#journaling feb writing

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Journal Sketches! 📖🖊🪸

[megarywrites]

So, my power got shut off (it’s back on now) and I couldn’t write on my computer because my docs account wasn’t set up to write offline on this account (i have multiple accounts on my computer) and so i wrote on my ipad where it IS set up to write while offline. I didn’t write the whole chapter but i wrote a good chunk of it and i was really happy with it and the way it was all worded and now that the power is back on and my wifi is back on, it didn’t sync or save 😔 so i lost it 😔😔😔 it was a really important bit of backstory for Solera and her family that i worded like exactly as I was picturing it in my head, and now it’s gone and i have to do it again this is heartbreaking i’m having such a day

[remembertheplunge]

The view from death's doorstep

January 30, 1987

January 30 ends. Daryl still here. I’m returning home late. It’s 11;35pm now. It’s like returning late from play rehearsal. Will his pain and agony never end?

February 1, 1987. Sunday

Daryl sets poised on Death’s door step. The nurse said “A lady came and set with him for a long time today. She insisted on covering him with all of these blankets because he was chilled. Actually, his fever was rampantly high and he did not need covers. Later the nurse said “I don’t think the lady knew how near death was as she sat there.”

I knew. I read stories and poetry to him. I said I loved him and it was OK to go. I think that he knew that I was there. His body convulsed continually, his eyes fluttered and his mouth moved continually in an effort to speak inwardly. I said “God Bless you Daryl". I looked for signs of his passing.

A lovely day with  a female friend at Tosha’s in Folsom. I told her of my bisexuality and of my love for a mutual male friend of ours. . She accepted this with love. I watched a beautiful sunset..actually defuse grey light. A boat and two men chugged slowly out of the channel. Their wake proceeded, followed and remained long after they had disappeared. Half the lake was touched. I thought of Daryl and I as we moved toward greying twilight.

Note: Daryl Speicher was my AIDs match in 1986-1987. I worked as a volunteer for an AID's support group.

My female friend was a friend from college in the 1970's. I did not start coming out until 1984. The man I said I was in love with was a mutual friend.

[magicae]

the HOURS i've spent on these charts... my fatigue works hard but i work harder!!! the red wiggle on the second chart represents my dreams about supernatural. and yes i've had 47 remembered dreams (and like... one forgotten) this month because i'm the queen of naps. (part of my dream tracker spreadsheet)

[naylasavannah]

Self care

Today has been long i had a lot to do. I laid a new track today. Laid the verses in one take, no mic stand just me and the emotions. Felt good to let it out. I honesty will drop this at the end of the month.

But today i have committed myself working out anytime i have some self doubt in my mind. Im at 60 reps right now. Which isn’t bad.

It’s been a year since i seen my therapist. Starting over with a new one on Saturday. Am i tripping cause i want a black therapist? I might call back up there either tonight or tomorrow just to see.

I was so excited for myself when I got off the phone like look at you pouring into yourself. Working towards your goals. Which is a better me. So I’m happy for myself for that. A step in the right direction. I’m sick that the appointment be a hour lol i be having soooooo much to say 😂😂😂 like give me 2 hour appointments for a good month or two so i can get it all out. I’m going to need a list to keep up with all my talking points 😭.

I made a vlog yesterday and idk i am like nervous to put it out. This song i wrote to say is so personal. I mean every song is but my gawd i really do be outing myself but it’s what i dooooo.

I always think of ways to improve myself care. I feel like I’ve kinda stopped taking care of myself. I used to dress up and do my nails and all that but I’ve stopped and i want to get back to her. I miss her. But not to go back in the past or be an old version of myself but a more in tune.

[academicfever]

77/100 days of productivity!

Saturday reset mode: activated. You’re building something bigger than just a productive day—you’re building resilience, discipline, and balance. Keep going!

Log: 23 Feb

☀ Morning ▸ Breakfast + journal ▸ Research Work (RO) ▸ Light stretching

🌿 Afternoon ▸ Deep-clean workspace + tidy up ▸ Lunch+ write up ▸ Catch up on research (editing)

🌙 Evening ▸ Call home ▸ Yoga ▸ Go shopping ▸ Wind down with a movie or podcast

[a-d-nox]

economic advice and timely buying tips: 2025 transits

as of late, social media has many discussions about what to buy - or avoid buying - over the next few years, largely in response to the political climate in the united states. across europe, many regions are actively preparing their populations for potential crises (sweden's seems to be the most popularly discussed - link). due to the urgency and pressure to act, as if the world might change tomorrow (and it could though i believe we still have time in many places), i’ve decided to analyze the astrological transits for 2025. in this post i provide practical economic advice and guidance on how much time astrology suggests you have to make these purchases everyone is urging you to prioritize. if it seems to intrigue people i’ll explore future years as well.

things the world needs to prepare for in 2025 in my opinion and why my advice is what it is: the rise of ai / automation of jobs, job loss, geopolitical tensions, war, extreme weather, inflation, tariffs - a potential trade war, a movement of using digital currency, the outbreak of another illness, etc.

