#th*nos

[pemguims]

i would kill myself for one of those penguins ty beanie ballz i would lay myself on the sword . why is USA shipping 30£

[tyrannuspitch]

the more fic concepts i develop the closer they get to being straight up horror tbh. weird ghosts. fucked up obedience curse. mind control. cannibalism. cannibalism again. organ harvesting. probably more i'm not thinking of right now. well i did tell u i could make them worse

[antvnger]

I really don't know if I want to know where this is going, Kit....

@indoraptorgirlwind

[timmyholland]

You speak spanish with Carlos & Checo | Oscar Piastri.

Summary: Oscar is your boyfriend and he doesn't understand Spanish, but you loved talking to Carlos Sainz and Sergio Pérez at any time. While Lando Norris likes to bother.

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ynusername: me encanta el blanco, la manera que combina con todo y lo hace ver más precioso que nunca🤍. "I love white, the way it goes with everything and makes it look more beautiful than ever."

pd: Oscar me encanta vestido de blanco o no 🤣. "I love Oscar dressed in white or not".

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carlossainz55: muy lindo es el blanco, estoy de acuerdo que nos hace ver como ángeles. "White is very pretty, I agree that it makes us look like angels."

schecoperez: tu eres todo menos un ángel. "You are anything but not an angel"

ynusername: jujujs golpe bajo @/carlossainz55. "Uhh, jujujs that was low."

carlossainz55: te apoyo y así me pagas? riéndote de mi?. "I support you and this is how you pay me?"

ynusername: perdón carliiiii es que fue muy gracioso. "Sorry, Carlii. Was funny" ynusername: pero tenés razón, nos vemos como ángeles 👼🏻 @/carlossainz55 "But you're right, we look like angels"

landonorris: i don't understand a f word

oscarpiastri: because you're a fool, mate @/landonorris

landonorris: you don't understand dude, stop pretend that you do.

carlossainz55: yesss, i'm agree with u @/oscarpiastri.

landonorris: f off @/carlossainz55. Traitor @/oscarpiastri.

landonorris: If they force you to wear white clothes, nod @/oscarpiastri

ynusername: it's not funny nowins.

username9: they’re the cutest couple in f1 I fear

user94: my parents omg!!

chales_leclerc: holaaaa mi amiga. "Hellooo, my friend"

ynusername: hola amigooo. "Hello, friend"

olliebearman: holu (❤ liked by ynusername)

schecoperez: donde está el Charls, está Ollie falta que aparezca Leo. "Where Charls is, Ollie is there, Leo needs to appear."

carlossainz55: y su otro hijo adoptado, Oscar. @/schecoperez. "And his other adopted son, Oscar."

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oscarpiastri: she's my angel wearing white 🤍

PD: she loves white clothes and i love her.

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ynusername: i love u 🤍 (❤ liked by oscarpiastri)

user43: Oscar, can you fight?

landonorris: yeap, i lost my friend

danielricciado: man let them be happy

landonorris: I DONT WANNA LOSE MORE FRIENDS

ynusername: how you lost Carlos??? @/landonorris

landonorris: ouch, you're being mean @/ynusername

ynusername: and you're dramatic @/landonorris

caslossainz55: nadie me ama 😪 "Nobody loves me"

schecoperez: nosotros sí @/carlossainz55

landonorris: here we go again with the Spanish

charles_leclerc: te amo @/carlossainz55 "I love you"

ynusername: te amamos mucho, muchito, muchote!! @/carlossainz55 "We love you so much"

oscarpiastri: Why does the translator tell me that you love Carlos a lot?

carlossainz55: cause she does. @/oscarpiastri

username8: God, when is my turn??

wearepapayalovers: whyyy r you soo cutieee 😍

racerbia: my girlfriend 😍😍

ynusername: alwayss bb

oscarpiastri: what th are you talking about? She is MY gf @/racerbia

ynusername: tranquilo hombre, soy tuya "Easy man, i'm yours"

oscarpiastri: mia. "Mine"

carlossainz55: apuesto a que es la única palabra que sabe decir en español @/schecoperez "I bet it's the only word he knows how to say in Spanish"

schecoperez: estas en lo cierto @/carlossainz55 "You right"

landoscar: forget him I want her.

[wreckingtickles]

Eijiro Kirishima (mha) Headcanons

First off, thank you, everyone, for the warm reception of the "1 Hour in Tickle Hell" story! It's putting such a huge smile on my face, and right now, it's really helping.

But onto Kirishima! One of my absolute favorite lees, and as far as fandom versions of characters are concerned, also one of my faves. Insecure ball of sunshine is just my thing. Though I have a harder time writing him than many other characters, I wonder why. Oh, and while I'm at it, I see Kirishima as bi, though he'd never really crushed on a boy until he met Bakugo.

Now, for tickle headcanons: Kirishima enjoys tickling others and being tickled. When he was at UA, he was the resident tickle monster, and it was just a good time: you laugh, you make others laugh, you take Bakugo down a peg, you bond with shier classmates like Izuku, Ojiro, and Todoroki, and if they wanted revenge, so much the better! One of his biggest successes was turning it into a competition with Bakugo, and since Kirishima is completely unapologetic about being ticklish, he's the reigning champion, despite being pretty ticklish himself! And he may have tried to provoke Shoji multiple times, but Shoji never indulged him until he admitted exactly what he wanted.

He later realized that tickling, in a more intimate context, is a turn-on for him, both giving (but only to guys) and receiving (from anyoen and anything). It feels like both a challenge and a fun form of domination, and it makes him feel like his partner is happy, he just loves seeing that smile. Plus, it's an excuse to keep touching Bakugo all over, which, even several years into their relationship, he still can't get enough of, as he made himself fall in love with every single part of him.

Yep, Kirishima is pretty freaking ticklish, and while he really enjoys it, it limits how much tickling he can actually take, also causing him to lose tickle fights as he was trying to suppress his Quirk at the same time (and didn't really mind being on the losing end).

I admit there are many spots that may change in the future, but I am quite certain about what his top spots are.

Giggling (6-7): Kirishima's chest, abs, sides, back (which I forgot to add), and non-nos are all moderately ticklish, and three out of those four spots are erogenous (in a bedroom setting - not when he used to play around with his classmates), as any attention to his chest and abs feels like appreciation for the hard work he put into making his body what it is, a testament that he can be a stronger person. These are also some of th eonly spots where light tickles work about as well as harder tickles: lickles, vibrations, and especially metal claws, the latter can really destroy him and are effective everywhere.

Laughing (7.5-8.5): Spots that unfailingly cause Kirishima to laugh out loud when targeted. His laughter is energetic and loud, unsurprisingly, and can feel either obnoxious or contagious depending on your mood. His thighs are his third most ticklish spot, and yeah, being tickled there feels intimate and also like he's being praised for their thiccness, which is why he loves being tickled with fingers there (physical contact, yay!). His feet are also big and ticklish, so they can house a lot of ticklish implements at once. Oddly, the tops seem to be more sensitive than the bottoms!

Howling (9-10): One thing Kirishima has in common with Bakugo is that his ribcage is super sensitive, though he makes it a point to remind the blond that he's even more ticklish there. And his armpits... he likes being tickled there because it really pushes him to his limit, but he also can't stand being tickled there too long because the sensation is juts too intense. Light tickles work well on both spots, but harder ones will have him howling and go as red as his hair. Claws are nightmarish, yes, but a few minutes of backscratcher action on either of those spots, but especially his pits, will have him howling and incoherent. Unsurprisingly, his pits were a common target when he needed punishing, cheering up, or while he was working out at UA.

