#nerd relationships

[flavoracle]

Retconning My Life

Last weekend my ex-spouse and I were able to sit down and have a conversation that was very difficult, but also very productive. Honestly, it’s way more progress towards healing than I ever thought would be possible with my ex.

Since my wife and my ex-spouse are very close friends, my wife was there for the conversation as well, and one of the first questions she asked my ex-spouse was, “How much of your relationship did you know that you were only attracted to women?”

“Oh, the whole time,” was their response.

“Did you know you weren’t attracted to Dave before you started dating?”

“Yes, absolutely.”

Now, the point of this post is NOT to criticize my ex or blame them for the pain I’ve experienced. There are a lot of pressures and reasons that keep different people in the closet, and I’m not here to judge them for it.

After all, I don’t know how it feels to spend fifteen years in a relationship where I felt like I had to stay in the closet.

At the same time, I sincerely hope that they will never know how it feels to spend fifteen years in a relationship with someone who doesn’t actually want you. Or to spend fifteen years in a relationship being lied to by the person you trust the most in the whole world.

For those of you that have followed my blog for a while, you might know that being a loving and supportive husband was a major part of my identity. It was something I thought I was really good at and I took a lot of personal pride in. (Though I tried to not be overly arrogant or obnoxious about it.) And one of the main reasons I was good at it is because the person I was looking to for feedback never told me how they actually felt about me or our relationship.

So now I’m trying to process this new information and from a narrative standpoint it’s like going back and retconning a major characteristic for the majority of my adult life up to this point. Because instead of being a guy who was actually good at making his spouse feel happy, supported, and loved, it turns I was actually a super oblivious guy who just THOUGHT he was good at those things, while actually infuriating his spouse by constantly focusing on the relationship and how to increase the love and affection within it.

If you’re reading this post and thinking, “I have no idea to respond to this,” then that is 100% fair and valid. Because honestly I have no idea what kind of response I’m hoping to get.

I guess during a time where my very reality feels so subjective and disjointed, there’s a kind of comfort sharing here on Tumblr where reality has ALWAYS been subjective and disjointed.

In a world that currently feels unreal, it’s kinda nice to come back to a place that has always felt a bit unreal.

[mspi]

Nerd news

Ohh you can't tell me that this isn't even a slight bit of geek that I have the collection in my Kindle library. Still stuck in amusement that a 🔥 man backed away from me on a date when he found out I was an engineer. Dude wishes he were a nerd of my 💰 level. They knew who I worked for before.

It's only when told I was a tech writer for diff companies before they relaxed. How's he any less of a nerd when they play Magic the Gathering. Oh now I wonder how he fits that between family life, guitar playing, surfing, and video games.

Don't think I'm serious? In the past I had my fun with quiet snickdrs along with a grad professor when reviewing the work of his students. There were obvious big bads in the code; having a classmate's name on 'your' work is a tell.

Gotta give me props, I found this while going through lines of code without being AI or even paid. It's called being bored out of my mind and stuck in physical therapy.

Don't worry about it. It got worse. He didn't know how to ask me out on a date to a cafe; I didn't know how to ask him for ice cream instead.

Maybe Musk was using us as an example of why he's working hard to repopulate the planet with his seed.

-- dnagirl

07.12.2023

[onionninjasstuff]

carrying each other :з

[specialgradefckr]

a thought.

satoru gojo doesn't belong to you. he doesn't even belong to himself.

he's a weapon, a tool, a teacher and guardian - he doesn't have time to be yours, even if he wanted to.

but this one could.

he looks good, for having been grown in a test tube for twenty months.

a clone. your very own personal satoru gojo. just for you and no one else.

he's born in the lab, a fully grown adult, and you teach him everything he needs to know about life.

when he's hungry, you feed him.

when he's cold, you hold him.

when he's bored, you entertain him.

when he's sad, you delight him.

for this satoru gojo, the world begins and ends with you.

he's never known life outside the private lab beneath your home. after weeks of good behavior, you let him sleep with you in your room.

