#which is to say I can't get the tag to work T_T

[wooyoungisbaby]

Finally sat down to make a proper list. This took a fuckin WHILE!!

All of these are member/member, literally all the xreader i've read is here on tumblr. I'm always open to recommendations, don't be shy o send some my way ^^

Please let me know if any of the links are broken or wrong! :) DM me if you wanna ask for clarifications about anything, i'd be happy to help :)

Red title: contains smut. most of this list is just smut :') Blue title: angst

Sillage by BBQkitten | 90k · OT8 · MG centric · omegaverse · mind the tags

After suffering a particularly horrible physical assault from his pack leader, a very traumatized alpha Mingi gets adopted by Hongjoong's pack. Here, he finally starts the journey to healing from the abuse he suffered in his childhood and young adulthood.

We Got Innocence for Days by CoffeeKitten | 24k (ongoing) · OT8 · WY centric · omegaverse

- Wooyoung is an omega who has never had a home, and his past gave him a lot of shame about his own natural behaviours T_T He's taken in by the rest of AU-teez, and they begin to show him that he's great the way he is :')

Collar Full by long_green_onion | 6k · OT8, WY centric · incubus WY

Wooyoung is an incubus, and dating the rest of ATEEZ. None of them knows what he is, and he feels guilt for hiding this secret from his partners. After a while of not having sex, he's starting to have serious hunger issues. Which is to say, he needs sex or he gon die. But none of the others want to fuck him bc he looks like he's dying - which hE IS.

Digression by ImNotSorryImThirsty | 4k · everyone except matz · WY centric · kinky

Wooyoung has been a big ol brat recently, and his boyfriends team up to punish him thoroughly. A great time is had by all.

Don't want to stay in the dark || 7k · YS centric · OT8 · omegaverse · omega YS · hurt/comfort

After a horrible dance practice and the thought that maybe his pack did not want him, Yeosang goes into heat for the very first time.

Libido by cosywoo | 12k · OT8 · CS centric · omegaverse · trans characters, both primary and secondary gender

A mix of medicines, remedies, and sex are pushing San ever closer to the bliss of being bitched, and he loves it.

How To Care For Your Song Mingi by twoshotrobot | 3k · OT8 · MG centric · everyone else's POV

A home made documentary about how to keep Mingies happy and content. Spoiler: You just need to provide him with enrichment in his enclosure, by which i mean. well. peanits.

Now The Time Stands Still by kittenhwa | 2k · OT8 · MG centric · kink · sub MG

#gangbang #cock_cages #rope_bondage #degradation #objectification #struggling and more :3

Muzzled by cosywoo | 4k · CSxWYxYH · puppy play · sub WY

Puppy Wooyoung is being very bad, but luckily he has owners who are ready to degrade punish train him :)

Play Pretend by beanguni | 45k · YSxYH > YSxCSxWY · non-idol AU · kink · YSxYH fake dating

Yeosang is in love with his roommates Wooyoung and San. He teams up with his colleague Yunho, a kinky bastard, to make them jealous :3c

Cast Out by beanguni | 37k · YHxMG · soulmates AU · college AU · top YH

Yunho and Mingi are rivals, but they do love to fuck.

A Child of the Sea by HJsGayBF | 8k · HJxWY · mermaid + soulmate AU · mpreg but it's a mermaid

After an injury, mermaid Wooyoung, is taken care of by the crew of Hongjoong's pirate ship. But... What is this feeling inside both their chests... No... it can't be....... unless? uwu

Don't Stop by imiyoko | 1,5k · HJxWY · mean dom HJ

"This was supposed to be a punishment — Edging you while I use you" Hongjoong sneered, "But you just take everything I give you like the toy you are, huh?"

Under My Skin by geshulins | 7k · HJxWY · mean dom HJ

Hongjoong bullies Wooyoung and makes him cum :)

Biting Down by cosywoo | 11k · CSxWYxHJ with bg HJxSH · non-idol AU · cucking · mean dom HJ

Sannie and Wooyoung are boyfriends, but there's a real hot guy at Wooyoung's place of work. San gets cucked and he is Very into it :)

I Miss You by flowerwoo | 2k · SHxWYxHJ · fluff and smut

Wooyoung cockwarms his favourite hyungs. thats really it.

Comfort in the Night by regalmingi | 1.3k · SHxWY · cockwarming · sub WY

Wooyoung is anxious and the medicine is. well. it's Seonghwa's peanits :) how convenient that they're dating!

froot by cosywoo | 2.5k · OT8, SHxWY focused · kink

With the help of blindfolds, light bondage, a cock cage and fruit, Seonghwa helps Wooyoung practice his patience.

Desecration by ImNotSorryImThirsty | 3k · SHxWY · sub WY · background OT8 · kink: CNC, humiliation etc

Wooyoung was naughty, and Seonghwa teaches him a very thorough lesson.

Acts of Service by seonghwalazia | 6.5k · SHxWY · dom SH

Wooyoung asks Seonghwa to take care of him. In this case, "taking care of him" involves making cum so hard that he cries- repeatedly. Wooyoung loves it though.

Tool Thrash by orca_mandaeru | 2k · SHxWY + YS · sub WY

seonghwa belts wooyoung's ass in front of the members, yeosang may get involved

Tame a Brat by Moonshine_Milkshake | 4k · SHxWY · sub WY · kink · aftercare, crying

Seonghwa doms the fuck out of Wooyoung and then takes really good care of him as he cries in the aftermath :')

if looks could kill by comma | 14k · SH&YS · escort YS · protective SH · mind the tags

"We are so going to hell.” Seonghwa laughs. “‘Course we are. Together.”

Sweet Peas and Freesia by Evmoonleigh | 4k · SHxYS · omegaverse · dom prostitute SH · both alphas

Seonghwa isn’t supposed to play favorites. He’s a professional.

Lotus and Pink Peppercorns by Evmoonleigh | 5k · SH+CSxHJ · omegaverse · alpha prostitute SH · omega clients CS and HJ

“We’ve never done this before,” Hongjoong starts slowly. “My husband’s name is San. We’re both Omegas. I…can’t give him what he needs, so I need you to do it for me.”

Call Me Doberman by zesstea | 41k · CSxWYxYS mainly · kink AU · dom YS

Established couple WooSan want to try new dynamics in the bedroom, but it's not quite working out for them. So San finds himself a dom in "Doberman", Yeosang. Things... Escalate, and they all become more importamt to each other than initially planned.

We'll hold off the flood tonight by ninetyeights | 17k · CSxWYxYS · non-idol AU · fluffy!! · podfic version

wooyoung's boyfriends fall in love: the fic

Flight 806 by Evmoonleigh | 10k · JHxYS · sci-fi AU · soft mind the tags · space travel

Yeosang goes to space! :D ...He can feel something calling for him from out there, and he has no idea why.

The Feeling You Bring by moonrisematz | 15k · HJxSH · non-idol AU · friends to lovers · dom SH

Seonghwa ""accidentally"" tells Hongjoong about one of his kinks, edging/denial, and Hongjoong is decidedly not handling the information well. What happens next will warm your heart :}

Take Care of a Leader by Moonshine_Milkshake | 1.4k · HJxSH · bottom SH

Seonghwa lets Hongjoong fuck him sometimes. But this is the first time Hongjoong surprises him.

Clutch series by cosywoo | ~24k · SH centric, feat. CS and WY · eggs! :)

Tentacles and eggs man, what more do you need to know?

