#the music the audio the CHILLS MAN

[aureentuluva70]

Everybody needs to stop what they are doing and watch this now. Do it for the chills.

[dirtysvthoughts]

f*ck your status 🌙

tags/warnings: friends with benefits! mingyu, female! reader, slight pwp, slight angst (?) (not sure about that, really just moody), caressing, kissing/making out, groping, hair tugging, sitting in gyu’s lap, sexy music video kinda vibes, reader gets partially nude - let me know if i missed anything!!

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author’s note: i’ve been listening to chloe’s new song a lot lately, and then this was birthed 😋 for some reason, whenever i listen to this song i imagine mingyu playing the attractive male lead in a music video, so why not write my thoughts out! i’m linking the audio below if you wanna listen!

it’s a chill friday night, rain pouring outside your bedroom window. you lay in your situationshp’s lap as you straddle his legs and your head bury your head in the crook of his neck. you kiss his skin ever so softly as he wraps his arms around your waist, embracing in your warmth. he lowly groans, but it’s audible for you to hear. you smirk and your hips take a mind of their own as you start grind on him, the lower half of your body moving in delicate circles.

you and mingyu have been friends for three years, but took your friendship to a new level for the past six months. you both couldn’t deny your physical attraction to each other and one night of intense, intimate pleasure at a party led to where you are currently. you’re still friends yes, but do you fuck on a regular (every other week)? of course. he was the fix you consistently craved, the man who had you missing him even when he was right in front of you.

“shit,” mingyu breathes out, “you feel so good, shit!” he gasps this time as your fingers work his way to the ends of his hair and lightly tug on it, tilting his head back. “mmm, keep moving on me like that, fuck..”

“i can feel you getting hard, gyu,” you whisper. “can’t wait to feel that big dick inside of me, touching me in all the right places, squeezing you tight.. can’t wait to come all over you.”

mingyu nearly growls as he tugs at the hem of your crop top and pulls it over your head as your breasts come into his view. god, he doesn’t know if he should cry at the sight of your beautiful boobs or if he should start licking and nipping on your mounds.

even though you both had established that being friends would be best, lately you couldn’t help wanting more. you wanted him to take you out on dates, to send you sweet, romantic messages in the morning, to have him be there with you on the lonely nights, and to be more that just your fuck buddy. you wanted to be the one he loves, the one he trusts, the one he needs.

but you couldn’t tell him that.. at least not in this moment, even though it was tugging at you. bothering you if you were being honest.

you push your thoughts to the side as you press his lips against yours, deepening the kiss to where your tongues start to fight for dominance. mingyu loses all self-control this time and his hands grab your ass, palms firmly holding your backside. your hands continue to roam his hair, caressing his face in need and adoration. he separates from your mouth and he kisses your neck, tongue making stripes down your throat.

whatever noises you were trying to hold back were clearly audible now, stretching past the confines of your bedroom walls. you just prayed and hoped that it wasn’t loud enough for your neighbors to issue a noise complaint.

“mmm,” he grunts, his fingers swiping across the core of your panties. “so wet, and it’s all for me.. f-fuck, promise me you won’t give this pussy up to anyone else.”

you feel your body freeze for a moment. no one else? did he want you the same way you wanted him? no, no - you were being silly, you’re both caught up in the heat of the moment. unless he starts dropping hints or he directly tells you, this feeling of wanting more, of being more will just have to be one-sided.

“i won’t, mingyu. i promise. now fuck me.”

[gingerhastoomanyobsessions]

Blorbocore Activities for Dracula Characters

Jonathan:

Treat yourself to a cup of tea at the aerated bread company. Or, you know, a modern cafe. Or just at home. 

Write your significant other’s name over and over in glitter gel pen. Shorthand optional

Appreciate a scenic vista. Write it down in the most flowery purple prose you can manage

Try a new food. Bonus points if it’s spicy. 

Choose vengeance. 

Mina:

Write in ink or on a typewriter. Try shorthand for bonus points

Find a cool graveyard to chill in. Old man with an indecipherable accent is optional

Memorize something random, just for kicks

Similarly, adopt or hone a skill that could come in handy one day, but is otherwise just some fun tidbit 

Be an unapologetically goth queen

Arthur:

Hang out with your pets!

Take a leaf out of his dating notebook (fishing, tennis, outdoorsy stuff) 

Finally let your emotions overcome you and express them by sobbing inconsolably onto your sister-by-choice’s shoulder

Tell people you value how you feel about them, but phrase it in the context of their imminent demise

Dress up nice for no real reason

Jack:

Record an audio diary or “podcast” of your day. Imitate people’s voices to the best of your ability. 

Stare melodramatically into the middle distance, ideally looking pensively into the sunset

Is there something you can spend hours doing and never get bored? Do it. Now.

Learn a few Latin phrases to sprinkle into your conversations 

Listen to emo music. 

Quincey:

Have a campfire to roast marshmallows and spin yarns around

Put on your most exaggerated cowboy voice and talk slang for the day.  

Flee from a pack of wolves with your friends

Be the spontaneous friend! Shoot a bat. 

Be rootin, be tootin, be shootin, but most of all be kind

Van Helsing:

Do something supportive for your friends if they need a pick-me-up!

Embrace dark comedy. Bow before King Laugh. 

Mangle as many metaphors as you can in one conversation. The more times you mention corn, the better. 

Read up on mythology and folklore

Try to convince your most skeptical friend that ghosts are real. 

Lucy:

Keep a diary in emulation of your Good Friend Mina

Go for an evening stroll. 

Have a sleepover with your friends! They can try to stop you from sleepwalking out of the room. 

Dye your hair a new color on impulse

Donate blood. 

Renfield:

Find a non-aesthetic bug— not a butterfly— and examine it closely

Sing or hum in your room and ignore guests

Debate philosophy. 

Jump out a window and run over to bother your neighbor in the dead of night

Absolutely pummel a punching bag, pillow, or psychiatrist. 

Dracula:

get hit in the head with a shovel. 

[9800sblog]

Pick A Card tarot reading - which Britney Spears musical era are you? 🤔

from ...Baby One More Time to Hold Me Closer, which one of the icon's released albums fit best with you at the moment? let's ask tarot and find out, what is the soundtrack of your life?

this was @saturnsbabe69 request! ;)

pick one tarot card from my very low budget montage (britney pictures simply fillers).

from left to right, north to south:

Pile 1 strength, Pile 2 hanged man, Pile 3 hermit, Pile 4 king of pentacles, Pile 5 6 of cups, Pile 6 7 of pentacles, Pile 7 judgement, Pile 8 the world, Pile 9 3 of pentacles, Pile 10 6 of wands.

-> pile 1

...Baby One More Time (1999)

you're all about soft power! the most important thing in your life is probably your friends, you'd do anything for those you choose to keep in your life and you love going out with them during summer, but you also love getting away from the center of attention to restore your peace, you're quite introspective. right now, you might be living the consequences from your actions, you've accepted it but you're still in suffering - you might have neglected a situation/person in your life or smother it/them out of desperation and now it's gone. you know the pain is temporary and you turn that pain into some beautiful thoughts, your perspective on life might be tinted but it's still somehow bright and beautiful. you might be going through a coming of age experience. you have the spirit of a leader and an ace, you know how to bring everyone together, yet you feel alone, you're looking for someone to be that person for you too, you might have many friends, but you want that special love ^^ your personality is big and people naturally gravitate towards you, you feel loved and loving, you feel you have so much and you just wanna give back to others, you're a really caring, sensitive individual, who uses rational thinking to protect yourself. main character energy.

your theme song:

-> pile 2

Femme Fatale (2011), S&M (Remix) (2011), B In The Mix, The Remixes Vol 2 (2011)

you're comfortable in discomfort, you dance while the world ends, you're both the parent friend and the party friend. you're unafraid and experienced and you have no time to waste on things that don't matter, the world is such an oppressive mess and you think there's no reason why you should let that take part in your chill time. you're someone that doesn't care about romance and you wanna have fun as much as you can, for as long as you can, the only time is now, you live in the present. you're the life of the party but when it's time for business, you take it seriously. you might have some anarchist ideologies, you seem to believe the socioeconomic systems of your modern world steals you of your personal power and ability to be a human, you call for a social awakening and you think there's no pretty way to do it - that might just mean "work is hard so I'm gonna party even harder" - you think being selfish (not self-centered) and not thinking about the future is part of self care. this era was the time when the popular belief was the world would end in 2012, people wanted to enjoy their lives as much as possible.

