#well I got out of highschool in 2021

[sevicia]

If someone was going off of ONLY my camera roll to judge me like in those weird videos yk the ones, I would be literally so embarrassed. like I promise I have friends and we hang out more than once a year I PROMISE please just trust me on this one .⁠·⁠´⁠¯⁠`⁠(⁠>⁠▂⁠<⁠)⁠´⁠¯⁠`⁠·⁠.

[delusional-day-dreamer]

paige x olympian gymnast hcs!

‣ paige bueckers x olympic gymnast reader!

‣‣ synopsis: gymnastics has always been your entire life, and your dedication truly paid off when you made team usa for the 2016 rio olympics, but what happens after your injury while in the running for the 2020 tokyo olympics? #uneditedfornow

‣‣‣ a/n: just a few headcannons i have in mind for this story, if i were to make this a full blown series it MIGHT be a wattpad story with an oc or just a full tumblr series because of how long it would be... 👀

your life leading up to and including the 2016 rio olympics:

you've been doing gymnastics since you were three years old

at the age of thirteen your parents switched you to online school so you could train full time, but during this process it set you back a year, making your graduation year 2020 (same as Paige)

at the age of just fifteen you qualified for the rio olympics (meaning you were born in 2001)

your roommate that year was simone biles, and you competed at the olympics, taking home two golds (all around team and beam) and one silver (beam).

following the olympics, you became very popular for your skill at such a young age, leading you to signing many brand deals, sponsorships, photoshoots, etc.

it just so happens that your popularity reaches a certain basketball player, miss paige bueckers. in her slam interview in 2019, when asked about an athlete she admires outside of basketball, she says you. you have no idea who she is, but dm her regardless thanking her for her kind words. this is the only interaction you two have until uconn.

you continued online school for the rest of highschool, and throughout the next three years you received thirty recruitment offers out of the sixty-two schools that had a women's college gymnastics team.

your dream school had always been the University of Connecticut, but their gymnastics team didn't impress you throughout the recruitment process.

your graduation year is 2020, which happens to be the same year you got injured, right before choosing a college to commit to.

injury-related; 2020-2021:

in february of 2020, you got into a car crash while driving home from a late night practice.

you tore your left acl, dislocated your right shoulder, fractured your left collarbone, had a concussion, and suffered a left femoral fracture (ouchies i know)

thankfully you were mostly okay, but the accident completely put you out of the running for the 2020 (now moved to 2021 due to the pandemic) olympics, and doctors told you it would take at least two years to fully rehabilitate before you could even beginning training for competitions again.

your left leg had quite a few complications with the acl tear and the femoral fracture, and you had four surgeries in total on the leg.

during this time, you decided that since you couldn't compete in gymnastics, you might as well commit to the college of your student-life dreams, the university of connecticut.

UConn Era!!:

you commit to uconn for your undergrad in the sports management program, since you couldn't compete, you still wanted to remain in the athletic world.

your freshman year classes (2020-2021) was fully online due to your injuries and the pandemic, but it just so happens that you're placed as an intern with the women's basketball team for your sports management program.

you meet the team before the school year starts, and it just so happens that paige bueckers has remained a huge fan of yours.

the only reason the team recognized you immediately before you were even introduced is because of how much she has fangirled over you

you get your own apartment at uconn due to the program and your status (okay olympic privilege), which meant the team loved to hang out at your giant, well-furnished place.

you become extremely close with the team, and your first two years of rehabilitation seem to go well. it also happens that in your sophomore year, your best friend paige also fractures her meniscus, so the two of you are the resident cripples of the team!

paige has always had a huge fangirl crush on you, but over the years of you being friends, it seems those feelings develop into a little bit more...

one night while you were having a sleepover with her during her acl recovery she confesses, and the two of you start dating on the very down low

during your junior year is also when you are fully cleared to start re-training and you start getting back into gymnastics with a new coach (idk who yet!)

while balancing school and your duties with the wbb team, you start to train only four days a week, slowly getting back old skills on all four events.

you start competing in the 2023-24 season (i believe that’s how it’s measured?) and qualify for the 2024 olympics at the 2024 Xfinity U.S Gymnastics Championship

it’s safe to say your girlfriend and the entire wbb team were your biggest supporters apart from your family

Actual Olympics:

i can see you being roommates with Hezley Rivera, since she reminds you so much of yourself and you’re able to form a connection because of that.

Paige is unfortunately not able to make it to the first half of the Olympics, but she is your biggest supporter from home, constantly posting and hyping you up.

While competing, you definitely wear jewelry that she gifted you for good luck, and your hair has two braids going up into your bun, just to keep a piece of your girl close to you. Maybe even a purple ribbon braided into your hair at some point?

You also definitely took half of her closet of hoodies with you so that you could wear them and have her scent with you at night

the entire uconn wbb team, both current and players from your earlier college years, show support for you on social media, but paige’s is a little.. different than theirs

while all the girls post you on their stories or tweeting about you as, so proud of our husky 💙🐺, that’s my our uconn girly!!, etc. Paige’s are a little more special, hinting at your relationship, ex: so proud of my girl 🫶🫶

there were rumors about you and paige circulating since your freshman year, but you never bothered addressing them, and this only fueled them further.

You definitely text Paige as much as possible during meal times, facetiming at night, sending selfies all the time, etc.

The other girls definitely make fun of you if they overhear you on the phone with her, mocking you since you call each other baby as a term of endearment. They also make a tiktok cut together of a bunch of clips, basically every single time you were texting or atp with paige. the tiktok has over 50 clips!

“can you pass me that y/n?” suni asked you

“yea sure, here” you passed her the makeup brush

“thanks, baby,” she teased, making you blush

After the olympic athlete who ran straight to his girlfriend after breaking the Olympic record, I can definitely see Paige flying out to surprise you for a week or so in Paris.