Imbroglio by orca_mandaeru | 3k · OT8 · SH centric · feat. CS, WY, YH · omegaverse · sub SH

Omega Seonghwa is tied up for anyone to fuck if they so choose. Wooyoung chooses to tease him bc he's a meanie!! But perhaps after that, someone will show up and let him come? óuò

It Would Cost You by lieanni | 8k · SHxCSxWY · kink · dom SH · sub CS

Wooyoung is invited to join San and Seonghwa for a scene.

And they were roommates by zesstea | 6k · SHxCSxMG · sub CS · trans CS · edging/denial

San gets that special glow™ when he goes on stage after being edged. Mingi and then Seonghwa are determined to help him achieve this.

Practice Lesson by zesstea | 7k · MGxJH · they switch :)

Mingi is unhappy that he's inexperienced in bed, Jongho selflessly offers to help him out.

All Mine by undeliveredtruth | 5k · MGxJH · gentle dom JH

Mingi is upset about a smth that happened on a game show, and Jongho takes care of him by making him cum :)

Everyone Needs Some Care by Moonshine_Milkshake | 6k · MGxSH · top + gentle dom SH · background OT8

Seonghwa likes to take care of his band mates by having sex with them. Mingi has never taken him up on the offer before, but Seonghwa is happy to help him de-stress.

Mind the tags section

Fics that depict noncon or dubcon between members.

Trial and Error || 2.5k · SH (WY, YS) · sub/victim SH · noncon

Seonghwa is the primary subject for a clinical study.

Eyes On Me by SariErrbody | 50k · CSxWY · non-idol AU · stalking, dubcon, past noncon ...

Wooyoung works at a cafe, and there's this patron who's very handsome but also very odd. The patron keeps showing up just to stare at him.

Nectar and Ambrosia by orca_mandaeru | 4k · CSxYS · superhero AU · sub CS · dubcon?

Magical girl Yeosang lets San suck him off :3

Until He Breaks by JustNothingHelps | 5k · CSxHJxWY mafia AU · noncon

Hongjoong has something San and Wooyoung want, and they are real mean to him to get him to spill the beans about its location.

Entrapped by gutsey | 5k · CSxHJxWY · mafia AU · transmasc victim HJ · noncon

San and Wooyoung need some intel from Hongjoong, the tech guy of an opposing mafia family. And well. They try to fuck it out of him :)

The Secrets Within by flamewhipper | 11k · SHxWYxYS · alien SH · tentacles · dubcon

Yeosang and Wooyoung are waiters at a resuatrant. One day, they have a very, very beautiful patron who captures their attention in a way that seems very, very unnatural.

[matd0]

life update ig ??:

hi hi hi hi hi hi hi !!!

ok so

1. i mentioned about having medical issues and some people got concerned so i just want to quickly explain the thing yk; in short it turns out having anxiety can cause heart arrhythmia ????? which can be like kinda dangerous;; but like in most cases it's fairly harmless so i should be alright :] !! still have to go check it out at the hospital (which i have been sorta putting off for a while bc yk. anxiety,, lol) but like other than it stressing me out a bit, everything is relatively fine :]

2. school is kicking my ass rn 💀 have a lot of unfinished work and missed a ton of classes bc my mental health kinda sucks,, so yk it's not exactly going great lol. but uhhhhhhhhhh im sure I'll figure it out ? ig ?? ye.

3. got a small art block. well it's more like "i have so much work to do, how dare i draw at a time like this" (and then just go to sleep bc im soo stressed and overwhelmed about everything 💀) but like. I'll probably get over it soon 🤷

idk i also just feel super obligated to always post super high effort paintings if i have many followers yk? like alot of the time i just feel like my drawings aren't good enough and everyone will like despise me for it;; and idk ig i just need constant approval for everything i do for some reason sjdhjshd. ik it's like. a really inaccurate and terrible way to look at it but i just can't rlly help it;;

uhhh all that to say, i hope it's alright if i post more sketches and unfinished drawings ? ;;

4. i would like to formally apologize for barely responding to literally anything. like. im so sorry dudes;;;;;;; unfortunately i have. very intense social anxiety and literally do not respond to anyone ever. (/srs it's like. a genuine issue in my life. whoops) but like i feel super bad about it bc i don't want to seem like i don't care T_T cuz lik e. i literally read every comment, message, tag, etc. and they always make me so so so happy ;;;;; like i routinely show screencaps of random comment to my friends gush about how nice they are 💀 idk point being; im a loser, i love all of you and it blows my mind that anyone cares about my silly drawings for a p much dead fandom lol.

extra: also i uh made a creepypasta oc 🧍‍♂️might post about him maybe idk im scared it'll be cringe sjhsjsgdhgdhd epic

TLDR; pretty stressed, small art block, school suckz, might die but probably not lol.

(sorry this came off super negative and sort of venty 💀 its all good i swear, im just silly)

[ragecndybars]

AO3 tag game :3

thanks so much for the tag @mvshortcut !!!!! much appreciated, this was a blast to fill out :D

How many works do you have on AO3?

86! Damn, that's more than I remember 🙀 I have been writing pretty fervently since I was pretty young, though, and I transferred all my old fics from fanfiction dot net to AO3, so it's a long stretch of time. All my old wattpad fics are still rotting somewhere though lmaooo I can't even access them anymore bc I forgot my password and I can't reset it bc I used a school email 😔

What's your total AO3 word count?

443,734! When I get to half a million I'm gonna have to throw myself a party. With boba and everything

How many fandoms have you written for, and what are they?

Oof, okay, here we go. A lot of the fandoms I have tagged on AO3 don't really "count" because they're just aggregate tags for the same fandom, so even though AO3 says the number is 48, I'm gonna count the TRUE number as 17. (It got cut down so much because of how many video game series have different games with different fandom tags on AO3, lmao)

Here's the breakdown of the list:

Persona (Mostly Persona 3)

Fire Emblem (Mostly Shadow Dragon and Blazing Sword)

Legend of Zelda

Pokemon

Professor Layton

RWBY

Kid Icarus: Uprising

Earthbound/MOTHER

Red vs. Blue

Voltron Legendary Defender

Naruto

Final Fantasy XV

Harvest Moon

The Mysterious Benedict Society

The Avengers

Animal Crossing

Care Bears (despite having never actually consumed any Care Bears media to my knowledge)

The worst part is that this stupid list would be much, much, MUCH longer if I finished even a quarter of my WIPs 😭 Hell, even just my "Video Games" subfolder in my "Fanfiction" subfolder has more than 17 subfolders in it...

Y'all don't understand how many random fics my ADHD spares you from ever seeing I have no focus

Top five fics by kudos:

Ash and Emotion (Zelda) - Not surprising, I knew this was my most popular fic. It was for a ZeLink zine full of beautiful work :)

Resemblance (Naruto) - bro I always forget people really liked this one. Literally an unedited drabble I did in an hour for a "pride month drabble challenge" which I immediately abandoned. Trans rights I guess

Always Wanna Play (But You Never Wanna Lose) (Persona 3) - This one isn't surprising either, and I'm very proud of this fic so I'm quite chuffed to see it get so much attention... thanks everyone :')

The Beat of Your Heart (Zelda) - Now this one surprised me a lot. This was just a little piece for ZeLink week... Another unedited one, I literally was writing it on the toilet in church so I could get it out in time 😭

Comfort (Zelda) - Another ZeLink week piece, but I knew this one was popular. Also unedited, lmao. I was writing it on the day of my AP Calc finals and I rushed through the exam so I could have more time to work on the fic 😭 I made some Choices that year

Do you respond to comments?