your theme song:

-> pile 3

Blackout (2007), Britney & Kevin: Chaotic DVD Bonus Audio (2005)

you're super introspective and private, you don't necessarily hide anything, but youre complicated, one would have to pay close attention and take their time to connect the dots and understand your entire vibe. some may think you put yourself in an unnecessarily unfortunate situation, like you have everything to go anywhere you want, but you just stay stuck; others think you are stuck, but you don't realize it, that you think you're powerful, but you're actually childish and delusional; the truth, however, is that you're in a moment of analysis to come up with the best plan before making bigger decisions, you like to wait for the most favorable time to take action. you might not have many friends, but those few close relationships fulfill you more than anything else ever could, they take over your entire heart. your heart is your biggest treasure and is the basis for all your decisions, you've been hurt and lied to in ways that has changed your entire worldview, so you're extra careful now and you may act in ways that others don't understand, you might feel like you're lying to yourself and others too. but you stay true to yourself no matter what, you might have very strong spiritual beliefs that keep you grounded and looking forward to the future, you know that limbo and pain are temporary and you're sure of your capacity to survive them, no matter that anyone says.

your theme song:

-> pile 4

Oops!... I Did It Again (2000), My Only Wish (This Year) (2000)

it's your world and we're just living in it, you feel like your life is a spectacle for people to watch and you have to be on your best behavior at all times. you prefer actions over words, you think people should act on their thoughts and feelings, instead of hiding them, so you worry and ponder a lot about yours. you are great at public speaking because you know how to manipulate reality into your ideals, almost like you have double personality; you've got many people to support you and put you back on the line if you stray from it. you like the feeling of nostalgia, you might think there's no reason to say absolute goodbye to your childhood, that might translate in the way you talk or dress, you're not childish tho, but you like that playful innocence sometimes, it can feel refreshing since you feel like people expect too much from you that you don't even understand. you think other people talk too much about things they don't know and you think it sucks that you still need to find a way to please them somehow, you wish the world was just you and your people.

your theme song:

-> pile 5

Britney (2001)

you're a walking contradiction! you're probably such a hipster!! >:) you love music that is older than you, you care so much what others think of you but you pretend it doesn't bother you at all, and you're very spiritual, but you have your yin/yang energies out of balance. you approach life as if you're stuck, but you know it's a temporary and natural situation, you need to go through that to become stronger, but you still mourn the fact that you can't do anything at this time, it's like having to exercise on a beautiful, sunny day. you're a creative soul but you don't use that creativity to deal with emotions, you wanna get things done, you're more comfortable and productive on a yang energy/way of approaching the world, you wanna be seen as a king, but not a queen (roles and responsibilities). you want everything and then some, you might like to use your material abilities to allow yourself to have many options. you probably have a superiority complex, fucking hipsters 🙄...... you remind me of lorelai gilmore! ;)

your theme song:

-> pile 6

Glory (2020)

you're the goat. you've worked really hard to reap the fruits of your labor, now you deserve to settle down. you dream of a knight in shiny armor - romantically or not, you want someone to take the time to see you in your most human form, you want to bare your soul, to show your dark and lonely side. you might relate to the saying that "it's lonely at the top", you might have everything you wanted, except for this one thing that is out of reach and that might be community, you seem to lack that sense of intimate and close relationships. you're really satisfied with life, you're happy and fulfilled, you have more than you need, there's just this one thing you think "damn, wish I could tap that".

your theme song:

-> pile 7

Britney Jean (2013), Ooh La La (2013), Bangerz (2013), Pretty Girls (2015), The Essential Britney Spears (2013)

you go with the flow and it takes you far. you might have recently ended a very important connection in your life because of sneaky actions and lies. you need no patience anymore, you've done your job, you feel comfortable in yourself, knowing you're not the problem. you think you'd be better if somebody more experienced would show you the way through life, specially if they're a spiritual guide (might be tarot). you wanna be that guide too, you like to share the things you learned with those around you. you think you can't control anything or anyone, except for yourself and you don't try, whatever happens, happens. you might believe in destiny, afterlife, God's plan, free will or karma.

your theme song:

-> pile 8

Circus (2008), The Singles Collection (2009)

you're a god of yourself and your own world, you're on a league of your own, there's no one quite like you, a trendsetter, others may try to copy but they could never get to be as iconic as you. you've been through some really difficult, overwhelming, surreal times, the way you deal with your demons is even more surreal, you're a boss, I lack words to describe how amazing you are. you understand the importance of family and friendships, you put those above any material matters, you're very nurturing, dedicated and you expect the same in return. you are protective of yourself and those close to you and you're ready to fight anyone that disrupts your peace. your grandness transpires into the little things you do, your confidence and amazing, outstanding personality traits shows in your everyday life, even when it's not your best work, it's still better than average. you might lack imagination (or creative control in your work), you like to keep low expectations, you're not used to things going well for you. you are an angel tho.

your theme song:

-> pile 9

In The Zone (2003) + DVD Bonus (2004), Greatest Hits: My Prerogative (2004), B In The Mix, The Remixes (2005)

you're all about big businesses. you think a lot about the circle of life, you're open to the guidance of those at the top of the hierarchy and you help those who are lower than you, you think people should help people. you don't wanna change anyone, you just wanna do your thing while other people do their thing. you are incredibly magnetic and you might use human instincts to get things done, pretty privilege being an example. there's a feeling of you coming out of the dead, you might have waited a long time for something that you have finally accomplished and you feel like royalty. this is the biggest time of your life (so far), you have that x factor, you're at the top, you wanna enjoy all of life's big and little pleasures and you have the freedom to do so.

your theme song:

-> pile 10

Hold Me Closer (2021), Toxic Pony (2022), ELVIS (2023)

you're a community person, it's people that build you up, you're likely an extrovert that loves to dance, party and travel with friends, you see nobody above nobody - if it was up to you, social hierarchies would be gone completely. this might not be the best time of your life, but you're incredibly hopeful because this moment in the present feels so otherworldly amazing. you feel as one with your environment, connected with everything and everyone. you feel safe to follow your heart because you have people to help you build your stability, you feel like there isn't one ruler above all - you might have recently broken up a deal with quite an important figure in your life, but it only broadened your horizons, like they were a lunar eclipse and you, the sun. your heart is strong and beating faster than ever! oh you're a big deal! super humble but hey you can totally brag!

your theme song:

i love britney spears

[nobody-nexus]

The Masked: First Encounter

(CW for creepy imagery! You have been warned!)

First Encounter

Current Date: March 12, 1982

Date of Encounter: March 3, 1982

I was called into an old house down by the edge of town. It had been abandoned for a while by now, however just recently did I see reports of a teenager, a young man named Jeremy Jest, having ran away from the house, clearly traumatized by something. When officers tried to get answers, all he could saw was 'the face'. Of course, this seemed like another entity, so I decided to take a look myself. Going in, I noticed that the place had been turned into a sort of hoarding area. It was filled with various audio and music playing devices. Gramophones, tape recorders, radios, and the like. Curious, I went further in

Everything was fine... Until I went up into the attic. The ladder up to said location had already been opened most likely due to Jeremy, and going in and shining my light, it was even stranger. Ribbons were laid about, making the place look more like a mess then I heard it. It was a quiet sound, but in the silence, it almost slipped by. It sounded like crying. Or whimpering. Something in between perhaps? But I couldn't pinpoint where it was coming from due to a mask falling onto the floor. It looked like a heavily simplified tragedy mask, but broken upon impact

It was above me, as it seemed the crying turned into a fleshier, sticky, guttural sound as a retched ooze began to drip onto the mask in front of it. I didn't look up. Jeremy's repeated phrase played again and again as I simply tilted by camera up and took a picture. This caused a gut chilling screech to come from the thing, so I ran for it. I never looked back. Never grabbed any samples, however I now have this picture. I've been planning for a bit now on going back but giving myself precautions as to make sure I NEVER see this face. It's one that leaves me horrified that I almost encountered it eye to eye

-Abel

[kandyrezi]

[ ♡ / ♢ ] Android!Funtime Foxy x Reader hcs.

- : - : - : - : - : - : -

» funtime foxy is overly-dramatic, androgynous, and a bit of a diva.

» he loves performing for children, but he becomes very shy if he has to interact with others or if he’s on stage with the other animatronics. but if there are no children to entertain during the night, then he’ll perform a show for the one-man audience; meaning you. 