he never says no. doesn't know what it is. you've never told him no (granted, his requests are always vague, and you fulfill them however you please), so it doesn't exist in his mind.

so when you teach him how to make you feel good - guide him to his knees, between your legs, holding his face against your cunt - this satoru gojo learns eagerly, with all the unrestrained passion and dedicated of a virgin with his longtime crutch.

the first words you taught him to say were "i love you", after all.

at first, he was sort of like a parrot - repeating after you, confused, hesitant forming words.

but quickly enough, his true nature shone through. even with a limited vocabulary, he would tease - "those are called glasses." "glasses?" "yes - satoru! give them back!" - and his appetite for mischief and self-satisfaction were ever-present.

but even with his nature, there was always nurture to gently adjust him.

you'd leave him alone for hours without explanation, even when he could grasp language enough to understand one. always returning with a treat, with a smile and a kiss.

there was food for him when you were gone, and water. but it's bland, unappetizing stuff. he is satoru, after all. still craving sweets.

you were the only person he's ever interacted with. the only person he ever will.

your presence meant food, companionship, entertainment. your absence meant loneliness, boredom, hunger.

you are everything good in his life. you gave him this life. it's only right that he spends it with you.

it's not that satoru minds, after all. he seems to love eating you out, training session after training session leading him to slide to his knees beside you more often than not. bright blue eyes twinkling up at you while he paws at your waistband.

and you're not a selfish lover, not by any means. once you've conditioned him to only cum when you're present, you're very generous with his orgasms.

it took a while. a specialized device - unremovable cockring - and some porn left around for him to peruse curiously.

but soon enough, you'd caught him, red-faced and stressed, unable to find his release. diligently, over many weeks, you'd taught his body that the only real pleasure was you. your touch, your voice, your love.

this is your satoru gojo. he shouldn't want anything but you. he shouldn't get off to anything but you.

you are his sun and stars, his planet, his gravity holding him to earth, the air he breathes, the life that sustains him, his whole universe.

it's all worth it, to come back to him after an outing. bright-faced and smiling and trembling just a little bit in relief.

when he holds you at night extra tightly, like he's terrified you'll slip out of his arms while he sleeps.

it's intoxicating. euphoric.

you try not to leave too often. but absence makes the heart grow fonder. can't have him taking you for granted.

in fact, that's the only punishment that ever seems to work on him, when he's acting out, and a stern correction doesn't do it.

it's not often, but sometimes he'd whine incessantly about getting his way, as if what he wanted mattered. as if you didn't love him more than anything already. as if you didn't go out of your way to give him everything, including his own life.

maybe he wanted to have sex that day, instead of just masturbating for you. maybe he was getting bored of eating you out for hours. maybe he just wanted to hurry up and cum.

all of these were normal, expected ways for satoru gojo to behave at first. but you'd trained them out of him.

if he was so bored, if he didn't like what you wanted, then he could stay here by himself.

you'd leave discreetly, distracting him with an instruction or an excuse about getting something. and then you'd turn off the breaker so the lights in the basement were out.

and then you'd go. spend hours away from home.

every time you spent a different amount of time away. letting him stew in it. letting him wait for you. wait, and wonder if you were really coming back this time.

it was painful. you didn't create him just to neglect him like this.

but it needs to be done. he had to understand that being without you is utter, abject misery.

this had the side effect of turning him into a clingy menace. which was terribly endearing - he always wanted to have a hand on you, or to sit next to you, or to be touching you somehow.

those beautiful eyes nervously glancing at you every now and then - it's the prettiest thing you've ever seen.

with him clinging to you, of course, you have to adjust his punishments. if a training session isn't going well, you slip something into his next meal.

when he awakens, he's tied up. all alone in a well-lit, padded room.

by the time you open the door, he's teary-eyed, nose red from sniffling, throat sore from screaming. he leans into your fingers in his hair, closing his eyes, shuddering and sighing in utter bliss.

satoru always behaves better after that. you tell him, calmly, what you hope he'll improve on, and he always does. your clever boy.

your perfect boy. your satoru gojo, homemade, hand-raised, yours and yours alone. happy to be yours.