I try to! But I get very anxious about it and tend to work myself into a tizzy, so I often put it off for later and then forget, haha. Then I'll go and respond to all my comments from the last few months and feel even weirder about it... T_T

What's the fic with the angstiest ending you've ever written?

Oof. That's... a hard one, haha. I've written a couple of fics without happy endings, though I typically don't. At least three fics which end on a canonical character death, for instance. But I'd say the ending which made me the most emo writing was Butter, a Mother 3 fic. It ends with Lucas, who's like 9, recently lost his mother, then lost his twin brother (and thinks it's his fault), and is now being neglected by his father, crawling into bed and crying. So yeah, pretty bleak, lmao... but at least he doesn't die I guess?

Do you write crossovers?

I do, but I haven't posted many yet. I'm not always huge on writing them, but I do think about them a lot. I was working on this one Persona 3 x Fire Emblem Awakening crossover but I lost steam on it, and now there's a really lovely crossover on AO3 with a similar premise that I was SO delighted to come across!!! Hope y'all don't mind me taking a break from linking my own work to shill for this one, hehe

Have you ever gotten hate on a fic?

Unfortunately, yes, about six times, I'd say. Even more unfortunately, most of those times happened earlier on in my fanfic writing career, and I was pretty sensitive to hate back then, so I deleted many of the relevant fics, and some of them I don't even have access to myself anymore.

Not gonna talk about the ones that are still upsetting, but I will talk about the funny examples: on a (since deleted) RWBY fic, I said in the author's note that I "wrote them as platonic, but the fic can be read as WhiteRose", and then I got a glowing comment gushing about how good the story was which ended with "but then you had to ruin it by shitting all over WhiteRose, how about you [long suicide bait]". Third most baffling comment I've ever received.

The two most baffling were on different fics, but both were making the same weird accusation??? One was on a ZeLink fic (actually, on Comfort, my fifth most kudos'ed fic of all time now), and y'know I think I'm just gonna show you the comment in question:

The other one was on a long-since deleted fic which focused on both a romantic ship, as well as a fatherly relationship between one member of the ship and the other member's father. I guess having a fatherly relationship with your father-in-law makes your boyfriend actually your brother (and therefore you can't date him anymore). IDK man people are crazy. (tbf the commenter in question thought I was setting it up so that he'd get adopted by his boyfriend's parents, which would give them more of a case, but like... that didn't happen in the fic and wasn't going to. they just guessed at a future plot development and got angry about their guess)

Do you write smut?

I do, but I've never posted any. I've posted one fic that was very suggestive, I'd even call it "NSFW" in a sense, but never anything explicit. Maybe I will in the future? We'll see if I can ever finish anything smutty, lmao.

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Yep, I had Ultimatum, my longest chapter-fic (and by far my most popular fic in the ff.n days) stolen and posted on another site by somebody. I reported it but never checked back up to see if it got taken down.

I also feel that I've had my work plagiarized pretty damn blatantly in another fandom (I was browsing a certain AU tag and read one which contained all the exact events and sometimes word-for-word dialogue from a fic of mine, just very very slightly rewritten) but the poster had no other works and their writing was definitely extremely juvenile, so... I figured they were a dumb kid and just decided not to raise a fuss. Checked back later and they deleted it, hopefully because they realized they shouldn't do that, so I figure there's no need to start shit over it. Honestly, if that person used that experience as a jumping-off point to write their own fics, then I'm glad it happened, imitation being the highest form of flattery and all.

Have you ever had a fic translated?

No, though I had someone reach out to me on fanfiction dot net a long time ago and ask permission to translate An Unheard Goodbye, which was super exciting! I agreed, but I don't believe they ever got around to it, or if they did, they never posted it. Still very flattering, and I think about that a lot, hehe.

What’s your all-time favorite ship?

HOW COULD I POSSIBLY ANSWER THIS. UM. UM UH. UHHH UM UH I. UM.

I'm.... gonna say Zelda/Link? I haven't written it in FOREVER but it was such a huge part of me coming into my own as a fanfic author, so I have to give it credit for that.

What’s a WIP that you want to finish, but don’t think you ever will?

.......all of them 😭 god I have so many of these damn things. But for the prime example, I'd point to Ultimatum, an old Pokemon fic that I started in middle school. I got all the way to the climax and I feel bad leaving my readers hanging, but... at this point, if I did continue it, I would honestly have to rewrite the whole fic first just to be in line with my current understanding of the characters.

What are your writing strengths?

Y'know, I think I get character voices down extremely well in a way which elevates my dialogue and narration. That's probably the thing I'm most proud of in my own writing, at least.

What are your writing weaknesses?

BREVITY. Or the utter, glaring lack of it. I have also been known to muddy up my writing with an overabundance of A) adverbs, B) unneeded clauses tacked onto perfectly good sentences, and C) em-dashes 😭

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fics?

I think it's dope as fuck, but I currently can't really accomplish it because I'm monolingual (NOT FOR LONG IF I HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY ABOUT IT, I'M COMING FOR YOU, JAPANESE FLUENCY!!!!). I will also say that I don't like when authors will write characters having a story-important conversation in another language, then put the translations in the end notes or something, requiring you to either read the chapter confused or else keep scrolling back down and back up.... I think even that's totally fine to do if what's being said isn't plot-relevant, though.

What was the first fandom you ever wrote for?

Naruto. I hadn't read or watched Naruto btw, I had only read other Naruto fanfics. I have spoken on this topic many times, but it remains hilarious to me. Also, so many of my old Naruto fics are lost to the Wattpad times, but I will take this opportunity to once again share a quote which I recently managed to unearth from my long-lost unsung magnum opus:

Never ever will I intentionally attain the level of comedy gold that I managed while writing completely dead serious Naruto fanfiction on Wattpad in 2012.

What’s your favorite fic you’ve written so far?

See above. How could I ever top that fic.

In all seriousness, this question always makes me sweat, but I think I'm gonna say Oil, a slightly older fic from my EliHec days which I absolutely obsessed over for months before finally managing to finish. And, unlike most of the fics that I obsess over, I think the obsession actually made it come out better rather than worse, haha.

thanks again for the tag!!!! as for me, I'll tag uhh, hm, @wizard-finix @dreamedge @misty-wisp @flyfish1999 and any other AO3 writers who see this!!! (idk how many of you use AO3 and most of the MBS authors I know have probably already been tagged hehe but anybody who wants to should absolutely feel free!!!!!!!)

[just-some-random-blogger]

hello!! i hope your day has been well

i wanted to ask if you knew any daemon x reader fics thats concerned about reader being lonesome? and like its an angst-comfort? if you know any, could you please help me navigate them? feel free to include your own work as well if there is, your pieces have been very delightful to binge read, you are really talented!

HELLO MY LOVE. my tumblr crashed while i was replying but thats ok because it gave me the opportunity to be the complete yellow belly and rethink whether or not i wanted to tag anyone or just link their fics HAHHAAH (im so insane i was thinking if it was possible to tag someone but block them from the post AHHAHAAH)

anyway you can tell what i decided. tbh i honestly dont fucking remember reading any and i mean any of these. literally 0 of these T_T HAHAHAHAH it's not a slight on anyone its just a me thing im head empty all the time. also i mostly read freaky smut pieces of daemon because, well, im a freak (: that's probably why i dont remember any of these tbh. im rotten in the head T_T. i digress

Fury of The Dragon by @drakoneve (hello i love you) ok this one isnt exactly what you're looking for and i only vaguely remember reading it cos BONK🤠 it be like that. judging by my reblog i was mad petty after reading it and that's a me thing because im mad petty but im sure this is lovely and vivid because it elicited such a response from me.