» even if you ask him to do something as ridiculous as the macarena, the spinning starts before you can even finish your sentence while he exclaims, “oh, what a fun choice!” (there is no spinning in the macarena dance. he doesn’t even know what that is.)

» funtime foxy is normally reserved, and somewhat impassive around other animatronics.

» can’t resist checking himself out in literally every mirror he passes by. you just have to deal with it. he’s one of those guys who just can’t stop running his hand through his hair all the time and fiddling with it.

» he likes sewing clothes. he’s quite proficient at it, too.

» it’s normally not your job, but he lets you put eyeliner on him before one of his shows - actually, he wants it to be you instead of one of the other workers.

» you’ve tried to ask if you can give him a different name to differentiate him from his counterparts at fazbear’s pizzeria and fredbear’s diner, but he refused, preferring ‘foxy’ as his real name.

» when it comes to strangers, he tends to have the behavior of a frightened, rabid dog whose bite hurts like hell and bleeds like a water fountain. for a fox-type of android, he has some pretty wicked sharp teeth. don’t try to sneak up on him to play the ‘guess who’ game by covering his eyes from behind, because there’s a real chance of him  accidentally violently lashing out in panic. he wouldn’t ever forgive himself should he hurt you in any capacity.

» he’s isolated from the outside world, so introduce him to new music and broadway musicals. reciting the same song and dance for the children becomes droll after a while, so he’d really like what you would show to him.

» seriously, if you’re just sitting, chilling on the floor with your ipod, he’ll saunter his way over to you and make himself comfortable in your lap. his audio receptors can pick up on the sound waves from the earbuds just fine, but you’ll end up sharing/wearing them with him anyway.

» he has a particular fondness for britney spears and green day, but his favorite song would be mr. brightside. you’re a little confused in his taste for music, but you don’t judge.

» he has a knack for making people mad for the fun of it. you’re not sure if he does it intentionally, or by accident just with his over-the-top personality.

» funtime foxy has feelings for you long before he’ll have the guts to let you know. he’ll flirt and dance around his feelings, but he’s too shy to actually be upfront and honest.

[stars-n-spice]

Thoughts on s3 ep 13!

fucking hell ya'll,, we're almost at the end of this and I simply can't believe it and don't want to believe it simply because I don't want it to end and I don't see how the fuck they're going to tie up all the loose ends in just the next two episodes.

This time around I recorded my reactions to it and it was a lot of yelling and making really weird noises,, but uh, y'know the drill!

Incoherent screaming (this time for real) and spoilers under the cut!

Click here for the audio recording of my initial reaction

WAAAAAH I DON'T EVER WANT TO SEE OMEGA IN PRISON UNIFORMS AGAIN!!!

i forgot they had that baby up in there,, omg

FUCKIN' WAAGHHh why didn't omega try to like access that hatch thing at night?? wouldn't that have been less risky??

this episode stressed me the fuck out,, I have a headache rn holy fuck

EMERIE I'M ON MY HANDS AND KNEES PLEASE DO SOMETHING

wait how the fuck are they going to get that baby through the chute thingy??

Eva is so precious :( I love her so much

Omega has been in there for like probably a day or something and is already making plans to escape, I love her so much

"That's okay, I like a challenge" AAAAA WRECKER WOULD BE SO PROUD!!

Question: why the fuck do they keep taking samples if they know her blood is compatible??

PHEE COME BACK D:

I better see more of Phee somewhere, anywhere, please, I love her so much your honor

ALSDKF;A I FUCKING FORGOT ABOUT RAMPART LMAOOO

Echo!!!! FUCKING HELL!!!! ECHO <3!!!!!

I missed Echo so much,, this episode really just showed that they couldn't have him in it because he would've gotten things done like five episodes ago because he's just that good

Them keeping Rampart is so funny to me idk

He was such a throw away character to me in the other seasons so I this is so hilarious to me, what a silly, pathetic man I need to see him get chewed up by a space animal or something idk

after all this time it was strange to see Crosshair in the background of things but he was still shoving Rampart around and I loved it

I SWEAR TO GO IF I SEE. Y'ALL THIRSTING FOR RAMPART!!! THAT MAN BOMBED KAMINO Y'ALL BEST REMEMBER WHO THE REAL ENEMY IS!!!

Rampart is basically Walmart Kallus

I swear to god, Hunter is getting shorter

Also looks like Crosshair is filling out :( He's finally getting to eat now :((

THEIR ARMOR ALL BLACKENED OUT??? WHAT A LOOK!!

Crosshair's helmet ESPECIALLY, it looks super cool

RAHHHHHH THAT SUPER LONG SHOT OF HUNTER LOOKING AT HIS BLACKENED OUT HELMET AGGUUGGHHHHH

Felt like I was watching an episode of Rebels due to how they were infiltrating the place

How the FUCK did nobody like,, notice?? insane. imperials are so fucking stupid I love that so much.

"Oh I don't think so" FUCKING AAAAA WOW THAT WAS HOT ECHO I LOVE YOU

WHEN WRECKER WAS JUST CHILLING ON HIS PHONE???? STOP. I'M ALREADY IN LOVE WITH THIS MAN!!!! FUCKING RAAGHHHHH

"Where is your captain?" - "Uh, captaining?" WRECKER MI VIDA!!!!

I've said it 100 times and I'll keep fucking saying it,, everything Wrecker does in this season is pure just,, everything he does is amazing, I love him so much, even in the background, him simply breathing?? Iconic. He better stay breathing.

WHEN HE WAS WEARING THE HAT OF THE GUY HE KNOCKED OUT?!?!? MARRY ME.

I know Rampart is stressed out of his mind LMAO bro is getting out of this with gray hair

"It's the only chance we have of finding Omega and freeing those clone prisoners" WHHHATTTTT HUNTER FINALLY THINKING ABOUT SOMETHING OTHER THAN OMEGA??? NO FUCKING WAY!!!

THE WAY CROSSHAIR WENT "he can't go alone" AFTER ECHO VOLUNTEERED TO SNEAK ABOARD THE SCIENCE VESSEL AAAAHHH i'm going to be sick,,

Crosshair and Echo dynamic my beloved

ECHO SLAY

OH MY BELOVED ARC TROOPER!!!!!!

last stretch of the episode had me so fucking stressed

i'm not ready for the next ones

"Negative" and all the Hunter girlies fell to their fucking knees

that was HOT

and stressful as FUCK

losing my mind

Music was insane, omg loved it

WAAAAAAAAAH I CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S ALMOST THE END

AND FUCKING NOT A SIGN OF TECH???? WHAT THE FUCK

THAT'S NOT FAIR THAT THIS SHOW GETS ONLY 3 SEASONS AND FOR MOST OF IT CROSSHAIR, ECHO, AND TECH ARE BARELY IN IT!!! LIKE WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN THAT TECH IS ABSENT THE WHOLE FUCKING THIRD SEASON ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?????

makes me fucking sick

they need to give us a whole ass season of all of them together being happy on Pabu I swear to god

this episode made me fucking sick ugh

everything sucks man oh my god

[coldresolve]

Moneymakers: The Lost Media // Audio + Sharing Is Caring

Masterlist I said I'd have the next chapter finished to end the year on, but I don't, so you get this instead. This is (or will be) a collection of scenes or parts of scenes that never made it to the first draft of Moneymakers, but they’re all still canon things that happened, as far as I’m concerned. I’m probably going to rework some of them into the final version, but for now, they’re collected here. These all take place in “simpler times”, for lack of a better way to put it. Think pre-pt22//Fallout. Content warnings: [Captivity, skewed power dynamic, manhandling/roughhousing, hand gag, fear; alcohol, drugs (weed), smoking, intimidation, sadism, forced physical closeness/intimacy, forced drugging, shotgunning, mild choking, vague rape threats, body shaming but it's towards a skinny guy so you don't care lol.]

// Audio

From the living room, the title screen of a video game plays pensive music, still audible from the other side of the house. The windows showcase the pitch black of the outside; even the hallway, despite being illuminated by the light from the kitchen, is dim enough that Conrad intuitively keeps his hand on the wall as he exits the bathroom. They’re letting him roam the house now, but venturing outside his room carries the risk of the sorts of chance encounters he’d rather avoid.

He's five steps from the door to safety, and a timid relief is already setting in, as it turns out, all too prematurely.

