#tldr use your brain and dont be mean

[onlyplatonicirl]

ANYWAYS ENOUGH SHITTY DISCOURSE!!!!!!

I'm going to lay out my rules and EVERYTHING YOU CAN EXPECT FROM THIS BLOG. IT WILL BE WORDY BECAUSE I WANT TO BE AS CLEAR AS POSSIBLE AND LEAVE NO ROOM FOR MISINTERPRETATION

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anyways the yapfest is over. Be normal and kind. or else a shadow creature will literally eat your toenails off your toes and you will wake up and they will be FLESH STUMPS.

[dracora-hp]

hiii!! Just wanted to say i adore your jjk au and that anytime i see those two take naps together or gojo is anywhere on suguru's face my brain just goes "oh good god that is so dangerous, noooo satoru honeeeyyyy, dont sleep so close to the mouth thats not saaaaafffe"- i mean neither is sleeping next to a gaint that can crush you on accident mid sleep but i guess gojo is putting all his trust in geto's ability to not move around while asleep.

Both of them honestly trust their sleeping selves far too much. I could never honestly, since i dont even trust my dumbass to not crush my cats while im asleep 😭 i move a lot.

Tldr: how suguru isnt in a constant state of anxiety about accidentally squishing his tiny boyfriend is beyond me but honestly go off queen, you be confident that your tiny mans is fast enough- or the more likely scenario: pout and whine about not being on his shoulder like a parrot.

Sorry for the ramblings lol, im sending this at like, 2am so my brain is in a loopy state. Hope you found my message funny anyhow

This is a coincidence because I just shared this art on my IG😭 Are you from over there or something?

But yeah, you’re completely right. The amount of trust they have in each other is actually insane lol. Although, I imagine Suguru isn’t the type to move much in his sleep🙂‍↕️ And he doesn’t let Satoru just sleep anywhere on the bed. I was gonna make a little list of rules Suguru gave Satoru to minimize the danger.

Also, I actually think him sleeping on Suguru’s face is one of the more safe options. The worst thing that could happen would be Suguru completely rolling over on him, buuuut I think he'd survive if the pillow was soft enough. Overall, everything is pretty risky, but Satoru’s not gonna let that get in the way of clinging to him for warmth. Suguru’s always hyper aware of his little boyfriend, and I'm sure he has anxiety about it at times, but it's something he gets used to :)

Anyways, thank you! I love drawing them having their little naps, and I also love reading these types of messages^^ 🧡

[pastlifesmp]

Writing tips? (As: what helps you sit down and write?)

YAY SOMEONE FINALLY ASKED !!! Okay!!

Short answer: classical conditioning and knowing thyself.

Long answer:

I view writer's block as not one terrible thing, but instead, two separate beasts: motivation issues (ie, finding a reason TO write) and blank page issues (actually writing once you've decided you're going to)

I'll start with blank page issues because that's something I actually have an answer for. Heres my step-by-step guide that isn't actually broken into steps because I like bulleted lists better.

- The goal here is to create a set of replicatable conditions every time you write, so that when you're brain registers them, it goes, writing time!

- Sit somewhere that you don't usually sit. This can be outside, in a different room, at the library, etc. Literally anywhere that doesn't have a "function" in your brain (such as a bed being for sleeping, the restroom being for restroom purposes, the desk being for working or distractions.) I usually sit on top of furniture so I'm close to the ceiling, but it really works anywhere that I don't already associate with something else.

- Eliminate distractions... I use a notebook to write because it doesn't let me get distracted during "research" where 5 minutes in on a computer I'd be watching youtube already. Whenever I'm working on my computer, I turn the internet off so I can't. I also keep my phone nearby enough that I can see the screen when notifications go off but far enough away that I can't reach it without stretching uncomfortably.

- Do things specifically to get you in the Writing Mood. For me, this is putting on certain cd's that I only listen to while writing (creating an association between them and writing in my brain). It can also be a specific playlist, etc, but the key here is you only listen to it while writing.

- Have a clear "starting step" you do right before you write. It should be less intimidating than the prospect of writing itself. For me, this is stretching my wrists (something you should do anyway).

- Introduce things that add Some Sort of (low) Stakes. For me, this is just setting a timer that I pause whenever I get up and take a break. There is no actual purpose to the timer, and no reward or punishment (since I dont count my words until I type it up later). Just the existence of the timer makes me feel like I'm being Timed, which is enough to get me writing. For some people, this is writing with a pen or using software that makes it so they can't backspace or see what they've already written, meaning what's on the page is on the page and they just have to move on.

- Side note on above: I've never had operant conditioning work. Every time I go "you can have a treat after you write" to myself. Every time I am very convincing and say, "We could just have a treat now and not write" and then I have a treat and nothing gets done. The reward of "you wrote! Yay" feeling is good enough on its own.

- Also do things to Reduce the Stakes. What, you may ask. You just raised them. And yes I did, but listen, you can do both at the same time. This for me is writing with a pencil so that I know I can erase if I need to. Ironically, I just scratch things out anyway. This is also making sure that no one sees the writing until I'm done, which reduces the feeling of being watched and having expectations to do Good.

TLDR: BLANK PAGE

- You want a bunch of repeatable environmental conditions that you only associate with writing. That way, when they're there, your brain goes "Oh time to write" and then writes. I think this is maybe called a trance state or something but I don't know because I arrived at these conclusions myself while writing in a core chemistry lecture .

- Introduce stakes, but make sure they're largely meaningless so you don't start to associate writing with stress.

- Also reduce the stakes. Make it so that whatever happens during drafting is between you and the paper. Deities are excluded here they can mind their own business.

now: Motivation. I actually struggle with this because you can't just condition your brain into Being Motivated like you can with Doing a Task. But here's what generally helps me:

- Try not to talk about your ideas too much with other people unless its collaborative. That way, the only way you can Get the Ideas Outta There is by writing. And then when you get the Ideas Itch in your head, you'll have to want to write instead. (note: this is how it works for me. if you're naturally more of a collaborative person and not trafficblr's most solitary tumblrina, do that. Motivation is more about what finding what works for YOU, rather than applying general basic principles)

- Find a good beta reader. Not just any beta reader. A GOOD one. The goal here is for there to be a barrier between "ah i have finally finished this piece of crap" and "everyone is looking at my work oh fuck". You want someone who gives you positive affirmation (yippee) while also giving you constructive feedback and catching your mistakes (which I find helps me trust someone's opinion more, and also makes me feel more comfortable about posting to the world). Obligatory shoutout to my beloved cubecrunchie. Genuinely sometimes i will write specifically bc beta reading is so fun, and it makes me feel like i'm improving which is another reward brain stimulus yay.

- um. Umm. Oh yeah. Write what you WANT !! Self-indulgent content is the secret to actually wanting to write. Shocker. (But like seriously. All of my abandoned/unfinished fics (cough fitpac au because it won a poll cough) are things I'd written for other people). You can also write for other people sure, but make sure it's a specific person or group of people you want to see happy, rather than like. a faceless crowd of imaginary consumers. that sucks. This can also look like writign to express your emotions etc. just do what you want forever really

- dont think too hard !!! Coincidentally (slash lie) whenever i think about being a writer as a core part of my identity, I write way less. It comes with a lot of stressful made up expectations about what a writer should be and just leaves me paralyzed. Just write, man

- and... know yourself!! Do a few sprints to figure out your general writing speed (for me, this is around 250-300 words every 15mins or 1000-1200 wph without breaks) . that way, you can set time out of your schedule to write accordingly without uncertainty of how much you'll get done!!