he's improved so much. he really is nearly perfect.

affectionate - almost overbearingly so, but that suits you. he's attentive, so well in tune with your moods. satoru really is so very observant when he wants to be.

he can make you cum in under thirty seconds - there's your quick learner! you feel like a proud teacher, sometimes.

and he loves you. of course he loves you. you make him feel good, you kiss him goodnight, you always make sure he knows exactly how happy he makes you.

he's not unlike a pet who loves you unconditionally and wants to be with you constantly. a particularly clever pet, even, who sometimes gets... ideas.

what you're working on now is a complicated case. satoru's a healthy young man, and he spends all his time with you, who he's attracted to - so he gets erections fairly often.

your conditioning has led him to expect sexual activity... well, relatively frequently. after all, he can't cum on his own. it doesn't help that he always wants to be touching you, next to you, holding you.

the task now is for him to become aroused only when you are aroused. it'll take time - and patience - and lots and lots of punishments. but smaller ones, easier ones.

you're content with this. perfection is a state of mind, after all. there will always be something to improve on.

if you don't have anything to punish him for, satoru might start to think he's perfect. he might realize that you won't stop loving him, for any reason. he might get sloppy.

what if he thinks he can leave?

it's something that keeps you up at night, sometimes. you try not to let it, really. satoru never falls asleep first. you've never seen him sleep at all outside your arms, actually.

you're particularly tired, this night, though.

satoru's been so good lately, so you'd rewarded him with a new, special experience; making food together.

it had been utterly delightful, so domestic and causal, full of laughter and taste-tests and troubled recipe lookups. Is that what being a couple was supposed to be like?

you think you could get used to that.

you try to say something, but your mouth is especially dry. satoru, the darling creature that he is, has water at the ready for you.

the thanks, too, can't come out of your mouth. your vision is darkening...

"sorry," his lovely voice hums distantly, "not sure about the dosage. i know i'm larger than you, so it should be a bit less..."

the words stand out to you. dosage. a bit less.

but very soon, your world goes dark, and all you hear before that is -

"you're never leaving me again."

[feelslikesugarinme777]

I NEEEEED SOMEONE LIKE THIS PLEASE

[s1x-foot-deep]

do u see the vision. are you picking up what im putting down here

[webbytbh]

Bored and wanted to try and make fake screenshots using Huey and May

[shiny-kaibernyte]

((Spoilers))

Just a warning that this could be a spoiler if you haven't read the ending of MHA yet but, you think you could do headcanons for Shinso x reader where they're adults and he's a hero now and the reader is a civilian and welcomes him home every day? Thanks!

I am not the biggest Shinso fan, i must admit but for you darling i shall do this. Perhaps writing this will inspire me to re-watch MHA never know my opinion may change.

This may be a bit rusty, i tried my best to picture what he'd be like in a more domestic setting so i hope i did alright. Throw a grenade at me if i'm wrong.

Shinso Headcannons | Domestic life (kinda)

Shinso is an underground hero, much like Aizawa he prefers to work in the shadows, avoiding the public limelight as much as possible. However this also means his private life is impossible to figure out, coming home to you is the best part of his day because not only can he come home to you, but it's the only time he truly has a moment to collect his thoughts and just breath.

More often than not when he comes home, Shinso is the one to start up a conversation. The topics he brings up vary from day to day. Usually it's asking how your day was or telling you about the mission he just went on or perhaps something strange he saw out and about. Sometimes though he randomly starts talking about different cat breeds going in extreme detail about them. He does this when he’s most stressed.

An extremely bad habit of his both on the field and at home is this man has zero idea when to stop. He’s had to prove himself his whole entire life from being calling him an underdog to an unholy villain. Seems old habits die hard. As soon as he comes home no matter how tired he is, the first thing he does is some form of house work. He's even taking over the workload from you no matter how much you protest or tell him to lie down and rest. Shinso is determined to prove himself to you as your husband and your hero.