One arm coils around him, pinning his arms to his sides, while his yelp is muffled by a hand firmly clamping down over his mouth. Conrad instinctually fights back at first, revolting at the heat of the chest on his back, panicking.

“Sh,” Renee hisses in his ear, no louder than a whisper. “It’s not like that! Fucking chill, dude, chill!”

Conrad whines into the hand, twisting to get out of Renee’s grip, but when he manages to wrench one arm loose, Renee shifts, pushing him back-first into the wall, hand staying firmly locked over his mouth. Hands pushing at the man’s chest, at his wrists, he meets Renee’s gaze with wide eyes - but he doesn’t look angry, per se. He just looks oddly frantic.

“Shhh!” he hisses again, holding up a finger between them. “Sh-sh-sh-sh-sh.”

Conrad reluctantly forces himself to freeze, breaths coming shaky through his nose.

Renee seems to still too. As soon as Conrad isn’t actively fighting anymore, his gaze slowly drifts to the side, unfocused for a moment. Five seconds, maybe ten, before his eyes snap back to Conrad, and a crooked smile forms on his mouth. “Do you hear that?” he whispers.

Eyes wide, Conrad frowns. It takes him a while before he can concentrate enough to listen more intently to his surroundings. There’s still that music emanating from the living room, and below that, the ambient hum of the house – lights, or maybe the buzz of the fridge, or the wind outside. His own heartbeat, struggling to return to normal. He shakes his head as much as he can with Renee still pressing it to the wall.

 Renee rolls his eyes. “C’mere,” he sighs. And he grabs Conrad by the sleeve of his t-shirt to pull him down the hall, only stopping to exaggeratedly press his index finger to his lips when Conrad yelps again.

As they approach the door to Davin’s room, Renee slows down, footsteps silent against the hardwood floor. Instinctively, Conrad mimics the careful way of walking, despite how his body still buzzes with adrenaline.

Renee lets him go to stand opposite him, holds a finger to his lips again, nodding towards the door. “Listen,” he whispers.

Conrad swallows. He uncertainly presses his ear to the door.

Muffled, almost drowned out by the noise from the TV in the other end of the house, or even just Conrad’s own breathing – the faint, faint sound of music. It ebbs and flows, rises and falls to pitches that are barely audible. It sounds like a guitar, but not an acoustic one; it’s sharper somehow, more crisp. Quieter. It sounds like an electric guitar that hasn’t been plugged into anything.

Renee grins wide. “I fucking knew it,” he whispers enthusiastically. “You don’t have hair like that for nothin’.”

Conrad nods awkwardly.

They both listen to it for a bit. Notes cascading, weaving together. Balanced, in a way. The occasional slide upwards, like that thing guitarists do when they push the string up perpendicular to the fretboard. It’s not a song Conrad recognizes, and it’s hard to tell with no other instruments to accompany it, but it sounds refined.

“Do you think he’s ever used it to get laid?”

Conrad blinks. Shrugs noncommittally.

Renee snickers low. He purses his lips for a moment, then holds up a finger again, reaching for the doorknob. Slowly, incrementally, he pushes it down, one eye shut in a grimace as he listens for any tick of the spring.

Conrad takes a step backwards, prompting another eyeroll from Renee.

He opens the door maybe an inch, carefully releasing the handle again. A vertical strip of his face is illuminated by a soft yellow light.

The music is clearer now. Conrad is happy to leave it at that, but then Renee grabs hold of his sleeve again, pulling him in front of himself to peek through the crack, and reluctantly, Conrad lets him.

The only light in Davin’s room comes from the lamp of his desk, in front of which he sits silhouetted, head bowed, hunched over his instrument. He doesn’t move much as he plays, apart from tapping one heel near-soundlessly against the floor, and occasionally nodding a little. Left hand shifting along the neck of the guitar beneath the band of a capo, thumb pressed against the shiny surface. You can’t really see what his fingers are doing from the back, but you can hear it – the notes are clear, and almost brittle. He’s playing with a pick.

Renee lets out a soft snort.

The music stops. Davin hesitates for a moment, then turns his head to the side, face obscured by his hair.

Conrad doesn’t even realize what’s happening before Renee opens the door fully, and a hard push to his back sends him stumbling forward, tripping over himself. He braces his hands on the floor, gasping as he reflexively spins around – only to find the door shut firmly behind him.

He snaps back around again to find Davin now turned in the chair, staring at him, a pick between his teeth, brows raised.

Conrad stares back, too stooped to speak for a solid five seconds, before his brain finally registers that it might be a good idea to say something. “I’m, I’m sorry, I didn’t – I wasn’t—”

Davin eyes him up and down. Then looks at the door. He slowly grabs the pick out of his mouth.

And then he bursts out laughing. 

// Sharing Is Caring

In the evening, Renee hauls him out into the living room to play video games again. A different one this time – a puzzle platformer where each one of them is a different robot who can shoot portals to and fro. Unlike the shooting game, Conrad isn’t completely lost for what to do in this one. The controls are easier when there’s no rush in having to aim at things with the joystick. The rules are more straightforward – you just solve the levels, one by one.

He starts out careful. Doesn’t speak up, even when he spots a solution that Renee clearly hasn’t seen yet. Just pretends to be oblivious. There’s a cardboard box of white wine perched on the edge of the coffee table, from which Renee steadily refills his glass. A bag of salted peanuts to go along with it, handfuls of which he nods down at a time. The offer is made early on, but Conrad declines, and Renee doesn’t press.

As the night goes on, Conrad tries to chip in more, uncertainly takes part in solving the puzzles, just to test the waters. To his surprise, Renee seems genuinely excited at that. Teases it out, even, and drops encouraging remarks every now and again.

Despite himself, despite everything, Conrad starts to enjoy it. Thoughts spent weighing the mechanical workings of each level, as opposed to wallowing in his own doom. It feels good to have some kind of human connection that isn’t steeped in violence. Even as Renee’s words begin to slur somewhat, and he seems to take the game less and less seriously. The atmosphere is still good. He’s still just fooling around, making lighthearted jokes.

Even when he suggests they go outside for a bit, Conrad’s alarm bells aren’t blaring. They did that the last time, too, and nothing happened. Why would it now?

It’s much colder this night. Immediately bites his skin on the very first step past the threshold of the sliding glass doors. Been raining from the smell of it, that damp earthy scent. The yard is pitch black.

Renee lets out a whistle as he zips his jacket up, patting the front down over his chest. “Shiiiiit,” he says. “Imagine your scrawny ass, that’s instant frostbite in this fucken’ weather.” He giggles, then steps away toward the right side of the deck, bootsteps sluggish against the wet wood, laces trailing behind him. Stands at the edge, back illuminated, feet spread slightly, and it isn’t until he hears it that Conrad realizes he’s taking a piss and awkwardly averts his gaze.  

A dozen or so seconds of exaggeratedly minding his own business later, Conrad hugs himself tight to keep a sliver of warmth, until Renee zips his flyer back up and returns, fishing a pre-rolled joint out of his jacket. The lighter crackles, illuminating his face before the ember has been lit. He catches Conrad’s eye, blowing the first puff of smoke sideways into the wind. “D’you change your mind since last, hm?”

Conrad blinks. “About what?”

Renee takes another drag, then waves the joint between two fingers, raising a brow.

“Oh. Um, no thanks.”

Renee nods, sniffing slightly. He stuffs one hand into his pocket, watching the yard for a bit. And that seems to be it for the topic, until he turns back to Conrad again, brows furrowed. “Have you, like… never been high?”

Conrad shrugs a shoulder uncertainly. “Not… not really,” he mutters.

“For real?” There’s something almost appalled in Renee’s tone, like he’s struggling to conceive of the notion. He takes another drag, watching Conrad thoughtfully for a few moments. And his expression is hard to read in the low light, but Conrad swears he sees the moment when it slides into something more wayward, a glint in the eyes partially obscured by shadow and strands of bleached blond hair. “You should try it,” he says, and it doesn’t sound like a casual suggestion.

Conrad takes an involuntary step backwards. “I don’t, I don’t want—”

Renee rolls his eyes, giggling as he casually follows Conrad’s slow path of retreat. “Don’t be a fuckin’ prude, c’mon.”

Back hitting the outer wall of the house, Conrad swallows. “I s-said no.”