[howlingday]

Abrazos! AU

Emerald y Neo se encontraban actualmente revisando el cuarto del equipo jnpr, hoy era sábado así que si bien Iván a tardar más en despertarse lo menos que iban a hacer era quedarse encerrados, había esperado minuciosamente a que todos los integrantes salieran hasta casi las 10 am pero finalmente estába vació, meterse antes de que cierren la puerta había sido fácil (lo menos que querían era forzar la puerta y que se notará), pero hasta el momento no había ninguna información relacionada con las doncellas, y la supuesta maestra ladrona se aburrió y se quedó leyendo lo que aparentaba ser el diario de uno de los integrantes

Emerald: Acaso planeas seguir perdiendo el tiempo, o sólo eres tan incompetente como román

Neo: (Se mostró molesta y cerró el diario y agarró lo qué parecía una cuchilla secreta de su talón)

Emerald: ( No se vio intimidada pero si algo sorprendida, juraría que le quitaron su arma pero claro era una asesina a suelta era lógico qué esté más armada, habría que vigilarla más) Claro cual es tu plan tratar de lastimarme y creer que cinder no tomara represalia contigo o tu amigo

Neo: (Paró en seco y pareció recapisatar y suspiro resignada)

Emerald: Bien, ahora en verdad busca y deja revisar éso, sólo parece tener recetas extrañas de drogas o lo que sea que sea ésa cantidad de hierba

De pronto paró escuchando lo que parecía el sonido de la puerta abriéndose, pensando rápido activó su semblante aparentando ser la propia pyrrha nikos. La puerta se abrió revelando a un rubio que reconoció. Jaune arc el líder doofus de la propia pyrrha nikos, lo había investigado creyendo que al ser el líder de la propia pyrrha nikos sería de tomar en cuenta pero todo apuntaba a que era un fraude y una decepción, aún no entendía por qué el termino como líder

Jaune: ¿Pyrrha? Te estuve buscándote por todos lados y tu también nora

Emerald se dio la vuelta mirando como neo adoptó la forma de la segunda integrante femenino del equipo jnpr

Emerald (P): O estába prestandoles unos apuntes de clases a... nora si

Neo (No): (Asiente)

Jaune: ¿Me están ocultando algo? ¿Nora estás muy callada?

Neo (No): (Neo algo nerviosa apunta a su cuello y se lo frota)

Emerald (P): Oh! Eh le duele un poco la garganta hace un rato

Jaune: No lo se, la vi hablando hace rato y saliste muy rápido a resguardarla. Espera creo que ya se lo que pasa

Emerald (Pensando): Mierda, es más perspicaz de lo que aparenta (miro a neo y asintió aparentemente teniendo las mismas intenciónes)

Jaune: Si... Están enojadas conmigo

Emerald (P): Tu.... Espera ¿que?

Jaune: Ya se, primero empeze haciendo masejes sólo para ustedes y luego vino el equipo rwby y luego tubo que haber una pausa por la cantidad y todo eso, pero quiero que sepan que ustedes son únicas somos más que un equipo y sin importar con cuántas personas atienda ustedes tienen un lugar especial en mi corazón

Emerald volvió a ver a neo y está volvió a asentir como diciéndole que le sigua la corriente o también probablemente sólo le estába tomando el pelo

Emerald (P): Nos-nos atrapaste no queríamos decir nada para no hacer problemas

Jaune: No no, yo lo siente, aún que me alegra hacer a todos felices, soy su lider y su felicidad esta ante todo, así que, que les parece si hago una exención y les hago un doble mimo

Emerald (P): Seguro....

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Absolutamente todos sabemos cómo terminará esto

Pd: Hola howlingday agradezco que te tomes la libertad de traducir mis post pero noté que el último de abrazos está algo incompleto le falta la parte dónde ruby y pyrrha hablan antes de yang y compañía

Hugs! AU Emerald and Neo were currently checking the jnpr team's room. Today was Saturday, so although Ivan was going to take longer to wake up, the least they were going to do was stay locked in. He had waited carefully for all the members to come out until almost 10 am. but finally it was empty, getting in before they closed the door had been easy (the least they wanted was to force the door and it would be noticed), but so far there was no information related to the maids, and the supposed master thief got bored and he stayed reading what appeared to be the diary of one of the members

Emerald: Are you planning to continue wasting your time, or are you just as incompetent as Roman? Neo: (She looked upset and closed the diary and grabbed what looked like a secret blade from her heel) Emerald: (She didn't look intimidated but she was somewhat surprised, I could swear that they took her weapon but of course she was a murderer on the loose, it was logical that she would be more armed, we would have to watch her more) Of course what is your plan to try to hurt me and believe that Cinder won't retaliate against you or your friend? Neo: (She stopped short and seemed to reconsider and sigh resignedly) Emerald: Okay, now actually look it up and check that out, it just seems to have strange prescriptions for drugs or whatever that amount of weed is. Suddenly he stopped listening to what seemed like the sound of the door opening, thinking quickly he activated his face, appearing to be Pyrrha Nikos herself. The door opened revealing a blonde he recognized. Jaune arc, the Doofus leader of Pyrrha Nikos herself, had investigated him, believing that being the leader of Pyrrha Nikos herself would be taken into account, but everything pointed to him being a fraud and a disappointment. He still did not understand why he termed him leader.Jaune: Pyrrha? I was looking for you everywhere and you too Nora Emerald turned around watching as Neo took the form of the second female member of the JNPR team. Emerald (P): Or I was lending some class notes to... Nora yeah. Neo (N): (Nods) Jaune: Are you hiding something from me? Nora, why are you very quiet? Neo (N): (Neo, somewhat nervous, points to her neck and rubs it) Emerald (P): Oh! Hey, your throat hurt a little a little while ago. Jaune: I don't know, I saw her talking a while ago and you went out very quickly to protect her. Wait, I think I know what's happening. Emerald (Thinking): Shit, he's more insightful than he looks (She looked at neo and nodded, apparently having the same intentions) Jaune: Yes... They're mad at me. Emerald (P): You.... Wait what? Jaune: I know, first I started doing massages just for you and then team RWBY came and then there had to be a pause because of the quantity and all that, but I want you to know that you are unique, we are more than a team and no matter how many people pay attention you have a special place in my heart. Emerald volvió a ver a neo y está volvió a asentir como diciéndole que le sigua la corriente o también probablemente sólo le estába tomando el pelo. Emerald (P): We-you caught us! we didn't want to say anything so as not to cause problems. Jaune: No, no, I'm sorry, even though I'm happy to make everyone happy, I'm your leader and your happiness comes first and foremost, so what do you think if I make an exemption and give you a double pampering? Emerald (P): Sure... ----------

We absolutely all know how this will end. PS: Hello howlingday, I appreciate that you take the liberty of translating my posts but I noticed that the last one about hugs is somewhat incomplete, it is missing the part where ruby ​​and pyrrha talk before yang and company.

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Hello, hello! And I apologize for incomplete translation. For some reason, [tumblr] wouldn't let me post the full thing. I'm loving the story, though.

[diegosouzalions]

você disse que a personalidade das diamantes mudaram. pode citar alguma das personalidades antiga?

