#tw: implications of grooming

[kendallroygf]

mysterious skin + succession

[gorentaya]

A child forced to grow up early

[hippityhoppityyourenowmyproperty]

Am I the only one who was really creeped out by the way Millie, a grown adult, encouraged teenage girls to keep making advances on her in "Unhappy Campers"? You can't look at this

And tell me Millie didn't know they had romantic feelings for her. Like, if you're an adult, it's your responsibility to put an end to the advances of a minor. This whole situation is made worse by the fact that Millie is pretending to be a teenager as well.

She loves the attention she is getting from them. She enjoys it, and it never once crosses her mind that what is happening is a bit fucked up.

Oh and also, if one of the underage kids send her a nude in her dm...yeah no Millie, you should've stopped interacting with them. No matter how desperate she was for validation, she shouldn't have allowed this.

[cauldronofmorning]

(for the sickos <3)

[bugsnstuff313]

Chocolate and Wine

A bird sings as it travels the gilded cage,

while its young owner talks on the phone, her words blinded by rage.

The warmth of pink and red, an ode to the young woman's lust,

an older man speaks on the phone his words try to soothe her distrust.

Strawberry blonde braids, cascading down her back,

the dove coos once more trying to attract.

Abandoned boxes of chocolate litter her dresser, and her eyes soften at the bleeding heart that calls for her.

[krispycreamcake]

It has come to my attention that people in the fandom don't understand the use of implication, so I will now break down easily as possible for people that don't believe Cordelia sexually groomed Laito. @dl-drama-cd (Tws for rape and incest)

The conversation atop is one shared between Laito and Cordelia. Take note of the background. It is a bedroom. Not the garden or the kitchen or somewhere aesthetic in the moonlight, it is a bedroom.

A bedroom is used for sleeping or as Reiji likes to call it, private activities. We all know that people who usually share a bed are relatively close in terms of relationship, it doesn't matter what kind, they just need to be close.

Cordelia shares no emotional/maternal bonds with her sons. She is often described as crass or cold. Why are her and Laito in a bedroom together if they do not share such a bond?

A bed in media is often used (with context) as a symbolism for lovers sleeping together, because that's exactly where it happens.

How do we know that something more sinister is going on than just a mother and son talking? We can figure this out based on the conversation.

Let's look at what's said between the two.

In the first image, Laito poses a question to Cordi. He asks her, without explicitly saying what "it" is, what's her reason for doing this?

This is a canon interaction between these two characters, where character 1 (Laito), is unaware of the intentions that character 2 (Cordelia) possess. Which is why he is asking her, why she is doing "this", because he does not know why this is happening to him.

Cordelia then explains, also again without directly saying anything, that she does "this" because she loves him. This is Cordelia's reasoning and answer to Laito's previous question.

That's pretty straightforward, I don't think we need a paragraph long analysis on that.

Laito, who then repeats the word, love, in a questioning manner.

Why does he do this instead of just accepting her answer as is?

Because he is simply not satisfied with such an answer. Why isn't he just accepting her word as is? We, don't yet know because once again, the context in this current conversation is not said.

Continuing, we see Cordi backing up her previous statement by saying that there is no world out there where a mother doesn't love a son, and if there is, what kind of world would it be?

She tries to explain that Laito shouldn't question her actions, but rather accept them as they are, because that's an inherent profession of love between mother and son.

Laito, in response, flatly says that a world without love between mother and child, is the one that they live in.

In other words, Laito does not accept that "this" is what paternal love truly is. He believes that his mother does NOT love him, which we can easily pair up with his earlier question "Love?".

Now that we have some form of context to the character's inner thought process and what they are currently feeling, we can put together some pieces on what kind of conversation is actually going on.

At a first glance it can be assumed that a son is doubting his mother's love for him, because well, that's exactly what's happening.

But if we speculate a bit more on the background, and the given context of the conversation, we can now say that the truth of the situation lies within the more subtle clues.

Example #1.

This memory, isn't a pleasant one. This conversation has already happened and Laito is simply remembering it. You can use the images provided to reverse google search the complete scene for further proof, but as already stated, this is NOT a conversation he is very fond of.

Example #2.

The conversation that these two are having, shows us that one person is satisfied while the other isn't for whatever reason that may be. I've broken it down already so you can understand it a bit more, but feel free to once again do your own research.

Example #3.

The implication of the background. Like I've previously stated, I broke it down at the start of this post. But let me be absolutely clear and reiterate this, THE REASON THE BACKGROUND IMAGE IS HAPPENING INSIDE A BEDROOM AND NOT ANYWHERE ELSE (even though you can suck someone's blood anywhere you wanted to) IS BECAUSE THE CONTEXT LIES WITHIN THE BEDROOM ALONE. The creators didn't just randomly choose a free png of a bedroom for a conversation where a child asks a parent why they're doing something, that the child feels like diminishes the sole intent of paternal love. Context clues, matter.

Now then, I'll go on to add another image where I'll make a very short and factual analysis without hypotheticals or opinions being used.

Laito in this scene, is completely naked. He is naked and with a solemn expression on his face, thinking about his mother pleasuring him. He is also reminiscent on the words his mother has told him, that being "I love you, Laito".

Cordelia then says that "That kind of thing is just something given in exchange" when the words I love you, are said. Laito, once again, admits that he was being pleasured while thinking of his mother. [End analysis]

We can speculate that since he is thinking of his mother and pleasure at the same time, she is the one who is giving it to him.

Why do I think this? Because he is completely naked, his only thoughts being his mother's voice. That being said, we can now say that what is being "given in exchange" in Cordelia's words, after saying I love you (or perhaps vice versa, where I love you comes first) is pleasure.

I have a couple of links here we can make with these couple of images alone.

In the first part, we see them talking in a bedroom and the conversation eventually leads to satisfaction, in terms of "once I am satisfied with the outcome, there should be no question". She also references love here, as she does in the latest image I have provided.

With the context that we have now we can equate love to pleasure. And Cordelia states that she loves Laito multiple times throughout just these two scenarios.

Now, my interpretation of this is that Cordelia is clearly raping her son and using "love" as a means to mask, and more so, normalize what is happening between them. (I say normalize because Cordelia tries convincing Laito that this is what goes on between mother and son in the first conversation).

