#srry not srry for being negative

[prettypinkpastries]

Mini Rant

I honestly hate loasstwt tbf. Like the amount of ppl i see on there shaming others for how they manifest is absurd. Someone likes a+p? Great. Let them affirm. Someone uses states to manifest? That's great, let them do it. Someone wants to manifest in steps? Great, let them do it. Honestly if you don't like or agree with the way another person manifests something, that's okay. But don't project your negativity onto others and try to tell them that they're doing it wrong. Like stop it. You look ridiculous.

Why get so worked up and offended over how someone chooses to go about their manifestation journey? You don't like manifesting with states? Fine. That method doesn't work for you? Don't believe in subliminals? Okay good. But don't attack others for doing what works for them. Someone else creating their own rules for their own reality does not and should not conflict with yours. We're all limitless creators... right? So let us be limitless creators. Like tell me you're not confident in yourself without telling me you're not confident in yourself because people who bully others for no reason are insecure, not confident. If you were actually confident in your own manifesting abilities, you wouldn't be making others feel bad for being confident in theirs. If you actually believed in yourself, you wouldn't be bringing others down. Do better.

Side note I've seen my fair share of racism, lgbtphobia, fatphobia, etc on there too buts that's a whole nother thing to discuss, but yeah the whole "your way of manifesting is wrong" "youre a bad person for doing xyz" "why do that when you can do this" "you're not doing it right" type of mindset people have on there is something I had to address. Like. Your manifestation journey is unique. Let people do things their way and go do things your way. Don't be a pathetic asshole and let people be themselves. Sure, everything does go your way, but not everything HAS to be your way. Get what I'm saying?

Loatumblr for life >>>>>>

[jrueships]

the monthly apathy is back, rlly sorry if i said smthing to u and then u say smthing back and i don't respond for like a thousand years only to spam u after it passes and then u respond bcs ure awesome and i go on an unspoken vow of silence for yet another thousand years and the cycle just continues

[akunya]

everytime i get too comfortable, its like life finds a way too shit on me every single time.

boyfriend broke up with me, got some bad news relating to my job and whatnot, and struggling a little financially. fucking great.

[superchat]

Computer, in my last moments will i look back at my life with satisfaction or will it be like how i am now where every year i look back on is bad and full of regret and embarassment and humilation and unhappiness

[doodlebloo]

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God I'm so mad. I have been waiting so patiently to liveblog that c!clingy finale with you all I have been waiting for their happy ending for years and because of one asshole now that's ruined. Will the stream still happen yeah probably but it's spoiled now. And thats so fucking unfair to Tommy and Tubbo who have put years of love and care into these characters, and thats so unfair to every fan who has loved these characters for so long. I was so excited for the c!clingyduo finale it was something I'd been looking forward to for so long, when things got really hard irl I'd remind myself that I still had that bright light on the horizon and now it's just gone. God I feel so sick

[achilleslyre]

i hate tolerating smth for so long then reaching ur breaking point before u can actually do anything to change the situation so now ur just gonna be an asshole all the time bc ur past the point of being able to just ignore all the bullshit that goes on here.

[nonbinary-morro]

Ship bingo: kurl<>tuna and/or kankri<3<mituna

ok so i had full paragraphs written out for both of them but i accidentally ctrl+z-deleted them 😭 so im just gonna try and summarise what i had.

kur<>tuna:

i think they are both interesting pairings but very different in how they're portrayed in canon vs fanon.

my opinion of kur<>tuna has chaged a bit over time, while i still like them and hid them interesting/fun in a shippy way, these two have some heavy lore that is left rlly ambigious that i wish was explored more and does allude to potentially rlly fucked up shit going on in their session past i dont know if id want to entertain.

alas what is a moiralligeance without some level of unhealthyness though? cant deny it adds flavour. these two definatly give me emotionally co-dependate vibes and while that probably isnt the best for either of them, what is there left to do while dead for the rest of eternity? as a relationship they would be so soft, kurloz in general i think would be so after the accident with meulin but i feel like the best part of being moirails for them would be to be able to wind down from the hecticness around them all the time, and to just exist with another person.