As 4 principais estão bem detalhadas nesse post:

Lime seria mais irritada e enjoada

Cherry seria bruta e raivosa

Sun não mudou muito, só não seria tão alegre quanto ela é atualmente e acho que mais sarcástica

Moon seria irritada e ao mesmo tempo triste, mas a tristeza dela não seria no sentido "doloroso" ou "penoso" e sim algo mais "sério"

Aqua continuaria irritante, porém no estilo "nerd", ela seria mais inteligente e menos impulsiva e histriônica, apenas esnobe

Cognac seria mais tranquilo e preguiçoso

Smoky seria completamente radical, tentando ser legal em tudo, ele era um skatista nos primeiros conceitos

Gray teria sentimentos e emoções, ela teria um personalidade parecida com a White, com exceção da própria se achar mais perfeita que as outras

[omniseurs-blog]

My YouTube comment reposted - mental illness, schizospec, psychosis, ADHD, distrust of doctors, rage/anger vent, loss of childhood, drug use

I was diagnosed with emotional behavioral disorder NOS and ADHD at 4, depression at 10, schizophrenia at 14, changed to schizoaffective bipolar and PTSD at 15. Here's my (and my family's) story.

Before any of my immediate family was born, my paternal great grandpa was... "Quirky", aka delusional and had hallucinations, and my great grandma refused to get him help, because it meant institutionalization or lobotomy. She never told her kids (my paternal grandpa) about it, they simply divorced when the kids were old enough to work. This is still all I will ever know about my great grandpa. My grandpa had his first psychotic break in his 20s or 30s (all I know is my grandma saying he's been insane for a long time, which is why she divorced him) and hid it well enough until his 50s where he was institutionalized and diagnosed "early onset dementia without Alzheimer's features" or something along those lines, he used to call my dad up all the time talking about the mafia and how my mother was poisoning him. My father had his first break in his 20s as well after the birth of my older brother and the death of his brother, but he didn't get treatment until his 30s well after my mother divorced him when I was 3. For a long time I didn't know a single thing about him besides what my mother told me, "he's abusive, he's evil, he's crazy, he's a terrible person" (my mother got diagnosed with BPD recently, so I don't even know if those were lies or not), but one thing she did teach us was that he was schizophrenic.

And then there's me. I was a shy kid, never trusted anybody, didn't play, didn't socialize, took a long time to start speaking, and... Held a very negative view of schizophrenia all the way until I was diagnosed. I was put on ADHD meds at 4, 20mg of adderall, the same age I was diagnosed. I began hallucinating full visible dead and bleeding people because of them and I had paranoia of being followed and watched. My mother did warn the psychiatrist that schizophrenia ran in the family, but my psychiatrist just raised the dose higher, this time 30mg of Ritalin, and put me on risperidone, 5mg... I hallucinated even worse, had crying fits from the delusions, but I was completely and utterly zombified. Why was I zombified on "such a low/starter dose"? Because I was a maybe 60lb F O U R (4) year old. Since the hallucinations and delusions didn't stop, and my mother insisting that I had schizophrenia, the doctor ensured my mother "children can't have schizophrenia" and diagnosed me emotional behavioral disorder NOS, switched me to Vyvanse at 25mg, and switched my risperidone to a common antidepressant I can't remember the name of (Prozac?). Of course, I was perfectly happy then, absolutely off the walls running around, wandering around, all that, so the SCHOOL system said they were going to call CPS because they didn't believe my parents were giving me my medications... Which meant they were the ones dishing out my medications to me and I missed the doses I was supposed to take before bed.

Thankfully, we ended up moving when I turned 10, and the new school never threatened CPS or demanded proof I'm taking my meds, so on my own account, I quit my own meds. I went unmedicated aside from taking a different antidepressant (genuinely can't begin to guess the name) around 12-13. I completely forgot I had any mental illness other than obviously having attention problems, fidgeting more than everyone else, severe anxiety that I thought was normal, and frequent nightmares and bedwetting, and a lack of awareness that I didn't fit in with others (mostly because I didn't have the urge to socialize with anyone). Then... the teenage years hit. My brother was experimenting with dr*gs, weed, LSD, computer duster, m*th, all of the dr*gs that were said to be bad in dare, and I did them too. We got past computer duster and weed, my brother got into worse drugs, new years swung around at 14 and they had some "high quality acid" that turned out to be NBOME, or fake bitter acid that makes even the most mentally stable freak out.

New years 2015, I was 14 years old, we took the fake acid, all 6 of us. People became manifestations of my mental illness, my brother was ADHD, his friends sister was depression, his best friend was anxiety, his best friends gf was PTSD... And his friend was schizophrenia. I was only diagnosed with ADHD, anxiety, and depression. The TV was talking to me, the music was about me, the universe was going to collapse if I made the wrong move. Sure, a bad trip is a bad trip, but the bad trip didn't end after 12, 24, 48 hours, a week, 2 weeks, a month, 5 months, a year, 2 years, 4 years. 4 years is what it took to START recovering, dozens of different combinations of meds, 20 hospitalizations, 4 different hospitals, 3 different states, countless amounts of doctors, and 3, going on 4, disability applications. From 10th to 12th grade, I missed an average of 100 days per year, had a 0.0gpa, and just barely graduated through GED while experiencing active psychosis

What could've been diagnosed at age 4, what I could've been properly medicated for, what didn't take a genius to figure out. 14 to roughly 18 were all a delusional mess, I'm 23 now. I still act like a 14 year old because... I'm still there. I should still be a kid.

[becausegoodheroesdeservekidneys]

Saw the Welsh ask about nos da and noswaith dda and did not know that Welsh had gendered words! I am trying to learn Welsh with Duolingo (according to a friend who is Welsh it is Not Always Accurate) and they did not mention that at all.

Also why does Welsh have -th and -dd which (to my ears) make the same sound? Why is it noswaith not noswaidd?

They make slightly different sounds - can you hear the difference in the 'th' between the English words "those" and "three"? In the first one you activate your vocal chords; in the second, you don't. The Welsh dd is like the first one. You use your vocal chords.

There is only one sound in Welsh that's genuinely represented by two separate letters, actually, and that's ff and ph. And we keep them both purely because it makes the mutations easier to follow! All others have subtle differences

As to Duolingo, it's not that it's inaccurate. It's just mixing a bunch of dialects together and not explaining anything, so it's kind of outside our wheelhouse. (Tbh Welsh speakers are some of the worst people to trust on Duolingo's accuracy, because hwntws shriek northern bias and gogs shriek southern bias and everyone ignores the Cardis.)

Anyway, THANK YOU for learning, and hmu if you have any more questions!

[cresent2003]

Purity

Mizrak x Fem! Reader x Olrox

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Vampires had taken over all of France.

Tearing each part to shreds trying to find Olrox, Mizrak and Raeabelle.

The four horsemen were coming up from hell using the scent of death and fear-filled blood to feed themselves.

There was no escape.

"Pater noster qui in caelis est.

sanctificetur nomen tuum; adveniat regnum tuum fiat voluntas tua; in terra sicut in caelo.

Panem nostrum quotidianum da nobis hodie. dimitte nobis debita nostra sicut et nos dimittimus debitoribus nostris.

Ne nos inferas in tentationem sed libera nos a malo.

Regnum, potentia; et gloria tua sunt nunc et semper.

In sanctis dominis nomen precor.

Amen," Raeabelle said as she spoke the lord's prayer to a cross she took from the church before Mizrak pulled her underground where Olrox was.

He had always paid close attention to her.

She was the last of the nun's after the church allied with vampires.