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uranus goes direct in taurus (jan 30, 2025)

advice

diversify investments: avoid putting all your money in one asset type. mix stocks, bonds, index funds, and, if you feel comfortable, look into sustainable investments or new technologies.

digital finance: familiarize yourself with digital currencies/platforms or blockchain technology.

build an emergency fund: extra savings can shield you from sudden economic instability. aim for 3-6 months’ worth of expenses.

reevaluate subscriptions and spending: find creative ways to reduce spending or repurpose what you have. cancel subscriptions that don't align with needs/beliefs, cook at home, or diy where possible.

invest in skills / side hustles: take a course/invest in tools that can help you create multiple income streams.

by this date stock up on

non-perishable food items like canned goods, grains, and dried beans. household essentials like soap, toothpaste, and cleaning supplies. basic medical supplies. multi-tools. durable, high-quality items over disposable ones (the economy is changing, buy something that will last because prices will go up). LED bulbs, solar-powered chargers, or energy-efficient appliances. stock up on sustainable products, like reusable bags and water bottles. blankets. teas. quality skincare.

jupiter goes direct in gemini (feb 4, 2025)

advice

invest in knowledge: take courses, buy books (potential bans?), and/or attend workshops to expand your skill set. focus on topics like communication, writing, marketing, and/or technology. online certifications could boost your career prospects during this time.

leverage your network: attending professional events, joining forums, and/or expanding your LinkedIn presence.

diversify income streams: explore side hustles, freelance gigs, and/or monetize hobbies.

beware of overspending on small pleasures: overspending on gadgets, books, or entertainment will not be good at this point in time (tariffs already heavy hitting?).

by this date stock up on

books / journals. subscriptions to learning platforms like Skillshare, MasterClass, or Coursera. good-quality laptop, smartphone, and/or noise-canceling headphones. travel bags - get your bug out bag in order. portable chargers. language-learning apps. professional attire. teas. aromatherapy.

neptune enters aries (march 30, 2025)

advice

invest: look into industries poised for breakthrough developments, such as renewable energy, space exploration, and/or tech.

save for risks: build a financial cushion to balance your adventurous pursuits with practical security.

diversify your income: consider side hustles or freelancing in fields aligned with your passions and talents.

"scam likely": avoid “get-rich-quick” schemes or ventures that seem too good to be true.

adopt sustainable habits: focus on sustainability in your spending, like buying high-quality, long-lasting items instead of cheap, disposable ones.

by this date stock up on

emergency kits with essentials like water, food, and first-aid supplies. multi-tools, solar chargers, or portable power banks. art supplies. tarot or astrology books (bans?). workout gear, resistance bands, or weights. nutritional supplements. high-quality clothing or shoes.

saturn conjunct nn in pisces (april 14, 2025)

advice

save for the long term: create a savings plan or revisit your budget to ensure stability.

avoid escapism spending: avoid unnecessary debt.

watch for financial scams: be cautious with contracts, investments, or loans. research thoroughly and avoid “too good to be true” offers.

focus on debt management: saturn demands accountability. work toward paying down debts to free yourself from unnecessary burdens.

build a career plan: seek roles / opportunities that balance financial security with fulfillment, such as careers in wellness, education, creative arts, or nonprofits.

by this date stock up on

invest in durable, sustainable items for your home or wardrobe that offer long-term value. vitamins or supplements. herbal teas or whole grains. blankets. candles. non-perishable food. first-aid kits. water. energy-efficient devices.

pluto rx in aquarius (may 4, 2025 - oct 13, 2025)

advice

preform an audit: reflect on how your money habits and your long-term goals.

make sustainable investments: support industries tied to innovation, like renewable energy, ethical tech, or sustainable goods.

expect changes: could disrupt collective systems, so build an emergency fund. plan for potential shifts in tech-based industries or automation. AI is going to take over the workforce...

reevaluate subscriptions and digital spending: cut unnecessary costs and ensure your money supports productivity. netflix is not necessary, your groceries are.

diversify income streams: brainstorm side hustles or entrepreneurial ideas.

by this date stock up on

external hard drives. cybersecurity software. portable chargers. solar panels. energy-efficient gadgets. non-perishable food. clean water supplies. basic first-aid kits and medications. portable generators. books on technology and coding. reusable items like water bottles, bags, and food storage. gardening supplies to grow your own food. VPN subscriptions or identity theft protection.

saturn enters aries (may 24, 2025)

advice

prioritize self-reliance: build financial independence. create a budget, eliminate debt, and establish a safety net to support personal ambitions. avoid over-reliance on others for financial stability/decision-making.

entrepreneurship: consider starting a side hustle / investing in yourself.

save for big goals: plan for major life changes, such as buying property, starting a business, etc. make a high yield saving account for these long-term goals.

by this date stock up on

ergonomic office equipment. home gym equipment. non-perishable foods and water supplies for potential unexpected disruptions. self-protection; consider basic tools or training for safety. high-protein snacks, energy bars, or hydration supplies. supplements like magnesium, B-complex vitamins, etc. stock up on materials for DIY projects, hobbies, or entrepreneurial ventures.

jupiter enters cancer (june 9, 2025)

advice

invest in your home: renovating what needs renovating. saving for a down payment on a house.

focus on security: start or increase your emergency savings. consider life insurance or estate planning to ensure long-term security for your family/loved ones.

embrace conservative financial growth: cancer prefers security over risk. opt for conservative investments, like bonds, real estate, and/or mutual funds with steady returns.

