after all!”

I start to cry cuz they know I don’t eat sushi and im allergic to the ginger and soya sauce they use. I ask if they can just turn around and drop me home but they say “no baby, my friends really want to see you! It’s been soo long and I already told them you would come. It would be rude for you not to come now” During dinner I am forced to sit and smile politely and tell everyone that I ate before coming when it’s been a full 24 hours of no food at this point! I get so hungry that try to take a sushi piece but partner slaps my hand and says “babe! You are allergic! You ate before coming.” I blush and keep talking to my friends. I suggest we go for ice cream but everyone is so tired and full now they all want to go home. On the drive home they keep rubbing their belly and saying they are wayy too much and are so full! I say I’m still hungry and ask again if we can pick up some food for me. Again they say “awww so cute for asking! But no baby, no food for that greedy tummy! Maybe if you wake up early tomorrow you will get breakfast!”

[moneymartin]

luv ur writing sm oh my god. all of it is super duper good @.@ i just have a few questions before i start requesting anything :( sorry if they seem intrusive !!!

what are the things you aren’t super comfortable writing abt?

how long does it usually take for you to finish something short like blurbs or hcs? how abt fics?

do you have any preference when it comes to writing about certain ppl or characters. (i love all of the lottie works i swear)

andddd when does the part 3 to the kate series come out 🤭

hai anonie ur so sweet 🥸 nothing here is rlly intrusive LOLZ dw abt it

ummm im not rlly comfortable w writing things about weird kinks iykwim… (scat piss vomit) stuff like that. also things that have to do anything w spitting 😭 sorry i just HATE the idea of someone else’s spit in ur mouth. also anything that has to do w incest or rape. that’s obvious.

blurbs and hcs usually take about a day or two???? it depends on how i feel to be honest or if i have the time to finish those things up. my hcs abt nika took a day. fics take a little longer though because they are lengthier than blurbs drabbles and hcs. those can take me up to a whole 2 weeks!!!!… not proud of it but it happens some times. either i’ll be rlly out of it or the writers block hits me HARD.

for yellowjackets i’ve only written for lottie. i’ve now thought abt writing for shauna and i think nat so send me some things if you’d like :3 for people/players i write for kate and nika. starting to write for paige, georgia, and hvl

and if i wanna keep myself truthful on here, i don’t think the series is even gonna be done. i’ve been procrastinating w other projects and stuff outside of writing but i feel like it isn’t really as good as the others so i haven’t been trying to finish it :|

[quodekash]

PART 2 OF DANGEROUS ROMANCE EP4 COMMENTARY BC I HAVE TOO MANY THOUGHTS AND RAN OUT OF SCREENSHOTS

because of them, im now gonna start sobbing every time someone throws a peace sign at me

HELL YES

IM SO PROUD OF MY BOY

YUOU DID SO GOOD KANG

I KNEW YPU COULD DO IT

AIUOGHKJERPODHFKN

NOOOOOOO

FRICK

my boy is having many thoughts. none of them good.

I can hear his crisis and him blaming himself because now he thinks it's his fault that sailom's gonna get beat up, and he's sad for himself that he doesn't have a reason to spend time with sailom anymore, and now his grandma's gonna be disappointed in him for failing something, and there's definitely some thoughts in the mix there about his dad and the bike he bought him and kang is so certain he doesn't deserve the bike, I could go on but I wont because I would like to finish this episode before the sun rises and currently that doesnt seem all too likely

well DUH

YOU COULD SEE IT FROM MARS (and now im thinking about soundwin. frick.)

tell him

tellllll himmmmmm

tell him he lent the umbrella to youuuuu

and you've treasured it forever perhaps?

OMG HE'S TELLING HIM???