Her flying out to come visit is when you guys actually hard launch, posting pictures of you at dinner with the captions, “my girl is finally here” or “yk i had to come cheer my girl on in person”

a/n: this is #uneditedfornow but that’s all i have for now yall! idk when i’m gonna make this a series but i have so many ideas for it i just might have to, but i also have two other unfinished series rn so… 😓😓

[dominikspunk]

Thought id never see you again. | | Dominik x Fem Reader ★.

An: I randomly thought of this out of nowhere so writing this before I forget

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March 2021.

“ Y/n you have to understand this is the way wrestling works. ” Vince said .

“ I'm not saying I wanted it my way, I'm saying I'm tired of the way you treat me, I been in this company for a really long time, if you don't give me the opportunity I have then I'm gonna walk out. ” I told him.

“ Y/n you know your not gonna walk out , everybody knows it. Now accept the contact. ”

‘ I had enough with him but the fans was all I have . ’

“ No. ” I said to him knowing I have a match against Natalya tonight.

After i left, Vince let the producers know to tell Michael Cole to announce that I walked out of the arena .

“ If I could have your attention please Y/S/N had a match against Natalya tonight but unfortunately Y/S/N has walked out of the arena and disappointed many of you wwe fans. ” Michael Cole said.

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Monday Night Raw 2023

I was waiting for my music to hit for the surprise return after walking out and joining WWE'S Rival AEW .

I were gonna come out and interrupt Raquel Rodriguez And Be a heel once again.

“ And I'm gonna break every single 3 of you to get thru Rhea and get my title that i desv- ” Raquel Said

Fans cheered when they heard my music.

The producers put their camera on me and obviously I was hugging my fans.

“ you mean 4 of us if you can even get thru me to go to rhea. But let's face it.. you don't even have the chance to winning it. ” I told her in the mic while getting in the ring standing next to my ex boyfriend dom.

dominik was my boyfriend in highschool for a year we broken up , we got back together when he joined WWE we later went to our separate ways.

After our segment we went backstage, everyone was telling me congratulations and welcome back.

i was catering then i saw a figure coming towards me, when I got a look of his face i saw dominik.

“ hey, y/n ” dominik told me

“ hey dom. ” I told him not knowing what to say after not talking for a long time

“ i thought I'd never seen you again. ” he said while looking at me .

“ well I thought I'd never be returning and seeing you with a mullet ” i told him jokingly

“ yeah you got me there ” he said putting his hand on his head

“ it's okay i love the mullet you have , never thought you could pull it off tho ” i said to him hoping we can be like this.

“ yeah, but can we please talk tho , i know we already talking but i need to get this out. I don't know why we went our separate ways. i miss you alot , everything reminds me of you. please please please give us another chance . ” he said to me with those eyes.

“ I don't know dom. but ill see how it goes okay? ”

“ okay.”

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AN:this is horrible I hate it

[thecarrionwitch]

Alright so I'm back to ask something.

For context, I have multiple 'siblings'. I told you guys about the eldest one and my issues with him but maybe a few days ago I was told that the one who spent years sexually abusing me and hurting me until like 2021 got a girl pregnant...

Of course it should be clear why I'm upset. Got a girl pregnant for...what? So you can keep hurting kids when no one is looking? And when those kids grow up knowing they've been used you gaslight them? Ugh. That's exactly what he did to me.

He doesn't live in this household with me thank the gods so I feel like that's already one green light. I can affect him almost as much as I want. I've thought about it, especially since I was his first victim ...(I'm assuming first since everyone else thinks so highly of him.) And I've been losing my mind ever since I became conscious of the fact that he used me in ways he never should have. Now that y'all got that.

The energy in my house has been building and I need to release it before it drowns me. I pick up on energy so well that I know there's a lot I could use for this spell.

I'm going to work on it but for the dark and green witches that practice baneful work what are some herbs you LOVE using? What are herbs you'd use for sexual abusers and assaulters? Ones that could possibly cause erectile dysfunction or mis carries. I know that in. The case that no one has ever dealt with this that one may think this is a loaded question.

I was sexually abused by this man since I was elementary school only for it to stop somewhere between middle and early highschool and then after that he played innocent until I called him out in he punched and hit me and broke my lip. I'm still suffering the effects, mentally having my moments of leaving my body on airplane mode because I can hardly enjoy the fact that I live within it because of what he's done to me.

He is guilty is what I'm saying and I worry for his girlfriend. I don't want her to have this child and carry on generational trauma that my family already refuses to heal. Then if the child is born and grows up horribly who will be to blame? IDC how any of you feel on this situation if you yourself have never been assaulted especially by a 'family member'. This also isn't your case, your life, so if you don't agree with this that's fine. Move on, I'm not talking to you and never stated I was.

What I do care about is what I can do before this baby gets here whether it be talking to the spirit of the child before it's born or something a lot darker but for the sake of them because that would be better than allowing another innocent person to grow up abused or be trained into becoming an abuser to hurt others...

I believe that children are born into harmful households all the time. I don't want that for this child. For ANY child. So please, help me witches.

We are supposed to use our powers to help those who do and who will need it, I'm ready to use mine especially because I had been scared of them before and I refuse to keep being scared.

Not again.

Comment the herbs below and I'll read through everything.

Herbs that cause These specific problems are preferred:

depression

Erectile dysfunction (or not being able to use your 'thing')

Anxiety and paranoia/guilt

Continues pain and suffering

And anything of the like.

[talisidekick]

you look diseased

Do I?

I'm 29, soon to be 30 on July 5th. I've only been on HRT for 2 years, 11 months, and 26 days, so barely started given puberty takes about 9 years or longer to see full effects. I started transitioning the 29th of June, 2021. That's 7 days before I turned 27. I'm post 12 rounds of lazer hair removal on my face and chest and I pluck the remaining hairs it missed atop still shaving. I don't wear makeup because I can't afford it. And the feminine clothes I have consist of:

6 bra's,

11 pairs of panties,

3 pairs of jeans,

1 skirt,

1 pair of leggings,

1 pair of tights,

2 sets of knee-high socks,

4 shirts,

1 pair of shoes,

and a jacket.