Ānogar Hūra by @author-morgan ([heavy breathing] hi there) again have only white noise in my head dont remember reading this if not for the reblog BUT WHAT I DO REMEMBER IS LIKING HER STORIES SO MUCH THAT I OBSESSIVELY WENT THROUGH HER MASTERLIST HOPING SHE'S MAKE MORE FOR DAEMON. if you ever read this im not saying you should cos im not in the business of telling people what to do but if you do i would love to read it fyi lol

this ones untitled but its by @gay-dorito-dust (hello hi how are you) again dont remember a thing but judging by my reblog its soft... which in hindsight is the opposite of angst AHHAHA but it has some of those angsty comfort fics kinda so yuh you might like this one

Bleeding love by @blayresmuses (hihihi hi there hihih) once again HAHAHAH cant remember anything about anyone. judging by my reblog its really sweet in the end HAHAHHAA 404 BRAIN NOT FOUND. it does explore the whole child birthing aspect. idk what you feel about that nonnie.

this ones also untitled but its by @floweringfics (HI HAHAH) i also dont remember shit about nothing but i have a longer reblog for this, which is telling COS I KNOW FOR A FACT. A FACT. THAT ITS GOOD. SHE IS AN AMAZING WRITER SO LOVE HER SO MUCH

im just going to throw in @em-writes-stuff-sometimes (HEY *wink wink*) cos she a baby girl and i love her. she is so good at writing, get this, she made her own fucking universe (which most definitely has the themes youre looking for) and she also studies high valyrian and all that queen shit i can't wrap my head around. she's insane. im telling you a she's a hotd writer idc idc i will die on this hill.

@ewanmitchellcrumbs ([BARKING] HELLO) is also a really great writer although i dont think she does angsty comfort fics. she does make fics that make me gol feral after so theres that. interact with at your own discretion cos it changes your life fr and then next thing you know youre a barking dog.

that's about it i think T_T i hope all these lovely people just know i love them because i do i- HA:DHASFHLASFLASB

anyway next are my fics and wow i kinda feel weird by how many fics of myself i put HAHAHAH. but anyway you asked and you said i was talented and im flattered you binge them [pushes hair back] so i gave.

Want You Dead has that, but it's a three part series, so idk how you feel about that. part 2 in particular VERY much hits the nail on the head for this one (update: does it? i am questioning myself rn). also yn was a pirate for a while HAHAHH and it gets pretty graphic at a point so idk how you feel about those

Mine is also a p2 (to Ten & One) and the hurt/comfort is over yn being unable to conceive so there's and theres prett obvious smut so HAHAH

Lies Are Treason is very much hurt/comfort with some angst ig BUT IT HAS SMUT

Stone Cold is really angsty and im only adding it cos there's a smudge of like hurt/comfort there HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH but its imo one of the more tragic tales ive written AHAHHAAHHAHA

Cold Killer AHHHH I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT THIS ONE THIS ONE IS PRETTY GOOD THIS ONE I THINK IS SMTH YOU WOULD LIKE YA KNOW ANGST + COMFORT YEAH THIS ONE THIS ONE

Kiss it Better... NGL I TOTALLY FORGOT I EVEN WROTE THIS HOLD ON LET ME REREAD IT RN HAHAHAHA. update HAHAHAAH I REMEMBER i wrote this when i had a bad day and i was like grrr i need the evil man to comfort me HAHAHAHAH THIS ONE IS ALSO REALLY GOOD

Moon Cycle kind of has a hurt/comfort aspect just a smidge ya feel. it's mostly, well, smut HAHAHAH also its a part four to a my stark!universe series lol

Waiting For A Lifetime has that in its p2 kinda but this is a modern au so idk how you feel about that.

thats all i think. off to go read some more daemon fics i think HAHHA

[mr-laveau]

I...have been tagged by quite a few people to do this... it's all good tho! Also yes, I've been dead online, I got a new job and I've been adjusting to it

Uhhh let's see who I was tagged by... @halscafe @annahhopee @zozo-01 @romeo-the-homeo @darlin-collins ...and this is for the...

Get to know me: Redacted Listener edition

Oh. Well without further a due, let's get into it (yuh).

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Favourite listener character? Sweetheart/Darlin

Are we really surprised? Are we? No. We're not. I love them your honour. Sweetheart and Darlin are just cool. They've got amazing powers, interesting plot lines (Erik please remember they actually do things), they've got the best boyfriends and they're really just two sides of me put into one person.

Listener character I relate to the most? Darlin/Honey/Freelancer/Sweetheart

Yes. You can't make me pick, I do relate to these four the most. Honey's standoffish personality. Darlin's bullheadedness and strength. Sweetheart's wits and playful nature. Freelancer's inability to seek help on their own as they push themselves to bare things on their own while helping everyone else (T_T)...I'm fine. Totally.

Favourite Listener Character to Write/Read? Lovely/Darlin/Sweetheart

Most of my WIPs are these three, I love them so much, my god do I have so many thoughts about them. They're all different parts of me and I cannot undo that, now I just think about them a lot.

I Want Their Powers? Seer Obscura (Morgan's listener)/Darlin/Sweetheart

Listen, I don't even mind that being a seer is somewhat of a difficult cross to bear, I think it's fuckin' cool AND they get everyone's magic plus a special one that not even d(a)emons can wield. Why the wouldn't I? If not then I either want to be able to shift or phase & cloak like SH does because that shit's fuckin cool!

I Want Their Life? Cutie/Honey

Listen, the office babes actually work office jobs which isn't my cup of tea, the others are doing plot shit I actually am not confident I would want to go through SO, I want their life. I'd treat Guy and Geordi right. They bring joy to my life so of course I would want them.

I Have Their Life? *Looks at my life* *squints* pre-Vincent Lovely

Given that I've projected so much shit onto Lovely. Yeah. This makes sense.

Comfort Listener Character? Honey/Sweetheart

THEY HAVE THE BEST COMFORT BOYFRIENDS, WHAT CAN I SAY? LISTEN, no you listen. It's the switch in me. There's two kinds of comfort I love and these two provide that and I refuse to be apologetic of it.

Anywhooos, that's all folks! Since I'm the one of the last peeps to like actually respond to this...uhhhhhh...anyone who sees this is free to join

[after-witch]

THEEOOO are you alright???

Please tell me you're alright

Give us some update T_T

hey 'non so uhhh, u mm. I didn't want to post because I feel like lately all I do is just post "my life is going to shit" but ;;; YOU ASKED... SO IT'S OKAY.... and uh, truthfully:

I'm not okay. At all. Things aren't okay in a serious way.

gonna 'keep reading' cut this so it's not clogging up anyone's dash ;;

Furnace tech came out, there's a crack in the furnance (He showed me & I got it confirmed) and he tagged my furnace as unsafe for living conditions and turned off power/gas to it.

So I have no working heat throughout the house. In the winter. In an area where it can get down to the 10s/20s or colder, particularly as we get into January-February.

I don't have the money to buy a furnace, but I literally need one to live in this house and make sure my pipes don't freeze/burst, and to sell this house for anything remotely resembling a reasonable price.