DUDE THEYRE ACTUALLY LISTENING TO ME SO MUCH THIS EPISODE THIS IS SO RARE

chances are either the bus or Kang's car is gonna show up before he'll get it out, bUT ONCE AGAIN, LET ME BASK IN THIS RARE MOMENT OF GLORY AND POWER

BOOM

CALLED IT

I know it's super cliche and everyone probably saw that coming but I dont care, im gonna let myself feel almighty powerful

I just. I will never understand why they dont just like quickly tell the person before leaving. or like yell at him while getting on the bus. OR EVEN text him while on the bus, immediately after getting on. that's what id do, cos if I dont tell them right then and there, I guarantee you I will forget to ever tell them, and then it'll keep me up at night for ages but never at a moment where I actually think about telling them, and then three or four years later ill finally tell them and it'll be so insignificant by then but it doesnt matter because I FINALLY TOLD THEM THE THING

I really hope he remembers to give at least one of those umbrellas back to kang

mans is not waterproof, he needs an umbrella

respect for auto just went down down prices are down

crypto? seriously honey?

IT'S SO CHEESY

IT'S SO CLICHE

AND IM CRYING ABOUT IT BECAUSE SOMEHOW I BOTH IRONICALLY AND UNIRONICALLY LOVE CHEESY AND CLICHE MOMENTS WITH ALL MY FRIKIN SOUL

EW

SPORTS

I hate sports days so much

thankfully id always be allowed to just not go to school instead of being forced to participate in athletics and swimming carnivals and cross country and stuff, and I will be forever grateful to my parents for that

they're in love btw

just in case anyone forgot

I didn't forget

I can't forget about them

my brain wont allow it

IT'S JUST

ITS JUST SO SWEET

I THINK IM GOING INSANE, THEY HATE EACH OTHER AND WANT TO KILL EACH OTHER SO BADLY THAT IT'S LITERALLY ROMANTIC

THIS IS PINING

HE IS PINING

PL E A SE CAN THEY KISS

NAWA'S HEAD TILT????? LIKE THEYRE LITERALLY ABOUT TO KISS IDK WHAT TO TELL YOU

two things to say here

one: view, please marry me

two: kang and sailom definitely have the same responsibilities

just KISS

I can't deal with the longing stares anymore

im like 80% certain they wont kiss this episode but I so badly want them to

NOOOO THEYRE NOT IN THE SAME GROUP THINGY

....but (hehe butt)

...maybe

...perhaps

I think kang might pull some strings to end up in the same department as sailom? maybe??

IM DYING, THERE'S A MARC AND A PAVIN (which sounded like pawin)

THEY GAVE UP THINKING OF NAMES FOR THE RANDOM CLASSMATES

ooooo he is listening to their conversationnnnnn

AND THEYRE GONNA INTERACT IN A FRIKIN BATHROOM??? I SWEAR, EVERYONE IN THIS SHOW IS SOUNDWIN CODED, IDK WHAT TO TELL YOU

5ER6CYVTGUOBHIOVTRC6DE5S4E57RCVYUBHUVTRDS3GTFD46F7GY8H

I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY

THEYRE JUST SO

HE'S SO GOUERGJND

LMAO YOU IDIOT

(we're getting so many cheesy cliches right after each other and I am so here for it, I love this so much)

now kiss

OH

OH THIS IS THIS PART???? DAMN

he needs money to pay off his debts, so... he's gonna take a job offer from the guy he pays his debts to? feels kinda pointless, right?

also in this series, pepper reminds me of tor, specifically in midnight museum, so part of my mind thinks hes gonna offer him a job at the museum

LMAO

'MYNAME6969'

I WANT TO KNOW WHO PUT THAT IN THERE AND GIVE THEM A HIGH FIVE BECAUSE THATS FRIKIN HILARIOUS, WHOEVER SNUCK THAT IN THERE