Don’t worry he has a weakness though, a small trick you learnt to get him to listen to you when he does this. It's your stare. Specifically your disappointed-cross stare. He can feel it even if you're behind him or in the next room through a doorway. That stare of yours is lethal to him. When he feels it he puts down whatever he's doing, hands in the air with the look of a guilty kitten. It's the one and only time you can get him to lay down and not fuss or drag you with him.

His love language is Quality time, the conversations he shares with you, memories he makes. Those moments are the ones he holds dear to his heart. Even before you started dating, he remembers every conversation the two of you had, sometimes he brings up something from years ago. The face you make when he catches you off guard is his favourite. Shinso thinks it's adorable so tries to do it a lot whenever he;s had a rough day.

He may be a pro hero now but he still has the same tendencies from when he was in UA. One of your personal favourites is whenever he's nervous or has something to tell you that he's ashamed of, He’ll rub the back of his neck and avoid looking you in the eye at all costs. It's the only time he stutters over his words also. Normally he's very stoic and straightforward but if he's nervous, he's a mumbling mess falling over his words trying oh so very hard not to sound like an idiot.

His phone is always open to you, he has nothing to hide from you, you’re his partner, his love. What he has is yours so he expects the very same. He will NEVER snoop through your things or disrespect your privacy, he values space and privacy ALOT But he also wants you to know he's open to you, there's nothing he will hide from you. So please don’t hide anything from him either.

When it comes to pet names they are rare but he does have his favourites. My love, Dearest and Darling are his go to’s. Something simple but meaningful.

Whilst he isn’t a very cuddly person, he does adore his nights with you especially if you have a movie night. Having you wrapped in his arms and him in yours is a treasured moment to him. A moment he feels safe, as if he could stop time itself.

You are both his greatest weakness and his greatest strength. Shinso will go to any length to protect you, even death. He would kill for you if that's what it took. He may be a hero but to him, he is nothing without you. Although he never has. Shinso hates the idea of being seen as a villain or ‘evil’ so it really is a last resort for him to do that.

He will NEVER use his quirk on you, but he will gladly share some of the things he’s found when mind controlling a villain, he has found out some weird things. 

Yes you have cats. Deal with it.

[kyluxtrashpit]

Sorry for being the way I am lmao, but I cannot believe andor s2 has me jealous of sad cereal man. How did this happen. This is exactly how I want a woman to treat me. How dare he have what I want

[ywpd-translations]

Ride 817: Takadajou's strategy

Pag 1

1: I see them, Jou-san!!

2: Ahead!!

3: Kyofushi is 200m ahead of us!!

And Naruko is 100m ahead of them

4: Let's switch, Naruko

Now it's my turn!!

6: Hakogaku is switching the lead

Now the one running in front is

Pag 2

1: number 12, Hakone Acadey's control tower, the third year Takadajou Rei!!

Pag 3

1: Woah, they changed the lead so quicky!!

Oh....

2: Is this how you change lead?

So efficient

Just now, that Takadajou guy

3: passed number 11 on the left, so close it looked like they were going to collide

4: He matched the deceleration of his partner and moved ahead smoothly, as if slipping

Pag 4

1: Like the pocket of your clothes you're used to have store your phone in

2: Unlike MTB, road racing involves a lot of wind resistance for a long period of time

3: Since 60% of the wind resistance is met by the person in the lead, the ones riding behind don't lose much energy

4: In a long match of road racing the loss of energy accumulates, so even small actions like taking turns should be done without wasting energy

5: Moreover, just now they didn't simply “switch”

6: He moved ahead while accelerating and intentionally leaved a gap behind for a moment

7: To close it....

Pag 5

1: We behind had to step on!!

3: Basically, he's making us consume our energy

So while switching, he's also attacking

4: This guy is the type to use his head well while running, yon!!

Pag 6

1: Now, what should I do?

2: The distance is 200m, and ahead of that it's 100m

3: Should I wait until Kyofushi catches Naruko and then swallow them?

4: Or should I decelerate on purpose and let Gunma get ahead?

5: Or, like Kyofushi, should I tear off the ones behind us and join those ahead?

Pag 7

1: Alright, here's a quiz, Yuuto

Which one of the following is the correct way to catch those ahead of us?