They send someone out for an estimate, and it’s $4000 for a new furnance install. I don’t have it. And they gave me info to apply for a loan, but like. I can’t... take out a a $4000 loan to pay for a new furnace when I’m supposed to be moving in 2 months. 

My family found a used furnace, but we need someone licensed to install it. So far the quotes for installing it are just as much as buying the new furnace and having it installed, so it’s like. Hrm. People are asking around to see if we can find someone who will do it for a different rate. But I mean, it’s a complex installation, so I’m not hopeful.

And on top of all this, it's just like. Me trying to sell the house on my own? Somehow? Trying to declutter and clean and pack a 2000 square foot house and then figure out how to list it and for what price and do all the paperwork?

All this was already overwhelming without the "I HAVE NO FURNACE NOW" element hanging over me. And now? I just feel so lost.

So I got approved for the apartment which has a move-in date in early March, but now I'm just like, how am I going to afford the apartment $500 hold deposit in 2 weeks and later on afford the move-in costs and get a furnace installed and get renter's insurance and sell a house with presumably no working furnace in the winter and get everything decluttered and packed in very cold temps and still pay my regular bills and start saving for the next round of car insurance and make enough for gas and and and...

I've actually never felt this level of stress and despair before. I just keep bawling. Like, "when someone you love dies" level of bawling.

I'm just really not okay.

My cat and I are currently in my office with a space heater while I try to do some remote freelance work so I can pay my current bills, hopefully she joins me in the bedroom after I warm it up & stuff a blanket in the doorway cracks to keep it in. I also bought room thermometers so I can see if it's getting to dangerous cold levels and if it is, go to a relative's house.

Thankfully, I do have places I can stay at during the night (siblings houses) but the financial situation & making sure my cat is safe & making sure I'm not in dangerous cold conditions & making sure my pipe's don't freeze is just... overwhelming. idek what to do at this point.

Every time I'm like "Okay, it can't get worse," it just does. Every little positive thing (finally getting my driver's license, finding a way to pay for car insurance, getting help from commissions & amazing donations so I can get my furnace fixed last month) is immediately met with a massive backhand.

Def going to like. Post more about emergency commissions & stuff like that soon. Just right now I need to... figure out... what to make a priority.

Sorry for the long rant. I wish things were going good so I could just say that. I wish I just. had a secret stash of money that I could use to pay for this stuff and not have to worry. 

[coffeestainedcamera]

Hm, I like Topaz now, in a very Succession fan way. I'd not get along with a real-life person like her, but her arc as a debt collector with some moral scruples is interesting. Just going to tag spoilers from here!

Like, she came off as downright friendly at first. Watching her politely fangirl over March and the heroine, I wasn't sure what she was doing on Jarilo-VI (but her staffers' initial trigger-happiness def made me wary). Still, maybe they weren't having their finest day and their boss was reasonable and dropped in for something mundane. Like establishing trade routes for the newly-space-cancer-free planet or whatever.

Translation in alt text for images (bc I can't be bothered to watch the quest in eng on youtube). Please note that I'm literally only a bilingual accountant.

Anyways, then I was like... sorry, credit history? And how would that preclude the planet from reestablishing its connection with the rest of the galaxy? My next thought was that mobster movies are very much a thing in the setting and that she's probably seen Godfather at least twice.

She's a pretty compelling character, debt collector and all. Because on one hand, a lot of her behavior was practically designed to tick me off. Like, if someone were to take me on a museum tour and keep talking about the exhibits in terms of their monetary value, I'd walk away within minutes. It's just such a fundamentally uncurious way to look at art and history. Plus, you know, she's a loan shark.

Still, growing up in an ecological wasteland where you'd have to be rich to escape explains the obsession with money, I suppose. If your only other ticket out of there is to join Evil Corp, guess you'd jump aboard and drink the koolaid. Besides, it's not like she had any actual choice, having been set up to work for them in some capacity by whatever government officials signed the planet over to said Evil Corp in the first place.

So, yeah, it sucked to see her try to inflict the fate her planet suffered on others, in the name of maybe saving them. But would living her childhood afterwards be considered "saved"? This imposition might have been what pissed me off about the character the most.

And yet she ultimately honors their decision not to sign over and even sticks her neck out to her bosses to protect them. Yeah, she stays with them (the biggest employer in the galaxy) and that means she's still going to pull this on another planet later bc it's in her job description. But it's not like she's in my situation, where the profession has a shortage and I keep getting recruiter invites on linkedin even tho I'm employed. So I suppose that's why she's a not particularly likable character with some redeeming moments to me, which happens to be a sort of character I enjoy. Might be my fave now bc I had a Succession-shaped hole in my heart ever since that show ended.

Also, fave moments from this story (translations in alt text):

March taking a doll of Pom-Pom along for the party T_T Also, I hope she holds a fashion intervention for the lead someday! I trust her to get it right, 2000's scene princess tiara and all!

Is the lead canonically braggy, or have I been making a lot of braggy dialogue choices? Wonder if this line changes depending on your track record.

Uncle, seventeen interviews for what seems to be a security guard gig? I mean, yeah, we later find out that he was a "special case" but this is ridic.

Also, lol best quest opening text:

Translation:

"Excuse me, has [heroine] passed?" (The sentence looks blatantly typo'd, as "помер"/"pomyer" is past tense for "died" but it refers to men and the female version would be "померла"/"pomyerla". Also, saying "прошу прощения, это помер []?" sounds like you're trying to clarify if someone truly died and doesn't really make sense as an opening text to someone.)

"I am actually quite alive!"

"Oh, sorry, autocorrect. I meant 'number'." (Number/номер/nomyer is one letter away from died/помер/pomyer)

Anyways, now I'm curious what the original lines were lol

[soronya]

4, 7, 11, 20, 22, 36, 40, 56, 76- for Coco 1/2

For the ask game. I know it's a lot. If you don't want to answer a question that is fine ♥️

Finally answering this! Thank you, Toni, for the ask ♥ 4) Where do you find inspiration for new ideas?

I already answered this, but specifically for the coconut oil series: I watched RuRu matches :D And I have a kinky brain and just tried to let this fic make sense and add some humour. Mostly, the ideas came in cooperation with the server, the lovely people there helped me out a lot! 7) How do you choose which POV to write from?

The person I either sympathise with the most OR is about to have the major character development. In this case (for Coconut Oil) it was the first one - I really did sympathise more with Casper when I wrote this and needed Holger to be an unapologetic brat. I live by Tom Hiddleston's "every villain is a hero in their own mind", so writing from a "bad guy's" POV is mostly about giving an explanation and excuse for their behaviour, which I didn't have when I started the first part of the series. 11) Link your three favourite fics right now.

Please I can't choose T_T But I'll try to rec my three favourite tennis RPF fanfics here: - Until Midnight by VallasRevas - i don't wanna feel blue, anymore by rainbowstrlght - all the roads we have to walk by Aramley

20) Have you noticed any patterns in your fics? Words/expressions that appear a lot, themes, common settings, etc?

Lately, I have a hang of writing smut, I guess? :D Also, I like to write getting together fics and I avoid AUs. Ummm, what else? I probably overuse adverbs and dialogue tags.

22) Are there certain types of writing you won’t do? (style, pov, genre, tropes, etc)

I mean, never say never, right? But I am not the biggest fan of AUs, probably will never write 2nd person POV, and I don't think I'll ever write rape fics or thriller-themed fics.

36) How do you write kissing scenes?