focus on food and comfort: spend wisely on food, cooking tools, or skills that promote a healthier, more fulfilling lifestyle (maybe this an RFK thing for my fellow american readers or this could be about the fast food industry suffering from inflation).

by this date stock up on

furniture upgrades if you need them. high-quality cookware or tools. stockpile your pantry staples. first-aid kits, fire extinguishers, and home security systems. water and canned goods for emergencies. paint, tools, or materials for DIY projects. energy-efficient appliances or upgrades to reduce utility costs.

neptune rx in aries/pisces (july 4, 2025 - dec 10, 2025)

advice

avoid financial conflicts: be mindful of shared finances or joint ventures during this time.

avoid escapist spending: stick to a budget.

by this date stock up on

first-aid kits, tools, and essentials for unforeseen events. water filter / waterproof containers. non-perishables and emergency water supplies.

uranus rx in gemini/taurus (july 7, 2025 - feb 3, 2026)

advice

evaluate technology investments: make sure you’re spending money wisely on tech tools, gadgets, or subscriptions. avoid impulsively purchasing the latest gadgets; instead, upgrade only what’s necessary.

diversify streams of income: explore side hustles or gig work to expand your income sources. focus on digital platforms or innovative fields for additional opportunities.

reassess contracts and agreements: take time to revisit financial contracts or business partnerships. ensure all terms are clear and aligned with your goals.

prioritize financial stability: uranus often brings surprises, so focus on strengthening your savings and emergency fund.

avoid major financial risks: uranus retrograde can disrupt markets. avoid speculative ventures and focus on stable, low-risk options.

by this date stock up on

lightweight travel gear or items for local trips. radios, power banks, or portable hotspots in case of disruptions in digital connectivity. stockpile food, water, and household goods to maintain stability during potential disruptions. invest in high-quality, long-lasting items like tools, clothing, or cookware.

saturn rx in aries/pisces (july 13, 2025 - nov 27, 2025)

advice

review career: assess whether your current job or entrepreneurial efforts align with your long-term aspirations (especially considering the state of the world). adjust plans if needed.

strengthen emergency funds: aries energy thrives on readiness. use this time to build/bolster a financial safety net for unforeseen events.

prepare for uncertainty: build a cushion for unexpected financial changes, especially if you work in creative, spiritual, or service-oriented fields.

by this date stock up on

health products that support long-term well-being. essential supplies like first-aid kits, multi-tools, or non-perishables. bath products. teas. art supplies. drinking water or water filtration tools.

jupiter rx in cancer (nov 11, 2025 - march 10, 2026)

advice

strengthen financial foundations: building an emergency fund or reassessing your savings strategy. ensure everything is well-organized and sustainable.

by this date stock up on

quality kitchenware, tools, or cleaning supplies. pantry staples and emergency food supplies.

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[howmanyepsofmlseason6areleft]

GLOOB WILL BE PREMIERING WEREPAPAS THIS FRIDAY, MEANING WE HAVE NOT ONE, BUT TWO PREMIERES THIS WEEKEND!!

(Source, just careful because it includes a spoilery trailer!)

CORRECTION ON MY PREVIOUS AIRDATES!!! So seeing as Gloob has been premiering episodes alongside the Disney schedule for the past two weeks, I thought I could stop playing it safe and go ahead and assume the unknown episode they were premiering on Friday would be Daddycop, since Disney would be premiering that on Saturday. Of course, the one time I shift from routine I was wrong lmao, and theyre actually premiering Werepapas, meaning we’re getting two premieres in a row!!

All this is listed in the airdates post, but just to reiterate:

Gloob will be premiering Werepapas (episode 5) Friday Feb 7th at 7:45 pm Brasilia Standard time.

Disney Channel USA will be premiering Daddycop (episode 4) Saturday February 8th at 11:00 am Eastern Standard Time

I can’t promise this since I’m pretty busy, but I’ll try and make time converters for everyone close to the premiere so that understanding where everything is airing in your time zone is easier. Also, in case you’re having trouble watching episodes, reminder that they will be available on Miraculous.to (which will also post subtitles to translate Werepapas a few hours after it premieres since its airing in Portuguese), and it’s a great way to watch new episodes/previous ones as long as you watch out for pop up ads.

But anyhow, that’s all!! I’ll see y’all this weekend !!

(Also fun little aside under the cut)

I actually accidentally predicted this 😭 I meant to write that Gloob would premiere Daddycop in one of my reblogs when I thought that would still be the case, but wrote Werepapas by accident, which… ended up being right!!

Journalism so good I saw into the future 😮‍💨

[nanthegirl]

07.03.2025

• Not a very productive day. It was almost off to a good start then I ruined it. I spent about 4 hours in bed reading before I went to the lab. 0/10 on discipline.

• I got back and procrastinated for a bit before I went grocery shopping. There was a strawberry sale, 500g for 1.25.

• Finally did some laundry. It’s in the dryer as I write and I’m trying to use the time to study but it’s not easygoing.

• Studied in really short bursts but at least it was something.

🌳: 58mins. I’m nearly done with chapter one of Technical Mechanics🤡. I need to solve a few more problems then I’ll let myself move on.

📖: Oathbringer by Brandon Sanderson. I finished it. Finally. 3.5/5 stars. It was definitely more enjoyable than the previous books but I gave it the same rating as the rest. I may be suffering from recency bias but when am I not.