I also rlly the like themes of communication between them, whether it be through chucklevoodoos or sign language i think that it would be one of the few relationships mituna has where he can fully communicate with another person and be understood (and wouldnt feel the need to apologize to all the time). and besides maybe latula, kurloz is also not effected by his cassandra syndrome as a witness to his accident.

kankri<3<mituna:

i dont rlly like ships being in spades where their hatred stems from another quadrant/quadrant jelousy that much 🤷‍♂️

i always feel like their more likely to ruin the other relationship before falling in hatred seperate from the jelousy and having a kismesistude focused on them rather than a third party, and then whatever hatred stems fromt that would be wayy to out of control and noone would wanna autipice between that. (if any of that makes sence i hope it does 😭).

plus like, i really dont like how abelist kankri is to mituna. and seeing it as mocking his diability as a form of pitch flirting/pitch hatred just feels rlly uncomfortable. it is very much punching down (at someone who already has to deal with cronus of all ppl) and i dont rlly like it srry.

i have read au fanfics based on alternia where they are <3 or <> that i really enjoyed! but again fanon characterization is very different XP.

i DO see the ex's box though and think that would be absolutely hilarious. mituna gets mad bitches XDDD.

[girlslashers]

Uwaaaah why is my memory so baaaaad OTL

[foxglves]

"I'm basing it on his resume 100% yes" shut the fuck up. lol.

[angeltism]

ohh shit listening 2 random playlists and getting punched in the emotions so hard when Heather starts playing that i well up in tears within the first 5 seconds

[yellowhearther0]

i love constantly being in A State (tm) because i can never tell whether my judgement calls r absolutely bullshit or actually somewhat right

[lesbian-gnf-archive]

When will people care about actual lesbiphobia instead of whatever they make up

[cryolyst]

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[pluralcultureis]

plural culture is lowkey hoping to get an introject of your comfort character but then feeling guilty bc u know thats not how the disorder works and u shouldnt want to gain a new alter- plus ur in sys partner has source trauma from them and is uncomfy with him even being brought up and u dont wanna put them in a bad situation but you still feel like they would be so helpful and its just an endless cycle of hoping and guilt/neg

(also srry if im spamming u w asks ://)

No I get it

Having this disorder can be hard, it's natural to hope that it does something that would benefit you

I don't want new alters, but if we're going to get new alters I would like them to be someone that already brings me comfort

Meeting knew people is terrifying to me, I have really bad social anxiety, and that applies to my alters as well. I've found it easier to connect with fictives and open up around them, because I feel like I already know them and have to mask less around them

Of course they aren't always there source, and I don't treat them like quirky little guys that are only here for my benefit

But I do still find myself sometimes thinking "I really wish we had __ fictive" because I want to be closer to that character and be comforted by them, and that's the only way that could actually come close to happening

I always feel guilty for these thoughts too, but I've found that they're gonna come with the disorder

[sl-vega]

✧Sticking to the Script✧-04

04-the world's a stage and i'm the star

You clutched your script as Lyney walked off the stage, finished with his audition. Memories of the day before still plagued your mind. Lyney made his way to where you were standing, as another girl stepped on to the stage.

"You okay?" Lyney asked, snapping you out of your negative thoughts.

Still clutching your paper, you brought your hand to your mouth. "I feel like I'm gonna throw up." you told him as you dry heaved.

"I'm assuming it's not just stage fright?" He questioned, concern etching his expression.

You shook your head, your eyes scanned the room, subconsciously checking if Chaoxi was there, you had gotten used to him watching your auditions. You didn't see any trace of him, a mix of relief and disappointment washing over you.

But there was someone else that you recognized in the crowd.

Isn't that the boy from yesterday?

He was talking to another guy next to him. He definitely wasn't part of the drama club, and it didn't look like he was auditioning either. So what was he doing here?