She had kept pure and locked herself in her chambers regularly so she wasn't forced to see the dead turn into demons.

"There's nothing to pray for anymore Rae.

The world above us is already burning" Olrox stood in the doorway to the room where she did her prayers.

"It gives me hope.

The world isn't burning if I don't see the flames" she said.

He knelt beside her.

"I know that I will die down here when they start to hear us.

They will go for the weakest first and that is me" she said.

He wrapped his arms around her before playing with her hair.

"I think you forget what lengths I will go to keep you and Mizrak safe," he said.

She looked into his eyes before placing her head on his shoulder.

"I'm so terribly scared Olrox.

I have dedicated my life to my lord and saviour but when I need him most I can no longer feel his presence" she said.

"It will be alright," he said before pressing his face against her soft hair.

He never thought he could find a woman attractive.

All his life he had always been attracted to men yet he was also attracted to her.

No woman but her satisfied him.

It was strange yet he was getting used to it.

"Raeabelle?

Where are you?" Mizrak's dark voice filled her ears as she continued to cling to Olrox finding his presence comfortable.

"Here," she said.

Mizrak walked into the room.

"What are you doing here with her?" he asked as he watched Olrox comfort her causing her to relax until she was putty in his arms.

"She's scared.

I came here to comfort her as always.

When will you believe that I am not a threat to either of you" Olrox said.

"When you are no longer one of them," Mizrak said.

"Enough.

Please don't fight.

If we are to die down here why waste the little time we have fighting" she said as she sat up.

She walked over to Mizrak.

"He is a demon.

I soulless monster" Mizrak growled.

"I don't believe that.

Please enough fighting.

It frightens me and all it does is hide your feelings" and she said before walking to the small kitchen to make dinner with whatever animal she could find.

Olrox looked at Mizrak.

"Don't look at me like that.

I saved your life Mizrak" he said.

"I didn't ask for it," Mizrak said.

"You love her but you also have feelings towards me.

That is what created all this rage.

One day you'll realise that night we had together wasn't a mistake" Olrox said before walking away to help Raeabelle.

Mizrak clenched his fists.

Olrox was right and it was irritating but was was bothering him the most was that Raeabelle was right as well.

They would die down here and every minute was precious.

Later that night Raeabelle sat on her bed made of wood and rope as she looked at the necklace she crafted out of the blade that killed her father.

It was a silver cross and it shined brightly in the candlelight.

She leaned against the wall in her nightgown as it slipped off her shoulders showing her soft skin.

Olrox and Mizrak always used the hours she slept to guard their hideout as she stayed up many hours at a time praying when things got harder.

They were underneath the church and it was the riskiest thing she had ever done.

"Rest.

You'll be safe until morning" Mizrak said as he sat down next to the doorway with his sword.

She looked at him as he tried to keep his eyes away from her hard nipples as they pressed against her nightgown and her soft skin.

She was a nun and he kept telling himself that but the way she looked made him want to sin.

"I'm restless.

I can hear people walking around above us.

It's never been this loud" she said.

Olrox then walked into the room after looking around to make sure no one had found them.

"All the lower vampires are gathering tonight.

I can find you some cotton to block it out" Olrox said.

"No, it's alright.

I'll fall asleep eventually" she said.

"We both know you won't" Mizrak said causing her to smile.

"What if we both stay in here and watch over you?

If someone comes to harm you we won't let them get past the doorway, precious human" Olrox said causing a light rose blush to cover her cheeks.

He never used names like that.

Only when he was trying to soothe her.

Mizrak walked to her before taking off the cloak he wore during the freezing nights.

He placed on her before sitting beside her.

She laid down as he placed his hand on her shoulder.

"Close your eyes," he said before tucking a piece of hair behind her ear.

He then looked into her eyes before kissing her head.

Raeabelle turned her head to look at him.

"Go to sleep," he said.

"I'm restless," she said softly before kissing his cheek before looking into his eyes.

She then kissed him before laying her head against the pillow she took from her chambers when it was empty enough for her to gather what she could.

Raeabelle placed her hands on either side of his face before smiling softly as she blushed.

He placed his hand on hers before kissing her will heated passion as the pent-up love he felt for her exploded.

Her head was spinning as she broke every vow she had taken in front of her god.

She kissed him back as her body moved for her.

Olrox watched as Mizrak lost control before realising that someone still had to guard the hideout.

"I'll leave you two be.

Try not to be too loud" Olrox said before walking to the doorway.

"Wait.

Come here" Mizrak said.

Olrox turned around before smirking.

He walked to Mizrak as Raeabelle laid beneath him still and silent.

"I'm here," Olrox said.

Mizrak stood up before slamming his lips against Olrox's.

The kiss was rough but passionate as Olrox grabbed Mizrak's arm.

"Don't think you can just walk away after what we did" Mizrak said.

"I thought I was a soulless animal," Olrox said as they looked into each other's eyes.

"Shut up," Mizrak said.

Olrox laughed before kissing him again.

He then let out a soft moan as Mizrak placed his leg between Olrox's legs causing Mizrak's thigh to press against his cock.

Raeabelle stood up as she realised that Mizrak had untied her nightgown causing her breasts to show from the V cut out.

She walked to the two of them before placing her hand on Mizrak's chest causing their passionate kids to break.

She then kissed him softly as Olrox kissed her shoulders.

Her skin was like velvet.

It was delicate and like nothing he had ever felt.

He then kissed her neck softly and passionately as he marked her skin.

She let out a moan as Mizrak broke their kiss.

"So beautiful.

So pure" he said.

"What is this feeling?" she asked as she caressed Mizrak's nape giving him goosebumps.

"Have you never been touched?

The way you cling to him I expected you have laid in his bed before" Olrox said.

"No," she said before gasping as Olrox kissed the spot where her largest vein laid.

"The feeling is pleasure.

Intimate, heated pleasure.

Your body is reacting in such a way as you enjoy what we are doing sweet Rae" Olrox said before turning her head.

"Just Relax and trust your body," Olrox said before kissing her lovingly.

She was nervous but didn't want this to end.

Mizrak kissed her throat before getting on his knees.

He placed her leg on his shoulder before lifting up her nightgown revealing her most vulnerable area.

He went under her nightgown before kissing her thighs causing her to let out a lustful moan.

Olrox watched her as she threw his head back onto his shoulder as Mizrak got closer to her cunt.

She didn't know what to do or think as he kissed her pelvis.

He then latched onto her cunt causing her to let out a loud moan as he began to suck on the bud of nerves that had never been stimulated before.

With one lick her legs were shaking as she let out the most lustful moans.

Olrox struggled to contain himself as his cock pressed against his trousers uncomfortably.

He was throbbing at the sight as Mizrak pleasured her.

Her eyes rolled back as he trusted two of his fingers inside her virgin entrance as her walls fluttered around him.

Suddenly her abdomen tightened as the pleasure got more intense.

She screamed out as she came onto Mizrak's fingers as he continued to explore her most sensitive places elongating the ecstasy that she was feeling.

He then stood up as she breathed heavily against Olrox's neck.

"Let me taste her," Olrox said before kissing Mizrak.

His tongue explored Mizrak's mouth as he tasted her sweetness.

Mizrak undressed Olrox as she laid on her bed so she could rest for a short while.

She took off her nightgown revealing her full perky breasts and curvy body that had always been hidden by dresses that covered everything.

She had always been told that flesh will lead to sin therefore if she showed no flesh she would never fall into sin.

Yet now none of that mattered.