I try focussing on the feelings and sensations and not on the action itself. Because that is quickly told. When you try and write about how someone feels while kissing, what their hands do, how the person experiences it (first kiss, heated kiss, soft kiss, etc.) it can become a good scene. Not that my kiss scenes are particularly good, but I am trying :D

40) If someone were to make fanart of your work, what fic or scene would you hope to see?

I absolutely don't care. Seeing fan art for my fics would be so fucking amazing, I absolutely have no preferences at all.

56) What’s something about your writing that you pride yourself on?

The characterisations of the protagonists. I think I am not too much OOC at most times. And being able to get the dialogue right (at least sometimes), so it could really be something the character I write about says in canon/in real life.

76) Did you have any ideas that didn’t make the final cut of Coconut Oil?

Mhhhhh. No, I don't think so. I pretty much wrote about everything I intended to write about in those two fics. But I scratched the idea to use the selfie Holger took with Paire in part three (which I hope to write in the future). Thank you for all the asks, it was so much fun ♥

[koalaforlife]

Questions

alias/name: /Adela

birthday: July 2nd

zodiac: Cancer

height: 165 cm

hobbies: learning foreign languages, playing videogames, reading, doing yoga, cooking/experimenting new recipes, taking long walks while listening to music, and more often than not wasting time on youtube.

favorite color: black, red, and navy blue

favorite book: I don't think I can choose only one book but for the sake of answering I'll write "When I was a Work of Art" by Eric-Emmanuel Schmitt.

last Song: Snooze by Agust D feat. Ryuichi Sakamoto and Woosung

last movie/show: watched episode 1 of season 9 (latest season) of Endeavour yesterday, which is kinda like a movie anyway :D (1hr and a half lol). Great show, I think it's my favorite crime/detective series.

recent read: I'm reading Chris Broad's "Abroad in Japan" nowadays and I absolutely love it. Also reading Kit's fics on the side though I think I finished all of them already *sniff sniff* (also, go read Kit's fics, Levihan people! :D)

inspiration: hmmm when I see some nice fanarts or beautiful shots of some people, I save them so I can draw them later...but I almost never get to it :( I started a mini project a couple months ago, I wanted to draw three anime characters I identified with to some extent and I barely finished 1 and a half of it lol. I'm so bad at this... :D so I don't think I can fully say I get inspiration or do something with it...

story behind url: at the time I created this account, about 10 years ago, I had this "koala" personality thing going on with my boyfriend at that time. So I wrote "koalaforlife." I've since outgrown it but it's still here as a reminder of one of the past versions of me, I guess :)

fun fact: .....I don't have any? I don't know, can't think of anything... :)

Thanks for the tag, @this-is-krikkit :)

I'm taggiiiing @micia-posts-stuff @nekopeachymare @megillien (I don't know if you're still around nowadays tho) @krysyuy (same T_T) @abjcfandom-blog-blog (saaame T_T I miss my people orz) if you feel like it :)

[fumblingmusings]

This isn't a hate anon please don't think that I do like your work, but can I ask why you make Alice so sexless? Like I get the whole lady insane country aspect and In my own hc I have I image she has been very traumatised in that aspect but still the same goes for Arthur and the guys obsessed with sex so why not the same with Alice? If we say Arthur is obsessed with sex and kink and porn etc (and he is in canon, the guys a total freak). Why do we never say the same about Alice? Cause like she she would love sex your British you should know how much people here love sex we literally have a scandals every few weeks about some politicians sordid sex secret being outed and a long history of dogging in every single car park in this horrible wretch of a country. Again this sounds like hate it's not I'm just curious to why people don't like Alice getting her back blown out regularly (she's not even that old either yeah she's like 3000s but psychically she's one of the youngest 21-23, China fucks and he's twice her age)

Minors dni please.

For the absolutely very simple reason that I am personally not comfortable writing about it! I embarrass myself. That's literally it. T_T It's genuinely not much deeper than that. And that's not a judgement on people who do or people who write their characters with it, lord knows I enjoy reading myself, I'm just not very good at writing it.

Besides, I'm certainly not anywhere near saying 'this is canon'! I'm just playing with the toys in the sandbox same as everyone else, telling a version of a story which is no more true than any other.

It's just the way I've decided to focus the story on her familial relationships and I don't have room for everything. Chapters skips decades at a time and years within that. Lord knows how long that fic is gonna be when it wraps up, there are other things on her mind aside from who's she fucking or in love with. My focus is on politics because weirdly I'm more comfortable writing about it.

Maybe I'm projecting there a bit too much but... that's really just the way I've written her. There's nothing to say she can't get up to more fun or wild stuff in more modern day, when she feels a lot freer and safer to explore that side... or maybe the fact that in the fic nearly everything she says and thinks about is a distortion of the reality in front of her (the fic is tagged unreliable narrator for a reason after all) and that it could be sign that she is presenting a version of herself to her brothers, children, and potential partners and you can't trust a thing that comes out her mouth or even her own thoughts...

But really it's my butt at my laptop turning bright red every time I try to write the stuff. Genuinely.

I'm absolutely fine and dandy and good and grand for the girl to be eaten out four times in a night by Japan or her and France to have an fwb sort of situation going on involving pegging or something that was more serious and long term with Port or angry hate sex with Denmark which left them covered in blood at the monastery altar... I just won't be the one writing it. I will be reading it though... if anyone wants... I also think it's just as valid for her to genuinely be on the aroace spectrum, to be traumatised and have a negative relationship with sex, or to just have a low libido. I think it's all fine. I've just gone for one version, the version I am most comfortable writing on. I hope that is okay.

[alifeasvivid]

fic writer questions

tagged by @fireandiceland :D

1.) How many works do you have on AO3

19... it was 39 but I had a major self-loathing moment

2.) What’s your total AO3 count?

word count? 166,516

3.) How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

if you mean currently on AO3? just Hetalia. If you mean only on AO3 ever: Kuroshitsuji, Hyouteki no Finder, BotW, and Hetalia

In total through my whole life uhhh >.> a few more than that

4.) What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Thief of Spades Season One

Thief of Spades Season Two

Trust

If It's You

Desperate Measures

5.) What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

It's gonna be between Last Hurrah and Payback probably... Payback probably wins just because it is incredibly bleak

6.) What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

Uhhhh hmmm I mean I'd say everything else that's finished they're all about equally happy. I write most fics with the intention of reaching a happy ending that feels earned. From most contrast between the rest of the fic and the ending, I'd say An Impossible Situation

7.) Do you write crossovers? If so, what is the craziest one you’ve written?

Nah, I'm not interested in crossovers.

8.) Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Oh yeah. What else is there? XD I hope I write *good* smut. After Kuro, I think was really uptight about it and trying to be "clean," but I've loosened up on that a lot and I think it has greatly improved the quality of the smut I write.

I think I have a slight reputation for adding BDSM elements and of course there's my super hardcore kink of writing scenarios where everything is consensual and all parties involved care about and respect each other. It's pretty intense, pretty niche, not a lot of people are into it. LOL As for gender/sexuality >.> who really cares about that kind of thing nowadays?

I also primarily write UKUS, which many people find extremely offensive. 🤣 IT'S A JOKE!

9.) Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

I used to forget, but I try to do so consistently now because it shows my appreciation because I really like getting comments.

10.) Have you ever received hate on a fic?

EEEEEEYUP.

11.) Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not to my knowledge

12.) Have you ever had a fic translated?

I have! :D I consider it to be quite an honor ^-^

13.) Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yes. A long time ago.

14.) What’s your all time favorite ship?