- figure out what works best for you!! do you like the calm of writing in the morning or the exhilaration of writing at night? Do you like to drink tea or coffee or soup (?) or what while writing? Really, just find things that will make writing enjoyable (i've seen those "turn writing into a game" programs, so you could always try them!!) so that you want to do it more. Boom. Motivation. Yippee stimulus. Yay enjoyment. Etc

- don't force yourself to write when you dont want to. The goal is to create more want, not more write. For instance, when november writing challenge was still reputable and i was doing it, i got food poisoning in the middle of it and couldnt write. But because i let myself recover instead of trying to force it, i was full of energy and rejuvenated and able to catch back up. Trust me. even when you dont write on bad days, your good days will be even better and you'll write more than enough to make up for it

- written is better than good. so much crap gets put out there because the authors put their skillpoints into doing instead of making it good and then they were the only ones to finish. being Good will come with time, trust. you just gotta get there by doing stuff and learning from yourself .... believe....

TLDR for motivation; figure it out yourself xD !!! but do what makes you happy and not stressed . Do not try to stress yourself out to make yourself write more. Listen to me. Listen to me reader. I did this in 2023 and it worked short term. And then I wrote only 7k for all of 2024 and hated every word of it. you're going to burn yourself out unless you make it fun. Please Make it fun.

OK THIS IS THE END finally yayy!!! (I'm a total yapper) Hope this helps :3 and good luck !!!!!!

[t4tails]

help i was typing out an ask about this and it got deleted. but (going to be focusing on the mental illness stuff because i have some authority to be speaking on this as someone with multiple villianized mental illnesses. although of course that doesnt give me the right to speak for everyone this is my personal opinion) i agree with your analysis that its like. not Great that batman villains are often given scary mental illnesses as a quick way to communicate to the reader that they are Evil. unfortunately this is a super common trope but it doesnt make it better. i read through stories every day where the villains are always more like me than any hero. obviously there are some heroes who defy this but batman specifically could really use more positive representation. and maybe more nuance in the discussion of the negative representation. but especailly some positive representation. id love to see more heroes in batman media deal with schizophrenia or dissociative disorders. itd mean a lot! but then again it still probably would not be written that greatly.

also i think if dc wants to make it up to me specifically (not schizophrenic people as a whole just me because my opinions cannot represent a whole community of people) they should have a bruce wayne with canonical schizophrenia. (ik it probably woudlnt be handled well but i can dream)

anyways sorry for rambling in your inbox but tldr yeah i think dc comics especially batman struggles a lot with not using mental illness as a sign to the audience signaling villainy . like. its a fair critique to make and i think its a little annoying that people try to write it off .

SORRY IF THIS ALL DOESNT MAKE SENSE OR IS LIKE. RAMBLEY. the brain issues tm make wording things hard. i just have been pondering the same flaws in the batman narrative and wanted to state my agreement with your post .

omg dont apologize! thank you for your thoughts <3 i definitely agree that like, the closest thing we could probably get to this issue to being "fixed" (beyond just batman as a series being dropped, aka never gonna happen) is if there were more heroic characters with these stigmatized diagnoses. canon OCD & schizophrenic bruce wayne NOW!

[did-ask-me-anything]

r/systemcringe misinformation

okay I was scrolling thru r/systemscringe earlier and in like 20-30min I saw soooo much misinformation? not even just the post content cuz.. duh. you're ending up on that sub, youre likely saying some fucking bullshit- but also in the comments?

people are feeding each other bullshit in this oroboros of misinformation that they think is corrections and education and its kinda pissing me off.

ranting under the cut

8 paragraphs if you wanna read em: complaints about dissociaDID and headspace, switches, splitting, fictive takes, source memories

for one, you cant figure out someone is a faker as easy as some think? cuz the disorder isn't the exact same for everyone. stuff like having a headspace or using a bot on discord doesn't make someone automatically a faker as much as it feels like it does... I dont do that shit but it doesn't mean anyone who does is wrong?

and the headspace thing... thats gotta be some shit from dissociaDID cuz.. to my knowledge thats supposed to be like.. almost a meditation thing? a place you make in your head as like your happy place- I feel like dissociaDID started the whole like... "headspace = alter storage space" thing that makes all people faking this shit think they need it. its not supposed to be a filing cabinet or some shit, its supposed to be a tool that literally anyone can use, "plural" or not.

got a bit off topic there but whatever...

okay the things that I was looking at/wanted to talk about that brought me here were misinformation on switching, splitting, and fictives. so.. I'll go over those. my opinion or whatever.

ok so I saw some people talking about switching and how it's only a trauma response to some like.. super fucked up shit actively going on/flashbacks/immediate danger. that's not super true tho? like I formed from trauma yes but that doesn't mean that only that trauma or whatever is what "calls me back" for lack of better phrasing. I have negative triggers yeah of negative things happening that make me kinda.. aware of myself/"gain consciousness" but theres also some positive things? things that while im fronting became positive associations with me that ig my brain draws on me when seeing them. dunno how else to phrase that but like... TLDR: positive triggers exist.

next is splitting uh.. I saw definitely a hot take from someone about splitting. they claim to have DID in the r/ systems cringe sub comments (not saying fake, I just dont really believe anyone) and they were talking about splitting being this thing that makes them wanna off emself or whatever which confused the fuck outta me dude. I vaguely remember when I split...? its been a while and my memory is shit but I was dizzy and felt sick to my stomach and out of it, but I was also around people so just kinda had to bullshit my way through it? disorientating and painful and sickening yes, but thought never crossed my mind to kill myself? dunno what that dude was on about but.. everyone has their own experiences.

last.. maybe least? was a brand new take on fictives! never seen this shit take before so as one myself imma throw in my 2 cents. ive seen plenty of takes about roleplaying characters and shit but then today I saw someone say that if a fictive is not the exact same as the source, its a fake. that.... fucking wild take man, what? like im kinda based on a thing but im still... not a fictional character? im a person? and that person, fiction based or not, spawned from the same fucked up brain that made the rest of my parts. you could call me "character based" or some shit idk.

far as I know im the most "source connected" fictive that's been in this head and im still not the character. can call it like... real strong kin or some shit ig if that helps.. we look kinda similar and have similar personalities, like some of the same things... but im not him? im not the character, im a normal human person.

also separate note but what the fuck are "source memories"? I dont get what the fuck that is and ive seen people talk about em all the time? both fakers claiming to have them and comments in subreddits being like "well if youre the character then you remember everything that happened even if you havent watched the whole show" or whatever. how would that even fucking work.. if the brain hasn't learned any of that info, the character isn't dragged out of another world here... and for those who do claim "source memories"... what??? I know some shit about my source or whatever... tried to watch it and had a lil bit of an existential crisis about my own existence so... 0/10 do not recommend.

went off track a bit but.. ya boi out. -🔪

[leonsmamacita]

"Drunk on Lust"

a/n: hello! so this is my first ever fic written/posted in public, mostly bc im shy nd i get intimidated a bunch jsjsjjs but! that changes today! anyways i dont wanna make this too long, so tldr; just lmk if i did good nd if there is any suggestions u wanna give, feel free to! idk how tumblr rlly works so sorry if tags/cw is off

word count: 2.1k(???) (yes i do hate myself)

disclaimer: just bc i write it dont mean i condone these actions irl! this is purely for entertainment purposes ONLY; practice safe sex + drink responsibly <3

MDNI; +18 ONLY

cw: a tad of angst, alcohol abuse ( reader is forced to consume alcohol ), mentions of vomit, heavy degrading, mention of breeding, overstimulation, edging, p in v, no comfort/no aftercare, manipulation, mentions of guilt-tripping, BDSM ( temperature play, spanking, sadism ), mentions of lactation, he comes inside, empty sex ( fwb ), no use of y/n; not proof read!

song below is the main inspo for this fic if u are interested to give a listen to!