Renee snickers. “Did ya?” And he closes the distance, getting uncomfortably close, so close Conrad can feel the heat of his body, even through the cold. A hand loosely wraps around his throat, the knuckles of his index finger and thumb pushing at the bottom of his jaw, tilting his head upwards, while the palm of his hand pushes his head into the façade of the house. Renee takes another drag, making the ember crackle lightly, and he leans down, face a mere inch from Conrad’s, eyes dark. He blows the smoke out carefully, slowly, towards Conrad’s mouth.

Conrad holds his breath.

The hand around his throat tightens ever so slightly, squeezing uncomfortably around his larynx. He lets out a gasp.

“Inhale it,” Renee murmurs low. Tilts his head to the side for another drag. He’s so close, Conrad can feel the heat of the ember on his cheek.

When he blows the smoke out this time, Renee’s lips aren’t more than a few millimeters from Conrad’s. His breath is heated, and it’s not physically unpleasant, but the proximity makes the bile rise in Conrad’s chest. The looming threat of the fingers around his throat, the revolt in his core. Conrad has to force himself to breathe it in. The burnt herbal scent of it, under which the strong note of alcohol still lingers; the slightly bitter taste makes his stomach lurch. Something catches in his throat on the exhale, and he feels a strong urge to cough, but then Renee’s grip tightens, cuts him off – he barely manages a whine, hands pushing at the man’s wrist.

Renee shoves himself closer, using the weight of his own body to pin Conrad’s to the wall. By chance or intent, one of his legs ends up between Conrad’s, thigh leaning uncomfortably on his crotch. He nonchalantly takes another drag and leans down again, releasing the pressure on Conrad’s throat just to blow more smoke into his mouth.

Conrad shuts his eyes, reluctantly makes himself inhale it again. Whatever he can do to appease the situation, to avoid a more forceful approach. A feeling is spreading in his chest, or his head, it’s hard to tell. A lightness of sorts, a decluttering, mixed with a sense of grounding in his body, like he’s becoming attached to the wall, attached to the patio under the soles of his feet. Attached, in some way, to the hand coiled around his throat. There’s an edge to it. Fear.

“You’re fuckin’ lucky I don’t have a thing for twinks,” Renee murmurs, breath hot against Conrad’s skin. “I feel like making someone cum. I’m very good at that, y’know.” He takes a deep breath through his nose, keenly taking in Conrad’s expression. “But there’s no fuckin’ substance to you, is there? Stick figure ass. You look more fuckin’… snappable. Dry fuckin’ twig.” He hums, tongue sticking out between the teeth of a crooked smile. Brings the joint to his lips again. Doesn’t seem to mind that Conrad’s hands are trembling slightly on his wrist, just ducks down again.

Conrad forgets he’s supposed to inhale, finds himself letting out a soft high-pitched sound instead, one that ends up returning the smoke to sender. It prompts Renee to tighten his grip, leaning heavier against his body, hip digging into his lower abdomen.

“Breathe,” he growls.

Conrad winces, but he does it. Heaves the smoke through the constriction at his neck, feels it catch somewhere in his chest. The world spins on its axis, askew, moving without moving. It’s a new type of fear, one that isn’t as heavy, it’s hard to describe; less like a rhythm, and more like an even tone. There’s a detachment and an uncanny closeness, both equally poignant.

“Do you feel it?”

In his attempt at a nod, Conrad’s chin only hits the back of Renee’s hand. Renee still picks up on it, that’s what matters. He hums, satisfied, and then he lets Conrad go, taking a few steps backwards.

Conrad can’t help sighing out his relief, which quickly veers into a series of involuntary coughing. It takes him a moment to regather his bearings, and he shakily eyes the other, hand pressed against his chest, back still pressed against the wall.

There’s a smug grin playing on Renee’s features. “Not so bad, is it?”

[chemicallywrit]

Happy Audio Drama Sunday! What a delightful and spooky Halloween week. As usual, this list is not comprehensive, but this is what stood out to me this week. Some spoilers ahead, in the shape of vibes~

🩸Hemophobia did NOT disappoint. My word. The strange disconnected way the story was told; the fact that the sermons were more coherent and clear than the action; the Extremely Teenage Teens. Man. I cannot wait to listen to this next episode.

🦀 THE SILT VERSES. Every day I think about Faulkner. The person he is. The apostle and the fool. Jeez louise. I can’t tell if he’ll save the faith or obliterate it and take everyone down with him. @thesiltverses

🌊 Modes of Thought In Anterran Literature - is that Felix Trench??? On the one hand, hearing a familiar voice does break the immersion a little, like the most unnerving part of this show is how real it feels; on the other hand, Felix did such a good job, the immersion break didn’t last long. This new character sucks, i love him.

👻 Palimpsest!!!! New palimpsest!!!! Easily one of my favorite single-narrator shows, and this one is set in the 1920s, which is one of my favorite historical periods. They’re also very good at a horrible subtle twist, so I can’t wait to hear more about this ghost.

😈 Kakos Industries is literally always good, but I really feel for Corin being like “PLEASE leave me alone on Halloween.” Man, this show is funny. Why isn’t it more popular. Please listen to Kakos Industries. They’re on hiatus, there’s no better time to catch up. @kakosindustries

🍔 Mayfair Watcher’s Society always knows how to get to me. It’s like, the absolute corruption of the Normal into something horrific and wretched is the point of the show, especially when it’s something you always suspected was messed up. Like a fast food job. I shudder.

🌲HALLOWOODS JEEZ. Mx Wellman did in fact try to kill me. I survived. I WISH SOME OTHER FOLKS HAD. @hellofromthehallowoods

❄️ Red Valley. Man alive. One of the things I love about this show is how there are no real heroes, but this season from the POV of the villains—the architects of the apocalypse, in a lot of ways. Creeps. It’s delicious. Today’s episode, watching Clive finally reaping what he sowed, was absolutely glorious. @redvalleypod

🦷 Welcome to Night Vale - HOBOY. Idk if the return of Kevin is going to be a plot point, but it’s the perfect idea for a Halloween ep. Chilling work as always, Kev! It’s also fun to listen to him seethe about his loss of power.

🅿️ Podcube is always a delightful treat, but this week had a fantastic little bit of sound design, which I’m told is this sound designer’s first attempt at such a thing. He did a great job! I love this show, everyone listen to PodCube. @podcube

👑 Malevolent: We’re Back To The Horrors. I’m honestly relieved. Arthur having friends and family is so scary, I keep waiting for something horrible to happen to them. And now something has! Which is not to say more terrible things won’t happen, but i feel like the other shoe has dropped. This is not a criticism at all, Harlan is so good at this.

🌞 I finished Fall of the House of Sunshine this week and…it made me cry? This goof goof show made me CRY? It really is just You Make Your Own Meaning The Musical, isn’t it? If this show had to have a moral, then “even if all you can do is something small, it matters” is a pretty good one. The fact that there was a moral at all is pretty miraculous. I’m going to go listen to the soundtrack a million times now.

🧛🏻‍♂️ Re: Dracula is coming to an end in just a few days and here is a secret: i haven’t heard these last few eps yet. Tal and Stephen finished working on them while I was in the thrall of New Job, so I get to hear their excellent sound work new with you. I am so excited for the final showdown, let’s GO. @re-dracula

🧟‍♀️ The Dead premiered this week! Go subscribe to it, it’s about to get REAL WEIRD. We did some table reads for the next story this weekend (and we have one more today!) and if you think zombies on a plane are scary…

Go check it out!

Now that all is well on the job front, I hope to get back to recording Inn Between soon, because I Want It To Exist. If you want to help us out or you just like what I got up to today, please drop by my ko-fi!