Almost as if he sensed it, his eyes met yours. Your eyes quickly darted away, you didn't want to look like a creep, even though you were sure you did just that. You felt your face heat up

Archons, what's wrong with me?

"NEXT!" Furina called out.

You quickly made your way up the stage, trying to calm your nerves as you walked to the center of the wooden platform. The headlight's blinded you, but you averted your attention to Furina.

You may have had the high ground, but you felt like she was the one looking down on you. Eula Lawrence was next to Furina, Nilou had told you that she would be choreographing for the production.

"Name and part?" Furina asked, her voice bringing you back to reality.

"(Y/N) (L/N), auditioning for the role of Juliet." you announced, mustering up as much courage as you could.

"You can start." Furina said, giving you a nod.

You took a breath. Repeating the mantra you always used before an audition.

The world's a stage and I'm the star.

additional notes:

-shameless title drop for the win

-xingqiu and y/n interaction next chapter >:3

-i think it's obvious but the chapter title is both a reference to a shakespeare quote and the title of furina's demo

-vee with the big brain references yk

-srry this chapter is so short, i swear i'll make up for it in the next one

-shoutout to @freyao7 for being the best proof reader ever

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✧Sticking to the Script✧

Pairing: Xingqiu x FEM! Reader

Genre: fake dating, strangers to lovers, slow burn, fluff, angst (?), high school smau, modern smau

⋆｡°✩-Synopsis: Xingqiu just got entered into a special writing contest, the type that's invite only, the theme this year is love, the only problem is that he has zero romantic experience. but he really wants to prove himself as a writer. meanwhile, you just found out that your boyfriend cheated on you, and you need to show him that you're 100% over him, the only problem is that there's no way you can get an actual boyfriend that quickly. clearly, the solution to both of your issues is to fake date each other. it shouldn't be hard for an actor such as yourself, all you need to do is stick to the script.

(OPEN) Taglist: @freyao7, @thatoneswordgirl, @sn1perz, @latay7, @esmetrees, @nmriki0, @help-whatdoimakemyusername, @httpsrenren, @cupid-spams, @aixaingela, @kaitfae, @luvkvni, @danhenglovebot

[anmiruzu]

I just thought of a dark!flamepillar!Senjuro (and by dark I mean in terms of personality) with a lovepillar!reader who follows him around and is similar to Otori Kaede from Komi Can't Communicate?? (Srry if it's confusing)

Flame Hashira! Senjuro w/ Love Hashira! Reader who's like Otori Kaede

a/n had no idea what you meant by a “dark personality” so i took it as if shinjuros abuse got worse and i guess made senjuro depressed? also! i haven’t watched komi can’t communicate, i’ve read a bit of the manga but i haven’t seen otori kaede in it so i’m srry if it’s off i just skimmed through her wiki

-senjuro would have mixed feelings having the love hashira follow him around; it would remind him of when his brother trained mitsuri, and when thinking of your guys dynamic like this, he gets depressed from remembering his dead brother 

-he doesn’t have many friends because of his shy and timid personality which got especially worse after the death of his brother and the abuse of his father. Making him distant from the other hashiras who don’t bother to chat with him, so he appreciates you giving him company 

-his first impressions of you were that you were friendly and airheaded, he noticed how you don’t take things seriously and questioned how you became a hashira with how carefree you are as he takes being a hashira very seriously 

-when you first started following him around, he was very confused and thought negatively, thinking that you were just going to be rude to him (which you weren’t) until one day you two started talking, he doesn’t remember how it happened, just that it happened

-it took a really long time for him to open up and he at first gave one word answers to you but that eventually evolved into full conversations not one-sided ones

-after a few months of chatting, you two are practically inseparable with senjuro now being unknowingly clingy to you, always standing by your side and seeking out your presence as you’re his only friend

-he also gets insecure and jealous easily when he sees you talking to the other hashira often trying to hide those feelings away but failing as it’s so obvious

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