These were all donated or gifts because I can't afford my own wardrobe change. I largely still dress in boys clothes because I've had them since highschool. And given that, I have a Ko-fi link trying to raise money atop streaming to get thigh-highs and more clothes. I've promised to even model the clothes I can get through donations for free. Kind of hoping people like my thighs enough to help me out.

It's not going well though. Take a look:

I'm doing the best I can with what I've got. And if a lower-class poor girl struggling to get by while playing games on an 11 year old PC isn't your thing, then perhaps my content isn't for you.

Sorry I don't look middle-class plastic or model perfect. But that's not the bar to be a woman. People find me feminine, cute, likeable, adorable, and cool. I don't see it, buut for what my transition goals are ... I feel I'm close.

[blu-ish]

Hi! Hope you’re doing well! I was wondering, what advice would you give to someone who’s trying to build the confidence to start posting their art online?

The only thing that’s stopping me is that I over think it too much, to the point where I convince myself out of it (I’m working on it lol). Thank you, I love your style.

Heya!! AND THANKS SM HSJSHSJ

I didn't post any of my art online until like, maybe mid 2023 tbh. I'm not a rlly big social media person but I had a friend at a college camp in 2021 (I was still in highschool at this point, but I got into this rlly cool camp where I got to live in the dorms for a week) she looked at my art and told me I should post it on tumblr xD. She was a huge videogame nerd just like me lmao.

Honestly, I was scared, I didn't think my art was all that radical compared to others I've seen online. Or that my ideas rlly mattered since so many other SUPER TALENTED AND AMAZING peeps were already making stuff.

It took me a while to realize that NONE OF THAT MATTERS, I didn't have to sit there and clutched what I loved to do just for myself. (Don't get me wrong, sometimes that's perfectly fine.) But I'm a social person, on a good day lmao, you wouldn't believe how much of an introvert I am.

I realized the only thing stopping me from getting that experience, was myself. I was stopping myself with stupid little doubts and reasons as to why I shouldn't. Instead of why I wanted to. Sure the internet can be fuggin NUTS, but, here on Tumblr dot com. I've never felt HAPPIER to post my art or silly edits and wait for my new friends to see it. For it to INSPIRE someone, for getting to write my thoughts down (like im doing now lmao) and to make others happy. I LOVE that about here.

Art does NOT in ANYWAY need or have to be perfect, it's a piece of yourself, something you sat down and CREATED just because you CAN, because you COULD. You enjoy it and desire to share it, that's reason enough. Don't let ANYONE tell you otherwise, because they are not you, you are.

Create to your hearts content! You have to be your own number one fan before anything after all. Don't let those voices inside your head tell you that your not worthy enough. Because I will personally go in there with a nerf gun and tell them no! LMAO HSJSHSJ ;)

But of course, don't let ME tell ya what to do after all. There's nothing wrong from dipping ur toes in that tumblr water first before you dive in. But you'll never know until you try <3 Just remember that I'm backing u up 100% AND I WILL BE THE FIRST TO RUSH OVER THERE AND SEEING YOUR AMAZING ARTWORK DONT EVEN TEST ME >:)

[funpuddle]

Going to college today (third try since 2021) with the mindset that college probably isn't for me and that I'm doing this for my own social and mental enrichment and not because Ill be made to feel bad by extended family if I dont. Lamenting over useless shit under the cut let me Wilhelm scream real quick.

They should give you six years after highschool to figure this out instead of being expected to go straight out of HS. Everyone develops at their own rate and I was not ready to go right back to four years of nightmare after the bad memory that was highschool especially since the last year and a half was fucked in the butt by COVID. My whole life plan got fucked in the butt junior year and when I was supposed to be getting ready to go adult mode I was cooped up in hotels talking to a sex offender on discord and playing ponyville and cheating on all my online classes and hoping it wasn't the end of the world. Highschool didn't teach me anything about my future except that landlord evicting my family at 15 and making me homeless for a while was actually perfectly reasonable and within their right according to my counselor. Well now on college campus I still feel like an aimless child surrounded by adults. But I'll go today and just try to exist at the very least. Uohhhghhb..I was not meant for this society, but there is power in that everything I do is Playing and having fun and stimulating my prefrontal cortex.

[arwatchesandreads]

You Are My Glory (你是我的荣耀)

I was looking for another fluffy, feel-good show like Love Me, Love My Voice and stumbled upon this greatness of a show. Similar to how I started Love Me, Love My Voice, I had no idea what You Are My Glory was about, however I recognized the male lead as the lead in Love O2O (which I'm sorry to say I still haven’t watched to date welp). Coming out of this show though, and I’m just stunned by how much this show has made me fall in love with love again. 

My Rating: 9.5/10

Episodes: 32

Country: China

Genre: Romance with a lot of Aerospace plot

Aired: July 26th, 2021 - August 16th, 2021

Cast: 

Yang Yang plays Yu Tu

Dilraba Dilmurat plays Qiao Jing Jing 

Synopsis:

You Are My Glory is a story about Yu Tu (played by Yang Yang) who is an aerospace engineer and his new budding romance with celebrity Qiao Jing Jing (played by Dilraba Dilmurat), 10 years after he rejects her. 

Qiao Jing Jing needs to save her endorsement with a mobile gaming company as footage was leaked of her horrible gameplay. Losing this endorsement could ruin her chances in getting a new role in a famous director’s movie, hence, she starts to practice to get better and vouches the mobile gaming company that she will participate in a live gaming competition to prove herself. 

During this time, Yu Tu accidentally sends out a game invite to Qiao Jing Jing, not knowing that it was her, and she reconnects with him through this mobile game. She then asks him to coach her how to play as she realizes that he is extremely good at the game. Thus, beginning a new chapter in their lives. 

This drama was adapted from the web novel “You’re My Glory” (你是我的荣耀) by Gu Man (顾漫). 

Beware of Spoilers Moving Forward!

What Episode did the Main Couple Start Dating?

Yu Tu and Qiao Jing Jing officially start dating in Episode 21. They also get married in episode 30 in a group wedding run by the aerospace industry.