She wished to live as a normal woman so when she passed she would remember the fun she had experienced and not the sadness of her past.

Mizrak pushed Olrox against her bed as they threw the last of their clothing to the other side of the room.

Olrox looked at her as she sat in front of them completely bare.

"I've never seen you more beautiful.

Come to us precious" Olrox said.

She moved to them.

"Are you ready for us to take your purity?" Olrox said as Mizrak blocked the doorway so that they wouldn't be disturbed.

He then joined his two partners back in the uncomfortable bed that they had all gotten used to.

"Yes.

I am ready" she said.

"You'll be going against your vows.

I want to make sure you are truly sure and not saying such a thing to please us" Olrox said as he took her hand.

"My vows were broken the day I left the church.

I wish for this" she said.

"Who do you want?" Mizrak asked.

"I wish for you both to choose.

You have laid together before and know what you are the most comfortable with.

I will be okay either way" she said.

"You be the one," Mizrak said.

"Why me?

You both have more history" He said.

"Yes, but you will enjoy this more if I am the one to take you" Mizrak said.

"I see you remember," Olrox said before kissing him.

Olrox then looked at Raeabelle.

"At any time you wish to stop we won't continue" Olrox said.

"I trust the both of you," she said.

"Good then let the fun begin," Olrox said before latching onto her right breast.

She gasped before moaning as Mizrak took Olrox's cock into his mouth.

Olrox moaned against her breast as he sucked and bit at her nipple as if he was a newborn craving the milk from her breasts.

He then released her breast as his cock throbbed in Mizrak's mouth.

He then moaned loudly as he lifted his hips.

His cum shot into Mizrak's mouth as Olrox moaned.

Mizrak swallowed all of it before flipping Olrox around.

"Will this hurt?" she asked.

"Only a little.

It will feel good after the burning passes" Olrox said before kissing her.

He distracted her as he lined up to her entrance before pushing in causing her to whimper as he stretched her out.

Olrox kissed her neck as he slowly pushed himself in inch by inch until their hips met.

She yelped before taking calming breaths as she tried to remember what Olrox had said moments ago.

She wrapped her arms around him as he held himself back from moving.

She was so warm and soft inside.

"Tell me when you're ready," Mizrak said.

Raeabelle nodded as she couldn't help but focus on the feeling of having Olrox inside her.

It felt strange and different.

The burning was calming down as she stretched to fit him.

Minutes passed as she looked at Orlox "I'm ready" she said.

Olrox kissed her head before moving slowly.

He angled slightly as he mimicked the things that had him holding back screams as she let out a moan.

"How does this feel precious?" Olrox asked.

"It is quite strange but....good" she said as she struggled to hold back the lustful sounds being created deep in her throat.

The way he was angled hit places that made her see the heavens as she let her body have control.

"Such pretty sounds," Olrox said before moaning as Mizrak pressed his cock against Olrox's puckered entrance.

He craved the familiar feeling of Mizrak's cock filling him as he took away Raeabelle's purity.

"Don't tease.

I need it Mizrak" Olrox said as he let out heavy breaths as Raeabelle's walls tightly squeezed him.

"I see that.

Relax Olrox" he said.

Olrox suddenly loudly moaned as his eyes widened.

Mizrak pushed his throbbing cock into Olrox as Raeabelle ran her hands on his shoulders and arms causing him to relax.

She then threw her head back as Mizrak began to thrust into Olrox causing Olrox's cock to hit the spot that had her at the same spot she was in when Mizrak had a taste of her cunt.

She moaned in sync with Olrox as he felt a strong type of pleasure that had him turning into a puddle onto Raeabelle.

Her warm and tight cunt and Mizrak's rough but thought-out moments made him feel things he had never felt in all his years both as human and vampire.

Raeabelle screamed into Olrox's shoulder as the pleasure made her dizzy.

Her eyes rolled back as Mizrak sped up as each of them got closer to their desirable release.

"Mizrak" Olrox moaned his name as he began to realise that he wouldn't be lasting much longer.

Mizrak kept his pace as he pulled on Olrox's hair.

He growled before throwing his head back.

Raeabelle let out broken heavy breaths before letting out a deep set of moans as she came onto Olrox's cock.

She tightened around him causing him to get closer and closer before moaning as he shot his cum deep inside her not knowing what it could possibly lead to.

Mizrak held Olrox's hips as Olrox pulled out of Raeabelle as he came again.

Mizrak growled before cumming as he dig his nails into Olrox's hips leaving crescent-shaped marks.

They all went limp onto Raebelle's small bed as Olrox's cum covered her stomach.

"I'll go find a cloth to clean you up," Olrox said before kissing her and then Mizrak.

He left the room.

"How are you feeling?" Mizrak said as he looked at the woman he had loved since she was a true nun.

When she was still unable to see the true evil in the world.

"Exhausted.

I enjoyed every second, Mizrak.

It all was very strange but it was the most freeing act I've done in a long while" she said as she smiled softly.

"I'm glad.

I wanted this to be perfect for you.

I always have" he said.

"It reminds me of when we snuck out of the church after the moon had fully settled and spent time in the gardens.

This was the first time I had ever been kissed and after I had been beaten for the act I wouldn't have taken it back.

My purity had been stronger than my sisters up to now" she said.

Olrox walked back into the room with two cups full of cold water and a linen cloth dripping with the same cold water.

"I brought you both water.

When you've drank every last drop will you Mizrak clean Rae's stomach?" Olrox said.

"What will you be doing?" Mizrak asked.

"Putting our beds together so no one will feel nervous to sleep after tonight," he said.

Mizrak nodded before pouring the water down his throat as Raeabelle sipped the water slowly.

Mizrak then cleaned Raeabelle's stomach and sore cunt before cleaning himself.

He then tossed the cloth out of the room until they could clean tomorrow.

Once Raeabelle was done with her water she rested her head onto Mirzrak's chest as he pulled the thin blanket she had over the both of them.

"Rest," he said before kissing her.

Raeabelle smiled before drifting off to sleep knowing after tonight she would have two men that would protect her with all they had as her lovers.

[translatingtradutor]

Em minha cidade e nas vizinhas, não tem endócrino. Vou me consultar em uma clínica particular. Há algum jeito que eu consiga testosterona gratuita pelo SUS depois?

Infelizmente, há dois problemas com isso.

O primeiro problema é que medicamentos do SUS geralmente só podem ser retirados com uma receita de médico do SUS!

O segundo problema é que, se não há endocrino na sua cidade nem nas vizinhas, também não haverá hormônios. Os hormônios já são recursos que faltam as vezes nas cidades que tem endocrinos e pessoas ativamente em tratamento. Eles não vão ter hormônios se não há tratamento nenhum nem endócrino para receitar. Infelizmente hormônios são recursos que tem certa falta pelo Brasil.

Em resumo, quase certeza que não. Mesmo se você quisesse e pudesse retirar com a receita, precisaria que alguém que te indicasse em quais cidades existem hormônios a serem retirados e viajar para lá de qualquer jeito. Isso também teria seus problemas, já que primeiro precisa ter indicação e ninguém na sua cidade iria saber. Depois precisaria gastar o dinheiro para viajar para lá e voltar (apesar de que algumas pessoas fazem isso quando a compra está bem mais cara mesmo e elas têm o tempo), e depois ainda valeria ir no endócrino de lá se você já vai lá mesmo...