However, even if you do not share the same perspective, it is still abundantly clear that Cordelia Sakamaki, first wife of Karlheinz, daughter of King Burai of the Vibora clan, mother of Ayato Sakamaki, Kanato Sakamaki and Laito Sakamaki, is giving sexual pleasure to her son. Whether it is by bloodsucking, or by sex, or both.

She is sexually grooming Laito by giving him these sensations a mother should not be giving her child, and is committing an act of incest.

[dumbgoondog]

Yuta NSFW Alphabet

Cw/Tw- yandere implications, stomach bulge, degradation, CNC, power dynamics, pervert, rough, hyper sexual

Hiii Yuta baby, love you boo

(A)ftercare - please please please don’t think you can go anywhere without him now. He’s trying to make you food, get you and him a bath running, massages, and so much love. Praise, kisses, light after teasing just because he loves the way you twitch.

(B)ody Part - Hard to name one part, but he loves the bulge in your tummy<3

(C)um - oh in you every time please! As many times as you’ll let him, and he can go a LOT. As deep as possible too!

(D)irty Secret - hah! Which one. That he keeps taking your dirty clothes on long missions to keep him “company”? That he saves your selfies to a jerk off folder to use and imagine to even before you’ve started dating? That he was more rough with you last night because some guy was flirting with you and you didn’t even realize?

(E)xperience - None. “B-but he had a wife!” I just think he’s super super fucking repressed. His precious Rika? How could he ever taint her like that? She’s shown no interest in it! He’s a ticking time bomb

(F)avorite Position - any where he can see himself pumping in and out of you. God it’s a spectacle seeing you take all of him!

(G)oofy - hey look… not really. He’s nervous and softer spoken around friends, but when he gets down to business and work? Not really. He does come more and more undone the longer you let him go at it and the more times he comes.

(H)air - groomed, but he’s got hair! It’s like an upside down heart. He smells good too! It’s kinda a cold smell, like rain in the city, graves, and a doctor office. He loves a good bush, trimmed or wild! He loves it! He doesn’t mind shaved either!

(I)ntimacy - He’s so sweet… he’s giving you so many kisses as he’s breaking the backboard, he’s holding up your thighs watching you whimper and those pretty eyes start to tear up from how much it all is. “Ah- baby I’m so sorry- you look so pretty, I’m sorry I’ll get a heating pad once I finish alright?” He’s rough, he’s apologetic, he’s thinking of only you.

(J)ack off - often. As soon as he’s figured out all of the workings of Rika-gami? Whenever and as much as he can. He’s addicted to that high, the pleasure.

(K)ink - please don’t laugh at him… roleplay. Sorcerer on curse roleplay. He wants you to play the curse and he’s a sorcerer coming to exercise you but things get steamy! Oh and if you’re up for it, maybe taking it a bit darker and lean into making it a CNC scene

(L)ocation - preferably the bedroom, but if you rile him up enough? Anywhere works. Hood of a car, alleyway, rooftop, anywhere.

(M)otivation - he’s like Curse!Yuji in that most things get him going, but for Yuta it’s things that can be misconstrued. Eating ice cream? No. The ice cream drips on your chest? A bit. You asking him to clean it off for you? Yes.

(N)o - most things are on the table, hard to think of anything he’s not up to at least try

(O)ral - he loves kissing you and giving you hickeys like he’s a vampire. Marking what’s his, seeing his work? Beautiful. Oh but also, he loves giving your oral, and he loves receiving!

(P)ace - Fast and rough! If you ask for him to be gentle he’ll try, he’ll start slow, but then he’s apologizing and fucking you rough like some animal. My advice? Try some ropes and cuffs!

(Q)uicky - please please please. Even if he doesn’t get to cum, please. He’s addicted to you and the pleasure. He’s worried he’s turning into an incubus or something!

(R)isk - god yeah. Risking getting caught? He fucking loves it. “They’re gonna ah- hear you-! Sorry baby you gotta be more mph- quiet, unless you wanna get caught~?”

(S)tamina - A lot. Training with Gojo, with Miguel, keeping up with Rika, Yuji, and Sukuna? Oh but he will be cumming at LEAST 3 times. One from foreplay, one from pleasure, one from you cumming. At least 3.

(T)oys - doesn’t own any, super embarrassed too. He’s very educated about them though!

(U)nfair - pretty unfair sorry :( he’ll apologize tho! It’s cute<3

(V)olume - Starts off pretty even, but each time he cums makes him louder

(W)ild Card - you can peg him.

(X)-ray - plain black boxer briefs except for one pair of briefs that is pink with cat prints. Thanks Toge.

(Y)es - Degrading you. Surprise! As he’s ramming into your guts like you owe him money, while he’s still apologizing even, he’s degrading you.

(Z)zz - it’s not common for him to want to sleep after, he’s just not tired. He’ll happily cuddle you after though! Just don’t leave him! Ever.

[suzukiblu]

Day eleven of “obligatory sugar baby Kon” behind the cut. tw: implications of past grooming/abuse and the inherent problems that causes for someone who was in that situation and hasn’t processed it trying to have a relationship with someone actually age-appropriate. prev: (( chrono || non-chrono ))

“Uh–is it?” he asks, not really sure what else to say. Or more like, not really sure what else to say that would not sound both desperately, desperately horny and desperately, desperately weird. 

“I dunno,” Kon replies, giving him a quick, sheepish little smile. “Just makes me feel good, that you think I’m worth, like–taking out and showing off, or whatever. Like–without the S-shield on, even.” 

“The S-shield would definitely make date night a lot harder to enjoy, yeah,” Tim says, torn between wanting to kiss him and wanting to dissolve the entire entertainment industry and all of Kon’s previous romantic interests in acid from the ground up. Slowly. Kon blushes again, his smile widening. 

“And, uh–and that,” he says, glancing sidelong. “And that you wanna hang out with me without anybody interruptin’.” 

I want to hang out with you until I overthrow Gotham AND Metropolis and then I want to install a zeta between them and the biggest beachfront property you’ll let me buy for you and any little Kon 2.0’s you let me make you, Tim’s most insane self thinks and his slightly more rational current self does not say, because he has at least some small and tiny and miniscule scraps of self-control. 