IM DYING I LOVE THAT SO MUCH

as someone who sprained an ankle a little over a month ago, I have some points to make

namely: saifah is right. the first 72 hours are the most important, as long as you're resting it, keeping it elevated, icing it, compressing it, you'll be all good to walk on it in no time. after that, you need to make sure you're still taking care of it, like by wearing a compression sock all the time, and not walking on it too much if it starts hurting, stuff like that. that's the part I didnt do. I took care of it for three days, then kept walking on it like nothing happened, and it's still really painful sometimes, it never properly healed, but like it's fine im surviving

OH I DO NOT LIKE THIS, I DO NOT LIKE THIS AT ALL

HE'S SO OLD

ICKY I FEEL ICKY

there's nothing wrong with the work he's doing, it's just the fact that he's still a kid and thats a 50 year old man

on another note, I ran out of bloody images AGAIN

AND ON ANOTHER NOTE, ITS NEARLY 2AM. IVE BEEN WATCHING FOR NEARLY 2 AND A HALF HOURS AND IM NOT EVEN THREE QUARTERS THROUGH THE EPISODE, WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME

[sea-jello]

every single little detail they managed to fit into bmc

yeah there are SO MANY details in this show and its driving me crazy so im gonna amass everything into posts

ik many of these are well known or obvious or whatever but im doing it so anyone who didnt know about any of these could easily learn it all in one go without having to scour the internet or rewind and watch the background in every single scene yk (also i noticed so many of these myself and im kinda proud and its a way for me to get it all out)

i’m also going to be using @/thesquirrelqueer's be more chill archive which is amazing and frankly scary so go give em some love

edit i changed my mind halfway through this cause thats gonna take me forever so if you want to see all the visual details go check that out. its like thats the artists reference and this is the writers reference i think all the little quirks showcase their personality quite well

im gonna start all the way from the beginning so FIRST UP is 2river's "More Than Survive" (album+show, specifically the one 35 minute 👢)

im telling you its LONG so prepare yourself for that. maybe pull up the video to watch side by side so yk what im talking about (the video on yt is "this isnt be more chill" because its NOT be more chill) tiny warning for very mild nsfw mentions cause its bmc

from the first "c-c-c-cmon" up to "and now of course its time to hit the road" theres a sound that sounds like a mouse clicking to the beat in the background. i thought this was to reflect the show when jeremy stops clicking at his laptop at the line "and now of course its time to hit the road" to gets up and put his pants on, but during "but that really isnt such a change/if im not feeling weird or super strange" you can still hear the clicks. maybe its there just for repetitions sake cause it breaks off at "which means ill be uncomfortable all day" and resumes for those two lines, then you dont hear it again. you can hear this one very clearly if you watched the show, but its a little fainter in the album (i figured it out from the album lmao go me)

during the bus scene in the show when everyones going to their places, jeremy almost crashes into rich and you can hear his voice hitch

christine watches this interaction before "sitting down" on the bus to read

i think brooke is asleep during the bus ride, and gets woken up when the bus jerks forward

jake nearly drops his phone too (again this is all based on the 35 minute video on yt. im sure small things change every show, but this is all we got so im picking this one apart)

jeremy keeps smoothing his hair behind his right ear with his palm, probably a nervous gesture. he does it when they "get off the bus"

during the ensembles (i dont think thats the right word but it just makes it easier for me you know who im talking about) "c-c-c-cmon", michael loses his signal on his phone when they get to school, hence the "cmon"

chloe impatiently gestures to brooke to "cmon" and follow her (yk)

jenna waves to christine. christine puts her book down and waves back, then again just watches jenna and then people

rich messes with jenna and she goes to hit him

after the "c-c-c-cmon"s rich jumps out from backstage and hits jeremy in the nuts you can hear jeremys faint noise of pain

in the little dance break jake and jenna are dancing on opposite sides of the stage, then wave at each other (im pretty sure). jeremy looks back and forth between them while they dance and mistakenly waves to jenna when they spin around (just watch it youll know what i mean)