O grande problema é que pode levar meses para marcar a consulta e precisa ser presencialmente para marcar (além de ter indicação da sua unidade provando que não tem em nenhum lugar mais perto) mas depois da consulta você conseguiria os hormônios.

Em resumo, é um caminho difícil demais. Infelizmente o Brasil não tem muita igualdade nisso...

Comprando TH no privado (com receita!)

De qualquer modo, aqui vão umas dicas de algumas pessoas que compram no privado na mesma situação que você:

Pausar o tratamento mês sim mês não para poder pagar ele

Fazer tratamento nos meses iniciais até ter os efeitos permanentes que quer e parar (vai desfazer de efeitos continuos)

Entrar em grupos de pessoas trans para procurarem juntos os sites e farmácias com melhores preços, assim como monitorar promoções

Algumas pessoas tentam vaquinhas, GoFundMes e etc, que são maneiras de juntar dinheiro para isso. Porém a esmagadora maioria delas não costuma dar muito certo ou atingir uma quantia substancial de dinheiro. Além disso, você deve considerar que seu nome e/ou rosto estará exposto para as pessoas e existem familiares toxicos que podem gostar de te humilhar junto com transfobia dizendo que que você está "mendingando".

Outras opções

Considere também, se for algo importante para ti, mudar de cidade para uma que tenha TH pelo SUS. Para algumas pessoas só não é possível arcar com esses custos a vida toda.

Mesmo que você mude para uma cidade que tem isso, lembre que algumas vezes pode faltar e você ter que fazer o procedimento e de ir a uma outra UBS ou ambulatorio.

Veja a postagem seguinte para algumas dicas de como sair de casa para algumas dicas de como se mudar utilizando emprego ou faculdade, e lidar com aluguél:

[Brasil] Guia de como sair de casa para transicionar de gênero

[falmerbrook]

An Equal (Miraak Oneshot)

AO3 link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/53165962

Summary: Miraak revels in his fight against the Last Dragonborn, and in the end she grants him a moment of mercy.

Basically I've just had this idea in my head of the LDB last minute dragging a dying Miraak back to Nirn with them.

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At some point the fight turned into a game; the sort of play-fighting two dogs would indulge in.

            Miraak was supposed to be fighting for his life—his freedom—but the thrill of battle had gotten to his head. Every fireball that whiffed by him, every shout that was countered by an equally powerful cry, and every soul of a dragon he felled that surged into his own soul energized him in ways he hadn’t been energized in millennia. Hell, in ways he hadn’t been energized ever. He’d fought hundreds of battles over his mortal life, many against his fellow priests with a perfect mastery of the Thu’um, but none had ever felt like a true equal. A challenge, sure, but there was never someone who could match Miraak in his understanding of the dragons’ tongue. They had treated it as a simple language, a skill to practice, a tool to use for their gain, but for Miraak it was a fundamental part of his world. It shaped him and everything around him. Face to face, spell to spell, with another Dragonborn was different. While her skills were obviously less refined, her use of the Thu’um held a natural, instinctual punch. She wasn’t shouting out of strategy, but out of frustration, arguing with Miraak in the way only a Dov could. Her sharp eyes dug into his with the same hatred that he looked at her, but the animated way she steeled herself for his next move betrayed that she was equally exhilarated as him. While he had the experience over her to pummel her with his Thu’um, he couldn’t help but respect her as an equal.

[continued under the cut]

He never wanted the fight to end, but he knew he would eventually have to draw it to a close and slay the young Dovahkiin. The thought of losing the opportunity to keep around someone who mirrored himself, even as a rival, sent a sour pang through Miraak’s chest, but the threat of losing his millennia of planning and his freedom was too great. He had lived as the only Dragonborn, and he could continue to live that way.

For now, though, he was in control. Her lack of experience was reflected in the way she overexerted herself too quickly while he had been holding back. He could let this dance play out for a while longer. Her upper hand was in her magic, a skill Miraak had admittedly practiced little in during his imprisonment, but while powerful, she was sloppy, and was already starting to slip up and fail her casting. He, however, was as strong as he’d ever felt in Apocrypha.

Sahrotaar, the last of Miraak’s servants, circled above them. Miraak’s strength was not waning—it couldn’t, as far as he felt—but he was starting to tire of the fight. The younger Dragonborn’s growing carelessness as she threw increasingly hasty and brash spells his way disappointed him. She had shown so much promise, so much potential, but he had overestimated her. There was no point drawing this out anymore. He needed his freedom, and he needed her dead.

As Sahrotaar circled above Miraak, hovering so close Miraak could feel the heat of the dragon’s breath, the Dragonborn turned his head to the dragon, his longtime companion, and reeled back for a shout, “Sahrotaar, ziil-“

“GOL HAH DOV!”

The younger Dragonborn’s voice was growing hoarse, but the power behind it still shook Mirrak’s concentration for a moment, and something instantly changed in Sahrotaar’s usually vacant gaze.

“Krii Miraak!” she cried out.

Sahrotaar immediately swept down and knocked Miraak off his feet with a swift arc of the beast’s head, launching him across the arena. He landed harshly on his knee and was forced to brace himself on his elbows against the slick floor with a gasp as the wind left his lungs.

“VEN GAAR NOS!”

The other Dragonborn seized the opportunity while Miraak was down to throw him again against the far wall with a burst of wind. Before Miraak had even slammed to the floor, she threw a flurry of haphazard, but powerful spells at him. His vision was blinded with the flashes as they collided with his armor and singed his robes. She may be losing her battle, but she had not lost her determination.

His senses were screaming, but he managed to squeak out a desperate whisper, “wuld nah kest.”

Miraak was freed from the bombardment with a burst of wind, and the ache in his body forced him to pause as he hit the thick water of the pool in the center of the arena. He had rushed past the other Dragonborn and Sahrotaar, who was already descending on him. As the burning sensation of the spells faded, a different burning filled his core. How dare she! How dare she go against him. How dare she stand between him and the only thing he’d ever wanted. How dare Sahrotaar fall to her will so easily. How dare Hermaeus Mora teach her Bend Will. How dare that slimy bastard so easily give her something he forced Miraak to spend decades proving himself to acquire like some stupid child.

“SAHROTAAR, ZIIL LOS DII DU!” her roared, readying the deadliest spell he could manage across his fingertips, never taking his gaze off the other Dragonborn. In his peripheral vision, Sahrotaar’s body fell limp and disintegrated as the dragon’s soul flew into Miraak’s, energizing the man as the spell stirred even more powerful in his palm. The bitch in front of Miraak just stood in place, staring at him with what he was sure was an unseen mocking gaze behind her mask. He would relish in wiping it’s bloody remains across the walls of his temple.

But something suddenly changed. The burning was extinguished, and the spell died in his hand. In his core grew a sinking chill, which crawled up his spine to curse his head with a lightheadedness. It was as if he was floating—wait, was he? His feet no longer touched the ground.

"Did you think you could escape me, Miraak? You can hide nothing from me here.”

Hermaeus Mora’s sickening drawl filled his core with dread. And pain; excruciating pain that was now flooding his abdomen. It hammered at his skull, blurring the sights and sounds around him. Miraak doubled over, his mask tumbling off as he saw the tentacle protruding from his stomach, it’s mucous mixing with his blood.

“No matter. I have found a new Dragonborn to serve me."

So, this was it. All his preparations vanquished in an instant. Miraak knew there was no point struggling against Mora.

“May she… be… be rewarded for her service… as… I am," Miraak responded as thick liquid, he couldn’t tell what it was, tumbled from his mouth and garbled his speech.