Like, barely, and only lasting until the fifteen-year sidekick-to-supervillain plan goes off, but still. 

“I definitely don’t want anyone interrupting, no,” he agrees instead, and Kon beams at him again and then ducks in and kisses him again–just a quick little peck, but definitely still a kiss. Tim, belatedly, realizes that Kon might actually be getting more up in his space than he was before the whole . . . script issue happened. Just–standing closer, and leaning in a little more often, and things like that. Not in a demanding way or anything; just like he wants to be there a little more often. 

Like maybe he’s a little more comfortable being there, now. Or like maybe he thinks he can do it without anything being–expected from it, maybe. 

Tim doesn’t even know if Kon’s doing it on purpose or not, but he’s definitely noticing a difference either way. Just–there is very much a difference there to be noticed. 

He is definitely, definitely not going to be able to find out who any of Kon’s exes are before he goes supervillain. That’s just not going to work out for his timeline at all. 

Also Bruce would absolutely get upset if he found out about whatever he ended up doing about it, and he’s an emotional support sidekick, not, like, an intern or whatever. He is not here to cause problems, he is here to facilitate Bruce’s mental health, help him manage his paranoia, and minimize the amount of overkill beatings of petty thugs and small-time criminals. 

Admittedly Bruce managing his paranoia is not going great, but it’s a process, alright? He’s doing his best here. 

“So like, if we do go shopping again, wanna pick something out for me to wear for you next time?” Kon asks, still beaming at him. Tim’s brain attempts to reboot a couple dozen times before he manages to remember how to string a coherent sentence together. 

“Yes,” he says in an almost normal-person voice. Maybe. Theoretically. He . . . hopes, anyway. “Uh–yeah. That sounds, uh–like something I would like to do.” 

It’s a little harder to focus on the supervillain thoughts with Kon both wearing that expression and actually asking him to buy him something–especially specifically something he wants to wear for him–so that’s helpful for keeping to his timeline. But also, uh–embarrassing, kind of, because usually Tim is better at thinking than he currently is being. Like, his normal thought processes are a lot more involved than Kon’s so hot and Kon’s so CUTE and hurr durr pretty boy. 

He definitely still wants to ruin some people’s lives, but first he wants to get Kon dinner and dessert and buy out a boutique or four for him, and just like, a small suburb. Or town. City. Tri-state area. 

And also to pick out something for him to wear “next time”, since apparently Kon still wants there to be a next time that he sees Tim Drake and also just like . . . just the whole thing with the picking out something for him to wear thing, because Tim only has so much self-control, alright? He is doing his best here, but he’s only an emotional support sidekick, alright, he’s not made of stone. 

Seriously, Kon asked him to dress him and asked him to buy him something. Tim is not actually sure if he’s more thrilled about actually getting Kon to specifically ask him to buy something for him or frazzled over Kon offering to let him pick out something for him to wear. Just–god. Tim is just not even–Tim does not know what he’s feeling right now. Just–whatever it is, he is feeling it. 

He wonders if it would be, like, a little too pathetic of him to maybe get Kon another crop top. Or, uh, a little too thirsty of him. 

. . . probably, yeah. Probably definitely, in fact. 

. . . . . . but like, if Kon sees one he likes, it's not like Tim's gonna say no or–

Anyway. 

[genericruleroftheflies]

TW: discussion of the pig killing scene and its implications (simulated SA)

Chapter 8 referenced and discussed, please be mindful. Thank you!

While I agree with almost everyone that Lord of the Flies and the cast of young boy characters is not really the appropriate place for NSFW shipping, I do think a conversation or discussion about how the pug slaughter scene is s*exual in nature is important.

Like it isn’t even implied. It’s is explicitly, obviously, in the words on the page stated that the boys in the book do not just kill the *female* pig, they also find amusement at shoving a stick “right up her ass” to quote the novel:

Now, of course you can take a more child-like innocent read of it as well, I do at the same time believe Robert and Maurice do think it’s funny to pretend to be a pig running away from getting killing (regardless of where the kill comes from).

The reason why I think it’s imperative not to lose this conversation/discussion, though I would never want real life child to act it out personally, is that the sow is essentially the only female character present on the island and we see what becomes of her. The boys even id they aren’t fully aware of what they are doing… don’t just kill her. They kill the pig then assault her and laugh about it. I believe that is in part what is horrifying about Lord of the Flies.

As we’ve seen with a show like adolescence for example. Young boys are raised (often groomed) to be monsters.

This is a pseudo-r*pe scene. And I genuinely think it’s important not to erase this scene from the novel. While again, I think this is totally different from like a slash fic of the boys. This is horrifying. And it’s meant to be.

There are multiple gruesome scenes, even quick ones in Lord of the Flies that often get forgotten because in adaptations with real life boys (for good reason) they are sometimes omitted, and I think this is the most notable one because it is a scene of yes… young boys more or less essentially SA-ing an animal. Like they aren’t subtle about it. I hate to say. They wouldn’t be laughing about “right up her ass” if it was innocent.

Disclaimer: I have said a couple times throughout this I am not for like NSFW LOTF stuff. I’m also not for like doxx or attacking people who do that. I have complicated feelings on all of it. I am someone who has been in this fandom a while now so I do understand both sides genuinely! I hope everyone can understand my intentions here are not to sexualized the characters but to explain something I genuinely think is of narrative and thematic importance!

[cauldronofmorning]

Me when I’m in a grooming competition and my competitors are these two:

[sevs-corner]

Tf 141: On the Run AU! (bluegiragi’s: Monster AU)

You realizing that you chose to be stuck with them

Masterlist here! | OG Idea here!

Song Inspo for this hehe:

Tw: 18+ MDNI | Sexual Implications | Stockholm moments

“Thinkin’ about you, you’re in my head”

There’s never a moment when they aren’t— not with them being with you in every single moment at every open opportunity.

You, their pretty little bird stuck in a cage called their mansion, were never alone.

From waking up in the arms of a wraith, with the chill seeping into your skin to the warmth that envelops your face every time the dragon exhales in a snore— your life simply revolved around them.

Your scent just littered with a toxic mix of them.