[koenki]

Hand Holding HCs - Reverie Audios

Part 1/2 cause apparently it's too long to put everyone in one post-

Kane: Don't know if he will be getting his own listener later or what the future holds but will keep this one a lil generic for now While large and imposing, Kane seems like the type to be gentle with what he cares about. The type that would take his (potential) partner's hand in his to lean down to kiss the back of it. Staying bowed like that a moment while his lips linger, he would look up to catch their gaze, a knowing smirk on his face when he see's their face flush and muscles tense. He knows exactly what he's doing to them, and loves every second of their flustered responses. Dion: I imagine anything formal he does know how to behave, gentlemanly behavior if it's what he's tasked to do; he could joke around and smile and imitate what Kane did but more impish and playful But when it's chill- where he is with his relationship with Bunny now I could imagine him dragging bunny around by the wrist as they're walking around, as they slow down it goes to holding Bunny's hand like cupped, and at some point, if Bunny is comfortable to it cause Bunny seems to go with the flow a lot so wouldn't push too much, they would be the one to lace their fingers together- Likely catching the flame demon off guard in a sweet moment before he holds on more securely. Desmond: The relationship with Love is very respectful to each other, slow pacing and gentle. There is a lot of asking permissions between them. Early on, Love was the one to initiate, at first it would be a touch to the wrist and pulling back with a soft apology before Des gives the okay. It becomes habit, not out of fear but sometimes words aren't needed, just a quiet sign asking for permission. As Desmond gets more comfy he'll be the one returning the gesture, and taking their hand securely in his, they'd give each other lil squeezes of assurances. The hold is never too tight either, easy for the other to be able to slip out of the others should they want/need to. Ellis: I can just picture them sitting together on a stormy afternoon at home with Gem; on the couch reading respective books under a blanket, kinda cuddled against each other, Eggs purring up a storm as he rests on one of their laps, probably Gem's. and at some point in the comfort and quiet they hold hands under the blanket. Maybe the first time it happens Gem looks to Ellis in surprise before grinning and going back to their book, but leaning against each other like this was cozy and warm. If Eggs sees this he's gonna meow and demand attention, so either one of them has to let go of the other to pet the floof, or a book has to be put down. Either of them are comfortable to initiate the touch. Gage: Sweet boy loves the physical contact more than anything, this is his love language; Can't get enough. If he and Bug are in the same room but aren't close enough to touch, something feels off and it has to be fixed. Hand holding is an every day thing and both will engage on it. From wake up kisses in the morning on the hands up to meeting their lips, to driving in the car with one hand on the wheel, one hand in the other's to drop Bug off at work on his way to his own. This man could have both hands in a cast and be like "Buuuuug, touch pinkies with me." While they literally would be cuddled up together on the couch. Law: This man much like Gage is not afraid of physical affection and will take Sweets hand in his so long as his hand isn't full with a rowdy 3-year-old already. With Nat sitting up on papa's shoulders, and Sweets hand in his as they walk through the park, it's a peace like no other- until said child wants to make a break and run free. He loves getting to hold them, starting with the hand and pull them closer, dancing in the living room to no music to whisper sweet nothings in their ear when they're alone. Maybe Law also wants to live out some romcom fantasies with the piano in place now, teaching Sweets a few songs by guiding their hands across the keys. Do they actually learn anything doing this? Probably not, doesn't mean it isn't fun.

Neo: Foxy-boy initiates. Not cause Darling won't or doesn't want to, but because they wanna encourage him to take lead if that's what he wants to do. First few times it was a lil shaky, gentle, but he does so confidently now, because every time he takes the lead for it, it makes Darling have that beautiful toothy grin of theirs that he loves. When it's late at night and Darling is behind him, arms wrapped around, he will put his hands over theirs, thumb rubbing over the back of them in small circles until they both fall asleep.

[munamania]

bitch post time!!!!!! many revelations ok last night's vibes were HEINOUS but it provided so much for me and lydia to talk about and now i am gonna share with you yippee storytime

k so we plan to go to this valentines day showcase thing that the college radio is putting on last night. mind you at my place of work where i pretended that i had a family emergency and had to go home cause i didnt feel like going into work yesterday morning lol idiot... i was so paranoid my boss was there in disguise or some shit it was stupid. sorry um. yeah so ok i was largely like this could be a chance for friend groups to come together and maybe ill be able to talk to sams roommate and also like i do want to see more live music and it's free! so. anyway ok wait let me tell u abt the first part of the day

so me and lydia drive over some wine bottles to sam for him to use as props in a film. and sam and the roommate are sitting on their porch and we chat a little bit acc sam said as i walked up 'you always look so suspicious' and i was like 'ok u guys were literally just staring at me' cause they WERE and roommate was actually really nicely like 'oh no you're okay' and generally was just kind of inserting into our convo which well i had fun with naturally. um anyway and then who comes running up but teko! our buddy teko. and sams like have yall met and im like Of course and teko gives me a hug and i cant lie it was actually so sweet. i am also extremely touch starved but it was a nice hug. anyway. then i had to help roommate pick shoes alongside teko's fit and then i was like um Ok Bye. when i got back in the car lydia was like so i saw a neon sweatshirt... and i was like yeah <3 that's my man <3 sorry ok vibes get worse as the night comes

me and lydia end up getting to sam's late to 'pregame' this show and ig it was supposed be like. it was encouraged to dress formally. and i was wearing a dress that was too small and my chappell red tights and docs. kind of a serve but me and lydia were serving much more valentines day than formal. anyway. roommate does swing around to be like hi! and THEN i see my girl chloe i looooove her shes so fuckin funny and weird and we made this weird little short together in class last semester and i was kinda intimidated by her so i was so happy shocked when she was like I was so excited to see u :D WEEE shes so cool guys and has the funniest fuckin laugh and well honestly the high points of the night were us and lydia fucking around and dancing and being weird and offputting wallflowers cause again this thing SUCKED. ok

we did also smoke beforehand and i accidentally took this huge hit and then thought id be fine w a little more but brother was i feeling funny. did not eat enough and didnt take water it was atrocious. so. we get there and let me tell you if I WAS WORKING i'd have been able to fix the fact that it was soooooooooo fucking loud in there like bad bad bad audio distortion etc i wanted to kick this dude off the mixer but like what ever... it hurt so bad. and the lights were mostly on until chloe and sam duped this guy into dimming some of them but even still it was giving middle school dance. without the fun cheesy music. some of my instagram gay people are there. um but sorry there was simply no way i was going near that dance floor like the bands lowkey highkey sucked (i mean it was just a bunch of white college dudes and they did not slay. shocker. sam kept being like 'they're so good' and we were like um haha... straight face emoji)

we acc disappeared for a while to another floor for the br and just chilled for like half an hour (and security came to find us lmfaooo but ended up just leaving) and i was feeling odd and out of body and too aware of how i looked and it was just not great i was like we're the only bitches serving cunt here... um. anywho. so like later theres a slow dance and roommate is dancing with this other girl i only know from instagram till this point and i suppose if i was really feeling myself i could have tried to make a move but i was not. once again. vile vibes in this place. like i dont mean to be a pussy i typically would be much more charming and fun if i wanted to flirt and kinda felt the vibe from them but i was not really enjoying myself LMAO

then some more of the friend group shows up at the end and sam's like 'drama is actively going down' and im like Wuhhhh the fuck and i feel like a few of them r looking at me and i was just like get me OUT of here but for some fuck ass reason was still like nooooo we should go over and have pizza w sam and them. forgive me for thinking they had like frozen pizza or smth and i could get some free food out of this no we had to sit there and wait for dominos or whatever

AND THE MOST ANNOOOOOOOOOOOYING AWFUL TERRIBLE GROSS MEN YOUVE EVER MET SAT THERE AND JOINED THE BRIEF SMOKE CIRCLE AND THEN WERE JUST THERE AND LIKE YOU COULD JUST FEEL THEM TAKING UP SPACE AND US 'GIRLS' WERE MADE TO FEEL SO SMALL ON THE FUCKING COUCH I WAS SOOOOOOOO TIRED. had to get a sweater cause i felt so uncomfortable. girl i really was only there in case i could have a saving grace moment with roommate im so serious. well and for chloe but otherwise me and lydia shoulda been outta there

literally chloe was so excited to show our little video to people and sam cut us off from getting there to show us the fucking fidget spinner game he has on his tv. girl get out! oh my fucking god. finally lydias like Cool anyway so - like sams misogyny jumped out in previously unprecedented ways. it was bad. these boys were truly making me want to kill myself im sorry like it was so bad i have curated my experience so as to be away from that for so long it was really jarring. and what you need to understand about sam is that he's almost died twice and kind of has a funny little gender vibe going on and so for a while now yeah we've gotten along through silly odd things we relate through but holy shit....... that was so offputting i cant even wrap my brain around it

also sam very much walked me into like yaoi-fying him and his best friend and then was like haha noooo why r u calling us gay ur so weird bitch just fuck him already im tired and also dont care.. hes so attention seeking and not used to um not being the center of attention. sorry! oopsies anyway so

so then im like ew like i kinda need to reassess um. the people im around. and again cant stress enough how gross and judged and just kinda old i felt surrounded by these ppl even tho theyre all like within a year of age? and like roommate still seems maybe cool but since we didnt actually talk and they were off w the other roommate/other ppl i cant help but associate them w the odd vibes but like. honestly idk i might just try to uh slide into their dms rlly casually. bc. well idk how the friend group is fracturing and it wouldnt surprise me if they were annoyed with sam esp living with him but obv i dont really know. but again let me stress this friend group has been friends since their freshman year like what r yall doing yeah u do need to break up....

so i figure since they're hot (and kinda tiny i cant tell if they're shorter than me or just right around my height) (but also they kind of scared me by giving Instagram face while posing for a pic last night i cant do any more people giving off dorian gray rn. but i was also under the influence so um that didnt help) i could just yeah be brave see how it goes and worst case scenario it's not a vibe yk. and best case scenario i get to hang w them and teko. teko so gives francis. anyway

OH also sam and the friends insisted on listening to this ai generated… thing like idk guys i think i was in hell fr

also had several men yell out of their cars at me and staring at me as we walked to the bus stop :/ so men really do ruin everything btw

um. so. that was the night! thx for reading if u did. i am excited to be around other fun silly cool queer people god bless fuck these people

[orcelito]

Ok actually thinking about it. What ARE my favorite IAMX songs?

