I was all excited to start doing these each month for the new year but this is all we got??? 💀 had to even add in the oldies we randomly got because it would be empty otherwise 😭 can’t believe we literally haven’t seen his face this year
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You know what sucks about having a alcoholic or neglectful parent growing up? And still seeing it.
They don't listen to you. When you try to tell them something. They assume it's something else. Or never understand what the issue it.
They're never there. Like say you're doing a play or something. They rarely or never show up to give support.
They get angry to the point were you fear for your own safety.
Ask them for help or even a favor and they get upset and make you feel bad for even asking.
They ignore you. Any intress you have. They either say stop or act like don't care. Making you feel like. 'What's the point?"
Trying to help them and them not putting in the effert to getting better.
Emotionally exhausting you to the point you don't wanna be around them.
Making you feel like everything you do is wrong. destroying your mental health to the point you can't or don't wanna be away from them, cause without them you"ll mess up your life.
They expect unconditional love from you even though they pretty much have made almost no possitive attempt in your life.
Everything they do for you, you have to pay them back for everything or use it to give some advantage to have you do something for them.
You can't be around them anymore cause it's so painful.
Make you feel bad about yourself.
Can't form close or meaningful bonds with anyone. Cause they never formed a proper or safe bond with their child.
Not probably teaching a child how to properly handle their emotions and having the kid pick up traits form the parent that are destructive and harmful to others.
Feeling like it all normal. It wasn't normal....
Regretting and feeling like you missed out on so many things kids and families do but nnow you can't. Cause it was taken away from you.
You cry and grieve for what you missed or never had. To suround yourself anything to make you feel you feel like you had something.
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I've been thinking a lot lately about how Kabru deprives himself.
Kabru as a character is intertwined with the idea that sometimes we have to sacrifice the needs of the few for the good of the many. He ultimately subverts this first by sabotaging the Canaries and then by letting Laios go, but in practice he's already been living a life of self-sacrifice.
Saving people, and learning the secrets of the dungeons to seal them, are what's important. Not his own comforts. Not his own desires. He forces them down until he doesn't know they're there, until one of them has to come spilling out during the confession in chapter 76.
Specifically, I think it's very significant, in a story about food and all that it entails, that Kabru is rarely shown eating. He's the deuteragonist of Dungeon Meshi, the cooking manga, but while meals are the anchoring points of Laios's journey, given loving focus, for Kabru, they're ... not.
I'm sure he eats during dungeon expeditions, in the routine way that adventurers must when they sit down to camp. But on the surface, you get the idea that Kabru spends most of his time doing his self-assigned dungeon-related tasks: meeting with people, studying them, putting together that evidence board, researching the dungeon, god knows what else. Feeding himself is secondary.
He's introduced during a meal, eating at a restaurant, just to set up the contrast between his party and Laios's. And it's the last normal meal we see him eating until the communal ending feast (if you consider Falin's dragon parts normal).
First, we get this:
Kabru's response here is such a non-answer, it strongly implies to me that he wasn't thinking about it until Rin brought it up. That he might not even be feeling the hunger signals that he logically knew he should.
They sit down to eat, but Kabru is never drawn reaching for food or eating it like the rest of his party. He only drinks.
It's possible this means nothing, that we can just assume he's putting food in his mouth off-panel, but again, this entire manga is about food. Cooking it, eating it, appreciating it, taking pleasure in it, grounding yourself in the necessary routine of it and affirming your right to live by consuming it. It's given such a huge focus.
We don't see him eat again until the harpy egg.
What a significant question for the protagonist to ask his foil in this story about eating! Aren't you hungry? Aren't you, Kabru?
He was revived only minutes ago after a violent encounter. And then he chokes down food that causes him further harm by triggering him, all because he's so determined to stay in Laios's good graces.
In his flashback, we see Milsiril trying to spoon-feed young Kabru cake that we know he doesn't like. He doesn't want to eat: he wants to be training.
Then with Mithrun, we see him eating the least-monstery monster food he can get his hands on, for the sake of survival- walking mushroom, barometz, an egg. The barometz is his first chance to make something like an a real meal, and he actually seems excited about it because he wants to replicate a lamb dish his mother used to make him!
...but he doesn't get to enjoy it like he wanted to.
Then, when all the Canaries are eating field rations ... Kabru still isn't shown eating. He's only shown giving food to Mithrun.
And of course the next time he eats is the bavarois, which for his sake is at least plant based ... but he still has to use a coping mechanism to get through it.
I don't think Kabru does this all on purpose. I think Kui does this all on purpose. Kabru's Post Traumatic Stress Disorder should be understood as informing his character just as much as Laios's autism informs his. It's another way that Kabru and Laios act as foils: where Laios takes pleasure in meals and approaches food with the excitement of discovery, Kabru's experiences with eating are tainted by his trauma. Laios indulges; Kabru denies himself. Laios is shown enjoying food, Kabru is shown struggling with it.
And I can very easily imagine a reason why Kabru might have a subconscious aversion towards eating.
Meals are the privilege of the living.
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undyne is sooooo funny cause the entire game she's catastrophically down bad for this 4'9 reddit tgirl who's convinced she's unlovable so she'll openly call her cute to her face whenever they meet and dress her up in little outfits and call her to ask about the weather (they live in a cave) to no fucking avail and then crash on papyrus' couch to spew her romantic dyke woes to him only for HIM to be like "YEAH THIS IS A NORMAL BOSS-EMPLOYEE RAPPORT". 360 degrees of relationship hell with this woman. no wonder she's insane
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actually that ao3 post about calculating kudos-to-hits ratios to decide if a fic is worth reading has me so pissed off. someone put real time and energy into something they are SHARING WITH YOU FOR FREE on a site where you can quite literally filter and search by anything you want and you're STILL trying to find a foolproof method to find stuff that's "good enough to read"???
YOU ARE NOT THE TARGET AUDIENCE FOR EVERYTHING
you don't have to like or read everything in a given fandom or tag, but you also don't have to be a cunt about it and imply that it's not worth reading. this is the kind of shit that moves people to stop creating altogether, and to see people agreeing in the tags is so disheartening. absolutely unserious behavior.
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