And when you finally get that solitude in the bathroom, head under water as you try to sink into the feeling of entering the vast nothingness which you imagine calling the ocean- which, in actuality, is just your bathtub- made you think.

Think of the life you once had.

But it comes up empty.

Except for the moments you share with the guys ever since you arrived at their mansion.

Soap would always encircle you with his presence, nose simply attached to the skin on your neck and arms usually found around your midsection, hands steadying at your hips.

And you wonder how it felt so cold without him during nights in the arms of the others— his alternate form giving you the right amount of comfort and temperature that makes you slumber instantly, yet waking up to the intruding thought of wanting more.

Gaz would often be at your side cooking and grooming. His food always so delicious and scrumptious— just to what you were craving off. He would gently prod your mouth open, a piece of food between his claws as he gently guides it to your anticipating self— suddenly being and wanting to be satiated by something more.

This makes you see how much you’re relied on him to feel confident in yourself when you look at your reflection in the water or even at the vanity angled across you.

You realize how bathing felt less like a chore with him, as Gaz acts as your buffer between showering to take your mind drift and to bask in the pleasure he’d routinely for you.

Price is man that you ended up caring more than you’d like, with him acting as everyone’s support in moments of strife. He’s the type who would let you love him.

Constantly asking for your alliance and the mind games they were playing made you… stay and play another day for your survival.

Price offers that external protection which makes you feel safe enough with a bunch of simple clothes that is forcing his hand and making it perforates in your mouth.

Ghost, on the other hand, is gentle. Carrying stuff for you, leaving lingering shadows that monitor you when you’re left alone so he can swoop in at the right moment.

Ghost is a handful, and it is telling how much so by the mark left— especially on your upper middle of your thigh. He is possessive, so much so that he would rather leave and find another.

Ghost lets you do whatever, under the guise of regaining your freedom but in actuality, you tasted water— letting you partially taste it and go madly drunk regardless whether Simon had tampered with enough so he could keep you and still as it closed relief.

From the on, you wonder about a life without them when they’re right there.

All of it coming crashing down as the evening delays further into the night, with you being pulled out of the bath by Simon and fixed up by Gaz.

And you find it hard in yourself to pull away- to feel disgusted when they’ve been nothing but caring since the beginning.

At that thought, maybe you should have started becoming more intimate and open to talks but…

Oh.

They were just waiting for that singular “okay” before they all pounced on your parts like its there was no tomorrow.

And you think.

In a breathless whisper of each other names, makes you think how this isn’t too bad, that a life as theirs was now your very lone option.

[nightcolorz]

if u are comfortable with this topic, do u have any thoughts about (tw: marius) how armand would think about what happened with marius in his early life? would he eventually think of it as csa or would he be uncomfortable thinking of it (or himself) in that way. in canon it seems he thinks of it as a “positive” contrast to his assault by slavers. but at the same time he describes being very helpless and not even totally understanding what is happening at first. and the conflict over marius denying him the chance at a normal life and isolating him from humanity could almost be a metaphor for grooming and abuse.

hi anon!!! I’m happy to talk about this 🙏 amazing question. Tw sa and csa talk, obvs.

While I like the idea of Armand being able to process his relationship with Marius as traumatic, I’m not sure if he could ever rlly reach that point (at least book-wise). Armand has a warped perception of the type of dignity/autonomy/right to feel comfortable, safe, etc that he is entitled to as a person. He was so deprived of that type of basic respect in childhood + his whole life that he isn’t able to rlly conceptualize being deprived of these things as “wrong”. He has internalized himself as sort of an inherently lesser commodity that will always be used for other’s gain. And so with this in mind he has a sort of “beggars can’t be choosers” view of kindness and love. So with Marius, I don’t think he registers the sexual abuse as bad since he was non consenting bcus he doesn’t understand bodily autonomy as smth he’s entitled to or something he expects to have. Also, since Armand sees Marius as so good, loving, merciful, etc, he can’t rlly wrap his head around him being abusive. Armand thinks of Marius as his loving father + the love of his life who saved him from human trafficking and took him under his wing, and I think bcus of how highly he regards these actions, any abuse he’s put through is thought of as an acceptable exchange for everything he has been gifted.

Bcus of how Armand doesn’t see Marius having sex with him as a child as abusive, u can see he has this disconnect as an adult when interacting with Marius where he feels the affects of the abuse but doesn’t understand why they are there. In the vampire Armand he recognizes that he is uncomfortable around Marius and hesitant to trust him or interact with him, but he doesn’t know why he feels this way, and seems to consider it an irrational reaction he should get past. I think Armand definitely knows to an extent that Marius mistreated him (tho I don’t think he considers their sexual relationship part of this), but I think he doesn’t feel any real resentment or conscious grief over this resentment, again bcus he never felt that he was entitled to being treated well in the first place.

Marius is more aware of how he has wronged Armand then Armand is 😭 and I think if they were to discuss this Armand would find it unsettling or even angering. Armand definitely grieves being deprived of his humanity, but he I think sees it more as a tragic inevitability than a fault of Marius’s, while Marius definitely sees it as his fault. If Marius were to apologize to Armand for turning him so young I think Armand would get rlly upset, partly bcus he would find the implication that Marius regrets keeping him alive super offensive and devastating, and partly bcus he would find the explicit acknowledgment that his gracious caregiver did not have his best interest at heart and acted in ways he knew were selfish and would harm Armand, earth shattering. It’s more comfortable for Armand to believe that he wasn’t being abused by the one person he believes ever cared for him, then to recognize that so many of his issues were willfully caused by him.

I think that by post canon Armand would definitely be aware that by modern standards of morality and law his relationship with Marius as a child would be seen as predatory and sexually abusive, but I don’t think this would influence how he perceives it very much. I think he’d be able to reach the place where he recognizes that it is always harmful for children to have sex with adults, but I think he’d continue to see Marius and him as this single expectation to this fact that somehow made it out fine, bcus of time period or vampirism or whatever yada yada. Being sexually abused by Marius contributed heavily to Armand discovering his sexuality and learning how to have relationships, and even tho it was definitely traumatic, I think Armand considers it a necessary trauma that taught and shaped him more then it scarred him. Armand resents Marius for abandoning him after he was kidnapped by the children of darkness, and for depriving him of being his companion (cough cough bcus marius doesn’t respect him or care for him as an equal or individual cough cough), but I don’t think he is able to recognize that the sexual abuse was just as harmful and a part of this behavior.