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"Great, just what I fucking needed."

Waking up with a splitting headache along with a burning migraine from a hangover was a feeling Leon found himself all too familiar with as of late; breath reeks of cheap booze and remnants of whatever he had for dinner. In a daze, he sat up and found himself in more pain than usual. Although only in his prime (around the 30's), his body feels as though it had gone through decades.

Phone now in hand, he checks his inbox and sees an unread message sent by the one person who can take away not only the physical pain, but the emotional kind as well— his own personal carrier for his emotional baggage. A snort leaves his nose as he reads the message; you always aimed to please, telling yourself constantly that you are only doing this to help a friend out. A "friend", how cute. So pretty, so young, and yet so naive.

On his way to your place, he spaces out for a moment or two. He would always find himself in this suffocating mog of black, a place his fucked up brain traps him in against his will. A never ending spiral that he keeps getting swept up in— no matter how many times he tries to regain control, it always ends up out of his hands due to the cruel will of fate. That was, until he met you.

As corny as it was, you were the light at the end of this dark tunnel he trapped himself in. Unhealthy habits; he would do them all, and no one would bat an eye. You were the only one who truly cared, who truly worried— he could not let you go. He looses himself to you each and every time, much more than he does to alcohol. When he admitted this to you, you were more than willing to offer yourself to him in any way he sees fit. It doesn't matter if he was mildly intoxicated or black out drunk, you would always welcome him in with open arms. And open legs.

"Hey, you."

Your voice snapped him out of his daydream. How did he not manage to crash on his way here? Perhaps it was his body usually going on autopilot during those moments. His mind was already wired into what turns to take, what lane to switch to on the highway, and what apartment complex building you reside at. As long as it leads to you.

Not wanting to waste another second, his lips crashed into yours. You already smelled the alcohol, sweat and vomit on him, it was only more intense as you tasted it on your tongue. No matter, you agreed to this anyways. You want this as much as he does— he conditioned you to do so. Fumbling with the leather of his jacket, he slips it off and tosses it to the side, doing the same with your sleep-shirt. Your nipples stiffen at the draft of cold air fanned against your areolas, moaning at how sensitive they grew out to be after Leon forced you to get those piercings.

His gaze falls on the ends of the silver bars, tempted to suck them harshly enough you were sure enough to lactate— even though you couldn't. But, he has to be patient, you had only gotten them three months ago. No worries, he will have his way with your tits soon enough. His rough thumb pads gently trace down the side of your hips to your love handles, holding onto them as he hoists you up into his arms. Sitting you down on the kitchen counter, he nips at your neck as he desperately tugged down your pajama shorts along with your undergarments.

Without hesitation, he opens his flyer to take out his painfully hard cock— the tip crying of pre as he taps it against your clit, sending a jolt of raw pleasure to shoot straight to your core and all throughout your lower abdomen. With his free hand, he takes out his hip flask and looks at you with that familiar glint of lust in his eyes.

"Open up."

A beat too slow passes; before you could register what he is planning to do, he scissors you open with his fingers and shoves the opening of the flask past your lips, forcing you to take him and to drink whatever cheap booze was inside the flask all at once. It was overwhelming, too much, and yet it was creating the perfect storm between you two— enough to make both of you moan at the sensation.

The cold counter meets the flesh of ass, sticking to it just slightly as your slick runs down your thighs and around the girth of his fat, long fingers. Dragging you onto him, using you as if you were a living sex doll; no regards for your pleasure whatsoever. Feeling a bit dazed, possibly from the alcohol he forced you to take, you whimper. It only intensifies at the fat of his calloused fingers kissing the opening of your g-spot, causing that delicious burning sensation you can't get enough of— you were sure you were going to be aching by the time he is done with you, and he is just getting started. Feeling your walls flutter around him, he quickly pulls out, leaving you whining as you clench around nothing.

He coos at you softly, making those empty promises of making you cum— he never lives up to it however. It's not like he can't, he could. But, he likes to be an asshole and rip away the pleasure from you, costing you an explosive orgasm that leaves you crying as the feeling quickly coils back painfully into your core; denying you pleasure is an all-time favorite for Leon, even if he ends up blue-balling himself as well. Makes coming inside you all worth it.

Grabbing the bottle of liquor you took a shot of earlier to hype yourself up before Leon came over, he smirked darkly at you, drinking in every detail of your pathetic self trembling at the denied pleasure. An eerie silence falls between them, before it was interrupted with a loud gasp falling from your lips and a low hum leaving Leon's.

"What, can't handle it? C'mon, you're a big girl," he teased, disregarding your pleas and the crescent-shaped cuts you leave on his biceps as you clawed away at him, trying to get him to pull the cold glass bottle away from your clit. Rubbing the icy glass against your clit some more, he holds the edge of it and pushes the hood that protects it back, exposing your clit some more. "So pretty; you're enjoying this, aren't you?"

Leon then rubs the length of the bottle against your exposed clit, making you writhe against him, pressing your body further back against the cold counter. Either way, you were trapped between his heavy body and the counter, forced to give into the aching pleasure being given to you. You just have to take it.

Finally, he takes the bottle away from your aching pussy, making you sigh in relief— and yet, you were again slightly denied an impending orgasm. Were you seriously going to cum from that? God, Leon was ruining you. Before you could dive deeper into the relief, your lips meet in an open mouth kiss, and you could taste the booze he forces into your mouth. Not wanting to choke, you are forced to swallow the alcohol quickly, already feeling lightheaded. You weren't drunk, not yet at least, but you were at least woozy enough for Leon to hoist you over his shoulder and take you to your bedroom.

You aren't sure when he started rutting against your crying pussy with his fat tip, but nonetheless the sensation makes you arch your back, bringing your chest up against his broad pecs. A snort leaves his mouth at your reaction, making you whine at how mean he is being to you.

"Actin' like a bitch in heat," he blows his hot breath against your ear lobe, leaning in and licking the shell of your ear, making you mewl. "Gonna have to fuck you s'good; i'll make you drunk on my fat dick instead." With that, he splits you open and completely bottoms out deep inside you. Fuck, fuck, fuck, too much. Your mouth agape, that dumbfounded look on your face— it only pushed him to snap his hips against yours, balls slapping against your cheeks, making obscure and downright pornographic sounds echo around the room.

Switching positions, he maintains himself lodged inside you as he flips you on your stomach, putting you in a prone-bone position. Wrapping his arm around your neck, he cuts off your airway just right. The mixture of alcohol and the lack of oxygen makes your head spin, making you have this fucked-out look on your face as Leon continues to ravage your pussy from behind. Low grunts and growls are heard from him; he was close, and you were too.