“Oh, you nasty, sadistic…”

The other Dragonborn’s taunts, ones Miraak assumed were directed at him, became distant as the full feeling in his abdomen invaded his thoughts. He could hear the woman and the Daedric Prince go back and forth for a time, but the meaning of the words was too much for Miraak’s mind to concentrate on. He couldn’t even dwell on his failure in these last moments, only the invading feeling in his body. The one thing that could rip him from his daze was the harsh grasp of a smaller hand in his, paired with the swell of the noise around him and the slither of tentacles as they embraced him and dragged him into a Black Book.

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The feeling of Nirn hit him harder than Mora could have ever; the crisp winter air in his lungs, the cold crunch of the snow settling below him, the bellow of some beast echoing in the distance, and the taste of bile and blood gathering in the back of his mouth. Each breath simultaneously refreshed his core and sent shocks of pain through his entire body and soul. As his eyes adjusted to the soft colors of Solstheim, for the first time taking in anything other than harsh greens and blacks, the sky above spilled with the soft colors of the northern lights and freckled stars.

He was laying down.

His sense of orientation, and pain, was returning as feeling returned to his body. He flexed his fingers in the snow beneath him, the crunching and crumbling between them bringing a sort of comfort to him he hadn’t felt since he was a young child. As he took deeper breaths, savoring every smell and taste of the clean mountain air, he almost choked on the dryness tickling his throat. He was used to the dank humidity of Apocrypha.

The soft crunch of footsteps through the snow grew louder in front of him; a noise he hadn’t heard in millennia. He wanted whoever it was to never stop approaching him. He didn’t even care who they were, for the moment. As soon as the other Dragonborn stopped in front of him, he felt differently. The pain in his abdomen came back to the forefront of his mind. She was a distraction from the distractions around him.

Her breath was labored, and her guard was down. She didn’t approach him with confidence, but with a staggered step and sagged shoulders. As she stopped at his feet, she pulled off her mask; a trophy from some long-dead dragon priest. Her expression was tired and sullen, and as she took in the sight of the man on the ground before her, it twisted into something like pain. Pity. Although his body and mind were too weak to feel anger, it did burn.

They stared at each other for a moment, able to see their opponent and fellow Dragonborn for the first time.

“Well,” was all Miraak managed to croak out. He didn’t understand why she brought him here. Was preventing that not the one thing she was in Apocrypha for?

She thought for a moment before sighing, “I don’t know—I don’t know why I brought you here. I just… I guess…” Her voice had been ravaged by the shouting of the fight, but she sounded choked up.

Miraak could feel the lightheadedness returning to his head as she continued to search for her words. The pain in his body was subsiding, but he knew that this wasn’t out of healing. This was the end. He remained silent but moved his gaze from the Dragonborn to the sky again. If he was going to die, he might as well make the most of those millennia he missed out on.

“I just wish we could’ve met in another context,” the other Dragonborn finally said, her gaze to the ground.

Miraak hummed in agreement. He knew he should be angrier about being bested, especially by someone so inexperienced, but he didn’t have the energy. All those plans of domination and power seemed so far away under Mundus’s vast stars anyway. At least he had escaped Hermaeus Mora’s grasp to see them one last time.

[minhamentetrans-blog]

Segue de um post sobre a vontade que muitas garotas trans sentem de desistir, principalmente no início

Achei as reflexões levantadas em um fórum no Redidt muito ricas no sentido da qualidade e me identifico com muita coisa, resolvi escrever

Hoje estou com os meus 44 anos( 2 meses de th) e a disforia secreta sempre me acompanhou, também tive sempre pensamentos de que em tal idade anterior teria sido melhor ter feito a transição, foram siclos de fugas e crises constantes, dois casamentos tentando vestir uma pele masculina pelo fato de gostar de mulher. Hoje estou no início da transição a 2 meses com TH usando adesivo ( monoterapia) sendo acompanhado por um endócrino especialista na monoterapia cheio de ótimos resultados, e uma psicóloga incrível especializada. Estou casado com uma mulher cis 20 anos mais nova que eu, em um emprego estável a mais de 18 anos e tenho em minha estratégia fazer meu plano de saúde pagar por uma cirurgia de feminização facial e tudo mais que precisar, a jurisprudência na atualidade está a nosso favor, a poucos anos atrás não tínhamos essa possibilidade legal e isso mudou tudo para as transições mais tardias. Embora meu corpo esteja dentro de um padrão bem masculino meu bumbum já está totalmente diferente em vista do que era, a pele mudou um pouco, peitos doloridos e mudando, tenho várias dúvidas em minha cabeça pelo fruto da insegurança, talvez eu não possa mais sair sem camisa na praia daqui p frente, talvez eu não alcance um ideal de passabilidade, agora seria a hora de parar e voltar tudo atrás novamente mas a verdade é que é tudo tão cedo, penso em desistir assim como vc pensou mas daí lembro o preço que paguei por ficar na zona de conforto, por tentar me ajustar pela questão de agradar os outros ou ser atraente para as mulheres, por exemplo a minha mulher me ama pela forma masculina que apresento, conversamos muito sobre isso, ela sempre soube que eu era diferente, nunca escondi e só vivendo tudo isso para saber onde vamos terminar, a vida é assim... um fenômeno com muitas perguntas e experiências a viver , a cada dia que passa sei melhor quem sou.

também pela crítica da sociedade, vejo os mecanismos de defesa que criei por tantos anos para negar a mim mesmo. O que move de verdade a vontade de desistir? Fazer a transição antes teria sido melhor, mas hoje tenho mais estrutura e maturidade, na verdade o tempo certo é agora, meu tempo não vai voltar e existe muita vida para viver, hormônios também tem muito a ver com a nossa auto aprovação, nossos sentimentos, por ser assim hoje, não binário de verdade não sei até onde vou e se vou transicionar socialmente, entendi no meu caso que preciso viver essa realidade, cruzar a linha e não desistir tão cedo. A coisa que mais trabalho com a minha psicóloga são os meus mecanismos de auto preservação, de sobrevivência baseados na insegurança, em agradar o outros, culpas, sabotagens, necessidade de pertencimento a uma sociedade, necessidade de aprovação, limpando tudo isso o que sobra? As vezes faço um exercício imaginário onde só exista eu e mais nada, lá naturalmente sou mais ela, lá limpei ao ponto de não ter os ruídos de tudo isso.

Nos dias que acordo mais inseguro, desmotivado por estar desconstruindo uma identidade e ainda por não ter a nova , textos como esse são o meu porto seguro, são aquele momento de por o pé no chão e dar um desconto para mim mesmo, aceitar minhas vulnerabilidades, e acolher e tá tudo certo, segue o barco

[antvnger]

As I’ve said before, that’s gross and more complicated than it sounds.

Besides, there are better ways to do things, and making someone explode from the inside out like that sometimes is just not practical. And in this case, it definitely was not practical.

Boy, if I had a dollar for every time I got asked this, I could probably rival Tony’s bank account.

[cherryc1nnam0n]

Thank you for calling...

Chapter 5: "Please help..."

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Chapter summary: When you come back Wednesday to work you didn't expect the chaos that awaited for you

Cw: Angst, crying, Eddie is depressed, more technical terms, screaming, people being assholes

You woke up early the next day, dressing up with whatever you found and going to work, when you got there your co workers were waiting for you

"Did someone die?"