when chloe, brooke and jenna are gossiping, up to jakes "its a good thing i rock at pool" the "rich set a fire" tune plays in the background (something something gossip rumors) chloe is holding a textbook with the earth on it, so science or something probably. there’s a magazine article page that says “what cheating does to [i can’t see what it says]”, which i’m assuming is a reference to jake?? she also have page cutouts of hair products, straighteners, etc, and i think a picture of either taylor swift or brooke i really can’t tell 💀💀when rich writes on jeremys backpack, he pulls him up by the collar to say "youre dead", then pushes him (jeremy pushes his hair back again) into mr reyes' path where hes walking to put up the play sign up sheet. (side note gerards voice cracked on 'dont touch me tall ass" so it sounds like hes having a tantrum and will connolly looks like a meerkat and i love them both)

when jake says "its a good thing i rock at pool" chloe and brooke hide behind a pillar and listen in, then chloe does a sort of "i told you so" gesture. during the whole "i navigate the dangerous hall" scene, brooke chases after chloe as she storms off upset. rich messes with jenna again and she chases him offstage, then mr reyes follows (im pretty sure he pinched her ass) i dunno if this is a coincidence but christine runs after them offstage too. christine and jenna friendship w

jeremy genuinely sounds so excited when he realized it was a sign up sheet and i wholeheartedly believe he wanted to join the play even before christine, she was just the final push

when the ensemble comes back out before the "christiiiiiiiiine" mr reyes comes out dragging rich by the ear while jenna smugly walks behind them (read back to him pinching her ass). rich flips him off after he lets go. jake walks past chloe without looking up from his phone and chloe does a 180 to chase after him. forgot to mention michael has his hood on and bops to his music in the background of all the ensemble scenes but yk its pretty well known

oh god class scene here we go. rich and jake make the 👌👈 sign at michael. rich very aggressively shoves his WHOLE HAND into the circle and opens his hand. jenna raises her hand and mr reyes brushes her off in favor of trying and failing to get jake to stop, so he moves on to rich. he puts a hand on richs arm and sorta makes the "wtf" gesture. rich makes the "sorry about that" motion with his hand still around his wrist which is kinda funny to me (just watch it i cant even describe it) jake turns to talk to brooke, who was previously talking to chloe. jenna waves to christine again. also christine seemed really shy every time jenna waves at her, and never waves first. idk if this is a coincidence but chloe flips her hair back and brooke mirrors it right after. there’s a poster for an anime club on the bulletin board with the sign up sheet

MICHAEL

jeremys fucking bops to his intro i love him

really quick when michael goes "and were almost at the end of this song" and does his dance jeremy bops along with him. NOW if we stretch a bit and say this actually happened then that means jeremy knew what song he was listening to/where hes at based on him dancing to it earlier they know each other so well they are best friends and possibly boyfriends in this essay i will

jeremy flops his head to the side on the beat and with michaels "how was class" slap hes so dramatic

i think i might be tripping but right after "i hate this school" and during the tore it up and flushed it thing michael in the bathroom plays very very faintly in the bg. IM NOT TRIPPING in the album mitb plays during the humanity stopped evolving thing up to "better time in history to be a loser". and THEN from "so own it" up to the christine jingle THE PANTS SONG PLAYS. you can just barely hear it in the boot too

during the first "canigula" michael waves in front of jeremys face and he kicks at him

before jeremys sign up verse michael takes his lunch tray and jerks his head towards the sheet in a "go on" motion and then ofc pushes him towards it HES SUPPORTIVE OF HIM HELLO this furthers my belief of jeremy being a secret theatre kid. jeremy looks back at him on "who cares if people think im lame" like hes reassuring himself can you hear my heart

when rich shouts "GAAAY" mr reyes points and goes after him

when they all come out to dance, jeremy first mistakenly waves to chloe when she waves at jenna, then rich when he goes to dap jake up, then tries to wave at michael but he spins away while presumably listening to his music. christine just watches chloe and brooke talk again

when they all start slowly standing up at the "go"s jeremy looks so confused

also when he jumps off the chair that is PEAK meerkat moment. then he lands and just stands there for like a solid 3 seconds its so funny to me