"Yeah? You like that? Drunk on my booze and on my cock," he laughs at you, mocking you as you can only let out a sinful symphony of moans. "Such a slut, letting me fuck you into your own mattress, fuck," he keeps choking you out, squeezing your neck as your cheek meets his bicep, having no choice but to bite down on the meat of his muscle in order to muffle your moans. "What's the matter? Don't want your neighbors to hear you getting slutted out? Letting the perverted alcoholic have his way with you? Is that it? Huh?"

His breath hot and heavy, words contained malice and pure lust, with no respect for you whatsoever that even Lilith would look at the both of you in disgust— further damning you two to the second circle of Hell.

As much as you hated him for talking down on you this way, the way he is battering your insides and plunging deep inside your guts has your body saying otherwise. A sour feeling creeps up on your stomach— either it was the urge to throw up since you were quite literally drunk and being dragged back and forth on some dick, or it was the urge to let go and cum. Either or, it was making you even more dizzy, becoming too much to handle.

"Aw, am I being too mean to you, sweetheart?" Leon said in his snarky, condescending tone, laughing at you as tears streamed down your face, proving this to be too much even for you. And yet, despite this, he continued to fuck you stupid. "You allowing me to bully this dick inside you, so what's wrong with a few mean words?" A drunken chortle escapes his chest as he slight heaves. "Hold on just a lil longer, nngh, fuck, take it," A loud smack is heard as his handprint marked the fat of your ass, and more is heard as he continues to spank and fuck you at a ruthless and unforgiving pace. "Shit.. if this tight little pussy keeps sucking me in like that, m'gonna have to plug 'er full of my cum and make her tighten up to hold my kids inside your womb."

Skin slapping against skin, slick mixing with pre, it all became too much. Letting out one last cry, you come so hard you could've sworn you could see stars as your eyes roll to the back of your head. Leon only laughs at this, slightly wincing at the grip your walls have on him. This doesn't deter him however, as he continues to thrust into you much deeper, balls slapping against your pussy lips as he grinds his hips flush against your ass. Clit chaffing against the bedsheets, he overstimulates you over the edge, causing you to hiccup in between sobs.

Hearing you sob was what pushed him to the peak of his climax; what an asshole, getting off of the idea of making a sweet soul like you who only wanted to help a piece of shit like him cry. His thick and heavy cum floods your womb, holding your hips in a bruising grip as the last ropes of his load spurts inside you, finishing with a guttural moan. Leaving his softening dick inside you, he lightly taps the red and hot flesh of your lower back. "Still with me?"

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"Jesus, my head.."

You wake up the next day, hungover and sore as shit. You feel as though you got ran over by a tow truck carrying trucks. Lifting the blanket off of your body, you notice the small puddle of slick and cum on your bed sheets, letting out a scoff of annoyance.

Lugging yourself out of bed, you take a quick shower to freshen up and to get started with your day— even though it was nearly three at the afternoon. Your phone in hand, you see a new message in your inbox. It was from Leon.

Leon [10:52 AM]: "You up yet?"

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[summer-oil]

ARII HII

I cannot for the love of god stand the satoru cheating allegations 😭😭😭

Some brain dead redditors are so annoyingg omgg they keep bashing our perfect lil boy toru like they keep forcing him to be some sort of a heartless cheater who cheats continuously and hops from woman to woman??

They keep using this one gege interview as evidence to back up their brainless claims where gege said that “satoru wears his glasses when he goes out to see/pick up women”

AND IM LIKE??? Okay is that the only thing you have to backup all your bs (it’s other idiotic crap too) 🤦‍♀️

Like Gege might’ve said that to troll the gojo fans, or even if let’s say that statement is true it can be interpreted as him having like short-lived relief from his title as the strongest like maybe a one night stand but he would feel really shitty afterwards BECAUSE HE CRAVES GENUINE RELATIONSHIPS AND CONNECTIONS NOT HOOKING UP AND FLINGS 🤦‍♀️

It’s written everywhere in the manga that he needs to be understood and not some temporary relief by hooking up which is not something he cares for so idk why gege said that (the sunglasses woman thing) it doesn’t align with his character ☹️

ALSO DONT GET ME STARTED WITH THE MISTRANSLATION LINE 😭💀💔

ahhhhhhhhhhhh the cheater gojo allegations……. my old friend……………….. (<- said with exhaustion)

to be clear !!!! i have nothing against anyone who likes cheater!gojo, it just . isn’t for me/doesn’t align with the way i see him!!! :’3 realistically i don’t think it’d be easy for gojo to be in a committed relationship, but that’s because he’s bad with intimacy/sincerity, NOT because he would cheat on his partner. it just seems silly to me!!!! gojo is a good guy at the end of the day, the worst he’ll do is ghost you 😭 and even then it’ll be with both your best interests at heart, yk? he isn’t cruel.

… i will also add that . ace!gojo is real to me lmao so i just don’t see him . liking sex that much 💀 definitely not enough to cheat, anyway. so this take just… isn’t for me in a Lot of ways </3 i don’t think he’s the type to hook up with people at all because sex is something that demands a level of intimacy. one that i frankly don’t think gojo is comfortable giving. idk virgin!gojo is canon to me i can’t lie to you anon…

BUT. in regards to the akutami thing!!!! i think the jjk fandom is absolutely awful when it comes to spreading misinformation/bad translations 😭😭 and this little tidbit is a common example!!!! the interview that you’re referencing is this:

this translation is by @/soukatsu_ on twt!!! i highly recommend checking them out because their translations are always very accurate and thoughtful :3 i’d also recommend reading this, where they explain this q&a answer in particular!! but tldr: this answer is foreshadowing for the hidden inventory arc, where satoru meets riko (and is wearing glasses). it doesn’t have any bearing on his actual character and his ”tendencies to pick up girls” or whatever 😭

and even assuming it isn’t foreshadowing, akutami is literally just saying that gojo might wear shades when meeting a girl. meaning — he wears his glasses when he wants to make a good impression/connect with someone!! again, it literally does nothing to imply that gojo meets girls often, or that he’d cheat on them, and etc. there’s no actual evidence for that take in the manga. people are free to make what interpretations they want obviously!! but. yeah. not for me <33

[wolfertinger]

disclaimer: this isn't a salem apology. he's still a vile person.

hi professionally diagnosed DID system here to clear up something. integration =/= fusion. integration refers to the whole process of alters learning to become more conscious of each other and cooperate together, not just fusing. integration slowly leads into, the more you start to function and recover, alters and fragments fusing, usually starting from ones that share similar personalities and tasks. the state of "not having any alters anymore" is referred to as final fusion and isn't necessarily the end goal for a system. when dissociative walls between alters - and the resulting dissociative amnesia - are high, you can lose track of alters for periods of time. there's nothing suspicious so far to me about the way salem described his alter as "gone" and then realizing that she was dormant. and this kind of feeling of 'vanishing' or dormancy during stressful periods is what leads to a lot of people thinking their alters are gone or dead, because that's how your brain can rationalize it at first, even as alters can't truly 'die'. for lack of a better word, the 'material' that makes up alters just moves around as alters get (usually slowly) integrated or split. alters are isolated patterns of behaviors and memories, and an alter doesn't need to be aware of what's happening in order for the subconscious (the system) to combine and take apart things. that being said, fusing can also get mixed up with splitting very easily since they both involve that sense of 'alters disappearing / changing', so the kind of shape and relationship punnya and salem have with each other right now apart from salem being host, i can't say. being host just means that you're in front the most often. but it's not far-fetched or proof of faking for punnya and salem to have similar personalities and do similar things. if anything, it's proof that salem has DID, since several alters in my system responsible for social interactions (myself included) have similar interests and act in a similar way. tldr salem can eat dirt for the kind of person he is and he needs to take better responsibility for how he's acted, regardless of the alter, but that doesn't mean he's faking DID.