☀️: had a very fulfilling journaling session and I got the grade for an exam I took in Feb. I’m really looking forward to tomorrow.

Sort of spoilers but not really

[eveysnotebook]

emoji prompt requests

I’m low on writing ideas and need help!

below is a list of emoji prompts that are all made by me.

send in an ask, it can be literally just the emoji if your shy! Feel free to add your own little headcanons or add-ons in said ask.

btw, this applies to all the characters I write for which is on my pinned post.

this is x reader btw!

🛒 - shopping w/ them ❤️- how they kiss

📷 - their camera roll

🦮 - what pet would they get or want

🤒 - when they’re sick / when you are.

🎁 -celebrating holidays with them (pls specify which one when asking)

🫂 - how they hug, if they like them

🧶 - what hobbies they would enjoy

💕 - their favorite things about you

⏰ - how they enjoy spending time w/ you

💐 - their favorite flowers, flowers that remind me of them

🍳 - how well they cook

📱 - how often they call you

📓 - their journal, what it looks like

👁️ - noticeable things in their appearance

🧠 - noticeable habits/things they do

new-added Feb 11

💤- sharing a bed

🤲 - holding hands with them

😢- how they soothe you when your upset

🩸- period comfort

👕 - what their closet consists of

new-added april 30

🌙- their nighttime schedule / routine

💬- how they usually text you

sorry if it’s a short list. I’m planning on adding to it later!

ask box is always open so please use this to your advantage, there isn’t a deadline for the prompts yet either.

[roomwithanopenfire]

Stats Sunday

Happy March!! Thanks for the tag @nausikaaa! Unfortunately, my goal is to make this banner worse every month, so be prepared—we've only just begun.

Early post for me. I should be sleeping but I started making my graphs and then... well, here we are.

Here's my February Recap loll. Stats and graphs and musings incoming. (this post is so long but i promise there's a snippet in here)

Rest of post is under the cut. It is long. You've been warned.

I've posted two things last month! A valentine's day fic for Ebb/Fiona and Chapter 3 of the Way We Are. (Technically i posted 3 but this stranger things oneshot was posted on the 1st and written in January so it feels like January's accomplishment)

Total words written for February: 14405 (this beats Jan by 460 words!)

Days I met my writing goal (200 words): 20

Days I didn't write or edit anything: 4

Day I wrote the most: Feb 11th with 2249 (this beats last month's high score of 1717!)

Number of Fics worked on: 10 technically, but i have not been consistent with most of them. mainly worked on 3.

Daily Average: 514 words (but like last month i am highly inconsistent and my WC varies wildy depending on the day)

(I really like the little curve in the middle. also two the days that look like zero are actually 1 words, which is my placeholder if i spend all day editing)

And here's a pie chart to show my WC distribution across projects. Tbh a lot of these were fics that i've had in my fic ideas doc and all i did was make a google doc for them and word barf onto it my ideas, that's why there's so many small slices.

some slices are so small you don't even get to know my placeholder names. also i hope the title THTHIPWGI intrigues you, i'm always excited when i can title a fic right away and refer to it by a fun accyromn on my spreadsheet.

Other notable things from February:

I finished writing all of The Way We Are!! (kind of. i have one more scene to write. Monica's fault.)

I took over the @carry-on-sapphic-week event!! Check out the prompts if you haven't yet <3

I've received So Many beautiful valentines from the CO discord servers exchange. my mailbox and my heart has been full

The CO fandom was able to raise $500 for Fandom Trumps Hate!! (and I got to make a spreadsheet bc of this!!!) (also i won two auctions from this, one for each fandom i'm in)

My car battery died and I had to get a new one :/

I started a new journal!

I finally figured out how to spell February

my savage worlds campaign finally got our ship back and made it off this stupid planet that we've been on forever.

i've started watching Yellowjackets and I'm really enjoying it

I read so many CO AU fest fics and each one of them was so good. I think i've read all except one so far, and honestly this fest has been so fun i'm obsessed with you guys, you're are so talented.

SPEAKING of CO AU fest fics, @fiend-for-culture's fic, Everything In Between, is SO good, i've been thinking about it all week. you should read it (and leave a comment so i can read it bc i'm stalking the comments on this fic and there's not enough to sate me)

i have spring break in just one week!!

Okay, i promised you words, so here's a snip from my COBB.

“And I’m sorry,” Simon says. “For what?” “Driving you off yesterday.” “That wasn’t your fault. I was being terrible.” “Yeah,” Simon agrees. “But I shouldn’t have dismissed you like that.” I make a face. “I’m not having a heart-to-heart with you, Snow.” Simon groans. “Why do you have to do that?" "What" "Everytime I think we're making progress you say something nasty like that."

sorry this post is so long, thank you for reading if you made it this far

tags, hellos, and apologies:

@alexalexinii @aristocratic-otter @argumentativeantitheticalg @artsyunderstudy @arthurkko

@beastmonstertitan @blackberrysummerblog @best--dress @bookishbroadwayandblind @bookish-bogwitch

@the-beard-of-edward-teach @brilla-brilla-estrellita @cccloudsss @ciescen @confused-bi-queer

@cutestkilla @drowninginships @facewithoutheart @emeryhall @fiend-for-culture

@hushed-chorus @iamamythologicalcreature @ileadacharmedlife @theimpossibledemon @jyae23

@larkral @lovelettersto-mars @meanjeansjeans @m1ndwinder @monbons

@noblecorgi @orange-peony @prettygoododds @raenestee @rimeswithpurple

@run-for-chamo-miles @rbkzz @shrekgogurt @simonscones @skee3000

@supercutedinosaurs @sweetronancer @talentpiper11 @toc-the-scrambled @thewholelemon

@valeffelees @youarenevertooold @you-remind-me-of-the-babe

added some new ppl to this tag list, feel free to share a wip you're working on—art, fic, etc. it does not have to stats like mine is loll. i use wipsdays as my soapbox.