I also have a feeling that Armand doesn’t want to acknowledge that being sexually abused by Marius was wrong bcus he feels at fault for it (since he enjoyed it and willfully took part in it as he got older), so I imagine bcus of his deep seated religious guilt and shame he sees himself more as an instigator for sexual violence bcus of his “seduction” then a victim of it. Which I definitely relate to! Armand is such a greatly upsetting example of how complex cases of sexual abuse and grooming can be hard to cope with by victims who felt that they enjoyed it, initiated it, etc. Our culture sees sexual abuse as this very straightforward rapist vs victim scenario, when in reality it is often much more complex, often with victims who have positive feelings towards their abusers or felt that they asked for/enjoyed the abuse. Armand has experienced the straightforward blameless type of sexual abuse, and he has experienced the complex kind, and part of his trouble with recognizing that both were abuse comes from how limited the understanding of sa was in his time. I also think that he refuses to acknowledge that his relationship with Marius was sexually abusive bcus he finds it more comforting and empowering to think of it as beneficial then abusive. The reality that Armand was sexually abused for his entire life until he was turned is probably sm more difficult to accept then he was sexually abused in his early life and then rescued from it by Marius.

even tho Armand isn’t able to consciously acknowledge that Marius abused him, that trauma definitely lives in his body and affects him daily. The lesson that Marius taught him by having sex with him the first night he took him home is that for Armand, love is inherently transactional and inherently selfish. Ppl who love u r entitled to use u, being made to feel helpless, scared, hurt, etc by someone who loves u is normal and part of the deal, giving up ur bodily autonomy in a relationship is part of loving, love is pain and sex is meant to hurt you, etc. and all of these internalizations are a major factor in how fucked up all of Armand’s romances r 😭 and how much trouble he has with attachment and keeping up healthy relationships. He sees his relationship with marius as the blueprint 😭💔 Marius was his father, and he is always clinging to these life truths his father taught him in childhood.

I like to imagine it is possible for Armand to heal from this abuse, and to accept that it was abuse, but the reason I hesitate to picture it is bcus of how incredibly difficult it would be for him. To heal, Armand would have to literally rework the foundation his entire worldview, and to reassess his entire sense of self and (already fragile) understanding of his own life and how it’s affected him. Someone needs to get him a good therapist, cuz oh boy, that is not the kind of work anyone, let alone someone like Armand, can do independently.

thank u sm for the ask I loved writing and thinking about this!!!! Anon u r so so sweet to be so considerate towards me, but for further reference I love to and am very comfortable analyzing and talking about Armand’s history of abuse, and anyone is free to send me asks prompting me to go into depth about it. Thank u again anon ❤️❤️

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Eleventeen is an album by Daisy Chainsaw. I like it. This is a blog and diary to me.

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MAPS and "pro-para" types unwelcome. Incest lovers owe survivors everything they have. Fiction cannot cause abuse, but it can facilitate, normalize, romanticize, and eroticize it.

It happened to me. Please dni if you post sa based kinks I am very hyper vigilant and paranoid.

TERFS unwelcome. "Girl's girls" choice feminism and obviously "pro-para" unwelcome. We do real feminism here, ma'am.

Block if you think the r slur is funny I'm over it. 🥰

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DNI Radqueers/Terfs/swerfs/zionists we will not like each other. die.

Terfs are not real feminists, neither are radqueers or the most recent "pro para" (proship reloaded) movements.

"Purity culture" is very real and it's not the critique or discussion of sex or kink or fandom. It's the concept that the amount sex you have or who you do/don't have it with has an inherent implication on your personhood, particularly towards women.

LESS SERIOUS:

I'm a big big hater. I hate people who pay social media sites and I hate AO3. "Bi lesbian" is an oxymoron. Weebs are on thin ice. Rpf sucks.

I like nonfiction, bad horror stories, FMV video games, Furryism, Animal Crossing, comedy, comics (mostly transformers and DC but I also love vintage comics, Love and Rockets, things by Lynda Barry, and Archie Comics), dolls, and Twin Peaks. Formerly ran the blog @Jewishharleyquinn before they got me.

I'm interested in court cases and nature + natural history

I want to be a fairy. I want to be a mermaid. I want to be very small.

You can ask me to tag things🩷 I use (trigger) cw except for "flashing"

Tw: csa + grooming

You might see me speak a lot on abuse fetishism online + in fandom. I was groomed online by a woman through toxic fandom, "loli" and other CSEM anime/manga, and a very twisted version of feminism and sex positivity.

It went on from ages 13-17, meeting online when I was just 12. She involved me and her foster sister. I have had a few other sexually traumatic experiences (some happening in early childhood that she connected with me on), but that was by far the longest and most twisted.

I started talking about this more when I realized others had been hurt in very similar ways.

I'm a grooming, incestous abuse, and sa survivor, these things also upset me greatly. If I interact first I apologize, please just block me. I say this because of my own negative reactions.

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Lavender Armor [Servant!Reader + HW!Link]

There's a set of armor for every battlefield, even those fought with smiles.

This is a fic for this Poll. May the pile continue to grow.

Masterlist

TW: Choosing not to tag, but implications of unsavory things. Be warned.

Disclaimer: Don't own The Legend of Zelda franchise.

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It wasn't that the maids were neglecting him per say (Princess Zelda would have put a stop to that long ago if so), but you were well aware that they could do better than the minimum. As the Hero of Hyrule, one would think Link would be properly adored and catered to by the castle staff. Admired by the ladies in waiting and sought after by many a noble daughter (and son).

The reality, however, was messier than that.

He had been a low born noble before he'd become a palace knight and then The Hero of Hyrule. As such, by way of blood he was among the lowest ranking even amongst the staff. There were few exceptions to this, and by coincidence or the hand of fate, you were one of them.

You weren't paid much attention as a lowly baron's child, but so long as you kept your head down no one saw reason to disrupt your simple existence. If you were lucky, perhaps a lower cast noble would take notice of your diligence and manners and offer adoption (or marriage).

