#sorry im just venting

[haltmann]

punk is awesome because they made a whole subculture out of the shittiest music you've ever heard and every one of them is miserable

[master-missysversion]

Fans who also consider themselves leftists will unironically accuse Moffat of being obsessed with Lesbians because they were mentioned twice and see nothing wrong with it

[k8aclysm]

I'm exceedingly tired of not having curves. :( Like if I still look like a fucking rectangle after 3 years when other girls get phenomenal results, what the fuck was the point :(

[insanelypurplez]

I'm so fucking tired man

[birbfeeder2artisticboogaloo]

trying to politely enforce boundaries with ppl who don't respect u and take everything very personally is literally SO PAINFUL LIKE

I JUST DOn'T WANT U TALKING ABOUT ME LIKE THAT. IT IS A. PERSONAL PREFERENCE. NOT AN INDICTMENT OF U OR A CRITICISM OF UR PERSON. JUST PLEASE STOP

[twinkbloodspit]

I'm kind of doing terrible lately :( my chronic illness and pain have been so bad lately and my anxiety has been worse than usual. I can hardly function and I constantly feel like something is "wrong." I feel like I'm not real, I'm dissociating a lot. I'm nauseous everyday I'm in pain everyday I'm always tired. idk why it's getting worse rn but I really hate it :( I was doing so good for a while. it's been worse ever since I got covid/ever since I stopped taking lamictal (both happened around the same time) I had no choice but to stop lamictal tho, I'd been on it as a mood stabilizer for well over a year and my side effects were terrible and never went away or got better :( I also have no appetite at all so I've had a hard time eating which is just making things so much worse. eating food is so important. it was just last month that I was still able to eat all my favorite snacks and now I can't stomach hardly anything, it's making me so sad. I have Dr's appointment coming up next week but honestly my Dr is kinda :/ she just says everything seems normal and I feel like I walk out with no more answers than I walked in with. like for example my heart rate is always really high and my blood pressure is always low. she literally said "it's always like that when you come in so I assume that's just normal for you" but if it's always like that shouldn't we try to figure out the cause ?? plus I can't really get a word in. I feel like she comes in and talks and leaves and the whole thing takes about 3-5 minutes. but options for Dr's are limited due to insurance reasons.

also there might be tornado where I live tonight so um. that's scary :(

[vurelly]

i will spend every day of the rest of my life saying 'if you're going to like something you should reblog it too'

nobody's judging you for what you reblog unless it is outright hate, but you know who DOES care about it? our dying art community.

this site is BUILT on fanworks and we're complaining an awful lot about the changes staff is making to try to boost site traffic, yet doing little to support what communities we have on here. you don't have to leave tags, you don't have to leave comments, but if you want tumblr to stay the same we have to reblog shit on this site like we used to otherwise we'll lose the artists and writers our foundation was built on.

[insaneinpink]

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[mossy-aro]

ultimately i think my insistence on aro positivity honestly is as much a political stance as a personal one.

when i say aro positivity is crucial and that i dislike doomer-ist posts that express sentiments like 'I hate being aro so much I wish I was dead instead’ it's not because I don’t think there can and should be a space for negativity and acknowledging self-hate, or the many ways being aromantic can really suck sometimes. i find that to be very important!

that being said. there is smth here about how self-hate posts are sometimes just arophobia that we inflict on ourselves. and when we put that out into the ether it (intentionally or not) can become arophobia that we inflict on other members of the community. i think there absolutely needs to be a place for negativity and the expression of anger and frustration and self loathing even - these are all good things to talk about because these are things that we experience. that being said, it can also be genuinely upsetting and triggering to people to have what is essentially arophobia shown to them and then have that be validated by other aspec people. your personal thoughts can affect your wider community on a level you may not anticipate. and i understand it i truly do! it took me so long to be able to recover from accepting being aroace - it threw my entire world off kilter and made me question everything about my place in the world.

but my insistence on aro joy and positivity is because ultimately i do believe that building is at the core essence of it all. that ultimately discussions and the purpose of community should be about construction, not destruction. and this is both a personal and a political stance. talking about how much you hate yourself and cultivating online discussions/spaces where negativity about aspec identity is the main and only theme is destructive - if that’s where we let the conversation end. these thoughts can and should be used as a vehicle to look for a path forward!

joy and positivity create a space where the focus can become on forging a path forward, on construction, on community building instead of tearing ourselves and others down with negative thoughts. it’s not productive or healthy when it stops at a place of negativity - it becomes actively destructive to the essence of community.

and i do think that this is especially poignant considering the fact that being any kind of queer, but especially aromantic (and/or asexual) means forging a path for yourself and making your own happiness where there is no obvious way forward. our communities exist mostly online (right now, anyway), there is little recognition of our existence in the real world, the effects of amatonormativity are both pervasive and actively dehumanising, and there are legal, economic and social structures in place actively making our lives more difficult. yes that all sucks! it’s good to acknowledge that. we need to in order to change it. but more importantly, that’s not the end. we are still here and our happiness, our future is for us to determine. even if we can’t change the laws or society, loving yourself and understanding aromanticism as a political identity (as well as personal), as a radical worldview, and as a protest against amatonormativity is essential for both community and personal well being. the personal is political.

tldr. i guess my point is that as a community, we should focus on building, improving, and nurturing ourselves and each other (construction) as opposed to destruction. we should recognise aromanticism and asexuality as political identities as well as personal ones and rely on community and self-love in the absence of anything else as a form of protest and political power. destruction (the recognition of everything that is wrong) is essential as a starting point - but where do we go from there? we rebuild.

[nonranghaes]

"it's just me."

you barely get a chance to roll onto your back before soonyoung's already climbing onto the bed and somewhat on top of you and your blankets, and it's only seconds later that he crashes. it's far from the first time this has happened (soonyoung is clingy and cuddly, especially when he's sleepy), but he manages to knock the wind out of you nonetheless. he rests his head on your chest, and you wiggle an arm out to curl around him as best as you can in your semi-trapped position.

"soonyoung--"

"just go back to sleep," he murmurs. "everything's fine."

you stroke his hair, thumb dipping down to graze his cheek at one point. "soonie--"

"i mean it," he says, eyes peering up in the low light to see yours. "i'm fine. just need to nap." his hand finds yours, and he wraps your arm around him as he snuggles in. he plants a kiss against your chest before resting his head against it again, eyes fluttering shut. "you can rest a little longer, too."

you settle back down after a moment, arms wrapped around soonyoung as you shut your eyes again. sometimes you swear this tiger is a teddy bear, but regardless of which he is, he's yours.

[artsymeeshee]

one of those nights

[unknownjesterr]

im so done with tumblr

[foolbehavior]

Another year, another wistful yjh looking up

[fairsweetlonging]

the thing that sets apart hua cheng from most other devotee/worshipper-type relationships in other media is that hua cheng would actually throw himself on his knees and crawl across the floor if xie lian wanted to, he would demean himself without shame because shame comes from the perception that you have done something wrong or foolish in another's eyes, and hua cheng would never see his god's will as either, nor care for anyone's else's opinion

[angelpuns]

Leo going through the horrors but the horrors are just that he had a shitt day and no one bothered to save him any cookies :/

[sunlit-mess]

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