[drewsbuzzcut]

Miss Possessive

Jeremy Swayman x Lyla Blair

A masterminds fic

Warnings: smut, alcohol consumption, some jealousy, Lyla being a little mean (we love her for it though) This fic is based off “Miss Possessive” by Tate McRae that I think would be a song Lyla writes. Orange text are lyrics and bolded/italicized are flashbacks

Takes place: Feb 2025

Lyla writes so hard in her journal, the lead tip of her pencil is on the verge of snapping. The silent recording studio is a perfect incubator for her aggressive inspiration.

“Baby blues undressing him

Funny how you think that I don’t notice it

Acting like we’re friends, we’re the opposite

I know what you are, trying so hard

Running ‘round tryna fuck a star”

There’s something wickedly fierce in Lyla’s eyes, fueled by the two double shots of tequila swimming in her system. If looks could kill, the blue eyed girl would be on the floor. The singer has had enough of the way these random ass girls keep coming up to her and Jeremy, not only interrupting their time together, but practically undressing her man with their eyes.

“Look at the floor, or ceiling

Or anyone else you’re feeling

Take home whoever walks in

Just keep your eyes off him

And yes, I’m miss possessive

Pretty girl gon learn your lesson”

Lyla cannot listen to one more word of how these girls were so thrilled by Jeremy’s performance during today’s game. It’d be different if they complimented him and walked away, but they linger like a bad headache. Persistent and annoying. There are so many people that they could fawn over. Why did it have to be Jeremy? It’s not like she could make them walk away either, not when so many Bruins fans are around and can spin this into a nightmare.

The pop star is usually calm and collected, but these wannabe, star fuckers are getting on her last nerve. Not even her boyfriend’s large hand on her waist can soothe the fire boiling inside of her.

“Maybe we should exchange phone numbers,” one of the girls says, shadowing everyone in a shocking silence.

The lid on Lyla’s boiling pot shoots off, allowing the emotions to take over.

“Maybe you and your friends should get the hell away from us before I knock you on your ass,” Lyla suggests with a sarcastic smile, tilting her head in faux niceness.

“Excuse me? Who do you think you’re talking to?”

“A nobody? All I know is that if you keep running your mouth and trying to touch my man, I will make sure you’re never allowed in this fucking bar ever again. Leave,” the singer levels the group of girls with a scarily calm demeanor, but they don’t know she’s ready to throw a punch if one of them goes at her.

Jeremy’s eyes haven’t left his girlfriend since he felt her body deflate with a silent huff. The words spewed by the other women go in one ear and out the other. And now, he stares at Lyla like she just hung every star in outer space.

“Fuck, I love you,” he leans down to whisper in her ear, teeth nipping at her lobe. His hands glide down the sides of her body, landing on her ass and catching the eyes of the other hungry individuals.

With a scoff, they finally realize their chances with Jeremy were always in the negative and walk away.

“I know,” Lyla hums, pulling on the collar of his button up and tugging him into a rough, wet kiss.

The sound of the studio door opening and closing makes the girl fizzle out of her thoughts. An irritating heat swelters her body, making her wish she could shed off her already small, booty shorts and sports bra. She turns from where she’s laying on her stomach on the leather couch to see her man. He must’ve been tired of waiting for her to finish up and decided to just come over, knowing she is by herself.

“Hey, lucky,” Jeremy sighs, dropping a kiss to her exposed spine.

Her usually soft, green eyes fix him with a dark, steely glare. That same jealousy from before starts to boil in her veins, again.

If he notices her displeasure, he ignores it, choosing to sit down next to her legs.

“What’re you writing about?”

Should she, or should she not mention it? Fuck it, Lyla is feeling feisty.

“That blonde, blue-eyed bitch and her group of morally corrupt friends that were hitting on you the other day,” she hums nonchalantly, but her attitude is clear as day to Jeremy.

“Why do you care?” The singer continues, knowing she’s being snippy about people who mean absolutely nothing to the goalie.

Jeremy can’t fight the cocky smirk lifting his lips. He can’t help the fact that his jealous girlfriend is kind of a major turn on. He digs the heat that grows in her eyes and the way she stares at him like she’s ready for him to take her and mark her as his, and only his.

“Don’t be bratty,” Jeremy coaxes, slapping a large hand down on Lyla’s ass with a loud smack.

A soft gasp falls from her lips and lust starts to pool in her underwear.

“Don’t be cocky,” she huffs in return.

“I can’t help that I love how jealous you get, especially when you have no reason to be.” Jeremy’s fingers trail up to the waistband of her tiny shorts, snapping it against her skin until she squirms.