You'd be given a proper introduction into the upper echelon of society. Introduced to nobles and authorities far above your station. Given a chance to crawl your way from your lowly station to the top of society. Just as you were groomed and trained to do since childhood. The greatest possible future you could achieve given the circumstances of your birth.

And yet. That future had now become unattainable. In the span of one breath to the next, the path to your ruin was set in stone. The higher ups had noticed your diligence, and now, you would be punished for it.

You'd been assigned to be The Hero of Hyrule's, Link's, personal servant. Taken from your (hard earned) position amongst the Princess's staff and tossed down in quiet social suicide to the lowest rung of castle hierarchy.

'The baron's child was put in their place.' Many a maid giggled gleefully behind your back.

'To a socially inept war monger.' They'd gasp in delighted shock.

'Thier days are numbered. Shadows follow close behind the cursed chosen.' They'd whisper in dark corners.

You heard it all. You were no one now. Powerless under the servitude of a man without an ounce of social grace or aptitude. What need have they to fear what you heard whispered from above. Cast so low into destitution as you were.

They misunderstood one thing though.

"Master Link. From this day forward, I will train you to be a proper noble." You'd ordered firmly to the silent man the moment you were out of hearing range. His withdrawn, haggard face had twisted into shock, then confusion.

And then simple acceptance.

You were almost thrown off by such mindless obedience. You'd expected him to put up at least a token effort to assert his place as your superior. He was a military captain after all, and a noble, low born as his blood may be. You expected some resistance. Some pride.

To take orders from a Baron's child. To concede to their command when the whip lay securely in your hand.

You understood right then why this man's name had been thrown upon the sacrificial flame.

It would burn you too, in the end. As a personal servant (a coveted position, once), the ashes of your Master's pyre would fall upon you as well.

"Straighten your back soldier." You demanded, and his eyes widened, uncomprehending and confused. Frightfully young and fearful of threats unknown. "You have set foot onto a battlefield far crueler than anything you've faced before."

He had no comprehension. Not an once of awareness as to the knife's edge that lies silently beneath his feet. A lamb to the slaughter.

The capital would take him, mind and body, piece by piece. No need to swallow whole prey which knows naught how to flee.

"Monsters live freely in the skins of your fellow man. In these walls, their eyes are always watching, Master Link. Seeking weaknesses to exploit." You say, eyes sharp and glinting. The picture of the very monsters you speak of. "They will come in droves, and your sword will be useless to defend against their power."

You narrowed your eyes, features dark as you promised. "In a year's time, Master Link."

"I will have taught you what it means to control the field of battle."

And so, you did.

You taught him how to sit as he should, how to walk as he should. You drilled him on names and titles and the slow, cautious niceties of flattery.

You forced him before the mirror and molded his lips into a faultless smile. Reformed his wide, innocent eyes into glee and charm and every beguiling glance that would have nobles kissing his hands in admiration.

Upon his face you painted great canvases of artistry, made living by the gentle curve of his brow and the subtle shift of his lips. You put the brush and creams and rouge in his hands and taught him how to maintenance his greatest weapon.

You washed and brushed and twisted his hair until it glowed under the dim shine of ballroom light. You dressed him in the glimmering finery of a prince, in regality befitting a king.

Trimmed and groomed and plucked him to perfection, trained and guided and led him to powerful allies. Built him from the ground up, made him into something nobility could admire. And envy.

Brought him tea in the evenings (one sugar, enough milk to drown a calf). Pretended not to notice the extra cake slices he hid under his shield stand. Turned the other way when he fidgeted the end of his scarf while reading (an unsightly habit, as your own tutors would say).

Warmed his bed with hot stones when the heels of his dress shoes brought him low. Braided lavender into his nightly braid to help him sleep. Patted his face with a cool cloth when the summer months drew a profuse sweat from his brow.

Held his hand as he wept bitter, hysterical tears from night terrors so vivid the imprint of them stayed hollowed in his eyes come morning. Told the staff and guards and Princess herself he had taken ill the night before and would need bed rest for the rest of the week.

Bribed the royal doctor. Bribed the chamber maids. Bribed the cooks and the guards and the stable boys until a name came into your possession and Link's stayed out of the mouths of a dozen others.

An execution followed. Three men sent to the gallows for tampering with the Hero of Hyrule's water flask during drills. The intentions unknown but for the way Link had begged privacy for days after. The way he refused to give up his bed sheets for cleaning.

A secret you'd take to the grave, and ensured the laundry maid would take to hers.

His gaze had changed that day, watching those men fall lifeless to the delighted roar of the crowd. Comprehension had followed. The masks of monsters came into clarity as newly unveiled eyes beheld the world anew.

Innocence was lost. But not that strong, wondrous spirit. Link blossomed into something truly magnificent.

A white knight amidst a a flock of vultures. Untouchable. Unreachable. Unattainable.

Unstoppable.

You watched, in awe and pride and quiet humility, as the man who once bowed to your strict instruction now commanded a room of prideful nobles like dogs in a kennel. Stacked them like dominoes and watched them fall over themselves to sit quietly at his feet.

You watched as maids and noblewoman and princesses from many lands swooned as he passed, how the mouths of powerful men loosened when he spoke.

You watched it all, silent and unobtrusively from the sidelines. As the gates of The Sacred Realms themselves opened before his feet as though to welcome home a son. As he stepped through with unhurried dignity, assured in his right.

He had ascended passed his teachings. Beyond what you could offer. Beyond what you could even comprehend.

He had outgrown you in all the ways that mattered.

A year you'd said.

He'd taken 5 months.

You wondered, privately, when he'd discard you. It was to be expected after all, as he had surpassed the indignity of a baron's child's servitude. He would pay you for your service, and if he was charitable, put in a good word and you'd return to your duties as one of the Princess's many servants. It was simply the way things were.

You'd made sure to teach him that.

The night after the announcement of his newly elevated title (the highest a princess can bestow upon her knight), you braided Link's hair (delicate lavender interwoven into shimmering gold) and waited. Waited for the inevitable. Waited to leave this room one final time, to grab your bags (already packed) from your private room and return to your old quarters amongst your peers.