Yu Tu actually rejects Qiao Jing Jing again in Episode 15, since he feels that he can’t be the best boyfriend for her since he decided to stay in the aerospace industry. However, after both of them dread about it for at least 3 episodes, he decides to attempt to woo her back. 

He asks her out in Episode 20, but she doesn’t give a definitive answer as she is afraid he will break her heart. However, in Episode 21 she finds out that he did fulfill her wish of getting a Penta Kill for her birthday and he came rushing to her at the karaoke bar high school reunion to keep attempting his luck. She accepts him then and thus begins their cutesy relationship. 

Misunderstandings?

There is a bit of misunderstanding between Episode 15 to Episode 18, as Qiao Jing Jing doesn’t understand why Yu Tu rejects her again. However, this time was needed for Yu Tu to  grow some balls LOL aka gain some confidence and pursue her. 

Why does Yu Tu reject Qiao Jing Jing both times?

Yu Tu rejects Qiao Jing Jing in highschool because he was very naive and felt like the girl he should date should be as intelligent as him with more future prospects. 

He rejects her again in the future because he feels that his job in the aerospace industry is not well paying, and he will always be busy and won’t have time to care and love her properly. 

Love Triangles?

There are no love triangles.

In the beginning of the show, they introduced us to Yu Tu’s ex-girlfriend, who is also a highschool classmate of both Yu Tu’s and Qiao Jing Jing. She has come back to try to win Yu Tu back, however, she was unsuccessful extremely early on and we never see her again. 

Qiao Jing Jing’s ex also shows up at her door one day, yet leaves when he sees Yu Tu. He tries his luck again after the mobile gaming competition, however, Qiao Jing Jing sticks her ground and tells him she’s not interested, in her own way of course. 

You Are My Glory Ending

You Are My Glory has a cute ending where there is a time skip 5 years after they got married to show us that Yu Tu successfully launches God Searcher and Qiao Jing Jing was there to support him and love him through that process. It’s just that feel good ending that we need. 

You are My Glory Review- Sweet, Pure, Supportive Love 

I give this crazy good show a 9.5/10. This show was a ball of sweetness, it was pure, supportive and mature. It fulfilled every checkbox that I look for in a romance. The main characters have the healthiest relationship once they get together, they talk about all their feelings, they understand each other, and stay supportive of each other in their busy life-styles. The premise of this show was fun with the one character being an aerospace engineer and the other one being a full-blown famous celebrity, however, their healthy attitudes and supportive nature made the show just a delight to watch. 

My review of this show lost 0.5 only because close to the end of the show they kept having so many time jumps, and also in the beginning of the show I felt Yang Yang’s acting felt a bit too stiff.

This show, all in all, was just a sweet, pure, supportive romance between two green flagged characters that starts with a rejection when they were in highschool and 10 years later it blooms into a full-blown cute relationship. 

This show is a must-watch for romance watchers who love supportive relationships with little misunderstandings, a lot of kissing, and a love story that transcends generic romance. 

[bucoliqves]

How would the brothers karamazov be if it was an early 2000s italian telenovela with a low budget? 🧵

We follow the (dis)adventures of the Morettis (Moretti < moro = brown), a roman family that owns a very famous bar.

The head of the family is Matteo (I've never met a single Teodoro (fyodor) in my life + Matteo means God's gift too)

His oldest son Giorgio (again, I've never met a single Demetrio (Dmitri) in my life + Giorgio is a name related to the earth > the goddess demeter) never finished highschool, he got in the army but soon dropped out to follow his new girlfriend Caterina to Milan.

Caterina is the daugther of a retired soldier who got Giorgio into the army in the first place. While he was with Caterina, though, he became friends with her sister Agata, who introduced him to her friend Giulia, who everybody calls Lia (Grushenka. Same shit, you won't find any Agrippinas here).

Matteo had Giorgio with a young woman named Adele, whom he was forced to marry when he got her pregnant and divorced a few years into their marriage. Matteo remarried an even younger woman, Sofia, who gave him two children named Giovanni and Alessio.

Giovanni is about to graduate in natural sciences. He rarely visits his family, but he happened to pop by when Giorgio and Caterina were there too. He secretly fell for her and planned to move to Milan as well to follow her and keep and eye on his brother.

Alessio (whom everybody calls Lele) has always been a quiet, lovely child. He dropped out of uni a few months into the semester to follow his true calling and become a priest. He is following a seminary in Vatican city and visits his father every weekend. (Let's pretend they're roman catholics for the sake of this. DOSTO DONT CRUCIFY ME)

Paolo "Cacaliscia" (literally "smooth shit", best rendition of Smerdyakov i can give you), the three Morettis' "distant cousin", works at the family bar and is the one who knows all the gossip. He despises his job and how his "uncle" treats him, so from time to time he tells everybody's business to the right (wrong) person.

Paolo's scenes are always in the bar. In every single episode with him he's either cleaning glasses with an annoyed expression, leaning on the counter with a shit eating grin ready to gossip or just being the typical caricature of a gay guy in an early 2000s piece of media.

Lele is seen with one (1) signature friend, Michele Raccattoni (raccattare=to collect), who's in the seminary with him but is not very... priest like. The directors LOVE adding scenes of him coming back to their shared room late into the night and Lele switching on the lights annoyed.

The show is top of the charts for five years, has 12 seasons and is still ongoing, everyone and their mother lost their shit when Lele almost left the seminary for Lia and some actual radical priest condemned the show during a sermon (he wanted Lia and Giorgio together).

Giorgio's actor has become italian teenage girls' n1 dream guy and in 2021 there's the start of a whole fandom for the pairing between Alessio and Michele. People who like Giovanni are considered edgy and no one likes Paolo except three Cacaliscia apologists on twitter dot com (me).

In the final episode Lele finally rejects the avances of Elisa, a girl in the seminar who has a crush on him, and becomes the youngest cardinal in Rome because he can. He celebrates the double marriage between Lia/Giorgio and Caterina/Giovanni. Paolo is the flower girl.