Of course he loves her reaction. Lyla knows it all too well. It’s precisely why she decided to act more bothered than she really is. Yes, she’s possessive, but it’s not in a toxic way.

“You’re a pain in my ass,” she sasses with an eye roll.

“Sure I am,” he hums, finally pulling off the material covering her bottom half.

The girl fights the urge to moan, biting on her tongue and holding her breath until everything is too much. She waits for her boyfriend’s next move with an intense impatience, pricking at each of her senses. It almost pushes her to flip his script and get him in her mouth, but he moves before she can. His large paws knead at the round globes of her butt, his thumb rubs teasingly close to her heat.

“Fuck, baby. You’re so wet for me,” Jeremy moans, hands spreading her cheeks apart and watching her slick, puffy folds separate.

“Touch me,” Lyla whines, taking a glance at him over her shoulder. The goalie’s eyes are much darker and he licks at his bottom lip like he’s a man starved. It makes goosebumps attack her heated skin.

“Baby, touch me,” she pleads, wiggling her hips enticingly. Her journal falls to the ground with her movements, becoming forgotten in the most obscene way.

Jeremy lowers himself so he’s level with her core, eyeing the way her arousal slowly drips from her fluttering hole. His tongue laps it up, eliciting a saccharine moan on his behalf. It vibrates against Lyla’s most sensitive parts, making her eyes roll to the back of her head and grip the leather couch.

“Oh my god,” she shrieks, panting and withering away from the man as his tongue dips into her pussy.

“You like it, lucky? You want more?” He asks questions he knows she won’t be able to answer, but he’s satisfied with her small squeal after his thumb circles her clit.

“More, J. Give me more!”

Jeremy coats two of his fingers in her wetness, teasing her opening before plunging in.

“You going to cum for me? I can feel you clenching around my fingers,” he growls, fingertips pressing down into her g-spot.

“I’m going to cum. Oh my god, baby!”

Her body starts to burn, fire blazing through each of her veins. A tight knot forms in her belly, keeping her on edge and her body ultra sensitive.

His free hand presses against her lower stomach as his sheathed fingers continue to fuck into her.

“Don’t stop,” Lyla cries, body already trembling.

Jeremy pulls his fingers out, silencing Lyla’s groans of protest with another smack to her ass. He loops his arms under the tops of her thighs, lifting her sex up and closer to him and moving her to grind against his face.

The erotic moans that escape the girl’s mouth should be conspired more heavenly than any music that can be produced in this studio. If only he could have it on his phone. Maybe they can record something just for them and store it on a private file.

“Fuck.” Jeremy wraps his lips around her bud, taking turns between sucking on it and swirling his tongue around it.

He doesn’t do it for long as Lyla comes undone on his face. Her body trembles as the knot in her stomach explodes, pushing her into the abyss. He collects her release on his tongue to help her through the aftershocks, simultaneously loving the way she continues to long for him.

“Stop. Stop,” she softly mutters, pulling away from him after her body goes limp. Her boyfriend is quick to listen to her words.

With tingling limbs, she flips over on her back. Her chest heaves and her cheeks are flushed a fiery red color. Her eyes finally focus on Jeremy’s face, his beard glistens with the remnants of her orgasm. His lips are slick and swollen. It fuels her with pride and even more lust.

“Come here,” she sighs, crooking a finger at him.

“Are you okay?” He asks, settling over her. His face finds her neck and his hands push at her sports bra.

“Mhmm. Perfect,” she responds, lifting her arms for him to take off her bra. She desperately needs her bare skin against his body.

“Are you still jealous?”

“N-no,” her words fail as his lips peck and wrap around the flesh of her boobs.

“Good.” It’s Jeremy’s turn to sigh, loving the fragile pull on his curls from Lyla’s dainty hands.

She cups his face, bringing his lips down on hers. Her limbs wrap around him, feeling his hard cock behind his sweatpants. The kiss becomes so intense, they both start to pant against each other. It only spurs them on to explore each other’s mouths with their tongues. The taste of herself on him drives her crazy, driving her to rub against him in a sizzling need.

“You’re booked here for the whole night?” He wonders against her lips, already pulling off his clothes.

“Yes.” Everything after that quickly fades away as they begin to relish in a much more strenuous activity.

[why-animals-do-the-thing]

I just wanted to drop a note to thank everyone who has supported the Patreon over the years, or signs up for things like my (free) Substack. It really means a lot.

I update both of those platforms infrequently. I’ve tried to build better habits about that over the years and continually run into the same problem: I don’t want to post anything about what I’m working on unless I’m 110% sure my opinions is informed as possible and I am not sharing anything erroneous. There is so much misinformation out there regarding animals in general and zoos and exotic animal politics especially that I absolutely do not want to add to it.

What that means in practice is that topics often take months to years to research, and big projects need multiple years to end up with something I’m comfortable publishing. (That accreditation reporting writeup was an idea I chewed over for easily two years prior to starting work; then it took spent six months to researching write it up). I have one project in the wings where I can’t even start a major part until Feb 2024, because data collection has to happen after the implementation of a new set of federal regulations. These things are great for creating quality work, but less good for providing people who are supporting your work with something tangible on a reasonably frequent basis.