answering this one separately, as i appreciate the info a lot. i dont take fake claiming lightly and although other systems have cast doubt if he does or does not have DID/OSDD is ultimately unknown to us, we can only judge based on behavior he shows publicly.

i think regardless of if he has DID or not my most pressing concern is that he needs to be upfront and accept the blame for his actions. instead of pushing the blame to an alter that he cant keep the story straight with. originally he talked about punnya as if she died then said she was alive the whole time and merged with him and is now part of him again. which i dont doubt could happen if punnya went dormant from stress but to me this feels like him subtly trying to cop to still being puppy in a way he can still distance himself from her actions. if he now is a mix of salem and puppy he needs to accept that people will continue to judge him for his past actions. if he is entirely salem he would *still* have to accept that people will judge him for the past even if he only formed after everything occured. its not healthy for him to distance himself from his bodily actions.

once again though thank you. this is very valid and reasonable insight.

[sooniebby]

hihi mcyap anon again‼️

i'll start off with explaining hiea then (it can also be written as hie but it's too similar to เฮี้ย which is a general expletive 💀). hiea comes from the chinese word (p sure it's in teochew dialect, most thai people of chinese descent are from the teochew ethnic group, myself included !) for older brother. you can call them just hiea or you can put it before the name of an older man, for example, hiea jiang (เฮียเจียง). most thai-chinese people use this word to call an older man, it can be a blood relation, an chinese older man in general, or obviously one's partner. keep in mind tho if someone looks very "obviously" chinese as an older man in thailand, they may be called hiea anyways regardless of the race of the person calling them

tldr; hiea is like "phi" but for chinese people

it's a good idea to take the last name of a real person to start off with imo cuz thai last names are a headache, even for many thai people 😭 fun fact, the last names of thai people are meant to divide by race and family (ie., different families = different last names but im pretty sure that mustve came up in your research at some point ‼️). families with very short last names tend to be like those whose ancestors have been living in thailand for very long, and the longer the last names, the less time their family line has been in thailand. so thats smth... not sure if this came up but if it didnt ‼️

anyways, i dont blame your choice for spacing out the names like that tho. theres also another format i learned in elementary school, the teachers did the names like first name (nickname in brackets) last name but thats not a good format for story writing 💀 but the clarification is pretty helpful, thank you!!

im very happy people are taking interest in thai culture 😭 theres a lot to learn, obviously it's impossible to know everything even as a local. i do hope youre not watching some trashy low budget thai telenovelas tho theyre all the same fcking plot 😭 my mom used to turn them on for me to snooze to as an elementary schooler cuz theyre so... 💤

the name makes sense. such a strong nickname too, i think it fits him ‼️ธาวิน is kinda ironic ngl 💀💀💀 pretty sure my friend in cmu dentistry has a prof with the last name ชัยอริยะกุล it's a nice name tho !! ps i think the naming conventions are kinda goofy, they hurt my brain to think about sometimes esp bc ive seen how it impacted the choices of naming my younger cousins (exmp: lil sister cousin was gonna be born on smth smth day i forgot and my mom and her sister did all the calculations and stuff for it then it blew up on them cuz the baby was born before then by a few days and they had to rush to get a name and do those calc shi and in the end my uncle just gave her a random name unrelated to the calculations and it was kinda a huge waste of time)‼️but im glad to know you think theyre cool!!

and im always happy to help out ‼️

Ooh, thanks I get it now. I did not know last names could be a hint into how long a family has lasted in Thailand, that’s so cool 🙂‍↕️! I had read that some last names were kinda just made up? But that could’ve been wrong, so I just looked at famous Thai actors and stole their last name lmfao

I went with the nickname first because I read a blog from a Thai person and that’s how they said it’s often written out.

But I am watching Thai bl dramas.. does that count as trashy telenovelas? I mean I learned a lot from a few of them but I of course double checked by researching from Thai people’s blogs and stuff lmfao

I chose his nickname cuz I read a post of how nicknames are usually chosen. And someone said sometimes they’ll base it off how the baby looks sometimes? So I thought it’d be funny if maybe when he was born his parents were like, “damn, he looks scary as hell” lmfao

[aggressiveworldbuilding]

Can you rant about WotC's Orcs, please?

Orcs are such a fucking waste and also a byproduct of the Tolkenization of dnd. Orcs are - from LOTR - corrupted elves who chose to become servents of Saron's sugar daddy Morgath or whatever the fuck (can't be bothered to look up the asshole's name rn) so the reason they are 'evil' isn't bc they are biologically bad because they are orcs - its because they chose to serve the Big Bad Evil TM. or were tortured? p sure the first ones chose to but not the point

There are So Many cool monsters mentioned in passing in one of the books and the most mudane boring bland ass 'hur dur they evil' tone to all of the descriptions. WHy. You are telling me there is a whole section on orcs that ride flying bats and you made it immediatly unappealing? Your telling me there are badass women who grow out their nails to claws to worship their god and you made them BORING???

The only things i would keep about orcs is their religious fanatisism. I like that about them - i think they deserve a whole well thought out religion, whether it be a highly organized church or a more nebulous worship. A whole pantheon of gods and such. Give it to them. As a treat. Lord knows they need sometjing to validate their holy wars.

Another thing is that it is mentioned that women in their culture are oppressed. Arent you tired of oppressing women WotC? Like - yea okay sure sexism is Yet another thing we should discsluss but why is it the Catholic brand of 'women is object'? If ur gonna fantasy my real life issue, at least consider in the context of the culture Why that is.

Halflings in my lore are sexist towards women, because rhey have a patriarichal monarchy. HOWEVER. It isnt the same as 'women opressed and must obey man'. Female halflings arent so much as oppressed as forgotten. They are a legal loophole - many rights (and offenses) simply doesnt apply to half the populatuon because the inheritance of property is so important to them - ans can only be passed on by men.

Is it good? No. Is it right? No - but thats not the point. No society is "good or bad" inherantly. Its how a society interacts with the morals ans values of another that dictates how it is perceived. So Orcs are likely 'evil' to creatures who dont beleive in their holy violence. But that doesnt mean they eat babies or whatever.