There's Spit It Out of course, which I mentioned in the post before. It's got a desperate kind of sadness that just fuckin. Hits me.

It's probably tied for top favorite with Music People, which was my top song on Spotify this year and for GOOD. REASON. I'm still so obsessed with it despite listening to it so many times. The Darkness... the Discontent... the way it speeds up in the last portion of the song... Delicious.

I Come With Knives and Sorrow sharing a spot in rank because they exist in the same spot of my mind. These two songs are what kicked off my IAMX obsession all the way back in April. The first two songs of this album, and Man do they hit. I Come With Knives is of course the quintessential Knives song (for my trigun followers lol)(and Yes that is why I'd listened to it in the first place) but it is just. GAH it's so fucking good. And then immediately followed by Sorrow, which has a similar wistful desperation to Spit It Out, but more subdued. Less desperate and more of a cry. (And it is also. A Vash song. To Me.)

Mentioning these 3 together because they exist in the same place of just. Peaceful vibing that these songs bring me. They're a Sway. & a lot of why I listen to this album when I wanna just chill the fuck out. Also pretty sexual lmao but most of IAMX's work has some amount of that. This album especially. But idk it's not like it's an album For being horny for me. It's an album for just. Existing honestly as a human, I guess. I love the whole album, but these 3 are my favorites (& of the three, Sailor is my top fav, but the other 2 are still so dear to me too)

I can't mention Every single song that I love, so I'll just put a few more honorable mentions from other albums (my favorites from those albums, I suppose,)

WAH I've reached the audio limit for the post 😭😭😭 but there are a few more I wanna share.

I will reblog. With more.

[killermchann]

mystik spiral rate youre music page

Icebox Woman

by Mystik Spiral

released 1998

recorded 1992 - 1997

2.33 / 5.0 from 70 ratings

Alternative Rock, Garage Rock, Post-Grunge

Grunge, Noise Rock, Power Pop, Indie Rock, Neo-Psychedelia

lo-fi, raw, angry, noisy, lethargic, introspective, dissonant, psychedelic, melancholic, energetic, depressive, self-hatred, nihilistic, existential, occult, rebellious, spiritual, pessimistic, male vocalist, LGBT, atonal

4 Reviews

cumguzzlinggutterslut

★★★✩✩

i liked the part where those 2 guys howled like wolves that part was funny

30000monkies

★★★★✩

takes me back…i used to play at the zon in the 90s & actually met the guitarist after a gig when i went to use the bathroom. nice guy. i think his name was jerry? he gave me a blowie in one of the stalls & sold me the CD for $20. great stuff! would recommend!

dreamtheaterfan8000

★✩✩✩✩

Pure drivel. I cannot recall a single moment during my first (and only) listen of this garbage where I wasn't appalled. HOW DID THIS TAKE 5 YEARS TO RECORD????? Let us delve into the musical septic tank...

Mystik Spiral is yet another perfectly mediocre post-grunge band that has decided to unleash onto the unwitting public the suburban angst they've carried with them and kept latent since middle school. My first question: What the fuck is a Mystic Spiral? Is it supposed to be a metaphor for their career? It sounds like the name of a Doors cover band. Initially I assumed the misspelling of the word "mystic" to be intentional, but after finishing the album I am fully convinced the members are all semi-literate. Take these lyrics:

"The universe is a cold, cold place, black and Bleak like outer space, the wind chill drops below sub-zero, it's not no time to be a hero."

Woooooow. Didn't know the temperature could drop "below sub-zero," or that poetry you wrote for your Language Arts class when you were twelve constitutes as genuine lyricism. And who still rhymes "zero" with "hero?"

Fortunately, Mystik Spiral is allergic to songs over two minutes in length, making this a much less tedious listen than expected. This compliment is backhanded, as the "songs" are excretions of verse-chorus crap that barely hit the one minute mark.*Yawn.* There is nothing in this album that resembles originality. Why bother writing memorable riffs when you don't even know how to fix that buzz in your amp? Wait, I'm getting ahead of myself.

The playing, if you can call it that, sucks. In spite of their apparent obliviousness to the concept of tuning, or practicing, so-called "guitarists" Trent Lane and Jesse Moreno have discovered an ingenious way to hide their sloppy guitar work: drown everything in as much feedback as possible. I cannot stress enough the fact that Mystik Spiral's sound is that of two college students arguing on top of TV static while someone living in their basement plays the drums. Props to the drummer, by the way, for managing to keep a simple 4/4 beat to this tuneless nonsense. I don't know why Mystik Spiral has a bassist, though. I could not hear him, except some songs where he starts playing too early & they decided not to do another take. It's like they're so ashamed to have him in the band they buried him in the mix until he was completely inaudible. Then I read that Mystik Spiral didn't even have a bassist until 1996, four years into the recording sessions...Who cares, man? It's called artistic liberty. Such is fate for so-called "alternative rock...." It should be illegal for bands to keep trying to emulate Nirvana and the Screaming Trees. Also, was it really necessary to include a 30-minute audio recording of a woman giving birth as a hidden track?

EDIT: After posting this review that took me a week to write I got a lot of messages insisting there was no childbirth recording & that I'm crazy. I swear to God it was there. It took up over half the album's runtime. How on earth is no one else hearing it?????

JesusSaves1968

★★★★★

This album gave me the first erection I've had in 30 years

[commsroom]

i think this is both a question and an excuse to talk about the live show. things that you love about the live show? or also the AMAs?

(i've been putting the amas on whilst spring cleaning and it just makes me kick my feet like a schoolgirl)

wolf 359 live show, my most dearly beloved... what don't i love about it? (... aside from how beige it is and how tricky that makes it to color, maybe.) ... like. ough. the way eiffel is the only one who looks over / crosses the stage over to hera. the music cues!! scotty sitting in the audience the whole time, and how completely the tone shifts when cutter shows up. how much everyone's expressions and mannerisms embody the characters, and how that physicality carries over to how i see them in the rest of the show. it's impossible for me not to see most of them as versions of their voice actors. it's funny, it's tense, it has so many really good character moments. it's such a perfect encapsulation of all the best things about wolf 359, now with different layers of nuance and physical comedy. it understands the medium it's in and the tools it has available as well as it does in audio format, and the fact the show in general is written and performed with so much thought towards physicality certainly doesn't hurt.

and also i love eiffel. i love zach's exaggerated body language and expressions as eiffel. never fails to cheer me up.

^ just look at this guy.

as for the AMAs, i love hearing them talk about the characters so much. like, with the understanding that it can't be taken as direct, literal canon when it's outside of the show, i still think it helps you understand a lot about how they see the characters, and so. how the characters were written. knowing they had detailed character bibles full of stuff that never directly made it into the show is like... maybe it's not 'canon', but it's in the performance, it's in the writing, it informs who they are. it's a similar thing.

and also, again, i love eiffel. and i love to hear them say completely useless things about eiffel that couldn't possibly be interesting to 90% of people. like zach saying his favorite ice cream would be cotton candy dippin dots (disgusting sweet tooth on that man.) or gabriel listing pink floyd, led zeppelin, and the rolling stones as examples of eiffel's music taste (bargain rack band tee music taste; he is soo normal. i want him carnally.) eiffel really likes bowling. "what brand of cigarettes does eiffel smoke?" / "cheap." eiffel's ideal valentine's day is netflix and chill. "what's eiffel's favorite book?" / "... eiffel reads?" (gabriel's actual suggestions were 'something unpretentious, like a pulpy 80s action movie of a book. or splinter of the mind's eye.') ... etc. etc. you understand.

also the AMAs are great for that one time gabriel said "eiffel's doing hera" and immediately regretted his choice of phrasing so so much.