Also, at this point? Most of my current big projects are so complex - and such novel things to study about the zoo industry - that I’m taking the extra time to really cross every t and dot every i with the research, and then get them peer-reviewed through credible academic journals. I think there’s four or five different projects that will be papers I’m working on simultaneously (and sporadically) right now. And as many of you know, this is a hobby, not a paying profession.

So. Thank you for sticking around through the long silences and the intermittent publications. I have so much I want to talk about, but it has to wait until I can do it right. I have so many cool things planned (like, multiple interactive websites) for once everything is finished and published. Whether or not you’re on the Patreon or just awaiting infrequent Substack updates, I really appreciate all of it.

[esther-lu-writes]

A Mile Past Glade Hollow

Journal Excerpt~ 1.7k words

TW: Discussion of struggles with anxiety and dissociation

Late Feb, 2025

My therapist is losing patience with me. He wanted to know if I’ve been adhering to his journal prompts (no) and if I would be willing to share what I have been writing (also no). I’ve also refused to discuss the underlying feelings around my resistance to share or cooperate. He believes my fear of “letting someone in” is mirrored by my so-called agoraphobia. I told him I leave the mill almost every day… he said walking alone in the woods doesn’t count, in terms of countering my social anxiety. 

Apparently it’s all connected- the anxiety, how I disassociate, my maladaptive daydreams. I’m sure that’s true. I just don’t have it in me to open up. I honestly thought moving back to Glade Hollow would help… getting out of the city, working from home at my own pace. It’s actually getting worse. I don’t want to tell anyone, but so-called easy things are getting harder. For example, I’m having a hard time leaving to go to the store. There’s enough to eat but I don’t have anything that’s fresh. I’ll get ready to go but then I get stuck in my mind. I start pacing, daydreams filtering in and out. Before I know it, an hour’s passed… then it’s dark… then it’s too late.

The shrink insists using his journal prompts will help. Okay… here’s a prompt. "Recall a recent situation when you felt overwhelmed by anxiety. What thoughts and emotions accompanied that feeling?"

I’m feeling anxious about buying fucking groceries! It’s ridiculous and it makes me feel pathetic! I have enough money, the store is right down the road… but guess what? I don’t like to drive anymore! Do I know how to? Yup! Can’t stand the idea of going out to the jeep and cranking it up. The battery might even be dead. It makes me angry. It means I’m eating jerky and canned beans for dinner… and probably breakfast too.

These prompts don’t help. They just make me upset. If I get too worked up, I’ll disassociate. Then I start to lose time… then I can’t remember what I’m doing. What helps? I know what helps. And no, I don’t like talking about it with people. I should probably try to talk about it. I know I need to find a way to open up. I don’t want to start all over again with another therapist, but I’m pretty sure this guy is going to drop me. I don’t blame him… I’ve been a complete ass to him. 

On a more positive note, Shay and Ravi are coming home tomorrow! This is excellent news. It’s definitely the kick in the pants I need to go shopping. I can’t let them see me going on like this, especially Shay. If he gets wind that I’m regressing, he’s liable to go into full-blown nurse mode. I love him to pieces but he’s nothing short of a mother hen when it comes to my mental health. I have no idea what I’m going to say to Ravi. I know he gets updates from my therapist. I’m sure I’ll have a lecture coming. But that’s about a thousand times easier dealing with than what Shay will put me through. 

It was clear I needed support after the “incident.” I still don’t have any memory of what happened. I had been camped out at a writing retreat outside of Montreal. I remember feeling stressed out. This was before I had any official diagnosis but I was cognizant of my anxiety and starting to realize how intersected with my depression. And yeah, then something inside me just cracked… lights out. Somebody realized I was missing. There was a search party and I was found about 2 and half days later in the woods. It took me a while to come back from my dissociative state. Thankfully, the hospital was willing to release me into Ravi’s care. It’s not the first time I was thankful one of my dearest friends was a doctor.

Shay immediately insisted I move in with them until I got better. Somehow, I was allowed the autonomy to refuse. I just can’t relax in other people’s homes. That meant Shay moved in with me for no less than 12 weeks. Practically 3 months of regimented eating and exercise, being bussed to appointments, insisting I carry a cell phone at all times, accompanying me on all of my walks. I know I needed it. I had reached a point where I couldn’t care for myself. But my god, the fussing! 

Naturally, I resisted all of it. Shay is a sweetheart and overly patient with my bad moods. But even he had his limits. Thanks to our 30 year friendship, he knew exactly how to put me in my place. Usually that meant trapping me on the couch and showering me with playful tickles. Shay would encourage me to lighten up, knowing the sensations freed me from my mind, bringing me back to the present. Though I’m loath to admit it, it worked like a charm. 

Unfortunately, I wasn’t in the best state of mind and there would be times when I pushed him too far. My age-old stubborn streak, the unwillingness to entertain sound advice, the determination to create distance between myself and everyone else. I know I can be impossible. I suppose I should feel lucky that my closest friend is even more stubborn than me. However, I didn’t feel particularly lucky when I would inevitably cross the line. No, that would be fear that flooded my brain. 

At that point, no amount of bargaining would stave off his bear hug, pulling me into his broad chest. Pretty much everyone has the size advantage on me, including my husky friend. Despite my poor behavior, his voice was overly kind. “I’m sure you didn’t mean to say those hurtful things, did you?” 