The ceremony is stopped when Niccolò, a boy whom Alessio had taken under his wing, storms into the cathedral and tells everyone that Matteo has been found dead. It turns out Paolo had murdered him. The two couples find his will. He wanted to leave everything to Alessio, who decides to divide his inheritance between his brothers and their wives. While he's looking for Paolo to tell him he's going to get some money too he finds out he hung himself in the church confessional.

And uhh thats it. Notte notte.

[blazregaliadream]

Entry No. BRD~ASW: Conflicted Identity

... I’ve wanted to talk about this for a while. I talked about a part of it on Twitter a few months back, but I really need to get it all off my chest here, whatever shit I get be damned. In 2013-2014, my freshman year of highschool, I got introuced to Arc System Works through junior/senior pals introducin’ me to BlazBlue, a franchise that didn’t take long to take root in my heart. I would end up usin’ it as part of my online handle, “BlazRegaliaDream”, and I have stuck with it as the name I use when I sign my art. I’m not the biggest fan, but BlazBlue was a hyperfixation for 4 years since I discovered it. After a serious burnout in 2018, I tried movin’ my sights onto other franchises, but the love held on as a tiny ember that I’d occassionally stoke from just playin’ BBTAG and eventually findin’ a couple of close friends to talk about the franchise and keep tabs on it. Also throughout this time, I also would eye Guilty Gear, seen it around between XX and Xrd, and while it didn’t become a hyperfixation, I thought it was pretty cool. (and I still do lol) Fast forward to 2021. StrIVe has been out, haven’t played it yet. Friends are deep into the JP exclusive mobile BlazBlue Alternative: Dark War, which started at the beginnin’ of the same year. I was eyein’ it, but didn’t wanna sink into another mobile since I already had FEH and FGO (with a few others I fell in and out of). October, I revisit my old BB OC project and then on a whim, I decided to try BBDW. Wouldn’t you know it, I fell in love with BlazBlue all over again and even if I was stuck with a mobile game for new content, I was ready for the future of the franchise post-C-series. And then a month in, BBDW was announced to shutdown in January due to morale issues for the team. “Well shit, I mean, maybe there’s still a shot later, right?” 2022, creator of BlazBlue, Mori, leaves ASW for reasons we may never know. ASW insists that they still want to keep BB alive, but later, an interview reveals they’re supposedly lettin’ GG hog the spotlight because they don’t want the two franchises competin’ Between this and the awful, awful disaster that was Bridget’s return to StrIVe, everythin’ begins lookin’ all too dire... I hate the current state of ArcSystemWorks. I’m so conflicted, so angry with this company, and I just don’t know how to articulate it all so smoothly. My favorite franchise may as well be dead, 6 feet buried, as the creator has left and started his own company and who knows if they’d bother to get him for a new entry, and with the shit surroundin’ StrIVe, I don’t think I can trust this company to revive BlazBlue proper. Is Team Blue even still a thing? It feels like after everythin’, I’ve been gut punched and spitted in the face.

... *sigh* Dammit, there's much I wanted to say, but as I'm typin' this, the words have fled.

I'm just lost. Where do I go from here? The company I once admired just fills me with nothin' but fury, and GG ain't even the first franchise I've seen to pull the shit it has and for what!?

I've thought about rebrandin' before, but I'm too attached to the handle even after everythin', yet still... I just wanted people to see how cool BlazBlue is, and the monkey's paw curled...

(I'll be fine, in case anyone's worried. This shit just sucks too much...)

[aropride]

oh my god . okay i havent complained abt it in a while but since december 2021 when i got covid for the first* time (*you’ll see) ive been getting dizzy/lightheaded a lot, have random coughing fits, am even more sensitive to heat (i cant breathe in hot cars Like i start choking which was already a thing bc asthma but its worse now), and have frequently almost passed out after walking around for too long or just after standing up. (idk how many times ive actually passed out bc i cant remember really but its happened at least once). at first i chalked it up to Being Out Of Exercize and then i was like wait this isnt normal. and i wasnt eating well at the time and brushed it off as that but it continued even after i started eating somewhat better (altho it was a little less bad)

anyway eventually i was like yeah i probably have long covid or smth (also have pots symptoms guessing caused by covid) but i dont have a doctor (& dont know how to get one & dont have money & dont have transportation) so i havent been officially tested for anything

but the one thing that kept me from being like yes this is definitely bc of covid is in my senior year of highschool (started in sept 2020) (a year i have very few memories from so hard to compare symptoms) i remembered always being super out of breath + dizzy + lightheaded after walking up the stairs to my classes on the second floor. like id have to stand there for a second and breathe n shit and my friend was like “thats not good u should tell ur doctor” . but yeah i was like well maybe its just asthma and im exaggerating and its always been like this

WELL. i just remembered. in february 2020 i had this really awful cold. oone of the worst id ever had. coughing my fucking lungs up, couldnt breathe well, everytthing tasted weird. it lasted abt 2 weeks. You can see where this is goingg. i literally remember my mom saying like “wouldnt it be fucked up if tbat awful cold u had a couple months ago was covid” during like may2020.

and EARLY 2020 IS WHEN MY SYMPTOMS STARTED. and they got worse for a couple months and then stayed the same and i guess i got used to it UNTIL. i got covid in dec2021.

(ID: the “newsflash asshole” meme but the guy speaking has been edited over with a stick figure wearing a mask with wide eyes. the caption reads “newsflash asshole! it’s been long covid the entire goddamn time!” end ID)

[stelera]

I'm curious if anyone's asked this question, but what made you ship them?

I know cross shipping is a thing, but what made you ship them.

Once upon a time in 2009, in the darkness of the wings backstage of a school play, two highschool best friends wrote a very silly crack fic together in a spiral notebook.