USUK/UKUS. Nothing else even comes close.

15.) What’s a WIP that you want to finish but you don’t think you ever will?

T_T so many, but mainly Technicolor Heart. I just really like the concept, but that fic would have been soooooooo angsty..... also I don't wanna get ... fuckin.... run off of tumblr.

16.) What are your writing strengths?

Pacing. I know I just have a sense of how a story should progress so that everything feels earned but there's minimal to no dragging. I get told people like my characterizations a lot which is nice ^-^ also my prose is pretty nuanced, but I don't count that as a strength because I think most people don't even notice.

17.) What are your writing weaknesses?

>.> speed. or lack thereof. I can't write action scenes, which dramatically altered the direction of Thief of Spades in particular. I don't have a beta so there's always typos I'm catching months after posting P: I struggle with description/creating atmosphere using sensory info.

18.) What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in fic?

I agree with Riva that salutations or endearments are fine, but writing whole scenes that way comes across as pretentious and annoying. Not to mention it can just be really confusing. Write in the language of your audience, it's basically just that simple.

19.) What was the first fandom you wrote for?

Pffff. As if I'd say it in public smh. I'll spare 11/12 y/o me the indignity

20.) What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

Uhhhh hmmm

I mean the Thief of Spades series is always going to have a very special place in my heart but writing something that long with that much plot over such a long time, there's a lot of things about it I wish I could change.

In terms of canonverse type stuff, I love The Shape of Modern Imperialism. For shameless self-indulgence I think Three-Part Harmony is best. But I actually worked really hard on Precious Thing and I'm still quite proud of it.

tagging whoever wants to be.

[yuzukult]

Finally caught up with Yours, But Not Yours and what in the Boo Seungkwan's booty was that ending!? 😭🤯

They always say, "keep your friends close and your enemies closer," for a reason, huh? 😭

Also would love to be tagged in the Crush (jww/lsm) fic to come - thank you! your work is always a heart-wrencher, gyu!

T_T i should check my inbox when im on the computer -- i totally miss these LOL

HAHHAAH i am so sorry for that ending, i can't say it gets better

and let me know if you still want to be tagged in crush!! it's been a while, and i've actually changed it from a one-shot to a series which can def deter people LOL

[ineffable-kelpie]

Get to know me meme

Thanks for the tag, @zadusk!

Tag nine people you want to get to know better

Favorite color: cyan Teal

Currently reading: Miss Moriarty, I Presume? from the Lady Sherlock series by Sherry Thomas

Last song: I think it was Dvorak’s 9th symphony? I had a classical playlist on a work

Last movie: Pirates of the Caribbean (the first one, because I am not immune to nostalgia)

Savory/Sweet/Spicy? I enjoy most foods, but I have a pretty big sweet tooth. Also any combination of savory, sweet, and/or spicy is *chef’s kiss*

Currently working on: A longfic involving simulated realities, with an emphasis on looooong (it’s been in the works since January)

Tagging @anonymousdandelion​, @ineffable-doll​, @be-kind-to-each-otter​, @wick-de-la-vela​, @small-cog, @fanishjuli​, @flameraven, @ngkiscool​, @ineffablefool​, but no pressure to answer! If you’re reading this and I didn’t tag you, consider this an invitation to join in if you’d like

[aftonnluvr]

Your comment, "see you scrolling the fnaf x reader tag. u cant fool me" had me wheezing! Lol!!!! - for a request, how about something cute & sweet w/ Freddy? Maybe he's having a hard day, so reader tries to cheer him up & asks to dance w/ him? Or vise versa. ^_^

𝐆𝐋𝐀𝐌𝐑𝐎𝐂𝐊 𝐅𝐑𝐄𝐃𝐃𝐘 𝐗 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐑

🎤,, pronouns : they / them

🎤,, tws / cws : fluff. lots of it

🎤,, word count : 786

🎤,, art credits : hanakeroop on ig

🎤,, a/n : hihi anon !! i wasnt sure if you meant og freddy or glamrock freddy so i decided to do glamrock freddy T_T if u want me to rewrite it with a different freddy i can totally do that !

…YOU CAN'T say you didn’t notice freddy’s stress. it was kinda obvious, really. okay, scratch that it was super obvious. the whole week he’d just been acting so down and, at this point, almost everyone was trying to get him to take a break.

so, after closing time, you came up with a fool proof top notch idea to help freddy destress.

the plan was simple : get freddy out of his room, preferably without him suspecting a thing, get him into the (hopefully) empty kitchen and boom! perfect place to have a cute and domestic dancing destress moment!!

the pizzaplex was perfectly quiet, the only sound being your footsteps sneaking around the marble floor.

you just came out of one of the many staff rooms and there was just no absolute way of your plan failing.

the staff-bot scrubbed the floor a couple feet in front of you, dead eyes not noticing you walk past it with ease.

you had memorised the whole of the mega pizzaplex’s building at this point, so finding freddy’s room should be a piece of cake. going down the stairs, you take in the environment of the pizzaplex for a moment. ignoring the slightly creepy animatronics, it was actually a really nice hang out spot.

before working here, you had actually been a pretty frequent guest. you came a couple times a week with your friends, and all of the staff liked you a fair amount so beginning to work there was kinda a no-brainer. and also there was a super cute bear. who you liked a lot. okay, yeah that was sort of the main reason. but it worked out! you and freddy are practically attached at the hip, plus you two had been dating for a couple months now. it was all going swimmingly!

anyways, right. the plan.

freddy’s room was the first one you saw when you came in. the curtains were slightly askew and out of the corner of the window you could see freddy lying on his couch. you take a deep breath and walked towards his red door. you knocked once. then twice.

you heard the loud stomping of an animatronic and you had a rush of adrenaline run through you. this is it, you’re doing this.

the door opened. “…y/n?” freddy looked down at you, an awkward grin spread across your face as you waved at him.

he looked, well, tired. like, really tired. “hi freddy..” you whispered, the smile on your face still apparent, “how are you feeling hun?” you ask, placing your hand on his cheek. freddy leans into your touch, soft human hands contrasting the cold metal of his face.

“i..could be better. how about you, superstar?” freddy relaxes at your presence and his ears wiggle, the earring on his right ear dangling up and down.

you move your hand away from his face, gliding down to hold his hand. “i’m okay, do you wanna come somewhere with me?”

“where?”

“its a surprise.” you wink and chuckle, dragging the heavy animatronic by the hand out of his doorway. freddy made a yelp of surprise, but followed you anyway.

the two of you walk around, freddy occasionally asking where are both of you going, which you’d ignore and continuing what you were doing.

at some point you were getting close enough to the kitchen that he figured out that you were leading him to there.

once you stopped in the middle of the kitchen, freddy moved his head to the side in confusion. “superstar, i don’t understand why you’ve brought me here.”

you giggled, taking hold of his hand and giving it a kiss.

“freddy fazbear, love of my life, my one and only, best man ever, will you take this dance with me?” you laughed as you spoke, a bright blush spread across your face.

you think if freddy could smile, he would be grinning from ear to ear right now. he nods graciously and agrees.

you put on some music thats on the radio with your free hand, beginning to attempt to dance with the robotic bear.

he dances way better than you, but honestly? you didn’t mind.

you and freddy move in unison, giggling and singing along as him and you twirled around together.

this is probably the happiest you’ve been for awhile.

finally, as the music slows down to a stop, freddy spins you around for the last time and dips you perfectly, giving you a chaste kiss as he brings you back up.