"Almost..." Luke said

"Your customer called all day yesterday, he seems to have issues"

"Oh shit"

You waited until it was 7 am, clocked in and got ready, waiting for him to call again, your heart was a knot, was he okay? Is he okay? Was he robbed? Did something bad happen?

All your doubts were answered at 7:08 am

Edward Munson High Risk Authenticated

"Good morning and thank you for calling National Bank, my name is Y/n, who do I have the pleasure of assisting today?"

You heard nothing, then a sniffle? Is he crying?

"Hello?"

"Eddie? Are you okay?" You broke character when you heard his broken voice

"S-sweetheart" he said

Your eyes watered, you never heard him like this, he must be so sad

"W-what can I help you with?" Your voice trembled

"Y/n I-" he sobbed "I got robbed, someone emptied my account, I had 450 dollars saved for food and stuff and they're gone!"

You went into his account and saw it all

-356.90 Apple.com

-5.46 Amazon.com

-222.87 Uber

Available Balance -585.23

"Oh gosh, Eddie it's okay we'll fix this okay?"

"How will you fix this?! I was robbed! I don't use Apple, I don't even have an iPhone! I never buy shit from the internet and I have my own van so I don't use Uber! Y/n I'm fucked! I'm so fucked!"

"Eddie it's okay let's calm down and breathe okay? Breathe with me, inhale and exhale"

He did as you told him to and calmed down a little, he was still crying but now he wasn't yelling anymore

"I'm sorry for screaming at you" he said sobbing "But I really needed that money"

"I know Eddie, trust me I understand you, so I'm gonna help you okay? Now I need to contact disputes so they can file a claim on this, and your money will be back okay?"

"Really?" He had hope in his voice

"Yes, really"

"Thank you"

"You're welcome, nos stay on the line for me, I'll be right back"

You placed him on hold and called disputes

"Good morning and thank you for calling National Bank, my name is Michelle, how can I help you?"

"Hi this is Y/n from Hawkins"

"Oh hi Y/n, how are you?"

"I'm fine, you?"

"I'm doing great, what is your employee number?"

"It's xxxxxx"

"Last name?"

Y/l/n"

"Supervisor please"

"Joseph Quentin"

"Thank you, and how can I help?"

"My customer has transactions he doesn't recognize"

"I'll be more than glad to help, what's his social?"

"xxxxxxxxx, his name is Edward Munson, likes to be called Eddie only"

"Great, thanks, one moment"

You heard her typing on her computer and then she spoke again

"Which ones are they?"

"Apple, Amazon and Uber"

"I see them, you can put him through I'll be more than happy to help"

"Thanks"

You put all of you in conference and you heard him son again

"Hey Eddie, thanks for waiting in the line, I'm here with Michelle she'll take over the call and give you further assistance, thank you for being a valued-"

"Wait you're leaving?"

"Yes I'm sorry but she has to do her job and so do I-"

"Please don't go Y/n I can't-"

"Alright I'll take it from here, thank you Y/n you can leave now"

You huffed quietly

"Goodbye Eddie"

"No, no-"

You hung up the call leaving them alone, you couldn't stay on that call even if he begged you to, it's the rules

You sat back, placed yourself on After Call Work and cried a little

"Hey, hey, hey what's wrong?" Randall, one of the floor support people came to you "Are you okay?"

You shook your head "N-no..."

"Come on, let's go"

He logged you off and took you out to talk

Let's just say the day sucked...

~•~

A/n: I couldn't help myself so yes more angst! Eddie will be okay don't worry! Thanks for all the love <3

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[tecontos]

Dei um presente bem gostoso pro meu enteado (Maio-2023)

By; Claudia

Ola, me chamo Claudia, tenho 32 anos e o que contarei aconteceu nesse mês de Maio.

Era um Domingo e estávamos comemorando o aniversario do meu enteado com churrasco, cerveja, bolo e tudo que o Brasileiro adora. E o Thiago, filho do meu atual marido acabava de completar 18 anos, e como disse, fizemos um bom aniversário para ele.

Todo mundo bebendo e se divertindo e eu já um pouco alegrinha comecei notar de um jeito diferente o meu enteado. Eu sempre fui fã de um novinho, mas acabei me casando um com um homem mais velho que eu. Não que seja ruim, mas minha tara sempre foi num novinho.

Já passava das 1h da manhã todos começaram ir para casa, meu marido bêbado já tinha apagado na nossa cama. Então ficou apenas eu, meu enteado e nossa vizinha que ajudou a limpar um pouco da bagunça mas em seguida foi embora.

Assim que ajeitei umas coisas fui para o banheiro tomar meu banho e deixei a porta do banheiro aberta, sem maldade, apenas esqueci ela entre aberta. TH bateu na porta e perguntou se eu ia demorar, e juro que sem maldade acabei ouvindo errado e entendi ele perguntando se podia entrar e eu simplesmente respondi.

– Pode entrar.

Ele entrou começou a mexer na escova de dentes e eu tive um estalo de safadeza naquele momento e pensei:

– Vou tentar alguma coisa, se colar eu dou para esse novinho, se der ruim digo no outro dia que eu estava bêbada e não lembrava rs.

Falei com ele:

– Thiago, se vai tomar banho?

Ele respondeu:

– Sim, só vou esperar você sair.

Imediatamente mandei ele entrar no box e falei:

– Vem tomar banho comigo menino deixa de ser bobo”.

Ele falou um:

– Oxe Claudia, nós dois?

Naquele momento percebi que ele estava querendo entrar só estava com vergonha, então resolvi da uma de santa e respondi:

– Pode entrar menino, sou sua madrasta deixa de ser besta.

Ele tirou a roupa e entrou só de cueca no box e começamos a tomar banho, eu peladinha na frente dele e vendo ele me comer com os olhos, quando ele ficou de pau duro eu pensei:

– Essa é minha deixa.

Peguei no pau dele e falei:

– Você está crescido mesmo né? Olha que pauzão. sua namorada deve gostar hein.

Ele respondeu:

– Claudia você sabe que não namoro.

Respondi:

– Então hoje vou ser sua namorada e dei um beijo na boca dele.

Lucas nem resistiu e enfiou a língua na minha boca e já foi agarrando minha bunda. Nos beijamos por uns 2 minutos e eu empurrei ele na parede e cai de boca no pau dele, chupei ele todinho enquanto o chuveiro caia sobre a gente (gastamos muita água naquele dia kkk).

Chupei aquela cabecinha deliciosa olhando pra ele e perguntei se ele já tinha recebido um boquete daquele jeito. Ele falou que era a primeira vez que era mamado daquele jeito. Olhei pra ele com uma carinha de putinha e perguntei:

– Quer comer minha bucetinha?

Ele nem conseguiu responder, só balançou a cabeça que sim.

Fiquei de quatro pra ele no box, e empinei bem a bunda pra ele, o safado veio sem camisinha e meteu em mim. Aquele pau me deu muito tesão, e parece que ele também já sonhava com aquilo. Pois começou a meter com força e bem rápido, notavelmente sem experiência.

Comecei a bater uma siririca enquanto ele me comia pois sabia que ele ia gozar rápido daquele jeito, foi dito e feito, eu terminei de gozar 2 minutos depois ele gozou dentro de mim, ficou com pernas bambas.

Expulsei ele do banheiro e terminei meu banho e fui dormir com meu marido rsrs.

A gente anda trocando olhares em casa mas estamos agindo como se nada tivesse acontecido, se a oportunidade pintar darei de novo.

Enviado ao Te Contos por Claudia