No but for real back in highschool I met my best friend when we were both extras in a school musical (and we are still best friends now 14 years later). We were both part of the weeb crowd and while we had seen each other around the same social group we hadn't really talked or interacted much. We knew we both liked anime though, and turned out we both liked RP too, so we got a spiral notebook and started to RP together at rehearsals when we had downtime (and as chorus members there was lots of down time). The problem with this was that we didn't actually watch the same anime. I was rabidly into Naruto Shippuden and my bestie was very into Inuyasha.

I will admit I tried to watch Inuyasha to the best of my abilities at the time, but I didn't have a TV in my bedroom so I had to try and sneak out into the family room and turn the volume down super low and watch it on Toonami at 4am (wretched time), but I only managed to catch a few episodes this way before I gave up.

To solve this conundrum, we just... RPed with our favorite characters from our favorite animes and called it a crossover! My bestie figured out most of the initial time travel stuff and we just had a really fun time with it! Honestly it was a tough call between Inuyasha and Koga for my bestie's favorite character so our ship was almost Koga/Deidara but it's good it turned out the way it did.

Later in college after writing two sequels to the original fic, we re-wrote the original, but we really didn't have the skills to do it justice. I re-read that re-write back in maybe late 2021 early 2022 and just got bitten real hard by the nostalgia bug and started re-writing it. I've also revisited all of the source material (re-watched Shippuden and finally got around to watching Inuyasha twice now!) and really fleshed out a lot of the lore that was left bare-bones at best in our first couple passes. In doing so though, I really only made myself love the ship more.

I know it's just this obscure little crossover with strange and humble beginnings but honestly? To me at least... they're kind of accidentally great for each other. To Inuyasha, Deidara is someone who can keep up with him physically, who he doesn't have to worry about (usually) in a fight, who rolls with his temper and his banter without taking it too personally, who can be genuine with him and doesn't play mind-games with him, who doesn't see him as in any way lesser and doesn't treat his demonic heritage as an obstacle, who even admires him all the more for who he is without the desire to change him. To Deidara, Inuyasha is someone who makes him want to be better, who doesn't judge him for the darkness of his own past, who even shares in some of that darkness without letting it define him, who can roll with his off-color sense of humor while still being serious when necessary, who can care for him deeply and openly without strings attached, who can be someone he can heal with, who gives him the affection he's been starving for his whole life.

There are just... so many ways they mesh together well, if I sat here and kept waxing poetic about them, I'd have to open a candle barn.

idk if there's even a way to TL;DR this... they're good FeralXFeral energy. Rough, rowdy bros who fight hard, banter sharp, and love fierce, and whose jagged edges fit together surprisingly well.

[frischkasekuchen]

Mutuals x IT AU (As Told By Vanya)- Tortoise

Credits:

IT by Stephen King

Reve by @/kyokyo866

Vanya by @/thriftlita

Content Warnings:

None really

Starring:

Vanya

Me as myself from 2021-2022(?)

(A/N: Something I wrote for fun because schoolwork is stressing me out. @pearlsongfromstuff, @shu-dzhoker if yall have an idea of IT!Vanya's entries on you, I'd love to see it!)

July 1X, 1958

My family has now met two more strange adolescents. 

Kase Knowles (the third) is another teenager a part of Shu’s circle. And like the child themselves, she is eccentric…but in a matter that is more subdued? (I call her cherepakha now)

She wears all black (I am shocked she was not a witch as well), wears glasses with fancy frames, and has an orange(red?) crucifix. She is the tallest of the group and compared to the other two, she has her hair cut very short(it appears that this trio is androgynus.).

Personality wise? She is incredibly timid.

When I first met her in the library, she was being cornered by a young man.

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The girl began shrinking away from the young man before her. She looked uncomfortable - no - terrified. Covered in sweat and legs unsteady.

The boy with freckles moved forward, invading her space, speaking in a low voice. Whatever he said made the poor thing tense up even more.

Vanya was told that he was too nosy, that he should mind his own business, that he would get killed poking around. But, he couldn't just gawk could he?

“Oh, devochka!” He cooed with all the acting experience he got from highschool theater. He rushed to the girl’s side and threw an arm over her. He gave her a playful, strangling half hug; classic fatherly behavior. “There you are! Do not go running off like that- you will give me more gray hairs!”

The girl looked around like a scared rabbit, before realizing what he was up to. “S-so sorry!”

Vanya gave the girl a gentle pat on her head, before narrowing his eyes on the boy.

“Mm?” he hummed, “I am interrupting something?” 

Vanya was always told that unconsciously, he had an intimidating aura when he was angry. According to his new house tenant, his aura had a thick, purple smoke and his eyes would be shrouded in shadows.The old man himself couldn't see it, but he hoped that the freckled boy saw it and took the hint.

The young man glared back at him. Like was going to falter before a scrawny lech.

The boy scoffed, giving up and skulking off. Vanya waited a few seconds before his footsteps were out of earshot.

…

He’s gone.

“So sorry for startling you.” He removed himself from the girl. “Are you alright, miss?” He took her wrists in his calloused hands, inspecting for any wounds.

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Kase was flustered when I looked her over for any bruises. Her eyes widened, her face reddened, and she tried to sink into her collar. Adorable.

Her timidity does not stop there. She stammers, twiddles her fingers, refuses to engage in eye contact at all costs. Once When she wanted to know where the bathroom was, I was in a conversation with Herald. Instead of saying “pardon me”, she stood behind us until Herald pointed her out.

Kase is not always closed off, she can open up, well, if you talk books. She loves literature with what seems to be a burning passion. After I had offhandedly mentioned Edgar Allan Poe- her face lit up. Our conversation started with poets, then veered off to Oscar Wilde and Bram Stoker. Wild hand gestures, pacing, broken English. It wasn’t until she realized that I wasn’t speaking that she concluded her soliloquy. She apologized for taking my time, but at worst, lunch was later than I had intended. 

Afterwards, I asked her to read for me. Kase was taken off guard for a moment, but she entertained my request anyway. I fell asleep as she read Jane Eyre.

In the evening, Shu woke me up for dinner.

Note: Fashion some new clothes for the pudgy girl.