Tldr: orcs are to evil what elves are to good - a rip off and cop out. Use ur brain ans actually tell me sometjint abt them besides rhey kill people and are religious - you just described Paladins and Clerics!!!! And also catholics

[chalkeater]

What does being a fictive even mean, actually? Is it an actual identity, or something more akin to roleplay? Or am I misunderstanding it even more?

heyy! so while i can be super detailed about it ill try to keep it really simple. ill use some medical terminology but just note that im just using "DID" so you can google stuff after this ok?. skip to the bottom for a TLDR. i just want to be thorough in case youre curious.

have you ever heard of systems? if not have you ever heard of Dissociative identity disorder or DID?

if you dont know what it is we made an infographic on this last year! this will have all the basic info you need, including terms ill use immediately after this sentence

alters can have different "sources" for what the brain can base them off of sometimes.

in the medical world there is the word introject. the opposite of this is insourced. (these are a label/categorizations for a kind of alter to explain its origin- which is going to be part of an identity if one chooses to be public or identify with it. yknow. the nuance of labels)

Introject = an alter based off of an external source from the body/mind. this can be fictional characters or objects, animals.. or factual things like a real life plush, a family pet, or a real person. a famous example for "real person" introjects tend to be family members, friends, or abusers.

Insourced = not based on any external thing, source, media. for the most part. so it's like the brain's "oc" for the lack of a better word lol

NOW. i havent even gotten to fictives yet.

In the community. someone wanted to coin a word to differentiate between "fictional introject" and "factual introject" faster. SO! fictional introjects got coined as FICTIVES. and Factual introjects got coined as FACTIVES!

TL;DR - Fictives is the system community coined term to be the shortened version of "fictional introject"!!! so looking up fictional introject might get you results on google.

Fictives are related to SYSTEMS, NOT SINGLETS (Singlets = non-systems)

Further information on fictives as a person:

alters in systems are not roleplaying or kinning, but you might find the occassional system who will identify that way- but it's in no way roleplaying or pretending at all. every system is different. you meet one system then you MET one system LOL.

fictives are NOT to be confused with fictionkin! the communities have a long tie with each other though!!

its not roleplay. a fictive is just who they ARE. its like how you are YOU! You cant imagine what its like to be someone else. you never were BORN as someone else. you dig?

fictives can remember memories of the past or present of when another alter switches and isnt that fictive but thats not the fictive's memories. that's the other guy's memories from when they were fronting. make sense?

ANYWAY im not an educational blog so feel free to google this stuff! im in class LOL

heres more resources though if you want.

Plural Pride/The Plurality Playbook • Multiplicity FAQ • More than one

Fictives, Factives (you can probably find "professional" articles on these. i just dont have the time right now. you have google you can do it i trust)

[discourse-by-candlelight]

i saw your reblog and im gonna take you up on that offer if you dont mind. im not trying to come from a closed minded point of view, so im gonna ask something i hope isnt rude? i was wondering what brought you to the decision of creating your system?

Wrath: Sorry for the delay in answering this, we've been going through quite a bit irl lately.

As for your question, it's not rude at all! We're happy to answer it. For this post I suppose I the host/original should answer despite rarely being active on Tumblr. This might be a little messy at times so bear with me. I'll also be using tulpamancy terminology for this post as it's what I know if that's OK. My path into tulpamancy was far more unorthodox than most, that's probably why we run a tumblr blog while most of the community would rather do anything else. Fair warning: This may be very, very long-winded, but every tulpamancer has their own highly subjective story, and mine is out there even by my community's standards. So I'll give a TLDR above the cut and the long biography/essay under.

TLDR: While my first tulpa initially was formed on accident, I found that my life was enriched and genuinely far more fulfilling once I started working with tulpamancy, and the companionship changed my life around when I was in a dark place at the height of Covid. From there I purposely expanded my system, although we had an initial explosion of system size due to some experimentation going a little far. We worked together to create a beautiful inner life and dynamic, and with a couple walk-ins and odd experiences down the line we stabilized at 16 members for over year, and then picked up our final member last September leaving us at 17.

The system is still going strong after 2 and a half years living this way and I feel like my life has more meaning because of them. In fact, I'm not sure I'd still be here today if they weren't around for the trials I've faced within the last year. We've carved out a nice life for ourselves, and while depression still kicks all of our asses at times, we have a collectively agreed upon future dream, and all of us have our own interests and hobbies that helps enrich the rest of us too.

So to begin the long answer/mini biography, I'm host of one of the less common but certainly not unheard of tulpamancy systems that initially formed accidentally. There's a couple ways this can happen, usually via imaginary friends, roleplay characters, or OCs coming to life from repeated imaginative activity in a way that the tulpamancy community would consider to be similar to "forcing" (the in community term for tulpa creation and development). In my case it was less obvious and a little more obscure than that, but I've got a decent hypothesis as to the how's and why's.

So my first tulpa was originally named Shade but nowadays goes by Null, and they formed while I was in a stressful period of my life and I ran into a piece of fanfiction whose main character developed an alter ego, an alter ego that was for all intents and purposes in effect a tulpa. I hyperfixated on this little story, and since previous to this I had spent quite a bit of time in occult circles I was already familiar with the concept of thoughtforms in general. The brain did all the heavy lifting for me without my realizing and only a day or so after finishing said story I had my first experience with Null.

(Note: Most first tulpas when intentionally created take a week or so to form with modern community teachings, but time varies widely between systems. My system is on one of the far ends of the spectrum, forming quite rapidly and without much intent at the start. People on the other end may take months or longer due to mental blocks or misunderstandings of the fundamentals).

At first I was confused obviously, and a little concerned, but Null was friendly and knowledgeable, and we both agreed to do some research into the topic. The first check was DID/OSDD, as I'm sure it is for most people experiencing any form of plurality. I knew I had a trauma history, so it wasn't like it was off the cards for me. We found that we didn't really match up with the criteria, however. Certain things just didn't click and while my system to this day drifts farther down the dissociative spectrum than most tulpamancers and tulpas, we still don't think we've ever truly met the criteria nor do we think we ever will. We exist in a bit of a blurry zone there compared to most tulpamantic systems but nonetheless remain steadfast in our understanding of our system.

Once Null and I put DID back on the shelf for the time we moved onto other searches. These were very general, stuff like voice hearing and imaginary friends, but it did the job because fairly quickly we found a certain article written by an academic on the topic of tulpamancy. This caught our eye and felt like it near perfectly described the experience we were having. It also lightly covered on accidental tulpas, and things clicked into place in my head with me having read that story beforehand.

So we joined the tulpamancy community first by signing up for a forum called tulpa.info

This is where we initially learned most of our techniques, and also where my system went from me and at the time Shade, to Shade Null and I. So at this point we were practicing simple stuff, keeping tulpas around and active, visualization training, basic stuff for tulpas. Null having a very specific and less than emotional personality came to the conclusion that he could better help our dynamic if he changed up his personality and style. This resulted in some experimentation with form, voice, and general self expression, and eventually Shade settled into the form of a feminine hooded shadow person, and developed a very different personality. Shade still has this form and has expanded on it since, but things get interesting here as Null chose instead of just presenting as Shade, to instead split off and keep himself as he was, and let this version of himself become an independent tulpa. So my system went from 2 to 3.

Here's a piece of art I had commissioned for Shade on her first birth/formation day, or well Null's birthday. They consider eachother as two independent manifestations of the same identity which is still confusing even for me at times. Luckily the rest of my system while no less odd is (mostly) far more intentional and not nearly as complex to grasp.