LORD almighty we're done that took weeks okay uhh please tell me if i should do EVERYTHING everything like broadway off broadway australia cause lord knows im the ceo of bmc australia rn also i dont want to sound pretentious but please reblog cause i spent so much time and effort on this useless fucking post 😭😭 but whatever i had fun

[filmcel]

donnie darko - the best movie i’ve ever seen. such an interesting depiction of mental health. it’s interesting fuck the director though he’s a dumbass.

prisoners - THE movie to recommend people. idk anyone who has watched it and hated it. it’s so fucking good . tbh jake is like the least interesting part of the movie he’s pretty ugly. paul dano is the goat. the best movie i’ve seen revolving around some mystery. always on my toes always scared. when u think you know u end up being wrong. it gets u.

zodiac - he’s so cute in this movie and that’s as good as it gets. it’s good for one viewing and that’s IT. it’s very interesting has good sequences. but it’s so damn long. i guess if u wanna argue that it wants u to FEEL how they felt waiting so long trying to catch the zodiac killer id say sure fine but also they never even catch him so what’s the point of the movie. idk.

brokeback mountain - no comment

nocturnal animals - this movie is absolutely insane in the worst way. the two main characters r fuxking deranged. jake’s character is deranged for being like that. his weird revenge thing is so strange and it’s uncomfortable. i didn’t get it i didn’t like it i wouldn’t watch again.

enemy - this fucking movie…. idk how i sat thru it all actually. i’m proud of myself but i didn’t need to put myself thru that. jake is so boring in this. the movie itself is so fucking boring. it’s so weird. it’s so ugly. it looks like shit and it’s shot like shit and i don’t get why bc it’s a denis movie. maybe i’m not smart enough to get it but it sucked dick AND balls.

the guilty - okay. i know this movie isn’t very good. but i watched it and was entertained. it rlly is something you’d catch on the tv while ur at the dentist and get rlly invested in the 30 minutes ur in the waiting room. its nothing life changing but i had a good time

ambulance - HWHSJFJJDJAJAJS. the worst shit i’ve ever fucking seeeeeen. it’s hilarious tho . watch it drunk otherwise u might be bored out of ur mind. this movie is so insanely shot. i remember the billion drone shots. i remember the spleen burst. i remember the goofy shots they did of jake. idk how it got made. idk how jake is in it.

brothers - this movie… isn’t BAD…. i think? it made me uncomfortable. which yeah. that’s the point. but like the scene of tobey like being captured whatever . idk enough about anything but was that offensive in some way? let me know… it felt strange . the movie tho is super hard to watch. it’s cringey and scary. i wanna rewatch to get my full thoughts on it because it was awhile ago . great acting tho.

end of watch - Stupid baka fucking movie. i made my mom rent this shit and im sorry i wasted 4 of ur hard earned dollars. this movie is worth nothing. it’s so racist to mexicans. it’s embarrassing. like the main guy is mexicans and it does all that cringe cholo shit it made me want to claw my eyes out and never watch another movie again.

the covenant - GEHHRDHHFHRHSJZJFJRJEJ the most boring movie of all these honestly. i think i almost fell asleep. jake is in too many military movies actually holy shit. don’t watch this one at all lmfao .

jarhead - this one is the most interesting military movie he’s in but it’s also graphically one of the worst so beware. it rlly doesn’t hold back with trying to be gross and bad. and i understand why. but it does make it hard to watch. it’s shot rlly well though. and the acting is great.

demolition - OH BROTHHERRRRR. i thought this movie would be worth something because it’s one of those u see a lot of clips of online. it’s genuinely so stupid tho. i can barely remember the plot but i just remember it made no sense. ppl keep getting jake for these insane characters except it’s just dumb as shit.

october sky - this is a cute fun movie you’d watch in middle school ^_^! cute little time!!! and it has laura dern so what’s not to like!! maybe a little boring to some tho.