[autisticempathydaemon]

hellooooo if the match up stuff is still open I would like to participate ^^

Song I'm hyper fixated on would be Love like you by Caleb Hyles I feel like it captures how I feel. because like I always feel so horrible about people who appreciate me, I feel so undeserving of it and how I want to be better for them

I unfortunately do not know my ennagram type but I do know my mbti that I'm unsure if it changed because I've taken the test last month the result I got is INFJ

Yes I do! alot actually, I love love love the ones that talk about issues basically anything new that happens. sometimes I also like those who go into a deep dive about artists, what the inspo for their work is, the meaning of their creations all of it.

My childhood imaginary friend was kinda weird... basically they we're a changing person, but most of the times I imagine them as a girl with short black hair a blue dress above a white long sleeved turtle neck, basically my ideal self at that time. she was really nice and loves butterflies idk why I made that up because butterflies are kinda boring to me

my go to way of falling asleep is just kinda laying there playing some music of traditional maybe boyfriend asmr on the background and hope I fall asleep sooner or later

ohhhh tricky, I would say Eris, because the name belongs to the Greek goddess of chaos and discord! daughter of Nyx also because it just sounds pretty

Milo's spring back audio where he comforts sweetheart from a panic attack. I often get those and the vid helps extremely well for them. also because of how sweetheart actually felt like they we're having a panic attack, it feels so real and comforting I love it sosososososo much

I'm gonna say... Cam, I get he sounds really nice but not exactly someone I'd say I love.

I don't really have one memorized yet but... the one I'm really close to would be... Up, my cousins love it and I do too. makes me feel sad a little and it's a really nice story

VINCENT- might be a little weird but considering all the responsibility of dating him I'd much rather be besties with him, he's fun and chill to be with and all the connections you'd get is just...

my go to ramble! a new game's story or lore maybe a webtoon sometimes, anything new I found that day that intrigued me most of the time it's a random wiki page I read

I don't have a local has station nor do I own a vehicle to go to one so imma have to pass on this one

A princesscore playlist I found, it has great classical music I play to focus, makes me feel like I'm in a ballroom dancing with the guy of my dreams

I would say true crime stuff mostly murder ones. It helps me analyze what do serial killers do and why do they do it. Also some extra murder facts I pick up that I absolutely wouldn't ever need

This entry was very interesting to me /pos I had inklings, I had leanings, I was percolating, but what really got me thinking was your difficulty with being appreciated and how Sam Collins would nip that shit in the bud.

Sam is an aggressive man in notable ways- he’s quiet but he’s not subdued, you feel me? He can be polite and introverted, but he wouldn’t entertain something that doesn’t make sense or devalues the people he cares about. Like, “You think you’re undeserving? What, you think me and mine don’t have the good sense to decide that on our own? That’s a load of horseshit.” He’s an aggressively loving mother hen of a friend and lover, and he would not tolerate that.

There’s also some lovely, lighter notes that make me think y’all would be cute together. Your love of true crime amuses me because I think Sam Collins hates that stuff but in a fun way. Like, he watched the Netflix documentaries with you and makes little faces the whole time, questions your sanity as affectionately as possible. Your daydreams of ballroom dancing also works in that favor because man is a Duke; he can make those dreams real at the Summit.

Song:

If I gave you my hand would you take it/ And make me the happiest man in the world/ If I told you my heart couldn't beat one more minute without you, girl/ Would you accompany me to the edge of the sea/ Let me know if you're really a dream/ I love you so, so would you go with me

I’ve got to give you and that cowboy one of the most romantic country songs that’s ever been sung; I just gotta. It’s not classical, but it’s fantastic for dancing, and the sentiment of loving and staying together really hits when you think of Sam asking you to become immortal and spend forever with him.

Runner-ups:

I like Damien as a runner-up, because he and Sam would have a similar, forceful attitude about your feelings in response to being appreciated; I just think Sam would be better at tempering that attitude. Anton, I’m choosing as a runner-up mostly because I thought of him being a true crime junkie and binging My Favorite Murder with you, and it tickled me pink.

note: thank you for waiting so patiently! 💕

Read this post and send me an ask if you’d like a match-up of your own! 💌

[mitchiegonewild]

bitchie mitchies aot cinematic universe pt. 2

since you guys seemed to like the other ones, i have PLENTY more in my notes app:

connies a gumball (awog) kinnie 

historia binged all of stranger things in 3 days and she hates the show

ymir listens to lil peep 😟

eren INSISTED on going as rainbow dash for halloween for ages 5-9

armin can TWERK OMG

mikasa makes her own soaps and their names are always something like “deaththroat orgasm” or “beta male sweat and tears”

armin has a shrimp allergy and everyone found out when they went to the beach and he ate shrimp scampi and almost fucking died in a pineapple willy’s 

on the same trip, levi and erwin fucked in a margaritaville bathroom while wasted on said margaritas

hitch gaslit everyone into thinking she went to their school only for annie to tell them “oh she doesn’t she just likes to mess with peoples heads”

armins their discord mod

jean posts marco to ALL of those couple-y tiktok audios 

gabi got in trouble for being a habitual grass eater in pre k

falco provided more grass when she was in time out. he is not an innocent man

zeke and levi brutally fist fought outside of a chili’s while eren, mikasa, armin, historia, and erwin stood to the side and watched

bertholdt had a “soft uwu boy” era in quarantine

reiner videos annie eating and then puts sad music over it

connie is unaware pirating movies and music is illegal and has been doing both since he was seven

one of those mall interviewers came up to sasha and mikasa and sasha bit his mic

armins name in erens phone is “malewife🥰💗”. jurys still out on whether or not its ironic

bertholdt was on witchtok for a month and they’re not even wiccan

ymir kills wasps with her bare hands 

hangë has access to levi’s twitter account but levi’s never on twitter so he doesn’t know. hangë posts truly the most heinous shit on there

moblit gets hangë a box of organ-shaped chocolates every year for valentine’s day

onyankopon had a hamilton phase

& bertholdt had a be more chill phase 🗿

erwin proposed to levi three times before levi accepted to “make sure he wanted to be married”

armin did a magic routine for the eighth grade talent show and killed that shit. they won 1st place

connie & ymir have neck yourself battles. ymir is currently winning

ymir also has the humor of a 12 boy addicted to fidget spinner 

annie is a manager at mcdonald’s and loudly proclaims her hatred for it

erwin carries a glock everywhere he goes. bro is strapped up fr

the first time bertholdt had a panic attack in front of reiner, reiner freaked out and gave his beats to them and played dubstep to try and get him to concentrate on something else

jean only says “balls” like cartman does (bawlz)

bertholdt does not know what MILF stands for

hitch has a monster can wall

sasha does this thing where if anyone yawns she shoves her fingers in their mouth and yells “CHICKEN FINGER”

erwin has a tiktok account to monitor what his kids post & he comments on them

levi calls mikasa brat number 1, historia brat number 2, and armin brat number 3

levi calls eren, sasha, & ymir his “forth, fifth, & sixth brat”

reiner has memorized all of the wenomechainasama spellings

bertholdt is a clairo enthusiast 

annie CANNOT STAND the smell of pork

zeke has a podcast

pieck is his editor and trolls the shit out of him with it

mikasa knows how to vogue & death drop

reiner does that thing where he plays tiktok audios and pretends he’s in an edit

mikasa is the biggest fucking internet troll but is supremely undercover about it

the only person who knows is jean because he’s her favorite victim but nobody believes him when he tells them

another one of sasha’s tiktoks blew up & it was a “baby got back” dance that she did with armin and connie and all of the comments were like “THE TWINK CARRIED THIS” or “GO CAILLOU GO”

zeke accidentally married a stripper in vegas one time. she was super chill about the divorce and they keep in touch

pieck collects shiny things

niccolo beat connie with a remote control because every time mario said “it’s-a me, mario!” connie would whisper “it’s-a me, niccolo!”