Of course I didn’t. I was being reactive. I’m not used to sharing my space. I can’t stand all the extra attention. I don’t want to be cooked for and cared for. It makes me uncomfortable… I don’t like it!

“Really?” His Irish accent intimating that his care and attention were non-negotiable. “Well, let’s try to make you more comfortable then.”

I would be pulled into his lap, a brawny arm easily pinning both of mine behind my back. This was usually when I would regain my senses, highly motivated by self-preservation. It was way too late to backpedal. 

“Why do you sound so nervous? We’re just having a little conversation.” His free hand would start stroking my bare tricep, softly, slowly. His fingers would lazily dangle under my arm and gently flex against my skin. 

The tenderness was nothing short of criminal. When he wants to, Shay can make his touch excruciatingly soft, knowing full well what that does to me. Up and down, fingers gently spidering under my trapped arm, the threat that we had only just begun looming overhead. 

“You’re sorry? Don’t be… you were just being honest. It’s okay if you don’t want me to cook for you. We can just sit here and relax.” 

His hand pulled my tank up just enough so my sides were exposed. Shay worked with his hands. He was a brilliant mechanic and a talented potter. Hands that looked like they could bend steel had the touch of a jeweler. Large calloused fingers slowly kneaded my flesh, administering the most delicate of pinches, drawing meandering shapes before heading back up towards my armpit. 

I dug my heels in, trying to twist out of his arms. Wrong move. His big hand started squeezing my thigh, resulting in shrieking that I’m embarrassed to call my own. I could practically hear the smile in his voice, “No more wriggling. Sit still so we can talk this through.”

Clearly, this was personal. He paused to switch out his arms with the intention to work over my other side. I took the opportunity to reason with him, barely suppressing a whimper. “L-listen… I’m sorry! I know I’ve been acting like a jerk. P-please, no more!”

“No more of what? Could you be more specific?” His free hand started a new assault on my fresh side, just as slowly as before. The strongest hands I know barely grazing the surface of my arms, large fingers practically feathering my armpit. 

It was unbearable. My stomach was fluttering so hard it felt like I was free-falling. I remember pleading as best I could between bursts of giggles. His touch was too soft to drive me into full blown hysterics. It was just slow enough to create unceasing anticipation, an agonizing feedback loop of what was happening and knowing where he was going next. I was stuck in a giddy frenzy, unable to sink into the oblivion of pure tickle hell, hyper aware of how sensitive I was and my incoherent babbling. My only hope was gaining his pity.

Unfortunately, Shay had been putting up with my nonsense for days. My pleas fell on deaf ears. “What are you going on about? What’s too soft? You can’t take it? I have no idea what you’re trying to say. If you refuse to make pleasant conversation, maybe you can help me decide what to make for dinner.”

His hand drifted to my ribs, fiddling with each one, collectively caressing them, massaging them, carefully wiggling every single one before starting again. There went my grasp on the English language. I couldn’t even understand myself anymore. It was somewhere between useless begging, desperate laughing, pathetic mouth sounds and trying to articulate the first food item that popped into my head.

Shay finally paused, “Oh, you want potatoes? I could probably whip up a shepherd's pie. How does that sound to you?”

I gulped in air. He finally let go of my arms and made me turn to face him. I was both embarrassed by how badly I treated my friend earlier and my thorough defeat. “Y-y-yes, please! I’m s-sorry for b-before.”

“Oh, were you acting poorly earlier? I’m not sure I even noticed.”

I stared at the ground, feeling quite unworthy of his relentless friendship. “Thanks for t-taking such good care of me. Um, c-can I help with the food?”

Shay’s hazel eyes twinkled. I could tell I was forgiven. He touched his forehead to mine, his auburn curls framing both our faces. “No, you just stay out of my way… unless you want to have another conversation.”

[norbezjones]

I'm participating in the Eternal TTRPG Jam, which is kicking off with a zine-themed event.  The game I'm making is about journaling in the backrooms.  I've shared my WIP stuff to my patrons for feedback, which can be found at the link above.  Here it is here just in case, too.

The idea is that it has to be an 8-page zine.  I also want to do this for another game jam about special interests, and since writing is a special interest of mine, I figured a creative journaling game could be fun!

You can become a patron here (I just launched it the other day, eeeee!): https://www.patreon.com/NorbezJones

[academicfever]

70/100

I am so drained today...

Feb 16th 2025

Language learning session _chp 7

Read up on Rousseau

Journaling _mental health check

Skincare and meds

Morning yoga and strength training

Had a proper lunch

Plan for the week ahead

Call home

Textbook session 2P

Here are some things to try out if u r also drained …

Waking Up:

Stretch arms overhead while still in bed

Roll shoulders back and forward

Gentle spinal twists while lying down

Open curtains to get natural light exposure

Feeling Bored:

Keep a paperback book in your bag/desk

Have a small sketchbook and pen handy

Taking Breaks:

Walk up and down stairs

Do 5 minutes of jumping jacks or squats

Step outside for fresh air

Shoulder rolls and neck stretches

Quick cleaning task in your space

Simple breathing exercises

Before Bed:

Write three gratitude points

Plan tomorrow's tasks

Read a physical book (not e-book)

Do gentle yoga or stretching

Practice progressive muscle relaxation

Write about your day's experiences