[spook-e-snail]

Also wait what the fuck

Stg I've talked about this before but here we go again lmao >:3

It was late 2021 and some local conventions had just opened back up. This was during the first huge wave of popularity and I was fucking living for it so I did a lil BF cosplay and my girlfriend at the time of course cosplayed GF with me :))

We were like 16 or 17ish back then and of course we did the responsible thing: Skip school for the entire day and not tell our parents we were traveling an hour away to the largest city in the state to go to a fucking anime convention.

The con itself was actually super fun??? Our cosplays weren't like top tier (again keep in mind we were young we did this shit on a highschoolers budget). We met the fucking ninja turtles?????

Anyways though after the con we were super hungry and walking down the street to the parking garage and attempting to find a place to eat because our asses were STARVING.

This super tall older dude (like clearly balding, at least in his late thirties) got our attention as soon as we walked out of the convention center because he did the fucking pico rap at us all the way across the street but like??? With his voice?? (It did. Not sound good. He had to yell it because cars were passing and it just was not a thing you should do with your voice compared to calculator noises or some shit)

I kinda ignored the funny rapping and asked if he knew of any hotdog places nearby. I don't think I was rude or anything but he stopped making noises at us and just kinda hit us with this blank stare. We weren't really creeped out and just kept walking.

The parking garage was like half a mile away so we had a lot of walking to do. We noticed him behind us on the other side of the road a few times but again weren't really creeped out or anything (neither of us had been to a big city before, we had no idea what the hell to look out for).

Once we were like halfway there the street got kinda narrow and had less traffic. We heard someone running and when we turned around the guy was fucking booking it twords us. Thankfully we had enough common sense and survival instincts to realize we were about to get fucking snatched and started running like our asses were on fire. We hid in a coffee shop for like 20 minutes until we knew for sure he was gone.

The best part was me n my gf switched shoes as soon as we left the convention (she couldn't walk that well in heels but I could, we also wore the same size shoes so it just made sense to swap) so for a couple of blocks I was hauling ass in fucking stilettos.

We didn't see him again thankfully but we seen him on the news a year later after he got arrested for attempting (and thankfully failing) to kidnap some different cosplayers at the same damn convention.

Uhhh TLD;r Dumb teenager harnesses the Boyfriend kinnie energy and almost got kidnapped because he wanted to get some chili dogs

Also bonus but while I was looking for pictures from the convention I found a picture of my dad's dog when he was a puppy wearing my fucking pentagram choker

[mommycain]

Ethel Cain

ive been a big fan of Ethel Cain for a while now and it all started in 2020. shortly after discovering her, I began listening to all of the music that she made and it was weird because i've loved rock, metal, electronic, shoe-gaze and indie music and the artists that produce music of those genres, but i've never been so obsessed with someones music, the only ones that came close were deftones, nirvana, linkin park, breaking benjamin, in this moment, Chelsea grin, white chapel, son lux, and lorn. These bands / musicians meant a lot to me and still do, but i was never as in love with them like i am with Ethel Cain.

Growing up poor, gay, and autistic in southern Ohio (Wilmington OH) i was very isolated and ostracized by many. By the time i was a senior in highschool i had enough trauma to make a psychologists head spin, i was personally attacked by children and adults ever since i came out as gay at a very young age, sexually assaulted, abused in every way imaginable by multiple people, recovering from addiction, had multiple suicide attempts, multiple loved ones die, and helped raise my brother all before i was 18, so I really connected with many of the themes and lyrics in her music. I dont mean to come on here and dump all of my trauma on unsuspecting people, i just still cant believe there is someone out there that makes music that i can relate to on such a massive scale. I just want to give her a hug and thank her for existing in the same world as i do. The cliche of people saying "their music literally saved my life" always kind of bugged me, sure, some artists got me out of some dark moments in my life, but Hayden's music really did pull me away from self harm and suicide many times in my adult life. i want to sit down and just talk with her for hours and listen to her life story and thoughts. i know ... trust me i know, i sound kinda crazy, but i,ve just never felt this way about anyone's music except for her's.

Ive annoyed all of my friends relentlessly with how obsessed i am with her music and her as a person, and ive been spreading the gospel of Mother Cain as much as i can, but here are some deep dives into my thoughts about my favorite songs by Ethel Cain.

Earnhardt- 2020 / 2021.

This is the first Ethel Cain song i ever listened to. When i listened to Earnhardt for the first time, I felt seen, understood, and i was so confused as to why she wasnt more popular. This song had me in a chokehold and i still listen to it religiously, but anyways, Earnhardt really spoke to me when i first heard it and i fell in love with her voice and her mind while listening to this song. The betrayal and hopelessness in the lyrics and the theme of wanting things to get better but everything seems out of your control and only finding peace when thinking about your own death, it all spoke to me in ways i never imagined a single song could.

Michelle Pfeiffer- 2021

While i was scrolling on tiktok, i came across a video of Hayden sitting in a diner with her friend and i thought the whole vid seemed like a found footage film and i loved it, i started reading the comments and there were people saying that she was "running from the law" and "she killed someone i think and now shes fleeing her state", while i was confused, i went ahead and looked at her profile and saw that IT WAS HER, the one who made Earnhardt!!! my favorite song!!! so i went ahead and looked at other videos then stumbled upon a promotion for her new song: Michelle Pfeiffer and immediately listened to it. I was hooked ever since.

Ptolemaea- 2022

Yes, the song that puts the fear of god and or satan into the hearts of the mentally sane and cid-het men, as well as being an anthem to those that have been wronged by those same men. The feeling i got from hearing this song for the first time was extremely cathartic. the demonic and haunting voice of hayden at the end of the song is unnerving and devastating, when you hear it, it feels like a looming figure standing over your paralyzed / near lifeless body, and it wants you to let go and submit to it. The symbolism and poetry in Ptolemaea is something i admire to no end.

Hard Times- 2022

This song quickly became one of my best friends favorite songs, and i dont blame her, Hard Times is another devastating song that paints a picture of sorrow, trauma, insecurity, doubt, shame, and longing for stability and peace.