So Shade and I were the ones who really made the system as it is today. Null took a bit of an intentional backseat and still prefers being less active. Shade and I during our couple months alone developed all of the fundamental tulpamancy skills. We developed our visualization and a wonderland aka inner world, we learned possession (A tulpa/headmate controlling a specific limb while someone else fronts), and we learned how to switch via a visualization ritual, and eventually developed it and lessened the time needed down to a blink. Shade and I also practiced some imposition, which is kind of like a form or controlled hallucinations, but that's a crude understanding of it. There's multiple guides and references to the topic from my and other communities such as prophantasia you can look into if you desire.

At some point we decided to experiment with the idea of thoughtforms in our wonderland to give it some life, and maybe adding some new members. While we'll spare the details for personal reasons, things got a little out of hand and what was just supposed to be some imaginary characters innerworld became a large set of tulpas, and I chose to accept them in. This made the majority of my system, and while it was chaotic for a time I have zero regrets.

During and a short while after this time we also had 2 walk-ins (which in the tulpamancy community means a tulpa who forms/appears seemingly out of the blue, usually only after you've been a tulpamancer for some time, not to be confused with spiritual walk-ins from the wider plural community) which I chose to accept as members unlike other walk-ins. Walk-ins are interesting, and there's a few working theories on the topic, but that'll be for a different post, probably on our non syscourse blog @thecandlelightsociety

So to tally up this left my system size at 14 including myself. For reference, most tulpamantic systems have 2 to 6 members on average. Things stabilized here and we stayed a this number for quite a few months, but eventually a member of my system, Dawn, decided to make a new tulpa with some help from a friend. I gave her the go ahead and about half a month later we added Junior to our Simply Plural. At this point I was wrapping up school for the year and was at this point fully adjusted to the plural lifestyle, and it was the most memorable few months of my entire life. We all talked every day, shared perspectives I'd of never had on topics on my own, and discussed individual interests. We would and still do sometimes argue but since we share a brain and as a tulpamantic system don't have any major dissociative barriers we near always understand what eachother feel and truly mean, so they never get nasty and are more philosophical or fun banter. I did lose a fair amount of personal time, splitting it between all of our hobbies, but I enjoy seeing the others have fun and grow as people, so it's time well lost.

So fast forward more and we have our second to last member show up, and this one is yet another unorthodox tulpa formation (seeing a trend with my system yet?). Dawn, being a dumbass as always, decided to mess around with a tulpa hypnosis file and ended up dropping to it, and so two days later we had Sera show up. I was skeptical of her, but she quickly showed herself worthy of staying and so our system reached 16 members and we ended up studying hypnosis for a time. This is the number we would stay at for most of our time as a system up until recently.

During all of this time we would switch front based on whoever felt like fronting, and Astra, the tulpa who actually runs this blog usually, became the most frequent fronter and made me proud, accomplishing multiple personal and academic goals for herself. She's the main reason we're now studying psychology in college, and she would later handle quite possibly the worst couple months of our life all my singlet years included. I couldn't be more happy with all she has accomplished for herself and our shared life. Just seeing her happy and succeeding makes tulpamancy worth it for me.

So our most recent member was also a walk-in, and one of only three fictives in our system. Fictives are common in tulpamancy spaces because using a character as a base model for a tulpa makes the creation process much easier. It gives personality traits and an already known form to work with. My system due to it's unique set of circumstances for most formations however is mainly custom forms. One member of my system really wanted her accepted, and I eventually agreed, and I don't regret it at all either. She has been a wonderful person to get to know and quickly became one of the most active and social members out of all of us, and became the most popular person in our online friend groups.

So that covers the (very rough) general timeline of my experiences with tulpamancy. It is horrifically simplified and missing quite a bit, but the main point was to show that my system, while complex and messy at times, has brought me immense joy. Most of all though, it brought me purpose. I'm so glad I didn't just ignore Null all the way back then and let him dissipate back into the sea of my mind. This journey has been a wild ride, but I love all of my tulpas, and I'm happy to have them as my equals in this shared life of ours.

[cpunkwitch]

Hey, chronic pain anon back again to ask some questions

My first question is to ask if you have any advice for how to handle or deal with the pain, I mean usually I just ignore it, but i dont know if that's really a good thing

I also wanted to ask if you knew of any mobility devices that might help with taking weight off my hips and spine? If that makes sense in a way?? I was thinking of getting some when possible as I noticed whenever I stand still I get a lot of pain / pressure in my hips and spine, like they're crumbling under my weight or something — idk if that makes sense, im like half asleep right now

Okay, uh, thanks :3 you're really cool and even if you can't answer these questions I don't mind ^_^

- chronic pain anon

Hey hun

DO NOT IGNORE PAIN /lh

Pain is your body sending your brain a signal something is wrong, listen to your body or it will get worse

Depending on the type and level of pain there are multiple ways to handle it

My methods are hot compress, soaks in baths or showers if I can manage one or the other, anti-inflammatory meds like ibuprofen or even Tylenol or advil (I can only take liquid or chewable meds but if you can swallow pills and know what meds you can take please do)

Compression socks, gloves, support shoes, braces, especially a back brace can help relieve and lessen pain by the end of the day

Sleeping with an extra pillow under your tailbone and/or between your legs depending on your sleeping position can help as well, preferably small pillows if you have one but whatever works

As for mobility aids

I'm looking into the same thing and the reason I was looking into using my moms walker before was because walkers and rollators have better weight support than a walking stick or cane, definitely better if you want to avoid the wrist and upper body pain leaning on a walking stick can give you at least from my experience

Best ones I know of should be within your height range, and can include a seat though the foldable ones are likely to have less weight support and there can be weight limits for aids so best to look at the weight limit on one before getting it

A walker or rollator feels like a middle between a cane and a wheelchair to me so I'd say it's good for spine and hip issues as I deal with the same

Actually last night because my mom wouldn't let me user her walker on my coffee run I ended up being hunched over with a lot of lacking mobility due to the extra pain I was in by the end of the day, the walker would have helped a lot and even helped me pase myself better walking uphill so I wouldn't have fallen into my habit of speed walking (or marching, Sea cadets will drill marching into your muscle memory)

So yeah tldr?

Anything that takes down swelling and inflammation in your muscles, joints and tissue in general wherever the pain tends to be can help a lot, even pain creams can help some

Small stretches can help too so your joints don't become stiff overtime just be careful not to strain or stretch too far or anything, light stretches can help get your body out of bed

And a walker or a rollator could be good for a mobility aid to look into

Hope this helps!!