2: Wait a sec, Jou-san

3: There are three options!!

4: You should stop grinning and asking quizzes when the race is reaching its climax

I told you before, didn't I?

5: You told me?

6: That if you have an answer then just do it

We really are at the climax – there are....

Pag 8

1: 2km until the finish line!!

2km left until the finish line of the Inter High's first day!!

Pag 9

1: They're chasing the three people ahead!!

The distance is around 100m!! Kanagawaa!!

They're so fast!

2: They're coming into view!!

3: Indeed

Right?!?

4: It's a shame to see your perplexed expression, Yuuto

The quiz's answer....

5: Me? Perplexed?

.. was none of the three

Ah!?

It's the fourth one...

Pag 12

1: “Only catch....”

Pag 13

1: “Kyofushi”

Pag 14

2: Hakogaku accelerated in a moment...!! And they.... they caught Kyofushi!!

3: Who's that four-eyes with the square glasses

He's terribly fast!!

4: Ehi!! The quiz is alright, but if you plan on accelerating please tell me!!

I really am perplexed!!

5: …. mi

6: …. mi

7: Oi, look, Kyofushi's assist moved back a little

Pag 15

1: I couldn't... catch up..... with the red guy.... mi

2: Hacchobori-kuun....

3: And then.... they caught up from behind...

…. mi

4: This guy.... that face....!!

So...rry

5: Puku, but there's still work to do?

This is bad!!

Recover!!

Hacchobori-kuun, if

6: we fall behind in a moment like this..

Recover!!

This guy....

Pag 16

1: is losing sight of the goal!!

2: Tch

3: Kyofushi's number 46 is falling behind!!

What's going on!?

4: Losing sight of the goal....!!

5: When running in road races both stamina and emotional strength are pushed to the utmost limits!!

Especially before the finish line!!

Pag 17

1: For cyclists, their “goal” supports their minds

If they don't have that....!! That's the reason he fell behind

3: So the ones who you should be the most wary of are the ones who have their goals!!

Pag 18

2: Are you kidding me, Kyofushi really was swallowed? The Kyofushi who was supposed to be chasing me!?

3: That was Hakogaku's four-eyes Jou!! The guy Kabu talked about!!

4: Oruaaaaaa!!

Pag 19

1: Kyofushi's aim was to “absorb the lead”.... if they did that, it would have been too late

Completing an event creates the next goal

2: So I absorbed Kyofushi first!!

3: Now if we go a few hundred of meters further we'll be able to naturally absorb Naruko, too

Ugh!! This guy thinks so much it pisses me off!!

4: Even so, isn't it cruel that among the three options the right one was the fourth one?

5: I prepared the fourth one on purpose

Pag 20

1: Because in road races things always go beyond expectations

2: I don't really get what he's saying, but

As expected, when his bangs fall down, Jou-san snaps

3: By the way, your acceleration earlier was amazing, do you have a name for it?

4: Yeah

5: “The euclidean speed of sound”

The origin is always euclidean!!

[notthatdom]

Find a woman that stares at you like you're the prettiest demon she's ever seen in her life

[wildstar25]

MiqoMarch Day 25 - Fate

"It's almost funny; that my adventures would lead me right back to the isles I had thought to have left so far behind me. Is this all a coincidence or is this fate?"

[danscarf]

Relationship Dynamic

Different choice of Pajamas from the two.

[schrodingers-gay420]

"How can you ship something so toxic??? You are a terrible person!!!" yep my love for toxic ribbun began the day I decided to take over the world and become an evil dictator thank you for understanding

[niserieblackbeak]

oh save me, 25+ years old nerd guy who loves deep conversations and staying awake at night to play games or movie marathons and loves animals and is romantic and has a hyperfixation on things i will never understand but he is willing to explain in a softest manner while im cooking dinner for us and listen music and and

[belovedbow]

it's hotboi springback in the server! here's my piece of eli proving his magic to sunshine during camping before they got together. sunshine already believes him, but where better to show off one's magic than at a camping trip.