[luckydoeslanguage]

Weekly Review | 30日四月２０２４年

今週はいいですね！

Had a really good week! As of today, I've been studying consistently again for 1 month. 🎉🎉that means this blog is a month old now too! yippee!

I'm so close to 100 hours of total immersion logged (in total, not this month.) and reflecting on my learning journey so far is interesting!! I'm starting to notice a real increase in improvement. so without further ado, lets go over my week!

Logged 10 hours of immersion this week. most of that is finishing Super Cub and starting Yuru Camp. the rest is playing Animal Crossing almost daily, and bits of youtube.

In total, i logged 22 hours of immersion this month. (most of that was done this week, lol.) my total at the end of the month is 94 hours!

I'm starting to notice a real improvement in my comprehension. I'm getting about 40%-50% of the words i encounter in easier media, and anything i don't understand i mouse over with yomichan, or can pick up with context.

Of course, I finished Super Cub, and started watching Yuru Camp. I'm about half way through it right now, so I'm expecting to finish it this week and write a review of it next week. look forward to that!

I'm still kind of struggling with finding shows to watch for immersion. I think i need to start making a watch list and pre-downloading subs for ASB player so i can make watching a show easier. (really wish ASB worked on firefox, lol)

Also still haven't found a manga to read. どうぶつの森 is basically all the reading practice I'm getting rn and that's all well and good, but i need to branch out more.

Overall a really good week. I was nervous when i came back to learning consistently again, but having a blog to talk about it i think is keeping me more accountable. I'm proud of myself for such a great return to language learning!

Goals for next month:

25 total hours of immersion. with such a successful return to immersion learning, i really want to keep the ball rolling and commit to my studies. after all, I'm really enjoying myself!

Watch at least 3 new shows. when i started immersing i mostly watched the Pokemon anime and Cardcaptor. they're great shows, but i think too long. i want to watch a couple shorter anime i can watch inbetween CCS and pokemon. (maybe watch something a little harder? we'll see.)

seriously, read some manga! I will look into some shoujo series with furigana, maybe try some of the beginner recommended manga?

have 500 cards seen in anki. Im currently at 400ish, but im only doing 3 new cards a day rn. but i want to bump that number up, so hopefully i will learn new vocab faster.

Whew. if youve read all this, thanks! I am looking forward to my continued studies. ^^ until next time! またね！

[rafesfavslut]

hi oh my gosh!!! can i plsplspls request ☃️ for the marauders!

i'm a girl (into guys!!) & my favourite colour is pink! i'm told i'm both 5&70 years old, if that makes any sense. i also have asd! oh & am a proud gryffindor! i super duper appreciate literature - quite literally am a book HOARDER. i'm quite shy to be honest, but still somehow constantly embarrassing myself (like how i was thinking to type that i can't finish a full jacket potato then realised that was completely irrelevant) ☝️ i love school, and studying, and chocolate. i have some fish & a dog! i only own one pair of jeans as i'm more a skirt/dress-y person, yet i find it hard to find cute shoes to match my outfits. i can't stand tv or movies most of the time - i get bored!! i frequently volunteer! lovelove taylor swift & the beatles. i'm super crafty & have two zillion & a half scrapbooks and as many stickers and bits to fill them with. i can talk for ages & ages about something that is of interest OR EVEN disinterest to me... & apparently i'm a very "enthusiastic" person by nature???? i like people who challenge me, intellectually, socially, what not, my brain needs to keep working!! but on the flipside i like to relax sometimes and value that too. gosh i hope this isn't too much but enough at the same time.