“i love you, so much.” freddy whispers, continuing to hold you as the radio switches to a new song.

“i love you too, hun.”

[hobidreams]

hello lovely author ! this message might be a bit longer than anything usual, so i'm thanking you beforehand for reading if you do so! i couldn't dare to not be anonymous and go on with this but i want to tell you..a long. a few months ago i had read one historical yoongi au which i really liked in Wattpad but unfortunately it got taken down and i got to know that the fic was originally from ao3, so i began my hunt since then. each night my horny self who has a king yoongi kink ( 😭 ) would search for a nice fic, and i bumped into moonlit throne. well, what can i say more about your works. i especially like stories which have a slow burn, grinds like anything else but has a happy ending despite all the angst and when i saw the tags in your work i immediately clicked without any second thought. i immediately got attached to it after reading 2 chapters and i realised that it had become my comfort fic; i felt i myself got the answers to so many unknown questions bubbled inside me..i myself felt like i was the mc at each chapter, feeling everything in that fic myself (silly thing i know😭) and i wanna say, won't lie, heck of bs the mc is much more stronger than me, i actually cried so bad when he was getting married and the mc didn't shed a tear despite all the pain and torment she went through. i can't actually explain how happy i was at the final chapter but again it left me sad because we had come to a beautiful end to such a beautiful couple 😭 i don't know why didn't i comment anything but now it's a bit queer that i installed my long gone Tumblr back again just to thank you for literally saving me; i didn't know i wanted that but it was something i needed so badly that i feel that your fic has given me the answers to all the unanswered questions and has helped me heal from my past. i know it's a bit personal or even a bit irrelevant, but yet. your words are always framed so nicely in such a way that no matter how many times i read your works they never fail to amaze the fûck out of me. i have read all of your other works and they've amazed me so much like damn, you're really so skilled and i LOVE your writing style.

can i just say i'm blaming you for setting my standards even so MUCH higher that i want to marry your characters and i am not willing to settle for less 😭 or should i just say that i'm straight up in love w you🥺

also..last one, i promise. since ever the Daechwita mv has been released i've always been curious to make one king yoongi au myself, and even wrote a oneshot or more of a drabble which i really cringe at now. but anyway i found myself writing another one and have decided to edit that one and make one new series 🥺 im not that experienced in writing but i try my best and i got my sole inspiration from you rain 🥺 i just wonder that moonlit throne is a historical au and how did you get all those info of the past and everything possible in that fic was something which really used to happen in the past. i haven't watched much historical dramas from which i can take any extracts from, but since the terms “ jeonha ” and all those were of use in joseon era, so i just wanted to ask that, i’ll try my best to write the fic of my own but, can i use those terms for my own fic? ( please excuse me if you find this question, i'm extremely dumb. i know nothing of historical shizz and really am just new to this 😭🤌🏼)

thank you so much again! i really hope you don't mind me asking but i plan to post my fic on yoongi day🥺 thank you! and love you <3 ♡♡♡

hi love!! im so sorry this answer comes after Yoongi day T_T it got buried under some AMM asks so i didn't see it. thank you so so much for reading Moonlit Throne and it's a pleasure to have written something that you love so much 💖 it also makes me happy that you could connect with mc so much <3 its ok that you didnt leave any comments when you initially read it; it means so much to me that you've come back now to send me this message!! <3 i hope it can continue to bring you happiness in the future.

as for your question--all the historical information that i used in MLT can be found online. i read a lot of literary journals/studies as well as doing general online research. more info about that can be found here. i can't exactly give you permission to use terms like "jeonha" because they don't belong to me; they are from Korean culture! i would encourage you to do your own research online (even reading wikipedia can give you a good overview of a situation). it's okay to be new. i didn't know much about the joseon era either, before i started my research for MLT. i think when we put in the time to write a historical au in a culture, it's our duty to treat that era and the people that lived in it with respect. and part of that respect is to do our research and portray things accurately. so please do your best in this aspect!! i wish you all the best in your writing!!

[tulisanjemari]

the reasons I quit

Well, the title sounds like utube clickbait lol. I just wanna write down everything right here because it feels like I can't hold it anymore in my mind also... in my heart. And yeah my writting contains broken english, idc, i'll correct it someday.

I know there is a hard time through our lifes without single warning, it also happened to me. Back to a year ago--I was graduated from high school and decided to go to college, my dream was to be an engineer or probably an Architect. I thought it was cool but nah it was not what I think at the time. Because the big salary thats what I thought, I know it depends on our position in the company. All I want is to earn money as soon as possible, so I can help my dumbass relatives wherever are they.

My dad has stable finance compared to other relatives if i could say, dad has a little company that he built by mommy and himself. If you study about business you will know that company debt has a cycle itself, even though we have paid the debt, next we will buy other needs for a company where we cannot pay in full. It happens every month. Literally dad is a medical supplier, as a supplier the hospital doesn't order the equipment everyday.

There is a time I failed in every exams I took. Obviously I felt sad at the time, but who should I blame the failure to? Ofcourse it's me. Just why.. I always fail. Then, in August I forced myself to regist on private college which isn't too high in cost, but the major itself... what will I be if I was still there. I know I'm so understimate something around me, but I just can not deal with something that I never see. It's a department that the employment opportunities has little %.

In the end I applied my form to them without knowing what's my motive is. That so sad, what I meant was... I must study on something that I don't like (read: I hate myself for being so stupid). It contains maths, elementer, kalkulus, matrix math. And finally the end of semester came, I got a 4.00 GPA at the first semester. IM CHOCKED. Well it was the beginning of my misery. I got a perfect score but I still don't know what to do in the future, what will I be, because I want to work as soon as possible like I said at the first place. This major will be perfect for someone who wants to be a lecturer or maybe a scientist, that's what i don't want. Because for me--be a scientist takes our time more longer rather than an employee, yes, I just wanna be an employee, got some bucks for assets and then make my own company, thats all what I want, wealth really changes me T_T

That's so sad when you hear your aunt doesnt have enough money for pay her children education, thats so sad when your uncle is a homeless and jobless even now I don't know where is he, thats so sad when my parents arguing on debts, thats so sad when your big family has standard finance or probably under averange than myself. And also when my brother applied his form to get a job but he failed again and again because he lost to someone who did nepotism on company, he is an engineering diploma that we know it's so hard to get job rather than administrator or accountant (perhaps). Thats so sad when you see your relative lives in a small hovel. Thats really break my heart as fuck. Dad always helps them but they do not value dad's presence:(

So... I burried all of my dreams, and looking for something that can leads me to work asap. I left my current college and said to my daddy I can't handle the subjects anymore but honestly I can survive if I want. I also felt guilt after spent so many cost on my college life back then. But I need to move on, and start to study from zero, I started to study about Soshum last January. I hope I can be accepted in one of soshum major. I really hope on it...

One thing, I feel guilty because being born as a loser, mom, dad, im sorry I'm kinda burden for you. Spent your money for my education but I ended up here like a snail and still struggle. If I can wish something I don't want to be born so I don't trouble you two anymore, Im so sad when I can eavesdropping on your conversation about finance. I'm such an ungrateful child, I'm really sorry God, mom, dad. I'm just so mess inside:(

That's why I left from my current major, it doesn't because I can't handle it, but I want to get a job easily in the future so I can help our relatives, pay some debts, buy some stuff without looking at the price tag. You'll think--there is a company who doesn't look at our degree, yeah, exactly, I know that. In the end this is the path that I take.

May, 2019