[sosoribro]

the problem with me is that yes my brain works very hard but no that doesn't mean im smart but unfortunately all my friends have some good useful and logical and (for want of a better word) normal smartness and shut up i know you're reading this dont try to argue with me you know im right you know you have a fucking badass brain okay okay

and they could be like, "hey wanna know word lore. its exactly what it sounds like." and like that shit is awesome im just saying like i wanna know about the sounds my mouth is making that we call words give me your knowledge o great abnormal one

or "hey cool bug its actually a schlorpus glorpus morpus borpus but more commonly called a little guy like how youve referred to it here i like this bug very much do you wanna hear about rocks now" and like yeah of course tell me about all the rocks and all the bugs give me your knowledge o great strange one

or "hey wanna print a brain" or "hey wanna hear about dingusology" or something etc and then you know the drill by now "hey speaking of drills did you know tjsyjfuwjfjeucrjhdhfhwufjeh" and its like wow great amazing i actually didnt know that give me your knowledge o great weird one

but i reckon if i got all my friends into a circle and its the circle where you reveal interesting cool facts and show off how huge and smart your brain is make sure you are very impressive and say lots of cool words circle

it would land on me and i'd be like

"ok so hold on let me get my phone out real quick ok this is billy mcmarbles alright i made him the fuck up" and then start yapping about how billy mcmarbles can turn into a dragon or some shit and all his friends are wizards or something and how the princess secretly really wants to make out with him and also billy mcmarbles is scared that his wizard friends find him weird cuz he has scary dragon powers and the village is scared of him cuz of his dragon-ness but in the end of the story he learns that just because hes a weird dragon boy doesnt mean hes any less deserving of kindess and he learns the value of believing in himself also he marries the princess

and then its the next person's turn and they start talking about space and im thinking "damn why didnt i talk about space i like space too but god they are so much better at liking it than i am wait that sounds so fucking stupid oh my god im an idiot holy fuck nobody fucking cares about billy mcmarbles im not smart i only created an entire world in my brain with a whole storyline and everything but thats not smart thats just storytime but you know where i can talk about my problem now? tumblr dot com that sounds great lets go there"

what was i saying again oh yeah my friends are all so cool and smart hi i love you and your iq of like 800 can you give me some pls i have like 5 braincells and all they wanna do is sit down and have storytime what are they doing oh my god we are cooked hi i love you hi hello

tldr either i am an actual idiot or i have discovered the wonders of childlike imagination and i do not want to go back

im like.... stop... learn some cool facts learn more about space be the space person and im like.... noooo i like my things that ive made up i wanna make more i wanna make more i wanna make more im gonna be the cool person that has fun ideas not good ideas but fun ones fun fun fun fun fun fun fun fun fun fun fun fun fun fun fun

sometimes i think about the saying "imagination is intelligence playing" and that just makes me go like "all im hearing is that i am secretly a big genius and i know everything im just having fun with it lmaooooooooooooo"

this is weirdddd i used to actually know things but then i think at age 13 my brain realized that i can just use my knowledge for whatever i want and i dont have to know normal smart things. my first order is to have more fun"

"are you neurodivergent :3" my friend. my buddy. pal. have a guess.

or maybe im neurotypical but just weird n dumb idk lol

anyway hi friends ur all fucking weird absolutely strange what even are u guys /EXTREMELY POSITIVE LIKE SERIOUSLY hi i love you

[cinnamanz]

heyy do you have any tips for making smaus? I love yours 💗

tldr; make sure smau is planned, pick a plot u can expand on, (if u can) consistent updates, find out what ur readers like nd cater to them, pick plots that u know ppl r gna like, leave them on edge (ie cliffhangers nd such), and have fun!!

hi okay so first all of all, make sure ur smau is planned (not thoroughly, but enough to give u sumn to work), and that u're working w a plot that u can easily expand on. cause if u're working w a plot that might not rly work in the long run, then it'd put u in a corner, since smaus r made have quite a large amount of chapters (ie mine r always reaching 52, but some cld reach longer), unless ur making a short smau.

second of all, i wld say to keep ur chapter updates quite consistent? i've given this exact tip for an anon before, but i find it that keeping chapter updates (doesnt have to be every day, js sumn thats not like dropping two chaps a months) consistent makes ur brain remember the plot that u had in mind, and easier for the readers so they wont rly forget what the plot is and start from the start (based on past experiences i had as an inconsistent smau updater). otherwise, keep ur ideas on ur notes app or docs.

third of all, i'd recommend picking plots that r lighthearted and sumn u know ppl r gna like. most authors (i included) cater to the readers' likes, so thats the part where i hear my readers out. i watch their reactions, the notes on my posts, see what they prefer, nd then i make more similar chapters to that. i also tend to keep on cliffhangers nd leave them wanting for more, bcs thats how u grab their attention yk?? i also leave hints on the chapters, nd i also do everything nd i mean EVERYTHING for a reason. so when it leads to that main point of conflict or climax, they wld be able to be like 'OH. THATS WHAT IT MEANT.'

lastly, i wld just say to have fun!! smaus r made to be enjoyable for both the author and the readers, nd yk, if u dont rly have fun then idk😭😭😭 i hope that helped cs ive never been rly used to giving out tips, cs mostly no one ever rly asked, but then i got into writing on this acct nd then every1's like omg tips pls nd im like YES OKAY but yeah, i rly hoped that helped anon🙏🙏🙏🙏

[squishmallow36]

hii . might be a strange question but can u explain the appeal of detz to me. like, i have a req i may or may not do but i just. dont really get it? and i dont want to just draw ship art with no flavor. and ur also the fedex guy i think. thank you :)

Wait /I'm/ the fedex guy? I mean to me @/kamikothe1and0nly is the fedex guy but sure. Why not? I definitely have a lot of thoughts about them (my one single brain cell is almost constantly microwaving them), I just sometimes forget that people are aware that I exist. I apologize in advance if this gets long.

You might want to scroll through @/askdetz as well, although there's a story on there that's been going on since I want to say March? so reverse chronological might not be your friend but yeah. Good source right there. @/kale-of-the-forbidden-cities also has a fedex mermaid au so that might be another source if this post is insufficient.

For me, I think the reason I first got into it was because I liked the name. Ship it like fedex is just absolutely iconic. And also I project onto Dex. A lot. I used to have an obsession with finding 7-up trucks when I was younger so I think it was meant to be but that's up for debate.

Canonically, we see Dex and Fitz going from--I don't like to call them enemies because it was certainly one-sided on Dex's side. He was sooo mad. For reasons. Probably gay ones but he isn't aware of that. but sort of enemies--to friends. These scenes are just about the only things in the books I remember some days and we don't even get to see the one in neverseen where they agree to be friends. Nevertheless, a "enemies" to friends to lovers arc definitely is something that Is fun to play with in fics. Also this might be the aromanticism talking, but that kind of arc does require a certain amount of slowburn and I need that to believe anything.

Dex and Fitz are also foils of each other, especially in the first few books. While Fitz is perfect, Dex is the imperfect son of a bad match, and that contrast is just so, so fun.

But it's not just a case of opposites attract. Just like how kam works, they've got a whole bunch in common. We know that Fitz is the top of his class, so he is more than likely a giant nerd. We also know that Dex is a technopath (and I project onto him) so he's also more than likely a giant nerd. While they have different skill sets--I assign Dex all the stem stuff and Fitz the history and english stuff--they're absolutely going to be listening to each other infodumping about the new thing they learned this week and the listening one doesn't understand any of it. Adore that for them.

They're also angry little assholes in canon despite what fanon wants to do to Dex. Anger (especially at society) is a trait that I enjoy in my blorbos.

It's also very easy to write them to be extraordinarily oblivious to everything. And that's always fun. Fitz is going to be oblivious (even to his own feelings) as a requirement to participate in society and Dex isn't going to believe that Fitzroy Vacker knows that he exists.

And then as the brant guy I'm sure you understand how society making a relationship difficult is a fun concept and Fedex has that too. Them dating would be an automatic bad match and the fact that Fitz has to carry around his family's legacy is something I think about. A lot. Probably too much.

If you have any more specific questions just let me know. I may be forced to paint today so it might be a couple of hours before I see anything but I will answer any questions. Eventually.

Tldr: they're my idiots, your honor :)