When he reached a hand up to lay upon yours, still laden with lavender, you steadied your heart. Steeled your nerves and kept dry your eyes.

It was to be expected. A baron's child is unworthy to serve as the personal servant of high nobility such as Master Link, The Hero of Hyrule.

"Let me adopt you." He asked calmly, quietly, inevitably, and your world view- shattered.

Your eyes, wide and confused and uncomprehending, met his. And he smiled, soft and slow and innocent (innocent still, after everything. innocence unbroken, for all it had been lost for a time). Trusting, as you've always taught him not to be.

The grip on your hand tightened. "Please." His eyes softened further, and in them you saw yourself reflected back at you.

"I wish to introduce my most trusted ally to the world. My dearest friend."

And you understood that it was not in your interest to refuse.

"I accept. Thank you for this opportunity, Mister Link. I will work hard to meet your expectations."

He laughed, free and open and honest as he interlaced his fingers with yours (sharing the sweet scent of lavender between your joined hands). "Oh. I know you will." His eyes glimmered. "I have no doubt."

And so, you rose. Hand in hand with the man who would be your closest ally. For the rest of your days.

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Must retreat once more to recharge.

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Will Byers has to have powers.

TW: slight mention of SA and grooming, not graphic

This post is going to be a little scrambled, I have a hard time construing my thoughts especially when they’re sort of intricate and long ones so just bear with me.

Will has to have powers, because what other reason would Henry have to kidnap and possess him? Brenner stated that he doesn’t just kill, he consumes, or absorbs. Henry told El he was trying to absorb her powers in Season 3.

We know it was Henry who kidnapped Will and not a Demogorgon because of 2 things

Telekinesis was used to unlock the door, which Demogorgons do not have, nor do they need for this specific act as we’ve seen them bust doors down numerous times.

Will was still alive, Demogorgons are shown to try to kill anyone they come in contact with, immediately, unless being controlled by the hive mind. Will simply would not have been able to survive one alone at his age. It wasn’t luck that he lived so long, it was a plan. He was being kept alive.

So going off of that, what possible reason could Henry have to kidnap a young boy and essentially hold him hostage?

The implications of Henry being a predator and the underlying themes of SA involving him with Will and also El is a whole other thing to get into, I do believe he’s somewhat of a metaphor for SA, given the vines when Will was found and “I felt it everywhere” paired with the scene of the shadow Monster possessing being very violating and him essentially grooming El, but they obviously need a more basic explanation for these things that the general public will understand and be able to swallow more, which is why we have the supernatural plot.

The only logical explanation for him kidnapping Will, holding him hostage, and keeping him alive, is that he was trying to either absorb Wills powers, or keep Will there with him to “join him” like he wanted to do with El.

This obviously doesn’t work because everyone and their mom goes straight to bat for Will and pries him from Henry’s grasp, so then in season 2, he tries a new way of consuming Will, becoming Will. Taking over his mind.

My theory is that by doing this, he was again trying to absorb Wills powers, I’m not exactly sure how yet, but to me it seems to be the only logical explanation for the possession. Henry only started using Will as a spy, or spying back, after he got hurt and realized Will was spying on him first, otherwise I don’t think he would’ve allowed Will to give so much information to everyone and make the drawings of the vines. So the original reason for possession was not to spy.

Then we have Will losing his memory, this shows that Henry is consuming him, he’s consuming his memories in a way, making Will essentially just an empty shell or vessel. It’s unclear if Will remembers the events of when he was possessed, or even if he remembers Bob much afterward. I believe the incident is only brought up 1 time in season 3 (I could be wrong though, please let me know if I am) when Will is talking about how Joyce got it out of him and then El closed the gate. So it’s obvious he knows he was possessed, but it’s unclear whether he remembers the things that happened while he was possessed or not. He also never mentions Bob after his death, we see the drawing on the fridge, but Will never mentions him. We know that in the hospital he forgot who Bob was, so there’s a very real possibility that Henry completely consumed the memories Will had with Bob, causing him to still not remember much of him once the possession is over. This would further prove that Henry was trying to absorb things from Will.

If he can consume memories, through possession, why not powers? He has no reason to want Wills memories after all, that wouldn’t benefit him. But if Will has powers, that would.

It’s only after everyone saved Will AGAIN, that he moves back onto trying to take Els powers in season 3.

So yeah, essentially what I’m yapping about is that if Will doesn’t have powers, there would be no reason for Henry to target him at all, which we know he did from the very beginning and into and throughout season 2, so Will HAS to have some sort of special powers, there’s not really any question about it in my mind, just like Byler it’s the only logical way the story can go.

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It's not so much the current age gap, five years isn't inherently unhealthy as simply adults in thier 30s. What I am saying is the drastic social and mental age gap when they FIRST met is the issue. The writers did NOT NEED to do that.

Angela is just as old as Cole, and both are WAY too old for Fareeha under the first meeting basis. (Obviously Fareeha is a lesbian, but I am explaining my point here.)

I am saying that it is very weird for /the writers/ to choose to have Angela meet Fareeha at age 12, instead of having them first meet when they were both adults. Meeting when they were both adults makes more sense anyhow, Mercy didn't officially join until her mid 20s. The writers chose to have a kid to adult dynamic like this though, and it's weird. I would never in my life write two characters with an age gap like that, meeting when one is a kid and one is an adult, if those two were meant to be partners eventually. Age gaps can actually be unhealthy in adults when it comes to emotional maturity and experience. For an extreme example: a mature 42 year old really shouldn't be married with a sheltered 18 year old, that's basically an entire lifetime of experience between the two, and creates a large power imbalance of a dependent under a provider who is much wiser and knowledgeable about the world. It's dangerous for the naive 18 year old, and a fundamentally (emotionally, etc) unfufilling relationship for the wiser 42 year old. If the same people met at those ages, elder knew the person/saw them grow until age 25, and then the two later married at 38 and 62, I would still say it's unhealthy. The experience gap is too big, and the elder holds much more power in the relationship. It's not a give and take, it's a fundamentally skewed one way provider and dependent.

Thankfully, 5 years isn't an issue like that as adults. 18 and 23, young but not inherently malicious, later get together at 32 and 37? That is fine. Now look at how wide the experience/mental gap is between child and adult at 12 and 17 who get together at 32 and 37.