Dog Days- 2019

An almost lullaby about toxic relationships, full of pain and confliction. wanting to keep someone close to you no matter how much they hurt you, allowing them to hurt you because you can still see a glimpse of who they used to be, the person you fell in love with, excusing the abuse because they still show you affection from time to time, even when you know that loving them is only hurting you and you know it would be best to leave, you stay because no matter how hard you try, you cant help but fear the possibility that nobody will love you as much as they do. you know its poison, but youve been drinking it for so long you worry that life wont ever be the same without it. This is another song i relate to immensely.

Alright, ive been awake for over 37 hours now, so im gonna get some shuteye. i hope you found my crazed obsession amusing and or insightful, and i hope i dont look like a total psycho lmao, i just wanted to geek out and fangirl a bit because again ... i dont really feel this strongly about other musicians.

ps: Hayden ... Queen Ethel ... Mommy Cain ... if by some chance you see this, let me know! so i can die out of embarrassment in peace. thanks, love ya!

[crumbedtuna]

Meet the Admin/Artist!

Hello! I am Isabella but you guys can call me Tuna, Sushi, Onion, Well anything actually I am a 14 year old Australian artist and SynthV producer

some personal stuff

I was born in Cairns but moved to Brisbane after moving from Western Australia in 2021, this year I am almost half way through highschool in 8 grade! I draw as a hobby but sometimes will make headcanons or post synthv songs or covers! I am genderfluid but often like to be referred by It/Its. I am also bisexual! I also want to try and animate but can't really find any free animating software's (Pls recommend some that can work on windows laptop :'))

My main interests!

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GANGSTA

I've watched this anime early March or April this year and it is really good! The storyline is very interesting for an anime that was released in 2015 with only 1 season with 12 episodes. It also has diversity! Showing rather accurate looking dark skinned characters! And also showing mixed races!

My most favorite character from the anime is Nicolas Brown. He's a very interesting character and the representation of him being deaf is really realistic, it also surprised me when Worick mentioned he was half asian in episode 5 but it was also so cool to me, his and Worick's backstories were really sad but also interesting to watch, I also loved how the JP va of Tristan from 7DS: Grudge of Edinburgh voiced the young version of Worick. I was also very surprised when I found out Nicolas was also voiced by the JP VA of Nanami (Kenjiro Tsuda) from Jujustu Kaisen!

Another character I like is Cody Balfour, he's so cute and shy I wanna place him into my pocket, he doesn't show up much in the show nor manga but he is very cute I love him, Cody my son :')

Another Character I like is Emilio, he is a rather interesting character since he has black and Chinese heritage, but I feel bad for him since he just wants to have the destroyers help him find Alex who is his older sister but is watching twilights get killed left and right. And its sad how in chapter 38-39 he thinks his sister is dead since the bastard was attacked, my poor child needs a therapist :(

Nanatsu no taizai

I loved this show from when I was about 10 years old which was 3 years ago! My twin brother got me into the anime and I'm very grateful he got me into it. It is such an interesting show and I always and I mean always would talk positively about the show.

I love Estarossa and Mael, their both interesting characters and thats what I love about them! The way Estarossa was first shown in the anime and manga was just a big game changer for me, I just fell in love with him, I also got spoiled from manga images on google when I searched them up to look at Estarossa panels on my tablet which sounds weird but ay, you gotta do what you gotta do, I also already knew that Estarossa was Mael from manga panels but I found it so cool and always admired both of them, my little brain filled with stuff about them and I wouldn't stop thinking about them. I love them both equally!

I also like Dubs and Daliah from Cursed By Light, when they got introduced I thought it was very interesting as we never got to see another giant that was human sized like Diane and never got to see a fairy with an athletic build, but they both were such interesting and I always rewatched the movie, also for some reason I thought they died because I would randomly stop watching the movie and when I realised they were alive in Meliodas and Elizabeth's wedding scene, I just was like "I'm a dumbass lol"

VOCALOID

this was one of the big parts of my childhood and what got me into making SynthV covers and songs, I remember playing Project Diva Future Tone on my PS4 always playing Weekender Girl and Out of the Gravity, but their not gonna count as the first songs I listened to, the first vocaloid song I listened to was either Rolling Girl from Wowaka(Rest in peace, you will be missed Wowaka) or Common World Domination by Pinocchio-p who is currently my favourite Vocaloid producer, fun fact I always pronounced Pinocchio-p's name wrong and pronounced it as Pino-cho-p :')

My fav VOCALOID songs

Apple Dot Com by Pinocchio-p

Reincarnation Apple by Pinocchio-p

Godish by Pinocchio-p

Be my Guest by Azari

Nightmare by Azari

Sweet lies by Azari

Ghost Rule by Deco*27

Salamander by Deco*27

MKDR(DSCF) by Deco*27

Bitter choco decoration by Syudou

Cute Girlfriend(Cute na kanojo) by Syudou

Her boyfriend Jude(Kareshi no Jude) by Syudou

Corpse Attack!!(Mukuro Attack!!) by Utsu-p

Easy Peasy Euthanasia by Pepoyo

Melty Land Nightmare by Harumaki Gohan

Patchwork Staccato by Toa

ID Smile by Toa

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DNI list

Proshippers

DON'T interact, its VERY gross to ship adults with minors

Zoo's

WTF, same thing. DON'T interact...why would you want to fuck an animal???

Fushoji/ Himedanshi

just don't.

Homophobes and Transphobes

If you have a problem with people liking the same gender or people wanting to live happily as a gender they feel happier as, FUCK OFF

Racists

just no. Go OUT THAT FUCKING DOOR

M@P's

Just leave...JUST FUCKING LEAVE

Estarossa X Mael Shippers

...Ok why tf do you exist, just go. GO, GO AND DON'T EVEN VIEW THIS ACC, JUST GO AND TAKE YOUR DISGUSTING SELF CEST SHIP OUT THAT FUCKING DOOR!

Anyway, thats all for now! hope all of you enjoyed reading this and also hope you liked learning about me :)

Bye bye!!