thank you sososos much, lavalavayouuuu

𝐈 𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐏 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 𝐒𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐔𝐒 𝐁𝐋𝐀𝐂𝐊

a/n: hii!! im so sorry this took too long for me to reply, i hope you'll enjoy it

would get jealous of your dog

would listen to taylor swift for you but ended up to be a swiftie as well

loves to yap but loves it even more when youre the one talking

[genderqueerdykes]

I just want to thank you for giving people a safe space to be themselves authentically. I am struggling with my gender and sexuality several years after transitioning because I have denied myself the ability to be who I am, forcing myself from one binary into another. Now I'm finally off T (I knew I didnt want to take it forever because both binaries make me dysphoric but I kept pushing myself to because I didnt want anyone to think I was detransitioning) and trying to accept myself for who I am and this blog is helping me so much. I finally feel like I can accept that I AM nonbinary, I AM agenderflux, I AM a lesbian/sapphic, I AM a butch boydyke. I feel so many emotions finally allowing myself to reclaim the term butch and dyke and still having my genderfuckery and not trying to fit the mold. Too long have I denied my experience for someone else's comfort. Not anymore! 💕 Keep up the amazing work!!!

😭😭😭

I'm so glad you feel better now, i am sorry your journey has been so rocky, and that you've been made to feel like you have to be someone you're not. i just wanted to say i was right there with you for so long and it's not fair for people to be forced to feel unlike themselves even in "supportive" spaces

I'm so glad you are feeling more like yourself, and like you can identify the way you actually feel- being nonbinary can be hell. everyone has something to say about your gender and identity. you define being nonbinary because you are non-binary and i think the way you are nb is badass

I'm glad you stopped T before you felt too dysphoric. many nb people choose to take T for a while and then stop. that's okay, your health should be in your hands. im so glad youre feeling like you can announce those things! being non-binary, agenderflux, a boydyke, a lesbian and a butch are all awesome, and I'm glad you're feeling better reclaiming the term dyke! queer means weird and that's awesome! it doesn't have to make sense!

take care of yourself, you know who you are before anyone else. you deserve to feel confident and proud!! take care of yourself, you r super cool!

[certifiedgoofball]

Since you wanted some questions:

1. Do you have a favorite cat breed? If so, why is that one your favorite?

2. Do you have any pets?

3. Which pride flag (can be for a queer identify or disability) would taste the best, and what would it taste like?

4. What accomplishment are you most proud of?

5. If you could say one thing to everyone in the world, what would it be?

Sorry if these weren’t what you were looking for, but I had fun writing them, so I hope you will have fun answering them.

THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I WANTED THANK YOU i love all types of cats tbh. i love tabbies and orange cats and black cats. but like the last two are more colors and not breeds i dont think. BUT if i had to choose i would probably say tabby. but second up is definitely black cat because my aunt has this black cat and hes the sweetest nicest cat ive ever met. i love him so much and its really sad my aunt lives far away because i wish i could see him more. I DONT HAVE ANY PETS :((( i really want a cat though, but my dad keeps saying things about how the "house isnt clean enough" (even though it literally is. my room is a bit messy but thats like, my room) but i really Really really really really want a cat i want a cat so much thats a hard one.... i really like the boygirl flag but like any flag with berry colors is pretty good. i actually have synesthesia, mostly with letters/words to colors, but sometimes i can like actually taste colors. which is pretty cool but also annoying sometimes because some colors taste really bad accomplishments.... also a really hard one. living this long i guess? life is super hard but honestly i didnt really expect myself to make it this far lol. and also, being more true to myself. in 7th/8th grade especially i was in a big battle with myself because my npd traits and low empathy/sympathy/compassion were really coming out and i thought that i was just a terrible monster of a person that didnt deserve respect. and now i still think that sometimes but im getting better at being kind to myself!!!! if i could say one thing to the entire world, i dont really know. it kind of depends on if i want to be funny or nice. if i wanted to be funny i could say some ominous thing or something. if i wanted to be serious... i would have to think about it tbh. and it would depend on what was happening in the world at the moment. these questions are great... thank you so much /gen