I feel like people in general highly underestimate the mental age gaps between a 13 year old and an 18 year old, and not for this topic but in GENERAL. Especially if Fareeha has a crush on Mercy as implied by the Pharah and Baptiste story. There would be a power imbalance socially, since Fareeha saw Cole as a big brother/adult elder sibling figure, and Fareeha would see Angela as a... crush...? yet Angela and Cole are the same age?

Fareeha, abandoned by many family members in her life, has a crush on Mercy now. That to me reads like Fareeha is clinging on to something she sees as stable in her life, and even then you can see how she is disappointed and wistful about Angela... We can assume this wasn't just a sudden crush, it may have been idealization since she and Angela first met for all we know. Fareeha as a child is written as inherently under basically-adult Angela in the social hierarchy, a dependent child Fareeha (Captain's daughter) under 'intern uni student' Angela as Fareeha grew up into adulthood.

You can't just be like: oh yeah Angela, an adult in uni, knew the Captain's young kid, saw her grow up into adulthood, but after a good spell, Angela saw the ~real woman~ Fareeha became and they got together.... without it being freaking weird fr. I fault the writers for this. I would be uncomfortable with this set up being touted as "positive lesbian rep" no matter the series, because it isn't a healthy dynamic in the first place. Regardless of gender, a doctor who marries a soldier, where the doctor as an adult knew the soldier as a child and watched the child grow up??? Uh hard pass on "positive representation" thank you. You can call it flawed or dark content, but that is not positive lesbian rep. Add in Mercy's arguable 'white savior trope' that many fans and critics alike agree on, and it gets worse. The ow writers botched it here.

Additionally, the concept of "same age = consent" is tiring. The hyper-sexualization and hyper-romanticization of Teen or Young Adult series romance is very tiring. The average human female brain doesn't even finish maturing until mid to late 20s (25 is a common standard, but later is seen often.).

And the maturity jump of five years between 10 to 15 is MUCH larger of a maturity jump than between 30 to 35. So if you, as an ADULT and higher authority, studying ethics during doctor schooling, knew someone when they were 12 to 18 and watched them grow up, why tf would you get together with them later. Mercy is supposed to be strict in her sense of morality(she only wants her technology for medicine, not be used for war) and I can't see her being selfish like that based on canon thus far personally... and Fareeha's character doesn't NEED any heartbreak with unrequited crushes, or a relationship with unhealthy dynamics, she deserves a healthy relationship. If Tracer can have a healthy relationship with Emily, Fareeha can have a healthy relationship with a girlfriend who wasn't a freaking adult who watched Fareeha grow up since she was 12. I am mad at the ow lore writers so by all means, fanon should change it to they met as adults (Fareeha in the army, Angela as a medic honestly sounds sweet if done right) in aus bc frankly that should have been canon. I just am highly uncomfortable with current lore, and that picture of Mercy and Fareeha should be retconed (like other pictures have been due to age issues) if ow lore truely intends Pharah x Mercy to be canon.

The 'but um uhs' of ignoring unhealthy power dynamics in supposed "positive relationships" in media are honestly a reinforcement of societal systems that hienously project adult behavior onto minors, and I am quite sick of such rotten society norms. I face this in nearly all fandoms. It's not even a "hey you are evil for shipping this!" It's a "hey this is unhealthy and it is responsible for us to recognize that, for yourself and others (aka tag triggers)"

I get mad when big ips say "this is healthy representation!" when it's clearly not.

If a new employee (adult!) shouldn't date thier boss (adult!), and if a professor(adult!) shouldn't date thier student (adult!), then a doctor (adult!) who watched a child grow into an adult soldier can't marry that soldier, either, without SOME kind of big unhealthy power imbalance.

And to be frank? I honestly prefer newly revealed canon partnerships that are outside of the hero roster. Flirting is fine and past relations are okay I guess, but outside of the roster (especially if thier hero stories are not inherently intertwined) it allows the characters to actually feel real--not just pandering to fanon or retconning for tokenization, and it let's fandom enjoy canon LGBT+ representation alongside popular fanon ships, without canonization of unhealthy dynamics those fanon ships might propose. Because frankly, a LOT of popular fandom ow ships have blaring issues either with misrepresenting the given character lore, or due to unhealthy dynamics. Aka a lot of fanon takes should not be canon, it would reduce the quality of story. I am VERY happy Tracer, the first LGBT+ confirmation and Mascot of the game, is in a canon healthy lesbian relationship with a loving gf Emily, instead of canonly being in an angsty-unhealthy relationship with Widowmaker like the fans wanted. Sometimes, fanon makes the story worse. Sometimes, fanon makes it better. It's up to writers to listen to fans but not pander to ooc bc they think pandering = money.

In this case, I am upset with ow writers for portraying Fareeha with more angst for her story alongside unhealthy crushes as if it's positive representation. Give her a break, ow. I am very happy to see more lesbian representation in media, I just don't want unhealthy aspects to be ignored or worse implied as if normal by big ips in media.

Am I missing something because Mercy was an older teen when she met kid Fareeha?? Cole and Angela are THE SAME AGE.

This is the main reason Pharah x Mercy NEVER sat right with me, even back in ow1, bc the two met/knew eachother when Pharah was just a kid(12) and Mercy was nearly an adult(17). And now official media is making it out like modern day ow2 Pharah has a thing for/with Mercy? Uh????

Plus they had Baptiste mistake Pharah and Cole as being together for NO needed reason (not a respectful way to treat found family sibs in writting, nor a lesbian character, plus the first meeting age gap between Cole and Fareeha is the same gap as Fareeha and Angela=gross), this set up was done ONLY to make space for Fareeha to say "No, definitely not. Cole and I have known eachother for a long time. He's like a brother to me. Besides, I am a lesbian."

...And not to be picky but the "I am a lesbian" here reads like "I am a gay" which uh... awkward/dry phrasing strikes yet again in ow short stories, it seems.

Congrats to the Bi Baptist and Lesbian Pharah confirmations, but ong if OW is actually sticking to this gross age gap first meeting script for Fareeha and Angela that is a HELL NO from me. We do NOT want problematic aspects in Lesbian/WLW/Saphic rep, thanks.